#agh the stress

[redhotarsenic]

@nowfallc PICTURE!! FOR YOU!! PLEASE TAKE IT!! <3

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

[seithr]

[everyday-mspaint-kirby]

Day 587

[midnight-els]

For All Mankind | 4x07 "Crossing the Line"

"Former director of NASA, Margo Madison, has returned to the United States, nearly a decade after defecting to the Soviet Union."

[shima-draws]

If work is stressing me out so much that I start looking for other jobs (which I NEVER do bc. Scared™️) that's when I KNOW it's bad lmao

[beneathsilverstars]

working on my designs for young odile and gf(?), and coming up with clothes is so stressful... i know id5 probably just drew whatever looked cool but i am sitting here like b but how am i supposed to decide what they'd wear if i don't know the socio-political context, fashion is a cultural conversation not to mention a product of supply chains and labor !!!!

[bruneburg]

oh well

[sysig]

expression meme: pink A10 for the capt maybe

or yellow b2 zex, i love to see his condescending and cold side 🥰

Uh oh, lover's tiff (From he/re, meme still open ♥)

[yuseirra]

Mhm, please don't send me spoilers and ask me my opinions on them, it doesn't matter... the plot will go where the author intends to be and I have no power over it, Now I'm struggling to make things and I feel lost.. I feel like I could have drawn a couple more things but I don't feel the same way right now. it feels hollow to have lost the drive and immersion I have toward a series like this. I really like the things I choose to draw about, and I really feel and enjoy them and have passion, and have some conviction towards them. I actually BELIEVE in what I draw. My thoughts are that, you can't convince others of what you yourself aren't convinced about.

at the same time, my brain seems to be running on its own like some CPU that's on auto, I'm just sitting here and I get little sparks of ideas going, "What if it's this?" "doesn't this make sense if it's like this?" trying to make out how things are supposed to be-

-but my stance on every fandom I'm in, usually, is that it's the official take of things that matter in the end. No matter how I interpret things, I want to follow that. I'm very keen about how things really are. What I want to happen comes secondary, I respect how things are and I'm not really about.. making things that aren't there just because I want it to be that way. That's how I enjoy other people's work, so... I'm ready to take things if I'm wrong. It's sad to have my spark about things dwindle when it didn't have to be though!! I can't throw a tantrum because my ship isn't canon or something like that (and I'm.. still pretty convinced that I wouldn't be that off, but..;) but I really want my feelings to be back... it's not something I can just desire to have and obtain, it has to return to me. I need my feelings back.. maybe I'll reread some things ;v;) ahh!! what a comic!!

I know you're all so very kind to me and I've been so happy... If I get really off about things later, you don't have to tell me about it, okay?/// I'm prepared to take it all, very quietly. After all, I came in preparing myself for the worst when I hopped in because I know what I set my foot into- I was just that convinced, thinking "Oh... but this has to be it! I know what this is supposed to be!" It's not often that I feel so sure about something and so I had/I've been having a lot of fun!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

oogh its been many many months since i last scribbled This Guy. he looks slightly different now... good different

[clowningcrows]

it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.

[paradoxbeta]

hope it's alright that im bunching these asks under one post but AAAAA big thank you to all of these! they made a local internet wizard very happy to read

[rustinged]

April 1 - April 7, 2024; truly a week i have to be thankful for. this week will stay with me for a long time 🤎

[theghoulboysblog]

thinking about releasing my drafts cause i have like 192 of them and i think they are kinda funny but most of them aren’t shane and ryan related and are kinda just my inner thoughts AGH 😭

[capn-twitchery]

sorry for sappy on main but i wanted to say if you've left nice comments on my art or sent me an ask about my ocs in the last month, thank you so much, it really, really means the world to me!!♥︎

the past 3 or so years have been hell for me creatively for a lot of reasons, & even though it really knocked my confidence--i've been excited to draw & drawn more in the past month than i have in a Really Long Time ;; it's been nice

it's still something of a battle but thank you for helping me with it♥︎