#and have a happy day or night ~ !! c:

[ladystoneboobs]

ya ever think about how the lannister sibs all have big secrets kept from each other, like huge life-altering experiences? jaime's is the most obvious, the most talked-about, with the full story of his kingslaying and everything he endured from aerys leading up to it. it's clear enough to me that brienne was the first he opened up to about that, including either sibling. they never asked, but unlike ned stark and the rest deriding him as kingslayer, their lack of curiosity is no offense in itself bc as tywin's other children they would never judge him for turning his cloak purely out of family loyalty. ned's assumption of jaime's motives is directly tied to his judgment of jaime, but it's the judgment that rankles jaime so. choosing your father's life over a king's is hardly the worst crime in itself. how can he explain all the other reasons without prompting when its not just about his crime but all his trauma too? is there any basis for that in his relationship with cersei, who always relied on him for comfort and consolation but seems less adept at providing the same to him? or even with tyrion, his only real male friend for years, but also his baby brother, the one he was meant to protect and take care of, who was only 10 at the time of the kingslaying? even to fully share all with tyrion years later, both adults, could be something of a role reversal, forever shattering tyrion's image of him as the strong invulnerable golden big brother by revealing his own broken inner child. jaime can't break out from those sibling roles and patterns, so neither can ever understand that part of him, never knowing the early life he had at court without either of them with him.

and tyrion, who trusted jaime more than anyone in the world before learning the truth about tysha, still could not confide in him freely even when all that trust was still intact. jaime must have heard some story of what tywin did to tysha to feel the need to confess his lie, but he def didn't hear it straight from tyrion bc imo there's no way he could still think confessing would help anything if he understood how scarred tyrion was by what he witnessed and esp not knowing that tywin ordered him to participate at the end. tyrion could reveal all that to bronn when they barely knew each other but not to his beloved brother, his first and best friend. how can the most abused child explain all his unknown abuse to the golden child, the big brother meant to protect him who couldn't always do so? how does he even begin to reveal the deepest trauma that happened to him when jaime wasn't in the room, esp when the story does start with jaime apparently trying to help him by fixing him up with tysha?

and then there's cersei and all her secrets. she always turned to jaime for consolation, or at least when he knew she needed it, but how many times did he not know? how personally could she confide in him as they grew older and their paths diverged? we know the first big secret was maggy the frog's prophecy, her first big scare, which came on the cusp of puberty, an experience she couldn't share with her twin bc he would prob just laugh and make a joke of it. in their first real scene together, in bran's pov, he mocks lysa's motherly fears and likens her to cersei. ("I think birthing does something to your minds. You are all mad." He laughed.) then he makes light of her marital discord, ("And whose fault is that, sweet sister?"), having no idea of the depth of pain she'd suffered from robert, beyond his infidelities. he later blames her for being robert's queen, not his, only thinking of how she managed to arrange his kg post, that power to forever tie him to her in secret, never grasping her lack of control in marriage, that "a queen is only a woman after all". in her pride it was hard to reveal all she'd suffered as a woman, but she also couldn't rely on jaime's response if he knew of her abuse, knowing he would kill robert and get himself killed too, only making her and their children's lives more precarious. she couldn't trust him to listen about securing the throne before dealing with robert or that as robert's victim it was her right to decide such matters, to choose his fate, not jaime's place to avenge her without her say-so first. all bc they were both too stuck in their idea of jaime as her sword, nothing more, with jaime determined to protect her and tyrion, always a bodyguard before he ever donned a white cloak.

something something tywin did his best to play his children off each other and the most effective thing he did to divide them was by setting jaime up as the golden child and family protector. the designated lannister sword only pointing at threats outside their house. a knight serving his family whose protection was always limited, who could never protect them from the person who first hurt cersei and tyrion and made them who they were at a distance from him, bc ofc he couldn't fight his own father, much less slay him with a sword.

something something maybe the reason that joff+marg+loras was a surer recipe for kingslayer stew than robert+cersei+jaime is all down to that tyrell lack of abusive structure. not that loras cared more about marg, was more willing to kill for her than jaime was to kill robert, but that there wasn't a chance of marg hiding her misery from him if/when her husband abused her in their shared household. it's not like he understood her to the point of mind-reading but when their previous royal marital household involved her bearding for his boyfriend then they prob had a pretty good basis of open communication. in that sense, the lannicest twins with all their sexual and physical intimacy still had less emotional intimacy than the tyrell queen and her kg brother.

[lornasaurusrex]

I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess

This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.

I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕

Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.

The video is still on YT.

[personinthepalace]

Dave Hearn in Mischief Movie Night In -> for @notsofastinspector - Happy Birthday!!

[roselise]

Hm .. and now for the real questions tonight ~ !! 🤍

♡ Pink sugar cookie or toasted marshmallow body lotion?

♡ ‘A Little Princess’ by Frances Hodgson Burnett or ‘Anne of Green Gables’ by L. M. Montgomery?

♡ Ballet bun or french braids?

♡ Aaaand of course — bunny grahams or cinnamon cake as my snack ???

Yes it’s silly, but I take my little nighttime rituals very seriously ok !! Why not though ?? Life is too short !!

I just want to be happy for small blessings and get excited over little things hehe c:

🧁 . ˚ * . ʚ 🤍 ɞ

🤍 . ˚🧸 ·̩͙ 🎀 . ˚ * . 🤍

[mel-loly]

-Just the lovely potato buddy.🌱💫

@boiling-potato

[anotherfandomtrash]

Find someone who can give you an orange on this beautiful day 

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Yuri!!!! It’s been awhile! Saw your tags and they made my day <3

I just wanted to drop by and say that your art is beautiful and that you’ve improved so much! Like, that recent drawing that you made? Absolutely stunning! The lineart, the shading, the colors-! Oh, it was so beautiful <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

azjhgbfjaf cbg!!! that's so sweet of you to say :'D

and right back at you!!! man it's been SO long since i've seen your art on my dash i almost jumped when i saw your username!! like man your art hasn't just improved it literally blew my expectations!!!! >:'Dc i'm so glad you liked the tags because you deserve the compliments and so so much more<3333

[zhuhongs]

just saw my classmates post a video of them having fun in class together and yea, it doesn't hurt anymore. I mean, of course I still do feel a bit of fomo, i wish i was there, but its okay now. I've put it down and I'll be just fine, we will meet in the future and the progress I make right now will set me up for that future. and the regrets will be a memory

[thedeadthree]

if you're doing tag list put me on it!

ANGELA YOU TREASURE YOU! YOU GOT IT DEARIEE !!!!!!!!! IF I DO I WILL FOR SURE !

[tiredsadpeach]

I think we’re at a stalemate after that text which tbh is better than I tweet and then he tweets about being annoyed

[noxtivagus]

ishgard is home c:

[creaturecumforts]

I am too impatient for this shit

[inkykeiji]

omg hiii Clari ur so cute n funny n ilu. I feel the same way about pubic hair, im not a fan of the totally hairless look either >.< picturing a white as snow lil happy trail on touya-nii is rlly making my morning so much better lmao cant wait for poison dabi, i rlly miss him n im so excited to read ur part 2 🍓 🍓

HEHEHEHEHE strawberry babie!!!!! <33333 i luv u sm!!! i hope you’re doing well <3 yes yes yes!!! yes exactly i feel the same! i find neatly trimmed pubic hair to be very attractive (*/ω＼*) aaah yes u and i both!!! that’s so yummyyy hehe <3 i wanna lick it (*´ ˘ `*).｡oO ( ♡ )

eeeeeee genuinely SO excited to finally, finally share part two with everyone!!! it’s so special and so personal to me and i’ve been working on it for such a long time but i’m so happy with how it’s turned out so far!!! i think u guys are gonna really love it 🙊 i am especially excited for you all to meet poison!tomura, who i think everyone is gonna fall head over heels in love with ehehehehe <33

[roselise]

Twirling around my room after my shower cus tonight I am a strawberry scented fairy & in the best mood ever *ever* ~ !!!

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[mel-loly]

-It's my birthday🐝✨

[orcelito]

my fatal flaw . one of them. is that. i have a tendency. to trust my brain too much. but have too low of a work ethic. so im like “if i do well on the exams, then homework won’t be as important to complete”. and sometimes, this turns out okay because i do well on the exams. but if i do Not do well on the exams. it fucks me over so much

me sitting on an 84% for the first exam being like “This will surely let me pass the class” and looking at my homework assignment that draws from a prior homework assignment so Essentially i would have to do twice the work. due tomorrow night

and im just thinking to myself. “is it even worth it?”