#and deeply embarrassing tbh

[abirdscry]

as i lay before you, stripped to my core, dagger presented with tip facing in, my tears spell out a thanks. thank you; for throwing the blade aside; for bringing me safety in your arms; for being gentle; for being there; for being the love i needed all this time.

[fluentisonus]

i'm actually really proud of myself for admitting to anyone I have adhd bc after high school when I had teachers saying I was making it up I decided I was never going to tell anyone besides doctors about it ever again & actually lied on my undergrad forms about not having it so. this is progress for me even if it still feels deeply embarrassing & ridiculous to say out loud to anyone

[brobotsbro]

Me: cringe culture is dead! Like what you like, write about your blorbos who cares if it's self indulgent or bad or whatever!

Me: unless it's me. I can't let anyone know I Feel

[crehador]

as if i could take only one lmao

[1980ssunflower]

Ngl the times are hurting me

[divinekangaroo]

not the paper nor the words we waste (but time and lives) - pettiot - Peaky Blinders (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Post S4 and pre S6, snippets of Thomas Shelby's political career.

Ch 1: On the proposed Measure to Grant the Government Additional Powers to Seize the Children of Narrowboat Dwellers who fail to comply with compulsory School Attendence. A day very early in his career where junior Minister Thomas Shelby must defend the right of families to live together on narrowboats.

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Note, notwithstanding the 'incomplete' nature, each chapter is substantively a standalone work/one-shot. Tags will update to reflect additional chapters. .

Tommy Shelby, Various Ministers | (Superficial View of) Politics (as a Forum for Identity Assault), Parliament, Alternative Universe Politics, Public Speaking, The Inherent Humiliation and Sledging Associated with Speaking in Parliament, Slurs, Nastiness, Bullying, Irony <-Deep Deep Irony, Schadenfreude, Fremdscham, Secondhand Embarrassment, Work, Imperialism, Class Issues, Colonial Constructs

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Writers notes for any interested (also in the tags):

Chapter 1 was drawn from a transcript of a similar argument tabled at Parliament in 1930 (?) I think and again over time (IIRC? read it a few months ago with some searing statements burned into my brain, flinching a little). The politicisation of the lifestyles of people who live and work on narrowboats has a very long and painful history.

I imagine the possibility of the rueful and somewhat bitter realisation when Tommy walks into Parliament to discover his (at that time unknown to any minister) very specific childhood the subject of heated political debate. That he doesn't necessarily want to defend that for personal reasons, but has to recognise that his life wasn't everyone's life, and also that cannot *not* defend that way of living because...well...the alternative he notes in his argument. The consequences of sweeping policy that is typically unconsidered.

I also imagine that suddenly having this in his face in Parliament at a time when he is least mentally stable, could feasibly have contributed further to the breakdown of those boundaries between his war trauma and childhood trauma -> this way in S5 his narrowboat references / childhood trauma references become that increasingly heavy shadow.

[walrusandbucket]

Thank you to the YouTuber who uploaded the full play through of the Tintin game so I could quickly scrub through the game to find one (1) mention of Allan and Tom xx

[andromeda3116]

boy i love getting tipsy and then drunk and gushing about my special interest to people who cannot possibly care about this even half as much as i do and being deeply annoying and embarrassing myself and wanting to crawl into a hole once the harsh light of sobriety hits

[callixton]

leap of faith isn’t very good but at least He sounds like that

[pennyserenade]

bisexuality is so powerful. i’m overcoming my fears just to look at them

[hoshiyoshis]

so i let it slip while i was getting groceries today (bc the girl bagging my things asked what i used the lil condiment cups i was buying) that i like. pack lunch (read: dinner bc he works 12 hour shifts overnight) for my dad.

and she kinda gave me this weirded out “... you pack lunch for your dad?” and im like. yeah? and idk i remember lying abt something out of embarrassment but like. its not That weird right??? its usually bc im already cooking dinner so i put something aside for him to take w him, plus it means i know he’s eating well

like. thats not weird right??? he likes my cooking, i’m already making food, why not pack some for him to take w him so he doesn’t have to worry about it

[starcat-reloaded]

fucking embarrassing how not normal i am about music videos sometimes. god help me

[ihavebeesinmybrain]

nothing is more terrifying to me than the idea of somehow ending up in one of those youtube videos where someone gets to go through your phone

[clueless1995]

feeling very everybody hates me i need to Pass Away Immediately again i hate it here !!!

[timeisacephalopod]

Really stupid of that one terf to decide I was a trans woman and then immediately insult me saying I'd never pass, literally masking off and admitting they have zero problem with sexist standards women are held to and employing those standards to shit on women. Doesn't matter if they thought I was a trans woman, that terf made it pretty clear Wombyns need to be perfectly soft, small, and demure decorations or else they're Disgusting Big Hairy Men, which is hilariously sexist, a total betrayal of values they claim to have but have never once displayed to me any, and also shows they've not even questioned sexist beauty standards if the first thing they do to insult someone is tell them they look like the "wrong" gender.

Some feminism that is, immediately resorting to anti feminist suffragette propaganda like literally. There's no difference between what that terf said to me and the anti feminist posters of the 1920's displaying women in "ugly" "manly" ways to insult their gender and call them lesser so I literally do not know how someone could fully hop on their bicycle and travel back in time until it's a penny farthing just to whip up some twenties ass sexism while claiming to be a feminist and somehow radical in their beliefs that align exactly with preexisting power structures. Like ok tell me you have zero critical thinking skills or thinking skills at all, or better yet don't.

[stevengrantshubby]

still blows my mind that kuro gal ni natta kara shinyuu to shitemita has an anime out there. i havent watched it yet but like, its wild for me to think about