#addy in wonderlland

[themermaidgrl]

i exist for the girls who are obsessive and crave routine. who spend days on pinterest trying to find the perfect new phone background after having the same one for eight months. who download games and dream of their avatars and quests for weeks after playing for unhealthy amounts of time. who read one good book and spend weeks trying to find something similar, something that will fill the void left by the one they just read. who will rotate between wearing one pair of shoes with every outfit for a week and who get frustrated or upset when they have to change their weekly shoe due to weather or plain practicality. who have had the same top artist of the year for the last 5 years. who discover a new show or movie and immediately follow every fan account and search for every variation of content relating to it. who see people posting online about something and want to feel included, so they research and learn and teach themselves everything there is to know about that thing.

i exist for myself and for them.

[themermaidgrl]

i don’t think any lyric will ever communicate the vicious cycle of having highs of almost narcissistic self-worth to then feeling so low to the point of unhealthy self-reflection where you only see your flaws as well as taylor swift singing “who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay?” in the archer.

[themermaidgrl]

am i the only one annoyed by all the twitter and tiktok speculation about more full album drops by taylor? like oh man do i wish she was dropping more music out of nowhere so i could drop everything i'm doing and freak out? always.

but i feel like putting this pressure on taylor isn't very healthy for either parties lol. so this is me shouting into the void *cringe* for everyone to shut up about it already.

[themermaidgrl]

Every Day I Debate whether or not i should turn of the battery level notification i get from my life360 circles with my friends and i decide to keep it on. not because i am worried that my friend's phone might die in the middle of the night while they are out alone and possibly in danger, but because i am a Nosy Bitch who Needs to Know so that i can yell at them while we're hanging out "______!!! charge your damn phone!!!!!!" and they will simply tell me no. and i think it's the funniest thing in the world

[themermaidgrl]

tired of all the dance movies being like “this lifelong ballet dancer suddenly is aware that different styles of dance exist. now that she knows how to pop and lock, will she ever return to her old ways?” like no give me a ballet dancer that turns into a clog dancer. irish step dancer. A TAP DANCER LIKE ANYTHING ELSE I NEED VARIETY!!!!!!!

[themermaidgrl]

avoiding the bird app in fear of euphoria spoilers so instead i will use tumblr as my stupid little diary…

[themermaidgrl]

not to overwhelm anyone with how #justgirlythings my life is but i did indeed spend my monday night discussing the antichrist with my lady friends in a very small study room there were nine of us and it was a very bonding experience i think

[themermaidgrl]

being a college student means improving your #qualityoflife by splurging on #nutella and #mayonnaise at the supermarket and feeling the loss of your $8 in the pit of your stomach but also a rush of adrenaline as you now won't have dry sandwiches and can eat toast with something other than peanut butter as a #reward so fun and cute lovely xx

[themermaidgrl]

why am i getting so many ads for knives is tumblr trying to warn me about something

[themermaidgrl]

everything is temporary, nothing is forever. however, it’s easy to forget that we can regain what was lost and rekindle old passions!

[themermaidgrl]

the absolute wonders that dressing exactly how i thought i would dress as a nineteen year old in 2015 does for my mental health is kind of unnerving but i’m happy for myself.