#The Messy Beginning

[kennico]

merfolk cove doodle :)

[theusernameiwantisntavailable]

Lights out

[milkamel]

Are there any facts regarding the Slumbering truth? I'm quite interested. How did Shadow treat Healer after realizing that he is getting attached?

Hmm I should start from the beginning here I think-

At first Shadow Milk was far from being nice towards Healer, treating him like entertainment and a toy, wishing to break him down or just venting out his frustrations (basically veeery toxic, poor Healer). Cause hey, this is someone who 'stole' his soul jam. And now this 'thief' is pathetic, weak and without memories, it'd be a shame to just crumble him or not play around with his prey. And Smilk still needs PV's memories back to have full powers, but he doesn't want to do it the boring way. He wants to see what his other half is capable of even in this weak state.

But of course, he got attached. Healer has struck something within him that no one dared to touch before, they had some things in common, Smilk started to see himself in that sweet Healer. And Healer started to act a bit differently too, instead of fearing him he'd smile at him, talk to him with genuine friendliness and even playfully smacked him with a staff a few times when he tried to intimidate him, the audacity! The lack of fear or blind obedience intrigued Shadow Milk until he realized he didn't even want that power so much, he liked Healer's company even if he found his kindness naive and foolish. He liked Healer a lot more than he dared to admit.

He didn't want Healer to regain his memories anymore. He didn't need the soul jam that much, his own half was more than enough to use his powers. After all if Healer remembered he'd surely leave him and he'd find out what a terrible beast Shadow Milk was. There's no way he'd be so kind after that and would be willing to stay, he'd most likely try to seal Shadow Milk away again and Smilk would be stuck for another millenia again. And Smilk already shared way too much about himself than the other should've known.

So he decided to act in the only way he knew, manipulate Healer into staying, trying to make sure Healer avoided anything that could trigger him to remember or make his soul jam resonate. He'd manipulate his current memories, make his dreams into nightmares just in hopes of making him stay. It should've been easy with how vulnerable Healer was to his influence.

..Unless Healer is not so innocent and oblivious as it might seem? Who knows..

[daydreamdoodles]

Gem saying in her subnautica streams she should "channel some of that coldness in her life series character" and to "use that line on Pearl" aka a line where a girl is breaking up with her girlfriend in maybe the shittiest way possible. Guys. G u y s.

[disaster-vampires]

a completely normal way too look at that old man

[jesuisnilunnilautre]

PLEASE i need harry wilson and sophie devereaux romance NOWWWW. like obviously theyre not sophie/nate whirlwind romance meet-ugly soulmates but like. she catches him stealing the rembrandt. she tells him about her journey becoming a better person and watches him try to do better. she’s kind to him and he’s kind to her AND to her family. he’s bonded with their team in his own right. she takes off her ring while she looks fondly after him as a symbol of how she has progressed enough through her grief that she is capable of living life beyond nate. they’re both a little bit bi. he points out her blindspots like how she used to do with nate. she’s the first person he goes to when the team unearths something of his and he needs to be honest. they aren’t equals but they are partners. they share quiet moments of humor and comfort. he apologizes to her first. they ask each other for help. they both know what it’s like to love someone as one person and become another after they lose their partner - one way or another. theyre both parents trying to do better for their kids after they reconciled. and most of all they LIKE each other.

[kunimilktea]

May i present to you messily rendered cove james holden

[lesbiansforrosemary]

ara ohhh how I lovehate you (@ssreeder)

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#When Season 3 Starts Off Messy As Fuck

[gammija]

one of the ways peoples interpretations of jmart diverge (esp in season 5) is how people fill in the blanks

on the one end there's "everything we hear from them on the tapes is a fight or an argument, with martin constantly ignoring jons needs. and they were walking for a long time, so then just imagine all the stuff we -dont- hear. they're terrible for each other and the apocalypse just made it worse"

and on the other its "we only hear what's important to the plot or sufficiently dramatic, so what we hear are their worst arguments, and we can fill in the rest with more light-hearted fare. Like how we only heard about Martins and Jons bday parties in s5, when it would hurt us, or only the very start and very end of the weeks in the safehouse, but we can infer that between the tapes they had more relaxed and romantic moments. and if what we hear in s5 is the worst of it, they're doing pretty well, considering it's the literal end of the world'

[strwbaerii]

𝑏𝑒́𝑠𝑎𝑚𝑒, 𝐦𝐮𝐞́𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐞, 𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒́𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑒.

當你準備好 ༒ 時重新開始.

[star4daisy]

07/08 and 10/08 (heart and bed) - 539 words - @rosekillermicrofic

“This doesn’t mean we’re back together,” was the first thing that came out of Evan’s mouth between their frantic kisses.

Barty was so drunk on the feeling of finally having Evan this close to him again that he only nodded mindlessly despite the pang he felt in his heart upon hearing those words. The ones Evan always said when they lost control again and ended up pressed against a hard surface as they made out.

Barty wasted no time tearing his clothes off, he always had to act as if every time was their last time together, it pained him, but Barty was one to make the best of every situation he was in. Because in the end, it would always be Evan’s choice. Whatever he wanted, Barty would do. And he didn’t even mean it only on the sexual aspect of things. If Evan commanded, Barty would come back to him in a second.

“We can’t keep doing this,” Evan murmured against his mouth.

A garbled sound came out of Barty’s throat in protest, his mouth searching frantically for Evan’s when he pulled back. “Don’t stop,” he begged, his mouth latching onto Evan’s neck the moment he turned his face away from Barty’s.

He’d cling himself to any part of Evan he could reach. If Barty could’ve tied them together for eternity he would’ve. But since it wasn’t on the cards for him, he made sure to work his mouth against Evan’s neck the way he knew his ex-boyfriend liked.

He sucked and nibbled on the skin with just enough strength to make Evan groan against him and push his hips harder against his, hands flexing against Barty's sides.

“I mean it, Barty,” Evan pulled him away by the hair, his grip was harsh, just the way Barty liked it. “The guilt is eating me alive.”

Barty liked everything about Evan, he always had, but his sudden morality was becoming an obstacle to all of Barty’s plans to achieve what he wanted.

“Okay,” he agreed easily. “It will be the last time.”

Evan looked disappointed in him. Barty hated it. “You always say this,” he reminded him.

“I mean it this time.” Barty didn’t, but he’d say anything to get Evan back, to have him inside of him again. “I really do,” he tried to put as much sincerity as he could behind his words, turning his eyes soft in the way he knew Evan liked. “One last time, love. For old times' sake.”

Evan closed his eyes as if it pained him to stare at Barty’s face for long. “One last time,” he sounded like he was trying to convince himself.

“One last time,” Barty promised before pushing Evan into his bed. 

Allowing himself to enjoy the moment he had, only after he’d felt Evan coming inside of him would Barty start planning on how to get him to do it again and again. If there was one lesson they should’ve learned by now was that Barty would never grow tired of Evan and would never accept anything less than he’d had before.

What could he say? Barty had no excuses. When it came to Evan, Barty was greedy.

He would settle for nothing less than everything.

[feanorianethicsdepartment]

i somehow doubt that the noldor didn't tell the sindar about the first kinslaying out of malice. they weren't rubbing their hands with glee, cackling and mwa-ha-ha-ing, they weren't trying to sneak into the sindar's good graces to betray them all or whatever the fuck. i think it was more -

it can't have been deliberate. they were the children of a world without death, part of a culture that holds slaying another elf as the worst crime a person can commit, only one of them had ever raised a weapon at someone else in anger before. i think here, before their doom proper even began, the idea wouldn't have even occured to them; if it did, it would have been dismissed out of hand as obviously insane. i suspect what happened is that fëanor came up with some ridiculous cockamamie plan to steal the ships - literally to steal them, like they were going to sneak into the harbour, climb aboard the ships, and sail away without anyone noticing somehow - and of course they were discovered almost immediately, and then -

the sky was dark for the first time in almost all of their lives. as far as anyone knew, the entire world was ending, and a ton of people - on both sides - had grabbed sharp things in case of giant spider. everyone was on the edge of panic, negotiations had conclusively broken down and yet nobody was backing down, the valar were conspicuously absent, nobody could see worth a damn without the trees, nobody really knew what was happening -

that, to me, doesn't sound like the army of professional soldiers the noldor aren't yet massacring innocent fisherfolk. that sounds like the kind of situation where, if they had guns, someone would have fired a shot, and no one would ever find out who

it's chaos. the noldor somehow get out of there with the swan-ships, but not a single one of them could tell you how it happened. they don't even really start processing what they've done until they're already fleeing up the coast in a disorganised mob, and then...

children of a world without death. born to a culture that holds kinslaying as its highest taboo. there is no possible way the realisation they had just barrelled over every ethical law they had didn't hit them as hard as the trees going out

so no, i'm not surprised they didn't volunteer this information to the sindar. i mean can you imagine opening relations with thingol with this partially it's the guilt, partially it's the shame, partially it's the fact that the first thing they did on their heroic quest to reclaim their stolen masterworks was somehow actual kinslaying, that's gotta do a number on your self-image, partially... i think they were still having trouble processing it, especially early on. how do you come to terms as a culture with having done something like this, when nothing like this has ever happened before?

(and maybe - they're never going back, right? mandos was pretty clear they'd never be welcomed in valinor again, and the teleri probably aren't gonna come chasing after them seeking vengeance. whatever... that was (because they don't have a name for it, not really, everyone who knows about it was either there or learned about it while the blood (don'tthinkabouttheblood) was still drying, how do you even give a name to such a crime?) all its consequences are on the other side of the sundering sea, and chances are they'll stay there)

(so maybe. maybe if they don't mention it. maybe it can stay back in valinor, with the valar and tirion and everything else they'll never see again)

(maybe, it'll be like it never happened at all)

[hplonesomeart]

Miscellaneous collage of rushed/silly notebook doodles strikes yet again

[sideswipesjetpack]

More irn stuff

And some of the doodles on a glimpse into what their sg thing would be, for the what if

[revenantghost]

Oh my god oh my god oh my god

There's a Vash and Wolfwood dog papercraft