#a title that's NOT lyrics!!!! omg who even am i??

[this-is-krikkit]

Hey Sunshine 💕

You can't imagine how sorry I am that you lost all these gems you wrote 😭 Fate as deprived us of so many amazing Levihan fics & kisses 🥺 I really hope there's a way to get them back 🤞🍀

Seeing the last prompt list you reblogged (soft fic) I couldn't resist requesting 26 Pyjamas for Levihan or Erurihan because of the headcanons we talked about the other day based on this beautiful fanart 😉

I hope writing something new will cheer you up a bit!

Sending love & hugs 💕🫂

hey Val ♥️ as you know, i did get my wips back!! your good luck wishes seem to have worked haha

thank you for sending me one of these soft prompts. inspiration took a while to come for this one, but then i stumbled upon this post:

and i knew i had your fic. hope you enjoy! ♥️

The Momentum Principle (read on ao3)

Words: 2566 Fandom: Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Levi Ackerman & Hange Zoë, Levi Ackerman/Hange Zoë, Levi Ackerman & Nanaba & Erwin Smith & Mike Zacharias & Hange Zoë Characters: Hange Zoë, Levi Ackerman, Erwin Smith, Mike Zacharias, Nanaba (Shingeki no Kyojin) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - College/University, Best Friends, Unrequited Crush, Canon Non-Binary Character, They/Them Pronouns for Hange Zoë, SNK Veterans - Freeform, and they were ROOMMATES, (oh my god they were roommates), no beta we die like that vine ref SIKE IT'LL NEVER DIE, pretentious titling because that's how i roll

Summary: Studies show that staying awake for over twenty-four hours has similar effects on the human brain as having a bloodstream concentration of alcohol way over legal limits. Biology major Hange Zoë is aware of that fact. Sadly, they’re also aware that there are finals to pass, and not enough hours in a day to study for them.

Hange frowned at the page before their eyes and clicked the table lamp off and back on, ignoring the annoyed stares the repeated and ineffective gesture got them from the students around –served them all right anyway, they mused, when they’d all been regularly stealing Hange glances they didn’t even bother to try and make discreet all morning. But something other than being ogled at like a circus freak was making it hard to decipher the words in front of them, though they couldn’t put their finger on what exactly. The world around them had been seeming especially bleak lately and even more so today, which wasn’t unusual during the intense studying marathons they famously put themself through with finals drawing near, but they couldn’t recall a time where it had actually impacted their already damaged eyesight; and the persistent, pulsing ache tracing along their temples sure wasn’t helping.

The most rational part of their brain offered stress and weariness as culprits, and Hange had to admit they couldn’t easily dismiss either of those. The cramming schedule they’d been imposing on themself may have gotten a little out of hand in the last couple of weeks, so much so Hange couldn’t even remember the last time they’d set foot in the living room to share homemade dinners or play board games with their four roommates like they usually would during cold winter evenings. They hadn’t even partook in early morning idle chitchat or occasional evening drinks on their way home from the campus library, not when they’d been consistently arriving right on opening time –they’d been pulling all nighters more often than not, anyway, and felt too restless to stay home and wait for the others to get ready– and had become the last student to leave it at night.

Hange closed their eyes for a minute as they let their head fall forward, rolling their neck and shoulders and relishing in the satisfying crack their muscles and tendons sighed out at the stretch. If only their brain could gain knowledge through osmosis via that simple contact between their forehead and over-highlighted textbook; if information were to be solutes, then, considering how little they’d efficiently memorized lately, it would flow right inside their lowly concentrated head without a doubt. They smiled at that absurd reflection, giddy with the realization that hey, they’d apparently managed to remember some things from those hellish Introduction to Fluid Mechanics lectures.

That unexpected sense of comfort was short lived, however, when they were hit with a wave of the increasingly familiar nausea their self inflicted sleep deprivation never failed to bring. Hange opened their eyes to fight the dizziness and took deep breathes in and out, silently counting up the right inhale to exhale ratio –simultaneously urging their body to hold up for a little while longer.

Two weeks, they pleaded. Just two more weeks and I can take a break.

Seven long sleepless days and nights of tensed cramming, followed by a week of nerve-wracking and hopefully mostly accurate square ticking in reply to more often than not purposefully confusingly phrased questions, and then they’d be free to hang out with their friends and be a, well, not exactly normal, but close to normal young adult again.

But the thought saddened more than it motivated them, and they had to consciously stop themself from looking around to see if they could spot any of the three blondes they’d come to think of as family. Erwin, Nanaba and Mike all had similar exams to take soon and the spacious library had filled in by whatever time it was now, so they would no doubt be within these four walls. Sundays usually involved morning revising, followed by strictlynon-academic plans everyone would have previously agreed onfor their common weekly afternoon off.

Hange winced at the pang of loneliness they felt when they realized they actually had no idea what their closest friends would be up to later. It only got worse when they remembered that Levi, who they’d been trying not to focus any thoughts on as those were proving more and more distracting these past few months, hadn’t tried to coax them into coming along this weekend like he’d done since they’d started studying more intensely. Hange had noticed Erwin’s surprised glances and Mike and Nanaba’s barely disguised teasing laughs when he’d started doing it, and they couldn’t really blame any of them –after all, that initiative from Levi had been a drastic switch from their previously established social roles.

Lost in memories of Levi’s techniques to get them to go out, which had mostly consisted of an association of almost threats and intense glaring until they would caved –which they hadn’t, amazingly– it took them a minute to notice the hand upon their right shoulder.

“Get up,” a familiar voice whispered up close, startling them.

Shit. Think of the devil.

Levi had also been pestering them about taking an actual break, on top of the Sunday festivities they’d been avoiding, but up until now their shared roommates had acted as enough of a buffer that Hange had been able to pretend they hadn’t noticed his nagging messages in the groupchat or pointed stares near the laundry machine.

“I’m fine right here,” they said cheerfully, pretending to focus on their textbook again and turning the page they’d been staring for a while without managing to actually read a word of it.

They weren’t sure they could get up, really, not without betraying their exhausted state to their closest friend and having to admit just how shitty they’d been at taking care of themself lately.

They swallowed back a shocked yelp as hands seized them up and pulled them to their feet anyway, and they caught themself on the table at the last moment to prevent the inevitable fall that would await them if they really were to put all their weight on their knees right now.

“What are you doing?” they asked through gritted teeth, unable to glare back at him as the head rush made dark spots dance in front of their eyes. “Let me go, I need to study.”

Levi wordlessly –and annoyingly easily– tore them away from their spot, half carrying them until they were both standing in front of one of the nearby arch windows. Hange muffled their protesting squeals out of some remnant of respect for the nosy judgmental students around, even though they knew Levi’s powerful glaring would probably prevent any of them from protesting at the noise of their struggling in the otherwise religiously quiet space.

And then they looked up and caught sight of their reflection.

And shamefully realized they could have given their curious peers the benefit of the doubt and hypothesized there might have been a valid reason behind all the curious looks they’d been getting all morning.

Hange was wearing their long sleeved purple octopus pajama top, the buttons ridiculously mismatched, with unmatched green cat-patterned pajamas bottoms –that they realized with a quiet gasp were probably Levi’s and not theirs, now that they were noticing the pants ended well above their ankles. There wasn’t one but two hair ties failing to hold their greasy matted hair up and away from their face, and their goggle-shaped sunglasses were hanging crooked on their nose with the rubber band twisted on both their temples –which finally explained part of their lingering headache, and why it was so challenging to read.

“What you need is to go home, Four Eyes.”

Tears sprung to their eyes before they could stop them, and for a minute they only stared at their shiny mirror image in quiet puzzlement. These weren’t tears of shame even if, as used as they were to being unconventional and to other people’s reaction to their self expression, this accidental pajama-in-public incident was definitely an all time new low for them. Exhaustion could have played a role, and the dark circles under their eyes as well as their paler than ever complexion easily spelled it out for them.

But mostly, Hange felt guilty. Levi had tried to mask it, but his voice had wavered over his own nickname for them, like he felt pained at seeing them in this state, and he couldn’t quite meet their eyes when that was his main tool to get anyone to comply to his requests.

“I don’t think I can,” they replied honestly.

His now openly worried gaze finally met theirs in the glass in front of them and he frowned, opening his mouth to object.

But Hange shook their head slowly in defeat.

They weren’t arguing with him, they were simply stating a truth.

They knew they must have taken the bus to get here, but they honestly couldn’t remember any part of the journey –hell, they couldn’t even remember putting shoes on, although they were glad they’d thought of that at least. They didn’t think they had a key to the apartment on them, as they usually resided in the deep pocket of the wool coat they’d forgotten to put on even before going out in this freezing winter weather. And practical issues asides, they didn’t actually trust themself to actually make it home in one piece right now, not even in the middle of a bright busy morning in the city and to their place that really wasn’t that far off campus.

Levi narrowed his eyes at them before nodding once, sharp.

“Wait outside. I’ll meet you in five.”

But Hange stood there, equally confused and chagrined at his statement. Was he going to go home with them? No, that wouldn’t do.

Levi had his own finals to study for, Hange couldn’t impose on him like that because they’d been stupid enough to push themself past their limit. They would simply have to endure a couple more hours of trying not to pass out at their seat until noon came around and all of their roommates went home anyway, to tag along without disrupting anyone’s schedule in the process.

Levi’s hands squeezed at their shoulders firmly, and his stare hardened in the window as if he could hear them reaching that conclusion.

Then he let go but didn’t move too far, seemingly unsure if Hange could actually stand by themself.

They rolled their eyes fondly, and –precociously– turned around, sporting what they hoped looked like a gentle smile and not a maniac grin –Levi’s expression remained stubbornly set, so they couldn’t tell either way– before moving carefully towards the door. They tried their hardest not to stumble on the way, and coughed to mask their giggling when they failed and almost tripped on their own feet.

Levi met them at the back exit of the building with their backpack and his own stuff shortly, and Hange didn’t bother trying to hide that they’d nearly fallen asleep on the stairs in the few minutes they’d been apart.

He frowned as they yawned without putting their hands to their mouth, but uncharacteristically didn’t comment on it as he grabbed their elbow to direct them towards an unknown car a few feet away.

They dug their heels in the sidewalk when they realized he’d ordered a paying ride for them.

“Wait, Levi, there’s no need for that. The bus–

“Won’t be here for another twenty minutes,” he interrupted. “You’re not passing out in the streets again, not under my watch.”

They recognized his clipped tone as the one that didn’t suffer any kind of discussion, even as he mentioned that party a month ago. Hange sighed inwardly, but followed his steps –they were way too tired to fight him anymore.

“What, like you’d get worried?” they still teased –they were exhausted, not dead. No way in hell would they miss an occasion to needle their favorite neat freak.

Levi snorted, and had Hange been less asleep on their feet, they’d have felt proud that they’d managed to get that sound out of him.

“I’d worry about my back, for one. I don’t want to know what carrying your unconscious ass home twice would do to it.”

“Hey, not fair!” They whined in protest, missing their target completely when they tried to playfully slap his arm. “I was at least ten pounds heavier then! And besides, Mike did most of the carrying, didn’t he?”

Hange couldn’t remember much from that night, but the rumor –in the form of Erwin and Nanaba’s recollection of the evening as they’d told it to them the following day, anyway– had Levi so worried about them passing out drunk he’d been too restlessly anxious to carry them himself, and had instead covered them in all of their friends’ coats, shoving their unconscious body in Mike’s strong arms, and then proceeding to walk beside him to closely monitor their breathing and that they wouldn’t choke on their own tongue or surprise vomit.

Hange only recalled waking up propped against multiple pillows with a pounding head and a grumpy –well, grumpier than usual– and sleep-deprived Levi who had shoved a glass of water in their shaky hand and scolded them about their alcohol consumption for the next half hour or so. It had then taken them drinking and keeping down a whole liter of diverse hydrating fluids before he’d finally left them alone to go and nurse his own hangover, and it was only after he’d left that Hange had noticed the newfound tidiness of their room and how the purple fatboy that would normally lay forgotten in a corner of the room –and under a pile of questioningly clean clothes and textbooks– had been pushed right next to their bed with a possibly Levi-shaped indentation in it.

Levi didn’t answer their rhetorical question, instead stopping in his tracks and giving them a clinical once over.

“What?” they prompted, barely resisting the urge to cross their arms to hide themself from his examination.

“Nothing,” he replied quickly, averting his eyes and opening the car door for them.

He muttered something under his breath still, and Hange’s ears caught a few words that sounded suspiciously like end up disappearing if you keep this up.

He greeted the driver and confirmed his identity as Hange plopped down with a relieved groan, and didn’t miss the concerned look Levi shot them as he sat next to them. His hand slid down from where it was still gripping their elbow to rest gently on their forearm as the car started, and they could swear he gave it a small, awkward but infinitely soft couple of comforting pats.

Hange boldly took advantage of this atypically lengthy physical contact, and moved so they could slide their hands together almost nonchalantly –almost, because they nearly faltered when Levi’s neck snapped to stare at their fingers in awe.

Hange smiled as naturally as they could to try and ease the shock from his features.

“I’ll pay you back for the ride,” they promised, squeezing his hand once.

They let him go after that. It wouldn’t do for their most introverted friend who was making sure they were getting safely home to get a brain aneurysm from their unexpected and possibly unwanted touches, after all.

“Tch. You better,” he grunted, moving his hand back to his lap immediately.

They couldn’t help but smile again when they took note that his tone wasn’t nearly as biting as they knew it could be.

[the-hype-on-tv]

it's the third time I'm writing this thing omg

(cw for religious themes under the cut)

alright so I'm trying to analyze how vessel lyrics have kind of a prayer vibe to me

but every time I've tried that so far i felt like i was repeating myself and so i gave up but now I'll try again

it's terrifying to me how the clique identifies with tyler's songs, even tho we're all so different from one another... and the reason i started enjoying tøp songs in the first place is because he's able to put into words things i felt and whenever i tried to explain no one would really get it (not even my therapists lol)

especially for god related things.. like in fake you out (where to me is like "god says he's with me but I don't feel it like everyone else does" and "am i faking out god's voice or is he actually talking to me", and how god talks in the silence overall, but we're sometimes scared to hear what he has to say)

and DO NOT GET ME STARTED WITH ODE TO SLEEP seriously i will start a thread for this later because how else can someone interpret this other than a prayer??? like a desperate one, he literally says he won't tell us who he's singing for and is afraid to say whom he adores (which also common theme amongst christians, specially younger ones like tyler was when he wrote that probably) and he asks why are the demons (which can either be literal or metaphorical ngl) won't let him go if he's not important enough to ruin their plans, asking god to tell them how he has no plans for him (not sure if this is common logic but like, if a person is spiritually important i.g. is meant to become someone crucial to god's plan and help people, the logic is that the demons don't want that and they'll do what they can to prevent it from happening which is intrusive thoughts and such). and then with "metaphorically I'm a whore and that's denial number four" i read that as sometimes sounding a bit insane when talking about religion but that's a bit of a stretch

also tyler how dare you i will travel the world to tell you otherwise, of course god has plans for you and of course you're important bruh hope you see that now you dummy

anyways, there's more songs i see that, but they're from self titled and rab, i might make a part 2 of this or maybe not idk

[drvirgus]

The life you dreamed of

(Series)

Description: Y/n a K-pop Idol of the 5-Member Group Moonlight. But what happens when she falls in Love? How exactly is her life as an Idol and why did she become one?

Idol! Yeji X Idol! Reader

Warnings: Mention of Bullying and Suicide, curse words

Chapter 8:

Masterlist

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"Oh my goodness, folks!" I exclaimed as I lay on my stomach, propping up my head with my hands under my chin, a smile on my face. "Have you all heard Itzy's new song? 'Ringo' is absolutely amazing!!" I said as I sat up again.

"I'll play it for those of you who haven't heard it yet. But don't expect me to dance; I'm not really feeling it right now. I've got some serious muscle soreness from hitting the gym yesterday, and, goodness..." I added with a light laugh. I clicked around on my computer and connected it to Alexa. "Anyway, I won't talk too much; I'll just play the song. Here, I'll even put the English lyrics on screen for you," I said as I turned the camera around, pointing it at my computer.

I started playing Itzy's video, but unfortunately, an ad popped up. My eyes rolled immediately. "Why does YouTube always seem to know when you're excited and just want to watch a video? And we can't even skip it," I said, laughing lightly. I looked at the ad; it seemed to be a trailer for a new movie. "Hey... that looks cool. What movie is that?" I asked as I looked at the title. 

@KpopLover123: OMG, I can't believe you played 'Ringo'! Itzy slays! 😍🎶

@DanceQueen22: Haha, I feel you on the muscle soreness, girl! 💪😂

@MovieBuff99: That movie trailer does look epic! Anyone know the title?

@MusicFanatic22: Your live sessions are always a blast! Can't wait to hear the new song. 🙌

@GymRatFitness: Props to you for hitting the gym, even with muscle soreness! 💪

@KdramaAddict: I'm dying to know the movie too! It looks so intriguing. 🎬

@ItzyOfficialFan: Thank you for sharing Itzy's new song with us! 💖

@ChillVibesOnly: Your lives are always so fun and entertaining. Keep it up! 🎉

@RingoFanatic: Obsessed with 'Ringo' already! Can't wait for the dance cover next time. 😉

@MovieMania:  I think that movie is 'The Shadows Within.' Looks like a must-watch!

My eyes scanned through the comments, but I quickly returned my attention to the video as it began to play. The lyrics were displayed in three languages. I loved it, especially since I didn't understand Japanese at all. Yeji had tried to teach me some, but my Japanese was limited to the anime I watched.

The video played, and I had my mouth slightly open as I immersed myself in the lyrics. When the song finished, I turned the camera back towards me and propped my phone up against the screen, which I had turned off beforehand. I looked into the camera again, wearing a smile.

"You all probably know what a fangirl I am. Mamamoo is my number one and I think they'll always be. But Itzy? Itzy and Newjeans, oh boy... I love their music sooo much, you can't even imagine," I said, laughing lightly, as I raised my arms to adjust the small ponytail I had on.

The shirt I was wearing, with a few buttons undone, revealing a hint of my neckline, was in my favorite color: green. I had on knee-length black shorts and socks. My window was wide open as it was pretty warm.

"Which group is your favorite? I'd love to know more about you," I said with a smile on my face. My eyes went back to the comments as I fell silent to read each one carefully.

KpopLoveAndMoonlight: Y/n, your multifandom love is the best! Moonlight fans are here supporting you all the way. 🌙❤️

MoonlightFanatic: Y/n, your love for Mamamoo and Itzy is awesome! 🌟 But don't forget about Moonlight – your group is fire too!

NotImpressed: Y/n, you're acting like a groupie. Find your own identity, please!

MusicManiac22: Y/n, your love for music is so contagious! I'm a big fan of Stray Kids, but Itzy is high up on my list too.

 K-popPurist: Y/n, you're supposed to support your own group, not promote others. Moonlight should be your priority. 🌙❌

KdramaAddict: Y/n, you've got great taste in music! I'm a BTS stan, but Itzy's music is a guilty pleasure of mine too. 😄

TrueMoonlightStan: Y/n, you're fake AF. Moonlight deserves better than someone like you. 🙅‍♀️🌙

KpopFanatic88: Y/n, you're such a versatile K-pop fan! Mamamoo, Itzy, and Newjeans? You've got excellent taste.

MoonlightFanatic: Y/n, I'm all about Moonlight! Your group's music has a special place in my heart. 🌙💫

Sighing, I put on a smile, but then I suddenly received a private message. I read it immediately since it was displayed to me briefly. I chuckled with amusement.

Yeji (10:19): Close the buttons!

I grinned at the camera as I glanced briefly at my neckline. So, Yeji was watching my live stream? She seemed to be the only one who had noticed. Not even the comments were of a sexual nature, so why did it bother her?

I cleared my throat to avoid grinning too much. "Well then, folks. Take a guess at who's watching my live right now? Let's see how many people get it right," I said with a light laugh, my grin growing wider. I adjusted my collar with my hand.

Yeji (10:20): You really want the shippers to go crazy, huh?

MusicFanatic123: Y/n, give us a hint! Who's the special guest? 🕵️‍♀️😍

YejiStan_94: I bet it's Yeji! 🙈❤️

KpopLover_23: It's Yeji for sure! No one else could make Y/n blush like that! 😏❤️

YejiStan_94: What if it's Moonbyul from Mamamoo? 😱

ItzyForever: Maybe it's Ryujin or Yunjin!

Laughing, I glanced at the comments. "Well, I'll leave that to your imagination," I said as I picked up my phone. "That's it for my live. Thank you for tuning in," I waved to the camera and then ended my live stream. I let out a sigh and immediately opened a private chat with Yeji.

Smiling, I called the older woman, and she answered promptly. I could see her with her red hair, seemingly cleaning her apartment. I grinned and said, "Good day, Hwang Yeji," with a light laugh as I gazed into her beautiful eyes on the screen. Yeji laughed a bit, "Y/n, are you really trying to get me in trouble?"

I chuckled softly, "Why do you say that?" I asked as I got up from my gaming chair and held my phone in my hand. "Can you please button up your shirt?" Yeji requested, which made me pause for a moment. I looked at her through the screen. Her request had taken me by surprise. I let out a small laugh and shrugged.

She looked at me with a puzzled expression as I laughed, "Why? I'm about to take a shower, and I have something else to do afterward," I replied with a shrug. This time, I had waterproof headphones on since I knew I had to shower. Yeji's eyes widened a bit, and she asked, "Wait... you want to talk to me while you're in the shower?" Her question made me chuckle.

I shrugged my shoulders again, "Why not? We haven't talked in a while, and you've been so busy, just like me. I kind of miss your voice," I said as I placed my phone on the sink. I could only faintly make out Yeji blushing.

"Okay," she replied softly. I slowly undressed, and I chuckled, "What's wrong? Have you never seen another woman naked?" I teased, laughing. "Don't worry, I won't show myself," I added as I stepped into the shower and turned on the water.

"Do you do this often?" Yeji asked, causing my forehead to furrow slightly. She couldn't see me, just as I couldn't see her. "What do you mean?" I asked as I sprayed some shampoo into my hand to wash my hair. "I meant... uh... showering," she clarified.

I stopped my movements in surprise. I pushed the shower curtain aside a bit and stuck my head out so Yeji could see me. I looked quite bewildered and speechless, which seemed to make Yeji even more nervous. She suddenly burst into laughter. "N-No, I meant... uh... showering and talking on the phone at the same time," she corrected herself, making me laugh too.

"I was about to say. Do you think I'm so dirty that I hardly ever shower?" I asked, laughing. Yeji seemed to look to the side. Her whole face turned red. I couldn't help but smile as I continued to shower. Yeji cleared her throat, "No, it's my first time, to be honest. But Hanni or Yuna are often in the bathroom with me when I shower. Maybe that's why it doesn't feel any different for me right now," i explained, finally answering her question.

"Wait... so... they've seen you naked?" she asked, her voice an octave higher than before. I chuckled as I rinsed away the shampoo. "Yes," I replied, still chuckling as I continued to shower. Yeji didn't respond, and I couldn't move the curtain to see her at the moment.

"Yeji?" I asked after a short while. She immediately hummed to get my attention. I smiled, "Oh no, I just thought you had hung up because I couldn't hear anything," I said, which made Yeji snort with amusement. "By the way, what are you up to?" she asked, feeling a bit embarrassed.

I cleared my throat as I continued shaving, feeling somewhat embarrassed. "Um... please don't judge me," I began, which made Yeji chuckle. "Hey, I would never judge you, Y/n," she replied, making me feel more at ease. I licked my lips nervously and finally said, "Well... I'm meeting up with Yuqi from G-Idle."

I finished showering and stepped out of the shower, immediately wrapping a towel around myself after drying my hair. My eyes landed on my phone as I saw Yeji with her mouth hanging open. "A... date?" she asked, sounding surprised. I laughed awkwardly.

"N-No, well... I don't think so. We're just going out for drinks," I replied, causing Yeji's eyes to narrow. She furrowed her brow, asking, "Don't you have a crush on Ryujin?" Her shock was evident. I wiped my still-damp hair back and chuckled lightly.

"Not for a long time, Yeji. That was just a crush I had," I replied with a light laugh. However, Yeji looked visibly shocked. Her forehead creased as she pressed her lips together. I smirked slightly as I started brushing my teeth. "How did that happen?" Yeji asked, her voice a bit quieter now, her phone a bit farther away from her. I could see Yeji hugging her knees to her chest with her arms wrapped around them.

Her voice sounded really cute right now...

I spat out the toothpaste and looked into the camera. "We got to talking after we did a TikTok challenge for our latest song. Then she asked me out, and I accepted," I explained with a slight smile. Yeji nodded her head, gazing into the camera. She started to pout.

"Why... didn't you ask me?" she sighed softly. I stopped my movements and looked at my phone. I smiled a little and said, "Oh, baby, you don't really look like you can handle much right now," I said, chuckling softly. But Yeji didn't really join in on the laughter.

I stopped laughing and said, "I didn't know you'd want to come. You're probably tired from all the work. You should rest a bit," I added, which made Yeji exhale in frustration. She furrowed her brow and said, "Let me decide that, Y/n." She licked her lips and continued, "Besides, you're tired too! I see those dark circles under your eyes! And I see videos of you all the time. You seem to be working all the time!"

Somehow... she seemed angry...

I placed my phone on my bed and started getting dressed. I bit my lip, unsure of how to respond. "I'm fine," I replied, which made Yeji huff. I swallowed nervously. Was my racing heart due to not wanting Yeji to be upset?

"I'm sorry. Next time, I'll invite you, okay?" I offered, and Yeji let out a sigh. I glanced back at my phone. Fortunately, I got dressed rather quickly. I was wearing tight black jeans and a white crop top that showed a bit of cleavage. Over it, I had a shirt that I left unbuttoned. My hair was tied up in a short ponytail.

"It's not about that, Y/n... I just want to see you again. It's been weeks since we saw each other in person," Yeji pouted. A smile spread across my face. I grinned almost mischievously. "That can be arranged," I replied, causing Yeji's eyes to widen. She chuckled. "But I have to go now, Yeji," I said as I glanced at the clock.

Yeji's eyes widened. "So early?" she asked, checking the time. I laughed, "Daydrinking is the best drinking," I said with a wink, prompting Yeji to roll her eyes. She bid me farewell, and we both hung up.

I made my way to the door, where my shoes were waiting. I put on a pair of white sneakers and headed out.

[elliebartlets]

my initial and subsequent thoughts on the ttpd songs.

warning: this is not eloquently worded. I was also high while listening to some of them

fortnight

* “I was a functioning alcoholic until no one noticed my new aesthetic” ??? What the hell does that even mean??

* I don’t mind the beat/flow of the song but at the same time it’s kinda boring.

* on first listen I didn’t mind it, I think it’d be a grower or just like a nice background song

later thoughts:

* It’s fine but I still don’t get the appeal of it

the tortured poets department

* It’s alright? I don’t like some of the lyrics (“I scratch your head and you fall asleep like a tattooed golden retriever”) again, what lmao or the name dropping of people (Charlie Puth, Lucy, Jack)

later thoughts:

* I like some parts of this song but other parts I really don’t.

* I also think it could be cut by like a minute

my boy only breaks his favorite toys

* I honestly don’t know how I feel about this one? I don’t love it, I don’t hate it, I don’t have any strong opinions on this one. it’s just there. I think it could be a grower?

later thoughts:

* it grew on me, but still not my favorite.

down bad:

* this one’s ok. I don’t mind it but again, I think it could be a grower

* I think my problem so far with these songs is that they feel more like background songs to me. songs I can easily zone out to. and that’s fine in some situations, but I want a song that grabs my attention and stays there.

later thoughts:

* still feel pretty much the same. Its fine but not my favorite

so long, london:

* not bad. I think I can appreciate it objectively, and know this is probably gonna be a favorite by a lot of people, but for me it’ll probably be just a song that’s there and if it’s on it’s on but I won’t seek it out.

but daddy I love him:

* ok apparently a lot of people rank this one very low (I’m guessing it’s because it’s about Matty Healy?) but I don’t mind it??

fresh out the slammer:

* *I’m now listening to this album high*

* can’t remember how it went but I didn’t mind it! it was kinda catchy

later thoughts

* one of my favorites

Florida!!!

* “my friends all smell like weed or little babies” Taylor again, what the fuck??

* hearing Florence and Taylor on a song is wild lol

later thoughts:

* not sure what this song is about or how I feel about it but I like Florence’s part

guilty as sin?

* I like this one

* A lot

* idk if it cause I’m high or am I getting kinda country vibes? like “older taylor” sound?

* I’m liking this one

later thoughts:

* probably my favorite on the album!!

who’s afraid of little old me?

* I’m getting little red riding hood vibes from the title??? I think it’s because it reminds me of Who’s afraid of Virginia Woolf? and also who’s afraid of the big bad wolf? So hearing Wolf makes me think of little red riding hood lol

* Idk what she’s talking about but to me it’s now a canon song about the big bad wolf in little red riding hood

* non-high thoughts: Jesus idk why I thought of red riding hood lmao but anyway, nothing crazy standing out to me. decent enough I guess?

I can fix him

* dude I didn’t even register this song I was trying to make me little red riding hood thing make sense

* non-high thoughts: this did nothing for me lol

loml

* started thinking about my grandparents at the beginning and then zoned for a bit out lol

* but I like this one a lot!!!

* very calming and I liked some of the lyric play

later thoughts:

* one of my favorites!!

I can do it with a broken heart

* ok. Bitch werk.

* I’m shaking my ass

* Oh shittttt I’m on the club floorrr

* Omg super Mario

* Ok this is a bopppp wtf

* Where is this song taking me???

* and we’re back to head bopping

* serious video games mode

* Omg it just ended

* Damn okkk!!

later thoughts:

* this song is fun but I need to be in the mood to listen to it

the smallest man who ever lived

* I’m kinda upset this one is slow and sad i want the fun beat back!!!

* I really liked the last minute and a half ish tho!!

later thoughts:

* still really like the last minute and a half

the alchemy

* idk but I’m getting nice vibes

* Like music wise. idk what the lyrics are saying, I’m too high for that

later thoughts:

* don’t have a strong opinion on this one tbh

clara bow

* I like this one

* STEVIE NICKS REFERENCE?!!?!?

* didn’t like her referencing herself at the end tho

later thoughts:

* still like this one a lot.

the black dog

* yeah this one’s fine. not my favorite and probably wouldn’t see it out but it’s decent enough.

later thoughts:

* I like it more than when I first listened to it.

imgomnagetyouback

* I was super focused on this song and I liked it!!

the albatross

* yeah. good. I’m getting tired tbh lol I may finish the rest tomorrow

later thoughts:

* one of my favorites!!

Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus

*it’s now the next morning and I’m not high anymore*

* This one’s fine, kinda boring. I did not register any of the lyrics lol

How did it end?

* I didn’t mind this one. the lyrics were good, but idk I really don’t like a lot of the slower songs on here it seems

so high school

* I like the production

* some of the lyrics were fine, some were kinda cringy? which I wanna say is what she was going for cause it’s supposed to be how she feels like she’s in high school with him but I don’t think she intended for them to be lol

later thoughts:

* yeah same thoughts as when I first listened to it.

i hate it here

* I appreciate the theme of disassociation and going into your own little world or wanting to go into a different time, but it didn’t really do anything for me

thanK you aIMee

* gee I wonder who this song’s about…

* I like the production, although the song just sounds recycled and similar to some of her other songs to me

I look in people’s windows

* “cause I’m a deranged weirdo” ok glad she said it not me lol

* in all seriousness it’s a nice, light sounding song (production wise). kinda reminds me of its nice to have a friend: short, a little different from the other songs

the prophecy

* I like this one. I like the melodies and how she sings it

Cassandra

* kinda boring but she has nice vocals

Peter

* I like the lyrics more than the music/production

the bolter

* I like this one.

* Not much to say but it’s got a nice rhythm and it’s cute and light

later thoughts:

* I like it more on subsequent listens

robin

* its not bad, but it’s another zone out song for me.

the manuscript

* again, not bad, but it’s not doing anything for me.

[mexswiftcan]

🐾TTPD THE ANTHOLOGY🐾

First of all, I cannot believe all of us clowns were right and she did release a double album at 2:00 am

She's insane, I love her

Anyway, here are my first impressions and lyrics I loved from THE ANTHOLOGY

⚠️MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD⚠️

🐾The Black Dog

piano is slaying as always

the location giving him away is everything

it hits her = hits different

she's too young

old habits die screaming

omggggg the sounds!

best laid plans = "paper cut stings from our paper thin plans"

i don't understand how you don't miss me

was it hazy? = lavender haze

great, i'm crying again

i wanna sell my house = "that's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend, i'd never walk Cornelia Street again"

even if i die screaming, so she's an old habit, his old habit

and i hope you hear it

the enddd so gooood

🐾imgonnagetyouback

this scratches my brain

short skirt = "but she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts" / "and I got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt"

she doesn't know if she wants to be his wife? i think i understood that wrong idk

act like i don't care what you did

i can take the upper hand and touch your body

you were never not mine, you're mine = "you weren't mine to lose" somehow

omg such a great song

i'm poison either way = "i once was poison ivy, but now I'm your daisy"

🐾The Albatross

sounds like evermore

they tried to warn you about me = "i know what they all say, but i ain't tryna play"

SHE is the albatross

she is the death you chose

i love the guitar and her voice and everything

spread my wings like a parachute

i'm the life you chose

🐾Chloe or Sam or Sophie or Marcus

hologram, i think she's hallucinating

are all of those names his lovers?

he looks like he could've bullied you in school?????

joe is bi confirmed? jk

omg, it's building up

she changed for him = "i'll show you every version of yourself tonight"

i loved you, not love

scarlet, maroon???????????

will i always wonder?

this song is so incredibly sad

🐾How Did It End?

piano slaying as usual

vocaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaals i'm dead

WE HEREBY CONDUCT THIS POST MORTEM

we must know how did it end

the piano is too beautiful

most lyrics she gave are here, this must be like an equivalent of a track 5

did they run into the mistress?

sounds so much like folklore

my beloved ghost and me, sitting in a tree d-y-i-n-g

the thing is, she knows how it ended but doesn't at the same time

🐾So High School

excellent beat and guitar

i wanna find you in a crowd, sounds like a love song

so upbeat

i feel so high school everytime i look at you is so sweet

this songs makes my heart smile

so she plays gta now?

she calls him babe, i can'tttttt

she sounds so happy

i bet this is about Travis

very glitter pen coded

🐾I Hate It Here

my eternal consolation

she's scared to go outside, interesting

she hates to be recognized everywhere, that's what i'm getting form her

nostalgia is a mind's trick

i love that she has peaceful places in her mind, but it is sad that she has to do that because she hates it outside of her mind

i guess she loves it too, but she mostly hates it?

like you're a poet like you're trapped in the body of a finance guy

🐾thanK you alMee

the title looks like a drunken message

all that time you were throwing punches, i was building something

i can't forget the way you made me heal = "my broken bones are mending from all these nights we're spending"

laughing at each baby step i take

kinda sounded like a glass broke

my mother is a saintly woman but she used to say she wished she was dead i love Andrea and i hope she's ok

a thousand songs you find uncool = "death by a thousand cuts" / "would hide away and find your peace of mind with some indie record that’s much cooler than mine"

so she thanks him for being her muse

my spirit black and blue = "but just look what I created, i came out alive, but I'm black and blue"

I CHANGED YOUR NAMEEEEEE

A SONG ONLY WE KNOW IS ABOUT YOU must be in folklore and/or evermore

your words were ringing in my head relatable

who tf is Amy? the mistress????

🐾I Look in People's Windows

the guitarrrrrr omg

died the tiniest death

i'm afflicted by the not knowing, she keeps saying she just wants to know why

she wants him to look at her one more time, this is so sad

sounded like beach noises

i'm addicted to the if screams the 1

i think she's saying she stalks him and everyone he interacts with, which is so relatable

🐾The Prophecy

i got cursed like Eve got bitten

someone who wants my company

cards on the table, mine play out like fools = "my cards are on the table, yours are in your hand"

still i dream of him

she's begging for someone to want her, for him to actually want her

i howl like a wolf at the moon

this song is fucking me up

this is too fucking painful

let it once be me, i'm ugly crying with hiccups and all

i looked at the sky and said please

this song reminds me so much of my breakup

🐾Cassandra

she got the call?

when the truth comes out, it's quiet

who is Cassandra?

snakes

do you believe me now?

what doesn't kill you, makes you aware

the piano and her voice are sublime

gives me castles crumbling and rep vibes

they never spared a prayer for my soul, there are a lot of Christian references in this album

🐾Peter

the piano again omg, sounds like Aaron

could this be an analogy for Saint Peter?

i'm never to keep, i hate that i know this feeling

i'm having a headache from crying this much

same moon, different galaxies sounds like they were together physically but their souls weren't together

i'm having a headache from crying this much

hold on to the day that you were mine

the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light, so she can't see into their window anymore

🐾The Bolter

she almost drowned = "eyes like sinking ships on waters so inviting i almost jump in"

they nicknamed her the bolter

i love the rhythm

he was a cat

her watching him jump, then pulling him under

gives me "Slut!" vibes

so she fell through the ice and came out alive, there was a song that said she had an ice cold heart

🐾Robin

the pianoooooo is so good

you're blood thirsty

i want to stop cryingggg

you're ridiculous and you have no idea mood

they kept a secret from Robin, I guess, in sweetness, so like a white lie

it feels like she's talking to a kid or someone that's too innocent and maybe childish

🐾The Manuscript

this already sounds like it's gonna destroy me, she's gonna kill me, i swear

the manuscript of the entire torrid affair, sounds like Hamilton

so the sex was good as the convo but it didn't last, it wasn't enough

he wanted a housewife?

the piano is incredible

this whole album sounds so different and i love it

what you know looking backwards might be the only way to move forward

she knew what the agony was for

so the only thing left from their relationship is the manuscript

why isn't the story hers?

[i-sveikata]

I like to listen to your unhinged playlist while waiting for the chapter to set the mood. And sometimes I'm so baffled how accurate some lyrics are 😅

Bodybag by Chloe Moriondo

"Don't know if I hate you or if I wanna date you

Put you in a body bag instead of my bed

I don't wanna like you, I just wanna tie you up

Then keep you in a cage and watch you sleep for ages"

And

"Wanna kiss you on your cheeks but I also wanna punch your teeth"

I can see in my mind how Pete could feel so conflicted. Being so frustrated by Vegas to the point of thinking of being violent but on the other side he does want to tie Vegas up and keep him in bed. Sometimes wanting to kiss Vegas until he says something weird and now he wants to punch the teeth out.

But even though Pete is conflicted and gets really angry at Vegas all the time. He is also very possessive. I mean most people would expect Vegas being "keep you in cage" type. But Pete can be as possessive and obsessive over Vegas too. He just didn't let himself be like this yet. The most is hidden under all his survival instincts.

I love this type of dynamic between them. And I can't wait for Pete to become more possessive over Vegas. (And being feral about it is also my favorite)

I don't remember if I asked what song lyrics you chose for this chapter? 😁

Also I find it funny how after this song the next one is Use Me which is so filthy and could be interpreted as Vegas's answer to Pete's conflicting desires 😄 I love to imagine some kind of plot with these songs. It's such a fun addition to this pairing ❤️

ahh i love that you're listening to it!!! omg yeah some of the lyrics are like supes disturbing and SO them like it really does set the mood hahahahha

oh yes i totally agree pete does have a possessive streak that we've only really seen tiny hints of (and there will be more scenes later where pete makes it very clear to others who vegas belongs to lol he will not be sharing)

oh!!! i don't think you have but i am settling on obvious blase by the used for this one! its got a great mix of angst and hopefulness which is where i think vegas is sitting emotionally atm and feeling kind of bittersweet about his situation:

'Broken so completely, built me up in the same way

Devour me so sweetly, you prefer me sick this way, I’ll stay sick this way

Six feet in my guilt, Broken hinges on my casket

The way it has to end is always bittersweet, Take this, take this away from me"

oh i love that idea!!! tbh ive just chucked them in once im certain a song hits their vibe there's no particular order to them (besides the first few songs which are in order of each corresponding chapter title of the fic in case nobody noticed that haha)

but i love that youre making up side plot with the songs!! we love a song headcanon for sure!

[clood]

ao3 wrapped [writers edition]

MUAHAHAH time to be super annoying >:3c [copies and pastes the ones i've answered via ask]

1. How many words have you written this year? me: sees this question and immediately whips out the phone calculator this year i wrote 39,118 words! nowhere near as much as the freakish anomaly that was 2022, but still nothing to sneeze at ;) this is also not counting a SECRET WORK that i cannot reveal yet... that puts me at 41,208 heehee

2.How many works did you publish this year?

a nice, even 10!

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

because of the nature of the reverse bang and getting to create a fic for someone else's art, i am very proud of both rose-tinted and play pretend. particularly play pretend, because i think i achieved the princess bride vibe i was going for.

then of course i am so proud of myself for venturing into the one piece world with i'll leave it to you, which i don't consider to be good very at all but it marks the point where i took a little leap and shared something in a new space! growth!

4. What work of yours has the most hits?

only human, no contest. such is the nature of multichapter and big bang works xD

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

i'll leave it to you was so unexpected! with hxh being a relatively quieter fandom, i had no idea i would get as much engagement on a silly little oneshot in the one piece fandom as i did. bizarre.

goes to show that metrics like kudos and comments and hits are all fake and you should just write what makes you happy.

6. Favorite title you used

not so bad (after all) is such a good, classic something (something else) ao3 title xD

7. If you use song lyrics, which artist’s songs did you pull from the most?

y'all. i'm being so for real when i tell you i am SHOCKED AND AMAZED at the fact that i did not use one single song lyric this year. what happened.

8. Pairing you wrote the most for this year?

LEOPIKA!!! you can tell i was in a leorio phase this year

9. Favorite pairing you wrote for this year?

LEOPIKAAAA!!! see above ;)

10. What work was the quickest to write?

the figurine disaster came so quick because it was so fucking funny in my head xD

11. What work took you the longest to write?

longest because of its length would obvi be only human. longest in terms of the emotional toll it took for me to figure out what the hell i was doing is nearly a tie between not so bad (after all) and play pretend.

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year?

hmmm only the one that's been sitting in my wips for nearly 3 years now. librarian/florist au i will destroy you.

13. What’s your longest work of the year?

my longest work this year is my hxhbb fic, only human, which sits at 16,724 words.

14. What’s your shortest work of the year?

omg so fun. conversely, my shortest work this year is the figurine disaster, a fic written for the greed island challenge server i help shal and liv run! this one has 1,221 words.

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

please see question 12 orz

16. What’s your most common “Additional Tags” tag?

y'all i am so shit at tagging things on ao3. tie between fluff and missing scene, which only have 2 works each xD

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

LEORIO!!!!! i had so much fun with leorio this year, i'm so glad i found my rhythm with him this year because every fic with him has been so much fun to think about.

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

oof i think i butchered melody, tbh. not so bad (after all) was SO HARD to write because i didn't know who the hell melody was deep inside the way i felt i did leorio, so it feels really unbalanced imo. however, i am still proud of that work and i think the one person it was written for enjoyed it, so that's all that matters!

19. What’s one pairing you want to explore next year?

leozep... more zosan... shuggy... i read this question wrong and therefore will not choose one

20. Which work of yours have you reread the most?

through sheer force of will in editing, i suppose only human.

through the absolute giddiness of entering a new fandom, i'll leave it to you.

21. How many kudos in total did you get this year?

495. fic with most kudos was full bloom, merokomu fans have good taste

22. Which work has the most comments?

only human, as my only multichapter fic this year

23. Did you do any collaborative works this year?

if reverse bb fics count, then yes: rose-tinted and play pretend. otherwise, not this year!

24. Did you write any gifts this year?

yes!!!!! rose-tinted, play pretend, whisper in the wind, girl stuff, full bloom, and housewarming! 60% of this year's fics were gifted!

25. Did you receive any gifts this year?

YES SOBS. my dear sweet selkie wrote me THREE gifts this year and then some friends in the greed island server came together with gifts!!! for mods!! where Fathomless_Crazy wrote Paint This Paling Town and i wept about it

26. What’s your most common category?

M/M lmao with gen in second place

27. What do you listen to while writing?

i think this year i was a total weirdo and sat in silence. i do have a tunes for typing playlist though with no words to distract me that's just a mix of classical, videogame and anime soundtracks, and some random lofi

28. Favorite work you wrote this year?

maybe rose-tinted? or honestly the figurine disaster was kind of funny. although i did really have fun with i'll leave it to you. GAH.

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

oh christ. after brief reflection, i think the following chunk from my most recent fic and foray into the one piece fandom, i'll leave it to you, wins. the drama!! the angst!!

The reality is, Sanji has no idea what he’s doing, or even if he’s helping Zoro or just making everything worse. His hands, his goddamn fucking hands still tremble, and no amount of nicotine can help him now and—god fucking dammit Zoro is just bleeding through all the bandages Sanji is wrapping around him, staining a silk tiger crimson. So he keeps wrapping. There is nothing left for him to do but use up all the goddamn bandages he has. Sanji isn’t a god-fearing man, but as he works he is praying to whatever gods favor Wano—or don't, given what he’s seen of this desolate country—that he isn’t paralyzing or killing Zoro as he works.

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year?

probably that i didn't do very much of it this year! i don't know where all the time went... through this it was a pleasant surprise to find that over half of my fics this year were gifts, so that's fun!

PHEW. now i cast the plague upon ye and tag everyone in the world who sees this to do it too :)

[blue-jisungs]

‘kay so here’s the thing:

my new hyper fixation atm is history, more specifically the medieval/victorian era + monarchy (eww ikik)

bc of that i started writing a royalty au for enhypen’s jay. the resume is: the princess’ (a original character) dad died in war and for her to be able to actually inherit the throne she has to get married to a man (JAIL!!), but oh no! it can’t be any man, it has to be a DUKE. who’s the duke? park jongseong, wow how convenient. now the two of them are trapped in this arranged marriage while also having to deal with the consequences of war and all its political issues (blablabla BORIIIING).

now, since i can’t make decisions on my own and i need other’s people approval just like oxygen to live, here is where you enter: i just CANT decide if the time period should be like during our current time (which is convenient but kinda takes off the magic of royalty), during the idk 80s maybe the 90s (cause yk electricity and stuff), or straight up during the 18/1900s (this one sounds the rightest to me but like it’s so hard writing about that time bc how am i supposed to make a character not obsessed with taylor swift if that basically my whole personality and all my characters are self-inserts??????). maybe just use the power of creativity and fiction and make it in the 1900 + electricity + taylor???????

dunno if any of that made sense i feel like i have zero blood in my brain rn and i sound 3x more crazy than i actually am lol why is it so long????? omg

okay first of all i’m in, you got me at jay. second of all, royalty au jay? 💳💥💳💥💥💳💥

regarding your question…. it is a hard choice. i’d go for 1900s tbh! it’ll have this oh so magical vibe <3 sadly you couldn’t be able (technically) to make a character obsessed with taylor BUT who cares 😭 just turn her into a local bard or poet🤩🤩🤩 soahwoshah im kidding but tbh that’s something i’d do😭 or just sneak in some lyrics or song titles teehee

in the end it might be harder to write it but i do believe in it may be more fun! :D i hope i helped you even a bit <\\3

AND I’LL BE LOOKING FORWARD TO READ IT IF YOU END UP PUBLISHING IT!!!!! 🫶

[hinamie]

oh my god ok so i know im late I didn't talk about it because it happened during one of my Offline Eras but . but listen ok lisn the new former vandal album sent me THROUgh the FUCKINNG ROOF to be fair i knew it would like i joked about going upstairs to listen to it and cry when it dropped but i didn't think that every fucking song would hit me so hard in the kokoro it made me wail because I too have immense religious guilt ANYWAY im gonna rant incoherently and at length now hope u all missed me

ok first of all gotta shout out the fuckin album title i knew it was gonna be devastating when I saw it . fuckin. divine interference????? music for god's playthings indeed i eat that shit up i was like yoooooo hes also got a bone to pick with jesus go off bestie <333

so former vandal are artists visionaries kings so ofc tracklist is all mythology n religion-inspired (lazarus/goliath/ouroboros etc) and i think its so cool that theyre all in caps until u get to the end and the final song is denial and it's in lowercase and maybe its simple but i was like ART. ARTTTTTT. and it made me go back and look at the tracklist of their previous album and I realized that the whole thing was about vices and unhealthy coping with an overwhelming and forsaken existence but then the final song was Get Right (still my go-to comfort song to this day tbh tbh tbh) and it's like an acknowledgement that ok maybe none of this is the answer and something has to change anyway wrong album oops back 2 divine interference

i made a point of listening to the songs that hadnt been released as singles first so the first song i listened to was Lazarus and tbh probably my fav song on the album maybe tied with parables and maaaaybe even icarian. BUT LAZARUS SLAPS SOS SOSOOSO HARD god the theme of not knowing how to leave something behind even when it's bad for you,,, both criticizing but also mirroring the actual story of lazarus in the lyrics being like "wow kinda fucked up of god for resurrecting u without ur consent" but also acknowledging that he himself is guilty of holding onto the things that kill him.,,, GOD ITS SO FUCKING G GOOD I FDFGSADFGDG

salt also !!! BANGER not quite up there with the likes of lazarus but it gets bonus points because a. i lov the idea of starting to recognize that you're coming into yourself n an identity apart from your vices n traumas and b. for having two of the most RAW lines in the entire album imo which is reaaallly saying something: "now that everything's bright I guess I'm fine/but there's an art in the dark that took years to refine" and "the spark of divine intervention/that I'm still terrified I've left behind" (ALBUM TITLE DROP ALBUM TITLE DROP) god these two just dont miss and i love it but i am far too neurodivergent to contain myself they need to give me a break pls i am v i b r a t i n g

ok gonna move into the Chill(tm) tracks I think with goliath as well as shame/rotten I vibe more with the lyrics than the actual songs because i prefer my angsty alt pop to be Upbeat thank u very much but can i just say. the lyrics of these two songs ESPECIALLY SHAME/ROTTEN LIKE ok first of all i love the tonal shift halfway through that manages not to make them feel like completely different songs it's just jarring enough like there's been an acceptance of sorts,, like omg same i too am like 'god i feel like the scum of the earth might as well own it a bit',, "the fear of god/the need for blame" fuckin bullseye ow,, "I starve to feed the parts of me/far from who i oughta be/tell me are you proud of me yet?" FUCKIN BULLSEYE OWW

I know i just said i prefer my angst upbeat but crocodile tears (very upbeat very rock wuaw) is probably my least favourite track if i had to pick but it does have a lyrical BANGER of an opening verse ("holding the hand that's holding me under" g o d) i think i just don't dig the overall melody too much and find the ending a bit repetitive fr my tastes,, who knows though it took a while and many re-listens for ouroboros to grow on me maybe this'll b a similar story ,, but then again ouroboros had the advantage of echoing mine own mental health and self-destructive behaviours shdgj

ok so i was crying from the beginning right but the songs that made me ugly bawl were growing pains (very similar vibes to get right but in a "i know that i'm healing" way rather than a "i need to heal" way) and denial,, but starting w growing pains,, my god idk What they did with the mic/vocals after the bridge but it felt like the music was being injected directly into my ears secret direct path 2 my bloodstream god I hadnt felt chills like that in such a long time and idk just the whole Mood of the song having been hurting for so long and only now starting to recognize the damage you've done but also appreciate the progress youv made,,, i have so so many emotions but DENIAL (its funny saying it in caps bc its the only track in lowercase getit getit) oh my god ths going straight on the list of Songs That Make Me Think About My Relationship With My Dad but also Songs That Make Me Emo About All The People I've Grown Apart From and i think its so powerful to frame a personal transition away from faith as growing apart from an old friend and missing them despite any hard feelings holy shit though holy shit . the first listen by this point i had already been emotionally devastated by the Whole Album so i was like ok surely ill get a break by the last song lol nope sorry i ended up crying so hard i think i gave myself a headache

I think I must have yelled about the songs that they released as singles when they dropped individually but it's been so long that i forget what i said but honestly parables and icarian are still just as good as when i heard them for the first time (when parables dropped i spilled my tea on my fucking notes bc i was vibing too hard),, I love parables' msg of accepting the lessons ur (traumatic) past taught u and how it shaped u as a person even if u recognize that that person is someone hurt and in need of healing and maybe that has to happen alone! and i know for a fact i've gushed about icarian (still one of the most gojocore songs Ever imho dont fight me on this) but now looking at it in the context of the rest of the album i love that it's first cause it really frames the whole icarus thing of having flown too close to the sun or to god and getting burned and that pain essentially being the catalyst for the entire Journey tht the rest of the album outlines (obsessed w the fact that the next song is jaded like fr having these two songs one after the other is literally "fucked around/found out" gsfhjsh)

but all that being said not to b dramatic but this album destroyed me it rearranged something deep in my soul and i don't know who i was before it but i probably wont ever be the same :) i literally love these two so much im so appreciative of them its so rare to feel so Seen by a piece of media so to have an entire album hit so incredibly close to home for me and slap while doing so????? i feel so lucky . this entire album feels like taking the first step to address years of hurt and self destruction it feels like losing a friend it feels like finding yourself and i just . i love it so much

[hyuckmov]

hiii moon anon here i have a lot to say but first off: i've been analyzing the title song settle down and i've been listening to it over and over again and is the story gonna parallel the lyrics itself?? "and i don't seem to be having any effect now" like thats… oooh the angst is gonna be delicious. i hope you take this as a compliment when i say this but the whole fic takes me BACK to 2013-2015 YOU KNOW THAT ERA HAHAHA the tropes, the ambiance, the CHARACTERS!! side question: is mark or jisung gonna play bigger roles? or did they just act as plot devices for reader and haechans development. would not mind either way but given the concept of the story i can totally imagine reader coming back and just wreaking havoc on the band. sorry i love mess lol. maybe i'm delusional or maybe its the fact that it's haechan but it makes me more understanding of the character?? i trust you when you say that there's more to rockstar hc than meets the eye, and especially from his perspective it's pretty realistic that he has his guard up when it comes to really connecting with people, and we see his walls slowly crumbling down by the end too. and even in the earlier parts of the story i didn't expect him to have his sweet moments?? i honestly expected him to be worse but god him calling her PRINCESS has me on my knees i will defend reader's choices with my life because i'd do the same, i'd probably still go to the concert by the end she's so much stronger than me helppp (tho DISCLAIMER i would not be doing this for just any man its bc its haechan why i am easily swayed by the little things,,, just like reader), but i liked how she decided to take a step back this time, especially when at that point haechan is basically offering her what she has always wanted, but knowing his past actions it won't be truly easy to hang onto every word said. this is the culmination of every mixed signals and rejection that haechan gave her, and the build up to it is veryyy well done. also im still reeling from reading the fic i felt sooo many emotions and dk how to fully articulate it yet,, maybe i'll come back when i do. i even made a playlist of my own w songs that reminded me of the fic to help me move on (at least until pt 2 gets posted, cant wait tho!!)

MOON ANON.... when i say my jaw dropped.... my heart rate actually spiked i can't believe you wrote such a detailed review and theorized this makes me so happy especially since you basically inspired me with this idea !!!! giving you a huge hug rn 🫂🤍 

omg ngl this fic encouraging people to listen to settle down makes me so happy because it's one of my favorite songs 😭 it makes me feel so honoured to know that you are analysing the lyrics and anticipating the plot like that really means so much to me !!! i definitely picked it because it had themes i wanted to explore throughout the song...but the lines kind of contain both hyucks and readers pov hehe so i'm excited to explore that in part 2

i take that as a DEFINITE COMPLIMENT i was so invested in that era it was so formative for me... hence a lot of the song choice in my playlist too... i don't know if i genuinely nailed the idea of rockstar in rockstar haechan (because truly...what is a rockstar...) but i did want to give it that 2013 band on tumblr vibe lmfao so i'm so glad you brought that up !!!!

AAAA the band still definitely continues to play a role... they have stuff to work out but i've thought about their characters a lot and i definitely want to show more of their opinions on haechan and reader (it wouldn't be a rockstar au without that). someone else i want to add in is jaemin because ngl reader needs someone purely on her side

i hope i'm not promising too much with haechan HAHA i'm not someone who likes to give too much backstory to characters so i'm just putting it out there: i'm not going to explain that he's this way becaue he was cheated on before or he had family problems etc. i just want it to be genuine layers of his character and personality that's put to the test (love making it hard for myself LOL)

i'm so relieved to know you still managed to feel for his character and appreciate the softer sides of him and a bit of his struggle... i was worried i promised a super terrible character with the preview and people would be disappointed he ended up being so gentle with reader 😅

and her standing him up at the end!!! i'm glad you thought it was justified but at the same time recognise she probably was going to...it really could go both ways and idk if i'm still going through with my original plot arc !!! we will see :)

this was already so articulate omg once i appreciate it sooo so so so much that you shared such a detailed review with me, it literally blows my mind and i will reread your ask again and again !!!! omg and if u want please share your playlist with me too!!! i want to see what songs there are that give him vibes ~~

thank you sm again...you are too nice to me ily!!!!

[emisirrelevant]

WE ARE THE TIGERS/WATT WEEK DAY 4

HAPPY WATT WEEK DAY 4!!!

Today’s prompt is: Pom poms up

Continuing with my contributions for the week, as this is a lyric from Shut Up and Cheer, I will give my song commentary and analysis of it.

The fact I have been in Eva’s place before actually (minus the people dying, but the drama, OH GOD. Yes, I can confirm even SWIM TEAM can have drama. And not the drama in the musical theater way)

•”In a room full of people who have clearly mad bad choices, I may be the stupidest one here”

•Now WOAH WOAH WOAH. There’s so much to say here.

•FIRST, I LOVE THIS LINE. What a BANGER opening line

•PRESTON MAX ALLEN KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING COMING UP WITH THIS OKAY?

•It says a LOT in one line

•effective ways to start a song: be Eva in WATT

•Also just Sydney Parra. That’s all.

•Finally, I just realized could this lyric still technically work if you swapped “people” and “choices”?

•“in a room full of choices who have clearly made bad people” idk 😂

•”Cause having heard the stories, and knowing all the drama” Eva my beloved come here I will give you all the hugs

•”I still said I’d join the murder squad this year” Omg an alternative title for WATT? “Murder Squad the Musical”

•and technically if we’re getting logical Riley is the main agent because Reese k wording Clark was an accident but yeah okay anyway

•”I swore that lightning won’t strike twice, and surely this is all under control” oh honey- YOU GOT A BIG STORM COMING

•”This school costs more than I can say, they straight up comped me 60k” HONEY THAT SHOULD’VE BEEN THE WARNING SIGN/FIRST RED FLAG

•”but also I’m afraid I sold my soul” Never would I have thought to comment here and make a connection to Faust but curse that one college course that made me read Faust- I have a feeling Eva would hate Goethe too

•”So I can say no this shit is insane” THE WAY SHE ADDS A BIT OF A GROWL ON “SHIT”

•”Or I can keep my cool and stay in my lane” ME when there was drama on my swim team and I was not living for it and just trying to live my own life

ARE WE READY FOR THE NEXT PART??

AH HERE IT COMES

AND PUT MY POM POMS UP, OH I RA RA RAH AND DISAPPEAR, SHUT UP AND CHEER

•“They won’t even know that I am here” In other situations I would say oof Eva deserves to shine for sure, I mean yeah she only gets like this song but yeah I understand she was the new girl so she only just got there but it makes sense to me and I’m glad Preston put in in the album because it gives us HER perspective like “do you ever look at someone and wonder what is going on inside their head” also maybe it’s a good thing Eva was masking because imagine if Riley went after her next

•”I have worked so hard for so much less” OOOOOOOH TOO RELATABLE, RELATABLE LINE ONCE AGAIN

•”I think maybe every high school is a mess” Eva you couldn’t be more real in this song I swear

•”you want a little structure, you just want a smaller class size, and somehow you have ended up in hell” can also confirm

•”if everyone seems crazy maybe I’m the one who’s crazy” Eva is just so real

•also quick psa, on a musical side note, I LOVE THE PIANO MELODY/RYTHYM IN THIS SONG!!

•”and all of them are doing really well” girl you’re probably the most stable one here tbh

•”or see these goddamn girls won’t get in my way” I kind love how she sings this line, tbh part of me feels like she’s letting some inner Riley out

•“shut up and cheer and back awaaaaaAAAAAaaaAay” YES EVA SING

•”complicated god I know it, I’m afraid but I won’t show it” also a mood

•”I can pray that they’ll outgrow it” Well thank god most of them did (rip we’ll never know about Chess and Farrah if they lived tho)

•”take a chance and make it through the year” LOVE how the instrumental builds up through this section

•”get in the clear” I’m sensing the double meaning here

•”And say that life’s not fair, oh I’ve so been there” who hasn’t tbh

•“Shut up and cheer ready ok”

EVA MY BELOVED. My favorite real icon and to think it started from just delivering pizza. This whole song is just one giant mood. I love it.

[balladtv]

ok. this will be fun but playlist for your life right now? with explanations on why you like them / how they related to you. (idm whether its 5 or 20 songs, i need recommendations and i need explanations AHAHA)

omg best question ever award. initially I wanted to keep this like ‘album length’ (max 15 songs) but we’ll see how it goes :’) also so sorry this took like forever I kept changing everything LMAO

track 1 — ‘the 1975’

being funny in a foreign language, the 1975

a pretty obvious choice for the opening song. was a toss up if it was either going to include the bfiafl version or the self-titled version — in the end decided to go with the bfiafl version because of the lyric “I’m sorry if you’re living and you’re seventeen”, because I am seventeen. therefore it was more appropriate to include this one whilst I can! like I said, I was undoubtedly going to start with a version of ‘the 1975’ because it’s the perfect representation and reset of the things that I love.

track 2 — ‘you belong with me (taylor’s version)’

fearless (taylor’s version), taylor swift

now the next two songs are basically the representation of my childhood. before I even fully knew who taylor actually was, I was obsessed with watching the music video for this song and I was absolutely in love with it. when I got older and went my own way before finding my way back to her, the amount of nostalgia I got from this song was insane — making me love her even more now. fearless will forever & always (pun!!!) be my favourite taylor album.

track 3 — ‘red (taylor’s version)’

red (taylor’s version), taylor swift

much like you belong with me, the whole red album was the album that I actively remember listening to the most when I was in primary school and actually grasped taylor as a person for the first time. madness to think how full circle I’ve actually come now that I’m going into year 13 (over a decade later).

track 4 — ‘roxanne’

outlandos d’amour, the police

this has been one of my top spotify songs for quite some time, and I first started listening to it because it came from one of my favourite films / musicals of all time — moulin rouge! my uncle also has the picture disc for this album (if my memory serves me right) so it’s also nostalgic to have that family connection to it, I always love what music is capable of doing in terms of relationships. it’s absolutely magical.

track 5 — ‘stuck on a puzzle’

submarine soundtrack, alex turner

I was introduced to this song through the film ‘submarine’ (richard ayoade) as it was one of my set texts for a-level media studies. majority of my class heavily disliked the film, but it instantly shot to one of my favourites of all time — the cinematography along with the soundtrack is some of the most masterful work I’ve ever had the pleasure of viewing. the lyrics themselves in the song also just gives me that mellow feeling when listening to it (as alex turner’s voice itself is amazing). I’m also welsh, so watching the film gives me the same feeling as gavin & stacey, constantly picking out locations that I know and also sharing almost the exact same accent as to the ones in the film haha!

track 6 — ‘thick skull’

this is why, paramore

these next few songs I’ve placed in the playlist to sort of represent my long battle with mental health problems (which I’m very happy and proud to admit that currently I’m the happiest I have ever been since I was like 9 lol), and thick skull does that perfect representation (also whilst being sung by hayley williams, what more can a girl ask for). the sinking feeling that I get from listening to this song truly does feel like drowning in the best of ways, mimicking that battle that you have to have with yourself. from the slow start to the layered buildup towards the end, it truly does feel like an explosion.

track 7 — ‘i always wanna die (sometimes)’

a brief inquiry into online relationships, the 1975

I feel like I am constantly talking about this song so I probably won’t elaborate on it that much, but from suffering with a personal loss that’s represented almost to a t through this song is why it’ll always be so important to me. from “your death it won’t happen to you, it happens to your family and your friends” to “if you can’t survive, just try”, anything else I could possibly say is in the lyrics themselves.

track 8 — ‘fine line’

fine line, harry styles

this songs included because it reminds me of one of my bestest friends in the entire world. although this doesn’t have the deepest meaning behind it, when we both went to a harry styles concert together, a group of girls in the row behind us snapped a photo of us hugging each other during fine line and it’s become my favourite photo of all time. I’ll include it at the bottom, so then this song just became our song :)

track 9 — ‘the crow & the butterfly’

sound of madness, shinedown

this song comes from one of my dads favourite albums, and the instruments in this song are just breathtaking. my nan also vehemently hates the idea of me getting tattoos, and when I asked her what I should get for her, other than being like don’t you dare; she said get a butterfly (with the most annoyed look on her face ever hahahah). therefore this song also reminds me of her :)

track 10 — ‘symptom of being human’

planet zero, shinedown

this other shinedown track is also included because one of the best concerts I’ve ever been too was on the planet zero tour. also, listen to this song and pay attention to the lyrics because it’s so emotional and the meaning behind it is insane. it really makes you feel seen and special!

track 11 — ‘i’m so sick’

flyleaf, flyleaf

this is included because it’s just one of my favourite songs of all time, and the vocalist on the track (lacey sturm) is just an absolute powerhouse! no other reason other than that hahaha.

track 12 — ‘aimee’

ozzmosis, ozzy osbourne

pretty obvious, it’s my name (and I love ozzy anyways).

track 13 — ‘funny how love is’

queen II, queen

queen have always and will always be one of my favourite bands of all time (as I’m absolutely in love with roger taylor) and queen II is just my absolute favourite album by them, and one of my tops of all time. this song reminds me of me first starting my vinyl collection and going record hunting for the first time, in which I bought first pressings of their debut self titled album and queen II.

track 14 — ‘all I need to hear’

being funny in a foreign language, the 1975

one of my favourites on the album that means so much to me, so had to include it for that reason. I love singing along to the track over any other 1975 song, and also getting to hear tim healy sing this live at finsbury was just magical.

track 15 — ‘sunshine baby’

in the end it always does, the japanese house

again, one of my favourite artists of all time, and one of my favourite albums of all time. this is my favourite song on the album and it just gives me vibes haha! some of my favourite flowing lyrics of all time as well, “the feeling when the windscreen wipers line up with the song”.

track 16 — ‘sincerity is scary’

a brief inquiry into online relationships, the 1975

had to include this because it comes from my favourite 1975 album, and I wanted to include it because I feel like it perfectly demonstrates meaningful but satirical lyricism.

track 17 — ‘mean (taylor’s version)’

speak now (taylor’s version), taylor swift

again, a pretty simple reason (I’m running out of things to waffle about at this point, only so many times can I say I love a song) but this one goes out to all the negativity that people have tried to feed into my life, because they will never define you :)

track 18 — ‘i am the fire’

into the wildlife, halestorm

halestorm are also another band that my dad introduced me too, and seeing them live for the first time and getting a pick from a concert for the first time will always be a stand out memory to me. also, I love the message behind the song and how uplifting it can be!

track 19 — ‘i bet you look good on the dance floor’

whatever people say I am that’s what I’m not, arctic monkeys

this song reminds me of my other best mate in the whole entire world, who I’ve known for years. she’s always been a bigger arctic monkeys fan that I have and I am so proud of her for accomplishing everything she has today. although she’ll never see this I’m so proud of her! more than she’d ever know.

track 20 — ‘left behind’

plush (released as a single)

from another one of my favourite bands of all time, this is their newest single release. it’s hard, it’s heavy, and I absolutely love jamming out to it. a girl rock band all under 22 — sign me up!

track 21 — ‘girls, girls, girls’

girls girls girls, mötley crüe

recently saw mötley crüe in wembley with my dad, and it was so emotional being able to see his all time favourite band with him. this was one of the first mötley songs that I ever listened to and realised oh shit my dad wasn’t lying!

track 22 — ‘give yourself a try’

a brief inquiry into online relationships, the 1975

favourite 1975 song. means so much to me. the message is just the most important.

track 23 — ‘people’

notes on a conditional form, the 1975

ending on a complete high, reminds of the end of finsbury (the best gig ever) when I absolutely lost my shit and had the most adrenaline ever. really sums up the person who I’ve become!

so turns out this was actually insanely difficult — listen time clocking in at 1hr & 27m. but this genuinely just sums up me as a person, absolutely all over the place, up and down, leaving you thinking ‘wtf is going on’. I hope you enjoy, and if you don’t recognise any of the songs, I would 110% recommend them :) (also could u tell I literally had to cut down so many the 1975 songs and couldn’t just have it all them LMAO)

bonus tracks:

forget (ashley suppa), all dead all dead (queen), epiphany (mammoth wvh), over there (the japanese house), nana (the 1975), I couldn’t be more in love (the 1975), nothing revealed / everything denied (the 1975)

[vetustamorla]

I'm here with the writing asks as I promised! and I have a few hehehe: 11, 12, 16, 22, 41, 61 (out of the whole of la noche eterna), and 68

omg good luck to me 🙏 i'm a little tipsy so this might be a mess

11. Do you write scenes in order, or do you jump around?

i do write in order!!! this wasn't always the case but for the last few minds i just have to have the knowlegde that i got through This bit to get to this other bit, or else my mind gets stuck. however, having done both, i think both are pretty great

12. Do you outline your fics?  If yes, how detailed are your outlines?  How far do you stray from them?

bfhdbfdbvhjfd i """outline"""........it's more of a braindump? i write out bits of scenes and dialogues and details like i am describing them to myself and go off that, dedicating half of my screen to that and half to the document i am writing in. it has worked Wonders and allowed me to take some pressure off my brain by having these very detailed, very silly notes to go off

16. Do you write by hand, on your phone, or on your laptop?

on my laptop!!! but years ago i was pretty much only writing on my phone. i have carpal tunnel problems so by hand is a no-go for me

22. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process?  How do you come up with titles?

.........it depends???? but mostly during or after. the titles are pretty much always from songs, or reiterations of the song lyric, that i've been listening to while writing. i've never been very original in my titling nor am i pretending to be tbh

(fun fact: make my world stop, everyone (no one)'s favourite fic, was pretty much from the very beginning called yuck in my document bc i'd been listening to charli xcx so much vhfdvngdjfnbg however later on the tone changed and i had to adapt the title with that </3)

41. Who’s your favorite character you’ve written?

mine is also leon i think 😭😭😭😭 i went so heavily on his mindset and i feel like i know him from the inside out now; it's unlike anything i've ever written before. in the past my favourite character was silva from my technically-rpf-but-not-really series, for the same reasons, because i focused so heavily on his psyche and felt like i know his every, even the worst, emotion at all times. with leon i'm happy to also explore the happier side of things and that's what makes it so enjoyable to write, the intricacies to explore with his character are pretty much endless!

61. In la noche eterna, what’s your favorite scene that you wrote?

it has to be between these two for me:

one: the part of the porn bit in when eden was lost where luis finally drops the pretense and lets leon see him and feel him and comfort him. that just... that's been on my mind pretty much as soon as the idea for this fic was born, and it made me uncomfortable to write because of how fucking hard it went, how bit by bit luis goes from masking and keeping up appearances to getting leon to make it better but without commiting and to, finally, accepting it. accepting the pain. living with it. living through it.

two: the exchange between the merchant and leon in make my world stop. this might be an unobvious one but i enjoyed SO much proverbially hitting the reader on the arm like ehm, hello, small reminder that the merchant while awesome is still in fact a ganado! and seeing him forget that compassionate and helpful part of himself in lieu of being drawn to leon, to the plaga in leon, was really fun to write. and really spooky.

[send me a fic ask or a few!]

[igiveyoumyblood]

‘Bite Me’ First Reactions

Whoops almost posted this on the ATEEZ blog. And got distracted by Scoups in the process... Sorry not sorry. 

Well, it’s been like 10 months since our last comeback. And was the wait worth it? Of course not. But was the comeback good? Um....

I mean, I guess it’ll grow on me. The song, for sure. The MV I guess. The choreo maybe. The lyrics, not so much. 

I ended up having a decent bit to say about this before I even got into the MV analysis so everything is below the line.

First, some good points for us;

Vampires are back!!!!

Chess

Very Gothic

Some very pretty shots in the MV - wonderful use of lighting, set and composition

Some ENHYPEN themes in the lyrics like fate, the body on the cellular level

Codependency????

Some bad points for us;

Some trashy romance lyrics in the song

Codependency is an interesting theme to explore but I don’t think it’s been done as well as TXT

HYBE reusing TXT’s storyline?

Choreo that makes it easy to sexualise STILL A MINOR Niki

No werewolves

Song’s a bit meh imo

Not enough blood for an ENHYPEN title track

Actually just a lack of blood in general. I am unimpressed

Which idiot put Jay in a black shirt and a sparkly vest because that is a disgusting combination and the stylists should know by now that vests are very unflattering on him

Bad screenshot but omg that looks bad. Niki looks like he’s picking his nose and Jungwon is slaying, tho. 

Is it supposed to be a homage to a fencing lame? A very vampiric sport? But then again, ENHYPEN are football players, not fencing... Or maybe it’s a homage to the trashy vests he wore in Pass The Mic? Because it doesn’t look like either of those options.

I love the outfits in this scene, but Jay’s is a -1100/10 for me. Poor guy doesn’t deserve this.

Moving on, we have the lyrics. As I pointed out before, they do bring back some concepts related to ENHYPEN, like fate, dreams, connections etc. But they’re also very reminiscent of a trashy romance song. Which could be for any combination of three reasons;

1) Getting the people who are attracted to these boys swooning

2) To be in line with the vampire genre/archetype, which is heavily tied to romance, BDSM etc - see lines like ‘tie me up’ and all of that.

3) To critique the above by pointing out a toxic and codependent relationship - see the whole ‘save me,’ ‘searching for you,’ ‘worships you’ bit.

I imagine it’s some combination of the three. In which case, I am sick and tired of #1, it is an uninteresting version of #2, and #3 has been done better by HYBE through TXT. So either way, HYBE wins (I guess) and ENHYPEN loses. 

All that complaining aside, the lyrics aren’t that bad. They reintroduce us to the storyline, which I love. They have a lot of references, which I also love. And they can be analysed in many ways - literally see the above. Which is a great part of art, I think. The ambiguity may be annoying, but it’s also fascinating. I don’t have much to say about them that I haven’t already said, though. The most important lyrics are the ones I’ve already pointed out.

So with that in mind, let’s move on to a gloriously Gothic MV.

Loving the tower - it has a great combination of light and dark, which is heavily tied to grey morality (cough, vampires, cough). It also looks like it’s abandoned and decaying (cough, vampires), like the tower of a castle (vampires), and like a prison (say it with me - mysterious lords of faraway castles who turn out to be VAMPIRES). And - catacombs (can you guess what goes in these brackets?).

I also like how the bases of the windows can look a bit like chains at first, and how there is a dark spot at the top - where bats (ahem, vampires) or other evil may lurk. 

Low angle = powerlessness, which is what they talk about in the lyrics. 

Also love how it reminds me of the tower from Given-Taken (best song), the grungey concrete aesthetic of Pass The Mic (visual connection to the previous comeback), and Guerrilla by ATEEZ (Gothic boys being Gothic). 

Honestly a masterful shot and they were so lucky to get this as s hooting location. Since I’m pretty sure it’s real, not CGI. 

You can’t see from the still, but the moving/flickering clouds and lights outside the tower also show, duh, passing time - time being a key element of both ENHYPEN and vampire stories.

Bruv it’s only the first shot and I wrote 200+ words. This is when you know that maybe being a media student was taking your love for media a step too far. 

I like how this shot mirrors the formation of the previous shot. I also like how they all turn away from the light. And how it makes the audience feel incredibly powerless. 

The set here is lovely, but the light temperature bothers me - it looks too artificial and makes it look like we woke up in a lab not an epic vampire castle.

But wake up we did. And we woke up in the midst of vanpires.

Now they look towards the light, but the light is the moon during the day - an unusual thing, and which probably means werewolves. 

WEREWOOOOOOOOOLLLLVES. 

And this is about as close to an &TEAM cameo as we’ll get, I guess >:(

Thus the ‘Dark Moon’ logo sequence with the eclipse. 

I have no clue where this is supposed to be, and ENHYPEN are living up to their vampire superpowers, because they seem to be teleporting with every comeback. But it looks nice and very Gothic. I like how, from this distance, the mountain can look a bit like a monster with a smaller skull and rib bones on it’s back. 

Maybe I watch too many ‘Iron Lung’ videos. 

And that’s about as close to blood as we’re going to get in this MV.

Again, the 7-circle formation which is honestly not unique to ENHYPEN, but still worth noting. And they’re in the white outfits - did they get smote down by the power of the moon wolves? 

I mean that is classic vampire imagery right there. Maybe they needed to sleep to heal from the werewolves. 

It’s also an intteresting way to emphasise the powerlessness that they describe/imply in the lyrics. 

Ayo they’re gonna keep teleporting. It’s another tower, which is possibly more dilapidated than the other. And, of course, later in the day. Perfect for vampires. 

For some reason, every single time I’ve watched this MV - which is many times by now - I have had the exact thought ‘yo that circle kind of reminds me of a pentagon’ at this exact moment - not before when they’re in a circle, not when they turn into coffins, no. When they turn into floating coffins. 

This is also a very clever way in my opinion to go from an extreme high angle o a low angle. 

I love how the blue light from above transitions to red and dark - reminds me of, again, catacombs, and also, duh, of hell. 

I think the floor is bizarre in this set, but it becomes important later so I’ll excuse it. 

Also love he starting formation for the choreo. 

JUNGWOOOOOOOOOOONNNNN

I know some people hate the pale contacts on idols, and in lots of cases it’s out of concept, but it’s completely in-concept for ENHYPEN, and I love it.

I’m a big fan of this set, other than the unfortunate way in which it reminds me of Yoongi-priest in whichever BTS video that was.

The candles are amazing, and so is the mirror-window centrepiece. It evokes vampire lore (invisible in mirrors), common media (a standoff in a dream world between a hero and villain, complete with a chessboard), and the Gothic in general (no one is there, and then someone appears).

I like that it’s Jungwon v Sunghoon - Sunghoon was the one defending the girl (who I presume is the one from the webtoon but no one knows because no one can read it because it’s paid) in the album teaser, and Jungwon is the leader, thus most likely the most powerful vampire, either in authority or in power. 

I like how this shot transitions from looking like very questionable blood.

To a flock of demon birds.

To our physics-loving Aussie Jake. 

More vampire lore and references - they may be cliche, but at least I can respect them as very Gothic and very epic. 

As expected, turns out the ‘blood’ was the Dark Moon that seems to rule over their lives as soon as HYBE wants more money thus webtoon.

Dang, imagine having your career as an idol determined by some semi-random webtoon. Kind of funny and kind of epically unique. 

I love how Niki’s always the one in the MVs to get the casual displays of power. And I also love the ornaments in his hair. 

This reminds me of him floating in Given-Taken, which makes me think that he is both a floater and a teleporter. I say with no evidence and having not looked at the webtoon yet for fear of cringe.

Also loving how he is high above us and effortlessly lording over us - the duality of us being powerful (in the lyrics) and powerless (in the MV) here is really fascinating. 

The lighting of this scene and this MV in general is top-notch. Makes them look like one big monster. And, of course, the Gothic architecture and the blood-red on the outside. It also looks like they are reaching for the light - perfect timing for the line ‘God.’

The ‘oh my god’ line is both hilarious and brilliant. The delivery makes me laugh, but also reminds me of the Addams’ family, and the way it disrupts the song and is deep and hypnotising while evoking Christian imagery is a wonderous blend of Gothic and vampire media cues. 

YEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS BEST SHOT OF THE MV.

More Sunoo being stalked by things.

Shadows

Shadow puppets

Grasping hands

Sunoo in the control of someone?

Menacing

Blood red

Stage 

Plush and luxurious - rich vampires

He looks both incredibly powerful and incredibly powerless

Shillouettes

The shining pearls and jewels of his jacket

Lighting person you have my heart, please marry me

More of this epic lighting.

Love this moment of Sunghoon - he executes this move perfectly. I also love this section of the choreo, which kind of emulates strangulation, but also perhaps when a vampire grabs someone’s neck to bite them. And if you read it in the right context, could be considered sexy.

A few seconds ago (about 1:00 in the MV) they put their arms out, which remainds me in this context of crucifixion. But I can’t find a screenshot that has both their arms fully outstretched and Niki’s tongue in his mouth (the later making me incredibly uncomfortable). So I will just tell you about it instead of showing it. 

Mind you, I guess we’ve all seen it anyway...

Omg what do you think he’s holding? Omg is that a pawn? Omg are we all pawns in his game? Wow such monumental and amazing storytelling.

I mean, it’s a well-known trope for a reason, but it’s also very overused. I also wonder why they would use it here - since Sunghoon was the protector in the trailer, and thus painted as a good guy while the others were bad. Is this supposed to be a hint that he’s actually the bad guy/brainwashed by the evil girl? And that Jungwon is the good one? Ngl I could not tell what Jungwon was holding for the life of me, except that it was not a pawn (since it was bigger) and may have been either a queen or king. Probably a queen because HYBE has enough gay rumours and they don’t need more. 

Omg he burst.

Okay then...

And now they’ll look at the light? I am very concerned about how there is a growing light over my head while I lie on the ground surrounded by a circle of silent vampires.

Now I actually like this choreo for the most part - I think it’s fascinating that they chose to include the female backup dancers, since it’s something that ENHYPEN haven’t done before and which shows them as debonairs catching all the womenfolk (which is very vampire of them). However, I also hate it. First, because of how these kinds of choreographies objectify the backup dancers, whether they’re male or female. And second, because it is associated, in kpop, with sexy concepts. And I am so glad that Jungwon is in the centre but I despise how Niki is still a part of this choreo. Because HYBE clearly thought they hadn’t had enough sexy-coded choreos for this still-minor dude.

That said, I like how the women are in red and with face coverings. Although that does increase the subconscious sexiness of it, it also shows how the vampires do objectify these women, through covering their faces and seeing them literally as just sexy bags of blood. 

It also adds to the nobility aesthetic of vampires.

I like how the choreo includes them in a pseudo-ballroom dance, where the women have their hands around their necks - another subversion of who is in control here, and a subversion of ENHYPEN as vampires as their likely victims are the one who show control over them.

I’m also so sorry for what I did to your face, Jungwon. I swear it was an accident.

Like this part where they’re like the opposite of each other. But not liking the butt-touching.

Yas, great choreo. Can we just release it in a minimum of 7 months, please, HYBE? 

Loving whichever ruins they got to do this in - catacombs, European, and disintegrating. All vampire things. Although I wish that they went into the Korean concept of vampires more than the American and European ideas, they are pulling ALL of the Eurpoean/American vampire cards.

This MV is the European version, by the way.

Yessssss. Cropped because Niki was in the background. 

Loving how Sunoo is looking at the camera.

And loving how this move is kind of seductive, but of course, also controlling.

Not going to lie, I’m a bit confused about why the moon turned into a chandelier, and why they ended up in the same scene as Niki. But I do love how the chandelier is swinging, like a pendullum (passing of time) and also like it’s hypnotising you (ahem, vampires). 

It also gives a unique and sort of magical lighting effect to the scene, and, of course, is very elegant and rich (ahem, vampires).

Loving this choreo and the shadows on the walls. 

The neck-snapping returns. 

And Jungwon being epic in the background again. 

Also really loving this sequence where they merge into each other - it’s kind of creepy in a very toned down body-horror way, is disconcerting, and, of course, we’ve got the red lighting. Also reminds me of Bohemian Rhapsody for some reason, but that’s not a bad thing because the ‘oh my god’ line reminds me of that song too, and that song had a lot of inspiration from and impact on the Gothic. 

Ahh yes, Jay and his horse. On a cold, moonlit night. Very vampire, very Gothic. I don’t know why he suddenly has a horse when Sunghoon had one in the trailer, but I’ll take it I guess. 

YESSS

YESSSSSSS

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

We’ve seen hints previously, but this sequence shows that Sunghoon and Jungwon are dealing with a chessboard. An actual chessboard. And since it is on both sides, it is, again a mirror. Whcih implies to me that they are the same person....? Um some meaning may have been lost in translation, HYBE. 

Anyway, the reason I pointed out the floor earlier is because now we can see that it IS the chessboard. They are all pawns in the game of Sunghoon and Jungwon... who are pawns in their own game... who may be the same person... who are probably both being controlled by someone else.... and the girl is suspiciously absent in this MV despite being such a big part of the trailer.... hmmmm wow I wonder what happened here?

In case anyone was wondering, that is indeed sarcasm. 

Still loving the duo choreo for all reasons other than Niki.

Pls don’t look at me like that.

Love how Niki’s just levetation-vibing.

Bruv this would be the perfect place to have a werewolf cameo. When the vampires stand in the bloody ruins of their castle. 

Ahh welll.

Mind you, the lights going out was a part of Drunk-Dazed when the werewolves went for Sunoo, so it could be a nod to them.

This bit sounds like it came from the webtoon, but since I haven’t read it, I don’t know. 

I’m also not sure why I imagine Jungwon being the one to say it, when it’s usually Jay and Jake. 

Conclusions

I love that it brought back the vampires, and I hate that it didn’t bring back the werewolves. There was a sad lack of blood and a wonderous abundance of Gothic tropes. 

As I predicted in the beginning, it’s already grown on me, even over the short period it took me to write this. I realised that the only things I had against it were the lack of my favourite ENHYPEN things (excessive amounts of blood, werewolves, bizarre symbolism, and loud hype music). And, as much as I love the choreo, it was held back for me initially (and still is) by the fact that it is so intensely sexy-coded, and my dude Niki is still in this group. If it released in a few months, or preferably years, I would be on top of it. Let’s hope that the fans don’t behave too rabid this time. I’m going to look forward to watching the stage performances of this (and avoiding Niki), and to what their next comeback, and &TEAM’s comeback, do with this. 

Hint: It’s probably not going to be anything.

[nerice]

5, 14, 19? :D

aaaaaa hello hello!! omg taking this moment to say i love ur blog & ocs & i love reading ur rental car posts even tho im too awkward to interact much a. <333333 ty for going out of ur way to send me some numbers :3c anwy HERE'S ANSWERS

[cw: implied bad family dynamics/manipulation]

a song for a badass scene

my name (wearing me out) / shinedown + (lyrics)

one of the quintessential liars game songs!! for context, platinum road (tag) is an alternate timeline spin-off from how things usually go in canon & what kills me worst fr that setting is that. crucially sky never chooses a name for herself nd is effectively nameless during it (unless you count. well. unfortunate titles given to her which she does not want) ENTER THIS SONG & IT'S NAMING CYCLE EMPHASIS >>>>

until (2:30) ...........

CUE the climax of liars game i.e. after being manipulated into killing faye & sparking angel mode, turning on the person who has been pulling her strings & BOY does the fucker get put in a gravity bone breaking cage for this. :D

i also think despite wildly varying circumstances, at the end of it all she'd still pick 'sky' as her name. bc she does kind of level the entire palace into dust during the climax so there's. lots of clear blue overhead to linger on as she makes that decision >:3 first actual decision / action of her own volition too, etc. ;w;

the most recent song added

well, yesterday i finally caved and added bmth's and the snake start to sing (lyrics) to the main ocverse playlist; however due to eliada lore drip marketing i cannot go into detail as to the (very many!!) reasons it is his character song now, so all i'll say is. this line >:)

just a guy going to university, don't worry abt it. :))

villain arc song

ok i cannot resist going back to platinum road!sky for this one. oc least deserving of a villain arc but in this house we are mean 2 rabbits & watching her lay waste with all that unlimited strength curse is always fun (ignore the anguish and mental torment. f) so if you ever wondered why the sky/gray angle in this setting is named 'liar's game' here's the answer: the game / disturbed ft. choice lyrics. ;)

^central conceit. + other fun sentiments:

i am going 2 create a f*mily that is so normal and functional. :)

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BOOM CHEERS thank u for asking and sorry that i ended up in one of my most unhinged oc corners for this one gbhfbgghhh TWAS FUN

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for the fanfic asks!! 1, 2 (because i swear even though i’m still catching up with your masterlist… galaxy brained fr) but also i apologise in advance because i tried narrowing down the following questions.. i really did lmaoo, but the questions were too good not to pick multiple!? 6, 7, 11, 13, 18, 21, 22, 25

wieuhfekrjfdf thank u for all the questions omg 🥺 i'm gonna stick this under a cut so it's not crazy long haha!!

1. Do you daydream a lot before you write, or go for it as soon as the ideas strike?

hmmm i'd say probably a healthy mix of the two? i have to plot/outline something (even just a pwp oneshot) before i dive in, i am definitely not the kind of person who can fly by the seat of their pants. however i also really like striking while the iron is hot, bc i feel like the words usually flow the fastest when an idea is fresh. so i'll at least try to ride the wave of dopamine and outline an idea in full as soon as i get it 😂 writing the actual thing usually takes much longer!

2. Where do you get your fic ideas?

honestly i don't even know half the time 💀 sometimes a friend will say something to me and my brain just zooms, sometimes it's partially based off my own life, sometimes it's based off something i read or watched or heard in a song. i just have a very overactive imagination lmao!!

6. What’s the last line you wrote? & 7. Post a snippet from a wip.

i'm combining these two together bc the last two lines i wrote are funny and not really a spoiler for anything so here u go:

The whole night gets fuzzy around the edges when Matthew storms into the kitchen and abruptly changes the music to Bad Bunny before making everyone do a round of tequila shots for seemingly no reason at all. For a while you lose Tiffany to the magnetic power of his body rolls, and you can’t exactly blame her.

13. Do you listen to music while you write?  If yes, what have you been listening to recently?

not while i write, no, but music is a huge part of my inspiration process! i just can't focus while listening to anything with lyrics (even if they're in a language i don't understand lol). but here are some songs on the LDOMLT ch 11 playlist 👀

18. Do you enjoy research?  Which fic of yours required the most research?

i do, though sometimes i can get WAY too carried away with it for something that truly no one will give a fuck about lmao. LDOMLT has definitely had the most research put into it - on the music industry, on the grammys, on los angeles and seoul, on visas 😵‍💫 so much lmao

21. Do you prefer writing chaptered fics or one-shots?

oneshots for sure! i've loved writing my series but it's certainly a labor of love. it's a much deeper commitment required!! and i'm a commitment-phobe 😅

22. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process?  How do you come up with titles?

i'd say 9/10 times i have a working title while i'm writing the fic, and that usually ends up becoming the title, tho sometimes i change them last minute (it's sweet was almost called that's life, for example 👀) - and i usually steal my titles from songs, tho not necessarily always songs that inspired the work in question (for example it's sweet is a liz phair song but it.... is very off-brand for that fic 😂)

25. What’s your favorite part of the writing process (worldbuilding, brainstorming/outlining, writing, editing, etc)?

i always joke with my friends that i like everything about it except writing, lmfao. i LOVE outlining, plotting, brainstorming, and i LOVE editing and polishing. but i fucking hate drafting so much 👹 WHY CAN'T THE WORDS JUST PUT THEMSELVES ON THE PAGE

35. What’s your favorite fic you’ve posted?

it might be the shape of your body 🥺 i'm really proud of that one!

43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet? - already answered this one!

49. What fic of yours would you say is the best introduction to you as a writer?

honestly two in one is a good candidate lmao. like consensual but filthy sex, a reader who asks for what she wants, some queer-adjacent shit, member characterizations that i hope you might find accurate 🙆‍♀️ and a smidge of dumb humor. let's go with that one!

69. What are your favorite fics at the moment?

i'm gonna cop out and say check out my fic rec friday tag 💜 i read and review stuff once a week! and don't feel like doing it right now 😂

78. What motivates you during the writing process?

honestly, i'm not always motivated 🤷‍♀️ but i try to show up anyway, regardless of how i feel. the hardest part for me is always getting started, so i do my best to push through that initial block and try to get words down anyway. worst case scenario, if i go back and truly hate them, i can delete them. but i don't think that's ever happened!

79. Do you have any writing advice you want to share?

write the porn you wish to see in the world 😂

fanfic writing asks~