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retrorealeyes · 5 years ago

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Here’s why I want my parents dead /hj

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE like I know hating your parents if they aren’t overtly abusive (and even if they are it’s only mildly) like bruh, tempted to list out my parents “abuse” here. also like bruh, i’m fine rn, i’ve just been hating them for a while

This isn’t fully everything ever, it’s just an overview and I don’t think it touches the main problems enough (also I don’t give a lot of examples because there’s too many and I don’t have the will to write em all,and i’ve still overviewing everything)

-never respect my wishes if it goes against theirs (e.x. please leave me alone, can i go outside?, can I leave and go upstairs?)

this is a big one

-don’t respect my privacy (in weird ways too, like my dad opening the door to scare me when i’m changing) and making fun of it too

plus in normal ways like reading my journals or never knocking no matter how many times i tell them to

-making fun of me on purpose to get me upset, even when i ask them to stop

-getting suddenly and violently angry (dad):

often unreasonably and quickly

my dad curses people out under his breath, as a sign he’s going to get violent

has broken things, SUCH AS MY WHOLE ASS PHONE by throwing it on the ground does punch things, generally not people, e.x. walls, but not that hard. he has punched me

DOES to people- slap, push (this one especially, just last week he did), throw, scratch

is destructive to other’s property (e.x. ripping up THEIR papers)

refuses to listen to suggestions like, in the future, trying to calm down, or writing out his anger instead or seeking therapy

been like this towards me since i was 6-7 years old

it can escalate from anything

will degrade you and insult you, if you ever say anything back (even in a non-angry situation, will grow even angrier/get very angry)

makes you feel awful

can last for hours and never accomplishes anything apart from further degrading yourself

if you don’t give the exact answer he wants, will get even angrier

I’m obviously terrified of him

Swears at me, except they censor me so much they could probably kill me if I ever swore so that exacerbates the fear of it

after the fact continuosly denies it

-my dad also:

always demands respect

always plays the victim and complains about how we dislike him

never admits his mistakes

is awful to my little sister, randomly, even when she’s being perfectly fine

-my mother and father’s relationship

they openly and mean to each other. they never display affection and joke about divorcing

sometimes dad yells at mom for a while, it’s obvious he thinks he’s superior to her and belittles her intelligence

they are sometimes violent, but not often, and not overtly, more violent towards objects than each other when fighting with each other

they do get in fights often (see: my dad’s belief in his superiority)

-openess with them

there is none. they constantly criticize any self expression, make all subjects taboo, get angry over nothing and overall make me terrified of talking to them, then get all sad about “why don’t you tell us“ but if I try to express anything, even if they don’t get angry, they’ll store it in their heads and then later keep using it against me. “You said we were bad parents, do you not want to eat our food?“ “You said you were unmotivated, you don’t even have a reason to be sad.“ (said in an challenging, mean way)

-my self esteem

-my dad, physically (TO BE CLEAR I don’t think my dad in any way in trying to do anything sexual, i’m just saying he never respects my boundaries and here are some things he thinks are “perfectly fine” that he does, also this might be a bit disconnected sounding, i’m just so tired

commenting on my weight/appearance (mom too)

commenting on what i’m wearing, especially teasing me if it’s something out of the usual, as if i’m not insecure enough already

dictating what i wear if they don’t like what i’m wearing

commenting (negatively) on my mom’s weight a lot (to be fair, they both joke about being old and him balding and a little about him being fat so this one isn’t as bad apart form the fact that i’m skinnier so he “jokes” a lot about how i’m like a skinnier version of her)

fatso called the girl in the video

forces me to hug and kiss him, often only giving my phone back or treats luke donuts if I kiss him, even if I’ve expressed i’m uncomfortable (just does this a lot and i hate it)

-the past

have yelled for me for no reason since i was young

i don’t remember ever liking my dad (wait, before 6 years of age i remember liking him and before I was 9 i remember not hating him at all times)

i continously try to trust them again, then they break me

they were never open with me and taught me to be ashamed of myself which led to bad social relations later, which i’m only now breaking out of

-confiscation and lack of trust

always taking my stuff so i can’t rely on what they’ll black mail me with, no “excuse” is valid to keep it (ex. I want to communicate w/friends or I LITERALLY HAVE INSOMNIA AND CAN’T SLEEP WITHOUT LISTENING TO MUSIC); during my worst days, when I was really suicidal i remember not having my phone for a long time which led to me being left behind and further isolating myself which, y’know spiralled

I can go on and on about how they never value my voice but i’m sort of running out of steam

they also never trust my statements, always cast me as the cause-r of something (luckily they’re fair and don’t punish me for it if I insist I didn’t do it, but the fact i have to really advocate for my innocence and am constantly suspected just is not great, and even jokingly, i hate attention, their attention)

There’s more but i think i’m done for now

-constantly bother me (i know this is nitpicking, i’m just trying to get everything out, and some of these have more layers than i’m willing to express)

intentionally sabotaging

even if i ask them to go away

try to annoy me when ever i see them, even if i’ve asked them not too, and really make me avoid everything even more (you have to go through where they usually are to get out and that means y’know what)

singing

yelling and stepping loudly (which makes me scared my dad is mad all the time)

always teasing and judging

-mother dearest

very aggressive

VERY controlling

generally boring

always invades privacy, more of a nosy person, but, in a way, better than dad

she can get violent too and screams but it’s less often but can get very intense sometimes, generally it’s more of taking away my stuff and telling me to give up (which, the telling me to give up, my dad does too)

-lack of independence

THIS ONE IS HUGE. my parents are very controlling and so even a little freedom excites me and they use my lack of experience as a sword against me, and that makes it eve harder for me to do anything when I’m constantly fighting restrictions and my brains can’t distinguish bad restrictions from schoolwork restrictions

-shitty world view

just a bad biased view of the world, i really don’t want to elaborate, beyond the general sense they deserve to be respected for being parents a conservative-type view, also don’t have basic sense of morality, as in sympathy, for everyone, and instead do the whole us|them thing with their politics, the only problem is that we’re immigrants which is why they vote democrat

-grandparents

are visiting, they are also unhygienic, to always be obeyed, generally judgemental, and intentionally old, and taking up both of my rooms, overall i don’t like any of them, my father’s mom is alright though

-generally shaming me

And otherwise everything is generally going to shit, my social life (though I saved it somewhat for ONE person), my mental/emotional health, my exercise, motivation for anything, just the way the house is set up, my grandparents are here, how i’m doing in school.

I should write the thesis and really flesh this out well but I’ll tell you what: ultimately my parents are selfish people who don’t consider me my own entity but more as themselves and my achievements combined. ANd even if you love me, which I don’t doubt, I don’t have to love you back, and that doesn’t excuse your shittiness, dad. I fucking hate you. (yes. i’m grateful for the money, house, generally not obviously abusive childhood, food, stuff, bed, phone, etc. you have provided, but that doesn’t cancel out your misdeeds, it just coexists next to it)

Like is it SO bad for me to blame SOME of my issues with them? BUT NO if I ever bring up how they did x so i did y. I did y ON PURPOSE to UPSET THEM and i can’t hold them accountable, i’m just blaming them, even if I’m genuinely trying to explain my issues the way I understand them.

idr if you can edit tumblr documents, and even if you can, i’m not going to, i’ll just add to this with comments, to preserve the integrity, not that anyone will or should read this, but i’ll probably come back to it

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softspiderling · 6 years ago

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swanky fortune - part eight | t.h.

Summary: of scheming roommates, a good dinner, and a night out with Tom

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Song I listened to while writing: Circles by Post Malone

Author’s Note: I’M SORRY PLS DON’T HATE ME. But the good news is, I’ve already started writing the next part, so.... Per usual, comments and feedback is appreciated and highly demanded. I missed these two dumbasses. ALSO I HAVE 1K followers now??? C R A Z Y!! Thanks to everyone I’m so grateful for you!!! Also I know I did a celebration recently, but if anyone wants another one, lmk!

Warnings: mentions of alcohol, swearing

Word Count: a whooping 4,8k

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It seemed like life just had one surprise after another in store for you.

Not even your wildest dreams could compete with the scenario that was taking place in front of you. Tom Holland standing in the middle of your kitchen and apparently cooking dinner for you.

“How did you get in my apartment?” You blurted out, before wincing.

“Sorry. I swear I’m really happy to see you.”

Tom gave you an exasperated look before he put down the spatula, leaning against the counter. He looked good. It was obvious to you that the time home was definitely something he had needed. The bags underneath his eyes weren’t completely gone yet, but they definitely were on their way of disappearing. His cheeks were pink, though you couldn’t tell if it was from the heat from the stove or if he was embarrassed.

“You really need to work on your people skills, Y/N,” he teased and you scoffed lightheartedly, stepping towards him to hug him tightly, inhaling his scent.

Has he always smelt this nice? Or was your judgement clouded by the endorphins your brain was pouring out at the mere sight of him? You weren’t sure.

“‘s good to see you too, love. Told ya I would make it up to you,” he mumbled in your hair, before pulling away, smiling down at you. Overcome with emotion, you turned away and grabbed a water bottle from the fridge, while he puttered around the stove.

You watched him move around your kitchen and he looked oddly like he belonged here.

“But seriously, how did you get in my apartment?” You asked, tilting your head as you stood next to him. “I’m seriously questioning my safety right now.”

He laughed and shook his head, stirring the sauce before putting the lid back on the pot. “Your roommate let me in and gave me a key when she left.”

Your eyes widened. “Luisa gave you a key to our apartment?”

“Guess I’m just that trustworthy,” he shrugged with a grin and you rolled your eyes at him. You knew exactly why Luisa let him in and gave him a key on top of that. You also knew that she was probably not going to be back in the apartment until Tom had left. Damn that girl.

“I really need to teach her about stranger danger.”

“Hey!” Tom protested. “If it weren’t for her, I wouldn’t have been able to cook dinner for you.”

Your playful smile turned into a fond one. God, he was trying really hard to win you over. Ducking your head to hide your face, you tucked your hair behind your ear.

“You didn’t have to do that, you know that right?”

“I know, but I wanted to,” he said lightly.

“How are you here anyway?” You asked, deflecting. “I thought you weren’t planning on doing anymore traveling until you have to get back to work.”

“I meant traveling for work. I also said I was looking forward to relax during my time off. And I’m doing that, here with you.” Tom pointed out.

“Did you not want to spend more time with your family?”

“I spent plenty of time with them,” he assured you. “Plus I was constantly talking about you anyway and they got tired of that, so I took the next plane here, I landed this morning. It’s not really a big deal, love.”

It was though. When was the last time someone had put so much work and effort in wanting to spend time with you? Not only did he take a flight to you, apparently he also went grocery shopping and cooked dinner for you.

“It’s a big deal to me Tom,” You said softly, leaning up to press a soft kiss on his cheek. He turned away and you bit back a grin when his face turned pink.

Tom cleared his throat and turned the stove off, drumming with his fingers against the counter.

“So, food?”

After maneuvering the food onto plates that Tom deemed good enough for his pasta, you and him sat across from each other at the dining table.

As you were about to take the first bite, you noticed that he was staring at you more intently than usual.

“You didn’t poison this, did you?” You asked with squinted eyes, carefully inspecting the noodles on your fork and he rolled his eyes, taking a spoonful of pasta, chewing obnoxiously.

“How are you being so melodramatic? I thought I was the actor out of the two of us.”

You grinned at him before finally putting the fork in your mouth, your eyes widening. “Oh my god.”

“It’s good, huh?”

“Good?” you asked, covering your full mouth with your hand. “This is amazing! Where’d you get this recipe?”

“It’s my mum’s. She used to cook this every year for my birthday lunch,” he told you and you smirked, swallowing your food.

“And you looked over her shoulder because you knew you’re going to have to cook it yourself some day?”

He shook his head, twirling the noodles on his fork. You could see the smugness basically oozing off of him and you rolled your eyes, already knowing that some sort of cocky comment was about to leave his mouth.

“I didn’t have to look over her shoulder, because I’m just that good of a cook,” Tom said and you snorted in your plate, barely disguising it as a cough. He narrowed his eyes at you, his fork pointing at you.

“What was that?”

“Nothing,” you said innocently, smiling sweetly at him which he reciprocated with a flick on your arm. Yelping, you stuck your tongue at him and wagged your fork at him warningly before you returned your attention to your food that was getting colder the longer you were fooling around with Tom.

After you’ve both finished eating which took longer than usual because you kept picking on each other like little kids, you were standing side by side in the kitchen, him doing the dishes after having insisted on doing them.

“You’re a guest Tom, stop being unreasonable. I’m not going to let you do the dishes!”

“A self-invited guest.”

“A guest nonetheless!”

“Love, I literally made the mess, would you please let me clean it up?”

“You already cooked for me, can’t I pay you back by doing the dishes?”

“No. You can pay me back another way.”

“What way?”

“… Just move over so I can do the dishes, Y/N.”

You snapped the lid on the Tupperware filled with leftover food, placing them in the fridge for Luisa in case she ever came home again. Tom was drying his hands off on a kitchen towel when you turned back to him, raising an eyebrow at him. He returned your look with a raised brow, though his was way more untamed than you hoped yours was.

“So, what are we going to do now?”

“What do you mean ‘What are going to do now’?,” he asked with a snort, crossing his arms over his chest. “I cooked. It’s your job to take care of the entertainment.”

“You’re kidding, right? You literally invited yourself to my place without letting me know beforehand, and now you’re expecting me to entertain you?” you gave him a look and trudge into the living room, Tom hot on your tails with a grin on his face. You threw yourself unceremoniously on the couch and crossed your legs, leaning your chin in your hand.

“I have a few assignments and readings to do over the weekend,” you started and he frowned at you as he joined you on the couch, pursing his lips.

“Are you telling me you won’t have any time for me while I’m here?”

Suddenly he straightened his back and a look of uncertainty passed his face. He fiddled with his hands and you didn’t know what triggered it, but the atmosphere had suddenly shifted.

“Was this a mistake?” Tom wanted to know and red splotches started appearing on his neck. “I should’ve called beforehand, you must be really busy-“

“Tom,” you interrupted him with a small smile, taking his hand to calm him down, only continuing to speak when he looked at you. It was that moment when you realized that he was embarrassed by his actions and admittedly it was a bit straightforward and crazy, but it was still pretty sweet of him. You were also very glad that he took the first step, because if he hadn’t, you’d probably wouldn’t have seen each other in the near future.

“It’s just a few assignments, I’m not super busy,” you told him. “You should get some rest and lay down while I do, you must be really tired after today.”

His eyes went wide and he moved his hands to grasp you by your shoulders. “Wait a minute, you want to do your assignments now?”

“Yes.”

“It’s Friday.”

“I know.”

“Friday evening, Y/N.”

You rolled your eyes at him. “I know, Tom. And?”

“Oh my god, you’re a nerd,” he laughed out, his head dropping as his shoulders shook with the vibrations. Puzzled and offended by his words, you furrowed your brows and shoved his hands off of your own shoulders as he wouldn’t stop laughing.

“You’re a nerd,” you shot back and he wiped his eyes, giving you a thumbs up.

“Solid comeback, love, that hit me real hard.”

You crossed your arms over your chest and frowned at him. “I am not a nerd.”

“You’re willingly doing readings and assignments on Friday evenings, I am pretty sure that’s the definition of nerd,” Tom pointed out, his laughter having subsided but the grin on his face was still wide.

God, he’s such a nuisance.

“I am not doing them willingly, but if I’ll do it now, it’s done and I don’t have to worry about it anymore on Sunday night. It’s called being responsible,” you explained to him, slightly annoyed as he watched you with a twinkle in his eyes.

“That’s exactly what a nerd would say.”

Bristling, you shoved him playfully by the shoulders and got up to grab your laptop and your backpack to pull out your folder that held all your papers. Spreading your worksheets on the coffee table with Tom peering over your shoulders, you started piling the documents on different stacks.

“What do the different colors mean?” He wanted to know as he leaned over your left shoulder, his breath hot on your earlobe. You turned your head slightly and he was curiously eyeing your notes.

It was funny how interested he was in your assignments, considering how routinely they were for you.

“Pink means I need to ask for clarifications, green means it’s relevant for my exam and yellow means what I think is important.”

Tom let out a oooohhhh and tilted his head slightly, leaning forward to get a better look at the different worksheets.

“You don’t mind me doing my assignments now, do you?” You asked, glancing at him. “It’s not going to take long, I promise.”

“It’s fine, I can entertain myself, you do what you gotta do,” he told you and shot you a wink. Rolling your eyes at him, you opened your laptop to pull up the instructions from your professor and do your readings.

It was actually kind of nice working with Tom around. He was mostly quiet, there was the occasional snort while he laughed quietly about something on his phone, though it didn’t really bother you. You were working on an article about the gender pay gap when you noticed him staring at you.

You hadn’t really noticed him moving around that much, that was why you were so surprised to see him sitting opposite of you, leaning his elbows on the coffee table. One corner of his mouth was curled up, and you knew based on the smirk on his face that he was up to no good. Removing the highlighter cap from between your lips, you turned your full attention on him.

“What?”

The smirk on his face widened and you were slowly getting irritated, narrowing your eyebrows at him when he reached out to gently poke you on the forehead.

“You have a crease right here when you’re trying to concentrate,” he told you and you swatted his hands away, smoothing the crease in your forehead down.

“It’s not there because I’m trying to concentrate, it’s there because I’m annoyed because you’re staring at me.”

“I’ve been watching you for the last five minutes and you haven’t even noticed because you’re so engrossed in your article, so that’s a lie.”

“You know that’s really creepy right?” you asked with a sigh, starting to collect your notes and putting them away.

He shrugged lightly and fixed a stack of papers, handing them to you. “Couldn’t help myself, you looked really cute. And I’ve always had a thing for smart women.”

The blood rushed to your face and you turned away to stuff your folder back into your backpack, avoiding his gaze.

“Shut up,” you mumbled and he laughed, his finger tips dancing along your wrists. Goosebumps started spreading across your arms and your head snapped up to look at him, just to see that he was already watching you.

“How about you make me?” he suggested lightly, a brow ticking up. You flushed even brighter and got up, shoving your hand in his face.

“Get it together, Holland,” you huffed and he laughed at you, craning his head to follow your movements.

It was getting harder and harder to resist him, but you had promised yourself not to let yourself fall this quickly, you were trying to learn from your mistakes. But what if your ex-boyfriend had been the mistake last time, and not your feelings?

What if was a mistake to keep Tom at an arms distance (or at least that was what you were trying to do)? What if he was the right one and by distancing yourself, you were only pushing him away? The sight of his smile made you feel warm and at the same time, your head is telling you to cool it.

“I need a drink,” you muttered and offered Tom a hand to pull him up. He clasped his hand around yours and got up to his feet, nodding at your request.

“I could do drinks,” he said. “But I do need to change, though.”

Stretching your arms, you nodded. “Yeah me too. Uh, did you bring any clothes?”

Tom gave you a look. “No, I came here with the clothes on my body only.”

You grinned and grabbed your backpack, pointing to the bathroom in the hallway. “You can use the bathroom to change if you want to, I’ll just need a couple of minutes and then I’ll be right out.”

“Aye aye captain!” Tom saluted to you and you only shook your head with a snort while you headed to your room. Stuffing your backpack in the corner, you opened your clothes and pursed your lips while browsing through your racks, eventually settling on a red floral blouse, not wanting to change out of your jeans, too.

After having changed into the blouse, you sat in front of your mirror and refreshed your make up, while mentally going through all the bars that were nearby. Tom hadn’t specifically told you, but you were guessing that he wanted to keep a low profile and not draw too much attention, so you scratched off any bars, that were always packed. You had a few casual bars in mind and hoped one of them would work out, but it was Friday night and you’d never know what expected you.

You pouted your lips into the mirror before grabbing your purse on the way out of the living room, where Tom was shrugging his leather jacket on, a hat sitting on top of his head, his outfit looking rather dark.

“Hey,” he said, wearing a sheepish expression when you stepped closer to him. “Do you mind if we-“

Nodding quickly, you gave him a smile. “Yeah, we can do low-key, don’t worry.”

“Thanks,” he sighed out, clearly relieved. “I just really need a break right now.”

You waved it off, understanding where he was coming from. “It’s fine, I totally get it. Are you ready to leave?”

“Yes, I’m ready.” He jogged towards the front door and opened it, waving his hand dramatically with a bow. “After you my lady.”

“You’re such a gentleman,” you said teasingly and walked through the door, watching as Tom locked the front door with a pointed look in your direction.

With an eyeroll, you crossed your arms over your chest, letting yourself lean against the wall. “You’re aware that I’m not letting you keep that key, right?”

“Aw why not?”

He stuffed the key into the pocket of his jeans and looked up at you with a pout. You pushed yourself off the wall, an amused grin on your face.

“Because that’s literally the dumbest thing someone could do. I mean, you could rob me, or something,” you trailed off as the two of you walked out of the building.

Tom gave you an indignant look and you chuckled, shrugging unapologetically. “Anything is possible these days, Tom. I’m just trying to protect myself.”

Pushing the door open, you exited the building, the sun’s last beams shone through the trees, painting the sky in a soft orange. You inhaled deeply and quickly fell in step with Tom as you walked on the sidewalk.

“There’s a nice bar a few blocks from here, we can go there by foot if you don’t mind,” you suggested, pointing in the direction you were going.

“Walking is fine. I’ve been sitting on my ass enough today.”

You two settled into a comfortable silence, your arms swinging between you as you walked, your hands occasionally brushing. His pinkie brushed against the side of your palm and you knew that he was carefully testing out the waters. Oddly enough, you were glad that he did, letting his fingers grasping yours slowly, and you glanced at him with pink cheeks.

Tom smiled at you when a group of raucous college students walked towards you.

The moment he had so carefully worked for immediately broke between you and you quickly pulled your hand back, locking your hands nervously as you passed the group, with Tom ducking his head while you balled your hands.

Talk about mood killer.

“This is it,” you told him, gesturing towards the building on the other side of the street.

You crossed the road, passed the people who were having a smoke by the curb and pulled the door open. As you stepped into the bar and looked around you noticed that it was slightly busier than you expected it to be but not as packed as normal bars on a Friday night.

“Is this okay?”

You turned to Tom and same as you, he was scanning the bar before giving you a thumbs up. Looking around for a place to sit, you caught eye of Luisa waving frantically at you.

“Hey stranger, over here!”

With a grin, you nudged Tom and nodded towards where Luisa was sitting before walking to her table with raised eyebrows. Luisa was talking in hushed whispers to the rest of your friends before she turned back to you with a wide smile.

“Look who the cat dragged in,” Luisa teased and you rolled your eyes good-naturedly.

“Oh ha ha, don’t act like I’m never around, I come out plenty.”

“No she doesn’t,” Maisie said to Tom, a shit eating grin on her face, similar to the grin her girlfriend was wearing. “You must be a real good influence on her.”

Tom laughed and rubbed the back of his neck.

“I’m doing my best. But she actually was doing homework before she agreed to come out with me, so-“

With a glare, you bumped his side with yours.

“Stop or I won’t introduce you to my friends,” you warned him.

He raised his hands in surrender, though the smirk on his face portrayed the complete opposite.

Grinning, you shook your head fondly before you turned to the table. “Alright, so Tom this is Jessica, David, Henry, Max and Maisie, twins, by the way and you’ve already met my lovely roommate Luisa. Everyone, this is Tom. Be nice.”

Tom waved into the round and your friends all gave him friendly smiles. You bet all your money that Luisa had told them to keep their cool before you approached their table.

“Come on, sit down!”

Your friends scooted in the booth and you slid next Luisa, with Tom on your left.

While you gave Luisa a thankful hand squeeze, you noticed Tom was pressing his hands nervously on his legs, his eyes darting around.

“Hey,” you said, placing your hand on top of his like it was your second nature. His eyes snapped up to yours in surprise, while his fingers entangled with yours.

“You’ll be fine, stop being so nervous.”

Tom smiled sheepishly at you and squeezed your hand. “Sorry.”

Shooting him a quick smile, you held his hand for a while longer before pulling away, noticing the look Luisa was giving you.

“Shut up,” you muttered and grabbed one of the beers Maisie poured out for you and Tom. While you kept your hand wrapped around the cold glass, he raised his with a quick “Cheers.”

The conversation at the table briefly stocked, but when Jessica mentioned the new restaurant that was opening around the corner, everyone was quick to state their opinion. And even though Tom wasn’t necessarily actively involved in the conversation, he was content to sit back and watch you interact with your friends.

“Sorry if I am being too forward,” one of the guys, Tom wasn’t too sure, but his name might be Max, suddenly spoke up, his eyes on Tom.

“But I really liked Far From Home. You did a great job.”

Tom beamed at that compliment and ducked his head, ever the humble person that he was.

“Aw, thanks man. I really hoped that people would like it, and I’m really proud of the movie,” he said, while your friends were glued to his lips. “The pressure on the movie being the last of Marvel’s Phase Three really made me nervous, but yeah. I’m glad it all worked out in the end.”

“So when’s the next movie coming out?” Maisie asked and Tom chuckled, shaking his head quickly.

“Fuck if I know. But I couldn’t even tell you if I wanted to, they would kill me.”

Your friends laughed and you laughed with them, a soft look on your face as you traced the water drops from the condensation on your glass.

Tom’s cheeks were pink, secretly pleased that he made your friends laugh, but even though he really wanted your friends to like him, all his attention was on you. He always wanted to see you happy and laughing and it was weird, because he hasn’t even known you for that long to value your happiness so much.

Back at home, he tried to focus on his family and friends, enjoy his time off and just spend it bumming around, but he was constantly thinking about you and wondering what you were currently up to. You were just so easy to be around and something about you made him want more. And Tom knew that you wanted more, too. But something was clearly holding you back and that was okay.

He was in no rush.

“So Tom, where are you staying?” Luisa asked, casually playing with the pretzel in her fingers. “Because I couldn’t help but notice that you turned up on our doorstep with your bags in hand.”

“Yeah, our doorstep which you gave him the keys to, Lu,” you interjected and your friends snickered as Luisa patted your arm consolingly, while Tom watched you, way too amused by the scene that was unfolding in front of him. Judged by the reactions from the rest of your friends, this bickering was routine for Luisa and you.

“It was to do you a favor, Y/N. Are you seriously trying to tell me that you weren’t happy to see him?”

“Whatever,” you grumbled and Luisa winked at Tom, before waving her hand at him. “So? Where are you staying?”

“Uh, I booked a hotel room. Don’t worry, I’m not trying to overextend my stay.” Tom said quickly but Luisa shook her head.

“Oh please, you should come and stay with us!”

“He should?” you asked, spluttering. “Do you expect him to sleep on the couch?”

“No,” Maisie grinned, leaning forward to bring your attention on her. “Luisa can spend the nights at my place as long as Tom is staying here.”

You eyed her skeptically. “And you’re okay with that?”

“Why wouldn’t I be okay with my girlfriend spending the night?”

“I was talking to Max,” you pointed out and Max shrugged with his shoulders before nodding. “Yeah, it’s fine. I can put on headphones.”

You snorted and shook your head before turning to Tom who was making himself small.

“I can spend the night at the hotel,” he offered. “If you don’t feel comfortable-“

“No, you should stay with me,” you said with a final tone and he smiled softly at you.

“Okay.”

As the night progressed and the beers were poured, you found yourself enjoying yourself a lot, and that Tom was getting along so well with your friends made it even better. There were a few fans who approached the table and asked for a picture with Tom which he politely declined, but otherwise it was good night.

It was nearing one am in the morning when you got up, after noticing Tom has yawned three times in a row.

“Alright guys, we’re calling it a night. I have to get this guy in his bed or I’ll end up carrying him all the way back,” you said and he frowned.

“You couldn’t take me, darling. I’m too buff.” He said, flexing his biceps and you pushed his arms away.

“Get out of here,” you laughed, while Jessica fanned herself.

“Such a dreamboat. If you’re not taking him Y/N, I will!”

“Bye guys,” you grinned and Tom waved his hands before the two of you exited the bar, slightly intoxicated from all the beers you’ve been drinking, but not too much that it was clouding your judgement.

Though the chilly air from outside was welcoming after having spent the past couple of hours in a stuffy bar, it still made you shiver a bit and you crossed your arms in an attempt to warm yourself up.

“You cold?” Tom asked, already slipping out of his jacket to drape it over your shoulders. You pushed your arms through the sleeves and shot him a grateful smile.

“Thanks Tom.”

“Don’t mention it.”

He stuffed his hands into his pockets and your fingers were clutching the sleeve of his leather jacket as you walked.

“I am really glad that you hit it off with my friends,” you then said and he glanced at you with a smile.

“Me too. They’re super fun,” he chuckled. “It’s refreshing to be around people who are in a completely different industry than I am. It can get kind of boring talking to actors and actresses all the time.”

“Oh yeah,” you nodded. “Must be really boring to work with Robert Downey Jr and Zendaya, I pity you.”

Tom huffed and bumped your shoulder with his. “That’s not what I meant and you know it.”

You laughed cheekily at him, stopping in front of the building of your apartment, looking expectantly at Tom.

“What? Luisa didn’t give you the key to the apartment building, too?”

“You know you’d look pretty dumb now if she would have,” he pointed out while you unlocked the door, the grin on your face wide. You weren’t sure if you were ever able to stop smiling again.

“I know I would have. Lucky me, right?” You said over your shoulder as you walked up the stairs.

“You know something else?”

“What?”

You turned around to him when you stopped in front of your apartment door, looking at him with expectant eyes.

“That jacket looks better on you than it ever did on me,” he told you, running his hands down your arms.

You snorted, while he looked down at you with a soft look on his face, his hands settling on your waist.

“Are you telling me I can keep the jacket?”

Tom shrugged, the tip of his shoes clanking against yours as he stepped closer. “You should. I am not lying, darling.”

Blushing, you wrinkled your nose at him. “I’d rather have a new one.”

The corners of his lips pulled up and his grip on your waist tightened.

“You’re really something else Y/N,” he mumbled and you could count the freckles on his face when he leaned in.

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steph-fowlie · 5 years ago

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List of Character Flaws

1. Absent-minded: Preoccupied to the extent of being unaware of one’s immediate surroundings Daydreaming, inattentive, oblivious, forgetful.

2. Abusive: Characterized by the improper infliction of physical or physiological maltreatment towards another.

3. Addicted: One who is addicted to a compulsive activity/ Examples - gambling, drugs, sex.

4. Aimless: Devoid of direction or purpose.

5. Alcoholic: A person who drinks alcohol habitually and to excess.

6. Anxious: Full of mental distress or uneasiness, because of fear of danger or misfortune; greatly worried; solicitous.

7. Arrogant: Having or displaying a sense of overbearing self-worth or self-importance. Inclined to social exclusiveness, rebuffs the advances of people consider inferior. Snobbish.

8. Audacious: Recklessly bold in defiance of convention, propriety, law, or the like; insolent; brazen, disobedient.

9. Bad Habit: This is usually a repulsive personal habit. Examples - picks nose, spits tobacco, drools, bad body odor.

10. Bad-tempered: Easily annoyed or made angry.

11. Bigmouth: A loud-mouthed or gossipy person.

12. Bigot: One who is strongly partial to one’s own group, religion, race, or politics and is intolerant of those who differ.

13. Blunt: Characterized by directness in manner or speech; without subtlety or evasion. Frank, callous, insensitive, brusque.

14. Bold: In a bad sense, too forward; taking undue liberties; over assuming or confident; lacking proper modesty or restraint; rude; impudent. Abrupt, brazen, cheeky, brassy, audacious.

15. Callous: Hardened to emotions, rarely showing any form of it in expression. Unfeeling. Cold.

16. Childish: Marked by or indicating a lack of maturity; puerile.

17. Complex: An exaggerated or obsessive concern or fear.

18. Cruel: Mean to anyone or anything, without caring or regard to feelings

19. Cursed: A person who has befallen a prayer for evil or misfortune, placed under a spell, or borne into an evil circumstance, and suffers for it. Damned.

20. Dependent: Unable to exist, sustain oneself, or act appropriately or normally without the assistance or direction of another.

21. Deranged: Mentally decayed. Insane. Crazy. Mad. Psychotic.

22. Dishonest: Given to, or using, fraud, cheating; deceitful, deceptive, crooked, underhanded.

23. Disloyal: Lacking loyalty. Unfaithful, perfidious, traitorous, treasonable.

24. Disorder: An ailment that affects the function of mind or body.

25. Disturbed: Showing signs or symptoms of mental or emotional illness. Confused, disordered, neurotic, troubled.

26. Dubious: Fraught with uncertainty or doubt. Undecided, doubtful, unsure.

27: Dyslexic: Affected by dyslexia, a learning disorder marked by impairment of the ability to recognize and comprehend written words.

28. Egotistical: Characteristic of those having an inflated idea of their own importance. Boastful, pompous.

29. Envious: Showing extreme cupidity; painfully desirous of another’s advantages; covetous, jealous.

30. Erratic: Deviating from the customary course in conduct or opinion; eccentric - erratic behavior. Eccentric, bizarre, outlandish, strange.

31. Fanatical: Outlook or behavior especially as exhibited by excessive enthusiasm, unreasoning zeal, or wild and extravagant notions on some subject.

32. Fickle: Erratic, changeable, unstable - especially with regard to affections or attachments; capricious.

33. Fierce: Marked by extreme intensity of emotions of convictions; inclined to react violently; fervid.

34. Finicky: Excessively particular or fastidious; difficult to please; fussy. Too concerned with detail. Meticulous, fastidious, choosy, critical, picky, prissy.

35. Fixated: In psychoanalytic theory, a strong attachment to a person or thing, especially such an attachment formed in childhood or infancy and manifested in immature or neurotic behavior that persists throughout life. Fetish, quirk, obsession, infatuation.

36. Flirty: To make playfully romantic or sexual overtures; behavior intended to arouse sexual interest. Minx. Tease.

37. Gluttonous: Given to excess in consumption. Voracious, ravenous, wolfish, piggish, insatiable.

38. Greedy: Having or showing an intense and selfish desire for wealth or power, or having an excessive desire or appetite for food.

39. Gruff: Brusque or stern in manner or appearance. Crusty, rough, surly.

40. Gullible: Will believe any information given, regardless, of how valid or truthful it is, easily deceived or duped.

41. Hard: A person who is difficult to deal with, manage, control, overcome, or understand. Hard emotions, hard-hearted.

42: Hedonistic: Pursuit of, or devotion to, pleasure, especially to the pleasures of the senses.

43. Hoity-toity: Given to flights of fancy; capricious; frivolous. Prone to giddy behavior, flighty.

44. Humorless: The inability to find humor in things, and most certainly in themselves.

45. Hypocritical: One who is always contradicting their own beliefs, actions or sayings. A person who professes beliefs and opinions for others that he does not hold.

46. Idealist: One whose conduct is influenced by ideals that often conflict with practical considerations. One who is unrealistic and impractical, guided more by ideals than by practical considerations.

47. Idiotic: Marked by a lack of intelligence or care; foolish or careless.

48. Ignorant: Lacking knowledge or information as to a particular subject or fact. Showing or arising from a lack of education or knowledge.

49. Illiterate: Unable to read and write.

50. Immature: Emotionally undeveloped; juvenile; childish.

51. Impatient: Unable to wait patiently or tolerate delay; restless. Unable to endure irritation or opposition; intolerant.

52. Impious: Lacking piety and reverence for a god/gods and their followers.

53. Impish: Naughtily or annoyingly playful.

54. Incompetent: Unable to execute tasks, no matter the size or difficulty.

55. Indecisive: Characterized by lack of decision and firmness, especially under pressure.

56. Indifferent: Lacking enthusiasm for, or interest in, things generally, remaining calm and seeming not to care; a casual lack of concern. Having or showing little or no interest in anything; languid; spiritless.

57. Infamy: Having an extremely bad reputation, public reproach, or strong condemnation as the result of a shameful, criminal, or outrageous act that affects how others view them.

58. Intolerant: Unwilling to tolerate difference of opinion and narrow-minded about cherished opinions.

59. Jealous: Feeling or showing an envious resentment of someone or their achievements, possessions, or perceived advantages.

60. Judgmental: Inclined to make and form judgement, especially moral or personal ones, based on one’s own opinions or impressions towards others/practices/groups/religions based on appearance, reputation, occupation, etc.

61. Klutz: Clumsy. Blunderer.

62. Lazy: Resistant to work or exertion; disposed to idleness.

63. Lewd: Inclined to, characterized by, or inciting to lust or lechery; lascivious. Obscene or indecent, as language or songs; salacious.

64. Liar: Compulsively and purposefully tells false truths more often than not. A person who has lied or who lies repeatedly.

65. Lustful: Driven by list; preoccupied with exhibiting lustful desires.

66. Manipulative: Exercising unscrupulous control or influence over a person or situation.

67. Masochist: The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.

68. Meddlesome: Intrusive in a meddling or offensive manner, given to meddling; interfering.

69. Meek: Evidencing little spirit o courage; overly submissive or compliant; humble in spirit or manner; suggesting retiring mildness or even cowed submissiveness.

70. Megalomaniac: A psycho-pathological condition characterized by delusional fantasies of wealth, power, or omnipotence.

71. Naive: Lacking worldly experience and understanding, simple and guileless; showing or characterized by a lack of sophistication and critical judgement.

72. Nervous: Easily agitated or distressed; high-strung or jumpy.

73. Non-violent: Abstaining from the use of violence.

74. Nosey: Given to prying into the affairs of others; snoopy. Offensively curious or inquisitive.

75. Obsessive: An unhealthy and compulsive preoccupation with something or someone.

76. Oppressor: A person of authority who subjects others to undue pressures, to keep down by severe and unjust use of force or authority.

77. Overambitious: Having a strong excessive desire for success or achievement.

78. Overconfident: Excessively confident; presumptuous.

79. Overemotional: Excessively or abnormally emotional. Sensitive about themselves and others, more so than the average person.

80. Overprotective: To protect too much; coddle.

81. Overzealous: Marked by excessive enthusiasm for and intense devotion to a cause or idea.

82. Pacifist: Opposition to war or violence as a means of resolving disputes.

83. Paranoid: Exhibiting or characterized by extreme and irrational fear or distrust of others.

84. Peevish: Expressing fretfulness and discontent, unjustifiable dissatisfaction. Cantankerous, cross, ill-tempered, testy, captious, discontented, crotchety, cranky, ornery.

85. Perfectionist: A propensity for being displeased with anything that is not perfect or does not meet extremely high standards.

86. Pessimist: A tendency to stress the negative or unfavorable or to take the gloomiest possible view.

87. Pest: One that pesters or annoys, with or without realizing it. Nuisance. Annoying. Nag.

88. Phobic: They have a severe form of fear when it comes to this one thing. Examples - Dark, spiders, cats.

89. Practical: Level-headed, efficient, and unspeculative. No-nonsense.

90. Predictable: Easily seen through and assessed, where almost anyone can predict reactions and actions of said person by having met or known them even for a short time.

91. Prejudiced: Preconceived opinion that is not based on reason or actual experience. Dislike, hostility, or unjust behavior deriving from preconceived and unfounded opinions.

92. Pride: Filled with or showing excessive self-esteem and will often shirk help from others for the sake of pride.

93. Rebellious: Defying or resisting some established authority, government, or tradition; insubordinate; inclined to rebel.

94. Reckless: Heedless. Headstrong. Foolhardy. Unthinking boldness, wild carelessness and disregard for consequences.

95. Remorseless: Without remorse; merciless; pitiless; relentless.

96. Rigorous: Rigidly accurate; allowing no deviation from a standard; demanding strict attention to rules and procedures.

97. Sadist: The deriving of sexual gratification or the tendency to derive sexual gratification from inflicting pain or emotional abuse on others. Deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from cruelty.

98. Sadomasochist: Both sadist and masochist combined.

99. Sarcastic: A subtle form of mockery in which an intended meaning is conveyed obliquely.

100. Skeptic: One who instinctively or habitually doubts, questions, or disagrees with assertions or generally accepted conclusions.

101. Seducer: Lead others astray, as from duty, rectitude, or the like; corrupt. To attempt to lead or draw someone away, as from principles, faith, or allegiance.

102. Selfish: Concerned chiefly or only with oneself.

103. Self-Martyr: One who purposely makes a great show of suffering in order to arouse sympathy from others, as a form of manipulations, and always for a selfish cause or reason.

104. Self-righteous: Piously sure of one’s own righteousness; moralistic. Exhibiting pious self-assurance. Holier-than-thou, sanctimonious.

105. Senile: Showing a decline or deterioration of physical strength or mental functioning, especially short-term memory and alertness, as a result of old age or disease.

106. Shallow: Lacking depth or intellect or knowledge; concerned only with what is obvious.

107. Smart Ass: Think they know it all, and in some ways they may, but they can be greatly annoying and difficult to deal with at times, especially in arguments.

108. Soft-hearted: Having softness or tenderness of heart can lead them into trouble; someone they see in trouble, suffering, or in need, and often don’t think of the repercussions or situation before doing so.

109. Solemn: Deeply earnest, serious, and sober.

110. Spineless: Lacking courage. Cowardly, wimp, lily-livered, gutless.

111. Spiteful: Showing malicious ill will and a desire to hurt; motivated by spite; vindictive person who will look for occasions for resentment. Vengeful.

112. Spoiled: Treated with excessive indulgence and pampering from earliest childhood, and has no notion of hard work, self-care or money management; coddled, pampered. Having the character or disposition harmed by pampering or over-solicitous attention.

113. Squeamish: Excessively fastidious and easily disgusted.

114. Stubborn: Unreasonably, often perversely unyielding; bull-headed. Firmly resolved or determined; resolute.

115. Superstitious: An irrational belief arising from ignorance or fear from an irrational belief that an object, action, or circumstance not logically related to a course of events influences its outcome.

116. Tactless: Lacking or showing a lock of what fitting and considerate in dealing with others.

117. Temperamental: Moody, irritable, or sensitive. Excitable, volatile, emotional.

118. Theatrical: Having a flair for over dramatizing situations, doing things in a “big way” and loving to be “center stage”.

119. Timid: Tends to be shy and/or quiet, shrinking away from offering opinions or from strangers and newcomers, fearing confrontations and violence.

120. Tongue-tied: Speechless or confused in expression, as from shyness, embarrassment, or astonishment.

121. Troublemaker: Someone who deliberately stirs up trouble, intentionally or unintentionally.

122. Unlucky: Marked by or causing misfortune; ill-fated. Destined for misfortune; doomed.

123. Unpredictable: Difficult to foretell or foresee, their actions are so chaotic it’s impossible to know what they are going to do next.

124. Untrustworthy: Not worthy of trust or belief. Backstabber.

125. Vain: Holding, or characterized by, an unduly high opinion of their physical appearance. Lovers of themselves. Conceited, egotistic, narcissistic.

126. Violent: Using or involving physical force intended to hurt, damage, or kill someone or something.

127. Weak-willed: Lacking willpower, strength of will to carry out one’s decisions, wishes, or plans. Easily swayed.

128. Withdrawn: Not friendly or sociable. Aloof.

129. Zealous: A fanatic.

Please add more if you have any!

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123 Character Flaws Meme

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BOLD traits that apply to your Muse most of the time. ITALICIZE traits that apply to your Muse in certain situations/AUs.

From Dark World RPG via The Character Therapist:

Absent-minded - Preoccupied to the extent of being unaware of one’s immediate surroundings. Abstracted, daydreaming, inattentive, oblivious, forgetful.

Abusive - Characterized by improper infliction of physical or psychological maltreatment towards another.

Addict - One who is addicted to a compulsive activity. Examples: gambling, drugs, sex.

Aimless - Devoid of direction or purpose.

Alcoholic - A person who drinks alcoholic substances habitually and to excess.

Anxious - Full of mental distress or uneasiness because of fear of danger or misfortune; greatly worried; solicitous.

Arrogant - Having or displaying a sense of overbearing self-worth or self-importance. Inclined to social exclusiveness and who rebuff the advances of people considered inferior. Snobbish.

Audacious - Recklessly bold in defiance of convention, propriety, law, or the like; insolent; brazen, disobedient.

Bad Habit - A revolting personal habit. Examples: picks nose, spits tobacco, drools, bad body odor.

Bigmouth - A loud-mouthed or gossipy person.

Bigot - One who is strongly partial to one’s own group, religion, race, or politics and is intolerant of those who differ.

Blunt - Characterized by directness in manner or speech; without subtlety or evasion. Frank, callous, insensitive, brusque.

Bold - In a bad sense, too forward; taking undue liberties; over assuming or confident; lacking proper modesty or restraint; rude; impudent. Abrupt, brazen, cheeky, brassy, audacious.

Callous - They are hardened to emotions, rarely showing any form of it in expression. Unfeeling. Cold.

Childish - Marked by or indicating a lack of maturity; puerile.

Complex - An exaggerated or obsessive concern or fear. (List specific complex.)

Cruel - Mean to anyone or anything, without care or regard to consequences and feelings.

Cursed - A person who has befallen a prayer for evil or misfortune, placed under a spell, or born into an evil circumstance, and suffers for it. Damned.

Dependent - Unable to exist, sustain oneself, or act appropriately or normally without the assistance or direction of another.

Deranged - Mentally decayed. Insane. Crazy. Mad. Psychotic.

Dishonest – Given to or using fraud, cheating; deceitful, deceptive, crooked, underhanded.

Disloyal - Lacking loyalty. Unfaithful, perfidious, traitorous, treasonable

Disorder - An ailment that affects the function of mind or body. (PTSD)

Disturbed - Showing some or a few signs or symptoms of mental or emotional illness. Confused, disordered, neurotic, troubled.

Dubious - Fraught with uncertainty or doubt. Undecided, doubtful, unsure.

Dyslexic - Affected by dyslexia, a learning disorder marked by impairment of the ability to recognize and comprehend written words.

Egotistical - Characteristic of those having an inflated idea of their own importance. Boastful, pompous.

Envious - Showing extreme cupidity; painfully desirous of another’s advantages; covetous, jealous.

Erratic - Deviating from the customary course in conduct or opinion; eccentric: erratic behavior. Eccentric, bizarre, outlandish, strange.

Fanatical - Fanatic outlook or behavior especially as exhibited by excessive enthusiasm, unreasoning zeal, or wild and extravagant notions on some subject.

Fickle – Erratic, changeable, unstable - especially with regard to affections or attachments; capricious.

Fierce - Marked by extreme intensity of emotions or convictions; inclined to react violently; fervid.

Finicky - Excessively particular or fastidious; difficult to please; fussy. Too much concerned with detail. Meticulous, fastidious, choosy, critical, picky, prissy, pernickety.

Fixated - In psychoanalytic theory, a strong attachment to a person or thing, especially such an attachment formed in childhood or infancy and manifested in immature or neurotic behavior that persists throughout life. Fetish, quirk, obsession, infatuation.

Flirt -To make playfully romantic or sexual overtures; behavior intended to arouse sexual interest. Minx. Tease.

Gluttonous - Given to excess in consumption of especially food or drink. Voracious, ravenous, wolfish, piggish, insatiable.

Gruff - Brusque or stern in manner or appearance. Crusty, rough, surly.

Gullible - Will believe any information given, regardless of how valid or truthful it is, easily deceived or duped.

Hard - A person who is difficult to deal with, manage, control, overcome, or understand. Hard emotions, hard-hearted.

Hedonistic - Pursuit of or devotion to pleasure, especially to the pleasures of the senses.

Hoity-toity- Given to flights of fancy; capricious; frivolous. Prone to giddy behavior, flighty.

Humorless - The inability to find humor in things, and most certainly in themselves.

Hypocritical - One who is always contradicting their own beliefs, actions or sayings. A person who professes beliefs and opinions for others that he does not hold. Being a hypocrite.

Idealist - One whose conduct is influenced by ideals that often conflict with practical considerations. One who is unrealistic and impractical, guided more by ideals than by practical considerations.

Idiotic - Marked by a lack of intelligence or care; foolish or careless.

Ignorant - Lacking knowledge or information as to a particular subject or fact. Showing or arising from a lack of education or knowledge.

Illiterate - Unable to read and write.

Immature - Emotionally undeveloped; juvenile; childish.

Impatient - Unable to wait patiently or tolerate delay; restless. Unable to endure irritation or opposition; intolerant.

Impious - Lacking piety and reverence for a god/gods and their followers.

Impish - Naughtily or annoyingly playful.

Incompetent - Unable to execute tasks, no matter how the size or difficulty.

Indecisive - Characterized by lack of decision and firmness, especially under pressure.

Indifferent - The trait of lacking enthusiasm for or interest in things generally, remaining calm and seeming not to care; a casual lack of concern. Having or showing little or no interest in anything; languid; spiritless.

Infamy - Having an extremely bad reputation, public reproach, or strong condemnation as the result of a shameful, criminal, or outrageous act that affects how others view them.

Intolerant - Unwilling to tolerate difference of opinion and narrow-minded about cherished opinions.

Judgemental - Inclined to make and form judgments, especially moral or personal ones, based on one’s own opinions or impressions towards others/practices/groups/religions based on appearance, reputation, occupation, etc.

Klutz - Clumsy. Blunderer.

Lazy - Resistant to work or exertion; disposed to idleness.

Lewd - Inclined to, characterized by, or inciting to lust or lechery; lascivious. Obscene or indecent, as language or songs; salacious.

Liar - Compulsively and purposefully tells false truths more often than not. A person who has lied or who lies repeatedly.

Lustful - Driven by lust; preoccupied with or exhibiting lustful desires.

Masochist - The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.

Meddlesome - Intrusive in a meddling or offensive manner, given to meddling; interfering.

Meek - Evidencing little spirit or courage; overly submissive or compliant; humble in spirit or manner; suggesting retiring mildness or even cowed submissiveness.

Megalomaniac - A psycho-pathological condition characterized by delusional fantasies of wealth, power, or omnipotence.

Naïve - Lacking worldly experience and understanding, simple and guileless; showing or characterized by a lack of sophistication and critical judgment.

Nervous - Easily agitated or distressed; high-strung or jumpy.

Non-violent - Abstaining from the use of violence.

Nosey - Given to prying into the affairs of others; snoopy. Offensively curious or inquisitive.

Obsessive - An unhealthy and compulsive preoccupation with something or someone.

Oppressor - A person of authority who subjects others to undue pressures, to keep down by severe and unjust use of force or authority.

Overambitious - Having a strong excessive desire for success or achievement.

Overconfident - Excessively confident; presumptuous.

Overemotional - Excessively or abnormally emotional. Sensitive about themselves and others, more so than the average person.

Overprotective - To protect too much; coddle.

Overzealous - Marked by excessive enthusiasm for and intense devotion to a cause or idea.

Pacifist - Opposition to war or violence as a means of resolving disputes. (Can double as a merit in certain cases)

Paranoid - Exhibiting or characterized by extreme and irrational fear or distrust of others.

Peevish - Expressing fretfulness and discontent, or unjustifiable dissatisfaction. Cantankerous, cross, ill-tempered, testy, captious, discontented, crotchety, cranky, ornery.

Perfectionist - A propensity for being displeased with anything that is not perfect or does not meet extremely high standards.

Pessimist - A tendency to stress the negative or unfavorable or to take the gloomiest possible view.

Pest - One that pesters or annoys, with or without realizing it. Nuisance. Annoying. Nag.

Phobic – They have a severe form of fear when it comes to this one thing. Examples: Dark, Spiders, Cats

Practical - Level-headed, efficient, and unspeculative. No-nonsense.

Predictable - Easily seen through and assessable, where almost anyone can predict reactions and actions of said person by having met or known them even for a short time.

Proud - Filled with or showing excessive self-esteem and will often shirk help from others for the sake of pride.

Rebellious - Defying or resisting some established authority, government, or tradition; insubordinate; inclined to rebel.

Reckless - Heedless. Headstrong. Foolhardy. Unthinking boldness, wild carelessness, and disregard for consequences.

Remorseless - Without remorse; merciless; pitiless; relentless.

Rigorous - Rigidly accurate; allowing no deviation from a standard; demanding strict attention to rules and procedures.

Sadist - The deriving of sexual gratification or the tendency to derive sexual gratification from inflicting pain or emotional abuse on others. Deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from cruelty.

Sadomasochist - Both sadist and masochist combined.

Sarcastic - A subtle form of mockery in which an intended meaning is conveyed obliquely.

Skeptic - One who instinctively or habitually doubts, questions, or disagrees with assertions or generally accepted conclusions.

Seducer - To lead others astray, as from duty, rectitude, or the like; corrupt. To attempt to lead or draw someone away, as from principles, faith, or allegiance.

Selfish - Concerned chiefly or only with oneself.

Self-Martyr - One who purposely makes a great show of suffering in order to arouse sympathy from others, as a form of manipulation, and always for a selfish cause or reason.

Self-righteous - Piously sure of one’s own righteousness; moralistic. Exhibiting pious self-assurance. Holier-than-thou, sanctimonious.

Senile - Showing a decline or deterioration of physical strength or mental functioning, esp. short-term memory and alertness, as a result of old age or disease.

Shallow - Lacking depth of intellect or knowledge; concerned only with what is obvious.

Smart Ass - Thinks they know it all, and in some ways they may, but they can be greatly annoying and difficult to deal with at times, especially in arguments.

Soft-hearted - Having softness or tenderness of heart that can lead them into trouble; susceptible of pity or other kindly affection. They cannot resist helping someone they see in trouble, suffering or in need, and often don’t think of the repercussions or situation before doing so.

Solemn - Deeply earnest, serious, and sober.

Spineless - Lacking courage. Cowardly, wimp, lily-livered, gutless.

Spiteful - Showing malicious ill will and a desire to hurt; motivated by spite; a vindictive person who will look for occasions for resentment. Vengeful.

Spoiled - Treated with excessive indulgence and pampering from earliest childhood, and has no notion of hard work, self-care or money management; coddled, pampered. Having the character or disposition harmed by pampering or oversolicitous attention.

Squeamish - Excessively fastidious and easily disgusted.

Stubborn - Unreasonably, often perversely unyielding; bull-headed. Firmly resolved or determined; resolute.

Superstitious - An irrational belief arising from ignorance or fear from an irrational belief that an object, action, or circumstance not logically related to a course of events influences its outcome.

Tactless - Lacking or showing a lack of what is fitting and considerate in dealing with others.

Temperamental - Moody, irritable, or sensitive. Excitable, volatile, emotional.

Theatrical - Having a flair for over dramatizing situations, doing things in a ‘big way’ and love to be ‘centre stage’.

Timid -Tends to be shy and/or quiet, shrinking away from offering opinions or from strangers and newcomers, fearing confrontations and violence.

Tongue-tied - Speechless or confused in expression, as from shyness, embarrassment, or astonishment.

Troublemaker - Someone who deliberately stirs up trouble, intentionally or unintentionally.

Unlucky - Marked by or causing misfortune; ill-fated. Destined for misfortune; doomed.

Unpredictable - Difficult to foretell or foresee, their actions are so chaotic it’s impossible to know what they are going to do next.

Untrustworthy - Not worthy of trust or belief. Backstabber.

Vain - Holding or characterized by an unduly high opinion of their physical appearance. Lovers of themselves. Conceited, egotistic, narcissistic.

Weak-willed - Lacking willpower, strength of will to carry out one’s decisions, wishes, or plans. Easily swayed.

Withdrawn - Not friendly or Sociable. Aloof.

Zealous - A fanatic

#let the flames begin; hc #hc; personality #long post

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lannasroleplaymemes · 6 years ago

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123 Character Flaws Meme

REPOST, DO NOT REBLOG. BOLD traits that apply to your Muse most of the time. ITALICIZE traits that apply to your Muse in certain situations/AUs.