#I've had this in my brain for like three months

[soaps-mohawk]

I'm so sorry to everyone that I freaked out with the last post, I was trying so hard not to 😭 I have that like instant fear as soon as I see "we need to talk" or something in the same vein. I always think it's something bad.

This isn't bad, at least depending on how your perspective I guess.

So...I'm having thoughts about CRCB in October. I planned out posting schedules for Kyletober and CRCB and my Patreon stuff and it's going to basically be a post every day, sometimes multiple in multiple places.

That's a lot.

So, I am set on doing Kyletober since all of the fics are already written, but I was planning on continuing CRCB during October as well. But...I think I need a little break from CRCB. It's been about eight months of posting almost every single week and it's been a lot. I'm struggling with chapters right now and with work it's vastly limiting the time I have to write and focus on things and I'm kind of burning out right now.

So, what I wanted to discuss was potentially putting CRCB on hold for October while I focus on Kyletober and everything involved with that. Trying to do both is a lot and I'm not sure I can handle all of it, plus life, plus work.

I was planning on not necessarily putting CRCB on hold, but doing more of a "whenever I can/am inspired" random posting chapters kind of like I did in the beginning when I first started writing the fic, in November/December because those are very busy months and I will be dead tired from work and just general life.

I think I might still do that for November/December and possibly into the new year since there's no way the fic will be finished even if I posted every week until the end of December.

BUT

That's something I'll think about and make a decision on later.

Right now, my thought is...would you hate me if I put CRCB on pause in October? IF I do, I promise I won't end Chapter 39 on a cliffhanger. I wasn't planning on it anyway, but I promise I won't end it on a cliffhanger if I decide not to post any chapters in October.

That way if I do put it on pause, then I can not focus on it for a bit and give my brain a refresh, and I can also focus all my energy on Kyletober.

So yeah, it's going to be a lot doing both at the same time, and honestly I'm ready for a little break from CRCB. It's been going for a long time and it's a lot of words to get out in a week. I've been super stressed lately and I'm just struggling a lot trying to get through chapters.

So yeah. That's basically the dilemma here and the discussion to be had. I know y'all will tell me it's my blog and I can do whatever I want, but I would like opinions on it. Are y'all okay with me putting CRCB on hold to focus on Kyletober? Then pick it back up for probably just whenever I can chapter updates for the rest of the year? In January things will calm down and I'll have more time to relax and write and maybe get close to finishing the story. Plus I know a lot of my readers will be busy the next three months with the holidays and vacations and family and school and all of that, so you won't have to worry about getting behind and having to catch up with a bunch of chapters.

So...let me know...

[pers3phone399]

sorry babe can't talk rn i'm letting another fanfic completely overtake all of my waking thoughts

(it's "Methyl Nitrate Pineapples" and its sequel "Cherry Bomb Alchemy" by @fablecore (razbliuto on ao3) if you like One Piece OC stories and one (1) emo Surgeon of Death you should go read it too)

[keeps-ache]

there are a couple changes i would make to the keyboard if i could:

wiggly exclamation mark

bleeding heart emoji

varying snake emojis (more poses would be fun)

question mark with a little heart for the dot bc, well,

more explosions

and that is all thank you

[destinywillowleaf]

how to go from a one-shot/conversation spawned from thinking too much about an unseen father to more than a dozen fic ideas and an overarching narrative about family heritage (and the generational trauma that comes with it), the importance of communication, and how all lives touch other lives to create something anew and alive in one easy step

[chiropteracupola]

the wind and sea do follow thee /

and all the ledges calling thee...

[ladylynse]

Hello! I love your works, they're all so cool! I especially love your rc9gn ones because it's my current hyperfixation. Do you think you can make some (even your 3-sentences ones would make me really happy!)? I have a bunch of prompts!

Prompt 1: Viceroy trying to create a robot, but something went wrong (Bash/McFist/a robo-ape probably messed it up) and it caused an electric short-age to the whole town

Prompt 2: There's a thunderstorm at the end of class and everyone was advised to wait out the storm before they could get home, shenanigans ensues

Prompt 3: (contains human!Nomicon) the Nomicon thinks about all the good and bad things his current student has done

I have more, but I don't want to spam you with all of them, so here's all I'll give! It's fine if you can't do any of it, I'm just thankful for the work you've alr done!

Thanks so much, Anon! I'm sorry I'm getting to this so late, but I am delighted you like what I've written. I really appreciate you letting me know!

These prompts are best for ficlet prompts (specific scenarios always are), and unfortunately my ask box isn't open for that at the moment, but I'll turn them into three sentence prompts: blackout, stormbound, and human!Nomicon AU, reflections. I'm specifying what I'm boiling the prompts down to because I don't take specific scenarios for three sentence fic prompts anymore, so I ask for a word or two (along with the AU if it's an AU) for those, and this is how I'm going to list them in my three sentence fic list. (I'm still going to do your scenarios because I'm assuming you're new and don't know what I've been doing more recently, but this will give you an example of how a prompt can be boiled down.) You are welcome to still share any ideas you have, though! (It's always fun to see what people come up with.) I just won't necessarily turn them into ficlets.

Prompt 1 - Blackout

“Viceroy,” McFist growled in the sudden silence that seemed all the louder for the absence of any hum of machinery, “what did you do?”

Viceroy pinched the bridge of his nose—of course he’d get the blame for this when McFist, in all his enthusiasm, had been the one to activate the prototype before it was ready—but somehow summoned the patience to say, “It seems premature activation caused a power outage that, if the view out the window is any indication, is affecting the entire town; if you had waited—”

“The Ninja was right here,” snapped McFist, his words nearly—but not quite—covering up the sound of a pair of feet hitting the floor behind Viceroy and their owner no doubt dropped from above, “and if he’s going to show his face under my own roof, I’m going to send every WND we have after him!”

Prompt 2 - Stormbound

Randy didn’t think it would be too long before the rain let up enough for them to safely leave, but Howard—and clearly Heidi—had other ideas, since Howard had his phone out and was willingly watching Heidi’s Me-Cast, where she was saying, “Hey, N-villers, Heidi here with the DL on the downpour; the storm has us all stuck in school, so I propose a contest: first person to—hey!”

“First person to discover the real secrets of Norrisville,” continued Debbie, her face only partly in frame and the entire camera bouncing as she scrambled to keep the phone out of Heidi’s reach, “will win the prize. So how about it—who wants to unmask the Ninja with me?”

Prompt 3 - Reflections, Human!Nomicon AU

He would be lying if he called Randy his best student or his most skilled one, but Randy may well be the one who most embodied what it meant to be the Norrisville Ninja; he had a heart that wouldn’t fail him, and when he dealt with the likes of the Sorcerer and now the Sorceress, that was the most valuable of all.

Of course, he also had more luck than the last ten Ninjas combined, and at times like these, it was hard to accept (despite ample supporting evidence) that that luck was entirely natural and not the result of a magical artefact altering the luck of others and bending fortune to his own favour, no matter how well that would explain the current predicament.

“Yo, Nomi,” called Randy, since Randy had insisted on calling him that once he’d realized he wasn’t speaking with the one he called First Ninja, “now that you’re, like, a person and not a book, this is a perfect time to teach me how to do the Ninja Dragon Fist, so how ‘bout it?”

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[pinktinselmonstrosity]

ok so if i can't tell the truth about how i feel because that's mean and i can't be passive agressive then literally what is left. how do i communicate that she has hurt me and that it hurts more that she doesn't even seem to realise it without either sounding like a complete bitch or a petty bitter bitch........

[lady-harrowhark]

Ah. I see we've hit the Post Exciting Event Drop™

[martitheevans]

Would you guys believe me if I said I had actually never seen a proper episode of Supernatural until last night when I had it playing on my iPad while I played Terraria until about 3AM

[running-in-the-dark]

oh, I see. it's one of those nights.

[rebelrainfall]

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[angeltism]

omg I just got angry (more angy than angry , if that makes sense) for the silliest reason (bpd it's 100% the bpd) and then managed to giggle about it after realizing I was being dramatic and that it's just me being . well . the grudge-holder like-or-hate being I am .

[girlscience]

deleted youtube off my phone again, maybe it will stick this time. started duolingo japanese again, maybe it will stick this time. started doing math problems to relearn calc and physics, maybe it will stick this time. am going to the gym in the morning (psyched myself out this morning worried about time so I didn't go today), maybe it will stick this time. been working on keeping a clean kitchen, maybe it will stick this time. tried to get healthy(er) groceries yesterday, maybe it will stick this time. have actually read multiple books this year, maybe it will stick this time.... this isn't just a me problem right??? I feel like I am constantly spiraling around the things I want to do and never actually sticking to them. It's kind of exhausting.

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

Trying to power through two WIPs that been haunting me The red shawl only has two dozen ish more rows and the blue shawl only needs about 6 more pattern repeats. I want to start more interesting long term projects but would feel bad about leaving these two unfinished when they’re both less than 10 hours away from being off the needles.

[pixies-parasol]

i found the perfect job but the company SUCKS SO HARD, i can't believe that it's even worse than the last one

[winter-spark]

Okay so, I forgot this in my Citron essay but there's actually a reason why Tangerine wasn't harmed as much as Citron when he became Crown Prince. And since this is separate from the essay, I'm gonna try to write this as a standalone as I can go into a bit of length with it here. Also, because I can, I'm going to include a little bit of headcannons, but they're mainly speculations based on the canon material. But don't forget this goes with, paragraphs 17-22: Tangerine in Citron's Past Role, in my Citron essay: Citron's Love and Limited Self Value Disguised as Coldness & Selfishness!

But the short of it(aka the too long, didn't read) is, Tangerine was able to be okay because he had the time to grow into his own person but more importantly he had Citron. Growing up Tangerine always had Citron's love in its actual warmth and time to himself that helped nurture him into the person he is and he's still being shown love and support now and going forward.

Now, before we analyze Tangerine we first must look at Citron because what we understand and know about Tangerine is formed pretty much in comparison to Citron. So let's dive in.

From the age of 6, Citron was told he was the Crown Prince, that when he reached a certain age he would rule the kingdom. Growing up he didn't only have to prepare for that but he had to prove he was a good fit for the role because his mother was a commoner unlike his brothers' moms who were concubines, he was seen as lesser. Of course, when he could he'd squeeze in some fun and games but he was living a lonely existence. He wasn't alone, just lonely. The two whom he could probably relate to the most were actively against him and trying to steal his role from him, were trying to prove him ill-suited. Then, of course, there was Guy but they had a major disconnect, and Guy was always just agreeing without understanding or reminding him to get back to work. It could be frustrating. He didn't spend much time with his dad nor mom, seeing as he says himself he spent more time with Guy than either of his parents and while to me that doesn't seem like that much of a clear comparison, it's also revealed that there were palace caretakers. Which adds to just how little he spent with his parents. And like yea, that's Citron's backstory what does it have to do with Tangerine?

Tangerine, from birth, wasn't ever really an option for the throne growing up. He had nothing to prove, not in the same way Citron or even Orange did. Of course, he's still a Prince of Zafra but the energy around him is different. Unlike Citron, he didn't have people watching and judging his every move. However, that also means he didn't have many eyes on him at all. Orange and Navel were dedicated to the running for the Crown, Tangerine didn't have a retainer, and if their father didn't spend much time with Citron why would he spend any significantly more time with Tangerine. Of course that raises the question of his mother as she would've been a concubine, but the way Tangerine is, I don't think she was very involved or cared very much. Like I don't think she had Tangerine because she, like, wanted a kid, I think she had Tangerine and didn't have very much of an attachment to him. Ultimately, I think all he had really was Citron. And the caretakers, I suppose, but they don't really count.

Citron who understood what it was like to have no one else to really lean on was there for Tangerine as they grew up, he offered Tangerine someone he could go to for comfort because where else was he gonna get it(don't say the caretakers). And we know this is true because Tangerine basically says as much. When he couldn't sleep he went to Citron. This is something that commonly pops up [in media?], a young child struggles to sleep and thus goes to someone they trust, someone that is a source of comfort for them. Often times it's their parent, but it doesn't have to be, for Masumi it was his grandma, for Citron it's implied/is possible to have been Guy(in Hotel Compass, episode 7, Guy offhandedly mentions them lying together in the past when discussing how it's his turn to sleep with Azuma), and for Tangerine it was Citron. Taking his own experiences into account, Citron was able to provide a trustworthy comforting space, he was essentially the warmth of Spring for Tangerine growing up. So Tangerine had some source of comfort, someone to help him through rougher times. That's important to have in one's developmental stages. Even if he couldn't always be at Citron's side.

Again, Citron is Crown Prince, thus he has responsibilities as such, Tangerine isn't, thus doesn't, therefore he also had time alone, as I'm sure there's been multiple times that Tangerine was like "can we do this thing" & Citron was like "sorry I have other things to attend to". So there Tangerine was with time. Because he had this time and nothing to combat it (ie Citron's interests vs his responsibilities as next in line), Tangerine was able to sort of grow into his own person. He was able to be sort of sure of who he is (even if he didn't yet have plans for what he wanted to do), making him more sure of his actions and what he thinks of those around him.

So when the time came that he became the next in line for the Crown he didn't see himself as just the Crown Prince, he sees himself as Tangerine, the youngest of four princes, who became next in line partially because his brothers' actions, partly because his father thought he proved to be suited for it. While there is some pressure and some things to catch up on as he spent the first like 16 years of his life just being one of four princes and now has 4 years to prepare to take the throne, he doesn't have to fight anyone for the spot. Citron had to prove he deserved it his whole life, Tangerine earned it and has to learn what it's all about. Both are stressful, but Tangerine's not as susceptible to falling into the mindset of all he is and all people see him for is his title.

Of course, there's opportunity for it, he went from not being that centered in everything to pretty much being the center of it all because of his new title, but all in all, he knows who he is, what he's willing to put up with and what his values are. Additionally, Tangerine knows that he is valued as a person because growing up Citron always valued him. Plus after becoming Crown Prince, others are showing him value moreso as a person than as a prince, Mankai took good care of him, and Mika is definitely providing a bond that is a closeness that while the gateway may have been Tangerine becoming Crown Prince, Tangerine being in line for the throne is not the backbone of their bond, if that makes sense.

Basically, where Citron was rarely shown that others cared for him as a person when it came to his title (because of everything else around it), Tangerine has always and is continually shown that he is cared for as a person, title or no title. And that's why the title of Crown Prince, has an underlying stigma to it for Citron, why it harmed him so much, while Tangerine doesn't see it as such and will be okay.