#STS-118

[pepperjunkie]

STS-118 Endeavour Rollout..

[lonestarflight]

"View of ESP 3 in the Payload Bay of the Endeavour during STS-118

An external stowage platform (ESP-3) is photographed in the payload bay of Space Shuttle Endeavour while docked with the International Space Station. Astronauts Tracy Caldwell and Barbara R. Morgan, both STS-118 mission specialists, were inside at Endeavour's controls as the shuttle's robotic arm (lower right) lifted the storage platform from the cargo bay to hand it over to the station's robotic arm, also known as Canadarm2. Astronauts Charlie Hobaugh, pilot, and Clay Anderson, Expedition 15 flight engineer, then used Canadarm2 to attach the 13-by-7-foot platform to the station's Port 3 truss."

Date: August 14, 2007

NASA ID: S118-E-07104

[apricustar]

okay so here's the thing. yes, we saw bobby fall. yes, we saw a body bag being taken out. and yes, ending on the helmet was clearly meant to be a cold ending symbolic of.. sigh

but we didn't see his body.

we didn't see him being zipped up. we didn't get a confirmation. no last breath moment.

and in tv—especially a show like 9-1-1 that knows how invested the audience is—those choices are intentional.

if they wanted us to know without a doubt that he was dead, they would've shown it.

but they didn't.

so now i'm sitting here wondering if this is misdirection. especially with the disease storyline, which already feels kind of shady and bigger than what we've seen.

what if bobby isn't just "gone"—what if something happened that took him off the board but not completely? like someone intercepted him for medical reasons, or there's something else going on we haven't been told yet?

what if they didn't take him because he was dead— what if they took him because he wasn't?

what if in taking him someone realized bobby had some kind of resistance to the disease, or wasn't reacting like the others?? (hello, his special blood??) and instead of treating him or reporting it, they decided to take him somewhere for testing.

because if you're a scientist working in crisis, and you find someone surviving something that's killing everyone else? you don't just let that go. you study it.

think of the possibilities of having someone who doesn't die—someone who managed to stay upright and show no symptoms despite being exposed to the disease nearly at the same time as another team member who nearly died before the anti-virus was administered. someone whose body is reacting differently. a person whose unique response could hold the key to a cure-or something even bigger.

so now maybe he's in some medical facility, unconscious or barely stable, and no one at the 118 knows. they're grieving someone who might not actually be gone. and that is way more terrifying than if he'd actually died.

maybe it's not even that deep. maybe they just left that door open on purpose, to keep us guessing.

but either way, i don't trust it. and i'm not ready to call it until i see actual proof.

[saveahorserideaneddie]

watching st denis medical w my mom and it’s revitalizing my desire for a mocumentary style episode so badly

especially if it was during a hypothetical secret relationship buddie period and we get like a janine/greggory from abbott-esque joke of buddie being like “we’re trying to keep it a secret” and then it cuts to the rest of the crew or like jump cuts through the rest of the 118 and they’re all like “we know. we’ve known since they got together. they’re not subtle, like- at all”

especially if it like kinda focuses the background firefighters too bc it’d be so funny to hear them bitching about the mains getting all the credit for everything/commenting on the wild bs they have to put up with from all the drama in their lives etc.

[lesbians4buckleys]

cowboy buddie doodle woahhh!!

just a lil rough thing i did to draw out their design while i work on their actual piece :3 thought it was cute enough to share

[filmjunky-99]

s t a r t r e k t h e n e x t g e n e r a t i o n created by gene roddenberry [cause and effect, s5ep18]

'I heard voices in my room last night. I was alone, so at first, I thought I was imagining things.

But this morning, ten other people reported hearing them at the same time I did.' - crusher

[methsaint]

list of all lana unreleased, demos & covers

unreleased songs

1. You Can Be The Boss (leaked)

2. Kinda Outta Luck (leaked)

3. Oooh Baby (= “Are You Ready?”) (leaked)

4. Hundred Dollar Bill (leaked)

5. Driving in Cars With Boys (leaked)

7. Daddy Issues (= “I Was In A Bad Way”) (leaked)

8. Trash Magic (leaked)

9. Paris (= “Take Me To Paris”) (leaked)

10. Heavy Hitter (leaked)

11. Dum Dum (3 different versions) (leaked)

12. Match Made In Heaven (leaked)

13. She’s Not Me (= “Ride or Die”) (leaked)

14. Pin Up Galore (leaked)

15. Dangerous Girl (leaked)

16. Never Let Me Go (leaked)

17. Children Of The Bad Revolution (leaked)

19. Marilyn Monroe (= “Puppy Love”) (leaked)

20. Come When You Call Me America (2 different versions) (leaked)

21. 1949 (leaked)

22. You’re Gonna Love Me (leaked)

23. Put the Radio On (leaked)

24. Gangsta Boy (leaked)

25. Summer of Sam (leaked)

26. Serial Killer (leaked)

27. Go Go Dancer (leaked)

28. Delicious (leaked)

29. Big Bad Wolf (= “Hot Hot Hot”) (leaked)

30. Playing Dangerous (leaked)

31. Afraid (leaked)

32. Hollywood’s Dead (leaked)

33. Damn You (= “American Dream”) (leaked)

34. Lift Your Eyes (leaked)

35. Boarding School (leaked)

36. Butterflies (leaked)

37. Every Man Gets His Wish (leaked)

38. Fordham Road (leaked)

39. Motel 6 (leaked)

40. Paradise (leaked)

41. Velvet Crowbar (leaked)

42. Fake Diamond (2 versions) (leaked)

43. Backfire (leaked)

44. Moi Je Joue (leaked)

45. Last Girl On Earth (leaked)

46. Live or Die (leaked)

47. Push Me Down (leaked)

48. Teenage Wasteland (= “Prom Song” [Gone Wrong]) (leaked)

49. Tonight (= “I Don’t Wanna Go”) (leaked)

50. My Best Days (leaked)

51. Break My Fall (leaked)

52. Catch and Release (leaked)

53. Crooked Cop (leaked)

54. Is It Wrong? (leaked)

55. Jealous Girl (leaked)

56. Hawaiian Tropic (leaked)

57. Heartshaped Chevrolet (leaked)

58. Hit and Run (2 versions) (leaked)

59. Making Out (2 versions) (leaked)

60. Noir (leaked)

61. Scarface (leaked)

62. TV In Black & White (leaked)

63. Us Against The World (leaked)

64. Midnight Dancer Girlfriend (leaked)

65. Maha Maha (leaked)

66. Television Heaven (leaked)

67. Golden Grill (leaked)

68. Beautiful Player (leaked)

69. Dynamite (leaked)

70. Breaking My Heart (leaked)

71. Black Beauty (leaked)

72. Hollywood (leaked)

73. Angels Forever (Forever Angels) (leaked)

74. Starry Eyed (leaked)

75. JFK (leaked)

76. Butterflies Pt. 2 (leaked)

77. Daytona Meth (leaked)

78. Tired Of Singing The Blues (leaked)

79. St. Tropez (= “Party Girl”) (leaked)

80. Queen Of Disaster (leaked)

81. All Smiles (leaked)

82. Bentley

83. Betty Boop Boop (leaked)

84. Born Bad Bay

85. Caught You Boy

86. C U L8r Alligator (leaked)

87. Criminals Run The World (= “Hit And Run” alternate version) (leaked)

88. Cry Me A River

89. Girl That Got Away

90. I Was In A Bad Way (= “Daddy Issues” alternate version) (leaked)

91. I’m Fucked

92. Kindness of Strangers

93. Mermaid Hotel (leaked)

94. Put Your Lips Together (leaked)

95. Resistance

96. Roses

97. Ruby Tuesday

98. Slow Gin Fizz

99. So Legit (= “Against Gaga”) (leaked)

100. Smarty (leaked)

101. Playground (leaked)

102. Wrong

103. Strange Love (leaked)

104. Bollywood Hawaii (leaked)

105. Baby Blue Love (leaked)

106. I Want It All

107. Behind Closed Doors (leaked)

108. Jimmy Gnecco (leaked)

109. Break The Cycle

110. Epiphany

111. Jonah

112. Little Angel

113. Lullubye

114. True Love On The Side (leaked)

115. Living Without You (= “TV In Black & White” alternate version) (leaked)

116. True Love

117. Greenwich (leaked)

118. Shadow Of A Doubt (leaked)

119. Get Drunk (leaked)

120. BBM Baby

121. Be My Daddy

122. China Palace

123. Dance Money

124. Fine China

125. For Charlie

126. Living Legend

127. Morricone

128. Piano Theme

129. W

130. Yes To Heaven

131. Ridin’/My Bitch (feat. The Kickdrums & A$AP) (leaked)

132. Back To Tha Basics (leaked)

133. Because of You (leaked)

134. Coca Colla (= “Television Heaven” alternate version) (leaked)

135. Hangin’ Around (leaked)

136. In The Sun (leaked)

137. Joshy & I (leaked)

138. Let My Hair Down (leaked)

139. Live Forever (leaked)

140. Meet Me In The Pale Moonlight (leaked)

141. Methamphetamines (leaked)

142. On Our Way (leaked)

143. Stoplight De-lite (leaked)

144. Trash (leaked)

145. Wayamaya (leaked)

146. You & Me (leaked)

147. Your Band Is All The Rage (leaked)

148. The good life (leaked)

149. Zodiac (snippet leaked)

150. Ave Maria

151. Pink Champagne (leaked)

152. Fine china (leaked)

153. Dragonslayer (leaked)

154. Poetry in motion (leaked)

155. There’s nothing to be sorry about

156. All for you

157. Unidentified flying bill

158. Smile

159. California

160. In wendy

161. More mountains

162. When i’m with you

163. French restaurant (leaked)

164. Coconut & key lime pie

165. Sweetheart

166. Roses bloom for you (leaked)

167. I must be stupid for being so happy

168. Earthquakes

169. Star lux

170. Eat for free

171. Wait

172. Crazy for you

173. Blizzard

174. Millionaire (new leak)

175. Life is beautiful (new leak)

albums

Lana Del Ray (Steven Mertens recordings)

Tracklist: unknown

Lizzy Grant and the Phenomena (leaked)

Tracklist:

1. Disco

2. For K Part 2 (Demo)

Sparkle Jump Rope Queen (leaked)

Tracklist:

1. Axl Rose Husband

2. Elvis

3. Blue Ribbon (= “Gramma”)

The Money Hunny Recordings (leaked)

Tracklist:

1. Money Hunny

2. A Star For Nick

3. Rehab (“For K Part 2″ Demo)

4. Pawn Shop Blues (Demo)

May Jailer – Sirens (leaked)

Tracklist:

1. Sirens (Titled as “For K”)

2. Next to Me

3. A Star for Nick

4. My Momma

5. Bad Disease

6. Out with a Bang

7. Westbound

8. Try Tonight

9. All You Need

10. I’m Indebited to You

11. Pretty Baby (Or “For K”)

12. Aviation

13. Find My Own Way

14. Pride

15. Birds of A Feather

Lana del Ray AKA Lizzy Grant

Tracklist:

1. Kill Kill

2. Queen of the gas station

3. Oh say can you see

4. Gramma (Blue Ribbon Sparkler Trailer Heaven)

5. For K Pt. 2

6. Jump

7. Mermaid Motel

8. Raise me up (Mississippi south)

9. Pawn shop blues

10. Brite lites

11. Put me in a movie

12. Smarty

13. Yayo

demos

1. Born To Die (2 different versions) (leaked)

2. Blue Jeans (leaked)

3. Video Games (leaked)

4. Diet Mountain Dew (3 different versions, also known as Diet Mnt Dew) (leaked)

5. National Anthem (2 different versions) (leaked)

6. Dark Paradise (2 different versions, one with other lyrics) (leaked)

7. Radio (leaked)

8. Carmen (2 different versions, one of them is acapella with other lyrics) (leaked)

9. Million Dollar Man (leaked)

10. This Is What Makes Us Girls (2 different versions) (leaked)

11. Without You (2 different versions, one with other lyrics) (leaked)

12. Lolita (4 different versions, also known as Hey Lolita Hey or Lolyta) (leaked)

13. Lucky Ones (leaked)

14. Driving in Cars with Boys (leaked)

15. Hundred Dollar Bill (leaked)

16. Heavy Hitter (leaked)

17. Yayo (leaked)

18. Trash Magic (leaked)

19. Ghetto Baby (Demo for Cheryl Cole) (leaked)

20. White Pontiac Heaven (= “Axl Rose Husband” alternate version) (leaked)

21. Summertime Sadness (leaked)

22. Young & Beautiful (leaked)

23. Jump (leaked)

24. Put Me In A Movie (leaked)

25. Brite Lites (leaked)

26. Unfixable (Demo for Shades of cool) (leaked)

27. Miss America (demo 1 and 2)

28. Beautiful people beautiful problems (leaked)

29. Freak (leaked)

30. Thunder (leaked)

31. Burning desire (leaked)

32. Old money (studio acapella) (leaked)

other songs – live/covers/collaborations

1. The End of the World (Skeeter Davies Cover)

2. Iron (with Woodkid) released

3. Chet Baker (with Mando Diao) released

4. Gloria (with Mando Diao) released

5. The Happiest Girl In The Whole U.S.A. (Donna Fargo Cover)

6. Ten Dollar Ring (with Bryan Dunn)

7. Goodbye Kiss (Kasabian Cover)

8. Heart-Shaped Box (Nirvana Cover)

9. Blue Velvet (Bobby Vinton Cover – for H&M) released

10. Chelsea Hotel No. 2 (Leonard Cohen Cover)

11. Summer Wine (Lee Hazlewood & Nancy Sinatra Cover)

12. Spender (feat. Smiler) released

13. Dayglo Reflection (feat. Bobby Womack) released

14. Cry Me A River (Various)

15. I Love Paris (Ella Fitzgerald Cover)

16. Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door (Bob Dylan Cover)

17. Roadhouse Blues (The Doors Cover)

18. Why Don’t You Do Right? (Peggy Lee Cover)

19. Wonderwall (Oasis Cover)

20. Some Things Last A Long Time (Daniel Johnston Cover) released

[andavs]

The Cars of 911

All of this talk of Buck’s jeep and whether or not he now has a truck got me curious about how consistent any of the vehicles are in this show. And as of 8x08, here are my results.

ATHENA They don't show her personal vehicle in season one, but from the second season onward, Athena’s driven a red GMC Acadia Denali. It was presumably destroyed in the house fire in 7x10. She hasn't been shown driving a personal vehicle in season eight so far.

(2x13, 2x18)

(4x12, 6x06)

BOBBY Chronologically, Bobby's first car is this pickup in St. Paul. It’s older and more beat up, a little boxier.

(1x05)

When he moves to LA, he drives a dark blue Ford F-150, initially with Minnesota plates.

(2x16)

In season six, he has a dark blue Chevy Silverado.

(6x09)

And then in season seven when he goes after Amir, he has a different dark blue Chevy Silverado, this time a High Country. I assume he got it back from the middle of the desert, but then their house burned down, so it was probably destroyed with Athena’s SUV. He hasn't been shown driving a personal vehicle in season eight so far.

(7x08)

BUCK Chronologically, the first car we see Buck drive is the blue Jeep Wrangler that Maddie gives him in 2012. He drives it around the country and still has it on his first day at the 118 in 2017. 

(4x05)

But in the first season, which takes place in late 2017/early 2018, he has this gray/gray-green Jeep Wrangler Rubicon. This is the only season where he has this car. (It’s not Abby’s as in 1x09, she drives a silver Chevy Volt.)

(1x05, 1x10)

In season two he has a dark gray Rubicon, and seems to keep this car until it dies on the road in 6x07. It very well could’ve been different years that all look very similar; I don’t know enough about cars to spot minor differences from year to year.

(2x08, 3x16)

(4x11, 6x05)

In season seven, he has a new silver Rubicon, though it's only shown in 7x04.

(7x04)

CHIMNEY In 1x03, Chimney’s driving a blue Subaru Impreza when he gets in the rebar accident, and that’s the first and last time we see that car.

(1x03)

In 4x12 he’s driving a silver Subaru hatchback. It looks like it might be the same one Maddie was driving in season three.

(4x12)

Throughout season five, he’s driving a dark blue-gray Jeep Grand Cherokee.

(5x04)

I think he’s still driving the same Jeep in season seven when it gets stolen in 7x06. Its fate remains unknown.

(7x06)

EDDIE The first car we see of Eddie’s is an older gray Toyota Tundra from the early 2000s. It's also visible in 3x15 in El Paso.

(2x04, 2x17)

In 3x08 he buys a black GMC Sierra Denali and seems to still be driving it.

(3x08, 7x04)

HEN In seasons one and two, Hen drives a blue Toyota RAV4. Apparently only at night.

(1x07, 2x05)

After that, she's seen driving a dark gray Volvo that seems to be the same car Karen was driving in 1x10. It looked like Hen was driving it in 6x06 in flashbacks to their first date.

(1x10, 6x02)

MADDIE Chronologically, Maddie’s first car we see is the blue Jeep Wrangler. She had it in 2004 and gave it to Buck in 2012.

(4x05)

If she has a car in season two, it isn't shown, but in season three she’s driving a silver Subaru Crosstrek. It looks like it could be the same Subaru Chimney’s driving in 4x12, so they seem to have started sharing it.

(3x06, 3x09)

In conclusion, some characters are really consistent when it comes to their cars, while others are not. Bobby and Buck have changed their cars the most.

But whether it is or isn't Buck's, the truck from the cemetery in 8x05 and in the bts video looks like a Nissan Frontier.

(8x05, bts)

Disclaimer: I don't know shit about cars. Everything identified here was either done with Google Lens or through IMCDB.

[lives-in-midgard]

Giving it back to you

Pairing: Eddie Diaz x reader

Summary: After Eddie forgot something at your place you decide to drive to the 118 to bring it back to him even though his friends haven't met you yet.

Word Count: 880

A/N: Hey guys! This is my first Eddie Diaz fanfic, I hope you enjoy it.

Divider made by @firefly-graphics

911 Masterlist | Main Masterlist

It was early in the morning when you were woken up by Eddie giving you a kiss on the cheek. You and Eddie have been dating for a few weeks now and are really happy together. Yesterday Eddie came to your apartment after work and surprised you while Buck was taking care of Christopher. You haven’t met his friends or Chris yet, but Eddie told you that he plans for you to meet them soon.

You and Eddie stayed in bed cuddling for a few more minutes until his timer went off. You let out a groan and he chuckled.

“I’m sorry, mi amor, but I have to get up now.” Eddie said while gently drawing circles on your back.

“Just five more minutes, please.” You said, he smiled at you and pulled you closer to him. After five minutes you understood that he really had to go now, even though you were sad that he was leaving. When he stood at your apartment door, you hugged him one more time and Eddie pulled you into a soft kiss.

“Do we see us after your shift?” You asked while holding his hand.

“Of course.” He said with a smile.

“Be safe.” You told him before he left the apartment. When Eddie leaves or when you know he is at work you’re always so worried about him, even though he has told you that he will always take good care of himself.

There was still time before you had to go to work, so you took a shower, had breakfast and then you decided to watch something on the TV in your room. As you entered your room, you noticed something laying on the floor. It looked like one of your necklaces, but when you got closer you saw that it was Eddie’s St. Christopher medallion. You picked it up from the floor and held it in your hand, looking at it with a smile. When a thought suddenly popped into your mind. It means so much to Eddie and he's probably looking for it. You put your shoes on and decided to drive to the station and bring it back to Eddie.

After a short drive you parked your car outside of the 118. You were nervous because you have never been there before and never even met the others. Even though you already know a lot about them based on the stories Eddie told you. When you walked into the station you noticed that the fire truck is here which means Eddie should be here as well. You couldn’t see him, but when you walked further into the station you saw a young, friendly looking guy walking towards you.

“Hey, can I help you?”

“I’m looking for Eddie Diaz.” You said nervously.

“He's upstairs, you can come with me.” He said and walked over to the stairs.

When you reached the top of the stairs you followed him into the kitchen where everyone was. You looked around and saw Eddie talking to someone. You noticed the guy he was talking to, it’s Buck.

“Eddie here is someone for you.” He said, Eddie turned around and was surprised when he saw you.

“Mi amor, you okay?” Eddie asked in a worried tone as he walked closer to you. You could see that the others were confused at first but then started to smile.

“Yeah, I’m okay, Eddie.” You said and Eddie reached for your hand.

“I found something in my apartment and because I know how much it means to you I thought I'd quickly bring it back to you before I go to work.” You explained, opened your bag and pulled out his St. Christopher medallion. You handed it to Eddie, who began to smile.

“Thank you. I was already looking for it.” He said and you smiled at him. He wanted to pull you into a kiss, but when you remembered that all his friends were here you started to blush.

“Oh, who do we have here.” one of Eddie's colleagues said as he entered the room.

“Chim, this is Y/N my girlfriend.” Eddie announced and then began introducing you to all of his colleagues and friends.

“And you must be Buck.” You said and he chuckled.

“Yeah that’s me.”

“It’s great to finally meet you, Eddie has told me a lot about you.”

“I hope only good things.” Buck said and everyone started to chuckle.

“Of course, don’t worry.” You giggled and then looked at the clock.

“It was really nice meeting you all, but I have to go to work now.” You told the others and then looked back at Eddie. They all understood and before saying goodbye you all agreed that you would meet again soon. Eddie walked downstairs with you and when you reached your car, he finally kissed you again.

“I know you didn't want me to meet your friends like this, but when I found your St. Christopher medallion I had to bring it to you.”

“It’s okay, you don’t need to worry. Actually, I’m really glad you came here today.” He said and pulled you into a hug. When you pulled away, you smiled at each other and said goodbye to each other.

[pettyeddiediaz]

eddie comes back into town to attend the funeral, but he is not there to stay. he thinks his life is in texas now, and he has to go back to that. so he is helping while he can, but there's the buck of it all who hasn't been okay since the moment everything happened. he is clingy to a point eddie has never seen before, and he announced that he thinks he needs to quit the 118. after all, he tried to quit firefighting with bobby just at hotshots, but if bobby is dead? and eddie is gone? how is buck supposed to go back there? so with his big pleading eyes, he begs eddie to let him come to texas with him. he just needs a new start, and he doesn't want to live apart anymore. he can keep paying the lease, but he can't stay here anymore. and eddie is like.... 'buck... are you sure? maddie and jee and chim... the new baby... hen...' buck is out of his mind, and he doesn't know what he is saying. 'eddie, i feel like you take half of me with you every time you leave.' eddie doesn't know what to say, but he just nods and finally says, 'talk to maddie about it first, and if you still want to come, you always have a place with me and chris.'

but then the funeral happens and bobby is alive! everything is beautiful and wonderful. and life is great again. except eddie still has to leave. he doesn't mention anything buck said again, but eddie can't stop thinking about it. can't stop thinking about the fact he has felt like something has been missing for months, and he thought he would feel whole again when christopher came to live with him. but being here in LA while he knows chris is waiting for him at home with abuela, well, its the best eddie's felt in a long, long time.

but eddie pushes it down because no, this isn't right. he ignores it, and he still prepares to go back to texas. and the next day, when he goes to leave, he sees buck's face looking so conflicted. but buck doesn't have to speak, eddie already knows. with a hand clasped on buck's shoulder, eddie smiles. 'i'll call you when i get home.' and buck is nodding, but eddie can tell he is trying not to cry. 'it's ok, buck, i know this is where you belong :).' and that sets buck off. 'we belong in the same place', buck says, gritting his teeth. 'this isn't right... i meant what i said, eddie. everything feels wrong and....' buck can't even finish his sentence, but he is looking at eddie with those desperate eyes. and eddie just nods and says 'i know, but they need you here, bud.'

buck is still not doing well emotionally even with bobby being alive, and he says the one thing neither of them have been able to say out loud. his voice is strangled as he asks, 'but what if i need you?' and as soon as he asks, he backpedals... 'ignore me, i know... you have to be with christopher. he wins every time.' but eddie knows that fake smile. his heart is breaking, but he just nods. there's no words left to say. 'i'm sorry.' because he is, they both feel helpless. and buck just nods, his eyes rimmed red, 'i know. i'm sorry too.'

and then eddie goes home to chris. buck and eddie facetime, but there's so much room in every conversation for things that remain unsaid. after a few days, eddie feels like he is going out of his mind. texas was never where he wanted to end up and going back to LA, well it hurt more leaving a second time. so he sits down christopher and they talk. about everything. about how eddie is so happy to be back with his son, but this place, it isn't right for them. about how happy they were in LA. and chris smiles at his dad and says, 'then let's go home :).'

and so eddie and chris choose joy on their own. they go back to LA without telling a soul. they end up on the front porch of south bedford st knocking on that familiar door. and when buck answers wearing an apron covered in sauce with his jaw falling open, eddie grins. buck is on the verge of losing it. 'you came back?' and eddie says 'yeah :) we missed our home. think we can stay for a while?' and buck's eyes are still wide, darting from chris to eddie. 'a while?' and eddie grins, 'at least until the texas house sells, and i can afford to find my own place'

as soon as he says it, it's like that was all buck was waiting to hear. he nearly dives towards them as he wraps his arms around eddie and chris at the same time. turning his face towards eddie's, buck mumbles, 'you came back.' and while eddie can't say the rest out loud yet, he smiles because it feels like his heart is finally whole

[mangonadaeddie]

"I remember you in the handcuffs, crying." - the fact that Oliver said this is insane I had to write something about it. If it isn't obvious this is nsfw

"You are such a fucking brat," Buck breathes into Eddie's mouth. He's got Eddie pressed up the back of their front door at 4995 S Bedford St., fresh off a 3 hour bar hangout with the 118.

Eddie laughs against Buck's teeth, tugging at his belt. "Oh come on, I can't ridicule you a little bit in front of our friends? Maybe put the lid back on the blender next time you turn it on and this won't happen."

Buck's got his hand up Eddie's shirt, kneading at the soft, thin skin of his breast. He pressing against Eddie so hard it makes him dizzy from it. The long line of Buck's legs, the thick denim of his jeans scratching against Eddie's where they grind against each other. Buck's hands on Eddie's chest and hair and under his thighs to hoist him up and lean harder against him. The front door creaks with it, but Eddie isn't going to say anything.

"It's not about the stupid blender story." Buck says, breath hot against Eddie's neck. "It's about how you kept bending over the fucking pool table. How you made me tell you to go get me another drink, when you already know what it means when I slide my glass over."

Eddie's jeans are stretched tight over his lower back, and even tighter around the meat of his ass. He needs them off now, but Buck isn't making any indication that he plans on carrying Eddie over to their bedroom.

"Ohhhhh what, I'm your fucking... waiter? All the sudden?" Eddie asks, pulling away from Buck enough to look him in the eye. Buck just laughs at him. "You don't remember last Saturday evening when May was over complaining about the unfair and uncommunicated expectations her ex-boyfriend put on her?"

Eddie expects Buck to laugh, to kiss him, to kiss him while laughing. What he doesn't expect is for Buck's eyes to darken, for him to smirk, just a little bit.

"I remember you in the handcuffs, crying, a couple hours after."

And if that doesn't shut Eddie up, raise his heartbeat, make his dick twitch... all the above and more. He can't even think of a rebuttal, doesn't get a chance to before Buck pulls him away from the front door, with Eddie's thighs still wrapped around his waist.

Eddie whispers Buck's name as they pass through the hallway, then grunts as he's dropped to the bed. Buck's on him immediately, wrestling his legs to fit back against Buck's sides again even though they're both still in their jeans. Eddie says his name again, desperation just starting to bleed into his voice. Fuck if it doesn't make him crazy when Buck gets rough...

The weight's on him one second, and gone the next, and Eddie's been kissed so hard he's waiting for his vision to stop swimming before he can even think about where Buck went, but when he can, and when he looks, Buck's pulling the handcuffs out of the little bin they keep up on the closet shelf.

"God, Buck," Eddie says. He needs his jeans off now.

"Sorry baby, I can't help it. You're just so pretty when you cry."

Buck's laughing when he falls back into Eddie's arms, when he kisses into Eddie's open mouth.

It makes that little piece of fondness curl up in his chest, and despite himself, he can't help but giggle back.

[bye-bye-sugar-blue-eyes]

Plot points I hope to see in season 8b/9

(this is long because the writers have a lot to make up for)

• Airport scene

• Eddie gives Buck his St. Christopher necklace

• Buck's coping mechanism of briefly turning into slutty Buck 1.0 after Eddie leaves. Only this time it's with guys that resemble Eddie but he doesn't notice. Maddie does. And she wishes desperately that she wasn't pregnant so she could drink

• Buck actually uses the word bisexual or bi to describe himself

• Finally getting to see Eddie's sisters. And maybe while he's in Texas he facetimes Buck and they come into frame. And in true little sister fashion, they embarrass him: "Oh, Edmundo! Is this the Buck we keep hearing about? He IS cute!"

"I never said that!"

Buck: "...you don't think I'm cute? 🥺"

• Maddie, Sofia, and Adrianna meeting and bonding over their dumbass brothers

• Everyone else finds out that Buck is in Eddie's will and they all just stand there, mouths agape cuz how THE FUCK do they not know they're in love?? Everyone else can see it!

• Buck tells literally everyone at the 118 about his feelings for Eddie because he needs advice. And Chim makes a joke like,

"He already has everyone crushing on him! Why can't someone have a crush on me for once??"

"...dude, you're my brother-in-law."

"So?? We don't have to tell Maddie!"

• Buck admits his feelings but Eddie ends up not leaving so Buck avoids him out of embarrassment like jk pranked ya!

• Buck NDE because I NEED to see Eddie lose his shit

• Or they both have a close call and later have a serious 'spousal' discussion about what would happen to Chris if they both died. And then they share a moment of comradery, trash talking Helena & Ramon and hoping they never get custody again

• Speaking of Shitty Parents 2.0 (Shitty Parents 1.0 being the Buckley's) we need more screen time hating on Helena. Ramon got multiple scenes showing how awful he is and Eddie calling him out on it. But Helena is a selfish woman that keeps trying to manipulate Eddie into giving her Chris. And even when Eddie tries to keep in contact with his son while he's in Texas she just brushes him off and doesn't try to get Chris to talk to him. All because she got her way so she doesn't care, pushing Eddie further into his pit of self-hatred. And for that she must be punished

• Eddie talking to Bobby about his Catholic guilt in relation to his sexuality. And then going to Michael for advice about the transition of believing he's straight and having a heterosexual marriage and family to where he is now. The 3 of them need to go on a fishing trip or something. They'd have it all sorted out within the weekend

• Eddie and Maddie having ANY kind of interaction on screen. The writers know that if they teamed up they'd be besties instantly and they're keeping that from us!

• Chris needing dating advice but as soon as his dad tries to help he cuts him off like: "Not from you, you're obviously gay and all of your straight relationships sunk like the Titanic. But thanks anyway. Hey Buck!"

"Wtf? His relationships weren't great either!"

• Eddie having more discussions with Hot Priest™️ about his guilt and he just smiles fondly at Eddie, "I don't know about you, but my god doesn't judge. Not when someone lives their truth. I think you're more afraid of your family's judgement. If I were you, I'd go back and think of every time I thought God was judging me and consider the possibility that I was putting Him in place of my parental figures." and Eddie just blue screens for many minutes as Hot Priest™️ patiently waits for him to catch up as if he hadn't just changed his entire fucking life

• A scene where either Hot Priest™️ or Bobby or Buck asks him: "Would you judge Christopher if he questioned his sexuality?" "What? No." "Would you tell him to go to confessional or try to pray it away?" "Of course not!" "Would you ever discourage him to be anything less than who he truly is? Or stop him from doing something that makes him happy?" "No!" "Then why do it to yourself? Why set that example? Even if it turns out your parents or Abuela aren't comfortable with you exploring your sexuality, you can always do better than them. Break the cycle for the one person who matters most to you. Be happy, be yourself, be what you want to be, not what others expect from you. And I know you, you won't do it for you. So do it for Christopher. Show him that it's okay, great even, to be you."

• Josh getting all giddy while talking to Eddie like he did when Buck asked for gay dating advice

• Eddie talking to Hen and Karen about how they coped with their foster kids leaving. Like, how do wake up every morning to a quieter house and empty bedrooms, knowing the breakfast table is going to be lonely? They exchange bittersweet looks and hug him

I will accept no less than 80% of this becoming canon. Thank you and good night.

[kabr0ztrousers]

Kabr0z Writes episode 118: Road Trip, part 1

Also entitled: On the Road Again

Find the rest of the Kabr0z Writes anthology here!

AO3!

CWs: Unsafe driving; oral sex; enthusiastic consent; heat/rut cycles; being stuck in a car with a musky werewolf

A/N: Fuck it! Writers block hit hard today, so y'all are getting the fun road trip 3-parter instead of anticipated requests.

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Another year, another summer. At least this year, Liam had finally got his car. The trip was simple: Land's End to John O' Groats across two days on the road, avoiding motorways where possible. Really taking in the winding B roads of England and Scotland. From the southernmost to northernmost points of the British mainland.

Getting to Cornwall was comparatively quick, which is a baffling thing to say when dealing with rail transport in the Southwest, but compared to the odyssey ahead of you, it actually was. You've been looking forward to this for months, the last time you saw Liam in person was September, before setting off to university, both of you leaving home and going to different cities. The smug git got into St. Andrews, you were studying in Cardiff. That trip might as well have been a world away.

You stepped off the train, the ocean wind whipping your sundress around your knees, threatening to take the wide-brimmed hat from your head. You set off to the coastline, butterflies in your chest at the thought of seeing your old friend again after so long. You wondered if he'd finally found himself a girlfriend... Or boyfriend, you never know. He'd never shown any interest in girls growing up.

There he was. You'd recognise that goofy nerd from a mile away. Tall and lanky, all ungainly arms and legs, a permanently-wagging tail and one pointed ear flopping down. He'd at least dressed for the weather, like you, although given that he was the sort of guy to wear jorts and flipflops in a blizzard, that may be reading too much into it. You snuck up behind him as he stared through a pair of binoculars, looking out over the endless Atlantic in front of you.

You stood on his left, tapping his right shoulder. You laughed as he turned to look, grabbing him from behind into a hug

"You goober! You always fall for that"

He laughed with you "Knobhead, I was waiting for you"

You let go and he turned around to look at you. He looked exactly the same as he did when you last saw him. It was only 9 months ago, sure, but it felt longer.

"Enjoying the view?" He offered his binoculars to you.

You looked out over the wide, flat ocean. Some tiny islands rose from the sea on the horizon, the shadow of a lighthouse in the haze settling over the cold Atlantic water "Sure is pretty out there"

"Yeah... Real pretty"

You handed him back the binoculars, "So, lunch first or do you want to get this show on the road?"

He laughed and took his car keys out of his pocket "I was thinking of fish and chips, but if you want to get rolling we can find a pub"

You followed him to his car, a slightly dented red Astra, and climbed into the passenger side. A few false starts later, the engine turned over and you were underway. Miles slid past, you told him about your time studying natural history and he regaled you with the kind of maths where you haven't seen an actual number for weeks. There was something about him describing the concepts that may as well have been entirely in Greek for all you understood, maybe the way he got so into the proofs, maybe his soft voice getting so excited when he'd come near the end of a complex proof, maybe just because you hadn't seen him for months and suddenly you're reminded of just how smart he was. You couldn't take your eyes off him.

You slid down country roads, hedgerows either side of you buzzing with life, watching out of the windscreen as you saw brief flashes of ocean as you passed through Cornwall into Devon. Calling out whichever farm animals you saw as the fields.

You started to become aware of a smell in the car. Warm, musty, not unpleasant, but strong. You cracked a window, still the smell didn't dissipate. You looked over to your driver. Liam was gripping the wheel hard, panting slightly as his jaw clenched.

"You OK? You want to take a rest?"

He looked at you. You'd never seen that look on his face before. It was like he'd just hiked across a desert, and you were a cold beer. You realised what the smell was. Your eyes flickered to his lap. His jorts were tight, his manhood pitching a tent in them.

Your breath left you. Your chest was so tight, like you'd just ran a mile. You swallowed hard, unbuckling your seatbelt and leaning over to him. He sighed as you unbuttoned his pants, springing free as you pulled down the band of his boxers.

You'd never realised he was this big. You could fit both of your hands next to each other on him and still have more cock left over. That's not even including the knot, thick and throbbing already. You wrapped one hand around the base of it, hearing him groan as you squeezed gently. The smell was so much stronger now. You could feel yourself getting wet, a spreading heat filling you as you inhaled his scent.

You kissed it, feeling it twitch as you did. It jerked to attention, swelling a moment as a pump of precum oozed from the tip, intensifying the smell as it rolled down his shaft and got on your hand.

"Do you want me to suck it?" You whispered, not sure he could hear you over the engine

His left hand left the wheel, grabbing the back of your neck where it met your skull. He guided you to the tip, your tongue reaching for it as you helped him guide you in. You half-lay over the centre console, one hand on his cock, the other propping you up. The tip was touching your lips, smearing them with the sticky-sweet pre. "Don't worry" you whispered "I can take it"

You weren't as sure as you made out. He believed in you though.

His hand pushed down on you. You opened wide, careful to shield your teeth with your lips so as not to catch him. He slid deep into your mouth. You felt him at the back of your throat. You were a little less than halfway down. He wasn't moving you, letting you acclimatise to having his cock leaking in your mouth before he did anything.

You bobbed your head a little, hearing him breathe. Your hand left his knot, reaching around to rest on his, still gently holding your neck. You squeezed his hand, moving it up and down as you did, wordlessly instructing him.

He always was a quick learner. He pushed your head down onto him, gently at first, but getting firmer with your encouraging murmurs until he was using you like you wanted. His cock hit the back of your throat, making gagging noises as he bruised your soft palette. You could hear his groans. He was getting close. Your tightened your grip on his knot. Groans turned to growls as he throbbed harder in your mouth. You were already gulping down his precum when he finally let go, forcing you as deep as he could.

You felt his cum in your throat, thick and hot, swallowing greedily. You felt him pulling the car over, then the other hand grabbed your head as well. He used your face, still pumping ropes of cum into you while he milked himself with your mouth. You shivered as you tasted the salty, slightly bitter fluid, feeling it coat your mouth as you struggled to swallow it all.

At last his balls relaxed, knot still engorged, slouching in his seat. A gasping, panting, grinning mess.

He flinched when you kissed his overly-sensitive cock "Sorry about that... I forgot my rut suppressants... Thought it wouldn't be this bad"

You kissed his cock again, then his nose "Tell you what, when we get to the hotel, you can return the favour"

This is going to be the best road trip

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As usual when I publish in the morning, this is yesterday's episode coming late, rather than today's coming early.

Tonight and tomorrow will be the second and third parts of the story, and I have a nice happy ending planned for our two lovebirds. Hope you all enjoy 😁

As normal, if you do have a request please feel free to drop me an ask about it and it'll go into the queue! You can request anything, but if you've read this far, you'll know the requests are often more of an inspiration than a hard-and-fast brief.

You get what you pay for, after all 🤣

[nandsmi]

my current obsession (buddie/9-1-1) often overlaps with my old obsession (steddie/st) and I can't get it out of my head that it would be a great idea for a fic

The 118 answering to a call at Eddie Munson's manor, famous (retired) rockstar Eddie Munson, well into his fifty-something years old, living peacefully in LA with his lovely pretty husband, Steve Harrington.

Steve, who greets them with a slightly bored and embarrassed expression. He guides them as he explains that Eddie got stuck in the studio vent, convinced that something was inside, probably delirious after having spent the last 72 hours awake and high, composing.

Bobby, assuring: Don't worry, sir, we'll get your husband out of there in no time.

Steve, mean girl mode on: Oh, please, do not bother, take your time. Maybe he will learn a lesson or two, this once.

Hen, midly worried: This happen a lot?

Steve: Eddie being a menace? It is his natural state, but I guess he never have being trapped in the vent before, no.

And naturally, Buddie. I can't decide what scenario I like more:

1. Eddie Diaz, huge fanboy, trying to being professional around his all-time favorite rockstar, but failling awkwardly. And Buck is so jealous about it, glaring at Munson while Steve is watching them, thinking "I can't wait to tell Robin about this", pat-pat Eddie's head once in a while so he would let be treat.

2. Buck aroused by Eddie Munson because omg what is happening that all the men named Eddie are this dark-haired-bambi-eyes deadly beautiful combo? And why Mr. Munson' husband is blushing and obviously flirting with his Eddie?

3. Steve Harrington, pretty boy aged like wine with powerfull DILF/MILF energy, shameless flirting with these hot firefighters, while in the background his husband is severely dehydrated and delirious while Chim is trying to hook up an IV on him unsuccessfully

4. Eddie, dehydrated and delirious, see a blob of blonde hair and blue eyes in front of him, asking him if he is okay and logically concludes "oh, that's Robin" and says before faints "Wow, Buckley, you' huge" and Buck, confused as hell because "how famous singer eddie munson knows my name?"

Also, maybe Robin is visiting Steddie's house and they got stuck or whatever consequences of their shenanigans and they're so embarrassed about it and Steve is almost giving up and calling 9-1-1 when Robin remembers that her baby cousin is a firefighter in LA. Imagine how suprised Buck is to receive a call from "Aunt Rob" in the middle of the night asking him to come by with a chainsaw.

Eddie, huge fanboy of Corrored Coffin, never suspected his best friend has a conection with THE Eddie Munson, but suddenly they are at a manor and Buck is calling Eddie Munson "Uncle Eds". Steve Harrington is "Uncle Stevie". And apparently Buck spent his summers as a teenager with his dad's cousin before Robin came out to her family.

[ivegotyourbackbuddie]

The Wrong Buckley. Part One of Six. Ao3 Link.

For once in Buck's life, things are starting to feel normal again.

Bobby and Athena's new place is filled with all his favorite people for what they're calling a "Welcome Home" party - a mix of a housewarming party, a welcome back for the Diaz boys, and a celebration for all the 118 members who are out of their quarantine.

Buck thinks it might be the greatest party he's ever been to, even though he's the only 118 member who isn't technically being celebrated. But with Eddie and Chris filling his home–their home?–with laughter and their own style of chaos, Buck can’t help but feel like, for once in his life, his house is a home. Even with the perpetual crick in his neck from insisting he's okay to sleep on Eddie's couch, this might be the happiest he has ever been.

Maybe it's time for a new software update. Buck 4.0: The new and improved happy Buck who has his whole family back.

It has a nice ring to it.

He glances around the backyard, searching for Eddie so he can fill him in on the news, only for his eyes to land on the empty seat next to Karen.

Huh. Usually, he's better at keeping tabs on Eddie, but the new design of the place is throwing him off his game a bit. Plus, he can barely keep his eyes off where Chris is chatting with Mara, Denny, and Jee, still amazed by how much the boy has grown up since Buck last saw him.

Buck clears his throat and wipes at his right eye quickly, trying not to get emotional about how much everyone is growing up.

"You okay, kid?"

Buck glances up to find Bobby, spatula in hand, wearing his "Kiss the Chef" apron Buck had gotten him as a gag gift, looking down at him with an amused smile.

"Yeah," Buck replies, smiling back at him, "Just thinking about how fast the time goes by, you know?"

Bobby glances over at the younger kids before sparing a glance at where Harry and May are talking with Athena and Ravi. His gaze settles on Buck, eyes lost in thought before he comes back to the present moment, searching for something that's no longer there. "I know," Bobby says, nostalgia heavy in his tone.

It all feels a little too bittersweet for such a lighthearted evening, so Buck gestures to the apron and asks, “Why don't I help you with the grill?"

Bobby chuckles and points the spatula at him. "You can man the grill when you have a get-together at your own place."

And isn't that a thought? Everyone gathering at Bedford St. for an evening hosted by him and the Diazes.

"I'll have to ask Eddie about that. Speaking of Eddie, have you seen him?" Buck can't help but ask.

"I haven't. Maybe check inside the house."

Buck nods, ignoring how Bobby's amused smile graces his face again, and heads inside. As soon as he steps in, he hears Eddie's voice from the new living room. "Hey, I've been meaning to thank you for that picture."

Buck frowns, wondering who else is inside, but his question is quickly answered when he hears his sister's voice reply, "It's a good one, isn't it?"

As Buck rounds the corner, he sees Eddie, head ducked down shyly as his face flames red in a way Buck has never seen before. "Uh, yeah. It really was."

Maddie laughs and reaches out, hand settling on Eddie's arm and squeezing his bicep. Buck takes a full step into the room, glancing around to see who else is in on whatever picture they're talking about, only to find the rest of the space empty. "Well, maybe you should actually-"

"Hey, Buck!" Eddie nearly shouts as he spots him.

Maddie startles, hand shooting back as she steps away from Eddie with a nervous smile.

It's... weird. Suspicious, even, but Buck doesn't want to go down that path of destructive thinking. Instead, he asks, "Since when do you two talk?" Okay, and yeah, maybe it comes out as a bit accusatory when he just told himself he's not going there, but it's a valid question.

"Come on, Buck," Eddie says, trying to brush him off with a nervous chuckle, "Is it so weird to find me talking to my best friend's sister?"

Maddie's face scrunches up at Eddie's wording, and she shoots him a look that has Eddie immediately stuttering out, "A-And my friend's wife?"

"Not helping," Maddie whispers under her breath, but Buck, having grown up with ears always on alert for those whispers, catches it immediately.

Eddie crosses his arms defensively and opens his mouth to say something, only to be cut off by Maddie, who calmly explains, "We started talking more when he moved to Texas. At first, I was answering a question he had for Howie since our place was also a fixer-upper, but then we talked every so often about Jee-yun and Christopher. And after the um..." Maddie trails off, hand coming up to trail over the faint scar on her throat.

Eddie finishes the thought for her, "I shared a little bit about my own PTSD, and we found out we had a lot more in common than we thought." Maddie nods, eyes more tired and sad than they were before. "And we've always been family because of you and the 118, but... now we're also friends.”

Maddie's eyes soften as she looks at Eddie, fondness and gratitude overwhelmingly evident in her gaze.

Buck looks between the two of them, unsure entirely what to say and trying so hard to not make it about him for once. "Uh," he starts, ever so gracefully, "Well, I..." He takes a deep breath and tries one more time, plastering on a fake smile and everything. "I'm happy for you guys. I mean, you're the two most important people in my life besides Christopher and Jee-Yun, so of course I'm glad you guys are friends." He opens his arms and says, "Come here," tugging them into a group hug that he thinks may have oversold the idea that he's perfectly okay with their friendship they kept from him for some reason.

But Maddie and Eddie are both smiling when they all step away. Eddie even jokes, "You're not going to maim my ankle over this, are you?"

Buck cringes while Maddie and Eddie laugh loudly, and he suddenly understands why they may have kept this from him. "As long as you two aren't secretly talking about me behind my back, then we'll be okay."

Something about the comment seems to fluster them, but Maddie is quick to distract him by asking, "You mean, I can't tell Eddie the reason why magnets were banned in our house growing up?"

"No!" Buck is quick to yell, eyes darting to Eddie, who is already giving Maddie a mischievous you'll have to tell me later look. "I take it back, I don't like that you two are friends."

They both laugh again before heading back outside, Maddie giving Eddie a discreet look before she goes over to Chimney. Buck tries his hardest not to overanalyze it, but when he sees the way Eddie flushes bright red again, he knows he won't be able to let it go.

-:-:-:-:-:-

“Buck, did you hear me?” Eddie asks.

“Hmm?” Buck hums in response. He’s glad that Eddie had suggested he drive the three of them to Grant-Nash’s place because he’s unable to focus on anything other than his internal spiral.

When they hit a red light, Eddie glances at him. “I asked if your neck is okay.”

Buck’s hand drops from where he was absentmindedly rubbing at a knot in his neck. “It’s fine.”

“Buck–”

“All good. I swear.”

Chris chooses this moment to pry his eyes away from his phone. “I thought lying was something we’re all working on not doing.”

Buck’s jaw drops as he looks back at the teen who just shrugs at his betrayed look.

“He’s right, you know,” Eddie says, trying to hide his proud smile. “No lying here.”

Buck sighs and hesitantly confesses, “Okay, the couch has been a little uncomfortable to sleep on for an extended amount of time. But we can just get another couch!”

“We already have two in the living room, Buck.”

“Yeah? And do you want to be the one to tell Margaret Buckley that the couch she chose is terrible to sleep on, so we had to get rid of it?”

Eddie’s face scrunches up into an exaggerated frown, and Buck can see Chris shaking his head out of the corner of his eye. Looks like they’ll be couch shopping soon.

But as Buck pulls out his phone to search nearby furniture stores, Chris drops a bomb on them. “Why don’t you two just share Dad’s bed? It’s not like it’s small. Plus, we won’t have to waste time or money on a new couch. And maybe the walls will muffle Buck’s snoring.”

Buck and Eddie both share a look, wondering if Chris has had this little speech prepared for some time since they’ve gotten back. But Buck can practically see the moment that the words register for Eddie as they come to a harsh stop at another light.

Buck gives him a look.

“Sorry,” Eddie mumbles, the tips of his ears turning pink.

Buck shifts in his seat a bit uncomfortably, trying not to think about why the two of them are so thrown by the suggestion. It’s not like they didn’t share a bed during the beginning of their covid quarantine, but Buck also hadn’t realized he was bi at that point. “I can sell my couch and use the money for a new one.”

Eddie lets out a deep breath and shakes his head. “No, we can share the bed. It was a good suggestion. Thank you, Chris.”

Chris gives him a mhm, and Buck thinks he might hear him whisper, “Finally,” under his breath. They might need to have a conversation about the mumbling at a later time, but right now, Buck is dedicating his time to staring at Eddie while trying to figure out what he’s really thinking. He goes off his tone, which was tense, the words short, and the steering wheel he has in a white knuckled grip that can’t be good.

But now is not the time to pry about it with Chris in the car. Luckily, they’re not far from the house.

When they turn onto Bedford Street, Chris announces he’s going to play some video game with his friends in his room for the night, and Buck is grateful, for once, that it’ll give him and Eddie some time to properly talk. But when they get inside, Eddie is immediately typing away at his phone, asking Buck briefly if he wants a beer, which he declines.

“Hey, Eddie?”

He glances up.

“I don’t mind taking the couch if you feel uncomfortable. I get that you need your own space, and I don’t want to invade it.”

Eddie sets his phone down on the kitchen table and gives Buck his full attention. “You could never make me uncomfortable or invade my space, Buck. If you prefer to sleep on the couch, you can tell me.”

“No!” Buck says a little too quickly. “I mean, I would love to sleep in a proper bed. And your mattress is better than mine, right? That’s why we tossed it out.”

Eddie nods sharply, lips pursed. “Yeah, that’s why we tossed it.” There’s something in there that probably needs to be unpacked, but Eddie is quick to move on. “Let’s get you settled in.” He passes Buck with a pat on the shoulder, heading toward his room.

The whole thing feels a little weird because it’s not like Buck has never been in Eddie’s room before – hell, he was sleeping there for a few months. But now that it’s back to being Eddie’s - with a mix of Buck’s things for safekeeping - it feels… almost off-limits. Maybe because the only moment they’ve really spent quality time in there was to patch things up after Eddie turned his room into a warzone, which isn’t the greatest of memories shared between them. Now, they somewhat share the space in the mornings because of their combined closet and dresser, but it’s all in passing. Buck wakes Eddie up with coffee, Eddie drinks it in grumpy silence while Buck picks out his outfit for the day, and then Buck leaves to shower and get ready while Eddie wakes up.

They’ve gotten used to this routine recently, so Buck can’t help but linger in the doorway now that it’s nighttime.

“You should’ve said something sooner about your neck.”

Buck winces as he realizes he was unconsciously rubbing at it again. “It’s not that bad.”

Eddie gives him a look and waves him inside the room. “Come here.”

He finally crosses the threshold, walking over to Eddie who puts a firm hand on his shoulder and says, “Sit,” as he guides Buck to the edge of the bed. His hand lingers on his shoulder, then trails to the back of his neck, kneading at the muscle. The whole thing makes Buck a little dizzy.

“Damn, Buck. You have a knot the size of Texas back here.”

Buck frowns. “Please don’t mention Texas.”

Eddie chuckles as he shifts onto the bed behind Buck. His fingers expertly dig at the tense muscles, and Buck’s hands fist into the sheets. He hums as he feels the knot loosen, letting out a soft, “Fuck,” when Eddie digs his thumb harshly into it.

“Sorry,” Eddie whispers, voice low.

“Feels good,” Buck groans as Eddie works at it again.

There’s a buzzing noise to Buck’s left, and he glances down, seeing his phone lit up with a text from Maddie. He goes to grab it, only to have Eddie beat him to it, which is when he remembers his phone is in his pocket. It makes his stomach twist a bit.

“What are you guys talking about?” Buck tries to ask casually.

Eddie types away behind him, sending a message before putting the phone on the bed, face down. “Just about how it’s nice to be back is all.”

Buck doesn’t say anything as Eddie resumes the massage. Only grunting and trying to muffle any moans as he wonders if there’s a particular reason why he’s so good at this.

He wants to ask, opening his mouth to say, “Eddie,” only for his name to turn into a breathy moan as the knot fully releases. Eddie’s fingers falter on his neck, gripping hard for a moment before pulling back.

“Bathroom,” Eddie says suddenly, grabbing his phone and clambering off the bed.

Buck turns to watch him leave, getting distracted by the fact that his neck doesn’t protest as he starts to roll his head around experimentally. He wonders if this is something he can request from Eddie more often.

He stands up to get a glass of water from the kitchen, remembering something he read about hydrating after massages to clear the body of toxins released, opening Eddie’s door, and finding the bathroom door cracked open. He’s about to pass it when he hears Eddie mumbling to himself, “Get it together.” Buck cautiously peers into the small opening, catching a glimpse of Eddie staring at himself in the mirror, fingers gripping the edge of the porcelain sink as he shakes his head and says, “I can’t believe I’m in love with a Buckley.”

It's a miracle Buck doesn’t pass out on the spot.

He takes a stumbling step back into Eddie’s room, somehow managing to close the door quietly in his haze. Although it’s entirely possible that he just slammed it because he can’t hear anything over the whooshing in his ears.

He doesn’t know how he didn’t see it before.

Eddie is in love with Maddie.

-:-:-:-:-:-

Buck must have heard Eddie wrong.

Maybe he said something like “I can’t believe I live with a Buckley.”

But Buck knows Eddie. He’s always been able to figure out what he’s saying, whether it’s under his breath on a ride to a call or stuttered through a mouthful of Buck’s lasagna.

And when he came back into the room with a glass of water for Buck, he had put his phone on the nightstand face down again. The only other time he had done that around Buck was right before Kim blew up their lives.

This isn’t a Kim situation, though. Eddie isn’t self-destructive enough to do that so soon after getting Chris back.

…Right?

Plus, Buck knows Maddie. She would never do anything to risk the happiness of the family she’s built with Chimney. Even if that means never being with Eddie.

Buck’s not sure if he could be as strong as Maddie, considering it’s Eddie - he would set his entire world on fire for him.

My god. What if it runs in the Buckley genes?

“Buck,” Eddie whispers in the darkness.

Buck pretends to be asleep.

“I know you’re not asleep.”

He tries a little harder.

Eddie sighs. The bed shifts, and Buck can practically feel Eddie’s gaze on him. “Throw in some snores and you might be convincing.”

Finally, Buck cracks an eye open and squints at him in the darkness. As his eyes adjust to the dark, he catches the exasperated amusement in Eddie’s gaze. “I’m awake,” Buck begrudgingly whispers.

“I’m shocked,” Eddie jokes. Buck opens both eyes to glare at him.

A silence settles between them as they stare at each other. Buck eventually shifts onto his side, mirroring Eddie’s position. “Can’t sleep?”

Eddie shakes his head. “Not with you thinking so loud.”

Buck tries to shift the topic away from Eddie's inevitable question. “I read a study about telepathic abilities. They used an MRI to study the brain of a person who claimed to be telepathic versus someone who didn’t have the ability while they both tried to do a telepathic task.”

“And?”

“The telepathic person’s brain lit up on the right side, and the other person's brain lit up on the left side. I’ll have to show you the article sometime.”

Eddie hums. “I’d like that. Chris would probably think it was cool, too.”

“Yeah.”

Eddie reaches out to smooth the creases on the comforter between them. “So, why were you lighting up the right side of my brain so much?”

There's the question. “You think you have telepathic abilities?”

Eddie smiles the way he does whenever he thinks Buck says something outlandish. “I think I have the ability to tell whenever my best friend isn’t able to sleep because he’s thinking too hard.”

Buck looks down at the creases between them, taking his turn to smooth them out. Eddie’s hand reaches out and settles over his, stopping the anxious movement.

“Are you okay?” Eddie asks quietly.

Honestly, Buck doesn’t know. He was okay before his revelation – beyond okay, really. And now?

It’s not like he can say, I’m spiraling because I heard you say you’re in love with my sister. And the only person he rants to about Eddie stuff is Maddie which he clearly can’t do now. So, he settles on saying the closest thing to the truth that he can, “I’m happy everyone is back and things are going back to normal. It’s just…” he trails of with a sigh, moving to lay on his back which means regretfully pulling his hand out from under Eddie’s. “I’m scared I might lose someone or everyone, and I don’t know if I can handle anyone else leaving again.”

The bed shifts as Eddie turns to stare at the ceiling, clasping his hands together over his stomach. A few moments pass before Eddie whispers, “I’m sorry for leaving you.”

The words are an arrow straight through Buck’s heart. “Eddie, you… you didn’t leave me.”

“I did, Buck. And I know it was the right thing to do for Christopher, but–”

“There’s no ‘buts’ about it,” Buck easily cuts him off. “You’re right. It was the right thing to do for Christopher, and he will always come first. I would watch you leave a hundred times more if it means you were doing what’s right for him.”

“Buck…” Eddie’s voice sounds watery, but Buck ignores it.

“Plus, it’s not like you abandoned me. We Facetimed and texted more than I’ve done with anyone else in my life, including Abby after she first left for Europe.”

Abby’s name makes Eddie groan, his arms uncrossing with a sigh, causing his hand to brush against where Buck’s is lying between them. He doesn’t move it. “It doesn’t take much to be a better person than Abby was.”

Buck turns his head to look at Eddie. “If it wasn’t for Abby, I would still be Buck one-point-oh.”

Eddie looks back at him, his gaze traveling over him. “Not after you met me.”

He doesn’t know what exactly Eddie means by that, but it makes his heart skip a beat. “Yeah?” Buck asks, the darkness making him feel a little bolder as he presses the back of his hand against Eddie’s.

Eddie’s hand pushes back before shifting over Buck's slowly until their palms are pressing together. Buck holds his breath as Eddie’s fingers slowly intertwine with his. He squeezes his hand tightly as he answers, “Yeah.”

Everything from the day and night goes out the window as Buck’s mind zeroes in on the connecting point between him and Eddie. He thinks he might be dreaming.

“This okay?” Eddie says so quietly that Buck nearly doesn’t catch it.

He nods and squeezes his hand. “Yes.”

The silence between them is tense and drawn out. After a few minutes, he wonders if Eddie has fallen asleep until he breaks the silence. “No one else is going to leave, Buck. Especially not me.” He turns to look at him. "We're going to be okay."

A flash of Eddie at the sink comes back to Buck, filling him with a wave of fear. But maybe, just maybe, Buck heard him wrong. “We're going to be okay," Buck echoes.

“We are,” Eddie states with finality. After a moment, his thumb soothingly rubs over Buck’s a few times before stopping with a squeeze. “Goodnight, Buck.”

“Goodnight, Eddie.”

Neither of them let go.

Part Two

[buddierecs]

demisexual!eddie diaz buddie fics

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the aftermath of liberation and love confessions by: elvensorceress "in which eddie comes out, sexuality is complicated but coffee is not, buck makes an excessive salad and is also roasted, everyone has a love confession, and december is the most dramatic time of year." word count: 17k important tags: idiots in love, coming out, love confessions, buckley-diaz family, getting together on the road with you, where everything makes sense (series) by: goforeddie "the demisexual eddie díaz series" word count: 17k important tags: getting together, soft!buddie, bisexual!evan buckley, gay!eddie diaz, asexual!eddie diaz eddie vs romance (series) by: allyasavedtheday "eddie diaz vs the great romance paradigm." word count: 27k important tags: character study, therapy, emotional hurt/comfort, falling in love, feelings realisation running out of reasons by: bptlmevyentc "buck ponders all the reasons why he and eddie should never, ever, ever be together." word count: 19k important tags: idiots in love, slow burn, mutual pining 'till our fingers decompose keep my hands in yours by: heartbeatdiaz "five crucial moments in life where buck and eddie hold hands." word count: 6.1k important tags: fluff, light angst, slow dancing, getting together, soft!buddie, mutual pining, coming out i think i've been having revelations (and really weird dreams) by: the11thtardis "buck is no longer with tommy... also he just realized his feelings for eddie might be more than platonic. oh, and eddie is having weird dreams and questioning his life choices, especially when it comes to the women in his life..." word count: 70k important tags: pre-relationship, getting together, jealous!eddie diaz, feelings realisation, gay!eddie diaz forever by: all-or-nothing-baby "buck tries to help eddie with the clasp on his st. christopher chain and eddie promptly loses his mind." word count: 1.5k important tags: soft!buddie, fluff, possessive!eddie diaz, coming out, friends to lovers it's not in the color of my eyes, but in the depths that they hold by: reallysmartladymariecurie "five times that eddie hears of firefighter buckley from the 118 performing dangerous stunts, and the one time that eddie aids him in the process. (with the added bonus of eddie having a full-blown sexuality crisis throughout)" word count: 12k important tags: different first meeting au, 5+1 things, humour, sexuality crisis, angst with a happy ending if i should fall by: elvensorceress "a accident leaves the love of buck's life dying in a hospital, leading him to evaluate the life he has, the life he wants, and where his heart belongs." word count: 23k important tags: angst, near death experiences, minor buck/tommy, getting together, pining, hurt/comfort, injury recovery there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head by: underhung_aura "eddie comes out to buck, receives a quirky mug, and gets together with the love of his life. in that order." word count: 8.7k important tags: coming out, getting together, love confessions, feeling realisations, soft!buddie, fluff parenthood by: on_mars "eddie comes out to bobby and they have a chat about his feelings for buck" word count: 2k important tags: supportive!bobby nash, idiots in love, mutual pining, love confessions, first kiss 8:53 p.m. on a sunday night by: kingdomclouds "buck acts like christopher's dad and it makes eddie realize a few things." word count: 3.3k important tags: family fluff, angst, soft!buddie, miscommunication, love confession, hurt/comfort, happy ending clear priorities, easy decisions by: eightpackdiaz "bobby's in hospital, eddie's life is a mess, and buck makes his priorities pretty clear to all those around him." word count: 5.3k important tags: boys in love, taking care of each other, hurt!bobby nash, angst, hurt/comfort, love confessions, getting together