#also! in my head your birthday is in dec. is that right?

[lupinmoonlight]

I was wondering, when you get the time if you could do a birthday thing with Remus where it starts off all cutesy and fun during the day and gets sexual in the evening, or something like that. Maybe the date could be Dec 6th or take place in December?? I kind of rambled sorry. I hope you have a good day!!

Patience is a Virtue

Masterlist AO3

Summary - It's your birthday and after a date in Hogsmeade, Professor Lupin goes down on you (1,978 words).

Warnings - Oral sex, kissing, fluff, smut, cheesy fluff, unprotected sex, my grammar, not proof-read.

Notes - It's my birthday so I decided to write this request. I'm also half-asleep and only have 4 hours of sleep left before i have to get up for university :') cheers

It was a cold winter day, the kind of cold that bit at your cheeks and made the snow crunch under your feet. Your hand was securely tucked into Remus', each breath you took materializing as a small cloud before dissipating into the crips air of the Scottish Highlands. Hogsmeade was just a short walk away, and you could already see the rising smoke from the chimneys of the snow covered houses and shops. 

"Are you sure you wouldn't prefer a warmer celebration? We could apparate to Spain, have a paella by the beach," he teased. 

Laughing, you squeezed his hand. "And miss a birthday walk to Hogsmeade with you? Never. Besides, I'm looking forward to that cinnamon latte at Madam Puddifoot's" you replied. 

Remus smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners as he glanced down at you. "Well, anything for the birthday girl," he said. You knew Madam Puddifoot's wasn't Remus' favourite. It was too pink, too tacky, too much, but you loved it and it was your birthday and so he went. 

As you approached the village, you took in the scent of fresh pastries emanating from the shop with their frosty windows. Children ran past you, laughing and throwing snowballs. It was perfect. He was perfect. 

You turned your face to look at him, admiring the way the winter sun caught the edges of his slightly greying hair and the gentle lines around his eyes. Feeling your gaze, he looked down, his eyes meeting yours with a softness that made you absolutely melt. 

"Enjoying the view?" he asked playfully. 

"Yes, Professor," you giggled, the title coming out teasingly. 

Remus chuckled warmly. "You must stop being so adorable- it's hard to resist not kissing you right here," he quipped as he reached to tuck a loose strand of your hair back into your scarf. 

"Why resist, Professor?" you whispered back, standing on your tiptoes, pulling him closer by his coat. 

With a mock sigh of surrender, Remus leaned down, his lips meeting yours in a sweet, lingering kiss. 

Hand in hand, you continued your walk into Hogsmeade. The village was charmingly festive and buzzing with excitement for the coming holidays. You soon found yourselves in front of Madam Puddifoot's tea shop. The place was bustling with chatter and filled with a slightly over-the-top array of pink decorations and floating candles that flickered softly above your heads. 

Remus guided you to a secluded table, helping you off with your coat before pulling out your chair. He waited until you were comfortably settled and made his way to the counter, only to return shortly with a tray bearing two steaming cups of cinnamon lattes and a plate of pastries.

His gaze lingered lovingly on you as you took a sip. Your cheeks were still pink from the cold and your eyes were sparkling with the joy of the day that he had made so special. "You're beautiful," he murmured, almost without thinking, keeping his voice low enough so only you could hear. 

You looked up from your cup, not brave enough to set it down and expose the blush that was threatening to intensify under his gaze. After a moment, Remus slid his hand into his coat pocket and pulled out a small, elegantly wrapped box, placing it gently on the table. "For you," he said softly. 

Your eyes lit up with curiosity and delight. "Remus, what is this?" you asked as you untied the ribbon and opened the box to reveal a delicate gold necklace with a beautifully crafted moon as a pendant- a symbol so deeply personal to him. 

"It's just...I always want to be with you, even when I'm not there. This way, a part of me always will be," he explained, his eyes never leaving your face. 

"It's beautiful," you whispered, lifting it out and holding it towards him. "Would you...?" 

With a nod, he stood, moving to your side to fasten the necklace around your neck. His fingers brushed your skin, sending a shiver that had nothing to do with the cold. Once secured, he leaned down, kissing the top of your head softly, whispering, "Perfect."

Sitting back down, Remus reached into another pocket and produced a slightly larger package. "There's more," he added. 

As you unwrapped the second gift, you found a luxurious quill, alongside a well-bound book on advanced potion-making, and a selection of your favourite teas. 

"Remus, how did you...these are perfect!" 

"I'm glad you think so. I love seeing you this happy." 

~

After running a few errands, you and Remus returned to the quaint warmth of your cottage. It smelled of lavender  mixed with the earthy scent of the woodsmoke from the fireplace. It smelled home. 

You began unpacking in the kitchen, lining up a few ingredients for a simple dinner and setting aside the new teas beside the kettle. The house was quiet, save for the quiet crackle of the fire and the occasional clink of a jar finding its place on the shelf. 

Remus watched you for a moment, leaning against the doorway, his eyes tracing the familiar lines of your figure. He walked quietly behind you, slipping his arms around your waist, pulling you back against his chest. You let out a small, surprised gasp, a smile curving your lips as you leaned back into him. 

"Did you get everything you needed?" he murmured. 

"Mmm," you hummed, feeling the warmth or his body seeping into your back. 

Remus leaned down, his lips brushing the skin of your neck, placing tender kisses that made you shiver delightfully. "You smell like cinnamon and winter," he whispered, inhaling deeply as if trying to imprint your essence in his memory. His hold tightened, one of his hands tracing a path up to caress the line of your jaw. 

You tilted your head to give him better access, your eyes closing in delight. "Remus," you breathed out. 

He responded with a low hum. "I can't seem to get enough of you," he murmured, his lips tracing a path up to your ear, nibbling gently. "Like a man starved." 

You turned within his armed, facing him, your hands sliding up to circle around his neck. "You have me. All of me," you said, pressing your body closer to his. You could feel his growing arousal through your layers of clothing, pressing insistently against you. 

His eyes darkened, "Oh, I do intend to have you," he replied before scooping you up effortlessly. A spontaneous giggle escaped you as your legs wrapped instinctively around his waist and your arms draped around his neck, allowing him to navigate through the cottage to your bedroom. 

The door swung open, and he crossed the room to lay you down on the bed. Standing back, he looked down at you with an intensity that made you squirm. You sat up, reaching out toward him, craving his touch. 

Remus shook his head, a playful yet firm "No," escaping his lips. He raised an eyebrow, his voice teasing, "Now, now, where are your manners, young lady?" 

Your response was an exaggerated pout, your eyes meeting his in a silent challenge. You never wanted to give in so easily, but the man before you made you quite literally fold. Despite your short-lived attempt to brat him, his presence commanded the room, and you were momentarily stunned by it. 

Remus chuckled softly. "I'll give you what you want," he assured you, "but you need to be patient. Good girls are patient." 

Patient? That word simply wasn't part of your vocabulary. You tried again to reach for him, your hands stretching out, seeking him. But in a swift movement, you were pushed back onto the bed, your hands pinned above your head as he hovered above you. 

"And what did we just learn about patience?" he teased. 

Your breath caught, your mind going blank. "T-that it's supposed to be...rewarding?" you stammered. 

"Very good," Remus smiled, leaning closer so that his lips nearly brushed against yours. He began removing your clothes, each movement calculated and slow, torturously so, laving you increasingly exposed and vulnerable under his gaze. 

Finally bared to him, Remus began to kiss your skin softly, each kiss lingering a little longer than the last. Every so often, he left a gentle mark, a love bite that spoke of possession, love, adoration. His way of saying you belonged to him.

He slowly, agonizingly slowly, made his way down to your most sensitive area, his breath teasing you. 

"Remus, please," you whispered. "I can't take it anymore. Please." 

"Shh," he soothed, his breath teasing you again as he spoke. "I've got you." 

You gasped as your felt his tongue tease at your clit, your hips bucking up involuntarily. He swiftly pinned you back down and pulled back. 

"Ah, ah, ah," he said, "it seems someone is forgetting the rules. Patience, my love, is a virtue." 

"But Remus- Ah..." you moaned as he used his fingers to spread you open and allow for better access. The tip of his tongue flicked against your sensitive flesh, and a finger was teasing at your entrance. 

"Remus..." you whimpered, your fingers tangling in his hair. You felt his lips curl into a smile against you. He trailed his tongue down to your entrance, poking at it, exploring, tasting, savouring, and pushed in. His finger worked your clit gently, barely touching it. 

Your hips bucked again, and this time he allowed it. He hummed against you and began to slide his tongue in and out while simultaneously rubbing your sensitive bundle of nerves. Your body was tensing now, your back arching as the pleasure began to build. 

Your legs were spread wide, shamelessly, your hips thrusting upward to meet his movements. But Remus is patient. And Remus knows what he is doing. His finger brushes against your clit more firmly, yet not enough. It's teasing, tormenting, and making you yearn for his touch even more. 

"Remus...Remus Please." Your voice is breathless, your hands clenched tightly into the blankets. 

Remus grins against your skin. He has you exactly where he wants you. He uses the tip of his tongue to swirl around your clit, then flicking over it quickly before retreating. A finger teases your entrance before venturing inside as he increases the pressure of his tongue. You cry out, your body tightening as your climax nears. 

With one last flick of his tongue, he pushes you over the edge, your body shuddering as your orgasm rips through you. You breath hitches, your back arching off the bed as you try to hold onto consciousness. 

Before you could even form a thought, Remus' clothes had vanished, and he was pushing your legs apart with a growl, his length pressing insistently against your core. He was hungry, keeping his eyes locked onto yours as he slowly entered you. 

"You feel so good," he breathed. Your eyes fluttered close as he began to thrust inside you. Slowly. Lovingly. He leaned in to capture your lips, allowing you to taste yourself on him. You moaned into the kiss as he buried himself fully within your warmth. 

He groans as he feels your tight, wet heat around him, and his movement become more urgent, his body rocking against yours with increasing speed. 

"Don't stop Remus..." you moaned as you felt your second orgasm begin to crest. 

He picked up the pace, gripping your waist with a bruising force and slamming into you, his movements bordering desperation. 

You clenched around him, moaning his name as you reached your peak again. The sensation made him growl, and his body tensed as he spilled within you, his movements finally slowing down. He collapsed on top of you, his breathing ragged and his heart pounding against your chest. 

"Happy birthday, beautiful," he whispered in your ear. "I told you, patience is a virtue." 

[gojo-mochi]

Dear, Gojo Satoru, 

You are so loved

SYN: Gojo doesn’t like celebrating his birthday but this year you want to make it special…

CW: My own headcanons on Gojo’s personality and childhood. Established Relationship. Fluff with a bit of angst. Geto is a teacher in this, Mimiko and Nanako are his adopted daughters but not sorcerers or students. Haibara is here too. The Gangs are here folks :,) 

WC:3.6k

Despite being annoying and seemingly self-centered, with his “List your favorite things about Gojo Satoru game”, Gojo was not one to make a big deal out of his birthday. He wasn’t one to make any deal out of his birthday at all to be honest. If never told anyone when his birthday was, Geto and Shoko had to find out by snooping through the school files since they couldn’t wring it of Gojo himself. And even after that, Gojo would avoid mentions of his birthday and find some way to be out of town or disappear on Dec 7th. His friends gave up trying to throw him any kind of party after a couple of years, opting to just give him sweets or buy him something small whenever the date came nearby. 

Geto found out the reason once when he and Gojo decided to get wasted on some fruity cocktails after a mission, it had to do with Gojo’s upbringing in the Gojo clan. Being the first sorcerer in centuries to inherit both the Limitless and the Six Eyes cursed technique, marked him as special from day one. This had both perks and troubles, though the troubles affected Gojo a lot more than his cheery personality let on. Having a bounty placed on your head as a young age makes you wary and on edge combined with having the weight of the entire clan resting on your shoulder and being showered in praise everyday would mess with anyone’s head. 

During this one night drunken stupor, Gojo ranted on about how his childhood’s birthdays usually ended in some assassin trying to kill him or the clan setting up something super long and fancy with nothing that he liked so he just ends up running away from home for a while whenever his birthday would pass until the clan stopped celebrating it. Geto didn’t bring this up to Gojo the day after but he did pass it along to his other friends so they knew what was up, Nanami and Shoko took it well but Haibara was sad that Gojo never got a real happy birthday, but they left him alone about it. 

Now you, after knowing Gojo for a couple of years now and dating him for half those years, also learned this information after you got into a huge fight with Gojo on how he never told you about his birthday and why he always leaves you alone that day. Gojo was never good at confronting you with emotional stuff, always pretending to put on a happy face or joke about it and this was almost the straw that broke your relationship. It was when you slammed the door right in Gojo’s face and left him with no contact for a full week did he break down and go to Geto to ask him how to fix his relationship with you. 

Gojo teleported right into your apartment, burning a permanent mark in the carpet that made you lose your deposit. However, you easily forgave him for that and the whole birthday thing when you saw he wasn’t wearing his usual blindfold, his bright blue eyes dulled and marred by deep eye bags. Matching your own redden and sullen eyes from the days you've been crying after being apart from Gojo for so long. That night Gojo held you in his arms while you sat in his lap as he told you tales of his childhood and his reasoning for not celebrating his birthday. 

Your relationship got stronger after this ‘fight’, however you secretly swore that the next time Gojo’s birthday came around it would be a better one. And this year was the year that you start to set your plan into motion, gathering everyone up and telling them your idea weeks before December hits. Gojo knew you were up to something but trusted you enough to not pry too deep into it even though he did annoy both Geto and Shoko a lot about it. It was the same routine this year with Gojo, he ended up taking a mission faraway from Tokyo, leaving on a flight on the night of Dec 6th. 

“Toru!” You ran and jumped on his back, barely stumbling him over as his arms reached back to steady you. You giggled as you pushed your face in his snowy locks of hair, running your hands up his undercut. Taking in the soft scent of musk, coconut shampoo, and some peppermint that Gojo has been snacking on lately. Gojo’s hands squeezed your ass a bit as he pushed you up further on his back, your arms gently wrapping around his neck. Gojo still made plans with you on the afternoon of Dec 6th, spending some time with his lovely partner, before heading over to his flight. 

The two of you were heading over to spend some time in the park, walking around with a cup of hot cocoa in hand, admiring all the early Christmas decorations, the snowfall, and just enjoying being around each other’s presence. You were still clinging on to Gojo’s back as he walked up to the hot cocoa truck and ordered two drinks, his was topped with extra whipped cream, a toasted marshmallow, sprinkles, and caramel sauce. You climbed off his back to grab your drink and in return Gojo grabbed your hand, entwining his fingers with yours. It was sort of a tradition now for the both of you to wear only one glove when it was cold out.

It happened one night after Gojo complained that he couldn’t feel or touch you when you kept on bundling up more and more in the cold weather. He pouted extra hard when telling you that he even turned off his infinity to be able to touch you and you were here being cozy and warm and denying him of his right. So you compromised by forgoing one glove so he would be able to freely feel you, skin on skin, his thumb just lightly pressing down on your wrist every so often so he could feel your heartbeat. To know that you’re alive and still here with him, he lost so many people over his life, he almost lost Suguru once too. 

He couldn’t even bare the thought of losing you somehow, or anyone he grew close to over the years. This made Gojo extra clingy sometimes with his actions even though his words may not convey the seriousness of his feelings. Especially when he tends to hide his true feelings behind a cheery smile and jokes. He did it both times with Yuuta and Yuji when they were both facing the imminent threat of execution, saying it so casually like he didn’t care whether or not they lived or died but still fighting with the elders and putting his own neck on the line of these kids. The worst ‘prank’ he did was keeping the fact that Yuuji was still alive a secret after that whole prison fiasco for so long, only to have Yuuji pop up out of a box during the exchange event like everything was fine. 

You and Geto scolded him extra long that day, you smile and laugh remembering about it now but you can’t really remember the last time you saw Gojo express any sort of negative emotions. Other than when he forehead flicks Ichiji or says that he’s going to kill the elders, Gojo always bouncing around acting like a fool. A fool who has so much responsibility weighing down on his shoulder, a strong fool who barely has anyone who can understand his pain. You squeezed his hand tightly as these thoughts flood your mind, Gojo tilts his head down at you, sipping at his overly sweet hot cocoa, whipped cream staining his upper lips. 

“What’s wrong? Your drink not good? Told you, you should have gotten the ‘Satoru’s Special’ instead.”

He then obnoxiously slurps on his own drink, not caring about the temperature of it at all. You roll your eyes at him, beckoning him to bend down a bit so you could wipe off his cream mustache with your thumb. Gojo opted to wear his sunglasses instead of his blindfold during this date so you could see his white eyelashes flutter down at you. A small hum forming from the back of his throat as he felt your soft touch, he grabbed your wrist after you were done cleaning off the whipped cream. Swirling his tongue on your digit and popping it in his mouth, a more guttural groan forming this time as he tasted both the sweet treat and you on his tongue. 

You had to pry your hand back from Gojo’s grip on you, reminding you that you were both still very much in public right now. He quipped back that he could easily just teleport you away or lower down a veil as well. You finally got your hand back and wiped away his remaining spit on his shirt, eliciting a whine from Gojo. Still pouting even after you still went to hold hands with him again. “You know the last time you put down a veil without permission for some..’fun time’, we both got chewed out heavily by Yaga over it.” You shivered recalling how Yaga made both of you kneel with buckets of water on your head as punishment. 

It reminded you of how Gojo used to get you into trouble back in your Jujutsu tech student’s days and you ended up getting punished along with Gojo for most of it. Megumi, Inumaki, and Nobara took so many pictures that day, they even printed it out to put in the yearbook. You shake your head fondly at that memory of your students. Gulping down your hot cocoa as you look over to your snowy-hair boyfriend. “My drink is fine by the way, much better than that sugar trap you call the ‘Satoru’s Special’.” Gojo let out a dramatic gasp, waving his drink around wildly. 

“And how would you know! You haven’t even tried it yet!”

“Satoru, my nose is getting assaulted from how much sugar is in that thing, I can tell that one sip would kill anyone who isn’t you.”

“Well, obviously, I am the strongest after all”

There it was, that line, that stupid line, ‘The strongest’, Geto stopped using that line right after he saved Mimiko and Nanako in that village. He knew that just having strength wasn’t enough to save everyone he wanted. You weren’t sure why Gojo kept on using that title, if he even still really believed it or not, if he ever believed it. Your chest tightens a bit and you let out a sigh, trying not to let your thoughts overwhelm you and ruin your date right now. You both finished your drinks and threw them away, walking hand in hand to the middle of the park where a giant Christmas’s tree was propped up with full decorations. 

They even had a fake Santa guy to take pictures with in front of it. Gojo quickly tugged on your hand and made you wait in line for pictures as well. As soon as you got to the front of the line, Gojo tore away from you and jumped onto Santa’s lap. You walked slowly behind him, covering your mouth to stop giggles from coming out. The Santa patted Gojo on the back and asked his usual questions. 

“Ho-ho-hooo.. Um, what do you want for Christmas this year, um my child?”

“I want everyone in the whole wide world to know how great I am!”

“I want them all to sing the “Gojo Satoru is super great” song! It goes something like this..” 

Gojo started clapping his hands and singing his fake song as you walked up to stand beside Santa, posing for the camera man with a wide smile. 

Click

You thanked Santa and the Elf cameraman and dragged your boyfriend off as you went to grab the polaroid. Snorting loudly at the scene set captured, Gojo happily clapping and singing in Santa’s lap who has a soft grimace on his face with you on his side, posing for the camera. You tucked the photo away as Gojo gets a call from Ichiji, Gojo's face drops a bit and he starts to rub small circles on your pulse point. You knew that meant that Ichiji was coming to pick him up for his flight. You walked to the pick up point in silence, hand in hand, shoulders occasionally bumping into each other. The bitter winter air blew past you, you unconsciously scooted closer to Gojo who swung his arm around you, pulling you into a bone crushing hug. 

His hand grabbed on tightly to the back of your outfit, his nose shoved deep in your hair as he inhaled your scent, wanting to take every piece of you he could with him before he departed. You hear the sound of Ichiji’s car pulling up and then soon after feel your chin being grabbed and tug forward into a heated kiss with Gojo. HIs lips laid over yours feverishly, no tongue, just a long and hard kiss like Gojo was trying to meld you two together at this point. Remembering the outline of your lips, the way your breath hitches a bit as he his hands roams around, how you tasted, how you smelt, everything about you. 

Love so encompassing and overwhelming that it almost felt like you could drown in it, that's what Gojo’s love was like when he held nothing back. Even though this was a normal out of country trip for Gojo he always says goodbye like it was his last one. He pulls away with a final smooch on your forehead and one last squeeze. You held back tears, almost forgetting your gift to him as he opened the car door. 

“Ah, wait! I have something for you.”

Your hands shaked as you pulled out a bunch of letters from your bag. 

“I know that you don’t like celebrating.. Tomorrow.. But I managed to get some people to write you some letters, you know, writing things about “What makes Gojo Satoru so great?”” 

You let out an awkward chuckle at the end, Gojo’s eyes blink at you once, twice, before he took the letters from your hands. Kissing your freezing knuckles as he took off his one glove and put it on your hand. “Thank you, my love, truly…” He gulped down, looking up at you, his bright eyes conveying words left unspoken in his throat. You tug on his glove and walk away from the door, waving goodbye to him and Ichiji with a smile. “Make sure to only read the letter while you're on the plane, alright?” Gojo nods and Ichiji waves back to you, closing the door they both head off the airport. 

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On the plane, Gojo sat manspread in his first class seat, fiddling with the letters in his hands almost nervously. Like he was inspecting a bomb instead, flipping them over and around, looking for anything. He watched the clock tick down until it hit 12:00am on Dec 7th. You didn’t tell him to open the letters on his birthday but he just felt that it was right. Steeling himself he ripped open the first letter. 

Yo! Gojo-Sensei!

Happy birthday and whatnot! I wanna thank you again for saving my life! I’m so freaking happy to have one of the strongest as my teacher! I hope your birthday is as cool as you are! 

-  Yuuji

Hey dumbass-Sensei,

Happy birthday, I would have gotten you something but Geto told me you don’t like getting gifts so I just spent the money on a new dress instead~ We should go back to Harajuku again and take poses and post them online. I got so many new followers last time but most of them kept on asking if you were single. Anyway I guess one thing good about you is your sense of style,I guess.

Love, Nobara

Hey, Gojo-sensei, 

This is Megumi, Happy Birthday and all that. Have a safe trip as well, though you probably don’t need that. Thank you for taking care of me and Tsumiki for all these years. I might not say it enough but I do care about you. Don’t use this letter against me, I’ll deny ever writing it. Anyway,  thank you, Satoru. 

Signed, Megumi Fushiguro

Satoru!

Happy Birthday! You’re kind of a dumb teacher but you’re super strong still. Yaga likes to talk about you a lot and by talk I mean he likes to retell memories of you as a rowdy student. I remember a lot of them being told as my bedtime stories, so thank you for helping me sleep when I was a young cub! 

Panda ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

Hey, Satoru

Happy Birthday and all that. Not good at this touchy feeling crap so don’t expect a lot from me. But thank you for taking me in as your students and believing in me even though I don’t have any cursed energy. And for fighting the elders and higher ups on my behalf too, even though I could do that myself. You’re pretty good for being a pain in the butt to everyone. 

From, Maki

Okaka,

Bonito Flakes… Just kidding, Happy Birthday, Sensei. I remember when you first got introduced to me as a teacher. I thought ‘Wow, he seems like an idiot.’ and you are to be fair. But you’re still my teacher, so I guess I’m stuck with you. You’re pretty good at bringing people together, all the students here are really nice and smart, unlike you. So, thanks for that. 

Salmon, Inumaki

Happy Birthday! Gojo-Sensei!

Dear, Gojo-Sensei,

Happy Birthday! I was told that you don’t like celebrating your birthday? I understand that, I haven’t really celebrated my own birthday until I got here and met everyone. It was usually just me and Rika alone on my birthday but now I have everyone here around me! Last year Maki-san and Inumaki-san even tried to bake me a cake, haha! I’m sure you remembered how that turned out, still I am truly grateful to know some such strong and special people. That includes you too! So, thank you for saving me and looking over me. 

From, Yuuta

Happy Dec 7th, You already know how I feel about you, right? Ah my annoying friend, you give us a lot of headaches, you know that? I swear you like doing it on purpose, it almost makes me want to start smoking again, these eyebags are partially your fault, also, you know. Still, I know that I wouldn’t trade you for anything else, so thanks for being a good friend still after all these years, you dork. 

With Love, Shoko

Gojo-senpai!!

Hey, Hey! Happy Birthday! You and Geto-senpai are some of the coolest senpais I could ask for! I promise that I’ll be a Grade-1 sorcerer and catch up to Nanami soon, just watch me! I swear that these muscles aren’t just for show, haha! Thank you for saving me that one time, by the way! I haven’t forgotten about it, and I���ll repay you back someday, I swear! 

Signed, Haibara!

Dear, Gojo-san, 

I wish you a safe trip, please come back alive at least. You know you got people here that care about you a lot. I suppose I’m included in that group of people too. *Insert Nanami sigh here* I haven’t mentioned it before but thank you, Satoru, for pulling me out of work and back into being a Jujutsu Sorcerer. While both are still absolute shit jobs, I do prefer this one since there are people I care about more here. You’re good for being persistent and annoying, aren’t you? 

Signed Nanami

Yo, Satoru!

Don’t know what I can say here that I already haven’t said to your face, to be honest. You’re still quite as annoying as the first day we met. And I’m kinda glad you still are, that dumb grin on your face is something special, truly, Satoru. It saved me more times than I could count. Thank you for not giving up on me and saving not only me but Nanako and Mimiko as well. Don’t worry about them, they’ll warm up to you soon, I hope-haha. They’re just get a bit jealous that you take so much of my attention away and it doesn’t help that I talk about you quite a lot to them, oh well. Happy Birthday, Satoru, I’m glad you were born. 

Yours Truly, Suguru

Dear, Satoru

First off let me say, when I first saw you, I was not impressed. Wipe that pout off your face, alright? I know, I know, but I came around in the end, didn’t I? Heh, you're just so overpowering and overwhelming, I had the wrong idea about you but now I know better. I know what a kind and loving man you are. How sunshine just seems to follow you around, wherever you go. How you put your whole heart into everything that you do. I love you, Satoru, I truly do with all my heart. I want you to know that, and know that people around you love you so much as well. Please, live well, Satoru. We love you. 

<3

[luvrodite]

HAPPY NATIONAL JASON DAY TO YOU SWEETHEART i hope your classes go smoothly and you get back home in no time <333

if you have the time to answer this how does jayro celebrate the day?? do you have any traditions or something special planned?? and what kind of gifts did you get him this year tehe??

HI HI HI happy jason day to you too baby!!!! thank you angel, i’m not a fan of whoever did my timetable (me in dec 2023) to stack all my classes together in one day >:( anyway just a heads up that this gets a bit nsft

in the jay ro verse i call out sick of my classes or at least the morning ones to spend it with him even if he doesn’t ask me to and we both wake up fairly early but don’t get out of bed until later because it’s the perfect weather for staying in bed and cuddling <333 thinking about waking him up with head and making sure he starts the day off right.

i’m not great at special breakfast on the fly so i think i would’ve prepped for it in the days before, so that i could go and get it ready and be back with him asap!! we do presents first though, with him staying in our room and me bringing it all out after our activities (i feel so prudish calling it this but every other variation sounded so weird as well), and then breakfast in bed!! he gets the princess treatment, so he’s not lifting a finger today at all!

this year i would have gotten him a vintage leather jacket, because i imagine the one he has is starting to wear but also because i imagine seeing this in a vintage store and immediately thinking it was made for him!!! it’s an old racing jacket that i know he’s going to look soooo good in (imagining it’s a ferrari one because i’m biased)

also these are more birthday stocking stuffers than anything but a few books on his tbr, maybe new releases he’s mentioned wanting to check out but hasn’t gotten around to getting yet.

i think this would either be a bit tricky or so easy to get my hands on because it’s gotham and there’s no in between, but some sort of addition to the armoury he has hidden throughout our place — i think this is a tradition that started when we were younger and he got me an army knife for my birthday because i’d mentioned they looked cool, so every other year we take turns getting each other a new addition to our collection! they’re mostly an assortment of cool but practical blades, i think!!

some more stocking stuffers but i’d get him a knit sweater and some other clothes as well! he’s my barbie doll and i like playing dress up, so i’d get him some nice clothes that work for both casual and slightly formal settings — like a reservation tonight at his favourite restaurant!!

i think he expects a visit from the bats and the birds at some point of the day, but mostly we spend it relaxing and enjoying ourselves in each other’s arms <333 i insist on him getting his birthday kisses and we keep having to start over because he gets squirmy about me planting them on his face and i keep laughing, so it takes ages for us to actually get to the last kiss but who’s complaining?

anyway i love him so dearly i want him to know happiness and a soft love and be spoiled until he’s cotton candy melting on my tongue. i love him and thank you for asking me this!!!

EDIT i cant believe i forgot this but i absolutely get him flowers on the way home from my classes to surprise him as well as some fancy pastries/desserts that we sneakily share before dinner (idk who we’re hiding from but we’re having a giggle about it nonetheless)

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my friend silver did it (months ago at this point) and i'm such a sucker for talking non-stop about my ocs so here's all the oc emoji ask questions with my beloved hone,,,,,

people 👁️ EYE - what colour are their eyes? do people notice their eyes? is there anything special about them (shows emotion easily, literally magical…)? ▸soft blue with purple sectoral heterochromia in both eyes! no one really notices since heterochromia isn't uncommon in the sun's reach. 🤥 LYING - are they good liars? do they have tells to show they’re lying? ▸nah he's a terrible liar. people see right through him. his most common lie is trying to say he's alright when in severe physical pain because he doesn't want to worry anyone...no one buys it.

👻 GHOST - do they believe in ghosts? what are their “ghostly experiences”, if any? ▸the afterlife canonically does not exist in ASHES, so neither do ghosts. that said, hone likes to believe that his parents are with him in spirit, even though he knows that can't possibly be true.

💥 COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with? ▸overwhelmingly grief. he has a really hard time coping with loss since he has never really been given the time to grieve. he also struggles with loneliness and the fear of losing himself.

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily? ▸experiencing any strong emotions, when he gets lost in thought, reminiscing about the past, etc etc. i wouldn't say he cries easily, but he is prone to it- he's not the kind of guy to hold it in.

👊 PUNCH - are they quick to violence? ▸absolutely not. he will only draw his sword(s) as a last resort and even then he'd do his best to not injure his opponent if he can help it. he will do everything in his power to avoid conflict.

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to? ▸when he gets lost in his head it's hard to get through to him since he has to come to by himself. he's also incredibly stubborn/steadfast in his beliefs and that gets particularly on mug's nerves. he has a bad habit of downplaying the intensity of pain he's in.

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings? ▸hone has his mom and dad! he's an only child. his parents would do anything in the world for him and he loves them to no end. he also has his extended family on his mother's side, those of which he gets along with to varying degrees.

😨 FEARFUL - when scared, do they go into “flight” or “fight”? ▸definitely fight, but more so in the sense that he'd stand his ground. would 100% put himself in harms way to protect someone he cares about.

💤 SLEEPING - do they fall asleep easily? what helps them sleep? ▸yes. aside from his four year coma, hone can and does fall asleep anywhere with relative ease. once he's out, he's out. the further into the plot the more frequently he sleeps because as things progress, he becomes more physically tired all the time.

-=-=-=-=-=-=- food & drinks 🥞 PANCAKE - what is their comfort breakfast? ▸he's doesn't really eat breakfast, but anything home-cooked by a family member he'd consider comforting! if i had to pick something though, i'd say some kind of breakfast meat and eggs.

🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE - when is their birthday? do they like celebrating it? ▸dec 30th! as a kid/teen he used to really like it because he could be surrounded by family and friends- he hasn't gotten the chance to celebrate one as an adult yet since he was asleep for four years. 🍩 DONUT - favourite sweet treat? ▸any kind of cobbler or crumble!

🍟 FRIES - do they order food often? or they prefer to cook their own food? ▸nowadays he buys inexpensive things for the road that can be kept for long term such as salted meats and dried fruits. he does know a few basic things he learned from his mom growing up and he'd like to learn more one day if he gets the chance to settle down.

☕️ HOT BEVERAGE - do they prefer hot or cold drinks? what is their favourite drink? ▸hot drinks! his favourite was a floral tea his parents gave him whenever he had one of his 'attacks' growing up. bonus: hone's such a lightweight and can't hold his alcohol, but he likes small sips of fruity cocktails.

🍓 STRAWBERRY - do they eat their fruit & veg? what is their favourite fruit or vegetable? ▸both! doesn't prefer one over the other as he's not picky. favourite fruit: persimmons or peaches; favourite vegetable: beetroot or fennel

🍰 CAKE SLICE - favourite cake flavour? are they specific about types of cakes? ▸probably just vanilla with buttercream. again, he's not picky about food!

🍧 SHAVED ICE - do they still have any objects from their childhood? what significance does it have to them? what would their reaction be if they lost it? ▸unfortunately no :( the closest thing would be his father's old order badge as it's the only keepsake he has to remember his parents by. he would be bummed if he lost it, but considering his reluctant willingness to part with it early in the plot means it wouldn't be the end of the world for him. luckily he was able to keep it. -=-=-=-=-=-=-

plants & nature 💐 BOUQUET - create a bouqet for them! what do those flowers mean? are any of the flowers their particular favourite? ▸poppies-- consolation, remembrance, death; hyssop-- protection, health, sacrifice; and gladiolus-- moral integrity and strength of character ehehehe. poppies are his favourite.

🌙 MOON - what is your oc’s greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it? ▸this is hard to answer because it goes into spoiler territory regarding his character arc so i will refrain for now, but know that this wish is something he is willing to die for.

🌋 VOLCANO - how bad is their temper? is it a slow boil, or a instant explosion? ▸he's definitely slow to anger. it takes a lot and the right trigger to make hone upset, and even then his temper is pretty mellow.

🌺 HIBISCUS - do they have any allergies? ▸nope!

🍁 MAPLE LEAF - what is their favourite season? why? ▸fall! it's the perfect time for hearty food likes stews (his favourite food is rabbit stew), the temperature is perfect and the colors of the leaves remind him of his boyfriend <3

🍃 FALLING LEAF - do they enjoy being in nature? what is their favourite outdoor activity? ▸yes! hone spends more time outside than inside mostly due to circumstance. his favourite activity is horseback riding; either free riding or being out on a trail, he just enjoys being with horses.

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning? ▸entirely depends. his status as a morning person or not completely varies on how much sleep he gets.

🕷️ SPIDER - what is their biggest fear? do they have any irrational / mundane fears? ▸death and the loss of one's self. he's also afraid of his own body failing him at the worst possible time.

🌹 ROSE - do they like valentines day? have they been confessed to before? have they confessed to anyone before? ▸sort of. he doesn't like that it focuses too much on romantic love and believes other types of loves should be recognized too. but on the other hand, he's 100% the one to have confessed his feelings to sylvan first... except they've never been able to spend this day together for reasons...

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don’t want to show other people? ▸he wants to ignite hope in others but is having a hard time coping with his physical exhaustion and fatigue. he doesn't want people to see him in this perpetual state of decline.

🙊 SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about? ▸he will not stand for anyone speaking ill of his father and will defend his him. he's also not a fan of diurne or his dogma and holds many reservations about the clergy's actions to follow through with it.

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone? ▸anyone trying to use his parents or their deaths as a means of insulting or taunting him; in addition, he does not take kindly to those who joke about or take death lightly.

🌱 SEEDLING - what is their most vivid memory from childhood? ▸if he had to pick one: a summer trip with his parents and sylvan to their vacation home. this trip is where he and sylvan reaffirmed their feelings for each other.

🍀 CLOVER - do they believe in luck? are they lucky? ▸not particularly. if anything he's ambivalent to the concept.

🌏 EARTH - will they give up the world for someone they love? is this decision easy for them? ▸no.

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them? ▸hone came out of literally nowhere during one of the worst periods of my life (at the time). like mug and imura, he was a dnd oc and the first thing i decided about him was he was a catboy with two swords. the dnd version of him and the current version of him are two very different characters. ▸the dnd campaign required our characters have a curse. i stole the fire on his chest from sonic and the secret rings and went, "ok but what if, unlike the game, it actually was a threat" and spiraled from there. funnily enough, he's not the first character i've done that with. he wasn't even the phoenix at this point either, just a random guy. ▸if i had to pinpoint any other inspirations, it'd have to be link from the legend of zelda, especially skyward sword's. though if i'm being honest, tloz is my biggest inspiration for everything i write, even if i don't realize it right away so this comes as no real surprise to me. ▸an additional source of inspiration i've found in retrospect since starting this post, is the player character from persona 3. -=-=-=-=-=-=-

activity ⚾ BASEBALL - can they play sports? what is their best position if they play a team sport? what’s their strong suit (speed, power etc.)? ▸if swordplay counts as a sport then sure! hone is ambidextrous and is able to fight using two swords. his strong suit would have to be his adaptability as things like speed and power completely depend on his physical well-being at the time.

🏊 SWIMMING - can they swim? or are they afraid of water? how well do they swim? how do they feel about swimming in the ocean? ▸yes. he's pretty average and doesn't do so very often. he's never swam in the ocean before so he'd probably be a bit hesitant at first but ultimately be pretty neutral. -=-=-=-=-=-=-

objects 📣 MEGAPHONE - how loud are they? what do they speak like? got a voice claim? ▸depends on who he's around. normally, anywhere between a regular speaking voice and a quieter, more withdrawn tone. he does raise his voice when worked up but it takes a lot to get to that point. his voice claim is khoi dhao!

📖 OPEN BOOK - do they like reading? what’s their favourite genre? ▸he doesn't dislike reading but he prefers other, more active activities. his favourite genre(s) would probably be anything that correlated with his other interests: like xenofiction feat. horses or some adventure with fun sword fights.

🪤 MOUSE TRAP - what will always lure them into certain danger? a loved one in danger? a promise of something they are always searching for? ▸the possibility of answer(s); about himself or even his predecessor. anything that can potentially help him better understand what's going on in the present.

🎭 MASKS - do they act differently around certain people? what’s different between the way they act around friends, family, strangers, etc.? ▸when he was a kid, he was incredibly friendly to everyone around him. nowadays he's very wary of strangers and seems to actively avoid the order. he's super affectionate with family and friends and only really opens up to those he feels safe around.

✂️ SCISSORS - what is the “last straw” for them to cut someone out of their life? how easily do they let go of people? ▸he doesn't know what its like to actively cut someone from his life because he's always been on the receiving end, the one who was left behind.

💡 LIGHTBULB - is your oc a planner? do they write down every small detail or just wing it? ▸everything hone does is completely by the seat of his pants. this guy has no clue what he's doing at any given moment.

💎 DIAMOND - how rich are they? can they live the lifestyle they want to? ▸growing up, his family was fairly wealthy because of cairn's position as the former order head. his parents didn't spoil him but he was allowed to have a few luxuries- like toys or treats, especially after his 'attacks'. they wanted him to have a comfortable childhood. he lost access to his inheritance when he disappeared and now has pretty much nothing other than the few things gifted to him by his remaining family (his horse and swords). he hasn't gotten the chance to discover what his lifestyle as an adult is like.

🎁 PRESENT - what types of presents would they be most happy to receive? are they good at gift giving? ▸food! a meal is all he could ask for. some quality time with his loved ones as well. other than flowers for sylvan, he's not good with tangible gifts.

🍼 BABY BOTTLE - what are their thoughts on children? ▸has never considered having kids and probably won't. he doesn't mind them though; he gets along really well with his young cousins and mugwort.

🔪 KNIFE - how do they react to injury / misfortune befalling their loved ones (significant other, family, friends)? do they put themselves at blame? ▸if it's something minor, he'll drop whatever he's doing to rush over to help. if the injury is significant enough, it'll put him in a state of temporary despair before he gets angry and protective. depending on if he could have prevented it, he would blame himself.

👑 CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? why? ▸*see answer for moon

✏️ PENCIL - is there a particular quote / lyric that you associate with them? ▸i could hear the signs calling out from the bottom of the fire

🎵 MUSIC NOTE - what is their playlist like? do you associate a particular song with them? ▸ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/15IekAEKcogAHJ1XL7Wkee?si=11623cbee98445a3

🎤 MICROPHONE - are they good at singing? what is their go-to karaoke song? ▸ he has a good singing voice but his talents go unused aside from sometimes humming a specific song he claims he's heard in his dreams.

🎷 SAXOPHONE - do they play any instruments? are they any good at it? ▸ nope.

📚 BOOKS - how were they at school? what is their best subject? what is their worst subject? do they have a favourite subject? ▸schools aren't really a thing in the sun's reach. education is placed upon parents or people with specialties they hire to teach their children. therefore, subjects vary wildly and often times kids can chose what to learn. hone was an avid learner, but he had to actively do the thing he was taught or else it wouldn't stick. his favourite was anything outside or required he be active and his least favourite would probably be more 'academically' leaning lessons, such as math or writing.

👖 JEANS - what is their go-to outfit? ▸aside from not being able to properly wear a shirt, his go to outfit is a pair of riding pants and boots. aside from pink, he likes monochromatic or neutral dark colors. ideally he'd like to wear something a little... more but because of the fire, he overheats so he's making do with the vest. somehow he always manages to find a replacement for the pants he grows out of.

🎨 PALETTE - can they draw? what do they like to draw? ▸not well.

⏳ HOURGLASS - are they usually late or on-time? ▸early!

🔫 PISTOL - do they trust people easily? ▸no. he's always been rather cautious of strangers but now more so than ever. that said, once you have his trust, you have it for life.

📎 PAPERCLIP - a random fact. ▸hone learned he was ambidextrous through his sword lessons and spars with sylvan. growing up he used to solely write with his left hand since he would mimic his dad; now he'll use either but his handwriting is significantly better with his left.

❇️ SPARKLE - what is their most prized possession? what do they value? ▸it's between his father's old badge and the swords that he left for him. both act as a symbol of protection for him and the latter are even named in his parent's honour.

📏 RULER - is your oc well educated? where did they get their learning from? ▸*see answer for books; he's as well educated as his parents could provide for him. -=-=-=-=-=-=-

weather 🌩️ LIGHTNING - are they scared of lightning? ▸nope.

🌪️ TORNADO - what is the biggest change you’ve ever made to them? how have they changed from their original version? ▸making him the phoenix reborn! i brought it up in a few other points but he was literally just some guy before. this gave him better purpose in the narrative and higher stakes. fun fact: additionally, the reveal of this was supposed to be end of the story information, the climax, like a big twist reveal but then i didn't have a story leading up to that point so it was changed to much closer to the beginning.

🌈 RAINBOW - what advice would they give to their younger self? ▸"life may be difficult sometimes; it may seem like the world is out to get you and beat you down... but there's always a light on the other side and people who care for you. pick yourself up, carry on and live that life to the fullest, surrounded by the people you love. be yourself and not what the world expects you to be."

🔥 FIRE - do they have any self destructive tendencies? what habits do they have that hinder them from becoming their best self? ▸ [answered] ▸he often feels he's responsible for more than he truly is based on expectations placed upon him. he also pushes himself too hard physically without allowing for supple amounts of rest. with a little nudge from the people who care about him, he has to remind himself to be more gentle and that he doesn't have to carry the world on his shoulders... but he often just falls back in to the same spirals. ☁️ CLOUD - a soft headcanon ▸he purrs in his sleep

🌟 GLOWING STAR - what do they think about when they look at the night sky? is there someone they want to star gaze with? ▸spoilers for the first half! sorry. he likes stargazing with mugwort.

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make? ▸he'd wish for his chronic pain to go away for good!!

☄️ COMET - what do people assume about them? are they right? ▸depends on what people do or don't know about him via rumours and the like. for the most part people just find him strange. some assume he's really skilled with a sword and while this is true, he's not likely to draw them unless he has no other choice. -=-=-=-=-=-=-

hearts 💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing? ▸sylvan <3

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight? ▸he's only have had sights for one person and only after they were long-term friends first did it grow into something more. he wouldn't know what to look for in another relationship since he's not looking. no, does not believe in love at first sight.

💗 GROWING HEART - if they have a crush, is it noticable? what changes when they’re in love? ▸hard to tell because he's affectionate toward everyone close to him.

❤️ RED HEART - their love language(s)? ▸quality time, words of affirmation, physical touch

💚 GREEN HEART - what things make your oc feel comforted? hugs, kisses, food? ▸hugs, someone playing with/combing through his hair, any of his favourite foods.

💖 SPARKLING HEART - are they a subtle or a showy lover? ▸subtle :>

💔 BROKEN HEART - what could their partner do that would absolutely break their heart? ▸give up on themself

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September Zodiac Readings

This reading is for entertianment purposes only. Please take everything with a grain of salt. Enjoy!

Hey everyone, so in the past, I had anons ask for private readings, and I don't do private readings. Most of my readings I give are to family and friends. I've decided to give a reading to all the zodiacs, of course it doesn't apply to everyone. It could resonate with some people. I tried to have this out earlier, but I got busy, but hey better late than never right? Also I'm just picking random songs from my Spotify for you all.

Song: Advice by Devin Luna

LIBRA ( Sept 23 - Oct 22): Spiritual Advice: Sun + 3oC = Celebrate joys and success that is coming your way. The path you chose leads you to rewarding outcomes. Believing in yourself and your growth. It's almost your birthday, so celebrate with friends and family. Some of you might want to give yourself a small little birthday and relax at home. Enjoy social gatherings and make connections. This could be beneficial for you.

OC: Pets, Narcissist, Love Spell, Caution

Some of you might already have a pet (like a dog or bird) or you're thinking about getting one. If you're in a relationship, you're in puppy love. Very infatuated with someone. Narcissist now this could be you or someone around you, but they/ you is getting a bit big headed. You need to come down a bit.

Love Spell and Caution is a bit worrying. This means you're either not being your true self or you got into a relationship very early and things are moving too fast. Caution is asking you to learn more about this relationship and your partner.

Song: Mistral by DeLange

SCORPIO ( Oct 23 - Nov 21): Financial Advice: 2oS = Weigh the pros and cons. You're in a tight spot right now. Some of you are in a job you don't like and are wondering if you should stay. If you leave you're probably wondering about bills and if you can get a new job lined up. If you have your own business, don't rush anything. You need to think carefully. It's okay to reach out to others for advice. You don't have to take the advice, but at least you have someone who is trying to help.

Song: Home by Zimerman Orchestra

SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22 - Dec 21): External Forces: Death (R) + 2oS = You're resisting change and holding onto the past. With 2oS, you need to evaluate what/who stays in your life and who/what you're ready to let go of. If you're dating, you and your partner are arguing over things that happened in the past. When will it end? Let go of negative patterns.

If you're not over an ex, its time to try seeking help. You're falling into past memories of them. Don't let guilt and regret get to you. Just got a visual of a guy smoking this could be you or an ex. The person sort of reminded me of Matt Dillion from The Outsiders. Someone finds smoking as a way of handling stress.

With family, maybe you didn't have the greatest upbringing and if you're trying to talk to certain members in your family about it, just know they might not be cooperative. If someone isn't willing to help bring you peace, sometimes you have to do it on your own.

OC: Pregnancy, Liar, Honeymoon, Open Your Heart, Fire Sign, Divorce

Pregnancy someone around you is pregnant or you could be pregnant. I also see this as someone taking baby steps. Liar "Be careful of someone being sneaky". Maybe the person who is expecting isn't pregnant for you or someone is pretending just to keep you around. Very crucial but situations like this do happen. You could also be lying to yourself. Maybe you're acting like everything is fine when inside you're suffering.

Honeymoon "Honeymoon Phase. Attending Someone's Wedding". Open Your Heart. Time to be open, time to heal, time to let in positive energy. You've suffered long enough. Fire Sign (Aries, Leo, Sag) + Divorce. With these two, you, could be breaking away from all your problems. If you're dating someone who is a fire sign, you two are probably going to break up, take time apart, or actually get divorce. if it's not a person, things might change around fire sign months.

Song: 12345SEX - UPSAHL

CAPRICORN (Dec 22 - Jan 19): Current Situation: Fool + Star (R) = You're definitely jumping in without a care in the world. Not saying this in a mean way, but you're very adventurous and taking a risk. This is sort of a mix reading. With the Star (R) it means you probably had some setbacks or very soon you're about too. Its like this: one minute all things in life is amazing and them boom a breakup or loss happens or you've lost a job and then suddenly you get a call for a new one that pays better than the previous job and has better benefits.

Song: Bump It - Erykah Badu

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 - Feb 18): Reconciliation: Page of Swords (R) = Imma suggest you don't do it. If you go back there will be tension. You two might always point the blame at each other and someone seems they always want to "win" the argument.

OC: FWB - Either you and this person you were with weren't even serious. If you go back to an ex, its only for physical reasons.

Song: Holding On - Gregory Porter, Kem

PISCES (Feb 19 - March 20): Love Advice: 2oP = Your partner needs you right now. If you two haven't been spending as much time together or you haven't been paying attention to your partner struggles, it doesn't hurt to try seeing how they are. Some of you may have a partner who doesn't want to communicate their issues, but you can support them from afar. Just heard "take the load off their shoulders". Give them a massage, help with chores, do the grocery shopping.

For those who are single. Just have patience. You may think you're ready for a relationship, not yet. Some are you may have just gotten out of a relationship or you are manifesting what you want your next partner to be.

OC: Patience "Just a few more months. Good things come to those who wait".

Song: Good Riddance - Green Day

ARIES (Mar 21 - Apr 19): Message: 2oP = You've got a good head on your shoulders. You know how to deal with circumstances. You stay grounded. If you're dating it seems you know how to set boundaries with your partner. You're not afraid to tell them your wants or expectations in the relationship. You're not leading them on. You don't have time for playing games.

If you just got out of a break up, find yourself. Take the lessons learned from the relationship and move on.

OC: Interested for those who are dating, you're looking to see how your partnership works. Jealousy is stating that you may be dealing with some insecurities.

Song: Talking in Your Sleep - The Romantics

TAURUS (Apr 20 - May 20): Career Advice: QoC + Devil (R) + Magician (R) = QoC is all about emotions. You should work on emotional connection like understanding how people feel. Watch what you say because sometimes your words might sting. I know your probably not being mean, that's just who you are as a person, but not many people are use to how you joke or communicate.

M (R) you have self doubt. You probably missed some opportunities. Imposter syndrome. "Rediscover your confidence". Devil (R) I want to say its sort of similar to M (R) but you may feel like this job isn't worth it or you can't see this being a long term role. Find a mentor or someone who has been there longer than you. They may have some advice for you that can be helpful.

Song: No Me Queda Mas - Selena

GEMINI (May 21 - Jun 20): How Someone Sees You: 3oC + HM +9oW = You're fun, lively, vivacious. You're probably loud and wild after a few drinks. You're not the life of the party, but you do catch certain peoples attention.

You leave quite the impression with current partners / exes. What's intriguing is that with the HM, they want to be in your life but they also feel like things aren't going as planned. You date the opposite of you. You're the wild girl/guy who will do a hand stand at a party whereas your partner is just nursing a drink or at home ready to take care of you after a wild night. 9oW Loyalty is a big thing for you. Just like Aries, there's a side of you that doesn't play. I love this side of Gemini. You put in the time to make friendships and relationships work. You don't play.

OC: Cycles "Fate. Karma. Something ending, something beginning". New job, relocating, new relationship, coming together with a family, or adapting to a new lifestyle. Distance "You and your partner may be physically or emotionally distant."....Work related? Gambling +Intuition, you need to pay attention to the problem you have whether its addiction, gambling, or bad finances.

Song: Take Your Sweet Time - Jesse McCartney

CANCER (Jun 21 - July22): Financial Income: QoS + Knight of Cups + 6oC + WOF (R) + 5oP = You're very responsible. You have a payment plan made. You don't mind helping others put together a breakdown of payments. What can stay and can be let go. KoC I was going to say you're responsible due to past financial issues, so this is confirmation. Yeah you were stuck and you or someone helped you get out of it and now you know how to help yourself out of certain issues. You're always looking for ways to make sure that doesn't happen again.

6oC "gift or donation" "sharing resources". You might be moving back home or your home state/country in order to save up on funds before venturing out or buy/renting a home or family (like sister, brother, or cousin) is moving in with you and they help with rent. WOF (R) Things will change. Have some cash put into your saving account. Just a small emergency fund. Something is gonna happen and make you nervous. Its probably not even your fault, but you might feel like it is.

5oP "tight finances" "debt" You might be tight after paying off bills or a student loan. You might even give someone a loan and they refuse to give you back the money. You might be nervous to ask someone for help. Yeah, put together an emergency fund. Have some money off to the side saved up just incase.

Song: Pretty Peggy - Wolfmother

LEO (July 23- Aug 22): Relationship: 7oW + Lover (R) + 10oW (R) = You're very into the person. You're fighting for this relationship. There are going to be people who disagree with this relationship, but you don't care. You're going to try to make this person your "forever" person. Even if you bump heads, you still want this person. Lovers (R) Well now I know why I got the obsessed oracle card. This relationship is one sided. You're both fighting but someone is "obsessed" and sees you / them as someone as a important figure in their life. Someone (whether it be you or the person) is afraid of getting hurt.

All I can think about is you know how girls are like "I can change him" in this circumstance you can't.

10oW (R) You bond over past baggage. You think this person can help you with your burden and vice versa. There's something hot and intense about this relationship. I think its time to let this person go.

OC: Obsessed "It's not my fault you can't get me off your mind"

Song: Broken Clocks - SZA

VIRGO (Aug 23 - Sept22): Hopes and Fears: 10oC + King of Pent + 9oC = Hopes: You want happiness, emotionally fulfillment. You know all positive vibes. KoP Stability. 9oC you will be rewarded in the end. This doesn't have to mean wealth, it could be that you got tickets to a concert or you passed a class.

Fears: Things not going your way. Lets say you and your friend had a fight, and unfortunately it was so bad you lost a friendship that you felt should have lasted a long time. "Money isn't everything" like it pays bills, you can treat yourself, but at the same time don't lose the value of wealth. The things we want the most, might not make us happy.

OC: Vacation + Gambling = You're about to travel soon, be wary of addictions being an issue. Bad finances.

[the-ace-with-spades]

Omg I am so freaking excited for the next chapter of slow down (you’re doing fine). Like frothing at the mouth, jumping up and down and squealing loud enough to scare my roommates type of excitement. I love, love, love that fanfic and it makes so unbelievably happy to just read the sample, especially from Bradley’s perspective. It’s so much fun to learn a little more about Hangman, Rooster, Ice and Maverick every chapter. I am dying for the reveal at some point that Maverick is in fact The Godfather and that the COMPACFLT is Maverick’s husband. Hangman and the other Daggers won’t know what hit them, they are so clueless.

Also I just recently discovered you other fic ( sometime I feel like) a monkey pilot and I am once again in love with your characterization of Bradley and how supportive Ice and Maverick are. It’s such a beautiful story with so much emotion and I don’t know how I managed to miss seeing it for so long. I feel so bad for Jake as well because it must feel like he’s some how switched realities with all the changes that are hitting him right now, but I also kind of want to punch him for being such a dick.

Finally, I just have one quick question. I noticed that you head-cannon that Maverick is older than Ice and was wondering why that was? I am not against it or anything I am just curious to see how other people determine ages for characters when they are not officially stated in the original movie or book. For movies and tv shows, I just usually base it on the actor’s age unless this is like wildly off for some reason.

Oh my god I'm so sorry it's taking so long, adhd and life hits you at the worst moment I'm afraid...

this is going to be a technical spoiler but I'll just say that there's part two of the series that will be called I took the good times (I'll take the bad times) that will show the sixteen weeks after slow down and Bradley and Jake navigating how to actually be together -- this is where the funny family meeting stuff and first breakdowns would happen.

there will be a small 5+1 fic about Mav and Ice that's, well, that's the summary: five times Ice waited for Mav and one time Mav was ready for him. will be called we have all the time in the world (all the love). Because, a bit of a spoiler even if it was alluded in slow down, Ice and Mav haven't actually gotten together until Bradley was, like, eleven in this 'verse

also i'll say I'm glad you're enjoying monkey pilot! that fic is my ugly child and honestly, I have not expected such warm reception for it... I think I'm incapable of not writing Mav as a parental figure and since I'm also incapable of killing off Ice, he's going to be babytrapped in most of my fics 🤷‍♂️

as for Mav and Ice's age, I either headcanon them as of the same age (born same year) with Mav having his birthday in September and Ice in November/December, or that Mav is actually a year older. I think this is a cultural thing since in Poland some people believe the month you're born would define your personality. It's especially more common in the region I'm from and present mostly in the more superstitious older generation - I was mostly raised by my grandma and still kinda believe that people born in Sep are more temperamental, impulsive, wild but also fiercely loyal and people born Nov/Dec are more cool-headed, calculating and goal-orientated. It doesn't make much sense I'm afraid, it's just me finding the months suitable to their personalities?? As for the 'Mav is older', I assumed that could be a possibility as it's implied that he went to the OCS after college (either in the top gun novel or the movie??) since he wasn't able to get into USNA and I thought that could set him back a year -- and since he seems to have the same amount of experience as the rest of the NAs and RIOs, I thought he might actually be older.

Thank you for your kind, kind words, you don't even know how nice it feels to read your asks or comments. Hope you're doing well 💙

[medu-nefer]

Can I know what pattern you used to made the little runaan and ethari

sure thing! (patterns under the cut)

disclaimer: I don't have patterns for Runaan's clothes, just pointers, because I was winging it at that point x_x

EDIT: if anyone wants to try to make these and struggles at some point (or needs those additional patterns), feel free to just reach out to me and I'll do what I can to help. Don't worry, you won't be overstepping at all and I'll more than gladly help a fellow TDP fan!

okay, so for the BODIES I used a pattern from a book called "Crochet Cute Dolls With Mix-and-Match Outfits" by Miya:

it's a purchasable book so I'd rather not share it publicly 👀

I'm sharing my own patterns below:

EARS

Sc 4 in a magic ring (4). Slst into the first st and ch 1.

Sc in each st (4). Slst and ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc (6). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (6). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 2, inc 2, sc 2 (8). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (8). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 3, inc 2, sc 3 (10). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (10). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 3, dec 2, sc 3 (8). Slst and ch 1.

Fold the ear in half and sc 4 the two sides together (4). Fasten off, leaving a long tail for sewing.

HORNS

Using 2,5 mm hook size: sc 4 in a magic ring (4). Slst & ch 1.

Sc in each st (4). Slst & ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc (6). Slst & ch 1.

Sc in each st (6). Slst & ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc, dec (7). Slst & ch 1.

Switching to 3,0 mm hook size: sc, inc 2, sc, dec, sc (8). Slst & ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc, dec 2 (8). Slst & ch 1.

Sc in each st (8). Slst & ch 1.

Dec, sc, inc 2, sc, dec (8). Slst & ch 1.

Dec, inc 3, sc, dec (9). Slst & ch 1.

Sc 2, (in hdc: inc, sc, inc, sc, inc), dec (11). Slst & ch 1.

Switching 3,5 mm hook size: sc 2, (dec, sc) x3 (8). Slst & ch 1.

Slst 3, sc 5 (8). Fasten off, leaving a long tail for sewing the horn onto the head.

I also used a little bit of wire to help accentuate the curvature of the horns. I did play with increases and decreases in the pattern so they do curve on their own but I thought the wire might be a nice failsafe.

Here are patterns for all of ETHARI'S CLOTHES:

It was my first time making patterns and I was in a bit of a rush to finish him before his birthday so they're not perfect, but if you ever need help with them, just hmu, we'll figure it out.

I first made his boots and then his pants in order to make sure I didn't mess up the length. Then the crop top and finally the belt to fill the space in between. Now I'm thinking that perhaps removing one row of single crochets from the crop top and adding it to the belt might give him a look more accurate to his original design but I think the way I did it he also turned out okay so it's just an option.

There are clasps at the back of his crop top and belt, and on Runaan's vest. The flap is sewn onto the belt but if you want it to be removable, just add more rows in purple and stuff it in between the belt and the doll while closing the clasp.

Unfortunately, for RUNAAN'S CLOTHES, the notes were a mess and I don't really have anything. They're similar to Ethari's with slight changes:

his pants don't have the increases, they're just sc for ~7 or 8 rows, then joining and continuing just like with Ethari's (also hmu if you need a diagram showing how to join the pant legs);

his boots are the same as Ethari's up to row 12, in row 13 I did bigger stitches in the middle - go from sc to hdc, then dc, back to hdc and continue with sc (if you want that part to be higher, go sc, hdc, dc, tc, dc, hdc, sc); then for row 14 change colour to brown and slst around;

his vest is a foundation chain of the desired length (I think I did about 36 but it ended up being a bit too loose - it all depends on your own doll's size), then 4 rows of dc - but in the 3rd row I did 2 dc-2-tog (about 8-9 sts from both edges, right below the arms holes, 1 per arm hole), then in row 5 I did ~8 dc, then ch 4/5, skip 3/4 (arm hole), dc 8, ch 4/5, skip 4/5 and dc in each st until the end of the row. Join yarn at the edge of the arm hole and ch ~8 and slst into the other corner for the double strap. (I have a similar diagram to show more or less what's going on)

PENDANTS

In purple, sc 6 in a magic ring, but while doing the 6th, do an invisible colour change to gray (6).

Slst around (6). Slst into the first st and fasten off, weave in the ends.

Then, join yellow yarn in that last slst and ch 12 (add or remove chains to get the desired length) and fasten off but leave a long tail end to tie it at the back. Repeat the same process in the same slst. Then, you can tie the ends at the back, make knots and trim.

HORN CUFFS

Ch 14. Slst into the first ch, ch 1.

Sc 14 (14). Slst into the first st and ch 1. Flip so you work normally.

Sc 3, dec, sc 4, dec, sc 3 (12). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (12). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 4, hdc, dc 2, hdc, sc 4 (12). Slst and ch 1.

Slst around (12). Fasten off and weave in the ends. For Ethari's cuffs, make a few vertical sts in turquoise somewhere in the middle at the front for the gems (wrap the yarn vertically a few times around a stitch).

HORN TIPS (ETHARI)

Sc 5 in a magic ring (5). Slst into the first st and ch 1.

Sc in each st (5). Slst and ch 1.

Inc, sc 2, inc, sc (7). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (7). Slst. Fasten off and weave in the ends. You might have to stretch it out with something like a pen tip to make sure they fit.

[yosukezine]

FAQ

What is this zine?

This is a safe for work, for charity zine focused on Yosuke Hanamura from Persona 4. Our goal is to release on June 22, 2024, on Yosuke’s birthday!

Who is moderating the zine?

Kino: “Hey I’m Kino, I’ll be the mod leading the zine. This will be my first time as a mod, but I have experience printing books and selling art at conventions.“ Kino will be handling social media posting, graphics, formatting, finance and shipping. You can reach Kino at @moeggoi on Tumblr and Twitter.

Cat: "You may have seen me previously as head mod of the new york times best seller Seasons of Souyo: A Souyo Zine. I also use my day job to spread the Yosuke agenda (works in book publishing)." Cat will be handling admin, schedule, and digital purchases. You can find cat at @catnatch on Tumblr and Twitter.

Ribbons: "This is my first time helping out with a zine. I’m excited to see what everyone makes!!" Ribbons will be handling community moderation. You can find ribbons at @aibyoutachi on Tumblr and @_catgirls on Twitter.

Will there be ships in this zine?

As a sfw zine, implied shipping is ok, but the focus should be on Yosuke. The exception would be shipping characters outside of the Persona universe—sorry no Cars AU haha.

How will the zine be available?

Right now to keep logistics easier, the plan is to only have digital options for non participants. If there are extra physicals after all contributors have received a copy, then there will be either open sales or raffle sales to folks who have bought a digital version. This decision will largely be based on the interest check and how many copies are left.

How many contributors are in the zine?

Our goal is to have 4 writers, and 16 artists. 

Both writers and artists will be given up to 2 pages.

For writers: this means 1000 words ideal, 1500 max (short/drabble)

For artists: can choose between a single page (8.5” x 5.5”) or a spread (8.5" x 11")

What’s the zine going to look like?

The digital will be a preview version of what we anticipate the risograph printing to look like. The physical will be a 8.5" x 5.5" 2-color risograph printed zine, with an estimate of 32 pages (including the cover). For printing nerds, more information:

We’re printing locally!

Domstar Cougar cream, 65lb cover, 70lb text

Saddle stitch stapling

2-colors Sunflower and Florescent Pink

How will contributors be compensated?

Each contributor will receive a copy of the zine. If we sell remaining stock, profits will first go to paying zine production costs and contributor shipping. Any excess will go to the charity of choice.

In the event that we have sales, we will have a public link to a finance sheet.

What charity will be donated to? And how do I purchase a digital copy?

For digital purchases, we will set up instructions where you pay to your charity of choice directly. We want to highly encourage folks to donate to their own community based on a theme (for example LGBTQ+). Folks will then send a receipt (with any identifying and sensitive information redacted) to our email. The donation must be made during the window of time we specify for digital “sales”. 

There will also be a suggested alternative charity that will be decided with all the contributors at a later date. 

Why such a complicated system?

One reason is taxes (a lot of money is lost through sales tax). The other reason is that you can ensure that 100% of your money is going straight to your community, as oppose to larger charities that often times are U.S.A. or Western focused. 

How will you pay for the physical zine for contributors without sales?

Straight out of my pocket, which is why for the next question…

How can I be a contributor?

This zine will be limited to friends, friends of friends, and to Yosuke lovers™ invited to the zine. In the future, after more experience, I’d love to handle a project that has open applications. 

What’s the schedule?

June to July: Interest check

Aug to Nov: Creation 

Dec: Formatting

Jan to March: Printing

April: Shipping for contributors

May: Digital preorders

June 22, 2024: Digital release

Any questions not answered here? Feel free to contact us at [yosukezine@gmail.com]. 

[asahicore]

get to know me game !!!

omg i love things like these cz any opportunity to talk about myself is a good opportunity !! thx for the tag @ozymandia-s i was reading thru ur answers like it was the morning paper, i'll tag @bbujiikseu and @ethereal-engene if u guys wanna do it <33

birthday: dec 13

favourite colour: purple-ish like lavender 

do you have pets? yaaaaah i have a white cat who's evil but also really cute and a dog named elbow

how tall are you? 160-2 cm i'm not sure

how many pairs of shoes do you own? a bunch but i mostly wear my platform docs, my beige platform converse, my black regular super old and beat-up converse or my knee-high brown boots that i got at a thrift shop for such a good price

favourite song: this is like the most impossible question everrrr but invu by taeyeon was my most listened to song in 2022 and i still levitate whenever i listen to it

favourite movie: twilighttt the girls who get it get it but i have lots of movies i love

who would be your ideal partner? my 2 most important things r someone who makes me laugh but also finds me funny and someone with good communication. i dont really care about stuff like sharing hobbies or styles or whatever but as long as we can have a good time doing whatever i'm in love (my ex...)

do you want children?  yessss not now for sure but in a few years like 2 or 3 i think

have you gotten in trouble with the law? i dont think so..?

what colour socks are you wearing? rn they're black

favourite type of music: kpop... 97 of my 101 most listened to songs were girl group kpop lmaooo but just pop in general

how many pillows do you sleep with? 2 !!!

what position do you sleep in? i try to sleep on my back but being on my tummy with one leg up is so much comfier

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: people who snore like i'm not a particularly light sleeper but it wakes me up immediately and keeps me from falling asleep

what do you have for breakfast: coffee most of the time but earl grey sometimes, i dont usually eat breakfast but if i'm feeling hungry i'll have a fruit or something. i'll also have a pastry at the uni café if i really cant wait until lunch to eat lmaoo

have you ever tried archery? i dont think i have but it looks cool

favourite fruit: lately i've been obsessed w physallis but that shit is expensiveee. otherwise i'd say mango and cherries

are you a good liar? nooo u can see it right away if i'm lying i get so tense and if i'm lying just to take the piss out of someone then i can only keep it for like 10 seconds cause 1 i start laughing and 2 i feel bad for making someone believe something untrue lmaoo

what’s your personality type? enfp i think?

innie or outie? (it really depends on my mood but i'm usually an outie i think, i just need a day in the week to really relax on my own) i’ve been informed this is about the belly button… well it’s innie then… why do u wanna know that about me tho

left handed or right handed? right handed. left handed ppl freak me out...

favourite food: it is so impossible to choose a fav meal but i'll say tiramisu cz its my fav dessert

favourite foreign food: sushi ig

am i clean or messy? i'd say clean

most used phrase:  i have no idea probably whatever stupid phrase i've coined as mine for the week

how long does it take for you to get ready: not too long cause in the morning i basically just make my bed, wash my face, brush my teeth, get dressed and do my makeup.. but if i decide to have coffee at home or to read before leaving then it can take a while

do you talk to yourself? all the damn time bro i was actually tripping over the fact that you can hear a voice in your head without actually speaking just the other day i think its so weird but im thankful for my inner monologue.. shes a queen

do you sing to yourself? if theres music i'll sing along but i dont usually just sing out loud randomly

are you a good singer?  no lmaooooo but i love singing badly and my friends and i go to karaoke every week which is super fun

biggest fear? this is weird but my legs being wobbly like not havign control over them, so like when you're on those inflatable games or when the ground is slippery.. hate that

are you a gossip? yes lmaooo but only when theres reason to be

do you like long or short hair? ive been growing out my hair and its slayinngggggg but on other ppl idc

favourite school subject: i think french (not as a second language but as a french person studying french at a french school lmao) and english lit

extrovert or introvert: extrovert, like im sociable but also if you're a strange man dont talk to me

what makes you nervous: university deadlines also the amount of books in the world i'll never be able to read </3

who was your first real crush? i think when in like 4th grade i had a crush on this guy named matt, but ive had plennnttyyyy of crushes since then

how many piercings? eight and they're all on my ears !

how many tattoos? 0 but im debating getting one

how fast can you run? not fast lmaoo

what colour is your hair? dark brown

what colour are your eyes? dark brown

what makes you angry: misogyny <3 i had to watch this video of a debate between pro-choicers and pro-lifers.. i was gonna explode listening to the pro-lifers' arguments they're so fucking stupid man

do you like your name? its very unoriginal lol but i dont mind it, also my middle name is my grandma's which is genevieve and i think it slays

do you want a boy or a girl as a child? one of both tbh

what are your strengths? hmmm i think i'm fairly reasonable? like when i have an outburst (and i have a lot of those) after some time i'm able to calm myself down and reason with myself so usually im able to stay somewhat level-headed lol i also don't wallow, i get back on my feet pretty quickly and my friends have told me i'm generous :)

what are your weaknesses? this might sound like the opposite of what i just said lmaoo but i overthink too damn much and i jsut cry all the time like everything pains me but then at the same time im able to get out of that mindset quickly.. so idk bruh

what is the colour of your bedspread? i have like 3 houses but the one i currently am at is my uni dorm and the bedspreads are either white and grey or green/blue/pink and they're both floral patterns

colour of your room: at my moms and here they're white but at my dads they're a light greyish brown

this was fun and took me forever lmaooo good way of procrastinating tbh

[neuevague]

get to know me game !!!

thanks for tagging me em (@peachenle) i appreciate it :DDD and im tagging emma (@asahicore) and sky (@bruh-changbin) !

super long bbut my answersa re under the cut <333

birthday: dec 17 

favourite colour: orange 

do you have pets? not anymore i had two goldfish though one called nemo and the other called speedy and speedy died which made me so upset that i cried for hours and wrote a poem about it.. so distraught my parents just returned the other fish to the pet shop

how tall are you? 169 cm 

how many pairs of shoes do you own? .. too many, i’m really trying to cut back on buying shoes but i love them :/// i think i rotate between about 6 pairs though .. and i rarely wear shoes without some kind of platform at least

favourite song: immortal by kid cudi !

favourite movie: get out 

who would be your ideal partner? .. i think if i had to use an idol to describe their personality they’d be a lot like jay.. i think we have a lot of similar traits and he’s someone with a lot of traits that i admire !!! 

do you want children?  i think i do but i don’t want think i want to give birth .. and i want 1 or 2 .. i really want to be an aunt though.. all the fun of motherhood with none of the stress 

have you gotten in trouble with the law? if going to parties that end up getting locked off counts then yes ? 

what colour socks are you wearing? i do not wear socks at home.. but i wore a white pair to uni today 

favourite type of music: im easy on genre so im not sure but .. maybe trap.. some form of rap or r&b for sure 

how many pillows do you sleep with? i sleep w 4 on the bed but i have 1 head so i use 1 pillow.. 

what position do you sleep in? on my side in like a relaxed(???) fetal position

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: i can fall asleep in like any conditions but im also a light sleeper.. oh i don’t like thunder when im sleeping !!! or at all 

what do you have for breakfast: these days i have a hot matcha and warm cereal 

have you ever tried archery? a handful of times when i was like 13 or so it was tons of fun and i was like super into the hunger games so i felt like katniss which made it like at least a million times more fun

favourite fruit: pineapple !

are you a good liar? yes in theory but im pretty forgetful so practically no not really

what’s your personality type? infp !

innie or outie? innie ..

left handed or right handed? ight but when i was younger i started using my left hand but my mum thought it looked weird and made me change 😭

favourite food: curry flavoured maggi noodles .. flames 

favourite foreign food: chicken katsu curry or pizza

am i clean or messy? my room is messy but im clean

most used phrase:  probably omds / oh my days .. i’ve started saying oh brother a lot recently 😭 and also “man..” like .. okay i just finished doing this and obviously my most used phrase word whatever is like are you kidding..  

how long does it take for you to get ready: this morning i got ready in like 25 minutes including showering, picking my outfit, putting it on, skincare, and makeup (in fairness, i was a mascara lip gloss babe today so .. yeah) .. it really just depends what i’m doing, where i’m going, who i’m going with..

do you talk to yourself? constantly .. but in like vlog style narration 😭😭😭 and with an american accent..? 

do you sing to yourself? yes a lot

are you a good singer?  i scored super high in my singing exam in high school so yeah but like im not like .. predebut era good more like if you heard me singing along to something you might tilt your head and be like hmm 

biggest fear? throwing up 

are you a gossip? yes.. 

do you like long or short hair? on me i prefer longer hair but im easy on other people i don’t really care.. unless you’re jake in which case don’t cut your hair pleaaaaaaaaase 

favourite school subject: english ! i really loved history as well so it’s such a close second 

extrovert or introvert: introvert

what makes you nervous: my own death.. and not on a me standpoint but like im worried about my family and stuff 

who was your first real crush? the older brother of my best friend .. it didn’t work out because i was like 13 and he was 20 and a decent human being 

how many piercings? zero 😭

how many tattoos? 5 

how fast can you run? not very ..

what colour is your hair? black

what colour are your eyes? brown

what makes you angry: people who spoil movies and shows and stuff when they just hit netflix two seconds ago like how do you know the plot twist of a 3 hour movie that’s been out for 6 minutes like what’s wrong with you.. i think people should wait like at least a week before tweeting spoilers and stuff come on

do you like your name? not really.. i have an awesome middle name though.. but im too anxious to use it as my actual name .. idk

do you want a boy or a girl as a child? a kid’s a kid 🤷

what are your strengths? my curiosity ! i’ve picked up a lot of useful (subjective) skills / knowledge just out of curiosity around the topic.. like i have a basic understanding of spanish (could travel to spain and talk to people and survive) because i found out violetta was dubbed over 😭😭😭 i know my way around photoshop even though my actual talent for design is questionable.. i only ever got into fashion bc i wanted to know what the rappers i liked were talking about, i started learning how to read hiragana in 2020 after watching like the first couple episodes of haikyuu (and then i got hyper fixated on acnh and didn’t do anything else for months), i learned how to read hangul after watching a kdrama 2 summers ago like if i want to know something i’ll find out 

what are your weaknesses? also my curiosity i think because like.. im curious to a fault.. i also have like no self confidence .. like i really do not believe in myself at all, procrastination

what is the colour of your bedspread? green !colour of your room: the walls are like a creamy beige off white-ish colour and then i have a bunch of like mismatched wood tones all over.. idk how to answer this

[yoori-ya]

30 before 30

I was waiting to writing something like this on my 30th, but there's only a week-and-a-half separating me from my birthday. It's not like once the clock strikes midnight on Dec 2, a third eye is going to open up on my forehead.  Will 30 be so different from 29? Rationally, I know probably not, but I can't help feeling as if I'm approaching a threshold. 

Maybe because 30 is a such a round number. A decade is neat bundle of ten years to tie up and pack away. 

D told me this summer, out of nowhere, "Man, you really did your twenties right." 

Did I? I feel like I spent the first half stumbling around in the dark, my internal-monologue really just a constant, existential scream as I scrambled for some sort of handhold. There was no official manual lowered down on a golden rope, but I was lucky enough to fall in with older friends who brought me under their wing. Honestly, most of the advice they gave me only recently started sticking. Back then, I still took some steep stumbles despite their best efforts, but I felt as if I at least had some direction--ideas to strive towards, heroes to put on pedestals.  As I’ve gotten closer, the plaster has cracked off, and I’ve come to see the people beneath, but that's more a of a testament to how far I’ve come.  

Back then most of my angst was rooted in wondering who it was. If you asked me who I am these days, I probably still wouldn't know how to answer, but the difference is that it doesn't cause me much grief. I'm comfortable with not being able to fit in a clearly labeled box. I'm okay that Sometimes-Shy-Sometimes-Outgoing-but-Usually-Hotheaded-Loudmouthed-Impulsive-Overthinking-Anime-Nerd-Who-Likes-to-Drink doesn't exactly describe me, and that no amount of words and hyphens may ever be enough to. I'm okay with it, just like I'm okay with knowing that when I look up at the night sky, I'll never be able to name every star laid out above me. It's nice enough that it's all there.  I'm okay with it because I know no matter how other people perceive me, label me, view me, I not only know what's important, I have it in me to protect it.  

Experience can be a brutal teacher, but it's thorough, and I've learned again and again the bitterness of quietly ceding bits of myself so that I can be written into someone else's story. People, I have learned, can be selfish. People, I have learned, will want me to behave to fit whatever script they have written for me. People, I have learned, can get upset when I refuse to play the role. I have also learned, however, that I can survive the heat of their anger.  When I was younger, my father taught me to anger someone was the end of the world. B was a little shitstain on humanity's underpants, but he did help me to unlearn that terrible lesson, taught me how to find my voice, how to stand up for myself and my own story. 

The existential scream is ongoing, but these days it's less about who I am and more about what I want out of life. Where is it that I want to turn my rudder towards?  Where is my story? I feel like I’ve kept my sights fixed on one point because I was told to, and only now am I starting to understand how broad the horizon really is. 

A gets pissed every time I bring up the fact that we’re practically thirty. "I feel like we haven’t accomplished anything," she says whenever I asked her why she's pissed. I stay quiet and just slowly nod my head because I can’t agree. I’m not sitting in that corner office J and I always joked about, I still haven’t written that book, but I remember how all I wanted ten years ago was for the world to slow and be little kinder. The world has done neither, but the fact that I can walk a little more sure-footed down life's often bumpy terrain still feels big.

People always talk about how they’d do their twenties differently if given a chance. That’s impossible, but I think standing at the base of my thirties outfitted with all the tools I’ve picked up in the last decade is the next best thing. So maybe D was right, maybe I really did do my twenties right. 

Somehow, between the beginnings of this entry and its end, a bottle of wine has been imbibed. Thanks for always chronicling me, little blog.

[thedaveandkimmershow]

A 'lil update for the last few days:

Monday night, the 13th, I spent making Kimmer's birthday card, wrapping her gifts, and preparing the flowers. I was mostly in my home edit suite that doubles as an art space at times.

Aside from the birthday prep, though, Monday night was the first time I rolled out Christmas music this year, a classic, the soundtrack for Merry Christmas, Charlie Brown.

I also threw in some tunes from Kenny Logins' Christmas album, December. I don't remember for sure but I think our friend, Scott, tuned us into that holiday tradition.

In the meantime, Kimmer's birthday was a lovely affair... if for no other reason than the sun was out in all its glory all day long, bathing our entire day in the look of summer if definitely not the heat.

We lazed away the morning after presents and cards and flowers until it was time to pick up Linzy from work in Seattle.

So Linzy gets in the car and asks

"Would you like your present now?" and Kimmer says "Yes!" then Linzy pairs her phone with our car's sound system and plays a Dream Patrol cover of the Fleetwood Mac tune "Songbird" that was written by Christine McVie. Linzy performs the song with The Little Lies, the Fleetwood Mac tribute band that has upcoming gigs in Portland (Dec. 6) and at Climate Pledge Arena for an upcoming Kraken game (Dec. 10). (I mention the dates 'cause we're going to both in the coming holiday weeks)

Songbird is one of Kimmer's favorite songs. A serious favorite. And she absolutely loves listening to Linzy perform it on stage. This version, though, is an arrangement from Linzy's brand, Dream Patrol. It's an all kinds of special arrangement, a multilayered modern take that blows us away.

Helluva present from the Daughter, I've gotta say. ❤️❤️❤️

Our plan was to then head up to Gerardi's Osteria for a fancy lunch. The last time we were at that restaurant, by the way, was the last day Linzy 'n Rachel lived with us.

And the next day?

Yup. Glorious empty-nesting forever more. 😁

Anyway. Our plan was Edmonds for lunch except none of us had really had anything to eat so we thought, sure, we'll get a snack first and, since we were close, Kimmer thought Cactus except Linzy was thinking we all go there all the time so then Kimmer whips out Pub70 on the waterfront so, long story short...

That's where we get a snack.

Only, you know, they don't have snacks at Pub70, they have appetizers. And most of those appetizers cost roughly the same as most of their actual lunch items. So Pub70's where we have Kimmer's birthday lunch which was still lovely because the sun was lighting up that section of the restaurant (near the bar) and we basically spent our time together as a family in sunlight. ☺️

Aside from her birthday presents, Kimmer also had it mind to treat herself to a blue sweater.

A blue sweater?

Yup. So we make our way across town to the flagship GoodWill on Dearborn where the girls shop about and I snap close up photos of the various Christmas displays atop the racks... along with one shot right into a Christmas ornament hanging from the tree next to the front doors. It didn't turn out the way I meant it to...

But there you go and there you are.😐

And then we're on our way back up to the house where Linzy & Kimmer spend the next coupla hours painting canvases that Kimmer will use to mount a pair of black & white photographs that are dear to her. While they're doing that, I've got our big screen playing back The Wedding Singer on one end of the dining room which we all enjoy while sitting around the dining room table.

By 'n by, I fry up the appetizers we picked up the other day at Trader Joe's... and we all partake before driving Linzy home for the evening and lounging through the last few hours of the day with Kimmer.

Kimmer loves this kind of day, by the way. Oh sure we used to do these birthdays in epic ways... but this way of celebrating stands in contrast to the wall-to-wall life we lead these days.

A little peace and family is always good for the soul. ☺️

Moving on from holiday music news and birthday news, I took my first Christmas photographs last Thursday at Value Village...

...followed by the ones on Kimmer's birthday...

...followed by ones I took tonight along with a bunch of other ones, leftovers from Halloween and perennials from the toy section, to avoid going full Christmas all the time just yet.

I only mention this because my Rule for the month was to not take any Christmas photos like, at all, until we get passed Thanksgiving.

But again. There you go and there you are.

I blew that one.

In the meantime, our holiday plans for next week are starting to take shape. We've got reservations at the Edgewater Inn in Seattle for breakfast on Linzy's birthday which happens this year the day before Thanksgiving. Next year, her birthday will fall right on Thanksgiving and you can be she resents the hell outta that.

Then on Thanksgiving itself, we're celebrating in the evening with dear family friends who're coming over to celebrate with us and Linzy and their two little ones.

Still working out the details. But the brush strokes we've got. ☺️

Question is...

Will we have a Christmas tree up before or after Thanksgiving?

🤨🤔🌲

[actualtext]

Dec 11, 2022

Refelction 3

1. What is going on inside your head right now?

The closer February gets, the more excited I am to start a new chapter in life. I think what I'm most excited about aside from the change is the fact that I'm going to have to do things in order to succeed at this task of moving. For instance, I'll -at some point- need to set up an appointment for the DMV to register my car to Indiana. I get really excited about potentially completing tasks (if I can remember to do them).

2. What negative emotion keeps cropping up the most lately?

I've been worried I'm not working hard enough and that I wont be able to make my deadline. I will say that the only reason I don't work so hard is simply becasue I take time off to socialize as a form of self care. I still feel guilty sometimes about that. I feel like I don't deserve to take a break if I haven't reached my goal. I'm going to be honest, I don't think I'll be reaching my goal this week. I only have $100 to go, but I went to a birthday party out of town which took all of my day and today I got my car worked on, decided to journal, and have a girls night planned with some ex co workers. I know me spending time with friends is healthy, and I will admit, I do feel a whole lot better than I did a couple days ago. I just someitmes forget how healthy it is to not always work all the time. haha

3. What has made you the happiest lately?

It's gonna sound weird but the other day I was sitting with Vlad at a coffee shop in Austin, Christmas music was playing it was a vibe. We had ordered a vegan chocolate chip cookie, it was the last one in the display case. That first bit was complete bliss. They warmed it up for us, and we paired with with vegan lattes and let me tell you. It was like I bit into a little piece of heaven. I felt a shock go through my body from the sweetness that first bite held. It was like when you think of eating a pickle and yoru mouth starts to salivate. Simply amazing. That feeling, that setting, the complany, the taste. All together it made me so happy. I felt joy for the first time in a hot minute.

4. The last time you felt this way, what did you do?

The last time I felt like I wasnt working hard enough, I became a workaholic and ignored any social opportunities. It was very isolating and I've learned from that experience to not do that again. lol This time I've made the effort to hang with friends at least once a week.

5. What holds you back the most from moving on from negative emotions?

Just constantly forgetting what path I've chosen to take. Like one day I could choose to work out three times a week, but after a few days of being of track I might fall off cause its not part of my everyday life. With that being said, if it's not something I need to think about regularly, I'll probably forget it. So, working out in this example, I would only think of when when I finally remembered. It would actually be easier if I just told myself "I'm going to choose healthier options for each meal instead of what I would normally eat" since I eat on average, three times a day.

6. Which emotions are you trying to avoid right now? why?

I'm trying to avoid feeling unmotivated. I feel like I'm not doing enough while also feeling like I'm doing the most that I can. I'm just constantly trying to find a balance, while also trying not to stop moving forward. I'm trying not to think about how I can be better and trying to be satisfied with what I'm able to do. Right now theres a giant (HUGE) pile of clothes on my floor and bed that needs to be washed. I literally just ignore it because right now I'm focusing on other things. Getting my car worked on, working, trying to socialize, etc. I know I should do it, and I want to do it, but if I think about doing it right now while I have so many other things going, I'm going to feel overwhelmed. I'll do it tomorrow when work is slow, and I don't have anythiing planned. And at that, I'll only do as much as I can before I start getting frustrated with how much laundry I have to do. lmao As you can probably tell, I'm trying to control how much stress I'm exposed to. I'm honestly really good at doing this. It's like eternal compartmentalization. XD I have a feeling I'm going to get back on to-do list kick.

SIDE NOTE-sometimes I go into phases of super interest, and then just as quckly hop out of those phases. to do lists were on. I used to make to do lists for everything, and then I stopped. I used to make spreadsheets and then I stopped. Same with everything else. Sometimes I'll be really interested in something for a while and then just like nothing, that.... fixation(?) will just go away and I'm either on to the next thing or dont have anything I'm fixated on. It feels like little bursts of obsession. Its kinda of weird.

7. What is your inner critic telling you lately?

I'll probably never be able to make up my mind about anything. Even in high school, I didn't know what electives I wanted to do so I did them all. I was in choir most of my school career, but I also did mariachi, art, dance, JROTC, graphic design, theater. Everything except for band, cheer, and athletics.

Why can't I chose things? At this point is effecting my life. Like I don't know what path to follow because theres so many and it's so overwhelming so Im just kinda of stuck in limbo not going in any particular direction. haha I hate this.

[baekhvuns]

No American football in this household as it should💘 god, sometimes players go to more established clubs which gives them more money and prestige, however those clubs already have their stars, so they're just kinda.... there waiting. Mbappe can definitely shine in PSG more, but who knows maybe he'll fit in with RM 🤔

Damn not Pele and Vivienne Westwood dying on my birthday omfg. But I forgot both Joshua and Tae were born on Dec 30th 1995, lol!

As much as it pains me to say this, Ronaldo made the 🇵🇹 team, love him or hate him, but he's good in a team for the most part. Unless there's no one to help him 😭 🇦🇷 has always been stronger as a team

Omg not the nose 😭 did he break it? HANDBALL IS EVIL BAEK I was forced to play it and it's so dumb 🔪 football>>basketball>>>volleyball>>>>>>>>handball. I had some aggressive teammates lol, I was also pretty wild and yeah shit happened I can't explain it 😅

What if Pique's a double agent hired by tabloids to inflirtate Madrid. Pique spy AU ahajajjjsbsusistsiagsjsgsgssh. It's true I legit forgot Italy won that year it's just Zidane goat-ing Materazzi and I watched that match liveI was GAGGGGED, I tell you. Yeah wtf is wrong with Italy??? I showed my friend this IoI the comments are killing me

Justice for Salah 😭 I don't wanna get between people and their religion, but 💀 does it have to be that serious... btw Mou my guy, stop 😭

I'm gonna check out the songs then. I think I saw Happy New Year actually 👀

Omg Betty White, just remembered she's gone too </3 and why would you give me the power to imagine that runner AU?! Why tease me and leave me blueballed...

EXO does raffles? Wtf, manifesting a ticket under your pillow!

Yeah and he's going to jail with me

I quite like Halazia, I can't say it's top tier for me, but it's good enough, I wish I was obsessed, but they have many amazing songs it's hard to surpass them. But it's a step up from Paradigm for sure, lol. I feel like Jongho's note was too high, they tend to process it and it's unnecessary. The chorus doesn't hit as much as it should I think. Anyways, people are claiming it's their best song ever, besties calm down! 😵 (tbh they say it about every single track even Paradgim) the MV however was AN EXPERIENCE WOW. My eyes couldn't keep up cause it was A LOT to take. Digipedi delivered! The choreography too?! And Seonghwa Christ!!!🙏🏻 🧎🏼‍♀️

Uhm, no Seonghwa collab again, so him and Jongho are the only jobless ones since the rappers have a stage unit. Idk how to feel about it, why won't they pick Hwa or why won't he participate....... this is getting more and more ridiculous

AND THIS 😩😩😩😩 we keep losing, hope it's just 10mm. Also rip to his scalp, but it's worth it, he's serving and serving <3333

Damn right Hwa my baby girl, my girlfriend 🥰

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA STOP GIVING US SO MANY GREAT PCS

"silent - a lot has happened to you. its demoralizing, i know. you cry with your head leaning against the wall, tears streaking your face. your lip quivers but your mouth stays firmly closed. you keep your problems to yourself to not bother anyone." The quiz omg Baek calm down with the angst 😩

Ikon not renewing is not surprising at all, soon there won't be anyone left in YG except their new gg

Anyways goodbyeeeee - DV 💖

hi hello!!

No American football in this household as it should💘 god, sometimes players go to more established clubs which gives them more money and prestige, however those clubs already have their stars, so they're just kinda.... there waiting. Mbappe can definitely shine in PSG more, but who knows maybe he'll fit in with RM 🤔

absolutely not, never, not even in my fics 🔫 yeah! like ronaldo going al nassr 😭😭 but tbh he’s kinda right in that action, kept getting disrespected and treated like business so i guess he’s also gonna think of it as a business but it is sad to see him leave euro teams 😭😭😭🤚🏻🤚🏻 pissed a little but he secured the bag bUT FOR WHAT,,, habibi era,, little sad that rm couldn’t give him a 6 month contract so maybe he could retire as a madridista 😭😭 somethings i guess can not happen 😭😭

apparently ramos is going there too?? and since psg’s having a friendly match w alnassr we’ll see messi, mbappé, neymar and ramos v ronaldo fhwkd a reunion mayhaps,, the final we all wanted vs what we are gettinf 😭😭 yEAAAH i think he’s trying to get psg’s name out there the most and he do be doing it, dominating ligue 1 too! if he moves to rm hopefully bro doesn’t try to sell his own teammates

im screaming actually

Damn not Pele and Vivienne Westwood dying on my birthday omfg. But I forgot both Joshua and Tae were born on Dec 30th 1995, lol!

NAURRRRRRRR 😭😭😭😭 FIRST OF ALL HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!! 💖💓💖💓 ur a thv girl after all huh 🤨 YOU’VE BEEN HIDING IT 🔫🔫🔫 what a rare birthday u have,,, i hope it went well!!

wait and the pope..

As much as it pains me to say this, Ronaldo made the 🇵🇹 team, love him or hate him, but he's good in a team for the most part. Unless there's no one to help him 😭 🇦🇷 has always been stronger as a team

basically, every time someone says portugal u immediately think of ronaldo no one else really,,, yeah, cannot deny that he’s a goal machine, bro deserved better the disrespect is getting out of hand atp,, yeah! esp this tike argentina was on a new level,,, di maria’s magic 🤌🏻

Omg not the nose 😭 did he break it? HANDBALL IS EVIL BAEK I was forced to play it and it's so dumb 🔪 football>>basketball>>>volleyball>>>>>>>>handball. I had some aggressive teammates lol, I was also pretty wild and yeah shit happened I can't explain it 😅

almost did actually! has a permanent bump on his nose now, he was batting and the dude form the opposite team threw the ball and it hit him right in the face dbdb <33 HANDBALL IS FUN 😭😭😭 pretty aggressive teammates bestie from the way you BROKE urself it’s as if u faced pepe 😭😭😭

hear me out in that scale, hockey is forever the lowest🤚🏻

What if Pique's a double agent hired by tabloids to inflirtate Madrid. Pique spy AU ahajajjjsbsusistsiagsjsgsgssh. It's true I legit forgot Italy won that year it's just Zidane goat-ing Materazzi and I watched that match liveI was GAGGGGED, I tell you. Yeah wtf is wrong with Italy??? I showed my friend this IoI the comments are killing me

LMFAOOOO GTFO PIQUE SPY AU DHWKDHWKJCKC no srs bro is so iconic and at his last game 😭😭😭 what an exit !!! U WATCHED IT LIVE??? BFKWDHWK STOP THE REACTIONS MUSTVE BEEN ALL OVER THE PLACE,,, italy is cURSED it would be even more fun if he coached brazil and they have to verse italy 😭😭 unfortunately the video is unavailable 😭😭

Justice for Salah 😭 I don't wanna get between people and their religion, but 💀 does it have to be that serious... btw Mou my guy, stop 😭 /// I'm gonna check out the songs then. I think I saw Happy New Year actually 👀

no yeah just enjoy everything don’t take it too seriously 😭😭 LMFAOOOO i was watching his funny moments and the one where he was drinking water and found out someone needed to be given a yellow card the way bRO RAN 😭😭 he’s a special one,, yeah! the only reason that movie had one good song was bc of that one! OH U DID, waCK ass movie tbh, the second half was better fbf

Omg Betty White, just remembered she's gone too </3 and why would you give me the power to imagine that runner AU?! Why tease me and leave me blueballed...

YEAAH 😭😭😭 so many ppl gone,,, hoping 2023 is not that worse 🤚🏻🤚🏻 JFVWKDBWKCJCK AND U THINK IT HASNT BEEN BOTHERING ME TO WRITE IT ! 🔫 ! the reader continuously saying no to train seonghwa while he’s begging for reader to do so 🫡🤌🏻

EXO does raffles? Wtf, manifesting a ticket under your pillow! /// Yeah and he's going to jail with me

yEAH APPARENTLY THEY DO,, hoping for it too 😭😭😭 i have terrible luck at getting things but great with avoiding things <33 …. now that photo he dropped. i genuinely forgot how to breathe,,, i CANT DO THIS ANYMORE ANON 😭😭😭😭😭 THE LIKES ON THIS??? LOOK AWAY

I quite like Halazia, I can't say it's top tier for me, but it's good enough, I wish I was obsessed, but they have many amazing songs it's hard to surpass them. But it's a step up from Paradigm for sure, lol. I feel like Jongho's note was too high, they tend to process it and it's unnecessary. The chorus doesn't hit as much as it should I think. Anyways, people are claiming it's their best song ever, besties calm down! 😵 (tbh they say it about every single track even Paradgim) the MV however was AN EXPERIENCE WOW. My eyes couldn't keep up cause it was A LOT to take. Digipedi delivered! The choreography too?! And Seonghwa Christ!!!🙏🏻 🧎🏼‍♀️

it’s def not top tier but still great and delivered!! tbh it had the chance to be an inception if not for the hala hala halzia part and if they only kept the halazia halaziA ~ yeosang’s deep voice >>>> i do agree, it def was high,,, music video wise def on of their best ever! but music wise certain parts stood out more than others,, PARADIGM IS JUST NO NO NO 🤚🏻😭 SEONGHWA CHRIST, BUT SANS SACRIFICED

bro popping his chest with full force

Uhm, no Seonghwa collab again, so him and Jongho are the only jobless ones since the rappers have a stage unit. Idk how to feel about it, why won't they pick Hwa or why won't he participate....... this is getting more and more ridiculous

no literally,,, it would be nice if they would nicely ratio members out for every collab so everyone gets the chance BUT THIS couldve gotten a post malone x hwa 😭😭😭 yeah why won’t they pick him or why is he not wanting to participate 🤨 fbi open up we have some questioning to do 🔫

AND THIS 😩😩😩😩 we keep losing, hope it's just 10mm. Also rip to his scalp, but it's worth it, he's serving and serving <3333 /// Damn right Hwa my baby girl, my girlfriend 🥰 /// AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA STOP GIVING US SO MANY GREAT PCS

NO SERIOUSLY RIP HIS SCALP THE HAIR IS NOT AT ITS BEST 😭😭 AND YEOSANG??? but…this.. now..

sTOP I DIDNT GET THE ALBUM NOW HES MAKING ME WANT IT esp with the photos in here BUT THIS PC?????

"silent - a lot has happened to you. its demoralizing, i know. you cry with your head leaning against the wall, tears streaking your face. your lip quivers but your mouth stays firmly closed. you keep your problems to yourself to not bother anyone." The quiz omg Baek calm down with the angst 😩

Ikon not renewing is not surprising at all, soon there won't be anyone left in YG except their new gg //// Anyways goodbyeeeee - DV 💖

LMFAOOOO i have also gor the same result! anON IS EVERYTHING OK AT HOME DBDB,,, i do hope they can have collabs w bi not,, the blackpink leaving yg and then being confirmed they are not and then the new yg gg dropping jan 1st 🤨🤨 sussy behaviour

also will not stop the angst train

HELLO????

also what 😭😭

[milkpansa-archive]

i hope you got my birthday wishes

tumblr made an error while i was sending the ask!!! 💕💞💓💗💖💝💘

if you didn't i was just wishing the best bd abd the best year

love you🤟❤😘

amal angel hi!!

i already said it but thanks so so much !! and i loved the pic :( sad tumblr was being a dumbass :( but it was so cute !! sending you hugs and kisses and some cake too because yes. 🍰🍰🍰🍰 💗💞💘💓💖💕 hope you have the best year as well angel (((hugs tightly))) love you! mwah❣️

[threelionsgirl]

the cake | ben chilwell

summary: ben and y/n hate each other, but baking a cake together for mason's birthday has never been more fun

warnings: +18 smut! fingering, dirty talk, oral (M receiving), unprotected sex (don't do this if you don't want ist's and babys), teasing, cocky!reader, hair pulling, seminude exchange, kitchen sex

word count: 6,576 yes, it is a very long one and has some development, so save some time to read it

notes: yeah I know that mason's birthday has already passed, I meant to post this way before, but it didn't work out, and yes, I also know that maybe i’m a little obsessed with enemies to lovers, but like taytay says: I swearrr I don't love the enemies to lovers, it loves me!!!! and this time it’s for benji!!!!! enjoy it.

masterlist | requests are open!

"What the hell are you doing here?" Y/N asked as Ben walked through the door. She was at Mason's house as it was his birthday, and they were hosting a surprise party. They had decided to do everything themselves, and she was in charge of putting up the decorations around the house, while Declan's job was to keep Mason out all day and only bring him in at party time.

"When Dec told me you were here alone, I thought I had the right to come over and inspect, just to make sure you're not going to destroy my best friend's house!" He replied, closing the door. Y/N looked at him nonconformist and also because Ben looked very well. He was wearing a pink T-shirt and a white cap pulled back from his head. His strong arm held a cooler that must have been crammed with alcoholic drinks and ice.

"I need to organize the decorations, but since you didn't go after the cake, which was your obligation, CHILWELL, I'll have to make one too." She grumbled, it was Ben's job to order the cake and go get it, the only task besides buying drinks, but he had forgotten, and that time was running out.

"Exactly, the cake is my obligation, so I'll do it." He replied after placing the cooler on the floor. He snapped his fingers as if that was going to be an arduous task.

"You can burn even water, Benjamin!" Y/N exclaimed, trying to stop him from reaching the kitchen. There was no way she could cook a cake with Ben there, it would be a disaster, she was sure.

They had always hated each other from the first day they met. She was arrogant, and Ben hated arrogant people. He was too uptight, a pain in the ass in Y/N's eyes. He didn't know how to live and liked to shit rule on everyone's head, it pissed her off because in life she hadn't been regimented even by her parents.

"I'll make sure that at least you don't put any poison from your snake fangs in our food." He crossed his arms resiliently.

"Oh, you bet I will, but it will only be on your piece!" She walked past him bumping into his arm on purpose and going to the kitchen, opening the cupboards and the fridge starting to fetch the ingredients.

"Let's make a mint chocolate cake." She said, knocking the box of chocolate on the wood.

"Mason likes strawberry with vanilla better." Ben hit back with the strawberry box.

"Chocolate."

"Strawberry." Y/N rolled her eyes, she wasn't in the patience to keep arguing, and she didn't have the time either.

"Okay, it's going to be a red velvet cake with cream cheese filling!" Neither vanilla nor chocolate seemed to be a good solution, and Ben eventually agreed. He watched as she moved to grab some tools like spoons, baking sheets, a mixer and leave everything on the island.

"I bet you don't even know where to start." Y/N just said that to Ben to make a dig at him, turning her back to grab the rest of the ingredients from the cupboard. Ben felt slightly challenged and moved toward the sink to wash his hands, but the sound of Y/N's cell phone caught his attention. The cell phone was on the kitchen island with the screen facing up and unlocked.

His eyes widened when he saw the content of the messages. She was talking to a guy in a lewd way, but what really shocked him were the pictures she sent him: in red lingerie, some in just panties, while her arms hid the nipples of her breasts. Each photo was better than the other in extremely sexy poses. His cock throbbed in his underwear as he looked. He knew Y/N was hot, but it was totally new to see her at that angle.

"What do we have here?" Y/N turned abruptly, just in time to see her cell phone beeping in Ben's hand, taking messages from the guy she was chatting with. A wicked grin appeared on Chilwell's face as he looked at the screen. "Nice breasts, by the way."

He pointed his deep blue iris to her and saw Y/N begin to blush, he just didn't know if it was from anger or embarrassment. When she realized that Ben had his cell phone in hand, she almost freaked out and cursed herself for leaving it unlocked.

"Benjamin, give it to me now!" She demanded going toward him, but Ben began to take steps backwards to get away. "You little shit."

"You like humiliating yourself like that, so guys can fuck you?" He raised his eyebrow as he read the conversation. The guy was practically demanding that she send those pictures.

"That's none of your business! Give me back my cell phone." She exclaimed, going after him to try to take it, but Ben resisted. He held the device in his hand and raised his arm, finding it amusing as she tried to retrieve it.

"No." He was taller, she could stand there for hours trying to jump to catch up, it was a fight with certain defeat, so in those cases Y/N would have to be smarter. She took advantage that his hands were up and slid her hand into his jeans, pulling Ben's cell phone from there.

"There is!" She gloated and walked away quickly before he could react. "I wonder what you're hiding here, Chilwell?" She spoke, turning it on, and the lock screen appeared: it was his dog, Oscar. Cute. But she was more interested in invading his privacy, as he had done with her.

"It has a password." Ben crossed his arms, he wasn't so dumb to leave his cell phone unlocked lying around. Y/N bit the inside of his cheek and began to think.

"Let me see. Alex's birthday." She tried, but it gave an error.

"Try again." Ben laughed. Y/N forced her brain to think of something more exact when an idea came to her mind.

"UCL title date."

"Damn it!" Ben grumbled as the screen unlocked.

"So predictable." She laughed and started to walk away when she realized Ben was approaching.

"Damn. Give it back to me, Y/N, I'm giving yours." He spoke, extending her cell phone, but she ignored it.

"Hm... What are you so afraid I'm going to see here?" she raised her eyebrow as Ben cursed. He approached, and they stood three steps apart, preparing in case she tried to escape down the sides, but Y/N ran out of the kitchen and locked herself in the bathroom while Ben cursed.

She closed the door behind her and looked at the cell phone in her hands. First she went through the pictures, but there was nothing interesting on it, so she opened the conversations. If he had read a conversation of hers, she had a right too. She rolled her eyes when she saw that he was talking to two women at the same time. Men. So predictable.

She was about to leave when she looked in the mirror and had an idea. Y/N started to undress in just her panties and bra, remembering Ben's reaction when he saw her pictures and commented on her breasts. She took three pictures with the camera pointed at the mirror and saved them in the gallery. After that, she got dressed and got out of there, as Ben started banging on the door.

"Look, looks like the uptight  boy isn't so uptight." She said, slamming her cell phone on his chest and taking hers back. Ben cursed softly, realizing that she had read his messages. "Do they know you are dating both of them at the same time? That isn't correct, Chilwell."

"Shut up. This is an open relationship, you don't know anything."

"You don't want to admit that you are being a hypocrite. That's just it." Y/N turned away from him and started walking towards the kitchen, Ben went after her feeling the need to defend himself, but she turned to him and stopped him from entering the kitchen. "Just get out of here, we both know you can't cook."

Chilwell rolled his eyes but eventually did as she said and went to sit on the couch in the living room, he was curious to know what Y/N had gotten up to with his cell phone. He picked up the device and started checking his apps, luckily Y/N hadn't texted anyone. He looked through his calls until he finally checked his gallery. He's eyes widened at the sight of the pictures she had left there for the sole purpose of teasing him.

Well he took turns looking between Y/N in the kitchen and the pictures of her. It hadn't even crossed his mind that underneath those clothes she held such sexy lingerie and such a hot body. He spent some time admiring the pictures, the cleavage of her breasts in her bra, the curve of her ass, the details of her tiny panties... enough for that to start turning him on. "Shit." He whispered to himself. Those photos were as good as the ones he had seen on her cell phone, and effective if the goal was to get his cock hard.

He looked at Y/N in the kitchen. She had put on an apron and was beginning to measure out the ingredients. Ben stood up and walked slowly to the kitchen. He stopped at the counter and propped his elbows there.

"What the hell is this? Are you trying to provoke me?" He asked showing her his cell phone and Y/N gave him a winning smile before turning her back to open the refrigerator.

"You seemed to really like the ones you saw on my cell phone, so I decided to save those for you..." She blinked innocently, but seductively. "Just so you know what you'll never get, Chilwell."

Ben closed his mouth, he was disbelieving, but soon decided to regain his composure after seeing how Y/N was enjoying upsetting his mind with her teasing. "I didn't like them." He said, blocking his cell phone and looking away.

Y/N picked up a can of whipped cream and poured some on his index finger. "You are a terrible liar, Benjamin." She said and then immediately took her finger to her mouth and sucked on it.

Ben swallowed dryly and turned his back on her, deciding to go back into the living room. Oh fuck, he was so hard by then and seeing Y/N sucking his fucking finger just made him wonder what it would be like if she sucked his cock. Her lips looked incredible at that angle and incredibly inviting. Y/N laughed internally when he saw Ben walking back into the living room, happy that he had gotten what she wanted.

Ben sat down on the couch and looked at the bulge in his pants and moaned low. He stroked his own cock over the fabric and his conscience appeared to alert him that it was not a good idea to do that there. That was not the right place and not the right person. He hated Y/N, they were hosting a party for Mason, at his house. Ben was not a guy who liked to take risks, he was always more reserved and liked to follow rules. Totally the opposite of Y/N. But that day he was instigated and somewhat curious.

He looked at the kitchen again. Y/N was distracted, humming a tune, while she stirred the ingredients of the cake. Ben narrowed his eyes at her, he would not let her win that game so easily. Thinking about it, he lowered his jeans enough to leave his white Calvin on display and the bulge his hard cock was making in the fabric. He took two pictures, one with his hand in his underwear holding his length, and sent them to Y/N's cell phone.

From there, you could hear her cell phone beeping. He wasn't able to see her, but he heard perfectly when something fell to the floor, and she cursed.

"Everything okay there, Y/N?" He asked, holding back his laughter, with the overbearing thought that maybe she got careless after seeing the pictures he sent.

"More than fine, Benjamin!" She shouted back and Ben stood up, tidying his jeans in place and walked to the kitchen. Y/N was standing, she had tied up her hair and in a bowl was beating the butter with the vanilla essence. "Get out of here. You're in the way." She said when she saw him.

"No, that's my cake too, and I'm going to help make it." He says, walking past her, leaning against her waist purposefully. Ben could have sworn he saw her body shiver entirely. Y/N sighed, how could she continue baking with Ben beside her and knowing what he was hiding under his pants?

Her jaw locked when she saw the pictures of his cock. They weren't nudes, but it gave her mind a lot of freedom to start fantasizing. The "BC" and the "21" of his tattoos being quite striking. Y/N couldn't stop thinking about the size, and now she had a sense of the width and thickness, it was sending heat to her entire body and an abrupt need to close her legs. She didn't realize she was getting aroused until she let some cutlery fall off the table, and that snapped her back to reality.

The next step in the cake was to mix the dry ingredients with the egg yolks and buttercream. Y/N saw Ben start to break the eggs into a bowl and rolled his eyes.

"You have to break the eggs in a different container first to see that they are not spoiled, and then separate the yolk from the white!" She grumbled and he frowned at her. For a moment her gaze wandered to his hands, so big and nimble... Y/N was a simple person, if she saw nice fingers she wanted them inside her, but that was Ben, she hated him, she should not allow herself to have such thoughts about him. "Just get out of here, you do everything wrong."

"I'm not the one dirtying the whole island with milk." Ben laughed, and she realized that maybe she had been watching his hands too long, and the milk she was pouring into the meter overflowed onto the table. Y/N snorted, grabbing a cloth to start wiping it up. "What? Can't you concentrate with me here?"

He asked in a more husky and provocative way, sliding one lip over the other. Y/N sighed, feeling more heat than she really was. Ben knew he was messing with her to the same extent she was messing with him. He simply could not stop looking at her legs as she moved from side to side, since Y/N was wearing a very short skirt.

"Of course I can!" She asserted, but that was a lie. Her hormones were driving her crazy, and she couldn't do anything without sometimes looking away from Ben. It was as if her eyes were two metal spheres and Ben was a giant magnet. To help, the tingling in her core would not cease. "I'm going to the bathroom, try not to make a mess." She sighed and walked quickly to the hall bathroom and closed the door.

She leaned against the wood and unlocked her cell phone, going straight to Ben's conversation and taking a good look again at the pictures he sent her. He was so big, and she wished it was her hand instead of his, just the thought made her gasp and press her thighs together. She parted her legs a little, playing with the waistband of her skirt, her fingers snaked towards his core before she was rudely interrupted.

"Y/N what are you doing there?" She nearly jumped and dropped her cell phone to the floor when she heard Ben's knocks on the door. His deep voice vibrated in Y/N's ears and drifted down to her panties.

"It's rude to ask what people are doing in the bathroom, Chilwell!"

"If you don't want to say, then I think I can guess." She couldn't see, but she was sure Ben was smiling on the other side. She bit her lip, keeping silent. "Hm... I guess you got wet as fuck and decided to come to the bathroom to touch yourself."

Y/N let out the heavy breath she was holding, suddenly she was puzzled that he was so cheeky. She opened the door in a rush in time to see Ben with his elbow leaning against the doorframe and his hand on his head. His biceps were marked, but she didn't let that distract her.

"What the fuck are you talking about, Chilwell." She didn't want to admit that that was exactly what it was.

"Don't play the cynic! You know I'm talking about our semis exchange, you were just as turned on as I was." He crossed his arms across his chest and moistened his lips.

His irritation was visible, all Y/N wanted to do was wipe that smile off Ben's mouth.

"I did not!" She huffed and took a step forward, leaving their faces inches apart. Ben grabbed her waist with his strong arm so fast that her body projected forward in a jolt and Y/N had no time to react.

"You are a terrible liar." He replayed the line and Y/N had no way to react, as Ben crashed his lips into hers in a raging kiss. She was caught between the door frame and his body as Ben's tongue invaded her mouth. She moved her arms to hold onto him because that was... Good. Really good. Ben was a great kisser.

He ran his hand down the side of her body continuously, his cock was still so hard, and he was desperate for contact, even if it was Y/N. At that moment, he didn't care about anything, he just wanted her.

Y/N held his neck as he bit her lip. She flattened her chest, lacking air. It was a great kiss, but she still wasn't willing to give in and had a cake to bake.

"If you're talking about those pictures, I think you were the only one affected." She says, pressing her hips into his erection. "I'm drier than a desert!"

"Really? So if I stick my fingers under that tiny skirt, I won't find any soggy panties?" He teased, running his fingers along the hem of her skirt, rubbing his phalanges against the skin of her thigh. Y/N contracted the muscles in her groin. She could feel the very heat of her natural lubrication. Her panties were as damp and warm as a rainy summer afternoon.

"I need to finish that cake!" She shot out, swallowing a groan and pulling away from Ben. Y/N was unable to answer that and went back into the kitchen. She turned on the mixer to beat the egg whites and went to mix the dry ingredients.

Y/N decided to stand with her back to the rest of the kitchen, trying to concentrate on the dough, so much so that she barely noticed when Ben came up behind her. He pulled her hair to the side and began to distribute kisses down her neck. He would have given up by now if he hadn't known that she was as turned on as he was.

His hands held her flanks while his lips worked on her neck with kisses and a few bites. Y/N sighed, trying to pretend Ben wasn't there, but it was nearly impossible.

"Benjamin, get out!" She struggled to say as he moved closer, his chest colliding with her back and his hands caressing her belly under her t-shirt.

"You don't want me to leave." The scent of his aftershave lotion was numbing her nostrils and the touch of his hands leaving her with no reaction. He moved his hands down to her ass, giving it a considerable squeeze before sliding them down to her inner thighs. Ben was addicted to the smell of her hair, he could easily feel her body reacting to his. "Say I can touch you, Y/N." He whispered in her ear before sucking on her neck, leaving marks there. At least then she would have no way to deny what happened in that kitchen.

Y/N made a circular motion with the spoon to mix the dough that got slower and slower. Ben's fingers made circles on her thigh, she had no control whatsoever over her breathing, and her heart felt like a crusher breaking concrete. Ben was still leaving kisses on the back of her neck, and Y/N felt she was on the edge. She rested her fingers on the edge of the counter and let go:

"Fuck, touch me!"

He instantly smiled with consent, and his fingers pushed her panties aside as Y/N spread her legs for him to have better access. Ben started softly, letting her wetness envelop his fingers as he slid his index and middle finger between her lips. Y/N moaned softly, pushing her hips back toward his erection, which pressed her hips against the countertop.

"Dryer than a desert, huh?" he chuckled in her ear as his finger began to stimulate her clit, making Y/N squirm.

"Shut up, Chilwell!"

"I may even shut up, but I want to hear you." Y/N threw her head back on his shoulder as she felt two of his fingers slowly and tortuously invade her. Ben began a repetitive in and out motion as his thumb circled her clit, Y/N whimpered, unable to hold back the sounds. He kissed every bit of her face he could reach, and his other hand held her hips in place.

She was right, Ben had nice fingers, and she wanted to kiss him, but he didn't seem too willing to let her leave the place.

"Shit!" She cried out when Ben curved his fingers a little, reaching her G-spot. The way she squeezed around his fingers was driving him crazy too, and he couldn't wait to feel that with his cock. Y/N's legs trembled as her orgasm grew.

"Have you ever cooked like this, Y/N? Having two more hands to help you?" He increased the finger movements, so rhythmic and precise. She was trying to pay attention to his words, but her brain and her whole body were only focused on the orgasm to come.

"F-fuck, Chilly, I'm going to cum!" His mouth formed into a smile when he heard his nickname. Y/N never called him that, it was always "Benjamin" or "Chilwell".

"You moaned my nickname."

"I-it came out unintentionally."

"That was the prettiest sound I've ever heard." He decided that "Chilly" and the word "cum" went very well together in the same sentence, even more so if they came out of Y/N's mouth.

She barely heard what he said as the waves of pleasure began to wash over her so strongly and she clenched tightly around his fingers. An overwhelming peace took over her body as Y/N came teasingly. Ben kept his mouth glued to her neck as his fingers made the last movements necessary for her to feel completely satisfied.

He pulled out of her and Y/N took a deep breath trying to come back from the high cloud she was on.

"Tastier than the cake I'm sure." He said sucking on the fingers that seconds ago were inside her, Y/N knew of her confectionery skills but she couldn't refute that. "What do you want to do while the cake bakes?" Ben was full of second thoughts, as wrong as that seemed he didn't want it to end, he felt they were just getting started.

"The filling and the frosting." Y/N pushed him by the elbow and he groaned giving her space. She finished the dough, placed it in the greased baking pan and took it to the oven to bake.

Before throwing the dirty bowl into the sink, she washed hands, took a small spoon and scooped up the little bit of dough that had remained and brought it to her mouth, looking at Ben as she did so.

"Do you suck dick as well as you suck that spoon?" Ben asked, but she didn't even answer or look at him after his cheeky question, Y/N had better ideas. She took the filling ingredients and threw them into another bowl, but without mixing them, then she took a wooden spoon and handed the bowl to Ben who held it to his chest.

"You mix. I suck." She gave him a mischievous smile before getting down on her knees. She could use the mixer to beat the cream cheese, but what a waste it would be to leave Ben's muscular arms useless. She wanted to see them in action as much as he wanted her to suck his cock.

Ben was unresponsive for a few seconds as he looked over the basin at Y/N's head close to his hip while her hands groped his crotch. She played with the elastic of his Calvin and looked up realizing that Ben was still motionless. "Am I going have to repeat?, Chilly?"

When he looked at her and saw her bright eyes full of mischief, he held up the spoon and began to stir. Y/N smiled contentedly, focusing on his cock again. First she opened his pants and slid them down to his ankles and then his white Calvin. Ben's cock slammed into his abdomen, she held the base and began sucking his balls. Ben groaned, throwing his head against the closet. It must have been almost forty minutes since he had been fantasizing about it.

"How long do I need to mix that?" He questioned.

"As long as you want." Y/N replied and Ben understood that if he wanted it was going to suck him until he came.

Her tongue swirled around his tip sucking all of his pre-semen and he reacted by gripping the handle of the spoon tighter, wishing it was her hair. Y/N jerked him slowly before she began to run her tongue over each startled vein of his penis. Then she moved her lips down his length and began sucking as hard as she could until she ran out of air. She kissed his cock as she paused for breath. Y/N put him back in her mouth and Ben cursed as he felt the tip of his cock hit the bottom of her throat and her nose rub his pubic bone. She firmed her lips around his shaft and pulled her head back, repeating the process a few times, faster and faster and more frantic, until her jaw, and her knees resting on the cold tile began to ache.

"Oh, fuck yes. Keep doing that, Y/N." Ben moaned looking down at his cock going in and out of her plump lips.

He left the bowl on the counter as she propped her hands on his thighs, having the support she needed, to shove his entire cock into her mouth. Ben held her hair gently, holding her head in place and began to thrust his hips back and forth, feeling her throat throbbing around him. It was so wet and hot. He pushed her head deep and held it for a few seconds until she was panting. "Holy shit, you're killing me, baby!"

Y/N looked up, her eyes meeting his blue irises looking at her, they were as dark as the ocean on the night of a storm. She wanted to rip off that ridiculous cap he was wearing and mess up his hair, make it fall to his forehead.

Ben held the base of his penis and pulled it out of her mouth when he realized he was going to cum. He slid the base across Y/N's lips who wrapped her tongue around the head. He pulled her up before he lost control completely. She looked down at the bowl the filling Ben had mixed, trying to ignore that his cock was still hard and she hadn't made him cum.

"It's not good yet." She said looking at the bowl, but Ben knew she meant something else.

"You're right." He whispered, pulling her close by the waist. Y/N watched as his biceps squeezed her and how her chest rose as it collided with his. Ben pulled her bottom lip with his teeth and squeezed her hips. "Where should I fuck you?" He quickly looked around the kitchen for all the places he could easily sit her down or bend her over. "Your choice."

"Why should I let you fuck me?" She tugged at his cap and the hat fell back lifting a few strands of his hair.

"I'll make you cum again before that cake finishes baking." She looked at the oven, the light inside made it visible as the batter grew, but it still wasn't good. When Y/N looked at Ben again she grabbed his neck, sticking their bodies together as she kissed him fiercely. This was not something she could easily refuse.

Ben felt free to be a little rough, he kissed her eagerly and pushed her body until Y/N bumped her hips on the edge of the island. He wanted to fuck her so badly and could no longer stand so many clothes separating them. He pulled her blouse up, pulling it off her body quickly, and did the same with her skirt, without much finesse.

His hands squeezed her thighs and Y/N sat on the island, the movement making some ingredients they had already used fall to the floor and making a mess but she didn't care. She took off Ben's shirt and hugged his waist with her legs. Her hands squeezed and arranged every inch of skin on his arms and torso. Ben removed her bra so easily and his mouth left hers only to tease her nipples. He squeezed her breasts feeling how soft and heavy they felt in his hands.

Y/N moaned, scratching the back of his neck and threaded her fingers through the strands of his hair.

"I've always wanted to do that!" She exclaimed, pulling his hair from side to side as Ben licked and nibbled on her nipples. "Especially when you use that melequent gel."

"Oh." He lifted his head to look at her, his thumbs sliding between the elastic of her panties to the sides. "Have you ever caught yourself imagining pulling my hair?" he raised an eyebrow at her. "Was I fucking you or eating your pussy?" Y/N rolled her eyes.

"Not at all. I meant messing it up. To piss you off. But if you feel better thinking I had erotic dreams about you, you can think whatever you want." She slid her nails down his abdomen causing Ben to get chills and his cock to twitch again. Y/N left a bite on his neck and some saucy kisses. "If I were you, I would start moving, if not I will start thinking that besides being insufferable, you are also a liar, Chilwell."

Y/N whispered looking at the oven. The timer on the clock kept ticking and soon it would beep indicating that the cake was ready. Ben decided to act more quickly, fearing that Y/N would give up. He removed her panties and they groaned together as he finally penetrated her, beginning regular strokes without a pause so that Y/N could adjust to his size. She was so wet it was easy.

"Are they supposed to fuck you like that when you sent those pictures?" He smiled and she pulled him by the shoulders, shutting his mouth with a kiss.

"Can't you fuck with your mouth closed, Benjamin?"

"I'm not the one making so many noises." He laughed when she moaned into his mouth. Ben's hand gripped the hair on the back of her neck firmly holding her head in place, her ajar lips brushing against his as she moaned and was forced to face him. The thumb of his other hand began to rub her clit and she thought she would melt there. His hips were faster, his cock moving out and in from inside her nervously. "What pretty noises you're making for me, Y/N... Am I making you feel good?"

"Oh God, yeessss, yes, yes, don't stop!" He nodded, his big hands held the cheeks of her ass enrusting the two thrusts, deeper and more precise. Ben took a general look around the kitchen. It was a mess, they were a mess, but he was fucking Y/N and her lips were on his, biting his mouth and rolling her tongue around in his.

"We really shouldn't be doing this right now." He said between one sigh and another, his movements slowed down and Y/N gave him an ugly look. Her breathing wasn't all out of whack and her body wasn't all sweaty for her to get out of that kitchen without cumming.

"Well, do you want to stop?" she asked. "Because if you stop I'll kill you."

Ben laughed, he denied with his head and kissed her back, speeding back up. Some cutlery was falling from the island and the noise was mixed with the sound of their skin hitting each other. Y/N propped one hand on the table and looked up at him.

"What happened to you? Isn't it too risky to fuck me in your best friend's kitchen? You're not like that, Benjamin." His hand slid down her belly until it gripped her breast and Y/N gasped arching her back.

"You're driving me crazy. That's what happened." Her pussy tightened around his cock when his voice came out husky and guttural. Ben clamped his teeth around her neck trying to control himself from cumming before she did. "Holy fuck."

"You are blaming me for your corruption."

"Exactly. "Ben held her head up high, neck tightly stretched, and slowly, he was leaning her over the table. Y/N stared at the ceiling, stunned as he trusted to fuck her over the island. Each time they moved a different thing fell to the floor. "I want you moaning my nickname. Again." He spoke seriously, almost like an order.

"Then make me cum!" She said adjusting her leg around his hip more firmly.

Her body responded deliciously to Ben's. She let herself go, he sped up. He was thrusting, rushing. Each time Y/N gasped and threatened to lay her head on the table, Ben pulled her hair back. He kept up the pace. He pumped quickly. Her moans were cadenced with his strokes. She was almost at the peak when he stopped for a moment. Y/N complained in a sigh. He came back in and put it in in a hurry, and without her expecting it, he put it in deep.

"Oh, fuck yeah. That's it, I'm going to cum." She moaned loudly and smiled, holding the sides of Ben's head, his hair falling to his forehead and staring into his deep blue eyes. "Chilly."

She broke down in delirious glee, biting his shoulders and her eyes rolling out of their sockets. Her pussy twitching and milking every drop from him. Her somatic nervous system was taking a back seat and Y/N could no longer control the sounds that came out as a result. Each thing she said came out in a different way, but they involved Ben's name. Her words triggered his own release and Ben moaned as he came inside her, squeezing her nipples and claiming her lips on his. Y/N collapsed on the table, blushing, but she grabbed his neck and they kissed as they returned to an upright position on the table.

He kissed her entire collarbone area and part of her bust, his lips not wanting to leave her skin, but Y/N had to push him away to get off the island when the oven beeped indicating that the cake was ready. She took some sheets of paper to clean herself and washed her hands in the sink. Then she removed the form from the oven with cloth gloves and placed it on top of the empty part of the island.

"Well...look at the mess you've made." She looked from Ben to the mess on the kitchen floor and Ben looked at her indignantly as he put on his underwear.

"The mess I made?" she laughed, picking his t-shirt up off the floor and putting it on. She turned her back to him looking for the bowl with the filling. "I made it myself, Y/N?" Ben stared at how well his shirt had looked on her. Half of her legs were still showing, they were so sexy. He reached up and grabbed her waist.

"Yeah, I'll go finish the cake and you should clean that up before Mason gets here, he wouldn't be too happy if he saw his kitchen like this. You know, just a word of advice."

"I gave you two orgasms and you make me clean up the mess?" He still looked at her indignantly.

"That's right." Y/N stood facing him, licking her lips and speaking close to his mouth. "If you're a good guy I can give you your second." Her hand snaked up to his groin giving his cock a considerable squeeze that almost made Ben groan.

They exchanged a complicit smile and he relented, starting to tidy up the mess but not putting his clothes on as a way of teasing her. Y/N didn't take her eyes off him as she finished assembling and filling the cake.

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Hours later, Mason's birthday party was already happening. He and all his friends had arrived for the surprise, and Y/N breathed a sigh of relief that she and Ben had managed to get all the decorations and all the mess done in time.

They had already sung Happy Birthday and were eating the cake in the living room. Ben and Y/N were on opposite sides of the couch exchanging intentional glances. They had pretended the entire party that nothing had happened between them, but they couldn't pretend to themselves how much they wanted each other.

"That cake turned out good, Y/N." Mason said, he was already on his third piece.

"Thank you, Mason. Ben helped me." She answered for her friend, but really was looking at Ben.

"Ben can't cook." Mason laughed and looked at his friend.

"Until he can do one thing or another." She said taking the spoon to her mouth, tasting the filling as she had done earlier and Ben shook his foot on the floor, starting relatively excited.

"I'm surprised you guys didn't destroy my kitchen."

"Me too." It was Ben's turn to speak and Y/N, ah if only Mount knew... Mason laughed and went off to talk to other people.

He and Y/N stared at each other for a few minutes until she got up and sat down next to him. Her hand went to his thigh after making sure that everyone was drunk enough to pay attention to them.

She turned her head toward him, knowing that neither of them could take any more of that tension, and whispered:

"Do you want to have sex in the bathroom, Chilwell?"

"Meet me there in five."

She shot off to the upstairs bathroom to wait for him. That had been the tastiest cake she had ever made and Y/N didn't expect that one day there might be another like it.