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#Why can’t she be happy for once
nogurlstoy · 4 months
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Jinx’s Self Awareness
One thing that I love about Jinx, is how self aware she is about her being damaged. How she has stopped being the sweet baby sister Vi used to know her as. How she knows that the reason she and Ekko are now enemies not just because she chose Silco over their friendship, but how she willing killed and tortured countless of people, something he nor Vi wouldn’t believe Powder would EVER do.
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“I thought, maybe you could love me like you used to. Even though I am.. different.”
And it’s like she is ashamed of this fact. Deep down she hates that she has become the very person Vi has come to fear and Ekko to despise. And she wants to go back to the “better days” , when before she believed she fucked things up for everyone. But she can’t help being Jinx because this is how she grew up as after all these years. How the person who truly understood her trauma expects her to be. And to be who they loved her as is too painful for her and the guilt would swallow her entirely.
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steampunkedemon · 1 year
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idk but saying tyler being a manipulative serial killer means he can’t be with wednesday is genuinely so funny to me like baby this is the addams family we’re talking about. being a manipulative serial killer should put him at the top of the viable choices for wednesday list.
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worstloki · 6 months
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AU where Loki doesn’t interfere with Thor’s banishment at all and it takes Thor years to prove himself worthy and when he returns to Asgard everything is just. The same. Nothing seems to have changed at all and everyone greets him like his absence was a minor obstacle that didn’t fundamentally change Thor and the worst part is Loki stepped down from the place as regent without any delay and Thor can’t help but feel there’s something underlaying the way his brother looks at him now and won’t let him touch him and Thor doesn’t know what he could have missed because he doesn’t think he would have found anything wrong with the things around him and how everyone behaves if he hadn’t spent time on Earth reflecting.
#the warriors 4 not being interested in anything Thor ‘learnt’ at all#and making it clear that Thor was punished unfairly and the AllFather’s decision had been harsh#Loki saying he’s happy for Thor and Thor sees the way the smiles are forced and he sees the way Loki avoids any touch#Thor hating the way Frigga talks about Loki’s short regency and Thor’s absence like it wasn’t two whole decades or something#like she’s so grateful to have her other son back without ever addressing why he was gone#Thor just. growing during his time on earth and being much more aware of the behaviour around him#he learns to be critical and assess why people around him may act a certain way#once he realises that it’s possible for him or anyone else to be fallible and make mistakes it’s over for Asgard for him I think#Thor returns and Loki gives him the throne and everyone expects him to obviously have the throne#and Odin is sleeping and Thor isn’t comfortable with the way everyone accepts him as king regent after the banishment#Loki who either never lashed out against Jotunheim or did and it was brushed away and no one thinks about it as anything#but Loki is still deeply affected and acts the way he always would have but Thor can feel it’s not the same#he knows something is wrong and Loki won’t say anything about it and Thor doesn’t know how to bring it up#Thor sees Loki metaphorically receding into the shadows to become a nonpresence so loud Thor hears it even after returning from decades away#Thor goes to Earth and gets his priorities in order gets a new worldview learns not to take what he has for granted#and finds out he actually despised Asgard#he’s been back a week and he can’t stand it
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itspileofgoodthings · 4 months
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Good afternoon, today I am thinking about the end of the Feast of the Seven Fishes when Tony is talking to Katie about why he can’t get back together with her and/or just fall into bed with her and he says “I love you too much not to love you enough.” Thanks for listening.
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aviangrian · 18 days
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thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!
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#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically#she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11#i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything#we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had#like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties!#she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w#she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs!#last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since#this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭#never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay#you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho#crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me#i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday#at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that#this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND#probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since#this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡
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quotergirl19 · 2 years
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Random thoughts 🐝💭
I die a little inside every time Colin misses seeing Penelope looking gorgeous in a flattering pretty dress, but sees her in yet another horrendously bright yellow dress.
It’s a nails-on-a-chalkboard-cringing-agony & I need it to end!!!! And was it absolutely necessary to have like 8 different bows in her hair here?👇🏼🤦🏽‍♀️
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Please let her never ever wear yellow again after season 3.
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I like feyre. I like her on her own. I like how she paints to remember and heal, and it’s ugly paintings as well as beautiful ones. I like how she analyzes herself, how she sees the bad and accepts it. I like how hard she is willing to work. I like how she wants to help others. I love her fury on behalf of innocents. I love her vitriol in defense of herself. I love when she shows the spine of steel that she and nesta share. I love when she snarls and snaps and glows and laughs. I love feyre when she’s hard to swallow, hard to put neatly into just one box. I love feyre on her own. And I wish she could be her own person again
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jaegerbroshoe · 1 year
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Katniss: *dealing with the aftermath of a concussion/several other injuries, the pressure to be used for propaganda purposes once again, the power plays of a rising tyrant, the fear of what’s happening to someone she cares about, and overall mental trauma that’s been accumulating for years*
Gale: WhEN wiLL yOu KiSs mE aND cOnFeSs yoUr LoVE fOr mE???
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captainsjack · 1 year
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who wants a really depressing au where tenjack are dating and during elevens era jack gets taken by the weeping angels. the doctor spends two thousand years trying to find him only to accept that he can’t. and so she goes to the one place she knows she can see him again. she goes to the face of boe.
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mielgf · 1 year
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just finished my first read of little women and i will never be the same
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devils-little-sista · 2 years
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#I really want to try straight hair shampoo and conditioner for my hair#everything online says not to but all the curly hair products make my hair scrunch up and dry out and it’s so unmanageable#I don’t know what to do with my curly hair everything everybody tells me to use doesn’t work on it#mom says I have her hair yet all the stuff she uses has totally different results on mine#always hated my cause I never figured out how to do it#so I don’t know what to with it I just put it in a ponytail#but I’m sick of it#I want to do something else with it#I can’t figure out if I want it long enough to put it in updos to keep it out of my face or if I want it short enough to stay out of my face#cause hate my hair getting close to my face#I don’t know what to do nobody’s ever let me grow it long enough to keep in updos and stuff#and their fine with letting me cut it shorter but idk I’m scared that’ll make it worse#why won’t they let me have long hair like I want#even if I don’t know exactly how to deal with it it would still be in updos or at least ponytails every time I go out as it always is#I want to it longer so I can do more styles with it and stuff but they’re refuse for some reason#and I want to use straight hair shampoo and conditioner at least once just to see what it does#but they refuse to let me try anything with my hair that isn’t a curly hair product or method#they’ve never been happy with my hair and I haven’t either#news flash parental figures none of the curly hair products and methods I’ve been using for 20 have ever worked on my hair#maybe it’s time to try something out of the curly hair box#for once in my life#and every other time I complain to them I want to try something new they tell me to just keep it straightened as if it’s that simple#so I tell them that’s a lot of extra work even tho I do really like how my hair looks straightened when I do it myself#I’m too lazy to do all of that on a regular basis it takes me four fucking hours to straighten my hair there’s so much of it#but yeah maybe I can work myself to exaustion and give my hair permanent heat damage to keep it straightened every day#and then I can try the straight hair products and stuff#I’m just sick of it I hate it so much#if keeping it straightened and using straight hair products on it don’t work then I might just shave it without permission cause I’m Tired#im starting to think a blow dryer might be necessary for this hair journey#they didnt do much to my hair when I was a kid but I haven’t tried one in a long time
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tutuandscoot · 1 year
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Just gonna say something quick:
I am thrilled beyond belief for Tessa and Morgan! I’m so happy for her and I can’t wait to see how gorgeous she looks in her wedding dress (whenever that day comes). She deserves everything in the world. She deserves all the love in the world and has it in every way from the people that adore her.
I will not be making any further comments on the matter.
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neon-vocalist · 7 days
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she deserved so much more than what she got
#i can’t think about this for too much longer or i’ll lose my mind but i just#can’t get the image out of my head of her specifically choosing the outfit she planned to die in by what was HERS#and what was hers was…#two bracelets made for her by our best friend#a shirt i bought because she liked the character on it#her favorite pair of earrings— lollipop shaped#her half of a best friends necklace#the last thing she fucking said was ‘i hope you think about me fondly once i’m gone’#the last thing she said to phoebe was wishing them well for their trip to the fucking target#the last thing she said to me was fuck you. and she meant it.#i’ve said all this before. i know i have#but if anyone deserved happiness it was her#and i miss her every single day and i wish i had been able to do something. anything#my sister. my best friend. i took her for granted; we all did#and i’ll never talk to her again#i’ll never buy her another piece of kuromi merch#we’ll never sing another duet#i’ll never do her hair. she’ll never stay up late with me talking about nothing#she’ll never help me prep for another audition#i’ll never see her smile#fuck. god fucking damn it#hinata i love you#if i could bring you back in exchange for myself i’d do it in a heartbeat#if there was anyone who deserved to live it was her#she just wanted a friend. to be loved. to be seen. to help someone.#she wanted to make a difference. she did so a million times over#hinata. hinata. i love you#come back. hinata#why did you have to die#hinaposting
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myname-isnia · 2 months
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Why does the woman who unfortunately gave birth to me always feel the need to ruin the one good day I have in ages
#things I’m not allowed to do according to my mom:#be upset that my dad doesn’t love me#wish for my dad to love me#cry over the fact that I don’t get the love and support I need#voice that I need love and support. actually#imply in any way that I’m affected by the way my dad treats me#not accept that ‘it is what it is and you can’t change it’ isn’t. in fact. at all comforting to hear#say that the ‘advice’ she gets from instagram psychologists is bullshit#not be happy with the money thrown at my head without any love behind it#be jealous of my friend for having both a dad and a stepdad who never once yelled at her#show the consequences of my upbringing in the way I behave#the list goes fucking on and on#I don’t want to talk about it. I’ve already cried for an hour#and was ridiculed for it because how fucking dare I want comfort and affection from my dad#haven’t I learned by now that I won’t ever get it from him#and if I even dream of it then it’s the same as wishing for a pink sparkly unicorn and I’m being childish and ridiculous#and why do I care so much anyway. why can’t I just accept it and let it go#……..#both my parents suck so bad it almost feels like a parody of itself#my mom knows full well how shitty he is. I’ve heard her complain countless times. but the second I’m the one complaining she defends him#my dad thinks every time I make a mistake or change my mind about something it’s a personal offence against him#and that money should fill the void he left in my chest#and the worst part is… if a miracle occurred. if he suddenly changed overnight and became loving and supportive and caring#he wouldn’t even have to apologise. I’d run into his arms without thinking. trauma be damned#it’s almost like I was meant to be a daddy’s girl. like it’s in my nature. the way I crave his love specifically#but him being a shitty person meant I couldn’t so now there’s this constant ache in my chest. despite everything#despite how I can never do anything right. despite my accomplishments never being enough#despite knowing full well I will always be a disappointment to him. despite despite despite#it’s exhausting. it really is. and I said I didn’t want to talk about it and yet here I am#I should probably go eat something. I’ve barely eaten all day. the crying took a lot of energy out of me
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yueebby · 4 months
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happy wife, happy life  — gojo satoru
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synopsis. not fawning over his wife may prove to be harder than gojo thought.
contents. fluff, gojo is so whipped for his wife and everyone is tired (whats new), ooc gojo?
notes. this was pure self indulgence. i wanted to slander and coddle gojo all at once and this was it teehee :3
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the first thing you hear when you stand up to leave the staff meeting is a wolf whistle.
“looking good,” satoru looks you up and down. you roll your eyes playfully, your husband’s behavior is not foreign to you. he taps your upper thigh, dangerously close to your butt as you take your leave. however, the others in the room don't take kindly to the action.
“highly inappropriate behavior gojo,” utahime mutters under her breath from across the table. beside her, nanami is giving your husband a hard stare. 
satoru pays no mind to them though, smiling up at you as you walk out of the room. you shake your head when he continuously blows a series of kisses. he ignores your rejection, opting to mouth crude comments instead.
the moment the door shuts, the strongest sorcerer immediately deflates, disinterested in whatever matters the rest had to discuss about. 
“i don’t know how she puts up with you,” utahime takes a long sip out of her cup of tea. beside her, shoko snorts.
“probably for his body.” shoko is not unfamiliar with satoru’s antics, having witnessed it since his rowdy school days. she applauds him for coming far with you, but it was still fun to tease him.
gojo crosses his arms, emitting a disgruntled sound. “and my golden personality?”
nanami sighs, “ieiri’s conclusion is most likely right.”
the limitless user wiggles his finger playfully. “nanamin, how scandalous of you to fantasize about my body! i’m a married man y’know~” 
nanami looks like he has eaten something sour. unlike you, nanami’s attitude towards gojo has not softened as the years passed.
“i’m surprised she’s still with you.” utahime snickers. “she’s a sensible woman and you’re–” 
satoru frowns at her statement.  he’d never thought about how you felt about his behavior. perhaps that was his fatal flaw. gojo satoru had a nasty streak of negligence. and the last time he failed to notice someone dear to him —   
“well i’m glad she ended up choosing me, yeah?” his frown is quickly covered up by the wide smirk on his face. he leans back on his chair that’s starting to feel less comfortable by the second. the chair creaks under the weight of his body. honestly, how old are these old wooden things? “as much as i’d like to keep chatting about my lovely wife, i’d like to get this meeting over with so i can see her again.”
the rest of the meeting ensues as usual.
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“sensei has been weird… right?” itadori offers his hand after knocking megumi down during a sparring match. the black haired boy grunts as he is pulled up.
“if by weird, you mean normal.” megumi glances back at you and gojo who are watching intently at the first and second years practicing close combat on the training field. it was a bit peculiar to see satoru not throw himself all over you. gojo without pda is like a jigsaw puzzle missing its most essential piece, leaving the overall picture incomplete and lacking the electrifying energy that defines his existence. 
“i feel like i should be happy, but it’s unsettling to see him not initiating some misconduct. do you think they’re fighting?” nobara is panting on the grassy floor. she raises her hand in surrender when maki leaps in to take her head off with a spear.
maki retracts her blade, turning back to observe you and gojo, “nah, gojo would fold at her command.” 
“salmon.”
from across the training field, you turn to your husband nervously, “why are they staring at us?”
satoru hums, his blindfolded gaze focuses on the field in front of you, “hm, maybe they’re admiring their very beautiful [name] sensei.” the blindfolded man pauses. compliments should still be okay– right? satoru can’t imagine a life without lavishing you with love, yet he will content himself with gently sprinkling you with affection. 
you smack his shoulder playfully. to your surprise, your husband doesn’t reciprocate with some form of physical affection. you tilt your head, perplexed. 
quickly dismissing it, you yell at your students to continue their training.
you don’t notice the way satoru clenches his fists, keeping his eyes trained anywhere but you.
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the next time satoru is tempted by your presence is when he comes back home after a mission. it was a walk in the park, but the heavy stack of paperwork that followed it had depleted his energy. all he wanted was to snuggle in bed with his wife, selfishly keeping you all to himself.
and you’re not making it easier to resist with the way you warmly greet him with a smile in nothing but a small cotton tee and those tiny pajama shorts. eyes up, eyes up, eyes up, satoru mentally chants.
he thinks he might actually die.
“toru!” you abandon the book you had been reading to pay your husband taxes (kisses that satoru demands he must have). “you’re home awfully late.”
“mission… paperwork,” his clipped response is mumbled as he hurries past you and to your shared bathroom, avoiding your touch. satoru silently prays to the heavens that you don’t notice his suspicious efforts as he makes his way to take a much needed ice cold shower.
you stand in your spot in confusion, letting your husband go. slowly, you start to connect the pieces of satoru’s strange behavior from his refusal to touch you to his sudden responsible disposition. gojo satoru never does paperwork– not unless you bribe him with a dozen kisses. speaking of kisses, you don’t even remember the last time he had demanded one. something was definitely wrong. 
without missing a beat, you quickly follow your lover’s trail into the bathroom.
to your delight, your husband had failed to lock the door. in the hush of your silence, you can hear the subtle rustle of satoru's garments.
his sky blue eyes go wide when he sees you walk through the door.
“toru… is there something wrong?” your voice is careful. 
the white haired man in front of you nervously laughs as he covers his bare chest, “geez, ask me out to dinner first.” 
“gojo satoru.”
your husband winces at his full name being used, but he puts on another mask. a faux smile plays on his lips as he shrugs. “i don’t know what you mean, gojo.” 
your heart drops at his insistence to shut you out, but you stand your ground. with sheer determination, you walk up to your husband, closing the gap between the two of you. you cup his cheek with a hand while you start to lean closer, your lips nearly brushing.
satoru shuts his eyes, inhaling a deep breath to regain composure. he even sucks in his lips, making him look utterly ridiculous. despite the dangerous allure of your proximity, he resolves to stand firm.
"you won’t even kiss me anymore! satoru, this is absurd. what's happening?" you distance yourself, seeking answers.
despite his towering stature, a snort escapes you as satoru resembles a mere child when mumbling something under his breath.
"come on, use your big boy words."
"i don't want to drive you away," he avoids making eye contact now that his blindfold is off. "i know i can be a bit overwhelming at times."
upon hearing his excuse, you snort loudly, “seriously?”
“seriously.”
“i can’t believe i married such an idiot.” you huff, wrapping your arms around his neck.
satoru pouts, “you’re breaking my heart wifey.”
your lips softly kiss the corner of his mouth. like it was muscle memory, satoru’s lips chase yours even after you pull away. you smile.
“for such a genius, you really are stupid ‘toru.” you flick his forehead. he whines and you know it didn’t hurt, yet you entertain him by leaning up to kiss his injury. “believe it or not, i married you for reasons beyond your pretty face and body.”
“you think i’m pretty?” his eyes shine bright as they lovingly gaze into yours. you take one hand to cup his cheek. he nuzzles his face into it.
“of course you’d say that.” you laugh softly. “but honestly, i’m offended that you thought i would ever be annoyed by your affections. might i remind you that we have been madly in love since our youth? i found myself captivated by your ability to love effortlessly, and the way you hopelessly pined for me for years? i knew i was a goner. that… and your bank accoun–”
satoru kisses you with an intensity that leaves you feeling blissfully lightheaded. lost in the haze of the moment, he showers the rest of your face with tender, wet kisses, and you stand there, surrendering to the sweet assault.
upon withdrawing, satoru wears a broad grin. "i was an idiot today, wasn't i?" you nod, breathless. "how about i make it up to you tonight?" he proposes, drawing you close. you are all too familiar with that feral grin adorning his face.
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neo-nomatrix · 4 months
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The Olive Theory
Luke Castellan x Reader
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summary: Strawberries are your favorite thing in the whole world, luckily for you Luke seems to “hate them”
a/n: based on the olive theory from himym
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There are two things you truly love in this world: Luke and Strawberries.
You often find yourself helping the Demeter and Dionysus kids in the strawberry fields, despite your actual job being at the infirmary. Miranda often scolded you for taking strawberries for yourself during the day, you didn’t mind though. The sweet yet tart berry was worth it.
Your obsession with the fruit grew even further. You begged the dryads for extra portions during dinner, pairing them with yogurt and melted chocolate. Your least favorite part was having to sacrifice the berry to your godly father. You debated giving something else to him but everyone at camp and above knew your love for them, there was no running from it.
Luke was well aware of your passion for strawberries. Going as far as joking that you love them more than him. You both aren’t quite sure if it’s a joke or not.
You sit at a picnic table near the Hermes cabin with luke. You had just sat down with Percy and three shortcakes for each of you. Luke leans over and presses a soft kiss against your temple as you sit down. Percy notices that you can barely acknowledge it since your focus is on the cake.
Both Luke and Percy stare at you in wonder as you eye the desert, they can’t seem to figure out why you haven’t eaten it yet. Impatient, you look over and luke with a wanting gaze.
“Oh- right,” he says understandingly.
Percy is clearly confused by the seemingly telepathic communication. His eyes dart between you and Luke, your gaze once again set on your plate. Luke picks off the strawberries from his cake and places them on your plate. As soon as the first two strawberries are there you start devouring the cake like a ravenous hyena. Percy starts to wonder if you’re even chewing. Luke starts to eat some of his until he stops halfway. He puts the remaining piece of cake on your plate for you. You eat it immediately as if it was there the whole time.
“Are you gonna have that?” You ask politely, eyeing a large, red strawberry on Percy’s plate.
His eyes shift down to where your gaze is settled, “No, go ahead.”
You smile and take it with your fork, biting into it quickly. Percy’s eyes shift back to Luke, who’s been staring at you since the moment you sat down. His face held a small smile as he admired you. You smiled as you licked the whipped cream off your fork.
“I think I'm gonna get another slice!” You exclaim happily, standing up and nearly skipping to where the dryads are.
Luke watches as you leave, eyes falling on your figure.
“I never realized she liked strawberries that much,” Percy said.
“Yeah, I'm kinda surprised she hasn’t turned into one yet,” he laughs quietly.
“I assume you don’t like them that much? I mean- you gave her all of yours and half of the cake,” Percy explains.
“Strawberries? no way, they’re great. But she loves them so much, and I'd do anything to make her happy,” Luke smiles as he nibbles on the remains of one of your eaten berries.
You come back with a widest smile on your face. You hold another cake alongside a cup of strawberries. You sit down, happily eating more of the cake and strawberries.
“Isn’t it so great that Luke doesn’t like them? I get them all to myself!” You say, beaming.
“Yeah,,, perfect,” Percy says slowly, remembering the new found information.
“Mhm; I’d give my girl all the strawberries in the world if I could,” Luke mumbles.
Luke has a single mission in life, making you happy. Even if that means giving up his favorite fruit for you. Your smile is worth much more than a simple strawberry.
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