#THE ONLY FUCKERS I CARE ABOUT IM SO SERIOUS.

[butchdykekondraki]

KATIE KILLJOY TRANSSEXUAL ICON... MY ONLY FUCKING WIN IN THIS ENTIRE GODDAMN SERIES

[luvyeni]

HAVING A THREESOME 𖹭 엔하이픈 ( reaction ) !

genre smut 𖹭 warning threesomes , gxg mxm mxf themes, unprotected sex , pegging, sub jake — parings enhypen hyung line x fem reader | back to library .

— how enhypen would feel when you ask them for a threesome.

「 authors note 𖹭 」 my first time writing a enha member as a sub and i'm not mad at it.

﹙ 𐙚 : heeseung﹚ .ᐟ

heeseung is freaky so i think he definitely would be interested in having a threesome; he wouldn't mind having one with a girl but it wouldn't be his first choice , he doesn't really feel all too comfortable with fucking another girl but he's not gonna lie , watching you kiss a girl would be hot , but he definitely doesn't want to kiss her. i think he'd want to fuck you with one of his friends , jake or sunghoon. he want to watch them fuck you , before he does , most likely be into double penetration as well , both of them fucking you at the same time , he just want to show how pretty his girl looks while she's being fucked past her limits by his friend.

"see how pretty she looks when she's cumming , keep fucking her and watch her squirt."

﹙ 𐙚 : jay﹚ .ᐟ

jay would never agree to a threesome, he's way too territorial over you , and he definitely doesn't want to fuck another girl. if you ask him ; he's gonna laugh , thinking you're joking, but when he notices that you're serious his entire faces changes. "you seriously asking me this?" he's pissed off that you would even think about that. "what you want me to fuck another girl , cause that's not happening and if you think im bringing another man in here , like one of my friends you're cute baby but you're as dumb as they come." will end up fucking you right there , face down ass up; showing you that you don't need anyone else in the bed room to pleasure you , make sure you never ask a dumb ass question like that again.

"next time you want me to fuck you dumb just ask , don't ask stupid questions to piss me off."

﹙ 𐙚 : jake﹚ .ᐟ

this mother fucker here , he's down for anything; one of his friends or one of yours he's down either way, jake isn't afraid to admit he'd be down to kiss another dude , like his members , he's also not afraid to admit that he wants to be used by too pretty girls , tie him up and use him , toying and using his cock while he can't do anything but cry and shoot blanks, begging you both to stop even though he doesn't want you too , having you sit on his cock , and the girl sitting on his face , he's in heaven. "let's try something different baby." his eyes widened when you pull out the strapon , he's nervous because he's never had anything up there before but he's such a good boy so he takes it like a champ , he's not gonna lie he did like it more than he thought it would. when he's all gone and fucked out , you let the girl leave and you go take care of your baby.

"i did good right?" "so good baby , you did so good."

﹙ 𐙚 : sunghoon﹚ .ᐟ

he'd say no at first— he likes fucking you and that's it , but of you really want one he might let it go once , but he has to pick who it is— he chooses sunoo , he thinks sunoo would be the perfect person , simply because he know inexperienced sunoo wouldn't fuck you as well as he would and he knew you wouldn't ask again— everyone wins. he'd guide both of you through the entire thing , making sure you both came , showing sunoo how to make you cum , and cum you did. once sunoo left , sunghoon wasn't finished , now he wanted to let you know that it would be the only time someone fucked you besides him , and that no one could fuck you as good as he could.

"he barely made you cum , you see nobody else could make you cum like i can , so don't ask again."

©LUVYENI

[jaiistg]

Karma Akabane who is whipped for reader

"I guess I'm stuck forever by the glue, oh, and you"

•You and Karma met because of his and your's parents !! They knew that you two would get along so well,infact you two did get along...Maybe a little too well,to the fact he got attached to you.

•His parents shipped you both together when Young karma asked them why does his hard beats super fast whenever he sees you and wanting to always be by your side.HIS MOM WAS ALL LIKE "MY BABY BOY IS GROWING UP !!!"

•You and Karma are classmates on class 3-A, that was until this fucker got suspended and was now in class 3-E🙄 he would help you with subjects your struggling with.

•After his suspension he couldn't stop thinking about you like "how is she doing?" "Does she miss me?" One day he saw you hanging out with his one and only rival Asano Gakushuu.He didn't blame you since him and Assano🙄 were your only friends.

•He thought he was being slick with hiding his feelings for you that was until he got exposed by koro sensei because HE KEEPS DODDLING YOU ON HIS NOTEBOOK,he was so fluttered he can't even look at koro-sensei in the eye...tsk tsk hope you learn your lesson next time Karma~

•Ever since his classmates found out that he likes you THEY KEEP TEASING HIM AND HE CAN'T HELP BUT BLUSH😭.

•Everytime he sees you the world stops.Its as if you two are the only people in this world.This dude wants to approach you and ask how your doing but is too afraid because he hasn't spoken to you for a long time.

•Eventually,you guys talked and it felt like nothing has changed,He dosent know what he was so afraid of...

•He sometimes gets lonely on his house because his parents are always at work so he calls you and ask's if you can come over,and ofc you said yes.

•His house,the place where you guys first met and also the place where you guys became official<33.

•It turns out you guys are smitten for eachother but can't seem to confess to one another.How did they found out about each other's feelings? Truth or dare.Yeah you heared me right Truth or dare.

(name-chan) truth or dare he asked?

(name) can see his smirk.what is he up to now..? As she face palmed."Truth"

Have you ever liked someone in our school? Karma asked curiously secretly hoping she'd say yes and say it is him

(name) was caught of-guard.Since when did he care about things like this? She thought.

Fine,Yes I had a crush on someone.I still have a crush on them tho...She mumbled the last part but Karma can hear it.

Its your turn now strawberry! Truth or dare (name) said excitingly

He can't help but find her cute."Dare,im not a coward like you!" He said jokingly

Hey!! (Name) said clearly offended."If you have a crush on someone can you text them and confess?"

"What."

"Pleaseeeeeeeeee"

Ofc he couldn't say no to her.So he did it.

Wait someone texted me (name) said

She was shocked.She looked up from the screen and saw karma smiling at her with a tint of blush on his cheeks.

"Is this....True?"

"Duhh,why would I lie to you about what I feel?" he said chuckling but also serious about what he said

I..."

"you?

"I like you too."

"HUH ARE YOU FOR REA-"

•Has he died and went to heaven?? Are you sure you'll go to heaven? Lmaooalakka THE (NAME) LIKES HIM BACK??? SOMEONE SAVE THIS MAN FROM PASSING OUT.

•And yeah! That's what happened, after you two became official you guys told both of his and your's parents !! They were happy that you two got together.

[unknownperson246]

can you write izzy dating an older woman, please?

Hii hope you enjoy it 💋.

Young For Me

words: 1,024

warnings: *fluff* *age gap* *use of alcohol* *cussing* *excuse the grammar*

☆ ★ ✮ ★ ☆☆ ★ ✮ ★ ☆☆ ★ ✮ ★ ☆☆ ★ ✮ ★ ☆ It was the year 1991 when you were 36 and your boyfriend Izzy was 29. Izzy kept the both of you out of the public eye because he was scared about people discussing your relationship. Izzy is a quiet and private guy and you're a quiet and reserved woman. You both would like to keep it that way. You were sitting in Izzy's apartment. Izzy was a funny, soft, and sweet man but his fans see him as a serious person. He has only shown a comforting personality to the people he is close to.

“Izzy I want to go out hon” You announce to Izzy.

“You sure Y/N I mean us going together in public will create speculation,” Izzy says.

“Maybe it's time we should go out in public you know? I want people to see us together at least once,” you suggest.

“Okay just this once but we have to be careful okay? I don’t want the paparazzi or random people taking photos of us” Izzy says.

Izzy throws on his leather jacket underneath his white v-neck. You both put on your helmets that were hanging on Izzy's motorcycle. You get on the back of his motorcycle. Izzy gets in front of you. You start to straddle your boyfriend. You finally get to his favorite place to eat. 

“Luckily no one has recognized me yet,” Izzy says with his sunglasses on.

The waitress comes over.

“Here is your menu, just order whenever you're ready.” The waitress says with a smile on her face.

You both decide what you want and order it. Someone from another table approaches you and Izzy.

“Hi I'm a huge fan,” She says trying not to squeal at Izzy

“Can I get an autograph?” She asks kindly.

“Sure,” Izzy says smiling. 

The fan leaves to go get a paper and a pen and Izzy gets very nervous that if one person already recognized him that soon there would probably be paparazzi storming around the two of you. 

“Izzy it's going to be okay this isn't a large crowd so we're not going to be recognized by the paparazzi,” You say reassuringly while holding his hand.

The fan comes back after a couple of moments and the fan hands Izzy the piece of paper and the pen. 

“What's your name?” Izzy asks her.

“It's Katie,” She says smiling.

Izzy swiftly signs the paper. It has his signature on it and it says.

“To Katie from Izzy” 

Izzy smiles and returns the paper and pen to Katie.

“Have a nice day Izzy” Katie says smiling.

“You too,” Izzy says to her softly.

“See I told you it'd be fine Iz,” You say softly.

“I know some encounters with fans were bad because they were assholes,” You say to Izzy.

“Yeah biggest assholes I've ever seen,” Izzy says nervously.

You both finished your lunch together and hopped on the bike to head home. While driving home someone shouts something mean to you and Izzy.

“How come an old woman like you is dating a nice young man?” Someone shouts from another car. 

You don't say anything back instead you just flip the fucker off. Once you get home you open the door and put your helmet down in a frustrated manner. 

“Izzy I don't think we should date anymore I'm too old for you,” You say insecurely.

“Look at me Y/N who the fuck cares. It doesn't matter what anyone says as long as we both love each other that should be enough.”  Izzy explains to you.

“You sure im not too old for you Izzy?” You ask.

“No, age doesn't matter you're perfect for me hon, and im perfect for you,” Izzy says reassuringly.

You start to smile and you guys cuddle in the bedroom while watching a movie. Izzy starts to have a flashback to when you guys met.

*FLASHBACK*

Izzy had never dated an older woman before and he wasn't planning on it. Once he saw you it changed his perspective. You were gorgeous and there was something about you that was so alluring. You had gorgeous blonde hair with brown eyes and you had a barbed wire tattoo like Pamela Anderson. You were wearing a skirt with heels and a black leather jacket. Izzy loved your sense of style ever since he first saw you at the bar you worked at. Izzy went up to you and started to flirt with you.

“Hey a gorgeous lady like you shouldn't be working in a bar you should be a model. Do you have a boyfriend?” He asks you with a cup of wine in his hand.

“No I’m single” You reply to him.

“Well, how about we go out on a date?” Izzy asks you.

“Sorry, but I think you're a little too young for me”. You chuckle at him.

“Well if you don't mind me asking how old are you?”

“I’m 34,” you say to him.

“Wow, something about you is just very attractive and alluring. I didn't expect you to be 34 but I don't care you're too beautiful  but you're very gorgeous so please give me a chance?” Izzy asks.

“I love your tattoo by the way,” Izzy says. 

“I like yours too, So what are your tattoo's meanings?” You say to Izzy after seeing one tattoo on his right arm and one on his left arm. 

Izzy explains that one of his tattoos is his band and the other one was just a cool design with his name on it.

You start to blush with all the compliments Izzy was showering you with. 

“What's your name?” you ask him.

“My name is Izzy Stradlin” He replies to your question.

“What do you do for a living?” You ask him

“I’m a guitarist  in a band well more specifically a rhythm guitarist.” He says smirking

“That’s hot,” You say to him while coming close to him and giving him a peck on his cheek.

Ever since then, you guys got to know each other more and you eventually moved in with Izzy and pursued your dream of becoming a model. 

*END OF FLASHBACK*

[eepyslut]

Jealousy Jealousy

Dominik patience is running thin, and he's struggling to keep appearances now that Rhea isn't crying about him.

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS DOMINIK" Liv shrieked angrily, could she be more loud? he suppressed the urge to roll his eyes at her and kept a straight face. Of course he's serious.

"Yeah, i said im gonna beat up Jey, talked with Pearce already," he shrugged, Liv didn't need to know there was this small little seed of jealousy starting to ignite inside him. 5 weeks? She was going out with Jey after 5 weeks? 2 years together, and it only took her 5 weeks to get over it and show up to work in Jey's car??

"THAT was not the plan. YOU were supposed to help Finn and JD," she smiled tightly at him. Like he cared… He didn't give a flying fuck about that to be honest, not his titles, not his problem and Carlito was free so he really didn't need to be around for that match.

"I know baby, but i need to get rid of jey, for us" he walked towards her gripping her waist trying to comfort her, but it was evident in her face she wasn't too convinced "last thing we need is them making alliances with Jey" yeah keep her focused on alliances, if he mentioned he had seen them come in together it would sound like jealousy and she would make a big deal about it. It's just a little jealousy, a little wounded ego.

"Fine, fine, I guess Carlito can fill in for you," she sighed a little pout, gracing her face. "i will check with Finn to make sure he's okay with the chan-"

"There shouldn't be a problem, no leaders, remember?" he raised his eyebrows and pulled one of his toothy innocent smiles. "Making our own decisions, taking care of business way better than having Damian and Rhea barking orders" its easy to pull that string, everytime she or anyone tries to control him he casually mentions Rhea or Damian and he is off the hook.

"You find Carlito and tell him about the match, i will go and get changed." He kissed her forehead and started to walk away without waiting for a response. Lord knows he can't stand another minute of her ear piercing voice.

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He hadn't expected Rhea to come out with Jey. Not part of the plan, neitheir was getting lost in the way Rhea's scorpions looked under that lacy top. Her tanned skin making him dizzy. But most importantly…

"SHE'S MINE" he screamed on Jey's face, before hitting him repeatedly but it only made the fucker smirk before he had time to process what he said out loud. Yeah, that wasn't the plan, either.

"She's yours? you want her now?" Jey taunted as they exchanged blows. His smirk was making his blood boil, but what made him see red was Jey whispering, "She wasn't yours last night, or last week"

Dom didn't need to know Jey was taking Rhea on little dates to cheer her up, or that Damian got stuck in traffic and that's the reason why he picked her up this morning, or that Rhea got cold and Jey gave her his hoodie. It's all innocent Rhea isn't in the head space to see someone and Jey respects that but she needs a friend and he's there.

He's fuming. His ego is too big to take the blow of his ex seeing someone else so soon, and Jey is exploiting it. "You should have thought about it. Now i have my chance all because you fumbled, man." he laughed.

He looks in Rhea's direction for a second just to check but its enough to give Jey a chance, the last thing he hears is "too late" and next thing he knows he's lying dizzy on the floor after Jey almost knocked him out with a kick.

He can hear the cheers from the crowd, and Rhea's laugh from ringside as Jey spins her around. God, could this day get any worse.

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It could. "SHE'S MINE SERIOUSLY?" I KNEW IT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH HER, ITS ALWAYS ABOUT HER" god he really couldn't catch a break, he missed Rhea's silent and seething anger, fuck, he missed her, point blank. He could manage a check-up while the woman stared daggers through him, it wasnt great, but at least it didn't make it worse.

"Can you lower your voice?" His tone dripped with annoyance he was reaching his limit today, and the ringing on his ears wasn't helping the dizziness. Wrong, she could only get louder.

"DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I DO EVERYTHING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY AND THIS IS WHAT I GET?" She was about to continue her rant, but luckily the doctor interrupted her granting him some sense of peace.

No concussion, great. But his minute of reprieve was running short, so he started before she could.

"Princesa" he dragged tiredly "you know i only have eyes for you, you are way better than her, you showed me what true love is" and in this moment true love would be 10 minutes of silence so he hoped she would drop the issue.

"Sorry daddy…" and she continued to apologize, but he wasn't really paying attention. Now that she was back to a normal volume, he was able to tune her out.

Was Rhea moving on so fast? Why did he care, he was free now, but every minute Liv is all over him feels like he's suffocating, he's supposed to feel free and yet all he does is think about Rhea, about her silence, her lower voice and the way it would lull him to sleep, the peace around her, the normal conversations, the hazy mornings, and when his mind reached that corner he imagined Jey where he used to be and he burned with jealousy.

[strikersexhaver]

HII you have no idea how lucky i am to find you

(im in desperate need of striker content on here and everywhere else 😭)

can i have striker with an s/o who's really touchy and just loves to hold him and be held, it just brings his s/o so much comfort, and basically any type of physical affection towards him and how he'd react?

And reader being self-conscious about it and sometimes being afraid he'll push them away?

That's all for mee, tyyy

(btw I love your first work of him, can't wait to read moree ❤️)

(A/N) LMAOOO! Trust, I needed to make this blog because there was little to no Striker content 😭 my hyper fixation on him was sated.

Also thank you! :)

Striker with Touchy+Loving S/O 💕

Firstly, in the beginning of the relationship you’d have to slowly ease him back into touch due to him being lonely.

(I mean look at his living space it’s actually very depressing tbh-)

He’d be less receiving to it at the first, because don’t get me wrong- this man has had relationships beforehand and he’s not a shy guy, obviously.

But he’s more used to not really ‘in-love’ relationships, casual ones he’s used to. Serious ones where someone would care about him so much it was actual love.

It would be not a foreign concept, but a thing he thought he lost.

He’d gradually get more and more used to the touch, which meant he showed he enjoyed it more often wether it be a smile, a hug back, a tail rattle, he’d be appreciating it more over time which may be a while.

He might get frustrated in the early stages of the relationship sometimes.

Then it results you feeling bad, alongside guilty for touching him too much.

You’ll back off for a bit, before going back to normal when he’s more used to it. If you don’t address him about how he feels about touch, he’ll probably tell you only if you get too much.

He appreciates the touch though, it’s stress-relieving, he’ll probably all over you at home as you are to him.

Because he never has to worry about people thinking you’re not in a relationship with him if you’re hugging him a lot.

He has no shame with it either, makes him feel prideful when you hug him in public.

Like ‘hah y’all fuckers lonely! Can’t fuckin’ relate”

[analogwriting]

Childhood Crush

Chapter 15: Bronze

Killer x gn!reader word count: 3.5k a/n: this part ended up being almost 7k words so i split it into two, so y'all getting a twofer (two for one - 241 - all that jazz) also relentlessly puts asking alexandria lyrics in it bc im still in mourning next

There wasn’t exactly a plan on dealing with Kese perse, but everyone agreed to let you take care of it for the most part. Everyone was going to act normal until you made your move. Follow your plays and whatnot. Though, Eustass just wanted to kill the fucker. He was beyond pissed - which was understandable. You’d also be so astronomically livid if someone lied to you about your brother dying only to find out he was alive the whole time. Even Killer seemed to be on the bandwagon for kill first, ask questions later for a little while. 

But, you wanted to get answers first. Maybe it was just morbid curiosity. Maybe it was because you wanted to take his life with your own hands. Or maybe it was just you wanted to put absolute fear into his being. You wanted to see him beg for his life. 

Shit, you didn’t know what you wanted. And there was no telling how you’d really react when you saw him either. You couldn’t help but feel a growing anxiety. Everything he said back then was hitting you right now. While you didn’t exactly believe them anymore, you remembered the pure devastation you had felt when he had said them. You couldn’t help but chuckle at the memory. 

“What’s so funny?” You were pulled out of your thoughts as Eustass spoke. You were still stitching him up as his injuries were a bit more on the serious side. It was just the two of you as the others gathered and prepared themselves for heading back to the ship. “Just thinking about what Kese said before I left.”

He stopped, looking at you. “Wait, he said something to you? What?”

Right. You never told him all that. You sighed, running a hand through your hair. “I feel dumb for falling for it now, but yeah. He said some shit that fucked up my psyche there for a while.”

“Is that why you had started to pull away from us? And you left?”

You were quiet, but your silence spoke volumes. You felt anger radiate from Eustass even more. “That mother fu-”

“Tungsten. I’m going to take care of it. Like I said, I need information and also this is the best way for me to get closure.” He looked at you for a long moment before groaning. “Ugh. Fine.”

“Thank you.” 

“What did he even say?” You were quiet for a moment, not wanting to admit it. It felt silly now. You know that your brother and crewmates would’ve never said the awful things he had referenced, but you were at such a low point that you would’ve believed anything.

“Bigs?” You looked up at him and sighed. Just as he couldn’t say no to you - you couldn’t say no to him. As you dabbed one of the cuts on his arm - his only arm, which you still couldn’t believe - you explained what happened that night. He was quiet, but you could feel him seething.

“You know none of it is true, right?” He waited until you were done before he had spoken, which wow. That’s growth. Him waiting to speak? Who taught him that? He was the king of interrupting people. You felt a moment of pride, but the somber mood was too heavy for you to really revel in it.

With a long sigh, you nodded. “I do now. It was stupid of me to believe him, I know. But…” Your face fell and he shook his head. “You were in a dark place, I know.”

“Let us not forget that I’m the one that forced you to go along with me,” he said with a smug smile. You mirrored his expression and laughed. “Not completely. I did end up deciding myself. You made yourself quite the compelling case.” 

“Only because Killer put the cherry on top.” He paused. “And because he was the cherry on top,” he mumbled, but you didn’t quite make it out. “Huh?”

“Nothing.”

“You-”

The both of you laughed before falling into a somber silence. “You did more than anyone on the ship when it boiled down to it,” he said. You looked at him for a moment. “Tungsten, you don’t have to lie to make me fee-”

“It’s not a lie though. You did so fucking much for us. You made all of us stronger and our lives easier. You strengthened Dive’s teeth, gave Heat the ability to fucking breathe fire, taught both Heat and Wire how to smith, made various different kinds of machines n’ shit to help make ship life even easier, not to me-”

“Okay, okay. I get it.”

“I’m so serious, Bigs. And that’s not just the ship. The four of us definitely wouldn’t have lived without you growing up. I’m serious.” You looked at him, your eyes slightly widening as the playful mood was turning more sincere by the second and you felt your cheeks heat up. You didn’t know where all this sentiment was coming from and you didn’t know how to handle it.

“You’re a ray of fucking sunshine on our goddamn ship and I’ll be damned if I let someone take that away again,” he grumbled, looking away from you. “Everyone was super upset when you left - so don’t do that shit again.” You felt so many different waves of emotion right now. Eustass was never one to convey his actual feelings. You weren’t either. The both of you had your own way of expressing your love for each other, just as all siblings did.

But, hearing it was a lot different and you didn’t know how to react. You felt your brain doing a hard reboot.

“I didn’t…” No words were coming from you. 

“Don’t get sappy, you know I hate that shit.” He didn’t look at you, keeping his head turned from you, clearly embarrassed from his own outburst. You couldn’t help but let out a small smile, moving on and finishing up dressing his wounds.

“Didn’t stop you though, huh?”

“What did you say?” He turned his eyes towards you, narrowing his eyes.

“You heard me, Tungsten. I think you’re the sappy one of the two of us.”

“Fuck you.”

“Fuck you.” The two of you glared at each other for a moment before bursting into laughter. You really missed Eustass. Well, of course you did - he was your brother.

You finished up, standing and dusting yourself off, Eustass following suit. “Alright, everyone! Let’s head out!”

--

Once more, you felt anxiety creeping back in. You weren’t sure how you wanted to handle the situation. You weren’t good with emotions. You weren’t good at verbally conveying them. Hell, at this point, your own anger probably would take over and you’d kill Kese for all you knew. But, you knew you needed answers first. You’d just have to remember that.

You were somewhat falling behind the group, thinking. A million scenarios ran through your head, but none of them seemed to be the way you wanted to go. The way you needed it to go. Though, what way did it even need to go? You weren’t sure. Ugh, thinking about it was hurting your head.

Finally, the ship came into view and honestly you couldn’t have been happier. This place had become your home. It felt more like home than your dingy home back on the island ever did. And now you were back, just as you needed to be. Everything felt right again.

“Ready?” You looked over, seeing that Killer had joined you. You sighed, shaking your head. “No, but I don’t have a choice, do I?” That laugh rang through, making you jump slightly. It was mostly just startling at this point because it was so loud and sudden. You smiled at him, trying not to show that it had startled you. You already knew he was sensitive about it, you didn’t want to add to it.

“I just don’t even know what I want to do. Or how I’ll react.”

“I mean, the captain and I can just take him out.”

“Okay, but that wouldn’t solve anything.”

“One less bastard to hurt you in the world - I’d say it’s worth it.” You paused for a moment. Did he just say to hurt ‘you’. Surely it was just a slip of the tongue, right? Yeah. He probably just meant in general. Just as there was a royal ‘we’, perhaps it was a royal ‘you.’

Before you could say anything, however, a voice rang through the night.

“You guys are back! How did it - oh shit.” You looked up, seeing the very bastard that brought so much pain and misery to your life without even trying. Fuck, you felt so stupid for letting him get to you in the way that he did. He was staring at you with wide eyes, obviously surprised to see you. You saw the fear plastered all over his face.

Something in the back of your brain snapped. “‘Oh shit’ is right motherfucker.” In moments you were on the ship and he was running, obviously trying to escape your wrath. You threw your dagger, catching him in the shoulder and sending him to the ground. 

You were standing over him, seething. “What the fuck is your issue with me? What the fuck did I do to you?” 

He was groaning and rolling around, clutching his shoulder. “Oh shove a pipe in it and answer me.” All it took was a dagger to the shoulder to take him down? You expected more from someone in your brother’s crew. Especially with the way he had been acting before - all high and mighty.

“Y/n, you’re not dead!” He looked at you, feigning surprise. “This is wonderful, but can I ask why you’re coming straight after me? What did I do?” He looked over as your brother was boarding the ship. “Captain! I think they’ve lost it!”

Eustass was on the ship now, folding his arms as he watched the scene before him. “You brought this upon yourself. And if I were you, I’d answer their fucking questions.” He shrugged, an amused, shiteating grin on his face. “It’s in your best interest.” He sat on a crate, giving himself a front row seat to whatever the fuck was about to unfold.

“You’re only still alive right now because of their mercy,” Killer chimed in, standing next to your brother.

You looked from them back down to Kese, who was looking up at you with wide eyes. “I-I swear I didn’t know you were alive!” 

You knelt down, ripping your dagger out of his shoulder and he cried out. “You and I both know that’s a load of horseshit.” You slammed the dagger into the wood next to his head. “Now fucking answer me,” you spat. 

“Please! I just wanted to be a part of the Kid Pirates and Myra-”

Your heart almost stopped. Why the hell was he mentioning her? Did he do something to her? Was she okay? Was Lily okay? “What?” You ripped the dagger out of the deck and pressed it to his throat. “What the fuck does Myra have to do with this? What did you do to her?” You were drawing blood at this point and he was terrified. His voice was shaking and he was blubbering like a baby. Man, you felt like a fucking fool for ever having feared him.

“I-I didn’t do anything! I was just doing what she told me to do! I wanted to be a pirate on this ship and she wanted you!” 

You stopped. What? What the hell was he talking about? Wanted you? What the hell did he mean by that? Every answer he gave was raising another in its place. You looked at your brother who shook his head. “Do you have that letter?” you asked. He nodded, pulling it out of his person. “You fucking keep it on you?” He didn’t answer you, just handed it to you. “Shut it,” he grumbled.

You couldn’t even begin to imagine how Eustass had really been fairing this whole time, but it wasn’t well. You could tell that much. You could only imagine how you would react if someone told you your little brother died. Shit, he was the only reason you kept going when the both of you were younger. Just as he said he and his friends wouldn’t have been here without you, you wouldn’t have been here without him.

You opened it up, reading it over. You blinked as the words sank in. You looked at the picture that accompanied it. You knew this picture. You had been on a ladder to get some paints and on your way climbing down, you spilled all the paints and fell in the process. The photo was black and white, so you wouldn’t even be able to tell the colors of the paint. And you had been dazed at the time of the picture.

You remember moments after this picture, you sat up laughing. The whole lab was. But, with the way she had taken the picture along with the lack of color, it really did look like some kind of lab accident. You really did look dead. It was real uncanny valley.

Was Myra behind all of this? 

“Bigs?”

You looked at your brother. “I know this picture. I had a stumble with some paints. That’s all it is. Paint.” You looked back down at it, paling. Was it all just a cover up? Why did she want your brother to think you were dead? Did it have to do with Kese saying she wanted you?

You knelt back down, glaring at Kese who yelped and backed away from you as he still clutched his shoulder. “Fucking spill, you incompetent son of a bitch.” You pointed the knife at his throat.

He stared at you with wide eyes. “She’ll kill me!”

“Keeping your tongue tight? I’ll kill you first if you don’t.” You pressed the knife into his throat, once again drawing blood. He yelped, sobbing. Fuck, he was pathetic. “O-Okay! Okay…” 

“I-I’m from the island. The one where Myra’s from. I was one of her students and I always dreamt of bein-”

“Fucking-” You slammed the knife, the one Myra had specifically given to you, into his leg. He screamed, clutching it and sobbing. “You fucking stabbed me!” You glared at him.

 “Cut your losses, you’re on thin ice, tread light,” you ground out. “I don’t fucking care about all that, get to the fucking important parts - you’re testing my fucking patience,” you spat, glaring at him, making him squeak. Fuck. Was he always like this? Why did Eustass keep him around?

Kese, despite his current wound that you’d given him, took a deep breath and started once more. “The c-captain was gaining notoriety and honestly, so were you. But, in the scientific community. Since you always visited the labs and tended to help out there, talk of you spread.” You blinked. You didn’t realize that you had your own reputation. Eustass and Killer were the ones with the large bounty - you didn’t even have one. At least, not at that time. You weren’t doing any fighting. You were just…researching and building. Doing what you did best. 

“Myra wanted you to join her research team. Said she could use a sharp mind like yours. She also knew how I wanted to join the captain’s crew. So, she sent me to drive a wedge between you and the captain.” You felt like you were going to be sick. Your body went rigid with the pure, unbridled rage you were feeling. Myra seemed like she genuinely cared about you the entire time you were on the island. You couldn’t imagine her going through such lengths.

Fuck, you felt like a fool.

“I don’t fucking understand…then why would she send me here?”

Kese shook his head. “I-I don’t know.” You shot him a glare and he started crying all over again. “I swear, I don’t! She was supposed to just keep you at the island! I had no idea she was sending you here!” 

This must’ve been what she meant by she had people here. Kese had been a mole this entire time and you were none the wiser. You played right into her hands. She had gotten exactly what she wanted. You stood up, swaying a bit from the headache you were developing. You didn’t know what to think about everything.

The woman you had just spent two years with…essentially playing house with as well. It was all a lie. Was Lily in on it too? No, that was impossible. She was too young to understand things like this, right? 

You felt a hand to your back and you stiffened for a moment before you calmed. “Are you okay?” you heard Killer’s voice, but it sounded…so far away, despite him standing so close.

You looked at him for a moment before looking back down at Kese. You didn’t know. You didn’t know how you felt about any of this. Why the sudden change of heart in sending you straight to your brother? Did she feel guilty? You stared at the dagger next to Kese’s head, staring at the logo of the lab etched into it.

Numbness washed over you and you didn’t feel like you were in your body anymore. You couldn’t stand this, it was never meant to end up being this hard to process. “Do whatever the fuck you want to him. I’m over it.” Your voice was hollow, strained. You just wanted to go to bed at this point. You were…so tired. Nothing was processing. Your brain was trying to wrap around it all, but it was too much.

“W-What? N-No! Please!”

“Killer, you pick ‘em up with-” As your brother and his vice captain planned on whatever fate they had for Kese, you sauntered off. It wasn’t long before the traitor’s screams tore through the night.

“Y/n?” You looked up, seeing Dive prancing over to you. “Are you going to bed already?” she asked, putting her hands on her hips. “We still need to celebrate the victory!” She huffed, shaking her head. 

“Besides, we haven’t had your cooking in forever! Would you make something for us? Pleeeease?” 

“Now, now, Dive. You should let them rest. They’ve been through a lot. We’re not celebrating until tomorrow anyway.” You looked up, seeing Wire standing there. You nodded in agreement with him, a tired smile spreading across your features. “I’ll make sure to cook everyone’s favorites tomorrow, okay?” You ruffled her hair.

“I want to sleep too!” You blinked, looking at her. “You wanna have a sleepover?” You grinned at her. You did this a few times before. Sometimes, when she first joined, she had nightmares of some kind and would be up a lot. So, she’d come hang out with you in the lab, sometimes you both would end up falling asleep curled up on the futon in the lab. Most of the time you didn’t remember falling asleep with a blanket on, but there always ended up being one. Even when Dive wouldn’t sleep with you now that you thought about it.

You shook your thoughts away as Dive spoke with excitement. “Yeah! Sleepover!” You smiled, turning to head towards your lab. “Keep an eye on them, yeah?” You heard Wire say to Dive. Ah, she wanted to make sure you were okay. You appreciated it, honestly. None of anything felt real right now. You were on the verge of a mental break, you could feel it. Someone to ground you would be good right now.

Part of you felt like if you woke up tomorrow, you’d end up back at the lab and this was all a dream.

You opened the door to your lab, blinking. Everything was exactly how you had left it. “The captain didn’t let anyone touch it after you left. Especially after…” Dive joined you once more and you looked over at her. You nodded, looking back. Everything had a fine layer of dust on it. You were going to need to do some serious cleaning, but you were too tired to do that right now.

“We can sleep in my bed,” Dive offered. Exhaustion was eating away at you and you nodded. You didn’t have any energy to argue or clean your own area. That was tomorrow’s problem. “That sounds lovely,” you mumbled with a yawn as he followed her to her room. She shared a room with Quincy, but you knew that the woman wouldn’t mind in the slightest if you stayed there for the night.

You crawled into bed, the smaller woman jumping into the bed with you with a laugh. She started prattling on about something or another, probably knowing that you just needed to not be alone with your own thoughts.

Which didn’t even end up mattering as you were asleep within moments.

[softpine]

I just remembered you haven't seen Twilight but I'm going to ask anyway! Do you know what teams your characters would be? Like team Edward or Team Jacob? Oh! Actually I'm also curious what Fandoms would they be in? I recent realized im a Bielieber

oh i have seen the first twilight movie!! i just wasn't a fan. but it was my best friend's favorite series so i do know a lot about it! was anyone actually team jacob? he's like gale in the hunger games. the only reason anyone would actually prefer them is because they're Not the main love interest (sorry to any galeheads out there...)

anyway now i want to imagine what fandoms each of them would be in, so:

🎭 caroline: well, she's a great artist and a monster fucker.. i don't think i have to spell out what she was doing online fjkjsdsj and she loved comic books as a kid, so i feel like at the start of the MCU madness she was really hype and then she got more and more angry with the state of things

💬 beth: she's written some star trek fanfiction more highly researched than her master's thesis and she loved nsync because what is a baby dyke without her emotional support boy band / comphet crushes

🎸 danny: music is the obvious answer, but i'm not familiar with musical history so i can't go into detail 😭 but his dad introduced him to bob dylan and taught him how to play guitar, then he learned piano, then he taught himself how to produce his own music from scratch. this was in the 90s btw so it wasn't very easy to learn. also he used to seriously follow skateboarding

⛅ mikaela: she loved old school country music from female artists like tanya tucker, reba mcintire, loretta lynn, etc. she's less interested in modern country but she looooves shania twain. and she's worked nights (first as a bartender, then a nurse) for most of her life, so she got really into daytime soaps

🌲 asa: he's literally the only one on this list where i'm like...... stumped. he doesn't pay attention to anything online, celebrities, music (he'll listen to whatever), movies (doesn't care), could never commit to watching a whole tv show, etc. he's very floaty and daydreamy? lmao he just doesn't have the headspace to get attached to fictional media like that

🎥 finn: we know he's always been a harrison ford fan boy and in any universe where he survives past the 80s he's a huge nirvana fan!! (if he and jules had a son, they would've named him kurt... he's deeply serious) he's also read every stephen king book that came out while he was alive. he was a big reader in general, particularly horror

🧸 stevie: canon seth rogen super fan, has seen every adam sandler movie (every last one of them) and i knowww she knows the fnaf lore... as soon as she finishes a show/movie she likes to find the weirdest fan art to terrorize her followers. also loves musicals and wants to see cats on broadway someday (a girl can dream)

🎀 elaine: she loves following celebrity news but she watches them like animals in the zoo; ie. she's observing from afar, she has no personal stake in them. she's a frequent flyer on gossip forums like fauxmoi. she was on the ground floor of lipstickgate and was SEATED for dramageddon. and she had a serious twilight phase

🎨 jada: SOMEONE on this list had to get assigned supernatural... i'm not saying it just to say it, i really think she would connect with (early seasons) sam what with the dead mom... fear of losing their humanity... having powers they don't understand... a hot girl manipulating them to use their abilities in sketchy ways... yeah. i'm sure she has favorite contemporary artists (painters specifically) that she'd be able to talk about on end but sadly i don't know anything about that world 😭 oh and she's kind of obsessed with hate-reading booktok books to feel alive

🏈 casper: sports count as fandoms and i don't want to hear a word about it!! his team is the patriots but he's kind of a fairweather fan (maine doesn't have an nfl team so he doesn't have that state loyalty factor). miley cyrus is his problematic fave forever but he's kind of a pop girlie in general

💋 coco: in high school she was a speedcuber if that gives you an idea of what we're working with here.... she grew up with pokemon, naruto, dragon ball z, she collected trading cards, etc. she still likes anime and video games and stuff, she just doesn't have the time to get invested like she used to, and it makes her sad because it reminds her of her late best friend liam. she makes time to play fortnite and minecraft with his little brother and she plays other games on twitch sometimes. has done a LOT of cosplay. she's a huge nerd basically

[sigynpenniman]

Okay im just gonna do a little post. Opsec basics for the MCR fandom

I know everyone’s Hingry and super into all this. I am too. But I’m seeing a lot of bad OpSec practice around with regards to the leaked files. So here’s just some info and protips.

We’re not dealing here with normal pirated or extralegal data like a pirated album. We’re dealing with leaked data, in some cases data that was part of a massive data leak. This warrants significantly more caution and care in handling. DMCA takedowns are going to be swifter & harder & this is significantly more legally sketchy in a lot of ways, and I suspect the original leakers of the big Warner leak could be looking at legal trouble if they get found.

With that in mind, here’s some tips going forwards.

When dealing with pirated or leaked data, the absolute number one key is to Not Draw Attention. Many piracy sites & people manage this by simply not sharing anything at all on the open net. This isn’t always feasible in the interest of sharing, and is sometimes counter to the ethos of sharing and piracy. So the second best thing is to NOT DRAW ATTENTION TO OURSELVES. So with that in mind:

- stop uploading witch to Spotify. Please. I know people want it there to go in playlists and stuff but please perform a stop it. Warner is going to DMCA that stuff sooner than later and you really really do not want to be the account that uploaded it.

- stop uploading Witch to YouTube. One person did it, confirmed the contentID exists. Okay great. Don’t do it anymore. Stop ringing this alarm bell.

- don’t use cloud storage to do any permanent storage of files from the leaks, ESPECIALLY not google drive or Dropbox which are both providers that do content ID ON PRIVATE PERSONAL FILES. We know, from the YouTube stuff, that Witch at least, if not the rest of TPK, is in comtentID. This will eventually get sniped too. Do not count on clouds as permanent storage for ANYTHING related to this.

- if you are using cloud storage to share and distribute data from the leaks, use more copyright ambivalent services like Mega and use burner accounts to do so.

- anything you actually care about and like and want to keep, DOWNLOAD. Locally. Onto your hard drive. That is literally the only place it’ll be safe.

- If you feel brave and want to interface with/download the actual big Warner leaks torrent, do so through a VPN or with a seedbox. Do NOT get your personal IP into the peer swarm on that fucker. That is not a sound or safe thing to be associated with in any traceable capacity. USE A VPN.

- probably stop making us so known & seen on leaked. I’m seeing a lot of new accounts on the leaked threads asking about MCR stuff. I get it, I really really do, and one or two asks is fine, but it’s probably drawing too much attention by now. If you want to stalk leaked, make the account (use a burner email p l e a s e) and Lurk. Pirates and leakers are territorial assholes and leaked is effectively the darkweb. An influx of new blood with an obvious single fandom interest has the potential to be poorly received and get eyes on us we don’t want from multiple different directions. Again, less alarm bells.

I know this is all a bit dramatic and overly serious and everyone can mock me if they like. But I think it’s important to remember that, with the Witch mp3 and the HA stuff from the Warner leak, we’re all doing something most of us aren’t actually used to, which is dealing with data that isn’t just pirated or semi-legal but part of significant data crime. I’m not in any way suggesting to stop sharing or talking about it, and each person’s personal ethical opinion on that is their own. But I do think we all need to be more careful from a technological and security standpoint with how we’re distributing this data and what spaces we’re uploading it. Warner IS going to be watching and we do NOT want them to see us.

[urfavoritedcwhore]

the Russian boy//part three

warnings: swearing, alcohol use

not proof read!

lowercase intended

part one and two on my page.

part three: the pool

i let go of boris's hand and watch as he jumps in the deepest end of the pool. i make my way over to the steps leading into the pool, and go down them, making sure to stay in the shallow end. i definitely do not want to drown with two boys i only met today. and wow this water is cold as fuck. my nips are positivity hard as diamonds right now. boris swims over to me and picks me up, "let's go i told you i wouldn't let you drown.", he says carrying my to the deep end, which isn't deep for boris at all considering how tall he is. i hold on to his shoulders as he holds on right below my ass to keep me balanced on him. "no funny business, those hands better not move up.", i say giving him a half joking, half serious smile. "i wouldn't dream of it new girl", he looks at me with a grin and pulls me closer, "i'm a gentleman, remember?", he whispers in my ear. THIS FUCKING KID. woah, calm down lucy, calm down. ok he knows exactly what he's doing, so it's time for me to play his game back. "oh i can promise you, you'll definitely be dreaming of it.", i whisper in his ear, leaving his red as a tomato and at a loss for words. i guess he's not used to girls matching his energy. lucky for him, he's met his match, and he has her in his arms right now. theo, who's floating on his back with his eyes closed, begins talking to boris. "can i stay here tonight?", he slurs, "im too drunk to walk home.". boris looks and him and lets out a chuckle, " you always stay here, why you ask all the sudden?", boris asks. it's very apparent to me that theo is just as drunk as i am, which is why im not surprised he says what he says next. "i dont know, maybe you wanna be aloneeee with lucy.", he says, still floating on his back and now making kissy noises.

"shut it potter.", boris says seriously, "both of you can stay if you want, i dont mind.", boris says looking at me. i mean my mom wont be home..i guess it wouldn't hurt staying. but seriously, i just met these fuckers today, maybe i'll tease boris a little but im no slut. i'm not gonna let anything happen yet. also, it's a good thing theo notices this sexual tension too right? i mean at least im not imagining things. "i can stay," i look at boris, "there's not gonna be any," i let out exaggerated kissy noises, "tonight. im just staying cause im having fun and going home this drunk seems not very fun.", i say half truthfully. i mean maybe if i stay i can keep actually talking and bonding with boris. i want to get to know him, i don't want to rush anything. "sure new girl.", boris says nodding. theo pops up and swims towards us, "can you seriously not swim?", he says nodding towards me. i look back at him, "not at all. honestly this is scaring the shit outta me, but i'm too drunk to care.", i say which makes both boys laugh. that's the genuine truth, swimming would usually be a no go, but for some strange reason i trust these boys to not let anything happen to me. it's weird how you can meet people you instantly trust and click with. i truly hope they feel the same way about me.

my thoughts are interrupted by a small bark and scratch on the patio door. i look over to see popchyk scratching the door from inside. "fuck. we can't leave him like this, he's sad. he wants his ..how do you say? ah daddy, yes he wants his daddy. i'm coming popchyk!", boris says pointing to the dog. this fucking man did not just call himself daddy. holding back tonight is gonna be harder then expected, especially considering that fact i haven't gotten any action in months. boris carries me back to the shallow end and puts me down as he runs inside, soaking wet, and picks up popchyk. i look at theo, "are you as fucked up as i am right now?" i say probably slurring. he grabs me by my shoulders, "my friend, i'm so drunk i can barely see.", he says slurring. we both burst out in laughter and sway around holding on to eachother trying not to fall. we eventually get our footing and catch our breath..until we look at eachother again, which results in another round of hysterical laughter. this kid is so fucking funny. there's just something about him that i absolutely love. "you know lucy,", he says as we catch our breath once again, "you are like my number two best friend, you just like are cool you know?", he says pointing at me with wide eyes and slurring every word. ok this kid is plastered and i'm loving drunk theo. "RIGHT? we're like platonic soulmates theooo, we just like,", i motion to my head with my finger then to his head, "we just get eachother my dude.", i say wrapping my arm around his shoulder. ah yes, there's no friendship realer than confessing your drunken platonic love for someone you met less than 24 hours ago. we laugh again then stumble out of the pool and make our way inside. i walk into the kitchen and get myself a glass of tap water, which i immediately chug. fuck i didn't realize how thirsty i was. i go into the living room to see theo laying on the floor (absolutely and positively passed out on top of my clothes), and boris on the couch, now in boxers and a tshirt 2 sizes too big, holding popchyk and watching some movies that i think is in russian. "ah fuck he got my clothes wet.", i say nudging theo lightly with my foot. "he won't wake up, once potters sleeps, he won't wake till it is morning.", boris says with an amused expression on his face. "well shit, i'll probably just go stay at my house since i'll have to go over there to get dry clothes anyway.", i say walking to the door. boris gets up and walks in front of me, "new girl,", he looks me up and down, " you're in your bra and underwear. don't walk to your house right now, your drunk and will get cold.", he says looking at me like i'm crazy. what's the big deal? i mean i'll admit, i did forget i'm literally in my undergarments, but my house is a 10 second walk, and i was just outside and not cold at all until i hopped in the pool. it’s not like the air is cold, we’re in las Vegas for fucks sake. "i'm fine boris, i'll be okay.", i say smiling a drunken smile, but he doesn't move. "ha! is okay, i will just give you my clothes to sleep in, eh? i have extra things, come.", he says taking my hand and leading me upstairs. since he's already taking me to get clothes i don't bother arguing, i gotta say though, i'm a little excited to wear his clothes. I KNOW I KNOW ITS WEIRD OK? but come onnnnn, who wouldn't wanna wear a sexy man's clothes. you would do it too, don't lie. we walk into his room and he pulls out a huge sweater and a pair of boxers from his dresser. "here, my favorite sweater, is very comfortable. i sleep in all the time.", he says handing them  over to me. "thank you.", i say taking the clothes. "is no problem, i don't want you to go home, am having fun with you new girl.", he says with a slight smile. "i go downstairs, come down and watch movie with me when your dressed, yes?", he says going out the bedroom door and closing it behind him. i throw on the sweater and squeeze into the small boxers. the sweater is big and comfy, but the boxers are nowhere near my size. they're definitely tight, but not too uncomfortable.

i hang up my wet bra and underwear on the shower rod of the bathroom in his room and head down stairs. when i'm back in the living room boris pats the side of the small sofa that's open. i walk over, and plop on the couch. boris changed the channel while i was gone o suppose, cause now instead of the russian movie that was on earlier, there's a shitty cable cowboy movie on. no complaints though, i love shitty cable movies. i begin to watch, and boris tosses his blanket over, so it can drape around both of us. i look over to theo, who's still sound asleep on the floor, now with a fresh towel over him, which i assume boris put there as a substitute for a blanket. i guess me and boris are sleeping on the couch and sharing a blanket. nothing special i suppose, but still, it makes me happy to think about sleeping so close to him. this night is going great, but it also feels like it's just started.

authors note: sorry for a semi short chapter, wrote this in like 30 minutes and it's currently 2am. chapter four out soon!

[spideyjimin]

what the actual fuck? im sorry im so pissed at jk in the „right time“ fic dudes been acting like he’s life ended without her and not seeing her for the past ten years and now suddenly when she’s there he sleeps with her and uses her just for his baby mother to come around and give her input bc she‘ soooo worried for him? lmao fuck outta here she doesn’t even know the whole story and even if he told her everything she doesn’t know the side of y/n’s story so she should stay out of it and only say „you know what don’t let my daughter see her until it’s serious“ cause yeah that’s the only right thing she can say and has the right to but the fact that he gets himself manipulated so easily and uses his ex for his own sick ways is disgusting naaah „my daughter is my everything“ SO WAS HER SISTER FUCKER ?! LIKE HELLO ?! DO PPL EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE TO LOOSE SOMEONE YOU DEARLY LOVE ?! INSTEAD OF HELPING HER HE BROUGHT HER TO PARTYS OR NEVER STOPPED HER FROM GOING HOW TF WOULD SHE BE ABLE TO MAKE ANY RIGHT DECISIONS IN THAT STATE nah im sorry im too worked up he can go fuck himself with his stupid ass family acting like they’re this „perfect family“ mhm sure y/n deserves more i don’t care.

still thank you for this update you’re very talented and it was a rollercoaster for sure!!! 🤭😫💀💕

first things first, thanks for taking the time to read & write this looooong ask, it’s deeeply appreciated 💛💛

then i totally get your point of view! for sure, jk’s behaviour is very surprising & not good! but honestly, in this kind of situation where your ex is back in your life it isn’t easy too. it’s also not easy for oc but she was willing to try again since everything was there again. but here, jk is just completely lost & usually when you’re lost, you don’t take the best decisions… he also feels very unhappy & in the end, it’s best he pushes oc away instead of staying with her, he would hurt her a lot.

for eunji, like anybody that would be concerned about you, she’s just trying to help him. of course, he does whatever he wants with her opinion, he doesn’t have to consider it & that’s what he does at the end, but he’s unhappy so he ends everything with oc 😕

but believe me, this is inspired a lot from what i have experienced for the past year & sometimes things just don’t make sense but hurt people hurt people…

[a-very-tired-raven]

Aw dammit, you guys are makin me wanna post this now(10:05) instead of 11:00, but im strong lmao (WARNING, long post ahead)

Anyways, i wanted to start this post off, by giving a thanks to all the truly wonderful people ive met on this platform from this year, last year, when i first joined, and the years to come. Youve all made my experience here wonderful, and to be honest youve made me feel so very very welcomed, and especially loved.

I came to this (wonderful)hellsite during a really lonely time in my life. A few years ago, around the later days of june, 2019, looking for more undertale content. What i didn't expect to find at all, were all the wonderful people im so so so very glad to now call my friends.

All of you, and i mean all, of you invited and welcomed me into your blogs with open arms, kindness, and silly jokes. Even going to the lengths introducing me to your other friends and making me apart of your friend groups. And...i genuinely cannot express how thankful i am for that.

Im so serious, i feel so loved and cared for every single day now, i always have someone to vent or talk with, someone to joke and ramble with, so many people that ive intertwined into this little online family of mine.

Weve all been through..a lot these past three years. What, with covid, loss, hate, and so much more. What im grateful for, is that i havent lost any of you, which not only am i suprised about, but also so grateful. You guys make me feel like the best verison of myself, and make me feel..well..me. we've all stuck together and looked out for each other, helped each other out with our problems, and shared art and stories.

Ive had the pleasure of meeting some very fine, brilliant, and respectable people thus far, and have had the honor of talking with some astonishing young friends. Ive even had the pleasure of gaining followers, and have received fanart of my own characters!! Which, i would have never guess would have happened. Ever. And yet it did, and that means so much to me.

So i suppose what im trying to do, or well..say here, is that all of you have turned my life for the better, and id like to thank you for that.

Thank you, @let-love-run-red @ratsoh-writes @und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut @vrnicky @a-gods-somewhat-mortal-form @icelingbolt @shimmer-lamp and @glaucus22 for being my very first friends in here, for welcoming me so warmly, and sharing your art and introducing me to so many cool people. I wouldn't have had as good as an experienced as ive had with you to have shown me kindness in the way the way you did

Thank you @glitchysquidd for giving me the honor of seeing your artwork, and goofing off with me from time to time.

Thank you @mochamashi @kuvvydraws and @underfell-crystal for being so nice to me, and taking time out of your days to chat and listen to my stupid little jokes

Thank you @luminawithherdaemonlinh @wisteria-and-crocuses and again @mochamashi for all the fanart youve sent me iver the months, and all the kind and craziness youve shown me. Thanks for going on crazy little rants with me wisteria, and a big thank to you lumnia for supporting me and my art for so long

Thank you @shimmer-lamp for being there with me since day one, for letting me vent and trusting me enough to confide in me at times.

Thank you @rainbowut @the1920sisntaphasemom and @scienceisfood for giving me so many ideas and laughter, i really do appreciate you guys and i feel as if i dont say it enough. You guys so are hilarious- seriously, i appreciate it

Thank you so so much @hearty-dose-of-ranch @kioko-noodles @fruitsnackart @skele-fucker @sendryl and @und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut taking me in your friendgroup so fast, and so warmly. Before you guys took me in, all of you inspired me and my art so much...i could hardly believe i was actually talking to you guys and was considered a friend??! My hands were shakey, my breath was wobbly, and yet you guys never thought twice about including me. You all have been there for me since ive met you, you all have (patiently)listened to my stuttering and ramblings without a second thought, youve all introduced me to so many cool things and have made me feel so so loved..i cant possibly thank you enough. Youve done so much for me

Thank you @ratsoh-writes for enduring my chaos and bad jokes. Youve made my dumbass feel incredibly welcomed, not to mention being such a big fuckin inspiration??? Youre one of the reasons i started to get confident in my art man. Ive used your art as references so much- and youve been such a good friend to me as well?? Be angry about me gettin muchy all you want, i love you ya stinky sewer varmit.

Thank you @springbon-t-art for showing me kindess even more since i joined the hellscape that is tumblr. Youve showed me nothing less then gentle smiles and kind words, and i thank you for that. Your art has inspired me for years, and most likely years to come from now. So thank you for inspiring me enough to pick up a pencil and start scribbling down on the floorboards

And a big big thank you to @let-love-run-red love...i dont even know where to begin. You've helped me through so much, you've inspired and taught me so much fuckin stuff...you've been one of the best damn friends i could ever have. You've supported me and my cringe drawings since the day i entered your inbox as that shy little anon on that late August day.

Hell, you're the damn reason i started writing. I still remember the tips you given me, all the advice and confidence. And i sincerely thank you for that. You have shown me nothing other then kindness and hardcore support. And i cannot express how much that means to me

And theres so many more people i have yet to thank but unfortunately cannot due to tag limits and my memory. Id have to make another post and make sure i havent forgotten anyone lmao, but thank you all!! To my close moots and followers, to the big inspirations ive yet to summon up the courage to talk to

I seriously, would have not made it this far without you dorks, and i sincerely, and genuinely, hope ive made an impact at least a fragment of the size you guys have made on me. Thank you all for giving me a place to call home on this little site.

Right now the time is 10:41 as i wrap this up, so im gonna go ahead and post this(probably willl be 11 or 12 by the time you twerps get to this point lmao)

So HAPPY NEW YEARS!!

And happy many years to come!!! I cant wait to see what this years brings us, what bonds strengthen and friends we'll meet. Thank you for the wild ride and for all the adventures to come!!

[taliskermortem]

i have lots to say about this episode appartently so we're gonna stick it in one post under the cut

okay five minutes into episode 8 and i already want to cry; 'you might even be happier' like you both know thats a lie right, look at their faces; 'let me go already' sand why do you have to hurt me

no no no jennie must be happy at all times what is this take it back i dont want it

straight up not the first time mew has tried a cigarette i dont care what he wants everyone else to believe; its quite nice my ass

is this fucker really trying to get sand to do his community service; wow really you're gonna pull out the orphan card what is wrong with you; sand for the love of all that is holy please grow a backbone if ray says naaaa one more time im gonna flip a table

cheum my girl, firstly fascinated by the fact that at the beginning she was only worried about mew, like does anyone actually like anyone else in that friend group, because if i knew one of my friends had been in love with another one for years and then they got together because the other one was very obviously having a bit of a spiral i would sure as hell be worried about both of them - like it's so obvious that ray is being used and is going to have his heart crushed and just straight up no one seems to care

okay now she's shitting on her other supposed friend; i love her girlfriend but she was definitely lying when she said people were lucky to have cheum as their friend i see very little evidence of that

GUMPA

wow we're really talking about licking ass

but glad to see nick hasn't totally fallen apart and is going after opportunities yadda yadda even if the trailer shows us that this will probably also get messy, at least my boy's trying

boston what the fuck dont make me cry my poor lonley boy why is no one, literally no one in his corner i know he's a shit but being that alone breaks my heart, everyone else is a shit too and they all at least got someone

quite frankly mew, i am also bored of you

im sorry but why would you invite boston and top? okay maybe boston i get because he's part of the hostel they're hosting it at maybe but top? that's just asking for trouble. unless it's like an open invite? but then why did they get notifications? (edit: so apparently cheum invited him but still, what the hell)

i feel like this was a missed opportunity to put mew in some sluttier clothing tbh

alrighty we're doing coke off the table lads

he didn't pick you ray, you idiot, you are literally the definition of a rebound; someone i should love wow what a dick

i love you mew... awkward silence

there are too many lights on at this party

the drink in the face i did not see that coming im cackling, top if i were you i would run from this train wreck

oh wow you really rejected his attempt at a kiss in private but you're literally straight up using him in front of top boy i dont care how broken your heart is dont use other people that way; ray you're an idiot if you dont pick up on this

cheum there is a time and a place and this probably aint it; my mother is dead - jerk, wow what a lovely friendship they have

oh dear i hope this isn't going to turn into a controlling situation for nick but i wont hold my breath, just give the kid nice things for once

didnt we agree to moving on together why is this a conversation i didnt witness, i need this you dont understand

moving on in a circle why is he so funny

boston my guy you have some serious balls turning up to this party but i kinda love you for it

who are you to judge me you know what this is a very valid point, boston being the voice of reason on this show they've all done shitty things to each other and i really cant blame him for being cold to nick, that shit was pretty fucked up

freddie's bi, you're bi, i'm bi, let's make out - honestly most iconic part of the whole episode i think

why didnt you come to me ray im gonna hit you, he's not your property, he's not accountable to you

I WANT TO SLEEP WITH YOU RAY YOU WERE LITERALLY JUST SUCKING FACE WITH THE SUPPOSED LOVE OF YOUR LIFE WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL

ray threesome agenda continues i see

fake freddie the only one with any brains what so ever

thank you sand. finally.

ray that was fucked up. like manipulative, controlling, red flag fucked up.

oh shit its cheum's little brother so my god boston you absolutely wrecking ball of a human being

top buddy why dont you just go home, you are clearly not having a good time

honestly boston, walking away is most definitely the right option

how is it that top has pouty eyebrows

oh shit police

top going for the bribery route i see, this will either make him look like a right idiot or make him look like the hero

cheum what the fuck is wrong with you; you're right they dont care about you but quite frankly do you actually care about them? mew yes but the other two you have always treated a bit like shit tbh

this groups needs to fall apart

okay the taking care of the passed out guy is nice but the stroking of the pass out guy is getting a little weird top

so the bribe worked? alright top there to save the day that's going to make things nice and awkward isnt it, at least ray can pay him back so he doesn't have a financial hold over him i guess

sand going through all that shit and he's still the one doing the comforting for nick, their friendship is so good, even after what sand did they're still there for each other

boston my boy, my lonely boy

too much drama he says so i'll sleep with my friends little brother he thinks, god i love this absolute disaster of a human, he tried for a split second there, he really did

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DADDY DAD WHAT THE FUCK

slutty boston is back im so glad he didn't get any dick in this episode and that just seemed wrong tbh

mew flirting with randomer in a bar? what about ray? for real - yeah he's taken top, but not currently by you

ooh involving the family (or at least i assume those are mew's mums), personally not a fan, leave families alone dont use them for manipulation

again ray, he's not your property fuck off

i've never been so yielding to anyone in my life well at least you're self aware i guess

yaaa that shot of boston at the end there? lonley and leaning on the bar? breaking my heart right now

[moonlightknightess]

I have horny prompt like : floch watching his boss (eren) fucking his wives (mikasha) in his office.

Lmao

I'm sorry this is just so random 🤣 like why Floch? Why especifically him out of any of the rest of the characters? And why are they doing it in his office!? (Unless u meant Eren's office, if that's the case im sorry cuz I already wrote the whole thing lol) I'm really curious abt it

Not like I mind tbh, he never struck to me as a character so I don't really care giving him a hard time lol

I'm sorry in advance for anyone who genuinely likes him and read this by any chance, because I did him dirty 💀

Anyways, enjoy!

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If anyone ever asked him why he hated Eren Yeager so much, he would go into an endlesss rambling so long that would make the poor soul that asked him that question regret all the decisions that lead them to be at that exact time and thay exact moment

For starters, he has known the fucker ever since college in the law program, for almost a decade especifically, and his experience dealing with him has to be one of the worst he has ever did dealing with any normal person, but it's not like he is a normal person afterall

The guy was basically a ticking bomb, always at the vergue to explode at the smallest provocations, which really became a problem the moment he started to pick on him just because he had the audicity to call his midget blond friend "four eyes" once, jumping into his defense like his fucking husband and giving him a hard time whenever they run into each other

Another thing he hated about him was his mountain sized ego, always acting like top notch shit at everything he participated at, getting the best grades despite spending more time at parties than working his ass on his career or getting rewarded for his performance at the football's competitions even though he hardly tries at all, the dumb nuts that always surround him feeding his narcisism with praises and by basically licking his boots, simply disgusting

But if there is something that he hated the most about him it's how lucky he was

It was already bad enough that he seemed to do good on his grade despite not trying at all, but the fact that he got lucky in the genetic lottery was simply so fucking unfair, giving him all the right traits that made girls fall to his feet and getting the best body genetic to presume to everybody else, the perfect example of annoying gym bro that can't shut up about himself

The fact that there was someone so fucked up in the head to willingly date him like that chick with the scar in the cheek was just amusing

So much wasted potential to be honest, he can only pity her

And yet, when he thought he wouldn't have to deal with his bullshit anymore now that he graduated but was meet with the fact that the very first job he landed he met him again, and even more upsetting, managed to become his boss, he almost wanted to jump off the window

There was simply no way life could favorite someone this much

That's why, when he went to his office to bring him the workpapers of the cases and saw him fucking the living shit out of an unknown woman right on his desk, he couldn't think about something else than ruining his life, taking out his phone and reconding the whole thing from start to end, making a note of asking Jean for that Ackerman girl once he is done

This time he wont get away with it

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- ... Are you serious? - Said the female voice frim the other like, unsure

- Of course I am! - He said almost screaming, already fed up with her - I sent you the video! He was fucking a girl in his office! -

- I can hardly see anything in that video, it's too blurry - He really wanted to shout at her face how delusional she was, he knows she really was down bad for him if she was willing to marry that idiot but this was stupid

The video didn't look that bad!

Plus she didn't even sound that upset about the prospect of her husband cheating on her

- Can you describe her at least? - Said Mikasa

- She is a redhead! - he tried to explain, getting all the details he could from his memories - She ties her hair in a ponytail and got bangs on her forehead - He really doesn't want to remember all the details about that fucker fucking one of his whores stupid, but if he can ruin his marriage by doing it then so be it - She got tannish skin too -

The memories are still fresh in his mind, the overreacting and annoying moans of the bitch still ringing inside his head as he grunted like a sick dog in heat, watching every single snap of his hips on her thick thighs and the slight jump her breast did out of her unbuttoned shirt, the ripped pantyhose giving him the view of the pinkest slit he has ever seen, ruined by his horrible shaft, watching the whole thing just making him feel like throwing up and yet enduring it until they seemed to be done

Just making sure it was really Eren, nothing more

- Oh - She simply said as response, not quite the reaction he was expecting from her - I think I know who she is... thanks for telling me -

- You're welc- but before he could say something else she hung up

It's not like ti mattered anyways, once he goes bsck to work he will hopefully met the wondeful sight of the asshole dealing with a divorce, and if he was lucky, he would get to see him getting fired for having sex in work installations

For once, he will win against Eren Yeager

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Unfortunely, instead of being met with the news of his boss being fired, he went to his office to meet the sight of him accompanied by two women, the very same girl from before now along with his wife, both of them lying on his office desk as the mess of papers and clothes on the ground grew larger, witnessing in first seat rows how he basically destroyed a week worth of work by ruining it with their disgusting sweat and the distinct white threads staining the document he spent so long working on

- What the fuck? - He meant to shout it, to scream it, but instead, it came out as a small whisper, so small it was swallowed by the sounds they were making

Swallowed by the sounds of the two bitches that might as well haven't be dicked down in a long time, the one he knows it's his wife getting drilled by him in a way that makes it look like a performance for a freacking porno, her body throwing and tossing in every direction, making the few left documents fall to the ground, the other woman on her side eliciting more curses out of her with every kiss delivered to her chest and the quick rub of her fingers on her clit, circle motioned movements making her whimper im the same way his fingers make her grith her teeth and bite on the snowy white skin of her companion

- Oh? - It was him who speaked this time, voice so codescending and uninterested and yet with so much edge that it brings back the memories he tried to bury inside his mind for so much time, body shaking just at hearing it - What's the matter? I thought you liked watching, snitching bitch -

His stomach dropped to the ground just hearing at those words and the meaning behind them, cursing at himself for watching him go for so long despite having already recorded enough evidence at the time

Cursing at himself for ever believing that bitch had the spine to confront him, instead of joining

He was just way too dumbfounded to react, to come up with something- anything to defend himself

Instead, he only could stood there, watching him have his way with his companions right in front of him, in the office he spents day and night working his ass off for a paycheck that barely helps him survive the month, fists tightening in hopes of using them for once but too afraid to do something about it

His only consolation prize coming in the form of enjoying the sight of the two women and their dreamlike bodies covered in mouth-watering lace underwear, to see them enjoying themselves by the actions of another man that was not him, by hearing them praise the very same fucker that made his time in college a living hell, whorshipping him in the only way a lover would, the intense glint of the silver white rings they all wear on their fingers making him understand why his plan failed

By watching the very same good for nothing fucker get favorited by life again and being given the life he deserved

- Now, don't get too comfortable, weirdo - It was hard to tell what he was saying, his words barely making out of the concert of moans he was focusing on creating, not even bothering to turn in his direction to make himself clear, his only priority being trying to make the two girls come undone by his hand, the Ackerman girl and the other woman by his side seemingly reaching their peak the more they struggled to breath and the more sweat formed on their bodies, hiz gaze lowering to the mess if papers he created for a second - You still need work to get done, unless you want to gwt fired... fuck -

He really wanted to beat the shit out of him right there, his feet slowly closing the gap in between them and his fists raising with the intention of eraising that shit eating smile he seemed to do just to provoke him, to get justice by himself for once, even if he had to go against the odds

And yet, when he flickered his gaze in his direction for flash of a second, he knew perfectly that there was no way he was doing that, that there was nl way in which he could fight him

Not when he knew for sure he could never win, nor when he knew the repercursions of even daring to do such a thing

He could only fall to his knees and gather the only dignity left in the ground in the form of the several papers he would surely have to rewrite, fingers trying to dry the whitey ooze of it in the hopes of recovering some of it

- Good job - Eren taunted, voice stil deafened by the voice of his girls, his non stoping hips coming to a stop the moment he heard one of them let out the loudest screams he has ever heard a woman made, his eyes locking themselves where she was dripping right to the floor

- Bring me some water too, will you? - He said, almost as if sensing him not doing what he was asked, hands hurriedly resuming gathering the seveeal papers on the floor, the voice of the redhead woman slowly growing to the point where she was the only thing he could hear, the nasty sounds of his figers stirring her insides - I won't be done here for a while -

His hold thightened in frustration, ruining the paper on his hand as he tried to think about all the wrong things he ever did to deserve all this shit...

[gayspock]

and likeeee -_-

sorry this is just my in general fucking rant. is anyone sick ever of just being branded a fucking edgelord and called stupid and being encouraged to dispel all shitty thoughts ever. is anyone. i dont know. sorry this was about media but my sour fucking mood as of late. whatever. i think its always one of those things where its like one of the many hot air bullshit sayings is like. be yourself! :) TELL everyone how you feel! but Yourself and how you express and say things is ironically never right or correct so now you feel fucking rotted tenfold. i mean that. on like a genuine level.

cuz idk on a genuine fucking level every time ive ever tried to talk to someone about any of this ive just felt incredibly fucking patronised and unheard and unlistened to . and it makes me want to rip somkeones throat out. and on a serious level, i would be fine to engage in an actual conversation or listen to someone talk it through in a genuine fucking way. but like look i know i cant actually ask that to happen. its not fucking fair to anyone either . but also the Not asking that always just feels so much more fucking upsetting and fucking frustrating and in the end it never feels like anything other than an exercise in trying to just get away cuz it helps no one and nothing. ironically one of the things about it all. nothing helps nothing gets you forward but in sayinjg that i know people will never think of me as anyhting other than a fucking shit idiot fucking loser who gives up and doesnt care and doesnt listen when so so fucking ironically thats the exact disrespect and lack of fucking care that im talking about . and its ironic further cuz they'll insist they gaf. like do you. i feel like people only give a fuck if youre a version of a person that they can help and like and i dont think im ever going to be that for fucking anyone . i can try to pretend i am but it just makes me feel like dogshit and feel so fucking alone because thats not real at all no ones ever going to fucking like You as a person. or even more or whatever.

like how do i fucking say this. you bring this onyourself. youre negative. so like sorry but what if right. like what if im fucking right and im not a fucking idiot just this once and everything has genuinely fucking sucked and ive not got anything to fucking live for. and i am alone. etc. etc. like be serious. walk with me. so now how do you fucking think it feels to be called a fucking idiot for being consistently called some fucking idiot drama queen for it constantly. sorry. im trying not to be a self pitying fucker all the time but its like when i say i genuinelyfucking havent found anything to have gone fucking right i mean it . when i say i cant take it i fucking mean it. when i say im stupid and im unhappy and im alone if ucking mean it and trying to lie about it does not make it fucking okay it just makes me so so fucking much more upset. why do i have to fucking try and fake some fucking bright side to any of it when it doesnt fucking exist . to make YOU feel better about it. fucking fantastic. excellent . i fucking hate everything bro i wish it fucking mattered i wish it fucking mattered goddddd i wish there was a way out i fucking christtttttttttttt but people dont want to even look at you i think thats the thing like its like i think its because they know deep fucking down there is not an actual fucking thing they can say to me. because i am right this once maybe this fucking once but they cant agree and tell me to kill myself. which is fucking fine just dont fucking pretend like theres anything anyone can do to help like im a damn lost cause god bless s

something something does anyone feel like theyre in a car on the edge of the fucking cliff and you cant back it up and every time you fucking do its just teetering you closer to fucking killing yourself . is that the best way to describe it. theres no way out of it or whatever. i think i need to end something or someone . lalalala. i dont mean that. who said that

[the-whisperer-in-darkness]

I get really off the fucking bat comments from people who assume because I worked on their pieces means we're friends. Some instances I'd say maybe 1% of customers I actually feel like I could talk to outside of the work, so not a lot and I'm being generous. This guy messaged me last night, fucking Christmas, that he bought me a darkthrone shirt??? I've not spoken to this person since fucking September after he bitched at me for going to spend time with my fiancé and seeing Swans. So he bought me a shirt? I'm confused and he hasn't sent it, he doesn't know where I live, he only knows I live on the west coast because of time differences. But he just "I bought you a darkthrone shirt for Christmas" which leads me to question a lot of things. I'm leaving the whole "I'm sure your fiance wouldn't xyz to you" part, which in fact he does do xyz all the fucking time.

Obviously I'm not taking the fucker. I think the absolute fuck not. I don't care if the previous owner was Fenriz. Gross. But I wonder if he even got the right size or did that whole assumption because I'm fat I need a 3x or something. Mind you I can ask these things he doesn't have a Tumblr this is all through email. I've long since blocked him on discord after I got the final "yeah the order is good" and the final assurances so I didn't have to deal with him again. But he's assumed my size, what I like, and demanded me to respond to this gesture? I fucking hate everything right now and I just feel fucking low on this. Part of me finds it comical but the other part of me finds it extremely vile. I'm not attractive by any stretch of the meaning and I know I'm not. This isn't a pity statement. I just know this means something more considering he's already insulted me here and there. But goddamn this makes me feel gross. I wanted to catch up with my friend today but now I just kinda want to hide all fucking day.

I never gave this person any impression of anything about me other than I'm an artist. I'm serious. Im engaged, I clearly like swans. My discord is bleak and has no valid information on me other than my Spotify, twitch(so it's valid in streamers chats), Instagram for my store. I've given this person bare minimum information about me and the rest he's wildly assumed. I fucking hate my life right now.