#Ui-dong

[spikeyjo]

Me: i have sibling related trauma. so i am weird about my sibling leaving.

dipshits: but you can facetime them <3

[wannaeatramyeon]

Lookism Boys: 'I can fix them' list

Don't need no fixing

Sinu Han: The only thing he needs to fix is communication issues because 10 years of pining is just ridiculous. But he's the original big daddy bro boss. Romantic, selfless, kind, funny. Green flag king.

Jake Kim: Learned from the best (see above) and by doing the opposite of his dad.

+ Daniel Park, Vasco, Zack Lee, Jace Park, Jay Hong

I can fix them

Samuel Seo: Hint of inferiority complex. Just a little. Needs someone stable and loyal to keep him in line to help him get over the Gapryong/Gun shit. Hasn't really shown any redeemable traits but we're all weak for Big Deal Golden Era and big tits.

Vin Jin: Killed one person like a million years ago - please get over it. Now just an average school bully. Sorta. Cares and looks out for Mary Kim so he is capable of being good.

Johan Seong: Touch-starved, childish and a little feral. Desperately lonely and needs a friend (that's where you come in). Momma's boy through and through with good intentions deep down.

Ryuhei: Attention-starved. Quick fix would be to redirect his efforts and simping to the right person.

DG: Used to pluck out peoples eyes and take their limbs. No biggie, hasn't done it in a while. Generally reformed but someone should really help keep that urge in check.

+ Xiaolong (can't fix his lack of dong tho), Eli Jang, Hudson Ahn?

Drags you into their insanity (and you would go willingly)

Gun Park: His leopard print shirt can't change its spots. He's a demon and the Shiro Oni. Gets kicks out of people trying to kill him. Obviously unhinged but man's too hot. You will also never compare to UI Daniel Park (who broke his arm, heart and ghosted).

Goo Kim: Tiniest sense of morals saving Vasco and Jace in middle school but this guy is deranged, big sadist vibes. Probably much worse now he's earning the big bucks. Shame because he's a lot of fun and super entertaining.

[salanaii]

Learn Korean with me - Week 30

Day 1 - 3: Let's Speak Korean Ch 9 - Taxi (36 - 71)

** Don't forget your journals and of course Netflix.

목적지가바뀌었어요.

Mog jeog ji ga ba ggwi eoss eo yo

The destination has been changed.

통역을부탁햅니다.

Tong yeog eur bu tag haeb ni da

I’d like a translator, please.

영수증을주세요.

Yeong su jeung eur ju se yo

Please give me the receipt.

신고할거예요.

Sin go har geo ye yo

I’m going to report you.

트렁크좀열어주세요.

Teu reong keu jom yeor eo ju se yo

Please open the trunk for me?

트렁크에짐좀넣을게요.

Teu reong keu e jim jom neoh eur ge yo

I’m going to put some baggage in the trunk.

요금이정해져있나요?

Yo geum I Jeong hae jyeo iss nay o

(Literal) Is the fare fixed/pre-determined? = Is it a flat rate?

미터기로갑니다.

Mi teo gi ro gab ni da

(Literal) It goes by the taxi meter. = It’s charged by the taxi meter.

열시까지도착할수있을까요?

Yeor sig ga ji do chag sui ss eur gga yo

Can we arrive by 10 o’clock?

고속도로를타주세요.

Go sog do ro reur ta ju se yo

Please ride (=take) the highway.

추가요금이있습니다.

Chu ga yo geum I iss seub ni da

There is an additional charge.

창문좀열어주세요.

Chang mun jom yeor eo ju se yo

Please open the window (for me).

창문좀닫아주세요.

Chang mun jom dad a ju se yo

Please close the window (for me).

잔돈은괜찮습니다.

Jan don eun goaen chanh seub ni da

Don’t worry about the change. = Keep the change.

여기왼쪽/오른쪽.

Yeo gi eon jjog / o reun jjog

(on the) left/right here.

내릴게요.

Nae rir ge yo

Let me get off.

택시좀불러주세요.

Taeg si jom bur reo ju se yo

Please call a taxi for me.

이주소로가주세요.

I ju so ro ga ju se yo

Please go to this address (for me).

트렁크에가방좀넣어주세요.

Teu reong keu e ga bang jum neoh eo ju se yo

Please put the bag in the trunk (for me).

이태원까지는얼마나올까요?

I tae won gga ji neun eor ma na or gga yo

How much would it cost (to get) to Itaewon?

좀바쁩니다.

Jom ba bbeub ni da

I am in a bit of a hurry.

택시는어디에서타나요?

Taeg si neu neo di e seo ta nay o

Where can I get a taxi?

택시번호를가지고계세요?

Taeg si beon ho reur ga ji go gye se yo

Do you have the taxi number?

다왔나요?

Da wass nay o

(Literal) Have we come fully? = Are we there?

이태원으로데리러올수있나요?

I tae won eu ro de ri reo or sui ss nay o

Can you come it Itaewon to pick me up?

가는중입니다.

Ga neun jung ib ni da

(Literal) I’m in the middle (of) going. = I’m on my way.

여기서기다려주실수있나요?

Yeo gi seo gi da ryeoju sir sui ss nay o

Can you wait for me (from) here, please.

미터기가작동하고있나요?

Mi teo gi ga jag dong ha go iss nay o

Is the taxi meter working?

미터기를켜주세요.

Mi  teo gi reur kyeo ju se yo

Please turn on the taxi meter.

천천히말해주세요.

Cheon cheon hi mar hae ju se yo

Please speak slowly.

백화점에서내려주세요.

Baeg hwa jeom e seo naeryeo ju se yo

Please drop me off at the department store.

천천히가주세요.

Cheon cheon hi ga ju se yo

Please go (=drive) slowly.

에어컨을켜주세요/꺼주세요.

E eo keon eur kyeo ju se yo/ggeo ju se yo

Please turn on/off the A/C.

방향을저쪽으로바꿔주세요.

Bang hyang eur jeo jjog eu ro ba ggwo ju se yo

Please change the direction to that way.

편의점에들렀다가갈게요.

Pyeon ui jeom e deur reoss da ga gar ge yo

(Literal) I’ll go after stopping by the convenient store.

가다가일행을태우고가야합니다.

Ga da ga ir haeng eur tae u go ga yah ab ni da

(Literal) I need to go after picking up a companion on the way.

[brujapix]

Wanted to go back to my roots again and make a fancog, this time more Corporate Clash flavored!

The Friendly Reminder (they/them) is a special Manager that enters battles of toons with high enough laugh/suits and acts as an inconvenience by covering UI with sticky notes, interrupting battles with lectures/memos, and clogging up in-game chat with their reminders.

More info below:

Their name is supposed to sound vaguely like thumbtack, and are based on sticky notes!

I imagine that, for the cogs that can tolerate their constant (well intentioned but nonetheless annoying) reminders, they’re like a diligent little pocket friend that won’t hesitate to call out other cogs for not following the rules. They like being of service and getting head pats from important people.

GETS ALONG WELL WITH: Bellringer because his dinging and donging compliments their passive aggressive reminders very nicely! It’s like the -ping- sound you dread when your manager DMs you on Zoom when youve fucked up.

Move ideas:

- can cover UI with sticky notes, rendering some gags inaccessible until they fall off. can be washed off with squirt gags or will fall off if a cog uses quake. 

- can blow up the in-game chat with "Friendly Reminders!" which doesn’t sound too bad until a friendly reminder about COGS INC memos and things get in the way of trying to communicate with other toons. Most of their reminders are long winded passive aggressive emails meant for other cogs.

- can stall a battle by interrupting and giving a lecture, allowing cogs to join the battle if there are any waiting or walking into the room.

- to know if the Friendly Reminder is going to enter a battle later, there will be sticky notes littered around the first area/floor. They aren’t found on streets.

 - Defeating a friendly reminder can reward a variety of stickers, a sticky note for your toon’s forehead, or the Reminder Behinder, which is just the Friendly Reminder version of a flunk trunk/caller hauler

I also had this stupid idea that, in a very rare case where they were more than just a status effect gremlin, their big scary unique attack would be to make an post it note origami toon that joins the toon side and just picks the worst things while there, like using sound on lured cogs or picking zap with no squirt present or smth. the origami toon can be obliterated with squirt gags and has low laff so you gotta kill it asap lmao.

[papaya2000s]

Korean Soloists form the 20th Centaury:

In my series The History of Korean Male Groups i have briefly mentioned numerous artist both male and female in Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 and recently posted Part 5.

As the are a lot of them to talk about as shown my Master List, i wanted to see which artist i should post first, so i made this poll to see which one i should post first.

As there a lot of male artists that i have mentioned they all can't fit in this one poll, these are the ones that mentioned on my Master List.

[shookethdev]

a o e i i er ai ei ao ou an en ang eng ong i ia iao ie iu ian in iang ing iong u ua uo uai ui uan un uang ueng ü üe üan ün a o e er ai ao ou an en ang eng yi ya yao ye you yan yin yang ying yong wu wa wo wai wei wan wen wang weng yu yue yuan yun b ba bo bai bei bao ban ben bang beng bi biao bie bian bin bing bu p pa po pai pei pao pou pan pen pang peng pi piao pie pian pin ping pu m ma mo me mai mei mao mou man men mang meng mi miao mie miu mian min ming mu f fa fo fei fou fan fen fang feng fu d da de dai dei dao dou dan den dang deng dong di diao die diu dian ding du duo dui duan dun t ta te tai tei tao tou tan tang teng tong ti tiao tie tian ting tu tuo tui tuan tun n na ne nai nei nao nou nan nen nang neng nong ni niao nie niu nian nin niang ning nu nuo nuan nü nüe l la le lai lei lao lou lan lang leng long li lia liao lie liu lian lin liang ling lu luo luan lun lü lüe g ga ge gai gei gao gou gan gen gang geng gong gu gua guo guai gui guan gun guang k ka ke kai kei kao kou kan ken kang keng kong ku kua kuo kuai kui kuan kun kuang h ha he hai hei hao hou han hen hang heng hong hu hua huo huai hui huan hun huang z za ze zi zai zei zao zou zan zen zang zeng zong zu zuo zui zuan zun c ca ce ci cai cao cou can cen cang ceng cong cu cuo cui cuan cun s sa se si sai sao sou san sen sang seng song su suo sui suan sun zh zha zhe zhi zhai zhei zhao zhou zhan zhen zhang zheng zhong zhu zhua zhuo zhuai zhui zhuan zhun zhuang ch cha che chi chai chao chou chan chen chang cheng chong chu chua chuo chuai chui chuan chun chuang sh sha she shi shai shei shao shou shan shen shang sheng shu shua shuo shuai shui shuan shun shuang r re ri rao rou ran ren rang reng rong ru rua ruo rui ruan run j ji jia jiao jie jiu jian jin jiang jing jiong ju jue juan jun q qi qia qiao qie qiu qian qin qiang qing qiong qu que quan qun x xi xia xiao xie xiu xian xin xiang xing xiong xu xue xuan xun

NAKU 🫵

[world-smitten]

Kdrama misc.

Wedding Impossible: eps 1 & 2 are great, especially Jun Jung-seo as A-jeong, who gives her all into her craft even if the returns are so paltry. The first 2 eps build up the situation between her and Do-han into a fascinating hotbed of conflict, and I was onboard. Then ep 4 pissed away all that goodwill, in record speed. Why would A-jeong, who takes pride in acting, let Ji-han publicly woo her in Busan when she’s supposed to be his brother’s fiancé? And why was Do-han sectioned away in the story, prevented from knowing this? Ji-Han jerking around A-jeong, A-jeong letting him do it, it all felt old-school, and I don’t mean that as a compliment. And Moon Sang-min still needs another year playing supporting roles so he can build up a deck of facial expressions. Will watch a couple more eps, just in case it gets better.

Queen of Tears: I’ve already talked a lot about this one. Technically, everything is well done, but man, I don’t care for that romance. The drama is at its best and most sincere when it’s being funny, and despite being oddly underused, the supporting cast are really holding everything together. I don’t get why you would create a world where Kwak Dong-yeon and Lee Joo-bin are a couple and not talk more about that. I want to see more of everyone that isn’t Hyun-woo. But I’m obsessed with how good Kim Ji-won is.

The red sleeve: So brilliant, even when it’s bad lol. I’m a Junho stan til I die, and Lee Se-young is a very dear addition to my ever growing list of favourite actresses. The script is delicious. Eps 8 & 9 are like, really bad though. Awful. What a waste of Court Lady Jo’s character, and a gorgeous Park Ji-young performance. It’s a choice to make a group of women who, verbatim, “want to choose their own king”, look like deviants. But between spoilers & reading about Consort Ui, it looks like the story is still going to come to the same conclusion as those women - that the monarchy are parasitic (even those that are good faith actors), extorting mental & physical labour from an underclass of powerless women. Makes no sense to suddenly go, “but these ladies took it too far!!” Lol, be serious. But taking them seriously might’ve complicated how we see Deok-im’s unwavering certainty in Yi-san’s ability to rule. Each time she throws herself into the line of fire for him, I get a little sad. Love her and Yi-san tho. Now, that’s romance.

[eyenaku]

Ji ji fu ji ji

a o e i i er ai ei ao ou an en ang eng ong i ia iao ie iu ian in iang ing iong u ua uo uai ui uan un uang ueng ü üe üan ün a o e er ai ao ou an en ang eng yi ya yao ye you yan yin yang ying yong wu wa wo wai wei wan wen wang weng yu yue yuan yun b ba bo bai bei bao ban ben bang beng bi biao bie bian bin bing bu p pa po pai pei pao pou pan pen pang peng pi piao pie pian pin ping pu m ma mo me mai mei mao mou man men mang meng mi miao mie miu mian min ming mu f fa fo fei fou fan fen fang feng fu d da de dai dei dao dou dan den dang deng dong di diao die diu dian ding du duo dui duan dun t ta te tai tei tao tou tan tang teng tong ti tiao tie tian ting tu tuo tui tuan tun n na ne nai nei nao nou nan nen nang neng nong ni niao nie niu nian nin niang ning nu nuo nuan nü nüe l la le lai lei lao lou lan lang leng long li lia liao lie liu lian lin liang ling lu luo luan lun lü lüe g ga ge gai gei gao gou gan gen gang geng gong gu gua guo guai gui guan gun guang k ka ke kai kei kao kou kan ken kang keng kong ku kua kuo kuai kui kuan kun kuang h ha he hai hei hao hou han hen hang heng hong hu hua huo huai hui huan hun huang z za ze zi zai zei zao zou zan zen zang zeng zong zu zuo zui zuan zun c ca ce ci cai cao cou can cen cang ceng cong cu cuo cui cuan cun s sa se si sai sao sou san sen sang seng song su suo sui suan sun zh zha zhe zhi zhai zhei zhao zhou zhan zhen zhang zheng zhong zhu zhua zhuo zhuai zhui zhuan zhun zhuang ch cha che chi chai chao chou chan chen chang cheng chong chu chua chuo chuai chui chuan chun chuang sh sha she shi shai shei shao shou shan shen shang sheng shu shua shuo shuai shui shuan shun shuang r re ri rao rou ran ren rang reng rong ru rua ruo rui ruan run j ji jia jiao jie jiu jian jin jiang jing jiong ju jue juan jun q qi qia qiao qie qiu qian qin qiang qing qiong qu que quan qun x xi xia xiao xie xiu xian xin xiang xing xiong xu xue xuan xun

[ssyscript]

Ngobrol sama Engineer

Hi guys, udah lama banget yaa aku ga nge-blog? hehe so ya, here we go!

aku udah lama mau bahas topik ini. kisahnya, berawal dari kak Reza yang memang menjadi mentorku sejak zaman aku magang di revou. keterusan ngebimbing aku dengan memberi insight saat aku apply dan ada tugas teknikal. duluu banget ka reza pernah bilang ke aku, coba tanya insight dari programmer yakni: "Sejauh ini kamu kerja beririsan sama pm ekspektasimu ttg pm harus gimana? (Product management)" akhirnya aku tanya ke temanku zaman kuliah namanya Maslul, kawanku zaman kuliah yang sekarang kerja sebagai backend di suatu startup ternama.

inilah insight yang kuperoleh:

Kudu udah tau jobnya (product manager) ngapain aja ssy. Aku sendiri males kalo sama pm yang belum paham jobnya

Menghasilkan produk yang match dengan market

Kalo bisa gaji gede malah lebih bagus ssy hahaha, terserah itu mah mau mentingin mana dulu (gaji atau ilmu), kalau ilmu berarti kalo dapet company yang ngesupport banget, bisa cepet belajar banyak, dan lebih banyak tau dibanding orang lain

Harus dong berusaha yang lebih giat lagi biar dapet gaji yang lebih besar, mumpung udah masuk ke industrinya kudu dikejar

PM kan yang rancang produk ssy. Gaada pm berati gaada produk. Mau maksa kaya gimana pun produk yang dihasilin ga sebagus kualitas PM.

Maslul pernah kerja di perusahaan tech yang belum ada PM nya. alhasil produknya jelek. "Makanya gaada pm aku sebut gaada produk, karna percuma produk yang dihasilkan ga tepat guna"

Maslul: Maksud jeleknya adalah, Sama kaya engineer ssy, ada yang bisa backend, ada yang bisa frontend, ada yang bisa keduanya (fullstack). Pertanyaannya, apakah kode fullstack lebih bagus? Kebanyakan engga. Dengan lama pengalaman yang sama, fullstack gabisa sebagus backend untuk kode bsckend. Dan gabisa sebagus frontend untuk kode frontend. Kenapa? Karna concern-nya beda. Dengan waktu yang sama, fullstack harus kuasain keduanya. Akibatnya pengetahuan dia kurang dalam di masing2 bidang. Sekarang kita liat PM, apakah backend dan frontend bisa bikin produk? Bisa dan gampang. Tapi apakah produk yang dibikin tepat guna? Belum tentu. Kenapa? Karna butuh orang yang concern disitu, dialah PM. Sekarang apakah PM, backend dan frontend bisa bikin produk? Bisa. Apakah produknya bisa laku? Bisa. Apakah customer suka? Belum tentu, customer suka dan nyaman kalo didukung sama ui/ux yang bagus. Ssy: "Krn pm ga sekedar bikin produk, tapi emang harus produk yg punya value, tapi masuk budget, dan bisa relate sama urgensi + nakar efffort team lain disesuaikan dg target bangun produknya, gt kan? Dan bidang lain ga punya cukup waktu untuk mikirin itu karena fokus ngerjain bidangnya" Maslul: "Nah, ini point-nya. Dan ketika bikin produk kan harus yang dibutuhin pasar. Gimana cara tau produk itu dibutuhin? Biasanya pm akan research, dalam bentuk survey maupun compare dengan perusahaan lain. Apakah engineer bisa? Bisa aja, tapi apakah itu job engineer? Engga." Ssy: "Iyaaa itu makna dari value, untuk dapet value bearti mikirin apa customer butuh, apa masuk ke trend sekarang, apa bisa minimalisasi risiko dan bisa profit dll" Maslul: "Ini di negara lain, ada PM nya ngga? Kadang kaya shopee itu corenya di singapura. Di indo cuma buat role operasional dan role tech yang support doang, bukan orang inti."

PM itu emang bidang spesifik dan punya konsen disitu, makanya dia bisa bikin produk yang sesuai pasar. Kalopun anggepanmya jarang orang yang paham bidang itu, ya tetep harus dicari. Kan tujuannya bikin produk yang bagus.

Ssy: Product owner & project manager banyak yg pindah ke product management. Tapi gaada yg sebaliknya. Krn product management itu ibaratnya lingkaran yg lebih luas dari kerjaan product owner+project manager, dan aku yakin org product management yg background nya udah pernah di product owner/project management bisa lebih matang skill nya daripada product management yg belum punya background tsb Maslul: Bahkan banyak yang dari engineer/ui ux pindah ke PM ssy, alessnnya udah males ngoding. Biasanya pm yang kaya gini yang disukai engineer, karna pernah jadi engineer jadi dia tau mana solusi yang possible/engga. Dan prediksu waktu developmennya lebih mateng, tau cara nego ke usernya.

Menurutku, teknikal knowledge yang perlu dimiliki pm itu: -Pengetahuan umum soal html -Pengetahuan umum soal css -Pengetahuan umum soal repository -Pengetahuan umum soal mysql, tabel, kolom Kalo advance, coba belajar query sql yang basic aja, udah cukup. -Pengetahuan umum soal authentication, flownya kaya apa. -Pengetahuan umum API Pengetahuan umum API dokumentasi

Ssy: Ssy: ada ilmu2 programmer yg kamu bilang secara fundamental hrs aku bisa. dan aku belum ahli disitu, makanya aku coba discuss sama org lain, silabus seperti apa untuk bisa paham lintas divisi saat bangun produk. Maslul: Ini nice to have loh ssy, ga wajib. Yg wajib ya produk knowledge. Menurutku kamu gaperlu terlalu dalem di teknikal, value dari PM itu bisa manage produk. Itu udah cukup banget. Developer gaperlu butuh PM yang paham banget teknikal, walopun itu nilai plus. Tapi value utama PM ya dia paham produknya sendiri. Akan sayang kalo PM lebih condong ke teknikal. Dia harusnya condong ke produk, tau sedikit teknikal itu bagus, tau sedikit bisnis itu bagus, tapi kudu tau banyak ke produknya dulu. Sebenernya, buat level awal itu semua gaperlu ssy (silabus bootcamp terkait laravel, nodejs dan react js untuk seorang product manager). Cukup kuasain product knowledge aja, yang disitu must have. Tapi harapannya setahun kedepan, kamu udh paham sedikit soal teknikal knowledge. Dan semua yg kamu kasih diatas terlalu menjerumus ke framework tertentu. Pm kudu tau fitur apa yang bagus, yang tepat, solusi yang pas. Ini betul Dadi ui ux oke ini ranah ui ux, kita cuma atur flow aja, dan review dikit, ga harus tau dalemannya karna ya profesional, ui ux lebih paham lah daripada pm soal gituan. Dari qa nya dapet, betul tapi ga perlu detail, cuma tau flow testingnya, issue apa aja yg ditemukan. Programmernya dapet, betul tapi gabisa dengan pm yang baru terjun, perlu pm senior buat paham teknikal. Dan itupun hanya dasarnya aja, ngapain hire programmer kalo pm kudu tau semua? Padahal yang dimaksud teknikal knowledge menurutku itu basic teknikal/general teknikalnya. Ga menjerumus ke framework tertentu. karena ilmu yang bagus itu ilmu yg ga deped sama teknologi tertentu. Jadi ketika teknologi berubah, basicnya masih dipegang Sebenernya tugas PM udah banyak ssy, harus manage project, issue, nentuin prioritas, planning timeline, nentuin kebutuhan integrasi dan biayanya untuk beberapa bulan/tahun kedepan, nentuin produk mau dibikin seperti apa yang fit dengan market, daily standup, mastiin semua developer jalan dengan benar, manage developer biar ga terlalu gabut dan ga terlalu burnout, nentuin flow, bikin PRD, manage desain bareng ui ux, nentuin keperluan tim biar project bisa berjalan dengan smooth: termasuk diantaranya jadwalin meeting kalo developer perlu tanya2 ke divisi tertentu/company tertentu, mulutnya developer ketika ngomong dengan orang bisnis, bikin dokumentasi produknya, bikin flow, jadwalin meeting dengan user ketika UAT, orang nomor 1 yang akan ditanya kalo ada issue sama produk tersebut, dll. Menurutku itu yang lebih utama ditimbang PM bisa html, css, dan teknologi lain. Temenku ada yg basicnya programmer. Sekarang perusahaannya bangkrut, ya karna itu ga mau dengerin nasehat orang lain, yg mana pdhal dia hire orang bagus, sepak terjang udah terbukti di luar. Gw sebagai orang tech garis keras pun paham job masing2 dan kita saling respect. Emang ada kalanya PM kudu ditampar karna terlalu lembek ke orang bisnis jadi tim tech yang sengsara.

Ssy: aku pernah 1on1 sama ka deassy (pm apiary glints julo) , aku dapet insight kadang di kondisi kebakaran/ urgent kita (pm) ga harus langsung tahu harus ngapain, yg paling penting kumpulin stakeholder yg terlibat, dan cari tahu "penyebab kebakaran" dari mereka (engineer, designer, dll) terus juga aku kadang tuh (kayaknya udah 5x lebih) ikutan zoom nya kak fadel PM Flip, dia pernah cerita ada kondisi dimana dia tuh gabener2 tahu detail tapi dia tahu pokok persoalan dan solusi intinya hrs gimana, tapi dia bilang ke team engineer intinya "gimana caranya gue pengin fiturnya jadi kayak gini2", dan itu diimplementasikan sm engineer dll Maslul: Ini setuju, cuma biasanya karna PM yang bikin produknya, day to day dia urusin standup dll, jadi paham mana potensi issue. Kalo masih gapaham, dia kan punya tim, developer dll, tinggal tanya mereka aja. Thanks Maslul insight nya! ^^

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2023 01  Brand eXperience Design (Web / etc.), IMSOOBIN GALLERY

01  Brand eXperience Design (Web), Stellar gallery

03   DS [dead or alive] Creative Direction & Styling & Marketing, ron, Indigo Music

03   Brand eXperience Design, snct studio

03   EP [DELIGHT] CD Illustraion, CSR, POPMUSIC

07 DS [There, there] A&R & Marketing & Creative Direction & Styling, jeebanoff, goodtomeetu 2022 03   Commercial Graphic Design, duh Cosmetic

03   EP [Lost In Blue] ‘OHD’ Title Design / Live clip credit design, COE

04   ‘Get Ya!’ Live clip Logo / Teaser Design, JUNNY, MAUVE Company

04   [HUMAN, the album] Scrap Artwork, Untell

→ Vision Agency by Visla: Team Member

04 - 06   ‘Maker’s Mark Dok-ju Live’ Popup bar, Vision Agency by Visla

06   Identity Design, default

07   Brand Identity Design, TOO MUCH

07   CI Design, (NDA) Entertainment

07   Brand Identity Design, Kozel n Ants

→ Mine Field Entertainment: A&R (Jul. - Sep.)

07   EP [Basic Construction] Track List Design & SNS Managing, default

08   EP [blanc] ‘Not About You’ M/V Concept Pre-Planning, JUNNY

08   DS [Basic Construction Remixed] Track List Design & SNS Managing, default

09   “DOUBLE TROUBLE” Party Planning & Project Managing & Arrangement & Design & SNS Managing, TOO MUCH

09   Banner Design (IG/IGS), ZICO, KOZ Entertainment

→ Indigo Music & Just Music Entertainment: A&R (Oct. - Dec.)

10   “Swing by” Party Poster Design, Swings, TOO MUCH

10   EP [SILLY : Episode 1] Album Cover / Track List Design, Silly Silky

10   EP [SILKY : Episode 2] Album Cover / Track List Design, Silly Silky

11   SG [Perfect Stranger] Album Cover Design, INJAE, Mine Field

10 - 12   4th [Time Machine] Release / M/V / Concert (Seoul, Busan) / CD, A&R & Marketing & Design, Han Yo Han, Just Music

11   Eider K2 Commercial Video Graphics

12   Frankly Sleeping: Design & Marketing (- ing)

12   1st Global EP [X] Promotion Design, Vapo, Mine Field 2021 01   ‘Unboxing’, Exhibition design, Practice Collective

12   ‘Bird saver's Verse’, Exhibition Design & Marketing, Coconuthuge Collective 2020 05 - 12   ‘2020 Intermedia Art Degree Show’ Identity design, Kaywon Art & Design Univ., with Min Dong-in 2019 07   ‘CJ Group global web UX/UI Reorganization Report’ Internship, IXI 2018 01   ‘La Creature’, Cinema Poster design

09   ‘Regular’ M/V Art team, NCT 127, SM Entertainment

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#5

Worthwhile

Ngga apa2 kok, lagi sehat InsyaAllah mentally, ngga ada suicidal tendency or habis breakdown or anything tapi tadi came across this tweet on my timeline terus ngerasa relatable banget.

https://twitter.com/Pradewitchy/status/1508496560526487552?s=20&t=Eh80ZivE7mqZctH-7nIUsg

Jadi keingetan, 25 Feb kemarin entah kenapa posisi mental lagi serendah-rendahnya terus berujung minta testimoni ke ex mahasiswa-mahasiswa kesayangan: Iqbal, Arif, dan Ishaidir.

Terus yaudah akhirnya pengen mengarsipkan komen-komen warga ini yang super bikin cri pas baca pertama kali... intinya sayang banget pokoknya sama Iqbal Arif Idir. Terima kasih YaAllah udah dikasih kesempatan buat ketemu mereka-mereka ini...

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#4

Teman (2)

4. Senin ke office… literally ga kerja lol. Kerja sih dikit benerin abstract setelah dikasih feedback oleh Tamsin dan Hugh. Terus tapi most of the time ngecekin tiket pesawat! Lol, udah kaya punya uang aja Non balik Indo… terus plan awalnya mau bukber di Robert Hooke karena diajakin Bu Rara yang diajakin Pak Harmin (katanya ternyata tiap Senin, makanan iftar di Robert Hooke adalah Pak Harmin yang masak). Terus tapi jam 14 ku-chat Bu Rara jadi apa nggak, katanya beliau belum bisa karena masih packing (hari ini Bu Rara juga balik Indo buat lebaran). Yasudah. Akhirnya ku-chat si anak baru ini lah (namanya Fidkya) buat masak-masak dan bukber di rumah. Ku balik jam 18 pm mampir M&S beli salmon sama sayuran. Jam 19.30pm-an kami mulai masak. Jam 22pm Fidkya pulang. Seru banget tapi kami ngobrol buanyak bangettt. I think karena ku punya banyak reference juga tentang dunia kedokteran dari Abi, jadi ngobrolnya bisa mayan nyambung. Sayang banget tapi dia hari ini pulang Indo for good huhu. Semoga sukses terus pokoknya Fidkya!

Ok kembali lagi ke niat awal ngepost ini: mau bilang aja ku sesungguhnya sangat senang bertemu orang baru! (walaupun lagi-lagi depends on siapa juga orangnya). Tapi betulan kayanya sejak 2020 di Oxford ini udah kenalan sama 50+ orang baru dan sangat senang. Kayanya kalau nge-stuck di UI ya yaudah gaksi gitu-gitu aja? Palingan ya nambah teman dari mahasiswa, tapi kan bosen ya. Nggak memperkaya diri karena backgroundnya juga sama-sama aja.

Terus terharu banget kemarin Fidkya nanya ku angkatan berapa. Ku jawab “11”. “Loh seumuran dong sama kak xxx?” terus ku yang “…. iyaa” terus responnya dia: “hah tapi kok beda banget kak, kakak vibenya lebih muda” LOL. lalu hanya kujawab “iya dia kan sudah ada anakkk, pasti jadi lebih dewasa, responsibilitynya udah beda. Aku mah sehari-hari yang dipikirin cuma ‘hmm makan apaya hari ini’ haha” terus tapi beneran kerasa banget sih. Kayanya sebelumnya Iqbal gt(?) juga pernah cerita temen sekantor dia atau klien dia gitu angkatan 2011 tapi vibenya bapak2 ibu2 banget, sangat beda dengan w ceunah. Yah intinya mah disyukuri saja lah ya Hamdalah kalau masih kelihatan muda YaAllah terima kasih.

Beres Fidkya pulang w langsung chat Abi cerita kalau w baru aja ketemu juniornya di Oxford. Oh, si Fidkya ini FKUnpad 2016 jadi juniornya Abi banget di Unpad. Eh tiba-tiba malah Abi ngajak telponan doi cerita ketemu geng teman game baru di Discord. Senang sih dengarnya. Ku juga curcol panjang lebar tentang how (still) upset I am with my mom. Terus beres telponan sejam itu langsung tidur sih.

Bangun-bangun sahur jam 3.30 am Kalina belom pulang ke rumah bingung banget. Langsung w chat make sure kalau emang dia masih ngelab bukan karena ada apa-apa. Dibales jam 7.30am kalau dia baru aja sampe rumah dan emang dari lab. Doi minta maap juga nggak ngabarin karena lupa. Sebetulnya bukan w posesip apa gimana sih, cuma lebih ke kan sama-sama anak rantau ye kite, jadi ada baiknya ya saling take care aja kalo ada apa-apa.

Pagi mandi, nyuci piring, terus langsung ke office. Sampe office ada Ian, baru balik dari demonstrating fieldtrip di Assynt doi. Setelah sebelumnya dari Australia juga ketemu orangtuanya di Melbourne. Paling kocak adalah si Ian ternyata satu bimbingan sama mas Felix terus mas Felix taunya kan nama w Noni ya, sedangkan Ian taunya nama w Asri. Jadi terjadi kebingungan lah di situ. I had to explain myself deh ke Ian kalau Noni adalah my nickname.

Intinya dari tulisan sepanjang-panjang ngalor ngidul ini adalah: ternyata enak juga berinteraksi dengan manusia lain after a while. Dan mau bersyukur juga karena tahun ini Romadon kayanya udah mayan sering bukber, while tahun lalu sebulan full beneran yang buka di rumah sendirian doang? (tapi karena waktu juga sih, kan tahun lalu bukanya jam 20-21 pm-an jadi keburu malem), tapi emang gapunya teman muslim juga sih selain itu pun tahun lalu… jadi, terima kasih YaAllah atas berkah teman-temannya tahun ini.

Dah itu dulu aja kali ye. Panjang banget tulisan. Minggu ini bukber tinggal formal OUISOC di Worcester Jumat sama Interfaith Iftar di Exeter House Sabtu. Lebaran juga Alhamdulillah udah diundang ke Bu Yani sama ke Wian’s.

Selamat menjalani 10 hari terakhir teman-temanku semua! Jangan lupa juga zakatnya!

Best,

Noni

14:50 pm 26/04/2022 @ 30.18 Earth Sci Oxford

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#3

Counselling

Oh wow udah lama banget gak nulis. Mulai ga nulis rutin gini sejak… 2022? Tiba-tiba memutuskan untuk nggak ngejurnal dan melakukan recap mingguan lagi. Mungkin itu juga kah yang bikin mental health condition memburuk?

Cek dulu. Terakhir ngepos adalah… 24 Februari 2022 yang adalah hampir sebulan lalu. Betul-betul jauh berbeda dengan 1 tahun 2021 lalu yang setiap minggu selalu nulis! Wow…. payah banget Non…

Btw look at me menghardik (lol gatau kata kerja yang benar di Bahasa Indonesia ataupun in English)/ being mean to myself karena ga seaktif dulu lagi nulis di tumblr! Betul-betul yang habis dibahas sama konselor aku kemarin: that I should have more self-compassion.

Long story short, dalam 2 minggu kemarin, ku berhasil melakukan sesi konseling pake servis gratisan dari uni! Lumayan lama sih ngantrinya… sebulanan(?). Per sesi itu 50menit. Di sesi pertama ditanya: udah pernah konseling sebelumnya? Ada prescription obat nggak? Terus nggak ada kan. Ini betul-betul pertama kalinya konseling (makanya super nervous). Turns out it’s really good!

Di sesi pertama lebih ke metode timeline: menjelaskan dengan runut gimana kehidupan kita dari sebelum lahir sampai sekarang. Ini tujuannya lebih ke mencari root cause atau ada pengalaman hidup/habit apa yang bikin kok sekarang sampai bisa mengalami prokrastinasi akut seperti ini. The whole time counsellor aku super kaget karena she found out how COMPETITIVE OUR EDUCATION SYSTEM IS in Indonesia. Pas dipikir-pikir, emang parah banget sih. Dan super gak bagus untuk perkembangan mental anak! Ngeranking sekolah, ngumpul-ngumpulin anak-anak yang pinter di top school, ngasih idea bahwa being good in academic is everything, itu semua betul-betul detrimental sih ke mental orang pas udah gede.

Sesi pertama ini ku berhasil menjelaskan sampe ku masuk S1. I realized A LOT of thing. Bahwa most of the time, I was VERY HAPPY. Bahkan kuliah S1 pun, I literally studied what I was interested in. Nggak ada masalah hidup yang berat-berat banget. Punya teman main banyak. Bisa menyalurkan interestku di art via KPA. Intinya senang lah ya.

Sesi kedua lebih ke conclusion sih. Si counsellor ku merasa udah cukup banyak dapat informasi, jadi kita mulai menyimpulkan aku ini kenapa dan alasannya apa. Di sini mulai kelihatan bahwa aku nggak biasa menulis selama tumbuh besar, sistem edukasi kita di Indonesia nggak melatih kita untuk bisa nulis (bisa baca dan menghitung dan ngerjain soal pilihan ganda iya bisa, but not writing a whole argumentative essay). Jadinya, writing ini comes as a “threat” for myself. Ku pengen avoid terus. Kesadar juga bahwa I have felt this before pas ngerjain TA S1 dan tesis S2. Cuma waktu itu kedua hal ini punya firm deadline yang mewajibkanku untuk menyelesaikan mau nggak mau. Beda banget dengan PhD.

Terus jadinya di sesi kedua ini hal-hal yang dibahas lebih “sciency”. Dibahas bahwa di diriku ini sekarang ada 3 inner self yang berkonflik:

1. the child, yang used to be very good academically, being top 3 in the whole school, goes to the best school in the city, won medals in olympiad, intinya this person yang identify herself as this “smart, intelligent” girl

2. the mature self, yang afraid of writing, therefore avoiding it. Terus beating myself up for not being the “star child” anymore

3. the more mature self, yang trying to avoid the problem by being nice to other people

Terus seberes sesi, si counsellor mengemail link article dan beberapa self-help guide. Dia bilang ya gaakan easy sih, tapi memang harus diakalin dan dicoba. Salah satu caranya dengan ngasih struktur to our day/week, bikin artificial deadline.

Salah satu artikel yang bagus banget: https://www.nytimes.com/2019/03/25/smarter-living/why-you-procrastinate-it-has-nothing-to-do-with-self-control.html

Sama satu lagi yang harus diperbaiki juga adalah: for me to have more self-compassion. Sekarang yang terjadi adalah: setiap ku melakukan hal yang menurutku I could’ve done better (contoh paling gampang ada di earlier part of this post: to write more regularly in tumblr), I will just beat myself. Ku langsung react: “HADEH non, kenapa sih, you should’ve done better. You could’ve done that! Apa susahnya sih nulis rutin seminggu sekali!!!”. Yang mana doing this to myself didn’t make anything better. Kayak… I was just being mean to myself. I criticised myself. Si counsellorku bilang: “would you do that to your friend? Would you say that? No, right? So, please treat yourself how you’d treat your friend.” Dia bahkan sampai bilang yang “I can tell you treat all of your friends nicely. Please do that to yourself as well.”

Ku tapi jadi kepikiran sih: dapet dari mana ya sifat beating myself too hard ini? Well, ini harus research dan look deep lagi sih ke belakang. Anyway, iya, tapi itu.

Terus apa lagi ya. Oh, kami juga bahas how being in Oxford itself doesn’t help at all. It just makes things worse. The pressure of being under the name “Oxford”. Hhhh. Ku bilang kayak: how people would think of me as this brilliant woman while most of the time I just spent myself avoiding writing. What a fraud. ßSEE???? I should stop saying mean things to myself!!! Help.

Anyway, tapi itu lah ya intinya. Ini sengaja ku tulis di sini supaya kupunya archive aja dan kalau lupa bisa ingat lagi sesi konseling ngapain aja dan apa yang didapat.

OOT tapi senang belakangan abis nyelesein nonton AOT sampai episod terakhir, terus nonton Turning Red (relatable banget if you grow up in Asian family, especially JAVANESE!!!), sama semalam nonton Raya – ceritanya baru subscribe Disney+ ehehe. Raya bagus! Ku suka. Agak kw version dari Avatar the last airbender sih ya, tapi tetap bagus kok.

Dah, sekian itu dulu deh ya. Bye-a~ Oh iya mau nargetin deh: minimal seminggu sekali nulis di sini!!!

30.18 16:21 pm 17/03/2021

15 notes - Posted March 17, 2022

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Impostor

Ini... belum pernah dibahas di mana pun sih... kayanya yang tahu ini cuma counsellor aku doang, mungkin pernah sekelebat ku curhat di sini (di tumblr) dan twitter. Dan teman-teman geng sampah sama safespacegea11 juga tau. Sama Mita juga. Tapi intinya mau bilang kalau selama hampir 2 tahun di sini, ku betul-betul merasa aku fraud banget. Kayak... yaudah sampe bisa keterima PhD program di Oxford tuh ya karena luck aja. 100% karena kebetulan tahun itu lagi gaada yang banyak peminatnya ke labnya Tamsin, terus juga Jardine kebetulan tahun itu nggak terlalu kompetitif peserta-peserta lainnya. Dibantu juga sama doa mama papa lah ya. Tapi beneran kalau dipikir-pikir apakah diri ini worth dan capable untuk menjadi doctoral candidate di universitas nomor 1 di dunia (versi siapa dulu ini ye), jawabannya sungguh tidak.

Dimulai dari betapa parahnya procrastination aku (terutama terhadap writing ya). Teman-teman di sini di tumblr pasti udah tahu lah ya, betapa seringnya ku nulis nggak ngapa-ngapain dan ga berprogres research dan kerjaan selama 2 minggu penuh. Literally korea-an doang. Bangun jam 9 terus youtube-an, nonton ini itu, tiba-tiba udah jam 4 sore terus akhirnya decide to do some work tomorrow dan gitu lagi setelahnya. Ku sampai mendaftarkan diri di Can't Work workshop punyanya Oxford tapi disuruh counsellorku drop out dari workshop karena instrukturnya adalah dia dan gaboleh ada conflict of interest.

Kebayang nggak sih, seumur hidup (anggeplah dari SD sampe kuliah S2: 15 tahun) selalu berprestasi, dianggep pinter sama orang-orang, selalu produktif, terus tiba-tiba zonk aja hidupnya. Udah kayak hidup segan mati tak mau. Ngerasa bersalah banget tiap ga produktif terus makin bego-begoin diri sendiri. Akhirnya ya supaya bisa feel better, ku beraktivitas di luar research kan: macem ikutan ppi2-an biar bisa berteman dan berguna dikit, ngajar kelas olim weekend, ngajar pelatnas, ngomong di webinar-webinar (ini paling hypocrite sih: nyemangatin orang dan di-look up sama orang lain padahal sendirinya ga berguna). Tapi terus ya udah... secara skill di writing ga bertambah.

Barusan banget berhasil kirim draft ms ke co-authors lagi. SETELAH 3 BULAN tertahan di saya. Lega banget. At least, sekarang jadi bisa fokus ngerjain yang lain. Terus kemarin Trinity term kan ada Graduate Supervision Reporting ya. Sebetulnya udah gatau lagi apa yang mau ditulis karena ngerasa ga produktif banget 3 bulan terakhir, tapi yaudah bikin list aja kan udah ngapain aja, issue yang dihadapi apa, terus future plan gimana.

Nah karena itu udah lumayan lama (sebulan selalu kira-kira), ku akhirnya males kan baca feedback supervisors dan graduate directors (dan mostly karena belum siapa dikritisi juga sih). Barusan ku-cek dan komennya baik-baik banget dong bikin terharu:

T: Asri gives an excellent summary of progress above. The next key step is to get her first paper submitted. If the delays with the propane prove longer than hoped then she has the Eagleford samples to analyse while waiting for progress there. S: Asri continues to make good progress and it was great to do some lab work with her earlier in the term. She picked up the techniques very quickly and I was very happy for her to work independently. I have no concerns. H: Asri is making excellent progress on a variety of fronts.. She has produced a potentially publishable account of part of her work, which she aims to submit next month. This paper has been vetted and revised by her supervisors and will be a good start to her academic trajectory. I look forward to reading further work.

DAH GILA YE LU SEMUA. Menangis bombay banget. What is this?! What are all of these compliments? Jujur ga paham banget. Kalau dibilang ku adalah salah satu orang yang paling gabisa menerima compliments, itu adalah sangat benar adanya. Most orang Indonesia nggak sih? Kayak... kita tu di-raise TOO HARD. VERY HARD. Kayak... ya kalau mau dapet apa-apa tuh harus KERJA KERAS banget dulu. Harus di-ospek, ada prajab, dilatih hidup susah, dimarah-marahin biar sukses. DAH GILA LU SEMUA, capek.

Jadi kerasa banget, oh gini ya kalau lo di-raise with love and appreciation, plus dikasih freedom buat being independent, try to figure things out yourself, set your own pace. Nanti curiosity-nya juga muncul sendiri (rada berhubungan sama tweet yang lewat tadi pagi tentang anak yang Unschooling? -- jujur ini ku tertarik banget buat baca-baca dan pelajar hal ini).

Tapi jujur kalau boleh di-runut, ku bisa se-mandiri dan se-"strong" (as in selalu mau pergi ke tempat baru, belajar hal baru) ya karena dikasih freedom yang AMAT SANGAT BESAR juga sih sama Mama Papa dulu. I was raised hard (very hard, they wouldn't bother to congratulate me or give me any appreciation for my achievement -- therefore I'm looking for self-validation elsewhere), but in terms of freedom to learn and do whatever I want to do, my parents are the best. Thank you again, mama dan papa.

Tapi iya intinya itu. Aneh banget. When you have impostor syndrome (dulu selalu ga paham sama Abi karena selalu ngerasa gini dia, tapi akhirnya w kualat dan ngerasain sendiri), your world really does feel very dark and sad. But then, people starts to validate your work, and then you started thinking "wah mereka ketipu sodara-sodara" LOL... Iya intinya jelas impostor syndromenya gaakan hilang semudah itu. Tapi minimal, nggak ngerasa akan ketahuan soon, bahwa ku adalah anak yang dari 3rd world country yang sangat payah bahasa inggris writingnya, dengan analytical skill pas-pasan, dan motivasi belajar sangat rendah hanya ingin KPOP-an aja tiap hari tapi stuck menyamar menjadi PhD student di salah satu uni top dunia. We'll wait and see how long until I got caught. Semoga setelah lulus PhDnya, Aamiin.

30.18 27/07/2022 20:40pm belum pulang masih di office hadeh

23 notes - Posted July 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Sejarah

Lucu banget habis baca tweetnya dokday di twitter terkait lulus PPDS di-attribute-kan hanya ke COGNITIVE and ATTITUDE. Ku gatau detail masuk PPDS kek gimana tapi banyak dengar dari Abi terkait proses menjalani PPDS yang intinya: susah kalau nggak established ekonominya. Karena mereka di-expect bayar SPP, kemudian sekolah sambil praktek tapi digajinya kecil(?)/malah gak digaji(?) -- CMIIW warga-warga tumblr semua.

Terus he went on to explain how HIS PARENTS managed to school 4 (aka all) of their children to MED SCHOOL??? Di tahun segitu??? Dan dia bisa-bisanya bilang masuk PPDS butuh cuma perkara cognitive and attitude... Pusing.

Kemarin habis nonton NOPE di Curzon. It's ok... Not the best Jordan Peele's movie I watched, tapi cukup menghibur. Beres dari situ jadi baca-baca lagi artikel tentang Us terus nemu ini di articlenya Vox:

... Sophie carries the burdens of decisions made millennia before she was born, back on the massive spaceship that brought her ancestors from Earth to this new planet. Those ancestors were shaped by the decisions that you and I are making right now, even as we’re shaped by decisions made hundreds of years ago, and so on. And many of those decisions are now half-remembered dreams.

It is hard to really deal with this, maybe all but impossible. To really sit and think about all of the ways that you are a product of human history, floating through the immense sweep of time and space, rather than someone who can take control of their life and make a difference, is so dispiriting.

Dear dokday... We are all a product of human history... Bagus kalau kita bisa take a leap dan ngejar apa yang kita udah ketinggalan: case-nya dokday, dia bisa managed to be a kaprodi di FKUI despite grandfathernya dia bukan orang angkatan atau mahasiswa kedokteran di STOVIA. Tapi berapa persen sih yang gifted, supported, lucky enough to be those people yang managed to jump high kayak dia gitu? 1% dari 270juta orang Indo aja udah angka yang optimis banget kayanya.

I managed to go to Oxford despite nenekku gapernah liburan di Paris (mostly ku-amati anak-anak Indo di sini yang pake duit sendiri neneknya pasti pernah ke luar negeri -- keingetan fotonya Sandiaga Uno dan Erick Thohir gaksi yang ini). Did I make it karena ku secara "cognitive and attitude" lebih bagus dibandingkan puluhan juta orang lain di usia yang sama sepertiku di Indonesia? Sayangnya I did not. I managed to do this ya karena ku lucky enough punya network yang bikin ku bisa ke-ekspos dengan info terkait Jardine, yaitu teman-teman SMA-ku sendiri. Imagine kalau ku ga pernah di 8... di mana ku akan berada sekarang? Only God knows.

Gimana juga ku bisa sampe 8? Karena Mama Papaku memutuskan untuk merantau dari rumahnya di Jawa Tengah sana ke Jakarta. Gimana mereka bisa ke Jakarta? Karena mereka sekolah sampai sarjana dan orangtua mereka membolehkan (mensupport) mereka untuk merantau. Kenapa mereka bisa disupport buat merantau? Karena apparently, Mbahku dua-duanya nggak butuh anaknya bantuin mereka kerja di rumah -- they somehow were quite well-off di jaman itu. Intinya what I became now: it all can be traced back to every single decision my Mom and Dad made, my Grandpas and Grandmas made, my Great great grandparents made. Yaelah kalau mau ditarik jauh juga akan sampai at what the Dutch decided for us.

Yaudah intinya mau nyampein aja kalau insensitive banget orang-orang yang menihilkan privilese tuh. Jadi kesel sendiri. Jangan jadi kaya dokday ya teman-teman. Boleh ngerasa proud of ourselves, of our efforts, of how far we've come. Tapi tetap inget juga where we came from. Fenomena apapun yang terjadi di dunia ini, it didn't happen because of ONE single factor. It never was. Pasti multiple factor played role in that. And they accumulates, intersects each other, gimana caranya pokoknya berkolaborasi sampai akhirnya jadi end-product yang salah satunya itu adalah kita.

Radcam, 24/08/2022 12:24 pm

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Curcol meong

Malem ini bener bener lagi gatau mau nulis apa, kayak pengen semuanya apa yang ada dipikiran, gue tuangin kesini

10 desember, tepat 3 hari setelah gue ngeclaim umur gue jadi 23. Dengan kondisi emotionally unstable karena lagi mens, jadi beberapa minggu ini bener bener procrastinating, kamar berantakan, suka nangis sendiri, ngetik suka ngawur.

Back to the topic,

Iyess, bener kata lagunya idgitaf "takut tambah dewasa", semakin bingung harus mulai dari mana. Ambisi bergejolak, antusias tak karuan, banyak mimpi yang dikejar.

Di quarter life ini bener bener seperti diantara krisis identitas tapi berambisi buat nyari identitas diri. Kayak, gue tuh sebenernya mau jadi apa sih? Dengan sangat menggebu gebu buat nyatetin semua target idup kedepannya.

Kadang gue iri sama orang orang yang mereka udah tau mau ngapain, mau jadi apa kedepannya dengan memamerkan list target target mereka di sosmed.

Ya gue gamau kalah dong? Gue tulisin lah semuanya di notes.

Tahun depan gue berniat buat ngincer LPDP DN (GIZI UI) dengan harapan ya gue bisa mendalami gizi masyarakat yang gue udh bener bener kecemplung di zona yang sebenernya gue ga suka tp ko ya lama lama nyaman. Pengen bgt gawe di dinkes or kemenkes pusat, gatau deh tujuannya apa. Pengen bgt jd umbi umbian.

Nah tapi gue juga pengen di tahun depan buat ikut CPNS, isu isu 2023 ada cpns, so ya gue jd bimbang ikut kemana?

Pros cons sudah saya catad, tinggal minta restu orang tua. Mereka sih maunya gue kerja dulu, s2 bisa nanti kalau dapet promosi dari atasan (ceunaaah)

Ya semoga diberikan jalan yang terbaik aja sih. Kalau ga dapet keduanya, setidaknya status saya berubah menjadi IRT...? Eh?

Oke karena udah jem 1 malem, mari kita sudahi overthingking kali ini.

[salanaii]

Learn Korean with me - Week 15

Day 1: Let's Speak Korean Ch 7 on the plane (31 - 70)

식사를드리겠습니다. Sig sa reur deu rig ess seub ni da We will give (=serve) you the meals.

어느것으로하시겠습니까? Eo neu geos eu ro ha sig ess seub nig ga Which one would you like to go (with)?

식사를바꿔도되나요? Sig sa reur ba ggwo do doe nay o Can I change (my) meal?

기내식이나올때깨워주세요. Gi nae sig I na or ttae ggae wo ju se yo Please wake me up when the (in-flight) meals come out (=are served).

머리가아파요. Meo ri ga a pa yo (My) head aches.

두통이심합니다. Du tong I sim hab ni da (Literal) Headache us severe. = I have a severe headache.

토할것같아요. To har geos gat a yo I think I’m going to throw up.

멀미가심하네요. Meor mi ga sim ha ne yo (Literal) (My) airsickness is severe. =I’m getting very airsick.

속이좋지않아요. Sog I joh ji anh a yo (Literal) (My) inside is not good. = My stomach is upset.

진통제있나요? Jin tong je iss nay o Do you have a pain killer?

비행기안에으사가있나요? Bi haeng gi an e eu sa ga iss nay o Is there a doctor inside (=on) the plane?

충전이가능한가요? Chung jeon I ga neung han ga yo Is it possible to charge (the phone)?

팔걸이가고장났어요. Par geor I ga go jang nass eo yo The armrest is broken.

리모콘이작동을안해요. Ri mo kon I jag dong eur an hae yo The remote isn’t working.

엔진에서연기가나요. En jin e seo yeon go ga nay o A smoke is coming out of the engine.

비상사태입니다. Bi sang sat ae ib ni da It’s an emergency situation.

의자가고장났어요. Ui ja ga go jang nass eo yo The chair (=seat) is broken.

불이안켜져요. Bur I an kyeo jyeo yo The light doesn’t turn on.

티비를어떻게사용하죠? Ti bi reur eo tteoh ge sa yong ha jyu How do I use the TV?

티비가안나와요. Ti bi ga an na way o (Literal) TV doesn’t come on. =TV doesn’t work.

저승객이이상해요. Jeo seung gaeg I I sang hae yo That passenger is weird/strange.

많이취한것같아요. Manh I chwi han geos gat a yo (He/She) seems very drunk.

다른자리로옮겨도될까요? Da reun ja ri ro orm gyeo do doer gga yo Can I switch to a different seat?

빨리내려야해요. Bbar ri nae yeo yah ae yo I have to get off quickly.

어디까지가세요? Eo di gga ji ga se yo (Literal) How far are you going? = Where’s your final destination?

저도거기에갑니다. Jeo do geo go e jab ni da I am going (to) there too.

여행가시나요? Yeo haeng ga si nay o Are you going (on a) trip?

코를골아서죄송합니다. Ko reur gor a seo joe song hab ni da (Literal) Sorry for snoring (my nose).

안대있나요? An dae iss nay o Do you have a sleep shade?

담요를주세요. Dam yo reur ju se yo Please give me a blanket.

물좀주세요. Mur jum ju se yo Give me some water, please.

심하게흔들리네요. Sim ha ge heun deur ri ne yo It’s shaking excessively.

면세품은어디서찾나요? Myeon se pum eun eo di seo chaj nay o (From) where so I pick up duty-free items?

면세한도가어떻게되나요? Myeon se han do ga tteoh ge doe nay o What’s the duty=free limit?

이것을사고싶어요. I geos eur sa go sip eo yo I’d like to buy this.

여기있습니다. Yeo gi iss seub ni da Here you are.

필요한게있으면알려주세요. Pir yo hang e iss eu myeon arryeo ju se yo Please let me know if there is anything you need.

현지시각은몇시죠? Hyeon ji si gag eun myeoch si jyo What time is the local time (now)?

입국신고서를작성해주세요. Ib gug sun go se reur jag seong hae ju se yo Please fill out the arrival card.

세관신고서를작성해주세요. Se gwan sin go seo reur jag seong hae ju se yo Please fill out the customs declarations forms.

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Bo-tong-ui ga-jog

Bo-tong-ui ga-jog (2023) #Jin-hoHur #SolKyung-gu #JangDong-Gun #KimHee-ae #ClaudiaKim Mehr auf:

A Normal Family / 보통의 가족Jahr: 2023 Genre: Drama Regie: Jin-ho Hur Hauptrollen: Sol Kyung-gu, Jang Dong-Gun, Kim Hee-ae, Claudia Kim … Filmbeschreibung: Jae-wans Beruf als Anwalt beinhaltet die Verteidigung von Mördern. Sein Bruder ist ein religiöser Arzt, der seine Patienten ständig über seine eigenen Interessen stellt. Eine Situation, die ihre Kinder betrifft, stellt das Gewissen der Brüder…

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Having a Partner

Semenjak ngide mo les ielts bareng, perjalanan mencari lanjut sekolah lagi kita semakin hari semakin nyata.

Hari ini mbak apik nge-wa salah satu program dikti yang baru saja kita bersama ketahui “program persiapan s2” terus kaya liat2 objektifnya cocok banget sama kita dan akhirnya kita mo apply! Tapi sayangnya kita sama2 gak punya hasil tes bahasa inggris hahahaha… jadilah hari ini bergerilya nyari tmpt tes bahasa inggris utk submit berkas maksimal tanggal 24 juni.

Ya.. nothing to lose aja, yg penting ikhtiyar! Bener2 kaya nyari tempat tes toefl ITP se-jogja HAHAHA. Dan akhirnya kita malah bakal ngikut tes via schooters aja wkwkwkwk. Emg submit cm buat formalitas doanggg. Apalagi aku dpt tes ITP Prediction gratis, yoweslah pake itu aja bismillah. Ohiya terus kita berdua juga sama2 submit beasiswa IELTS yg diadain sm schooters wkwkkwwk. Ikhtiyar cari yg murah dulu walau sebenernya udh pretest urk persiapan les ielts beneran di realia 😂

Dan.. selain gerilya nyari tmpt trs bhs inggris. Aku iuga nyari2 jurusan yg dituju. Pengen ke NZ, eh jurusan maternal and child health gak ada. Nyari ke sweden, juga ga ada. Tadi pagi nanya ke asti dan diarahin ke SOPHAS sama doi. SOPHAS tuh semacam association of public health school di US. Blm sempet explore lagi krn yang kuharapkan gak keluar : JHU sama Harvard wkwkwkkwwk. Mimpinyaaaaa kuliah di PTUD, kuliah di UI aja menangoss kamu, Na! Wkwkkw ya gapapa mimpi aja dulu ya wkwkwk.

Besok hari libur. Mo lanjut cari tujuan sekolah biar kaya lebih jelas aja syarat administrasinya. Sejujurnya pengen dpt scholarship yg gak mainstrem (jujur gamau LPDP sih wkwkw krn ngerasa beban ke negara, tp gamau fullbright juga soalnya uangnya lebih dikit dr LPDP HAHAHAH) Terus apa dong 😂 belom kulik2 chavening, AAS, gitu2.

Waktu dl masih main di air dan sanitasi, aku NESO garis keras, pengen ke Belanda. Tp skrg malah lebih maternal and child health, ada gak ya di Belanda? Gatau heee.

Ohiya td iseng ngeliat curicullum maternal and child health di university of minessota, krn dia dibawah public health jadi msh banyak isu2 public health hmmm. Padahal akutuh udh mau lebih fokus ke kesehatan personal gt lih, bukan population health lg, gmn ya? Kl gitu ya ambil ya nursing tp yg maternal, nah itu pasti personal health of the mother itself. Tapi dimana ya di luar negeri? Nanti kita kulik2 lg course-nya.

Baby step, baby step. Thanks for making me alive @ajinurafifah love you sekebonnn