#Maybe still flirt a bit

[harvestmoth]

what do we think about pet store workers team xen

[littlelightfish]

The hearts don't mean he is in love with no one. The problem with English is how vague of the word love is in his meaning. It envolves different kinds of caring in one single word. But I'll try to express here what I mean.

He cares, as a person, about everyone. This is a basic level of love that he haves towards everybody. He doesn't want anyone to actually die, that's what I mean. He doesn't necesarily cares about someone, but he loves them enough to not want them to die.

He starts befriending someone and gets to know it. He starts liking things about them and disliking others. He starts loving this people in another way, we'll call it liking. This is more a get-to-know phase he doesn't always like. The less he knows, the less reasons to get attached get attached he has. I think this are the kind of love the hearts show in the image. He has to make sure to keep a balance between how much he loves and how much he let's himself be loved. He doesn't want to have misunderstandings. He is in constant fear of "what if I made them love me more and they care more?"

And then it comes the deeply care that love is in the non-romantic way. This care a (good) parent has for his babies. The love that makes people suffer emotionally in an absolute different way from what it could be a heartbreak or a misunderstanding between friends. If something happens to the loved one, the pain is unbearable. It's one of the worst things rhat can happen. And Chilchuck knows this, he is father of three daughters, and his wife left him. She left, he knows the pain it is to come home and find it empty when there should be someone. He knows the guilt it comes with failing those loved ones. The shame. He doesn't like being this vulnerable. This love makes him suffer like no other does. So he is very very carefull of how much he allows himself to care about someone so he won't get to love like this.

He draws a line between work and private life because his private life envolves love and deep care, and he doesn't want to love nor care like this for people who's job is to constantly risk their lifes. He doesn't want to feel the anguish, he doesn't want to feel the loneliness it will come after the unenviable separation of the party.

He tries his best to not get attached to people. To not let people get attached to him. But he fails. He fails and falls downstairs with a whole drum set.

He can't help but to care about this people. He can't help but to love this people he's been living with the past few weeks in the risking of their lifes. He tells himself he's doing this for money and that he doesn't care, but he does.

Those hearts don't mean anything other than him caring about them. He cares about Senshi. He cares about Marcille. He cares about Laios. About Itsuzumi. About Namari. He cares in a way that hurts. He loves this people. He doesn't want to even imagine a world in where they are gone, or suffering, or in problems. They're his friends, they're something he, unwillingly, accepts as family.

He cares about Falin and Mickbell because he doesn't want them dead. He doesn't feel any anguish toward if they do or not get hurt after they're out of his sight. Sure, he cares, but he can live without thinking about them the rest of his days. It doesn't happen like that with Laios. He can't just simply let Laios go and follow Fallin just after he recover consciousness from a punch in the gut. Was it Mickbell, he would let him if he really didn't wanted. But Laios didn't wanted to sit and wait, and he had to care. He had to verbalize to himself that he cared. He had to let them know, so they would act accordingly. So they won't get themselves killed like idiots.

He doesn't want others to fall in romantic love with him. He doesn't feel romantic love towards anyone either. He isn't the man for this kind of love. He is, in fact, afraid of it. He doesn't want to fall in love, because he's still in love with his wife. She left him because he was negligent. But since when has this become the definitive stop for love? Chilchuck knows his wife is angry at him, and she has all the reason to be so! His husband, the one she loved and cared for, gets himself in dangerous situations, treats his body poorly and almost never is home. She loves him, and it hurts her to love like this, so she leaves. Like this she won't have to look at him get himself mistreated like he does. She would have the pull in her's stomach that tells her that he could be in great danger, that she could become a widow, but she tries to calm it with his daughter's mail to him. He could never. He can't imagine a world in wich they cease to exist. A world without his wife, even if she distanced herself, without his daughters, would be a world worthless of living. He knows this. Because he cares and he loves in such a deep level that he is scared of loving anyone else like this. To become so vulnerable to emotion. This vulnerable to something bad happening.

The fact that he is so afraid of loosing his wife, even after she left him, says a lot. He still cares about her. He is still in love with her. He wants to go back to what it was before, but he can't and he know its his fault. And he respects his wife's distance because he loves her. Now, he doesn't love her in the movie way, he isnt in love like a teenager would to his first girlfriend, he doesn't want to kiss her, or hug her, or be by her side at all moments of the day. He loves her. He cares about her deeply, deeply enough that he doesn't need to be by her side to care, to love. He also respects her. He can survive without her because he knows she's better with his daughter. For sure he wants to hug, kiss and be by the side of this person he loves, it would be ideal, but he can survive without thinking about it too much. It's just like with his daughters. They're all adults that now live far from him. And he is ok with it now. He sends mail and recieves mail, and even if he misses greatly, he can manage not to think about it. Because he knows she is allright. Because he knows he fucked up. He doesn't know where he fuked up, but for his wife to leave him, at least he knows he did. They never talked about it, because they both seem to have a problem in expressing themselves. She fell into a bad mood and then she disappeared. The amount of pain he must have felt it's... let's say it's quite big.

He keeps his guard up. He doesn't want to love deeply anyone. He doesn't want to feel the emptiness, the hurt, that comes after someone so dear leaves. He knows for a fact he'll be leaving this people. He knows that they could die. If he loves, it will hurt in a way nothing else hurts. He will miss. He doesn't like missing people he cares like this. This is why he doesn't want to love. This is why he doesn't want to be loved. This is why those hearts that are almost full are his main source of concern. This is why he makes the effort to keep this feelings at bay, to love only in the friendly way and with extreme caution.

But he can't controll his own love. And he ends up caring more and more about these people. He slowly makes him a part of the dangerous love zone that family means. He is afraid to confuse someone about his feelings towards them, so he still tries to maintain distance with his abusive remarks, but this only works so far. He loves and is loved. And because of this he will suffer.

I... I extended myself a bit I see...

[chaoticsorceress]

I wonder how it feels for Gale to miss his lover. Maybe his Tav has to be apart from him for some time for whatever reason. How does he miss them? I feel like during the events of the game it'd be pretty intense considering all the chaos going on. He worries and he misses terribly. He looks forward to the moment he can have them in his arms again. He can't wait for them to ask for a kiss. I like to think during the game he isn't really comfortable just kissing without asking for fear of doing something wrong. He's scared to ask for something that Tav doesn't want to do and possibly annoying them or offending them in the process. So he yearns in silence and waits for them.

[donaviolet]

Friendship is the most special thing in the world because no award could be give me bigger happiness than jumping around in my room and smiling because my pookie asked me if I wanted to match pfps

[citrine-elephant]

there is nothing strictly heterosexual about the way leon looks at other men, i swear

[rotteneldritchhorror]

Ya know, I'm starting to think a certain chunk of the OBX fandom just hates women lol

[littol-bun]

i love being an age regressor ૮ᴖﻌᴖა ♡⁠ tonight it feels very affirming and comforting. I've kind of always had to look out for myself and be my biggest supporter, and there are a lot of strange ways this feels like a second chilhood at times.

like i regress to being younger, but I'm also a girl now in a completely different place with completely different circumstances/social circles etc. yk?

but when i feel rly small and my reality feels so big, it makes me happy that older me is there for me to make the important decisions and guide us there :3 it's like i am holding my hand through this, i haven't had an adult rly look out for me like this and it's so nice to have one now!!

i don't have to be scared of big changes, I'm doing good and I'm here for me and i can take it easy. i have someone who is helping me ♡⁠ i have someone who is keeping me safe. they work hard so i can be little ^.^ thanks big sis hehe ✌🏾

ouggghh im not little anymore but (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ yeah. when i am little i can still like.. function as an adult n talk to ppl n stuff. but it's also like, well like i said before ig 0:

like im smaller but different‚ subtly. still me‚ but someone else since I'm like.. a teen?? that i never was. my childhood was nothing like my adulthood so this rly is a whole new thing little me has needed to learn 2 navigate emotionally/mentally.

but as i become more aware of when I'm in a little headspace and not, the difference in perception stands out to me a lot more. i can't articulate it very well... oughh. this is giving me very specific questions, but on that note — i am happy to feel so safe and looked out for when I'm little 😌💕 i used to feel scared and helpless but it's different now. we're doing this together 👩🏽‍🤝‍👩🏾 i got ya lil sis

[abyssembraced]

"I do hopeth my Valentine's lettre made it to Queene okaye... I haven'th received a response yette."

"Althoughe... There WAS alsoe that othere sendre. If thou want to hooketh me up."

That 'other person' was Queen. He just didn't recognize her.

[littleragondin]

Our skyy 2 yesterday: aw and look at this! ♡ we give you some soundwin SeanNe crumbs because we know you liked them in MSP ;)

Me, delusional: after their stupid jealousy ploy with Daonuea (and despite the complete failure of it), Sean somehow decides to rope Ne into playing pretend with him in Chiang Mai, in the hopes that jealousy might finally prompt Maitee to be clear about wtf is going on between them. (Efficiency of the plan still to be assessed.)

(Tho i also like @petrichoraline transmigration theory 😌)

[freebooter4ever]

Nick: never takes photos of himself, refuses to let anyone else take photos of him even personal unshared snapshots

also nick: posts seven photos and a slow motion pan of the latest wooden boat he's building 🤣

[transinniter]

not delusional guy voice. guy who i maybe sort of like liked my birthday story Surely this is a good sign . (He has a girlfriend)

[princemick]

we should actually talk about a engineer charles and ferrari driver mick au.

[guinevereslancelot]

is there anything worse than being rejected by a potential friend 😐

[inkykeiji]

waaaaa idk how i managed to make it through yucky disgusting tomura-nii without batting an eye but fyodor breaking reader's bones had me cringing and closing my tab and waaaaaaaaa

i could not make it through the rest of that piece because that got to me for some reason even though i brushed it off when looking at the warnings but i just wanna let you know that i do rlly rlly love your writing and im sorry if this comes off as rude or insensitive, i'm sure many other readers were able to read that piece with no issue and give it the adoration it deserves <3 (also i love touya-nii he's perfect even though he's notttt)

hey, it’s okay! we’re all individuals and we all have personal squicks and whatnot, and some of them we can’t even explain! it’s totally fine if you couldn’t make it to the end of the piece (tho you made it fairly far if you got to when he breaks her tailbone!), i am proud of you for recognizing and honouring your limits and turning back instead of forcing your way through!

it doesn’t come off as rude at all sweetpea, if you couldn’t handle it and it wasn’t for you then you couldn’t handle it and it wasn’t for you and that’s absolutely fine! your limits are valid and important! <3 i am very happy to hear that you enjoy my writing & that you like icky sticky gooey gross tomu-nii and mr touya-nii hehe c:

[dent-de-leon]

If I try to draw or write widomauk will it make me feel less sad about how they didn’t really get any time together in the first oneshot—