#akayona smut

[shcyc]

— IN ORDER; LEFT TO RIGHT

kita shinsuke, hinata shōyō, tendō satori, sugawara kōshi, getō suguru, levi ackerman, albedo, xiao, tartaglia / childe, mycroft holmes, shin-ah, soo-won

sakusa kiyoomi, meian shūgo, miya osamu, nanami kento, zhongli, tighnari, cyno, pantalone, fred porlock, kisumi shigino, nanase haruka, ze-no

kageyama tobio, semi eita, sukuna ryomen, eren jeager, kaeya alberich, arataki itto, sebastian moran, matsuoka rin

iwaizumi hajime, miya atsumu, hoshiumi kōrai, suna rintarō, kuroo tersurō, erwin smith, gorou, kamisato ayato, al-haitham, louis james moriarty, sherlock holmes, jae-ha

akaashi keiji, bokuto kōtarō, inunaki shion, oikawa tōru, kenma kozume, armin arlert, thoma, william james moriarty, henry antrim / billy, ki-ja

ushijima wakatoshi, jean kirstein, diluc ragnvindr, dottore, scaramouche, albert james moriarty, yamazaki sosuke, hak

[fairiesthrum]

─── akatsuki no yona ﾉ yona of the dawn masterlist

❝ i won’t let this love end in sadness . . . ❞

☰ table of contents ⟡ masterlist ﾉ requests

ᘛ yona

ᘛ hiryuu

peaches and cream — king hiryuu exploring the sexual side of being a human. ꒰ wc. 0.8k + cw. mdni. headcanon ꒱ ౨ৎ

ᘛ soo-won

ᘛ ik-soo

ᘛ son hak

ᘛ jae-ha

ᘛ zeno

ᘛ joo-doh

ᘛ kouren

ᘛ kye-sook

[pockcock]

"Please, Soo-Won! Slow down!"

Oh, your sweet pleas, sweet suppliants… How can he slow down? How can he stop? How? How can you expect him to stop when your ass swallows him this good? How can he stop when your tight hole embraces him so well? He should've done this a long time ago, he should've taken it when he first inserted his thumb during a makeout session on his throne. He should've heard your cries a long, long time ago. But better late than never, right?

"Shh, my pretty princess. Hush, please. We don't want anyone to hear us right? Or do you want your father to know what a slut you are?"

You shake your head. "N-No!"

"That's my pretty girl..." He kisses your naked shoulders then moving onto your spine. "I'll make you my queen," he says between his kisses. "I can't fuck your pussy just yet, not before our marriage. But when I do, oh my sweet treasure, I'll breed you." He thrusts his whole length into your puckered hole. "I'll—fuck, I'll breed you. You'll give me heirs, plenty of them. Just wait. I'll have you."

@st-arlert yep @maries-gallery YOU HAVE TO

[moonstruck-writing]

Vulnerable with you

Event: ‘Tis the season for smut challenge hosted by @voltage-vixen

Day 5: “you've been a very good boy this year”

Pairing: Jae-Ha x Kija | Akatsuki no Yona

Content: NSFW (lemon), 18+, minor spoilers for Jae-Ha’s backstory, male x male, mutual masturbation.

Word count: 3.734

A/N: I’m planning on re-reading AkaYona this holidays to catch up to the latest chapters and I’m so hyped I had to write about them ^.^ I changed the prompt slightly to fit the manga, also, my laptop is being repaired so I had to finish this on my phone, the formatting may be a bit weird >.<

Kija lies down on the futon with a sigh. It has been a while since they last slept under a roof, and the security and warmth he feels knowing they are in their own private room for the night reminds him of old times in his village, making him happy and sleepy. He could put up with sleeping out in the open during any other time of the year, but winter called for a proper sleeping spot, and he relished the sensation of his entire body heating up in the cosy room.

A playful smile dances in Jae-Ha’s face, who is still organising their belongings. The group had decided to split into three different rooms, since this inn has quite small chambers. It is the first time Kija and Jae-Ha are completely alone together, and the white dragon has to admit to himself that it makes him a bit nervous. He had thought Jae-Ha would choose someone else, perhaps Hak, if Yona didn’t demand her personal guard for herself, maybe Shin-Ah so that Jae-Ha could finally stare into his mysterious eyes all he wanted, or even cheerful Zeno. But him? Well, yes, he is the white dragon, but they don't exactly share much, and sometimes Kija has the impression that there is something about him that bothers Jae-Ha, something besides his values and the way he was raised. He sometimes caught the green dragon looking at him with a serious face that he doesn't use for the rest, but maybe he was just overthinking things. If only Kija had had his eyes open at that moment, he would’ve seen Jae-Ha doesn't always still his features when he searches for him.

A loud thud interrupts Kija’s journey to Morpheus’s arms, and he rolls to his side to look at what Jae-Ha has been doing. Now finally sitting down, the green-haired one opens the wrapped bottle and pours himself a cup.

“You’re going to drink?”

Jae-Ha smiles at him and elevates the cup towards him.

“But Hak is not here.”

“Who says I need Hak to drink?”

“You’re going to drink alone?”

Jae-Ha bites his lips before he can blurt out “I am not alone”.

“Perhaps...I could drink with you,”Kija suddenly says.

Jae-Ha sets down his cup and goes to fetch another one from his bags. Sensing Kija move, he turns and sees the white dragon has reached for Jae-Ha’s cup and is now downing what he had left.

“You don’t want your own cup?” Jae-Ha’s eyes are on the other’s lips, now wet with sake. When he doesn’t reply, Jae-Ha returns to him empty-handed and sits down next to the youngest’s spread futon. It isn’t exactly every day that Kija chooses to share something instead of demanding to have his own thing, and Jae-Ha feels the spark of hope alighting within him. Hope and the spirit of the chase.

“What is it that you wish to drown in alcohol, Kija-kun?” Jae-Ha picks up the empty cup from Kija’s bandaged dragon hand to pour himself a cup.

Kija sighs and the oldest wonders if he is already drunk just with a few sips of sake. He had intended this to go on for much longer, even if he doesn’t exactly know what “this” is.

“Is it about love?” The green-haired one presses further, wanting an answer to Kija’s unusual behaviour.

“Wha-why would it be about love?!” His pale skin rapidly turns to crimson.

“It is simply the most common reason why people drink.” Jae-ha pushes the cup against his lips, craving to feel something on them. When he finally takes a sip, his tongue laps around the alcohol, wanting more.

“Does this mean you’re drinking because of love?” Kija flops onto his stomach and looks at Jae-Ha, his eyes full of curiosity and something that the oldest cannot identify.

“I’m always drinking because of love, Kija-kun. Don’t you have regrets?”

“Regrets?” Kija pulls himself up on his elbows.

“Don’t you have anyone you wish… you had been different with?” Jae-Ha sips to stop more words from spilling from his lips, but when he sees Kija isn’t even blinking, decides to give him something else. “Something left unresolved?”

The white-haired one gives him a disdainful look.

“You know I have nothing like that in my past, and I don’t want to talk about it.”

“The things we don’t talk about are the closest to our hearts.” Jae-Ha’s voice turns breathy, half-whisper. Kija feels the beginning of a shiver tickling his skin. “Aren’t we drinking tonight? Just the two of us?” Jae-Ha moves his head, and his bangs cover one of his eyes completely.

“What regrets do you have?” The youngest counterattacks. Jae-Ha looks away and sips at the sake, trying to focus his thoughts, measuring what to say.

“I regret not being more understanding.” He closes his lips, reminiscing of certain events that happened at the onsen. “Being judgmental is never a good trait, it won’t get me a partner, will it now?”

“If you’re talking about a life-long partner and not just a brief encounter, I don’t think you should be worrying yourself with that right now.” Kija holds Jae-Ha’s gaze. “The four dragons and our king have been united again, so I think protecting Yona is the most important thing.” Kija nods briefly, sure of his convictions. His village and people come to his mind and he says in a low voice, almost to himself: “I think grandma would understand why I'm not interested in a bride right now.”

“What about a groom then?” Jae-Ha doesn’t miss a beat. Kija looks up, slightly dumbfounded, and finds Jae-Ha's half-hidden smile behind the sake cup intoxicating.

“Even if you're not interested in breeding, you can focus on other needs.” Jae-Ha continues.

“But we are dragons,” Kija replies, thinking that with their power, keeping certain needs restrained is the wisest thing to do. Who knows what would happen with his strength in the heat of the moment, it’s not the first time he has felt something taking over his body, uncontrollable. He could hurt someone without meaning to.

“Yeah, so?” Jae-Ha shuffles in his position on the floor to face Kija completely and sets one hand down, leaning closer to him. “Have you never wondered how merging your energy with another dragon would feel?”

Kija had always been curious about how it would feel to be on the receiving end of Jae-Ha's flirtatious remarks, but he could've never anticipated the way it would make his body feel warm.

“You must think me the easiest of the dragons to toy with.” Kija hides his unrest behind a mask, not daring to go near that newfound warmth that is slowly spreading through his body, relaxing his muscles further but making him oddly alert.

“Not at all, Kija-kun.” Jae-Ha sips his sake and lets his lips remain moist when he looks back at Kija. “I think you are the most interesting one, that's all.”

Kija's feelings stir, finding familiarity in being held special, but also being confused at why Jae-Ha ever would, after everything they know about each other.

“Is it because I'm the most different to you?” His tone almost an accusation, he feels his face contorting into a grimace and is quick to hide it, pressing his forehead above his palms on the futon.

Jae-Ha puts his little cup aside and rests his chin on one of his hands, elbow on his knee, making him bend to one side to have a better angle to look at Kija’s movements.

“In what ways do you think we're most different?” Jae-Ha's voice is as seductive as ever, and that makes Kija's breath catch. It has been months since the green dragon had unleashed all his powers, months of travelling through woods and always having one of the group stuck to his hip, and he is savouring this dance. Kija feels dizzy and raises his head to look at him, wanting to find comfort in the familiarity of his features.

“We-well, I was treated like a king in my village, I never had a need for anything, while you...” his voice trails off and he breaks eye contact.

“While I was shackled and beaten?”

Kija frowns, imagining the young boy and the torture he was submitted to.

“What else, Kija-dear.” Jae-Ha extends a hand and breaks the invisible wall between them, gracing Kija's chin. Kija turns his gaze from the floor to those dark blue eyes, eyes that have the same colour as his, just a darker shade. It is the first time Jae-Ha has addressed him like that, and he isn’t sure if it is proper, but Kija decides to stay quiet about it.

“You fought with pirates...” A soft pink starts spreading across Kija’s cheeks and his eyelids flutter, breaking his contact with Jae-Ha's gaze. His thoughts haven’t had time to reorganise after the term of endearment, and now his mind is becoming even more cramped with thoughts of the green dragon and the hints he has been throwing about.

“Uhuh?” Jae-Ha encourages him, now lightly swiping his thumb over Kija’s cheek.

“...and...” Kija stops himself and suddenly pulls his face free from Jae-Ha's hand. “You know what I mean, don't make me say it!” The blush now furiously staining his cheeks makes it impossible to misunderstand.

“Would you rather I say it then?” Jae-Ha's hand returns slowly to his side, and a placid smile dances on his lips.

“Don't.”

“Mm? Why?” Jae-Ha leans closer to Kija, now on his knees, and returns his hands to the other’s face, cupping his cheeks while the white dragon looks down.

“It's shameful.” The embarrassment is clear but it doesn’t move him to reject Jae-Ha’s touch a second time.

“But there's nothing shameful about this, Kija-kun.” Kija almost feels himself wince at the loss of the new endearment term Jae-Ha had used before. He doesn’t want him to go back to usual, whatever that means. This thought pushes him to look up to find a warm smile on Jae-Ha's face, but no trace of teasing, or of getting further, for that matter. Kija feels a swarm of disappointment and anger flowing through his body, feeling small next to the oldest.

“Are you just going to toy with me tonight?” He pouts before he can stop himself, but the alcohol already intoxicating him prevents him from keeping to his usual composure.

“You know I love teasing, and you of all people have a beautiful frustrated face, Kija-kun,” Jae-Ha leans closer to him with the excuse of examining his features.

“Am I only beautiful to you when I’m frustrated?” Kija looks away, trying to turn from him but finding it difficult since Jae-Ha is craddling his face.

“You’re beautiful all the time. Sometimes even dazzling.”

Kija’s lips open, and he feels himself tremble slightly, from surprise or from hope.

“Are you... are we...” Kija doesn’t find the words, scared that it is all play pretend.

“You're smart, Kija-kun. I'm not going to do anything unless you ask me to.” As if to exemplify his words, his hands drop from the other’s face and Kija almost whimpers at the loss. This gives him the courage to pursue Jae-Ha before the other thinks of completely ending this game.

“Can we... have more things in common?” Kija wavers, unnaturally polite. He moves to his knees, hands reaching for Jae-Ha but not making it far. “I want... you to teach me... how not to be ashamed.”

 

“And how would I be able to do that, Kija?” Dropping the honorific, Jae-Ha breaks the distance between their faces and whispers in Kija’s ears, making him shiver.

“Don’t tease me.”

“Mm? I thought you liked it, though.”

Kija’s cheeks flush, his lips hang open as if his brain doesn’t have enough air. Jae-Ha is momentarily stunned, and his defences start to drop at the vulnerability that the white dragon is showing him already.

“I want you to stop playing,” Kija finally claims with a shaky breath.

“Should we show ourselves completely to each other then?” Jae-Ha plays with the bandage that’s already started to come off of Kija’s dragon claw.

“Is my hand the first thing in your mind right now, Jae-Ha?” Kija’s voice comes out raspy and low, and for the first time, the green dragon hears the force of all the need he had been keeping under that polite façade.

Jae-Ha thinks of teasing him further but quickly discards the idea.

“May I kiss you?” Jae-Ha breathes over Kija’s lips, eyelids heavy.

When the white dragon’s lips crash onto his, it almost makes him chuckle, but the intensity of the desire and the electric current that just went down his spine to every scale on his foot leave his mind foggy. He did expect Kija to be an enthusiastic learner and take the lead even when Jae-Ha would be much better suited for it, but what he didn’t expect is the alarming speed at which he is losing his strength, his every cell urging to relax under Kija’s touch.

When Kija’s lips finally stop moving desperately over his, Jae-Ha starts to wonder just exactly who has seduced who. Even at a disadvantage, his clumsy movements had set his entire body on fire.

“I thought your trademark was purity and inexperience,” he casually comments, lips still hanging open with need.

“You know I always end up being good at everything I do, no matter what.” Kija teases back, and the promise of pleasure throbs inside Jae-Ha. “Now, are you going to trust me enough to show me who you really are, Jae-Ha?”

The oldest thinks he’s only speaking of his dragon foot, but Kija is thinking of all of him, mostly his heart, which is still wrapped in mystery for him.

“You’ll have to earn it.” Jae-Ha’s usual smirk is carefully placed on his lips, but his eyes give him away.

“I want you.” Kija suddenly blurts out, urged by the ocean of pain he has seen reflected in Jae-Ha’s eyes. His earnest words erase Jae-Ha’s smile, who suddenly feels he’s playing a losing game. “Do you not trust me?” Kija moves further away from Jae-Ha to allow him some space, and also to take in his features as a whole.

“If I had to trust someone…” Jae-Ha starts, unable to tear his gaze away from Kija. “It would have to be good old Kija, who else would have your moral integrity?” His laugh sounds smaller than usual, like it can barely leave his throat.

“Yes, you can trust me completely. You are safe here with me, Jae-Ha.”

Jae-Ha wants to snort a pointy remark, but he hates to admit Kija’s words are everything he is still longing for. Kija notices Jae-Ha’s limbs relaxing and begins approaching him again, this time resting his dragon claw still bandaged on top of Jae-Ha’s thigh, just shy of his groin. Jae-Ha tilts his head back to receive Kija’s lips again, arms firmly planted behind himself, prepared for the strength of the white dragon, but this time Kija’s lips brush faintly against his mouth. Jae-Ha opens his eyes and grabs Kija’s neck, urging him closer, but Kija’s movements remain light. Jae-Ha breathes through his nose, trying to control his own impatience and instead focusing on the moment, on reveling in Kija’s company. Soon enough he finds his own lips parting, his tongue gently sliding along Kija’s lips. A moan escapes Kija, and Jae-Ha feels his crotch reacting to the pretty sound. He deepens the kiss, now dancing his tongue on top of Kija’s. The white dragon’s tongue is moving timidly below, and then Jae-Ha feels his whole head supported by Kija’s dragon claw. He can’t wait to feel his embrace if he’s going to feel as supported as he feels right now.

Jae-Ha slides his hand from the back of Kija’s neck and caresses his shoulders and chest, feeling the firmness of his muscles. The novelty makes him stop breathing for a second and he breaks the kiss. Kija takes the chance to start undressing and Jae-Ha almost breaks into a laugh, for their roles seem to have reversed completely.

“Eager, aren’t we?” Jae-Ha decides to sit back and enjoy seeing Kija’s skin appear before his eyes. It isn’t the first time they’ve seen each other naked, but the sensuality coils into intimacy between them.

“Aren’t you going to undress? You’re usually the pervert throwing his clothes around.”

“I was waiting for you to undress me, Kija.” The familiarity of the dropped honorific pulsates inside of the white dragon, working like a magnet that pulls him closer to his opposite.

Kija moves to undo Jae-Ha’s clothes, and the desperation in his fast movements is mirrored in the oldest’s heart, beating wildly. He feels a bit foolish, being so excited and nervous when he is a thousand times more experienced than Kija, but the truth is, it is their first time together.

Now only wearing trousers, Kija kisses Jae-Ha again, but this time the green dragon pushes forward and wraps his arm around him, guiding his body to lie on the futon. Jae-Ha breaks the kiss as soon as he feels Kija’s tongue poking his lips. His hands sneak down his trousers and lightly trace the growing erection of the youngest. Kija moans and feels his claw pulsating, the rest of his body buzzing with desire. Before Jae-Ha can take his pants off, Kija grabs at his crotch, squeezing the green dragon’s shaft. Jae-Ha feels his strength wavering and closes his eyes, enjoying the pleasurable sensation. Wanting to get a moan out of him, Kija frees his cock with his human hand and begins touching him, wondering if Jae-Ha likes it the way he does.

“Why don’t we pleasure each other, Kija?” The look on Jae-Ha’s face makes his cock twitch. Half-lidded eyes full of desire state back at him, his hands tracing the opening of his trousers.

“Jae-Ha.” The whisper dies into a moan when he feels the other enveloping his member. They begin moving their hands at the same time, and Jae-Ha leans down to lick at Kija’s lips, urging him to open his mouth. Their bodies now flushed together, their body heat is so high it would turn jnto fever in any regular human being. At some point during the kiss they have wrapped their hands around both of their sexes, their leaking cocks now rubbing against each other.

“Will you let me take control, Kija?” Jae-Ha pulls back and looks at him, the white dragon’s skin now showing red patches over his neck and chest from the excitement. Kija pulls away the hand he had between them and covers his eyes with his arm.

Jae-Ha’s ministrations quicken, their breaths becoming laboured. Their energies twist around each other, engulfing their bodies. When he feels himself crossing another door to his high,  Jae-Ha leans down to whisper on Kija’s ear.

“Will you come for me, Kija-dear?”

Kija suffocates a moan and reaches his release first, soon followed by Jae-Ha’s. He continues stroking both of them slowly, until there is no more to paint their stomachs with. Kija whimpers, experiencing overstimulation from the first time. Jae-Ha kisses him sloppily, eyes sleepy, a satisfied smile on his lips.

“You’ve been such a good boy, Hakuryuu-kun.”

Kija sighs, taking his arm down to look at Jae-Ha.

“You could give me a reward.”

“Oh? What does my Kija want?” Jae-Ha’s bangs tickle the other’s face, and Kija wants to pull him into an embrace and bask in the possessive.

“I want to see your dragon leg.”

Jae-Ha looks away with a bitter smile. It had to be that. Kija guides his head back to look him in the eyes.

“You see my dragon claw all the time, there’s nothing bad with that.” Kija tries to convince him, but he can see in those dark blue eyes that Jae-Ha is already far away from there.

“Maybe it’s similar to what Shin-Ah does with his eyes, he doesn’t want us looking at them, right? I don’t want you looking at my leg.”

“Yeah, and you think Shin-Ah’s eyes are beautiful, don’t you, Jae-Ha? I think your dragon leg is beautiful too. And I want to see it.”

“How can you say it’s beautiful if you’ve never seen it?” Jae-Ha pulls away from Kija’s touch, the hurt and disgust pooling in his eyes.

“It is part of you, Jae-Ha. Haven’t I done the most shameful thing with you? And it didn’t feel shameful or disgusting at all.”

“Touching each other isn’t even that shameful.” Jae-Ha moves to sit down next to Kija.

“Please?” Kija’s whispered plea is his last resort, knowing that if Jae-Ha has such strong boundaries around that, it must be for a reason.

“Maybe some other time.”

Kija accepts that as a promise and lets it go. They clean themselves and lie down to sleep for the night, wrapping warmly. Jae-Ha can hear the other’s rhythmic breathing, and lets it wash over the previous tension. When his hands stop trembling, he reaches down and takes off his boots. It is the first time he has taken off his shoes to sleep next to someone. The only time he ever allows himself to be barefoot is when they have access to water to clean themselves, and that didn’t happen that often. He always told himself everyone else was too busy frantically cleaning themselves to pay attention to his foot inside the water, but now? Kija could move in his sleep and accidentally brush against him. His heart beating loudly prevents him from falling asleep, until the exhaustion finally wins over him.

Kija is the first one to wake up, and upon seeing Jae-Ha’s boots next to them, he feels like laughing. He turns to grab at Jae-Ha who is still sleeping next to him, facing the other side. Placing his forehead on Jae-Ha’s back, he realises a loud sigh.

“Thank you.”

 

 

 

A/N: Jae-Ha’s eyes are dark blue here because of the manga.

Please do NOT repost. Reblogging is okay. Content belongs to @moonstruck-writing

[jaehaswhore]

i have a few wips and they were initially supposed to be short just like the rest of my works but these few turned into full on fics and im stressed 😵‍💫 ayato fic & itto + thoma + ayato tag teaming

also coming up with more things for akayona and yuumori which HOPEFULLY would be good

[featherlystar]

I cant believe akayona really is making me write again, like, not even yowapeda nor fucking MANATE could make me write, but here i am, planning a multichapter and writing SMUT i dont do smut, i dont know how to do it, yet here i am,

[petri808]

Do You Believe Me Now?

The original post & Reblogs.  Since I added more to the original post including smut and it’s at 4k words, I cleaned it up and posted the story to AO3. @bmarvels enjoy lol. 

Hakyona, modern AU setting. NSFW

“Psst, Yona?”

I sit up, shielding my eyes to the sunlight. “What is it Lili?”

“You’re missing out on all the hot studs walking around, that’s what!”

“Lili, I told you I came to the beach to relax before finals, not gawk.”

I lie back down on my towel and close my eyes again. It didn’t matter to me what kind of eye candy I was missing out on. Books, studying are all I have time to focus on and besides, there already was one person who’d stolen my heart. Too bad he didn’t seem to notice it. Or at least I wasn’t sure. It was so damn hard to tell with him! He was such a sarcastic ass that I couldn’t tell if he was flirting or just being a punk to me. A groan fires off in my head, and yet through all that, I still fell in love.

But I couldn’t help it! I swear! We’ve known each other since we were kids and once I’d realized I cared more for him then as a friend, I fear that’s all he sees me as. Like a little sister. He is two years older than me after all, and both his guardian and my parents told him to always protect me. Pfft. A frown shadows my expression. Well I’m not that little girl anymore!

“Yona get up, get up, get up!”

“Lili, for the last time...”

“Isn’t that Hak over there?”

Quickly, I sit up and look over to where she’s pointing. My heart skips or more like takes a dive. Heaven help me that is Hak! He stood out in the throng of beach goers not just in height but presence.

“I think he’s gotten even cuter,” she snickers. “Damn, all his friends are hot too! Why didn’t you tell me he’s got such cute friends?!”

“I-I never noticed.”

“Are you blind? Oh, wait, I get it.” She pokes my side, “just blind to him, right?”

“Ugh!” I cover my face as I feel it heating up. “Lili stop trying to embarrass me, please?!”

“Oh look, he’s heading this way. Hey Hak?!”

I grab her waving hands. “Lili!!”

“Oh hey,” Hak waves back.

I see him grin and his group starts walking in our direction. Can I die, like right now? It was hard enough seeing him normally, but since he’s at the beach, his attire consists of board shorts and no shirt. I don’t know how he keeps his body in such condition, but I swear it’s like it was sculpted by a master artist.

He runs a hand through his wet hair as he chats with the other males, laughing, and smiling. His blue eyes twinkling against the sunlight. I squeeze my thighs together at the sight. All the girls they pass by ogle him, and I don’t blame them. The man was just too handsome for his own good. Before he reaches us, the group shake hands or fist bumps and the rest take off towards the snack stand.

“Hey Lili, Yona,” he grins, “didn’t know you two would be here today.”

“Well, neither did we, unless Yona was hiding that information from me.”

“I was not! I just came to relax.”

“So, relax,” he teases. “What’s stopping you?”

A six-foot hottie, I mumble in my head. “Shouldn’t you go hang out with your friends?”

“Nah.” He stands his surfboard up and sits down right beside me. “We’re finished surfing and was about to leave, but I’d rather hang out with a pretty girl.”

I feel the blush blooming on my face, but I try not to react. Not exactly easy with Lili grinning like a crazy person egging me on. I narrow my eyes at her. If they could shoot daggers, they would.

“You should stop teasing me like that,” I cross my arms, “it’s not funny.”

“But I’m not teasing you, I’m serious.”

Right... “Hak, you always say stuff like that, but I know you just see me as a friend. It’s getting old.”

“Or maybe it’s you who doesn’t want to believe it.” He forces my face to look at him. “What am I supposed to do make you believe me?”

My throat seizes up into a sputter. “I-I don’t know!”

He rolls his eyes. “Lili what do you think I should do to prove it?”

“I think you should just kiss her,” the girl smirks.

“Now that’s a good idea!”

“Don’t you dare Hak!”

“Oh, but I dare.”

He grabs me before I can scramble away. I squeal, but he quickly cuts off my defenses and plants his lips against mine. My eyes widen. Oh my god he did it! He actually kissed me?!

In a blink it was over and as my brain comes back into focus, all I see is a cocky grin and a softened smile. “Do you believe me now?”

Oof! I cross my arms and turn my head away in a huff. “No, I don’t. You’re just putting on a show for Lili and once we leave, it’ll go right back to you treating me like a little sister again, picking on me and teasing me.”

He gasps, feigning indignation, then turns to Lili. “Will you excuse us? I think I need to make this stick.”

“Wait? What?!”

“No, not at all,” the girl snickers. She quickly shoves my belongings into my bag and into my lap. “Here’s your things Yona.”

“Come on,” he drags me to my feet, “my red-haired little princess. We need some privacy.”

“Whoa, Wait!” I tug at his hold. Damn it he’s too strong for me. “Where are you taking me?!”

Hak holds his surfboard under one arm and keeps his other hand gripped to mine. “You don’t believe me, so I need to prove it, right? Don’t make me throw you over my shoulder cause you know I will.”

“Ugh! Hak you’re so cruel to me!” I whine but give in to avoid any more embarrassment. “At least tell me where we’re going.”

“My place so I can shower and,” he grins down in a side-eye, “so we can have a private conversation.”

I gulp hard. Alone with Hak?!

The entire ride in his car, I sit there in the passenger seat running scenarios in my head. How was he going to prove anything to me? I’ve got years of dealing with his sarcasm under my belt, so it’ll take some effort to convince me I’m not just a friend. Though friends don’t normally go around kissing each other unless there’s more to it... Oh please, I scoff in my head. This is Hak, and to prove a point he just might. I’ve convinced myself of that notion.

“Tell me Yona, have you ever seen me with a girlfriend? Don’t answer, just think about it.”

“Because...”

He covers my mouth. “Just think about it until we get to my place.”

When he releases me, I stare out the window fuming. I know that answer! It’s because he’s always just focused on his martial arts and sports. When does he have time for one? I mean there’s nothing wrong with that, but don’t use it as an excuse to trick me. Ugh! And if he really wanted a girlfriend, nothing was stopping him from making a move.

He leaves the surfboard in the foyer and prompts me into the studio apartment. “Are you thirsty? There’s drinks in the fridge, help yourself.” I shake my head no. “Then come on, let’s take a shower.”

My jaw drops and cheeks flush the color of my hair. “S-Shower? With you?!”

“Why not? Gramps used to bathe us together when we were younger.”

“We’re not little kids anymore Hak,” I sputter out, “it’s inappropriate for us to do that now.”

He walks up and kisses the back of my hand. “Not, if I’m trying to seduce you.”

I roll my eyes. “You can drop the rouse now that we’re alone.”

He sighs and runs a hand down his face. “Yona, it’s not a rouse. I’ve always loved you. That’s why I’ve never had a girlfriend.” He turns to his bathroom with his head hung down. “You know what? I give up. Stay till I get out and I’ll take you home or you’re free to leave. It’s up to you.” He pauses his walk. “And for the record, I wouldn’t take advantage of you. I just wanted to see your reaction... guess I got it, huh?”

I watch the door close behind him and drop onto the edge of his bed. My mind is spinning, confused, this was the first time I truly felt like... I believed every word he said. The water turns on in the room, and the sounds of the shower curtain closing was like a nail being hammered into my coffin. Oh god, what have I done? No, no, no! I shake my cradled head. I hadn’t meant to push him away! But that’s exactly what I’ve done. The poor guy looked completely dejected now and here I am sitting on his bed alone.

The tears gather in my eyes and I no longer hold them back from falling free. This man really loves me? “Oh, Hak...” I’m such a fool. I curl up on his bed uncaring of being found this way as the tears stain the bedding. He deserves someone who trusts him, not questions what he does. I should know this man better by now. Hak would never do anything to truly hurt me, and yet here I just broke his heart.

Maybe I should just leave and take my shame with me. But I can’t bring myself to move nor get off his bed. So, I curl in tighter, clinging to the blanket, and covering my head with my arm. I want nothing more than to be with him...

The bathroom door opening doesn’t stir me. I don’t want to show my face. I want to hide, yet I’m too scared to lose him.

“Yona? Yona, why are you crying?!”

The concern in his voice make me sob harder. I feel the bed shift as he’s no doubt taken a place beside me. It makes me feel even worse to know I’d hurt him and yet he still cares too much to see me in pain. I don’t fight back as he gathers me into his lap. His warm body felt wonderful against my barely clothed skin, and his arms, so strong... I always feel safe within their confines.

“Please don’t cry Yona, you know I can’t take it when you cry.” He strokes along my back, soothing and gentle, with his voice soft near my ear. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, princess you know that’s the last thing I ever wanna do.”

“I‘m sorry,” I whimper through the tears. “But you really do love me, don’t you? Why’d I never realize this? I’m such an idiot.”

“No, you were right. I shouldn’t have teased you and just told you long ago,” he tips my chin up and softens his gaze, “how much you really mean to me.”

I reach up and cradle his cheek as he gently wipes away my drying tears. We gaze into each other’s eyes while time passes unnoticed. I have no idea for how long, but all I can think is how beautiful his eyes are... windows to the soul, and his is bared naked for me to see. I pull his head down and place a second kiss upon his lips. “And Hak, I’ve always loved you too. How could I not, even when you drive me crazy... in the end you’re the only one that’s ever made me feel happy.”

“It’s my body, right? You just love me because of my body.”

I smack his chest hard, “do you always have to ruin the moment and make a joke!”

As I move to hit him a second time, he grabs my wrist, laughing at my weak attempt. “I’m sorry, it’s just too easy to tease you. I’ll stop for now.” He kisses my fingers before releasing them. “I should get dressed.”

It was in that moment that I realize Hak only had a towel on leaving very little between us. My eyes widen, “o-oh!” One wrong move and the fabric would easily unravel.

“Are you gonna get off my lap?”

I take a deep breath, ready to make a move of my own. My eyes blink slowly, rising to meet his in a coy but stern flutter. “No.”

He chuckles, “no? Come on princess, let me get dressed.”

“Maybe... I’d rather you be undressed.”

Hak’s eyes shrink to pinpoints, with his mouth slightly agape in shock that I would say such a bravely seductive suggestion. I giggle, oh how quickly this bad boy crumbles. My hands weave around his neck, fingers ghosting along the skin.

This man has haunted my dreams and my loins for far too long, and now that I know he loves me, I’m not going to waste the opportunity. I shift my position to straddle his thighs comfortably, and lift my body pulling him to me, kissing, caressing, showing him, this was no fairy tale.

“Yona, wh-what are you doing?!”

“Showing you, I believe. Now shh...” placing a finger on his lips, “no talk, just drive.” I move his frozen hands from my waist to my ass where it’s bare warmth seems to revive them, for they squeeze gently and provide support. “Mmm,” I murmur against his lips; this was better than any dream.

“You’ll be the death of me my princess,” his lips press forward against mine. “But one I’ll gladly face.”

“Don’t worry Hak, we’ll slay the dragon together.”

He growls low, “careful. Do you have any idea how much I’ve pent up over the years?”

I narrow my gaze, “yes, I do.” Then unroll the portion of towel keeping it from unraveling in retort. “Now stop treating me like a kid.”

His blue eyes flashing wild are the last thing I register before finding myself flipped onto my back. I gasp, pinned below him, so small compared to his larger frame. He reaches behind my back and pulls the strings securing my bikini top free. I move to cover my chest on instinct, blushing fiercely from his lustful gaze.

“Now coy?” He teases lightly. So, I drop my hands slowly to the sides, baring myself to him. But I can’t bring myself to look him in the eyes just yet. “You know we can stop at any time, right? I won’t make you do anything you don’t want to.”

“No, no, I know... this is just new and a little scary.”

“Then allow me to make those fears melt away princess.”

I nod my head, “yes, please don’t stop Hak. I do want this too.”

My top is tossed to the side as he lowers himself further, kissing at the nape of my neck. His lips burn trails along my skin in a ring of fire, suckling, in pressured kisses. I want to tell him no hickeys please, but the words die away in my throat when I feel his hands begin to massage my breasts.

The temperature of the room rises along with my moans muffled to the roar in my eardrums. I hear little, but the rest of my senses are on overdrive. Every touch like electrical charges and the smell of sex quickly enveloping my nose. I can still taste a bit of sea salt from his lips.

“I still can’t believe it’s not a dream,” he mumbles against the swell of my breasts. Me neither, I purr back.

I gasp loudly and my body reacts when his mouth covets a nipple, arching and pressing into his oral kisses. He sucks and pulses against the sensitive button, teasing with both tongue and teeth in a twin assault, playing with one breast then switching to the other. His hands mold and caress, guiding my body where he wants it to go, while mine react based on his movements. They run through his hair or trail his back and neck. My fingers squeezing, nails digging into his flesh when he hits a sensitive area.

As he moves lower down my stomach, my breathing hitches. He’d left my breasts swollen and tender and now there’s a sinister glint in his eyes. He watches me watching him as he places the softest kisses in a trail.

Down he goes, yanking my bottoms off as his body slides off the end of bed. I squeak loudly as he yanks me to the edge of the bed but before I can grasp what he’s doing my legs are over his shoulders and his mouth clamps down on my sex. A gasping moan cuts through the air and my body freaks out with a jolt. “Hak!”

His hands grip my pelvis, keeping them in his clutches. I see the wide grin on his face as his tongue sweeps slow and steady from bottom to top parting my folds. When it comes center with my clit, he sucks hard and I see stars. My hands flail, grabbing and holding tight to the bedding around me. I bite my lip to stifle my moans but it’s a fruitless effort when he’s eating me out like a lollipop.

How is he so good at this?! Every pass of his tongue, swirling, sucking on my bud sends delicious shivers rolling through my body. I can’t think, I can’t see, my mind is consumed by his ministrations like a puppet on a string.

“Look at me Yona.” His deep voice commands and I do as if under a spell to follow his beck and call. My eyes gaze back, moist and glistened, half-lidded in the throes of lust. “Time for the next level,” he smirks.

Next level? What d... “Ha—kaaaa!” I cry out as his finger slips into my entrance. My thighs clench against his head, squeezing it like a cantaloupe. But he doesn’t stop there, sliding it in and out a couple times, then adding a second. His hand moves and holds me down by my stomach as my body begins to writhe.

His tongue continues to suck on my clit, but his fingers add to the heat roiling in my core like a rubber band being stretched to its breaking point. I’ve given myself little orgasms before but nothing like the explosion evident on the horizon. I can feel the friction they’re creating against my entrance. How the palm of his hand bumps when he pushes them as deep as they’ll reach.

His fingers scissor and curl in a come-hither motion pressing along the inside walls. I jolt and squeak when they hit upon a spot. I hear him chuckle. What the hell is he—oh, oh!!! “Hak—u!” The fiery friction his fingers create coupled with the sucking on my clit are too much, snapping the final coil. His garbled name sputters out in waves like the orgasm rocking my body, but he holds me down easily, relentlessly to make sure my orgasm has me seeing white.

It feels so good it hurts! “S-St-Stop—“ I push on his head as tears of joy cloud my vision. The area was on fire, sensitive to even the slightest touch.

Hak sits up on his knees licking off the clear juices coating his fingers with the biggest grin of accomplishment I’ve ever seen him sporting. “You’re so beautiful all flushed and out of breath.” His smile makes be blush again.

He crawls back on, helping me to scoot over to the center of the bed. I swallow hard when I see the size of his erection. Being a tiny girl with a big guy... you do the math. ‘Don’t freak yourself out now Yona,’ I calm my racing mind. Already my imagination is running wild at how it will finally feel to go all the way with Hak.

Seeing a worried tremble in my lip, Hak cradles me close against his body. He tips my chin, running his thumb against my cheek. “It’s up to you Yona if you want to continue. It was my pleasure simply satisfying you.”

“I’ve wanted this w-with you, to have you be the first Hak. I-I wanna make you feel good too. Please, let me?”

“Okay, whatever makes you happy.” He sits up with his legs bent at the knee and rotated to the sides. Then he pat his thighs. “I’ve heard this position is easier for the first time,” he explains, “you get to control things, especially in the beginning and stuff.”

I nod my head nervously. Hak doesn’t need to elaborate for I understand exactly what he’s talking about. Girls talk, and sometimes there’s pain if it’s too fast or rough. The fact Hak cared enough to know that relaxes me a little and makes me feel relieved.

He rolls on the condom I grab from his nightstand. “Just go-slow princess. There’s no need to rush. And you tell me if there’s something you want me to do.”

“Okay,” releases out in a long exhale. I position myself, saddling his lap and raised, poised over him. He holds his dick steady for me as I lower myself. A shiver ripples through my frame when it barely makes contact; my sex still swollen and tender to touch.

I nibble my lip and close my eyes, pushing myself onto him, gasping when the head pushes through. The instant heat also takes me by surprise. Guess all that blood flow served a second purpose. But it wasn’t just me who’d gasped. I look up and see Hak’s head tilted back slightly and his eyes closed. Even his fingers are curled against my hips. I press on, slowly sinking lower until it’s all the way inside. This wasn’t so bad after all. No, it felt freaking amazing! I bring his face back to focus and kiss his lips. “Are you okay Hak? You look shocked.”

He groans and presses deeper into the kiss. “If I’d known sex felt this good, I would’ve seduced you sooner.”

“This is your first time?!”

“Of course, it is!”

“But you seemed so skilled...” I blush, “you know earlier, I just assumed.”

“Jaeha’s been schooling me,” he blushes too. “I wanted to be ready if this ever happened. But don’t tell him I told you that!”

I giggle, “my lips are sealed, but...” I look down shyly, “I don’t know what to do next.”

“Oh!” He chuckles and starts directing my hips with his hands, “rock from you waist, use your thighs to help you. Just go by how it feels, and I’ll help you too.”

So that’s what I do. “Like this?” My hips start rocking forward and back. His hands drop down and cradle my ass and I feel them squeezing as he groans yes’s and his eyes roll back. It feels so good I join his moans. Wow it’s hard to focus at the same time!

His forehead falls onto my shoulder and his breathing grows haggard as I press longer, harder into my strides. I almost giggle out loud when my brain equates this to riding a stallion. Yup a stallion named Hak.

My breathing shortens as I pace myself. The heat building up in my core is aching again. This grind is causing a delectable friction that if I don’t slow down, I’ll lose myself too quickly.

“Fuck, Yona you feel so good,” he moans and kisses at the nape of my neck. “It’s settled, I’m marrying you and I won’t take no for an answer.”

I pull his face back up, “I accept,” kissing him on the lips. But as I hold the kiss, I lift my frame, sliding up his shaft and stopping when I feel the head pressured at the entrance. A muffled groan is trapped in his throat, redoubled when I slide down again. Oh, I like how this feels!

Over and over I do it, allowing the length to rub against the pressured walls, before pushing back down again. “Fuck,” he moans. “Yona, don’t stop, don’t... stop...”

As amazing as it feels my legs are growing tired. “I’m sorry,” I whimper, “ I can’t keep this up Hak.”

He lifts me up and rolls us over until I’m on my back and he’s nestled between my thighs. Then he maneuvers my legs over his hips, and I comply by hooking my ankles into his thighs. Hak starts pumping; I gasp and arch my back pressing my chest to his. Wow it’s deeper!

His head is rested on the bed next to mine as he uses his elbows to keep his weight off me. But his hands are glued to my pelvis and applying a downward force on them and his hips press upward.

“Hak,” I whine. He’s gonna make me cum a second time! His thrusts outpace my ability to keep up and I give in to the heat waves of my orgasm.

“Fuck,” he groans too as his breathing falters and voice grows strained.

Hak pumps his hips a few more times and I can feel a pulsing sensation inside coming from his dick that I assume is from an orgasm. Finally, after one last thrust, he buries himself to the hilt inside me and collapses in a panting mess.

After several minutes, he bundles me in his arms and rolls us to a side position while our breathing calms down. He kisses my forehead. “I love you so much Yona. That was more than I could have ever dreamed of.”

“Mmhmm,” I agree and nestle close to his warm chest. “I love you too Hak.”

“I meant what I said earlier, you know. I’m gonna marry you Yona.”

I lift my head and pull his lips against mine. “I believe you.”

[peachchanvidel]

I'm not sure if the search works similar like twitter, so I obscured some terms for the vent. You know what awaits you in here..

I wish I could follow more AtlA/LoK blogs here or on twitter, but the Ky/aliners and b/utch-Lin and le/sbian-Lin posts are so annoying because you can't avoid them, even with tag-blocking, as they have become USELESS thanks to misuse. Also they take their headcanons to such a level they forget they are HEADCANONS. NOT CANON. NOT EVEN FANON (fanon are things like 'moon tea' in fics for an example...). JUST headcanon. FOR THEM. FOR THEIR BUBBLE. And they can't leave the Linzin tag alone. If it's not about the break-up so it can end up in Pe/mzin and Ky/alin they don't care and talk down on the ship I enjoy A LOT.

I blocked the tag Ky/alin. But you know what happens? Half the posts are invisible now, but more than half of these don't even have anything to do with the ship/one of the characters. The tags some people give it are just crap and you mess the system up. I couldn't see some of my own posts anymore after some people added Kyalin in their reblog as a tag to it, and every person reblogging that post took it with them! It's so ridiculous. Do they know that? Is it on purpose? Do they really think some random Lin art is Ky/alin? Because certainly not.

Ky/alin - Doesn't work for me. At all. You'll not find this here. The closest they'll ever be imo are sister-in-laws and childhood friends (they are 4 years apart, so even here taken with a grain of salt).

Bu/tch Lin - Nope, no appeal to me either. You won't find this here either. (And you really are so sensitive, that you put 'tw' for femme Lin posts and put these under cuts? WTF. You know this could go both ways, but I guess the other side isn't as good as whining and playing victim.) I don't work with these distinctions in general.

'Le/sbian' Lin - She was in a long-term relationship with Tenzin. At least Bi or Pan. Stop taking that from her. I don't want to see that take anymore. Tired of biphobic takes. If you need your headcanons for your weird way of 'representation' do that far far away from me.

I multiship, A LOT, but when smth becomes obnoxious and every time I try again to give it a chance... i hit a 'HELL NO' point, it's sad... I blocked a lot of blogs by now, esp. when the Linzin tag is a warzone thanks to them, instead of a place where the few people shipping them can enjoy their ship. I try to unblock some of them now and then again, because cutting everybody off isn't my thing.. but often enough it's proven to be necessary.

I don't expect others to ship the same things I do, but I have seen so much flaming and awful takes, 'just because', which really are leaving you in such a bad state afterwards... I have no compassion anymore. I just say 'NO' and try to leave it at that, as I really believe everybody should ship what they enjoy the full amount possible.

But I don't get why my ship tag has to be fucked up by other shippers like this... and why I don't see a lot of posts anymore because the ship I blocked is put on unrelated posts over and over... and I have to gamble... click on the button to see or scroll over it.

I never get focusing on what you dislike... worse when you search the tags about what you like and get thrown into everything bad. We do have the discord, yes, but it's still difficult, if you are literally locked in there. On AO3 we need to block ships and authors because of mistagging and spite-fics ("I don't ship them, but write about them now"), on tumblr we need to block blogs and ships, on twitter... so many blogs, esp. from minors.

Will I be ever able to just say 'whatever' and finish all of my Linzin art and upload here and take the Linzin tag back again? Because every time I look into it again I'm scared af.

It's amazing how I was never scared about any of this in the FE3H fandom, here I was simply 'never as good as the others' or 'my ship was too small' but damn, I enjoyed like 99% of the content and the drama was so much easier avoidable. :"D Also.. the AkaYona fandom.. it was never this complicated. It's not like there were never any problems, but the amount of time going into all that disappointment from the tags over and over is flabbergasting... I could have drawn three Linzin fancomics by now. And one would be smut.

[heyymonkey2]

First Night Back in Fuuga Chapters 4-6

And now including a chapter that graduates this fic into mature categorization ^^; (Hey, leave these two alone in Fuuga long enough and it’s bound to happen.)

Continued musings after Chapter 138 (aka, surviving until 139 on 4/20)

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Chapter 4: Yona and Hak talk about the night they lost control

"Enjoying the view? Hey, there's nothing bad going on that Tae-Yeon can't see!" Hak is red-faced and scowling.

Yona turns from his embrace to see Tae-Woo covering Tae-Yeon's eyes in the near distance. She'd completely forgotten Mundok had made Tae-Woo her temporary bodyguard since the night before. Cute little Tae-Yeon must have wandered over to visit.

"How was I supposed to know where that was going?! It looked a little--" a bar of soap narrowly misses Tae-Woo's head.

"Will you be Big Brother's bride?" Tae-Yeon asks with bright eyes as he comes closer. Yona opens her arms and pulls him into a hug with a great smile. Hak watches with a mix of affection and mild frustration that a small child just stole his thunder. He's the Thunderbeast, damn it.

"She's the princess!" Tae-Woo emphasizes the impossibility of such a thing to Tae-Yeon while narrowly dodging an entire bucket from Hak.

"Alright, outta here! I can take it from here on. If the Old Man asks, the princess begged me to help her with laundry."

"Wha--" Yona is cut off as Hak nudges her to go along with this.

Tae-Woo looks at Yona's sad pile of laundry and nods, "The princess thing actually explains a lot..."

"WHA--" Yona's stunned.

"We can help, too." Tae-Yeon offers sweetly.

"Yeah, Gramps said I couldn't leave the princess alone with you," Tae-Woo adds, "What's that about?"

Hak jolts. Ehhh, "There are... reasons." Oh shit -- Hak notices Yona is turning red now too -- she must have connected exactly what that's about. Hak puts his palm to his face in frustration -- he's definitely not having the conversation of his life with Yona right here with these two doing laundry next to them.

"Please, Tae-Woo. For me, could you allow us a moment of privacy," Yona places her hand on Tae-Woo's shoulder and looks at him with her big amethyst eyes. His breathing quickens. Wow, can she affect a man. Yona leans down gives Tae-Yeon a kiss on the top of the head, "We'll be back to the great hall by dinner. Can I sit by you then?" Tae-Yeon beams at the invitation.

The two Wind boys find themselves walking away in a pleasant daze. Hak watches them go, feeling his usual pride about Yona's influence. He's watched it countless times and felt it as many himself.

"So we should talk?" Yona volunteers.

Hak slides a hand around hers, "Come with me."

"I'm really relieved we're not doing this over laundry."

"I couldn't risk you injuring yourself. That would be too distracting."

Yona smacks Hak, "I was doing my best!"

Hak cringes at that thought, then takes her assault hand back into his gentle hold. They're walking through the woods alone together, great speckled patterns of sunlight breaking through the leaves above creating beautiful patterns of light and shadows on the leaf-strewn ground below.

"This feels like old times, just you and me and the woods, " she smiles at the thought, then focuses on her hand in his as he leads. That is different this time. Back when he first lead her through the woods, he held her hand to guide her, steady her. But at this moment... it's completely unnecessary. They're just walking as friends. And yet she doesn't want to let go. He's hardly let her hand out of his. And each time they rejoin she feels an electric shock pulse through her body with warmth... and some foreign sensation she can't put her finger on, but that she wants more of in such a way she wonders if she'll ever reach "enough."

"We're far better dressed this time," Hak clarifies. He's totally right. They've been through some pretty rough times together in the hygiene and wardrobe department. Now they're adorned in fine Wind Tribe garments. Really fine, given Hak's status and that she no longer has to hide that she's the princess.

"I really like that on you..." Yona braves a compliment.

Hak's chest tightens, "Oh?"

"It suits you."

"I honestly shouldn't be wearing it..." Hak reflects he's already given back his name and title. Everything in Fuuga now is just borrowed.

Yona squeezes his hand, "Don't say that."

"If pretending could hurt people I care about... or someone I care about, then I'm happiest to be honest." Hak stops and smiles. Yona realizes what he's looking at -- they're at what appears to be a secret shooting range, "I used to practice here when I was a kid."

"Taking me off into the woods alone and training me to fight. Mundok would kill you, huh?" Yona laughs.

"I figured if this gets awkward, it'd give us something to do that doesn't require talking. And I'm better at it than you, so I can regain my confidence."

Yona huffs, "You saw me in those contests! If we're shooting at targets, you can't outdo a bullseye," she nods towards the target in the distance.

"Then I'll challenge you to something harder."

"Cheater."

"How's that cheating?"

"Fine, then I can raise challenges, too. I challenge you to tell me why you really brought me out here. Be honest." Yona wants to die as she asks it, but she's so mixed up inside already she can barely contain it any longer.

"We should have brought alcohol," Hak realizes and laments.

Yona laughs nervously, "We have to loosen up before this conversation? Should I be afraid?"

Hak looks at her dead seriously this time, "I am."

This affects Yona in ways she can't quite understand. Her Hak, this man whom she can barely carry a thought without anymore, is standing before her... upset in some deep way. Without even processing, she finds herself at him, reaching up toward his face, putting her hands in his hair, barely breathing as she pulls his face near hers, foreheads together, "Tell me anything. Just don't ever look at me that way again."

Hak closes his eyes for a brief moment of gathering courage, then opens them to look at her sincerely, profoundly, "I'm in love with you."

Chapter 5: Yona reacts to Hak's confession

"Let me go with this time."

Lili stands behind Soo-Won at his desk in his palace library. What he's always writing and studying in here is always a mystery to her. But she came to the palace to better understand him. To watch him. She wonders how well could he continue to hide his motivations when out in action.

"Going to Kai is going to be dangerous. This isn't like Xing or even what you experienced with nadai in your own lands. It will be war."

"I know that," Ugh, has he not paid attention to her this whole time she's been here? He still treats her like a General's fragile daughter, "Like hell."

Soo-Won finally turns. He tilts his head at Lili, curious, "Is that something you'd like to see?"

She shrugs.

"Or is there, rather, someone you'd like to see," he holds his gaze steady on her.

The silence is long.

"You should stay here," Soo-Won turns back toward his writing.

Lili scrunches her face in frustration, then lifts her chin in defiance, "If I can't join you, I'll go on my own."

Soo-Won smiles ever so slightly at her persistence, "Then I'd rather you join us."

"That's it? Just like that?"

"There's no arguing with you, Lady Lili. I shouldn't have tried."

Maybe he has been paying attention? As she turns to leave, she notices the hairpin on his desk. It's unmistakable -- the exact same one she gave back to Yona after Sei.

Soo-Won notices her standing there staring, shaken, "Are you OK?"

"How did you get that?! Did you..." She stops herself as her mind races. She thought peace negotiations had taken place at the border of Xing. She knew Yona had been there. They said no blood was shed. But how did he... ?

"I don't know what you're talking about," Soo-Won holds as even as ever.

As Lili leaves the room, she passes Min-Soo on her way. He, too, notices the hairpin on Soo-Won's desk, even more fully realizing the danger it signals.

"Hold still and quit flirting!"

A shirtless Jae-Ha sits in a Wind tribe medical tent as Yun changes his bandages. Jae-Ha turns his attention from one of the Wind nurses back to Yun and sighs pleasantly, "Hak wasn't lying about the beauties in this region."

"You have to be alive if you want to seduce women. Quit moving or I'm leaving you for dead."

"You wouldn't," Jae-Ha teases, "You're our dear mother, Yun. We rely on you to put up with us. We need you."

Yun sighs, "Enough, enough -- your tricks won't work on me."

"Oh good, have you brought Yona Dear with you?" Jae-Ha calls to Shin-Ah, Kija, and Zeno as they enter.

"The Little Miss isn't with us," Zeno volunteers, "But she'll be lively for dinner."

Jae-Ha does a quick accounting of the group and knows immediately what must be happening, "Did they go somewhere together?"

He turns to Shin-Ah who gives a stoic nod.

"Nearby I hope," Kija chides, "She should bring at least one of us with as well if she goes outside of town because--" Kija's protective rant is cut off by another complaint from Yun, "Now you're too tense! Loosen up."

"...my apologies," Jae-Ha barely gets out. He's surprised by his own reaction to what he knows must be going on. He's wanted this moment to happen for them for a long time. But Dragon's blood is a powerful thing. He has to get a handle on this.

"Kija, I think they need to be alone."

As innocent Kija starts to think about why on Earth Yona would need to be alone with Hak...

Yona steps backwards in shock -- she stumbles her steps and falls to the ground, both hands on the grass and her eyes wide. She stares up at Hak, who's frozen, concerned.

She starts smiling in disbelief. Tears in her eyes, "You dummy."

Hak scratches his head, "This is a little confusing."

"Come here so I can hit you!"

Unsure and braced, he moves to her side. She huffs at him with her beautiful, adorable pout, "I said I loved you last night and you didn't say anything!"

Hmmm... if that was too long to make her wait, Hak realizes this is really, really not the moment to reveal how long he's been in love with her. So he picks another truth instead, "I thought you were just saying that!"

"Why would someone just say something like that?!"

"It wouldn't be the first time!"

"What?!"

"You don't remember? Tae-Jun. The day I became your bodyguard."

Yona thinks back, then smiles and starts cracking up, "Oh yeah."

They both smile in reverie, then, "So... you didn't just say it to save me from Mundok?"

Yona closes her eyes for a moment in awe of her thickheaded, adorable general, then she opens them filled with sincerity. She turns to him, he still in a nervous state of doubt and confusion, and crawls onto him. Then, pushing him back onto the soft ground, she brings her parted lips to his stupid, sexy mouth. Once the sweet, soft contact is made, she presses into him and all the tension in his body begins to melt away.

Yona started the kiss, but it doesn't take long for Hak to take the lead -- he moves his arms around her and pulls her closer to him as his mouth responds with a growing hunger. But she pulls away, just a little... there's something she has to make sure he knows, "There's only one reason I keep kissing you, Hak," she shakes her head just thinking about the depth of her feeling, "I love you. Truly."

There's no sarcastic response. No joke. No more confusion. Hak's eyes are wide with amazed realization as he runs a hand across her cheek and through her hair. As though touching her romantically for the first time, he gently brings her face down to meet his once more and takes her mouth in his slowly, deeply. She feels the emotion of the kiss to the point she's overwhelmed.

"Ahhmm," she moans and shifts on top of him. She wants to feel more of him, to get closer. She rubs against him, then again -- so naturally it's truly innocent, but...

"Princess," Hak pulls his mouth back, his hands on her sides. Yona looks down at him, processing what she's feeling against their clothes and the resulting overload of physical reactions and mounting desires. Her thighs weaken as her chest hardens and a warmth shoots through her entire body driving her insane with a desperate wish, need, to continue.

"Hak," Yona pleads, "It's OK."

Chapter 6: Hak losing the only battle you probably want to watch him defeated in

"Focus... Focus..." Hak squints at the target, releases his arrow, and -- misses entirely.

"Hak, it's not OK!" Yona protests behind him.

He lowers his bow, staring ahead in disbelief. Uh oh.

"I wasn't about to let my father decide my love life for me. You shouldn't let anyone else decide yours!"

Still not looking at her, "Can we not get started about that right now," as he shakes the reminder that Yona has made really questionable choices in men, "I vowed to protect you. To myself as seriously as anyone else. And today... I'm protecting you from me."

"Whyyy?" Yona whines, "Refusing to touch a girl after confessing is worse than cruel. You're not being heroic at all!"

"Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out," Hak encourages himself under his breath as he begins to pace. He remembers back to that moment, the princess mounted on him, and for the first time in their relationship, his... enormous loss of control pressed firmly against her. On top of this already being completely new territory for them, the princess arched into it and then brought her mouth back to his to go further. It was a fucking dream.

Loss of control. That was the problem. Is still the problem. He's a well-practiced man in many things. But if he lets go, it will be like that day with the honey all over again. Before he knows it, he'll be... licking somewhere the princess wasn't ready for and she'll be pulling away from him. Did she know what she was doing just now? She's seemed so innocent in his eyes all this time, for her to do that to him... no wait, he promised not to be shocked when she does things like this. Surprising him is not out of character. And that scares him even more. If he gives in to what he'd like to do right now and then she decides to become an explorer... oh god. Of all things, Mundok's words from the night before echo in his mind, "All men know, sometimes that's a battle lost."

Hak feels petite arms wrap around him. She's hugging him from behind, her face nestled against his back, "We're going to leave for Kai in 2 days and between now and then we may not be able to be alone together at all. We were apart for so long already... And I didn't tell you this, but I've been barely able to keep from touching you for so long already. I've been barely able breathe whenever I see you! I don't know what to say because my thoughts are all distracted. And I just want to be close so badly. ... we can't even sleep near one another anymore. ... so us here right now... can I have just this much?"

Hak looks down to see her hands burrowed into his robes and feeling his abs. He sighs resignation with a soft smile of love, "Speaking of, my thoughts have been getting more and more confused right now, too. I'm seriously starting to forget the reasons we can't... carefully... a little."

Yona smiles victory into his back and squeezes him tighter, "I know we just confessed, I'm not trying to push you to go faster than you're comfortable with."

Hak is mortified that that sentence just came out of his to-be-lover's mouth, "Hey now, that is not--"

"I just have been dying to put my hands on you. To feel you. Look at you. Can I just... take this off real quick?"

Before Hak has even responded she's already untying his robe. Explorer-mode. She's straight up doing this. Hak begins to wonder if their entire relationship will be a mix of excitement and sheer terror.

He turns to face her as he drops his outer robe. She coaches, "And..." she motions to the rest covering his chest.

Wow, he didn't expect to be so self-conscious with her staring at him while he undresses. His inner robe falls to the ground. He stands before her shirtless, nothing she hasn't seen before, but then she's never looked at him like this before. He notices how seriously she's taking this "freedom to look at each other romantically" thing as she stares straight forward at his pecks, cleavage, abs, pelvic bones, and that low torso v-shape that leads to...

"Ahh," he's surprised when she puts her hands right on his skin and starts moving them across the taut, defined surface like studying a map full of untouched treasure. She stops at the scar that runs across his chest from his left downward right. The visible proof that he's willing to die for her. He's not sentimental about that -- he's always known it about himself. The scar means a tremendous amount to him for other reasons though. When he sees it, every single time, he remembers a part of its story that he never saw coming. That day at the cliffs, the princess proved she was willing to die for him, too, when she went over the cliff with him.

Hak puts his hand over Yona's on his scar, both of them moved by their memories... and this moment. He can't help it, he leans down and pulls her face to his. It's an active, needy kiss and Yona moves up onto her tiptoes to return it, both hands against his bare pecks for balance.

They make out playfully, tongues flicking, lip-biting, fully taking advantage of this moment to discover all the electric aspects of this new thing they can do together. Yona's hands wander up, down, around his broad bare chest. "Ohh," she jumps as she feels one of his hands meet her breast. She's far more sensitive there than she ever imagined! But her alarm sent his hand in retreat. She thinks for just a second, then...

Yona takes a step back from Hak. His eyes begin to uncloud a little, "I'm sorry, did I..." he forgets the rest of his sentence when she drops her outer robe. His breathing slows into deep breaths of painful anticipation.

"I want you to see me, too," the inner robe drops and her aroused mounds are entirely exposed to the daylight.

[makapedia]

Why don't you write SoMa anymore?

short answer: i do. i posted some soma smut like a month and a half ago. 

slightly longer answer: i wrote only soma for like three? four? years? i think? and sometimes in order to strengthen yourself as a writer (and not lose all of your steam) you have to branch out. also princess tutu and akayona happened and they have far less fic in general. the way i saw it was the soma fandom would be fine without me posting as often as i did. but i still love them! and i do still write for them occasionally! 

[purebloodprincess]

Do you think that we will get to see Hak and Yona make out once they are an official couple? I'm saying this not only because of the sexual tension and the fact that not so long people were trying to literally get them in bed but also because Kusa showed us so much blood and gore so why wouldn't she draw smut ?

I’m honestly not sure anon? I kinda feel like it could go both ways. For one, if Kusanagi wanted to include a sex scene, then she totally could. For a long time I was under the impression that shoujo magazines like Hana to Yume don’t really allow more than some vague implication, but then Namaikizakari included a bed scene in one of the quite recent chapters, and since then I know that it’s perfectly acceptable. Obviously it wasn’t explicit or anything like that, but it wasn’t… too mild either lol. You can check it here and see for yourself. It’s a couple of pages long. And yes, this manga is getting published in the same magazine. So technically it would be possible for Akayona too. But I’m still not sure if it’s going to happen though? 

It’s pretty evident but Hak and Yona need to get together first. Then quite a bit of time will have to pass cause obviously they won’t jump straight to bed lol. I’m just not sure that the manga is going to last long enough to make it seem like a natural progression of their relationship? The last thing I want is rushing. Also, I feel that Yona would want to get married first. Not only was that the norm in ancient times, but she is royalty on top of that. Princesses didn’t really sleep with anyone before marriage. And of course, Hak, being the amazing boyfriend that he is, would respect her wishes.

There is also the fact that in the manga romance is secondary to the plot. It mostly focuses on action and what not so I’m not sure Kusanagi would choose to include a bed scene.

So to answer your question, I guess my answer leans slightly towards ‘no’? But obviously, I will be very very happy if we get to see them seal the deal in bed lmao.

[clockworkspider]

friday, saturday, july, november

friday: most self-indulgent fic you have ever posted?

They are all self-indulgent. But haha with our shared fandoms? That akayona SooJae vampire au... This is Awkward. 

And Reincarnation AU would be self-indulgent if I actually... ever write out the scene of Big Sad. But I’ve been forbidden to write Big Sad for that fic by a friend haha... 

saturday: what gets you excited whilst writing?

Like... when prose just flow out my fingertips without me trying and I’m just really into it? Yeah that... 

july: what’s the hottest fic you have written and/or posted if you write smut at all?

I don’t write smut. But there was a fic that mentions the penis and... bodily fluid! It’s a ygo arc-v fic so I won’t link it. It’s still odd to me that the only time I wrote characters having sex they’re barely anatomically equipped to do so. 

november: do you have any rituals or requirements for getting in the mood for writing?

Sometimes I have particular songs. For really Sad or emotional bits I need to be alone for first draft, but I can basically edit any time. (I am a method writer so I do get sad to write sad, but like I don’t mind it cause it’s cathartic.) 

[evanescentdawn]

(July 3rd)

today’s writing:

—wips: ss//older!sk/younger!sauce, yukishima//how bold ⭐️, hananene//kiss kiss kiss, itafushikugi//meg first kiss, jaena//hurt leg

—okay, lmao. today just Wasn’t working out. I was worried abt the time travel fic for SS, since I didn’t think I’d make it, and was like….Ok, I don’t have to do it today, I can do it late. It’s ok because I don’t plan to do it for those two day prompts anyways, and can work on it more tmmr and post it hopefully but ha……today, Today. was gonna work on it afternoon since I got time <3 but lmao, hit a block. internet problems T.T & phone Gone, but I had my song on iPad and could replay it, thankfully, since I was already listening to it before……and had the wip and stuff on doc already up but….Wow, insanely hard to focus! I kept writing abt Every Little Process & thoughts I had which made things insanely slow and by the time my phone came back……………….I just gave up. didn’t want to work on it. motivation hit bottom LMAO, but writing this rn…it Really makes me want to work on it. I fcking love time travel with all my heart. its so <333 and literally, forgetting the smut, this is gonna be SO GOOD. wow. this is hyping me up to work on it fjkfkf. okay, wasnt looking at time while I was doing sss thingies and was like SHIT, I forgot…! I wanted to show snippet for ssmonth today, since I couldn’t finish this and God why did this take so long. I went off writing, realised stuff, continued to edit when I got the section to standard I snippet-show BUT THEN I KEPT NOTICING TYPO’S AND HAD TO DELETE??? but managed to post it in time lmoa

—I thought it might be good to take a break from SS stuff, and remembered the yukishima short thing I wrote for raven’s prompt and was like let’s edit and then post. have edited !!! just neeeds to post but title is being a pain in the backside, lmao. I Cant think of one. like genuinely, even. mind is blank. jfkfkfkfk I SOMEHOW THOUGHT OF TITLE !!! was thinking Shima and went with “double faced” but damn this is making me want to write a whole thing for this now….like the Urge right there hhhhh. really love this lil fic, it’s so good <3 <3 <3

—remembered today is sss today!! gotta do it. heart wants to work on that jaeha fic & def tbhk stuff…I miss it!! tbhk is SO fun to write for. YOOOO I Just remembered that hananene fic that I was so close to finish, gotta check that out first. maybe I got some enlightenment 👀 I DID !!! I edited and wroteee. damn. I’m So happy. because I fcking love this wip so much hhhhhhhhh ITS SO FREAKING FUN !!!!

—choose to do jjk for the first sss, and WAS gonna do nbmi but then WAIT no, that yumei fic. but then, no. I’m doing Meg first kiss. because damn, it’s actually finished, tbh. I just need to Edit. I worked on it !!!! but lmao, this requires muchhhh energy that I just don’t have rn. but I worked on the first section so that’s v :D :D also like, pretty sure missing edits that i need to scour for….in my tumblr drafts…..ahaha. good luck with that, future me. still feeling insane abt the word count for this, like holy shit, y’know?

—only like few mins left. BECAUSE OF THAT DAMN SSSNIPET so sadly couldn’t that tsukanene idea I wanted, and went for the jaena one, because idk. heart decided on akayona and that one, and it was good because like mins were going and had to quickly write it lmao. good thing I chose that idea, because I had like literally the part I wrote, written in the notes app, just added some lines. also, wow. just realised. I COULD HAVE COPY&PASTED. would have saved time……wow.

[a-kouka-rat]

So, during this break of AnY I re-read almost every fanfiction I could find, and here are today’s fanfic picks. #1: What I saw in the moonlight One of the best pieces of fanfiction in this fandom. Well-written, engaging and finished. It was written before the XIng arc, so it features a completely different Xing situation. I think it’s better you go into it without knowing too much of what’s gonna happen. ( contains some mild violence). please read it and come discuss it with me a love this story so much. #2: A modern twist Basically, the HHB play truth or dare, and they are later joined by Lili, tae-jun and Suwon disquised as a a woman. (everyone keeps calling him M’lady ). Light hearted, fun, overall a joy to read. #3 :I don’t want to live on the moon Another one of these absolutely incredible fics. It’s ongoing, extremely well written and PAINFUL. I have to say I avoided starting this, because it has an OC as the protagonist. It takes a trope that is usually very badly handled and turns it into gold. (it contains violence)

#4: Soon We’ll be found I may not be very much into the HakYona ship, and I generally don’t read fanfics with the pairing as the main theme, but this one is a good one. It’s written in a really nice way and the amtosphere it creates is beautiful. (Warning though: It contains explicit sexual scenes :) ) #5 A heart-shaped box Oh, what is that? Did you say you want some good old OT3 pain? Don’t worry, I got you covered. There’s a bunch of OT3 fic to go around. I chose this one, because it’ well-rounded, well-written, short and painful. #6 Comfort If you read the previous fic and want something to put on the open wounds of your OT3 feelings heart, I have just the thing for ya. Warnign though :This is PURE SMUT. And it contains happy OT3 doing happy OT3 things and being merry. You’re welcome.

#7 To raise a king In case you still somehow are not acquainted with  fallenwithstyle’s Alien AU, here’s my advice: Start with this fic. Splendidly wirtten, and a great take on what one might consider nothing but a crack idea. And I wholeheartedly reccomend reading everything the author has written about thsi AU, they’re all golden pieces or writting (as is all her work in general). If you have no idea what this is about: Suwon is an alien AI. Trust me and read it even if it sounds crazy. #8 The blood of kings Judoh observes Suwon as he grows from the death of his dad onwards. I’ve read this a bunch of times. It’s well-written (from Judoh’s POV none the less!) and deals with Suwon’s teenage years, that are an unkown part of akayona, in a very believable and impactful way.

#9: Second impressions something in the same category as fic #8, Judoh getting to know teen!Suwon a little better. Deals with the subject of Suwon’s concealed abilities in a very nice way.

#10: Exploration by touch

If you’re into Joodoh/Soo-won, I suggest reading this, and everything else sorasan has written for this ship. The reason why I link this specifc fic is because it’s shippy but held back (a delight in ship fanfics, sometimes all you want is harmless fluff) and so a great starting point if you’re unsure about the ship or not familiar with it. (or you can  just jump straight into Once You Fall (which is rated E, mind you) and enjoy yet another rare find in fanfics: an Intercrural sex scene (in all my seven years of reading smut, I’ve come across this only twice)

#11 Godmother

Excellent choice if you’re more of a HHB kind of person. Well-written, with a unique style, this is the gangster AU you never knew you needed in your life. #12 The things we said

Compilation of exceptionally-written one-shots. Hak eats soap in one of them. Nice stuff. Read it.

#13: Fumbling

Warning, once again, this is porn. It’s also Soohak, so if you’re into that, I strognly suggest this little diamond. one of the first fics I read when I joined this fandom, and my go-to fic when I need my soohak feelings tank replenished.

Alright, so that’s it from me for now :)

if you go on AO3, you’ll find an awful lot more fanfics to read. With how small this fandom is, the number and the exceptional quality of fanfiction is impressive.

[itsclowreedsfault]

2017 Writing Round-Up

Total year-long word count: 87,840 (holy fuck)

Word count by fandom:

Mystic Messenger » 6,830 Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle » 2,022 Bungou Stray Dogs » 1,862 Yuri!!! On Ice » 169 Boku no Hero Academia » 76,957

Fics completed: >1k words

mosaic » yoi, viktuuri, angst Untitled Drabble » mysme, zen/mc, fluff Untitled Drabble #2 » mysme, v/mc, fluff something more » mysme, juminv, fluff  all our colors » bnha, todobaku, soulmate au Kitchen Disaster » bnha, todobaku, fluff Heroes » bnha, todobaku, hurt/comfort Shooting Stars » bnha, todobaku, fluff Your Hand in Mine » bnha, todobaku, angst Untitled Drabble #3 » bnha, todobaku, angst Untitled Drabble #4 » bnha, todobaku, fluff Untitled Drabble #5 » bnha, todobaku affection » bnha, todobaku, fluff

1k-5k

Kingdom of Words » mysme, saeran/mc, soulmate au a secret among the flowers » mysme, juminv, fantasy au Never Enough » trc, kurofai, angst Shatter » bsd, soukoku, angst Operation: TodoBaku? » bnha, todobaku  Unravel » bnha, todobaku, fantasy au Baby, It’s Cold Outside » bnha, todobaku, fluff It Started With a Game » bnha, todobaku Just Listen » bnha, todokiri, hurt/comfort and I know you’ll have my back » bnha, todobaku, fantasy au When It Snows » bnha, todobaku, fluff Of Movie Nights and Smashed Bowls » bnha, todobaku, roommates/childhood friends au

5k-10k what really matters » bnha, todobaku, soulmate au  The One I Want » bnha, bakukami

10k+

Silver Lining » bnha, todobaku, modern fantasy au Wandering Wolf » bnha, todobaku, fantasy au

Works-in-progress:

everything we (never) planned » bnha, todobaku, urban fantasy/fake dating au

This year I wrote and posted:

31 fics, 13 of which are drabbles (under 1k),15 one-shots, 1 completed multichapter, 1 wip (ongoing), and 1 wip (abandoned)

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?

I wrote so much more than I even thought I could write, no kidding. I’m still thinking about that word count and crying.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?

Considering that in January I hadn’t even watched the anime/read the manga, BNHA! I never thought I’d get this invested in the series and more especifically, in TodoBaku (but I’m glad I did!).

What's your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest?

I will never stop being proud of Wandering Wolf. Writing it was a really comforting yet challenging experience, and it holds a special place in my heart.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

So many! Especially ever since I started writing TodoBaku, I started aiming for longer fics with a little more plot, instead of the moment-focused drabbles I was used to. It has helped me become more confident in going deeper into the character’s feelings, exploring how they react to different situations; it’s also been a challenge to figure out pacing and worldbuilding. Through many mistakes, I feel like I’m slowly learning to improve on those things.

I tried writing smut, something I had told myself I’d never attempt again lol And I feel like my attempts actually turned out half-decent, motivating me to keep trying to improve on that aspect of my writing.

I gave another try at multichapters, too, and managed to finish my first fic of that kind that was being posted as I wrote it, and not all chapters at once like I did for the AkaYona Big Bang last year. It was a journey that took months but I never felt more fulfilled than when I finally posted that last chapter. 

Your best story of this year:

Wandering Wolf. I feel like my writing was at its best for this fic.

Your most popular story of this year:

what really matters (considering hits/kudos on AO3). I actually never expected this story to be so popular, especially because it was only my second try this year at writing something with an Explicit rating, but I’m glad people seem to enjoy it so much!

Story of yours most under-appreciated by the universe, in your opinion:

Huuh, I guess Shatter, my Soukoku fic. I’m really proud of that one but it barely got any attention (maybe because it’s the only story I’ve ever written for the BSD fandom lol).

Most fun story to write:

Operation: TodoBaku?. I had so much fun writing TodoBaku from the perspective of other Class 1-A students, as well as coming up with their shenanigans and trying to fit some humor into it :’)

Story with the single sexiest moment:

Silver Lining, when Bakugou is touching Todoroki’s wings for the first time. I just have a thing for characters with wings, okay. 

Most "Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story:

I don’t... think there was anything like that? My stuff is pretty tame lol worst thing I wrote was MCD and there wasn’t even any detailed description of anything.

Story that shifted your own perceptions of the characters:

Hmm, Wandering Wolf, I think. I had to do a lot of thinking to fit the characters into the universe I created, and then make them develop as the story progressed - and that involved thinking a lot about Todoroki and Bakugou’s core traits and what makes them who they are regardless of canon.  

Hardest story to write:

My current wip - everything we (never) planned. It’s hard to make my writing style work with the genre and it’s a more complicated plot than what I usually write, so that has been a challenge, too. I’m having fun with it though!

Biggest disappointment:

Your Hand in Mine. It wasn’t a disappointment as in I didn’t manage to convey what I wanted - the fic turned out exactly like I’d planned - but I just regretted ever writing it. I’ve even thought of deleting it multiple times, but decided not to. 

Biggest surprise:

Silver Lining and Wandering Wolf! I was so excited with both AUs, and really afraid I wouldn’t be able to do them justice. But both stories developed so well and writing them was so much fun, I’m very proud of the finished works. And they were both extremely well received by my readers, which was the biggest surprise of all and made me incredibly happy.

Most unintentionally telling story:

Just Listen. The entire thing is me projecting myself onto Kirishima lmao

Favorite opening line(s):

“There's a myth about the forest that is hidden among the distant mountains.” - from Wandering Wolf

Favorite closing line(s):

“But the thing is - not everything about a myth is true, is it?” - from Wandering Wolf

Favorite 5 line(s) from anywhere:

This would get pretty long and coincidently I chose exactly 5 favorite lines for the favorite quotes prompt of Fic Writers Week so I’ll just link to that post here.

Top 5 scenes from anywhere you would choose to have illustrated:

» Bakugou holding Todoroki in the forest as he disappears, from Unravel. » Bakugou touching Todoroki’s wings for the first time, from Silver Lining. » Bakugou and Todoroki sitting side-by-side in the snow, from When It Snows. » Bakugou holding Todoroki’s hands to calm him down, from Chapter 4 of Wandering Wolf. » Chuuya playing the piano, from Shatter.

Fic-writing goals for next year:

Finish my current WIP and my ideas for BakuTodo Week. Do my best to write a great piece for a zine (!!) I got accepted into. I also have a rather ambitious project I want to work on that will involve mixing my writing with graphic design.

And this is more of a personal goal, though it’s still related to fic writing so I suppose it counts: stop obsessively comparing myself to others and hating myself and my writing whenever I don’t measure up to them. Stop depending on numbers so much. It’s something that’s been hindering me a lot these past few months to the point where I have to force myself to write because it’s almost like constant writer’s block.

Despite the ups and downs, I feel like this was an amazing writing year for me. I’m proud of what I achieved with my writing, and it has improved a lot even if I have a hard time believing that most of the time. I’m thankful for all the support I’ve gotten and for you lovely readers who always interact with me or my content in one way or another. Y’all are the real MVPs ❤

[petri808]

Just for Funsies

Thank you @nalufever for tagging me 💜💜

Top 3 🍕 toppings: Mushroom, Spinach, Ham

Hoodie or Sweater: Hoodie

Last outgoing message: was letting my dad and aunt know my cat was diagnosed with terminal cancer. Sorry it was a sad one but that was the last message 😅

Last animal you gave affection to: the cat mentioned above. He’s still fighting with our help, so we’ve been spending as much time as we can with him.

Currently working on: Homework lol plus these are the urgent attention pieces, cause I have others on the back burner.

Akayona Tarot zine- 2 short stories. All I’ll say is 1 is a Hakyona, the other is about Kija.

Inuyasha White Day piece, probably smut (Inukag)

FB White Day piece, part 2 of Honmei With Love (Kyoru)

FT/Edens Zero crossover AU collab piece with Nalufever 😘 (Nalu/Shicca)

Enslaved, a next chapter that I really gotta get to (Nalu)

Put your current playlist on shuffle and give up the goods: Playlist titled Eclectic Shit. link to Spotify

I Do by Rain (K-Pop) I found this singer after watching the movie Ninja Assasin cause he was the male lead... which I mostly watched because he was cute 😏

How’s that song make you feel? Happy I guess lol. I find his voice very alluring, plus he’s almost my age so I don’t feel like I’m being a cougar ogling over him 😂

Tagging 🤔 the usual randomslol. @bmarvels @rosechi @phoneboxfairy @mccnfairy @doginshoe @shadyhydrathesnekqueen @sheepishlyshippingsheep @cstorm86 no pressure guys 🙃