#I'm in agony rn

[soupacool]

how my pathologic hyperfixation is going

[vaguely-concerned]

ouuuuuuugh palamedes describing the way dulcinea always took him and his feelings and questions so seriously and treated him with respect and kindness even when he was eight years old and kind of nuts, objectively, and then thinking about the way he interacts with nona in ntn.......... dulcie's life brushing against nona's from... how many deaths away? four? five???* -- so very kindly...

the unwanted guest did things to my brain about them. palamedes briefly talks aloud to dulcinea in the same 'you' form when he's confronting cytherea as he does throughout tug. so he does that when he's about to die, both times. one of the last things he does both times is to turn to talk to her, even when he'd have no reason to think she could hear him the first time around and doesn't understand how she could be there the second time. well. she was tired of roses and horny for revenge and he necromantically DIYed himself into a bomb precisely to get some revenge on the person who killed her and I hope she knows that. is all.

*if we're keeping to only the people directly involved here we've got at least dulcie (twice!), palamedes (as of yet only one but about to go for seconds with cam), harrow and through her gideon

[yujeong]

I didn't have a Tumblr account when the scandal started. I actually created one around the end of May 2023, a little before Build had his comeback concert. However, I had a Twitter account, which means I saw everything: I saw Build crying at the sponsored event he had with Bible, I saw the confusing translations, I saw the official announcements, I saw all the hate and vitriol, I saw Poi's unhinged behavior, I saw it all. Those were some of the worst months of my life. Build's story felt personal. Not only because Pete became so important to me, not only because KinnPorsche the Series became a second home, but also because his story was similar to what I'd been through. I was experiencing my previous relationship that finished a mere few months before the scandal started all over again, and it fucking hurt. It hurt seeing him get so much hate. It hurt seeing people celebrate him leaving BOC. It hurt seeing him at the verge of tears outside the court house and it hurt not knowing if he was ever going to come back to acting or to the public eye at all. It still hurts. It's something that is never going to stop hurting. To me, this story has been over since last year. I knew he was innocent already, I didn't need the court decision to tell me that. But what happened today reminded me of something I'd always known but temporarily forgot: it was never over for Build. It will never be truly over for him. Today was a much needed victory, one he deserved a long time ago, but the scars this whole thing has left on him will remain there. And that's also something that hurts me and will never stop hurting me. I'm glad, too, Build. I'm glad you're still here and that you have your fans to support you. And since I'll probably never be able to tell you this up close, Thank you for giving me Pete. Thank you for everything.

[m-kyunie]

The Humanoid Foursome???

[probably-not-a-rutabaga]

me with almost no motivation to draw/write/work on my aus rn

also me: haha omg,,,,, what if i made a rottmnt stray au,,,,,,,,,,, that would be so silly

[dyouknowwhatimean]

when you think about it all sex involves painplay when you've got chronic pain really

[thebirdandhersong]

layers of school and family and health issues and future planning and final exam stress aside, do you ever feel like there is a long ongoing scream inside of you that seems to have no end ha haaaa

[bimbelygimbly]

So... ao3's being targeted by AI scrapers, the downside is I have to unfortunately make it so my fics are only viewable by people with an account. This means I'll have to wait until I can reveal my EarthBound fan novel again, and I can't show it to people that don't have an Ao3, which happens to be most of my friends outside of the EarthBound fandom. Pain...

[shima-draws]

[moonchild-in-blue]

YOOO WILL, I've had no Internet the entire day and just logged in to answer these when I saw your other thing. I'm gonna listen to it tonight 😌💙

How are you doing, my slimy cuttlefish? Enjoying the fresh air and family time?

Also, I had a whack dream last night, wanna hear it?

[rabbitprayer]

I was not prepared for what a letdown my normal UCC service would be after attending the Missa cantata last Sunday.

[vcrnons]

VERNON && WOOZI for VOGUE KOREA.

[hypocriticaltypwriter]

My tummy hurts again GRAAAAAAA

It fr hurts so bad I can't move uhhnn

[ratcandy]

posting something edgy is so scary like AUUGUH they're gonna find out I like BLOOD and GORE and HORROR and MACABRE and DEATH being depicted in WORKS OF ART . they're going to personally escort me straight to HELL

[taniushka12]

*guy who is wrapped up in blankets and is soooo so sleepy voice* I want to write :/

[rottysphere]

This is stupid, I'm posting it here too