#and half of us cant speak

[thestarseersystem]

This is why I don't want to make friends in the system community. I want to. I do. But I'm sick of being misinterpreted. I'm sick of having to deal with a stranger's triggers. I'm sick of having to fight against someone else's s*scourse opinions. I'm sick of being forced to voice my own.

I just want to have a genuine experience in this community. I want to talk to people who just want to share and discuss their opinions. I don't want to talk to someone who is triggered to the point of struggling to say the right thing.

I've thought about making a discord server for systems. I've thought about it real hard and asked myself if its worth it. Do I put my identity out there for other people to scrutinize? Do I take the risk that some people in this community are actually nice and want to interact with me? Do I talk to people who may start rumors about me, or get all their other system friends to hate me? I truly doubt anyone would be that dedicated or sadistic to do that to a random stranger they just met. But anonymity is important to some extent. Am I willing to risk sharing my voice or appearance to a bunch of strangers that I don't actually know?

It just feels like a mistake trying to reach out to people who won't give me the time of day to have an honest conversation with them. And I'm not talking about one person. Please don't see it that way. I'm saying I don't trust most system blogs who are willing to weaponize their knowledge over someone's feelings. Especially to someone who is likely untreated and unable to receive treatment.

I'm so sick of being in this disingenuous community. I should be allowed to discuss and document my trauma journey without experiencing intense scrutiny and judgement. And I wish it was the same for everyone else.

I reblog posts for discussion and intellectual conversation. I want meaningful interactions. I want to talk about stuff without having to pull up 15 bagillion sources for every fucking word I say.

I'm not here to be scrutinized and judged by strangers all over again, like I'm being abused in an organized fashion. Friends are nice to each other, community members hold some level of respect and etiquette towards each other, let's share more compassion. But until then, I'll be here, with friends, who just happen to be systems.

I'm not going to make friends just because they are systems, I literally can't trust it.

[eloquentgifs]

I'm so used to being here on tumblr that whenever I mention the (moral) victory of Käärijä on any other site I'm surprised when the "realists" show up to tell me that Loreen is the winner and that she's killing it on the music charts and the juries are necesary to keep the contest serious and blablabla.

Someone just told me that Loreen is already in the same division than "Ariana, Taylor, Dua, Miley..." while he's nowhere to be found and Im like, what do you mean everyone knows he's on the beach with Frank.

[wrylu]

idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny

aka my average day as of now

[wingsofhcpe]

the ATLA live action series is... actually very good??? I really didn't expect that.

(spoilers in the tags- beware!)

[spacedlexi]

as someone who likes to occasionally look through the blogs of the accounts that show up in my notifs it really is sad to see so many blogs now just be personalized empty spaces :(

[63dollarsusd]

Im gonna be mean and say that half the sprite mods for stardew valley look terrible. More power to you if you like it its just that they somehow manage to make every character look like a supermodel even though there just some guys in a fuckass village

[kxllerblond]

Happy Tuesday everyone, I will now be unloading unsolicited opinions about the RPC.

People take 'This is a hobby!!' way too far to the point you are not taking into account other real people also exist and are only thinking about yourself and it can come across as scummy and self-absorbed and a lot of people use the 'just a hobby!' to excuse this shitty behavior and an inability to communicate with other hobby enjoyers like adults.

No one should get mad at people for dropping threads or not being active, but it's also super shitty to just ghost people and go 'teehee just a hobby so you aren't allowed to be upset!'. Like, yeah, you have limited time and a real life but so does?? everyone else on here?? It's super not cool to just invalidate people who are upset their limited time is, in their view, being wasted.

Obviously, I'm not defending people that don't just unfollow or block and move on and who get passive aggro about it all. And I'm also not calling out the people that don't do much but are like PRESENT to some degree even if it's just ooc shitposting.

I mainly mean the people I see who refuse to do threads, to answer asks, to communicate when stuff is being dropped to some degree, to participate and be social in any capacity and then get kinda pissy when no one wants to send them shit anymore. Like you are entitled to exist and participate in this hobby as you see fit....but it is a social hobby. You HAVE to give to get and if people pin you as someone who only takes, they're going to stop giving. None of us have little meow meows that are so interesting that we can just expect people to frolic to them and gush about them and shower them with interaction without some sort of reciprocation.

And, frankly, I don't think there's room to complain when that happens. You can't have your cake and eat it too in this scenario. You can 'this is just a hobby!' your way through things how you like, but you also have to realize the consequences of that and you can't be upset when they come down on you and your blog.

[elegyofthemoon]

on silly gender moments with snow: realizing you've been saying "i shouldve been born a guy" since you were like. 10

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP

[larabar]

Please give more info for your Frontiers au, it makes me very happy

HI YES ALWAYS

this is late because i wanted to have a little more to show you than i had before but Anyway

ok .ok so

each character in the game had their own Main Issue/Thing. amy's was .idk love and wanting to share it with others. knux's was his ancestors and his own past, learning to get off angel island once in a while. and tails' was all about his independence

but for sonic it was really hard to find something sjdnfj since he doesn't really have anything to go off of (flat character and all that) but. i got thinking about how cyberspace affected each character and just how it Works

from what i understand, being stuck between cyberspace and reality has no feeling to it, no sense of being 'grounded', and all that other fun stuff .

and that sounds like a living hell for sonic

he can't do anything. he can run but it doesn't give him the same feeling because there is no feeling. the most he can do is just sit back and wait till everything's fixed.

y'know what just take this

not finished but it gets my point across and also im so normal about these two

[foxpunk]

making my way through the StB patches as i do more sidequest content as well and i cannot believe they just toss out the fact that aether is electromagnetic waves. in a sidequest. hello??? Hello

[creekfiend]

DOGS WENT TO VET TODAY it went pretty well. Noods did fine and is fine. Ella could stand to lose 2lb or so and one of her canines is cracked!!! So they took some blood to see if she's a good candidate for going under for a dental, since she's getting up there.

Blue, they said her arthritis is really bad. Her knees as well as hips, now. They are having us so adequan injections ourselves 2x a week for a month and then we will see how she is doing and take some knee rads if it doesn't help :( Poor Blue. Our vets are so good though. They're always very kind and helpful and come up with a variety of treatment ideas based on what we can afford

Miss Chop is being Extra Haunted and actually like. Her behavior is impossible to manage right now. Which I haven't talked about bc it's so so stressful. We are now consulting w Sarah Stremming & a veterinary behaviorist AND our local vet to try and find a med cocktail that will help her nervous system regulate itself enough that we can actually work on training in any meaningful way.

Ughhhh. She's such a project dog. I love her so much but it's really more than I can handle most days 😭

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

[drdisastersnek]

TRANSFORMERS EARTHSPARK SPOILERS INBOUND! (coz u can watch the first episode on nickelodeon uk, just use a vpn i think >;P)

the main humans in tfe being half filipino is so important to me ohmygod.

in the clip i have put here you can see their dad (WHO IS FUCKING FILIPINO AAAAA) say "lolo" which means grandfather in tagalog which is the most commonly used language here in the Philippines.

also in the image above you can see some food and that's what we call lumpia, pretty sure the best i can explain it is like a meat and veggie filling wrapped in rice paper(?) but yeah!!! lumpia!!! they're eating lumpia together!! and it's making me so emotional 😭

[gibbearish]

eternal fight between wanting to correct a misconception abt cats but also knowing that it was just a silly joke and i shouldnt take it so seriously but also something being a joke doesnt mean you shouldnt still point things out but also i have no expertise beyond just "i have multiple cats and spend way too much time watching them and thinking about the way they interact w each other and what that means about how their brains work" which means i would just be talking out of my ass anyways because i have no way of telling if my interpretations are right or if im anthropomorphizing them

[starswallowingsea]

okay im not gonna. reblog anything about the superbowl ad mostly cuz i. did not watch it (i have never watched the superbowl) and therefore dont really know what it is and dont really care to look it up. i might go back and delete some of the posts later too