#affo rant

[the-kitty-hell-system]

me looking at supposed cripplepunk members treat cancer patients and ppl like spinal cord injuries like shit again.

yall do better. you can't be cripplepunk but only include low support needs ppl. people are dying. disabled people are dying. and yall don't care.

[prismaticcherri]

Some doots I made a while back based on a friend talking about how they’d tell each other stories of their past situations

[coraxtheclown]

explaining my Affocream stuff(?)

keep in mind i’m not done with Oddessy so once i am it may likely change but keep the same main points

firstly, on the topic of how Affogato got there in the first place, he appeared during the council in the vanilla kingdom. as pissed off as everyone was, Pure Vanilla preached some shit about second chances and blah blah blah redemption arcs, and they agreed to let him say *some* stuff. he was very limited in words, which was fine with him since his mission was to gain information about what their plans were and ways on how to stop their advances. he was also useful to the council by giving inside knowledge about where the CoD were that may or may not have been fake :^ on the other hand, there were definitely some interesting faces in his opinion, like the consul. in other words he thought clotted cream was cute and putting on a persona that he wanted to break. after odessy (again, i have 0 idea how odessy ends so don’t @ me) he kinda said something like this (assuming it ended in the republic)

affogato: *sigh* well, i guess i’ll go be a nomad…

clotted cream: wdym

affo: *sighhhhhh* i don’t have anywhere to go now that this is over and i’m not with the CoS

clotted: wow that sucks

affo: *SIGHHHHH* yeah, but i’ll be alright… i guess…

clotted: good to hear, gbye

affo: hey you have an extra room right?

clotted: oh yeahhhh… i did ig

clotted’s inner dialogue: nah i’m bouta ruin my chances at being liked by dark cacao even more… that’s crazy.

affo: great!! i’ll go get my stuff

clotted: huh????

affo: you’re letting me stay with you right? you won’t turn me away to nowhere… will you?

clotted: no you’re right. sure. fine. no worries

affo: yippee ><

affogato still lives with clotted a year after oddessy’s end but don’t get me wrong, he works. he’ll fill out papers for clotted cream and then clotted looks over them and will either be like “head pats for you” or “wtf were you even thinking here” and that’s usually when he’s making a small attempt to give himself some sort of power since he has none lmao. also there’s this thing about Affogato going out of his way in disrespecting the consul’s privacy. so naturally he’ll appear in clotted’s bed at night, or randomly appear holding his hand or something. clotted doesn’t mind it anymore, he’s pretty used to it. he’ll never get over Affogato appearing like a phantom in his bed at night. affogato is always there for the consul and vice versa, they’ve established that they love each other but for appearances haven’t made anything official. clotted tends to still get really flustered when Affogato will kiss him or something and Affogato literally lives for it. while Clotted is much more private with his feelings and in all honesty, could be much more affectionate, Affogato is very open about his feelings for the consul. it’s just a fact everyone knows atp and it bothers nobody. why? cuz they don’t even know Clotted feels the same. i’ll leave this rant on that note for now, this is, again, subject to change cuz for the 99th time, odessy isn’t done for me. that’s all bye bye :3

[skybristle]

Magnolia should be allowed to strike Affogato down, as a treat-

SHE SHOULD BE. shes the one who raises the alarm actually and clues carrow into the how suspicious he really is. carrow is fine with playing along since, she's loyal to cacao and it would be disrespectful to doubt who he puts his trust into,,,, but magnolia Doesn't really give a fuck about cacao SO. she immediately sees this fucker for who she is. carrow holds more power and is more vocal so affo takes her out of the picture,,,, but magnolia still lies in wait. she doesn't get to kill him, since, that's a sure fire way to get executed for treason, and by the time the cat is out of the bag carrow's already killed him [as far as my fanon goes] and personally thats a more satisfying option for me and the narrative. BUT. i think she SHOULD be allowed to kill him assuming u were requesting a doodle so. YIPPEE. sorry for ranting. idk how to draw affo tbh but GOOD ENOUGH

[chromes-corner]

i keep asking 4 characters on the bingo thingy but i can’t help myself

so… dark cacao & caramel arrow ?

YOU ROTTED MY BRAIN SO BAD WITH THIS BOTH OF THESE ARE REALLY LONG

im doing caramel arrow first >:)

caramel arrow is fucking cool. i love her outfit so fucking much ughhhh its so pretty the black and white motif of the dc kingdom is my EVERYTHING!!!! AND HER FUCKING WEAPON???? DUAL BLADES THAT ATTACH INTO A BOW???? THATS LITERALLY WICKED I WANT ONE OF THOSE!!!! also i eat up strong female characters like theyre my last meal on earth i just adore her resolve and her loyalty and her STRENGTH shes a BOSS of the GIRL NATURE

despite me loving her so so much, i cant help but feel as though she got SHAFTED in the story relevance department. the only role she really plays in the 13-14 story is that shes the means by which gingergang infiltrates the castle. thats honestly all she really does???? and thats SO DISAPPOINTING!!!!!!!! she couldve been so much more!!!!!!!!!! not to mention how she acts when she finally finds dark cacao. instead of, i dont know, yelling at him for abandoning her and the rest of the kingdom and saying that his long-winded message of telling her to get help was fucking STUPID, she just kisses his ass and says “ok lets go fight!! i never gave up on you!!” LIKE DUDE SHOW SOME SELF-RESPECT AND SAY “HEY MY KING IM LOYAL TO YOU BUT YOURE FUCKING TERRIBLE AT THIS!!!”

THEY DIDNT EVEN LET HER GET REVENGE ON AFFOGATO LIKE GRRRR ok i get its rated like 12+ so they couldnt have her straight up murder him BUT STILL!!!!! she couldve put an arrow in that bitch’s back as he was running away. damn. caramel arrow should be allowed to murder because shes hot. but the recent bond story with her and affo is really fucking funny though so ill let this one slide.

 another thing is that i wanted to badly for her to have a one-on-one with dark choco the way he and dark cacao had. like, i wanted her to have a chance to ask him why. surely he doesnt have a vendetta against her like he did with his father???? he probably wouldve spoken with her, albeit briefly, considering she was literally his apprentice or something. we couldve learned so much about dark choco before the whole sword thing went down and about dark cacao back in those times. sighhhhh the girlboss was gatekeeped :( 

i really like her but once again she falls a little flat because the story doesnt give her a ton to do which sucks so hard :pensive: ily caramel arrow youre my homie forever <3

dark cacao the absolute MANWHORE second because I ACCIDENTALLY GOT CARRIED AWAY AND STARTED RANTING SO HARD IM SORRY

FULL RAMBLE UNDER THE CUT

i have very conflicting opinions about the king of not-my-problem. do I think he's hot? unabashedly. Do I think he's a terrible person? also unabashedly.

ill start with what i like. first off........ patrick seitz is a fucking phenomenal voice actor and GOD he really nails it with dark cacao. he's on my list of voices that i want to read me bedtime stories. second off, god am i a sucker for his design. the big chunky armor hits me right in my paladin soul. the color palette is so simple yet so striking, and i love how his violet-tinted grays and blacks contrast with his sons warmer tones. that's a neat little detail that really differentiates them and draws the generational line further beyond just ideals and alignment.

theres so much to fucking unpack about this man when it comes to personality and dialogue. i do NOT feel like going back and reading through that again until the emotional damage from the first time wears off, so just roll with me here. god FUCKING damn he actually got an entire arc for his personality and it STANDS OUT. pv and hb remained mostly static throughout their stories but dark cacao got the fucking special treatment and ughhhhh its so good.

i just...... excuse the pun but i adore how his soul jams theme is actually baked into his arc. with the other two ancients, it was their jams trait (light of truth and light of passion) that HELPED them finish their arcs, because they had both lost those things along the way and their journeys were about reacquiring pv's missing truth and hb's faded passion. with cacao, its his jam's trait, his own resolution was the very thing that was HINDERING him. he was so set in his ways BECAUSE he still had his strong resolution that he failed to realize that HE was the problem with his kingdom and his relationship with his son. god FUCKING damn that subversion from the norm WAS SO FUCKING REFRESHING AND I COULD GO ON ABOUT THIS FOREVER BUT I WONT!!!! THIS IS ALREADY SO LONG AND I HAVE ANOTHER THING TO GO OVER OK

okay so... theres something i really dont like about him. dark cacao is a terrible fucking king and dark choco was mostly in the right to try and make him change his ways (obviously he shouldn't have sought out a cursed sword to do so, as only bad things can come of that but still). all dark cacao could focus on was the wall. somewhere along the line he made it HIS burden alone to protect the world from the licorice sea, and because he put all his time and resources into that, others suffered because of it. his neglect is what caused the villages under the rule of his kingdom to waste away into ruin. hell, even citizens living in the CITADEL were suffering, for christs sake. resources were being depleted for this one project until there was nearly nothing left. my man may be earthbread's top emo model, but mans a FUCKING TERRIBLE KING. AND THE KICKER????????? NOT FUCKING ONCE DOES HE ACKNOWLEDGE THE DAMAGE HES DONE IN HIS NEGLECT!!!!!!!! NOT EVEN A FUCKING "HEY IM SORRY I BASICALLY ABANDONED EVERYONE BECAUSE I WAS TOO BUSY FIGHTING MY DEMONS FOR THIRTY YEARS" FUCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hes cool in odyssey tho

BTW IF YOU READ THIS FAR HERE TAKE THIS SICK FUCKING PIECE OF ART FROM THE ART BOOK AS A THANK YOU FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY INSANE RAMBLINGS

[marvelousmotherofmayhem]

This week is one of the hardest I've had in a long while. I'm back to feeling like everything is on me to do and get done. When he was home we got almost nothing on our list done besides renewing my permit, going to the bank (only did half of what we needed to there) and looked at some apartments. So now here I am, responsible for looking at apartments, filling out all the applications, figuring out the moving situation. Then when we get a place (we only have 18 days to be out of here) I have to do all the moving and getting it organized, packed, unpacked. I also have 20 days to get my drivers license... and I still have severe anxiety when driving. Then on the 18th I'll get money for a car.. I have 2 days to find one that will work and be in the price range we can affoed. All while getting everything ready for the kids to go back to school and make sure we have everything on the right track for this baby. I know he's 900 miles away to make sure we have the money to make it all happen but when I find out today that he wants to stay 3 months with out a day off it crushed me. Now I will do all the Dr appointments with out him, set up all the baby stuff with out him, buy everything we need, with out him. He won't get to feel her kick, watch her move.. she won't hear his voice other than over the phone. I know he's out there alone for our family but I just feel like this isn't fair. He's always been okay being far away from home for work. He has his own space. He gets to get home from work and play video games and watch tv with out screaming kids. I'm in a room that the door doesn't close all the way on and my kids are in an unfinished basement. The rest of the house is every one else's and I don't feel so welcome there. It's going to get better and I can do this. I can do this... Rant over...

[the-kitty-hell-system]

if you ask cancer mentions to have a tw ur ableist and im fucking blocking you sorry. my disease isnt a walking trigger fuck off.

[the-kitty-hell-system]

YALL NEVER TAKE CANCER PATIENTS FUCKING SERIOUSLY DO YOU? OH SO I HAVE TO SPOILER MY GODDAMN CONDITION THAT AFFECTS ME WAY MORE THAN IT DOES YOU BECAUSE YOURE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH KNOWING I HAVE CANCER? IM NAWT EVEN TALKING ABT DEATH, I DO PUT A TW FOR DEATH. IM SO DONE BEING TREATED LIKE NONE SHOULD EVER HEAR MY VOICE AND MY EXPERIENCES BECAUSE IN UR MINDS ALL OTHER CONDITIONS R OK TO TALK ABT EXCEPT CANCER. FUCK OFF

[the-kitty-hell-system]

we should stop talking abt hEDS ALL THE FUCKING TIME AND ACTUALLY START TALKING AND RECOGNIZING OTHER EDS TYPES. I NEVER SEE ANYTHING ABT MY OWN TYPE, vEDS!!! ITS ALWAYS JUST hEDS AND ANYTHING ABT RARE DISEASES IS ABT hEDS WHEN IT ISNT FUCKING RARE

[the-kitty-hell-system]

kinda hating how cancer and chemotherapy and shit is such a hush topic like. yes i dont have hair because of chemotherapy that i am on because i have liver cancer. why are you telling me to not talk abt the CONDITION that affects me more than it does you. like ur not the one who COULD die from this and needs a transplant?

[the-kitty-hell-system]

my wheelchair is the only reason im moving. stop acting like you can move me wherever you like. because i cant do anything to stop you when you push me around. fuck you.

[the-kitty-hell-system]

I mean this light heartedly but what's with the dni for bi lesbians? Being bi doesn't exactly mean they like men it just means they're attracted to two or more genders. There are some lesbians who consider themselves bi because they like women and non-binary people for example.

hi. the term lesbian quite literally includes nonbinary ppl. it's nonmen loving nonmen. this can be nonbinary ppl or women or whoever just not a man. you aren't a "bi lesbian" for loving women and nonbinary ppl you're just a lesbian.

being a lesbian is inherently mspec. it includes anyone but men. claiming you as a man can be a lesbian or saying you're attracted to men as a lesbian is wrong. you aren't lesbian, you're sapphic

if you say you're a bi lesbian im gonna assume you mean you like men because if not, the lesbian label already fit you. if you do like men you aren't a lesbian you are just sapphic

if someone uses the bi lesbian label and actually specifies what they mean then ofc i won't block them? but if they don't specify how will i know they aren't saying they somehow like men as a lesbian? that dni was worded bad and i apologize as i meant to just say "people who claim men can be lesbians or lesbians can be attracted to men" and same thing for gays.

[the-kitty-hell-system]

sometimes i just dont understand its making me extremely upset. sometimes i cant have someone explain everything to me. i feel so stupid. i feel dumb for needing someone to help me talk 24/7, needing a device to help me talk 24/7, copying and pasting what ive seen to type, someone to help me understand and explain things. sometimes i wonder if i deserve this much love. is it ok for me to need help to brush my teeth, to eat, to get dressed, to have a drainage bag (that i almost never talk abt bcz its so embarrassing sigh), to drink, to talk, to get groceries, to go from places bcz i cannot drive and will never be able to, to move, to breathe when im asleep, to understand, etc? i feel like a baby thats new to the world but no. im 18. almost 19 years old. im just severely disabled and its been that way since i was born. sometimes i wonder how would i be able to talk and understand on my own. how many friends id have thatd ever understand what i say.

[the-kitty-hell-system]

i support women's wrongs (amanda young amanda young amanda you

[the-kitty-hell-system]

okay fair but have you considered that in 99% of cases people post about the disease they themselves have, not others? as in, heds is the most common eds, so there will inherently be more people posting about it than posting about other kinds of eds which are much more rare, its just bound to be that way. like how there will inherently be more posting about more common mental illnesses than rarer ones, bc theres less ppl who have it to post abt it. all my sympathy to you and ppl who have other kids of eds, hope youre hanging in there and finding ways to cope, but outside of basic "awareness raising" on tumblr which frankly doesnt do that much irl and noone has to do unless they call themselves an advocate or educator on here, ive rly not got much to say abt what those types are like

dude. yes i know people post about their own illness, thats okay. but, i wasnt upset about that and im sorry if i worded that weird. but listen, im VERY frustrated about part of the hEDS community (not all) butting in conversations about rare conditions, LIKE vEDS AND MANY OTHERS. im mad because everything seems to be about hEDS when it really isnt. hEDS isnt a rare disease and im sick and tired of people acting like it is and getting into topics about rare diseases or in messages about rare disease appreciation ive seen many ppl be like "what about hEDS or (other common condition or atleast well known ones)" like no your condition is not the same as many other rare conditions that me and many others have. i have nothing against ppl with hEDS but yk theres a small part of the community that just always seems to do that. basically. i get hEDS is the common type of eds and people will post about their conditions but please stop getting into conversations when they arent about hEDS, especially ones abt rare conditions. thx. also the messages ive made were worded wrong so i am very sorry abt that

[the-kitty-hell-system]

I WANNA HIT MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU GUYS THAT YOU CANT JUST TELL A CANCER PATIENT TO STOP TALKING ABT CANCER BECAUSE ITS A SENSITIVE TOPIC TO YOU. EXIT OUT THE TAB. GET OUT OF THE WEBSITE. HELL EVEN BLOCK ME. LET ME TALK ABT MY CONDITION THAT I MIGHT FUCKING DIE FROM. LET ME TALK ABT HOW I HAVE A DAMN TUMOR IN MY LIVER THAT COULD SPREAD. LET ME TALK ABT THE CHEMOTHERAPY IM ON THAT MADE ME LOSE MY HAIR AND IS RUINING ME. LET ME TALK ABOUT THE CANCER THAT I NEED A TRANSPLANT TO HELP. LET ME TALK ABOUT HOW EXCITED I AM IF I EVER AM TOLD IM CANCER FREE. LET ME BE HAPPY GODDAMNIT STOP ACTING LIKE IM A WALKING SENSITIVE TOPIC THAT NEEDS A "TOPIC CHANGE" I AHTE YALL I AHTE YALL WHY DO YOU TREAT ME LIKE THIS?! YOU GIVE ME PITY AND SYMPATHY THEN TELL ME TO SHUTUP IF I EVER MENTION I HAVE CANCER. IM FUCKING DONE