#and look at her life decisions

[heartstringsduet]

get to know me

I was tagged by multiple people but was on vacation mode so now I don't find it in my notifications but still want to do it :D

Favorite Animal: Fruit Bat

Look at them. Just fluffy...flying dogs. That's literally what they're called in German too and I get it.

Favorite Movie: The Perks of being a Wallflower

Did I get stuck on that? Yes. Should I rewatch that and try to filter out Ezra Miller. Yes. Alternative fave would be the polar opposite of moods: The Wizard of Oz

Favorite Season: Spring

I can feel the winter depression getting slowly thawed into the little warm puddles by the sudden sunny days and bright flowers

Favorite Character: LOU II TK Strand

I tried not to go that route. I TRIED okay?? But I have one obsession at a time and I will honorable name Kurt Hummel and Naruto. Yes you heard me right, the little blond ninja, I did not stutter.

Favorite Color: Blue

Maybe it's because it matches me well or maybe it's just that it's the color of the clear sky, the reflection in the water, the rarity of the color in nature, calm and yet endless and threatening? Blue.

Favorite Hobby: Writing

What can I say? I'm not making wise decisions as my therapist would say.

Favorite Book: Know My Name - Chanel Miller

I've only read it once so far. Mostly because it makes me sad, but then it sticks with me for more than the subject matter. Her writing is so poetic and so raw at times, that I keep wanting to find the headspace to read it again and pick apart her writing.

Favorite Song: Taylor Swift

Again. Did I stutter? It's her discography in my veins, don't make me choose between my flesh and blood.

Favorite Drink: Coke

You can and should judge me. I failed as a human. I failed. But damn it somehow it has made it's way into my daily life. I have failedddd.

Did you all get tagged fandom? Do youuuu want to do it? Then I tag you and you tag me so I can see it please and thank you?!

[newttxt]

i was talking extensively with a friend about reiju’s delicate balance of caring/emotionless and her relationship with sanji

[lune-redd]

[hyakunana]

"Were you even listening? How many reports, Ikora? How many times did I tell you what I saw?"

[rendellstreet]

Brief character blurbs from the TBEA / TTS Seasons 1 + 2 pitch bible

[kirby-the-gorb]

[gottagobackintime]

Ellie is 14 years old. And while she's, in some ways, mature for her age, she should not be asked to sacrifice herself for the whole world. "She should have been given a choice and we all know she would have been fine with dying if that meant there is a cure." Absolutely not. You do not ask a 14 year old to make a choice like that. Hell, I'd argue that it's not even a choice. The fact that it's adults that would tell her that makes it even more messed up. These cool adults who are out there trying to save people tells you that you are special, that you're the key to save humanity. Of course you're going to listen to them. Especially if you've gone through the things Ellie's been through. If she as an adult wants to make that decision, sure. But not when she's a scared, vulnerable child.

Should Joel have told her that he killed all of them to save her? Probably. Then he could have explained that she's valuable, not because she's possibly the key to a cure. But because she's a human being that has feelings, that deserves to live. And you could argue as much as you want that she's old enough or mature enough to make that choice. But I don't agree. Yes, she seems to be like that, we see her being snarky and tough but the more Joel shows that he cares about her, the more she lets that mask slip. And she acts like a child would act with their parents.

If her only goal was to reach the fireflies so that she could give herself to them to do whatever with her so that they could find a cure. She wouldn't have been so angry/upset that Joel didn't want to take her, why would it matter who took her there? Because Joel cares about her, and having him let her go hurt her. She could have left Joel to die and gone to find Tommy so that he could take her, like Joel asked her to do. But she didn't because she cares about him. The way she clings to Joel when he finds her and he calls her baby girl should tell you that she isn't ready to make a decision on whether she should sacrifice herself or not. SHE IS A CHILD. And Joel allows her to be a child.

I honestly have no problem with him killing them all to save her. "He took the choice from her!" What choice? They didn't give her a choice, they didn't tell her what would happen to her. And do you really think that they would ever give her a choice. If she'd said no, do you actually believe that they would go "Ah, well. Nothing we can do then, off you go with your new dad. Bye!" Don't make me laugh. They would have just done what they did now. Sedate her and begun to harvest her for what they needed. That's not a choice. She NEVER had a choice, Joel didn't take the choice from her because it was never there. It would have been an illusion of choice. She's also traumatised, most recently from her run in with David. And you want her to make a literal life or death choice?? I completely understand why Joel decided to go on a killing spree, he's protecting a vulnerable traumatised CHILD from people who doesn't care about her, who just wants to use her body for spare parts.

It's not about choice or not having a choice, it's about being valued as a person and not having your life taken away from you by vultures.

[happyk44]

Jason who immediately loses respect for people who don't own up to their mistakes vs Annabeth who would rather die than admit she made a mistake

[softavasilva]

now how do i normally go about my day after having read this

[lollytea]

Huntlow situationship gives me such intense brain termites you don't get it

[thefirstknife]

thoughts on Crow's character being reduced into Uldren-but-not-quite? I'm not happy with these past few weeks of dialogue, I feel like suddenly everyone treats Crow as just the guy that did those horrible things, and this week he's also taking responsibility for those actions *he did not take*. sure, his corpse did it, but wasn't a whole year of storyline based around the fact that Crow and Uldren are separate persons? why is every other character acting like none of that ever happened?

I don't think he's really being blamed for those things, it's more that he now has those memories and reacts to them in a distinctly Crow way. He's the type to take the responsibility for those things, even though it wasn't really him, but he remembers it all so in his mind, it's his problem.

It's actually a fairly complicated issue that is unique to Crow: how should Guardians who fully remember their past behave? Crow decided to make amends for things that his "past self" did, even though it's not him, because he remembers it so vividly and it bothers him. This doesn't mean that other people are pushing it on him; they're clearly not. Petra has numerous lines where she tells him that nothing Uldren did is on him, and so do other people. So I'm pretty sure they're not acting like it didn't happen, given that everyone is often reassuring him that he's not being blamed for Uldren.

But for Crow, he remembers doing those things. He didn't do them, but he remembers them and it bothers him. It's probably exceptionally difficult to think of yourself as not that guy when you have that guy's life in your head. I don't think people often consider how this must feel for Crow. He wasn't just told what Uldren did. He was given the full package directly into his head. Uldren's deeds aren't stories to Crow, they're effectively his life. A life of a stranger, but his life nonetheless.

Obviously, they could've gone with not giving him his memories back. But since they did, I think that Crow's behaviour (especially given how compassionate he is) makes sense. He remembers those things as his own, even though they're not his own, but he feels like he should be making amends for them. I think that's the crucial part of his arc; he knows what Uldren did, he acknowledges that it wasn't him, he KNOWS it wasn't him, but nobody else will make those amends and nobody else is working to fix those wrongs, so he feels responsible to do it.

That doesn't mean that the story is suddenly about Crow = Uldren; it's not. It's about Crow's choice. Crow isn't Uldren, but he's choosing not to ignore their connection even if he would be completely accepted if he did ignore it. I think that's what gives Crow's story an element worth exploring.

[akakris10]

So much unsaid tragedy in the fact that Bakin's "regret" had nothing to do with Michi.

It's stated multiple times in the event "wow her life must have sucked" losing her husband, and instead of returning back to her family she worked to help Bakin instead, and never left him. She dedicated the rest of their time together to fulfilling his extremely high expectations in writing to finish his work, and received very little in return.

After becoming a servant, Bakin's apparently mellowed out significantly, enough so that he now admits how much Michi must have suffered because of him. "Michi might not like it, but from now on we're going to be of two souls in one body as we go on our journey."

But even still, he can not regret Michi.

Writing is all Bakin has. He's wrapped in obsession to finish his writings, to envision it, to share his delusions. He cannot regret pushing Michi, because to do so would be to admit that he went too far with his writings. They created his proudest work together, is he supposed to regret that? Is he supposed to regret relying on Michi when doing so was the only way to fulfill his desire?

How could he possibly admit he regrets any of that when he still burdens her now? They've died, and he still borrows her eyes. He now walks on her legs. He really has taken everything from her, but it's the only way for him to exist now.

[spacedlexi]

i just think a "friended/romanced + saved + trust aj" violet does such a good job rounding out the plot and characters of S4 and i dont say that lightly

she walls people off out of fear just like S3 clem did and learned to grow out of through the compassion of others. feeling like she could have done more to save minnie being what initially makes her step up to lead, but her accepting her love for clem (and clem choosing to save her) is what leads to her Truly accepting the school and everyone inside it as her Home and gives her something to fight for ("i tried my damnedest not to care about either of you. and i still couldnt tell you why." "i know where youre coming from. after losing so many people, sometimes its easier to keep everyone at arms length." "and then you wonder why you fight so hard to stay alive. i dont wonder anymore."). this being the reasoning behind violets detachment from the school, as well as a negative home life impacting her idea of what a home even was. but together they turn ericson from a prison into the home theyve BOTH been looking for, renaming it together, and envisioning it for the future together. the two of them understand each other deeply, from what theyve lost to how its affected them and the poor ways theyve decided to react to it. but through their support of the other, they BOTH get to evolve into more relaxed and confident versions of themselves, who know Exactly what theyre fighting for

her troubled relationship with brody and getting to learn more about what happened with the twins/violets reaction to it and how she ultimately blames herself/brodys guilt about her part in it and how she misses violet. getting the chance to mend that relationship before its too late. the 3 of them becoming closer because of it. and getting to develop clems friendship with brody leads to a more impactful moment later in the basement

her relationship with tenn reflecting clems relationship with aj, in the way they both made the decision to look after their respective boys after their primary guardians died (ajs parents, tenns sisters). both of them can understand the responsibilities they have taken upon themselves, and how hard it can be to do right. the 4 of them become a tight knit group quickly. especially in EP2 as vi supports clem while tenn supports aj through the marlon fiasco

her confused relationship with minerva introducing interesting conflict both within her relationship with clem (who has her own personal conflict with minerva, which vi still ties into through her relationship with both minnie and tenn) and the over arching plot, which has themes of learning when to let someone go because they are no longer who they once were (clem and lilly "we were family once", mitch about ms martin "you get all caught up in who people used to be, and you cant deal with whats in front of you", violet about minnie "the real minnie? shes been gone this whole time and i have to stop mourning her")

having a saved violet on the boat expanding the conversation with minerva about her motivations with the delta. violet apologizing for never looking for her, minnie saying she knows she would have but that its too late now, so sure this is just the way things have to be. getting to hear minnie say "you can be rewarded, just like i am", giving us insight into her character. and clem getting the last word before she rams the door down, her and violet fighting minnie Together. and violet saves clems life, making the Choice to shoot minerva, which in and of itself is a huge moment for violets character in regards to her relationship with both minnie And clem

and aj shooting tenn on the bridge brings things full circle, by putting violet in the same position louis was in EP2, where aj has killed the most important person to her, in an effort to save her life, and now she must reckon with those feelings the same way louis had to about marlon. not so easy now is it violet? ("so youre mad, but sad" "can i be that for a while?" "yeah, its ok")

just... ough... violets whole character just fits into Everything so well, but in a way that elevates the characters and plots around her, while also developing her into her own

[rustedleopard]

So you guys remember how after Hinawa was announced as dead, Flint was immediately tossed into jail after he (very understandably) lashes out in his grief. And then by the time he breaks out of jail (not released by a fellow Tazmillian, breaks out with a nail file), the service is already over and she's buried six feet under the dirt with no proper goodbye from her husband or even a glimpse at her or anything???

That was fucked up

[welcometogrouchland]

The fact that no one across all of DC fandom (as far as I can tell) has mined the beautiful comedic potential that is the night and day difference between Tim and Damians current canonical love interests

[iamnotawomanimagod]

the wildest thing about the scene where Callie and Shauna are at the diner and Callie is literally wearing Jackie's old uniform is that it's the only time we ever see Callie show genuine concern or affection for her mom. so when Callie says "you're SO not fine, you think I can't see that?" it really is like Shauna's dead best friend is reaching through her bratty, shitty, spitting-image-of-Jackie daughter and reminding her just how fucked up and sad and horrible everything about Shauna's life has been since the wilderness

it's like Jackie is almost possessing her (in the very same episode we see Lottie get possessed, no less) just so she can look Shauna in the eye and say: "everything went wrong since you lost me, and no one will ever understand you the way I did, no one will ever get under your skin the way I did, I will never ever stop haunting you, and you will never let me go"