#I'm schizotypal and he's schizotypal. there

[catz-brainz1234]

Schizotypal culture is hyperfixating on gravity falls and watching a two hour long video on all the codes and Easter eggs, only to get paranoid that Bill is in my house

/hj

[alternativeulster]

does anyone else have a dad who will say things like "beyonce is a satanist and there's also a gang of satanists who ritually sacrifice babies in the woods by our house (in smalltown rural ireland)". and this is just something that you have to live with. because he will get extremely angry if you point out that thats a deranged thing to believe. and everybody around you knows its insane but enables it anyway because its easier than dealing with him angry. anybody else having this bizarre experience or is it just me

[abyssalpriest]

I think whatever I end up doing the lesson is at its core "you need to stop seeing all attempts at saying you experience something as you taking up too much space and being dangerous, and you also need to understand everyone always makes mistakes sometimes (nothing anyone thinks is fully right) and you're not lesser and amateur at channelling because you aren't fully right, and also some third thing he says there is but idk what it is"

[theglizzardwizard]

After all that shit I'm STILL going to upload a bunch of stuff that will inevitably get ripped off (but they'll have to file the numbers off lest they get accused of biting my shit)

[risestarkiss]

love ur blog!!! do u have any headcanons for the turtles’ star signs or myers briggs personality types?

Thank you so much! I'm so glad you like my silly rambles! 💜

No, I don't know anything about those things, buuuuut I can discuss the types of DSM-5 personality disorders I think these boys may have!

Let's see 🤔:

Raphie might have a Cluster C (Anxious/Fearful) type personality disorder. I'm leaning towards "Dependent" if left up to his own devices, as seen in "Man vs. Sewer."

However, when he's with his brothers I believe he masks and overcompensates for their sake.

Hence why his stuffed animals are so important to him as a form of self-comfort/self-soothing.

Leonardo, in my opinion, has more of a Cluster B (Dramatic/Erratic) type personality disorder. For him, I would put my eggs in the "Histrionic" basket.

He's superficial, theatrical, and a touch attention-seeking.

Yeah...just a touch.

Now for Donnie, he's clearly Cluster A (Odd/Eccentric). That's a given! Buuut, in my opinion, if you were to ask Donnie about his personality, he would believe he's "Schizoid:" prefers to be a loner, detached, and unemotional.

...but none of that is true. Actually, he's the most emotional one in the group.

Instead, I believe Donnie is actually "Schizotypal:" unusual thoughts, perceptions, & behaviors.

It is what it is. 😌💜

As for the Mikester, I actually don't believe he has a cluster type personality disorder per se. I dived deep into that subject in my "Orange, Baby!" ramble.

But that doesn't mean he's not weird...

Thanks for the ask! 💜

[aestherians]

Change and Loss

Word count: 1362

Expected reading time: 10-11 minutes

"If your otherkinity still serves you, it will never really leave you," is what I used to say - more as a reassurance than a statement of fact. I mean, how could I know for a fact that it was true? I didn't have any experience with losing a kintype. I still don't think I do; not really. And I always saw the idea repeated in the community - one time otherkind, always otherkind.

But I don't believe that's true anymore. I'm still a bison for sure. I've never doubted that. I'm still Ɐwhrayɐ the gnoll and I'm still Ben the shapeshifter… but I'm beginning to accept that those sides of me have changed.

"One time otherkin, always otherkin. If your otherkinity still serves you, it will never really leave you"… but what if that's not true? What if you still benefit from your kintypes, and they disappear regardless? What do you do if you lose a part of yourself, or if a part of yourself becomes unrecognizable to you? How do you keep living when you've lost yourself?

Sometime in 2023 the distress of always having to hide my true self became too much to bear alone. But I'm not a brave person. I think the better solution would've been to just bite the bullet and start expressing myself, but hindsight is 20/20. I've survived 25 years by hiding everything that makes me 'weird', and the idea of leaving my one dependable survival strategy behind was (is) terrifying. I went to a free self-help seminar ("Take control of your life!") but all it taught me is that I need a dependable support network before I can take control of my life. I went to my doctor to try and get a referral for a therapist (it's cheaper than just finding your own therapist). Instead he sent me to a psychiatrist for my 'delusions'. The psychiatrist told me my experiences, worldview, and self-perception were unusual but not harmful - they could only help if my goal was to get rid of my schizotypal traits (traits that weren't even significant enough to warrant a diagnosis). If all I wanted was to learn how to conquer my fears and express my true self, they couldn't help. It took months of visits to get the diagnosis: Traumatized by peer abuse, too poor to afford my own therapy, and too anxious and ADHD to even find a therapist in the first place.

I can't even say I was left at square one. I had started out hopeful. Nearing the end of 2023, I just felt helpless.

At the same time, my studies were drawing to a close. I completed my bachelor's degree in animal science and all it took was a diagnosis of ADHD so I could legally buy amphetamines, a compound-diagnosis of autism so I wouldn't get kicked out when I inevitably misunderstood exam questions and failed final after final, and 5½ years - almost twice the expected time for a bachelor's degree in my country.

It should've been freeing but instead it left me directionless. Helpless and directionless - that's how I entered 2024!

In the past, in the strictly structured day-to-day of school, my kintypes have been a source of comfort. Especially my Ben fictotype, which probably fell into the category of coping mechanism. I awakened in a time of intense stress and retreated to that world whenever my present life got too much. When crowds got me overstimulated or I missed an important deadline or fought with my neighbors or drifted apart from old friends, I thought about all the times Ben!me had gone through similar or worse. I cut off a friend in my present life after finding out he'd abused his ex - but in my other life I'd cut off a friend who tried to murder me, and things still turned out fine. I lived through it. I could live through it again. Every situation had a parallel in my other life.

I still don't know why that method failed me, but eventually it did. It's not that it didn't work, it was more that I suddenly had to put an effort into making it work. As if I'd always been able to enter Narnia and now suddenly I had to personally petition Aslan to let me back in. It started in the fall of 2023 but it wasn't until spring 2024 that I fully realized. Coping had never been an effort before, and the worst part is, I don't even know why it suddenly was.

My fictotype was drifting away, even when it still served me! This wasn't supposed to happen! Had I been lied to?!

I think our community has a lot of survivorship bias. Whichever mailing lists and newsgroups get archived, and whatever snailmail gets published, that's what our history is based on. The people who made archivable geocities sites get to write our story - not the people on closed forums or in private chat groups. People who leave the community don't tend to leave behind pristine essays on their fully archived websites explaining why they left. It does happen, don't get me wrong, but it's rare. And when they do leave behind messages, it's usually some variant of "I still love the community that fostered my awakening, I'm just an adult with responsibilities now and I don't have time for this."

But what about the people who don't love the community? Who 'unawakened'? Who aren't passionate enough to leave behind a final message? Do we ever hear from the otherkind who 'fizzled out' and became human - or at least lost a kintype?

You can understand my panic, right? I considered turning my fictotype into a copinglink, but my ADHD is so debilitating I barely remember to brush my teeth - no way I was gonna remember to do daily reinforcement exercises. Especially frazzled 2024 me (still frazzled as of June but I'm hanging in there!).

I was forced to accept whatever my come.

I'm still Ben, on some level, but I won't say "I'm thankfully still Ben," 'cause is it really that bad to not be Ben? Even if that facet had served me well and could still serve me? $1,000,000 could serve me well, but uselessly pining after it doesn't serve me.

I didn't prepare myself for loss because I really wasn't sure I was gonna lose a part of me - and, in any case, grieving preemptively is a waste of energy if you ask me. Instead a turned to the Bison - not my own bison theriotype, but the archetype of the Bison. When one woowoo solution fails, why not try another?

The Bison has always been a good teacher to me - better than any self-help seminar or psychiatrist. The Bison takes everything in stride. The Bison survives until it can thrive. The Bison ruminates on the present, it doesn't ponder the future. The Bison doesn't grieve or fret unnecessarily. It exists in the now. I exist in the now.

Of course, the chance that anyone reading this works with the Bison spirit is slim, but I think its teachings can help everyone - regardless of spirituality.

When turning to other worlds doesn't aid you, accept it, and turn to the present world. Let your worries pass through you, you can't see clearly when you're pent up with worry. You can't prevent the seasons from turning, all you can do is turn with them. Accept your lack of control, instead of trying to grasp at the uncontrollable. Sometimes change is unexpected, and you may not like it, and it might not even open up new doors for you. Not all change is good. But you cannot prevent every unwanted change, and you have to keep living regardless.

My fictionkinity doesn't have the intensity of my first few years post-awakening, but it also doesn't have the casual reassuredness of decade-old kintypes. It comes and goes, and when it comes it's like a whisper. And one day it might become too quiet for me to notice. One day it might not return.

But I think I can live with that.

[auschizm]

this is an offensive symptom to have but its real and i promise it isnt a troll, just hear me out: i haven't had a chance to talk to a doctor about this because of our economic situation, but i have a symptom where the n word plays in my head whenever i see a human or animal with dark pigmentation, not just black people but also dogs at the dog park for example

for context im a 19F afab european-american woman. and i don't know what to do about this because a few weeks ago on my birthday i was just sitting there at a restaurant on a busy day, and i was sitting by the entrance to charge my phone while a lot of mostly black people walked in and out, and i received the n word playing in my head a few hundred times and there was nothing i could do about it. I'm not racist i just have this recurring involuntary duosyllabic thought that i can't control.

this could be related to ocd or it could be some other type of coprolalia thoughts. but i also have thoughts multiple times a day saying "i am going to k*** m*s***", which i know I'm not going to do, it just gets really annoying and recently I interrupt those thoughts by thinking SHUT UP SHUT UP DON'T SAY THAT or something which certainly feels like I'm "going crazy" or something but i don't know what's wrong with me. (both of these have happened since around autumn/winter of 2023.)

i told my mom about this and she knows, we just haven't had a chance to talk to a doctor because we are moving to a different house. I've been diagnosed with autism and ADHD, and i was given a GAD diagnosis in January 2023 with the doctor saying i had some ocdspec traits of obsessive compulsiveness, tics, dissociation, and i forgot what else he mentioned but maybe the fact that i stutter? (i dont know what he meant by tics, back then i just made noises when lost in thought or typing things, and i used to have echolalia when i was 5 or something, this was before the current symptoms) i have no way of knowing right now if this is my Super Mega Autism (autism/adhd/anxiety + ocdspec traits) or if it's an ocdspec disorder if i am developing schizophrenia or schizotypal or something. and I'm not asking for a diagnosis or anything i just want to know what your thoughts are on the symptom situation because it's weird and i don't want to publicly post about it.

(and another thing, sometimes when I'm alone i stim by saying "vinegar vinegar vinegar" or Something Else if you know what i mean, and it might be controversial to have coprolalia-related stims, but my head/face feels warm and electric and i say it to calm down and feel normal again which is not something i feel comfortable telling a doctor about. I have a stutter affecting my speech, but i don't completely "involuntarily speak" offensive things, i just involuntarily think KMS and the N word on a consistent basis without variation in the symptoms besides them getting worse, and sometimes get a strong urge to say "vinegar" or just the last 2 syllables of vinegar, which sounds terrible but i think it's similar to coprolalia and i only do it when alone where nobody can hear me.) again this might sound fake or like a troll ask but i promise it isn't. what are your thoughts on this? again im not asking for a diagnosis i just need somewhere to anonymously talk about this.

1) Obsessive compulsive thinking is not fully within your control and does not reflect your actual desires or character. The best way to manage it is actually to stop moralizing it and to focus your attention on what actually leaves your head. 2) Of course no mental disorder excuses acting in racist and otherwise bigoted ways, but things happening exclusively inside your head can't hurt anyone but yourself

[oc-poll-tournament]

OC Poll Tournament Round 1 Poll 5

Propaganda below the cut:

Meparik (he/him) @gailynovelry: Meparik of the Frostbitten Court (he/him)

Meparik is many things! He is a feyrie, a pickpocket, a sign-language user, a voracious reader, and an accidental religious leader. He understands more of the political goings-on of his realm than most adults do, and profusely hates the gods for it. His bedraggledness is matched only by that of his best friend (unwilling messiah lesbian). Gaze upon the child, your honor. Do you feel it? The desire to feed him warm soups and wrap him up in a cozy blanket? I rest my case, your honor. I rest it well.

Nat Finch (he/him) @albatris: I'd like to submit Nat Finch! he/him, 25 years old, brand new baby vampire. he works the night shift at dodgy petrol and convenience store Stop 'N' Go, where he falls asleep on the clock and encourages shoplifting. he's schizotypal like me and he loves cats, cooking, and his friends! he's the protagonist of my campy gory horror trilogy, though he'd rather not be!

he's short and fat with red eyes and lots of freckles. his hair is long and black, often uneven and choppy in length, because he just cuts tangles out instead of untangling them ❤

he's a sweet boy, earnest boy, awkward boy; he doesn't have many friends at the start of the story due to his paranoia, psychosis, and social anxiety, but by the end of it has a whole bunch of good friends AND a kitty he adores named Grub who purrs like a faulty tractor

in this story vampirism is a sentient entity and all connected via a hivemind known as "the Garble".... it lives in the vampires' blood and can manipulate their thoughts as well as give them heightened strength and speed, claws and fangs, and night vision when they need it. it can be useful, but mostly it's a bully and an inconvenience

at the centre of the Garble hivemind lives the very first vampire, an undead rotting corpse and the god of vampires, and a few of their close friends and confidants. all life force collected by regular vampires flows to them at the centre and grants them immortality and power. it's a sweet deal for the folks at the centre, and a terrible deal for ordinary vampires like Nat who rarely reap any real benefits from their condition, but are threatened and manipulated into participating in this system regardless

Nat's story sees him struggling to solve the mystery of how and why he was turned and trying to balance his kind, caring nature with his new violent condition... and eventually leads him to, "hey, I think I'm going to hunt down and eat the rest of vampire god"

good for him!

some other Nat Facts:

huge drama queen (will play up being sad and pathetic to get what he wants)

vampires are hardwired to seek warmth and coziness so Nat is always down to snuggle 24/7

bouncy cheery overexcited lad who will grin for weeks if you say something nice to him

vegetarian, aside from eating people, which he insists does not count

speaking of eating people, primarily preys on rich pricks and abusive bosses

is too awkward to tell his neighbours he bought them a cute knitted blanket he thought they might like for their corgi because what if that's a weird thing to do. this has been going on for three weeks

is too awkward to tell his neighbours his name is Nat, not Matt. this has been going on for three years

has a giant scary monster mode full of eyes and teeth >:3

please consider voting for my boy!

[albatris]

Wait wait I'm new here (this blog), what's rentalcar?

hi!! :D

rentalcar is my current writing project! it's a campy queer horror trilogy about a freshly-turned body-horror vampire and an equally monstrous human bastard on their quest to murder the giant vampire hivemind god known as "the Garble" :3c

book one is called "A Rental Car Takes a Left Down Rake Street and Disappears" and book two is called "There Is Nothing to See in Lot 17, Foxtrail Lane". book three has no name yet ahaha

a little description is as follows:

schizotypal hermit Nat Finch leaves work one afternoon, and the next thing he knows he's waking up on the side of the road in his rental car, covered in mud with no memory of the last nine days. all attempts to return to regular life are quickly thwarted - whatever happened during his blackout has left him morphing into something distinctly inhuman. when his new condition reaches a bloody, ravenous breaking point, a human stranger steps in: Quinn Cooper, powerful and dazzling manipulator with a cruel streak, here to mitigate the damage and offer Nat safety under their wing... as long as Nat does exactly what he's told and doesn't ask questions

the story in book one is mostly Nat trying to solve his little mystery (What Happened During His Blackout And Why He Got Vampired) while slowly uncovering the grim secrets Quinn is hiding. book one mostly lays the groundwork and foreshadowing for my "vampirism as a condition is just one giant hivemind" worldbuilding, while books two and three rip it open and explore it properly :3

other MCs include Alexis Anders, rigidly moral vampire lawyer having ten existential crises at once, Yvonne Tozier, cheery video game fanatic full of barely-contained simmering fury (she works customer service, you get it), and Zeke Cunningham-Warwick-Lâm, romance novelist by day and vampire hunter by night, who desperately needs to stop burning herself out every other week and practice some self-care

and that's about it!

[actuallycassidyiambusy]

I am so sorry you have such severe BPD. I suffer from it too, but damn it sounds like you've been through some serious stuff... If you don't mind me asking... What other diagnosis do you have? Do you portray those in your writing as well? If not in fanfic, like in your original stuff? I feel like you could bring some serious awareness to the darker/scarier sides of BPD and other stuff. Not to scare people but to show just how difficult these things are to live with.

You don't have to be sorry. I've come to terms with it. Some days are harder than other, but the fact that I've got more control makes it all easier.

I've been diagnosed with

BPD — Borderline Personality Disorder

IED — Intermittent Explosive Disorder

PTSD — Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Plus the stuff that goes hand in hand with those. Depression, anxiety and paranoia. I struggle to trust people and bite hands that reach out to me (metaphorically)

I absolutely incorporate it into all of my writing. You can see all of those in the version of Buggy I write in my fics (a character I already deeply connect to emotion wise)

I have original characters that have them too.

Zeke and Blake are actually an (on again off again) couple that have IED (they're definitely my two most toxic ocs) Blake (green hair) also has Narcissistic Personality Disorder and BPD

Talon my main OC, he has PTSD and BPD. He struggles with a lot of trauma just like I do and I depict that very seriously in my series.

Ash (pink hair) and Matt (brunette) are two of my characters that suffer from depression and social anxiety. Matt and Ash are also ftm trans but still present themselves as feminine. Matt struggles with his body image and major fear of rejection because he's been attacked in the past, but he also has a strong personality and both sides of him often clash.

Scourge (Dimitri) is an ex-assassin who suffers from BPD and Antisocial Disorder. He's extremely possessive of Ash (who he was supposed to kill when they met) and kills people behind the scenes if they get too close to the pink-haired boy.

And then there's Samael who has Schizotypal Personality Disorder and Narcissistic Personality Disorder. He also has a pretty annoying God complex.

I have a handful of other characters with disorders that I bring light to in my series, but I don't want this post to go on forever lol

I show all sides, treated and untreated. I show how messy the mentality of a person can get. My series definitely isn't for the light-hearted. I'm very up front about a lot of things that most people turn their heads from.

Though it's not pretty, I don't like to stay in the dark with what I have and what others struggle with. I like to be loud and show others that we're people too.

I've had people tell me writing about it glorifies it. No it fucking doesn't. It just makes them uncomfortable because we fucking exist. I'll deal with MY disorders however I decide to, and I'll speak for those too afraid.

I'm actually glad you asked this, anon. Thank you for being both curious and respectful🖤 and I hope you can cope with your BPD. Like I told my friend in the last post, I'm here for whoever needs me.

[catz-brainz1234]

HELLO

My name is Alfie and I'm the host of TheRainbowCasketSystem !! :D

I'm a mangle fictionkin with a buuuuunch a theriotypes:3

We're a proxy system as well so I'm usually typing for everyone in the system.

We're autistic with bpd, npd, hpd, avpd, possibly schizotypal. Please be patient with us.

We go by he/fae/she collectively!

I currently have a special interest in systems, mogai labels, punk activism and fnaf!!

We also do moodboard + flags commissions!!<3

◇◇◇

DNI:

-anti lesboys, turigirl, xenogender

-Radqueer

-TERFS, TIRFS, TURFS

-homophobic, transphobic

-k!nk, ddlg, nsfw, maps, superstraight, fetrah etc etc

- anti endos can interact, just be kind.

☆☆☆

♡ Some of our headmates: ♡

Alfie -⭐️🌊 (host) 15

He/fae/she/xe/it/cold/nightlight

Yuri - 🔪 18

She/her/it

Yuri/Dahlia -🫐 17-18

She/her

Sally/Lucy -🧿 19

She/they

Tixie -🌈 23

They/them

Lily -❄️🎀 3-4

She/her

Sophie -💛 6-7

She/her

Zara -🌺 100(?)

She/it/fae

Selkie -🦭🌊 ageless

It/fae/xe/she

Maeve -🥧 34

She/her

Grim -♟️ immortal

It/he

Bob Belcher -🍔 (yes, I know💀) 46

He/him

Angel -🤍💫 immortal

It/its

Freya -🦷 ageless

Fae/it/she

Natsuki -🧁 17

She/sweet/cute

Tilly -🌸🥩 25

They/it/she/he/xe/fae

Milo -🐶 ageless

He/him!

Darka -🦕 12

Fae/him

Sayori - 🐾 18

She/her

Fig - 🪴🌱 ageless

None

Nature - 🌱🪲🌾 ageless

Nettle/ocean/wind/earth

Mangle -🎀🪁 died in 1986

She/him/it

Toy Chica -🍕🎉 died in 1985

She/he

Cassidy -🕹🪲 died in 1985

She/he/it/blank/rot

Alastor - 🦌🩸 died in 1933

He/him/it

Thank you for reading :]

Enjoy ur stay!

[woodsfae]

sanity check because I'm getting heavily downvoted on a compilation subreddit thread.

27m, 24f dating 3 years. The BF is in grad school, works, and always works weekends. She is chatting with his coworkers and finds out he doesn't work weekends. She spirals. She confronts him, finds out he's been secretly volunteering at a homeless shelter every weekend for years and years. She volunteers with him and learns it's true. She asks why he didn't tell her the truth. He says he tried to help some classmates, the professor blew up and mocked him in front of class and all his classmates started shunning him. Ever since he's reflexively hid his actions when he's trying to do good.

She's furious at him, demands he goes to therapy. He declines. She breaks up with him. Much later, he texts and says he decided to go to therapy and was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder. He says don't feel burdened to respond, he hopes she's happy.

She's so furious at him. Furious he texted her he went to therapy and got a diagnosis, furious he was volunteering. Says he's begging for pity. Just really off-putting (to me) how incensed she is.

dude. it was weird, yeah. more of a white lie than anything. He said he was working. He was doing volunteer work. I am getting massively downvoted for saying it's weird she's like, frothingly angry at him for this. And that HE dodged a bullet when she dumped him.

I am remembering why I left reddit and regretting stepping foot out of the reduction subreddits while I'm back for the specific support group.

[seasidewanderers]

intro post time!

times someone at work called us by another name that's neither our chosen name, nor our anagraphical name today [21/08/2024] : back to 1 😔

we've had this blog for... around 3 years now I believe, and never made an intro post, so here it is!

we're the Seaside Wanderers, a plural system. please call us alters or headmates! we go by Aaron, Ae/Ea, or Martin (pick a name, get one free!)

infamous Maternity Blackwood asker

we work in electric power&gas trading! ask us about it! weird ass job that your grandma won't believe it's a real actual job people do

(alter intros are under the cut along with other personal information)

no DNI, feel free to interact. if you'd have to break yours to interact with us, however, isn't the DNI kinda pointless anyway?

the meaning of our system name is nothing special; we all love playing LOTRO (the Lord Of The Rings Online, a MMORPG based on LOTR. highly recommended!) and one of the titles you can get for your character is "Seaside Wanderer". it stuck with us as we love the sea, love walking on the beach, and love how it sounds.

our alter tags are as follow for now, we'll update if someone else wants to participate in this blog:

#of rage and black tidings

#and no other choices

#tinker's curse

#vulpine era

#waterfront

we believe in endogenic plurality. we acknowledge it's a different thing from DID though, and also endogenic DID is NOT the same as endogenic plurality with DID.

CDDs [Complex Dissociative Disorders, a term that encapsulate all traumagenic and dissociative disorders such as DID, OSDD-1, P-DID, and those cases of UDD that cause systemhood] are trauma-based

we believe you can be plural without trauma, and you can be plural without a CDD, and that plurality isn't in itself a symptom of any mental disorder

we support informed and researched self-diagnosis

we support ALL plurals and ALL headmates! traumagenic, endogenic, mixed, median, empty systems, disordered, non-disordered, created, spontaneous, adaptive... I can't list all but I love and support YOU 🫵🏻 and I hope you're safe and having a good day, week, month, year and always! YOU deserve to feel good! yes, you! yes, you, person who might not agree with me, and who I might not agree with

personal, non-syscourse info here:

warning: flashing lights for a blinkie under the cut!

adult (turned 24!)

we work full time. we have a job in electric power&gas trading. we may talk shit about stock prices now and then

we're collectively gendervoid, trans/non binary neumasc-leaning, use they/them, it/its, and ae/aer pronouns, and are omni gay and queer

we are also physically disabled and neurodivergent. we have chronic pain and chronic migraines, schizotypal personality disorder, and psychotic depression, so you might see us posting about it now and then

individual introductions for us alters (divided by layer)

this won't be all of us, just those more likely to participate in this blog. due to our system's nature as polyfragmented we wouldn't know all alters, either. updating this a few at a time so we don't get overwhelmed

Jackdaws

James, 18ish, he/him; fictive. annoys Edward for a living. very opinionated. caretaker 🤎

Edward, 23+, he/him; fictive. likes blabbering about his source and sing. pirate enjoyer, annoyed with the fact we don't own a sword yet. role anarchist/does whatever he feels like 🩶

Waterfront

Oscar, 300+, he/they + ae/aer; OCtive (homebrew Pathfinder 1e campaign), half-elf, sylph alchemist, vivisectionist/wasteland blighter archetype. I may talk about it sometimes and I like answering questions about it. I like my source a lot. married to Celain. trauma-related role, protector/persecutor 🩵

Celain (pronounced as Colin), immortal, he/they; OCtive (homebrew Pathfinder 1e campaign, same as Oscar), elf angel (planetar agathion to be specific), cleric angelfire apostle archetype. I follow Pathfinder's fictional pantheon, but I'm making it work with our religions and spiritualities. married to Oscar. trauma-related role, protector/caretaker 🧡

Finnegan/Tristan, 19, he/they/it; OCtive (homebrew Pathfinder 1e campaign teehee), kitsune, bard fey prankster archetype. I love talking about Pathfinder please ask me about Pathfinder like right now thank youuu. token extrovert. my role is to stay silly in these trying times 💖

[eldritch-metalhead]

Intro post

Call me Xero, not my irl name but its cool for online use. I'm a minor. I like metal, especially black metal and especially DSBM. This blog will have mentions of self harm and suicide, venting, mlm yearning, poetry, philosophy, literature and fandom posting. If any of that makes you uncomfortable (especially the first 3), block me. Do not report, you're not helping anyone by reporting, you're taking away one of the only places i feel safe venting.

I use it/he pronouns.

I'm a vampire, ghost and cryptid otherkin, I do not identify as human.

I don't have a DNI(I think they are stupid but I still respect them) and will block you if I don't like you or the things you like, if you get blocked and are mad about it, grow up.

I have ASD, ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety, and Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder(please let me infodump abt my paracosm) . I think I may be schizoid and/or schizotypal but I'm doing research and not self dxing (i do support self dx tho as long as you're actually doing research about it). I have bilateral hearing loss and auditory processing disorder and am pretty much half deaf, I refuse to do vcs or listen to voice messages cuz of this. I also have POTS and mild scoliosis, and I am a sadomasochist.

Also note that I am profic and technically comship (because i ship Hannigram), block me if that makes you uncomfortable. If you send hate and harassment, you will be laughed at and mocked or deleted if I don't feel like dealing with stupid.

language learning sideblog: @xero-learns-languages

xenogender/alterhuman sideblog: @x3n0g3nd3r-gh0st

If i seem rude i dont mean to im just very blunt, i also dont like socially interacting much.

[billygaysanguine]

please Clarabelle for the headcanons 👀👀

What I think realistically: i just know that girl has schizotypal personality disorder she hallucinated herself a boyfriend and have you seen the way she dresses. also that line "people dont want to be my friend, they think i'm weird, just because i see things that arent really there or say things they dont understand," HELLOOO .

What I think is fucking hilarious: she smells like isopropyl all the time no matter what

What is awful but fun to inflict on friends: she convinced herself thrasher and scapegrace just werent real after they went off to the necropolis cause she was sure they were going to die immediately☝

What would never work with canon but canon is shit so I believe it anyway: this COULD work with canon if you squint, derek said clarabelle has a canon discipline but he refuses to share it?? for some reason?? so. but this is the closest to a canon-contradictory idea i have. Clarabelle's magic thing is that she can see shrimp colors

[wendigot33th]

Ough I got 100 likes on a post I should just make sure the only people who interact with me are epic. Guess I gotta make a pin post oh golly oh gee.

What to like here

Me! Im an autistic as shit TGirl and probably schizotypal, I will post about anything I like at random and with zero sorting besides tags because people making whole ass new tags just to split up Thier blogs confuses me.

As a whole, I like cool art of the stuff I like. I also like shit memes and people who can sorta *direct* a text pose with GREAT style.

I build Bionicle mocs and post them here too but it's pretty rare because I have like less than like 300 pieces total and I'm too skittish to post what I believe is the 98473864th variant of... whatever I made.

Disco Elysium is a favorite. Art of its skills and characters help me try and visualize my own skills and maybe help me live my life better. (Try it out, put Volition in your head and he will help you)

HDG. If you know what that is expect to see me post about it from time to time. Also, for all intentions and purposes, anything found inside an HDG story is usually what I'm into. So if you don't like HDG your not gonna like my horny ass, just focus on the not so horny maybe or just leave idc.

Also delicious in dungeon looks pretty good. Can't watch it but it looks neat.

This isn't exactly a *horny blog* more so as a human being I'm horny. So expect a bunch of unfunny "oohg reblog if you like chicken strips and HOT GAY T4T SEX" that shit is hilarious to me and I don't know why.

DNI bullshit

Please don't touch me if you hate people for literally no reason. Like if you hate someone for a reason that can't be explained by intentional hurtful/disrespectful actions towards you, fuck off. I don't want that vibe here.

Please go away if you don't like girls with balls, Or men with huge tits. I'm pre everything and I don't need to hear your batshit takes about how I'm actually not what I am or whatever. Just tell me to die and leave. it's not worth either of our time or energy to pretend like you found a skin walker and larp on and on about how I'm a truly wretched beast. I will just masturbate to your messages.

Please piss off if your like a terf or whatever. Y'all are just jealous we have more swag and can pull off better styles than you while fucking super hot dudes.

(on a side note, if any of y'all see that I reblogged something a terf or whatever sick person made,LET ME KNOW!!!! I will DESTROY IT IMMEDIATELY! I'm not very smart whatsoever and I make mistakes! Help me out!)