#and ppl can be food insecure ON the meal plans!!

[sailorpants]

RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE AT INSTITUTIONAL SOLUTIONS THAT DONT ACTUALLY SOLVE FUCKING PROBLEMS

[lyneira]

♡ How to gain the cephalopod's adoration ♡

-> things you can do to make da boss swoon over you

azul x reader (fluff!)

Check out malleus' ver. / leona's ver. here!

Be thoughtful and kind, do little things for him!

Is it busy at the Mostro Lounge? Offer to help out! Are you eating Azul’s favorite food, fried chicken? Save some for him! Found any interesting coins? Hand them over to him to examine and keep! Do him little favors and give him small things that you know he’ll like. Show him that he’s been on your mind because it's about to boggle his own. This boy will be so confused at your actions because he sees the idea of giving without expecting anything back as unusual, sketchy, even. After all, many of his interactions with people have been transactional, especially with the use of his contracts. So he will ask you directly for your motives, and you’d give him an answer that would further flabbergast him: “Why not?” (which would make this guy "aaAAA MOU YADA!!" himself away from you lmaooo 💀)

One thing is for sure– he'll never forget anything you'd given him or had done for him. He wouldn’t forget a single detail because he's planning to return the favor. It wouldn’t sit right with him if he didn’t do so. And so he would pay you back by helping you study, giving you free meals at the lounge, and offering other things that would help you, all without even having to make you sign a contract.

The extent to which he does all this will also surprise you that even you will have to ask him, why? What would he gain from this? And he’ll respond that it was to simply pay you back.

Tut tut.

Keep your gaze on him because he’s not done yet. Not until you’ve seen him avert his eyes from yours, the redness in his cheeks growing brighter, and he'll softly reply,

“...Your time. I would get to spend more time with you, y/n.”

And in time, he’d eventually like to gain your heart as well, teehee ♡

(But after he says that, he'll be an absolute mess, so try not to tease him too much about it please! Dude is already so insecure about himself, don't give him another reason to be 😭 If you give him a peck on the cheek though, he might not be able to survive that either ;) )

Remind him of home by hosting a feast for him on his birthday!

In his Birthday Vignette, it’s clear to see that Azul loves his family. During those times he can’t come home for break or especially during his birthday (since it’s still wintertime), find a way to set up a feast for him like he used to when he was younger. Bring Jade and Floyd into the plan if you have to! (If you’re trying to set up the feast in the Mostro Lounge without Azul noticing, then you’ll really have to include them) Your thoughtfulness will warm his heart.

Sing with him!

Don’t be shy now. He has a thing for singing voices, so you’ve got to let him hear yours! Have him hop on the piano, chirp a few notes, and sing along with him (Or at least try to!) Have some jam sessions together, singing through both of your favorite songs, and maybe have Jade and Floyd hop in with their instruments too. (Y’all can basically be a band LOL) He’d find it so endearing! spending a good time with his favorite ppl :)

Collect coins with him!

I've already briefly mentioned this in the first bullet point but let me elaborate a bit. Whatever interesting-looking coins you have laying around or that you find outside, bring it to him. Some of them might not be worth much, but he'd enjoy examining them and figuring out its origins. If you manage to find a rare coin, the joy that will bloom on his face will be priceless (no pun intended heh) and it'd be a different type of happiness than the composed type he'd usually show. We want to see more of that!

Compliment the Mostro Lounge!

The Mostro Lounge is Azul's baby. Take notice of the things he's doing with it and how he's trying to improve it. He invests so much into his business and he will have just as much appreciation for you if you notice all these details he puts into it. Whether it's the color he chose for the tablecloths or the brand of dishware he serves with, let him know you're aware of it! It'll show that you care about what he deeply cherishes, and so will he cherish you too.

Though some parts of his childhood were rough, remind him of the best parts and have him focus on that instead. Make him feel comfortable enough that he can allow himself to truly open up to you instead of holing up in his octopus-pot 🐙

a/n: I know that description is funky but you can't tell me azul and the leech bros aren't basically the fish mafia of NRC and therefore he's *with a Brooklyn accent* da boss.

I also wanted to mention for that first bullet point, there was another thing that I was thinking of writing instead. Ok so when Azul asks you about your motives fo being so kind to him and if you were to say, "To make you happy" or smth like that, he'd probably say, "You want my happiness? Then let me have your time. It's a fair deal, no? ;) " but I scrapped that idea bc I don't think he'd be so smooth around his crush ngl LOL 😂

Anyway, Idia is probably gonna be next! Then maybe Vil or Jade, hmm

© 2023 lyneira. PLEASE DO NOT COPY, PLAGIARIZE, TRANSLATE, OR REPOST MY WORKS ONTO OTHER PLATFORMS

[crushedgraham]

Widowmaker x younger gf headcanons pls

Widowmaker x Younger gf HC's

probably made her ooc but i think these are funny

she's, to put it lightly, a boomer...

ik she's only in her 30's but girlie lives in an isolated castle and spends her days journaling.

literally doesn't understand memes nowadays

will stare blankly or side eye you when you show her tiktoks

when you two are driving together, she's always reluctant to give you aux bc new music is just...unappealing to her

(she secretly listens to kali uchis, nicki minaj and lady gaga when she thinks she's alone. olivia sent you a video from the cameras of her rapping along to chun-li and you've never been the same.)

ANYWAYS...speaking of driving. she almost always drives bc she wants to give you that passenger princess treatment but girl strap in bc...her road rage is literally so bad- 💀

ITS WORSE BC SHES FRENCH TOO

will literally weave through lanes while cursing in french about how slow these ppl are

she tries to keep up her mysterious aura around you by acting uninterested when you watch tv but you know she's secretly having the time of her life hearing that drama

if you like k-dramas? she'll laugh at those dramatic scenes where the main girl's doing those ugly scream-cries (NO HATE IM KOREAN)

i feel like the age/generational gap lowkey makes her sad sometimes

like she'll see the banter/connection you have with your friends and she'll feel a dull ache in her chest because she knows she'll never have that with you

not only that but a large part of her also worries that as she ages more than you, you won't find her as attractive (she won't ever admit this but after her skin turned blue, she felt hideous. it was just a reminder of the monster she had turned into)

she spends her days meticulously meal planning nutritionally rich food and skin care routines that help with wrinkles

you always try your best to reassure her that you'll always find her beautiful, no matter how she ages

and those nights where she let's her guard down to talk about her insecurities? your hand will rest against her cheek as tears run down her face and she'll turn her face to kiss the palm of your hand

she won't say much but you can tell that's how she expresses her gratitude

amelie's funny in her own way too!

she'll just do the most random shit like making a dirty face at a dog that wants a little too much attention from you and you'll laugh while kissing her cheek

or when she sees you in an outfit that highlights your body just right she'll go "Oh là là!" while smirking and you just start laughing bc that phrase is just so silly and it caught you off gaurd

if you post pictures of yourself on social media, amelie will definitely make one of her own just to patrol the comments every now and then to make sure no one's getting too friendly with you

(someone commented "😈💦💦" one time and the look on her face was priceless "I do Not like the insinuations of these tiny images. would you like me to kill them 😠" "babe they're just emojis-")

[trickstarbrave]

i hate when ppl dont understand how intertwined all the fucked up systems of capitalism are. they present it as "take away [x] and things will work better!" when that damn well will not fix it. or they dont even realize the problem is actually capitalism not some other thing they have been fixated on

like. veganism argument: "we subsidize grains to feed livestock. if we stopped feeding livestock, we would have more food for everyone! the problem is livestock are eating too much of grains we could be eating"

a lot of the corn they are eating are byproducts of the ethanol industry. we are not in fact just growing huge fields of grains and refusing to eat them bc we can feed cows it instead. that would be way too costly. "subsidies" wouldn't cover it. at no point was the corn being grown for human consumption. most of the corn in the US is grown for biofuel. without livestock, we would not have MORE food to eat, we'd have a lot of leftover slop we have to toss out to slowly degrade in landfills.

its not the most healthy option to pump them full of byproducts. they should be allowed to forage and walk. but the problem is much more complex than than just "get rid of the cows to make more food for people!!" the cows eating the byproducts is whats making more food for people. not less. you can't just look at "grain products" and decide all of those were fit for human consumption. most of the stuff we feed farm animals is NOT fit for human consumption. for better or for worse.

and this is only one problem. some are relatively easy solutions (once all of the, yknow, capitalist incentive is removed) like how we have more houses than homeless people. just give people houses. except we should also look at: where are these houses being built, are they being built for quality and to last? because the answer is: they are built mostly in suburbs for cheap with lazy building standards and poor quality materials. we are tearing down homes with better bones and foundations for cheap, paper thin wood, new construction houses when many of them can be saved. these are homes far away from doctors and jobs that you actually need a car to get around to important places, so many people who don't have reliable transportation will still have many problems once settled in. to create more sustainable, walk-able communities and to have better public transportation we are still gonna need to tear a bunch of these down and rebuild communities, which is going to be a daunting task too.

food insecurity: okay we'll just give people food! except they might not have reliable ways to cook that food either. a lot of people who are food insecure grew up food insecure. they grew up in food deserts where microwave self stable meals were the norm. they might not have pots and pans or know how to find a recipe or make one themselves. many are chronically ill or disabled and don't have a lot of time and energy to cook. many people still think its better to give a food bank 10 cans of green beans that you forgot about and don't plan to use in donations rather than just giving the food bank 30 bucks.

idk. i dont really have an answer i suppose. i just wanted to complain about how messy and complicated these problems are. and i think if you're a serious activist you are going to need better, long term plans and big picture perspectives. these problems can seem incredibly easy to tackle on the surface to lots of online activists but are very complex issues to actually dismantle and combat. we can't just keep complaining and hope society collapses so we can rebuild from scratch. there is no after the revolution when everything will be good and perfect. no after the end of the world to pick ourselves up and make a utopia from the ashes. we gotta figure out the problem and start untangling it and deal with the first steps NOW. start with realistic goals. contacting local government. creating bettering, temporary solutions that are better than what we have now. disrupt the system bit by bit. get other ppl in on it. the world we wanna live in will not come to us overnight. we gotta build it brick by brick.

capitalism counts on it being too daunting of a task. they count on ppl just complaining and wishing it was better to sell them the solution without any real change. but real change has to come from small shit first. maybe start a community garden if you want a more sustainable community. make your own garden if you have the ability. collect rain water (YES ITS LEGAL IN ALL 50 STATES just heavily regulated in some. dont tell me its illegal in the US). create alternatives for companies you boycott. tell your local representative you want public transport and ask how to get it and rally your community for it enough that they have to bother ppl higher than them and actively have to start considering it. do ride shares. help out food banks with real stuff they ask for. look around your community for small problems you can address and find solutions.

[szopenhauer]

When was the last time you watched a VHS movie? I don’t even remember but I know I still watched VHS when we had DVD already and most of ppl no longer used/owned VHS anymore

Do you know when to use ‘to’ & ‘too’? yup

Do you ever get frustrated&say 'nevermind’ when people just don’t get it? I do at times

What was the last thing you cleaned&why? I washed my hair if that counts XD

Don’t those weightloss pill commercials just irritate you? yeah

What happened in the last TV show you watched? I’ve learned a bit about Shadow weaver

*and now as I wanted to add a gif I found out even more...

Do you ever correct grammar/spelling errors your friends make? I try not to as much as I used to but I’m still tempted 

What physical features can you just not stand about yourself? my skin for an example

Do you still count with your fingers, even if only every so often? yep

The last time you spent money, what was it on & how much did you spend? my mom paid for the last things I bought in second hand - torba, bluza, koszula biała (wreszcie dorwałam) i legginsy SW

Don’t you believe you’re not really a vegetarian if you still eat chicken? watch Scott Pilgrim movie

In elementary school, were you more of the bully or the bullied? I’ve been the victim of bullying

How much do you say you walk in a week? lots

Is there anything you wish your parents did differently in raising you? maybe

What is the greatest source of anxiety for you? food allergies What was the last appointment or plan you had to cancel? Saturday’s meeting with my gf, she was supposed to visit me  What is going right in your life right now? I thought that my love life What is going wrong in your life right now? everything Did you do anything today that you can be proud of? I organized my wardrobe/closet/clothes Would you ever want to be an architect? more an interior designer

What is one thing you would do to make the world better? destroy/delete/cancel all diseases/illnesses What do you think makes you attractive to other people? ask my current partner Would more money make you happier? yasss What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do in your life? live

If you were a holiday, which one would you be? hmm... Are you afraid of anything that most people are not afraid of? I suppose but that’s personal Would you have a pet dragon? If so what color would it be? better not ^^” unless it’s tiny like in Moomins but doesn’t blow fire  If you could be skinny and miserable or fat and happy, which would you be? fat and happy  If you were to invent something, what would it be? cure for allergies (or just all health problems at once) Do you fear death? kinda If you could name your own planet, what would you call it? probably Lazzo or Chinpolsafryamerros If you could live another 200 years. What would you hope to see? world getting better How would you rate yourself? depends Do you still collect toys from Happy Meals? I’ve had only one - Eeyore  What have you achieved that you once thought was impossible? being in a relationship? What have you tried to quit, but weren’t able to? life... What do you know how to cook? water

Quick choose, green or blue? green Does the number ten have an special meaning to you? nah Who is better Superman or Spiderman? Spiderman Have you ever felt like you found ‘the one’? I feel this way now and hope I’m not wrong  Have you ever had a pet that you disliked? not really Do you need to clean your room? my desk How many TV’s are in your house? just 1 and we don’t use it at all 

Have you ever given a nickname to your pet(s)? my dog has several Does it seem like everything gives you cancer these days? sadly

Are you homophobic I’m homosexual so... Name a song that is overplayed some tik tok songs I guess What is the most expensive thing on you at the moment my slippers for about 20 PLN

Is there anyone in the room with you? I’m alone

Who have you texted today? mad and M. Sweet or sour? sweet, GERD makes all food sour enough :( Are you waiting for anything? for example - appointments Does the time 2 o'clock have any significance to you? nope Are there any stuffed animals in the room you’re in? ton Where’s your mother? sleeping Is there anything hurting you, on your body right now? more like itch/bother What’s the best time you’ve had in the past week? hard to tell What’s the last thing you touched that wasn’t a part of the computer? my chin Are you waiting for a phone call? in the middle of the night? :o When’s the last time you used hand sanitizer? today Wearing anything that isn’t yours? why would I?

Are you one of those people who are always cold? not as much as my mother but still

Are you anything like your siblings? uhm... When was the last time you shaved your legs? recently Are you a fan of Miranda Cosgrove? why did I thought about Devil wears Prada when her surname was Priestly?...

Do you like long bike rides? not long Will Friday be a good one? doubt it When was the last time something bothered you? atm Can you speak French or Spanish? neither Do you own a pair of yellow socks? mhm What school year do you think was the saddest? first year of middle school? Was today someones birthday that you know? no one I know  Have you drank any water today? obvi When was the last time you had a crowd at your house? how many ppl is the crowd in your opinion because for me that’s 4+ ppl lmfao Do you currently have any mosquito bites? luckily not Do you think it would be cool to have a gummy bear lamp? it’s cute but no thx Do you have a goat? ... no Do you say “Okay” or “Alright” more? ok, I don’t use alright like ever

Do you like your personality? it’s complicated Are you happy with your appearance? I have bunch of insecurities How’s your life at home? sigh... Do you have any mental disorders? couple Have you ever thought of suicide? constantly lately Do you know someone who committed suicide? those who tried

Is there someone you can’t imagine life without? yet we can’t live without whoever, sad Your enemy dies. How do you feel? ... Do you wake up in a good mood in the mornings? r u kidding me? What is your mom’s maiden name? not your business Would you rather receive balloons or flowers for valentine’s day? smth else Do you follow the crowd when it comes to trends or do your own thing? my own thing Where were you at eleven this morning? shopping with mom How was your day? not good Are you more of a tomboy or a girly girl? in between? Have you ever been proposed to? I have not been proposed to  Have you ever seen two people together and you got sick to your stomach? ha! common reaction Does the thought of marriage scare you? slightly Is it true that faith is believing when common sense tells you not to? in some cases? 

[ms-marmar]

quarantine relapse

hey y’all! i hope you’re safe and healthy. with the state of things around the world, it’s hard not to feel distress, hopelessness, anxiety, pain, and a whole lot of other negative feelings. 

for one thing, quarantine has been difficult, to say the least. ive come to notice that many (myself included) have created expectations for themselves to practice certain behaviors during this pandemic in efforts to try to carry on as if things were normal, minimize the effects that this shift in environment has on us, and prevent ourselves from becoming “lazy.” ppl have set out to try to be more productive (from home), follow a schedule, dabble into new hobbies, work out from home, try new recipes and diets, etc. 

unfortunately, many face even more struggles with this pandemic than just a shift from their daily routine. many of you are facing insecurities regarding your health, employment, finances, and much more. such pressures can trigger increased anxieties and lead to the unhealthy coping mechanisms (ie. self harm, restricting, binging, purging, etc) that you’ve built up over time.

i struggled (and still struggle) to commit to a routine, often feeling guilty for failing to do so. i thought about how i was lucky to be in the comfort of my financially stable household, seemingly separated from the outside world and personally unaffected by the coronavirus. i have so much privilege in this moment that i shouldn’t be feeling such despair and instability. im stuck at home, with nothing to do but sit around on my laptop to attend online classes and try to find some hobbies to pass the time. even though everything else going in the world hangs in my mind like a grey cloud of concern, the biggest worry constantly invading my mind was just about what i had to eat. im sure youve heard ppl despair over the possibility of gaining weight by staying cooped up at home, unable to go outside or to the gym. in a house full of food, many of which are “fear foods” with long shelf lives, ive been battling the temptation to mindlessly binge on snacks all day. it’s also easy to opt out for restricting. for instance, when supplies are low at the store, you decide NOT to get that last loaf of bread, thinking someone else could use it more than you. by justifying that you dont need that food, it can become a cycle of justifying that you dont need any food. there’s also that feeling of guilt that arises when you do get the food, knowing full well it’s something that’ll just get purged. there are numerous experiences y’all have gone through and are (re)facing right now as a result of our present day. the pandemic has created circumstances in which new thoughts and anxieties provide a gateway to practicing disordered eating behaviors as a source of relief.

as a result of this quarantine climate, all these thoughts and expectations, many of which have resurfaced from the shame and guilt ive already felt for years, continued to build up. my concern over weight gain turned into fear, and i fell back into the vicious cycle of binging and purging. 

thing is, nothing right now is normal. the moment we’re living in is beyond control. it’s natural to feel helpless. however, we can’t let that take over our lives. the “little” things we can contribute every day to help the cause (ie. social distancing, limiting going outside, being hygienic, showing appreciation to essential workers, keeping yourself and others informed, donating to groups, etc) can go a long way. you’re not helpless if you can do something to show your support. additionally, we don’t need to punish ourselves for the changes we’re experiencing. staying at home might mean we don’t move around as often, and that’s okay. you being hungry after sitting all day? also okay! all these are natural as we adjust to these lifestyle changes. 

apologies i am late with this. for some, quarantine restrictions are easing up. however, pls continue to limit your outside excursions,practice social distancing and hygiene, and wear masks. times are ambiguous and cases are still very much present (and numbers continue to rise). in addition, social justice movements have experienced a recent surge. pls be safe and support your families, friends, and communities. we all deserve to be treated equally and need to stand up to oppressive systems in whatever ways we can. take time to educate yourselves and others, while maintaining a balance in order to not overwhelm yourselves and create more stress/anxiety. i know these ideas seem contradictory, but i know each of us have different thresholds for stress. find yours and develop healthy mechanisms to cope with them. reaching out is always the best option. 

takeaways n important things to keep in mind or try (some of which you may have already heard before; however, sometimes we need a reminder):

-its okay to relapse. recovery is full of ups n downs, its not linear

-u dont have to earn the right to eat. ur body is communicating to you what it needs. if you’re confused over your hunger and satiety levels, which often happens due to changes in brain chemistry, maybe this guideline is helpful. it’s from one of my lectures in an eating disorders class i took last quarter. act according to your body’s physiological responses. if you’re hungry, please eat. if you’re about to go over your fullness levels, please stop yourself and do something else to distract you. maybe call a friend to hold yourself accountable. ik everything is easier said than done, and i struggle with this myself, but every thought and effort counts:

-limit your media use. sometimes watching the news all day or watching how others seem to be doing great in quarantine can trigger anxiety and disappointment. opt for enjoyable activities, learn something new, or meditate. 

-try to eat regularly. 2-3 meals a day, with some snacks between. do not ignore your hunger cues. you might then become very hungry, which increases the likelihood of binging then purging. 

-you’re not alone. many articles have been written about how quarantine has made a hard blow to everyone, especially those with need insecurities and/or mental illness. i encourage you to please reach out to any trusted individual in some way if you’re experiencing any challenges. refer to the bottom of this post for some links about having ed’s during the pandemic. seek covid relief and emergency funds if you are in need (here’s an informational website with grant resources in the US link)

-having said that, seek out a support system. therapists, support groups, etc have moved online. now is the time to join them, especially if you haven’t had time in the past. talk to friends and/or family when you can. be transparent with your needs. 

-feel free to reblog with or comment any resources you may find helpful for others

there are definitely some viewpoints that i’ve missed, and i apologize if through this post i haven’t made you feel a part of this struggle when it’s something you also experience. i just want to say that every experience is valid, and they vary widely. eating disorders affect ANYONE. i wrote this mainly with my own experiences and observations in mind, and i’d love for you all to share your own stories. i want you to keep fighting through. i want you to see the end of this pandemic, to be able to go outside again and experience life to its fullest. all those plans you had but were forced to cancel? you can do them when things have become okay again. didnt have plans? make some so you have something to look forward to when this is over. you have to conquer this battle by putting your health first and realizing the danger you’re putting your body in when you engage in disordered eating. there’s so much waiting for you in the future. recovery is a long, hard journey that we’re reluctant to embark on at first. but i promise that nothing will feel as beautiful and relieving than when you live free from this toxic mindset. pls stay safe everyone. my heart goes out to you and all the different struggles you’re facing. we’re in this together. 

thank you if you’ve read this and made it this far. 

articles about ed’s during quarantine:

1 2 3 4 5 

ms-marmar xx

[prynnehesters]

uh, so my parents are PISSED at my sister because she spends more money than allotted to her at uni

so like, she has her meal card and it’s really weird because p much every uni i visited was like “you have a meal plan level/size and it’s either you get allotted a certain # of meals (buffet style or cafe style) or you get a cash sum of some sort and that counts towards your quarter’s meals and like...my mom puts $400 on it each month, so that should be enough for food, right (when i was in uni i spent like, $200 on food or so)? like, my parents pay $200 a week for food so that’s like...800 for our family a month. but like...the way she spends her money is AWFUL

so like, when i was in uni, i got a credit card to make purchases w and i had 2k on it per month, but i never spent the entire 2k, probably like, 200 for food and maybe something else. i would spend my own money on other purchases (like clothes or going out to eat w friends) 

but like...my sis is abusing the hell out of the credit card because she uses it to buy online stuff, eat out a few times a week (or order takeout), and my parents have complained to her abt it but she doesnt listen

she also admitted to me abt stealing things and how she hasnt since last year but i just cant take it anymore. im ready to strangle her and i want to move out so i can ignore her forever. i cant believe that she is this shitty and going to racism university has made her an even shittier person. 

she’s just a huge bitch and i feel like if she died, i wouldn’t care. i already live in fear of her bcuz she’s a bully and she plays it off and keeps doing shit

like, she comes home in a month or so, and she doesn’t have a ride at all. she’s gonna bring a buncha stuff home from uni. and she couldn’t find someone to drive her or to get a ride on the cross state bus so my family has to go 5.5 hrs to pick her up and her things and....i dont want this. 

she’s like “i hate my uni it’s so dumb” and yet she embodies so much abt it. idk if her view on trans ppl (and i feel like lgbt ppl in general) has changed. 

and then she’ll b here for like, a month before going to camp in the summer (she leaves like...mid-late june) but i just want her out of the house for good. 

i dont know what happened for her to become so shitty. like, im not perfect, im awkward and insecure, but she’s on an entirely different level of shitty than anyone i know