#and give me all your pills

[wednesdaythesecond]

Mikey is the girl from reddit with a meth addicted kitten who got clean to take care of the cat btw.

[gillionstits]

me when I WOULDN’T FRONT THE SCENE IF YOU PAID ME / I’M JUST THE WAY THAT THE DOCTOR MADE ME / ON, AND ON, AND ON, AND ON / LOVE IS THE RED OF THE ROSE ON YOUR COFFIN DOOR / WHAT’S LIFE LIKE BLEEDING ON THE FLOOR, THE FLOOR, THE FLOOR ?

YOULL NEVER MAKE LEAVE!!! ILL WEAR THIS ON MY SLEEVE!!! GIVE ME A REASON TO BELIEVE!!!!

[raedear]

i can't get thank you for the venom out of my fucking head

[uncanny-tranny]

Shoutout to all the other adults who have acne or any other condition of the skin that you are expected to outgrow or "just deal with."

Adulthood isn't this magical time where everything just disappears, and the reality is that these skin conditions are largely genetic. It isn't your fault (nor your skin's fault) that you are an adult with different skin than other people. In fact, it's neutral (and even, dare I say, good!).

[2hoothoots]

So I was going through your blog (again) and found some of your stuff mentions fsau Raz having ADHD, as somebody with adhd I’m intrigued, may I have some of those headcanons (canons??) related to that? Also, I would give “a penny for your thoughts” but I’m out of pennies, so here’s various images of a drawing of ur blorbo I put next to my animals, note that a rock had to be added in one picture to keep him from flying away (BONUS: his now permanent place with the wifi guardian frog)

NOTHING brings me more joy than seeing physical drawings of these guys, like, out and about. in situations. thank you for this gift, and ALSO for the great ask because it's a perfect chance to ramble

so first of all, canon Raz having ADHD is very real to me. he's constantly fidgeting and moving around, getting distracted by sidequests and scavenger hunt objectives, always talking to himself out loud, gotta write everything down so he remembers it because there's so much to DO!, running away from home because his dad yelled at him one time and now Raz assumes he must hate him forever... i could go on, but i think there's a lot of room for interpretation there!

in my headcanon, he never got diagnosed as a kid. maybe there were some notes about it in his reports each year, sure - but a little hyperactivity and distractability never seemed to slow him down. he excelled in lessons and on missions, and when he was with his family their performances gave him something to focus that energy into. it was only really when he turned 18 and graduated to a full agent that the cracks started to show.

because there's a big difference between the responsibilities you have as a minor, and the responsibilities you have as an 18-year-old living away from home! one who's expected to cook and clean for themselves, and take care of adult life stuff, and also work the 9-to-5 office job he's just graduated into that involves sitting in front of a computer and write reports all day.

short-term, he found he could get himself to power through a deadline with energy drinks and psi-pops (a lot of psi-pops...)

long-term, something had to give. he was working himself to exhaustion, constantly stressed, swinging between days spent staring at his computer screen doing nothing and all-nighters desperately trying to finish his paperwork before the deadline. it just didn't make any sense to him. he'd finally started his job as a Psychonaut, he was living independently like he'd always dreamed, he'd gotten top surgery after planning it for so long. he should have everything he ever wanted. why wasn't he happy?

following a deep post-surgical depression, about a month before his 19th birthday Raz was living out of his car, couch-surfing or sleeping in his office. he got kicked out of his apartment after falling behind on bills and rent. it wasn't that he didn't have the money, it was all just too much for him to stay on top of.

he'd probably have stayed in that misery hole for a lot longer if Frazie hadn't marched into his life and demanded he let her help him move into a new place, or she was telling mom that he was homeless. together, they sorted through all of his possessions from the last place - everything that had been hastily shoved in his car, or tossed in a box in his office, piled in a heap that was giving him anxiety even looking at it.

things do get better for him from there.

when he eventually explains things to Hollis, she gently suggests that he should get a roommate. he ends up moving in with Phoebe, and they become pretty good friends after a couple months! something about having another person around to help do the chores and wash the dishes and share the space helps, even if it takes him a while to admit it.

he gets his ADHD diagnosis, and finding the exact right medication and dose is a journey he's still on years later - but they're a huge help in getting him to actually knuckle down and finish his work on time. and the whole thing ends up being a chance for him to take a step back and really think about what he wants to do with his life. he'd always assumed that being a Psychonaut was his dream, but he'd never really reckoned with what that dream would look like before.

in the end, he sticks with it, but also decides to follow Lili's example in branching out. he applies to study a part-time Bachelor's in Psychology on a remote course, and gets accepted. juggling missions and paperwork and study and relationships (because the whole thing made him realise he also wasn't setting aside any time for himself, and wow, dating is a thing) is a lot - but he manages to figure it out, day by day.

(Lili comes back to the Psychonauts after graduating. she and Raz have both changed a lot over those four years, but on their first mission together they hit it off like a house on fire - and the rest is history!)

[tj-crochets]

Went to the doctor just for a check up and he basically just told me "your body just processes sugar very well! :) :) :) It's a good thing! :) :) :) It can't possibly be the source of your symptoms even though eating fixes it :) :) :)" But there was also a moment when talking about my iron deficiency that is possibly one of the funniest things a doctor has ever said to me, up with the cardiologist who said "you're a medical mystery": He was going over my blood test results, and said "Your iron levels haven't gone up at all, they are still extremely low, but you're not anemic anymore" And I was like how am I not anemic anymore??? And he said "Your hemoglobin levels have gone up...somehow..." while frowning at the blood test results on his computer. It was very "somehow, palpatine has returned" lol

[mcybree]

Thoughts on 3rd life mirror birds. 3rd life big dogs. 3rd life property police. They fascinate me and I think you have thoughts on them but I might be wrong..either way

i do in fact have thoughts on them but i think if i talk about 3l!flower husbands publicly any more rn I’ll get so self conscious I’ll explode on the spot. this being said i have still yet to watch evo but its been on my list for forever bc of 3l!property police specifically… i really love martyns petty grudge against jimmy for those first two episodes he acts like he’s 12 and really pissed off on the playground. anyways i think that martyn going from being concerned for his friend to Just Fucking Lying to split up Scott and Jimmy, because he took personal offense to Jimmy being unwilling to drop everything to go live with him on the spot is the funniest thing in the world. Girl it’s not about you

[livvyofthelake]

and what’s crazy to me about the situation where the actresses in pride and prejudice 2005 didn’t wear makeup, is that everyone is like. oh they’re lying. oh no one looks that pretty without a full face of makeup. oh it’s a lie they had a makeup artist credited and i don’t believe it was only for “continuity” they’re all lying!! like. are you for real so influencer pilled that you can’t believe that women can be beautiful and appealing to you without covering their faces in makeup. “but no makeup doesn’t translate as well on camera so they’re lying” actually if you know how to fucking film it right and light it right anything can look good just because YOU don’t think YOU look as good without makeup on your front facing phone camera doesn’t mean joe wright doesn’t know what he’s doing… like girl we all already knew kiera knightly was beautiful and had flawless skin is it truly so hard to believe she wasn’t caked in foundation

[mamawasatesttube]

kon is sitting next to tim looking at him adoringly while he talks about why nissans are better than mitsubishis and he looks across the cave to see greta glaring at him from the shadows until he moves three inches away

maybe if you got on kon's level and actively listened to tim infodumping about cars he'd also do it at you, greta :/

[chemicahs]

I love being alive so much im going to like cry

[wednesdaythesecond]

top 5 things to put girl mikey through

in no particular order:

Transphobia, Misogyny and Transmisogyny

> any and all varieties of this unholy combination. transphobic violence, the catty way girls treat girls who are different from them, social ostracization, being transvestigated by magazines and blogs, guys not wanting to touch her, her boyfriends not wanting anyone to know that they're dating her, her parents not talking to her, misgendering and deadnaming, having to constantly prove herself to medical authorities, having to constantly prove herself as a woman, being forced into extremely rigid gender roles, unequal and unsatisfying sex, homophobia, force mascing, conversion therapy, catcalling, being treated like a sex object, "Mikey's only in the band cuz she's hot," hypersexualized photoshoots, being ignored and disregarded, only being interviewed about her relationships, "Gerard Way's sister," people trying to get up skirt or down shirt photos, magazines talking about her weight and appearance, "Pete Wentz's girlfriend," not being taken seriously by anyone, being asked about her plastic surgery constantly, bodyshaming, blogs trying to guess how much she weighs, etc.

Sexual Violence

> unwanted groping, harrasment, guys not taking no for an answer, Gerard not taking no for an answer, coercion, grooming, teachers who like her a little too much, corrective rape, abusive boyfriend, nonconsensual vouyerism, roofies, stalking, secret photos, girls not taking no for an answer, dick pics, sex as a means of repayment, trading sex for band things, rape threats, etc. sexual violence <33

Normal and Healthy Eating Habits

> welcome to the 90s, baby. it's all H chic. eating nothing for extended periods of time, eating way too much and regretting it, constant shame about food, being cold all the time, vomiting, checking her body all the time, weighing herself constantly, "are you really going to eat all that," her mother encouraging her disorder in her own way, intense shame, calorie counting, tasting and wasting, staring at photos of beautiful 90s models, comparing herself to every other girl, scraped up knuckle, shaky hands, black spots in her vision, brain dog, coffee for breakfast, cigarettes for dinner, food as a reward, restriction as punishment, diet coke, alcohol instead of food, clothes from the kids section, bruising easily, always being a little tired, pretending to eat, empty fridge, vomit hidden in plastic bags on the tour bus, dark circles, fucked up teeth, inpatient stays, etc. just normal and healthy things <3

Violence

> good old fashioned violence!! abusive relationships, abusive family situations, gay bashing, misdirected gay bashing, rough sex, broken bones, choking, permanent damage, bruises, cuts, serious injury, blood loss, too much blood loss, car crashes, murder, vampire bites, werewolf bites, bones setting wrong, Munchausen by proxy, etc. fuck her up!!

Addiction

> everyone needs something to get them through the day. getting addicted young, replacing food with drugs, track marks on her inner arms and feet and backs of her knees and other places, bloody noses, shaky hands, unfocused or too focused eyes, reusing her estrogen needles for H, reusing her H needles for estrogen, always at least a little drunk, too underweight for detox to be medically viable, smoking since childhood, mysterious pills, prescription pills that aren't under either of her names, multiple lighters and spoons in her bag, illegal diet pills, replacing feelings with drugs, bloodborne disease scares, constantly being some kind of sick, etc. give her all your poison and give her all your pills, she's out and withdrawal could kill her

[friendlynaborhooddisapointment]

the dream would be a 15hour week workday at a low stress job not that far from home but not too close it feels intimate to your home, a small mangable appartment that wont fall apartwith furnishings i like,bills that arnt stress inducing in a way that make me think about money all the time, and just chill and do my hobbies when im not doing all the other things people have to do in their adult to not be that sad life like cook and clean and talk to people

[tgirljoker]

inappropriately honest rn but. its a streak ig.

guys for real 1-10 how abnormal is it to try to overdose like 7 times throughout without your mom “catching” you twice and so you always felt to scared to tell her you were sorry when you woke up in the morning because you were too much of a coward to just take all the pills in the bottle bc you knew if you act succeeded your mom would kill herself after and your dad might follow suit or start abusing your stepsiblings again who blame you for the “fact” that you stole their “picture perfect life.”

[tigirl-and-co]

i wish i was good at art so people would be interested in my ocs.

except that's a lie. i don't even really enjoy making art besides doodles. what i love is writing. so i think what i actually want is for everyone to fall in love with reading.

and like obviously i get it. im weird. i spent a large part of my youth reading wikis for games i never played, shows i never watched. i still do tbh. i have always loved seeking out superfluous information. bc it was *like* reading a story, except you only had the separate pieces and had to put them together like puzzle to get the whole story

it's a bit like history, now that i think about it.

and i LOVE finding somebody who has OCs with thousands of words of backstory. that's the fastest way to get me interested. a simple doodle and then a wiki entry of information.

idk. i guess im just venting a bit. it feels a bit unfair. every pro-OC post is geared towards artists. people who love to draw. but I just don't. i mean yeah i like making little doodles, but frankly it's about the same enjoyment i get from solving basic math equations.

and fucking obviously i love and treasure all my artist friends. if you are seeing this and you love to draw your OCs, I love you. I would never begrudge you your happiness.

it's times like these i wish forums hadn't really died out. i want a community. i want to make that connection. but i feel ignored bc my talents don't align with the current state of things in the greater community.

whatever. whatever. i just hate venting bc i worry about making people feel bad but sometimes I feel bad. and ive never been able to talk about feeling bad without getting yelled at. Which isn't healthy, of course, and I know that, and Im slowly trying to break the habit of just shoving it down. and Ive had a drink so im willing to be more open so uh. there, i guess. i feel like dogshit that i have neither the energy nor the inclination to draw my OCs and that it's literally fucking impossible to get your OCs noticed through writing. nothing really to be done about it. that's just how life goes. not all hobbies are meant for all people.

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

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[sometimes-i-make-mcr-fanart]

It’s always Ily and never sfmaypagmaypagmayhhammi