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d3stinyist1red · 2 days

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GIRLIE, YANDERE OLDER MAFIA BOSS!!(TAKE YOUR TIME IF YOU HAVE OTHER REQUESTSSSS!!💗)

ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ᴍᴀғɪᴀ ʙᴏss x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ

yan mafia boss who you work under, with him being your boss and your his right hand woman

yan mafia boss who treats you like you own him, following with whatever you say

yan mafia boss who doesnt like any medics touching him, wanting you to be one treating him

The medic was standing in front of him, clearly fearful for her life bc the man in front of her could kill her if she did the slight mistake. She tried to pat and help the wounds of the Mafia boss who smacked her hand away and huffed.

"Bring me my n/n, now." He said glaring at her as she quickly nodded, basically running to you. She told you about how he refused to let her help and touch him as you sighed. You rubbed your temple before nodding and smiling at her.

"Don't worry, Ill deal with him." You said politely, nodding at her before walking past her, going to the room where he was at. You opened the door and you saw the way his eyes lit up, and a grin landed on his usually nonchalant face. "Love!" He said, as you walked up to him.

"Why are always acting so stubborn to the medics? You know that they're there to help you, idiot." You said clearly irritated, making him pout and tilt his head. "But, I want you to help me!!...and have your hands all over my body..." He whined, grabbing your hand and resting it on his cheek, looking up at you with hearts in his eyes.

yan mafia boss who has to always be in constant contact with you

ʏ/ɴsᴅ𝟷ᴅɪᴄᴋʀɪᴅᴇʀ!

n/nnn

where are uuuuu

n/nnnnn

n/nnnn

...?

...

no reply?

Have other hoes?

YOU DO DONT YOU?!!!?!?!!?

i hate u.

You getting blocked.

dont talk to me. I know you hate me.

Okay, im going to kill my self.

...?

....

...

This is (yans name, yall could make sum up) cat, he just shot himself

do you love him

...

...?

baby you know that was all a prank

i love u

pls let me eat ur ass

i wanna slurp ur kitty so good that the only thing i could taste is u mami

(seen 1 min ago)

ʏ/ɴsᴅ𝟷ᴅɪᴄᴋʀɪᴅᴇʀ!

ur rlly gonna leave me on seen?

ur lucky i dont come and cream all over ur face rn

pls touch me

yan mafia boss who has his bodyguards protect you no matter where you go

"Okat sigma 1, hawk tuah, ohio go protect n/n, you better fucking protect her with your life, ya hear?!" He said to his bodygaurds aggressively, scowling them down as they shook in fear,....i think one of them peed their pants...erm!

yan mafia boss who is madly jealous, putting a bullet into anyone's head he sees as threat for your love.

yan mafia boss who when you arent around, he struggles to sleep. He tosses and turns, his mind racing with scenarios about what they might be doing or who they’re with. "is she with that ugly bitch from work again?! Is she with one of my bodyguards?! Is she cheating on me?!" He hiccuped through his sobs, biting on his nails, hair all messy from tossing and turning throughout his sleep

He often wakes up in a cold sweat, feeling empty without them next to him. If you spends the night somewhere else, he'll start spamming you on everything even roblox.. If you dont answer within 5 mins, he immediately sends his men to try to find you, and paces around his house, restless waiting for your reply. bruh u were js buying sum takis...

yan mafia boss who is your boss who favors you a little too much!!! <333

IM PROB GONNA UPDATE SOME MORE ON TUMBLR BUT IM STILL ON BREAK ON WATTPAD CUZ I LOST MY GOD DAMN PHONEEE

SORRY IF THIS IS SHORT I DIDNT RLLY KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR MAFIA BOSS YAN

#yandere x reader #yanderemalexreader #soft yandere #clingy yandere #tw yandere #yandere blog #yandere x darling #yandere boyfriend #yandere male #yandere #yandere mafia #destinys worksss<333

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skunkg1rll · 5 months

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he still hasn't replied and it's making me wanna die so bad tbh

#i sent another message yesterday... just to be like..#pls im dying pls just say smth T-T but yeah if he doesn't care i can't force him i know #but it hurts so bad idk #we were talking and everything was fine then suddenly he just unfollowed me without talking to me about it #and then just.. did not wanna talk. and then just dont reply #and i...... like genuinely feel like i got my heart ripped out of my chest #one day we were talking and friends and everything was ok then the next day it's all gone #and i feel like i cant breathe lol #and it sucks that if he cared he would send a message to reassure me or talk to me but he doesnt care #and i have to accept that #even if i wanna talk and be friends i cant make him want that too #i know that #it still hurts so bad tho

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#social interactions w irl ppl makes me so anxious #bc like some ppl u talk to on tumblr and twitter have a bigger understanding of like beinf different and stuff #but irl ppl are different and i have to mask sm #my old friend replied.. and then i replied and now i have new messages from him T-T #and the thing is that bc of our past #i have sm anxiety abt not replying fast enough or being too depressing or saying no bc he always #got bad abt it and even ghosted me 🤙#so now i feel sm anxiety bc im like omg i gotta reply fast but idk what to say and i secondguess and overthink every single word #:'))) dont get me wrong i am suprised he replied and also said he had missed me and wanted to write me a letter and thanked me for hanging #out w him during highschool bc he didnt know how he wouldve survived without that #and im like woah???? i actually exist to ppl? ppl actually think of me :o #it's smth i struggle with a lot bc of avpd and smth that i sabotage connection with :(((#but yeah i was like ok damn?? cool!!!!#(then tbh i feel so depressed and numb so i honestly dont *feel* that much like i feel emotionally shut off)#but i still think it's prettyyy neat :3 idk emotionally im a wreck #i dont wanna sound like an asshole when i say 'i dont feel anything' but i just... dont #anyway i still did miss him so i would never lie or be dishonest or disgenuine #but it is anxious that i need to mask a bit bc im scared of him not wanting to talk to me if im too honest or too weird or whatever #still i will keep trying to reply even if i dont know what to say until he might stop replying lol who knows T-T #sry im negative but im rlly trying but i dont want to do anything and i dont.. feel anything

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dreamieparadise · 24 days

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Mimi x Takeshi

See my ingenious tags below

#mimi x yamamoto #LMAOOOO UM ANYWAYS FJDJDJKDKDJEJE #Back to regularly schedueled postings 🙂‍↕️#you will not be seeing a back and forth on the TL bc I blocked op after my reply lmaoooo #I was like 'well this is for the best' *blocked* dont wanna take over their posts again I guess???#honestly a part of me is annoyed and like 'is it that serious??' but I also think its annoying when my posts get derailed #but also it was in the tags??? and I feel like once a post is in the void its out of your hands #I say that bc I've had my posts derailed in a way that irked tf out of me but what can you do??#besides make it not reblogable lol #or block!!!#but like it IS also true that it sucks when you're talking about women and it gets derailed about men #not that this is that but op didnt know that and just read He Pronouns so 😭 its also a fact they arent Butch x Butch #another reason I just blocked op bc tbh I did not want to go into an explanation of my brainrot ship lmaooo #or have them snoop on my page to understand?? like this is my happy brainrot place please leave NSWJSK #reminder to just steal images that op most likely did not create instead of tagging I guess lmaoooo

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ichigosoju · 4 months

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#umm he couldnt even be bothered to react to my messages with emojis?!?!?#like he said that he isnt up for talking and i respect that #i asked him if it's still ok for me to message him and he said 'ofc'#so i did.... i had to push myself bc im feeling like he hates me and doesnt wanna hear from me #all of my disorders saying that haha #so i pushed myself to message him when i wanted to #but.... ok i didnt expect him to reply #but he read it and didnt even give me an emoji #im aware that i sound crazy #this is just how im FEELING #i feel stupid and ashamed for thinking he even wants to listen to me yap about nonsense #i hate myself for being so stupid and sending him pics and a video of the crow i saw #like shut up dumb bitch nobody cares!!!!!!!! shut up #no wonder he cant be in love with me #im pathetic and stupid #his ex that he actually loves is probably smart and witty and cool #and would never be such a fkn loser like i an #am*#god... genuinely hate myself #why dont i know how to shut up??#definitely wont be messaging him anymore now jesus christ im so embarrassing #im still hurt tho like couldnt he at least have reacted with an emoji #is that too much to ask for......#i mean listen in any relationship #where u have disorders.. communication and BOTH ppl making an effort is needed #the only way our 'friendship' is even working is bc im just allowing him to do whatever #and im just dealing with the emotional suffering lol #he doesnt even make an effort to reassure me or anything #so yes i cant force him or ask anything of him. but i FEEL hurt by how im not worthy of anything to him #while im over here allowing him to hurt me constantly sksksk

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munamania · 6 months

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and is there not just generally a certain level of decency that would make you like ease up on a person who's obviously more than a little frazzled i am sorry that i cant process all my feelings and regurgitate them to you in an easily digestible manner while im actively In a situation or have a prepared disclaimer about how im so sorry but im just overwhelmed and need you to leave me alone right now or whatever else maybe i just dont know maybe i cant tell you exactly what im feeling or need and if i have to figure it out and explain that to you my brain is going to explode. but you could read the room. is there not a point where a friend would probably just go oh okay let me not continue pushing this person let me take a moment to reflect on their state and perhaps try to ease that or at least not keep fucking pushing on it. and also maybe not choose these moments to make otherwise innocuous but contextually just kinda meanspirited jabs. ok whatever

#not to be a sensitive little bitch except im not.#i dont want to be rude or too explicitly open about the things i dont really like to talk about #but sometimes. frankly. people need to take on the weight of their own feelings. insecurities. thoughts. etc and then some #some of us grew up with little to no emotional support and in fact took on the weight of their family's issues and the brunt of their #emotional immaturity and sometimes that makes someone feel fundamentally rattled and unsafe in moments like that #some of us had pretty much every big personal emotional. thing. that happened to them minimized and turned into some tragic #family conversation. or had someone reply like huh idk if that could have happened to you i certainly dont remember that #and then you wonder if people were ever looking out for you and if the ones that did just truly didnt care.#um. anyway. this is not just to be like oh im so quirky and different and traumatized lol but im reaching a boiling point when it comes #to people just like. doing this shit. or whatever. im going to start screaming #i shouldnt have to bare my fucking soul to you for you to go oh huh maybe this is a sensitive subject perhaps #frankly we arent the same and we dont relate and aw bummerooni ik im not the only sufferer but good god.#our lives were very different in some ways!#and sometimes all i want is for someone to say its ok kid you did good #again. not to be dramatic. but when ive talked about MY upheaval of feelings or w/e like if thats been impacting #how ive been acting and people start crying at me or get all whatever. oh it makes me wanna be the one to pass the torch #yeah man imagine how tired we are.#ok talking incoherently now so im gonna go do my job i guess.#abby talks #i know no one will save me but maybe sometimes it’d be nice to share the weight regardless

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waywardsalt · 1 year

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now bc of that one post abt zelda getting fridged whenever that one guy directs a zelda game im thinking abt tetra just getting turned to stone in ph and like. what would it have been like if she were an actual character in ph. what would she have done how would this have changed the story

#not gonna do a whole lot of tagging im just musing. if you wanna rb or reply with ideas thats great #im not the person to figure this out bc i dont actually care much abt tetra #not like oh i hate her but like. i only played ph and what i see of her beyond that has not endeared me to her #shes fine i just dont get it. ig cuz i didnt play ww but eh #cuz like. ok. pretty much the majority of phs plot relies on tetra having been turned to stone and fixing that #and me being the autistic little freak i am the psrt that also makes it hard for me to wonder what could happen if #tetra werent stone and that making the game better is like. ok what about linebeck and his arc #listen his arc is so fucking good and hes great and i dont think his arc would have been so good if link wasnt the character he was put wit #cuz link is a great foil and despite having minimal characterization has just the right personality to nudge linebeck along #cuz hes def part of what inspires some of that change in linebeck so idk what might have happened #if tetra was an active player interacting with him in ph too. cuz like idk most of the time when i see people #do stuff where they interact its usually tetra one upping linebeck or whatever and thars like. ok thats whar ciela does #maybe im reading into it too much and focusing on linebeck. idk how you couldve done and changed #the plot of ph to include tetra without just straight up rewriting the whole thing or putting link away #bc look me in the eyes. i do not think linebeck would have developed the way he did without having met link specifically #salty talks #idk i feel like linebecks arc is the best bit of story in ph so i want that to remain more or less intact bc thats where a lot of #the emotional stuff comes in at the end. his dialogue in the ghost ship battle and the final boss. its important #i dont think about tetra much cant you tell. so id leave this to someone who actually cares abt her as a character

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g0thsoojin · 2 months

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#like i wanna be in love and be obsessed w eo #i wanna cut ourselves together. i cut them and they cut me and then we mix our blood together #i wanna wear a vial with their blood around my neck and i want them to have one of mine #u cant do this with 'normal' ppl lmao #and most ppl wouldnt really do this anyway like this is very rare to actually have irl #and ofc at least for me i have to love them deeply to wanna do this #:(((( and i just feel that way w him #and also i never wanted or thought abt it #but he talked once abt fantasizing abt branding me #and then i started to think abt that too.. being branded by HIM???#being so precious and important and loved by him that he'd brand me??? :((((#god... want that so bad #and also it's not only connected to me but it's smth he wants to do #but he wants to tattoo his love's name on his cock #and i mean we were that close that he wrote my name on his dick and sent me a pic #so ... yeah this is def not onesided and in my head as i've been told 💀#and plus.... he isnt the lying type like i genuinely believe he doesnt lie #he mostly just dont say anything at all rather than lies #but i know u can never truly know even if u trust someone #but he told me he hadnt even written anyone's name on him and mine was the first time #(i think he said this now i start doubting myself maybe he never wrote that.. i can just check but dont wanna open our messages lol)#so... yeah. all of this hurts so bad #bc he did want me and have these feelings for me #i just fucked up and pulled away and was distant and made him think i didnt care for him #i made him feel like he didnt matter. and when i look at it in hindsight i actually get it #i agree. my disorders makes it so scary and hard for me to express and show i care #i shouldve interacted w his blogs as i wanted to #i shouldve replied and sent asks and gushed abt him which i wanted to do #i shouldve messaged him all the things i wanted #i shouldved gushed abt him on my blog (instead of only talking abt how nobody cares abt me and how lonely i am

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kurthorton-moving · 7 months

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you guys dont understand. when this revamp is done. im gonna be so active

#i say this. i dont actually intend on moving kurt at this moment in time like. 'revamp' and its me just redoing his carrd and graphics #im mostly talking abt he multi revamps when my multi and my pearl ridge blogs r revamped u will see. i will be insane #i fuckin better be do you guys know how absolutely awful it is to make a carrd w identical info pages for over 30 muses #do you realize how much of a bitch it is to have to copy two or three containers into every muses page #carrd is the bane of my existence but unfortunately fits my aesthetic desires better than anything easier #anyway i should just write here #i do wanna. i wanna clear out my drafts and inbox do a sort of soft refresh here but also. no i dont #those are my emotional support 242 unanswered asks #if i delete them what will i write on a rainy day (i do not write them now why would that ever change)#i look at them and go 'oh thats too old to reply to' and move on #staring lovingly at the valentines 2023 ask in my inbox. allie babygirl i love u im sorry kurt never returned ur affections that year #or this year #he did mentally i stare at those asks and desire to reply every day

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katandsquad · 9 months

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#i'm just so tired and angry about everything #i'm late on my period #that could explain why i'm feeling like that #i'm just hurt and annoyed by my irl friends #lately i'm always the one that reaches out to them #except for 2 people #and even of they reach out to me ots just because they wanna know something that would benefit them #i know they are not doing that on purpose #shit still hurts #i'm just so tired of saying “oh dont worry its fine”#its not fine if you take 2-4 weeks to reply to something #especially if you asked me something and i gave you an answer immediately #its not fine when you havent messaged me in a month just to ask where you can buy something specific #i'm tired of people asking me how i am and when i tell them that i'm fucking depressive #they just go “oh sorry to hear that. i'm here for you. anyway did you know.”#or “anyway look at these tiktoks”#i'm just angry and tired today #i dont want to talk to anyone #i'm also very upset that havent found a new job yet #the unemployment center hasnt paid me my money yet either #i'm losing it

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skunkg1rll · 5 months

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#i think maybe he got upset...#because he tried talking to me on anon and i was volatile and didn't appreciate what was said from a stranger #maybe. i am not 100% it was him though i really don't know. but it could've been #OR it was because i was having a mental breakdown #and was also seeing a lot of articles and stuff about men raping their girlfriends #and i was feeling so scared of the world #and i was alone and everything felt so dark #so i spiraled and was just being scared and vented #plus i was having pms which always makes me feel x100 worse #so maybe those posts hurt him?#idk idk..#i just wish ... i wish he could know that #he is the one i want and trust and love and feel safe and comfortable with him #i *know* that i would be safe with him #i wish he could see inside my brain and heart #but i don't even know what he feels for me because we don't talk about anything like that #he has left me alone to cry and hurt several times now #i just wish he would tell me when why and what i did so i could know #now im alone and dont know and he isn't replying and i wanna die #maybe i hurt him in a way i don't deserve to know. maybe i should've known better?#idk anymore #all i know is that im here begging him to talk to me but he isnt replying and he isnt telling me what i did #and i cant force him #all i can do is keep crying alone and hope i fall asleep

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atsu-i · 1 year

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Hello, I just saw the anon ask talking about you not being on tumblr that much anymore and we don't really talk to eachother (I think we only ever exchanged messages once), but I wanted to say, while I can, that I have wonderful memories of this website and a lot of them include seeing the mangacaps that you reblog or reading your tags, including all of the occasional venting and even some of the adorable auntie stories.

If you allow me to ramble a little bit, I want to talk about the blog that you called "shitty" and how I think it is actually really cool.

You might not think that you do much because you mostly just reblog stuff, but I feel like all the mangacaps that you reblog are more meaningful than most people think. I think that they are an act of self-expression and throughout the years I've felt like those kinds of posts express a desire that people have to be more honest with their feelings and put them out into the world. I've felt like the mangacaps, combined with all of your text posts, probably do accomplish some of this.

I am not going to say that your blog changed how I view life or anything like that, but I can say that your blog, along with many other similar ones, have seriously been a part of my journey of better understanding myself.

For example, today I liked a post that had a guy feeding a cat in it. And I didn't like the post because the art was amazing. I liked it because I thought that the guy is gentle and that aspect of gentleness resonated with me personally. And obviously, there are times where I might like a post just because I think that the art looks cool, but I think that a lot of times when I'm browsing through tumblr I'm just learning more about myself through the things that I like.

Maybe the whole thing isn't supposed to be that deep, but sometimes (not always) for me it is. I think that this whole thing feels unreal for you because you don't put a lot of effort but I think that it is pretty cool that a bunch of people like the blog despite that.

As always, have a nice day and drink some water.

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#wasnt expecting a reply to that anon reply but tysm for....somehow telling me how you felt about this blog #and somehow me?#also just like the anon...i wanna say ty for appreciating this blog of mine #like seriously I just reblog stuff that resonates with me #and sometimes I just rant and share stuff I wanna share and yeah sometimes I just reblog coz I find it pretty #also the manga's i read shows i watched and will watch...its all here lol and it's...how should I put it #it's just me and somehow it doesnt feel 'real' that anyone will give attention to it? am putting myself out here and not expecting anything #but somehow...some of you notice and am like why lol coz you know my content.....it's very depressing most of the time tbh #anyways haha i still remember you btw haha we talked I think twice? waayy before and am glad I did #thanks for rambling to me...it's always welcome btw #I like reading what you guys think and feel #and somehow I always receive kindness which I think I still dont deserve but you still give it anyway #all I could do is say ty ;-;#like this blog really is my escape tbh....and some of you appreciating it makes me sad and glad at the same time? ;-;#really tysm #and yes am rambling too in my response haha i hope it doesnt bother you reading all this nonsense lol #again ty idk how many times i should say it but yeah #this means a lot...you and everyone else who appreciates me being here #and with that....I would like to say have a nice day/night dear!#I always stay hydrated lol but yeah i hope you do too ^^ stay safe yeah?#oh also! thanks for thinking the blog is cool ;-; you are nice for thinking it that way ;-;#lastly ty for still following me and remembering stuff I shared on here even the personal stuff #again tysm ;-;

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bunnihearted · 6 months

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#no to be mean but sometimes i just dont have the energy to make myself like reply to ppl nd try to interact #continiously ppl block me bc i dont reply fast enough or etc etc #nd it's just like damn i tried just to get blocked???? 🥴🥴🥴#also funny thing in my experience it's mostly girl mutuals who lose patience nd block me #hmmm inchresting 🧐#anyway im wording this clumsily but like im just so exhausted nd my heart's tired #im tired of building some sort of light online attachment to someone #just to feel crushed when i notice they've blocked me nd i dont even know why???#also wanna be clear that im referring to ppl i've talked to. not just interactions. sksks 🥴#i know not everyone will block me nd i know there r nice ppl here but like i dont have the energy to sort thru it all #or take chances bc im tired 😭😭#i feel bad bc there r ofc very kind ppl who reach out to me nd stuff but in my bones im dejected #like what if i actually do start talking nd i start feeling affinity to u nd slight healthy attachment nd then boom one day u block me???#i feel mean nd oversensitive complaining abt this but idk 😣#i liked this mutual nd talking to them but they blocked me nd idk whyyyy what did i do i always do smth y'all gotta fill out a form telling #maybe if i had irl friends i wouldnt care tho im aware im a loser

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cyberbullyinc · 2 years

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#ive been added to this gc for the 3rd or 4th time after i explicitly asked to NOT be added back bc im always fucking getting ignored like #last time the person who added me was like omg i hope this is ok and i was like no it’s actually not ok i dont wanna be added back please #dont add me back and she was like omg im so sorry i totally understand :( and she did it again 😑#the reason i didnt wanna be added back was bc i considered them my best friends at some point but ever since like the p*ndemic started #everything just went downhill and on one hand i understand they have their own lives and don’t have time to answer etc but on the other hand #they never had time to reply to MYYYYYY messages specifically 🙃 and it hurt bitch to be always the one ignored #and the reason i havent left this time like i just didnt care to be added back was bc idc anymore like alsjfjfk im still in contact to #whoever i wanna be in contact with i still text someone individually like i don’t need to be in a group setting to be friends with this #person and she’s mentioned a bunch of times how dead it is lmao so i was like wtv i do send a text once in a blue moon but it’s not as #active as it was when i originally left so it’s not obvious when im ignored lol BUT!!!!!!#the person who added me back…. the person who IGNORED my boundaries and request to leave me the fuck alone has ignored every single message #ive sent since she added me back :)#like she literally just wants public for her little show and she did this even before i left and was the main person why i left lmao bc the #rest were like going through stuff and i was like u cant be here i get it but she’s always ANYWAYS SO ABOUT ME!!!#i literally sent a text i think yesterday? and she didn’t reply to it at all but she just started talking about herself like 😑 WHY DID U ADD #ME BACK!!!! u dont ‘miss US’ lmfao u miss that i kept the gc alive which gave u attention !!!!#i dont want to be ur fucking spectator go post it on fb #anyways end of rant 😌

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chidoroki · 2 months

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more than a week late posting about it but little kona recently turned 3. feels like it’s been so long and yet it hasn’t at the same time. it’s weird but she remains as adorable as ever. and small. love that you can still just pick her up with one hand. i couldn’t imagine having a large dog after how convenient and easy it is to take her places. she’s the best. truly.

#talking to myself #aside from work and hsr stuff i will absolutely pin the blame on her for me missing the chance to get any ideas for tpn's anniversary since #they both happened the same day and her bday is more important im sorry. also missed RE day too. and i dont wanna say ill miss emma's bday #as well but.. atm i still have no ideas in mind. oh no.. the recent amv did take up a lot of free time and now with that 99% done hopefully #i can start thinking about tpn again. after i chat about the two new bc chapters featuring the silva family. and replying to people's #messages. aahh.. i feel like there's always something to be done and it's bittersweet because i like being creatively active but also just #wanna BREATHE but then i feel like im wasting time doing nothing when i do relax. dear mind why are you like this.

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29121996 · 2 months

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#august/ july (just winter in general i think) always serves as a check in point.#bc i get DepressedTM and feel spirally bc bithday n jus . august is Rough no matter what #werein JULY and im already suffering. its coming w hands this year #anyway off topic: i am not happy lol #like #idk how to explain it. but my job is not what id like to be doing. i like certain aspects of it. but its taking such a toll on me in so man #ways i just . i dont think this is for me. i am a nighttime person but not like this #so im gonna. see if i can jump ship to a restaurant / cocktail bar here #n if not. booking it to melbourne.#not an ideal trip . will be 48hrs of travel bc . i need breaks. but . fuck brisbane #n fuck sydney (expensive)#brisbanes alright but . i dont wanna live there? i only wanted to bc it was Close n Easy ig #but anyway. reread the sick messages exchanged 2wks ago n winced at my responses but also. no wonder #im replying like that ??? hes so fuckig irritating to talk to now. likw bruhh. anyway i was dealthy ill and dealing w that.#i did fucking WELL handling his loser ass actually.#the lack of reply after i explicitly and graphically called him out on his shitty behaviour towards me like #fuck you fr dawg. you rlly cant take accountability ?#god i wanna wring his neck #its funny that i dont even know if im allowed to . send him the paragraph brewing inmy notes #n the thing is #it wouldnt matter . im not sending i to get a response from him. but i have Thoughts and have to deal with him CONSTANTLY. SO i wanna.#yell at him a lil im ngl. and then just block him for good bc fuck you for good.#dipshit.

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