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case-of-traxits · 10 months

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-chinhands- Reeve / Genesis, any age(s)

soulmate au prompts bc I'm trouble: the one where when you dream you’re seeing whatever your soulmate is currently experiencing.

Omg. Look you. You know how I feel about this ship. This is not even a rarepair; this is a MICROSHIP. This is a dinghy that you and I are both sitting in, flailing at each other about. That's exactly why you prompted this. T_T

I wanted this to be fluffy so bad. I'm so bad at fluff. Anyway. This is the first part of three. I'll be posting the next bit in about a week. <3

[Prompted from this post.]

Take Me from the Dark (I ain't gonna make it myself) Part 1/3: Dreaming

Word count: 1979 words. Content Notes: Soulmate AU. Characters: Reeve Tuesti/Genesis Rhapsodos. Soundtrack: "Take Me With You," by alixe. & LucidDream. Summary: Soulmates see through one another's eyes when they dream. Reeve and Genesis come of age to have their first dreams.

The dreams started when Reeve was sixteen. At first, they were brief— just flashes really— glimpses into a life that wasn't his own. One with grass and trees and people that Reeve had never met. He knew, of course, that it meant his match was out there somewhere, and that if he was dreaming of apples glinting in the daylight (and he could smell them, crisp and sharp and sweet), it meant his soulmate was probably on the other side of the world somewhere.

It was the only way the time zones lined up, after all.

He supposed it was luckier than most because all too often if soulmates were in the same time zone, they only saw each other's dreams. At least with the difference, he got to see something more.

Dutifully, every time he woke up, no matter where he was, he wrote down the details that he could remember. So he wrote notes to himself about parents who shouted over breakfast (and on those nights, he woke with anger so hot in his chest that it nearly burned) and about dark purple apples that shone like diamonds in the morning light and about a boy with black hair who whispered about leaving and going to Midgar.

And he wondered what his soulmate dreamed about.

( Posted on AO3 )

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taktitty · 7 months

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Andrew Minyard has cute aggression pt.2

#neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #the foxhole court #all for the game #my art #aftg #aftg fanart #yet more new art instead of finishing old art lmao #but also i have no self control #they are in love #also I see you all talking about what a good fix this would be #just saying if that were to happen tag me 👀

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graha-stan-account · 4 months

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Things I learned from Encyclopedia Eorzea III

Do with this what you will, ffxiv fandom.

G'raha and the tower appeared about 15 years after the Flood of Light. Ardbert and team were all already dead. "Our" Minfilia had already dissipated.

At the time, he looked like his normal self. He is described as a Mystel dressed as a mage, so we can assume people knew he was a "Mystel" at the time, vs. later when his appearance is only speculative.

A bunch of refugees clamored to the Crystal Tower when it appeared. He said yeah you can hang out here, the tower defenses will keep you safe.

And then fucked off for 4 years to survey the damage of the Flood of Light.

When he got back he knew shit was really fucked and ASAP started trying to figure out how the hell to get the WoL over for pizza

At some point he figures out he needed to address the WoL verbally for some reason for the summoning to work properly???

It doesn't.

He decides this shit is gonna take 5ever and I'm already having a quarter life crisis. I'm going to bind my aether to the tower. It's the one secret anti-aging trick that has doctors PISSED

It'll be great, like, he'll almost never age.

Downside, his body slowly becomes necrotic with crystal.

More time lost because he has to use aether to discretely animate his crystallized limbs and digits to keep their use.

At some point, early Crystarium dwellers get tired of asking him for his name (he won't give it) and him rejecting the crown they offer him so they start calling him the Crystal Exarch.

Exarch says OK and wheels out some Allagan nodes to help build what would become the Crystarium. Go ham, guys.

Since no one really recalls what the Exarch looks like in present day, G'raha likely began wearing a cowl after returning from traveling Norvrandt, or when his body begins to change. Those who remember are likely dead (age or sineaters) or sworn to secrecy.

The developing crystal, which he did his best to hide, prevented him from truly connecting with the others.

Sometime after this, an infant Lyna falls into his care.

Well technically the Settlement Council (because he was like hey let's have a representative government [not because I grew up in one or anything!]! I'll just be over here.)

But he was very involved in her upbringing.

Probably because he was close friends with her parents.

Who die tragically while serving in the Crystarium guard (Meaning that the guard is at least 30 years old, likely more, as her parents were known to have served in the guard since inception basically and Lyna is 33 in SHB)

G'raha was probably in his mid-eighties at this point, judging by Lyna's age in SHB (33) and that we know G'raha had the Crystal Exarch title for 9 decades + the 24 years he had lived before he entered the tower. (He is likely slightly older due to the intervening time between being awakened in the Bad Timeline and heading to the First.)

He FINALLY gets summoning to work something like 90 years later!!!!! Except it still doesn't! Five years before he could nab the WoL, he nabbed Thancred instead (oops). It took another 2 years for it to successfully transport a soul again.

#g'raha tia #crystal exarch #ffxiv #I wrote this at 1 a.m. in the morning #as you can see it quickly devolved into my own voice and 0 self control lol #but I didn't make it up #Fandom you better make me suffer with this information I give you #shadowbringers spoilers #encyclopedia eorzea

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arggghhhsstuff · 1 month

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edwin is stronger than me because if I was dragged back to hell after spending nearly a century there and the boy I have a crush on came for me without hesitation, saw my darkest moments and offered me his hand, held me as I confessed my love to him, compared us to orpheus and eurydice, and I had to act like nothing happened... I'd lose my shit.

#edwin payne #dbd #dead boy detectives #that little edwardian twink has more self control in his pinkie finger than i have in my whole body #good for him honestly #anyway edwin payne i see you #i respect you #and i hope i'm never down this bad <3 #payneland #don't mind me it's the sleep deprivation talking

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gummi-ships · 1 month

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Kingdom Hearts 3 - Rage Form

#kingdom hearts 3 #kh3 #sora #rage form #arendelle #formchange #my gif #rage form is so intriguing #sora still behaves in a wild animalistic fashion similar to his anti form but it's different #anti form felt as if he relinquished all self control and acted strictly on instinct just like a heartless #he used to run around hunched over on all fours and fight tooth and claw with reckless abandon #but here you can at least see SOME semblance of who he is. he's able to wield his keyblade while in this form which is pretty major #he still fights in an absolutely chaotic and primal manner but it feels evolved #the big difference is you call upon rage form at will. he channels his rage and darkness in a desperate last resort to stay alive #which is very significant but he still loses some control like the ability to use of magic; items; shotlocks; etc #it's cool to see darkness used in this way but i really want sora to able to explore themes of darkness within himself in future games #i want these to be more than cool forms with fun gameplay. i want them to have implications that something dark is brewing and needs to be-#brought to the surface and tackled head on because we've never seen anyone capable of cloaking themselves in darkness in such a way #take riku's dark form for example. he's in control and he's very much still himself. it's entirely different #on another note i'm now thinking about how hp is fully restored when activating rage form but you have the choice to give it up again-#when using risk charge. it'll increase attack damage but you're still walking a dangerous line in the pursuit of power

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housecow · 1 month

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im getting so many seemingly normie followers… im torn between faithfully keeping y’all’s secret and being incredibly suspicious some of y’all are using my blog to further ur own self hate

in either case, hmmm!!!!

#i hope it’s not the second reason #and if so. i pity you but also hope you get better #im all about self love and not talking down others #try to do that for yourself!#i know there are some of y’all that see my posts and are disgusted. that is for you #bc you can’t control anyone’s actions but your own. you are the only one that can move towards being OK #anyways i have a very cute pic to post tomorrow #it’s already on feabie but whatevs #talk

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positivelyadhd · 3 months

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sending my love to people with slow processing speeds.

you should be allowed to take your time to do things and I am so sorry if people have ever made you feel like you can't.

you and your contributions are just as worthy as everyone else's, the speed in which you do them should not impact that.

I am so sorry if you ever been made to feel like you weren't good enough because you "couldn't keep up".

you are good enough. you are trying enough. there is nothing wrong with you and it's not your fault.

#saying sps because its a part of a lot of NDs! and imo the one that impacts me the most at least in jobs ect?#might make a post about it if anyones interested? i feel like its not spoken about that much as an ND thing?#but it's basically being slower to do things than others and it impacts everything!! but i feel its misunderstood?#ive found its the thing NT seem to have a hard time understanding? its the ive been pulled up on as a 'performance' issue throughout my life #even though its something that i... cannot control and am not even aware im doing??#anyway big love to people with sps!!#i see you i love you you are worthy <33 #reminder #self acceptance #processing speed #letters to you

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akidachi · 6 months

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Heya Doc

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #medic #medic tf2 #emesis blue #i drew this the better part of a month ago lmao #i want to just be able to draw consistently again at this point #stuck between apologizing for not doing comm work and not turning into a broken record (failing)#ah well have a doc #trying some more painterly stuff every now and then #my art #theres a lot of other colors under the effect layers that you legit cant see anymore bc i have no self control

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the-leyline-directory · 3 months

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Thank you @starrysnowdrop for being a lovely inspiration and content on my feed! :D And thank you for permission to add a bit more to the doodle! \o/ Hali and Aymeric are a wonderful narrative that always draws the heart into the wonderful writing that tugs at the heart! The gposes you do also are always lovingly crafted with beautiful colors and choices! :D

I ramble alot! But I hope this brings a smile to your face as you do mine \o/ [Also as I am more confident in my linework than my colors as im colorblind I include that as well below the cut!]

#ffxiv #mun art #aymeric x wol #aymeric de borel #lalafell art #[Gift work!]#[I could do more I do apologize!! Took all my self control not to yoink it for 10+ hours]#[They're very cute and I hope you don't get sick of me saying so]#[It is the heart that I can see you craft them with most of all! That is the part I adore]#[also it may not be canon outfits but I think they're cute....]#starrysnowdrop

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melooooo17 · 1 month

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@openphrase123 your fanfic(s but i mainly made art of the mira and siffrin one because i cant remember words for the life of me for i do not speak french) IS???? ? SO GOOD. SO GOOD IM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH finally something to look forward to in the week fr

Mild spoilers for it ig!! But nothing too explicitly groundbreaking i dont think it'll kill your mom to look at these without having read the ff first

Don't mind the shit quality i??? I drew all these so fast theyre kinda shit and i have yet to fully acclamate isat to my artstyle so it's mid

Teehee me when i make shitty rushed fanart to show my appreciation that i cannot put into words for my faovorite games and also authors

peep the rant in the tags

#isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat mirabelle #god ive been obsessing over isat lately #its terrible how ive been feeding into it #ffs of it be having me giggling running around because siffrin is healing #not in this particular one though #at least not at the part thats written rn #i do love seeing them suffer in equal parts #siffrin my scrimblo i will microwave you #a mosquito is in my room as im typing this girl gtfo #slight spoilers for this fanfic i suppose #okay so THE FANFIC BROO that part where sif lets mira pick his name?! makes me think that sponsors always pick the names #hence why sif never got a new name and spica feels outdated #also i love LOVE seeing mirabelle get better and better at yk... remembering #needing sif to reintroduce themselves every time is such a creative way to do like a pseudo timeloop #everything was so neat #upset that i cant do them justice in drawinng though i have very little experience drawing black hairstyles #or like being around black people with such hairstyles which is a shame!! i would wanna get a better look at the texture and the variation #BACK TO THE FF i literally read this to my older brother out loud (thank god i managed to pester him to play Isat)#and my throat got so raw from speaking that i had to stop but then itd get to another cool detail and i HAD to tell him #so my throat pain? your fault not mine nuh uh not the lack of self control #case in point thanks a bunch for writing!! i wanna get as good at that as you at some point

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turtleblogatlast · 10 months

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I’ve gone on and on about how Leo wants to be who Splinter finds is the ideal person (which just so happens to be Splinter’s ideal version of himself) but I have yet to really touch upon how Donnie is the one who most directly parallels Splinter himself to an honestly shocking degree, Raph’s taking from Splinter’s teachings and parenting has resulted in an unhealthy mixup in the different dynamics of a family versus a team, and Mikey is the one who is simultaneously the most focused on family and the most intrinsically himself which both leads to his better grasp of mystics and honestly what just might be the healthiest dynamic with Splinter.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #it’s late so I’m just speaking from the top of my head haha #anyway yeah #the Donnie Splinter parallels are crazyyy tho #I always see ppl say Leo is just like splinter but no Leo WANTS to be like splinter but he’s more a Karai #meanwhile Donnie exhibits many of Splinter’s traits and behaviors #basically Leo has taken on many perceived Lou Jitsu attributes #including his stance his most flaunted skills and his overall demeanor #while honestly being more of a quiet and determined soul at his core that is most like Karai - with the same hope and love for family #we see the more Karai aspects of Leo throughout the series but most blatantly with Future Leo’s portrayal and how Casey Jr talks about him #Donnie though - rather than Lou Jitsu he has many Hamato Yoshi attributes #it’s funny too because Donnie ALSO parallels Draxum in many ways #(you know who else does albeit to a much lighter extent? Mikey)#make no mistake I super wanna get into Raph having a hard time separating team and family and just sorta jumbling them together #but that mindset can be unhealthy!#SHOULD I GET INTO HOW RAPH ALSO PARALLELS HAMATO SHO IN SOME WAYS AS WELL AS ATSUKO #not to mention his direct parallels to OROKU SAKI HIMSELF #and Mikey - I actuallly have a touched briefly upon how his individuality and sense of self has led to his greater control of mystics #but I do think it’s interesting that he has arguably a more healthy relationship with splinter than the others as well?#idk it’s late #and I may be talking about nonsense BUT #I gotta stop here bc I’m very sleepy but I’ll probably be back in these tags rambling more later lol #would just like to add that splinter loves them all very much he is just a flawed and depressed man with a lot of untapped trauma #which unfortunately ends up affecting his boys to different degrees

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owari-no-suffering · 9 months

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shoutout to lan wangji and luo binghe for being endlessly tormented by their love interests' mixed signals, reaching their breaking point, and then proceeding to never be normal about their (always reciprocated) crushes (turned husbands) ever again.

#like obviously binghe and wangji are not on the same level. but they're certainly not opposites!#just got to wangxian's first kiss and like.#if my silly gay crush showered me in flowers and pointed out how pretty i was and always hung around me.#but then was like ''wow i love talking to boys don't you love talking to boys S?"#i would also be driven so insane as to just start punching trees #lan wangji epitome of control being pushed past his breaking point and hating himself for it . . . you are so dear to me #luo binghe driven absolutely batshit bonkers by his shizun who cares deeply for him and fears (or used to fear) the idea of him . . .#mm yes i'm connecting the dots. mxtx has a flavour she likes. i see i see #TBD on whether hualian fits into this nonsense at all but from what i've heard: not really #mdzs #rzfzx #svsss #scum villian self saving system #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #wangxian #bingqiu

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v-poreons · 1 month

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Someone more creative than me make a trolls phantom of the opera au

#rainy rambles #edit if ur seeing this without the addition i drew PotO broppy in the reblogs #i feel like branch COULD fit the phantom at the most surface level BUT. creek fits him better when u think about #how malevolent and controlling he is. how self absorbed and manipulative #branch is a little too jaded to be raoul but tbh easy to ignore when u think of him and poppy singing all i ask of you together #trolls #i dont even hold a particular fondness for the musical (it fucks but its not my fav) but the somg came on in my shuffle and well. brainrot

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jaylaxies · 10 months

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oh he’s so fucking crazy