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balsee · 2 months

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okay normally i like the way oda writes a story, but man oh man do i hate how sanji and nami part ways in whole cake island. it just leaves such a bad taste in my mouth. like i get it, nami doesn't understand why sanji is leaving them, and she has every right to be hurt and upset when sanji and luffy start fighting. how could she be anything but? however, i think nami's decision to slap sanji was completely uncalled for. and even then, i can still see why she does it. nami is deeply afraid for her captain and her crew, and in this moment, she probably thinks that sanji really isn't coming back to them. after everything they've been through together, she still sees someone she loves hurting another person she loves and leaving, and she's helpless to do anything about it. all of those emotions manifest themselves when she hits him. it's not a mature or logical or compassionate response by any means, but it is just a tad bit understandable when you try to put yourself in her shoes.

or, at least, it would be, if oda had resolved this particular issue differently.

once nami finally understands why sanji decided to leave in the first place, once it finally clicks for her that sanji is sacrificing himself for the sake of his true family, it would've been so great to see anything resembling some sort of an apology or heart-to-heart between the two of them. but we don't get that. obviously, nami being there with luffy when sanji leaves the crew is done on purpose, and how amazing would that purpose be if nami, at some point, (be it before or after she discovers why sanji left), tried to reach out and tell him that she knows exactly why he's doing all of this. if anyone can understand why he decided to push them away, it's her. she understands his mindset of cutting ties with the crew, because the darkness he's spent so long trying to run away from feels so much bigger than them at their best, and all he's trying to do is save them from it. it would've been such a wonderful call back to nami's own struggle with arlong, and would provide an important piece of character development for the both of them. nami would be the one to give sanji that verbal and emotional support he so desperately needs, and luffy would be the one to give him the tangible proof of it.

a lot of people say that the whole altercation between luffy and sanji would've been way better if zoro or usopp had taken nami's place, but i don't think so at all. i think that nami had to be there, because who else could've given sanji that comfort but the one who had been the first to pull away? who else could've told him: you saved me. you didn't let me go, now let me do the same for you. only nami, in my opinion, could've been the one to give that to sanji.

or, at least, she would have, if oda had written it differently.

#one piece #can you tell this has been on my mind for the past four days #i just...the potential! wasted!#it would've added another emotional nail in the coffin of the sob fest that is whole cake island while giving us #some much needed development between sanji and nami #i tried to shorten this I really did #it just. kept getting longer and longer the more I wrote #and eventually I was like 'ok that's enough i'm sure they get it'#sanji #nami #black leg sanji

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vulcannic · 2 months

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friends who use menstrual cups, is the flex cup any good?

#text #*disappears for days and then posts this*#i’ve never used a cup before #i have a very very heavy flow and i’ve heard the flex cup can leak so that makes me nervous #but also the pull tab seems so convenient for someone who gets lightheaded thinking about something being inside them for too long #personally i would love to avoid having to shove my fingers up there if i can #sorry if this is tmi i personally don’t think period talk should be tmi #anyway #help akdhakbd #i wanna stop using tampons because they’re expensive and a waste and #i know this whole lead thing has been blown out of proportion a bit #it has pushed me to genuinely give cups a shot

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jrueships · 1 month

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im going into my new work tomorrow, first time ever😐

#i was supposed to go in yesterday but um #so basically i did whatever training i was never even aware existed on a platform i was never told of #which has progress for every lil step i do so my manager literally could see i hadnt even logged on n couldve warned me any time #but never did 4 some reason. like even a days notice like heyyy have u gotta blah done n not as im abt to exit to work #BUT ANYWAYS so i tell her i got it done n shes like awesome i make new schedule (since she said we have 2 completely rid the old one #i dont get an update until 4 days later. all she did was add THREE training days (im supposed to have 6 cus it's a hard job)#on TOP of my old schedule. so i have 3 days i know are training days and then a solo day bcs that solo day was going off my old schedule #so it's like. which days do i go on then. bcs u said i cant come in at all bcs we'll have to make a completely new schedule #and then the new schedule is just. 3 added days. on top of my old one #sunday i was scheduled for training & there was No trainer scheduled with me. it was just me #sunday wasnt one of the 3 new days added. it was from the old schedule she literally told me to ignore #n then all a sudden today i get an email from someone who was supposed to be training me (name not even on the schedule tho)#n shes like hey im in the building are u lost or smthing :)?' mind u im asleep . so she probably thot she was wasting her time for a good hr #i emailed her an apology n an explanation but UGH r u fucking serious?? IF I KNEW THAT WAS A (NEW) TRAINING DAY I WOULDVE WENT #I JUST WANT TO GET USED TO THIS NEW THING & IT'S JUST GETTING FUCKED LIKE I DONT EVEN HAVE A BADGE YET BRO #like i was suspicious of going in sunday bcs it wouldve lined up nicely with the 3 added training days #but manager TOLD me she was adding a whole new training schedule! i double check n all she added were THREE days! thats it!#how was *i* supposed to know sunday was supposed to be 1 of those days when ive been staying at home ignoring the schedule u said 2 #BCS U SAID 2. AND ALSO. THERE WAS NO TRAINER ON THE SCHEDULE.#even tho the drive is far. i wouldve driven up there today to see if i could shadow if i had known there was someone to shadow there #bcs even if i was wrong abt the day 2 come in at least i wouldnt waste my time but i didnt even know if there was someone there with a #trainer title. so i just missed a day i didnt even know i rlly had. FOR NOTHING. UGHH. I FEEL SO STUPID. I HATE MISCOMMUNICATION #im so scared of coming in now. sverybodys gonna think im dum n what if i have issues training then theyre gonna be like #we spent all this time on bro n he had all this time 2 prepare n he still sucks like damn we should just give up #i would 2 but i hate not seeing things to completion so. ugh. hate it here. idk what 2 say. EMBARRASSING #i hate miscommunications i hate feeling stupid

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babacontainsmultitudes · 9 months

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80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.

#SORRY this is such a random thing to be posting about and I guess it's a vent post haha #I suppose I've just been feeling a lot of... dread and fear lately... especially in the late hours...#''Lately'' as in on and off for most of my life but *a lot* as of the past few months #Like #Oh it's weirdly embarrassing to talk about this here it's a tad personal uh **tw (discussions of) death #But do you ever just feel paralyzed by the knowledge that one day you'll be 40? Or 60? Or 80? If you're lucky!#I worry a lot about wasting my life #I worry a lot about dying an unpleasant death #Or a painful one #I suppose I've always been gerascophobic...#But finishing school and turning 23 and not having a job and having just a hard time with my physical health lately...#I haven't been great I guess #I just feel like time has been moving so quickly lately!!!#And I've been going nowhere.#:0 not to be too much of a bummer y'all I'm not like feeling horrible rn or anything but I do need to vent I think #Cause if not it just stays coiled up inside of me.#*gah* I should channel all of this energy into Glenn in my pirate fic lol #😌 he's insecure (in part) cause he feels old #🥲 ough and I don't feel amazing about that most recent chapter but I guess that's a whole new vent #working on some different stuff for a bit.#ANYWAYS #I hope whoever happens to be reading this is having a good night ✨️#oh or day if it's day for you lol

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mildmayfoxe · 2 months

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fucking sort yourself out sunday i packed up all my shop orders, made chex mix, bleached & scrubbed the kitchen counter and the kitchen sink, unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, windexed the outside of the dishwasher, cleaned the handles on the fridge, initiated the return on the two pairs of shoes i've been kicking around (literally) for six months, started a bag of stuff to bring to work incl the silk screen i took a while back which is actually kind of shitty even though i liked the size (i don't have space to screen print even if it's a small screen anyway. and i might as well try to take a nicer one), opened FOUR packages that had just been sitting around (stamps, business cards, headphones (also tested the headphones (refurbished)), shirt i got off ebay), put away a bag of stuff i still hadn't from when i ran away from home a few weeks ago, opened and sorted all my stamps from my big stamp order, brought envelopes and tape out to my secondary storage tower in the living room, put my library books from DECEMBER in my backpack, brought those dress shoes down to the basement, while i was there took a lamp out of the basement that i'd found on the street and is actually kind of ugly and put it back on the street, emptied the trash in my room, culled a bunch of my pins to bring to work also, made myself throw out all the burnt-down candle husks that i was "saving" to "make into a new big candle" (some of these things i have had for over four years. it's not happening) (it was at least a dozen candles), cleared a little bit of stuff off my desk. and i think that's probably about it for now but in a little bit i'm going to get dressed in outside clothes and swing by the library to drop off my books and then go drop off the fucking shoes to be returned. and THEN i might go get some pizza slices

#it's so nice to have all THREE pairs of fucking shoes off the floor. i don't have room for that shit idk why i always do this #and all those candles are finally off my windowsill #it would've been nice to put away my laundry but i kept looking at it and being like :/#but a lot of that is i don't have room in my dresser. which means i need to get rid of clothes and that's a whole different project #both of my roommates have been running their acs all day and one of them has the living room ac on AND her bedroom #even though she's not in there. high of 80 today that's fan weather. insane waste of money. I'M the one that gets the bills. i see it #whatever. anyway.#also when i was moving the candles i had to move my plants on the windowsill & i think one of them has a BONE in it #it has some compost in it i got for free from my service & it looks like a vertebrae. cool #chatpost #one of my roommates is having friends over later so i was like 'well prime time to run errands and go read a book outside' lol

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pillowenvelopchair · 2 months

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Absolutely fucking stupid that my schools suicide prevention protocol is to basically to put someone in house arrest until a professional can write and “prove” that theyre okay so that theyre sure that they can let a student back in. Yeah. Sure. Just force someone to be in the house where they are even MORE at danger when there are literal sharp objects makes it easier to do it

#jesus fucking christ sorry im having anxiety palpitations again #its not fair #guidance counselor isnt even fucking. doing shit. not replying or making any fucking meetings with my therapist #just fucking great #its been on my mind recently #i never accepted it because i never realized it #i knew it wad unfair but i never realized that until now #just like one week before school starts #its not fair for them to basically put me in house arrest for a year while my anxiety brews every day while they sit on their fucking asses #and just. not do anything. be slow with arranging everything. isnt that your whole job?#literally fuck you #this was supposed to make me feel ‘better’ ive literally gotten worse #nothing has changed and i have become a worse person than i was before #i wasted a whole year rotting in anxiety AGAIN. its literally just like the pandemic happened again but im stuck watching everyone be free #and yeah! im bitter about the whole fucking thing! i think i deserve it #maybe i shouldnt talk like this. maybe im just overreacting #all i got out of this was heart palpitations and an english essay topic #just needed to type this out to ground myself a little #anyways ill go back to my regular insane posting after this. maybe…#who knows? maybe ill just be gone one day #whatever #im deleting this later #tw suicide #vent

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sammy8d257 · 11 months

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[drags myself out of "Being Sick" hell]

AND I LIVED-

#Sammy8D says #I'm gonna give myself another day or so #and then it's back to it!#I hate being sick #It's like a whole week of my time has been wasted #but oh whale #life continues on

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balkanballad · 5 months

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had a day that made me think oh that was a bit heavy on the symbolism, wasn't it

#j. talks #went to visit my brother in his uni city and also connected it with an event there #I know this event because I went there once with a uni course that of course was with my fave former prof #so I know she's usually there but it's a bigger city and Friday and there are a lot of things at different locations #chances are not zero but I thought come on if anything it will be casual running into her #well as I was waiting with my brother and a whole crowd of people to be let in who do I hea #and see :))) yeah it's my fave prof. and I told my brother and he told me to go and say hi but there were so many people already talking to #her and also going there and saying hi so I simply couldn't. I literally froze our shoulders were nearly touching but she wasn't even facin #me and taking and I just followed my brother and he was like???#what was that?? and I didn't know. and he asked my why I looked so shameful out of all the emotions I chose shame #and I don't know. I don't know why shame I consuming me no matter where I go. but she was busy and imagine I go up and she has no idea who #am anymore. they had to burry me right there and then. so that was that :) now #the name of that street of the location burned into my memory as I was facing the wall well it's the name of [redacted] who I never really #get over and it's been 10 years now soon. and we had a similar experience in December :) where I would have loved nothing more really than #to talk (in Decembar definitely also other things that I miss on some days very much) but I barely got a wave #so yeah :) I actually had a great day but I am more than overwhelmed. I feel like crying and hiding #taurus season is apparently not here to save me? idk #is this all about wasted potential and shame stopping me? maybe. but how the fuck do I get it out of me

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lesbiansanemi · 5 months

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I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao