#JUST FUCK ME UP FAM

[dilf-din]

Blah blah blah “I’ve got you baby girl” blah blah blah “It wasn’t time that did it” you know what the most poignant line of this whole show was? Right after when Ellie says, “Well, I’m glad that didn’t work out,” and Joel says, “Me too.” After he told her that when Sarah died, he couldn’t see a point he couldn’t be more ready, he wanted to die, he was ready to end it, but now, sitting on this concrete wall with this kid he didn’t even want to take on a two day trip, he’s so thankful that he flinched, that he lived, that he met her, that he gets a second shot at a life with her. Ellie says I’m glad you didn’t die, and for the first time in twenty years, he is too.

[erroroar]

[indiiglow]

Holy shit it's a good thing that ISWM came out so long ago bc if I still had that brainrot and played Starfield I would simply die

[intosnarkness]

just read a fic that might have legit done more metal health work for me than every therapist i've ever seen

flower dictionary for exes (six of crows - jesper/wylan, modern AU, M) by MaudeAlise made a few things extremely clear to me about my own fucking thought processes and self-esteem issues and if the author wants to bill my insurance I will gladly handle the copay.

[rosefinnigen]

had a very big cry this evening so I think I deserve a lot of hugs and kisses and a pizza and someone to hold my vibrator for me so I can focus on eating. Please and thanks

[140smashedguitars]

“Miss Honey doesn’t want you! Why would she want some snotty, disobedient kid?”

“Because she’s a spectacularly wonderful child and I love her.”

[rebelquilled]

watching senna’s vlog like

[harbingersecho]

HEAD LIKE A HOLE, BLACK AS YOUR SOUL I'D RATHER DIE THAN GIVE YOU CONTROL

[lighthouseas]

begging people to understand that "mike is not being abused by ted and karen" and "ted and karen are not good parents towards mike and this is something that we are supposed to take notice of throughout the show" are two statements that can and should coexist

[splickedylit]

excerpting

Domestic Diplomacy II is turning out to be even more "splickedy gratuitously gets caught in the weeds of xenosociology and alien language barriers, the fic sequel" and tbh I'm not mad about it

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“Oh, your moirail!” says Jade, and bounces upright, ignoring John’s wary little soft human cautionary hiss.  To your vague surprise, she’s apparently learned enough not to do the human holding-out-a-hand gesture they usually do when they’re introduced; she clasps her hands in front of her, nonexistent claws politely folded in, and ducks her head briefly forward and to one side, careful not to jab at him with her nonexistent horns. 

It's a pretty passable greeting—for a social equal, which is its own bizarre issue, considering he’s a highblood.  But relatively non-offensive, for a human, and fortunately for her she’s picked a highblood who isn’t likely to give a shit.  Gamzee laughs out loud and gives his own lazy-ass version of a greeting back, a vague twist of his wrists and dip of his head, condescending to use an equal’s greeting back at her.   When he says “Gamzee Makara,” there’s a hint of a threatening buzz to it, a testing you should know to respect me warning—you could have told him she’d show absolutely no sign of hearing it, which is exactly what happens.

“I’m Jade Harley!  I meet you,” Jade says, a carefully neutral statement-of-fact greeting—not fawning or hostile.  You don’t know if humans are out here just learning neutral address no matter what, or if this human particularly just doesn’t give a shit that your moirail’s a fuck-off mutant-huge highblood with horns that scrape the ceiling of the block—by the expectant way she looks up at Gamzee afterward, she wouldn’t give much of a shit either way.  Out of all of the humans, Jade Harley might actually win the prize for giving the least shits, no matter what Rose and Dave like to pretend.

“Yeah, I meet you too, motherfucker,” says Gamzee, looking incredibly amused, and glances down at you.  “She’s a rude-ass little motherfuckin’ toothful, huh?  I like her.”

“Of course you do,” you say, pained.  “Don’t take it personally, alright?  You’re not a highblood here, they don’t get highbloods.”

“Oh, best friend,” says Gamzee, and kisses your nugbone again, embarrassingly.  “I’m a highblood wherever the fuck I go.  It’s cool though.  Squishy-ass little motherfuckers won’t get any grief from me.”

“<Motherfucker>,” Jade repeats behind you, and switches back to English, in the bright, wide verbal tone you’re starting to learn means ‘smiling and happy’, weird interstitial ‘vowel’ breath-sounds further back in the throat through pulled-back mouth-corners.  “Hmm, <motherfucker>…  Oh, neat!  Is that dialect?  It sounds like, ahh, what’s that other word.  Kk—kkkht—  Uh, dammit.  You guys need to learn how to use vowels—  It sounds like <;brother>.”

“It is like,” you say, surprised despite yourself.  “&lt;Brother> is a troll, and <motherfucker> you put it all spots you want.  It’s a thing, it’s a troll, it’s a, tss, a doing-things word, it’s a name.  It’s bad, it’s good.  Any spot you want.  And he does want, for all those, all the time.”

[hetagrammy]

I have this idea of Mama Brit's gestures of affection being things like lessons in weaponry, things like knife throwing, sword fighting, wrestling. Her teaching her children how to put on their war paint, guiding their little hands over their lips and cheeks and eyelids. Showing them the arteries and weak points in armor. She isn't necessarily violent toward them, but her gestures of affection being preparing them for violence, almost raising them into sort of specialists in violence. She is not a refuge from the realities of the violent world around them, but she is unsure how else to show them she cares. This is the tenderness she believes she can afford to give them.

[skapediem]

apollo 15

[cosmobrain00]

wanna talk about your ocs some moreee? (plsplsplsplsplsplspls)

DO I. vibrating at incredibly high frequencies rn what better place to start than once again w the yarrow siblings bc WOW. THEY DRIVE ME NUTS!! like. for example ive been thinking of bella again more recently n feel incredibly sick ovr it all, ik I briefly mentioned sm stuff abt her before BUT? shes actually this eldest sister of all time guys n let me explain:

where to even begin. she was the first of her parent's eventual "failures", while being graced w gen love n kindness at first from them they quickly grew "tired" of her n she could never understand why. one day they were indulging her whims, pinching her cheeks n letting her come everywhere w them, n the next she was tugging at her mother's skirt hem n her fathers hand asking to be picked up n they only tiredly looked at her this time n told her to "stop being fussy" n that was that. when she heard they were having another kid it felt like she was being "replaced" n her chest hurt so bad and her eyes welled up n she ended up running to her room n slamming the door n crying into her pillow bc she just wanted her parents back n knew that now she'd really never get to have them again. when her baby brother was finally born tho, her mother made her hold him n at first bella only frowned sullenly down at him bc really- this is what they were replacing her with? but something inexplicable softened inside of her against her will when he softly smacked his little fist against her chest n ended up snuggling closer to her, n she ended up walking around the house simply carrying him for a while until he fell asleep so her mom could rest. when they eventually realized there was something wrong w myer- that being his near inability to see pretty much anything- suddenly he wasnt their cute kid anymore he was something that was "too much work" bc of this, n so what do they do? they pawn him off on bella of course, n u can guess how well that goes over. not only have they replaced her but now they've turned her into myers sole caretaker pretty much bc theyre gone so much of the time (AT AGE 8 MIND YOU.) once, bella shut the door in myers face n told him to go away, only to open it hours later n see him sitting right outside fiddling w the carpet in the dark. she felt so guilty tht she started crying n hugged him close n said she was sorry over n over. like she really felt like he “took” her parents love at first, but now? it feels like he's simply in the same boat as her n she has no choice but to step up for him bc if not her then who else. tht doesnt mean she still didnt struggle w him, far from it in fact, but while she has these mixed emotions, she also knows that despite myer not being able to see her much, whenever he hears her voice its enough to bring him running from the opposite end of the house to her n that means something to her. AND I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN TO KEITH N LORELEI YET THE FUCK OF IT ALLLLL. when bella once AGAIN hears tht her mom is having another kid, TWINS this time she nearly loses it because she simply doesnt understand why both her n myer arent good enough n why theyve been discarded. when keith n lorelei arrive ofc its only a matter of time bf theyre all but pushed onto bella to take care of, n shes so so tired at this point but she simply steels herself n accepts bc she wont allow them to be abandoned. keith is a sullen little brat who's too angry so much of the time but she understands bc shes like that too deep down still. lorelei nearly never sleeps n her n keith cause so much trouble tgt but shes also the one to hug bellas leg n tell her she loves her no matter if they just fought or not. n bella may feel bitter but she'll still read them the books she found at the dump at night n listen to them all n let them pull on her apron n whine when shes trying to make things n like. they annoy her so much she wishes her parents never had them she doesnt know how to live without them now she'd do anything to protect her broken little family she wouldnt know what to do if she lost any of them, n all of these feelings just explode when the draft comes n her parents abandon them all n now its officially her turn to be the head of their fam. do not even get me started on bella being the one to go to the war in place of myer either bc I will not stop SOMEBODY SEDATE MEEEEE

[kaeyaphile]

operation do not cry at my irl bestie’s wedding: FAILED

[x-i-l-verify]

It absolutely kills me that all this time - all. this. time. - c!Dream was just trying to SAVE the entire server! All of them! Every single member! Even the ones he hated! He knew that if they kept on this path, everyone would die! Everyone would spend who knows how long just rotting in their own limbos, alone, forever, and he refused to accept that. There had to be another way; he needed to fix it, fix the server, make everyone immortal, reset the server so that everyone would be friends again, something, ANYTHING, because nothing else compared to that utter, crushing loneliness, not people seeing him as a villain, not torture, not death itself, nothing. It didn't matter what he suffered so long as they could all find peace and happiness and health again together in the future. No more death, no more pain. Just existing together in simpler times where they could be friends again and stop dividing themselves and stop fighting (oh, so much fighting).

And he was willing to utterly destroy himself if that's what it took to save them. To not be alone. To have the time to try and fix things. So he would play the part of the villain they all thought he was. They'd thank him later, when they finally understood. He would give them forever, and they’d see. Someday. And surely, surely, with time...with time... he could be someone who isn't the villain of everyone's story. He could just be himself again. That Dream who was lost and who so desperately wanted to be found.