#also yes lol i am v much a stranger things fan!!

[littlespoonevan]

Hello Ciara!!! I come to you looking for your wisdom bc, honestly, you actually helped before :)) so, i was offered a job promotion, as team coordinator, for the team I'm working in rn, at first i said no bc the manager is not what you wish to be, she's not the best manger 🙃 but now they asked again bc they don't have that many options and like, on one hand I'm thinking F the manager, maybe they'll change her soon, whatever, but at the same time, i tend to be such an anxious person and what if i can't handle it, what if i break down in a meeting and start crying in front of everyone???

But, uhm, I'm also considering accepting the offer bc of how scared i am? Push myself despite being afrain, and, what if it works? And then, i want to do it to understand what I'm capable of bc i keep saying that I'm not good at what i do, I'm just bluffing and hope it works out and nobody notices - which to some extent i know it's not true (gotta love the imposter syndrome on this one)

God, i wish to just be like one of those confident people that just go like, Yeah sure LET'S GOOOO!!!!

Also, i did not know you were watching stranger things!!!!

hey bud!! first of all, congratulations on the offer!! 🎉 but ahh that is a very tough situation - it's so frustrating just how much a manager/boss can negatively impact your experience of a job :/ especially when this should be an exciting moment for you!

i think there's two aspects you need to consider:

to what extent will you have to work with this manager?? is this literally someone you'll have to interact with and take orders from every single day or are they just the person in charge of your section/team? how likely do you think it is that they'll get to you/upset you? (especially if you’re interacting with them on a regular basis)

how worth it is the promotion? like, taking your manager out of it, is this a good career move and opportunity for you??? do you like the idea of the work? is it better pay??? to what extent do the pros outweigh the cons, y'know?

what i will say is that in my own experience and in that of my friends', no job is worth being treated badly by your superiors no matter how much you love it. before i had my current job i was working somewhere else for placement during my masters but the management was awful. like genuinely, absolutely terrible and treated us like we were worthless. in my case, i was doing the exact same profession in both instances so it wasn't hard for me to leave and go somewhere else. a friend of mine still works there but he was always able to shake off the issues we experienced in a way myself and our other friend couldn't so it never really got to him.

similarly my best friend loves her job as a vocation but has complained about her place of work for five years straight. and it all comes down to her management and the way the staff is treated. i've given up telling her to quit bc it’s clear she probably won’t since it’s one of the only places she can do the job she wants to do but i’m pretty sure she hasn’t been happy there a single day since 2017 and i know that’s taken a toll on her mental health

i honestly commend you for wanting to push through your anxiety to challenge yourself and take the job and i definitely don’t want to discourage you!! because like you said, it might be fine and you might be so much more capable at handling it than you even realise right now. and what a wonderful thing that would be to discover! i think the best thing i could say if you do want to take it is consider your escape route. if you take the offer and you don’t like it or your manager is really getting to you, what are your options??? is this contract based where you’d have to fulfill the role for a certain period of time or could you leave at any stage? is going back to your old position an option?

ultimately, just remember choosing it doesn’t mean you have to do it forever and that there’s nothing wrong with putting your mental health first if you need to. but also! if you decide to go for it, i have every faith and confidence in you that you’ll be amazing!!

i hope this was helpful in some way sjdafh let me know how it goes!! i’m rooting for you 💖

[dogstarblues]

20 Questions

got tagged by @artemis-devotee. seemed like fun! ty botan!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

i have 11 works and i can tell you four of those are poetry.

2. What’s your total AO3 words count?

17,831

3. What fandoms do you write for?

on ao3? used to write for the ch**tiverse, still write for Victoria Goddard's Nine Worlds. well, okay im on hiatus from participating in fan stuff bc i got too much going on and i have complicated feelings abt fandom. but. on ffnet? naruto, inuyasha, bleach, fairy tail, danny phantom. i think.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

we have time (love this one - much needed natural hair content in that fandom, much needed)

you can't even see how much you're mine (i'm really proud of this one)

before we have time

just for now

gazing at the sun

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i respond to everyone's comments if i can remember LOL

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

you can't even see how much you're mine. really exorcised my polyamory baggage with that one LMAO

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

mmmmm none of them end poorly but they end heavily, if that makes sense? but also they don't. like most of my fanfiction as an adult in my 30s is discussion of wants and needs in a relationship and hashing out things that need to be talked abt

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i have on ffnet when i was a teen and giving every naruto character in my biopunk fanfic like 4 codenames SDKVDFLVMS

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

yuh. "just for now" is smut (old man yaoi). and there's another i think. i wanted to really confront my sex repulsion and explore my own boundaries around what i write.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

naur i never understood crossovers v well. i love an AU tho

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

probably not. on ffnet it was SO goth edgelord and now it's extremely poetic prose. (and when i say POETIC prose i mean it tend to be concise and abstract, not that its purple) who wants that LOL

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

naur

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

yes! my first fanfiction was with my childhood friend Sunshine and we posted a double-self-insert absolute MANIC fanfic set in the world of Inuyasha posted to ffnet. one of my fondest memories. i dictated, she wrote.

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

i don't have one these days but i shant say what it used to be only that it made me insane from the time i was 14 to the age of 25.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

i had an old man yaoi urban fantasy au wherein a character who used to be the chosen one had been imprisoned and was surviving the trauma of that as a music teacher and i read a ton of prison literature for it and watched documentaries and watched interviews and spent WEEKS researching trauma from incarceration and what it means to be incarcerated (part of this was because my birth father was about to be incarcerated and i was trying to write through my understanding of what he'd be going through) and researching what town councils do. and then a (now former) friend had torn apart the fic paragraph by paragraph during beta and wrote how boring parts were and no one wanted to hear abt me talking abt poetry in the fanfic and it was my FIRST fanfic since i was in my early twenties and i basically deleted the whole thing out of embarrassment and hurt. iykyk who it was. idk if i can ever go back to that. i just don't. i want to but. even strangers in workshops aren't that cruel LOL

16. What are your writing strengths?

i'm a pretty/poetic writer good at relationship shit i think. i'm good at grounding the reader in a sense of place and my writing is very tactile. it's embodied.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i am a pretty/poetic writer

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i know some spanish and a little french and even less russian (i'm like learning that one through osmosis) but it's not v applicable. hmmmm i wouldn't try unless i was fluent.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

inuyasha

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

either the naruto biopunk fanfiction on ffnet (i turned that one into a fanfic from a biopunk short story i had written in high school it's v close to my heart even if edgy) or "you can't even see how much you're mine" bc i put a lot into that or "we have time" because your partner doing your natural hair IS a love language.

if yall wanna hop in i'm tagging @toopunkrockforshul @cadencekismet @markeyverse

[voltagesmutter]

Yoosung’s Match

Doing something different-ish, focusing on a series without the smut, lolol. After starting Yoosung’s route, I am so soft for him! I wanted to a series where him and mc share interests, including LoLoL. 

Pairing: Yoosung x OC (Dove)

Summary: When a stranger enters the RFA chat, no-one expected an almost female version of Yoosung to be the participant who would be the key to beginning their parties one more. Will their similarities pull them together or will another come in and sweep her away?

Warnings: None, only reference to game from day 1-11 so spoilers for those not played Yoosung.

Note: This chapter is based off day’s 1 and then day 5 from Yoosungs route. Written in the form like the chatroom. Features clips and conversations from the game but also own created content. Focuses on certain chatrooms rather than every individual one, wish to focus more on developing a storyline with Yoosung than the whole party and gameplay.

Chapter 1: Dove has entered the chatroom.

[Dove has entered the chat]

 Yoosung★: Failed my midterms fml T_T

707: Cuz u played LOLOL all night lol.

Jumin: If you want to work for our company, you should take care of your GPA.

Yoosung★: I’m still on the list?! +_+

Jumin: Yes.

707: Nice~ Can’t believe u get to work straight after college lol

707: In this day and age!

Zen: Lame. It’s nepotism.

Jumin: It’s called recruitment actually.

Zen: It’s giving a free pass instead of actually training the worker.

Jumin: Whatever. I couldn’t care less what you say.

Zen: What’s the difference between recruitment and nepotism?

707: Thought they r the same? O_O?

Jumin: It’s nepotism if you recruit a person you know and they aren’t of any help.

Yoosung★: Oh… So you become a candidate for nepotism the same time you’re recruited!

Zen: 

707: Wait!!

Yoosung★: Why?

Zen: ??

707: Think someone entered the chat room;;

Jumin: Dove…?

Zen: Wtf. How did it get in here?

707: Hacker!

Yoosung★: Hacker!? Therae’s a hacker in ouer room!!!

Yoosung★: Sevnee do somethign!!

Zen: Hey, typos. -_-;;

707: Wait a sec. I’m searching.

Jumin: Who are you? Reveal yourself. Hey, Assistant Kang.

Jaehee: Yes, I am here.

Zen: You were so quiet I thought you went somewhere.

Jaehee: Nothing was out of the ordinary so I was just watching

Jaehee: but I see something has just happened.

Yoosung★: omg

Jumin: Why is a stranger in our chatroom?

Jaehee: No one can enter this chatroom without installing the private app we use… It seems someone has downloaded the RFA Messenger.

Yoosung★: I thought Seven let only us download it?

Dove: Hello…

707: I traced the IP…

707: It’s from Rika’s apartment.

Yoosung★: Rika’s apartment?

Jumin: Where was it?

Jaehee: The location is not revealed. I know it to be classified.

707: Anyways, someone must have broken into her apt.

707: It talked now, so it must be a person ^^;

Jumin: Quit shitting around.

Jumin: Dove… Who are you?

Jumin: Reveal yourself, stranger.

Jumin: If you do not reveal yourself, you will pay.

Yoosung★: Yeees! Who are u?!

Zen: Use proper english please.

707: If it doesn’t say anything I’ll hack in and find out.

Zen: …Maybe

Zen: one of my fans?

Dove: Reveal yourselves first. I’m the most confused one here…

Jumin: How fierce.

Zen: Are you a woman?

707: Zen. Be more serious, plz?

707: And wait a sec on the woman thing.

707: Looking it up.

Yoosung★: Should we… introduce ourselves?

Jumin: Are you serious…?

Jaehee: I think it is a bit too early for that.

Zen: Hi. I’m Zen. (24 yrs old) Musical actor… Don’t look me up on the internet.

Zen: It’s embarrassing.

Yoosung★: Zen, you’re so brave!

Jumin: Guess he wanted to show himself off.

Zen: No way~!

Zen: 

Yoosung★: Omg… a photo too.

Jaehee: My eyes have been cleansed.

Jaehee:

Dove: Oh, I haven’t heard of you, sorry…

Dove: Yes to before, I am woman.

Zen: What?!

*Heart break appears on screen*

Jumin: I see that he has zero interest in his privacy.

707: Lolol

707: My nickname’s 707.

707: Real name is a secret.

707: Fyi, Zen’s real name is Hyun Ryu.

Zen: Your name’s a secret but not mine?;

707: U don’t care anyways lol.

Jaehee: 707 does have the strangest name so I understand the secrecy.

707:  The name’s too holy to be spread around~ I’m gonna pray after I finish hacking.

707: Just remember me as the 22yr old young hacker lol

707: Where I live is also a secret.

Zen: So many secrets;;

Yoosung★: I’m Yoosung Kim! I’m a college student… 21 yrs old.

Yoosung★: 

707: So warm and fuzzy here

Zen: Lol. Seven, you don’t have any selfies to show?

707: Nothing recent.

707: Oh and also!

707: Jumin’s the heir of a pretty famous corporation and Jaehee is his assistant. 27 and 26 yrs old respectively.

707: You have a better sense of who we are now, Dove?

Jumin: Why did you say that…?

707: Doubted you’d do it urself.

Jumin: Stop shitting around.

707: Oh, fyi, Jumin has the cutest cat.

Jumin: Hey.

Jumin: Why are we talking about Elizabeth the 3rd to a stranger?

707: The cat’s name is Elizabeth the 3rd.

707: 

Yoosung★: That info’s a bit useless…

Yoosung★: We’re not even close with this Dove person yet lol

Jumin: Can’t believe he showed a photo of Elizabeth the 3rd to a stranger…

Jumin: Idiot…

Zen: Stop talking about cats. Giving me goosebumps.

Jaehee: I suggest that we take care of this stranger first.

Jaehee: Could it be that we have a security breach?

Zen: True. Dove, how did you get in here?

Yoosung★: Is it really in Rika’s apartment?

707: Yup. It’s for sure…

707: How did it get the apartment password?!

Zen: Where the hell is the apartment?

Dove: I came here while chatting with a personal called ‘Unknown’. Do you know him by any chance?

Dove: But anyway, I’m Dove. 

Jumin: Unknown?

Zen: Maybe he just didn’t set a username?

707: It’s mandatory to set a username so he must have set it that way.

707: Maybe…

Yoosung★: How did you end up chatting with that person?

Jaehee: I see.

Jaehee: Where did you download this messenger app?

Jaehee: Dove, you are quite strange as well.

Zen: Do you think this person’s a creep? No way.

Dove: I got it in the app store, I just downloaded it and then was suddenly in a room with unknown and now all of you…

Dove: I just wanted to play games lolol

Yoosung★: You like games too!

Yoosung★: I love games.

Yoosung★: Wait!

Yoosung★: Did you say lolol as in LoLoL?!

Zen: Dude. A girl won’t play that game;

Zen: Don’t ask stupid questions.

Yoosung★: T_T

Dove: Does the wizard of Tarth ever lie?

Yoosung★:

Yoosung★: Yoousung.exe has stopped working.

Yoosung★: You play?!

707: Anyways.

707: I should trace the person who distributed the app.

 [Day 1]

[7:00 am]

Yoosung★ entered the chat

Dove entered the chat

Yoosung★: Do you know that Zen always complains about being single these days?

Yoosung★: But I’ve never even been in a relationship T_T

Dove: Are you not interested in girls?

Yoosung★: …I guess…

Yoosung★: I feel better when I team up with a girl character when playing games.

Yoosung★: And it makes it more interesting if there’s a girl in the guild…

Yoosung★: Was you serious when you said you played?

Dove: Level 69 Mage at your service

Yoosung★: I…

Yoosung★: I’ve rarely met a girl who plays! 

Yoosung★: Are you in a guild?!

Yoosung★: I’m hoping to be a guildmaster one day.

Dove: Ever heard of ‘Tribe of War’?

Yoosung★: We are sworn enemies!

Yoosung★:...

Yoosung★: But my special talent is defending the peace! So I guess I can let our guild war slide

Dove: You bring peace to the world young sir!

Yoosung★: 707 play’s sometimes!

Yoosung★: Maybe we could have an online meet up!

Yoosung★: Since we can’t in real life.

Yoosung★: I wish he would give us the address to Rika’s apartment…

Dove: I’d like that!

Dove: But we have the party to focus on!

Yoosung★: I really like you T_T

Yoosung★: It’s only been a day and I can’t wait to meet you lolol.

Yoosung★: I have class at 9 so I have to go take the bus now.

Yoosung★: The poor fate of a college student…!

Yoosung★: I have to go now. I’m almost running late!

Yoosung★: Dove, let’s talk soon! >_<

Yoosung★ has left the chatroom.

 [18:02pm]

 Dove entered the chat

Yoosung★ entered the chat

 Dove: Hey Yoosung★.

Yoosung★: Dove, hey^^.

Yoosung★: Today’s the day you joined the organization.

Yoosung★: Usually at this hour, I would have been playing games…

Yoosung★: but I couldn’t really calm myself down.

Yoosung★: Why don’t we talk more about ourselves?

Dove: Well what would you like to know?

Yoosung★: Well, all Seven told us is that

Yoosung★: you’re a cute girl.

Yoosung★: I want to know… your interests, what you do, and things like that in detail.

Yoosung★: I do want to ask you directly.

Yoosung★: But it does feel a bit too soon for that…

Yoosung★: I would just like to talk to you like this and get to know you gradually.

Dove: I’d like to get to know you better as well.

Yoosung★: A girl who plays lolol and wants to know me

Yoosung★: Are you really real? 

Yoosung★: This isn’t a whole thing of 707 playing a prank is it…?

Dove: Lol I hope not.

Dove: I’m very real, even though I don’t really feel real living in someone else's apartment…

Dove: But I’m excited for the party, I hope I do right by you all.

Yoosung★: I think all the organization members are thinking the same thing.

Yoosung★: If you could do what Rika used to do

Yoosung★: we’d get to host parties again!

Dove: I’ll do my best!

Yoosung★: Do you feel pressured because of everything I’m saying?

Yoosung★: If V donates his photographs, then I’m sure a lot of people will come.

Yoosung★: So you don’t have to worry so much.

Dove: Thank you! 

Yoosung★: Sure!

Yoosung★: Tell me whenever it gets hard!

Yoosung★: I should go play games now!

Yoosung★: There’s a pretty important showdown today.

Yoosung★: Wish me luck so I can win!

Dove: Good luck oh mighty defender of peace!

Yoosung★: Thank u >_<

Yoosung★: Then see ya~!

Yoosung★ has left the chatroom.

 [22:30] 

Yoosung★ entered the chatroom.

 Dove: Yoosung★ your still up?

Yoosung★: Hey, you here too! 

Yoosung★: I can’t believe I’m talking to the new member~

Yoosung★: I still feel dazed.

Yoosung★: I can’t even focus on gaming today.

Yoosung★: I have so much on my mind because of you…

Dove: All good I hope Lolol.

Yoosung★:

Yoosung★:  My mind’s going blank now -_-…

Yoosung★: I can’t get thoughts of you out of my head…

Yoosung★: Haha

Yoosung★: Thank you so much for helping.

Yoosung★: Even tomorrow… you could escape Rika’s apartment…

Yoosung★: Delete this app

Yoosung★: and never talk to us again.

Yoosung★: I would really miss you if that happens.

Yoosung★: Please… don’t abandon us.

Dove: I won’t.

Dove: I promise.

Dove: Beside you owe me a meet up on LoLol!

Yoosung★: Yes! Yes. 

Yoosung★: As soon as everything is settled with party.

Yoosung★: I don’t want to feel like I’m pressuring you too much.

Yoosung★: Oh the time! I best be off, I have an early start tomorrow.

Dove: Goodnight~

Yoosung★: Goodnight!

Yoosung★ has left the chatroom.

[Day 5]

[9:40]

Yoosung★ entered the chat

 Dove: Goodmorning Yoosung!

Yoosung★: Dove, goodmorning^^

Yoosung★: I’m just brushing my teeth!

Yoosung★: Did you… see the photo Seven posted?

Yoosung★: I really miss it…

Yoosung★: It would have been nice if Rika was in the photo too…!

Yoosung★: Seeing the photo makes me get excited about the next party ^^

Dove: You looked so young and different!

Dove: I like your hair blonde, it suits you better!

Yoosung★: You do?!

Yoosung★: I kinda dyed it because....

Yoosung★: I thought it would help get a girlfriend.

Yoosung★: But since you like, that’s got to be a good sign right?

Yoosung★: I’m curious to know what colour hair you have.

Dove: I mean I would show you if 707 gave me image permission.

Dove: But I guess for now you see me like this Dove: [Website Link]

Yoosung★: THAT'S YOU?!

Dove: That was me at the LoLoL convention in the fall.

Dove: I cosplayed as my character.

Yoosung★: C-Cosplay!

Yoosung★: This is all too much.

Yoosung★: A pretty girl who plays LoLoL and cosplays.

Yoosung★: I-

Yoosung★: I have to go! My break is almost over!

Yoosung★: And just when it was all getting good.

Yoosung★: Bye Dove! Yoosung★★ has left the chatroom.

 [14:36]

707 entered the chat.

 Dove: 707~ Hello!

707: Hello!

707: I was scrolling through the chatrooms and saw you almost kill Yoosung★ earlier.

707: I’m still struggling to believe that that's you.

707: Especially since I’m the only one whos seen the real you.

Dove: Well if I could send photos to you all.

Dove: You can’t laugh but…

Dove: I love sharing photos of my food.

Dove: I really want to send some to Yoosung★, he’s always asking and checking I’m eating.

707: For the sake of the apartment location I can’t allow it.

Dove: Oh come on, Mr.Defender of justice!

Dove: I just want to share some snack photos every now and then.

Dove: There’s a vender outside who sells these buns in the shape of fish, stuffed with chocolate!

707: They are-

707: My favourite.

707: Beside HoneyBuddha Chips.

Dove: HoneyBuddha Chips…?

707: You’ve never…?

707: I’ll bring you a bag to the party.

707: Only a bag though.

707: But once you start them, you’ll be addicted to them.

707: Like me.

Dove: I look forward to it!

707: Gahhh.

707: Just got work again….

707: About the photo’s… I’ll see what I can do.

Dove: Thank you 707~

Dove: You're the best!

707: Lol, tell me something I don’t know.

 707 left the chat.

[18:25]

 Dove entered the chat.

 Dove: Yoosung, how was the library?

Yoosung★: Dove, you're here!

Yoosung★: I missed you hehe.

Jumin: You two are really warming it up.

Yoosung★: What are you talking about~!

Dove: Did you guys see about Zen?

Jumin: I saw Zen injuries himself.

Yoosung★: Yeah I saw too.

Yoosung★: Don’t worry Dove, Zen is the kinda guy to bounce straight back!

Jumin: I’m sure it’s torture for him to rest right now.

Jumin: Haha…

Yoosung★: Jumin… I feel like you’re enjoying this…;;

Jumin: Being with Elizabeth the 3rd is always enjoyable.

Yoosung★: Oh, you’re with your cat right now;;

Dove: I once went to a cat cafe!

Dove: I feel like you’d enjoy it Jumin.

Jumin: A cat cafe…

Jumin: I’d rather spend time with that narcissist then eat cat.

Dove: No you silly!

Dove: It’s a cafe where you get to go and eat with cats.

Dove: You can feed them, pet them whilst taking loads of cute photos! It’s really cute.

Dove: Hold up, let me just…

Dove: Look the one fell asleep atop of my head!

Yoosung★: Wait, you can send us photos now?!

Jumin: I need…

Jumin: To ask assistant Kang about investing into one of these…

Jumin: I fear if I went to one, Miss.Elizabeth would become jealous of smelling other cats upon me.

Jumin: But I like this, very much.

Jumin: If you’ll excuse me, I need to make a phone call about producing one of these for Miss.Elizabeth.

Jumin left the chat.

Yoosung★: You are really cute~

Dove: Aha thank you! 

Dove: I had the best time when I went.

Yoosung★: I can’t believe I get to see the real you.

Yoosung★: Before anyone else as well!

Yoosung★: Well except 707 and Jumin… 

Yoosung★: But before the others and the party as well!

Dove: I asked 707 about it earlier.

Dove: I wanted to be able to send you photos of my food, to prove to you I’m eating.

Yoosung★: You asked him so you could send me photos?

Yoosung★: Thank you. MC.

Yoosung★: For appearing in front of me.

MC: Yoosung, you’re cute.

Yoosung★: Me?!

Yoosung★: Guys tend to not like being called cute…

Yoosung★: but why do I feel so strange hearing it from you?

Yoosung★: I should go to bed now. I don’t know if I’ll sleep though…

Yoosung★: Are you going to stay up?

MC: Yes.

Yoosung★: Okay.

Yoosung★: Don’t work too hard ^^

Yoosung★: I feel bad if you’re tired.

Yoosung★: Then I’ll get going!

Yoosung★ has left the chatroom

[petersthree]

I was tagged by @swordmastersokkas and @superhero-bastards, thanks guys! <3

Rules: Choose any three fandoms and answer the questions, then tag some friends!

I choose: well, the last three fandoms that I reblogged onto my blog because I would have sat here for 30 minutes choosing otherwise. 

The Umbrella Academy 

9-1-1 

Stranger Things

The first character you loved:

idk who was the first sibling to grace my screen probably....Diego? He seems like he’s very much my type?? Yeah okay I think it went, “Diego is exactly the type of character I lo-THE GHOST BROTHER IS THERE????” when I tell you that my brain cells went straight out the window.....

Oooh I do believe it would be Bobby. He just gave off soft dad vibes and I absolutely adored that. 

Oh my god Will, I saw him and was like! Child! My son! Must protect! 

The character you never expected to love so much:

Luther!! soft monkey man 💗 <-- straight up stealing Dani’s comment there. I always expected I’d end up liking Luther at some point but I love him so, so much now 

Athena!!! I had a hard time getting to like her and Buck, but I knew from gifsets that I’d end up loving Buck eventually so I just. Adore Athena and her character a lot and I’m very glad I do. 

STEVE. Oh my goodness the arc that he went through..I am so glad they decided to change his character into a good, sweet guy because he got a Zuko-version redemption (it’s v funny bc there’s a post detailing why Zuko’s redemption works and they can be applied to Steve’s in season 1 and!! Further evidence backing that post up if I could just FIND it lol). But I love Steve a lot!!! 

The character you relate to the most:

diego, vanya, and ben. no i shan’t elaborate (bc i already did in our discord server. talk about overshare. anyway join the dark side, we have bots and chaos) <--- Again, stealing Dani’s answer lol

Ooooh. Very hard. I think I want to say Chimney. I feel like I have elements of Maddie and Buck but overall I think I fit Chim’s vibe and he’s the character I’m the most similar to, but while hers is faaar more intense that mine I think Maddie’s arc and coping really gets to me and Buck is bi because he’s definitely bi so you know. 

Hm. I’m not super sure that I relate to any of them honestly? I think if I had to choose I’d say Robin, probably, but that’s it really. 

The character you’d slap:

reginald :) <---- agAIN, stealing dani’s answer

I don’t.....think there’s anyone lolol 

:))))) His name isn’t Whispers, that’s the dude from Sense8, but whatever tf that guy’s name was who experimented on El. :)))) Also Billy, because he’s a racist and hurt my boy Lucas

Three favorite characters (in order of preference):

yes <-- I am once again saying that I am stealing Dani’s - okay fine, make me choose and obviously Ben is my favorite okay, and then Diego is my second favorite, what can I say, I’m weak for them. But all the other siblings are tied for third okay 

oooh very hard bc I like a lot of them equally uhhh okay 1. Maddie and Chimney no I won’t choose you can’t make me 2. Buck 3. hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng Bo...bby? Actually no, the entire Grant-Nash family is in #3 lol 

Steve, then the rest of the scoops troop, then either Will or Lucas! Best characters hands down honestly 

A character you liked at first but don’t anymore:

no <-- guess whose answer I stole this from 

idk if she really counts but Abby? I was more “meh whatever” on her to “ehhh I don’t think I really like her” but it teetered between that and neutrality 

I don’t not like him but I was....very much not a fan of the way they decided to write Hopper this last season and I feel like a lot of things make me go “I guess I’m electing to ignore this” to continue liking him I’m ngl

A character you did not like at first but now do:

…luther once again <-- do we even have to guess 

I don’t think I have anyone? 

I guess Murray. He gave off kind of creepy vibes season 2 imo and I wasn’t the biggest fan of him but I actually rather liked him in season 3! :)

Three OTPs:

diego/lila, vanya/sissy, allison/ray (and klaus/dave but we haven’t seen much of them) <--- Dani are we twins? I think we’re twins 

Buck/Eddie, Maddie/Chimney, and Bobbie/Athena (sorry @ hen and karen asdfjkl) 

I’m cheating bc this one is an OT3 but - Steve/Nancy/Jonathan (cowards, get them together!!!), Joyce/Hopper, and none of the kid ships are OTPs to me I just think the kids are adorable so like? I guess one of those ships 

I’m tagging: @superbandnerd99 @electro--coffee @incendiaglacies @zaritomaz @piggiesaregreen @vaughnsgreenwood and whoever else wants to do this :)

[disposedserenity]

*rough* review of MOTS:7

The title might say review, but it’s really just my own thoughts that I want to share in the form of verbal vomit. STREAM while u read.

1) Interlude: SHADOW I loved the song right away on first listen. The extended version is soooo good, because it traces back to yoongi’s iconic ‘I want big house, big cars, big rings’ line from NMD. Thematically, this is my favourite concept out of the 3 rap line solos (Persona, Shadow & Ego). Yoongi songs all immediately reasonate with me because the stuff he writes about are what I’ve experienced at one point in my life.... and I feel so deeply when yoongi is rapping about it. At this point, I could go on forever about why I love yoongi songs so much but I will stop here.

2) Black Swan

It took me about three listens to fully appreciate the song, but I KNEW I was going to love it when I heard that trap beat and the bump bump bump lyric... Then I watched the performance, and I just loved it even more. For years, I’ve been fervently wishing that bts (especially jimin) would do a contemporary dance and I AM SO GLAD THEY DID!! Speaking of the dance, that’s another analysis on it’s own.... The way they match the dance steps to the lyrics.... Also this song lined up right after shadow makes perfect sense because Shadow talks about losing yourself into the deepest and darkest recesses of your soul while in Black Swan, the boys step into that shadow and confront it because they realise you have to make peace with your shadow to emerge triumphant.

3) Filter

I swear, this could be an Alec Benjamin song because this song has Alec Benjamin VIBES all over. Well, I guess jimin took inspiration from him because he put a ton of alec’s songs on his spotify playlist and even went to his concert so yey! Both their voice tones are similar ish because it’s very distinct and their singing voices are quite different from their speaking voices so it’d be really cool if they made a song together. Funnily enough, I don’t really like this song as much as I thought I’d would. It’s not a bad song, but I think I don’t gravitate to this song as much because this song was written about jimin for jimin and it’s really himself that he’s singing it to.

This song also radiates BIG libra energy. Libras love changing and moulding their personalities to please other people and they put on various personas to showcase the multi-faceted sides of themselves (sorry, just a huge astrology enthusiast here lolol). Filter has a narcissist undertone to it done in a purposeful manner. The protagonist of this song KNOWS he’s desired and is flaunting it in any way possible. They are aware of the power they hold and are wielding it to control the listener (the pursuers) Ahahaha sounds like someone we know? Recently, I told a friend that Jimin is really good at fan service. He’s the idol of idols, his face and name gets recognised first, everyone wants to be him AND be with him.... To sum it up, filter is jimin showing the world that he has many sides and it doesn’t matter which we are going to choose because he can adapt to whichever one you please (this push and pull reminds me a lot of house of cards hmm...)

4) My Time

Jungkook definitely has some magic where his song always gets to me and I immediately like the song. I think he excels in laying out his emotions bare and this creates a perfect canvas for telling his story. I definitely cannot relate to what he talks about in My TIme because I am not a jetsetting global superstar who vary between time zones (not that I know of), yet I still feel like I’ve been in his exact footsteps and know that feeling. This, my friends, is what true skill looks like. The rarest of musicians are able to write a song about themselves and make it relevant to almost everyone. It’s an impossible task. Yet, this golden maknae has succeeded once again.

In Begin, he talks about leaving Seoul to pursue his dreams and dedicates that song to his 6 members, his 6 newfound brothers, the hardships they go through and again, this hits you hard. You might not have left your hometown at a young age, but everyone has left something or someone behind in their lives. Euphoria ALWAYS makes me melancholic even though I clearly 1) am not young, 2) do not have a first love 3) minus bts, would NOT call anyone the cause of my euphoria but shit, jungkook out here got me feeling things and tearing up.

Thank you jungkook for constantly expressing your thoughts in such a clear way in any song you write, and My Time is no exception (and it sounds like such a r&b banger too)

5) Louder than Bombs

TROYE! SIVAN! You absolutely can hear troye’s fingerprints all over this song because this song sounds like a troye song (in the best way possible, because I looooove troye and his music) This is another classic “happy sounding but sad af lyrics” bangtan moment. Louder than Bombs is a good midway point in the album because they are crossing into the sad, aggressive, heart tearing, no bullshit songs territory.

(I don’t have a lot to say about this because I really love this song and sometimes with songs that I like, I just sit back and enjoy for what it is.)

6) ON

OKAY NOW LET’S GET INTO FORMATION! (yes, this was the first thing that it reminded me of hahaha and her superbowl half time performance had a marching band too) THIS.IS.SUCH.AN.ABSOLUTE.EARWORM. I LOVE IT. The 30 second preview made me so intrigued because it only featured the “hey na na na” part so I wondered what ON would sound like. I was NOT expecting it to sound like that, but what can I say? BTS always blows me away with their title tracks.

Speaking of formation, hooooo boy do I love the formation of this choreography. Mad props to The Lab for pulling this out of their hat because IT IS SO IMPRESSIVE. The set up reminds me of dionysus too, in the way that the choreography is being arranged in the live performances. Big ups to the Blue Devils marching band too, because even though you can’t really see much of them in the mv (or maybe I’m too focused on the boys lol) but you can hear the marching band so much clearer in the audio and I am LIVING for it. Overall, I am utterly thrilled by this masterpiece.

7) UGH!

*gunshots* alright back to 2013 bangtan let’s go. UGH, when will rap line stop making a banger? never I guess, UGH. lord, just let me get dissed by rap line once and then life would be better.

I. fucking. love. the. rap. line. I am definitely not smart enough to try to analyse or decipher the lyrics even with translations because their wordplay is on a whole other level. With cyphers and ddaeng, I really shouldn’t be surprised anymore but I still am. They manage to outdo themselves with every new song they release together. RM, Suga and J-Hope are great on their own but you put them TOGETHER? in one STUDIO? god help us all when this is performed live because someone’s gonna get headbanged out of the venue. I’ll end this with a silent prayer for a rap line concert.....

8) 00:00

This song is so, so, so painful. This song is what Tonight is to me. Ok I’m going to get a whole lot more personal here.

I was in a fucking terrible internship last year during the period Persona was released (I’m actually quite thankful this song wasn’t released then or I’d really have full on goblin ugly cry listening to this). That was the worst job experience I’ve ever had in my life (lao tian ye please don’t deal me any more shitty hands). I spent every day wishing that my misery would end soon and I physically did not want to go to work the next day. Every morning, I was almost crying to have to get up to go to work (and because it was an almost 2 hour journey to the office). By the time I reached home, all I could do was eat (if I had an appetite) and retire to my room and lie on the floor and just stare into my ceiling while mindlessly scrolling through social media looking for some sort of solace. Some days, even bts wasn’t doing it for me. Even though I managed to get out of that hellhole before the end date, the trauma (lol can I call it that?) and emotions stayed with me throughout the rest of the year. Only one friend knew I had depression and constantly asked me about it (thank you friend, even though you won’t read this...) and I even looked up therapists in singapore.

The lyrics ‘An unsettling night, suddenly, I look at the clock. Soon, it’s 12 O’Clock. Will something change. It probably won’t be the case’ hits so hard because this describes my situation to a T. By the time I got home, it was about 8.30 and by the time I snapped out of my mindlessness, it was almost midnight and this cycle just carried on for months. 

Zero O’Clock

And you gonna be happy

Midnight is both a happy and sad hour, because for some it could signal the end of their misery or their happiness. Back then, it was my hell because it meant a new hellish day was approaching. Looking back now, I realise it could have been a tiny form of happiness because it meant that the days are passing and the end to my pain was getting closer.

So thank you Jin, Jungkook, V and Jimin for creating such a beautiful song that I didn’t know would end up being so personal. Putting aside the meaning, it is such a great song that I’d put on repeat. But I’m scared to call this a favourite because of how intimate this is for me so I hope y’all understand. But, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

9) Inner Child

This sounds like it should be a in a drama or anime haha. The “whoa ohhhh” vocals in the backgrounds reminds me a lot of Jet Lag too. Inner Child is a very fitting title because as V described, it is a letter to his past self. As an ARMY, I’ve witnessed how much V has matured over the past few years. I mean even though all of the members have also grown, V’s transformation is the one that stands out the most (at least to me). Tae went from a bright eyed outgoing kid to a still outgoing but deeply contemplative adult in front of millions of adoring fans and strangers alike, and I cannot imagine how that must be like for him. V is a notoriously private person, and we know the least about if you reeeally think about it. I will never (nor do I want to) know what goes through his mind but I appreciate the fact he reveals a tiny glimpse of it in his songs (scenery, winter bear and now inner child).

10) Friends

CAN YOU SPELL SOULMATES? NO YOU CAN’T, BECAUSE THERE IS NO VMIN IN IT. Ships are cute and all, but vmin has trascended beyond what ships are and I’m convinced they are all part of a bigger plan arranged by the Almighty that no matter what happens, they will always find each other in their four lives (can you tell I’ve been watching Goblin lolol). Recently, I was listening to a podcast by Jae and the episode was about the probability of soulmates. One of the questions he posed was what is a soulmate? To me, I believe that soulmates exist in many forms. There are the romantic soulmates (hi glenn & benn), friendship soulmates, family soulmates, strangers soulmates and even a bond between a pet and a human. I now think there should be another category of soulmates and that is vmin. *cries I want what vmin have* Not everyone manages to find their soulmates. The lucky ones do, and the rest of us will have to settle for second best.

Also kudos to Jimin for his first ever produced song! woohoo

11) Moon

When I first read that this was a song about Jin’s love for ARMY, I braced myself for a full waterfall of tears. However, I was pleasantly surprised by how happy this song sounds??? (thanks jin for not making me cry again like tonight did). Now that I think about it, of course Jin would make a happy love song (pffft saggis). As we all know, Jin’s way of comforting himself is to comfort others through laughter, smiles and lotsa dad jokes. No one else but Jin would and I love him even more for this. He takes the idea of what you’d think a love song would sound like and turn it around. SAD? NOT IN JINHIT ENTERTAINMENT.

Jin, know that you are more than a handsome face and the oldest member. You are loved more than you think you are. You think you’re the moon to us? No hun, you are the entire galaxy contained in those worldwide shoulders.

12) Respect

My favourite track. I mean starting with that iconic “should I stay or should I go” line? Genuis. Collab of the year. Namgi of the year. Ok, maybe I am slightly (alot) bias since this song is essentially Suga, RM & El Capitixn (yes, THE El Capitixn that helped to produce DDAENG).

Namgi dynamics are so rarely talked about because most people see them as the underground rapper duo who’ve known each other over 10 years and are old friends and that’s about it. Their dynamics just gets to me even more because the trust and respect they have for each other is incredible. Joon looks up to yoongi as an older member and also for his incredible work ethic, while yoongi trusts joon wholeheartedly as their leader even though joon is younger and the way they banter off each other? ugh, where can I get bros like namgi? Their rap and producing styles are so vastly different yet the result that is respect makes ME respect them. Use me as your slave, masters.

bonus: that ending clip of them just having a convo? please share your stories from back in the day, please. I said please. with a cherry on top.

13) We are Bulletroof: the Eternal

Is this MOTS : 7′s answer to Mikrokosmos? I can already imagine this as the ending song of a concert..... A perfect tune to end the album as well. Who knew my attraction to the number seven had a deeper meaning than just simply liking it huh? Is my life preplanned too.... @ universe  give me answers. I really like how this song did not go the WABB Part 1 & 2 route and took a softer approacher indeed. It’s almost like they are saying we were seven hardened boys made more tender with the existence of armys.... ok bitch don’t make me cry anymore than I have been suppressing.

“we are not seven, with you” :’))))

14) Outro: Ego

This is the kind of song that gets better the more you listen to it. Not that it was bad on the first listen, but usually such bright and positive songs takes a while longer for the emo in me to process. I say this all the time that I almost sound like a broken recorder, but I LOVE LOVE how hobi has crafted a sound for him that is uniquely his and you will be able to immediately recognise it’s him (which is such a hard feat to pull off, might I add). I’m also immensely proud because he started out as a street dancer to becoming one of the best rappers in the industry while holding his rightful candle alongside two already established rappers that is namgi. I cannot wait to see this being performed live because you just know he’ll get everyone and their grandmas to start vibin right there.

In conclusion, I love bts. what else is there more to say.

[lilith-fics]

all the content belongs to cheritz:

-prologue: day 1-

MC has entered the chatroom.

YOOSUNG: Failed my midterms fml T_T

707: Cuz u played LOLOL all night lol.

JUMIN: If you want to work for our company, you should take care of your GPA.

YOOSUNG: I’m still on the list?! +_+

JUMIN: Yes.

707: Nice~ Can’t believe u get to work straight after college lol

707: In this day and age!

ZEN: Lame. It’s nepotism.

JUMIN: It’s called recruitment actually.

ZEN: It’s giving a free pass instead of actually training the worker.

JUMIN: Whatever. I couldn’t care less what you say.

ZEN: What’s the difference between recruitment and nepotism?

707: Thought they r the same? O_O?

JUMIN: It’s nepotism if you recruit a person you know and they aren’t of any help.

YOOSUNG: Oh… So you become a candidate for nepotism the same time you’re recruited!

707: Wait!!

YOOSUNG: Why?

ZEN: ??

707: Think someone entered the chat room;;

JUMIN: MC…?

ZEN: Wtf. How did it get in here?

707: Hacker!

YOOSUNG: Hacker!? Therae’s a hacker in ouer room!!!

YOOSUNG: Sevnee do somethign!!

ZEN: Hey, typos. -_-;;

707: Wait a sec. I’m searching.

JUMIN: Who are you? Reveal yourself. Hey, Assistant Kang.

JAEHEE: Yes, I am here.

ZEN: You were so quiet I thought you went somewhere.

JAEHEE: Nothing was out of the ordinary so I was just watching

JAEHEE: but I see something has just happened.

YOOSUNG: omg

JUMIN: Why is a stranger in our chatroom?

JAEHEE: No one can enter this chatroom without installing the private app we use… It seems someone has downloaded the RFA Messenger.

YOOSUNG: I thought Seven let only us download it?

ZEN: Maybe someone downloaded the app on two phones?

707: Maybe?

JUMIN: Who downloaded it twice?

YOOSUNG: Not me!

MC: Hello…

YOOSUNG: Gahhhh it’s talking!!

ZEN: So it’s not two smartphones.

JUMIN: Who is it?

YOOSUNG: Find out what it is!

JAEHEE: How did you find out about this place? Where did you download the application?

707: Oh… ^^; Wait.

ZEN: What is it. Hurry and tell me.

707: I traced the IP…

707: It’s from Rika’s apartment.

YOOSUNG: Rika’s apartment?

JUMIN: Where was it?

JAEHEE: The location is not revealed. I know it to be classified.

707: Anyways, someone must have broken into her apt.

707: It talked now, so it must be a person ^^;

YOOSUNG: So it hacked the program, Seven?

707: Yup

YOOSUNG: Who are you?! How did you get into Rika’s apartment?!

YOOSUNG: How did you get this app?!

YOOSUNG: Gah~ So scared right now…

YOOSUNG: I thought the apartment has a passworh lobk?

ZEN: Typo

JAEHEE: I assume it was a break in.

JAEHEE: Username “MC”, I recommend that you confess.

ZEN: Jaehee, would you voluntarily confess to everything if it were you?

JAEHEE: No. But it is good to ask first.

707: Lolol

JUMIN: Quit shitting around.

JUMIN: MC… Who are you?

JUMIN: Reveal yourself, stranger.

JUMIN: If you do not reveal yourself, you will pay.

ZEN: Stranger you will pay? Lmfao

ZEN: omg~*so scary*~

ZEN: It might be a girl.

707: That’s sexist lol. U should watch what u say now that ur a famous actor.

ZEN: I’m not famous;; just a bit recognizable.

YOOSUNG: Nah~ Look at the youtube hits~

ZEN: Dude. Stawp;;

707: lolol

JAEHEE: That video is still excellent no matter how many times I watch it.

YOOSUNG: Zen, when do you start your next piece?

ZEN: ;;Don’t know. It’s up to the director.

YOOSUNG: He’s a celebrity lol! I’m gonna tell everyone at school.

JUMIN: Hey.

JUMIN: Don’t get distracted.

YOOSUNG: Oh, right. Username MC…

JAEHEE: … An abrupt stranger.

707: My hands r shaking as I hack.

JUMIN: Who are you? Reveal yourself right now.

YOOSUNG: Yeees! Who are u?!

ZEN: Use proper english please.

707: If it doesn’t say anything I’ll hack in and find out.

ZEN: …Maybe

ZEN: one of my fans?

MC: Reveal yourselves first. I’m the most confused one here…

JUMIN: How fierce.

ZEN: Are you a woman?

707: Zen. Be more serious, plz?

707: And wait a sec on the woman thing.

707: Looking it up.

JAEHEE: Such a search violates privacy laws.

707: Ya. I’m only saying I’m looking it up.

707: No evidence that I’m actually hackginh.

YOOSUNG: Seven, that’s obviously a lie. lol

YOOSUNG: And I know that typo’s on purpose.

YOOSUNG: Still…

YOOSUNG: Won’t it tell us about itself if we tell who we are first?

ZEN: To be honest…

ZEN: I agree with Yoosung.

JUMIN: More like you want to show off who you are.

YOOSUNG: Should we… introduce ourselves?

JUMIN: Are you serious…?

JAEHEE: I think it is a bit too early for that.

ZEN: Hi. I’m Zen. (24 yrs old) Musical actor… Don’t look me up on the internet.

ZEN: It’s embarrassing.

YOOSUNG: Zen, you’re so brave!

JUMIN: Guess he wanted to show himself off.

ZEN: No way~!

YOOSUNG: Omg… a photo too.

JAEHEE: My eyes have been cleansed.

JAEHEE: Wait. I can’t be like this…

JUMIN: I see that he has zero interest in his privacy.

707: Lolol

707: My nickname’s 707.

707: Real name is a secret.

707: Fyi, Zen’s real name is Hyun Ryu.

ZEN: Your name’s a secret but not mine?;

707: U don’t care anyways lol.

JAEHEE: 707 does have the strangest name so I understand the secrecy.

707:  The name’s too holy to be spread around~ I’m gonna pray after I finish hacking.

ZEN: Pray, yeah right;;

707: Just remember me as the 22yr old young hacker lol

707: Where I live is also a secret.

ZEN: So many secrets;;

YOOSUNG: I’m Yoosung Kim! I’m a college student… 21 yrs old.

JUMIN: I don’t know why everybody’s introducing themselves. You don’t even know who that person is.

707: So warm and fuzzy here

ZEN: Lol. Seven, you don’t have any selfies to show?

707: Nothing recent.

707: Oh and also!

707: Jumin’s the heir of a pretty famous corporation and Jaehee is his assistant. 27 and 26 yrs old respectively.

707: You have a better sense of who we are now, MC?

JUMIN: Why did you say that…?

707: Doubted you’d do it urself.

JUMIN: Stop shitting around.

707: Oh, fyi, Jumin has the cutest cat.

JUMIN: Hey.

JUMIN: Why are we talking about Elizabeth the 3rd to a stranger?

707: The cat’s name is Elizabeth the 3rd.

707: Oh. U already said lol.

YOOSUNG: That info’s a bit useless…

YOOSUNG: We’re not even close with this MC person yet lol

JUMIN: Can’t believe he showed a photo of Elizabeth the 3rd to a stranger…

JUMIN: Idiot…

JUMIN: I know you came to my house the other day and harassed her. It’s all on CCTV.

707: My precious privacy!

ZEN: Yeah since you care so much about privacy.

YOOSUNG: CCTV screenshots omg

JUMIN: And Yoosung.

JUMIN: Is my Elizabeth the 3rd useless?

707: That was so funn~~

707: I want to see the cat again~

JUMIN: No.

ZEN: Stop talking about cats. Giving me goosebumps.

JAEHEE: I suggest that we take care of this stranger first.

JAEHEE: Could it be that we have a security breach?

ZEN: True. MC, how did you get in here?

YOOSUNG: Is it really in Rika’s apartment?

707: Yup. It’s for sure…

707: How did it get the apartment password?!

ZEN: Where the hell is the apartment?

MC: I am flustered too. I was connected to a stranger through a messenger app and he sent me the address.

JUMIN: Chatting with a stranger…

JUMIN: How naive.

ZEN: So cute lol

ZEN: Went to an address from a chatting app lolol

YOOSUNG: Don’t listen to strangers~ The world is dangerous.

JAEHEE: I agree.

707: Wait.

707: Do u have that person’s username or chat record?

MC: The username was ‘Unknown’. And the record was deleted.

JUMIN: Does the username not exist? Why is it ‘Unknown’?

707: I made it impossible to log in without setting a username.

707: Nothing’s in the log…

YOOSUNG: What’s a log? Is it a job title for online games?

JUMIN: Tree trunk

JAEHEE: It refers topast records;;

ZEN: Tsk tsk everyone’s so dumb

JUMIN: Never thought I’d hear that from you

707: Omg lolol can’t believe Zen just said that

JUMIN: The world must be coming to an end.

JAEHEE: Everyone please calm down. Let’s look at the situation at hand.

707: Hmm. Good point, Jaehee.

JAEHEE: Who do you think that ‘Unknown’ person is?

707: Maybe…

707: A hacker…?!

YOOSUNG: !!!

707: A hacker! No way.

707: I have everything covered!

707: Hey, MC. So he told you the password for the door lock?

MC: Ya. I know nothing

JUMIN: …Ya?

ZEN: Cute lol

YOOSUNG: But..

YOOSUNG: How did you end up chatting with that person?

JAEHEE: I see.

JAEHEE: Where did you download this messenger app?

JAEHEE: MC, you are quite strange as well.

ZEN: Do you think this person’s a creep? No way.

MC: I just wanted to downloaded the game and play it.

YOOSUNG: You like games too!

YOOSUNG: I love games.

YOOSUNG: Do you know this game called LoLoL?

ZEN: Dude. A girl won’t play that game;

ZEN: Don’t ask stupid questions.

YOOSUNG: T_T

707: Anyways.

707: I should trace the person who distributed the app.

JUMIN: If what she is saying is true.

JAEHEE: I think it would be a good idea to contact V.

707: Yeah. I think that’s a good idea.

707: I’ll call and explain everything.

JUMIN: I can call.

707: Already on it lol

ZEN: Fast.

YOOSUNG: Seven seems talk to V pretty often.

MC: Who’s V?

ZEN: V is… like our boss.

707: The evil mastermind.

JUMIN: …or not. He’s the person who has control over this chat room and the organization we’re in.

JUMIN: I hope V comes and takes care of all this.

ZEN: V’s too busy these days to come chat… We’ll get to talk to him because of this~

YOOSUNG: We’re all busy. I don’t like that V’s the only one not coming.

ZEN: Well… that’s true…

JAEHEE: V should know that MC is here so let’s just wait.

JAEHEE: Seven, are you calling him?

707: Ya.

YOOSUNG: But shouldn’t we tell MC what this chatroom is for first?

YOOSUNG: She has to know how serious it is that she’s here!

JUMIN: What’s more serious is that she’s in Rika’s apartment.

YOOSUNG: That’s true…

JAEHEE: I am always ready to call the police.

YOOSUNG: Jaehee’s scary T_T

JUMIN: Until we figure out who MC is

JUMIN: I don’t want to reveal anything.

JAEHEE: I agree.

707: Wecan.

707: Sorry callingvandtypingwithonehand

YOOSUNG: Type after you finish the call.

707: Lookedintoownerofdevice.

707: she’scutelol

YOOSUNG: You did a background check on her!? So MC is definitely a girl?

MC: You’re not violating my…

707: Itolduimahacker.

707: Butnoevidenceididit

JUMIN: What? It’s really a girl?

707: Ya.

V has entered the chatroom.

ZEN: Show me a photo

707: Nope~

707: How dare you try to violate someone’s privacy like that.

JUMIN: ?

ZEN: Is that MC!?

YOOSUNG: omg I thought we were respecting her privacy?

JAEHEE: ;;;;;

JAEHEE: That is a photo of me.

YOOSUNG: Oh right! Sorry I was too excited;;

ZEN: So..sorry for not recognizing you;;

JAEHEE: Mr. Han, you can’t recognize me either?

JUMIN: …

JUMIN: Now what are we going to do?

707: V’s coming here soon. He just hung up.

V: I’m already logged in.

707: Oh, V! You’re here ^_^

ZEN: Finally he’s here.

V: Yeah. I guess I’m the last one to know about this.

JUMIN: Oh well.

V: How is everyone? Jaehee, you’ve been well?

JAEHEE: Yes. It’s been a long time, V.

YOOSUNG: Hey V

V: Hey.

V: Well, I heard about a situation.

V: MC is currently in Rika’s apartment with info from a stranger and logged into this chatroom.

707: I told him everything through the phone.

JUMIN: Who disclosed the password for Rika’s apartment?

V: Well. No one knew the password. I don’t even know.

YOOSUNG: …Thought V knew.

YOOSUNG: She never invited me to her apartment.

JUMIN: It’s the same for everyone else.

JUMIN: No one’s been there before.

YOOSUNG: Tell us the address. I’ll go there… I want to check who MC is myself.

YOOSUNG: Seven, you know right? You traced the IP just now.

707: Uhm. Sorry but…

707: I can’t tell you that.

YOOSUNG: ??

YOOSUNG: I’m her surviving family.

ZEN: Maybe because you’re just her cousin?

707: Not even her immediate family can go.

707: And the apartment doesn’t belong to Rika.

YOOSUNG: Then who?

V: Me.

YOOSUNG: You don’t even know the password!

V: I just respected her privacy.

YOOSUNG: …Were you really in a relationship with her?

JUMIN: I can’t believe you never knew the password.

V: I’ve never even been there. I just know where it is.

V: Anyways, the apartment is in my name.

V: Rika usually worked there. There are a lot of documents in there that must not be damaged.

V: I can’t reveal the address because all the classified information about this organization is stored there, plus other sensitive materials.

JUMIN: I didn’t know the place contained sensitive material.

YOOSUNG: You don’t trust us enough to let us go, right?

JUMIN: Don’t take it personally. It’s better to be ignorant sometimes.

V: Yes, for the reason that Jumin said.

V: Anyways, I can’t tell you the address. I’m sorry.

YOOSUNG: Then how did Seven know that the address he traced is Rika’s apartment?

JAEHEE: Since he’s responsible for the organization’s classified information.

707: Yup. That’s true, but also I’m the one who developed this app.

707: Rika wanted to take care of some work through this too.

707: I went to her place to link the app with some of the documents in her computer.

YOOSUNG: Oh…

JUMIN: I see.

V: Only Luciel and I know the address.

V: I repeat, since the information must be protected, please do not attempt to find the apartment.

V: Do not ask MC about it and MC, please do not reveal the address.

MC: Luciel?

ZEN: That’s 707’s real name. ‘Luciel Choi’

JAEHEE: lol

YOOSUNG: omg Jaehee just said lol

JUMIN: I think it’s his baptismal name?

707: I’m going to go pray for a moment.

YOOSUNG: What do we do about her apartment?

YOOSUNG: Can MC stay there?

V: First…

V: No one here is going to go to Rika’s apartment, right?

V: Since the information involves everyone around us, there might be trouble if we are not careful.

JUMIN: Yeah yeah. You can stop explaining. Classified information. Got it.

JUMIN: But it is a mystery how a complete stranger could end up there.

V: If it’s someone who knows the password…

V: It might be someone that Rika trusted.

JUMIN: Someone Rika trusted?

V: I am only guessing…

707: So then that ‘Unknown’ person…

707: knew Rika!?

707: I can’t believe she trusted someone more than V.

YOOSUNG: I don’t believe that. She couldn’t have trusted anyone more than us…

ZEN: That is… a bit surprising.

V: It’s hard to believe myself… But we shouldn’t assume that we knew everything about Rika.

V: She…

V: had a deep world of her own.

YOOSUNG: …

JUMIN: …Anyways, V, continue.

V: If I am right.

V: MC being at her apartment right now…

V: Rika must have wanted that.

JUMIN: Rika called in a complete stranger from up in the sky?

V: I’m not saying she wanted MC to be there… but maybe…

V: Rika wanted someone to do the work she did before.

V: At the place she worked before.

JUMIN: What…?

ZEN: No way…

JAEHEE: The work Rika did before…

707: Hosting parties?

ZEN: You mean Rika’s party.

YOOSUNG: Do you really think… that Rika planned this?

YOOSUNG: If she made that decision when she was alive…

V: That’s my guess… but yes.

V: Since she didn’t leave a will.

V: According to the information Luciel provided, MC doesn’t seem dangerous.

JUMIN: I’m not sure about this to be honest…

V: Besides, she’s basically in the same boat now that she knows about this messenger app.

V: Whoever she might be.

707: But still…

ZEN: If that’s what V thinks…

MC: I just came here to find the owner of the phone… What is going on…

707: Owner of the phone?

707: You were phished lol

707: According to V’s guess, Rika… the person who used to live there

707: had the person ‘Unknown’ convince u to go to the apartment.

JAEHEE: Wait…

JAEHEE: I understand… that everyone values V’s opinion.

JAEHEE: But…

JAEHEE: This chatroom is strictly prohibited to strangers.

JAEHEE: If I may say so, I think that we must verify what MC has said.

JAEHEE: For all we know, MC could have simply made up that ‘Unknown’ person.

707: I feel like Jaehee’s glasses are glinting right now.

JAEHEE: ?

V: Thank you for your opinion, Jaehee.

V: But right now, I would appreciate it if you could trust me.

V: If MC is not to be trusted, we can deal with it then.

JUMIN: Hmm.

MC: Please explain.

ZEN: Okay.

ZEN: Rika is…

ZEN: V’s old girlfriend, and the person who created this chatroom.

YOOSUNG: Rika hosted parties regularly for a good cause.

YOOSUNG: She organized a group called RFA to plan the party and manage participants.

MC: Good cause?

707: She hosted a fundraiser to help those in need

707: and introduced the guests to one another to arrange business deals.

707: Rika

707: founded the organization called RFA four years ago and hosted two parties until so far.

707: The six of us who knew her personally joined the organization and helped her host the parties.

YOOSUNG: She was an amazing person…

YOOSUNG: She always sparkled.

ZEN: And Rika…

ZEN: is no longer here with us…

ZEN: She passed away a year and a half ago.

YOOSUNG: …

707: MC has to know this anyways…

ZEN: Anyways, we still haven’t gotten over that yet

ZEN: so please just keep it to yourself… MC.

JUMIN: I still can’t believe…

JUMIN: that Rika knew she’d pass away and planned all this.

JUMIN: But I’ll just consider it as true for now since V thinks so.

YOOSUNG: …I can’t imagine… someone else taking over what Rika did.

ZEN: But if we continue on like this, there’s no need for the party or our organization to continue.

JUMIN: We don’t even know who she is though.

ZEN: Just the fact that she’s in this chatroom makes me trust her a bit though;;

JUMIN: Not because MC’s a girl?

V: Everyone… I know that this is confusing. But…

V: Maybe MC was chosen by Rika.

V: 707 will look into that person called ‘Unknown’.

V: So for now, please just believe in me and wait.

707: I guess ur busy right now. Ur replies are really late.

V: Yeah, I think… I have to leave right now.

V: MC, it is best not to touch anything in the apartment.

V: It won’t be good if the alarm rings.

V: Everything that you have to do… will be linked with this app installed on your phone.

MC: I thought this is just a messenger app?

V: I know there to be other features.

V: Seven will know the details.

707: Yeah.

707: This app program is not just a simple messenger.

707: All the party related emails in Rika’s computer

707: will be transferred to this app.

707: U’ll be able to automatically receive the guests’ information as well.

707: And send personal messages to other members…

V: Then there’s no need for MC to touch Rika’s old things.

JAEHEE: All MC has to do is use this app.

707: I put in all those features so that Rika could work more comfortably.

707: Glad there’s a use for them lol

ZEN: Hey. My messenger doesn’t have any email checking thing?

YOOSUNG: Mine neither…

YOOSUNG: Can’t my messenger tell me if my LoL friends are logged in?

707: omg

V: I’m sorry…

V: But I have to leave.

707: Okay. See u later, V.

V: Jumin.

JUMIN: ?

V: Please take care of things for me.

JUMIN: …Alright.

V has left the chatroom.

707: …V’s gone.

ZEN: Yup. What’s he so busy with?

JUMIN: None of your business.

707: Anyways, let’s do what V said. MC, u can log into this chatroom from time to time right?

ZEN: Yup. And come chat with us regularly.

JUMIN: Why doesn’t everyone stop stalking and Assistant Kang summarize everything for her.

JUMIN: And invite her to the organization.

JAEHEE: Alright.

JAEHEE: RFA is an organization Rika created so that anyone can freely make donations regardless of class or nationality.

JAEHEE: At the time, she hosted quite large parties once every two years, and they were very successful.

ZEN: Those were busy days. I thought people were going to trample me.

JAEHEE: This chatroom was used to discuss plans for the party.

707: I created this chatroom lol.

YOOSUNG: Everyone knows that already…

JAEHEE: Because this chatroom contained a lot of information that cannot be publicly released

JAEHEE: the app was distributed in secret only for RFA members.

JAEHEE: But ever since Rika passed away, we have not hosted a single party

JUMIN: Yeah… not a single one.

JUMIN: We wanted to, but without Rika, we couldn’t proceed.

JAEHEE: …And this chatroom became a place for us to talk about personal matters.

707: We check that everyone’s alive with this chatroom and literally just chat.

YOOSUNG: We shared our memories of Rika too.

JAEHEE: …MC, I think you were led to that place without any explanation.

JAEHEE: If V is right, it seems that someone sent you there to fill Rika’s position.

JAEHEE: Considering that you knowing about the existence of that place as satisfies the conditions for joining the organization, following V’s orders…

JUMIN: Fyi, currently there are six members. Me, V, Zen, 707, Yoosung, and Assistant Kang. Everyone in the chatroom.

ZEN: If MC joins, it will be seven.

YOOSUNG: Is she… really becoming a new member?

JUMIN: We didn’t hear from MC yet.

JUMIN: MC.

JUMIN: All we are trying to do is host parties, raise funds, gather people… and things like that.

JUMIN: Our organization has done a lot of good so far.

JUMIN: … You will never regret joining.

YOOSUNG: I thought Jumin was against her. Why the sudden change?

JUMIN: I am only following V’s decision.

ZEN: If you join the organization, we’ll be able to talk more. Not everyday we meet a pretty girl.

707: Uhm. How do you know she’s pretty? I didn’t even send the photo.

ZEN: Send the photo.

707: No.

ZEN: Damn.

JUMIN: Men will be men.

ZEN: And you’re not a man?

707: Heard somewhere Jumin’s gay.

ZEN: Omg…

ZEN: Go away. You scare me.

JUMIN: Not even worth responding to that.

YOOSUNG: But Zen, you have really low standards. You still care for looks?

JAEHEE: Famous people must not act that way.

ZEN: Gosh~ I’m not famous~

JUMIN: Everyone stop messing around.

JUMIN: I was talking?

JAEHEE: I apologize.

JUMIN: MC, will you join RFA?

MC: Alright. It looks fun. I’ll give it a go.

YOOSUNG: That’s a fast decision..

JUMIN: Ha. I like it.

JAEHEE: I wonder if you have thought this through.

ZEN: Welcome, MC. Oi, Seven. Register her info asap.

707: Ya. I have to register her before she changes her mind.

YOOSUNG: Even the processing is fast…

YOOSUNG: MC must be a positive person, seeing that she made her decision so fast.

JAEHEE: She may not be a careful person.

JUMIN: Assistant Kang, is there something you do not like about her?

YOOSUNG: Hey~ Jaehee, don’t be like that.

JAEHEE: It is not that.

YOOSUNG: …I’m glad we have a girl now! It was a hopeless sausage fest until now lol.

YOOSUNG: MC! If you have any questions, I can answer them.

YOOSUNG: Ask anything you need.

YOOSUNG: No need to worry about anything ^^

707: Good. I’ve registered her as a member! Oh. We don’t really need ur signature.

YOOSUNG: You’re going to collect all the info so she can’t run away, right?

707: ^^… Since it’s a verbal contract.

ZEN: …Don’t collect anything without MC’s permission.

707: Ya.

707: I’m gonna leave for a sec. Need to check sth.

ZEN: Background check on MC?

707: Nah~ It’s work. I have to make a living somehow.

YOOSUNG: Stop it. You get paid enough.

707: How do u know how much I get paid?

YOOSUNG: I saw your new car on fb…

707: Oh lol. Did u like the photo?

YOOSUNG: Yup.

707: Good job lol.

707: I’m gonna peace out.

JAEHEE: Well, since she has joined, I think everyone can leave if they need to.

ZEN: Yeah?

JUMIN: Hmm. Let me check my schedule…

YOOSUNG: Okay.

707: Anyways, welcome MC.

YOOSUNG: Welcome!! Good luck to us.

ZEN: Glad you joined, MC ^^

JUMIN: We’ll see how you do.

JAEHEE: For now, I look forward to working with you.

Jumin Han has left the chatroom.

ZEN: Oh… By the way

ZEN: I had a good dream last night. I think I saw you there…

ZEN: Or not. Bye~!

ZEN has left the chatroom.

707 has left the chatroom.

Jaehee Kang has left the chatroom.

Yoosung★ has left the chatroom.

[justfcrkicks]

01. what’s your name/alias you go by ??

it’s not my real name but i go by cody online, usually.

02. what’s your age ??

nineteen, almost twenty. i feel 12 tho

03. what’s your zodiac sign ??

aries! i added the exclamation point bc we’re supposed to be assertive but i didn’t get the memo.

04. what’s your ethnicity ??

umm what ISN’T my ethnicity is a better question haha. but no i’m mostly italian/sicilian, lots of different other european countries too, and also part native american, but sadly the only person that even knew what tribe was my grandmother who never really shared those details with anyone before her passing.

05. what’s your nationality ??

i am a US citizen :)

06. what’s your favorite band and/or musical artist ??

i can never answer this because i like pretty much every genre of music and my “favorite” is constantly in flux but right now i’ve been listening to a lot of greta van fleet, eminem, harry styles, joyner lucas, tenacious d, and also one specific willie nelson song has been on a constant loop when i’m not listening to the other stuff.

07. what’s your dream job ??

i don’t really have one tbh. lots of people do and that’s awesome, but sometimes people don’t believe me when i say the only thing that matters is that i don’t hate the job and it earns me enough money to live comfortably, maybe own a small house, reasonably priced car, etc. 

08. what’s one place you would love to visit ??

alpha centauri

09. what’s your favorite tv show ??

another one of those things where i can’t pick a favorite. i’ve been enjoying arrow, riverdale, titans, the ranch, sabrina, supergirl, the flash, legacies, and legends of tomorrow lately though. i’m also a big fan of general hospital, the 100, izombie, lucifer, and stranger things.

10. what’s your favorite movie ??

um... tough one but i have always had a soft spot for Joe Dirt, or The New Guy. Also, I really liked Why Him with James Franco, Bryan Cranston, and Zoey Deutch. I mean, not the greatest movies ever but they’re what come to mind when asked, so... lol

11. what’s your favorite song ??

as of the past couple weeks? “cruel cruel world” by willie nelson, or “unshaken” by d’angelo. for weeks before that it was “lucky you” by eminem & joyner lucas. but i really, unironically love “only in america” by riff raff. the video is hilarious and it just puts me in a good mood.

12. what’s your favorite sport ??

is watching tv a sport? haha video games is a sport, right...?

13. what’s your favorite food ??

pizza. or cereal. i have difficulty picking favorites if you couldn’t tell.

14. what’s your favorite face claim to use ??

chris wood or paul wesley, usually. i’ve just used them a lot and gotten used to them. i tried to justify chris wood for john but he’s way too buff to be john and his skinny gifs don’t look nearly enough like john to make any sense.

15. what’s your least favorite face claim ??

andy ballsack biersack. emma roberts. those two bring up bad memories. dylan o’brien. idk why, i like him well enough as an actor. i’m not necessarily opposed to rping with any of them though

16. what’s your favorite canon character to play ??

i played kai parker for a while. that was fun.

17. what’s your sexuality ??

heterosexual. i legitimately cannot remember a time i wasn’t into girls. as a toddler i’d play with barbies to take the clothes off lmfao

18. what’s the last movie you saw in a cinema/theater ??

batman v superman i think. it’s been way too long.

19. what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had ??

i’ve had some bad ones. i broke my wrist/hand in a few different places, which wasn’t too bad. had a sprained/fractured ankle which didn’t heal for like a year. but the worst was when i got assassin’s creed brotherhood as a kid and laid on my stomach across the whole couch, propped up on my elbows for like 7 hours straight. my back was in a u shape the whole time and when i finally moved, that was the moment i realized i fucked up lol

20. what’s a random or interesting fact about you ??

um.... idk i’m boring but maybe that i have lost 120lbs 

21. do you listen to music while you write ??

sometimes. if i find a good playlist (i’m too lazy to make one) that’s not too distracting then sometimes i’ll use it for a while but other times i just like the silence.

22. are you a morning, day, evening, or night writer ??

night. no matter how hard i try my sleep schedule always gets turned upside down eventually to where i get up at like 6 pm and go to sleep at like 10 am, so i usually only write while the skies are dark lol

23. have you ever roleplayed intoxicated ??

nope. i’ve never had a drink or done drugs so that’d be a neat trick. lol

24. what language or languages do you speak ??

only english. i’m probably too dumb to learn another language tbh. though for a while after playing assassin’s creed 2 i’d say random italian sentences and call people “stronzo!”

25. how long have you roleplayed ??

i mean technically i’ve been rping since i was 8 on myspace, but i didn’t move on to legit rp until i was like 11 or 12, then i went to rp.me for a while, then finally got to tumblr around 2012-2013. 

26. favorite roleplay genre ??

i don’t really have one, but i was once in a scifi rp that changed my view on what groups can be, and i think it was my favorite experience ever. everyone was so close and friendly and that made the rp even more fun, so now a good scifi rp brings up those memories for me and makes me enjoy that genre even more.

27. one sound you hate & one you love ??

ok so the sound i hate is nails scratching cotton. not a chalkboard, oddly enough that’s tolerable to me, but nails scratching up against cotton... i have no idea why but it sends chills down my spine lmfao

i love the sound of a crackling fire though. or rain. or rain and a crackling fire. 

28. do you believe in ghosts ??

hell yes i do. pls don’t hurt me ghosts i believe in u

29. do you believe in aliens ??

do i think aliens exist? yes. do i think we’ve been visited by aliens, or that we’re even close enough for them to know we exist? not necessarily. but i do like the ancient alien theory that we were visited by aliens a long time ago and taught stuff. especially when you consider that so many cultures, even those that had no way of being in contact with each other are so similar, have similar thought processes, and progressed at similar rates.

30. do you believe in true love ??

yes & no. i believe that initial attractions can be very powerful in producing a “love at first sight” feeling, but no one is just meant to love another person. i believe you can grow to feel “true love” for anyone assuming the right circumstances.

31. do you hold grudges ??

i’d like to think i don’t but i know i do, at least in the back of my mind. sort of forgive but not forget, but also never 100% forgiving either? idk.

32. do you have any obsessions right now ??

red dead redemption 2. big shock, i know haha. i just can’t get over the ending, the characters, the music, the world, etc. 

33. do you drive & if so, have you ever been in a crash ??

nope & nope

34. do you like the smell of gasoline ??

nooooo it makes me feel sick, honestly.

35. do you prefer writing fluff, angst, or smut ??

all of the above! each has its merits, and writing too much of one thing can get old and make the others feel more appealing. smut gets old the quickest though imo, even though i’ve run a smut rp in the past haha

36. are you in a relationship ??

are you? lmao

37. grab the nearest book to you and turn to page 23, what is the 17the line ??

well it’s a comic/graphic novel so there’s not 17 lines on that page but the second to last line is “and edward nigma... did you know that when the riddler was first transferred to arkham, they had to keep moving him from cell to cell to keep him from being able to formulate an escape?” it’s Batman Volume 10: Epilogue by Snyder & Capullo.

38. put your playlist on shuffle and list the first four songs that pop up:

1. Santeria by Sublime 2. Money Trees by Kendrick Lamar 3. Heart Shaped Box by Nirvana 4. Ladders by Mac Miller

[r0syghost]

85-ish Questions

This was so long and I like to write really long answers because I have a tendency to ramble irl enjoy

@bts-love-sweat-tears thanks for the tag :)

Answer these questions about yourself and tag people!

ABOUT YOU

Hair Color? Dark brown, almost black, and accidental lighter brown ombre left over from my blood-red-head-eventually-dyed-brown hair days.

Is your hair long or short? Looong. It’s layered in a v-shape so my longest layer reaches my lower back

Eye Color? Brown

Blood Type? Idk if I wanna say? Ya’ll don’t need to know my blood type

Nickname(s)? Rach, Chel

Relationship Status? Single af (ugh SAME)

Pronouns? She/Her

Tattoos? Three! Pineapple on my right inner ankle (1 of 2 best friend tattoos), huge mandala on right thigh (hurt like H E L L, doesn’t mean much tbh), and the latest is “you see all my light” on my right forearm (my best friend has “you love all my dark” in the same spot) 

Piercings? Two in each ear, nose ring

Do you want (more) piercings or tattoos? I want a second nose ring on the same side (so like a double nose ring). I also want an entire left arm sleeve and a right leg sleeve

Right or Left handed? Right

Zodiac? Aquarius sun, Leo moon, Virgo rising...and Sagittarius venus if you’re interested ;) HA

RIGHT NOW, WHAT ARE YOU….

Eating? Nothing but I’m about to find some snacks when I’m done with this

Drinking? Water

Listening to? YeYe - ゆらゆら it’s part of a yt playlist I frequently update called “Relax” lol it’s my lounging/singing playlist

About to watch? I don’t know?

Waiting for? My family vacation to the Philippines next spring!

THE LAST…

Phone Call? Mom probably

Text Message? From my brother. Something about his mail or whatever

Song you listened to? wanna love you by paul kim

Time you cried? The other night probably? I was listening to a Morisette Amon song or cover lol

HAVE YOU EVER…

Dated someone twice? Ew yes

Kissed someone and regretted it? No. Actually yes

Kissed a stranger? No

Been cheated on? Emotionally (and yes that is a thing)

Had sex on a first date? Sigh. Yes.

Lost someone special? Yes

Been depressed? Perpetually

Drank hard liquor? Yes

Gotten drunk and thrown up? Lol yeah. If it wasn’t too bad I could go about my business like nothing happened. Don’t drink much now though.

Talked to a person named Tom? Does a Thomas count?

Had surgery? Nah

Lost your glasses? Yes lol contacts too. Was on the floor for like ten minutes trying to find the damn lense

Turned someone down? Yes

Broken someone’s heart? Maybe?

Had your heart broken? Yes

Been arrested? No

Cried when someone died? Yes

Fallen for a friend? Yes

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU…

Made new friends? Yes

Fallen out of love? Yes

Laughed until you cried? Yes!

Found out someone was talking about you? Nope

Met someone who changed you? No

Found out who your friends are? Yes

Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list? Nah

FAVORITE…

Drink? Water

Color(s)? Black, red

TV Show(s)? ATLA, Parks and rec, Brooklyn 99, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, there are more I swear. These are just the ones I can think of off the top of my head

Sport(s)? Nothing. Zip. Natta. I’m not a sports fan sorry lol

Movie(s)? Howl’s Moving Castle, Lion King, Spirited Away. Again there are more.

Actor(s)? I don’t watch movies or anything that often so I don’t really have one

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Miracles? Not really

Love at first sight? No

Santa Claus? Nope

Kissing on a first date? Depending on the chemistry, sure. (exactly)

Angels? No.

Yourself? In some areas yes, in some no. (same)

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or Kisses? They’re both amazing with the right people sooooo

Lips or Eyes? I love both?

Shorter or Taller?  I mean, if this is about relationships taller but only because I’m short as hell (I’m 4′10″ ya’ll) and I don’t want my future children dealing with that lol but in general idgaf

Older or Younger? I mean, I’d never date anyone vastly younger than myself but for the most part I don’t care.

Nice arms or nice stomach? Both ;) just kidding I don’t care about that.

Hookup or relationship? Relationship. I get too emotionally invested too quickly.

Troublemaker or hesitant? I tend to go for troublemakers because they’re so different from me

RANDOM

What’s your best friend’s name?  I have two: Bianca and Alexis

What is something you can’t wait for? Family vacation! Because I get to see my grandma for the first time in over 20 YEARS

What time did you wake up today? 11 AM

Do you want to change your name? No.

What did you do for your last birthday? Went to a drag show and got drunk off my ass and had a blast with some of my closest friends because I deserved to have the best fucking time after my shitty 2017 (also this was the last time i got really drunk)

What were you doing at midnight last night? On yt looking for more music probably

What is something that gets on your nerves? Dishonesty

Do you have a crush on someone? I wish. I haven’t really met anyone new this year

What’s your most visited website? Yt and instagram definitely

Where do you want to go on vacation? Philippines, Iceland, Scotland, Hawaii

What kind of trainers do you like/wear? I tend to stick to vans. I’ve also got a loyal pair of converse i’ve had for like 10 years that haven’t fallen apart yet

How many Facebook friends do you know IRL? I’m rarely on it these days. But like most of them? Some of them are family from the PH that I haven’t met or talked to since I was a kid

Do you have pets? NO I WISH

Do you want to get married? To the right person, yes. My parents have been happily married for over 30 years and I really, really want that with someone. To be with my best friend, whomever that will be, experiencing how hard and fun life is together every single day is a fucking dream for me. I still believe in love because of my parents.

What career do you want to have? Honestly, if I were actually good at it, photography. 

What is something you want? Want? I want to find the motivation to continue graphic design and art. I want to start a vegetable garden. I want to sing more. I want to learn sign language. I want a lot of things.

What do you like about yourself? My ability to continuously pick myself up day after day.

I won’t tag anyone but if you wanna do it please do so!

[tahpssi]

LONG-ASS TAG THINGY

(I’m just gonna steal the title from you bc I’m shameless like that)

I was tagged by @sweater-daes​ thank you so much!!

Rules: answer 80-something questions and tag 20 people. Tagging: @donutquestion @park-sungshine @lamptastical @goddessofwasteland @annaflamel @thekoreanbigbang (you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to ofc!)

last?

Drink: water

phone call: my dad 

text message: my friend wishing him a good night lmao (yes that was last night)

time you cried: I think that was last Tuesday actually, had a stressful day at work plus my period showed up the next day

kissed someone and regretted it: big Yes

been cheated on: nope

lost someone special: not due to death if that’s what’s implied here

been depressed: still am aye

gotten drunk and thrown up: nah I don’t drink

favourite colours? there’s specific shades for these but idk color names so I’ll just name the basic ones

red 

blue

green

orange

turquiose

in the last year you have?

made new friends: yes I met some amazing people here on tumblr ♥

fallen out of love: oh yes, made me realize how much of an immature lil shit I still am at the ripe old age of 24 lmao 

laughed until you cried: well I can’t really remember if I did or not but there’s a big chance I have yeah

found out someone was talking behind your back: nope, doesn’t mean they aren’t talking about me behind my back though lmao

met someone who changed your life: hmmm I think so yeah, I mean the break-up with my ex was pretty brutal and eye-opening and I’ve only met her within the past year so that counts; also I think the friends I made on here changed my life in a way.. especially Bre since she’s responsible for getting me into Monsta X and that opened a whole new world to me

found out who your true friends are: I only have like... a handful so there’s not much to find out there

general?

how many facebook friends do you have: I don’t have facebook

pets: I wish :(((

ever wanted to change your (birth)name: ...hahah good one; Yes

what you did for your last birthday: went out to dinner with my dad and sis

time you woke up today: 11am I think?

what you were doing at midnight last night: pretty sure I was playing a game on my phone

what you can’t wait for: lets go with a positive answer here and say finding a new apartment

whatcha listening to: Stand Up by Basick feat. Mamamoo

ever talked to a person named Tom: maybe.. I mean I dont actively recall it but yanno, bad memory and such

something that gets on your nerves: my one friend complaining about me never contacting her first etc. EVERY TIME WE MEET (we’ve known each other since middle school and I honestly don’t know why it’s suddenly bothering her, it’s been 10 years god dammit)

most visited site: Tumblr

hair colour: natural: dark brown; current: green + dark brown on the sides

long or short hair: short 

crush: nah 

what do you like about yourself: oh boy, I like my hair and my eyes, and I guess my face in general isn’t so bad; I like that I managed to teach myself English to the point where I’m just as fluent in it as my native language; I like my collections and am actually really proud of them and I also like my clothing style actually

any piercings: lip and eyebrow, currently thinking about getting my nose pierced as well

blood type: B positive

nicknames: Jay / crocodile (only one friend calls me that but I love it, “croc” for short, it’s the best nickname)

relationship status: single

sign: aquarius

pronouns: they/them & he/him (I’m experimenting rn)

favourite tele show: Downton Abbey, Digimon and Criminal Minds (I’m a fake fan I haven’t seen anything since season 9 please forgive me)

tattoos: "until whenever ☆” on my left wrist but I’m thinking of getting more this year hopefully

left or right handed: right handed

have you ever had a surgery: nope

do you want piercings: yessss moreeeeee

Sport: used to play soccer as a child and I even did like gymnastics (for kids obvs) but once I hit puberty that shit was all forgotten

Favourite holiday: don’t care about any of them I just enjoy having the days off work

trainers: if u mean shoes then Nike

more general?

favourite dish: pancakes

favourite drink: water, I don’t really drink anything else

i’m about to watch: nothing lmao

what i’m waiting for: a miracle lmao (nah man I’m waiting for myself to finally get my ass up and find a therapist and look into that whole transitioning shit because I’m Tired of living like this but also change is scary and uh I’ll stop here before this turns into a longer rant)

what i want: to get back into gaming, I miss it :(

get married: don’t think so but who knows what will happen

career: really don’t give a shit, I just want to keep my job and earn money so I can keep myself alive

which is better?

hugs or kisses: hugs, definitely

lips or eyes: eyes

shorter or taller: for a partner I prefer shorter bc I’m into Cute and Tiny

older or younger: I generally don’t care about age as long as we’re on the same level of maturity and stuff, which isn’t always a given though when the age difference is too big I guess 

arms or stomach: I like tummies

Troublemaker or hesitant: never been put into a situation where I had to choose so I honestly have no idea

have you ever?

kissed a stranger: no

drank hard liquor: yes (and it was gross af)

turned someone down: yes (does it count when it was just some random creep on the internet tho)

sex on a first date: nope

broken someone’s heart: I have and I’m not proud of it

had a heart broken: yeap

been arrested: lol no

cried when someone died: yeah but idk if it was out of grief or shock or just the general mood around the whole thing? 

fallen for a friend: yes

do you believe in?

yourself: nah man I’m useless

miracles: not really? idk??? I’m not much of a believer/non-believer when it comes to supernatural and magical stuff

Love at first sight: nah man, you can crush on someone but love is a deeper thing, that doesn’t just happen from looking at a person once

santa claus: lmao nah

angels: don’t have any proof they don’t exist so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

misc?

eye colour: blue/green

best friends name: Vivi and Roo

favourite movie:  The Lion King

favourite actor: Choi Seunghyun

favourite cartoon: Avatar: The Last Airbender (gonna steal this from u bc good choice)

favourite teachers’ name: forgot her name lmao 

[rhiminee]

FAV LIVE PERFORMANCES 2017

Here it is! Finally!!!! My favorite David performances of the year!!!!

This year was harder because there was so much new music that came out and David toured quite a bit so there was an abundance of stellar material to choose from. I know there are very few people as crazy as me that are gonna watch every video on this list but if you’ve not had a chance to catch many performances this year, this is a nice place to start and do a bit of browsing. It’s guaranteed all quality ;p

P.S. There are way more great videos than just what’s here. I had to narrow down so much just to get a top 20. It was torture getting a top 12. Each made the cut for different reasons but all of them made me FEEL. 

ORIGINAL MUSIC

Up All Night  This gorgeousness. It has the distinction of offering amazing audio quality given the fact it was recorded in a studio-like setting so we’re not depending on someone’s phone camera for the sound. I’m not ripping on fan cams, just saying that clearly this is optimal. ha.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJRt_zv9L7Y

Someone To Love The funky groooooove of this song! So good. So so good. This comes from the Nashville show, which was i n c r e d i b l e. He does this smooth growl sliding vocal thing here that really just slays me. Bless. Also that pause at “jumpstart” is 100% kickass.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIuyNJuXj04

Other Things in Sight Second Nashville video in a row! I didn’t plan it that way, that’s just how the chips fell. This song. You guys this song and performance is sasschuleta at his divalicious best. I adore everything about it. The little hands on the hips at 2:30 even I’m dying. This is David 2.0 hello. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbJZau1gHJE

       Bonus: OTIS acoustic        So technically this is kinda cheating but it’s my list so I do what I want. And the vocal on this (from David’s EP launch live on Facebook) is ridiculously good. I was gonna leave it off the list but it just wouldn’t let me. I get chills everytime I listen. He does mess up the lyric in one spot toward the end, which is why I have it as my secondary OTIS choice, but honestly I’m not even mad because something has to show us he’s human. Because damn sure that vocal is perfection, complete and total. I wanna bathe in it. LEGIT.        https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCl93lWzHx4

Parachutes and Thunder There are no words for how surprised I was that David started covering Thunder by Imagine Dragons at his shows this fall. And he absolutely kills it. This boy can seriously embody a song and he does that. The best part is that he ties it into one of his own amazing songs (Parachutes & Airplanes) and I dare you to try and watch this without a huge smile on your face. Truly this is one of my favorite surprises of 2017. This specific video is from the Salt Lake City show and hearing and seeing the enthusiasm of the crowd just makes it even better. This video is 100000% love. He claps! He stomps! He spins!!!! He pulls the crowd in no matter what, they can’t help but be energized by his absolute conviction in delivering this song. I. LOVE. HIM. Honestly there is no one like him. Also he is pretty. Bonus. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1QUYYsctvc

Numb Ok I’m gonna be real and say this one caught me by surprise. Until today I had no idea Numb would be included on this post. Then I stumbled across this video and was fully blown away. Who sings like thiiiiiissssssssss. David Freaking Archuleta, that’s who. This is from a morning tv show appearance in Nashville. I was traveling when it happened (to Nashville lol) so I totally missed appreciating it until now. For some perspective, he was coming off 4 nights in a row of concerts and driving half the night between each venue after the shows and being a bit sick at the start of that week. He had been on vocal rest between shows to try and save himself for the grueling schedule. So he got done with his show in KC the night before and flew into Nashville the next morning and did this and then had his Nashville show the next night. This boy has a magic voice, that is all. It’s so soulful and heartfelt and strong. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yN-VQ8RXFKs

Crush Iconic. This song experienced a bit of renaissance this year and part of it was because of the amazing rendition David did in this video. During his visit to the Philippines this piece of magic happened.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TC4Brtznsb0

Broken This song doesn’t get lots of attention but honestly it’s one of the most melodically lovely pieces of music. This performance from the L.A. show is stellar. Some of those notes David hits. Wow boy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnVKVWt3u9k

COVERS

Fast Car Ok. Ok ok ok ok ok. This kills me. This is so good. From the Seattle VIP. First you have to know I adore this song. But David singing it is almost more than I can stand. There are no huge showy power notes here or stomping or dancing but it is quietly one of the most startling and moving performances of the year. I am beyond moved. I am reminded of the lyrics of “Killing me softly” when I watch this video. I heard he sang a good song, I heard he had a style, And so I came to see him, to listen for a while, And there he was, this young boy, a stranger to my eyes, Strumming my pain with his fingers Singing my life with his words Killing me softly with his song Killing me softly with his song Telling my whole life with his words Killing me softly with his song. Yes. That’s this performance. That exactly. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eBgz8ajtTdw

Higher Ground This has only gotten better and better since David first covered it at Tuacahn last year. Honestly I thought it couldn’t get better but I was so wrong. So happily wrong. I can’t even understand the leaps and bounds that David’s confidence and performing abilities have taken. He just totally owns the stage and the audience and the song. Watch and appreciate. Make sure you keep it on through the band intros. You’ll thank me. And then that absolute WAILING at the end holy crap I cannot even. This is another SLC show gem.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWpbh7Nt398

Beautiful / Scars to Your Beautiful Scars to Your Beautiful is totally a David song. Totally. I love love love the way he sings this. From the L.A. show, the crowd reaction is fab too. The second half of the video especially is just A++++ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LryGqAIisog

Forevermore Another surprise entry but it’s just so gorgeous that I can’t leave it off this year’s list. David’s voice is divine here, I’m fully enchanted. Just watch. I promise you won’t regret it. Pure musical bliss. This is our third entry from the Nashville concert! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrbgT6tMHWI

You Are My Song “oh my god it's amazing” actual comment to this video on Youtube and I really can’t describe it any better. This duet from David’s trip to Manila is stellar. Don’t overlook it just because you don’t know the song. It’s such a gorgeous love song and the way David sings it here I am knocked over. Tippy dos Santos is a wonderful duet partner too and I cannot stop smiling while watching. This is awesome. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9Vc94sN3bg

BUT WAIT! WE HAVE AN EXTRA BONUS BONUS. lol I thought I was done but then realized I needed to include this last video because yes. David performing Nandito Ako at his first concert back in the Philippines in over 6 years. David has a special connection with the Philippines and the fans there and they love him in such an unrestrained way and to see his very real very strong reaction to that love when he sang Nandito Ako is a true thing of beauty. You can see David’s surprise at how the emotion caught him and the tears made it difficult to sing and you hear the crowd’s support and love of him throughout. He said he didn’t know if he would still have fans there after so long away. They said don’t doubt us. And here is the culmination. A thoroughly lovely note to end this list on. <3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xOWtAS2YS8

These are some of my favorite musical moments of 2017. There are many more but really how long can I make this list???? It’s already probably about 8 songs too long for most people. ha. It took way too long to make this post and I’m sorry it’s late and the descriptions could be better but it’s 2:45 am on January 1st 2018 and all good things must come to an end. If you read this far, I love you. And I can’t wait to see what David brings us this year. Kisses to all y’all!!!

[phantom-of-the-keurig]

Hi. @wheel-of-fish tagged me in this thingy and I forgot about it until now. Oops.

a - Age: 20

b - Birthplace: California

c - Current time: 10pm

d - Drink you last had: coffee about 3 minutes ago

e - Easiest person to talk to: my other half

f - Favorite song: Hah, it changes like…every few minutes honestly. Right now is a blue mood kinda night, so it’s gotta be Heavy by Linkin Park

g - Grossest memory: Hmmm, I have a lot. I had a neglected dog at work drop maggots from his belly laceration and on to my hair? I also had my pinky almost completely torn off by a bull dog when I was little. The bone was sticking out. It was wicked.

h - Horror yes or horror no: Heck yeah. Love horror movies / shows / books / anything. But not overly gore heavy stuff, like Hostel or Cannibal Holocaust. I’m more of a Stephen King / The insidious trilogy fan.

i - In love?: Mhmm, very much so.

j - Jealous of people?: Honestly, yeah….but not in a bitter way? If that makes sense. More like, wow I’m so happy this person is successful and normal or whatever, I hope they continue to be that way- I wonder what it’s like.

l - Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: Sure. Stranger things have happened.

m - Middle name: My dad gave me my middle name after his favorite porn star, lol….that was fun to find out. But sorry it’s a secret.

n - Number of siblings: 2

o - One wish: Oh god, that’s a tough one. Erm, I just want to not think so much sometimes. I wish my brain would be quiet. :(

p - Person you called last: My Dad

q - Question you are always asked: Hahaha, it’s a tie between “Uh how do you say your name??” And “Are you okay? You look upset”- it’s just my face. Some people have resting bitch face, I have resting sad face haha.

r - Reason to smile: Making someone laugh.

s - Song you last sang: The Asian Jake Paul diss track bahaha

t - Time you woke up: 10 am. Whooo, 4 ½ hours of sleep! That might be a new record.

u - Underwear colour: Blue and grey

v - Vacation destination: New York City. I miss it.

w - Worst habit: God I’m like a walking case study of bad habits. (ಥʖ̯ಥ) I over think constantly, I can’t quit coffee, I bite my nails, I talk too much, I get nervous and bite my cheek and don’t notice until I’m like bleeding, I procrastinate, I avoid sleep, and I isolate myself often.

x - X-rays: I had one done of my ankle last month. It ruled out any bone issues, hah. You could actually kind of see my torn tendon on there too, which is odd.

y - Your favorite food: I really love sushi.

z - Zodiac sign: Ted Cruz.

Okay so I tag @ben-solo-needs-a-timeout @ladycavalier @rienerose @queenofthemorgue @phantoms-pseudonym and @spooky-mormon-hell-dream

[sirius-lune]

Regarding V's storyline

I am quite miffed with some people in the fandom. Reasons? Well, if those people are going to hate me for this, it simply shows how narrow minded they are. If they can voice their opinion about this and that, why can't I? Without further ado....

1. I get it, that the point of Ji Hyun's story is about him and getting out of his toxic relationship being the main highlight of the plot BUT I don't see what is wrong with people liking Saeran more than V. People overshadowing Ji Hyun for Saeran, main reason why is because we get to see another side of our handsome younger Choi twin. As a fan of Saeran let me tell you HELL, THAT SIDE OF HIM IS DAMM REFRESHING. I am not supporting his mentality state and etc but I am going to emphasize again that IT IS REFRESHING TO SEE ANOTHER SIDE OF SAERAN WHEN HE IS NOT WHAT WE USUALLY SEE IN THE OTHER ROUTES. Get it? It simply tells us that there are more to Saeran comparing to what we see about him normally in the other characters' routes. It also makes people curious about his side of story more. Yes I know it is Ji Hyun's story plot. All the overshadowing nonsense. Why so serious? Why can't people enjoy the stories and the characters the way they want? I didn't know there is a standard way to enjoy something. People may argue with me, "It defeats the purpose of the route!". Then again, this is JUST A GAME NOVEL. Like, while people lick their cone ice cream, I love eating ice cream out of the cone with a spoon, so if you have a problem with that, I don't really care. It doesn't affect your life. Just turn your head away.

2. It is not as if we do not know that Saeran has issues but, this is a damn novel game with psychological aspects. It does give us options to go into bad ending and good ending. Besides, there are also quite a good amount of romance aspects. And it is not as if everyone who are drooling over Saeran's caramelized side do not know that he has issues. It is not real and I strongly do not think that, that other side of the fandom/fans of Saeran are that stupid to follow a stranger into some unknown place or throw themselves into that kind of unhealthy relationship or what so ever knowing it is one, in real life. People are aware that it is a game. Come on. We are simply fantasizing about having a guy who is that sweet and suave (WITHOUT ISSUES OBVIOUSLY). Don't look down on the fandom. We all are responsible fans. Have faith. Every thing about turning Saeran's issues into something romantic is to be taken light heartedly. People are not idiots. Besides, he really did love MC (refer to my previous long winded post).

3. People asking for Saeran's route, CHILL. I want it too, but honestly. We know he has issues, so if we want a decent storyline, with him happy, healthy physically, healthy mentally and healthy emotionally, and having a normal romantic relationship with MC, obviously such stuff will need meticulous story planning. Although the people dying part isn't necessarily but this is Cheritz we are talking about anyway, who knows. Patience. They worked hard for Ji Hyun's route. Planning that isn't easy. A new route simply means more time needed. Just send them messages of appreciation and encouragement, along with polite request for them to consider doing a romance route for Saeran like the other characters. For now, we will just sink ourselves into fan arts, fan fictions and head cannons to present all the love we have for Saeran alright?

4. I love Ji Hyun too. Although not as much as Saeran lol But that isn't my point. But really, don't forget he has issues too. As much as I freaking hate him for lying till the end about Saeran, he does have his charms. Rika is a psychopath, we need to get this poor stupid and stubborn idiot out of her psycho world. Because this idiot also risked his life to save us MCs out of that man made paradise (am expecting trees and flowers, beautiful heavenly palace with out of world scenery, but all I get is a freaking creepy building called Mint Eye with one single beautifully decorated room just for me, and I can't even venture anywhere other than that particular level wth). Do give him some credit, yes? Our presence is needed to get him out of that boss monster's clutches and nag, I mean, educate him so that he understands what the hell went wrong with his mindset. The lying part needs to be bashed, yes, because there are several chances for him to ask for help and tell Sae Young about Saeran as well. But no. However, he still needs help. Hence, this is Ji Hyun's route. We need to educate this handsome idiot about his misconception of love.

5. Stop bashing each other about their favorite characters, seriously. We have our own preferences. You love chewing on chicken bones, that is your problem. Don't make me love that because I don't.

6. Lastly. CHILL, MYSTIC MESSENGER IS JUST A GAME NOVEL (cries in secret why the Choi twins and Hyun aren't real while hugging a pillow with their faces plastered on it).

[dreamersballs]

tag thingy

i was tagged by @fancybasementfestival ! thank you!

Rules: Answer the 92 statements and tag 20 people

LAST:

1. Drink: black tea

2. Phone call: to my mom ? i think

3. Text message: “yea sure”

4. Song: breakthru by queen

5. Time you cried: uhh last week?? idk

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: nah

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah

8. Been cheated on: nope

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: i guess yeah

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue

13. red

14. white

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: fuck yea

16. Fallen out of love: ya

17. Laughed until you cried: omfg yes i saw a video of lil ducklings getting blown off their feet by the wind it was so fuckin cute 

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah

19. Met someone who changed you: yes !  ! !!

20. Found out who your friends are: i already know  e v e r y t h i n g

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life? most of them

23. Do you have any pets? 2 beautiful kitties

24. Do you want to change your name?: i used to when i was smaller but i don’t really care anymore

25. What did you do for your last birthday?: went to the beach with my friends and just had a Good Time

26. What time did you wake up?: 7:50

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?: texting

28. Name something you can’t wait for: this weekend bc i’m gonna see my online friends !  ! ! !

29. When was the last time you saw your mom?: like an hour ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life?: i just wish i was more confident and happier. also wish i didn’t care so so much

31. What are you listening to right now: RADIO GA GA BINCH

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i don’t think so

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: fucking rls can die

34. Most visited website: lmao i hate to say this but… tumblr (sorry twitter)

?????? MORE QUESTIONS

35. Mole/s: i have A TON im not gonna count them all

36. Mark/s: what

37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be an astronaut really bad (still lowkey want to)

38. Haircolor: dark brown

39. Long or short hair: shortt

40. Do you have a crush on someone: nah

41. What do you like about yourself?: nothing

42. Piercings: ear piercings

43. Bloodtype: idk

44: Nicknames: mart, mert

45. Relationship status: single ready 2 mingle

46. Zodiac: taurus

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV show: how i met your mother!!!!!!!!!!!

49. Tattoos: none

50. Right or Left hand?: right

51: Surgery: ye

52. Hair dyed a different color: oh boy i’ve dyed my hair pink, red, orange and blonde

53. Sport: sport can suck my dICK

54. Vacation: last place i went to was corfu!!

55. Pair of trainers: 1

MORE??

56. Eating: nothing

57. Drinking: tea

59. I’m about to: disassociate

61. Waiting for: the weekend

62. Want: to die

63. Get married: sure, but if the person is REALLY special

64. Career: idk…anymore

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs

66. Lips or eyes: eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

67. Shorter or taller: don’t care

68. Older or younger: a bit older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive, loud people are fucking annoying

72. Hookup or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

74. Kissed a stranger: nah

75. Drank hard liquor: no                    

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nah i don’t have glasses

77. Turned someone down: yes

78. Sex on the first date: i am an innocent child

79. Broken someone’s heart: yeah, and i still feel terrible

80. Had your heart broken: yes

81. Been arrested: no

82. Cried when someone died: nope

83. Fallen for a friend: don’t call me out like this

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: never

85. Miracles: sure

86. Love at first sight: yes

87. Santa Clause: no lol

88. Kiss on the first date: sure i don’t mind

89. Angels: no

Other:

90. Current best friend’s name: jasna

91. Eye color: green

92. Favorite movie: i’m not a big fan of movies but i think it’s 5 centimeters per second? idk

uhhhhh i’m tagging @stuckinthelastcentury and @the-great-mr-bad-guy

[stdankus]

10/07

whoa, I was tagged by @studywithbread at the perfect moment as I seriously need some break from angsty fanfiction (thank you my savior) get some tea if you’re going to read this all, because man, it will take some time

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

LAST: 1. drink: water 2. phone call: my dad 3. text message: last one I sent was a screenshot that I was tagged in this (lol) and last one I received said: I can’t see it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 4. song you listened to: I’m pretty sure it was accidentally in love from shrek soundtrack (it IS a very good song) 5. time you cried: well, as I said - angsty fanfiction

HAVE YOU: 6. dated someone twice: lol, I’ve never dated anybody 7. kissed someone and regretted it: what is kissing 8. been cheated on: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 9. lost someone special: unfortunately, yep 10. been depressed: I’m pretty sure I have seasonal depression? every year during autumn/winter I’m basically a wreck™ 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drunk - yes, thrown up - no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14. blue, red and lately yellow

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yES! and I seriously would be dead without them (it was last year, right? or year before? whatever) 16. fallen out of love: does crush count? 17. laughed until you cried: why wouldn’t I do it this year? I do it all the time lol 18. found out someone was talking about you: bruh, I’m so amazing people talk about me all the time 19. met someone who changed you: bet I did 20. found out who your friends are: yup 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: what did I say about kissing

GENERAL: 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know: all of them, I guess? 23. do you have any pets: I have a cat and a dog (I used to have also a hamster but my cat decided to eat it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) 24. do you want to change your name: I already answered that question - not really 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I invited my closest friends for a little sleepover 26. what time did you wake up: today, surprisingly around 9 am, but don’t be fooled, I sleep crazy hours 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: reading fanfiction, duh 28. name something you can’t wait for: drabbles from @shookspears, going to cinema with friends, 5th season of sherlock (HAHAHAHAHHA) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: a second ago, she told me that i should see a doctor. sorry mom this fanfiction is jUST 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: in the past - nothing really - everything that happened made me a person that I am today, and I like that chick. in the present - well, I should get a job probably 31. what are you listening to right now: my jeanmarco playlist I’m sorry 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I know and talk to two toms actually 33. something that is getting on your nerves: poorly written smutty fanfiction (I can only get through it when it’s well written and has, well, some plot), people telling me that I should care what other people think, being told that I should do something differently by a person who has no idea what I’m doing, raisins in pierogis (who puts that shit in them) 34. most visited websites: ao3, tumblr, youtube

LOST QUESTIONS: 35. mole/s: I have two on my face 36. mark/s: I used to have something shaped like diamond on the small of my back 37. childhood dream: I wanted to be a fashion designer, that’s all I think 38. hair color: chestnut brown, but I used to have red-ish something on my head and subtle ombre (not at the same time) 39. long or short hair: short 40. do you have a crush on someone: uh, martin freeman, benedict cumberbatch, levi ackerman, kageyama tobio? irl I stopped really caring 41. what do you like about yourself: my butt, being able to lose my weight without problems, my strong legs, brows, big lips, being able to change my handwriting as I wish, being good at math, not caring much what people think about me 42. piercings: I don’t have any 43. blood type: I’m pretty sure it’s B 44. nickname: when I was in primary school older guys used to call me “chocolate” because of my slightly darker skintone and being cute (thisissoadorableksks) 45. relationship status: single, and I don’t really want to change it 46. zodiac: sagittarius 47. pronouns: she/her 48. favorite tv show: SHERLOCK, duh, sense8 49. tattoos: I don’t have any but my friend is getting one done soon and shE WON’T TELL ME WHEN 50. right or left hand: right 51. surgery: nope 52. hair dyed in different color: as I said, it was red-ish burgundy something 53. sport: I wish I was good in any, but I like rollerblading, skating and when I’m in the mood - basketball 54. where’s 54 55. vacation: almost every year I’m going with my family see some polish lakes, but I was once in london (blessing) and in milan 56. pair of trainers: I don’t really understand the question but converse and nike roshe??

MORE GENERAL: 57. eating: biscuits called ‘maltanki’ (good shit) 58. drinking: my cat stole my water 59. I’m about to: continue reading fanfiction 60. stop skipping numbers, dear author, it’s cheating 61. waiting for: cinema and gabi to show me her tattoo 62. want: uhm, money? more washi tapes, more mac lipsticks, money, better grades (tho it’s summer, I’m relaxing), to sing well, watermelon 63. get married: don’t think so, I’m pretty sure I’m asexual (maybe demi?) so it should be a similar person so that it could work somehow 64. career: I’m considering few options - graphic designer, something connected to advertising, or criminologist

WHICH IS BETTER: 65. hugs or kisses: I don’t kiss, and I’m not a fan of hugging (only with v close friends/my mom) 66. lips or eyes: my lips, someone’s eyes 67. shorter or taller: honestly it’s hard to find someone shorter than me 68. older or younger: oLDER, like benedict cumberbatch older (jk)(or do I) 69. COME ON IT REALLY IS CHEATING. at this moment is what, 89 questions to answer you lying duck 70. nice arms or nice stomach: nice back 71. sensitive or loud: depends, sensitive I guess 72. hook up or relationship: relationship 73. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: what did I say about kissing 75. drank hard liquor: well, my friends broke me (I’m looking at you) 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t wear them 77. turned someone down: a lot (sorry guys) 78. sex in the first date: what is sex 79. broken someone’s heart: yuuuuup 80. had your heart broken: I don’t have a heart 81. been arrested: nope 82. cried when someone died: a lot 83. fallen for a friend: duh

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: as much as I like myself, I don’t always believe in myself 85. miracles: if I pass my oral polish matura it will definitely be a miracle 86. love at first sight: I think so 87. santa claus: hoW CAN YOU NOT BELIEVE IN IT 88. kiss on the first date: not really 89. *coughs* 88 questions

OTHER: 90. current best friend name: patryk, gabi, magda, love you guys 91. eye color: grey-ish 92. favorite movie: kingsman: the secret service

now, tag 20 people (well, I tag as many as I can think about right now, but if you see this post consider yourself tagged) @teddvlcpin @madstudies @sleepisnotmydivision @rawbug @designstudy @successaesthetics @officiallystudying @heyheyheyitsolehickoryhammike (man, someday I’m gonna break my fingers writing your username) @026ml-studies

[1-ufo]

I was tagged by @thoughtsofadyingneil its been ages since i did one of these things but i’m bored so here we go.

1. Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better.

A - Age: 32 B - Birthplace: Minneapolis C - Current Time: 8:43 pm

D - Drink You Last Had: water E - Easiest Person To Talk To: @inanimateobjects and @randaness probably. There’s such pure non judgement F - Favourite Song: Currently it’s Praying by Kesha.  But I have so many.  My favorite Muse song is Nature_1 probably?  Maybe?  It’s literally different every single day.  G - Grossest Memory: Hmm... tbh I cant really remember a specific example.   H - Horror Yes or Horror No: generally no. But i do like to listen to ghost stories. I - In Love: I might be?   J - Jealous of People: I try not to be.  But I’m also human and it does happen.  I try to move beyond that and be happy for other people’s good fortune.   K - Killed Someone: if I ever killed someone it would be by accident and I probably would not be able to live with myself if that happened. L - Love At First Sight Or Should I Walk By Again: I get attraction at first sight but that’s about it. M - Middle Name: lynn N - Number of Siblings: 1 O - One Wish: to not be alone P - Person You Called Last: my mom Q - Question You Are Always Asked: literally on the daily basis “how are you?” R - Reason to Smile: kesha and beautiful friends T - Time You Woke Up: 8 U - Underwear Colour: just white V - Vacation Destination: if a day trip counts as a vacation i went tubing in lanesboro?  next destination is New York though! to see Muse! W - Worst Habit: probably nail biting X - X-rays: I think the last x ray i had was of my lungs.  But once we accidentally found out that I have a random bone chip floating around in my neck which is a little concerning. Y - Your favourite food: I love so much food.  Fries are probably the best but they have to be gluten free Z - Zodiac Sign: Cancer

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2. Rules: answer 20 questions and tag 20 people

Nickname: I do not have a nickname

Zodiac: Cancer

Height: 5′1″

last thing i googled: lol “what happens when you mix alcohol and weed together” (The answer is you green out)  

Favorite music artist: Muse.  And Kesha is at the top for me atm.  I just love her so much.

Song stuck in my head: Praying- Kesha

Last movie i saw: ummmmmmmmmmmm... I watched stranger things on the 4th of july does that count?

What am i wearing right now?: shorts and a tank top

Why did a chose my URL?: bc i fell in love with matt bellamy’s holy guitar.  and the fans called it swiss-manson.  Like swiss cheese.  

Do you have any other blogs?: yeah i have an aesthetic cool southern architecture side blog.

What did your last relationship teach you?: that he don’t respect me and took away a part of me that could get excited about being in love.  

Religious or spiritual: hmm.  I might be a little spiritual.  idk.  

Favorite color:  green!

Average hours of sleep: 6-8 hours usually thanks to my insomnia meds

Lucky number: i dont have one of those

Favourite characters: hmm.  draco malfoy! Eleven, Will Graham, Griffin Valentino

How many blankets do you sleep with: two

Dream job: wherever i’m happy

I tag... @dombell, @inanimateobjects, @hesitationmarxm and whoever wants to do this.

[heejinsgf]

get to know me tag?? i think

Tagged by @12moonas ♡ 

This is probably going to be wayyy too detailed… oops? Some more nsfw things will be under the cut (it’s also super long for this blog i’m very very sorry :< )

THE LAST:

Drink: water !!! stay hydrated, kids

Phone call: asking my mom to rescue me pick me up

Text message: replying to my close?? best?? friend after a rant about her day

Song you listened to: Sogyeokdong by Seotaiji, sung by IU ♡

Time you cried: last night because i felt really sick :(

Dated someone twice: two times zero is still zero !!!

Kissed someone and regretted it: what is kissing

Been cheated on: what are relationships

Lost someone special: my first dog, Percy. I miss you so much, bud.

Been depressed: this morning when i found out someone i knew had passed away this year…

Gotten drunk and thrown up: I Am Underage. Only adults can vomit, obviously.

(idk if the last five were supposed to be under “THE LAST” category but… i’m just rollin with it)

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: (surprise surprise i’m canadian yes i spell favourite colours with the u’s)

ORANGE 

Blue (my dog’s name too)

Yellowww

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

Made new friends: yep!

Fallen out of love: what is love

Laughed until you cried: probably lmao

Found out someone was talking about you: nope?

Met someone who changed you: ok i didn’t meet them, but i’ve become a big fan of the chinese women’s national volleyball team i’d say they (esp. certain fave players) have definitely changed me

Found out who your friends are: idk? what are friends

Kissed someone on your Facebook list: n o

GENERAL:

How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them :D don’t talk to strangers, kids

Do you have any pets: my lil pup, blue ♡

Do you want to change your name: no?? Candy is easy and memorable lol, although i can’t say the same for my last name…

What did you do for your last Birthday: uhh i was probably drowning in either physics or bio :/ my bday’s during exam season

What time did you wake up: i woke up multiple times (damn you, you weird illness thingy), but meant to wake up at 7AM to watch China play Russia in the FIVB Grand Prix Preliminaries 2017 :D (China won!!! the match was so close it was magnificent)

What were you doing at midnight last night: either trying to sleep or rewatching the previous day’s China vs. Italy volleyball match lol. i am a piece of trash, i know :<

Name something you can’t wait for: my two week break before school begins!!!! *cries*

When was the last time you saw your mom: two hours ago??

What are you listening right now: NCT’s Cherry Bomb :3 but Neon Bunny’s New Moon is next !!!

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: who is tom

Something that is getting on your nerves: that nakamoto yuta’s vocals are not appreciated fully ://

Most visited website: messenger.com ;)

Elementary school: too many to remember

High school: a self-paced school in ontario

College: i want to get into a health sci program at either the University of Toronto, or McMaster University :)

Hair colour: black woot woot

Long or short hair: ok well i have an undercut with long hair because it’s super thick, so i guess it’s sort of half and half lmao

Do you have a crush on someone: someone i know personally? n o. someone halfway across the globe? Yan Ni, Ding Xia, and Zheng Yixin currently :)

What do you like about yourself: I’d say i’m a good student, friendly, and um… i don’t give a shit about my appearance so that saves a lot of stress 

Piercings: I DON’T HAVE ANY BUT i really want to get some this summer (a single, !!uninfected!! helix ring or stud is my dream)

Blood type: idk :(

Nickname: is Candy not enough of a nickname already

Relationship status: been single for 16 years and 1 month!! (i was born in june 2001, do the math)

Pronouns: she/her

Favourite TV Show: ATLA !!!!!!

Tattoos: nah. too much commitment lmao

Right or left handed: right !!! 

Past surgeries: nonono 

Piercing: why is this here again

Do you play any sports: welp i used to do badminton, running, and long jump but nahhh

Vacation: i’ve never been on a vacation in my life :) !!! BUT I’M GOING TO MONTREAL THIS OCTOBER TO SEE THE ARTISTIC GYMNASTICS WORLD CHAMPIONSHIPS i am so blessed (kohei and kenzo and songsong pls stay healthy)

Pair of trainers: what does this even mean??? If it’s asking if i have a pair of running shoes, then yes i have multiple, but i have to get new ones and orthotics from a podiatrist soon, so :/ who knows

MORE GENERAL:

Eating: love it!!! buy me a roast duck, cherry tomatoes, and/or cheesecake, and i will love you forever

Drinking: i now see what they mean by “more general” now lmao. well i basically drink water 24/7

I’m about to: procrastinate on do hw :/

Waiting for: life to sort itself out ??

Want: stable income, a career i enjoy, health for me and the people i care about, healthy pets, fun experiences, a less… vile world, being able to safely come out

Get married: idk bud

Career: health profession

WHICH IS BETTER:

Hugs or kisses: idk i’ve done neither as far as i can remember

Lips or eyes: i think both are great and some can be very pretty, buuuttt it’s really hard for me to look people in the eyes so i’m gonna have to say lips lmao

Shorter or taller: doesn’t matter :)  (but i’m like 5 feet tall so they’d probably be taller anyways)

Older or younger: uhhhh

Nice arms or nice stomach: I Am Obsessed with hands, wrists, and forearms !!! is that a kink

the ~rest~ under the cut lol

Sensitive or loud: what

Hook up or relationship: idk but both sound great when done right lol

Troublemaker or hesitant: what

HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a stranger: noooo

Drank hard liquor: noooo

Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes :< had to spend a day walking around in a blurry mess

Turned someone down: noooo

Sex in the first date: what

Broken someones heart: what

Had your heart broken: look i have had z e r o relationships o k aa ayy

Been arrested: noooo

Cried when someone died: once, for my dog Percy 

Fallen for a friend: for like 2 days ok

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself: y-yes?

Miracles: idk

Love at first sight: i dkdkd kdk kk

Santa Claus: who is that

Kiss in the first date: that doesn’t sound too bad ??

Angels: what are those

OTHER:

Current best friend’s name: V******* aka vanilla bean

Eye colour: dark brown?? i srsly can’t even look myself in the eye in the mirror OTL

Favourite movie: i don’t watch movies?? do the last 4 episodes of ATLA count lmao

ok so idk who to tag, so whoever wants to have fun, just go with it!! also, if you read this entire thing… i am so sorry lmao