hmmm something about dominik haunting the narrative in king of scars. everything nikolai does is at least a little bit for him. he learns about the life of average ravkan people by meeting dominik's family. he starts gaining influence in politics just so he can improve dominik's life. and then he promises dominik that he won't let ravka break him.
that promise fucking haunts him. it follows him wherever he goes. it's the driving force behind everything he does, every step he takes to heal the centuries-old wounds in ravka. it's what drives him to do better, be better.
dominik is always there, in the back of his mind: this country gets you in the end. always pushing him to do more, because he couldn't save dominik and so he has to save ravka (for dominik) (because he promised) (because he loved him)
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Do you think any of the FBI people who were trying to find Sam and Dean ever encountered the Supernatural books?
At first they would have thought the brothers had read the books and just had some weird delusions about being the characters but then it gets so much weirder because their birth certificates and records and every place they have ever lived in from before the books were even published all match with the back story in the text. Then it gets weirder because... the books would have talked about the FBI investigation right? About all the alleged murders and torture and bank robberies and all of it.
If you were that FBI person you would have to assume that Sam and Dean had written it or that Chuck knew them personally and belived in their monster delusions or was enabling them. Did they think that Chuck was the mastermind behind it all? The one encouraging the Winchesters to commit these crimes and then basing his book series off of it?
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can people have any amount of sympathy for pharmacy staff like. im fucking begging yall to use your brains those are underpaid service workers the same as anyone else and they dont personally control every aspect of your medications. they arent fucking holding your meds over your head because they think its funny, theyre normal people working a job as a shitty middle man between doctors and insurances and manufacturers just trying to make sure you can get your meds
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Sigh. It appears my internet might be a bit compromised due to the political climate and the upcoming elections, so I might disappear for about two or so days.
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It's kind of a testament to how far it's been that despair converts so easily to a directed anger but it still doesn't do that Enough. I wish I were the kind of guy that can use that directed rage efficiently as ambition but I'm not, not yet at least, and that's is, derangedly, humiliating to me in and of itself
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((had to follow up my ticket to staff about mutuals not appearing on my dash....))
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people are so spineless about protests. bro it's a peaceful rally that inconveniences you slightly. people with all these attitudes like "what's it gonna do? go do it somewhere it matters..." and "now everyone just thinks you're assholes" "you just want attention" "you're just virtue signalling" holy shit. there is not One Big Protest you go to and then the war stops and everyone goes home. have you read about a single social movement in your entire life? where the fuck are we supposed to protest. white house steps only? we gotta fly out there? use our inside voices? hide from the tourists? sanctioned protest hour? get fucking REAL
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STIMMING NOT TWITCHING OR SHIVERING ‼️‼️
ITS CALLED STIMMING GOD IM SSUCH A DUMBASS
DISREGARD THAT PART IN FUCKSHITPOST 4.86
I CAN STIM IN THE COMFORT OF MY OWN HOME NOW WITHOUT ANYONE TO JUDGE AND ADMONISH ME BECAUSE I AM VERY VERY NEUROTYPICAL PRESENTING TO THE POINT PEOPLE REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT I AM YKNOW EVERYTHING NO ONE WANTS TO BELIEVE IM AUTISTIC DESPITE BEING DIAGNOSED AT 2YO AND BEING NONVERBAL AND HAVING TO BE PUT IN THERAPY FOR YEARS BCS OF THAT PEOPLE R SHITTY SOMETIMES :(
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being in a relationship or liking someone as a bpd will never fail to bring the worst out of me lol
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one of the worst things abt me is that bc i got into therapy at 13 and was able to get a huge headstart on working thru very common problems, i associate those common problems with immaturity just due to them being smth i only rlly felt while like 12-15. so now im sitting here experiencing a very widespread and normal self esteem issue and my brain is like WOOOOOW. you sound like such an annoying little juvenile baby rn. meanwhile its a self image issue that most ppl deal with at my age
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