#and obviously she can't tell trixie about that

[witchthewriter]

𝐁𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐓𝐫𝐢𝐱𝐢𝐞'𝐬 𝐬/𝐨 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞

⤷ female, ambiguous race, and any size reader. Requests are open, thank you for reading!

ᴹᵃˢᵗᵉʳˡᶤˢᵗ | ᴹᵃˢᵗᵉʳˡᶤˢᵗ ᴵᴵ

ESFP

Gryffindor

Neutral Good

Libra Sun, Aries Moon, Virgo Rising

𝑺𝑭𝑾🌿

・Trixie always thought she was straight. That men were for her, and she was definitely for men.

・Dates upon dates, she thought she wooed them perfectly. And she had, she lived up to a mixture of this Marilyn Munroe cross Manic Pixie Daydream for them

・And yet, Trixie realised is was all a performance. Even when she was alone, she acted as if she had a male audience watching her every move

・Trixie always felt as though she had to be attractive, appealing, and beautiful.

・It was tiring, and it didn't feel right. But there wasn't anything she could do about it. Could she?

・But then little ol' you came along and stirred up so much inside of Trixie that she questioned her whole sexuality.

・Being with Trixie is like being with ... a pixie. She has so much light and excitement within her - it's infectious.

・You got together because Trixie had accidentally said she loved you after you nearly died. You had ran into a building that was on fire to save a child, and when Trixie found you afterwards, she cried her heart out, yelling and screaming about how she could lose you.

"I - I can't ... I wouldn't be able to live without you! If you weren't with me. I love you goddamnit!"

・You were in shock but had gently grasped her cheeks and kissed her lips.

・Trixie is a very doting partner. All she wants to do is make you smile.

・You both surprise each other with flowers. Filling your home with an array of colours and smells.

・She would still be a nurse, and you would follow her anywhere

・But Poplar was barely afloat, and you knew both your help was needed there

・You're great friends with Nurse Crane and Fred. Fred feels like such a father figure to you.

・You save up to buy Trixie luxurious items; she prefers quality over quantity.

・Obviously your relationship is kept as a secret, but those that live at Nonnatas have suspected but kept it to themselves. They're mostly just happy to see Trixie happy.

・If you have a night shift, Trixie will not go to bed until you come home. And if you don't come home at the usual time, she starts to panic.

・Loves when you rest your head in her lap. She strokes your hair and swirls her finger around your face, making you giggle.

・Always tells you she loves you; morning and night. Just to make sure that you know that in case something happens.

・You like to run a hot bath for her when she gets back from work; rose petals, candles, special bath oils. She can spend up to two hours in there.

・Trixie isn't really one to read, but she loves going with you to the library and book shops. She loves watching you flutter about the place, trying to find the perfect story

𝑹𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒔:

Home Is Wherever You Are

Flirts Boldly (Trixie) x Equally Flirts Back (You)

I Don’t Know What I’m Doing But At Least I’m Alive, Right? (You) x You’re Doing Great, Sweetie (Trixie) - alternatively - Being each other's complete and utter support to the point where it gets aggressive.

𝑹𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒄 𝑷𝒍𝒐𝒕 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒑𝒆:

"Being With You Makes Me Better"

𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒆 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈:

Young And Beautiful by Lana Del Rey

[theinsanecrayonbox]

FOP: A New wish ep 5-8

and we're back at it again. another week, more episodes

spoilers: i think i found my favorite episode of this series. you'll understand why when you get to it XD

Episode 5: Fearless

for some reason my OnDemand doesn't have this available on it's own. however, it seems to be paired with ep4 (as it should be) so we can still see it. it's just weird that every other episode is on there single and together...weird

anywhos, onto the episode proper. the title card is giving me big reff vibes; i can't quite recall which previous title card it's evoking, but i feel like we've done this one before.

did Wanda's "squirt' sound like a mangled "twerp" or was that just me?

"Gregory" huh? i can get behind that. and Hazel is a horror buff?? i love you child. and Jasmine's seen IT?

did they censor Jasmine saying "fraidy cat"??

haha you can use TMNT because Paramount owns them too. they're Disney self reffing XD

ok, wishing your friend was fearless, good plot...think we've semi-done this before...and it didn't work this way last time in Emotion Commotion. but holy wow this is some imagery; we are so into the creepy. i love it

oh oh new geography! Annapolis...can't figure out where it is on that map though (Michigan maybe? Italy if it's not USA??)...also yes muppet stand-in is funny

sweet friendly pep talk, and fear fighting montage. good story telling

child possession??? by an eldritch entity of fear??? dang...this is getting deep and epic. A+ writers

"Don't want another of those going rogue" with an ominous stare at the camera...uh, guys what did you do? what did you do??? O.o!!

overall, very good episode! mundane problem that was complicated by magic but in the end was solved without it and allows our MC to grow naturally as a person. A++

Episode 6: The Wellsington Hotellsington

this one was a Spongebob episode plot right? this title card though evokes Hail to the Chief to me but obviously no connection

Winn Harper's our new Trixie? (a popular potential romantic intertest...and are they nb?) and Dev is certainly Remy/Tad and Chad

oh this plot is actually A Wish Too Far; Hazel's making big rich claims and gonna magic to make it seem that way until it goes wrong. eh, stock, but reasonable. actually makes even more sense since she is the new kid so not everyone knows about her, verses Timmy who'd known his classmates for longer so you'd think they'd've known his family's financial standing.

and why's Jasmine buying this, didn't she go to Hazel's apartment last episode? wasn't on screen, didn't happen i guess)

oh she does remember, but she's an easily convinced ditz. it's ok

mega points for emu

oh and now her wish is backfiring on her, as it usually does

evil doppelganger Hazel speaking backwards???? what the...we are not shying from the weird and creepy are we?? (Shinning reference?) i love this writing team

dawww see Hazel you impressed them all on your own, don't need the frilly fancy stuff.

though you have earned yourself a sworn mortal enemy in Dev. delicious

and we end on creepy doppelganger?? what are you guys doing...and will you do more

overall, another pretty good episode. not anything spectacular sure, but we're still developing our supporting cast and the story status quo. so it's good

Episode 7: 1500 Minutes of Fame

the title almost sounds like it'd fit the previous episode too...but nice city skyline cutout *saves that for later refferance*

awww they're a friend trio now, yay

oh it's Most Wanted's plot...well base plot. Hazel wants to be popular. you'd think Cosmo and Wanda would remember how poorly that can go...

why is Father Time here? he had nothing to do with this type of wish last time. also he looks completely different from his prior appearance but then again that was in Timmy's Secret Wish and that wasn't good so we can let that slide. but being popular falls under "15 minutes of fame" huh? uhhu. well...to be fair i could see a rules restructuring after Tim's deal in Most Wanted and all his tampering with the Time Scooter (and in Timmy's Secret Wish too i guess) could've made it so Father Time has final approval of time-based wishes...maybe if that'd been the ruling from the start we wouldn't have 5 different timelines caused by Timmy in the first place

he's far too gleeful about how monkey's paw this gonna screw her over. he's gotta be djinn

that's squirrel!Timmy!!! as the school mascot??!! what??? also that's Big Problem adult!Timmy again...huh...

i wonder if Bev is a Ubetcha...

and yes being most wanted includes being wanted for not positive reasons

why would you send her to a Hollywood school? because she's famous maybe? i mean that makes sense...because Dimmadelphia isn't in California like Dimmsdale, where one could argue that the Hollywood school was just a district over this they'd share students. i just answered my own question...carry on show

who's higher than Father Time on the magical hierarchy when it comes to time magic? who would you get in trouble with my dude?

pffffft ok Nick of Time. 1) love the pun on the name. 2) love the meta puns in the dialog (ranks up there with Zim experimenting on a child also named Nic).

act New Yorky to make New York minutes? uh...ok...i mean, that is a logical idea a kid would come up with to problem solve, so for that reason it makes sense. also, it again highlights that she's a West coast/Midwestern kid and not an East coast/New Englander (yes there's a difference between NE and NY, just like i know there's a difference between West and Midwest). so...montage of stereotypes i guess

"I am a child and recognize all these references" pfffft i am laughing

and musical number with 2d animations...FLAPPY BOB???? and more TMNT references

and the wish just runs out, the day is saved. this was a fun magical shenanigans story, so good job team.

Episode 8: 28 Puddings Later

are...are we getting a zombie outbreak? i know we had some body horror in another episode, and then all the other creepy stuff in this week's episodes, but...really? O.o why are children's media doing zombie plagues a bunch lately...and why am i complaining about that??? even the title card is a zombie pudding apocalypse!! i am SO down for this episode!

it's picture day...and pudding...oh boy, stock plot of trying to stay clean in coming

Dev steals all the pudding?? oh heckie no! go stop him Hazel!! ah it's through bribery...boo on Dale

Timmy is the janitor i guess?

ah making pudding that available will ruin the market value, and devalue it. economics 101. but also people doing nuts and addicted and thus zombies i guess

and we are spooky. heeheehee

why isn't Wanda more chocolate crazy?

zomr there are children zombies swarming another student. what even is this; i love it

broccoli pudding?? but no Yugopotamians? boo

but anywhos, i think this might've been my favorite episode (and oh look it's episode 8 even, heehee). it was just so silly and fully magically induced and fixed, but it was fun. children being pudding zombies, that's just...yeah XDDD

[lazyrants]

Robbie Rotten's Greatest Misses (prod 133)

Original airdate: February 7, 2006

Story by Magnus Scheving

Written by Noah Zachary, Cole Louie, Magnus Scheving

Directed by Magnus Scheving, Jonathan Judge

Executive producers - Magnus Scheving, Ragnheidur Melsted, Raymond P. Le Gue, Mark Read, Brown Johnson, Kay Wilson Stallings

Starring Magnus Scheving, Stefan Karl Steffanson, Julianna Rose Mauriello

Puppeteers - Gudmondor Thor Karason, Jodi Eichelberger, David Matthew Feldman, Julie Westwood, Sarah Burgess

Will this episode hit or miss? Well, it IS called Robbie's Greatest Misses, but.. uhhh.. you get me, right?

Episode beginning: Kinda recycled. This time it's Sportacus purposefully dropping a stopwatch out his airship, trying to catch it on the sky chaser, and what do you know, he gets it.

All in 29.9 seconds. Robbie is in his lair eating a fat creamy slice of cake that I've always wanted until I found out it was shaved cream for the frosting. He decides to check what the LazyTowners are doing, and Ziggy warns Milford not to step on a skateboard.

He was just being a moron and says 'GOTCHA!!' Anyways, Milford has a trophy in his hands and Ziggy asks who it's being awarded to. He says that he cannot tell anybody, and then he tells Ziggy ('I can't tell you that it's Sportacus). Lolwut. Robbie takes a much more different approach to this, throwing away his cake.

Food waster. Ziggy points out he wins every year, and Robbie wants to put an end to this by making sure someone classy wins. Then he burps. It turns out that burp was too.. well.. I don't know, but PBS Kids Sprout didn't like it. So here is the next part [kinda boring] summed up: Robbie hide in mailbox, Milford tells everyone Sportacus won except Sportacus.

Then Robbie figures out the big epic secret as to why Sportacus always wins - because he saves people all the time. GASP! Meanwhile, Ziggy is continuing his moron adventure, telling the kids there's a monkey playing the trumpets outside.

Then he says GOTCHA when they realize he is a big fat chubby liar. They tell him fibbing is bad and he doesn't care. So, back to the lair, Robbie performs Master of Disguise. At the end of the song, he still doesn't know how to catch Sportacus. And he plays a few VHS tapes of his greatest misses, which makes no sense. How'd he have them? Is SOMEONE in the town always filming him?

So, Ziggy is still at it, being a MASSIVE moron, and lying about a spider on Trixie's shoulder. She waves it around, falling to the ground. That rhymed! Anyways, he gets kinda sad when they don't laugh. Back to Robbie's lair, he says they were all good plans and they should've worked. Then he gets the actual GENIUS idea to use ALL of his schemes at once. It's plans like these that should've worked.

But it doesn't end there - he comes up with the disguise of a cow. What. Then Ziggy spots him using the soccer ball launcher. So he goes to snitch to his friends and not a fricking trusted guardian, but they obviously do not believe him. So he does a big angry 'you-no-trust-i-save-town-alone' speech in an attempt for them to believe him, and what does it do?

It makes them believe him even less. So he tries again after he sees the cow (Robbie, but is there really any difference..?) hiding into a mailbox but Stephanie keeps on saying telling fibs is bad, so then they check it out AND THEY SEE

absolutely nothing. I love this show, but the amount of coincidences is ridiculous, even for Nickelodeon. Then the two go back to Pixel's house. Ziggy tries some more, but he gives up. THEN Robbie comes out and Ziggy hides behind a tree.

He confronts the cow and tells him how much trouble he is causing. Then he ties up Ziggy. Sportacus' crystal beeps and he comes to town on the Sky Chaser. Meanwhile, the kids go to check on Ziggy, and Robbie climbs up on a wall, starting to launch flying soccer balls at Sportacus.

As if that wasn't enough, he tries to MURDER him by launching a cannonball out the cannon. Luckily, Sportacus grabs onto a tree branch, turns around it (dodging the cannon) and flipping off the branch.

He activates the Candy Maker, but that's just a chance for Sportacus to practice some tennis hits. Then he unleashes the pirate ship - but Sportacus has seen Rush Hour 2 - so he lies down.

LOL. So, then when the anchor comes, he jumps over it. Probably the easiest thing to do. So Robbie starts controlling a bulldozer (he says 'Not another one!', which is kinda just wasting time). Instead of just running out the way, he has to flip into the driver's seat and stop it. Anyways, the pirate ship goes against the master and comes charging at Robbie. But Sportacus must save him!

Using a skateboard. He lies down on his skateboard, skates (pushes with his back) over to Ziggy for an apple. So Ziggy kicks the tree and the apple drops in Sportacus' hands and he bites it. The anchor of the ship grabs onto the wall, making it wiggle, and Robbie fall. So, instead of going somewhere else, he stays there as the wall falls on him. Sportacus skates under the wall.

And everyone is super sad because they think he's.. unalived. (Steph unties Ziggy.) Until he LITERALLY CARRIES UP THE ENTIRE WALL BY HIMSELF WITH THE HELP OF ONE APPLE BITE. I'd think he was dead too. He was under there for like 40 seconds before lifting up the wall.

While Robbie is shaking and quivering like a sissy. (I would too, to be honest.) And to think Robbie is some people's favourite character! Robbie's disguise is foiled, everyone makes up, Milford gives Sportacus the award and they sing Bing Bang.

Robbie just wants to forget it all with a piece of cake. But instead he has a LARGE sip of milk. How you 'accidentally' pick up something and sip it is unknown to me.

Oh, and if you think about it, Robbie has had a lot of milk before.. just in the form of cake! (Or, probably cake batter.) Then he adjusts his cow head. The end

6/10. I admit, that episode was pretty good! Although the unrealism with Sportacus is so just overkill, not even me, a super mega ultra Sportacus fan can really find them cool.

[daryfromthefuture]

today i decided to comment on some popular bttf theories or questions asked. just to add my 2 cents.

why are doc and marty friends?? how the hell did they meet?!

SHUT UUPP why shouldn't they be friends? i don't see the issue and never have seen one. why can't a 17 year old boy be friends with a disgraced nuclear physicist? you don't have to question how they met. the movie establishes them as friENDS in the first five goddamn minutes, marty enters the lab without even knocking and obviously has access to a key. i like to think that the whole POINT of strickland telling marty that doc is a nutcase is to show the audience that he ISN'T a nutcase and, in fact, a nice guy and willing to do anything to help marty get home. sure, the whole plutonium and having the car drive towards them is. a bit questionable BUT it's also obvious that marty trusts doc. doc is willing to lay down his life for marty and marty is willing to do anything to save him. if that isn't true friendship, i don't know what is. there, are you happy now, you doubters?

marty dies multiple times in bttf 2

i'm kinda split on this one tbh. i quite enjoy the idea of doc being the one who has to save marty after marty saves him in part 1 & 3, with the same attitude of "i don't care what happens to the universe i just want to keep my bff alive". it makes sense, too. on the other hand, i also like the thought of doc either being there by coincidence or instinctively knowing marty was in danger. because he has dad instincts ok

marty's parents/george knew he was a time traveler

hmmm. i don't know about lorraine, but i can see that being the case for george. not only was george the first one to meet marty in 1955, him telling him his name without george having introduced himself and so on, there also was this whole darth vader scene, the "i didn't know you did anything creative", the way marty clearly called him "dad" lmao and overall marty's insistence to get george to ask lorraine out. george might not know for sure, but i can see him having developed a theory like that. also because he basically based his first novel on the whole darth vader thing.

the idea of the secret eventually being revealed at a later point and lorraine being like "????" while george goes "ah yes, i suspected that" is also funny so

doc brown kills lone pine marty

guys please why can't we keep these movies as lighthearted as possible. why can't this just be a normal time loop.

personally, i have always thought that normal marty and lone pine marty just switched timelines. tp marty went to 1955, set up his parents after ruining their first meeting, and got back to 1985. lp marty went back to 1955, didn't fuck around with his family history because he assumed that it was the whole calvin klein thing, thus his parents met the normal way and boom, twin pines timeline. or something like that.

i'm NOT liking the idea of doc ever harming any kind of marty thank you

doc brown is suicidal

no.

in all seriousness, i see where people are coming from. but doc is such an excited, enthusiastic character and i don't. no. just no. he wants to be a good person, to accomplish something in this world. he wouldn't just give up like this.

this theory just makes me sad

the delorean is sentient and stalls in just the right moments to prevent paradoxes

what a funny way to explain that deloreans were, in tom wilson's words, a piece of garbage

why does maggie mcfly look like lorraine when that's george's side of family?

bob gale explained that by saying that mcfly men are naturally attracted to women who look like lea thompson.

trixie and jennifer: *offended*

seriously? i don't fucking know. she just looks like her. coincidence. maybe she was from lorraine's family line, then one of her kids or siblings if she had any married someone else, and the families split up until george and lorraine met, meaning that stella and sam are maggie's descendants/from her family line. doesn't that make more sense

THATS IT FOR NOW i may reblog and add some more but for now enjoy my opinion

[butchpeabody]

I can't think of any specific question but I just really wanna know about the epithet erased toh au. I love both of those things so much.

lucky for you i love talking about both of those things! typing this on mobile tho so im sorry if the formatting is weird

so for starters the epithet characters are going to the isles from their home universe- i havent figured exactly how or why and im vaguely saying another inscribed did it for now. i dont really care about semantics in these sorts of aus usjfjs. they get sent in intervals and end up with different members of the cast.

molly arrives first and, on instinct, think she's trapped in another of lorelai's dream bubbles. she tries to dumb her way out of bonesborough but comes to realize that all of this is. VERY real. hunter realizes there's another human on the isles and thinks, "oh! this'll make my uncle who doesnt hate me happy! come with me!". molly freaks out and runs, and is saved by the bell (the bell being luz with an invisibility glyph.) and taken to the owl house. she explains her situation to everyone there and is allowed to stay until they can figure out how to get her home. she doesnt explain epithets because she doesnt know it would be necessary to do so

sylvie lands in the isles next. he tries his best to adapt to the lifestyles present, wearing his hood up to cover his ears. hes eventually found by raine who takes him in with the batts, and hes GOING to narc on their rebellion before the scope of whats going on is revealed. he like VERY upsettedly resigns himself to a life of crime and manages to nab a palisman from the emperor's reserves (antics occuring with guards all the while involving sleep powder and beefton). he's undercover as the Black Sheep Witch and wearing a cloak to protect his identity pretty quick after raine picks him up. they end up getting on. raine thinks hes a very bright young man :)

giovanni's up next- this is post prison of plastic so he's in vincent murder persona now. as soon as he arrives he starts a scene in bonesborough and ends up being captured by the emperor's coven (not without a fight! nobody on the isles knows what a tomato tastes like so they buy into the lav-acid stuff). when sylvie learns hes caught in the conformitorium hes like UGH. and when raines like oh theres another human staying with eda now do you know her (shows a pic) hes like UGH. he busts giovanni out and since raine cant really be. directly involved with eda sylvie has to drop gio off there. they have a long conversation on the palisman-ride over where they learn to respect each other a little more before sylvie lets gio off and asks him not to tell molly that hes here as well. itd cause more trouble than its worth. then giovanni and molly have a tearful reunion after he almost gets torn asunder by hooty

mera and indus take on a more minor role but when mera arrives shes in TERRIBLE pain and there is NO modern medicine afoot. indus has to run off and search for a healer and ends up finding emira, who heals mera and offers to let the two of them stay in amity's little room in the library. they do this, amity passes the message onto luz that there are more humans in the library, and them and molly/giovanni almost kill each other before they come to an agreement and truce until they can get home. mera gets that sweet sweet healing magic while shes here too- obviously it wont get rid of her epithet (which isnt something she wants in the first place) but having your broken bones be this fixable is REALLY nice, especially in a place that loves to break bones at every turn

trixie and phoenica land next. hunter actually manages to get them to belos this time because phoenica is nice and trixie will go along with her for stuff, and when they get to the throne room philly boy lies through his teeth about how Cool And Awesome his plans for the day of unity are and how they can stay with him until theyre able to get home. phoenica is really excited and trixie. uh.

trixie can see the ghost of every single grimwalker AND caleb surrounding philip's throne. they wave off concern when philip asks her abt it but caleb KNOWS she can see them, and follows her back to her room. trixie wants nothing to do with dou rebellion plans and is already scared as is but caleb does not leave her alone because they are the ONLY PERSON HERE who can see him. he becomes her weird anarchist ghost uncle and they end up feeding information to the batts through sylvie (very hard to keep that part under wraps because of the whole. phoenica future husband thing)

ANNND finally lorelai shows up and manages to pretty successfully assimilate with witch society because of augment. gives herself pointed ears dresses up as a witch. she manages to get heckled into a coven and a sigil (she joins illusions) without realizing what this entails, and since augment already has to do with illusions she doesnt notice anything weird happening. when she and molly meet again itll be REALLY fun

i dont have too much in the way of specific episodes plotted out in full but i WILL say that molly is present for hollow mind...do with that what you will

[darklingichor]

Call The Midwife; Shadows of the Workhouse; Farewell to the East End, by Jennifer Worth

I have this thing where if everyone is talking about a show, I don't want to watch it. Not because I'm trying to be too cool or anything, but because if I start a show that everyone is watching, I feel like watching it is an assignment like I'm going to be given a pop quiz at any time. It's too much pressure, and it takes the fun out of it. It's the same reason I don't join book clubs. You Tell me I have to read a book in a week and be prepared to discuss it... you just gave me homework. I Don't want to do homework.

So, if I get into shows, it's years after everyone else has finished it and I don't feel the pressure to watch it, or to "push past" annoying plot lines and episodes.

So it was with Call the Midwife. There was a time when it seemed like everyone was talking about it, an although it looked interesting, I waited.

I saw some clips here and there recently and figured I would give it a shot.

I watched the first few episodes and liked them, so I took to the library for the books.

I watched a few more episodes and read the books... now I'll admit, for all that I enjoyed them, I am less interested.

Here's the thing. The show is lovely, the characters are great. The books are good, the author's voice is engaging and the stories captivating. But something is not sitting with me right, maybe I can figure it out by writing about it.

So the bones of it. Nurse and student Midwife Jenny Lee walks into an assignment at Nonntus House, an Anglican convent where all of the sisters are nurses and midwives. They and small group lay women, also nurses,training to be midwives, service the expectant mothers of the East End of London in the 1950's. It's a poor area of the city living in the shadows of WWII and all of the destruction it caused. Pre accessible birth control, the sisters and their live in nurses were very busy.

Each nun and student Midwife are wonderful characters. There isn't one that I fully dislike. Though Nurse Trixie can wear on my nerves, and as wonderfully excentric Sister Monica Joan can be, she's also mean in her pleasantly demented state. Jenny herself... well, I'll get there.

The stories of the patients can be funny, or heartbreaking, often both at the same time.

Times were tough and, going from house to house caring for people, it makes sense that one would see the best and the worst of humanity.

I think what bothers me is the author's adittude. Clearly, Jennifer Worth developed into a good nurse and Midwife, but...

My mom is a nurse and she loves her career. Ever since I was a kid. I have held the belief that if you go into nursing, or doctoring only for the money, you are doing yourself and the people you treat, a disservice.

Don't misunderstand, medical people should be paid and paid well for all that they do, they should not be expected to do it for love alone.

But, it's a hard path. It's physically and mentally exhausting, it seems tailor made to test one's mental health to the limits. This is because people rarely need a doctor or a nurse when things are going fine. Even a routine childbirth is painful, and stressful on mother, baby, and family, anything medical can be this way. And for this reason, patients deserve someone who *wants to do the job*. Only doing it for money( this is in modern context as nursing was not always highly paid) or (as Jenny puts it) because she thought it would be "easier" is a one way ticket to burn out and that is no good for anyone involved. Plus, with only two notable exceptions, people who go into the field when it's not really what they want to do, in my experience, tend to see the patient as a task to be completed rather than a person and that's not right.

Now, that is not to say that someone who went down the medical path when their heart wasn't in it can't change and Jennifer obviously did, but considering that in these books we are seeing her young and inexperienced outside of a hospital setting, her thinly veiled disdain for the way those of the neighborhoods had to live, was annoying.

She often writes that she felt disgust, irritation or anger upon dealing with some people, only to find compassion for them later after she learned their stories. The fact is she should have been feeling compassion for them at the time because they are people.

I work in hospice and yes, there are people who I inwardly groan at when they call, because they are unpleasant to talk to, but you can still feel compassion for someone while feeling a slightly less charitable emotion because this person might be annoying, but *person* is the important part, and they are also a person going through a rough time.

There is also this odd subtext that I'm not sure I am reading too much into, but it bothers me.

There is this odd prejudice toward non-English women, and in these episodes, a habit of what I strongly expect is embellishment.

I first noticed it with the story of Conchita Warren. A Spanish woman who, when Jenny meets her, is having her 24th baby. Her husband had found her in Spain when he was in the army. She was very young. They married when she was 16 (her already having had four of his children).

This is so beyond gross, and fucking criminal, but this couple is held up as a wonderful one because the husband is so devoted. Never mind the fact that neither member of the couple spoke the other's language and used their kids as translators. Think about that. Before their first kid was able to speak in full conversations, they had no way of talking with one another. That is deeply creepy.

Yeah, yeah, I know, different time, blah ah blah, but it's so gross. The show at least pointed out how odd it was. Not so in the book.

Conchita herself is portrayed as possibly not that bright and just smiles and raises kids.

Then there was the story of Mary, the teenager who found herself pregnant and on the streets after coming from Ireland and getting tricked into prostitution. She is also seen as not too bright. Jenny helps her as much as she can, but Mary's baby is taken away and Mary can't handle the grief of it. Later, before the age of 21, Mary is sent to prison for kidnapping a baby girl.

Then we hop to the third book where in there is the tale of Kathleen a girl who literally just got off the boat from Ireland the day before. Heavily pregnant after having "trusted a sailor" she gives birth to triplets (having had one in her sleep) their future is left uncertain and grim. Not much is said of her intelligence but she is so Weirdly cheerful though all of it that I think the reader is suppose to question it.

Also in the third book we had the story of a Scandinavian"ship's woman" aboard a trading ship. Who keeps all of the men on the ship "happy" including her own father.

I'll pause to let you deal with the vomit in your mouth.

This woman is deceibed as fat, her nether parts big enough for big and tall Chummy's hand to slip easily inside. After the birth and falling on the floor, she has to be helped up by two big sailors. This episode is played for laughs and again, the woman is thought to be cheerfully stupid of her plight.

I don't think one of these stories are true. I think Mary's comes the closest because there was a case of a woman from Ireland having lost I think four children the first put up for adoption the others passing away, kidnapping a little girl in the 60's. But the woman was 34, and did it because she feared that her husband would leave her after she lost the last baby. I think Mary's story was crafted with this or something like it in mind.

The story of Conchita Warren can be seen as an allegory for colonization. This young and stupid peasant girl was rescued from a war by a devoted white hero. He loved her so much and she him that it didn’t matter that she was taken from her culture (or her culture taken from her) or even that her benevolent love couldn't speak her language. Look at all the beautiful children they made... their own loving empire. And wasn't it for Conchita's benefit?

Mary's story paired with Kathleen's to me, reads like a laundry list of Irish stereotypes, Mary is seen as emotional, reckless, and without critical thought. So stained by the backwards upbringing with her mother a drunk and her stepfather an abuser, that she was easily tricked into becoming a sex worker. Then we are told, basically, once a hooker, always a hooker and therefore her baby had to be taken away to be brought up by a "good Christian Family". Unable to cope with the loss of a child, sonething we are told that an english woman could handle well, she is seen as amoral and reckless when she kidnapped a baby, needing to be contained

Kathleen by contrast is all at once the victim of the conservitive atmosphere of her family since she can't let her mother know she 's pregnant to the point of running to another country, but so fuzzy on morals that without her family's supervision she got herself into trouble. Then of course there is the sereotype that the Irish have a lot of kids, so many that they can have them in their sleep.

The story of the ship's woman might be less of a condemnation of non English woman, and more a take on the supposed depravity of sailors. Either way, the description of the woman is filled with shaming language and just like the other women, it is implied that she is too ignorant to know she has been abused.

Now, I don't care that she made stuff up, the fact that she made up stuff that is so blatantly prejudice is what soured me on it. Jenny quietly judges all of the poor of the East End, but it is the non English ones that get used for morality tales.

The second book just annoyed me to no end because Jenny is so callous even to people she knows well, until she knows their back stories. Yet, stately, aristocratic Sister Monica Joan is held in awe by Jenny even though she can be down right cruel at times. Yes, Sister Monica Joan is not in her right mind all the time,and yes people can be mean and angry in that state sometimes. But Jenny kept going back to Sister Monica Joan's privileged up bringing and b3cause of that, it leant a feeling that Jenny is very aware of class hierarchy and her place in it. Below Sister Monica Joan, who acts the part (unlike Chummy who is awkward and clumsy) above those she serves.

And anxious Jane so desperate to help the sisters,is seen as an irritant or someone to be made fun of, until Jenny learns of her childhood in the Workhouse. Peggy is tolerable because she cheerfully cleans up Nonntus house (read, she knows her place).

However, Jennifer is a good writer, and knows how a character should be and how a story should go, so characters like Jane and Chummy get Redemption arch, never mind that they didn't need redeeming in the first place. Jane finds love, Chummy proves to everyone that she can keep it together, will happily work with the poor, and be cheerful.

Basically, what I'm getting in the subtext of these books is that they were written by a snob, who knows she's a snob, but feels bad about being one.

And because of that, I came away from these books feeling like I learned a great deal, but also feeling icky.

[anamarialujan]

I just watched episode 1 and I must say...SPOILERS!

-Hey, Call The Midwife, that was tough. It was like a kick to the stomach. But, I like when the first episode of the season is very strong.

-One thing that I used to complain about, no longer happens: there is no music constantly! (or at least I can't hear it hehe)

-I miss hugs so much. I mean, Audrey was there, crying in the clinic, and neither Sister Frances nor Shelagh hugged her. It's not like their characters and obviously I blame this on the stupid pandemic and social distancing.

-It really surprised me in a beautiful way that Nancy took the courage to tell her daughter the truth. I thought that story would take a long time but seeing that she decided to solve it at once was wonderful.

-Patrick Turner, my God. Why does this man insist on being so handsome? It hurts my health!

-Another thing about Shelagh that...🤨 but perhaps they did it also due to social distancing: do you have your children with chickenpox and instead of being at home with them you are in the Maternity Home using a typewriter and making records? It's like again, she leaves her children for the children of others.

-WE LOVE SISTER HILDA

-The story of the buried babies omg for a moment I thought they were Hilda's children (?) I don't know, she is talking about a previous life, then those signs of single mothers living in that house... The truth is that the whole story was very strong, and I noticed Marigold super similar to Heidi Thomas (??) I loved her accent and her way of speaking.

-Ahhhh is it possible that I have to resign myself to Trixie and the widower?

-Sister Mónica Joan's face when Sister Julienne said NO to Eurovision: please let Sister MJ be happy with her little things!

[redheadedbrunette]

Hi! Currently thinking about Erica becoming increasingly confused by the level of emotion that she feels for Ben and was wondering if you have any Berica head-cannons and/or thoughts about their relationship and character development? Your literary analysis skills are *chefs kiss* so I’d love to hear your thoughts!

BUT FOR REAL THOUGH?!?!??

Okay, so in the beginning? Like, SSS? She absolutely hates it. This is so unreasonable and she doesn't like it. It doesn't make sense. Maybe hanging out with Ben isn't that bad and she likes it and it wouldn't be that bad if she dated him NO STOP IT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS IT IS A HORRIBLE IDEA. And she tries to rationalize her way out of having the crush. But then she thinks she's going to die and kisses him, and yeah, she can't really get around the fact that she has a crush. Unfortunately.

But on the plane ride home going into SSSS, she realizes that she can't rationalize her way out of the crush, but she can rationalize the fact that she has a crush, why it’s a bad idea, stuff like that. She still has it, she’s not really trying to fight it. It’s become like the fly that you’re not actively trying to swat anymore because it’s not that bad and running around the house with a newspaper is more trouble than it’s worth. And that’s pretty much where she’s at in SSGS and SSBI.

But I think it would be unfair to say that the crush she had was increasing. Obviously other things happened, which led to getting the relationship to where it is at the end of SSAS, but it’s not the crush itself, I don’t think.

Now what I think is really interesting is that I don’t think her deciding to actually start, or even just considering it starting, the relationship at the end of SSAS has to do with the crush itself changing either in kind or degree. I think what we’re seeing at this point in the series is Erica considering her priorities. I’ve been thinking about making a post about how similar Erica and Trixie are based on what we’ve seen of them, and the only fundamental difference between them is that Erica was groomed to be a spy and Trixie wasn’t. And I think that the most telling scene is the hug scene in SSR.

For the first time, we see Erica being honest about her emotions while not under duress. Sure, there was the truth serum in SSSS, but I don’t think that should count as much, since even as she was telling people things, she was trying to fight it back. Not that there isn’t merit in that, but it is different in kind to the scene in SSR.

And the biggest revelation from that scene? She wants to be able to trust people. She just can’t, in part because of Joshua, but even more, because being a spy is fundamentally opposed to trusting people. The whole job is based on lying to people and constantly trying to figure out when you’re getting lied to. You just can’t take anything anyone says at face value.

And I think the main reason she doesn’t in that moment is because she still believes that giving into that sort of emotion rather than just keeping it back would make her a “bad spy”, or somehow compromise her ability to do it properly, and I want to write a whole post on this, but I think that being a spy, and especially a gifted, talented, good spy, is so fundamentally a part of who she is that she doesn’t know who she could be apart from that.

But we see in SSAS her becoming that exact sort of “bad spy” she feared she could become if she gave into her emotions without giving into her emotions. (There is the potential to argue that Ben almost drowning and not being able to save him and finding out that her sister already knew the secret that they’d been trying to keep from her for so long) threw her emotions out of whack, but the point still stands.

Even when she doesn’t trust people she’s prone to messing up. She can’t be the perfect spy all the time. It’s impossible, even if it took her thing long to realize it on account of the fact that this was one of the first times it happened.

And she’s human, she can’t go through life trusting no one. Somewhere, sometime, something’s got to give. She can’t live like this.

And it’s Ben. If she can’t trust him, who could she trust?

So she does.

And I can’t wait to see where the series goes from here.

[bbugyu]

NO YOU ARE SO CUTE HELP 😭😭 i love how you elaborated some details and things you liked from each show you’ve watched/you’re watching 😩 the dedication ✨ i checked every reco and i must say u have immaculate taste omg???? the synopses have piqued my interest to the point that they r already on my watchlist KSJDSKJSKS THE DOKI EFFECT 😎

i’m currently watching trixie motel and when i tell you i absolutely love everything from it!!!! the colors of the rooms, the themes, the whole transformation UGH chef’s kiss 🤌 thank you so much for this reco aaaaaa i really enjoy watching it :(( such a serotonin boost!

i definitely need to avail hbo go membership, apple tv+, and other streaming platforms bcs netflix just ain’t doing it for me 😒

hope you’re doing well, love! 💗

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PLEASESADSDF im not cute 😠😠😠 i just.... hyperfocus really easily LMAO can't you tell by the way i write about jeonghan ??

YESSS I'M SO GLAD UR ENJOYING TRIXIE MOTEL THAT SHIT GIVES ME SO MUCH SEROTONINNNNN i'm actually two episodes behind bc my life has been Very Hectic this lovely wonwoo month and i wish it had more to do with wonwoo and less to do with everything in my life exploding at once. BUT WE GOOD and i neeeeed to catch up asap i can't believe it's already over 😭😭

new show alert! i am currently watching extraordinary attorney woo week to week (about the first autistic attorney in korea and the cases she tackles as a rookie) and i just started it's okay to not be okay, both on netflix! i know the latter got a lot of hype while it was airing but that was before i had really given a lot of kdramas a shot (i also don't generally like jdramas despite being japanese because i find the writing a little tumultuous buuuut these newer dramas are so well written and acted???) and now that i'm full force into them i can't stop watching more. i also recently stanned fromis_9 because i watched the hybe picnic (for svt obviously) and i literally fell in love with every single one of them and i've been bopping to their music for literal years so. took the plunge! and i saw that gyuri was in its okay to not be okay so! I HAD TO WATCH ITDKJSFHSDKJHF

i am very fortunate that i have a network of friends and family and we all pay for different streaming services and share passwords LMAO like me and my partner only pay for hulu and amazon prime but i'm on my parents' netflix still, my brother has hbo max, and @babiemingoo lets me use her disney+ account sdfhjkhafsk sharing is caring!

ngl these have been trying times but i am okay! i'm managing best i can, keeping my head up, and continuing to indulge in hobbies even if i barely have time for them, because that's how i've learned to stay sane haha. and things are looking to be heading in a positive direction after today so we good!

i hope you're doing well too!

[cakesexuality]

5 through 9 💖

Disclaimer 1: I think a lot of these are gonna be from more recent seasons but I promise you that I have watched every English-language season, some multiple times

Disclaimer 2: I have only watched English-language seasons, as I don't have access to Holland, Italia, or España and haven't gotten around to Thailand yet

5. Favourite winner?

I don't know if I have a single favourite winner, but I do have a few winners that I really like

Even though there's only been 2 seasons so it's maybe too early to establish a pattern (and maybe I'm just biased as a Canadian), Canada seems to be really good at either picking a satisfying winner or giving a satisfying winner's edit, however you want to see it. I fell in love with Icesis from the first words out of her mouth in her Meet The Queens ("I am here to make... a friend... just a single friend"). I'd already heard of Priyanka through social media before CDR1 was announced and even though I didn't get to watch the season when it aired, it still felt completely correct to me for Pri to get the crown, although I wouldn't have been any more or less mad if it went to Rita (or Scarlet if she'd had any wins by the finale). I think I like Icesis and Priyanka equally.

For normal US seasons, I think my favourite winner is Jinkx. I've got some of her songs on my Spotify playlists and I like watching her Cool Mom series from time to time, and she's one of the few queens where I went into the finale hoping she'd win and I ended up being right about my predictions (as opposed to when I wanted them to crown Kim... or Alexis... or Pep... or Juju...)

For US All-Stars winners, I'd say Trixie. I watch a lot of her videos on her YouTube channel and she's where I learned to do drag makeup. I describe my own drag look as "an emo, bargain-bin version of Trixie Mattel" since my makeup is based on hers and the only wig I have happens to be blonde.

And then there's obviously not any choice rn with international All Stars winners but I still love Blu. I was literally in tears at the end of the finale bc I enjoy her so much and I know how much she cares about what she represents as a queer Northern Irish public figure. I've been rooting for her since the UK1 Meet The Queens and is the queen I picked as my header when the cast of UKVTW was announced (well, it was originally Lemon, but I changed it to Blu after a couple days bc I'd just had a yellow theme for Christmas, but don't tell Blu that... maybe we could've had an AU where I kept the Lemon banner and she won instead).

6. Favourite Miss Congeniality?

Once again, I don't have a particular favourite, bc we have so many to pick from and so many of them are so fantastic. My personal favourites that I can think of are Pandora Boxx, BenDeLaCreme, Katya Zamo, Heidi N Closet, Blu Hydrangea, and Bimini Bon Boulash. Some others that I think were really good choices for MC were Latrice Royale, Monet X Change, and Nina West. (Doesn't mean anybody I didn't mention is undeserving, probably just that I can't quite remember them at the moment.)

7. Most underrated season?

I feel like I tend to agree with the broader fandom on what is or isn't a good season, so I'm not sure if I have an "underrated" season, unless we count how I don't think US7 was "bad" but just that it was more weird bc it didn't have some of the Drag Race staples like opening the season with a photoshoot + design challenge or having a proper ball, and it had a lot of fashion queens with hardly any design challenges for them to show off those skills (imagine if UK2 had Veronica with no Rusical or if US6 had Bianca with no stand-up challenge). However, without US7, we might not have the icons that are Katya and Trixie or that moment of Pearl's infamous "Is there something on my face?"

Otherwise, I'd stretch this question to mean "a season I think had more potential and could have been better" like UK3, which put all of its eggs in one basket and was screwed when that basket busted her knee in the first episode, or DU1, which had a lot of errors made by production such as handpicking the cast instead of doing an open call and casting someone with a known history of performing in raceface and trying to make Kita and Elektra the villains when they were 2 of the most likeable queens.

8. Most underrated queen?

We have again run into the problem of "I can't pick just one" but I feel like I have some faves who just aren't liked by a large portion of the fandom, such as Daya Betty or Kandy Muse or Yvie Oddly.

9. Favourite host?

I'm going to say something that's perhaps controversial yet brave (but won't be a surprise to anyone who already knows my opinions about him) but anybody EXCEPT RuPaul. He's his own little package of problems that I won't unpack today, but I enjoy everyone else more. I haven't watched Thailand yet but from what I saw on UKVTW I guess it's now law that I must see more of what kind of entertainment Pangina Heals has to offer me. I like CDR1's method of using a guest host every week and it was fun seeing people like Mary Walsh and Elisha Cuthbert do the "start your engines" bit and while CDR2 didn't do that, understandably due to COVID most likely, they at least changed things up each week by having Brooke do it slightly differently, like "May the best drag queen EEE 🔪 EEE 🔪 EEE 🔪 win!"

[tarysande]

I can't remember if it was you or another Meta-Writer who touched (ha) on the subject of Lucifer and Physical Touch. I've been re-watching S2 and the stark difference between how he reacts to Mum's touches vs Chloe's vs his romantic partners is evident.

I know I’ve mentioned the subject, though I can’t remember off-hand if I dedicated a post to it (or just said I wanted to!).

I’ve been rewatching S2, too! 

The touch thing with Mum is … such a thing, and it’s established right from the moment he sees her again. She falls; he catches her (and they form a kind of reverse pieta, which is a neat image), but he still looks terrified because he doesn’t know why she’s there (and he’s scared of her, as he’s told Linda). It says something about Lucifer that he can’t just let her fall, though—no matter what’s between them, some part of him can’t reject her outright. 

This is a theme we come back to again and again throughout the season. He doesn’t want to take her back to Hell—so he figures out a loophole. He won’t let her get too close, though; some part of him doesn’t trust her and he doesn’t reach out to her. This is a huge defense mechanism–quite literally not letting her get close enough to hurt him physically, while letting down his guard enough emotionally and mentally—because that small rejected child inside him yearns for parental love and acceptance—that she can manipulate him using his huge emotional blindspot: Chloe.  

Mum’s manipulation—through the emotion and touch that Lucifer is lacking—starts right away, though. At the end of 2x02, she touches his hand; he removes her hand. But when she reveals the “truth” about why he was in Hell (and not killed by God—something we only ever have her word for, by the by, and which I don’t actually believe because of how obviously she’s pleased by her manipulation after Lucifer agrees not to send her back to Hell right away), she touches his arms and appeals to him with her tears and he, who is almost always shown having a soft spot for helping people (especially women) in trouble (Delilah, Chloe, etc.), lets her.

For the first few episodes of the season, Lucifer doesn’t pull away from Mum’s touch, but he doesn’t initiate it, either. He’s also visibly irritated every time she talks about humanity (she’s always dismissive) or Chloe or his job. Mum is really good at manipulating him except she doesn’t realize (or refuses to accept) how important the place and people are to him. If she’d flattered humanity instead of sneering at them, I think she might’ve won Lucifer over. 

In 2x05, there’s an absolutely HUGE, significant touch-moment after Lucifer’s killed Uriel. Mum gathers him in; he lets himself be gathered. More than that, he actually wraps both arms around her and clings (which we’ve basically never seen him do before). It’s a horrifying and gorgeous moment that shows so much without telling. 

But here’s something interesting: though the last image of 2x05 is Lucifer clinging to Mum, we see no interaction between Mum and Lucifer in 2x06. Worse, Lucifer is left to absolutely frigging tailspin into despair and a sniper-induced death wish while Mum turns her efforts to manipulating Amenadiel. All the Mum scenes in Monster focus on this. Her words are carefully chosen to point blame at God while making herself sympathetic. See how Amenadiel falls to her flattery; she tells him what he wants to hear. Essentially, she feels Lucifer is now on her side (with a huge side of guilt) so it’s time to move on to the next step of her plan. The use of juxtaposition in this part of the episode is brilliant. On the one hand, we have Amenadiel and Mum in the sunlit woods, Mum wrapping her two hands around Amenadiel’s one to symbolize their new alliance; on the other, Lucifer, visibly coming apart at the scenes playing sad music, hitting a sour note, and banishing everyone from his club, leaving him fully and entirely alone (as he’s already been banished from the case).

Mum doesn’t appear in 2x07—but we see a lot of Lucifer interacting with Chloe and Trixie, the found family that doesn’t want anything from him but his presence. There’s a really good contrast here, where the episode ends on a hug that is totally different from the one in 2x05. The light is shining bright; it’s daytime and there are no shadows. Chloe is the one who’s crying, but they are tears of gratitude because Lucifer has just said exactly what she needed to hear. Chloe is the one who clings to Lucifer; he hugs her back and there is tenderness and yes, the hint of love and the promise of a future—contrasted with Mum living in an unattainable past, and grief, and guilt. Even Lucifer’s “My apologies, Detective, I didn’t mean to hurt you,” is a direct contrast of how he felt he had no choice but to hurt Uriel (to keep Uriel from hurting her). 

2x08 is where Mum starts to misstep. First, she releases Azrael’s blade into the world, and Lucifer is angry. Then, she reveals her plans to “go home” and disparages Lucifer’s feelings about Earth being his home. In 2x09, though Lucifer doesn’t know it yet, she doubles down on what she wants instead of trying to understand what Lucifer wants: she tries to blow up Lux, she decides to blow up Chloe instead, she tries to get Linda to talk about Lucifer’s secrets. These are all unforgivable from Lucifer’s perspective, and she has no idea. Because she’s ultimately selfish—she wants her home, her sons, her power. She doesn’t actually care about what makes her son happy; she wants to use him as a weapon. (I’ve watched S2 about a dozen times by now; Mum distresses me more each time I watch it.) 

At the sit-in, Mum manipulates him again by feeding him a little truth and then saying exactly what he wants to hear: “I disagree with you whole-heartedly about wanting to stay here (true), but a mother doesn’t have to agree with her son in order to support him. So, what is it exactly I’m supposed to ‘sit-in’ (what he wants to hear).” Lucifer’s whole face changes and he replies, “Mum, you’re actually being a good Mum,” and he offers her his arm. Meanwhile, he has no idea she’s actively trying to destroy everything he loves to get what she wants.

Her actions in 2x10 do a lot of damage to Lucifer’s already reluctant trust. She admits she was going to kill Chloe; she disparages Chloe in the courtroom; she uses his honor about not lying against him. It’s like a How To Turn Lucifer Against You Forever playbook. And this episode gives us another absolutely gorgeous juxtaposition, this time in contrast to the juxtaposition in 2x06. This time, instead of alone and self-loathing in his club, Lucifer is with Chloe—the beginning of something, banter, warm firelight, wine, burgers and fries, truth, a hand-clasp, and near-kissing—contrasted with Mum and Amenadiel in her dark office, full-on scheming, having learned nothing, and again, doubling-down on using Lucifer’s weaknesses to turn him into the weapon she wants (the flaming sword; the rage against God; the rebellious boy).

By 2x11, Lucifer “just wants [Mum] gone.” but, once again, she employs the tactic of telling him what he wants to hear (that Chloe impressed her; that she’s beginning to see what Lucifer sees in her; that he just has to prove his worth to her) and using touch (grabbing his hand in both of hers) to manipulate him. Then, knowing that Lucifer will be listening through the one-way glass, she lays it on even thicker. (How heartbreaking is his smile when he thinks she’s being genuine?)

2x12, of course, is heartbreaking because Mum is using Lucifer’s feelings and her knowledge about Chloe as a miracle to … destroy her son. She wants him heartbroken so he’ll leave his “home” and play his part in her plans. (It always strikes me here that, although Lucifer lives his life paranoid of “playing a role” in his Dad’s plans or being a pawn of his Father’s—it’s Mum who unrepentantly uses him as a pawn in her game of chess.) Maze, when she realizes that Lucifer is happy—truly happy—for maybe the first time ever, immediately wants to protect him because she actually cares about him. Mum, however, pushes on. Lucifer’s reaction to her reaching out to touch him this time, though, is to sweep up his own hand and prevent her, with a sharp, “Don’t.” I think it’s telling here that the only time we’ve seen this kind of sharp, precise, knife-like movement from Lucifer is when he’s fighting someone. It’s a combat motion; it’s a defensive act.

2x13 encapsulates all the facets of their relationship, really. She doesn’t want to help him for the sake of “an insignificant human’s life”—proving that she still doesn’t understand the depth and importance of his feelings. She loves him enough to go to Hell to save him; I believe that’s the truest moment of love she ever shows him. It’s also why I believe he lets her have a universe of her own at the end instead of hating her enough to kill her. He grabs Mum and pulls her from her Hell—they’re both sobbing and both fighting and it’s so real and raw. But then, afterward, when Chloe is safe, he again defends himself from her touch using the short, sharp, cutting movements reminiscent of his fighting style. 

Her admission that she’s been manipulating and using him since the start is heartbreaking; it’s his worst fears come true. At the heart of Lucifer Morningstar is a terror of being lied to (so he doesn’t lie), manipulated (as his father did and may continue to do), used. And here, his Mum, whom he’s been trying not to trust and failing at time and again as she says the right things over and over (because he wants that love, he wants that reassurance, he wants someone to touch him without wanting anything in return, he wants to be good—seen as good—by those who brought him into existence, he wants to be forgiven) is telling him the unvarnished, knife-in-the-back truth: she is everything he fears most. He was right to be afraid when he sat trembling in a chair opposite Amenadiel; he was right to be afraid when he sat trembling on a couch opposite Linda.

It wasn’t a physical attack, though; it wasn’t like being smited and pushed into a Fall, no. It was so much worse. It was his own mother using his weaknesses against him and watching him bleed out because she needed to use the shell that would be left.

[andziaregina]

"You should bloggggg!"

If y'all say so.

I've been told I'm pretty entertaining when I tell stories. Lately, my stories are mostly dating related and few and far between. I'm generally just watching whatever I'm binging, or reruns of Trixie and Katya.

So I'll start this story from the beginning of this year. I turned 30 in March, and literally everything since then is a fucking rollercoaster. Mostly excellent, but the fun, tragically hilarious shit is what we're focusing on here. My ex and I broke up because she wanted to get back together with our old roommate. Yes, back together, old roommate. That's a different mess but after 3 1/2 years, if your choice is someone whose teeth are more congruently jagged with yours then please, date your cousin. 🤷🏻‍♀️

So we break up, and WHAT ELSE DO YOU DO AFTER YOU'VE BEEN DATING WOMEN FOR A FEKKIN DECADE but sleep with a guy. Y'all chill, I've been to this rodeo (a lotttttt). So the fucking hilarity is I'm just like hell ya, sleeping with someone who I've always been friends with and this can be super easy RIGHT?! Obviously Karen if you have to ask the answer is absolutely not- make this as painfully awkward as possible. So this carried on for ya know like, 3 or 4 months or some shit. My *ass* catches some feels, duh, but it doesn't work out. Here's where I can be an ADULT THIRTY YEAR OLD GDI but why? It didn't work out supposedly because the sex fizzled out or whatever wording was chosen to explain to me why the ghosting happened on his part but the truth is whiskey dick is a HELL of a condition and some people can't own up to it. The TEA is that a lot went into this! Meeting family, going to weddings, annual summer parties- but ya know. Whiskey. Fucking. Dick. AND EVEN BETTER after literally being told "here's why I ghosted" I get told it's because he was thinking about me AFTER the girl he had been seeing/liking/literally who gives a fuck got a boyfriend and he was sad. Sad, Barbara. Lmao. I can't make any of this or the following up. THEN this idiot sends me a snap of himself in the shower with a beer and says, "Have a beer with me?" No, lmao. I also posted a song on snap by an artist named James Bay, and his ass with the same first name is like, "Am I your James Bae lololololol" STFU you ain't funny.

Oooooooookay so ironically this same weekend i find out there are really creative ways to cover up whiskey dick, another guy I'd gone out with a few times told me I was "a lot". This fuckin' guy. Check this out: so I go out with this guy for drinks. I think we hit it off, we text quite a bit, whatever. So he's like why don't you come to my place for whiskey and TV binge. I'm like, "Y'all, I love a good night in. Yes. Absolutely." So I go to his place, we talk and he shows me around and is perfectly nice. I need to also mention now, before the audacity this child had is discussed, that I am pretty picky about height. I like girls my height or a bit taller, and I like guys literally as tall as the Red Wood Forest. These aren't set in stone but I just want to feel ~*~like a lady~*~ and someone being taller than me does that for me. This dude is 5'8". I'm 5'7". So you can already assume I'm trying to tell myself if he's a decent person I will clam up, put out and be okay. Well, I'll be the first to say if I am sitting on a couch and your choice is to approach me from above like a swooping (tiny) falcon and aggressively kiss me with no preface, you gotta miss me with that bullshit. But, again, let's just see where this goes. I mean I fucking shaved, what did I THINK I was doing this night?? Okay, so we make out and things move along and we decide to go to the bedroom and obviously we had *iNtErCoUrSe*. But the fucking thing is, he did this like dirty talk but like- not well. If someone has to incessantly ask me if I like something, chances are I either already don't or I certainly won't anymore. So, I just knew with each drying pump, I would have to say something or ensure the most inflamed vaginal lips on earth and I ain't trying to have that. So I tell him, "Hey, dirty talk just isn't doing it for me." THIS FUCKING GUY had the god damn nerve to tell me I would just need to get ear plugs. Wrong, bucko. Absolutely, unequivocally not correct. And more over, when he hit me with the typical, "I can't get off with a condom, I'm a twat," I was like well that's too bad. "Do you want to suck it?" Y'all, I hollered. No, I sure don't bud. I sure the fuck don't. So I left.

Honourable mentions before I continue: super short guy who lied and told me he was 5'8" and is irrevocably 5'5". Also, another guy who I had EVERY FUCKING GOLD-COVERED, GIFT-WRAPPED CHANCE TO POSSIBLY DATE and would have been great, but don't worry I let ol Whiskey Dong cloud my judgment so whatever.

So then I meet this chick. Super attractive you GUYS. About my height, long dark hair, super fun and we seem to get along great. But fun fact, she's married. Her husband and she have a polyamorous relationship and everything is cool so ya know what THIS IS 30. Well, she cons me in to going out with her on a random Wednesday because her husband wants to meet me. Well, in case I was curious what my jam is right now- he solidified that it's men. I kiss BOTH OF THEM JESUS and have a blast and it's just fun. Then she's like, no chill I have to see you all the time omg you don't feel well I can come lay around with you omg. Girl, no you cannot. Then I'm just like, "I can't do this." Well my fucking God she sure did have her husband call me because of this. Y'all calm down, this lay ain't even that great SEE ABOVE FOR CHARACTER REFERENCES. I haven't heard from her since yesterday which is honestly the longest yet and I'm glad.

I did meet a new guy, so far so good. But I'm not saying anything until I ruin it, at which point I'll be back with more tales from the crypt. 🖤

[lazyrants]

Lazy Scouts (prod 104)

Original airdate: August 26, 2004

Story by Mike Weiss, Magnus Scheving

Written by Noah Zachary, Rocky Garibaldi, Magnus Scheving

Directed by Magnus Scheving

Executive producers - Magnus Scheving, Ragnheidur Melsted, Raymond P. Le Gue, Mark Read, Brown Johnson, Kay Wilson Stallings

Starring Magnus Scheving, Stefan Karl Steffanson, Julianna Rose Mauriello

Puppeteers - Ronald Binion, Gudmondor Thor Karason, Jodi Eichelberger, David Matthew Feldman, Julie Westwood, Heather Asch

Lazy Scouts is the fourth episode of LazyTown produced, so this was of course prone to mistakes. But does it make up for it with the plot and music?

The episode begins with a recycled opening from 'Sleepless in LazyTown', with Sportacus going to bed. However, the title card is not night time in this episode. Funny thing is, you can see the first mistake as soon as there is a zoom in the title card. After it zooms in, there is a tiny frame of the airship where it is actually day and not night.

Anywho, the episode opens with Sportacus brushing his teeth and jumping into his pod ready to visit LazyTown. Stephanie is going scouting with the kids and is packing her bag. Milford tries to bring a buncha stuff that could be useful, like toenail clippers (you don't want your feet to be uncomfy while walking up a mountain) and a curling iron (gotta make sure ya look gooooddd), but Stephanie decline.

Anyways, she gets outta the house and blows the horn to get the kids ready. Robbie is in his fluffy chair, sucking his thumb with a bowl of packing peanuts (what an intimidating villian!) and the kids wake him up. He declares that he will not let those kids ruin his day. But at this point, he should know that it would just take as less much effort to put some orange fluff in his ears and ignore them.

So anyways, while the scouts are trying to go somewhere, it turns out that the LazyTown kids (excluding Stephanie) are really unprepared scouts. Trixie leads them the wrong way (and also wears her what the wrong way), and Ziggy has a lollipop. Anyways, Trixie and Stephanie are disagreeing on which way to go (sworn besties), and in comes Scottie the Scoutmaster.

Look at him, couldn't you tell by his very real looking scout uniform? Ziggy says they're going on a hike but Scottie says that's for dogs and chickens. He offers to tell them how to make up lies. Stephanie wants to do stuff like help old ladies cross the road, and Scottie says that he's done it 100 times. Then he sees Bessie crossing the road, stops the cars (Sportacus lives in an airship, all the puppets are scouting with Stephanie and Robbie, Milford is probably doing mayor work and the cat can't drive, so who is driving those cars..?) then crosses Bessie over.. 100 times.

I mean, you gotta appreciate the dedication. Then Bessie tumbles over. HILARIOUS! So, anyways, Robbie presents the cool badges, which are obviously to lure the kids into doing lazy and bad stuff. Luckily Stephanie notices that. When they do the scout salute, they instead do a yawn.

Stephanie says that this is not what scouting is about and Robbie says this is Lazy Scouts. Then they perform the song 'Lazy Scouts', which I kind of find annoying. Then again, GetLazy's name derived from here. Anyways, when Stephanie brings up food and shelter, Robbie gives a badge to anyone who ignores the 'girl with the pink hair and bad attitude'.

Anyways, when Stephanie talks about going hiking, Robbie and the scouts go on a 3 second walk to a tree. But Stephanie is annoyed (as she should be). Robbie tells her that she should go home if she wants and Ziggy would have came with her if Trixie hadn't given him a lollipop.

So, anyways Stephanie is really really sad and Milford sees her and he asks if he forgot anything (HILARIOUS MOMENT) and Stephanie tells him everything. Milford has the right person to call - Sportacus. Thus commences a wholesome scouting montage. I love the music in this montage SO MUCH it pisses me off there isn't an official release.

Sportacus asks where Stephanie's friends are and she says that they wanted to scout differently from her and Sportacus says that just because she disagrees with them doesn't mean they aren't friends. He further explains this argument by saying that if he liked jumping in mud puddles (I knew this show had some relation to Peppa Pig, not to mention the pink hair!) that they would still be friends.

So, anyways, after that talk, it starts to become windy and Ziggy doesn't feel so safe. Robbie however is snoring away. I think if the puppets were sane they could tell RIGHT AWAY that Robbie is the scout master. It becomes so windy that Stephanie's scouting hat and Ziggy's lollipop fly away.

Meanwhile Stingy's car rolls away (better then him rolling away). While Milford is worrying about Stephanie, Sportacus brings her safely. Then Bessie barges in and her hair looks absolutely crazy (LOL!).

Ziggy's lollipop is even stuck to her back. So, Pixel is hanging onto what Milford thinks is a giant soup bowl (but is really a satellite dish) and Sportacus saves him, Stingy and Robbie. After his hat and mustache fly away his disguise is revealed.

Robbie was not expecting to be tied by a rope, saved by Sportacus on a windy day. So I was right, it would've taken shorter to just.. ignore them. Meanwhile, after a day of arguments, Trixie and Stephanie save each other then they become best friends for the rest of the show.

Anyways, Robbie is brought in and everyone has some hot cocoa.. with marshmallows. Stingy is peeking at Robbie's cup hinting to let him have it (lol). Anyways, the weather suddenly becomes great and they all go outside. Sportacus tells Robbie that it is a bad idea to be unprepared.

Then Robbie starts rambling about how he IS ALWAYS prepared (didn't he sing "being ready isn't good"?) until Trixie, Ziggy and Stingy blow air behind him. Then he hilariously yells and climbs over the wall. They then sing the Bing Bang song.

THE END!

Honestly, that was an okay episode. The story was good, Robbie's disguise was obvious and the featured song was mediocre. Except that scout montage song, I love that song.

6/10

[theflippydodoop]

deckerstar “You are a bloody idiot, you know that?” or “You did all of this for me?” i can't choose

Hi! Thank you so much for the ask! this one was also requested by @cmais027!

I’m finally back to writing prompts after a long and busy week! This one turned out to be a little longer than usual, which is why I put a keep reading link. Hope you guys enjoy it!

#18 – You’re a bloody idiot, you know that? + #17 – You did thisall for me?

Trixie’s birthday was coming up, and Chloe really wanted todo something special for her little girl. It had been one Hell of a year and ahalf, first with Malcolm, then with her getting poisoned… and with how braveher baby girl had been, Chloe thought she truly deserved something special.Plus, they hadn’t gotten together for a day to have fun and celebrate for awhile now. Dan and she were always so busy with work these days, especiallywith the rising number of mysterious cases that always ended linking back tothe mysterious Sinnerman. Marcus didn’t give them a moment to rest, but then again,she wouldn’t have taken one either if he had.

There was only one problem.

She wanted to throw a big birthday party.

Her shared apartment with Maze was only so big, and she didn’twant any of the kids traumatized by accidentally wandering into Maze’s room whilelooking for the bathroom. She could already feel a headache coming fromimagining what that would lead to.

No, she wanted to throw a big party, the date was fastapproaching... And she had nowhere to host it.

The tension must have started to be noticeable because Dankept throwing her worried and sympathetic looks. She knew he was trying to findsomething too, that he was trying. His own apartment was much smaller thanhers. Her mother was out of town. Plus, the living room of that house hadn’tbeen all that big either and she didn’t want to have to call her mother becausethen that would lead to prodding and questions she did not want to face.

Speaking of not facing, Chloe rather obviously ducked behinda curtain of loose, blonde hair to hide from her devilish partner, who justplopped down into the seat in front of her after raiding the snack machine. Itwas late, and she could tell he was beginning to grow restless. If she wasbeing honest, so was she. But she wanted to review one more report beforecalling it quits for the night. Maybe a lead would pop up.

Yet, she couldn’t focus, her thoughts going back to Trixieand her party as her anxiety worked away at her. She began to tap her penagainst her desk unconsciously, drifting away into her thoughts as she lookedaway into a spot on the ground farther away.

It took less than a minute for Lucifer to break.

“Oh, bloody hell, Detective!” He exclaimed in exasperation,making her jump and drop her pen at the sudden shock. “You know, if you need torelease tension, you could just get a massage instead of maiming your desk! Iactually know this woman who is simply marvelous with her hands…”

“It’s not that,” she cut him off, bending over to retrieveher pen from the ground.

She should have guessed he would want more information afterthat.

When she rose back to straighten in her chair, she was metwith an expectant look from him. And maybe it was because she was exhausted andher head hurt or maybe it was because she felt overwhelmed and anxious. Butjust like she had many times before, she lowered her guards and became an openbook to him with a sigh, despite having promised herself whatever connectionthey had was over.

“Trixie’s birthday is coming up, and… And I’ve been tryingreally hard to organize a big, good party for her. Because after all that’shappened this past year, I feel like she deserves that, you know? And-and Ijust-I feel like I’m not doing as well as a job as I could be doing with her,so I’m putting all my energy into this. Except that… I don’t have where to hostit. I told Trixie she could invite twelve of her friends. But my apartment isn’tvery big and…” She ranted on and on, pouring out all of her anxiety andfrustration to him while he simply gazed at her silently, his head tiltedslightly to the side as if he was observing something fascinating.

Well, to him anything and everything The Detective said ordid was utterly fascinating to him.

And maybe, any other day, he would have simply told her notto worry about it so much and he would have given her the number of thatfantastic massage therapist.

But she looked genuinely upset and stressed, and he had beentrying to make amends for everything that had happened before. Fordisappearing, for Candy, for trying to show her. At least until he figured thatlast bit out and then he would let her see the real him. But for now, he wastrying hard to stay in her good graces. He was making an effort, even with Linda’sconsent!

So of course, helping The Detective with this problem wouldhelp ensure that.

But the deeper truth was that he couldn’t stand to see herupset, even if it was over something as trivial to him as the offspring’sbirthday party.

“Hm,” was his simple answer as her rant began to die down.He tried to appear as nonchalant as possible. “And, say… when is your offspring’sparty supposed to take place?”

“This weekend. See! I’m running out of time!” Chloeexclaimed, throwing her hands in the air before a worried sigh left her.

The gears were already turning in his head.

It was on the morning of that very Saturday that Chloe waswoken by a very excited little girl jumping on her bed.

“Mommy! Mommy, wake up!” Trixie exclaimed, shaking hershoulder to make sure she would waken.

Her mother grumbled as she opened her eyes, the brightsunlight coming into the room blinding her for a second.

“What is it, baby?” she asked groggily, rubbing her eyes andchecking the clock on her nightstand. It was only ten in the morning. UsuallyTrixie slept in on Saturdays, just like her. But today, her little monkey wasjumping on her bed, looking all excited with a beaming smile. Which wassuspicious, because her birthday was the next day and it wasn’t Christmas.

“Maze said we need to wake up and go see Lucifer! He invitedus!” Trixie told her before rushing off, just as Maze leaned against her doorframe.

“Maze, what is this?”

“Can’t tell you. Lucifer said to get dressed and come overto Lux right away. That’s all I can tell you,” the woman shrugged beforewalking away, heels clicking.

All this only confused Chloe more. Come to Lux, this earlyon a Saturday? And with Trixie? Lucifer never invited Trixie over to Lux. To otherthings, maybe. It wasn’t unheard of but neither was it common. But never everLux. Frowning, she got out of bed to get ready. As much as she hated to admit thathe had such an easy influence over her, they were going to go to Lux and seewhat it was her partner wanted. Her curiosity was both a virtue of hers and herdownfall.

Driving over to Lux, Chloe tried to come up with an idea ofwhat could be waiting for her, tuning out Maze and Trixie talking in thebackseat. But nothing seemed to hold up. Her theories would make sense if notfor a small detail. Why ask Trixie to come as well. She came up short with anyexplanation. Whatever weirdness he had concocted this time, she just hoped itwasn’t inappropriate.

Nothing on this Earth could have prepared her for the truth.

Stepping into the club, she expected to find the usual dimlighting and fancy furniture about, with the bar being tended to by anattractive bartender regardless of whether they were open or not.

That was not what she found.

Everything was decorated in happy blues and purples, with balloonsfloating around. All the tables had a white tablecloth on it and partydecorations over that. And there was a large banner where the Lux logo usuallysat at, which read “Happy birthday, Beatrice!”

Trixie jumped up and down, screaming in glee and runningaround to check out all the other activities and games in the room while Chloestill stood in her spot, gaping openly at the banner.

What was happening?!

“Ah! I see you made it!” Lucifer exclaimed with his usualglee, coming out of his private elevator. He was immediately barreled into byTrixie, who held onto him even tighter than usual.

“Thank you thank you thank you!’

“Uh, um, yes, small human. You’re quite welcome. Yourfriends will also be coming soon to play with you, so you can give them some ofthese… Close contacts. Instead of me, I mean,” he said, looking awkwardlyanywhere but Trixie and Maze, who was snickering at seeing the Devil coweringaway over a little girl. He began to grow nervous when she still didn’t let goof him. “Alright, why don’t you go exploring with Maze here while I speak toyour mother? I believe she has gone catatonic.”

“What’s that?”

“Ask Maze.”

Trixie skipped off with Maze, dragging the demon by her hand.Mazikeen had never allowed any being to drag her around, not even Lucifer. Theyhad lost limbs for less than that. And yet this human girl had her wrappedaround her little finger.

Lucifer cautiously approached Chloe. Her silence wasstarting to wear on him. Had he done something wrong? The offspring seemedrather happy but then he knew that didn’t mean Chloe would be. He had learnedthat lesson the tough way.

“Um, Detective?” He said quietly, placing a gentle hand onher arm. “Do you not like the decorations? Have I done something wrong?” Heasked, insecurity beginning to seep into his voice. He was knew to this wholebirthday party for children thing, after all. It was very likely he had gottensomething wrong.

His heart dropped further when Chloe turned and he saw tearsin her eyes, reflecting the light of the club. Oh Father, he had truly messedup, hadn’t he? He scrambles for an apology, a reason, anything! But her voicecut easily through his frantic thoughts.

“I… I don’t understand,” she said simply, frowning in completeand utter confusion at him.

Feeling a little self-conscious at having to express andexplain his feelings and thoughts, he placed his hands in his pockets as herocked back and forth slightly on his heels, looking at the floor.

“Well, you told me about how worried you were about planningthis party for your offspring and how you didn’t have somewhere to host it, so…now you do Detective,” he said softly. Again, her silence stretched out, makinghim clear his throat.

“Wait, you…” she began to say before stopping and hetentatively raised his gaze to hers, only to be et what he could only identifyas a mix of amazement and bewilderment. “You did all this for me?” Chloe askedinnocently.

She didn’t understand. She knew this was such a big thing tohim. He was opening his doors to not only her child, but others as well,because she had confided in him her anxiety about this party. And it was such abig gesture and she understood the magnitude of it but not why he had giventhis gesture to her. Not after his disappearance, and Candy, and everything. Shethought he just didn’t care about her all that much anymore.

And he read her like an open book, her thoughts clear in herwide, blue eyes.

This was a moment. It was a big moment for them, for him,and she just-

“You’re a bloody idiot, you know that?”

And the moment was gone.

“Wha-wait, what?!” Chloe spluttered in indignation, tryingto get her mind back to the here and now and not to the warm feeling that wasspreading in her chest quickly, making her breathless.

“Of course I did! Why would I do this for anyone else? Youroffspring is the only one I can tolerate! Plus, you were upset and I didn’twant that so yes, I did this for you!” Lucifer exclaimed, frustration clear inhis voice. At her lack of intuition. At her control over him. At how little hecared about that.

Instead of a proper scolding for talking to her like that,Lucifer got an armful of Chloe pressed against him in a tight hug. Burying herface into the crook of his neck, she tried to hide her sniffles.

Sometimes, when he got too loud or too distracting or justtoo Lucifer she wondered why she kept him around. He caused quote to ruckus inher life and he drove her crazy. But then, he would say or do things like thesethat were just so sweet of him, that she wondered why she would ever be angrywith him for anything to begin with. It made her wonder how she had managed tokeep him at arm’s length for so long, and why she still did.

“Thank you,” she said softly against his skin. His warmthradiated all around her, making her feel safe when he tentatively wrapped hisarms around her. “Really. Just thank you.”

And for the first time in so long, since his disappearance,perhaps even before that, it felt like they were starting to get on the samepage again.