My social life is all okay and normal (and has been for the past few years), and I think a part of it is growing up—I’ve both become more palatable in my weirdness and found my crowd, plus I just don’t feel things so intensely as I used to. I don’t find as many songs #relatable anymore. And this is normal! This is good! I’m glad I don’t feel like I’m gonna combust and explode at every moment of the day! But sometimes I think back to those mad days and I get this odd feeling that, idk, it was important once, right? It was SO important and so real and I want to do something about it, to turn it into a story or a song or a book, not just grow past it and shrug it off as ‘yea I used to be self-destructive and cringe, anyway’. It’s in part still real. I don’t want to forget. I want to preserve that girl I was, with her misplaced desires and awkwardness and hurt and lofty words. I’m glad I’ve grown out of her, but I don’t want to murder her by virtue of that fact. She was real, and possibly more myself than I feel now, and what she was going through was real too and I don’t want to just let it dissipate.
Ask for Izzy: Would you care to try this new eclair recipe? (not guaranteed to be free from extremely high calorie additives)
Really huh?
Well then
Maybe you should try it instead~ In case of any bad chemicals or whatever. You wouldn't wanna feed a bad batch to lil ol would you? How'd that be for your conscience?
Taking someone's cigarette out of their mouth: Multiple meanings - used a lot in media to convey control, power play, very masculine, I'm your boss and this is mine now, get over it. Mildly flirty, look at me, all in your space and shit, seductive. You're not allowed to smoke, because I say so.
Putting the cigarette back in their mouth afterwards: Ground-breaking. Would be less erotic to just fuck honestly. Who does this?
God I'm a sucker for characters who are so utterly loyal to someone that they're completely unhinged. Characters who have no moral compass except their overwhelming devotion to whoever they've chosen to listen to. That's the good shit
I have so many thoughts but I at least want to address the "for the new unicorn" note. because first of all it's so incredibly gratifying for izzy to finally be accepted into a community. it was shown before that the crew cares for him in some way but it was the first time he really saw that. that he isn't useless and alone, that he still has a place on the ship. even more so the crew WANTS HIM to be on the ship. and also that they want him to embrace his disability which doesn't make them think any less of him.
but also the choice of words. because inherently it rings queer, unicorn as a symbol of queerness. and even if it may have a negative sound when you use it differently here it is extremely positive. izzy is not only accepted to the crew, he's also accepted to the queer community, to the family. the unicorn on the revenge was also the one that was leading the ship, so one can argue that they want him to take that role in their dynamic.
and you can see that he does so immediately. he puts himself together and starts helping the crew. he's still bitchy but no longer violent and cruel. he helps stede and lucius immensely because that is what he does now. he's part of the family. twat.
ok but Izzy losing it at the figurehead because it COULDNT DO ITS FUCKING JOB vs ed talking gently to the door latch because it’s not its fault it’s broken it was just trying to do its job