#I'm just so tired of people rn

[sungam-supo]

Oh I am rattled today.

Sorry I need to vent a little. I'd appreciate if somebody can tell me if this is whack, or that I'm just being a fool.

tw: suicide mention

So back in february before I went on hiatus, I messaged some people who don't check tumblr about where I was gonna be. Gave my reasons (health scare, depression, etc), then dippped. When I came back a week ago, pretty much everyone was chill- except one person.

To keep it short, they never responded to my message, meaning that they weren't happy with me doing what I had to do. At first I felt guilty, especially since this person seems to be socially dependant on me. I'm pretty sure I'm the only online friend they have. And upon looking into their activity elsewhere, it was radio silence. I was worried that they might of done something drastic. They tried to take their life last year, and held it over both mine and others heads for months. We didn't even know they attempted until they told us long after the fact. Like, they would often vent about how we had hurt them, yet never specified what they meant by that. Don't get me wrong, I'm beyond sorry that they went through that. But upon reflection it did feel like they were blaming others for it.

So here I was, worried that they had done something to themselves again, until I check one of their profiles to see that they've been active in the past week, around about when I came back. Did they do this on purpose? To mess with me? I've had so much anxiety around opening discord because of this one person alone. Upon reflection, I think I figured out why. It goes beyond simply not being compatible as friends. I always feel drained after talking with them. Yet whenever I try to communicate an issue, they get upset and as a result, we get nowhere. Rinse and repeat. The main thing that has held me back from walking away for good, is the fear that they'll hurt themselves and it will be my fault (had trauma of that happening with another person years ago).

They once told me that if I never wanted to speak with them again and cut ties, that I owe them an explanation. But you know what? I don't think I do. Last time I tried to do that, I got roped back into staying. That is just straight up manipulation, even if they never intended to come off that way.

I'm just going to block and walk away. I'm just so tired. I know this is all my fault. At least I can walk away on my own terms this time.

[heartorbit]

lets run to a new world together! ✨

[flying-cat]

people who undermine the importance of izuku and katsuki's relationship throughout bnha because of "annoying shippers" or because they just don't like katsuki are insane because their relationship is literally so? important??? to the entire story???? katsuki is the deuteragonist of bnha. he was one of the first characters to show up. he was the first other person to know about OFA. so much of the manga is spent showing his development. if you deny his character development and relationship development ("relationship" does not always mean romantic relationship) with izuku, you are quite literally denying a massive part of the series. the manga starts with them and ends with them. you're allowed to dislike him but if you dislike him so much that you, in turn, start hating how izuku is a "punching bag" or a "doormat" for the entire series because he doesn't stay angry and vengeful at people even though a massive part of his character is that he's compassionate and kind even to people who aren't to him or used to not be, and you seriously think that that makes him weak, and you just start to dislike the main two characters of the series, i think you should. idk. stop reading, probably. read the revenge fantasy shit that you obviously want to read. there are like seven million manhwa available to you where the character gets the revenge you so desperately want to see.

[blackmagictrait]

complete sfs archive:

alright y'all I’m compiling links to all the sfs folders I’ve shared to make it easier to find shit. 

keep in mind this is mostly stuff that’s been requested and most folders aren’t consistently updated unless someone asks for it. so if you want something, ask for it.

also keep in mind I get almost all my shit from either dhm, rebels, or kemono so you can check those if you don't wanna wait.

>> all sfs folders

[autistickaitovocaloid]

turned them into amoebas please don't be mad

[logicpng]

an extremely spontaneous and subtle tweak to aster's design for some reason

born out of the first doodle in the batch the rays are now slightly more expanded in volume and are connected to each other. it just feels better. also allows me to connect the "brow" to the crescent half of their face in a spiral

i actually already edited their refs to match some other recent changes...

i'm not gonna reupload the whole thing again just look at my neocities page. i'll upload them to artfight shortly too. which. i might participate this year again!

[watery-melon-baller]

theres people who only have one ship and people who don't have any ships and multishippers well im inventing a new kind of shipper and it's "all of these people are gay and a little in love with each other but the romance is up to interpretation"

[crybabydaydream]

really bugging me how all this conversation and discourse about polyamoury is cropping up and I'm not seeing anyone use the word

amatonormitivity

If you don't know this word you should learn it, its a really relevant concept to this conversation

[bloggingboutburgers]

I'm here to bonce back on the "non tagging x reader content" when... Shippers do the EXACT same thing and get no flacks in returns?

ESPECIALLY mlm ones?

I mean why even bother? You either drool over those two men kissing or you're just a raging homophobe! Simple as that ! 😌 😇

You have no idea of the numbers of shipper accounts i had to block because they posted content for that ship that i hate without tagging it as shipping. And nobody bats an eye, everyone is cool with that because everyone ASSUMES you're into this.

And then they say shits like "Wow x reader is such a HATE CRIME am I right?" And everyone's agreed with them and you can't say shit in response because all the fandom back them up. (True story, i wish i made that one up)

And as a sex/romance repulsed aroace woman who's only comfortable with x reader fanfics to safely explore those complicated feeling the fuck am I supposed to do? I would get gutted on the street by the entire fandom.

And before everyone slash my throat : everyone should tag their content. No matter what it is. Shipping, x reader, whatever...

But why everyone is so comfortable shitting on the x reader community while the shippers get to do everything they want without any pushback????

Like idk how to say it, all the goods the x reader community gave me. Its the only community who accepted me in ANY fandoms i have been as an aroace woman, all the rest of the fandoms bullied me and tried to chase me away because i """"shipped myself""""" with male characters i saw as aroace coded too. The x reader community welcomed me and helped me carve my own space while the rest gave me fucking slack because I saw those characters as aroace instead of gay. (Because it is apparently the only valid queer interprétation ever)

Like fuck man...

This community is the only one who accepted to listen to me rambling about how those character were aroace coded and cheered for me writing about them while i was bullied off my first account because i did not agree with the popular ship.

I met more aroace people writing nsfw/romantic fics (YES I TAG THEM ALL) about those characters than i ever met in my entire life. HELL, each and every single Friend I made on this site came to me to thank me for my writing and they ALL turned out to be sex/romance repulsed aroace people.

TLDR : why is it always the x reader community that get flacked for doing something the shippers do since the very begining of fandoms without any repercussion?

Its getting old.

Sincerely an aroace sex/romance woman that will never let go of her x reader fanfics.

...OK ima be honest on that one

Personally I don't dig shipping OR xreader, I kinda put them in a "nope don't wanna read it" same bag

So yeah I don't get why people wouldn't see them on a same scale of value.

Literally people like different things and some would rather read different things and some wouldn't and everything's fine let's seriously just tag stuff to make our life easier and stop judging each other.

The absolute state of all of this. Jeeeeesus. That's part of why I don't even bother in fanfiction spaces anymore. That and the fac there's hardly ever anything that'd interest me anyway, I guess.

[sondheim-girly]

guys why can't we let people enjoy things without hating and nitpicking every little thing?

[kourocs]

So. The apollo justice trilogy :))

[soupbtch]

ummm. my fic is done.

[causenessus]

he's so pretty

[abyssalhuntersnerd]

It's that time of the year again where I put the fish and Amiya in the washing machine...

[piningpercussionist]

transfem scott getting lots of support from ramona and kim in the early 2000's when shit's very taboo but they all 3 have a fire forged bond and lord if they aren't going to make sure they're all as happy as they can be because they've come this far and I dunno it just makes me happy all three of them

YES YES YES

It makes me very happy as well,,

Like I've said before. General Trans Scott enthusiast here- I love the idea of their little support network *violent coughing* I (we?) mean polycule *violent coughing* so fucking much.

Ramona I think has a bit of a more gentle hand with reassuring Scott with gender issues, but sometimes she just can't help herself from some pointed banter or teasing- how could you with someone so dense? (Said w affection)

And then Kim I think is more blunt. But like, in a good way mostly, you know? The kinda blunt that makes you snap to attention and go "Oh. Yeah that was silly of me." And if Ramona's started some sort of banter? Kim is SO piling on. Maybe sometimes she's a bit TOO blunt with it- but it's only because she's so firm in her support. She wants Scott to Get It Together- and be happier for it. So if some ribbing now and again is in order, then goddamnit she will do so! Anything to crack that shell.

And ohhh can you imagine how they would react to some transphobic bullshit?? Unholy terror would be driven into the offender before they walk off with an absurd amount of coins between them. I can feel it in my bones. Scott doesn't even have to lift a finger (if the transphobe is even noticed/processed at all, bc I honestly can see Scott just. Not realizing someone's being transphobic.) Kim giving someone a lashing with her tongue as distraction and then Ramona coming in with the hammer- BAM! Free Money! Paying literally with your life for your transphobia. A Better And Just World.

And of course (transfem Scott more specifically, here,) the way Scott would start to flourish under their support... cagey and maybe a little (perhaps a lot-) resistant to start- but Kim's blunt affirmations and no nonsense attitude for bullshit (which is what Scott insisting on "being cis" would be, c'mon now,) and Ramona's also low bullshit tolerance but less Stabby (bc I won't lie, that's probably how Kim's comments would feel,) assurances? Ough... My Heart... Be Still-

I would Kill for them, Your Honor-

(Ran out of tags so putting this in the body of the post- I am SO tired someone pls sound off if this isn't as coherent as I am hoping this is. I WAS trying to nap and get the extra sleep I desperately needed but the writing bug... it Bit Me.... only a little but enough to stop that process-)

[pardonmydelays]

unpopular opinion but i really miss those days when it was all about the music in taylor swift fandom