#and a little physically exhausted

[curiosity-killed]

This is my choice and I recognize that but it is always weird when like coworkers are like aw dance is so cute!! when I mostly just. worked a second+ job all weekend

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

honestly wally is stronger than atlas. if i had to constantly calibrate to the nature of my reality w/ full consciousness i would simply lose my fucking mind

[hoffmanstits-enjoyer]

There's just something so fucking great about the concept of characters like Zeke Banks and Peter Strahm having this complicated relationship to serial killers while having such a strong urge for justice and finding the truth???

Specifically, I love to think about how in the middle of their games of cat and mouse, or at those moments they inevitably share as they sharpen their knowledge on each other and get close enough to bump, when their intentions get a lot more nuanced as they insist on combing through them later again and again... that connection and obsession shoves everything else to second place. Seeing one another tunnels their vision, and their actions will follow rules made on the spot.

But then the world keeps on turning around them when they leave the crime scene with blood on their shirts and a gun that may or may not have been pointed but never used, piles of mangled bodies from 'collaborative traps' and distorted audios calling the remains of another horror story a chance for 'redemption' never stop being found; survivors slam doors in their faces when they come for statements and sob their hearts out at their closed off support meetings— suddenly, it's their place to show remorse, perform the respect and compassion that's lacking in their lovers... and how it impacts them to carry that burden they, against their own better judgement and all good reasoning, carry because they only give this much of a tangible fuck when they're put face to face with that damage.

It's just breathtaking, to wonder how ignorance is bliss and they cover themselves in it for the sake of something they want so badly. The guilt that comes when the blanket slips right off, yanked back by their lovers. Maybe even by themselves, punishment for their own broken vows. Weakness.

[pkmoth]

having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

🥺❤️🥺❤️🥺❤️

[vingegaaard]

jonas personally invited a little boy currently battling cancer who has grown attached to his vingegaard cap to cover up his missing hair to the celebration hosted in glyngøre, his hometown. jonas gave him one of his yellow jerseys, gave him a hug and signed some things for him. 

this is the man that some of the spectators booed at and even hit while he was riding through france. 

[cordyceptic]

does anyone want to send a few dollars to my cashapp so i can afford to get cbd or something like that for pain relief haha... 🧍

[peaches2217]

I have so many varied and fun WIPs I could work on but my brain continues to scream “BE WEIRD ABOUT CHILDBIRTH! SURELY YOU WON’T WEIRD ANYONE OUT IF YOU KEEP WRITING ABOUT CHILDBIRTH!” and I’d like it to sTOP

[i-may-be-an-emu]

I’m so exhausted, sfth time :)

[collectorcookie]

I know literally nobody cares about physics in a fantasy setting but i do. Let's talk about murr's notes from one of his cards.

Ok let's go

Constellations on the left, i wonder what he named them? And I'll assume planets orbiting on the right? Very interesting. What other astronomical objects are there besides earth and moon in mhyk world? I wanna know tell me

ATOMS! oh my gooood, i wonder how far atoms as a concept have already been explored. There's so much to them. This model (called the bohr model fyi) shows the very stererotypical way most people know an atom, with a nucleus in the middle and electrons orbiting it. It's not true! It's outdated. That's not what electrons do. What we know about electrons is that we don't know what they even exactly do. This isn't because science is lazy but because it is physically impossible to do so (see heisenberg uncertainty principle). Instead we have orbitals, which are 3d spaces and basically a guess at where the electrons are most probably likely to be at. Mr Hart do you know what an orbital is??? This is what orbitals look like btw

you gotta imagine like. All these shapes overlaying eachother btw. That's what an atom looks like. Kinda.

Now onto the next:

The way stuff is written down is convincing me differential equations potentially exist there. I feel the "!?" next to the cube there on a spiritual level, Muru. It's okay you'll survive it i'm sure.

Hmmm....a damped oscillation, i guess? Not much to say. It sure is a damped oscillation.

IS THAT A FUCKING POTENTIAL WELL (physics exam nightmare flashbacks)

Jokes aside, this is a potential well! (Or so is my guess). Again, this is not what irl looks like tho, outdated. This is what irl looks like:

Lennard jones potential!

And now. My question to Mr Hart is. Why is there a dashed line mirroring the diagramm??? What's that brother??? Anti mass??? Idk

[dootznbootz]

As someone with ADHD, you know you're fucking exhausted when you're not even fidgeting. :'D

[celestial-citrus]

Self-care soon, queen?

[colesabi]

I just tried to write for an hour and it was honestly painful. I wouldn’t say I’m experiencing writers block… maybe more so, I’m a broken record that just wants to repeat the same words and descriptors and is having a difficult time concentrating and forming coherent and meaningful sentences.

I think out of the 7 or so paragraphs I wrote, maybe 2 or 3 are passable and that’s coming from a brain that is running on fumes at this point so I’m not even sure I’m all that confident in that either.

[manasurge]

Ogod, my schedule for the next two weeks are such ASS. wtf… I’m going to be SO FREAKING TIRED and so freaking depressed. I hate it I hate it I hate it.

[running-in-the-dark]

it's been a month since we moved into the new apartment -

I'm so stressed. everything is stressful. we're still not done building the kitchen but it's getting there (slowly). mostly we just need to wait until we get a couple parts that weren't in stock when we ordered the rest. I'm hoping it'll be done by next weekend.

some of it is very frustrating with my brain specifically. I'm so bothered by all the tiny little things that no one else would even notice - like, some of the handles on the drawers are very slightly crooked (as in, less than a millimeter higher on one side) - but for me it's so obvious that it's impossible to ignore. my husband didn't even know what I meant when I pointed it out to him. there's also been a few slightly bigger issues, but we've solved them now (I think).

my eye has been twitching for like three to four weeks. not all the time obviously, but every few minutes. it's very, very annoying.

we still have no new info about when we'll have internet finally. it could take a while still.

on Monday a guy has to replace something in the electric roller shutters in one room - but we don't know which one yet. so either I'll have to let him into my room (awful, uncomfortable, will have to tidy up tomorrow so he could even get to the window), or I'll have to get both our cats into their carrier if it's the one in my husband's room (awful, difficult, one of them doesn't like that so he'll be scared and I'll feel bad).

also on Monday the electrician will install our stove (if he has time). then we're getting two ikea deliveries. and I've got an appointment with my (new) GP because I need a prescription, and I'm very (verrry) nervous about it.

I miss watching TV. I miss tumblr and YouTube and messaging my friends whenever I want and sending them photos all the time. I miss order and structure and (some level of) routine. I miss using real cutlery (we still haven't found ours lol).

when I was finally starting to get used to the noises in this place, the family above us moved in with their baby that cries all the time very very loudly and most of the time right above my room. so now everything is different again and I'm not adjusting well and once again I can't sleep.

but, I've listened to 14 audiobooks since we moved! that's been nice. it was the same way when we moved the last time (just over a year ago..). my favourite by far was The Thursday Murder Club. I've got the other ones in the series but I'm trying not to listen to them too quickly, so I'm gonna listen to three other books first (one is done already, so I should get there on Monday or Tuesday hopefully).

[slumbergoblin]

hey