#YW: Why are you so obsessed with me?

[prosperousduckscommuteviawaffle]

Ghaul: Fitting the traveler would send you…

Eramis: There you are. I knew it would be you.

Calus: Oh, is that you, my tenacious little Guardian?

YW:

[luvrrgirl444]

chapter 5: exchange

a week later !

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ymir you’re so fucking annoying

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naomiijadee you’re soo talented boo ❤️

⤷ user50 give up omgg he never responds to you

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- song is exchange by bryson tiller! his music is sooo fucking good

- connie’s so sassy

- also y/n & connie’s first interaction

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[anxiously-sidequesting]

I personally love and obsess over disillusioned and self-isolating protagonists which is one of the reasons why I advocate for a Young Wizard who just leans so much into their role as the Savior that they're now just this broken down individual who now genuinely shares everyone's fears and legends of them of being this Ultra Powerful, Non-Human, Above-All-The-Peasants Legend Amongst Men. Being picked apart and analyzed (INCORRECTLY might I add) by strangers and people who fear/hate/revere you, no matter where you go or what you do, over and over and OVER it just literally whittles away at who you used to be, what used to make you happy and now you're replaced with what everyone made you into. Not You, but a Hero.

But you know what's even better 😈😈😈 a wizard who cracks in a different way and is now just baaaareeely holding it together. A wizard who just is not All There anymore. A wizard who's Good Maybe, but someone who genuinely gives you a GOOD REASON to fear a switch in allegiance. Someone who reminds you that your entire life depends on their mood

Give me Harley Quinn YW, give me a YW who cackles and shrieks in joy as they batter the evil to the ground, give me a YW who pushes at the very edge of the EXTREMES even when they don't need to. I want a YW who doesn't carry around a gleaming sword, or a mystical staff, but a bat with nails studded inside or a rusty machete; I want poems and songs of not a Hero but a wolf in sheep's clothing who just barely gets by in masquerading as the Commoners. An unhinged YW is the second to best Bad Ending you could ever get from this situation and I want everyone to think about this actually

[sanrio-grl]

BAD LUCK - 🍀*✮∘˙

critikally thinking (0.3k)

WARNING: angst, slight panic attack, y/n being the most clueless person known to man kind

all hail J 🙏🙏 - masterlist - wtv yw ig

After driving down the busy street, he finally parks the car. Rushing into the broken looking building, he opens the door to a music producers paradise. Sound proof walls, lines after lines of buttons, levers, and other attachments.

looking around at first, he can’t find his friend. then, he catches a glimpse of fluffy black hair peeking out from behind the chair, rolling it out of the way. He finds his companion with his knees curled to his chest, hands in his hair.

“are you okay?” changbin whispers, to not frighten the man.

“I- … I just.. like-“ Stutters rush out of his mouth, as he tries his hardest not to cry. “I just feel- sick. I-I think I might throw up.” Shaky breaths leave through his mouth, a tactic to calm himself down.

His anxiety wraps itself around him, encasing him in his thoughts. He thinks this is so stupid. His relationship with her wasn’t even that terrible, but the falling out scared the hell out of him. Even within his friend group, he was supposed to be seen as one of the stronger ones. Supposed to almost hold them together. Of course, he doesn’t shy away from expressing his feelings, just the ones that may cause burdens to his buddies.

Changbin leaves him to drag the mini trash can next to his legs. He could tell a lot of thoughts were holding Chans head underwater, and he was determined to fish him out. He pries his hands away from his face.

“Please Chris, snap out of it.” watery and puffy, Changbin gets a long dazed stare. “I don’t know what to do.” Chan mutters through sniffles. “Its- I’ve blocked her so many times, changed my number, hell, almost changed houses, but she still manages to get a hold of me. I don’t know why she is so obsessed with me!” His voice starts to rise. “She was the one who cheated on me! She was the one who ended our relationship by doing that!”

changbin patted him on his back, soft circles traced by his palm, trying his best to comfort the ball of stress next to him.

“I can’t handle her coming back, Bin.”

A/N: so.. this kinda took a turn. I cut most of the jibber jabber out of it.. may b I should add it back in 🤒

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[anakinskywalkerog]

omg no way tumblr never bothered to tell me you replied. plus why is nothing showing up in my following feed??? a bone to pick for next time ig

ahaha i missed this too you're so good with advice! ❤ and thank you hehe i have been informed the new pfp it a character calld lust from an anime called fullmetal alchemist, but i just like the aesthetic

it really is and thank youuuuu! im sure it will! *sends ✨good luck✨*

hmm i dont wanna obsess over han at all, because first of all, ELI! that would be unfair. and han is sort of crazy, anyways. i am listening to i can see you from speak now tv but i shouldnt because it reminds me of han. it also reminds me of anakin. very anakincore track. i cant help it though, i can see you is so good, although it gives more of a reputation vibe than speak now tbh. still love it anyways and thank mother taylor for it. are you enjoying speak now tv? what's your favourite track? i think im enjoying mine, mean and back to december, but everything is ofc v nice! wish we had a mine pop mix tv and some more beat to enchanted, but its perfect as it is!

yess "there will be plenty more guys 😂 trust me." that's exactly what i thought, too! like, he's here now, but someday there's going to be someone else EXACTLY like that. although it might not be so bad if i did make a decision influenced by him because he and i have a similar objective - physics/engineering degree at oxford/cambridge so its a win-win no matter which way i go ig. plus we're academic rivals. competition is the norm for us. but about intrigue with han...

"oh? whos your friend? (i asked han to pose for one of my snaps hehe) is this friend good-looking?"

... dude? like, WHAT? that sounds like pretty blatant flirting to me.

but lets not forget that once we were in the corridor and bro leaned in super close (keep in mind this was months ago and this was in the middle of like 15 other people anyways) and i leaned away out of reflex 😂 i think he looked at me later with a very patronizingly disappointed

kinda expression. i think that was a test, and i failed miserably but thats fine 💀

eli really is we even have loads of similar interests!

yw and sameee! it is hehe she even send me memes and is a pedro pascal stan (as she should. pedro pascal is an icon. love him) ! very happy with that

oh no, is everything okay? can i do anything to help? if it helps, my life is only peaceful because i am in isolation from all friends, hehe i need time to regenerate. i am an ambivert at heart. my extrovert meter needs to recharge lmaooo

also, a part of me wonders if cranberry is mad at me? basically, he aksed me to write a steamy story abt him and han (thyre best friends) and didnt want his gf to find out incase she thought he was weird (bro she already does. shes ur gf. she knows what weird she signed up for smh)

anyways i made a small oopsie. i asked some people to critique it for me, and one of those poeple may have been the girl from my diary, whos friends with cranberry's gf, and who previously told machete i liked him when i wanted it to be a scret and explicitly told her so, and the one who i knew cannot be trusted with secrets because she will tell someone and lie about it 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

anyways cranberry was annoyed (and understandably so.) he said his gf was mad at him (impossible - if she was, shed be mad at ME first cos thats how women are. better than revenge is living proof. but she isnt! ) and i get it, but then people stop being mad, right? i mean, ive been really mad at him too, for a variety of reasons. i forgave him though and he didnt even apologize like i did! but he seemed normal at prom perhaps a bit icy? a guy friend told me im overthinkinngit and while he may have been annoyed it doesnt mean hd stop being friends with me or anything, and that he definitely wouldnt stay mad because its not a big deal.

but i texted him cranberry with a pretty obvious joke and he didnt even find it funny??? like thats HIS sort of joke??? how does he ot find that funny??? my friend says he must be mad then, but says theres the chance he just didnt find it funny?

like, i get it, but i want to make amends! and i wont even see cranberry in person so i can never tell. but if he was mad, he wouldve blocked me, or left me on delivered, or just opened. but he even sees my stories n stuff!

plus his friends would be mad if something happened. like guys are super gangy like that. but his friends are not mad at all, like han and this other guy are totally normal and no one sad that. even when han brought it up the day after the whole thing, he didnt imply it was serious and just dropped it after joking around abt it.

my friend did say if i was friends with cranberrys friends, it doesnt mean they have to be mad, but what if cranberry and his gf broke up over something as stupid as a joke???? and it was my fault??? i would feel awful and i cant even tell or say sorry.

nor can i ask han over text cos then hed tell cranberry and itd be weird. and i cant ask eli cos i dont want to set a bad rep.

he texted about it and i delved into a tiny argument he said its fine but "just think more next time". i think he and han both know i didnt mean for this to happen and that it was a genuine accident, but people gte hurt over things even if they know it wasnt meant to hurt them. shoulve said no is proof of this.

but they did send me a video of them reading the story together [cranberry and his friends, it was han who filmed (i did ask them to film their reaction)] and cranberry was cracking up as he read it! if he was mad he wouldve abandoned it. but they sill seemed to love it. surely if cranberry was mad at me, then that wouldnt have happened?

jesus christ, thats LONG. i apologize for troubling you, i didnt think itd get this long! its just been on my mind :( ironically it happened yesterday just after i was so happy. ugh. boys are awful

yes haha thank youuu :) if you're okay with my constant somewhat accidental drama dumps, i definitely will :D

love you and stay safe x

hi sythe so sorry it took me so long to respond to this!

I hope all is well with Eli. but GIRL have I been listening to “I Can See You” sooooo much it’s literally the delulu girl anthem! I love it. having a little crush on Han just adds some spice!! there’s nothing wrong with a little seasoning to an otherwise boring existence 😂

I am okay 🩵 just really been struggling with my OCD lately. I hope it gets better soon.

no fuckinf WAY cranberry asked you to write a steamy story!!? girl that is NOT platonic. what are these men doing out here 😂😂😂😂 but I agree, very unlikely that he is mad at you

I love the drama dumps, I wish we could vent together for real because I have been ALL over the place with my drama lately 😅 but it’s fine, it adds the comedy. i’m watching my own life like a work of absurdism. I would absolutely recommend that strategy.

[finniestoncrane]

Ok I’ve this idea cooking in my mind brain for the the last couple days and I need someone to help make it a reality. Can get a little something with Arkham Eddie and his vigilante s/o who for the last couple of months have been having this strong bit of sexual tension between the two of them and after one of Eddie’s crimes fail and they have him cornered s/o decides “screw it” and finally decides to get Eddie in bed you can make it as grossly nsfw gutter minded as you want I actually encourage it

ok ok i love this??? i think him having sexual tension and a bit of flirty banter with someone is just HNG because honestly, he's a cheeky little shit and that's why i love him so like where he obviously lusts after batman, i gave him someone who is willing to reciprocate his weirdly obsessive affections

so yeah! here's my arkham riddler x gender neutral vigilante reader fic for you

frienemies

i'm sorry this took so long but i hope you enjoy it and i hope i interpreted it right, like i maybe took it slightly differently than you hoped but if i did just come back at me and i can work on it!!! 💚

minors DNI!! 🔞 cw for nsfw stuff like i went whole hog and the second half is just porn yw

"You're no better than that idiot detective d-d-detective. I'll beat every one of you that tries to stop me stop me."

His voice rang through your ear piece, shrill and taunting and so loud.

"They can all come after me, one by one, but none of them will surpass the levels of intellect it takes to beat this genius genius."

The warbled tones, sharp static and echoes were grating, but as long as he was talking it meant he was distracted.

"And I bet you think that because I can't see you, because you've evaded my cameras c-cameras, that you're somehow smart now now? But I can still hear you. I've got microphones, yes microphones, all over the city th-the city."

He didn't, and you knew it. Because you were splashing loudly through the sewers, potentially within arms reach of his workshop. And he was none the wiser. It was exciting, the thrill of finally facing him. Adrenaline pumped through your veins and underneath, a tinge of something more, warming your blood and flushing your cheeks.

"It's a matter of brains over brawns b-b-brawns, and while you're certainly very brawny, you don't have any brains brains."

Two whole months of trailing him, following his obnoxious little clues and riddles, spending hours of your time listening to him bang on about that bat as if he was the only vigilante who existed.

"Not that...I have observed your brawns brawns. Although, I wonder how much of that is just your little costume tume. We'd have to take it off to see what's really underneath underneath-neath."

You were jealous of him, actually. Jealous of anyone who had his attention more than you did. It was pathetic, really. But you'd spend so long thinking about him, studying him. How could you not have fallen for him, even just a little bit.

"I MEANT to see how little you had h-h-had, not that I want to see you out of your costume costume. You're vile v-vile. As if I would be persuaded by anything of that nature, let alone you you-you-you."

It was amazing how he could keep talking when you weren't even responding to him anymore. Could have been fear, you guessed. A habit he developed to drown out any of his deeper thoughts beyond crime, plotting and stupid puns. The way he got caught in his words was endearing though, and you hated to have to put an end to it.

"Surprise." You offered it in a dull tone, arms crossed in front of you and head tilted to the side, smile visible on your face, self-satisfied smirk gleaming in your eyes from behind your eye mask.

"Oh...shoot. You really do have to spoil all the fun, huh?"

"I hate to do it to you, Ed, I really do. Maybe, if you come quietly and don't make a fuss, I can show you the brawn underneath my costume, whaddaya say?"

His face beamed a bright and instant red and he furrowed his eyebrows. Taking his eyes off of you for a brief moment, long arms reaching for his cane that sat off to his side, he allowed you the time you needed to corner him against the slimy, brick walls of the Gotham sewers. With your arm under his neck and the other pinning his hands above him, you stared deep into his eyes.

Chests heaving with exertion, the space between you somehow drawing closer, you considered how handsome he was. How intriguing you found him. How two months of doing nothing but think of him had driven you past the point of rage and desire for vigilante justice, and had circled around to an intense crush.

It was the tension. The teasing, the obsessive notes left for you, the way he mocked you relentlessly, his attitude, his self-absorption. It was a bad thing to admit, but his constant bragging and self-congratulatory speeches had you truly believing that he was the smartest man in Gotham. Deserving of something better than the Batman, who was only stringing him along, mercilessly.

You could hear the longing in his voice, the way he spoke of him. There was a desire to be caught, to be interviewed and given a chance to unleash his inner thoughts to people who had to listen to him. And, as much as he enjoyed being elusive to the point of irritation to the GCPD, you could tell he was desperate to be captured, to be lauded for his crimes on the newspapers, to be the crowning achievement of Arkham's inmate population.

Why else would he leave a trail of neon green breadcrumbs leading right to him? He was lonely. Needy. And something about that notion drove you wild. The pathetic attempts at flirting, which he backtracked on as soon as he'd let them slip, the way you knew he watched you, constantly.

Without much thought, you kissed him, cutting off his ranting about how you should let him go because you must have been cheating blah blah blah. At first he was still, shock, maybe. Most likely defiance, not wanting to submit to feelings for someone who he should for all intents and purposes be hell bent on destroying. But he sank into it, straining his neck against your arm to get closer to you, deeper into the moment, tongue pressing out in hopes of getting more contact.

In a bold move, one that was incredibly risky and highly stupid, you eased off while keeping your lips to his. Removing your arm from his neck first, bringing it down to his side, placed softly on his hip. The other, warily removed from his wrists, allowing him freedom. Freedom to run.

But he remained, and with no restrictions his hands were flung quickly around your back, running up and down your spine desperately, pawing at you, scratching and grasping. They moved deftly to the front where he undid the belt and zip of your outfit, hands desperately clutching your bare flesh at the hips and using his powerful arms to spin you around and against the wall.

In a surprisingly submissive move, he fell to his knees, tugging at the material around your thighs to get better access. As you shrugged your shoulders and arms out, he yanked hard and exposed your body to the frigid and stale air before pressing his mouth to you, on you. He worked feverishly, tasting you, biting ever so gently where he knew it would elicit the most lurid reactions, tongue muscles, strong from the ridiculous amount of talking he did, finally put to good use as he teased your skin.

One hand against the wall to balance you, the other reached to stroke his cheek before travelling up to his hair, gripping it at the top and pulling him closer to you. His tongue, flat against you, lapped at your taste as he moaned and let you control him. But as you adjusted to the pleasure, deep pulsing waves of ecstasy ringing in your ears, he pulled away.

Mercifully, he began to kiss you again, dragging his cheeks, stubble delightfully brushing at your skin, down your neck and to your collarbone where he let his mouth hang agape, breathing in and inhaling you. Strength doubled with the adrenaline of arousal, he gripped onto you and turned you around with ease.

With your face pressed against the sharp texture of the wall, you hissed in pain and pleasure as he sucked on his fingers, lathering them in his spit before rubbing them against your entrance, although you were already embarrassingly ready and willing from his practised efforts of oral.

You could hear him unzip himself, spitting onto his palm and groaning as he stroked his cock and began to tease you with it, gently rubbing it up and down before easing the tip into you. He was an impressive thickness, and the sensation of just his head pushing past the tightness made you push yourself back onto him, both of you letting out a grunt as you took him in, whole.

It was interesting to note the absence of speech. You had imagined, and imagined a lot over the past couple of months, that he would be almost as insufferable during sex as he was in any other situation. A constant running commentary on the events. But he was breathy, deeply focused on the task at hand. The noises he did make were animalistic and carnal, grunting and growling interspersed with softer groans, an occasionally sweet whimper as he tossed his head back.

He whispered, most likely in an attempt to hide what he was saying, and you could hear your pseudonym being uttered softly with a growing passion, drowned out by the echoes of your bodies crashing against one another. It was sending you over the edge, and as you worried about how much longer he was going to last, impressed by his stamina and pacing, you knew you were unable to hold out much longer.

You called out his name, screaming it into the room, oddly intimate to refer to him by his first name but desperate to cry it out. Knees buckling, he held firm onto your hips as he began to tense up, fingernails in your flesh, spit seething from his gritted teeth as he held his tongue, fighting against instinct to praise you, to let you know you'd won him over. He came, hard, seed spilling out as he removed himself with a shaking moan. But his hands remained on your waist, soothing over the little dents where he had gripped tightly in orgasm. He leaned into your ear, kissing it softly before whispering.

"I can't let you win that easily. How about this time, you can go hide and I'll come looking for you. I promise you I'll be able to find you a lot quicker than you found me."

[casukaga]

👋🏻👋🏻 I just wanted to come here and say hi and compliment your top tier CR art and animation especially the Beauyasha ones because the TALENT ma'am.  AMAZING. I can't get enough of them 😍😍😍. Whenever I see them here or on Insta they instantly put a smile on my face. Sidenote: my dumbass realized not so long ago that you were the same CASU who I've been following since my Hadestown obsession lmaoooo. Small world.

Lastly I wanna thank ya for reblogging my CR gifs! I was so confused why my old CR gifsets (that get buried because the tumblr tagging system sucks)  have been getting tons of love lately and it was from u and ur mutuals 😄🙈.

And with that said have a great day! 👋🏻

AY THANK YOU! 💗💓

ok but literally it never really came to me that there’d be any overlap between my old fandoms,, like tbh when i transitioned from hadestown/pjo to crit role on insta, there was barely any overlap between my audience because— y’know. what are the chances majority of you watch a 500+ hour dnd show. so when i run into people here nowadays who are also into hadestown or tangled the series or something i was into a while back, i’m like “OH HEY. THAT’S PRETTY NEAT. OH, YOU REMEMBER ME FROM HADESTOWN FANDOM? THAT’S WILD DUDE HJSBDKD”

oh and yw!! :’)) 💕💕

[chqnified]

Random unorganised life rambles ig-

Isla is so adorable i swear. When it's the three of us fronting (Xera, Isla and I) i feel like so happy. Ofc i love everyone else too, but the atmosphere is so different? With us three, it's relatively calm, and just wholesome.

We got an album we ordered a couple of days ago, as well as some pcs, and it was just kind of funny that we kind of somehow fell into place there and then. Not us being obsessed with the pcs and photo book and stuff. It's difficult to explain, but despite being different, and even the big age gap between some of us, it feels so comfortable and normal you know?

We'll often just watch Chan's room together lol, because Isla loves him and we just feel at home together watching his lives. It's like us three are a little family, siblings that surprisingly never argue, like an ideal sibling universe haha. We're not siblings but it feels like it (a realistic siblings relationship example is Charlie and I- always arguing and dissing one another lol).

We've not done the best lately, but we're doing ok. It helps that although for example college results aren't going the best (well for maths solely at the moment), there isn't the dooming pressure and yelling. It's refreshing. It isn't ideal still, but it could be far far far worse.

Avi, oml. Basically, he's not really super into kpop, he gets it mildly, he listens to it occasionally (for me apparently), but he kind of looked at the amount we spent on albums and stuff lmao. He was like, why??? Also when i told him we were getting a signed jo yuri album, he was like, ok? It was clear i needed to explain why Jo Yuri is superior. Anyways.

Something about Xera, I've come to learn, he at first presented himself as being rather like Avi, hard, moody and scary. Turns out, he's probably the most babiest out of all of us non little parts. He is so sweet, and like not at all as he first presented. I think it must've just been a defensive barrier. I like that he's been showing up a lit recently ngl.

We've found that we do have older more proper adult parts, well to say we are aware of some. They are just extremely in the background if that makes sense. None of us have gotten the chance to speak to them at all, nor do we know any names. I only kind of stumbled across a very very vague kind of memory / thought/ recollection of one, i seem to think they're approaching their 30s. I don't know anymore than that. Probably never will. If they're staying away from us or being that discreet, there's probably a reason. It's good to i guess know that they're there, somewhere.

I'm so excited to get all the albums we ordered, i know Charlie got oddinary and the skz seasons greetings with a ton of pcs. I got the iz*one one reeler, which we got in the post today. The pcs are beyond beautiful, I can't wait to put them in a folder when we get the sleeves. I also got the freaking signed (real!!!) Jo Yuri Glassy album, which I'm so excited for, i can't wait to see what pcs we get too omg. That album will be like my most prized possession i swear. The one-reeler (colour of youth vers) is gorgeous beyond belief, the photo book is simply*chef kiss*, Xera was obsessed too. And the preorder benefits, got the full set, we were so lucky to get them though!

Also, sorry Charles (also not sorry) Xera and i did change our tumblr banner and pfp and bio, yw! Appreciate Jo Yuri and Chaewon.

I may post another random rambles again soon, but right now i want to go watch some iz*one content so-

[mysticscanlations]

Since it's valentine's day - happy valentine's day to you and everyone- who are some of your favorite couples? They could be from mangas/manhwas/kdramas.

happy valentine’s day lovely 💖

and OOOH INTERESTING QUESTION… 

Manga: Shirayuki x Zen (Snow White With The Red Hair), Hak x Yona (Akatsuki no Yona - okay listen i know they’re not official yet but it’s GONNA HAPPEN…), Hori x Miyamura (Horimiya), Hiyori x Yato (Noragami), Ayuzawa x Usui (Kaichou-wa Maid Sama… classic…)

Manhwa: fml i haven’t read a lot but YW x HB will always remain in my heart…. but i love HB x jumi too so T___T, Sia x Jiho (UnTOUCHable - I LOVE THEM), Jugyeong x Suho from True Beauty are also really cute T__T

KDrama: Eun Tak x Kim Shin from Goblin have my heart…. and i don’t know why but Ji Sook x Min Woo from Mask really got me LOL that drama was something i got so obsessed with while airing… also love Yeon Joo x Kang Chul from W: Two Worlds and Hong Joo x Jae Chan from While You Were Sleeping!!

[impartofthesolution]

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8:12P, Wed     BigJohnny       hey, whats up? My name is John 8:15P, Wed     AmberHeart    nice to meet you. Amber. 8:15P, Wed     AmberHeart    just finished washing dishes. Now, I’ll prolly watch TV.  You? 8:16P, Wed     BigJohnny       what are you watching? 8:16P, Wed     BigJohnny       I just took my dog for a walk. He needs a shower, and I’m procrastinating that. Haha 7:21A, Thurs   AmberHeart    sorry, John! I forgot to respond. I watched last week’s episode of Amazing Race that I recorded. I’d love to travel more, but that requires money. Instead, I’ll just watch and dream about seeing the world. What’s ur dog’s name? Have you done any traveling? 7:22A, Thurs   BigJohnny       some, I guess. I’ve lived different places.  I just moved here. Ur my first match. 7:22A, Thurs   BigJohnny       his name is Dexter. 7:32A, Thurs   BigJohnny       so, would u like to get dinner? 11:58A, Thurs AmberHeart    I haven’t been on the app long either, so ur mine, too. Dexter is a fun name. Like Dexter’s Laboratory? Or the guy obsessed with blood? haha. I think it’s a little soon, don’t you? I hardly know you. Let’s start simple. What do you do and what’s ur fav thing to do when you have freetime? 3:56P, Sat        Amber             It only took a few days, and I got a match! 4:17P, Sat        Hanna              OMG yayyyyy. 4:17P, Sat        Hanna              What’s he like? 4:20P, Sat        Amber             He seems responsible, traveled, intelligent.  He has a dog named Dexter.  He likes going out for an afternoon fishing trip with his dog.  Um, he likes puzzles and isn’t a fan of card games. [You sent a picture] 4:21P, Sat        Hanna              Oh, he’s cuuute! Does he look that good in person? 4:23P, Sat        Amber             Idk. We only just started talking a few evenings ago. 4:23P, Sat        Hanna              Has he asked u out yet? 4:25P, Sat        Amber             He asked me to dinner like the 1st morning after we matched.  Is that weird? 4:26P, Sat        Hanna              Maybe you were real charming that first nite.  What did u say? 4:27P, Sat        Amber             I asked him more about himself. 4:29P, Sat        Hanna              Girl! Don’t play too hard to get!! You don’t want to lose someone this good looking. Just pick somewhere safe. 1:22A, Sun      BigJohnny       hey, Amber. U up? 1:22A, Sun      AmberHeart    surprisingly, I am. 1:22A, Sun      AmberHeart    why r u up? 1:23A, Sun      BigJohnny       Dexter needed to go out. I thought to message you and see if you were ready for dinner yet. 1:25A, Sun      AmberHeart    Sure! How do you feel about buffets? 1:26A, Sun      BigJohnny       buffet? -_^ 1:26A, Sun      BigJohnny       haha 1:26A, Sun      BigJohnny       not a normal first date spot, but I’m down. U have somewhere in mind? 1:27A, Sun      AmberHeart    I know, but I’ve been in the mood for some cheap crab legs and sushi of questionable quality. There’s a good place in the city.  R u free 2morrow (Monday)? 1:30A, Sun      BigJohnny       wut time do u want me to pick u up? 1:31A, Sun      AmberHeart    I’ll meet you there at 7. I’m going to be in the city in the afternoon anyway.  It’s getting late, so I’m going to bed.  Goodnight. 1:31A, Sun      BigJohnny       sounds good to me. Sweet dreams. 7:05P, Mon     Hanna              Does he look like his pictures? 7:07P, Mon     Hanna              Is he cute? 7:17P, Mon     Hanna              Are you having a good time? 7:18P, Mon     Hanna              You have to tell me all about it. 7:29P, Mon     Amber             Gosh, a little excited aren’t we? 7:29P, Mon     Amber             I go to the restroom and find that someone has been blowing up my phone. 7:30P, Mon     Hanna              Sorry… not sorry. Of course I’m excited.  What’s he like? 7:31P, Mon     Amber             He is cute. He looks just like his photo, which was honestly a relief. He’s kind of intense, though. I’m not sure what it is about him. 7:32P, Mon     Amber             He’s got some stories that make him sound exotic. Maybe he just doesn’t want to waste time dating around and he takes this serious. 7:32P, Mon     Amber             Anyway, time to go back. I promise I’ll call you later. 7:33P, Mon     Hanna              You better!! 4:44P, Tues     BigJohnny       thx for last nite. It was fun! 4:44P, Tues     BigJohnny       it was great to finally meat you 4:45P, Tues     BigJohnny       meet* 4:50P, Tues     AmberHeart    it was gr8 2 meet u too. 4:50P, Tues     AmberHeart    I’m honestly relieved.  U look just like ur picture. 4:53P, Tues     BigJohnny       nd ur as pretty irl as in ur pic, too. I think that fear is universal. 4:54P, Tues     AmberHeart    yeah 4:55P, Tues     AmberHeart    I was kinda surprised you didn’t go for the sushi last night. 4:57P, Tues     BigJohnny       ehh… a bit too /questionable/ to my tastes. were u okay all night?? 5:01P, Tues     AmberHeart    ofc. no matter how questionable, I’ve never gotten sick there. it’d make for a terrible first date otherwise. 5:11P, Tues     BigJohnny       speaking of dates. Can I interest you in another? 5:11P, Tues     AmberHeart    definitely!! 5:12P, Tues     BigJohnny       want to come over tomorrow? I can make dinner and we can do one of those puzzles or watch Netflix or something. 5:16P, Tues     AmberHeart    I definitely want to try ur cooking sometime.  But I think that’s still too early 5:17P, Tues     AmberHeart    I happen to have off Thursday. I know you said ur work was flexible. Want to have a picnic. 5:18P, Tues     AmberHeart    U can show off your cooking skills with sandwiches or a fancy charcuterie board. 5:18P, Tues     AmberHeart    Thank God for spellcheck. I can never remember how to spell tht word. 8:02P, Tues     BigJohnny       it’s a date! 8:10P, Tues     Amber             Guess what 8:11P, Tues     Hanna              You stepped on a crack and ur mothers in the hospital? 8:12P, Tues     Hanna              You cut ur finger again in the kitchen and the doctors say they’ll have to amputate? 8:12P, Tues     Hanna              You finally found that bra you thought you lost weeks ago under the washing machine? 8:13P, Tues     Amber             Stoppp it 8:13P, Tues     Amber             oooh, that’s a good idea. I haven’t checked there yet. 8:14P, Tues     Amber             no to all of them. I’ve got a second date! 8:14P, Tues     Hanna              then tell meeeeee 8:14P, Tues     Hanna              Niceeee! That’s exciting 8:15P, Tues     Amber             btw, you were right about the bra. ty 8:16P, Tues     Hanna              lol, nice. yw. 8:17P, Tues     Hanna              so when is it? 8:20P, Tues     Amber             ugh, who knocks on somebody’s door this late in the evening? 8:22P, Tues     Hanna              who was it? 8:28P, Tues     Hanna              is it a booty call from John??? 8:29P, Tues     Amber             no… it’s John, tho, what do I do? 8:29P, Tues     Hanna              wut do u mean? Go with it. Have fun! 8:29P, Tues     Amber             I never gave him my addresss… 8:30P, Tues     Hanna              Call 911 if you don’t feel safe! I’m sure everything is good and you forgot you told him or he was able to look it up. Txt me l8r! 8:52P, Tues     Dispatcher       9-1-1, what’s your emergency? Hello?  9-1-1, what’s your emergency?  What’s your emergency? 8:52P, Tues     Amber             [muffled cries] [sharp gasp] 8:52P, Tues     Dispatcher       Hello, are you alright? Do you need an ambulance? 8:53P, Tues     Amber             [yelp] Why are you scared?  We’re just having fun? [thud] [clatter] [smack] [growl] [strangled plea] 8:53P, Tues     Dispatcher       Help is on the way.  Try to keep the phone on. 8:53P, Tues     Amber             [whimpers] Stop! [thump] [grunt] [thud]  No, please no.  Why do you always have to put up a fight?  [fabric tears]  Is that a knife?  Are you going to kill me?  Call it… motivation.  Or a promise. Ouch. [heavy thud] 10:56P, Tues   Hanna              how was your night? Get any? 11:00P, Tues   Hanna              everything good? 12:01A, Wed  Hanna              Amber, are you alright? 9:37A, Wed    Amber             I’m fine, now. 9:38A, Wed    Amber             he attacked me. He had a knife. I thought I was going to die. He cut me, but I managed to kick him off until the cops came. Back to Table of Contents (x)

[dduane]

Has anyone ever told you that the little details about your young wizards 'verse are tantalizing and lovely? Because they are. I for one love seeing the little glimpses into the world you've created.

You’re very kind to say that! Thank you.

I guess, too, that worldbuilding for me isn’t all broad strokes and big design. It’s also about the small things, the details that characters notice and the way they use (or maybe a better word is “exploit”) what you give them. For example, I once got a very nice note from somebody at NASA about the fact that in SPOCK’S WORLD, our eponymous Vulcan is using transporter technology in a very off-label manner to keep his Captain’s ground coffee fresh over long periods. :) That’s the kind of thing that makes a world real for me. A world should be complex enough to be exploited in ways the author didn’t expect. (Or would have expected if they’d taken more time to think about it.)

There are a lot of details in the YW universe that nobody but me will ever see: which is as it should be. It’s only the insecure creator who gets obsessive about Showing All Their Work.

…And we now cue the Mel(l)on Story. It may be apocryphal, who knows? But I don’t care. It goes like this:

Cathedrals are never finished. Bits are always falling off and having to be put back on again; and the interiors can take years and years to complete, even if they were “finished” centuries ago.* Now, as it happens, the National Cathedral in Washington for a long time still matched this description. It was years being worked on. The inside was a mess of scaffolding for a good while, and sculptors in particular were busy there for ages.

There was (and still is, as far as I know) a big banking family in the US by the name of Mellon. (They had banks in the Philly area when I was living there.) They were a big contributor to the work on the Cathedral, and as a result the carvings in the place are full of punning references to them: melons and melon vines and gourds and pumpkins and whatnot all over the place.

So there’s a stonemason (this one, I’m betting) way up high in the scaffolding working on the back of some kind of pumpkin or whatever. And he’s taking forever over it. And somebody passing through watches him at this for a while, and then yells up at him, “Why are you wasting so much time on that? You’re forty feet up, you’re halfway behind a pillar, there’s no light, nobody’s ever going to see that!”

And the stonemason pauses and peers down at whoever’s yelling at him, and yells back, “God will see!” And then goes back to what he’s doing.

Leaving aside the religious resonances (obviously assisted by being in a cathedral at the time), that guy (I think) had exactly the right idea. The way to do the Work – regardless of one’s religious inclinations or lack of them – is to proceed as if God would see. If you’re going to be a subcreator (in the Tolkienian sense), then be a good, thoughtful, thorough one, and don’t leave something half-finished or half-thought-through because you don’t think anyone will ever see it. You will see it (or its lack). And its presence, or absence, will invariably affect other things in the interior structure you’re building, whether you notice that happening or not.

You don’t have to show the work. But you have to do it as if people might come and look at it at any minute. Because who knows, someday (should you have good reason to show it) they might. But also: you do that because that is your responsibility as a Creator. Creation wants to be treated respectfully. If you don’t do so, it will find ways to get back at you. But the important thing is to treat small detail as if it’s as vital as large structure… because it is… and also, because it’s the right thing to do. 

Meanwhile: glad you’re enjoying the way things are going. It means a lot. :)

*Check out, BTW, the online home of the gorgeous workshop of the Cathedral of Our Lady in Freiburg im Breisgau in Germany. Here they build new bits of the Fraumuenster to replace the old ones that fall off or get damaged. And you can buy some of the old bits to take home, sometimes, if you want a piece of one of the most exquisite Gothic cathedrals in Europe. The funds go toward continuing repairs and maintenance of the Muenster.

[juushika]

Homestuck liveblog part 2: early Terezi, Dave/Dave OTP, narrative techniques; interspersed by quoting everything Karkat says

me: did i say i was vriska i mean i am she is really obsessed with blackrom and same uh vriska a troll in homestuck blackrom = antagonistic intimate relationships

Missy: yes you are

me: but really i am terezi

Missy: i has no idea who this is i am a potato

me: http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003479

EB: oh man, whatever, what do you even want. GC: 1M MOT1V4T3D BY S3LF 1NT3R3ST […] GC: MY FR13NDS 4LL TH1NK TH4T YOU C4NT R34LLY CH4NG3 4NYTH1NG GC: TH4T YOUR T1M3L1NE W3'R3 CH4T-HOPP1NG 4ROUND 1S S3T 1N STON3 GC: NO M4TT3R WH4T W3 S4Y OR WH3N W3 S4Y 1T GC: 4ND TH3YR3 PROB4BLY R1GHT GC: BUT 1 DONT C4R3 GC: 1 W4NT TO M3SS W1TH 1T 4ND T4ST3 WH4T H4PPENS GC: >:D

terezi is like hannibal-esque curiosity i wanna see what happens if I: help! make a murder! i’m flexible really!! she’s just the right balance of creative & engaged vs distanced & curious

Missy: …. you scare me

me: THIS is what scares you about me

me: oh fffff i forgot about tavros’s …quadrant…ing (I can’t find the first reference of this in the 2mins I am willing to spend looking, srry) this reread is like 50% super familiar and 50% i FORGOTTED ABOUT THE FEELS the cast is so big and confusing and the troll’s interpersonal quadrants is complex but also ESSENTIAL like the true “let me tell you about homestuck” is “let me explain quadrants and tell you why SAME BRO SAME” tavros is such a small pure child

me: i am so glad that rose/kanaya is literal canon b/c they are my faves john & karkat’s relationship is so good i just love the narrative longcuts/shortcuts/loop de loops that homestuck achieves?

(http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003535

EB: well you see, the explanation is perfectly simple and scientific. EB: it was because shut up. EB: shut up is why. 

we are all john)

it’s just such a BRAVE narrative in some ways–not really the use of second person, which is 50% gimmick and 50% narrative technique, when it’s done well that’s neato but mostly it’s stylistic but the use of time-travel to just leap the narrative ahead of itself, to insert foreshadowing/stakes from fucking NOWHERE and the fact that Hussie kept it all in his head and it makes a cogent whole: really smart, really effective progression/pacing

me: DAVESPRITE I COMPLETELY FUCKING FORGOT jesus like hussie has absolutely said dave has his typing quirks/voice/is basically him and so the hard-on that hussie has for dave and the FACT THAT DAVE’s entire narrative is time-travel/interactions with self is a thing worth commenting on (dave/dave otp)

me: am reading the homestuck year one review if you ever wanted to know what i meant about self-referential/time travel as plot progression STUFF then it’s a really good…. indication http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003574 …..which i think is comprehensible without context. maybe not that you should actually read it, i just seeing it in paragraphs is An Experience

Missy: why... does he have an icky big enter keyboard with such sad keycaps?

me: this was posted in 2010 so maybe he hadn’t learned to be cool yet

[and what followed was a 15min derail about vintage PC keyboards I swear2god]

me: HI SOLLUX LONG TIME NO SEE we’re meeting the rest of the trolls now!!! sollux is also when the typing quirks start getting ridiculous so there will be less copy/paste because you will be like "why am i trying to read this, why are you pestering me” (ahahaha this was a lie) http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003615

TA: iif you cant fiigure 2hiit out by fuckiing around you dont belong near computer2. 

me: this is it this is when dave comes together for me there’s a major time back-skip he does half an act ago which is the sort of establishing moment of “dave, knight of time, breaking narrative convention/building narrative shortcut/also functioning as foreshadowing and user guide” and then his sprite prototypes off him, which is a sort of “a dave, in conversations with himself” http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003763 but its the first sighting of a dave corpse that sort of clarifies what the looping is for him, and how he … does … time/identity/mortality

(an aside: …..i didn’t catch before that the second (….second by series chronology not internal…. chronology b/c internal chronology is complicated) generation was actually created first????? a discovery oh wait nvm its the guardians (ty for clarifying that thing about which i have no context; yw!) ooooh my confusion is jake (second gen) is cloned from grandpa (zero gen) which is why they look the fuck identical)

http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003835

GC: D4V3 WH4TS 1T SM3LL L1K3 TG: what GC: YOUR BLOOD TG: fuck off GC: D4V3 GC: G1V3 1T 4 L1TTL3 T4ST3 FOR M3 GC: T3LL M3 WH4T HUM4N BLOOD T4ST3S L1K3 GC: 1V3 B33N SO CUR1OUS >:]

it’s me i’m terezi

TG: how do you use a computer and know whats going on it doesnt make sense TG: my face doesnt make sense GC: D4V3 YOUR *F4C3* DO3SNT M4K3 …… GC: D4MM1T GC: 1 KNOW 3V3RYTH1NG TH4TS GO1NG TO H4PP3N TO YOU GC: 1 C4N T3LL YOU B3FOR3 1T H4PP3NS GC: SO YOU C4N B3 R34DY GC: 4ND NOT H4V3 TO GO B4CK 1N T1M3 4ND G3T K1LL3D 4LL TH3 T1M3 GC: 4ND ST4ND ON 4 TO1L3T LOOK1NG 4T YOUR OWN BLOOD FOR T3N M1NUT3S 

what i love about terezi is like the mix of practicality, curiosity, get shit done but with the true motivation of “what if” and the surprising interpersonal insight which arises from that same curiosity like from the narrative pov, we saw dave find his body and dump his body, then cut away, and then he just had bloody hands but it’s terezi who noticed, and tells us via this conversation, that dave was having A Think about those bloody hands b/c they’re an accidental contemplation of time and morality dave would never bring that up b/c of the facade of cool, narrative can’t easily show us and it’s not action-based really, but terezi introduces it b/c terezi cares b/c terezi cares about people in the “what do they do??? when exposed to this stimuli??” sense not in the, caring about, their welfare, thing not that part

Missy: i read your whole homestuck thing i understood maybe 20% of it without context i think this is decent

me: considering i understood about 80% of it yeah i’d say so that’s why the year 1 wrap up was so nice i am not a good visual learner so some of the flash anims go over my head and the plot is a clusterfuck so it’s easy to feel wtf even when you’re the active reader

me: http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003927

CG: WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT, THIS ACT THAT YOU ACTUALLY THINK YOU’RE A HOTSHOT, YOU KNOW YOU HATE YOURSELF. TA: nobody hate2 hiim2elf more than you iidiiot.

Babiesssss

me: http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=003961

GC: : K4RK4T, PL34S3 GC: DONT PR3T3ND YOU D1DNT 3NJOY GO1NG 4ROUND K1LL1NG TH1NGS GC: 4ND TH4T YOU WOULDNT 3NJOY K1LL1NG 4 WHOL3 LOT MOR3 GC: PR4NC1NG 4ROUND W1TH YOUR L1TTL3 S1CKL3 B31NG 4LL 4DOR4BL3 CG: YEAH RIGHT. CG: MORE LIKE… CG: ADORABLOODTHIRSTY. CG: I’M PRANCING AROUND BEING THAT, OK?

200% sure I c/ped that last time I read this But I regret nothing

[lizzieraindrops]

Musics numbers 2, 3, 9, 12, 20, 21, 28, 29

Hello cousin sestra

2:A song you like with a number in the title

Twelve White Horses by Maria Doyle Kennedy viva los pollos revolucionarios

3:A song that reminds you of summertime

… really, Alex?? Lolol okay it is way too predictable to say Summertime by Lowell, so I’m gonna say The Sun Is Burning by Simon & Garfunkel because it was 111°F/44°C yesterday and I almost died. Fun fact, years ago I came up with this entire group dance routine thing in my head for like if this song were made into a music video with about a dozen dancers on a stage and I have absolutely no idea why.

9:A song that makes you happy

Copernicus by Basia. Y’all making me dig back into my Basia obsession lmao. Also, this song is rather YW.

12:A song from your preteen years

aflgkalfdkkfsdlf I don’t remember if this was exactly preteen but I can’t decide between Fly and I Am by Hilary Duff so have both.

20:A song that has many meanings to you

Hands In The Garden by Half Moon Run! You introduced this one to me :P also I never actually watched the video until just now and that was a Lot

21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title

Did this one here!

28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love

Look,,,,,……….. Banks, okay, my girl Jillian Banks, I love her, have some songs: Drowning (an all time fave), Goddess (title song of first album), Gemini Feed (hECK ME UP), Mother Earth (so soft), Brain (a JAM), Change (angsty as Hell but contains one of my fave wordless vocal solos of all time), and Crowded Places, the exquisite single I only discovered this week which is utterly soothing and kicked my anxiety’s Ass for me when I was having a bad time. Have I mentioned that I’m gonna get to see her in concert this year and I have absOLUTELY NO CHILL ABOUT IT

29:A song that you remember from your childhood

Believe by Cher, which I somehow used to get mixed up with Time and Tide by Basia.

Thanks nonbean :)

Send me number asks for music!

[awkwardlyjupiter-blog]

In Regards To Change... (part 1)

Time has been passing by really quickly

I know the title may make it sound like this is going to be in a romantic sense, but it really isn’t (because I’m literally as dry as the Atacama Desert). This is more about the people in our lives that just come and go. I’ve been thinking a tad and I just had to get this off of my chest because it’s actually kind of sad.

One of the things I’ve discovered recently is that I’m afraid of change. Like really afraid. I like how my life is currently and I kind of don’t want it to change. It’s to the point that even course selection is difficult because I don’t want to mess up my current schedule. But that’s not really what matters. What I want to talk about is the people.

We meet tons and tons of people in our lifetime. Some stay and some go. There are a lot of people I am so glad to have lost contact with, but I can think about at least three people whom I regret letting go. And it’s not like we don’t talk anymore, it’s just that we aren’t as close as we used to be. That sparks another thought in my head... what about the people I’m going to lose?

This thought has really upset me... I’m not the most... eh... sociable person. I’m quite awkward and I can’t really keep a conversation. This is why that’s a problem. I can’t make myself keep a relationship. It’s as if I’m Rose and I can get Jack another piece of floating debris to keep him alive, but it’s too awkward to disrupt the moment to get the other piece of debris. So I let him die. 

The reason I’m making this post is because I have a few specific people in my mind that I’m already afraid of losing. I guess this means I’m easily attached to people... I’m afraid of losing some of my professors.

I’m reading over that statement and it sounds really weird to me, but I can’t really word it any other way. It’s only my second semester in college and several of my professors have already really really  impacted my life in such a positive and great way. I will have most of these professors for a while, but it still stresses me out. I guess I can talk about the specific ones individually... 

Dr. JP: This is my psychology professor. I kid you not, I love this class. This class is fantastic purely because of this professor. Sitting in this class has made me want to switch my major. I’ve always loved psychology, but this professor has made me love it even more. 

Dr. AK: This is my accompanist and she actually slays my life. She is a queen. She’s honestly the sweetest person I’ve ever met in my life. The amount of belief she has in me is literally insane. I honestly love working with her and she says that she enjoys working with me. She is so encouraging and honestly saves me every time I’m in a rut. 

Dr. DK: This is my music theory professor who is obsessed with movies. He has music and movie references for days. He is so enthusiastic about music and you can tell.

Dr. YW: This is my piano teacher and I honestly thought I was terrible at piano until I met her. She wants me to record my piano playing professionally. What?

Almost-Dr. DK: This is my voice teacher. I put him last because he, honestly, has had the most influence in me in these past few months. He is the shadiest person I’ve met and he likes to call me out because I’m his student, but he believes in me none-the-less. I’ve made so many mistakes and he pushes me to do everything I would have never done on my own.

I would go more in depth with these professors, but I have individual posts for them.

Anyway, yeah, this was just a really mushy post and I really would like to thank these people whenever I get the chance. My friend’s dad passed away recently and it just hit me that I should be thankful for what I have while I have it. You know... that stuff.

[mysticscanlations]

That Summer Chapter 102 Translation!

Y’ALL I’M--

Read the raws here: That Summer

Title: February, Hello It's Me

Black SFX: Drop

White SFX: Roll...

SFX: Tap tap

YW (I think?): It looked like you were only looking at math textbooks.

-Do you like math?

ST: Who knows

HK: Not that I like it, but..

-It's my weakest subject.

CR: Hong Kyu~ Hong Kyu~

-Huh?

YW: Who is this, someone you know?

HK: No, not at all...

-... Then, I'll be off.

CR: I'm Go Chang Rok.

-You can say I'm a hyung that this guy trusts and relies on.

HK: We've only known each other for 2 weeks, what do you mean trust and rely on!!

CR: Since we're already in the same position, let's get along as hyung and little brother.

YW: I'm Choi Yoo Won.

YW: It's nice to meet you, hyung.

SFX: Chatter

Girl: Excuse me..

CR: Huh?

Other Girl: You've been coming here since January, right? You're always alone...

-Let's eat dinner together.

HK: Then we'll be leaving.

CR: Kya—

HK: Let's go.

CR: I can really feel the sense of deprivation.

-Lucky bastard, he can probably go out with a dozen girls on this floor.

HK: Since he also came out of Tae Poong High, that's very possible.

HK: He's from a different world than us.

YW: Sorry!

-Can I go eat with you guys?

YW: I really want to only focus on my studies while I'm repeating.

HK: Okay!

-I heard there's a new noodles with grilled with restaurant that opened near here, how about that?

ST: Hong Kyu, you... Guess you're an easy guy.

YW: I'm full.

-That was really good.

HK: Right, right?

SFX: Yawn—

Bottom ST: My flower of youth~

YW: You guys head in first.

HK: Okay, come back in after you digest.

YW: Yup, yup!

YW: Hello,

-it's me.

HB: … Hyung?

-Is that you, Yoo Won hyung?

(T/N: ahhhHHHHHHHHHHHH)

YW: Sorry for not contacting you and going under the radar.

YW: At the least, I thought I should give my regards.

Box: I called him with the thought of breaking up,

-I should have at least talked about separating, but the fact that I couldn't bring it up weighed on my mind.

YW: I'm going to a repeat academy right now.

YW: Actually.. The morning of the CSAT, my mom collapsed.

-In the end, I couldn't bring myself to take the exam.

YW: Even now, I don't know.. if that was the right decision.

-You must've been really surprised when I suddenly disappeared.

YW: Please understand, I wanted to just focus on my studies.

YW: You're probably really angry at me, right.

YW: It's okay if you are.

-It's all my fault.

YW: As much as you think, I'm... not a good person.

YW: That's why—

-That's why we should—

HB: Hyung.

HB: Just tell me what your business is.

HB: I'm on a roaming plan right now.

HB: My phone fee gets taken out of my dad's bankbook.

-If the fee's really high, he might get suspicious.

ST on bottom: *Roaming is Collect Call (basically getting charged extra for making calls out of your country)

YW: International call?

-Where are you right now.

HB: Boston.

(T/N: fml it's not California)

HB: You know,

-it turns out my father knew about our relationship.

HB: After the CSAT last year, he chased me out like I was being banished.

-So I couldn't properly say goodbye to you before leaving.

HB: It said that the number no longer existed, so I couldn't reach you at all.

YW: Please keep this a secret from Hee Bum.

YW: Don't tell him about this.

YW: That I came to you.

YW: This isn't a threat, but a request.

Box: I said that, but—

HB: I think the suspect's Yoo Eldo.

-She was obsessed with you.

YW: Eldo?

HB: Didn't I tell you she called me a crazy bastard?

-I knew she was going to cause trouble sooner or later.

HB: What do you think?

YW: Who knows...

Box: It looks like

-he didn't tell Hee Bum that I was the one who told.

YW: I'm dating Hee Bum.

YW: If you want us to break up,

YW: I can do that.

YW: But in exchange, I need money.

HB: You know—

-I got hit with a golf club.

HB: I said that I loved you.

HB: I said that you were the person that I liked more than anyone.

HB: You should've seen my father's expression.

HB: I miss you, hyung.

HB: I don't want to be here. I want to go to Korea.

-I'm sorry, hyung.

HB: I'm by your side,

HB: but I'm sorry that

-I couldn't be next to you when things were the hardest.

SFX: Sniff

HB: Ah—

YW: .. What,

-are you crying?

HB: That's because—

HB: you're crying, hyung.

1st rated comment: My heart hurts so much ㅠㅠㅠㅠ Seriously ㅜ Please let both of them live happily.... Or at least don't let them feel awkward and have them each meet a good person ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ Please let them both continue to contact each other and live happily ㅠㅠㅠ

2nd rated comment: But still, Jumi.. I miss Jumi....

3rd rated comment: Imagine how furious Hee Bum's dad must have been when he was beating Hee Bum. Knowing that the boy his son says he loves so much used that love to make a threat..

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That Summer Chapter 90 Translation!

TIME FOR HB’S BRIEF BACKSTORY GUYS... IT’S DEPRESSING AF

top 3 rated comments from the Comico site are posted at the bottom of the translations ^^

Title: Welcome, First Time To My House? (T/N: lol I bet author-nim's a lowkey ARMY)

Small text: Ah

YW: Stairs, stairs!

-It's on the 2nd floor.

YW: At home? There's no one.

-Mom's still working outside—

YW: It'll still be a while till she gets back.

-..Why are you so surprised?

(T/N: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) )

YW: It's on the left.

Small text: Haha

YW: Aren't you glancing around too much?

-There's not much to see, hurry and come in.

SFX: Click

SFX: Creak—

SFX: Close..

YW: Get comfortable.

YW: Whew—

-Maybe I should've bought something refreshing from the store on the way back.

YW: It's way too hot.

-Let's open the window first—

SFX: Rattle—

SFX: Flap..

YW: Sit next to me.

-The rotation mode on this thing is broken so it doesn't turn.

SFX: Clatter

YW: This side's cool, Hee Bum.

YW: Now that I think about it, it's the first time.

YW: For me to bring someone to my house..

HB: Thanks for inviting me.

YW: When I was in elementary school, I went to my friends' houses a lot.

-But I've never invited them to my house.

YW: Even though it's a really meaningful house to my mom and I.

YW: I didn't want to look poor and shabby in front of anyone.

YW: Just watch.

YW: I'm going to live better than any of those guys who grazed my shoulder.

-With my own strength.

HB: Ah—

-It must be nice for you, hyung.

YW: What?

HB: You're choosing the path you want and living that way.

-And you have a good relationship with your mom.

HB: I have none of that.

-My parents are complete dead-ends. I can't do anything that I want to do.

SFX: Pft—

HB: Huh...?

-What, why are you laughing?

YW: No—

YW: I was just thinking that in the end, you're just another typical Tae Poong High young master.

YW: They can do that if you self-reflect, your back is warm, and your stomach is full.

Small black text: Huh....?

YW: You receive all you can receive,

-and you enjoy all you can enjoy.

YW: If you have a conscience, then you should at least live by listening to your parents.

HB: Don't make me laugh!

HB: You can live that way, then!!

HB: … Hyung, you don't know anything about my family.

HB: You know, my father's an awful neat freak.

-If the label of a bottle in the fridge isn't completely facing forward, he'll lose it.

HB: And... whenever he sees me,

HB: he always looks at me like he looks at those mispositioned bottle labels.

White text: Almost as if I was the only stain in his life—

Text: Father used to be known as “rags to riches”. Whenever I ran into people, they would grab me and tell the story of how he would only wear socks when he went to his friend's house for fear that they'd get a hole in them.

Text: The king of personal connections, he went to Tae Poong High and then Seoul University. He was the eloquent student body president, and no one could dislike him.

Text: Back then, father met a girl who had been in the same class as him.

-He said he truly loved her.

Text: Even now, when he drinks, he'll occasionally bring up that story.

Text: Father also had another dream.

-It was to have power that nobody could look down on.

Man: Mr. Kang.

-Have some tea before you go.

Text: At that time, Father was taking private lessons at Seongbuk-dong.

-It seems a wealthy man's only daughter took a liking to Father.

Man: Mr. Kang, did you say that you were aiming towards politics?

Text: In order to get started, he needed money.

Text: Father threw away his first love and married the wealthy man's daughter.

Text: But there was no way for that marriage to go smoothly.

Text: Father couldn't forget his first love.

Text: But it was too late. After seeing her passing out wedding invitations at the class reunion, he disappeared before her eyes.

Lady: Kya!!

Worker: I apologize, I apologize, Congressman.

-This worker is still undergoing training...

HB Father: It's alright.

Worker: I'm very sorry.

-You, hurry and apologize too!

Lady: Are you really alright?

HB: The woman who looked just like his first love

-was working part-time to gather money for tuition.

HB: The age difference with my dad was probably...

HB: Around 15 years..

HB: In order to protect his assets, my grandfather

-interfered in every policy my father proposed.

HB: Whenever that happened, my father went to meet with the woman who looked like his first love.

-And he looked down on her.

Text: You should resemble your father—

HB: He'd ask why she was such an idiot.

Text: If you don't want to be hated by your father, you have to study hard.

HB: Whenever she made a mistake,

-he'd ask why her brain was so... dumb.

Text: Got it?

HB: Whenever she tried to run away,

HB: he bought her bags, he bought her a car.

-When she had a kid, he even bought her a house.

Text: You definitely must be that way—

HB: But in the end,

-the woman ran away by herself again when the kid was 7 years old—that's right, that kid was me.

HB: Before things got out of hand, Father must have convinced grandfather that he would raise me.

-Grandfather didn't want Father's political career to end. His only daughter was also sterile.

HB: —That time, I went to my grandparent's home for the first and last time.

Text: Hee Bum, dad will follow you in right away. Wait in the garden.

Text: Father probably went to go smoke a cigarette.

-Back then, even the slightest thing prompted him to go smoke.

Small text: Wow..

White text: Ah—....

White text: Hi? You must be Hee Bum...

(T/N: BREH his dad is so messed up wtff)

HB: ..From then on, Father acts like he's a successful politician,

-but he ruined too many people's lives. That guy is

HB: extremely~

HB: selfish.

YW: Come here.

YW: ...Since you hugged me before.

HB: … You know, hyung. Keep what I just told you a secret.

-I don't usually tell this to anyone...

YW: It's usually like that.

-It always happens when you go to a friend's house.

-Isn't that why everyone wants to go to each other's house when they become friends?

Small text: Is that so

HB: Somehow I feel a bit refreshed after talking.

HB: Can I come visit again?

YW: After the CSAT, come whenever.

YW: I'll walk you to the station.

-Let me use the bathroom real quick.

YW thoughts: I got absolutely no studying done today.

HB: You used the bathroom back at the station before, though.

SFX: Splash—

SFX: Creak

SFX: Tap

HB Father: I enjoyed reading this.

-I read it very carefully.

HB Father: While reading it, I was reminded of my younger self.

HB Father: Since I also grew up in a similar circumstance as you.

HB Father: A circumstance similar to neglect,

HB Father: excluded by the others.

HB Father: Who would I resent?

-As Sartre said, we're just starting with our existence that was thrown into this world.

HB Father: They say you can choose between two things.

HB Father: Either stay where you are or move forward.

HB Father: Some might see the choice as irrational,

-but choosing between the two can be quite simple.

HB Father: I chose to move forward.

-Like you did.

HB Father: From what I see, we're quite similar.

YW thought: Now that I think about it, he did say something like that...

-That we're similar.

YW thought: But after hearing that guy's story, it wasn't a compliment...

YW thought: Then again, I think he also said that.

Black text: —Maybe you'll be a good mentor for my son—

Text under symbol: Lose-lose situation

(T/N: I'm not 100% on this translation T___T If anyone knows what that character means, maybe it'll make more sense)

Small text: Um..

YW thought: By chance, if there comes day my relationship with Hee Bum gets found out, things will get really complicated.

-This is the absolute worst situation..

1st rated comment: Today we've seen all of both children's pain.. Even if I already knew, I can feel it even more now ㅠㅠ

2nd rated comment: Because Yoo Won and Hee Bum were in a small space together, I unknowingly got nervous while reading lolol ha,,,,,, lololololol

3rd rated comment: I can understand why Hee Bum was so obsessed with Yoo Won now ㅜㅜ I expected the father was bad, but he's worse than I thought...