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prolibytherium · 1 month

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This 1,336,866 word The Beatles fanfiction is my white whale

#Sorry I have to take a hiatus from my various Great Works I found a The Beatles RPF whcih is abnormally long and I took it as a challenge #A great new feature is that the sex scenes between real life members of The Beatles are drawn way the fuck out by the scene #rewinding 10-30 seconds with each POV shift. Which happens every 5 paragraphs or so.#I'm not even enjoying myself and for what? What do I accomplish if I actually read the entire thing? And yet we beat on boats #against the current etc etc etc #If there's one positive thing I can say about this The Beatles yaoi fanfiction it's that this author has more commitment to the bit than #I ever will. This thing is still updating continuously

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janitorpostman · 7 months

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I kinda disagree with how the Casper and Nova's adventure suggested that the ending - Casper facing two equally bad options - was somehow Casper's own fault, and that things came down to those two options solely because of his neglect of Nova.

I can't pinpoint my exact thoughts on it right now, but it just *intuitively* feels wrong.

Edit: of course I end up unraveling in the tags.

#maybe it's the fact that #betty was happy #she was never pressured neither by simon nor by others around her #to give up everything for simon #it was her choice #so her being entagled in this tragedy is just as much the consequence of her actions as it is of simon's #and neither of them knew of the curse #thus cannot be 'blamed' for facing those two options #it's all about the decisions they made when they faced that choice. and betty's choice is absolutely on her.#she has her own damn agency dammit #everyone in og adventure time was against betty's idea of 'fixing' simon #the all suggested the right path was for her to accept her loss - like marcy did like normal man did etc #betty literally swam against the current plowing her own path despite all the resistance #and you say she is a passive victim of someone else's narrative?#she's a victim of her own madness and sadness and absolute radness #don't diminish that fact #fionna and cake #betty grof #petrigrof

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bylertruther · 11 months

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do you ever think about how will probably wishes he was braver?

that he could tell mike the truth about himself without having to speak in code. that he could stick to his guns when he's been wronged and stand up for himself rather than tucking tail and turning the other cheek. that he could be less shy, less sensitive, less cowardly, and maybe then his loved ones wouldn't forget about him as often as they do.

maybe then they would pick him first, rather than leaving him for last. maybe then they would want to hang out with him and hear what he has to say. maybe then they would treat him like they used to, like he can still take care of himself just like they can, instead of like a fragile little thing that they pick up only when they need him. maybe then they would care about him as much as he cares about them. maybe then he wouldn't doubt that it could all come crashing down once they know who he really is, and always has been, because the rest of him would've been enough.

like, maybe he wishes he didn't freeze or run away so much. maybe he wishes he wasn't so afraid all the time, of every little thing. that he could be brave like mike, el, or his mom. i mean, el's been through so much, too. why can't he be more like her? why does he have to hide behind her? he hides behind her when the monsters come crawling back, and he hides behind her when he can't bring himself to say what he really means—even after getting on her case about it.

he spent so much time on that painting. he didn't let anyone see it—it was that special to him. why couldn't he own up to that? there's no monster in the van with him; it's just him and mike and this painting of the party, nothing inherently incriminating or romantic, and still—he can't help himself. he retreats back into the shadow, shrinks into himself, and tells lie after lie to the person that he never lies to, that he knows doesn't fucking deserve that, just because he's too scared.

of course he'd feel like a mistake sometimes. of course he'd hate who he is (if That script is to be believed), when he can't even talk to the one person that would understand without lying straight to his face, over and over again, like a fucking hypocrite. of course he'd feel so lost without the person that tells him it's okay to be this way and shows him that there is indeed strength in it. of course he'd hate who he is when he's encouraging someone to be true and speaking about their courage, all while being incapable of taking his own advice, and giving the credit for all of his love and efforts and emotions to someone else.

so many people died to bring him back, so many people died just because he didn't stay dead when maybe he should have, and for what? so that he can continue to hide rather than live his life? so that he can turn into a "worse" version of himself? so that he can live in fear? so that he can continue to ache for a past that he can never return to, while everyone else moves forward and berates him for not doing the same? time stopped in the upside down when will went missing, and he's been stuck there ever since, too. too much has happened for him to move on from. too much has changed—he's changed. he's too different now, in every way, and the older he gets the more clear it becomes.

of course he'd feel like a mistake. of course he'd hate who he is. he's the common denominator here: in his loneliness and in this war. the boy who came back to life when others didn't. the boy that got possessed and couldn't fight it. the boy that turned into a liar and a coward and must learn to live with it, even if it's at his own expense. the boy that can't let go of the past and whom the past won't let go of either, because even after everything, he's still connected to this great evil that won't let him go. they got it out of him, and yet the tether remains, because of-fucking-course it would.

just—why? why him? why can't anything ever go right with him? why is he always the outlier? i think that overwhelming amount of fear, shame, grief, guilt, exhaustion, and loneliness would wear anyone down, let alone a teenager that never asked for any of it and has experiences so unfathomably unique that the only other people that could have possibly understood are literally dead.

#will byers #byler #mine #long post #will #anyway. this is how i always interpreted the i hate WHO i am line especially in conjunction with the word ''mistake'' + being different #within the context of EVERYTHING that's happened to will and continues to happen to him and how unique it is to him in this narrative #bc rly. if you were will.... wouldn't you feel like a mistake? even outside of that outside of the supernatural i'm speaking to my #friends that have ''Something Wrong'' with them. when something happens to you and you're not the same after and you're surrounded #by people who are able to move on and be normal—don't you ever have those moments where you feel like a mistake? when you're #growing up and still interested in your same old interests but your friends start moving on and then you see that they went back to #those interests in your absence—don't you feel like you were the problem then? when people are able to be brave and you can't #find it within yourself to overcome your fear—don't you hate that feeling? don't you feel that negativity towards yourself when you #know that you SHOULD do something but you can't bring yourself to and it works against yourself? like. everything that has happened #to will E V E R Y T H I N G !!!!!!!!!!!!! can easily make anyone no matter what part of him you relate to the most understand that #u kno wht i mean? anyway. i jus wanted to bring this up bc his life is a fucking tragedy even without the gay stuff n his current pov on th #and the way that That conversation always centers on fear and bravery it's like. obviously being gay is not easy in that era but i don't #think that line is ''i hate being gay'' with no factoring in of the great many things that have happened to him which alienate him further #as well as with how he does want mike to know and his alan turing poster and his talk with jonathan etc etc #his conflict has always centered around how other people treat him and his issue with that bc that's what makes him feel bad #that just because he's different that doesn't mean that he's Different and must be treated as such #he's different and has people that make him feel BETTER for it like look at s2 for example all of those talks abt using what he perceives #as a weakness abt himself as a strength that no one else can bring to the table. and in s3 when he still believed in being a nerd #and never getting girlfriends etc but when it came from mike thts when he called himself stupid n started down this path bc now #there's that sprinkle of doubt. n tht doubt is the scariest thing in the world—understandably so #also. he literally has an evil monster in his brain like bdkfjhsbkdjhfbskj IT'S JUST A LOT.#he is different for many reasons and has even more reasons to hate Who he is the kind of person that he is #jus my take 😁👍

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spacemancharisma · 2 months

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my high husband’s from-memory drawings of garten of banban characters, bath crayons on bathtub walls

#wes is currently forcibly fixated on garten of banban #the scorpy playthrough really #but yeah. against his better judgement #stinger flynn. etc.#personal #wes tag

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derpinette · 4 months

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english used to be the normie filter & how you could tell someone was a Trve Internethead but after the DAMNED 2020 quarantine for obvious reasons EveryBody & They Momma is acceptably fluent so now i have to learn swedish or something. -_-

#already been spending time this past year & a half i only need someone to actually speak it with IRL for maximum efficiency #technically i want to say 2019 people were already turning to english at least in my city. 7 year old me would be so happy but #ARRRRRRGHHHHHHH #YOU ARE POSERS I HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON WITH YOU & I NEVER WILL. has me feeling so ♯DECEIVED #native english speakers will probably never understand this feel #speaking english now is just as cringe as i thought being francophone was a decade ago Yes even as a child i was against normies #i was forcibly taught.by my millennial older brother i had no choice but to abide by that line of thought & so here i am today #well he was right. not anymore he ain't but he used to be #but technically you can say this new wave of self taught anglophones are going against the current & remnants of colonialism so well #it is a good thing objectively i just miss the ease of recognizing Real back in the day TT_TT like you just KNEW they shared your interests #& weirdness they knew your references it said something about what their social status likely was too ETC ETC. But not anymore...#i enjoyed it tho i had a bestfriend whom i mostly spoke english with & we were known for it we were outcasts #i distinctly remember this fag who got so mad at us & harassed us for it during middle school recess. like fluency was a bad thing #we were not even gossiping about him Altho we should have been. & that was the best part is that it was a barrier #so you could talk about anything out loud & nobody would be able to understand you & at the time it was just us & our older siblings #+their friends

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theinfinitedivides · 10 months

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aight ok now that i've watched ep 7 i see some folks are review bombing KTL on MDL bc of the Arab prince storyline,,,,,, what are our thoughts

#tv: king the land #king the land #lee junho #junho 2pm #im yoona #girls generation yoona #yoona snsd #anupam tripathi #kdrama #local gay watches KTL (and gets diabetes in the process).txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #as someone who is not Arab but who is currently in an interesting relationship with religion in general (and is incorporating #multiple practices into my daily life by extension/exploring/dabbling in Islam): is it a stereotype? kind of.#but people writing sh*t like 'this is an offense against Saudi Arabia and MBS' etc etc need to calm the f*ck down #first off MBS is a literal murderer and the Saudi government perpetuates human rights abuses but we're not going there today #the prince is not from SA i think someone said he's from the UAE. Dubai to be more specific + Islam wasn't even mentioned at all #and pls. pls don't get me started with the whole #'princes don't go to clubs'. do you know how many clubs there are in Dubai. do you know how many members of the Gulf royal families #have been caught up in drug scandals and affairs and sh*t. the worse person you could hold up as a supposed standard #for Islamic values and then get mad when people point that out are these folks #he's not even getting drunk in public. he's not even drunk at all ffs he's technically abiding by the decorum #that one would have to have if they were drinking in Dubai so as not to get picked up by the authorities.#and yes i treat SA and the entirety of Europe the same when it comes to the history of abuse and religious extremism #all while claiming to hold up a higher standard. there is hypocrisy in every religious community and they are not excluded #anyway i brought this specific ep up with a friend (Arab Muslim) and they said that the vibe they got from this was Samir and Won #studied together in the UK (obviously) and now he's in Korea and basically having the time of his life teasing Won #but in the end they're meant to reflect each other. he's a more spoiled richer version of Won basically sksksksk #ofc people are getting up in arms bc stereotypes and sh*t and i'm not about to tell you how to feel about it #but don't go spreading misinformation #idk maybe by the end of this feature they'll be best friends. i really hope they will they have such a good frenemy thing going on rn

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icantalk710 · 10 months

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It's funny how old the more local "fireworks shows" can quickly get when you're trying to barely sleep 🥱☕

#ore no kao #it's wednesday dudes/etc #extra shot of espresso in my nitro cold brew to aid in my battle against dozing off at my desk #[i'm currently losing]#[[srsly what's even the point of lighting fireworks by 2am on a weeknight]]

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rindomness · 1 year

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HI I HAVE A TAZ SERVER NOW! Not arc-specific the name may be misleading. 13+ server. Come hang out and talk about TAZ!

#taz #the adventure zone #taz balance #taz amnesty #taz graduation #taz ethersea #taz steeplechase #APOLOGIES for tag spam just trying to like. get it out there #read the rules etc etc #it's just me currently but if it against all odds actually gets big i might expand the mod team

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kittykatinabag · 3 months

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The vtuber enjoyer community is currently learning why multi-channel networks didn't work back in the old days of YouTube, except in the present day it's somehow even more fucked because the companies also own their channels and revenue sources and IP.

#vtuber stuff #i do love creators currently in corporations rn but there is a part of me that is annoyed that the only reason theyre so big is due to money #money as in start up costs and advertising and merch production etc etc #and then you cant really publicly advertise that channel is connected to you and your work #which is double fucked if you leave/get fired/whatever after some time and after a certain point dont even get residuals #cant really put it on your resume either and since its a niche of a niche less-online jobs just dont count it as experience without proof #its such cool technology (even just live 2d tracking) but the barrier to entry and ceiling of quality keeps getting higher even year #not to mention the power that these companies have over their talents in the way the industry is currently configured #its even more fucked if you start thinking on a systematic level #but yeah the current nijisanji PR trainwreck is a special kind of fucked #bullying and isolating their talent to the point of a suicide attempt? im not an expert in Canadian law but im pretty sure thats illegal #at the very least niji continually calling selens emergency contact (and probably hospital) to make a statement is probably against the law #seriously hope selen/doki and her family gets some legal consult because this is so fucked up #and the way they fired her is also probably illegal under canadian law

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vstheworld · 18 days

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of course I would immediately get a cold the day I start stretching my septum

#THE SNEEZING #I am being punished #personal #text post #the 12g ring feels so big #and I think it’s making me sneeze more #but I can’t take it out or there was no point putting it in!#we beat on ceaselessly against the currents etc

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vote2 · 9 months

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i do acknowledge i need to watch what i say wrt gender women men cis ppl etc just augh.

#its like. im a trans man 100% i want nothing to do w being seen as a women i acknowledge that. i also acknowledge that I am putting #literally zero effort in my irl life to present as a guy at all. partially lack of resources and embarrassment etc stuff like that partiall #the autism i literally look in a mirror and see a guy #and i go to class go to work and until soemone explicitally refers to me as a woman i think of myself as a guy. so like its this weird #disconnect of what i actually do vs what i percieve as expieriencing in my daily life where i am objectively living #as a cis woman who just dresses and acts a bit masc. lol.#and like that doesnt bother me atm until i get to a setting where i am gendered frequently. then i feel nauseas etc but whatever ill deal #so i always hesitate whenever i talk abt women feminism men makeup beauty expectations etc (also i am mixed thai and white which #def plays into everyhting ofc ofc) as i dont know rly what is like. not fine idc if i say smthn uncouth just i dont want to at all #seem like im doing what these other trans guys do and latch onto my femininity and 'girlhood growing up' etc or like #its all dumb to me ofc im a feminist i consider anything i speak abt feminism free the nipple being against gender essiantialism etc etc #as in feminism (not that women arent/cant be femnists just in terms of im not trying to sound like a woman) and #ofc growing up as and my current life experiences have obvi had a large impact on myself how i veiw the world my political beliefs and all.#but like. im always scared it sounds like im idr the phrase someone else used but a i dont want to seem like im latching onto girlhood as #a failsafe or whatever. its just mm ykwim its a weird feeling. cause like im a 21 year old man and read my posts as such el oh el.#idk its all weird and idk if its a specific to me thing or whattttt it just like. i feel silly sometimes and i dont want my points to be #misconstrued :) anyways me posting this after rewatching and posting abt pearl has nothign to do genuinly lmfao just timing its been #on my mind after that dumbass trans guy posting abt the lonelyness he feels abt abandoning womanhood #after watching barbie. lol and then i saw someone in the comments of some ig quote it w like 30 replies all positive like get a lifeee #i understand it can feel isolating being trans and everyones relationship back to womanhood is diff and complecated but by god. shut up #anywayyyyyssss mmm okay im done whateverr #maybe all a fear in my head and literally none of this has every crossed anyones mind however it bothers me :(

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gutterprophet · 2 months

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one of my favorite parts of the day is emerging from my nest of blankets outside in the woods & blearily stumbling over to let the dogs out of the cabin that they live in but i don't & watching them sprint around the farm together getting caught up on all the smells that happened overnight

#another favorite is when i stumble into the outhouse to pee at 2 am and make direct eye contact with the opossum who lives in it #and when the jays we feed wake me up at dawn by perching three inches from my nest and yelling #sundog (white dog with bobbed tail) and chickenhawk (not pictured) are the only ones who really live inside #volshka (large white dog with black muzzle) lives fully outside and breq (small & tricolor) lives wherever co-farmer lives #which currently is in the car running errands during the day & in an abandoned building at night #i really enjoy the absurdity of all my life choices. did you know you can just do whatever you want forever #if i was making sane and sensible choices i would probably be living in a hospital / institution by now. but you see the thing is #i don't WANNA. i want to live in my car / outside in the woods / in abandoned buildings with my pack of dogs and be a weird insane cryptid #so we're just figuring out how to manage feeding tube & mobility impairment & immunodeficiency #& constant life-threatening medical emergencies & etc while living outside. and i will die ecstatic. live fast die young touch grass #(the local emergency responders hate us. i do so many things Against Medical Advice. i am happy though.)#possum posts

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darabeatha · 2 months

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Absolutely feral that after getting kicked from heaven and falling down for 9 whole days (and then staying burning in agony in a pit of fire down in hell for another 9 days) s.atan and his army of millions of fallen angels just crawl from the shores of hell, decide to make a hugeass palace for themselves and then discuss what the heck are they going to do now, only to come to the conclusion that the way to hurt god the most would be to destroy his newest creation (men) which from then on they can further take on earth and make it their new kingdom (bc during the council, one of the fallen angels argued that even if they made a new kingdom in hell, at the end of the day they are still essentially 'trapped' in a box, so would that even count as a triumph?)

#;ooc #ooc #;about #about #what i find most interesting is that despite the hatred and all; there are a lot of points during the story where #s.atan laments the current situation in a way;#i wish i could list them but that would take ages of revisiting OUGH #like at one point when he arrives at the garden of eden #and sees just how immensely beautiful it is (mind u he and the rest of the fallen angels have met for the first time the concept of agony #and pain when they fell from heaven) he sorts of goes through a crisis about how he laments things #but then he's like;; no no this isnt what i want what i want is POWER and basically goes like #if i cant have this no one can; and just proceeds with his plan of corruption #anyways i think the title of the universe' first sin to adress him is kinda cool title ngl #its like; as a human it makes u sort of sympathize with him but then u realize that all this guilt and stuff #isn't really coming from a greater good in his heart to want the best; it comes from greed; jealousy; hatred; pride; etc etc #or well; i dunno i found it so troubling that we can sort of understand more his logic than the logic of angels & god #there's s o much philosophy and theological debates stacked that i dont think I can properly put words into it #bc again im a baby in all of this #but it really is very interesting #like i dunno; something something about how they WANT retribution; or better said; vengeance against god #they want to inflic this new found pain back #and finding that the best solution to revindicate themselves would be to destroy his creation #that's like feral man i dunno it makes me just -HANDS ON FACE-#bc supposedly god loves his creation with all his heart so its like; to destroy that;; what would that make him feel?#and also;; if god created all angels; why did he create an angel that could feel these emotions?#that quote that went something like 'why did you create me to be flawed' AGH I CANT REMMEBER IT WELL #i know theres something about free will that is discussed a lot in the story but #its so complicated to put into words im just gonna go OUITRTROI

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dyketubbo · 2 years

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i think as a society we should eradicate unreality jokes/pranks forever

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