#and when it comes it’s severe and scary

[bewitched-hours]

Can we get an Elliot x reader who's a healer but have like a melee ability(they have more brutal ways of healing) where they'd a giant injector as their healer item and they are kinda intimidating when pissed off like straight out screeching off whenever other survivors missed their ability in the most STUPIDEST way as possible(IM LOOKING AT SHEDLETSKY AND CHANCE),having a full blown crash out at the cabin(reader didn't actually meant to,but being two healer could be reasonable if a survivor DIES after getting healed)

Elliot being their partner comforts them most of the time,so one time when the round ended after they lost.. reader just straight up stare Elliot dead in the eyes and whispered "you and me in the room,NOW" and when Elliot agreed (hesitantly and confusing) and get to their shared rooms,reader starts putting aggressive kisses on Elliot's face,neck or anywhere that's appropriate which caught Elliot off guard and leaves him flustered and questioned reader,and reader answered back with "sometimes your cute face gives me cuteness agression,I can't get enough of it,this is your fault for being too cute for me..you should've seen that comin" as reader giggled at their partners reaction..(/silly)Maybe even some cuddling time after the intense kissing session w Elliot too?(/Vpos)

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Basically that one meme with two figures except it's reader and Elliot,reader saying "come on kitten they are all watching us,let's go to our room.." with an alpha voice.../j

-🍖🧁(MEATCAKE ANON)

Awww, that's adorable! (Also funny-) At this point I'm a sucker for our pizza boy-

Reader is getting She/They Pronouns (We love strong women)

You were possibly the scariest healer they could've gotten...

I mean, a healer with a melee ability and a big fucking injector for a healing item is already scary but throw in your menacing glare whenever the other survivors were being dumb and getting themselves killed RIGHT AFTER BEING HEALED- Yeah, they were just lucky you weren't a killer because they could swear there was bloodlust in your eyes...

All but Elliot, your boyfriend.

He still found it scary, don't get him wrong, but the way you softened up with him made his heart flutter.

It was like all your frustration melted away the moment he held your hand or hugged you and he couldn't resist doing it either. Why hold back when your girlfriend has a soft spot only for you?

But this last round was... Something...

You and Elliot had been running around healing the others and helping out but you've been getting frustrated over Shedletsky and Chance for the most part.

Neither of them seemed to be lucky today as their attacks kept missing and they eventually got themselves killed right after they both got healed by Elliot and you.

You waited to be back at the cabin but Elliot could see the frustration in your eyes the whole time and it made even him nervous.

So when the round finally ended, you wanted to strangle Shed and Chance if it hadn't been for Elliot putting his hand on your shoulder to calm you down.

It spooked him even more when your gaze didn't soften at his touch as much as it usually did. "You. Me. Cabin." Was all you said before you headed out the door and although startled and a bit hesitant, your boyfriend followed you to your shared cabin.

You barely even closed the door before you began peppering his face in aggressive kisses, leaving him flushed and severely confused but reciprocating your love all the same.

Slowly but surely, you got yourselves positioned on your bed and cuddled up with you still aggressively kissing him anywhere he would let you.

"[Reader]- What's-" He wanted to question you but you stopped him with another kiss on the lips.

Pulling away to look at his face, you had softened a little more again. "Your face is too cute... It gives me cuteness aggression so take some responsibility..." You muttered with a slight giggle, making him practically melt in your arms as he nodded and began to return your kisses with an attempt at equal aggression.

It was adorable but he didn't have nearly as much frustration behind his kisses as you did with yours...

Anything you'd like to request/ask? Check out my pinned post first and I'll be happy to write up whatever you want!

[thevoicefromanotherworld]

"YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF, DOLL"

I WROTE ANOTHER FIC WITH BUCKY

I hope you like it! 😊🖤

Although he didn't want to admit it to anyone, Bucky had been watching you ever since Iron Man introduced you as the new member of the team.

Since that day, the soldier couldn't help but spend most of his time watching you, and without you realizing it, he left you little touches that brightened your day, like underlining the most important information in mission reports so you could see them better, or leaving the last piece of cake in the fridge uneaten because he knew it was your favorite.

That day, Stark had organized a party in honor of Peter, who had been part of the team for a year now.

For the party, they went to one of Tony's houses in a select corner of New York City, with its pool, a huge terrace, and, of course, tons of food.

When they walked in, everyone was amazed by how big everything was.

Even though they were already used to Tony's ostentation, everyone agreed that this house was on another level, even for him.

Without a second thought, Natasha, Steve, Wanda, and Pietro shed their clothes and jumped into the pool.

The sprinter didn't before picking up a running start to dive in, splashing everyone.

Bucky wasn't in the mood for a swim, so he decided to start slowly and have a drink from the bar on the terrace.

While he drank, he looked around for you until he found you leaning against one of the tables, alone, with your hands on your chest in a clear protective pose.

You looked at the boys in the pool with a mixture of pain and anxiety, as if it physically hurt to see them having a good time.

Bucky waited a few moments to see what you would do, and when he saw you enter the house, he followed you.

He walked a few steps, and after climbing a flight of stairs, he saw you sitting in an armchair in front of one of the windows.

He knocked on the door a couple of times, causing you to turn sharply toward him, colliding with his large, expressive blue eyes.

"Hi"

"Hey, doll" he greeted with a kind smile. "I saw you leave, and I wanted to know if you were okay"

"I'm fine," you nodded vigorously, looking back at the view in front of you. "Thanks for worrying, I'll be right there"

Bucky knew something wasn't right the moment you were so curt and sharp with him.

That wasn't you, you weren't like that.

He entered the room and gently stood beside you, just enough to see several tears sliding down your cheek.

"Oh, honey" he whispered, holding your chin between his fingers "What happened?" he murmured. "You know you can tell me, right?"

"Yes," you replied, angrily wiping your tears with the back of your hand. "It's nothing. Just a bunch of things piled up, and I couldn't help but break down. That's all." You waved your hand towards the door. "You can go back downstairs with the others. I'll… I'll come as soon as I can."

"I'm not going anywhere," he whispered gently. "I'm not going to leave you alone, especially not when you're like this," he murmured, searching your gaze with his eyes. "Who did this to you?" he asked very seriously. "I'm sure it was some idiot who broke your heart, is that it? Right?"

"No, it's nothing like that," you murmured. "It's just… I…" You swallowed hard before speaking. "I wanted to get in the pool with the others because I'm dying of heat, but I can't… It's not…"

"Hey, easy" Barnes murmured, gently holding your shoulders. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." I didn't mean to pressure you

"You're aren't Buck, really" you assured me. "It's just that I've never said this to anyone out loud, and it hurts and it's scary, and I don't know what you're going to think of me when I say it, but…"

"What?" he asked, his voice as delicate as a feather.

"Sometimes I'm ashamed of my body," you finally blurted out. "I think I don't deserve to do certain things because of it, and I feel worse the more I think about it," you murmured. "I really want to get in the pool, but I don't know if I'll be able to…"

"I'll do it with you."

"What?"

"I'll get in the pool with you, Y/N," he whispered, looking at you delicately. "You have nothing to be ashamed of, you… are…" he murmured thoughtfully. "Beautiful," he finished. "You have no idea how beautiful you are, and the fact that you won't let yourself see it makes me want to hit someone."

"You always want to hit someone, Buck," you joked. "Yes, but even more now," he said, making you laugh. "Seriously, doll, I'll get in the pool with you. Don't worry about the others," he whispered. "Just think we're alone, you and me."

"Alone," you repeated. He nodded.

"That's it," he murmured, smiling before offering you his hand to help you up. "Shall we?"

"Yes" you replied, letting him guide you down the stairs. "When you reached the pool, he took off his clothes, leaving him only in his underwear, and turned around while you took off yours.

He didn't look at you again until you were in the water.

Bucky's blue gaze reflected pride and happiness in equal parts, making a huge smile spread across her lips.

You spent the rest of the afternoon talking and laughing, all without once thinking about your body or the demons in your head.

[redtherecord]

I need to be vulnerable in the tags

[mehrfh]

You are telling me that people came across LN volume 5 Jinshi and still think he is going to let anyone — man or woman— take what is his?

I mean THAT Jinshi???

Excuse me?? He will let anyone have her??? Please...

Out of all analysis that came out regarding that epilogue, no one actually discussed the severity of Jinshi's intent?

He will destroy fortunes before letting anyone have what he claims to be his...

He is still idiot in a boyish way but “even beautiful things can be terrible...”

[bucket-puns]

Old limbus women but one of them is my OC LMAOOOO

[mountaingutta]

I’m rereading everything you’ve written, and the smile on my face keeps growing. So here are a few additions just for you:

Miko got furious when she found out they wanted to shove her into some business school with the children of her parents’ business partners. They confiscated her guitar and made her go back to piano lessons. She hates the piano (well, I hate it, but I think Miko does too)

She ran away during one of the dinner parties at their home, when all the adults were busy with their chatter and no one was paying attention to her

She paid the taxi driver a hefty sum of money to take her far away from the house

She quickly discovered that the streets were cold with indifference, rent prices sky-high — and worse, no one wanted to deal with a teenager, not even for cash

A few times, she had to run from the police — for various reasons. After a while, she started wearing a painted kitsune mask she had bought at a thrift store

Bulkhead and Jackie are a pair of goofballs who get married and divorced at least once every two centuries, occasionally taking lovers either together or separately. They don’t see anything wrong with it

My personal headcanon is that all Cybertronians are polyamorous by nature — it's just that, with time, they form a strong emotional bond with one or two bots they want to spend the rest of their lives with and raise their own sparklings together

Ultra Magnus is asexual, and I will die on this hill.

The three of them grow closer during Magnus’s recovery after the Predacons

Jackie’s the one building him a new arm, and Bulkhead’s helping with the rehab — he’s got personal experience with that

Magnus would never admit it, but he really likes physical contact. He enjoys it when Jackie — surprisingly gently — runs his fingers along the new arm, calibrating tiny mechanisms or just checking how it works. Every time, he starts the touch with the same phrase: 'Swear it won’t explode.'

And he likes it when Bulk steadies him with one arm as he tries to walk around the medbay. Always careful, always gentle — the kind of touch that comes with quiet encouragement

The team had gotten used to sleeping in a pile every now and then, especially when things weren’t going well. The Wreckers used to do that often during the war. So it’s really not surprising when someone finds the three of them asleep together in one big heap

During the search for Miko, they always booked one room for the three of them and could never understand why people gave them such strange looks. It was just resource-saving, after all

As for why no one believed they were human:

Ultra Magnus would just sit there, staring without blinking, without breathing, eyes fixed on a single point. Most people assumed he was a mannequin — right up until he started moving. He was basically the embodiment of the uncanny valley. Also, he’d often begin his sentences with things like: ‘So, human… The local indigenous species… This planet…’

Jackie was constantly doing things that would either kill a real human or land them in the hospital — drinking some kind of acid thinking it was beer, falling out of a sixth-floor hotel window only to land on his feet, then climbing back up the wall instead of using the door. He’d been shot several times too, but there were never any bullet wounds on him...

Bulkhead is the most human-like of the three, but he's way too strong and sometimes forgets that humans don’t have glowing eyes. Still, he’s really sweet when talking to people, so he’s the least scary one

At first, Miko drew animals, because they were the easiest. Drawing people was the hardest — especially noses. But she didn’t give up. Realism never quite worked for her, so she began developing her own style, inspired by art nouveau

She managed to draw Optimus from memory, even though she was afraid she’d forgotten what his face looked like. She brought the drawing to a local temple, burned it, and prayed that his afterlife would be peaceful — that his spark had finally found rest. She had once kept photos of him on that old phone, but they were lost with it(To her, he and Ratchet had always felt like granddads)

Although she was an atheist and didn’t believe in any Earth religion, she knew Unicron was real — which meant there was a possibility the Cybertronian afterlife was real too

She enjoyed working in the garden, especially weeding. Every time, she imagined the weeds were Decepticons — which made the whole process much more fun and a lot faster.

The old woman she lived with was half-Chinese, and she taught her the basics of the language

In addition to that, over the course of her life, Miko learned Spanish, Arabic, and several other Indo-European and Asian languages. She also definitely studied Latin — just to see if summoning demons actually worked

And photos of my cats — for a good mood

Post-TFP: Miko and the Wreckers

After the Autobots left Earth, Miko still hoped that at least Bulkhead would return one more time. She missed him terribly.

Her time as an exchange student ended far too quickly, and she had to return home to Japan. She wasn’t particularly thrilled about it — especially after learning that her parents had already decided her future: which university she’d attend, and so on and so forth

At the first chance she gets, she runs away from home—taking some cash, a few belongings, clothes, and her guitar. She’s smart. She survived fighting ‘Cons. She helped end a galactic-scale war. So what’s running away from her parents and building a life on her own terms compared to that?

But she was wrong. It was hard — really hard. The money she'd taken with her ran out pretty quickly, and, unfortunately, she didn’t have any real friends. Most of the kids she’d gone to school with in Japan thought she was weird and didn’t want to talk to her. The acquaintances she did have were just the children of her parents’ friends and business partners. So she couldn’t trust them—they’d rat her out

She couldn’t turn to Raf or Jack either—they definitely wouldn’t have been able to help in this situation. And Fowler would’ve handed her straight back to her parents. Ratchet had stopped visiting after Optimus’s death, and Bulkhead… he didn’t come at all

So for a while, Miko was homeless. She made a little money playing her guitar on the streets, in the subway, and in other crowded places. It wasn’t the best time in her life. But she pulled through

While wandering the streets, she found a cat. It turned out the cat had run away from its owner, who had been searching for it and was offering a cash reward to anyone who returned her pet. It was a chance to make a little money

The cat’s owner turned out to be a kind woman who immediately realized that Miko’s life wasn’t going all that well. She felt sorry for the girl and tried to help her

The woman helped Miko get a job at a local shop and rented her a room in her house—for a small fee and some help around the home and in the garden

The pay wasn’t great, but at least it was steady and reliable. In her free time, Miko still played guitar for money. She managed to save up a bit. She was setting money aside to leave Japan legally and move to another country. But she still had to wait until she was of age

During this time, she managed to update her wardrobe (most of her clothes were either too small or quite worn out) and bought a used laptop and drawing tablet. In her free time, Miko taught herself how to draw, and she even managed to sell a few of her artworks. It turned out to be a decent little side income

There were a lot of hardships. For a while, her parents were actively looking for her, and every time she saw the police, she would immediately run. Living on the streets also took a toll on her health — she began having problems, especially with her digestion

Miko missed the Autobots, Jack and Raf, and even June and Fowler. But most of all, she missed Bulkhead. She often looked up at the night sky, even when it was clouded over. Sometimes, she was angry at him — for leaving her here alone, though deep down she understood why he had to. But he was the first person (bot) who never tried to control her. Who showed that he genuinely cared, who loved her just the way she was. With all her quirks and flaws. She missed him so much

Some time after that, Bulkhead returned to Earth. Fortunately, many bots had come back to Cybertron, which meant he had far less work on his hands. Of course, he never forgot that Optimus had entrusted him with a role in the reconstruction. But he also knew that Optimus would’ve been the first to support his decision to return to Earth and visit Miko. However, when he arrived in Jasper, he discovered that Miko was no longer there. So he turned to Fowler, asking him for Miko’s address in Japan

With some difficulty and promises not to reveal himself, especially to the government he gets what he needs and races across the planet to find his little Wrecker

When he arrives at Miko’s place, he realizes he can’t just roll up to the house, honk, and expect her parents to casually send their daughter off with some unknown SUV with tinted windows. But there’s a solution

Now that they have access to Cybertronian tech and a steady supply of energon, he can use a holomatter avatar. (I love it when bots use holomatter forms to interact with humans in fanfics!)

About his holoforma: he appears as a tall man with strong, muscular arms, broad shoulders, and slightly pronounced pecs—with a bit of a belly. His long dark hair, streaked with bright green highlights, is braided into dreadlocks (or cornrows) and tied up in a high bun. He wears a T-shirt with the logo of Miko’s favorite band, black jeans, and sneakers, with a flannel shirt knotted around his waist. His accessories include chunky headphones and a single earring in one ear

So when he arrives, he finds out that Miko had already run away from home some time ago and no one can find her. He panics. Instead of contacting Fowler, he calls Wheeljack

"Jackie, I don’t know what slagging exhaust pipe of the galaxy you’re in right now, but drop everything and haul your bumper back to Earth. I’m sending coordinates. Please. Miko’s gone!"

Wheeljack was on Cybertron, helping Ultra Magnus, who also overheard Bulkhead’s call, install a new arm to replace his prosthetic

The two of them race toward Earth. No, Ultra Magnus isn’t worried, and he’s definitely not panicking (he absolutely is). He doesn’t feel even a shred of sympathy for the human sparkling, and he’s hardly concerned at all that she’s out there, completely alone, in a vast, chaotic world full of danger. Not one bit! He’s a trained soldier with nerves of steel, and he’s come to Earth solely because Wreckers should never be left unsupervised

Together, they begin searching for Miko. Along the way, the trio runs into all sorts of bizarre adventures in the human world (yes, both Jackie and Magnus are using holoformas too). Most of the trouble comes from interacting with humans and trying to pretend to be one. Strangely enough, Ultra Magnus has the hardest time with it

The people they interact with think they’re weirdos and can’t quite figure out what their relationship is. Some believe they’re spies, hired assassins, or characters straight out of the wildest conspiracy theories. No one believes they’re actually human

Especially after Magnus forgot he was supposed to blink and simulate breathing from time to time. A kind elderly lady at the café thought he was having a stroke and called for medical help. Wheeljack will never let him live that one down.

Magnus did not take it well during the entire examination, he questioned the medics’ knowledge, their qualifications, and nearly every life choice they’d ever made. Bulkhead had to apologize to both the sweet old lady and the paramedics for Jackie’s laughter and Magnus’s rudeness

During that incident, none of the three were exactly in a good mood. Bulkhead was so exhausted — worn down by his two companions and the fact that they still hadn’t found Miko — that he nearly broke down in front of the old lady, pouring his heart out about the whole situation: his worries, the two clueless oafs he was stuck with, and so on and so forth (without, of course, mentioning that they were aliens). For the first time in a long while, he had someone who listened and didn’t judge

"As soon as he finished, he immediately panicked and tried to apologize to the old lady but she gently calmed him down. Then, calmly, she stood up and smacked both Jackie and Magnus with her purse. Repeatedly. Then she launched into a whole speech, scolding the two of them like misbehaving boys

At last, the Wreckers managed to find Miko. She’d settled in quite well.

The reunion was tearful and emotional. At first, Miko was happy to see the Autobots, but when they told her they were taking her back to her family, she became furious. She launched into a long, angry tirade about how Bulkhead had abandoned her, how everyone around her keeps trying to control her life and won’t let her make her own choices, and everything along those lines. But in the end, they managed to make peace

It finally occurred to Ultra Magnus to contact Fowler and ask for help. Since Miko was legally an adult, there shouldn’t be any major issues

Fowler is displeased, furious but he helps. Miko moves to the U.S., gains citizenship, and begins pursuing her dream profession

After that, Bulkhead, Wheeljack, and Ultra Magnus (who swore he was only there because the three of them needed supervision) were present for every step of Miko’s life

They were there when she enrolled in flight school, when she took her entrance exams, and of course, they were there when she earned her license and completed her first flight

With Fowler’s help, they managed to find a place to live on Earth—a private house with a yard big enough to fit an SUV, a semi-truck, and a race car. Yes, they live in the same house. No, it’s not because something’s going on. Miko, stop giggling! It’s just more convenient that way.

Ultra Magnus will deny it to the end of his functioning, but he always felt a deep sadness every time he had to return to Cybertron for work and missed an important moment in her life

Everyone thinks Miko has three dads or two dads and a boyfriend that one of them is secretly cheating with. No one can quite figure out who's who. There’s a whole cloud of rumors and theories swirling around it

But everyone is most intimidated by the tall, stern one, and absolutely charmed by the sweet, slightly clumsy one who always brings homemade pastries.

And then there’s the madman who personally built a fighter jet for Miko and gifted it to her right in the middle of the graduation ceremony. He showed up in it and landed right in front of the podium

Most guys were too intimidated by those three, so no one ever asked her out but as it turned out, Miko preferred girls

Miko also earned an advanced degree in linguistics and authored several landmark works in the field

She met a sweet girl whose personality reminded her of Bulkhead (some say - we choose partners who resemble our parents in behavior)

It was a bit strange introducing three men, none of whom she resembled in the slightest, as her parents. Especially when meeting her girlfriend’s parents

They were married on a warm autumn day. It was a small ceremony, attended by all the Autobots, Jack, Raf, June, and Agent Fowler. And there was one empty seat marked with a blue ribbon beside Ratchet

Together, they adopted several children. Bulkhead cried when Miko handed him a baby and told him he was a grandpa

Miko lived a wonderful life, but for her three fathers, it all passed too quickly. Her hair had turned gray, her body had grown weaker, and her skin had become lined with wrinkles. Yet even in old age, she remained just as spirited and fiery as ever. All her children had grown up and started families of their own

In the end, Miko passed away peacefully in her sleep

They spent a lot of time with her children and grandchildren, but they too grew old, aged, and passed on. Ultra Magnus was the first to break—he refused to return to Earth. This led to a fierce falling out with Wheeljack, who called him a coward. But not long after, Wheeljack disappeared into some remote corner of the galaxy and didn’t return for a while. Bulkhead was alone once again

He stopped visiting Miko’s descendants, but he always returned to Earth on her birthday. Miko had wished for her body to be cremated and her ashes scattered over the ocean. So every year, he would come to the shore, watch the sunset, and play their favorite songs

Eventually, Wheeljack returned, and though it was difficult, he and Ultra Magnus reconciled. But Bulkhead was furious with both of them and refused to even look at them

It was a very long road to reconciliation. The culmination of it came with another trip to the shore of Earth’s ocean on Miko’s birthday. It was hard but they did it

[thepandalion]

finally watched the latest Severance episode

what the fuck

[cxlandine]

extra courseload is too much for me but killing a god and reviving some ancient force of rage??

im a sick puppy and this excites me.

[frostkingoftheapocalypse]

//.

[dramas-vs-novels]

Your jaw problems made me suddenly scared of my own jaw...

Genuinely, there is nothing worse than being hyper-aware of your own mouth...

You can look up some exercises to strengthen the muscles that hold your jaw together to make it less and less likely you'll ever have this issue.

I will say, my original dentist completely brushed it off, actually said "What do you want me to do about it?" like I was complaining about a paper cut, and only told me to stretch my mouth like I was yawning after he realized he couldn't even get a pinky in between my teeth to try to feel the back of my jaw.

Just looking online, there are a lot of things you can do to protect your TMJ area. So many stretches, so many daily little things you can rely on. And once it goes nuclear, there actually ARE a couple treatments available. I mean, it's not much, but it's more than nothing.

I've been drinking warm water and chamomile tea, that helps relax everything from the inside out, my vibrating face massager I got for washing at night helps work out tension in my jaw, and I'm still able to do my stretches.

The first time this happened, it was horrific. This time, it must be a partial slip or something, because it's really tense. Like, imagine jutting your bottom teeth as far forward as you can and just holding it like that (don't actually do it in case you hurt yourself). That's how I feel all the time, and yet I can't get my bottom teeth in front of my top teeth at the moment.

But beyond that tension, there is extremely little actual pain. Little teeny TMJ headaches that vanish as soon as I use my face vibrator, but it really is mainly that my jaw feels like when you balance a plate on an uneven surface.

So I'm not sure what to expect Monday at the dentist, but I can already say this, at least up to this point, feels better than last time. And even if the dentist is like "We need to totally unhinge your jaw and re-set it", like the worst-case scenario I definitely don't qualify for, they sedate you for that.

But realistically, I'm betting at MOST I'm offered some anti-inflammatories (because there is swelling), MAYBE a brief prescription of anti-anxiety meds for the stress, and POSSIBLY but not likely a TENS treatment, which won't feel too much different than my face vibrator (it's teeny electrical impulses from stickers on your skin, maybe it makes my cheek twitch).

So like, it's scary, and it's really horrible to deal with if it happens because you're just SO hyper-aware of your own mouth... But dentists can give you drugs. And even if they don't, in my experience, even when it went nuclear on me, it was locked for like 9 days and then over the course of 3 days suddenly released.

There's no pop back in, no scary noises, it was just each day I realized I could open my mouth a little more until it was all better.

[furshrimps]

oh my god I need to order food for Sammy asap but my bank account is VERY sad. Can the month be over already. So much anxiety 😵🥵

[ratcandy]

also whats weird is like, that mushroom gotta be like ATTACHED to his brain?? no way he doesnt have brain damage from that. also its not hard to imagine that with all his intense mushroom use, that he'd have some sort of substance use disorder. and he is, suddenly, in a DEATH CULT. actually. i dont feel like anyone talks about the last part. ?? doesnt anyone wonder how hard it would be to adjust just suddenly. being in a cult? we dont really know how his life was before but if he wasnt in a cult beforehand then id imagine all the Cult Stuff would be at least a little uncomfortable.

I guess it would depend to what extent we're leaning into the parasite actually being a cordycep. Because if we're going full throttle on that, teeechnically cordyceps don't attach to the brain at all and only control the musculature; hence why I always hc'd that there's two different mushrooms involved, with the menticide doing the brain fuckery and the cordycep doing. The everything else

But at the same time it could very well just be advanced cordycep and we can make up whatever rules we want ! But YES, regardless, there is some brain nonsense happening that would ABSOLUTELY have everlasting effects on this ant. Not to mention if the cordyceps DID have control of his muscular system, then his entire body has got to be feeling the effects of it as well.

So he's here, in a death cult, probably having to re-learn how to walk and suffering extreme withdrawal symptoms as well as memory loss.

ANd no nobody ever considers the full ramifications of the death cult because everybody is a coward and won't consider how horrifying cults actually are!!!!!! And to be a disabled old man suddenly thrust into a scary ass scenario where people are being sacrificed and brought back to life around you while you can't even remember how old you are or where you've been the past few years because time was fucked while you were Shroomed, it HAS to be HORRIFYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But at the same time it really just works out from a cultist perspective. He's already isolated, vulnerable, and probably only halfway lucid at any given point. He'd be extremely easy to manipulate and keep dependent on the cult. After all, they're keeping him safe there, it's dangerous out there. (Not to mention him just feeling some inherent loyalty to the Lamb upon becoming sober, which certainly wouldn't do him any favors)

Like what's he going to do? Leave? Stumble out, suffering withdrawl, into the Lands of the Old Faith?? As an old man??????????

He has no CHOICE but to make peace with where he is. Despite all the questions about if his FAMILY is even STILL ALIVE. Despite having no idea what he DID while under the influence. Despite the HORRORS around every CORNER

It's FUCKED!!!!! It's AWFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[anonymusbosch]

just sent very scary difficult series of messages to my mom to enforce an important boundary in stressful circumstances. please clap.

[monster-noises]

OOF it's been a while since I've had a nightmare visceral enough to wake me up from a dead sleep into straight terror... But I guess I shouldn't have underestimated how much my brain would pick up from a podcast Teirlisting Horror Games. .....

(I go on to describe the dream in the tags so watch out if you don't want to hear descriptions of the horrors my brain can cook up.. cw Body Horror mostly)

[bauxitt]

[thefandomexpert]

someone’s tag on the role quest post reminded me that tseren actually is Just Some Guy and not Thee Walking Nuke of Light in precisely one other place outside of Tural

he’s a skinny twig of a half-in-game-height m!au ra. Other au ra easily overshadow him, not to mention canonically larger clans like the Olkund. He’s literally like. A Guy to them. When he first came to eorzea, he’s this tall, exotic, spiky, mysterious, warrior man. Most people have never seen an au ra. They’ve never seen limbal rings or scales. He’s got a weird accent and he keeps his weird nomadic lifestyle and he’s just Odd in a competent and therefore threatening way. This is also evident in Tural, like. People with enough sense can tell he’s Not Normal, it’s just that Tural has no concept of the WoL so they don’t know how threatened to be about him being Not Normal. Tseren is automatically Other, and his early journey as a wol is largely about eorzeans learning they do not get to choose which side the big scary lizard is on and they should be very glad he likes them enough to be on theirs.

and then the scions go to the steppe and he’s literally like Average Steppe NPC #47. Like they loose him in a crowd.