#and gaining weight and freaking out

[tramontane-fire]

food/ed talk

[littlecutiexox]

I’m so happy with how much I’ve improved my relationship with food

[cashweasel]

Cake to sooth the beast

[wizardnuke]

gang. im finally fucking gaining weight. after all this fuuucking time i was right that it was an actual health issue and not my adhd meds

[monsterhugger]

it remains hilarious to me how many of the Oh So Horrible side effects of starting testosterone are just. things that are also true of being a cis man with normal testosterone levels

high blood pressure? cis men are already at higher risk for this

acne? sweating? sensitivity to heat? i mean, you've seen teenage boys right

hair loss? literally happens to the majority of cis men

difficulty getting pregnant? im pretty sure this is true of every cis man ever

weight gain? there's literally a different standard range of "healthy" weights for cis men and cis women

the fact doctors used all of these things to try to discourage me from starting T when i was younger is bananas. if you were really so concerned about testosterone causing this all of your cis male patients would be on hormone suppressants

[peridyke]

Body dysmorphia post is so real. I can’t look at fashion stuff for too long because usually the fashion isn’t actually that good, the model is just thin and it messes with my head.

There should be a movement of sorts to make more yuri (and media in general honestly) with body diversity.. most people have very very different body shapes and are also not commonly thin

yeaahhh i feel you >__< my dysmorphia is soooo bad that even just like seeing thin girls can trigger it hardcore which feels like such a silly thing to say but thats how much of a presence it has in my head. its like super bad in winter months too when I tend to gain more weight and subsequently melt down like. every other day OTL

WAAAY more yuri/lesbian stuff needs to be representative of fat bodies or even just bodies that aren't cookie cutter thin its crazy!!! especially since I feel like a lot of lesbianism/general sapphic dating culture involves dismissing body/beauty standards but most lesbian media is still scared to depict something as standard as like, a fat butch lesbian

[goth-oatmilk-latte]

me: fuck it, idc /eats a muffin given to me

me, right after eating said muffin: SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT FUCK OHMYGOD WHY DID I DO THAT

[tinylittlebab]

ill be skinny. it will happen. ive been trying for so long now. once it was just trying to eat less and be smaller but not much real focus on my physical appearance. now its all about that. 11 years of my ed and 7 years of wanting what i want now. i dont live with my parents anymore. i have more control. i will achieve it.

there was a time where id eat 300-700 consistently. ill get that back. i will.

[zhinee]

looked at old pics of myself at the wrong time and now im crying.,

[ionlycareaboutyou]

it's so funny i can have a relatively good week and be in a good mood but then i start thinking about food too hard and i'm like well time to end it all

[dhwty-writes]

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[paaopalpoerepr33]

I’ve gained a few pounds and haven’t had my period and both of these things make sense given my health and also eating more but also I’m convinced that I’m pregnant from the last time I was with my ex but I doubt it because I was on birth control except I’m bad at taking it every day but I had been somewhat consistent but idk. I’m gonna work on my final project and turn it in late tonight then tomorrow I’ll buy a test just to be sure but I can’t let myself spiral when I need to get this shit done.

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

imagine it's winter and you're driving down a country road when you hit someone with your car. you hit the breaks and get out while freaking tf out only to see you hit a dog. seeing it's still breathing, you get it into your car and drive to the nearest vet. the next morning, you take home your new dog. a few weeks later, you start suspecting someone is secretly living in your home.

(you just got yourself a werewolf)

[autopsytableromance]

Love telling a new doctor about my migraine frequency and severity the first time we meet bc they have one of two reactions (they either stop caring when I say that there is occasionally months in between very bad episodes of condensed migraine activity or they hear me say when it gets really bad it’s like 3 times a week or more stop typing and ask if I’ve ever seen a neurologist in a very specific tone) and I base whether I’m willing to go back on which one they give

[goldlightsaber]

body insecurity ahead.

it really is batshit insane how your social capital changes purely on account of whether you're thin or not. like it's such a fucked up thing to know in your bones that a person would like you more, or flirt with you, or give you a chance, literally purely based on whether you were just a few dozen pounds lighter or not

[remn-desires]

Having a really rough time with body image right now….