#and i dont remember if they ever say what veronica does for work but i see her as a girlboss lawyer/office worker type of business woman

[manitapaleta]

mommy? sorry. mommy?? ...sorry.

S2 milfs!!! and Marco hehe

[surveysonfleek]

1584.

What’s the latest youtube channel you’ve discovered and binge-watched?   hmm during work i found this girl who does true crime style videos. it’s like a visual podcast. so i listened to a couple of those in the bg

What’s one thing that makes your shoulders hurt?   getting a massage and they apply too much pressure but my introvert ass is too shy to say anything lol

Does it snow where you live? no. it snows about 2 hours away but tbh there wasnt much news about it this year

Do you think your hair looks better long or short? long

Do you look best with or without bangs?   i kinda prefer no bangs but side bangs are ok too

What stereotype would you say you fit the most?   none

Do you enjoy editing photos on your phone? haha i cant say i enjoy it but sometimes its needed

What’s your favorite thing to do on your phone?   insta, tiktok, fb. social media i guess

Which season do you wish would last longer?   autumn! love autumn, perfect weather all around

Do you like the name Eliana?   its cute

Do you know anyone named Claire? Veronica? Cescily? Marcella? Miranda?   i have a cousin named veronica

Haw many outdoor birthday parties have you had?   i dont remember having an outdoor bday ever!

How much taller or shorter are you than your mom?   taller by a few inches

Who is your favorite sibling? i only have one sibling, so her!

Do you have neat handwriting? its not neat but its def not messy

Do you enjoy journaling?   haha no. i havent journaled since 2017 maybe

What is your most recent new favorite food you’ve discovered? not super new but i do love poke bowls now

Do you like sushi?   yes! love it

Have you ever tried seaweed? yup :)

How often do you wash your hair?   around three times a week

Do you have an actual pig-shaped piggy bank?   nope

Would you rather hike a mountain or dive into the sea?   omg none. dive into the sea if i really had to but only to snorkel Would you rather grow wings or a tail? lmao wings i guess

Which Barbie doll was your favorite? i had a lot as a kid and its so sad i dont remember any in particular! 

Do you prefer cheetah or zebra print? chevron or polka dots? paisleys or plaid? stripes or stars? cheetah, polka dots, paisleys and stripes

Do you like your natural hair color? yeah its fine

What is your natural hair color?   dark brown

Did you dream of becoming famous as a kid?   yes. that was like my life goal. howeverrrr, i had no creative talent. i couldnt sing, act, dance etc lmao. but i always wanted to be famous. this was way before social media was introduced though

What show did you want to be on? the saddle club lol

Have you ever been to a gynecologist? no but technically my doctor is one. they’re a gp but certified gyno if that makes sense

Do you use the Bitmoji app on your phone? i used to 

Do you get on facebook every day? yeah but nowhere near as often as i used to

What is your Instagram screenname? totally not sharing that here lol

Do you remember the very first episode of Spongebob when it first came out? nope

Did you watch the Kids Choice Awards when you were a kid?   no because i didnt have cable tv lol

What was your favorite girl group when you were growing up? spice girls, duh!

Would you ever consider naming a child after a family member?   nah, im starting fresh

List three names that sound similar to your name.   no List three spelling of your name that you are glad you don’t have. lol haha no

What were you almost named?   erica, so weird

Do you like your name?   yes :)

What are your top three favorite girl’s names? boy names? i dont know. i feel like this question comes up alot but i can never think of an answer. i need to start a note of it on my phone lol

What is something you always wanted to do that your parents never let you? get me a tickle me elmo

Do you have any symptoms of COVID-19 right now? nah, double vaxxed baby!

Have you made your own mask to help prevent the spread of the virus?   no but i wear them anyways

Do you know anyone who has the virus? not personally. actually i had a friend that got it but he lives in cali

What was the last grocery store you shopped at?   coles

What does your name mean? goddess of something

What countries have you visited? plenty. just too lazy to list them

Do you have any regrets? i do but i dont dwell on it

Do you ever wish you had someone to hug?   haha no, i can hug my fiance whenever

Do you ever sleep on your bedroom floor?   no

[rightnowyoucanttell]

Malibu, Next To You

Title: Malibu, Next To You 

Summary: Is it supposed to this hot all summer long? Or is it just him? A very fluffy date with some minor molehills between Veronica and Grayson on a Malibu beach. Just because the sun is down, the night is still young, and so are they. But which way does it go...

Warnings: Fluff, implied smut (I don’t write smut, sorry guys), talks of anxiety 

A/N: When this idea came to mind, i say that because i have a roughly planned full series timeline in my head it started with just the first part as a blurb but then I was like hey let's make a series, it was originally to be a reader insert (Y/N, Y/L/N, ect.) but i always have problems doing that as they feel too weird to write so I came up with Veronica and added it to the plot/timeline whatever you'd call it. so you can do that or appreciate it for the beauty it is with Veronica and Grayson. 

Tags: @dzoint ​ @graysavant @blindedbythelightt ​ @tadadolan @heartofalionxo ​ @beatement-l ​  @grayswhore ​@saggitariusagirl @tattoogray @onlyangels-world @dxlxnbby

Part one 

Series Masterlist

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“You know..” Ronnie drifted as she walked kicking the sand beneath her feet forward in a rhythmic pattern,” I’ve never enjoyed going to the beach..” Veronica glanced up from the sand and over to Grayson who gazed down to the ground before making eye contact.

The smell of saltwater brushed their noses, seagulls cawed in the distance as the water crashed closer and closer and then pulled itself back out. The pair, Ronnie and Gray watched the sunset as they walked barefoot as the tide came in and set back out, like both of their hearts, coming to a calm stop and then flooding back in a rampage of fluttering butterflies, beating in there chest.

He explained the currents and she just gawked in a secretive manner, so he didn’t notice, the dumbfounded look his body gave her. 

    “Really? You don’t say, I mean I figured that much, for someone who has a fear of seagulls and drowning…” he pondered the thought as his feet stopped the wallow in the incoming tide that was just far enough from Ronnie who was in the dry portion of sand.

She giggled shaking her head continuing down the shore all while facing Grayson,”..are you saying you’re not enjoying yourself?” he shouted over the crashing waves that he ran from to catch up to her. 

“You remembered…,” Ronnie’s heart fluttered. Grayson knew about her anxiety.  Ronnie explained to Grayson that night in Starbucks, her fears, in return for him doing the same.  There was a semi prolix list. Seagulls, birds, circus clowns, large crowds, heights, and significantly Drowning.

She shook herself from the bliss and continued, “but, no. No no, no.. of course not. You brought me here!” she exclaimed twirling with open arms, the wind catching her grey wool shawl that covered her white strapless sundress with bright red roses.

Her damp dark brown hair caught in the breeze flew gently, her eyelids covered her vibrant green eyes. Grayson’s eyes followed Veronica in awe as she twirled in the sand and breeze all the way as she ran back to him and nearly ran into him. 

   The two laughed and turned around to walk back to the there picnic blanket, both inaudible deciding it was time to eat,” Your something else, you know that?” he offered up to the conversation. His hand brushed against gently against Ronnie’s. 

   Ronnie just smiled letting silence sit between then,”..Something good I hope…” the entirety of the walk back to the picnic blanket and the food was silence, blissful and incentive for Grayson, but nervous and nerve wracking for Veronica. She hastily wondered if she had said the wrong thing, or turned him off or away and that’s why he hadn’t said anything, but she tried telling herself it was just the anxiety and the nerves this Italian boy from New Jersey stirred up. 

  Veronica Chandler likely always would be anxiety-ridden. After all, Fears my life, Ronnie had the words tattooed on and wrapping around her wrist. The black ink still had water droplets from when she had been swimming and wading in the water with Grayson. Veronica left the fishing on her stepfather’s, Darren,  boat to him and her older brother Noah, even all the while, an excelling science student, she never got how they were floating.  

    However, if tonight, if Grayson asked her, Ronnie probably would step foot on a boat.  She never willing went to the beach, even though living in Miami with private beach access growing up at her home, and certainly did not stand by the ocean. But on this evening, Grayson brought her there, and she was happy that he did.

So here they were. 

  The sunset warmed Veronica the pinks and blues entangling themselves, like the hopes of how Veronica undeniably wanted to be entangled with Grayson later that night. Something in Grayson hoped it too.

On a picnic blankets, following a stroll along with the tide on the now rather deserted from the public eye, on a beach in Malibu. Munching on what Ronnie’s mom would call “Rabbit Food”. 

  “This is one of the best wraps I’ve ever tasted,” Ronnie added as she quietly finished chewing her toes in the sand below and surrounding the blanket. 

"Its from.." Grayson paused to chew," this stand in downtown LA, Marty's I think, they're delicious." They made eye contact, Ronnie smiled with her eyes, covering her mouth as she was chewing.

"We should go together sometime,"Ronnie offered nervously.

 "Defiently...,"Grayson brushed his hands above the wrap on a clear piece of plastic wrap beefy ass salad chickpea wrap sat on, in between final swallows of his bites of food he started, "so... care to explain why you ignored me for a week, 'ronica?"

   That's when the evening went south.

What Grayson didn't know, that the week Veronica avoided him..one week desperate Gray was left with no sign she was alive, no text, calls, and no DM’S except the confirmation seen from the first night. 

 That week the week she ignored him, the week he was referring too, Veronica,  was in Miami visiting her mother. Veronica had deep-rooted feelings for Grayson.. but, again, like a record used, the last had left a few scratches, and overtime... they scarred.

But it was nothing, Gianna, Mama Chandler couldn't fix...

   Ronnie sighed heavily,"Why does everyone I love settle for someone so low of them?" She pondered the thought in silence as she finished her rant of the night she met Grayson.

 “..well, he sounds like a keeper..and handsome....,” her mother drifted. Ronnie wasn’t paying attention fondling with the small strands that belonged to the blue and white polka-dotted beach towel her mother and herself were tanning on. Within seconds her attention was grabbed by an incoming frisbee, that landed...perfectly in one of the white polka dots. Ronnies eyes widened when she caught its sight, she gazed curiously and then picked it up examine it, before tossing it to the wind aimlessly,”-Veronica! You could have hit someone!” Gianna gently smacked the four-arm of her daughter’s right hand with the back of her hand. 

    “Mom!? What the fuck? Did you not see that it landed in the circle, that’s not a coincidence...that’s a fucking conspiracy. Like how a cartoon predicted 9/11 and then moon landing was faked...," Ronnie slumped back so her back rested against the beach chair set up behind her. 

"It was an accidental coincidence..dear," her mother licked the tip of her finger pulling the pages apart. Her sun hat covers her sunglasses covered eyes, and held her brown hair in place around her shoulders, she was paler than Ronnie, she and noah got there skin from her absentee father, he was the Brazilian in her jeans.

"Yeah well, accidents don't just happen, accidentally, mother," Veronica huffed and crossed her arms leaning back farther and closing her eyes, enjoying momental peace before the woman started up again.

"When you head back to Los Angeles, you better text that boy, I'll be damned if you pass up a chance with someone like that. He's a good one that Grayson, I can tell. You cant let your life wither away to nothing and give up on love because of one bad drinker and a beater bad apple.. theres good people out there.. you just gotta look in front of you."

The memory on the beach faded, she hadn't realized she had been gazing into Grayson's hazel eyes the entire time the flashback played out in her head like a scene from a movie,"do you, uh. Really want to know? Is it fundamentally necessary.." she drifted off leaving a tenacious gap of silence. Just the wind and the waves to be heard.

Grayson scoffed a chuckle,"..well, no, but, I'd like to know."

Ronnie thought for a few moments, if she didnt tell him, he'd be suspicious, if she told him he might doubt the feelings she had if they were legitament,"I was in Miami. With my mom, i needed advice. A break. I was worried you were..a player. And now I know, I know that your not. Your kind, cute, hot, sexyyy, and-"Veronica's ramble was cut off by Graysons hands wrapping and cupping her head into his hands and pressing his lips to hers.

Internal fire works went off, if it were a movie they would be exploding over the water between there heads just visable to camera shot. Both hearts beat against there respective rib cages, not knowingly they both had been wating for this moment the entirety of the night.

Ronnie's hand came to touch Grays chest shortly before she came up to breath in the salty air,"that.." she panted,"was hot. But, I dont know.. if this'll work. I'm lonely and broken.. and can barely take care of myself, just, Grayson-"

"I like that your broken, and lonely" he grasped her face one hand still behind her head his thumb caressing her cheek,"not like in a kinky sort of way," they both laughed for a few seconds, Ronnie looked down. He placed his pointer fingern underneath her chin, tilting it up,"I could be lonely with you.."

"My place or yours?" She smirked. Hoping that night of entanglement would happen after all.

"Mine, definetly mine." He breathed there chins pressed together.

Ronnie had never run faster than she didn that night, all the way back to the porsche.

[staliaqueen]

Riverdale 4x17 - First thoughts

Pre-thoughts/expectations: Im very exicted for once. At first I was dreading this epiosde, because, you know, it’s a musical one, and you know how the last one went... (first thoughts on that here). But then they dropped all the Barchie stuff so now I’m PUMPED!

Warnings: Swearing and caps lock, also I didn’t edit any of this. 

First thoughts: 

Jughead: “It was over.” Me: Bughead?

I’m glad to see Jughead back writing in Pop’s tho

God another tape? I honestly completetly forgot about those

Oh no Jughead is singing again

It was god awful last time

I’ve only heard three words and it sounds like ha has inproved but I don’t wanna get my hopes up

Okay Cole’s singing is better (maybe that’s because he’s singing a low tone now though?) but I still think it’s a weird creative decision to have Jughead sing tbh. It just feels really weird and out of character. I know he’s not actually singing but still. I think the musical episodes would work better (or less bad) if he was the only one that didn’t sing. 

Oh now Archie is singing that is so much better

And Veronica too

I don’t know which musical this is from but I promise I won’t judge it based in Riverdale’s interpertation 

The people singing at Pop’s are really funny to me but I don’t know why

But also SWEET PEA YAY

I love Veronica’s outfit can I have that?

I hope Hiram dies

God Archie and his big mouth

He and Hagrid should be friends

I would honestly pay to see that spinoff 

GOD ARCHIE IS SO PRCIOUS AND JUST WANTS TO HELP I LOVE YOU

“The salem witch trails, definitly.” You fucking took the words right out of my mouth Jughead

Knowing that Brachie is coming is giving me the streangth to get through Bughead scenes without wanting to puke wow that hasn’t happened in a while

How do you know it’s a he, Charles? Do you know him? Is it you and your boyfriend in prison? 

Really Mr. Honey? Let Kevin sing! He’s the best of the cast!!!

“We’re generation Z” God that fucking cracked me up. No you’re not you’re all 30! I know they’re probably trying to give us a voice but I feel worse about being gen Z now that Kevin said it like that

Kevin sings tho so that’s good

Doing something like this, giving teenagers today a voice and trying to express how they feel is something I really wanna see more but it doesn’t work in Riverdale. Riverdale is so far removed from reality that doing these kind of realistic and relevant things and topics can’t work. If you’re gonna give generation Z a voice then you need to do it with people who behave like real gen Z teenagers, and the characters in Riverdale don’t. I don’t mean that all media have to be realistic, but if you’re gonna do something like this it kinda does. 

The musical numbers aren’t as awkward as in Heathers. That just hurt to watch, but this is totally fine. 

If no one had number 69 I’m sueing 

The Archies? Does Archie have a secret twin too?? With the same name???

THE CAR BETTY HELPED HIM FIX UP YEAH

yes bring back the Fred Heads

I can’t concentrate on the Fnags/Kevin scene cause I’m just thinking about that tickling thing and how fucking weird that was

I like Fangs being a supportive boyfriend tho

Yeah Betty’s about to roast Jughead this is great

Jughead’s lying to Betty again what a surprise

I’m fine with Jughead being in the band as long as he doesn’t sing

He can play drums like his dad

OH FUCK YEAH KEVIN IN DRAG LET’S DO THIS

The receptionist looking at Kevin OMG 😂😂😂

Shout out to Miss Bell

OMG SWEET PEA IS HELPING AND HE’S PLAYING THE GUTIAR???? TIGER PRINT HAS NEVER LOOKED SO GOOD

OMG YESSSS KEVIN KISSED ARCHIE THAT WAS AMAZING DIDN’T KNOW I NEEDED THAT

At least Honey let him finish the song before he pulled the plug

This scene would’ve been so much cuter if it felt like Betty, Veronica, Toni, Cheryl and Kevin were all actually friends

Hate to break it to you Betty but that’s not a wig it’s a tiara

Wow they’re really making up for 3 seasons without drag

God Toni’s wig and Cheryl’s hair

OMG IT FEELS SO GOOD SEEING BETTY IN A WIG THAT ISN’T THAT SHITTY D*ARK B*ETTY WIG

Sugar Daddy is the best one yet but I don’t think it’s the right one to convince Mr. Honey

aaand I was right

Can all of them be barred from Prom? Cause I really don’t wanna see that unless Barchie goes together

Honestly I don’t think Veronica has the right to be that mad at Archie. Hiram isn’t his dad he can’t just make him go to the hospital. He tried to talk to him but he refused to listen there was litteraly nothing more he could do. Maybe he should’ve told Veronica earlier but th episode doesn’t tell us how long it took him to do it but it looked like it was the next day

Betty has more of a reason to be mad 

Also Jug don’t be so dramatic you didn’t actually die you idiot

OH NO DON’T SING

FUCK I CAN’T WITH THIS ANGSTY SCREAM SINGING BULLSHIT STOP

When Betty said “How do you think I feel” it sounded completely diffrent from the rest of the audio. Seriously, that shitty amature dubbing is kinda inexcusible from a big show like this

They look kinda funny screaming at each other

sSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsown up 😂😂😂

FUCK YEAH EVERYONE’S IN DRAG NOW

Wait so are the fights happening during school time? Wtf? They’re editing the events like they take place during the same time so why aren’t they at school??

NEVERMIND REGGIE IN DRAG SKJKFLHJSHF

FUCK YOU HONEY YOU CAN’T CANCEL THE SHOW BECAUSE OF A PEACEFUL PROTEST WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

fUCK YEAH THE BARCHIE SCENE IS COMING NOW BE PREPARED FOR MORE CAPSLOCK

You didn’t screw up shit she shouldn’t have gotten as mad as she did because of that

“We peaked in the 1st grade” God they’re so adorable 

OMG THEY’RE GONNA DO A CALLBACK TO SEASON 1 WHEN ARCHIE LOOKED AT BETTY LIKE THAT AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHSKJJSH

Ok nevermind it was about Fred sill really cute

God they’re gonna sing a song called Origin of Love.... I don’t think I’m mentally prepared for this

Do I even have to say that this is the best song number in the show?

Veronica what are you doing I want Barchie

No not Jughead ugh

CAN THOR PLEASE KILL THEM ALL WITH HIS HAMMER THAT WOULD BE GREAT

Okay Cole’s singing has improved a lot I’ll give him snaps for that

I take back not wanting Veronica or Jughead right now this is great Jeronica and Barchie parallells

I really hope this cheating plot line will bring Jug and Veronica together that would be so great

OMG THE FLASHBACKS TO BARCHIE SEASON 1 MY HEART

AND FLASHBACK TO THE BARCHIE KISS FUCK YEAH

FUCK YEAH THEY’RE KISSING NOW SJKSLHJSDBVHBRGVHWR WFHBVHVWKJHRVBRHBVHRBH

That was better than all Bughead and Varchie kisses combined don’t @ me 

She looks happier and more in love in the picture with Archie

OMG JUGHEAD IS HERE YES BRING THE ANGST

I can’t wait to see Jughead’s reaction to finding out Betty cheated on him with Archie

LOL Archie has 1 picture with Veronica and 4 with Betty that’s so in character I love it

omg they’re still gonna perform it’s gonna be so awkward I love it

YES THEY’RE LOOKING THROUGH THE WINDOWS NOW I LOVE IT

OH MY GOD THIS SONG WTF IT’S GIVING ME SO MANY FEELS

OH MY GOD THEY’RE DANCING IN THE OUTFITS FROM THE DANCE IN 1X1 I CAN’T REMEMBER THE NAME OF THIS IS EVERYTHING THAT I’VE EVER WANTED 

NAME ONE BUGHEAD MOMENT THAT EVEN COMES CLOSE TO THIS YOU CAN’T

THE HANDS AGAINST THE WINDOWS HHHHMHMHNJBNJTNBDNBN

I WISH THERE WAS SOMETHING BIGGER THAN CAPSLOCK TO SHOW HOW I’M FEELING

Yes they’re preforming now this is gonna be so awkward

And they showed Sweet Pea for another second 

Did they forget that he’s a fan favourite??

Jughead’s playing the drums but he still has a mic fuck

He looks so confused when Betty won’t look back at him God that’s hilarious 

Fangs and Sweets singing with to the misfits part yess

WHY ARE THEY STANDING ON THE ROOF THATS SO STUPID THIS WAS AN ACTUAL GOOD EPISODE DONT RUIN IT

How many fucking people are there I thought Riverdale was a small town

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I don’t know wether to laugh or cry

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[lena-in-a-red-dress]

Beat of my Heart, part 2 of 2

I blame @sango-blep and her anon for this.

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Continued from Part 1

It takes time for Lena and Rowena to reclaim their ease. The truth hangs over them, a perpetual reminder that every moment means so much more than the one before. But they try. Their progress is made in little moments. The first time Rowena reaches out in conversation, her fingers brushing Lena's arm without reaction, her heart thunders with alarm. What if she's ruined it already? But Lena carries on as though she never even noticed. When Rowena shares a story-- she doesn't even remember which one-- Lena throws her head back and laughs. This time, her heart soars, to see the same scrunched nose smile that Lena always had. She reclaims her daughter, a little at a time. ---

Their bond is still in its infancy when Lena walks into Rowena's gallery to find Lillian looming over her mother with an arch brow. "Get away from her!" Lena snarls, planting herself between them with her arms outstretched. Kara is close at her heels-- they'd come for brunch, and Rowena still feels blessed to be included in at least one more aspect of Lena's life-- but hangs back, clearly ready to let Lena set the tone of whatever came next. Lillian, for her part, is less than concerned to see her daughter's fiercety. "Don't be so overdramatic, Lena," she replies, stepping back as though to show her lack of interest. "I'm not here to murder anyone. We were just having a conversation." "You don't get to have a conversation with her," Lena snaps back. Lillian's head tilts in bemusement. "Even as a customer?" "Oh, bullSHIT." "Lena..." Kara tries to place a hand on her shoulder, only to be shrugged away. "Did you know?" Lena demands, voice rising with fury. "Calm down--" "Did. You. Know." Lillian blinks, jaw firming. "Ye--" Lena's palm cracks across Lillian's cheek before the word fully leaves her mouth. Lillian reels, out of surprise more than anything else, even as Lena lunges for her again, only to be hauled back by Kara and Rowena both. "How DARE you!" "Lena, stop--!" "You fucking bitch--" Rowena lends her voice to the chaos, hoping to calm her daughter. "Lena, it was Lionel's doing-- she wasn't the one who wanted you--" "You think I don't KNOW THAT?" Lena cries, rounding on Rowena so swiftly that the artist shrinks back instinctively. She doesn't know this Lena. From Kara's alarm, she's not sure anyone does. "Every single DAY for the past twenty years she has made sure I knew exactly how much she DIDN'T want me!" Lena whirls back to Lillian, bumping against Kara still running interference. She glares at her adoptive mother, as hot angry tears pinch from the corners of her eyes. "Did you even think about her? All those years that you made me grovel for every shred of affection you deigned to give me, knowing all along there was someone out there who loved me-- did you EVER think about her?" A chiseled jaw lifts, somehow still retaining Lillian's moral superiority. "Of course I did," she says. From her tone, Rowena knows whats coming next, and internally braces as Lillian's head gives a smug tilt. "Who do you think sent the Christmas cards?" All the air seems to suck from the room, leaving deafening silence in its wake. Lena is the first to recover. "What?" "Every Christmas, your mother received the Luthor family christmas card, detailing your biggest accomplishments and a photo of you." Lillian gazes at her. "I sent them." As her rage shifted rapidly to confusion, Lena started to tremble. "But... why?" "Because I pitied her." It's clear that pity was all it was, because there's no trace of compassion in her now. Lena has nothing else to stay. She simply stares, unable to formulate a response. In the end, Lillian reaches into her purse, and though Kara stiffens in alarm, all she pulls from it is a stack of envelopes, bound six inches deep, all sealed. "I came to deliver these," she says. Rowena recognizes each and every one, sent by her own hand to express her pride and love for the daughter who never responded. She'd always wondered if she'd ever gotten them. Now she knows. 

"You understand why I withheld them," she says, this time to Rowena directly. Rowena nods stiffly, but Lena snatches them from Lillian's hand, radiating with new rage. "No," she growls. "I don't understand. I thought I did-- I thought I understood why you were so cruel. Because I wasn't yours, because my fa--" She trips over the word. "Because he forced you to accept me into your home, when I had nowhere else to go." Lena hugs the stack of envelopes to her chest, as though they could somehow steady her shaking voice. "But I did have somewhere else. I had someone-- who cared for me, who WANTED me, and I-- never understood just how cruel you truly were." Her jaw tightens, mirroring Lillian as she lifts her chin. "You knew. And you knew it was wrong. But you let him do it anyway." Disgust turns Lena's gaze haughty. "You're a bigger monster than he ever was." Though Lillian doesn't move, Rowena catches the flicker of hurt that flashes behind the woman's eyes. Rowena almost feels guilty, aching for a woman losing a daughter, but Lena's trembling rage halts that in its tracks. This woman did not love Lena. Not the way, Lena needed. Rowena has no idea what Lena's survived, and now for the first time truly wonders just how much she might have endured. She reaches out, and places her hand at the small of Lena's back. She can't do much in the face of that trademark Luthor might-- she never could. But she can stand with Lena. That much she can do. "Get out," Lena snaps, daring Lillian to protest, to feign interest in reconciliation. Lillian does neither. She lingers for only a heartbeat before departing without another word. They watch her leave in silence, a quiet that persists long after the tall woman disappears from sight. "Lena..." Rowena starts, only to freeze when Lena pulls away sharply. "I can't do this." Lena leaves without a second glance. Kara trots after her, only to return after a short exchange at the door. "I'm going to hang with you for a bit," the reporter delivers casually. "No, Lena needs--" "Lena's the one who asked," Kara explains gently. "Just in case Lillian changes her mind." "Changes her mind about what?" "Not killing you." Rowena doesn't even have it in her to be alarmed at the potential threat, or alarmed at the woman's casual nonchalance about it. All she can think about is the fact that Lena took the letters with her. --- Rowena knows Lena needs space. She's heeded Kara's advice thus far and it's worked out well enough. But the thought of Lena struggling with the same pain she felt, without her, proved to be unbearable. She asked the doorman for Lena's apartment number, but isn't surprised when she isn't given it. "Someone's on their way down," he tells her instead. It's Kara. "How is she?" Rowena asks. The reporter shrugs solemnly. "Not good." "I'll leave," she promises, "I just needed to know--" "Actually," Kara interjects. "Don't." Rowena can scarcely dare to breathe. "Really?" "I dont know how to help her with this," she confesses. "But maybe you can." Kara speaks briefly with the doorman, then comes back with a key. "You're cleared to go up. I'm going to go grab some food, so... take as much time as you need." ---- When Rowena unlocks the door with a faint knock, she steps into an apartment bigger than her studio and workspace combined. She can tell it usually lives its life in pristine order, but today Lena sits on the couch admist a sea of chaos. Letters fill every inch of space within arms reach, and Lena herself has one in each hand, reading with tears streaming down her cheeks. "Oh, honey..." Lena's head snaps up, her teary eyes focusing on Rowena in an instant. But instead of the anger she anticipates, Rowena gets only a perilous moment of utter stillness, before Lena's features crumple, and she begins to sob in earnest. Rowena is at her side in an instant, and Lena folds into her arms as though she'd never left them. The sobs that pour out of Lena carry the weight of the years strewn around them, marked in the pages of letters documenting their life apart. They're huge, and wracking and leave Rowena's shirt damp with tears and mucus, but Rowena holds her daughter tight, murmuring soft words she'd thought she'd never have the chance to say again. "I love you so, so much, acushla," Rowena soothes. "I have loved you all your life. I will love you for the rest of mine." --- Kara doesn't return that night. Rowena is grateful for the time alone with Lena, because when Lena has no more tears she falls into an exhausted sleep, head pillowed in Rowena's lap. And Rowena is permitted a brief time to savor the intimacy, as her fingers stroke Lena's dark hair, and an old lullaby rises to a hum in her throat. "I didn't know." Lena announces her wakefulness with a dull voice to break the quiet. "I looked for you. I found your death certificate. Or-- someone's death certificate. If I had known-- I wouldn't have stopped looking. You have to believe that." Her daughter's voice cracks ominously in the growing shadows. "I do, acushla." Of course she does. Lena hiccups, a small smile easing the anguish in her voice. "You know, I used to imagine talking to you. I would imagine you sitting next to me on my bed, and I'd talk to the air like you were really there, telling you everything that was happening in my life." Rowena takes a deep breath, and tucks away the deep and unhelpful wish that she had been there too. She tucks it away, and pulls up an honest smile, tucking Lena's hair behind a pale ear. "Tell me now," Rowena urges. "Tell me everything." --- Lena does. She starts as far back as she can remember of first living with the Luthors-- being nervous in ballet and rubbish at the piano, sneaking treats from the dessert table at the society functions she was brought to-- and takes Rowena through everything that followed. Boarding school with Veronica Sinclair, who had made Lena's life hell, until Lena learned that all it took was one devastating blow to get the villainous Ronnie off her back for good. What that revenge was, Rowena doesn't quite know, because Lena is already spinning off into her college years, and the joy of being distanced from her family, being challenged and stimulated in ways she never had been before. Rowena learns about Jack and Sam and Ruby. She's aware when Lena neatly dodges the subject of Lex's arrest and trial and conviction, but she doesn't much mind because suddenly her daughter is giggling in her lap, telling her about the time Kara Danvers challenged three college football stars to a cheeseburger eating contest-- and out-ate all three of them. Combined. The moment Rowena hears that tinkle of mirth, something inside clicks back into place, and warmth pours from the top of her head to the tips of her toes. She can't change what they've lost. But Rowena knows in that moment that she will never lose her daughter again. --- The months that follow are the happiest of Rowena's life, and from the sly smiles that Kara gives her at their weekly brunch while Lena rambles enthusiastically about developments in her latest projects, she imagines Lena was never quite so happy either. She celebrates Christmas with Lena and the Danvers family in Kara's apartment. She sips eggnog with Eliza and revels in the warmth that fills the room as the kids play game after game with reckless enthusiasm. "I understand that your relationship with Lena is complicated," Eliza says softly. "But I hope you don't mind me saying that Lena is an extraordinary woman. And that as a mother, I am thrilled that my daughters have her in their lives." Since the confrontation with Lillian Luthor, things between Lena and Rowena have actually felt less complicated. As though they both have accepted that while they will never recover their missing years, they can make the most of their future, and will do so with all their might.

Still, Rowena smiles with pride and gratitude. 

Because she still feels very lucky indeed. --- Lena and Rowena do brunch with Kara every week, but they also start having tea, just the two of them. Same tea house, same table, same time and day every week. It's a time just for them, and Rowena cherishes every second of it. Which is why when Lena flounces into her seat one Sunday morning with coy smile and expectation in her eyes, Rowena immediately knows something is up. Lena's smile grows when Rowena's gaze catches on the diamond ring dazzling brightly on her left hand. "Is that--?" Rowena breathes. "It happened last night," Lena says in a rush, scooting to the edge of her seat in excitement. "Which is good because I wanted you to be the first person I told and I don't think I could have waited much longer than that!" "Oh, honey!!" Rowena captures Lena's face with both hands and kisses her cheek soundly. "I am so, so happy for you, acushla." Lena's smile turns quiet, and her eyes start to shine with moisture. Rowena doesn't release her, searching her daughter's gaze intently. "What's wrong, sweetheart?" "Will--" Lena's voice breaks, and she swallows audibly before trying again. "Will you walk me down the aisle?" The world seems to still, and Rowena blinks as it rights itself back onto its axis. "We don't really know when or where the ceremony will be, but--" "Yes." Lena blinks at her, and a tears shakes free. "You will?" The tear meets a swift end under Rowena's thumb as she dries it away. "I would be honored just to be there, acushla," she rasps against her own imminent tears. "Of course I will walk you down the aisle." When Lena answers her with a hug, Rowena's ribs creak under the force of it. Rowena kisses Lena's hair, and squeezes her just as tightly. --- The night of Lena's wedding, Rowena can barely bring herself to breathe for fear of dispelling the dream she suddenly inhabits. Lena looks stunning, and Kara is beautiful bride, and every moment is the one Rowena is certain she'll wake up at the gates of St. Peter with an angel telling her she's already in heaven. But she remains grounded to the living world and is filled to brimming with the good spirits that permeate the reception hall. Lena is breathless with happiness almost the entire night, and Rowena can't tear her eyes away. After the couple's first dance, Eliza takes Kara, and Rowena takes Lena, and the four of them dance to a long, slow song. It gives them all a chance to catch their breath. Others soon join them, and in the crowd they almost find a little bit of privacy. Rowena is still trying to find the right words to say when Lena drifts to a stop, standing silent and still in a sea of swaying bodies. But she doesn't pull away. Lena stands in her mother's arms, face pressed into her shoulder, and holds her tightly. The quickening of her breath is the only outward sign of Lena's silent tears. Rowena nods against her daughter's head, rubbing soft circles against her back. "I know, honey," she murmurs. She nearly pulls back, desperate to dry Lena's tears, but allows Lena her moment to release whatever emotion had overwhelmed her. Rowena catches Kara's eye, and gets a nod of reassurance along with a soft smile. "It's okay, acushla." They had all the time in the world. --- Lena's request to visit the lake is unexpected. Rowena stares as though her daughter's grown a second head. "Why on Earth would you want to go back?" It might have been Lena's favorite place, once upon a time, but now Rowena only knows it as a place of loss. First, as she scoured it for weeks for any trace of Lena, and then later as the place she visited to mourn. The painting in her workshop was as close as she ever cared to go again. But Lena doesn't have a reason. At least, not one she can articulate. "I don't know," she said solemnly. "It's just... something I need to do. And I want you there with me." Which is how Rowena finds herself on the shore of that glassy lake surrounded by trees. There's the rock in the sand Lena used to play behind. There's the platform that always teemed with children-- the one Lena always tried to paddle towards, only to get distracted halfway there. And here is the spot she last saw her daughter twenty years ago, four years old and waving happily at her, pinching her own nose despite being on dry land. They stand on the shore hand-in-hand, and Rowena wants to know what Lena sees as she stares mutely across the water. She said she saw Rowena drown-- is she trying to spot discrepancies between her memory of that day with what she sees now, searching for further evidence that it never happened? Or is Rowena's hand in hers enough? Before she can ask, Lena's hand slips from hers. Rowena watches her daughter kick off her sneakers, and calmly remove her clothes until she's in nothing but her bra and panties. "Lena!" The haunt in Lena's eyes vanishes beneath a devilish smile, as she climbs onto the giant boulder. "Lena, dont-- be careful--!" Rowena's warning is drowned out by the slap of bare feet on rock as Lena dashes towards the water. She launches herself off the furthest point of the rock, hanging briefly in mid-air before crashing into the lake with a deafening splash. Heart thundering in her chest, Rowena stares as Lena surfaces a moment later, laughing with delight. "Come on in, mom! The water's great!" "Not a chance." Lena's lips twist in a pout, before turning lazily to float on her back. "Fine, if you're too scared..." "Scared?" Rowena's pride kicked in, and ohhhhh Lena's smirk of triumph is almost enough to keep her out of the water in oure spite. Almost. "Oh, you're on." She ditches her shoes and clothes and climbs onto the rock. The stone is cold beneath her feet, but worn smooth by the elements and the countless feet that have traversed this very same sprint. "TAWANDA!" Rowena crows, running full speed towards the drop. Ice cold water closes over her head, and she surfaces with a cough of surprise to the sound of Lena laughing. "Lena Kieran Luthor!" Rowena scolds, splashing water into her daughter's giggling face with every syllable. "This. Water. Is. Freezing!" "Ack!" Lena splutters. "Okay, okay! I'm sorry!" Rowena ceases her onslaught, and for a long moment they tread water in the quiet of their solitude. It really is beautiful here. Rowena had forgotten how beautiful. "You know," Lena says in a low voice. Rowena turns to look at her. "I'm a lot bigger now-- I bet I could hold my breath as long as you can. Longer, even." Rowena can't help but smile. She gazes at her daughter's wet face and slicked hair, and thanks again whatever god exists that Lena has found her way back to her. "Long as you can, acushla." With a deep breath, they both sink below the surface, holding hands the whole way down.

[staliasjeronica]

Riverdale 3.09 Thoughts *Spoilers*

- Choni ❤️❤️❤️ But “stealing from.the rich to give to, well, us” what? Cheryl… YOU’RE RICH. Give some of the money to the Serpents They need it a bit more than you do baby. BUT BITCH THEIR FIRST I LOVE YOU I’M—

- Five weeks of the quarantine… that would have made an INCREDIBLE story line? Seriously? It would have been amazing to see Sweet Pea being temporary king while Jarghead and FP were gone. But no… let’s just skip the good part? What the fuck kinda writing skips.a great plot?

- “All physical contact must be kept to a minimum?” um… literally WHY? There’s literally NO reason for that to be a rule? Also fuck off Moose no ones likes a tattle tale and we all know that you’re slumming it up with Kevin after school so leave my babies alone. Oh. it’s for the seizures? Really? Dude SEIZURES ARE NOT FUCKING CONTAGIOUS YOU STUPID FUCKERS OH MY GOD. Stop trying to keep then gays from being cute!!!!!!!

- The RROTC made the rules? Dude they don’t run the school lmao that’s NOT HOW THINGS WORK

- JOSIE SINGING!!! MY BABY VERONICA!!! UGH FUCK ME UPPPP

- VEGGIE. VERONICA IS LOOKING AT JOSIE’S INCREDIBLE SINGING WHILE REGGIE IS AWING AT VERONICA I’M—

-  Ew and then my mood is ruined by bughead waking up 😷😷😷

- Betty put all of those girl’s… in HER house? THE COOPERS CAN BARELY TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES LET ALONE THOSE GIRLS. Also don’t they fucking have families? And yes, Betty, that scream definitely would wake up your mom because they have those motherly instincts and they’d think their child was hurt, so ofc she’s going to wake up.

- They want to play… G&G… are you kidding me? I kinda get that it makes them feel better because that’s how they had it in SOQM but still WHY? JUST PLAY CLASSICAL MUSIC OR SOMETHING AND TAKE A BATH.

- Of course Jughead goes from his horrible leadership to “I left you too long” stfu right now your priority is the Serpents and who’s dealing the drugs (although I know who and uhhhh leave them alone he has to stay alive somehow)

 - They don’t even have an elected Sheriff yet? WHY? SHERIFF KELLER DIDN’T DIE DID HE? THEN FUCKING REINSTATE HIM??? IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD YOU STUPID FUCKS

 - “Maybe that means that Archie could come back home” wE KNOW YOU’RE IN LOVE WITH HIM BETTY. Barchie!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

- Reggie ❤️❤️❤️ WOAH WHAT NO LEAVE HIM ALONE? HE ALREADY GETS ABUSED BY HIS FATHER! But aw Ronnie gets to take care of him I’m—

- Hiram really is trying to hustle his daughter wow so uhhh he does know that his daughter is the incredible Veronica Lodge, right? She’ll find a way lol we all know the queen can do everything

- “Has anyone ever told you you’re a badass?” Wow Reggie is so fucking into her I’m just 😭😭

- If Vegas gets hurt RAS will LITERALLY DIE.  I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AND I’M NOT READY FOR THIS. Also there’s no way Vegas wouldn’t have seen or heard the bear behind him but sure whatever. ARCHIE JUST BC SHE’S ZONING OUT DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN’T HEAR HER. JUST DO WHAT SHE SAYS JESUS. Also how convenient that it suddenly doesn’t work.

- “They imprinted on me” Betty NEVER say that again that was gross as fuck. “But as their queen, they are your responsibility, not mine” bitch Betty can’t be a queen no matter how hard she tries, and she (nor Jughead) know how to take care of anyone but themselves so… Alice unless you want Betty to end up killing them, this is where you, as the mom, undermine her and take them to the farm. Of course I don’t trust the farm but it’s much safer than the Cooper house hold because they have the resources to spare, the Cooper’s don’t.

- Hey here’s an idea… since you can’t get to Hiram using the nuns because they took a vow of silence (cowards) then maybe… just maybe… OUT IT AS A CONVERSION THERAPY HELL SITE AND USE THAT INSTEAD? But we know Betty doesn’t want to save the gays so 😷😷

- I love Josie’s singing but why is she singing in an empty lounge? REST HER VOCALS.

- I used to love Hiram’s evil-ness but now he just shows up all the time and it’s getting annoying. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD END THIS FUCKING PLOT SO VERONICA CAN FOR ONCE GET HER OWN STORY THAT BETTY DOESN’T TAKE, THAT DOESN’T REVOLVE AROUND HER FATHER OR A GUY. SERIOUSLY. They have so much potential with literally any other character but still decide to force Bughead and their separate characters down our throats. Like at this point honestly just kill them both off Jesus Christ

- Jughead… this is a gang… they’ve always sold drugs? At least, weed, but still? You have to take into consideration that you were gone, and they were placed under quarantine, and they needed money. You can’t blame any of them for dealing with Hiram you whiny piss baby. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

- God it bothers me that Jarghead is such a lowsy king. When do we get Sweet Pea overthrowing him? pLEASE WE NEED IT SO TONI CAN LEAD BESIDE HIM. Maybe Swangs (even though I know what happens) and Choni can co-lead the Serpents

- Cheryl speaking facts! AND MY BOY FANGS. Jughead had NOTHING to say to Fangs and FP had to step up and cover for Jughead, because he was right. What else are they supposed to do? Gangs are supposed to do bad shit? Jughead has done ultimate horrible shit and suddenly he’s going to act like a gang is supposed to be clean? Jughead do your research that is not what gangs do. Also, if FP is going to be at every fucking Serpent meeting maybe he should, you know, take his spot back. He’s a MUCH better leader than Jughead, even though I’d prefer it be one of the founding members like TONI FUCKING TOPAZ or something.

- I love how no one really does the “in unity there is strength” thing. Like, they know they’re being lead to slaughter basically and FP is just letting it happen. Also, they’re running the gang into the ground. There is no more unity because JUGHEAD’S STUPID POWER-HUNGRY ASS ISN’T DOING SHIT TO HELP THE GANG. Also also Betty looks so out of place and awkward there. Can’t wait for Archie to come back and for her to realize that he almost died and then realize she can’t live without him and that she loves him and finally bughead can split for good and barchie can rise

- If Veronica paid why the FLYING FUCK did they go after Josie? FucK OFF HIRAM

- Polly you had to say his name. LEAVE MY BOY ALONE.

- FANGS CRYING STOP STOP STOP MY BABY BOY NO NO NO

- “We could’ve helped you” JUGHEAD YOU LITERALLY JUST BANNED CRIME. THE SERPENTS HAVE NO MONEY WHAT ELSE WHAT HE WAS SUPPOSED TO DO? Also they can’t get mad at him bc this was before Jughead got back and did the stupid crime law like a hypocrite

- DUDE FANGS DID THIS BEFORE THE FUCKING RULE YOU STUPID FUCKERS? LIKE??? DO YOU HAVE NO BRAIN CELLS?

- Oh Jughead has one brain cell left? I know he ends up being cancelled but he’s not… yet.

- CHONI BREAKING IN AND STEALING SHIT YES BITCH

- Why is Archie hallucinating playing G&G? Like doesn’t this mean he’s playing by himself? The fuck?

- Dead ass Cassidy telling Archie it sounds like his fault that all that happened, you can tell that this is Archie’s mind because he always blames himself for things that have nothing to do with him. Because we know that it’s definitely NOT his fault. None of it is.

- Cheryl just HAD to kiss the picture

- JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. MY FANFIC IS COMING TO LIFE. JUGHEAD AND THE SERPENTS PROTECTING VERONICA YASSSSSSSSS

- I’m mad that they didn’t have Joaquin not actually die. Like, Sweet Pea and Fangs were close to him? They could have faked his death like what the fuck

- YES WE LOVE AND STAN LAWYER MCCOY

- How did Jughead know that Toni was involved? Cheryl was the only one who left a stupid calling card.

- THE TEARS WELLING IN TONI’S EYES STOP STOP STOP

- But he can’t fucking kick her out she’s literally a legacy. This crusty white boy needs to sit the fuck down

- Okay one, Cheryl why would you bring Fangs back into it? THE FUCK. Also, Jughead you can’t be disappointed in Fangs for telling SP even though you said not to tell anyone—best friend’s never count. 

- SWEET PEA STANDING UP. FANGS CRYING. “Some leader you are” YES FANGS WHAT A KING. SWEET PEA BBY OH MY GOD

- “And the rest of us don’t get to go back to Thistlehouse” says the disgusting whiny piss baby who gets to sleep in his girlfriend’s house, in her comfortable bed while his gang lays in cots or some shit in tents. Get off your mighty high horse, Jughead. God, now they’re switching roles… Betty is kinda becoming SLIGHTLY tolerable and now Jughead is being so fucking annoying. Go back to how it was please.

- JERONICA. AND VEGGIE. EXCELLENCE.

- So Archie standing over Hiram and shit was all a fucking dream? Really? COME ON. Lol Hiram has a point though because everyone goes in and tells him their fucking plans. OMG THE CALLBACK TO THE FIRST EPISODE WAS GREAT. CALL BACK TO BARCHIE BEING ENDGAME YESSSS.

- So if Veronica ended up smashing the egg… then fucking give Fangs, Toni, and Cheryl their spots in the Serpents back since it was all for nothing anyways.

- I’m glad Cheryl and Nana Rose are housing some fo the girls but WHAT ABOUT THE SERPENTS YOU GUYS HAVE A BIG FUCKING HOUSE. Why didn’t she house some of them there? I mean it’s ooc for Toni not to be thinking of her fellow Serpents why wouldn’t she be like “hey babe you have a lot of room here what if we help house some of the Serpents” but uhhh apparently not.

- Hey FP shut the fuck up with this “she’s still a Lodge” shit because you all know she doesn’t associate herself with her parents anymore. Remember “you don’t have a daughter” or…?

- Jughead brought up when FP worked for Hiram. Hell yeah! But him saying he wants Jughead to be a better king than him? BITCH YOUR SON DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO RUN A GANG. HE SUCKS. HE’S STUPID AND RUINING THE GANG HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT? God never give your throne to blood family.

- Yeah, FP, you’re not made for the sidelines you’re made to RULE you stupid fuck. Maybe you should get back with Alice she makes you more stable and less stupid

- REGGIE’S LIKE “NOT THIS TIME BITCH”

- SWEET PEA WITH A BAT FUCK YEAH

- So… you threaten the gargoyle bitch but you don’t unmask him to see who he is? Are you fucking stupid?

- Wtf… he has to beat himself with a bat on his own bed? I am confusion… WHAT THE FLYING FUCK? THE BLACK HOOD AND HIRAM AND THE GARGOYLE KING HAVE DONE SHIT NOT YOU YOU BIG BAFOON. NO DON’T DESTROY YOU’RE GOOD HEARTED INNOCENCE. YOU’RE THE ONLY BRAVE ONE OF THE CORE FOUR. ARCHIE NO.

- If they make Archie unlikable the only good core four person will be Veronica.

- VERONICA SINGING ❤️❤️❤️ Oh fuck I know this song but I can’t remember where I’ve heard it!!!

- VEGGIE. SHE’S SO FUCKING HAPPY TO SEE HIM I’M— HE’S SO ENAMORED WITH HER. VEGGIE KISS. Why can they make their chemistry shown on screen but Bughead can’t? Like both couples are even dating irl, too…

- JUGHEAD YOU PIECE OF SHIT. He only uses Sweet Pea or Fangs when he has something he doesn’t want to do usually because it’s too dangerous for him (whiny piss baby). DON’T MAKE MY BABY BOY GO UNDERCOVER HE’LL FUCKING GET HURT.

- I’ve literally never hated Jughead more nothing he can do can make up for what he’s done in this episode bye

- What the actual fuck. This is so fucking stupid.

- Archie isn’t dead. If Archie dies before bitch ass Betty or Jiggaloo Jones I will literally come after RAS. 

[dauntless-dragayn]

YA BOOKS RECS

Okay -cracks knuckles- im gonna rec yall some YA books because there are so many ive found over the years

@windycube this is for u

First of all ofc I gotta put in a word for Rick Riordan, this man literally raised me He has a LOT of series but i recommend Magnus Chase and The Gods of Asgard the most, one because its meant for slightly older audiences (the mc Magnus is 16/17) and two because its wAY more diverse than his older stuff (which i still love, dearly) like Percy Jackson and the Olympians and better written than the follow up series to PJO, Heroes of Olympus MCGA is about a kid who finds out he’s the son of a Norse god and that those gods are still around and kickin, but the world is ending aaaand him and his new friends have to stop it. Sounds cheesy and super typical but, Magnus is pretty different from most protags of this kind of stuff. He’s a healer not a fighter, and his strongest traits are compassion and teamwork rather than brute strength and violence (tho there is a lot of that. Violence. Kind of par for the course. You’ll see)

NEXT is Michael Grant, who Windy already mentioned. I cannot stress enough, how much I worship Grant’s story writing capabilities. If you want dark shit, READ HIS WORK. What a lot of people don’t realize is that he helped KA Applegate write the Animorphs series and.. Thats some of the darkest kids fiction out there. Grant wrote the GONE series, which is about a town where all of the adults (over like, 15 I think? Sorry its been a while) disappear and a giant impenetrable barrier appears around a small beach town. Chaos and horrifying violence ensues. This series will depress you even as you can’t stop reading it. The characters are gold. The twists are even better. He also wrote BZRK which is a trilogy set in the future where war is fought on the nanotech level. Admittedly its been years so I dont remember much, but its also very solemn and very unique. I’d say 16+ (teen protags)

Maggie Stiefvater. Another personal hero of mine, her prose is just.. Beautiful. Poetic. Magical. She has a few series and some novels. My favorites are The Raven Cycle (series of 4), All The Crooked Saints (novel) I cant even.. Explain what theyre about. Magic surrealism, young love, the darkness of the human mind.. Theyve got everything. If you’re intrigued please please give them a shot. 16+

Alright alright now for some lesser known stuff.

If you’re into vampires.. Monster stories… surviving high school… please for the love of gods, read The Chronicles of Vladimir Todd. I seriously don’t understand how this series isnt more popular. Zac Brewer is wonderful, I love him and his work sm. Tho, I think since this series is old its still under his deadname (Heather Brewer) Basically it’s about Vlad, a half human half vampire kid, dealing with high school bs but also being hunted down for his hybrid status and.. gAH its so good. Plenty of blood. The end has casualties and still makes me cry. Pls read it im begging you

If you’re a furry and/or into badass well written female protags.. Read Cry of the Icemark. ;3 It’s got magic, warfare, and have I mentioned Thirren the mc is BADASS????? (and no, its not all furries. But there is a race of leopard people whom i love dearly) By Stuart Hill, its one of my alltime favorites. I need to reread it again

Another older one is Pendragon. It is fuckin LONG, at 10 books total, about a ‘normal’ kid named Bobby Pendragon who finds out there are other dimensions in danger and that if they fall into chaos, the entire universe will. So he and a few other ‘Travelers’ set out to fix them even as a demon Traveler tries to fuck up their progress. Starts with Bobby at 14 but sees him grow up. Again.. I know it sounds super typical but what I love is that Bobby grows bitter. He’s not a golden keep saving the day sort of protag. I wont spoil; just check it out. By DJ MacHale

I have a feeling yall dont want to hear about romance but im a hoe for it so. Legend is a trilogy by Marie Lu set in a dystopian world (which im also a hoe for) where America is divided into two warring nations. One protag is Day, a poor thief who steals to keep his family alive. The other is June, who’s the best up and start soldier the Republic has. She’s pretty rebellious tho, so she can’t be reigned in until she’s sent to track down a murderer.. Day. excepthedidntactuallydoit Star crossed lovers. Fucked up America. My kinda tea.

If you want more dystopia that doesnt suck (because bOY a lot of it does) I’ll put in a word for Divergent. You’ve probably heard of it. Oh That Hunger Games Bootleg except not. Also it’s a trilogy but who cares. The first one is my only love

Switching gears back to romance uwu Carry On by Rainbow Rowell is gAY AND MAGIC! There’s a reason why everyone raves about it; best written romance I’ve ever had the pleasure to read. And I’ve read a lot. Plus, it’s getting a sequel in a few years! She also wrote Fangirl, as well as Eleanor and Park, two adorable novels.

Switching gears completely, lemme talk about Leigh Bardugo. She wrote Six of Crows, which is this ABSOLUTELY AMAZING heist/crime/action duology. Very diverse cast. A few lgbtq+ kiddos. She also wrote the Grishaverse series but I have not yet gotten around to reading it. From what Ive heard tho its just as good - a lot more about magic and monsters tho (set in the same universe!)

Wow okay im gonna stop because this is getting long but

TLDR;

basically any of Rick Riordan’s series

GONE by Michael Grant

anything by Maggie Stiefvater

The Chronicles of Vladimir Todd by Zac Brewer (who used to be known as Heather Brewer)

Cry of the Icemark by Stuart Hill

Pendragon series by DJ MacHale

The Legend trilogy by Marie Lu

Divergent by Veronica Roth

anything by Rainbow Rowell

Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo

thank you for reading my book nerd ramblings holy shit

[fredheads]

Headcanons about what would have happened if Archie moved to Chicago? I can see Archie being so confused by city life.

hold onto your titties because you are about to go on the ride of your life. this just violently jarred me back into the time my friend emily and i spent hours fleshing out an au where archie moved to chicago and died. so... here it is, in as much detail as i can remember. 

before i get into it here’s what i actually think would happen in a big city: archie gets lost all the time, is terrified of pigeons, and answers phone calls from fred as the sausage king of chicago. but for the death and disaster look under the cut. your question was so innocent im sorry. 

so firstly this takes place in s1 after fred and archie have a huge fight about fred not taking in jughead or something. archie yells at him that he wishes he had moved to chicago with mary after all (which naturally cuts fred like a knife to the heart) and then he runs away to pickens park and makes a wish in the fountain that none of this had ever happened and he had moved away 2 years ago with his mom. 

obviously, the fountain is magic and grants his wish. aye, here’s the rub: in this universe, archie boarded a bus to chicago to move there after the divorce and his bus was hit by an orinoco truck, killing him (and him alone - all the other passengers survived) instantly. did we learn nothing from stephen king people? your creepy small town will not let you leave. dont even try it. 

so archies dead. but archie from our universe has crossed into the universe where he’s dead, and the riverdale he sees.... is not one he recognizes. dun dun dun... 

here’s what riverdale’s like without archie: 

tldr: if archie dies on the way to chicago it sets into motion an elaborate series of events that rely on one another and eventually create a dark paralell riverdale which archie is forced to visit and has to bear the burden of knowing it exists after he returns to his own timeline. im borrowing heavily from archie comics canon with this scenario. 

i’ll get this out of the way first. theres no nice way to say this, im sorry. fred tries to stick it out, he really does. he makes it about three months in which he’s unrecognizable to himself, in which his life is all grief. then he sits in his garage for a little too long with the motor running. his note to mary says little more than “im going to be with him. im sorry.” his note to fp... i wont get into that. alice, neighbourhood watch captain, finds his body. starts cpr too late. theres a joint headstone that says FRED AND ARCHIE ANDREWS. 

oh fred sells the house also. vegas runs away. 

gladys still leaves and jughead still runs away because fps drinking problem is now obviously even worse. only now jughead has nowhere to go when another construction company tears down the drive-in. 

jughead's messed up emotionally after losing his best friend and everything at home. he and betty fight after the funeral and arent on speaking terms. hes very angry and bitter. 

hermione never moves back to riverdale because she cant face it after fred dies. veronica stays in new york. 

alice doesnt have fred to be the yin to her yang and regulate her parenting so shes stricter and more closed off than ever. betty is grieving 24/7. maybe alice even sends betty away to live w her aunt. 

reggie is rougher, coarser, angrier. all the bulldogs are. especially after: 

this is a full on archie comics reference (and also some samplings of sweet valley twins lmfao) but fred in the future was supposed to save moose's life at some point but now that hes not around to do it, moose dies. dilton and midge are both heartbroken. 

kevin doesnt have archie or betty to stick up for him and the football team (all traumatized by archies death and living marginally shitter existences without fred andrews in them) are making his life hell. hes still open about his sexuality but the climate is a lot worse. he deals with it by being really aggressive and flamboyant and always clamouring for a fight until everyones convinced hes asking for the harassment he gets. none of the closeted rhs students feel safe to come out, least of all cheryl. 

speaking of cheryl veronica toni and archie arent there to treat her like a real person in sophmore year so shes a tyrannical ice queen with no remorse but she doesnt even enjoy it 

sheriff keller is under a ton of stress dealing with his son and also having to deal with freds death personally messed him up a bit. hes throwing himself into his work all the time and doesnt make time to be a good dad. 

gr*ndy hurts other kids and never gets caught

weatherbee retires and is replaced by tightass military drill sergeant principal howitzer. rhs cuts funding to the arts, to guidance counselors and to pretty much everything good. no ones allowed to bring a same sex date to prom. 

business sucks at the choklit shop so pop has to sell. 

did i mention vegas runs away? 

eventually sabrina or evelyn evernever or someone moves into archies old house and threatens cheryls prom queen status so she and jason go full billy and chris at rhs prom and play a carrie style prank on her and it ends with the whole town burning to the ground. cool. 

anyway obviously archie wishes to take his wish back and everything is fine but heres a long unnecessary depressing answer you didnt need. i realize this makes it sound like everything in riverdale hinges on fred andrews’ life but like... thats my brand and also am i wrong 

[thedeviljudges]

shame shame it is my name ive been going through your harringrove tag all day and im just. completely fucked. choo choo the harringrove train has left the station you have a one way ticket to hell please enjoy the ride with some fine literature that will make you wish you had your very own cuddlebuddy while crying like a bitchbaby. please have some patience, i will be back shortly to tell you all about how you and these soft trashboys ruined my life! 1/10

SO FIRST YES YOU GOT ME INTO ZIAM. I can’t remember when but dear god ive been here for a long, long, looooong time. also can i please cry about your fics. because. i feel like they dont get enough love and im just!!! every time you write because your writing is just so?? idk?? im like “ah, noel wrote this. i CAN FEEL IT BECAUSE I GOT PUNCHED IN THE FEELS” and im gonna be superembarrassing but like i love you dude. you’re so fucking talented and it saddens me that all the work you put into ziam fics and drabbles never got the attention they deserved. like MIDNIGHT LIGHT. how freaking cute was that im just seriously Im gonna die ok i love it so much oh my goood the beginning when they met and Liam just replied with “okay” IM JUST. its so stupid cause there wasnt a lot of interaction between them at first but i just LOVED it?? like well done this made me feel like a 13yo also i love the way you describe it when liam smiles like i can see it happening in front of me and i get why zayn melts and falls for him every time. i have so much love for that fic you dont understand. am i gonna yell about my favorite ziam fics wHY YES I AM. We’re dreamers in castles made of sand (also i really like your titles btw) blew me away. I got chills and it didnt go the way i expected it to go, the usual boy has sex with a prostitute, catches feelings& saves them. i love that you didnt let that happen. Liam saved himself and im just so happy! caring and supporting zayn was amazing to see but the fact that liam did it on his own and THEN CAME BACK im weak i love it so much. ive already told you i love the under the rose universe. i cant even pick a favorite moment im just in awe of this entire serie. listen. i love liam and veronica with everything that i am and i would die for them. also. Vanilla sweet universe is just everything ok jfc.

okay. okay so i had to sit on this all day because i just. you’ve overwhelmed me, for real, lmao. like, i don’t really cry over messages, but this one? kinda got me good.

(and also, idk if you meant to send more, but i did only get the 6/10 so that’s what i’m replying to!!)

first off, lmaooo you’re hilarious as fuck. this message? as good as the one you sent the other day. i’ve reread it a few times, and i laugh at it each one.

but okayyy ok ok. i wasn’t expecting this lovefest, but i s2g, this is the sweetest. you’re not embarrassing, trust me!! i always love to know what people think of my fics. call me greedy, i guess, but i genuinely love to hear back from people, even if it is negative.

although uhhhhh, i love you???? like damn???? i mean, no lie. there’s definitely a few fics of mine from ziam that i wish took off more. i got comments on ao3 here and there and asks from time to time, but how i found out people liked my stuff was either through recs or casual discussions mutuals would send me because they just so happened upon it. i hate being that bitch that /wants/ to hear feedback because it sounds selfish, but like, some of those longer fics were so draining, and sometimes i got the feeling that me (and a few others tbqh) were just placeholder authors??? we were ~there for filler fics until…. well uh, lmao, other ones could finally put out.

ok. midnight light…. is one that i forgot about because lmao, that’s not one i’ve heard anyone ever talk about actually?? it might’ve gotten a few comments, but omfg. you saying that is really surprising???? i actually did love that one. kinda felt bad i didn’t make it longer or whatever, but it just made sense. i’m so glad you liked it, though!! but it’s definitely not stupid!!! that’s so wild that it makes you feel that way bc i get that way with fic too and omfg. i didn’t know people did about my stuff?? fuck. you’re way too kind.

ALSO LIAM’S SMILE. i tried to include that a lot because liam really does have the most beautiful smile. it’s so bashful and looks so genuinely happy and adorable and ahhhh.

about the dreamers fic…. gah. i love the concept i did with that, but when i look at it, honestly??? my writing is terrible???? omfg. i cringe at my old writing, i swear. but i think that fic is the most popular one. dunno why, but i’m so glad you liked the ending!! i don’t even think it was intentional to try to do something different. in all honesty, i don’t even know how i came up with the ending, lmao.

really, i’m just gonna keep thanking you over and over and over again.

fic titles… i love coming up with fic titles, and i’ll have you know that most of them are just song lyrics. i usually go for the most unusual lines in songs because they seem the most fitting? and what’s crazy is that when i hear it, i know immediately whether it’s a title or not. idk if that’s intuition, but to me, all fics are like children, and when you hear the title, you just know??? ok now who’s the embarrassing one, lmao.

under the rose - is my weakness, my soft spot. all born outta me trying to prove something to rude ass people tbh, lmao. wrote it out of spite even though i knew it wouldn’t be popular, and i just remember back in 2013 when ppl thought i was crazy as hell for loving veronica so much, and IM STILL GLAD i’m not alone in that.

vanilla sweet was also sorta born outta spite?? just in the sense that it didn’t have to be stereotypical abo that was written in the time (ie dubcon or more).

honestly, i can’t even believe you like all of these??? these were incredible messages to get, babe. like i said, you did make me tear up, and idk why you decided to stick around with my boring, bitchy ass tbh. i feel like is scare a lot of people off real damn quick, but i appreciate it so much. i really fucking do, and you’ve totally made more than just my day and night. i’ll legit be thinking about these for awhile now. fuck, i’ve talked your ear off too and yet i could wrote another 10 pages, i bet.

literally, THANK YOU SO MUCH for this and for giving my fics a chance. it really means the world to me, even after all this time. i appreciate it so much.

[dee-vine]

Shutter Speed Ch. 13

I angered a lot of you from the ending of the last chapter, and this chapter may anger you more but DONT WORRY I promise it will get better in the next one :)

Enjoy!

xx Dana

Ch 12 | AO3

Jughead gets back from visiting his father to find Archie lounging on the couch, flipping through channels on the tv. He looks like he is half asleep, still in his workout clothes, but sits up when Jughead walks in, turning the tv off.

“How was it?” he asks immediately, setting the remote down on the coffee table. Jughead tosses him his keys before sitting on the arm chair diagonal from him, putting his feet up and leaning back.

“It was good, really good. He seems healthier already, looks happy too,” he says, leaning his head back.

“That’s good right? It’s gonna last this time?” Archie asks, and that’s the same question that Jughead has been asking himself since he received the initial call. Will this rehab really help him get his dad back?

“It might, but I don’t want to get my hopes up. He says he’s doing it for me, and that’s not the first time he’s said that. But it is the first time he hasn’t added Jellybean or my mom in there, so maybe he’s finally accepted the fact that they’re not coming back,” he says, trying to mask the emotion in his voice.

“Well, I hope it does, for your sake at least,” Archie comments. Jughead nods and lifts his head back up, sighing. His phone buzzes in his pocket and he pulls it out, finding a text from Toni, whom he had exchanged numbers with before he left.

“Do you remember my friend Toni? From when we were young?” he asks Archie, looking up from his phone.

“Is that the girl who really liked to wear black? Like the girl version of you?” he asks, and Jughead actually laughs out loud at that, because she really is like the girl version of him.

“Yes, that is Toni. I saw her today, actually, because she works at the rehab center. I guess she’s going to school for social work so she’s there like three times a week to work with the patients, and my dad recognized her and they’ve really clicked. She might be one of the reasons he gets better,” Jughead tells him.

“Wow, that’s really awesome. When was the last time you saw her?” Archie asks.

“It was definitely before my mom left, maybe when we were eleven. She moved to the Southside and we never crossed paths after that,” Jughead explains. He opens the text from Toni, which just says that she was glad to see him and that they need to meet up for coffee sometime. He responds with a quick affirmation and puts his phone away, saving the other notifications for later. “We’re going to meet a catch up sometime soon, and you’re invited too.”

“Yeah, just let me know I guess. Sounds like it could be fun,” Archie comments, giving a small smile. He picks up the remote again and turns the tv back on, settling back, signaling the end of the conversation, which Jughead is more than happy to go along with.

Jughead gets featured on his internship’s Instagram page. His most recent shoot with Betty is posted for thousands to see, meaning strangers have seen Betty’s face. Jughead had mentioned that his boss had taken an interest in her, but she still cannot fathom the thought of being a model.

Veronica, of course, thinks otherwise. She tells Betty everyday how lucky she is to be noticed and how she’d be a fool to pass up any offer to further her career in the fashion industry. And now is one of those times.

“I’m not you, V. I don’t think I can do that,” Betty tells her. She just now started accepting that Jughead picked her out of every other girl to model, she’s not ready to accept becoming an actual professional.

“You can if you believe in yourself,” Veronica counters, to which Betty just responds with an ‘are you serious’ kind of look. Veronica sighs, putting down her fashion magazine and giving Betty a look. “Fine, do what you want to do. Just know I strongly disagree.”

With that, she gets up and walks off to her room. Betty shrugs it off, opening up a text from Jughead. She had congratulated him on the feature, saying how proud she was of him. He thanks her, of course, especially for being his ‘muse’. The thought of being his muse creates a flutter inside her chest, which she tries to push down and not think about at this moment, made easy by the buzz of another text from Jughead.

I know you work a lot this week, but do you think you can come over one night? Maybe friday? I have a surprise for you

A surprise? Betty feels like she should be scared, because Jughead is not the type for surprises. She tells him that she will be there anyways, a smile on her face as she says it.

“Oh my gosh, Betty, get yourself together,” she mutters to herself, but it is hopeless. She is so gone for Jughead Jones that she can’t stop smiling over the thought of hanging out with him. She needs help.

Ever since he and Betty had become closer friends, he’d find himself visiting the coffee shop that she works at quite often. At first he used it as an excuse to see her, but then he began going when she wasn’t even working just because he liked the coffee and atmosphere of it. Which is why he told Toni to meet him here instead of another place, on the only day that Betty has off.

Except when he walks inside, early for once, he sees Betty helping a customer at the counter. She looks up when the bell on the door dings, and the smile on her face when she sees him is blinding. He feels lighter, all of a sudden, and he walks up to the counter as the other customer walks away.

“I thought you didn’t work today?” he comments as he reaches the counter, resting his hands stop it.

“So you’re telling me you don’t just come here to visit me?” she asks, pouting out her bottom lip. He shrugs, flashing her an innocent smile that makes her laugh. “My coworker, Kevin, has the flu and asked me to cover his shift.”

“Sounds pretty selfish to ask you on your only day off,” Jughead says. Betty rolls her eyes and shakes her head at him.

“Only you would say that, because you have no positive bone in your body,” she retorts, and Jughead really can’t argue with that. “Are you getting your usual?”

“I am, but for here this time. I’m actually meeting a friend, so I had to suggest only the best coffee shop in the state,” he smiles. Betty rolls her eyes but smiles too, punching in his order. He hands her the money, leaving enough for a tip, and is about to say something when the bell dings again, a voice sounding right after.

“Forsythe Jones, as I live and breathe,” he hears, and doesn’t hold back his groan. Betty gives him a confused look as she looks over his shoulder, and he sighs before turning around to face his childhood friend.

“Antonia, you know I don’t go by that name,” he says, walking up to her. She uncrosses her arms and opens them up for a hug, but glaring at him at the same time.

“And you know that’s not even my name. Now come here and hug me for all the time we’ve been apart,” Toni says. He steps into her embrace, hugging her tight for a good amount of time. He only pulls away when he remembers Betty, and how badly he wants them to meet.

“There’s someone I want you to meet. Betty, this is-” he starts, turning around, but stops when he sees another worker at the counter. He can’t see her anywhere, so he walks up to the register to ask. “Hey, where did Betty go?”

“Oh, she took her break in back. And here’s your coffee, by the way,” the worker smiles at him, pushing the mug across the counter. He quietly thanks her and picks up the mug, turning back around to face Toni.

“Do you want anything? I’ll treat,” he tells her, pulling out his wallet.

“I can pay for myself, thank you very much. Keep your cash, Jones,” Toni says with a smirk, patting his shoulder and stepping up to the register to place her order. Jughead laughs lowly and walks over to his usual table, placing his mug on the table and sitting down. He tries not to think about how strange it was that Betty chose to take her break at that moment, not wanting to overthink it. Instead, he focuses on Toni sitting down across from him, a wide smile on her face. Her coffee is brought to her not soon after, black like Jughead’s, and she turns to him, taking the mug in her hands. “So. Tell me everything I missed the past almost-ten years.”

“I feel like you already know everything, since you’re best friends with my dad and all,” Jughead says, sipping his coffee. Toni rolls her eyes, moving her long hair behind her shoulder and leaning forward, elbows on the table.

“Your dad doesn’t know everything, Jughead. I want to know the dirty bits, like when your voice finally dropped, any girlfriends you’ve had-” she pauses when Jughead scoffs, visibly squirming in his seat. “-or boyfriends? No judgement here,” Toni adds, sipping her coffee. Jughead looks up at her, one eyebrow raises and shakes his head once.

“It’s girlfriend, first of all, and second, I have been extremely single my whole life. So no, no dirty bits for you,” Jughead tells her, much to her dismay.

“Oh, come on! You have to give me something,” Toni whines. Jughead bites his lip and glances behind the counter, still not seeing any sign of Betty. Sighing, he leans closer, lowering his voice so there’s no unwanted listeners.

“There is a girl. A recent one,” he mutters. Toni grins and leans forwards, signaling him to go on, so he does. “She’s my model for that internship I mentioned, and I think I fell in love with her when I first saw her picture. And then I met her and she’s actually the greatest person ever. She puts up with me, and you know how tiring that can be. She’s my best friend and sometimes I still can’t believe I met her.”

He takes a large breath of air when he finishes talking, not realizing he’d held it in the whole time. Toni is staring at him, a small smirk on her lips, her finger swirling around the rim of her mug.

“Jughead Jones, you are in love. Does she know?” Toni asks, and Jughead’s heart falls again. He frowns and shakes his head, looking down at his coffee. “Well that’s stupid.”

“I want to tell her, I just don’t know how. She’s way out of my league, Toni. She’s way better than me and deserves better and...she works here, actually. And she was here when I came in and I wanted to introduce you two but then she disappeared,” he says, looking back towards the counter. Still no sign of her.

“Another time, then. But seriously, you have to stop it with that sad loner crap. You’re a total catch, Jones, and she’d be lucky to date you,” she says, sipping her coffee casually.

“Are you hitting on me, Miss Topaz?” Jughead jokes, smirking at her. Toni levels him with a look before laughing out loud.

“Sorry, but you’re not exactly my type,” she says. Jughead feigns offence, scoffing and everything, and Toni laughs again. “I’m more into girls.”

Out of all things she could have said, that was the last thing Jughead was suspecting. Then again, he really shouldn’t be surprised, since she never seemed interested in what the guys did anyways.

“Okay. So...any girlfriends for you then?” Jughead asks, smirking at her. Toni laughs and kicks him under the table, a blush appearing on her face.

“You’re ridiculous. But if you must know-” she starts to say, but they’re interrupted by another coffee being placed down in front of Jughead, Betty standing over their table with a smile on her face.

“I figured I’d fill you up, I know you drink fast,” Betty tells him. He smiles up at her, mouths a thank you, but his jolted out of his trance by the sound of Toni clearing her voice. He turns to her, seeing the raised eyebrow and extremely annoyed look on her face.

“Um, Toni, this is Betty. Betty, this is my friend Toni. We grew up together,” Jughead says, glancing between the two. They both seem to pause for a bit, studying each other before Betty extends her hand for a handshake.

“It’s so nice to meet you,” Betty says enthusiastically, her hand still extended. Toni glances at it before hesitantly grabbing it, the two shaking hands.

“Nice to meet you too,” Toni says, smiling at her. Jughead watches the two of them closely, and is not fooled by either of them. They keep it up though, letting go of each other with smiles still on their faces.

“Would you like a refill as well? I figured I would ask instead of assuming,” Betty says, motioning towards her near-empty cup.

“Well you know what they say, when you assume you make an ass out of you and me,” Toni tries to joke, but is met with complete silence from both of them, Betty’s smile faltering slightly. “But no thanks, I’m good. I actually better get going, I have someone waiting for me. Jughead, it was nice to see you, keep in touch. Betty, great meeting you.”

And with a pointed look towards Jughead, she’s swiftly getting up from the table and out of the coffee shop. Jughead watches her leave through the window, but his attention is averted when Betty starts to leave. He quickly reaches out and grabs her hand, causing her to turn around with a blank stare at him.

“Are you off? You’re not wearing an apron,” Jughead points out. Betty looks down at herself, her hand still in Jughead’s, and nods slightly.

“My shift ended right before I came over. Just wanted to see you before I left,” Betty says, shrugging. Jughead runs his finger lightly along her knuckles before letting go of her hand and motioning towards the empty chair in front of him.

“Wanna sit with me for a bit? While I finish this coffee that you so graciously gifted me,” Jughead says, raising his eyebrows and smiling lightly. Betty bites her lip, glancing at the chair before looking back at his coffee.

“I am kind of tired, so I should get home. And you can throw that out if you want, I won’t be upset,” she tells him, pointing at the coffee he is sipping. Jughead tries not to show his disappointment, shrugging to seem nonchalant.

“Wouldn’t want to waste a perfect coffee. I could walk you home if you want, though,” he adds, setting the mug down and getting ready to stand up when Betty stops him with a waving hand.

“Don’t be ridiculous, that’s out of your way. But I will definitely see you tomorrow, okay? I’ll come by after work,” Betty tells him, smiling softly. Jughead nods, because he can accept that instead of nothing.

“Right, for my surprise. You can bring Veronica too, Archie has been a bit sulky lately,” he says. Veronica told Archie she was trying a new ‘spiritual cleanse’, which means no strenuous activities. Which basically means Archie has not gotten laid for over a week.

“I’ll let her know. Bye Juggie,” Betty says, and in a flash she’s grabbing her purse from behind the counter and walking out the door, sending a wave in Jughead’s direction. He sighs and takes a huge gulp of his coffee before dumping it out in the trash and leaving as well. Betty’s demeanor after Toni left put an unsettling feeling in Jughead’s stomach, which is why he didn’t want Betty to be alone. He’s still scared for her, even though she seems to be better nowadays. He’s always checking for signs-- making sure she’s eating, noticing if her smile is fake or not. When he was holding her hand, he was checking for the scars and thankfully found none, so in a way she must be getting better. He just hopes that it lasts.

[minthalo]

All of the fanfiction asks!

oh boy okay here we go

1. What was your first fic and could you stand to reread it today?

my first fic was “Do you want to build a Sand Castle With Me?” and I can reread it only because i rewrote it a few months ago and posted over the original 

2. What’s your most recent fic and how far do you think you’ve come?

my most recent fic is “Cobrababy Nate” and I think i’ve improved a lot since the first fics i’ve written... at least i hope i have

3. In your opinion, what’s your best fic?

my favorite fic has to be “Meet me by the lake”

4. In your opinion and without looking at any numbers, what’s your most popular fic?

Probably my first fic “Do you want to build a sand castle with me?”

5. Is there any fic that makes you super happy to reread and remember you wrote that?

Yes!!! my favorite one is “You have a nice voice”

6. Is there any fic that makes you super embarrassed to reread and remember you wrote that?

Y e s and it’s “Ooh Santa Travie”

7. What’s the fic you most want to continue (unfinished or no)?

I have this one Joncer au that i’ve never posted and I’m in Love With but i can’t find the motivation to write anything lately so it’s just sitting in my google drive unfinished staring at me until i complete it

8. What’s the oldest (longest since last update) fic you most want to continue (unfinished or no)?

hmmm I have this one Brencer au that i never posted that i haven’t touched in Forever so probably that one, i really want to finish it

9. Have you ever written for a fandom without watching/reading/playing the source material?

no but i’ve thought about it

10. Have you ever written for a fandom without reading other fanfic for it?

no i usually read a bunch of fics before writing my own

11. Have you ever written a fic for a concept you know someone else has done before? How did it impact your writing process or feelings after posting?

Yeah, i used to take prompts off those big posts full of them, and I know there are a million more popular fics with the same idea. I usually try to let it not bother me too much

12. Have you ever written a fic and decided never to publish it? Why?

Yes, i wasn’t comfortable with people reading that side of my writing. Maybe one day it’ll change

13. What’s the biggest change between your style when you started in fandom and today?

I use proper grammar

14. What’s the biggest change in your taste between when you started in fandom and today?

I look for more short and sweet fics rather than long ones like i used to

15. Have you ever purposefully written one fandom/fic idea over another because you knew it’d be more popular?

Yup, i would write frerard fics because i knew it would get a lot of attention even though i wasnt really into that ship

16. Have you ever stopped writing a fic/for a fandom because it wasn’t receiving enough attention?

yup. I love rywalk but no one reads it so i stopped writing for that pairing

17. In your opinion, what’s your most overrated fic?

“Hot Shirtless Plant Guy” its like the second fic i ever wrote and its not very good. I went back and rewrote it because it was so bad

18. What’s your most underrated fic?

literally any of my rywalk fics. they deserve better

19. If you had to pick one fic/scene/chapter of your work to describe your entire portfolio to a stranger, which would you pick?

Shit i dont know, maybe the scene in “Do you want to build a sand castle with me” where Pete wakes Mikey up and they walk around their neighborhood in the middle of the night. I like that scene

20. Have/Would you ever rewrite a fic? If yes, would you take the original down?

Yes i have. I posted over most of my old fics with revised versions of them because the originals were so bad. I didn’t change much, just fixed the Many spelling and grammar errors 

21. If someone starts kudosing and commenting your fics in a spree and has a few works of their own, would you go look through theirs?

Yes!! if they have an account i always go on it to see their fics and if it is in a fandom i like i’ll try to read them

22. Has there ever been anyone who’s made you freak out because they read your work and followed/favorited/reviewed?

Y E S theres this one fic “Fragile Capricorn” and the author left kudos on my santa travie fic and i freaked out but also cried because thats the worst fic i’ve ever written but thats the one fic they read

23. What’s the nicest review you’ve ever gotten?

literally all my reviews are nice it makes me cry but my favorite was one on “Phone Call” and it was “ THIS. this is the fic that got me into joetrick a while ago. thank u for showing me the light.” it makes me so happy i can convert people to ships i like

24. What’s the meanest review you’ve ever gotten? Do you think the reviewer intended it?

I’ve never gotten a mean review on my fics but i have gotten people sending me anon hate here for them, and yeah i do think that person meant for it to be insulting.

25. What constructive criticism, however well-meaning, always makes you feel bad when you see it in a review?

“Please update faster!!” I know they mean well but writing is hard

26. What aspect of your writing do you most enjoy to see praised?

that I write well at all because I have a million doubts in my head that my fics are shit

27. If you could only ever write crossovers or single-fandom fics ever again, which would you pick?

single fandom fics

28. if you could only ever write for a single crossover or a single fandom again, which would you pick?

probably bandom

29. Does the division of your writing across fandoms line up with your reading? What’s the biggest discrepancy?

I like to think so but alot of these fics are amazing and Im just like,, basic

30. Do you continue to write for a fandom after you’ve moved on or do you focus solely on the new one?

I jump between fandoms for a while before stopping and moving on, its usually a slow change

31. Who’s the one character you’ve just never managed to get perfectly right?

Mikey way tbh

32. Who’s the one character who shines without you even trying?

literally none of them theyre all so hard to write

33. Is there any particular character whose scenes always wind up being longer/more frequent than you expected? Does the quality hold up?

not really

34. Was there any fic that you wrote that really surprised you in the fandom reaction? Was it just by the numbers or did they take it an entirely different way?

Yes my first Joetrick fic is one of my most popular fics and I didn’t expect that at all, I never realized how popular that ship is

35. Have you ever written a ship into a fic without meaning to?

surprisingly no, all my ships are planned out

36. Have you ever sincerely written a ship you do not support into a fic?

Yes. I hate ryden and i put it in my first fic for the sole purpose to break them up in a horrible way

37. Have you ever purposefully bashed a character/ship in a fic?

Yes. I hate ryden and i put them in “Do you want to build a sand castle with me?” only to break them up

38. Have you ever purposefully written something you know your readers would find uncomfortable/would not enjoy? If yes, why?

yes. I write in sad things because i know itll make readers sad

39. Do you consider yourself to have a readership?

My ao3 stats say I have 16 people subscribed to my account but i have a hard time believing that many people like my fics that much

40. Do you feel like you put out enough content?

No. I have major writers block (and also depression) so i never have motivation to write fics even though i really want to, i never feel like i put out enough fics

41. If you cross-post your fics on multiple sites, do you have a favorite? Are there certain fics you would only post on certain site?

I dont cross post but my favorite site is ao3

42. How many views has your most popular fic gotten?

most popular fic is “Do you want to build a sand castle with me?” and it has 1,922 hits on ao3 

43. Your least popular?

Least popular fic is “What could have been” and it has 56 hits on ao3

44. Do you follow/favorite/kudos/comment/review more stories than you have received?

I think so. I kudos every fic i read

45. If you had to call yourself an author of a single genre (besides fanfic) what label would you give yourself?

romance definitely  

46. Do you consider yourself a diverse author?

Not really i write pretty basic stuff

47. If someone you know in real life who isn’t involved in fandoms asked to read your work, would you let them? If yes, what would you recommend they read first?

depends who they are but mostly yes, I would probably give them either “meet me by the lake” or “Do you want to build a sand castle with me?”

48. Does anyone you know from outside of fandom know you write fanfic? Are they involved in the same fandom too?

Yes all my friends know I write fanfiction. It’s not really something I’m ashamed of, and they usually think its less weird after I tell them I dont write porn

49. Has anyone in your life ever read your fanfic just because you wrote it?

Yes!! My friend Veronica reads all my fics because I wrote them!! she barley even know the fandoms I write for

50. Has writing fanfic had a significant impact on your life? Would you say it’s entirely positive?

Yes it has had a big impact on my life, and I say its mostly positive. I’ve met some of my best friends because of writing fanfiction and that means the world to me

You can find all of my fics on ao3 Here!!

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

veronica lodge legitimately is attracted to girls (episodes 1-6): a masterpost

1) the way she looks at them

(you met betty what??? 2 minutes ago??????? and are now giving her the good ole up-and-down “im checking you out” omg)

(post makeout “was it good for you too?”)

(another up-and-down look but softer, gentler)

(take a look at veronica on the right–she’s looking at BETTY and scooting closer to her and do you see that adorable shoulder wiggle????)

(veronica is PREENING herself before betty looks at her and does a happy little hoppy/jig/dance before sitting and beaming like pure sunshine)

(this one i dont even gotta explain)

(i dont have a gotdamn explanation for this one either)

(THE LOOK EVERYONE TALKS ABOUT!!!!!!!!)

(same tho)

(gazing soulfully into your eyes but im So Not Into You It’s Not Like I Kissed You Ever And Was Completely Into It Because That’s Gay™)

(gazing at cheryl’s lips while she talks: a compilation)

(ok but im living for veronica holding josie’s arm like ‘im with her ;D’)

2) the way they look at her

(i would like to know how the heck cheryl could SENSE veronica was there bc none of her clique were looking that way, and not only that but the OBVIOUS ‘checking you out’ glance like????????)

(betty is perfectly capable of looking you over too, veronica–and combining that with a ‘SHOW ME YOUR MOVES’ quip my god)

(veronica just kinda threatened cheryl and all cheryl could do was gaze over her ADMIRINGLY and hold back a smile me too cheryl me too)

(the long and purposeful longing stare™)

(everyone remember when veronica scooted herself closer to betty in episode 1 while being adorable? well veronica clearly it was your turn for someone to crush on you and cheryl blossom is Ready)

(the requirements was “skinny and beautiful and WOC” according to josie’s mom and veronica is TALENTED on top of it but at this point josie’s like “you are a skinny and beautiful WOC heeeellooooooo”

(josie looks at her so LOVINGLY AND LONGINGLY WHAT IS MY LIFE)

ok and now

3) the “yellow is for friendship” flowers are null and void on the “friendship” part when she follows up with giving betty cooper magnolia cupcakes. why is “magnolia” so important? “In Victorian times, sending (magnolia) flowers was a discreet way of lovers sending messages to each other.”

4) analyzing the beronica kiss: there’s seemingly no reason for it (in regards to gaining a spot on the cheerleading squad because why would a “faux lesbian kiss” be “sizzling” enough to land a spot? cheryl didn’t invite betty to try out and only wanted veronica bc she was the new rich girl and wanted veronica to be part of HER inner circle). i would go so far as to say even veronica knew attempting it wouldn’t have probably worked out, since what we have established in this universe is “a faux lesbian kiss hasn’t been taboo since 1994″ 

what’s the conclusion then?

veronica WANTED to kiss betty. she’s smiling the whole time through it, and still smiling when she and betty pull away, and i’m pretty sure it’s not bc “oh i’m so getting a place on the cheerleading squad!!!” (veronica only expressed really serious interest in it when betty said she tried out and had been rejected by cheryl, and thus making veronica determined to get betty accepted)

alright but let’s say veronica did believe that a “faux lesbian kiss” of theirs would get them in…… veronica was clearly INTO that kiss & willing to keep it going and the evidence is RIGHT HERE through facial expressions and body language 

that’s all i got rn so feel free to add more to the list! i know there’s more examples with veronica’s dialogue but yeah!!!

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I literally have a stage management BFA and still know next to nothing about the Heathers musical. Enlighten me on why it is The Worst.

Disclaimer: I have not seen the play live, only shitty cam recordings on youtube and anamatics of the popular songs. If there is a level of nuance to the play that I missed in modern performances, feel free to correct me. The same could be said for the film, but I have had no exposure to the film so I am not including it in this rant.

Part 1. “This situation does not exist.”

So like, I get it. you wanna have your relatable portrayal of highschool and with the cliques and drama and the petty squabbles of the popular vs unpopular kids is often magnified by inexperience and raging hormones. Everyone remembers highschool as being more intense then it actually was, so often the melodrama in these sorts of stories is amped up to eleven. 

The ‘Popular Clique’ characters are never going to act like any rational person would ever act. When you’re a boring loser in highschool you will instinctively find ways to put yourself above the people who you consider to be your ‘enemy’. You’re smarter then them, they’re all druggy sluts, you’re a good person etc.

But the reason why this trope works is because its often presented from the perspective of the teenager, but by the end of the narrative has widened to a more mature point of view. We learn that everyone has their own shit going on, their own insecurities n crap, and by the end of the narrative the characters have literally and figuratively ‘graduated’ from the naive idea that there are inherently good and bad people. 

But Heathers is not about that. 

The popular girls are actually satan. Listen to that song “Candy Store” and think to yourself “do these characters feel like actual people? can i imagine how or why the girls act like this?”

The reason why popular girls are more popular then you is usually because they’re better then you. They’re prettier, funnier, nicer, or altogether more charismatic, and it still boggles my mind that anyone in this school would care what these Heathers bitches think of them. I actually knew girls like the Heathers in highschool myself, and everyone mutually hated them and ragged on them behind their backs because of how vapid and annoying they were. They had power over the freshmen for maybe five minutes before their targets found their own friends to hang out with those bitches are left in the fucking dust. 

And its not just a misconception of the main character, no she seems to be the only girl in her whole fucking school who is like “Um, maybe its????bad to be mean???” and the story treats her like she’s some fucking martyr for it. They even sing a song parodying the fact that a decent highschool narrative you’d expect Heather to be a human being with emotions, by having main girl make up a bunch of bullshit about “Pretty girls have feelings.” the whole thing seems to be a big fuck you to highscool narrative tropes but instead of going in a more realistic direction it just spirals into a petty unrelatable hell. 

Part 2: “If this situation did exist, it wouldn’t be happening to this character.”

Does anyone else find it incredibly far fetched that for some reason whenever a bunch of beautiful teenagers pick on another equally beautiful teenager its usually just because they dont like the color of her hair? I wanna know when we as a society decided that the shorthand for evil beauty is blonde hair, not because I find the trope harmful but just because it feels lazy.

Why isn’t Veronica one of the popular kids? Because she’s a brunette. Why does everyone treat the Heathers like royalty? Because they’re blonde. Does being blonde somehow make you a terrible person? I guess so. Its just a mutually agreed thing at this point. 

But again the reason why the blonde vs brown thing works in other highschool dramas is because the entire thing is based on the main character being petty, and in reality the brown haired girl is just as popular and surrounded by friends she just doesnt realize it because she’s too busy being jealous of some other bitch. 

Veronica is not this. For some reason, a beautiful, intelligent, kind, and generally cool girl has no friends besides The Fat One and everyone treats her like garbage. The fact that she has to seek “protection” from the Heathers at lunch because she gets bullied just for existing would be hilarious if it wasnt so pretentious. 

The play lets is know in no uncertain terms that Veronica is the only decent student at her school, and that none of the ostracization she feels is in her head. Its all real. They all hate her because she’s good and they’re bad, and there is zero tongue and cheek about it. The whole thing feels like a play within another piece of media. Like maybe theres a playwrite who is trying to depict her highschool experience, and its intentionally written to be as shallow and petty as her memories there. 

And even that might be okay if she is portrayed as being just a huge fucking whimp who lets people walk all over her, but nooooo she’s a strong female character! She sings a whole song about how she’s not gonna put up with their shit or let it bother her anymore and says she’s gonna fight back before they ‘come after her’.

Is anyone going to tell her that murder isn’t usually a thing that bullies do?

Like seriously. Bullying is a huge problem that can seriously damage people from the inside out, but its usually not because of any physical damage. If she’s decided that she doesnt give a shit about the Heathers, then thats it. She’s already won. They can’t touch her anymore because if she doesnt care then they’ll inevitably grow bored and do something else. she even has her own friends to hang out with now so its not like she’s being threatened in that way either. But instead she makes a big deal about how she’s a ‘dead girl walking’ like she thinks she’s gonna be shanked in the locker room or something.

But then we get to JD. 

Oh Jason Dean, you poor innocent soul. Unlike Veronica this kid is actually a victim of bullying and abuse, but its not from the so called ‘popular kids’, its from fucking Veronica herself.

Part 3. “Are we not going to talk about the fact Veronica raped a dude?”

Yeah. That shit happened. Here’s the official lyrics:

J.D.(spoken) Veronica? What’re you doing in my room?

VERONICA(spoken) Shhhh.Sorry, but I really had to wake you;See, I decided I must ride you till I break you.'Cause Heather says I got to go;You’re my last meal on death row.Shut your mouth and lose them tighty-whities!Come on!Tonight I’m yours,I’m a dead girl walking!Get on all fours,Kiss this dead girl walking!Let’s go, you know the drill;I’m hot and pissed and on the pill.Bow down to the will of a dead girl walking!

Like I know later on in the song he gives consent n’ shit but its more framed like he lets her because he’s intimidated more then anything else. And whats more from this point onward in the play Veronica pretty much becomes JD’s only emotional outlet. 

As someone whose known a lot of guys in this situation I can tell you that often they will do things they don’t want to to impress the people who they think are their only ally in life. More then anything these kinds of kids just want someone on their side, and will be roped into whatever toxic shit they need to keep these people with them. 

Veronica goes through this guilty arc thing where she blames herself for ‘creating’ him but ultimately realizes that he was always doomed to be this way because of his shitty situation. 

How fucking evil is it to perpetuate this idea? Oh no, Veronica isnt a bad person, she was just trying to help this kid by wrapping him around her finger and making him kill the people she doesn’t like but really its his fault for having a shitty childhood. 

The song “Meant to be Yours” is supposed to be a picture of how twisted and evil JD has become in following revenge, but in reality its nothing like that. It wasnt his revenge, he was doing it for her. Veronica very much did break into his life and rip him to pieces for no reason other then she wanted a lackey to help her get revenge on people who shouldn’t have even bothered her in the first place.

But no, he is ‘damaged’, and the only way to redeem him is to blow himself up so the girl who destroyed him wont have to accept any of the consequences for her actions. 

How the hell does Veronica ‘make things better’ at the end? She slaps a bitch and plans a sleepover. She was already doing that in the beginning. Why did JD have to die? He didnt. He fucking didnt. And the worst thing is that no even cares that he’s gone. 

Not even Veronica. 

She treats him like some kind of tragic monster that had to be killed for the good of mankind and everyone just fucking accepts it. 

So just a recap: Blonde people are evil, everyone will hate you for being a saint, its okay to rape teenage boys if you’ve properly gaslighted them first, and if you are ‘damaged, far too damaged’ it is your responsibility to kill yourself so your abuser can be popular like she always wanted.

What a great show. 10/10. hope it runs forever.

[vexley]

Just Things About Riverdale, Chapter Ten: The Lost Weekend

Well, here we fucking go.

Oh god.

“I barely acknowledge my own birthday.”

Same, dude. Same.

Gasp.

We’re finally talking about Archie “mysterious” mother.

Official divorce. Damn. What went down, seriously?

Two years, holy shit.

Ah, Fred is leaving. The whole scene-jumping sequences involving dumb high-schoolers  partying is starting to make sense, unfortunately.

“Friendervention.” I don’t know why I’m laughing, but I’m laughing.

Archie & Betty?

“Three musketeers!” Aw.

Aw.

“I thought maybe I’d surprise him.”

Yeah, that sounds like a bad idea.

“I think the best gift that I could give to Jughead would be to stay away.”

I hurt in places that don’t exist.

Hostile eye-contact with the Pussy Cats.

I hope they fuck Archie UP.

Sorry, it’s been a long day, I’m feeling a little hostile.

“Jughead’s never had a Birthday party!”

Archie’s head-nod.

Jughead and Betty clearly weren’t super close before the start of the school year, if she’s had no idea about that. How do you not know something like that about a friend?

Am I actually, like, sort of--maybe--classifying Archie as the Better Friend during this episode?

I’m not sure how to deal with this?

“A low-key surprise party!”

Archie’s anxious head shake.

DANGER WILL ROBINSON. DANGER.

“NO.”

“Jughead doesn’t like his birthday!”

Okay, guys, fine.

Jughead&Archie.

“Jughead is a lone wolf.” He fucking sounds like he’s quoting Jughead.

What part of “Don’t turn around” do they not understand???

“Not that I care because he’s evil incarnate.”

“You don’t have to go Dark Betty on me.”

Betty has so many fucking rage issues, and I find it alarmingly relatable.

I really want her to punch him in his smug little FACE.

“But I can damn well make sure my boyfriend has the best Birthday of his life.”

I’m having flashbacks to that stupid fucking baby shower.

“Screw it, I’m with Betty.”

Archie.

I was fucking rooting for you, man.

“It’s going to be epic.”

It’s going to be catastrophic, calling it now.

“I didn’t mean to ambush you.”

Are you sure? Because it looks to me like you meant to ambush him.

“You’re really falling for this Jones boy, aren’t you?”

I really just love the fact that there’s no judgement. Alice is straight up supporting her daughter; it’s such a violent turn-around from the Alice we knew Before.

Excuse me for a moment, I just need to go into another room and spend 5 to 10 minutes squealing over the fact that Jughead apparently comes with his own sound-effects.

This episode is uncomfortably relatable.

75 years? Holy shit.

This whole HBIC face-off just feels really...superfluous?

Also, I’m really disappointed that Cheryl and Veronica’s friendship just went up in flames, before my very eyes.

I have no fucking words for how angry I am.

Like, is Chuck really supposed to be some kind of threat?

Because, honestly? Who fucking gives a shit?

There is absolutely nothing threatening about that fucking toad.

Emotional blackmail, signed with love by Daddy. Nice.

THAT FUCKING SHIRT.

“Do I look like Jughead to you?”

Maybe in the right lighting.

“You really shouldn’t have.”

“...Are you drunk?”

Wow, yeah, just kinda hit me that Jughead would automatically know. How could he not?

A Spanish Happy Birthday! <3

I love the fact that they incorporate Veronica’s heritage into the show with little things like that.

“Thanks everyone,” he says with no sincerity, at all.

“Oh, it’s Kevin.”

Wow, hot damn, what a voice.

“That was..haunting, Betty.”

LMAO, yeah it was.

Wow, I paused the episode to type out my thoughts, and Betty is right in the middle of kissing Jughead’s cheek. In the other Just Things About posts that I’ve written, I know that I’ve mentioned the expression on Jughead’s face when Betty kisses him. The only way I can think to describe him in those moments is warm.

Right here, though, as Jughead stares down at that (honestly) weird-ass cake, and Betty pecks him on the cheek, Jughead reminds me of the cold. There is no warmth in his expression; there’s no happiness there.

I suppose that, essentially, Jughead looks the way that he currently feels.

(That feeling that he described to Archie over an entire pan of pizza in the Andrews’ kitchen.)

Jughead looks overwhelmingly, achingly alone, and it’s an unsettling thing to see when he is surrounded by people who claim to be his friends.

“I wish it were just the two of us right now.”

“That makes two of us.”

“Why the hell is everything so doom and gloom with you, Jug?”

It’s a real fucking mystery.

“I’m not normal. I’m not wired to be normal.”

“Did you really think you could throw a party without inviting moi?”

Why don’t these people lock their doors? It’s like they want to be robbed.

“Screw it, one in the kitchen, one in the backyard!”

I vote that we take Jughead and give him to some better friends, who’s with me?

“Valerie’s here, and I think she wants me back.”

LMFAO

IN YOUR FUCKING DREAMS.

“Now we’re here, in the middle of a Seth Rogan movie.”

I don’t even know why I’m laughing.

Joaquin&Kevin.

Joaquin&Kevin.

Why does this keep happening?

Oh shit.

“I’m sorry that, after you sexually harassed those girls, there were actual consequences, Chuck.”

“These kids are more on-the-ball than the Sheriff.”

You have no fucking clue.

LMAO

Alice Cooper, with the fucking binoculars. I can’t even.

“In case you haven’t noticed, I’m weird. I’m a weirdo. I don’t fit in.”

I’m okay. I am so okay. I am, like, the most okay ever.

I don’t feel SAD. Like, what even are emotions, you know? I don’t fucking know.

“Why are you getting so upset?”

Hmm, maybe it’s because you did the complete opposite of what he wanted on a day that he clearly can’t stand.

“I hate that word.”

“We’re on borrowed time.”

“Or until Archie changes his mind and says he wants to be with you?”

I, uh

“You shut me out, remember? It’s too late.”

Melody, being there for her girl.

Ugh. Archie, you dumbass.

On today’s episode of Archie Makes Bad Decisions.

“This whole night is bad luck.”

FP’s Concerned Dad(tm) expression.

Cheryl and Chuck are, like, the worst tag-team in the history of ever.

“But did you love him, maybe, in ways that a sister shouldn’t?”

Holy hell on ice.

“I want you to go back inside and talk to your girl.”

“Don’t run away! You’ve got something good here, with her, with your friends! Something that--something that we could never give you.”

I”M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING!

“Snakes don’t shed their skin so easily.”

Omg, Alice Cooper makes so much more sense, now.

Does she have the tattoo? I really hope she has the tattoo.

“And all this time, I thought you were a lover, not a fighter.” “I’m both; I’ve got layers.”

Like an onion?

“Maybe I’m not used to it, maybe I’m scared.”

Oh, Betty.

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Jughead’s expression when he sees Betty’s palms.

His hands around hers, his lips pressed to her knuckles.

The way Betty looks at Jughead while he’s looking down at their hands, like he’s something special, and she doesn’t understand how she got so lucky.

“By Monday, this will all be but a dream. Trust me, no one will remember anything.”

Pfffffffffttt. Okay, sweetie, if you say so.

“Why do I keep doing this?”

I’ve been wondering the same thing. Only, like, along the lines of, “Why does he keep doing this?”

“I keep wrecking things.”

Again, except, “He keeps wrecking things.”

“Welcome to my life.”

Please don’t start.

There she goes.

“Everyday I wonder, what if I had left Riverdale with my mom?”

It’s like the writer’s are handing out prompts to fanfic authors.

“We all are, Archie, and honestly? You less than most.”

...What??

Archie&Veronica???????????

He took the mattress on the floor, that is so cute.

“Dont worry, my lips are sealed.”

Damnit all, can’t you guys be friends already?

“I believe in you, Mom.”

Aw.

OMG.

IT WAS A BURGER.

BETTY MADE HIM A CAKE THAT LOOKS LIKE A BURGER.

THAT’S FUCKING ADORABLE.

I need glasses.

“So, you and Veronica?”

Pinky out when he takes a drink.

“This is a small town, but it’s not that small.”

Shit is about to go doooooown.

Betty&Veronica.

Some much needed Beronica.

“The last time you brought me baked goods was because you kissed Archie.”

Betty&Veronica.

Betty&Veronica holding hands.

Oh, fuck off, you Actual Five Headed Dragon.

“We’re home.”

Oh shit.

I wasn’t going to do this tonight, because I just got off work, I’ve got the mother of all migraines, and I wasn’t sure I’d be coherent enough to take everything in and then spit out proper notes. So, I may come back to this episode at a later date, when I’m a little more awake, and add to it, like I did with Chapter Eight (?).

No, scratch that, I will definitely revisit and add a part two, because there was so much that I didn’t address, because I just??? I can’t even properly express the way I felt about some of these scenes right now, I’m really drained from work, and there’s a lot that I really do want to talk about.

On the upside, this time Jughead’s birthday was just as shitty as every other day of the year.

LOL

Okay, sorry, I’m going.

[depressedtheatregirl]

@hollywoodforeverr

who’s your celebrity crush?

probabl tom holland or 90′s leo dicaprio <3 

are you single or taken?

taken, just got my first bf!

rant. just do it

I think that abortion should be legal because as of right now the only reason it’s illegal is because stupid men keep passing idiotic laws on womens bodies. Young ladies are told to be responsible and they wont get pregnant, but that’s not always the case!!

do you think its ok to separate the artist from the art?

No, I think that the artist should always at least get a credit if thats what you mean

how many accounts do you have?

Three. This one ( @depressedtheatregirl )

this one ( @fangirl-all-the-time-bi​ )

and this one, which i almost never post on ( @cottagecore-darkacademia )

how many pairs of shoes do you have?

We’re moving, so I got rid of a lot, but mainly 7

opinion on… (specify to the person you’re asking to)

i am confusion

how many accounts do you follow?

um let me check

180 because sometimes i sit and just follow all my recommended because people want followers and i think im a pretty nice person :)

favorite brand of clothing?

Idk but i love almost anything from shein and hot topic but im not goth i just love dark academia

name a dog

kingsley

or like BB so i could just call him/her baby

what unusual talent do you have?

crying for hours on end for no reason

i have a wide vocal range

what’s the most interesting schools gossip you’ve ever heard?

Best friends since 4th grade broke up because one called the other “fat and disgusting”

School hoe (my best friend) rejects popular “bad kid” for like the fourteenth time and switches to homeschool, screw it

ever prank called a store?

yeah me and my sister used to prank call Bojangles and just say in our most valley girl voice possible “Is this that WE HAVE THE MEATS place?” “omg NO beth, thats AR-BEES”

what’s your coffee order?

Starbucks: Venti Mango Dragonfruit Refresher with extra ice (call me basic but its good)

Dunkin: Small Caramel Latte with Extra Whip

what’s a question do you constantly get asked?

are you ok?

are you and Christian ever gonna date?

what the heck are you doing?

if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would you get and where?

I would get an anchor or a cross on my wrist (we love jesus here in this household)

I kind of want to get a tattoo that says ‘FEMINIST’ on my arm 

google the top song from the year you were born

LOVE STORY BY TAYLOR SWIFT BABYYY (Also pls dont try to find out my age from this)

rant about your favorite musician

ok I love Barrett Wilbert Weed. She plays Janis in Broadway’s Mean Girls and Veronica in Broadway’s HEATHERS (My favortie musical) and she just has such a wide vocal range and strong belt, its just beautiful.

I LOVE TAYLOR SWIFT She has the same political views as i do, she’s such a boss, but she has a man too so yeah, she writes such great music, she just seems like an all around great person. Love her and my fave album is reputation.

what’s your favorite teacher you’ve ever had?

This is hard so im gonna put the top 3: NUMBER 1: My 4th grade teacher Mrs. Stone. She was super fun, she let us stand up and walk around during class if we needed to move, she read the first book of my favorite series, a series of unfortunate events, to the class, introducing me to it, and she and the 5th grade teacher had an ongoing prank war that ended up being a thing between the classes too. She moved to Scotland though. shes cool.

My 6th grade history teacher, now the principal of the school. He just made history SO fun, and he loves fanboying over harry potter with me. He’s just such a fun and hilarious person.

My 6th grade math teacher, now works at a performing arts school... teaching math. He had such a soothing monotone voice, i dont even know what was so great about him, other then he used to fanboy over harry potter with me and his voice was soothing. He was a great teacher and he loved making dad jokes and bringing his newborn to school. When he left, he wrote EVERY STUDENT IN THE SCHOOL A PERSONAL HANDWRITTEN GOODBYE NOTE. He had been there for like 10 years.

describe your blog in 3-5 words

Theater-kid-esque

swiftie 

click

kind (ig i say nice things abt random blogs on it a lot so)

what’s a conspiracy you believe in?

nothing comes to mind 

I dont believe in this, but i remember a cray alex jones theory that hillary clinton is the ringleader of a child s3x trafficking ring

if you could see any concert tonight what would you choose?

Taylor Swift Lover Stadium tour if it was still happening

if you could break one of your bad habits which would you choose?

NAIL BITING (I AM SO CLOSE)

can you dance? sing?

... can’t really dance without choreography, but I think I can sing. I love musical theater and so therfore i know most the words to a lot of broadway songs, which require a large vocal range, which i practice on a daily basis

what’s something you can’t stop buying?

various types of candy

anything organization

crowds or small groups?

depends I perform for crowds, but am uncomfortable performing for small groups. 

I love hanging out with small groups, but get anxious with large crowds.

how long before a trip do you pack?

for summer camp, literally 2 months ahead i start packing

for trips, usually a couple days, maybe a week

what celebrity would you rate a PERFECT 10?

Barrett Wilbert Weed

Taylor Swift

LIZZO

what quote or inspirational setting do you think is bs?

your limitation is only your imagination

if you had to dye your hair an unnatural color right now, what would you choose?

red or yellow

you can change one thing about your life right now. what are you changing?

I go to a bigger private school with a better campus (i know which one I want to go to but i wont say) 

how old do you get mistaken for?

14 or 15

what do you think about a lot

Christianity and sin, and interpretation of the bible. For example, i often wonder if watching porn is a sin or not? Not that Im interested in porn, cuz im not, but just is that a sin? 

do you like your hogwarts house or do you wish you were a different one?

Even before I knew I was a Ravenclaw, i thought it was the best. We stan.

what does home mean to you?

The water must not taste weird

I must know how to use the shower

I must love the inhabitants of the building. My best friends house is home. My house is home. My grandparents house is home,

what do you think you’d be arrested for?

murder or jaywalking

have you ever been called down to the principals office?

Yeah, the most recent time was I made a girl mad and I tried to apologize to her but she walked away and her two friends formed a wall around her and hurled insults to me as she cried, and i yelled “WELL IF YOU DIDNT WANT ME TO APOLOGIZE THEN YOU SHOULDNTVE CAUSED A SCENE” and i slapped her

post a picture of the outfit you would choose if you could have any outfit you wanted

i tagged you in it

describe your aesthetic

dark academia-cottagecore

basically libraries and flowers, kind of a prep feel to it, but more depressing, which boosts my serotonin

answer with one of your ‘school memes’ (inside jokes you have with your class/grade) with no explanation

OH, GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME. There’s a back!

feel free to reblog or send me some if you’d like! this took forever so reblog please!

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Aww here we go again.

Welcome back to inconsistently scheduled Riverdale season 4 live blog review. I'm your host university student number 7005 who should be asleep but is bored at 3am so is going to watch the newest episode of a show they don't like yet are unfortunately addicted to. Yes I know long name, they had to print a special sized birth certificate for me. Ight let's do this.

Okay watching the recap I'm loving being reminded that Stonewall is a terrifying place. Oh ya, its american Thanksgiving, welcome to the Turkeysode.

I'm sorry Hiram is already mayor. Man time jumps in this show are getting crazy. Also didnt they just elect a mayor like months ago I mean I know she was arrested but was no one doing the job at the time? Geeze Dogger's got a crime family, and there going after Archie!! Oh I'm so shocked. I bet Hiram wishes Veronica was as easy as Hermione. Okay, I'm going to have to keep the comments shorter and better spaced because I cant keep up with the show.

There are other professional people in the world that can help with the whole Baxter Brothers thingy. Does this school not allow cellphones? Why is Jug just using a random rotary phone like he is in prison?

Toni idk how often someone has to say this but like gtfo. The crazy-hot scale isn't really a thing but like let's say Cheryl has reached maximum hotness.

I'm still confused about the fact that Hiram won as mayor, do ballets not have a no vote option? Just because someone is running unopposed doesn't mean they have to win. Like the town does know and remember to some extent the damage he did to it and their children right? Ugh how do I shut off the logic half of my brain??

Man the only character I feel bad for ever is FP, he and Fred where the closest thing to real in this whole gosh darn show. WTF IS JELLYBEAN?? Like Betty is with Jug and the parents are getting busy but there is a teenager who lives there right?

Gotta say Veronica's little Papi moment was quite enjoyable.

WHAT! A Secret society within an old private school that looks like it came out of a family skit? Colour me shocked, confused and dismayed.

Dinner with the enemy.

Oh new killer? Or is Jug going to become part of the "secret society ooohhhh" ( imagine spooky ghost voice and perpendicular jazz hands, think I used that word wrong but what ever.)

K it was a fake attack.

I've had to pause because riverdale is quick to answer/spoil their own moments. (Side note I was going to make a comment about that)

Oh is this lady going to go after Archie's mom?

I'm sorry who assigns a suicide note as an assignment.

I've been waiting for this deep fryer to finally explode.

Oh tell them it was Hiram. Just be like the mayor did it then they will try to kill Hiram and he will go after Dogger and clan. 2 rats one shotgun.

That's a dumb rule, finish the flask I mean I know that was the an but still. Is Betty going to get caught? Nope.

Lol knives to a gun fight.

Archie does have a hero complex but he didn't beat Dogger. (I know no one can tell I've paused because this isn't like a live film but I am pausing at 24:54 to say I think the lady is going to shoot Archie's mom. Kk back to the show.)

Sad face I was wrong. Wait did she do it? Is the Turkey going to explode? Oh man there going to do an I'm Spartacus moment arnt they. Yep it's a yep. Lol touching display. All of 3 people.

Yay turkeysplosion. I've never had hand. Also, they are going to call the cops but FP had been drinking. Like I know Hiram didnt set this up but that's how its going to go.

I mean I dont want him to go to jail but I really want FP to kill Hiram. He is a literal cockroach.

Did they eat the uncle?? Oh frick ya. I'm down for unnecessary cannibalism. Toni looks legit perturbed. Lol they didn't even eat the pies. Oh my God, faking cannibalism or did they actually cook him up? You know what idk I like the implication. You know what Adams family with a sprinkle of gothic Blossoms is quite entertaining in a stupid way.

Wait hasn't Jug tried to cover up several murders. Also they are letting played. The tie pin, way to easy. Lol sex with the student, come one Betty, she's playing you.

Poor FP, welp riverdale is back to it's normal setting, Kingpin mayor and Gangleader Sherrif, that's the riverdale I know and am confused about.

WTF is up with that doll.

Thank you Betty for not being a complete dumb dumb. Eww not the headmaster he probably runs the secret society. OMG, that is the most obvious camera. Normal people would have noticed the giant obnoxious flashing red light and no one can tell me otherwise. Like if my power bar is facing me it ends up being a complete distraction. Jug claimed to have searched that half of the room so I'll give him the benefit of maybe saying they put the camera their afterwards but still. I found my episodes pet peeve. Who doesn't notice such a large camera. Like I don't understand. Donna "coming clean" lolololololol. I love how secret societies work. "Case closed" life is so convenient for the rich.

Okay ghosts are real, Riverdale has confirmed it. First the doll now Fred.

I will admit that was a touching end. With that I am done its 4:15 in the morning. I have class in 5 hours, and an appointment in 2. Good by and I'll see yall next week, for another episode of Why am I here.