#and i dont know how to stop that. especially not from my fucking tumblr blog with like... 100 followers

[chewwytwee]

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[dear-ao3]

(to saph) dude i think you need to think about why you’re so offended by someone making a lighthearted joke as queer internet people often do about your sexuality? yeah it was parasocial but that’s like What People Are Like and you truly could’ve just been like ‘lmao i’m straight saph is just my name’. referring to urself as sapphic online and having nicknames based off it as a wlw person is extremely common - anon was jumping to a conclusion, sure, but not being actively malicious it was just a joke a queer person thought they were making to another queer person. and then to respond to that with ‘i literally have a whole ass boyfriend’ like sapphic people…. can’t be attracted to men? like okay? that’s not… relevant? having a boyfriend ≠ being straight and this is weird behaviour coming from a straight person. i’m truly not trying to be rude or aggressive i’m a fan of your blog i just think that if you’re straight interacting with the lgbt community you need to think about what you’re saying and if you’re reiterating harmful stereotypes

hello anon.

if you have followed me for quite some time you would know that this is not the first time people on the internet have done things like this. i have explained myself a great many times as to why i dont like it, but i dont know where the original post is so ill do it again.

its weird? as i said, real people run this blog, dont make hcs about me. (this is not the only one ive gotten either, people are insistent that my boyfriend is a bi icon (hes also straight) and that katya and i were dating (we have never) etc etc)

this is tumblr, if people want you to know their sexuality its in their bio.

i was bullied by someone from 6th-12th grade about how i was "definitely gay" and "didn't like men" and "couldn't be straight" and "no saph you're definitely at least bi" and "why are you talking about being attracted to men, you dont like them" when i was too young to and didnt have the means to explore my own sexuality just because they thought being straight was a cardinal sin. what people can mean as a lighthearted joke is ultimately not funny, especially when people tell you to stop or that it is not funny.

i have never once posted anything about my sexuality being anything other than straight (and even then ive hardly said that). so i dont know why its okay to come into my inbox and make said jokes (if i had posted that i was not straight then it would be a different story)

i am not a homophobic person. i do not give a flying fuck what anyones sexuality is. that does not affect me or my personal life. what does affect my personal life is when people try to force labels upon me that i have said a great many times do not fit me or my life

[slutdge]

Heavy subject matter under the cut im just not feeling well and need to get it out of my system

i used to constantly try to convince myself that my experiences with police brutality werent that trauamatizing but im glad i got over that, cause girlypop if you were slammed down on the ground, handcuffed and screamed at to stop resisting (all this during a mental health wellness check) despite yknow. being handcuffed face down on the ground while an officer was digging her knee into my spine so hard i couldnt stand up straight for over a week afterwards was, in fact, bad for your mental health. and this was only one of many instances. dont give these dumb fucking pigs any grace.

with that being said, i dont think ive expressed enough how much you will never feel safe after experiencing police brutality or mistreatment even if its just one time, whether its in your home or in public, you will never feel safe again anywhere because you know first hand they can do whatever they want and get away with it, and its something ive really been struggling to cope with lately now that im kinda drinking less off and on. like i dont know how to function knowing that that could happen again at any time no matter where i am and i couldnt do anything to stop it because even if you dont resist they still wont give you any kind of mercy, there is nothing you can do to snap them out of their fascist power trip because thats why they became cops in the first place. i dont know how to not live in fear and despair when cops are out there especially with the added factor that my abusive parents have on multiple occassions made false 911 calls that ive said i had a plan to kill myself so that i would be arrested and taken to the psych ward every time theyve suspected ive been getting too close to escaping from them and going no contact with them like i want to, even going as far to get a court order to have me arrested. idk i just dont know what to do anymore lol theres not a single thing in my life that isnt tainted with despair idk how im even alive still. sorry for the depressing incoherent late night thoughts, i hope yall are having a good night 🫀 it sounds silly cause its just tumblr but truly this blog is the only place i feel like i can freely express myself and i appreciate everyone who has taken the time to send me kind messages, more often than not thats the only positive thing ill experience in my day

[sad-leon]

Hello! I hope you're having a good day!

So many people in my life seem to be going through something right now, and I just wanted to give you an opportunity to share anything you might be going through. Good or bad, as specific or as vague as you're comfortable with. Or feel free to ignore if you'd rather not. No pressure at all!

I hope things are going well for you! But if not, I'll be sending prayers your way if you're comfortable with that!

I am... not.

and i haven't for a long time

I'll preface this entire post with a warning: THIS IS A VENT POST the only tags will be trigger warnings

I thinks i've said it once or twice, but I started school this year. This is my first year in college after taking a gap year and also telling everyon i wasnt gonna go. I know jack shit about what im doing and its fucking exhausting. Theres so many things that i feel like I should know but dont because all the college information given out in my highschool was geared toward the college in that town specifically, which is not the college im going to.

I've also moved. im entirely on my own, physically and financially. I just met with my job and am starting very soon which is not good because my sleep schedule is all wrong. I may be switching jobs soon, but i can't just quit becuase, like i said, im on my own.

and those are only the big two. lets speedrun this. my anxiety, my autism, i need new glasses, my feet hurt more than i think they should, im a system, my eating disorder, my aversions that make it hard to drink the water up here, the burnout, the exhaustion, executive dysfunction, i also likely have adhd which mean rsd. im touch starved and touch adverse

those are just what i can think of off the top of my head

but all of this had been leading to what might be a pretty nasty breakdown and soon.

im so fucking tired all the time and that makes it hard to draw, but thats one of my only ways to relax. i like playing mc, but i get bored easily and also i cant sit at my desk for long becuase it feels like my head is too heavy for my neck. it hurts. everything hurts and my job doesnt help me at fucking all.

i was able to draw tsob while dealing with most of my issues becuase all i had to worry about was work. looking at my current schedule, i can find the free time. the issue is using that freetime to draw and not just sleep or dissociate. finding home is very dear to me, but drawing it the way i am can be exhausting and i dont want to start hating it, so i just.. dont draw it most days

i stress constantly about how i appear on my blog becuase i want so badly to do this right. i want to be good at something, like, as a person, not just as an artist. but i hate myself too much to believe in any progress i make.

i know its the rsd mostly but i see groups and i feel gross. its not as bed now (any of you beans that have made it this far, ily /p) becuase i found a community i can actually interact with, but it still comes up, especially because i've moved away from all my irl friends and its so fucking hard for me to make them in the first place. like.. actual friends, not just people i can work with at school

if i keep going i'll probably talk myself in circles, so ill stop it here. theres a lot more but im not going to ramble about my suicidal, intrusive, or sh thoughts on this blog. this is a post to inform you guys of the state of mind im in. im lonely and sad and its all building up to a massive breakdown.

im not going to be leaving tumblr or giving up on my comic, but i probalby wont update as often as i did tsob. i just dont have the energy.

i also will probably post some of my traditional art cuz i gotta fill up a sketchbook for my animation class, so that also takes away from the time i use to draw digitally.

im so tired

[spindrifters]

dude i really dont know how to tell you this in a comprehensible way but im just so in awe at you. i've been following your blog for maybe two months or smth bc of the constant wolfstar spam and really enjoy that.

but also i find it so so nice to see an adult in fandom that is comfortable with being an adult in fandom. i've seen lots of people turn away from fandom activity as they grow older (especially from harry potter related stuff. ig it becomes embarrassing for people) but i couldn't imagine that for myself as it is a big part of my own life. why would i stop engaging in a community that shares art and stories and beliefs?

(also as i'm a nonbinary teenager my heart just kind of jumps seeing an adult whos comfy presenting themselves like that on the internet. i'm finishing school soon and growing into the age where lots of people in my social circle seem to expect from me to grow out of this "phase". ALSO i make art myself and its just cool to see "real" writers in fandom. (i really hope me telling you this doesn't bother you.))

i just wanna tell you that your silly little posts always make me giggle and this blog feels like its own little safe space :) hope you're having a nice day <3

I want you to know that it really made my day to wake up to this.

I remember being a teenager and seeing my 30+ fandom friends and just sort of thinking well that's great for them, but there was an underlying assumption that I'd probably grow out of it by then. which made me really sad, but I assumed it was just a natural part of growing up. and then I didn't grow out of it. but more importantly, like you've said, I became really comfortable with it. if football fanboys can have their niche obsessive interests their whole life, then so can I. that's something that happens across the board, at least in my experience. I hit 27 or 28 I think and started embracing things I thought I'd have to put away as an adult, only now I had the freedom to do it in ways I didn't when I was younger. (I'm not just talking fandom. I'm talking dying my hair pink after 7 years of blonde because it made me happy and I stopped caring about it looking professional.)

and I do think part of this is because there's no actual way to 'be an adult.' part of that's because the markers and milestones boomers and much of gen x had don't really exist for us anymore. so you get older and it's a realization that, "I don't have to look and act like an adult. an adult looks and acts like me, because that's what I am." and then you start to meet other people who think similarly. the community of 30+ fans here on tumblr dot com are honestly some of the best people I know.

anyway, all this is to say, I so remember what those growing pains you're going through/can see on the horizon were like, especially relating to the interests I had that society messaged to me were shameful to have. I was a teenager during peak fangirl shaming of the 00s/10s. so I turned it into a fucking career instead.

I'm really, really glad that this feels like a safe space for you, it makes my lil gremlin heart very cozy and warm. xx

[ne0nlightzz]

Mk im not gonna make my blog all abt this but right now im torn inbetween forcing myself to keep calm or spiralling and letting my thoughts drift to the worst scenarios possible and back into a very dark place. But i will say if KOSA actually happens im fucked and so are so so soo many other minors on the internet, especially if they are also part of the lgbt+ community.

as much as i hate to admit im genuinely fearful of the possible outcomes of this and go to the worse case scenarios imma admit im fricking scared. this mixed with my states version of the 'dont say gay bill' being passed like two months ago has me questioning if this is all frickin worth it.

but what i actually came to say, besides the little spiralling breakdown im trying to avaoid, we have to fucking stop this, like sign every petition and anything we need to, call every single mf we need to, just to do anything and everything to make sure KOSA does not pass and ruin so many people's lives and put so many people in danger and also basically change the internet and society as we know it. ill probably make a better post about this soon, one more detailed and when im not in as bad of a headspace, but we've gotta at least try our damn hardest to put a stop to this useless bullshit. and i also wanna say, this is coming from my more fearful and hopeless point of view i try not to give into or share, but maybe we need to start pulling together our fandoms and communities irl, maybe we need to get ready to start groups, programs and other stuff for our states n all so we can still somewhat keep together even if its more local and seems impossible, maybe it'll be worth a shot if all shit goes to hell and so we don't have to fully lose things that we love, like out fandom communities, or writing communities. im too sure how itd work but i just thought id pitch a idea if all shit goes down the drain and we still need a upside to the hell or something.

heres some links ive found through others tumblr posts[all linktrees, carrds, etc go to their rightful owners ofc] and i highly recommend scrolling through the stop kosa and other related tags on here (Tumblr), reading up on everything and signing and doing everything you personally can, especially for those who can't do anything.

This was not heavily checked for spelling/grammar errors because im trying to not freak out and im also dyslexic lolz

[nightsjod]

Since your "Friends" want to check up on this blog instead of you facing up to your own actions of bringing this up and proposals for "discussion" yourself and see i actually did message you PRIVATELY like this should have been. here

you are one of the most self centered emotionally controlling and manipulative friend i have ever had. the fact you keep COUNT of every time youve "helped" me through my "Troubles" and act like i have never once done anything for you is utterly insane behavior. i am EXHAUSTED from it. you wanted to end the friendship and im simply trying to honor that. im not fighting it. there is no point in fighting because i refuse to bend over and allow you to control every fucking thing i do again and you will not give in to see your own behavior EVER.

sorry i didnt want to TRAUMA DUMP on an anon like you so much like to do and try to remain optimistic and positive on my public blog but since you want to air out my own PERSONAL LIFE ON TUMBLR which you are very much in the wrong for doing so, ESPECIALLY using it as a weapon against me, fine. and especially since you want to go into fucking discord servers to claim i was lying about getting help after your messages, and publicly trying to call me a fraud then fine. i will also be public and honest like you want.

i tried to kill myself over this. i sincerely could not take it anymore and i felt like everything fcking shattered because no matter what i did no matter how hard i tried and what i did it was never good enough for you. you could never accept that i had a full time job, i had other friends, i had my own issues THAT DONT INVOLVE YOU and my own ENTIRE life and it was NEVER good enough for you. mad at me because i "dont follow through with plans" like we arent 24 years old and i work 50 hours a week? when have u ever once texted me "lets play this together tonight. lets see a movie tonight" you didnt. you are mad i didnt make the effort for YOUR life. i DID go to therapy because of it. you want to see the hospital and medical bills ive been paying because of it? because i will. call my fucking mother and she will tell you what SHES had to go through from this because she is also done with you and you airing out every issue youve ever had on her every time youd come over and never ONCE asking her how she is doing after losing her husband. call HER and tell her i was "obviously lying" when i said i would get help.

i wasnt going to fight it. i didnt want to bend over and "Just listen and change my behavior" because i didnt need to change. i was DOING my best. friendship isnt a transaction, unlike you keeping count every time you helped me apparently i didnt bc it wasnt things i Expected returned or expected PRAISE for. i bought games for you i WANTED to play together so wed have something else to talk about other than Negative Topics because i wanted you to desperately feel better and happy with something but you COULDNT because you could not stop being obsessed with your own misery and nobody likes being around that. thats the bitter truth. so i said bye because it wasnt worth it and if ending our friendship was something you TRULY thought was the best course of action then like fine. whatever.

so please continue telling everyone you meet every day the rest of your life about the horrible bad friend you once had. who never did anything for you ever because i know you are going to. and continue to surround yourself with equally controlling people who validate your feelings. i will be enjoying my life and continuing to ignore any further messages as well. ok, bye

[overwatchfics]

shhh im on anon because im too nervous to not be. anyways! hi there mage, if you recognize this typing style or not, that doesnt matter, i've just come to deliver some good words to you!

i love, and i mean i LOVE your content!! well. the fluff content, at most(nsfw and such else arent my thing is all!!), and you have genuinely no idea how excited i get when your content appears in the tags!! you have such a fun way of writing headcanons as well as you make it unique to yourself, and i think thats awesome!! i love that you put your heart into your content, er, well...i see that you do, and its so nice that you write for the silly people within this fandom!

it sucks that people also are. weird to you and dont follow your rules. thats a load of bullshit. i sincerely apologize that happens to you :(( but you're a trooper as ever and you still manage to be clear with your boundaries. people are just hella stupid

anyways! im closing this off by saying that your (fluff) content has truly brightened my days a lot, and i look forward to what else you put out!! never stop being awesome, you silly goose!

IDK WHO YOU ARE BUT FUCK DUDE THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY TO READ.

I understand NSFW isn't everyone's thing so as much as people want this to be a pure smut blog, I love writing fluff and romantics just as much! I'm glad you enjoy my content otherwise! It warms my heart knowing that I really try to put myself out there in the way I write HCs I try to be goofy make people laugh or just have some random HCs out there to get people super confused like I totally know that Sigma's favorite cereal is captain crunch. I love providing cool content for people, that's how I met a good chunk of my cool mutuals on this site! I play with them sometimes or just chat and tumblr has become a safe place for me socially, I'm so glad to write for my mutuals and my readers especially when I get messages like this in my inbox? I'm so happy people genuinely get gratification from my writing; I want to improve and make it quirky and fun for people to enjoy as time goes on. Thank you so much for the kind message! People who don't want to follow rules clearly don't want me to write for them so now I just delete their requests, but I have made it clear so many times about my rules and req status. I gain most of my inspiration from my other mutuals to write when Kiriko first came out I desperately wanted to write for her and the first writer I interacted with and was the first to write for her was @leorawright (super cool homie check out their stuff so wholesome and good and jsahdfkasjhkljahg just check them out) and I made a blog for OW I was originally just going to make it for kiriko, but their HCs made me want to explore character depth and have fun with the way I see characters. It started with Leora and I've met so many other writers, artists, and readers who have expanded my creative pallet. I wouldn't be writing the stuff I do without all of them. Their own content has brightened my day numerous times so get it fr anon.

KNOW WHAT CALLING OUT THE HOMIES RN

@raihyeon @trcwen @leorawright @syddybus @enforcermoss @moira-mains-go-to-hell @leonhardt-simp @cerezzzita @tonberry-yoda @moicy-madness @yospongebobthisedibleaintshi @legoskii37 @waspsinmyvents (idk if there's actually wasps in her vents, but I am terrified)

I'm very glad to have met and interacted with these people. Their content, words, and feedback are inspiring. Please, if given the chance go check out their works as well! Super damn good, most of them are multifandom so go ahead and check out what fandoms they write for and see if you match up with anything they write! Very friendly and chill community

Anyways on one last parting note, thank you all for continuing to support and enjoy my content, it means quite a lot to me knowing people out there read what I write. Keep kicking ass y'all! Your mage will keep on lifting the pen!

[spiralling-spires]

Im getting a ton of posts on my dash like “reblog if you support x and if you don’t then you’re evil” and it’s fucking with me because as a rule I only reblog stuff that makes me happy, inspired, or conveys a concept I’ve been trying to articulate for years (it’s harder to get me to reblog something that isn’t fandom related, since i want this to be a largely upbeat fandom rambling blog, a pocket of chaotic lightheartedness in a dark world). So I’m making one big post of all of the things:

First off: I stand with Palestine. I don’t post much about Palestine, but this is because I know that humans are much less effective if they’re sad, so I want to make visitors to my blog (who, given that they’re on tumblr, are probably looking for a break from reality) happy enough that they can actually Do Something instead of wallowing in how bad everything is, and I figure that if you follow practically anyone else on Tumblr you probably see a ton of Palestine posts already. Daily clicks link

Now for the queer/identity stuff: I support all queer people. I support arospec and acespec of all kinds, i support trans people, i support enbies, i support people of all genders (especially xenogender havers and neopronoun users, yall are great), terfs can fuck off, labels exist to help us understand ourselves and each other, not to be gatekept and exclude people just because the real villains (actual honest-to-god bigots with large amounts of money and political power) are too scary to fight.

(I am queer. Frankly, I’ve given up on labels altogether for myself, but gender, especially xenogenders, were a hyperfixation of mine for a while, and I identified with a lot of labels before tossing them all out and going with “idk, not cis?”. Wanted to add this, because all the above makes it sound like I’m a cishetallo ally and i am definitely not cis, het, or allo)

I’m undoubtedly missing a ton more things, but I needed to make this post because I don’t want my dash to just be a thousand “reblog if you support x” posts that i reblogged because i was worried people would think i was evil if i didn’t.

And on that note: please stop villainizing people who dont reblog your post. It’s really not cool, and quite manipulative. Sincerely, someone with anxiety over practically everything on the internet

[junkyardromeo]

I don’t mean this as a personal attack or to be condescending since you are very young but one day you will mature and realize that trans liberation and the liberation of Palestine and Sudan are connected. Those are your siblings being bombed in their homes and starving to death because of the actions of your government. The very same boot on your neck is the boot on theirs. I understand not having a lot of agency to control international geopolitics vs. local political action, but I hope you can find it in your heart to still care and advocate for Congo, Palestine, Sudan, etc.

I have trans friends, Southern friends, and trans Southern friends who have watched tens and hundreds of their family members die since October and no, they can’t do a lot about it, but that doesn’t mean they quite rudely tell people to stop posting because it’s hopeless. Your cynicism is on no one else but you and to post the way you did about literal genocide is disgusting ngl. Please do some sober self reflection as to why people advocating against the slaughter of brown people bothers you so much, especially when you are fully capable of curating your own dash experience and never had to say anything in the first place.

Drink some water, rest well, and Free Palestine 🇵🇸

shit man i aint even gonna lie rn bc they say whatever you say drunk is probably what you really mean sober (i aint sober a lot but it is what it is rn) but man i cant do shit about nothin. i cant do shit about this. i cant do shit about nothin. i aint even that damn cynical neither, at least not compared to how damn cynical i was a couple years ago. n also shit, i already told yall that i aint educated enough on this shit to be takin no stance on neither side, n i aint tryna start no fuckin problems. im just real sick of hearin about it. n i aint even gonna lie, im about two fuckin seconds away from not even bein on this app no more. bout sick of it. shit bout all the people i met on here anyways save for about two of em aint even on here no more. whatever. im glad you think youre old n wise. good for you. happy for you. n as far as sayin shit, i can say say whatever the hell i want. this is my damn house n im allowed to say whatever the hell i want. you curate YOUR fuckin dash if you dont wanna see me. i dont give a fuck. shit i got 2k people followin this blog which is funny as hell but you aint gotta see me if you dont wanna. idc. im in a world where i do not need validation from people on tumblr to chill w myself. we chillin. i dont need you to tell me what the hell i should be doin. yeah i think palestine should be free. yeah i think everyone should be free. but there also aint no such thing as freedom n if you want me to elaborate on that lemme know n i will. godspeed brother (or sister idk i aint tryna assume nothin)

[asscrackcreed]

breaking down this fic for no reason other than im bored - i stopped at chapter 24 i cant do this in one go so maybe a part 1

its such a white perspective clearly because malik doesnt come home from a party and after panicking that his mums gonna kill him she doesnt say anything and ??? idk the fact that they drink they’re not religious in any way shape or form despite the fact that religions especially islam have a heavy cultural impact so theres no excuse as to why hes a complete atheist. ik this fic was made in 2014 but damn these ppl hate muslims fr we never get rep in fics??? anyways altaïr is a complete homophobe and has a little flirty banter with des but thats his cousin ? uhm. des is like ‘no dont be homophobic’ and then says ‘nvm ur not relevant enough to be cancelled’ thats just chapter 1 btw

malik has a blog where he shits on altaïr and he made it after accidentally sleeping with him because uhm he has nothing better to do… this is so OOC even if altaïr is a complete homophobe and misogynist i cant see malik make an anonymous blog and everything to call out his immorality… PURELY for his immorality its not like a tumblr blog he made sassbadgers just to shit on altaïr… and then he has a moment where he responds to an altaïr stan, she says hey women are made for men and malik was like i dont believe in any religions so im not responding to that but thats an L for you anyways cuz wtf

ok but islam literally says that women are humans and shouldnt be treated like sexual objects wtf do u mean ? this is a basic principle? youre mum is muslim? hello.?

HE WAS BORN WHERE.

then he continues to laugh at said delusion fan for thinking shes married to altaïr… i know ppl like that are real… but this adds nothing to the story and given 2014 the whole ‘women getting involved in my gay ship’ drives me insane

this series does not have to be 75 chapters btw its full of fillers and irrelevant shit like why do i need to read about malik getting on the bus texting kadar for giggles idgaf

altaïr likes christmas but hes not religious my man ur dad was muslim and ur family did nothing to uphold that? huh? are they all islamophobes?

why does malik keep referring to altaïr as Mr Ibn-La’Ahad if he has no respect for him why is he addressing this guy appropriately just call him a bitch and get it over with

malik in this fic is a pretentious bitch. stop using big words just cuss him out and go taking so much time just to tell me kadar cant read big words - chapter 6 btw

leonardo and malik being roommates is cute tho i’ll give them that - at some point leo has a crush on malik i think to stir the tea but it doesnt work because… they’re too alike in this fic? they finish each other’s sentences type of alike not every gay man needs to date each other fuck sake

WHY IS MALIK TELLING KADAR ABOUT HIS SEX LIFE IS THAT NORMAL… I DONT TELL NAT ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT I DO EW and why does kadar keep asking ‘when are u gonna tell mum’ this really really really fucking annoys me as someone with a religious mum can kadar stfu shit like coming out to someone who doesnt seem alright with it is practically dangerous?????

yk how ppl said altaïr was aloof for not catching on al mualims evil plans - yeah they seemed to really fucking run with this trope good god hes so dumb its pissing me off this isnt altaïr - he says hes not bothered to take care of his stock shares or whatever ??? the source of their grandmas wealth HUH… tf do u mean ik its pre development altaïr but he wasnt neglecting responsibilities he was just a huge fucking asshole that fucked up cuz of his ego so what is going on here

im not reading this shit theres SOOOOOO many convos and NOOOOOOTTHIIINNGGG HAPPPEENNNIIIIINNGGGG

so altaïr thinks the writer behind sassbadger is a woman and is tryna flirt with ‘her’ its funny and i like it tbh but shit drags so slowly ffs

ig they’re falling in love but altaïr and malik message eachother about how maliks being nicer to him… but the reason is so dumb ‘because u purposefully make videos for ppl to laugh at u how can u be okay with that?’ what. isnt he homophobic and misogynistic what are u talking about. how is that a reason to be nicer either shit on him or stfu

also it doesnt make sense if u dont like someone esp because of their morals then… u wouldn’t interact with them on a happy social level i dont like that maliks already like bantering with him

Malik: Hey

Leo: Hey!

Malik: Sex?

Leo: Weren’t u meant to be studying

Malik: Well Im not

maybe im nitpicking rn but man the sex is so awkward like no foreplay? no setting the mood? the little convos dont make sense like if hes asking for sex hes clearly not… gonna study…? like what this author is so OOC with everyone

DES EZIO MALIK AND INTERNET PPL KEEP TELLING HIM TO STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE AND HIS RESPONSE IS ‘im not gay! i dont like gays! keep ur dick away from me!’ wheres the critical altaïr gone this isn’t fun to read the writing itself isnt bad its just like… so much and so little happening at the same time why dont you tell me how hes so afraid of being gay instead of telling me ezio is an ‘ally’

why did they make maria thorpe… posh? is it cuz shes british?

if altaïr and malik are falling in love in chapter 15 wtf is gonna happen for the other 60 chapters ???

altaïr slept with claudias friends ? that feels weird uhm

also i forgot to say malik ended up moving in with leo or smth and then he was like no im going home i didnt quite pick up why maybe i was scrolling too fast but do u see what i mean? so much stalling that adds nothing to the story

the world building was going well it was really interesting seeing how the family works idk why they villanised giovanni but yk whatever william miles was a shit dad and des ran away to his grandma who cut william out of the will and giovanni took williams side cuz des was ‘being a lazy boy’ so he got cut out too and despite the auditores being rich and having 4 production companies to their name they’re still assholes who treat des like shit except for ezio and claudia now altaïr wants justice

see? going well interesting story so why tf are they making altaïr exotic and saying he knows 10 languages ffs - ‘English, Arabic, Hebrew, Spanish, German, Italian, French, Russian, enough Finnish to ask directions and very little Korean.’ i wonder why they’re all (but two) european languages… what does he need to do with all those languages tf how exotic

ok so uhm altaïr fought ezio cuz of the whole des thing uhm very counterproductive but now they have matching lips scars. this is so silly thats the only word i can think ezio wasnt even involved with des’ situation even ezios like wtf are u attacking me for i… is this the only way altaïr could get a scar? tf

again kadar doesnt need to tell his brother hes gonna masturbate tf is wrong with this author

kadar liking a muslim girl is nice tho

??? ITS RAMADAN? YOU CANT HAVE SEX IT BREAKS THE FAST… if it was during the night it’d be fine just have a shower asap but i mean. COME ON.

ik altaïrs not religious but he eats ham…

how does the author know all these words… wdym ‘surah’ dont tell me the authors muslim

whys altaïr fighting ezio AGAIN weve established it doesnt help anything

[ars0nism]

okay, final post on this. my thing with terfs isnt the terfs. im 18, ive been through a lot, i can handle a couple of terfs on my page. what bothers me is the young people, especially young girls & transmascs, that fall into the terf rabbithole on accident.

SO.

heres my quick & easy guide on how i personally check for terfs. PLEASE check for these signs. to protect yourself. ofc not all things immediately mean terf, but this is my personal checklist

rad and or fem in the url (IMMEDIATE red flag)

labrys lesbian flag (somewhat of a red flag, could be innocent young lesbian roped into it. if theyre an adult its a red flag)

if you click on the search icon it will show a bunch of commonly used tags. look at the tags. common tags wpuld be radfem, radical feminism, terfism, gender critical etc

look at where they reblog from. who theyre following if its public. what posts they like if thats public. look at the bios of these. if the terf doesnt have a bio and is trying to be stealthy, oftentimes the people they agree with are open about it. block both while youre at it

queer slur discourse (also done outside of terf circles but far more common among terfs, especially coupled with the "not queer, im lesbian" stuff (though thats understandable and not inherently terfy) and in combination with other red flags)

exclusionism (not inherently terfy but still a good point to look out for)

fixation on wombs and vulvas (immediate red flag no one but terfs is that obsessed with their reproductive organs)

the "LGB" community, or even the "remove the L" because they dont want to associate with gay & bi people

really big hatred of the concept of "genital preference". sexuality is only about genitals to them.

intense man hatred. they hate men so much. (also not an immediate red flag because yeah some of it is warranted but you can tell the difference between joking about trauma/standing up against the patriarchy and straight up... being a terf)

the term "ssa". stands for same sex attraction. (pretty big one i think. i personally have only heard it from terfs.)

febfem. bisexuals who only date women. (also one i didnt know about until like half an hour ago. also a big one)

this is one specific to the current time and might be obsolete soon but if theyre vocal amber heard supporters. those are ALL terfs.

terfs are also often swerfs. hating on sex workers (not the system, the system is fucked and we should recognize it) is terfy !

they like to refer to us (trans people) as a cult. which, to be honest, after this experience, im more likely to call them a cult. (if a terf disagrees with you, get ready for closing anon & gross bullshit in your notes. we have mutual circles, they have them too)

and of course green flags for trans people & trans allies, if they have these the odds of it being a terf are. a lot smaller

pronouns in bio

some variation of lgbtq+

following trans blogs

inclusive

mature fucking human being

and if you're in doubt whether or not its a terf, its better to block an innocent person than to interact with a terf, id say. odds are the innocent person doesnt care.

BUT!

let's say you said something they didn't like and now your post is circling in their shitty little group chat. what then? my suggestion would be to

CLOSE ANON ASKS. once their cult has found your page and realizes you post about trans things, or worse, are trans, they will harass you. anon gives a lot of confidence to send death threats. dont let them.

Block all of them. No, it's not gonna stop new ones from harassing you in their place, but it does make for a pretty nice blocklist.

If you need to, don't hesitate to step away from tumblr for a while. Not everyone can handle harassment, and it's okay to step away if it's too much.

Remember you're worth so much more than any of these terfs. Remember being trans is something to be proud of, remember you are loved, and most importantly, remember they're just terfs on the internet. laugh at them. make fun of them. they may say shitty things, but they can't actually hurt you. (anything that can hurt you, like doxxing, is illegal. get law enforcement if possible if you think you're in actual physical danger)

Best of all is to ignore it. Don't keep talking about it ("take your own advice" im working on it). it's not fun to harass someone who just ignores you.

If you really can't cope, it's okay to close your blog. You don't have to stay. Make a new blog. Only tell your mutuals.

(also, side note, i have a blocklist filled with terfs. i am absolutely down to share this blocklist with you, if you want somewhere to get started)

[menotthatkindoforc]

Sleepover!!!

your tumblr crushes

talk about your favorite ship/fictional characters

rant about anything bad dog grooming

okay idk if we define tumblr crushes like we did back in the day which was like, your most interacted with blogs which currently is actually none of my mutuals according to tumblr (sorry idk how that math works) otherwise um jeez idk. i think you're all pretty cute and tbh if i've ever directly interacted with you more than once you're in my list of crushes because i am easy well you're very familiar with one of the characters i consider to be my favorite from any of the things i'm into and in fact the way you write her is one of the things that made me so interested in your works early on (and still!) but other than Marjory i've always liked Vi from league of legends and when arcane pulled in the best parts of her lore and character she shot up in my list Xellos from Slayers is also one of my old time favorite fictional characters and fun fact I used to use that name for some stuff when i started having gender issues with my deadname and got detached from it. he has purple hair and that is one of my favorite things about his design. im a simple creature. UM also GARROSH HELLSCREAM and more problematically his father GROMMASH HELLSCREAM (needs to be typed in caps for effect) because grom is a fucking dilf fun fact i specifically got the physical disc rather than the digital version of the warlords of draenor WoW expansion because the box was textured and therefore i could touch grom's titties also i love Amethyst from SU :) OH. BAD DOG GROOMING. well, i personally don't like to judge other people's grooms UNLESS they act like they know what they're doing and they clearly really don't. inviting me to judge u then. BUT i will talk about things i dont like in dog grooming!! SHAVING DOUBLE COATED DOGS. ESPECIALLY AT HOME. STOP. NOTHING MAKES ME MORE UPSET THAN THOSE PICS U SEE OF A HUSKY THAT HAS BEEN SHAVED EVERYWHERE EXCEPT THE NECK UP and shaving legs on double coated dogs in general!! STOP!! and blend the fucking head in to the body length!!!! i don't like to shave double coated dogs. no one does!! we all try very very hard to avoid it but some owners are dead set on it or have already been doing it for years. but there is a right and wrong way to do it! and you should never ever shave the legs down unless the owner specifically requests that because it looks terrible and i hate it sm unless you mean grooming bad dogs which is actually something i sometimes enjoy depending on the cause of the badness. i've always been the recommended person for really anxious dogs that have given other groomers problems 'cause i'm patient af and way to chill with (small to medium) dogs biting me (the typical gnawy bites or little snaps. not the i am going to fucking kill you bites). outright aggressive dogs are something i'm willing to work with depending on how much the owner does to help (i.e. meds and work on their end) though im much much more wary of this with large dogs. admittedly german shepherds and rottweilers both make me a bit uneasy (to groom. not in general. i have met some really really sweet dogs of these breeds but certain things stick with you) because i've seen some very poorly trained and bred dogs and these are both breeds i've had very close calls with in terms of almost getting the shit bit out of me. also they are both big and very good at biting. also very iffy with huskies despite owning one just because so many huskies are SO SO bad. mine is.. moderately bad.

[sammyhagarsgiganticcock]

Do your gatekeeping instincts ever partially kick in when you see people in the stranger things fandom trying to stake a claim on Eddie Van Halen as if they know anything about him at all 😭😭 like I swear I encountered a person that couldn't even name one van halen song, but they're "HIS BIGGEST SUPPORTERRRR"

It's just been rubbing me lately, I'm seeing it frequently. I don't have an issue with people actually taking interest in Eddie and attempting to learn about his musical impact, but it's just a bit annoying to see him simply being used for edits and moodboards, and measured down to "that guy that looks like Eddie Munson" 😔

SORRY I JUST NEEDED A RANT

Oh my god, I'm reblogging this onto my normal blog too and but holy shit.

I will gatekeep the fuck out of my music fandoms if I have to.

This is coming from a Van Halen, Journey, overall just a massive 60s-80s music fan, and Stranger Things fan.

Keep our TUMBLR music fandoms TIGHT. NO SERIOUSLY. KEEP THEM AS TIGHT AS POSSIBLE. KEEP PEOPLE WHO DONT BELONG IN OUT.

ESPECIALLY PEOPLE WHO DUMB OUR BANDS AND PEOPLE DOWN TO A TV SHOW AND FICTIONAL CHARACTERS.

I've said how I'd gatekeep the shit out of the Journey fandom (Seperate Ways had a remix in the show) because I already hate so many people in the fandom. We deal with so much racism and unneeded hate that I hope our fandom never makes a comeback. We'll never be as good as we were from 2010-2015ish.

Van Halen fans are so aggressive. People still fight over fucking Roth and Hagar. People still shit on Wolf. People still act like the Van Halen brothers are some precious angelboys who didn't do anything wrong. People in our fandom will literally threaten people over this kind of shit. I don't want younger people entering into our fandom and attaching onto that.

I'd much rather make sure people don't venture into our fandoms. We are much more than "Eddie Munson look-a-like" or "Band that made a song that was in the show" or any lf that shit.

Value our bands at their fullest.

(And stop making Eddie Munson edits of the videos within the Distance music video. It's fucking disgusting.)

[cosmicanger]

Calling all white people slave owners is mad and a lil bit rascit since Europeans didn't all do that slave shite. Fuck irish ppl were treated the same as black slaves. Also African kings sold there ppl into it..fuck the whole of Europe didn't have segregation so stop brushing everyone with the same brush that's like me saying all black men are dead beat dads that go out for milk and never come back. Or black woman are all loud abd want to fight each other

Your view set is just as small minded as probably alot of White and black Americans. Chances are you know fuck all about others country's history go have a BIG read up firstly you skank.

1. I have never said all white people are slave owners. In the past, I specifically said all white people c*ps (as in all white people only have one gender that is settler colonialist/c*p), that all white people benefit daily from global anti-Blackness as well as benefit from chattel slavery that was not abolished but reformed, that all white ppl are oppressors regardless of gender, class or ethnicity & all white people on Tumblr cannot last a week without using digital Blackface of some kind & all white people discard & silence Black people they cannot use, fetishize or tokenize in some way. 2. “mad” used the way you use it is casually ableist. 3. nonBlack Europeans (aww you sound like one of those bigots with internet access who still doesnt want to understand the difference between ancestry, race, ethnicity, & nationality) most definitely participated in chattel slavery, we dont have terms like Triangle Trade for no reason lmfao 4. nonBlack Irish people do not face anywhere the same levels of oppression as Black people, especially Black Irish people. You should look into anti-Blackness in Ireland. nonBlack Irish people were never chattel slaves. 5. And the last part of your anti-Black bigotry is rambling bs & you dont have a blog named attached for a reason. I answer all my asks unlike some people on here and only went in for any future ask after this one. I will only block people if there is sealioning. NONE of y’all on here can actually fight so Im not scared of y’all individually. 6. If any Black person sold anyone back in the day, it was a RARITY & wasnt in a vacuum & was still a byproduct of NONBLACK PEOPLE instating chattel slavery & global anti-Blackness. chattel slavery was started by nonBlack people of color than co-opted by white people, like your attempt at false equivalencies here is embarrassing & ignorant & shows how antiBlack you are. And dont nonblack cis men leave their families more than Black cis men by numbers, so what now? 7. Small-minded” = casual ableism again, get better vocabulary w/o using ableist terminology. 8. “Black Americans” is an anti-Black dogwhistle said by either nonblack people jealous of Black hypervisibility or classed Black people who start diaspora wars because they hate other Black people. 8. You would never ever call me a skank to my face, that’s why you anon lmao

[preybait]

humiliating questions

these kind of sucked

Tag your biggest tumblr crush.

@highrollerz

Do you eat ass? Do you like to have your ass eaten?

yes, yes

Have you washed your hands since you last had an orgasm?

of course? im not an animal

Have you ever posted a nude to your own blog?

nope not this one

What’s the best orgasm you’ve had in the past few months?

probably getting fucked by my big brother recently. i remember my knees were up nearby my shoulders and he was pressing all of his weight into me and i thought i was gonna suffocate.

Have you ever masturbated to someone you know who isn’t your partner?

lots of my partners headmates who im not involved with, yeah.

What’s the soonest after meeting someone that you’ve slept with them? 

hours

What position or angle or specific technique never fails to make you cum?

layin on my side w my leg held up. especially if theyre sat up on their knees and i can put it over their shoulder.

When was the last time you watched porn?

in high school

What is the hottest thing someone has ever done with you in bed? 

recently? do a line off of me and fuck me harder. bash my face into the wall. of all time? tell me they're disappointed in me. tell me they're proud of me. tell me to take the cock that made me. make fun of me for begging them to stop.

Do you prefer tongue or fingers? 

both at the same time.

Are you a top/dominant a bottom/submissive or a switch?

bottom switch.

Have you ever had your own underwear in your mouth? Have you ever had someone else’s underwear in your mouth? Has your underwear ever been in someone else’s mouth?

yes. no. yes.

What’s your go-to nude pic to send to someone. Describe the angle, lighting, body part etc.

why would i do that on here?

Do you ever suck on a dildo while you masturbate?

ive tried it. my jaw started to hurt.

Do you have a sideblog? Is it more or less NSFW than this one? Is it secret or can we see it?

this is my only nsfw blog.

Has anyone ever watched you masturbate live online? Have you ever watched someone masturbate live online?

nope

Do you have anyone from Tumblr’s nudes on your phone right now?

nope

What underwear do you have on right now?

pink cotton panties

What’s the most surprising discovery you’ve made about your own body?

it doesnt take much pressure at all to make me bruise.

Has a neighbour ever seen you naked? Did you like it?

probably. i dont care one way or the other

What’s the hottest sex dream you’ve ever had?

sex dreams are indicative of spirits attached to you and are never a good thing.

Have you ever watched people having sex?

yes

Are you open about your sex-life and sexuality?

yes to anyone who asks

Does anyone you know in real life know about this blog?

HA unfortunately my blood sister. that fucking creep

Do you have any of your own nudes on your phone right now?

yes

When was the last time you had sex?

a couple nights ago.

Have you ever masturbated to any of your friends? Do you think any of your friends have ever masturbated to you?

nope. probably not

Describe a typical masturbation session.

"ow. ow. ow. ow. ow. ow. this is a waste of time. ow. ow. wait, is it working? nope. ow. ow. ow. sigh. its just gonna have to hurt. maybe i should bite down on my hand. ow. ow. ow."

How do you feel about threesomes? Have you ever had one, and if not, would you ever have one?

theyre good as long as the people doing it dont hate each other. yes, i have.

What’s something that turns you on, but you’re a bit embarrassed by?

fauxcest? the most humiliating thing i swear to god.

What is the wildest fantasy you ever had that actually came true?

half the men ive pulled ! but regardless, probably getting fucked at a live show.

Have you ever gotten turned on at work (or while WFH)? What did you do about it?

nope, not yet. im sure itll happen, tho.

Do you listen to audio porn?

not often, but i have before.

Which one of your holes do you most want to be filled right now?

my pussy.

Are you loud or quiet when you masturbate?

silent

Do you own any toys? What’s your favourite?

yes. i cant use them, too big.

Have you ever confessed to someone that you got turned on by them? What about masturbated to them?

not intentionally, i dont think. ive done the latter.

Do you have anyone else’s nudes on your phone right now?

nope.

Have you ever hooked up with a stranger or had a one-night stand?

yep.

Do you like being called a slut or whore in bed?

yessss? depends. it has to be the right person and the right context. some people just shouldn't call anyone that. doesnt sound right in their voice.

Have you ever been caught or walked in on while masturbating? Have you ever been caught or walked in on while fucking?

yes. yyyyes?

How do you feel about swinging or partner swapping? Does the idea turn you on?

no

Have you ever masturbated to a mutual’s selfies before? Tag them if you dare.

ew

What’s the kinkiest thing you’ve ever asked someone to do while sexting?

i dont really sext anymore

Has anyone ever watched you masturbate in person? Have you ever watched someone masturbate in person?

nope

If you had 5 mins alone to get yourself off right now, without your phone, what would you do and what would you imagine?

scratch or cut as much of myself as possible. bite down hard enough someplace to leave bruises. it doesnt take long for me to cum if im not trying to force penetration, so i could fit a few edges in there.

Have you ever sent a nude via DM here?

nope

What’s a sex act you think is overrated? What’s a sex act you think is underrated?

choking. free use.

When did you last have an orgasm? How did it happen?

a couple nights ago. my big brother raped me, duh.

Do you shave your pubic hair?

nope

How often do you masturbate?

twice a month maybe?

Where’s the most unusual place you’ve masturbated?

in a bathtub at a hotel

What’s the most amount of times you’ve orgasmed in a day?

six times

Have you ever been so turned on that someone noticed?

yes.

Have you ever masturbated with someone?

what is with all of these masturbation questions

Have you ever gotten cum on your clothes before? Did anyone see that shouldn’t have?

nope

Have you showered since you last had an orgasm?

yes? seriously what is w these weird questions

Who’s the most inappropriate person you’ve ever had a fantasy about?

probably my partners' bandmates i wasnt involved with.

Have you tasted yourself? If so, what did you think?

yep. pretty nice.

Have you ever masturbated to someone you know’s selfies before?

these are boring bro

How long do you usually masturbate before you cum? 

... 2 minutes maybe

What’s the weirdest porn category you’ve ever searched for?

n/a

Are you noisy?

silent

What are your top five favourite blogs to masturbate to? Tag them!

n/a

Describe your nipples. What colour are they? What size are they?

umm i think theyre more on the pink brown side? id say theyre sorta big. theyre flat, but they get puffy. /shrugs

If you had 5 mins alone to get yourself off with porn right now, what would you type in the search bar?

jesus christ man am i just a different breed of person

What is your favourite pair of underwear like? When did you last wear them? Was it special occasion?

commando, preferably

Are you masturbating right now?

what? no. im typing? what is with this questionnaire and masturbation

Would you like to watch your partner have sex with another person? Would you like to have your partner watch you with another person?

yes yes yes yes yes yes yes i know who exactly who id wanna see fuck who oh my god finally a good question. i want to see 01100100 01100001 01110110 01100101 00100000 01110010 01100001 01110000 01100101 00100000 01110100 01101000 01100101 00100000 01100110 01110101 01100011 01101011 00100000 01101111 01110101 01110100 00100000 01101111 01100110 00100000 01101010 01100001 01101101 01100101 01110011

Start typing out your dirtiest fantasy you can think of and don’t stop til you get so embarrassed you can’t go on any longer. Just make sure it’s actually something you’re into!

uhhhh ok so. probably right now its showing up wet to practice with no panties on. and making myself so worked up that it cant be hidden anymore until my big brother notices and … im already embarrassed

Would you ever fuck a couple?

if i only liked one of them id kill the other and make them fuck the corpse. if i liked both? sure.

Would you do a cum-walk?

excuse me?

Have you ever had an orgasm that you weren’t expecting?

is that possible?

What’s the messiest you’ve ever got when masturbating on your own?

probably the few times ive made myself drool all over.

Have you ever worn lingerie?

yep

If you could fuck anyone at all right now, who would it be? Do you know them in real life? Do they know you like them? 

my brother. yes. i should hope so.

Which mutual would you most like to fuck right now? Do they know? Tag them if you dare!

n/a

What’s the last object you put into your own body for sexual reasons?

a make up brush

Do you have any recurring fantasies you keep coming back to? Do you think they’ll ever happen?

lately its been getting strangled and fucked by someone Very drunk who doesnt even notice when i start begging them to stop and saying the safe word.

Where’s the most unusual place you’ve had sex? Did you cum?

over a storage crate backstage at a music festival. yep

Have you ever been made to/made somebody beg for it?

yep

What’s your dirtiest secret?

i keep a camera in kirks bunk cuz i know hed get off on me watching him.

What’s the most embarrassing porn you like to watch?

n/a

Have you ever put your finger in your own ass?

ive put more than that up there.

Do you like slapping someone’s face? Do you like your face being slapped?

yes i love slapping people. people should let me slap and beat them more. yes, typically, by the right person.

Have you ever used panties to masturbate? 

n/a

Do you have sex dreams? If yes, when was the last one?

n/a

Have you ever slid into someone’s DMs? Did it work? If yes, what was your technique?

yep. being blunt

Who is the coolest person you follow here? Tag them.

n/a

What is your sexual orientation?

queer

Have you ever fucked in public? Where was it? Did you get caught?

yep. alleys, concerts, festivals, bathrooms at restaurants. sometimes.

Do you have any piercings or tattoos?

yep both

Describe your body in a way that would turn us on.

not yours.

Do you like being tied up?

yeah, by the right person.

What’s the kinkiest thing you’ve ever asked someone to do in real life?

kill themselves.

What was your most shame-filled orgasm? Why?

anytime i pissed myself during.

What’s the messiest you’ve ever gotten during sex?

ive been pissed in lots. or spat on. one time i threw up while a guy was fucking me. thats happened a lot actually

Admit something sexual that you’ve never told anyone else before.

theres very few things i havent told anyone. actually, there isn't anything, i dont think.