#ahem bsd

[pebblul]

This is completely out of left field for me but Arnold and Dispatch ARE toxic yaoi.

I will NOT be convinced otherwise.

[lotus-pear]

dazai breathlessly watching his partner in an inhuman, corrupted state and still finding him beautiful has to be another kind of love

[calmlb]

Dazai & Atsushi wearing the tiger (representing byakko) on their shirts, and Chuuya & Akutagawa wearing the dragon (representing rashomon) on theirs 🤯🥹

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[mikayuumouse]

So

Chapters 121.5—123

What a whirlwind, and the arc isn't even near over yet

And I'd just like to say, we've gotten a lot more of Akutagawa's introspection about Atsushi than we have of Atsushi's introspection about Akutagawa

Which kind of makes me sad, because I'm dying to know Atsushi's true feelings for Akutagawa. We know that Atsushi cares about Akutagawa, hell, even loves him, and is willing to die for him. We know Akutagawa is a large part of his life and he's never in the back of Atsushi's mind, we know he's seen Akutagawa's past now and fully understands who Akutagawa is as a person now

But I want to know more, with definite words. I want to know how Atsushi reacted to Akutagawa's death after swimming to mainland and being picked up by Ango. I want to know how Atsushi mourned him, how Atsushi truly felt the loss. I adore how Asagiri writes them and I really can't wait to see more of Atsushi's development towards Akutagawa be revealed

Does Atsushi still have his coat? Did Atsushi feel completely alone without him? Has Atsushi even come to terms with his own feelings for Akutagawa?

I love, love, love the Akutagawa/Sskk growth we've gotten, but I still desperately want to see more of Atsushi's perspective on it

He cares about Akutagawa, he loves Akutagawa, and I want to see more of this. More of the conflicting moral of loving someone like Akutagawa, more of Atsushi finding solace in loving Akutagawa; his other half, more of Atsushi learning to love and be loved

Atsushi is so wonderfully written and complex, and chapter 123 really added to his journey to healing from his trauma, and idk, for me, I'm excited to see more of Atsushi's side of sskk

[likesdoodling]

I said I would colour this.... And I did. :D

(I love this scene so much!!!-)

If you are curious, this is from a bsd harry potter au, basically dazai goes to hogwarts. It's pretty cool. Coil, (what this is from) is the second one. Magic and Mystery is the first one. I would highly recommend both of them. The author is Allegory_for_Hatred on ao3.

I love this series so much. And I put a ton of effort into colouring this. I reckon it turned out alright.

:)

[malin-la]

Skk fans had 101 and 109

Sskk fans have 88 and 119

[tfemzaipanels]

w/o flag + original panel utc

[starcollectorsilas]

love touch starved characters. characters who lean into passing hands on their backs or arms. characters who are outwardly tough but have multiple pillows and a plushie to be able to sleep at night, needing something to hold. something to hold them. characters who slap away the hand going to their shoulder because they know once they get that contact they'll want nothing more than to collapse into open arms. and that hurts them more than not having it at all. not allowing it.

because those welcoming arms weren't always so warm, and they don't want to feel it when they get cold again.

[zukkaoru]

you are i are destined to... || because i trust you, of course

here's how kunichuuzai can still win-- [id in alt text]

[ahemnaaaasebenyaaaa]

MY BRAIN WOULD NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT TRYING TO DRAW SOMEONE NEW SO I DREW FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY FROM BSD JUST TRYING

[calmlb]

Hi Essie!!! Hope you're doing well! (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)❤️

So I had this idea for a sick!Dazai fic (that I'm honestly too tired to write dhehee), and who else is better to brainstorm it with than my fellow Dazai whump enthusiast? :D

Based on my own experience of being sick for the past week, I forgot how awful it can get. It sucks. You're feverish, your nose is either runny or super blocked, your throat hurts, you get headaches, you're lethargic 80% of the time, all that stuff. But what sucked the most for me was how hot my skin felt. Like, clothes were so uncomfortable to wear from the sweat, especially since it's still summer around here.

So imagine putting bandages into account as well?

Yep, awful.

So I present you with a scenario: Teen!Dazai in his office, has taken over paper duty (that Mori knows he isn't gonna complete anyway) because of his fever. He feels gross, to say the least. Flushed and hazy, a little nauseous and sleepy. But his skin- his skin is scorching, and there is no way for it to disperse that heat because it can't breathe. He endures it for as long as he can until he just can't.

In his haze, he scrambles to tear his bandages off, loosen his tie, and decides that he will lie on the cold floor shirtless. The air conditioner isn't enough. No one is there to stop him.

Until Chuuya barges in without knocking as usual (to discus the paperwork he also knows Dazai isn't going to finish) and stumbles onto the scene.

Dazai doesn't even acknowledge him, has already taken off the bandages around his eye and is halfway through tearing off the ones around his neck. His clothes are disheveled as he loosens them and looks like he's about to take them off.

Chuuya gapes for a solid second, before exclaiming with a blush-

"What the fuck?!"

He rushes over, trying not to look at Dazai's skin that's on display and stops him. He wraps him with Mori's oversized coat aggressively.

Dazai fights against him, exclaiming that he needs to lie on the floor. Chuuya doesn't get it, all that he knows is that Dazai is delirious, and even if he thinks it's a good idea to tear through his protective layer now, he'll definitely regret it later.

So Chuuya ties him with the coat and decides to take the paperwork to his place, along with a flailing Dazai on his shoulder.

I just wanna see Dazai giving Chuuya hell during treating him 😭 cuz even if cooling off is a good idea for a fever, not staying huddled in the warmth equates to chills and endless sneezes. Makes you feel even more awful. So it's gonna be a push and pull of Chuuya trying to warm Dazai up (in order to fight off the fever faster), and Dazai wanting to cool off (because he isn't used to being this warm and hates it), until they come up with a compromise somehow dgdhejndjd

Yeah, just a fun idea! :3 Feel free to expand on it hehe

PEA 😭 i saw this when i was having a Very Bad Day™️ & it immediately made it sm better tysm 🥺🩷🩷

UGH THE TENDER, FEVERISH SKIN UNDER THE BANDAGES ❤️‍🩹 where everything just feels like too much, i completely understand why Dazai (in his feverish delusion) would think removing the offending material would be the solution

Chuuya barging in and quickly going from 👁️👄👁️ to 😳🤬. i love that he goes into protective mode, thinking of how future Dazai will surely regret this course of action & putting measures in place to prevent that 🥺

Chuuya would wrap Dazai up like a sushi roll & carry him on his shoulder like a log back to his apartment, where he proceeds to lose the idgaf war & embrace his mother hen side (which he still denies exists)

meanwhile Dazai is kicking & fighting him every step of the way, acting more like a 5 year old than a mafia sub executive (he’s still only a kid sobs), even as he shivers with chills

until Chuuya manages to get a hand in his sweat soaked curls, gently carding through them. the coolness of his leather glove against Dazai’s overheated scalp makes Dazai go still… and then slump against the couch in a mixture of relief & exhaustion. Chuuya takes advantage of his compliance to make him agree to stop fighting him, & they spend the rest of the day resting on the couch, watching movies & playing video games (well. Chuuya plays. Dazai watches & points out all of Chuuya’s mistakes) 🩷🩷🩷

[smol-stardust]

Ch 109: the truck that ran me over

EP. 10: the salt that's getting dumped over the excessive wound

[themoonwitch-mustspeak]

MORI VS GENTOR WHO WINS THIS MOST HATED CHARACTER FIGHT

[ratsbanes]

Do I love the idea of Sokoku being doting fathers? Yes.

Do I also know in canon that would never happen because Dazai can't even take care of himself properly, let alone a child? And that Chuuya's in the fucking mafia? Also yes.

[dancing-dawn]

Opinions on beast sskk? :>

Starting out with the easier ones!

Beast sskk is THE sskk, I feel. I (almost, i make exception only for lumi <3) haven’t read any fanfiction for Beast because the canon is sheer perfection to me. It is the epitome of backstory and characterization done right. You can also feel how much Asagiri-san has improved as a writer and the deep understanding he's got of his characters. I have the feeling I've said this before sooomewhere in this blog but: it's a beautiful and truly meaningful ‘what if’ that deepens your perception of Atsu and Aku. I see it sort of like an “analysis through looking at the opposite and how it contradicts or adds onto to the original.”

Beast was very important to show Aku's natural provicity for kindness and Atsushi's inherent, umm how do I word it, wrongful morality? Amongst other things, of course, I'm not doing a full blown reversed ying-yang dynamics analysis on here because we'll be on for a whole night! I also like how Beast essentially takes exactly the same characters and just puts them through different upbringings, and the result is striking. Different, yet all the same.

sugar cube scene save me sugar cube scene

[dreamlydrawsshit]

oh these markers are to die for. It's probably the closest I'll get to digital layers when drawing traditionally. I'm in love

also! lol. I've finished my practice piece so I belieeeeeve I'm ready to draw the inevitable Soukoku piece after the poll's finished. (unless you guys wanna dump a whole lotta votes on ChuuAtsu real quick? we'll seee~)

Regardless of when I finish that, though, I think I'm gonna post it anywhere from like the 21st to the 27th so I can give Dazai's birthday piece (day after tomorrow!!) time to simmer.