#and adel does not understand their feelings abt this

[adellovesrowan]

abandonment issues

[inuyazuka]

brooke lohst headcanons no one asked for

This woman. I love this woman SO MUCH! Warning: this will be very random

okay so ik i said this abt Rich but like, SHE’S BI

the bi trio (cause Jeremy is totally bi too)

refuses to dye her hair

even when Chloe gets blonde highlights

or when Jenna gets a pink/purple streak

will fite you on the opinion that Pinkberry is the best froyo place ever.

cardigans are a must

wouldn’t be caught dead without one

but they’re like, so comfy

like a knitted heaven for your torso

love, love, loves listening to Amy Winehouse and Lana Del Ray

her happy little self getting all toned down and sad to Summertime Sadness

yassssssssssssss guuuurrrrrlllll

Rehab is one of her favorite songs tho

just imagine her angelic, high pitched voice suddenly lowering to sing “tryna make me go to rehab and i said”

“no nO NO”

alshsbhskaksishbs

and like her girlfriend joins in to harmonize with the ‘no’ parts

Rich joins in bc

A) why not

B) they’re besties too

she’s probs realy good at impressions

like she has good control over her voice and can imitate so many singers

ya want Britney Spears?

“Oh bay-beh, bay-beh...”

Shakira?

“Whenever, wherever! We’re meant to be together!”

Adele???

“.........HALLO FROMTHE OTHER SIIIIIIAIAAADE”

also why she loves karaoke

her and Michael slay at karaoke

(obv Michael does, that’ll probably be in another headcanon no one asked for)

wAIT

did i mention???

12/10 would die for Chloe Valentine

(and vice versa) cause this love is mutual

musical fan

“Elizaaaaaaa!”

i feel like she’s like DEH better but she def has a soft spot for Helpless

but like, she watched Wicked as a kid and fell in love with musical theatre

hides it well to seem cool

girl NO

Chloe teases her, but playfully

cause we all know she loves Brooke

#relatable

oH

need someone to vent to?

need a shoulder to cry on?

want someone to distract you from something by making you laugh or enjoying a shopping trip?

need a friend?!

who’s got two thumbs and meets those needs??????

BROOKE LOHST

this precious blonds marshmallow listens

she wants to help you

you are her top priority when you are feeling down

she ain’t all like Chloe

she’s patient

understanding

empathetic

she is the pillow you cry into when you are feeling sad

I love this smol bean. GOODNIGHT!

[arks-kin-creations]

could you perhaps do a stimboard and/or a care package (dont worry too much abt the price) for angela (library of ruina) if possible with themes of dragons, plushies, furbys? sorry i have like this rlly obscure interest hfhdhddh you dont have to do it! if not feel free to ignore this.

Yes. Your request is here. I hope you liked the things I picked.

You do not have to apologize for the things you like, Angela. I made this blog mostly for obscure kin with obscure interests. I found a lot of kin request blogs to be very restricted, in that they would only make content for a short list of sources. (And my kin sources were almost never there, because they’re not very popular on Tumblr.)

I have some obscure interests as well. I know how it feels to be left out or mocked for having certain interests, so I won’t refuse to make something on the basis of not personally understanding its appeal.

As long as a request follows the rules, does not contain blacklisted sources or content, and it is possible for me to make, it will be completed eventually.

-Mod Ark (Adele Shift)

[adelmortescryche]

onceabluemoonwrites replied to your post “Okay, does anyone have any idea when exactly the placements for the...”

I'd say @boycottromance 's estimate will be 100% better than mine since I usually plan my fics entirely around that stuff so I don't have to deal with it. Sorry Adel! ��

boycottromance replied to your post “Okay, does anyone have any idea when exactly the placements for the...”

Also, assuming CSK is around the same time every year, it's late september. I have it as sept 24-27 for the 09/10 season outline, which i think tried to include minimal lying

boycottromance replied to your post “Okay, does anyone have any idea when exactly the placements for the...”

Uhh, it's kinda l8 for me so i'm going to say wikipedia doesn't answer my q abt later eligibility so i would suggest the ISU website

boycottromance replied to your post “Okay, does anyone have any idea when exactly the placements for the...”

Prelim announcements (irl) for the 17/18 GP series were late may. Presumably invited skaters (Jpn, usa, canada, china, rus and france can each invite 1 skater to their event i think) and anyone who qualifies season of get assignments later, tho my prelim digging has yet to answer when

Bless the both of you for responding, whew!

@onceabluemoonwrites It’s okay, Blue, I can understand! I usually do post-canon or canon divergence/AU stuff myself, so needing to keep an eye on a timeline has been... fun, this time around. Aaargh.

@boycottromance Yes, I was placing the CSK Championships in the range of 22-25 Sept, since those are the dates for 2016 that I’ve found. Also, ack, announcements as early as May?! The anime seems to have confuzzled me, since watching it gave me the impression that announcements happened right before the CSK Championships. Maybe at best a month before, which would be why I was thinking Mid-August could work. 

Let’s see if I have any luck with the ISU website on the topic of late entries, since that’s definitely what Yuuri would have been. That said, seeing as he’s Japan’s Ace and all, it also feels like he could have been that single country invite. In AHoB’s continuity especially, since he’s hands down the top Japanese single men’s figure skater in it. That silver at Sochi only affirms that. Also, eep, this probably caught you really late! I figured that you would have turned in by now. ^^;; 

Let’s see how much more I managed to get typed out before you’re awake... *wry grin*

[aitian]

5:43 am 12/29/2020

end of year.

feels right to revisit how i looked this yr on photobooth. most ppl only knew me through my webcam. i dont have many thoughts abt who i am or what im doing these days. mostly playing video games with alice. we smoked together a few days ago & i still feel like im in deadtime. like maybe i cant remember the important things im supposed to from the past. & rly existential lately. the panic is just in my throat, thinking abt how fast time is going & how there is no way back. i think there is a carceral logic behind the entrapment that all us depressed & anxious kids feel.. like the inadequacy of being alive, the failure to feel like a beautiful future is unfolding. im not sure anyone feels that way these days, & maybe thats why they r all holding on so desperately. all empires fall. im so grateful to be able to feel moms body & be her child these days. i just wanna lay my head on someones chest & feel good, warm, soft, coarse fabrics. also feeling anxious abt my classes, turning in the same essay that isnt rly an essay to all of my profs. oops. it was rly the best i could manage. vestigial body... i will finish writing smth i feel proud abt one day, & it will be written to myself. like this. 

idk when the last time i wrote was, but maybe i wanna talk abt my relationships. feels like i got a hard reset on my brain by smoking with alice. oh god. anyway i havent been talking to sherry & adele recently bc i just dont feel right around them. in november remembering again what it felt like to feel so unwelcome all the time, feel that energy & those manners replicated by them toward me.. ik i should just talk to people frankly abt the things im uncomfortable with at home now that i have so much practice doing it but i just dont want to. somehow it feels like they should all just know, that they are living alongside me all this time in various ways even if i am not saying things to them, & our actions that connect us in relationship are felt by them too. & there is some part of refusal to see the relationship for what it is. im not begging for some trans pity or for commitment.. those kinds of relationship arent real. what is real is wanting to spend time with me, wanting to experience some sort of exchange between bodies, wanting to walk toward near horizons. feels like everyone who listens & agrees when i speak just does it to be amicable. there are only so many ways i can reassure myself that ppl understand me for who i am, even when they are constantly being led astray to hurt me. like alice saying its good for doctors to have objective views of their patients, outside of any other relationship. mom saying that she trusted our teachers to teach us what we needed. getting weirdly gendered messages from friends at home, & never asked in good faith about how i feel. its rly so shitty that even questions like how was the day or what ru thinking rn or whats on the horizon r things they want me to ask, then dont want to answer, & make fun of bc they feel awkward saying anything. so stupid. its this kind of shit that holds me back from letting my desires be known, these rituals of repression & shame. & i always wanna hear ppls desires & then immediately regret asking to know that our relationship is in direct conflict with their utopias. so stupid.

today after dinner, which was in the late evening, mom & alice & i did some short yoga stuff & then we did silly lion dancing. im still sore. i stretched out everything that felt sort afterward. anyway, felt good to be goofy & sweat & breathe hard. 

what im feeling abt this year: - vestigial body x1000 --> dark room, heart beating fast, waiting & squeezing. theres that episode of midnight gospel when the dying dog/reindeer lady talks abt giving birth & dying, like squeezing & tensing & on no this moment will never end & then releasing & coming to rest & then all over again. & that is what i think abt every time i feel in panic now, or in a deep place of fear. there r some pains that cant be escaped, & they dont need to be. they r felt all the same.  - i made a new friend through q&a who is a kid im supposed to b mentoring. it just means that all relationships are reciprocal (i dont like that word either, but they r never simply one way or transactional) & we met every thursday during the school yr. i prepared short stories for us to read & writing prompts, & we wrote abt stuff.  - i just cant remember. all i remember abt this summer was going to stone valley with mom, feeling the sunlight & my tiredness (in an enveloping selse, toward my body & my spirit), playing games w sherry, playing some piano, & working on that fire emblem romhack. feels like the year went by so quickly. like i just had my birthday a few days ago, & now the new year means it is coming again soon. sometimes whole lives are vestigial. what is gruesome & magnificent abt that is that those vestigial bodies are hard to kill without clear intentions & collective effort. what sucks is the entrapment. i have been feeling this cant remember feeling in a bigger way, toward what my life was like before college, toward who i was in college now that i am so removed, & even more toward the kid whose world blossomed into smth they desperately desired & felt afraid of. middle school me would be horrified. maybe an even younger me would be proud, feel in awe or struck by the rightness of home. - i want to remember mom. the way she walks around with her hands in her pockets. 帅吗。:). how we skip/gallop sideways to avoid the wind on our walks, & she bounces when she walks like a silly kid. i love her. unruly gender, stubbornness of feelings, failure failure failure is why we r hurt but also why we r rly still allowed to be here. thinking abt moms essay, moving away from her grandma, thinking she would live together again someday. thinking abt how im home this yr, in a way i thought maybe i would never be ever again. its so cruel to leave love behind for the sake of a ritualized life i could never participate in. i wont do it. i just wont.

some feelings abt the coming year - i want to meet someone like myself & fall in love. deeply, with myself, in relationship. i wanna have sex too, & feel held in my being alive. i wanna be allowed to enjoy my body in even more regards like wearing short sleeves & feeling the sun on my arms free from dysphoria, existing in public not noticeably & feeling the evaporation of racial tension, waking up with that feeling of possibility, like i want to be alive & eat food & go outside & do those things in my body that remind me that i am a part of how the rest of this world is growing. i wanna be held in that knowing, together, of wellness & movement toward everything that means we matter to each other.  - playing video games has been so important to this vestige & i dont want it to remain that way. i wanna collect stuff & grow stuff in real life, & grow myself & my relationships too. its not living when its the mourning of the freedom i should have always had & should have every moment i am continuing to life unfreely. - i wanna do some stuff to express gratitude to the ppl i have continued some sort of relationship with. feel bad abt how no one has emailed me back in more than a month now. maybe wanna do a q&a chapbook or yearbook. complex feelings bc i am so not in relationship with the ppl i wanna care abt. it sucks. part of that is letting go of guilt too, & being real with myself abt how much responsibility is on the other body to make me feel okay in our relationships. its rly not my fault that, u kno.. everyone is used to making someone like me feel like shit. sad that my most continuous relationships this yr r with professors. those dumb feelings of obligation r killer. i guess im grateful to be legible in some ways, while feeling the intensely awkward unwillingness to be real abt our positions relative to each other. i think lots more happening in this regard in the coming months w classes, blk atlantic ecologies, maybe smth w prof lee. & sometimes thinking abt what grad school would mean. - i wanna feel slow, i wanna feel like myself, i wanna feel free. some feelings r sitting in the garden on my own in the spring, planting some stuff. thinking abt what it might grow into, coming back again & again. the sun ducks behind clouds & comes back out, & the world feels so light & passing by. & time feels forever, like i have so much patience to dream & breathe & observe. this is one of my early memories, watching shadows on the concrete/sidewalks at preschool, feeling warmer then colder then warmer again. i also wanna feel the kind of collectivity that makes me know we all insist on home. i want it to branch beyond this home that i know. & also mean that i will not throw this away. im thinking abt how to exist intimately with more than one person at once. it is smth i will learn as it comes into my life.

[lordendsavior]

I think it’s more likely directed at the people who don’t treat him like a human (there’s quite a few of them remember) rather than someone like you who’s obviously aware he’s a human with normal human emotions :) I completely do understand your point, but I can just also see it from Louis’ perspective too!

you think ppl who don’t treat him as a person will care abt what he wants to say in his lyrics? cause i don’t think so. the reason why millions of people buy adele’s records is not because she’s saying ‘i’m famous but i’m still like you and i feel things’, it’s because she sings about love, and heartbreak, and loneliness. and when she does, i believe her. you simply can’t force compassion and empathy.

[adellovesrowan]

RSA- you don’t have to apologize for late responses, take as much time as you need!! Moving on, what extracurricular activities does Cherry take? For Mina, she’s part of the gardening club and whatever the lgbtq club is (she figured out she was a lesbian early on). Also for the school dances, I like to think it’s similar to the celestial ball where the mc went with a group of their friends and not just one person. Cherry and Mina and their friends dress/tux shopping! I think it would be cute :)

👇🏿👇🏿

thank you !! and idk yet i honestly feel like cherry wouldnt be part of too many clubs, but i know she would join a baking club if there was one HDNDNSN and the lgbtq+ club too yeah ( also mina is so valid !! ). ohhh pls that would be so cute !!! 🥺

RSA- it’s totally understandable you don’t have cherry’s schedule worked out yet. For Mina, she takes herbology, comc (her mom made her), art (at first bc she thought Badeea was cool and then she started to enjoy it), and math bc she’s very straightforward so I thought she’d enjoy math classes. I have no clue who teaches her math class, maybe McNully. This just came into my mind but the leviosa kid as a teacher ??? He still can not lift a feather. Ben could work as a charms teachers

omggg math teacher mcnully is so interesting. LEVIOSA KID AS A TEACHER yessss. and i can totally see ben as a charms professor.

RSA- Does Rowan teach any other subjects besides history? Who was the first person she told about her idea for a school? Her loved ones all pitched in to fund her school. Also yes Jae and Chiara are great. I wouldn’t call them a straight ship since they both come off as bi to me. What would Jae call his restaurant? If they ever have kids, I think they would adopt. And yes their kid would go to the school esp if they were already a student there. Chiara finding a way to make transforming easier.

i honestly think rowan would teach any subject if she was asked to HDJDJD. and well in my canonverse, she would tell adel first bc shes made a safe space in adel where she can confide in her ideas and more personal things. and ur right i also see them both as Not Hetero ( my hc for them is ace biromantic jae and pansexual chiara ) i just called them a straight ship bc theyre wlm HDHDHDJ. idk abt resto names but i do agree they would adopt. and yesss i agree to the last two.

RSA- how old was Rowan when the school started? Did Cherry exist at this point? When did Rowan and Adel decide to have a kid? Also does the time period with Cherry being eleven take place in the current year? Also I figured students would have different uniforms for messier classes (ex: art, comc). Liz having students who want to hear more about the different creatures! What does the Khanna-Young family do for the summer? For JT and Mina they visit JT’s dad bc Mina’s other grandparents are dead.

anon im so sorry but my brain dead it cant answer too many questions at once HDHSKSHSKSN but i have pinpointed 2002 as the year cherry was born ! and yes definitely for the uniforms and liz ! its what she deserves. HDHDHJD i havent decided yet they probably jus stay home, go out on family trips. if they were to visit a family it would be the khannas. also they take rowans last name bc adel wants to cut ties w her family name. so its the khannas instead of khanna - youngs😌

RSA- okay but r!rowan/r!trio in this au? 👀??? Like “We were part of an evil organization and now one of us runs a school and the other two work for her.” Did their other friends find out about them being in R and if so, how’d it go down? How did they stop being evil? At least in this au? (Or rather combinations of aus)

yes they did !! rumors spread like wildfire at hogwarts when they were busted. in this au i think itll most likely be the same. lets pull a disney and say they stoppes being evil thanks to the power of love and friendship🥰 /hj