Tick tock, Tick tock, Tick tock.
The clock Is ticking, it won’t be long now. just a few more seconds that feel like almost hours.
It’s been three days since the magic hit him, and he had more memories that came back from the last two days of having this. Although things must come to an end, they always do, but some things come back to bite you.
Wonder why that is? Memories come back like clockwork, but they come back so fast that you see so much at once it overwhelms you.
These memories roll so fast to the point where it hurts Roy’s head, it overwhelms him to the point where too much information processing at once causes him to wince. He grips his head as a headache starts to form, it's a throbbing pain the more memories that flash in his brain.
War, anguish, regret, guilt, those emotions hit him like a train. He can’t stop the feelings that make him feel ill. It’s too much to bear, the sins, the BLOOD stained on his hands.
He remembers it, the Ishval massacre, it all comes back to him so fast that he feels like he’s reliving it all over again. It hurts, the pain, the guilt that he went through, through it all. He couldn’t handle it the first time living through it, why would he handle it this time?
He didn’t, it caused him to fall to the ground, holding his head with both of his hands as flashes of blood, fire, buildings collapsing thanks to his hands. He remembers each face of the people he killed. He could NEVER forget those faces; they never forgot his.
He remembers all his friends he had once forgot, he remembers Hughes, every single memory, all of the time they spent at the academy, the time that they spent together in Ishval, the moment he got shot by Heathcliff, up until the final moments where Hughes died.
He came back? Wait, that doesn’t make sense! Everything is a blur, he remembers Riza, everything they’ve been through together, Havoc, Breda, Falman, Fuery, Edward, Alphonse, Miya, Lily, Lelouch, Yugi, every single person he had come to contact with in his own world.
He remembers his childhood back when he was a kid again, spending time with Miya as they play and spend time together at their usual spot, going on adventures, there was a promise that he remembers they made and then a flash.
He remembers Lily, her feelings for him were more than friendship, his own feelings were still confusing, but he wanted to be there for her and spend more time with her and get to know her deeper, then a flash.
He remembers Lelouch and the time that he helped him and let him stay with him, his true name, then a flash.
He remembers Yugi when he found him outside his home, taking him in, letting him stay till they catch the muggers, the memories of Yugi living with him, them spending time together and then Yugi admitting his feelings to him, and then another flash.
More memories, flashes of all that he went through up until he made it into a new world. Where he met his newfound lover Atem and his friends, Yami and Mana. He met them both by chance and got to know them a little better, getting better acquainted and becoming close friends with them both another flash.
Memories of the first meeting with Atem, spending times together, learning about each other, starting to fall for each other.
Then Roy sees flashes of the other pushing him away when Roy admits his feelings for him. The images show Atem, but it’s not actually him, it’s someone else entirely, he kisses him, telling him that this is what Atem really feels for him.
He tells him what the one known as the SNAKE did to Atem, tells him every little detail, nothing was left out. He’s finally done telling him what needs to be said and kisses him again, before Atem comes back from being trapped inside his own mind. He doesn’t even realize they are kissing till he’s opened his eyes.
He asks what was going on, Roy says what happened, and he watches as Atem flees from the scene with Roy running after him. He takes a bit to find him till they are at the point where they are at the park, he remembers that scene from the other night, he see’s it fully happens, just as he imagined before, he rewatches it again in his head.
Watching him bawl from when he said I love you, Atem. Four words the other would never get back.
Fast forward to the moment where Roy buys him a camera and the scrapbook, Roy watches as Atem smiles so happily, and they take their first picture together on the couch with a wine glass in each of their hands with the blankets covered with them.
All of the memories up until now, return in a flash, he's still on the ground in pain. It feels like his heart is going to be burst, he can't breathe. He coughs, gripping his chest as his heart race increases.
He remembers the fact that he had no memories before, but the old memories all flashing through his mind cause way more pain than he had expected.
All of the flashbacks are too overbearing and he hisses in pain. "What's going on..? I can't.. I can't.." He chokes softly, eyes are shut close. He can't think or breathe, that's what he's trying to word out, but the words can't be finished.
He was suffering, suffering through his regrets and memories again.
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