#and yesterday was bad bc i was bored ALL day long

[justareallyboredfangirl]

man i am STILL recovering from the wedding on friday

[slippery-minghus]

i want to paint, but autism is hungry and needs to be fed 8hrs of skyrim a day

[roses-and-tears]

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[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[mandu-17]

Miyeon as your girlfriend

Requested by: Anonymous

Request: hey!! idk if ur taking requests but I found your blog yesterday and have been binge-reading pretty much everything, you're so talented 🥺 so incase your requests are open, can i request miyeon as your girlfriend headcanons?🥰

A/N: so sorry this took so long! since it’s still Miyeon’s birthday here please enjoy this little piece nonetheless🤍

I seriously don’t think there’s even a need to talk about her looks because we all have eyeballs and a brain

Miyeon’s visuals are literally top tier, congratulations for being able to make eye contact with her without having heart palpitations

Really likes skinship with you and is naturally very cuddly, even before dating which actually confused you a lot

Especially likes it when she can lean her body on yours and just let you take her whole weight

Or if you’re laying down on the couch or bed she’ll throw herself all over you almost dramatically

But besides that, let’s focus on her sense of humor cause she’s HILARIOUS

You’ll never be bored with her or not smiling because there’s just something about her presence and personality that melts your insides instantly

You always very openly admire how hardworking she is

This feature of hers is usually the cause of her body being sore and stiff

That's when you come in - her masseur

Your soft hands on Miyeon feel divine, there's nothing more she needs after coming home

Obviously it works both ways

You have a bad day or something made you upset? Miyeon is right by your side

Your own therapist who luckily accepts kisses and hugs as payment

Serious when she needs to be and very mature

Just as much as you’re her biggest fan, she’s also your loyal supporter

In any case she’s there to help, give you advices or simply to listen

Literal heart eyes whenever you’re not looking

So so fun to text with

Sends you meme material selfies a lot

Despite having such a interesting job, Miyeon truly wants to listen about your day and how it made you feel

You can’t miss any details, I’m afraid she wouldn’t forgive you if you did

She’s very subtle with flirting and smooth compliments- it makes your heart burst

Has a cute habit of singing love songs from the radio to you when you’re in the car

You’re on her mind almost all the time, Miyeon never fails to inform you whether or not she’s already coming home or staying longer at work 

Kinda clumsy and often confused about things but you love this surprised look on her face

Terrible at games!

But you secretly loved it, sometimes you’re almost convinced she’s doing this bad on purpose

Spends long hours while doing handcrafted gifts for your birthday or anniversary, such a sweetheart

Couple clothes/phone cases/slippers!! Literally everything bc Miyeon thinks it’s cute

You’re her private photographer by now, half of her instagram pictures were taken by you

Rehearsing her lines from dramas with you, especially the cringey ones that make you two laugh your lungs out

Miyeon's laughter is so contagious, even if you’re mad at her you can’t help but crack a smile at the sound of it

She’s usually soft and gentle but has some episodes when she’s randomly slapping your butt or kissing you roughly

When it comes to jealousy, Miyeon was more jealous of you before you started dating

Now she truly trusts you besides why would you even want to look at anybody else when this goddess is in front of  you

Both of you treat it rather as a joke, your girlfriend would sulk only because you passed Shuhua her favorite bag of chips

She just LIVES for the attention you’re giving her seconds later

This is usually when Shu's already out of the room or occupied by her phone because she can't stand you two

Miyeon has her moments as a princess, likes to be the apple of your eye

When it comes to you being jealous, it also doesn’t really happen

Of course your girl is beautiful and there are many people who’d do anything to be you but Miyeon shows you that it’s only your interest that’s pleasing to her

Your clothes are halfway gone by now btw

There’s nothing Miyeon enjoys more than having your clothes with your smell on her

And if you try to address the issue of your closet apparently emptying itself, one look at these precious, shiny eyes is enough to end the discussion

Don’t worry, Miyeon knows the effect she has on you

She’s already used to it

Summing up, you got the girl with the biggest heart out there

Miyeon’s incredible and as her loved one, you’ll stay happy no matter what

[poppy-metal]

So tumblr was being a little bitch and deleted this yesterday when I tried to send it. But I am back with pixie and Steve thoughts for you wondeful Poppy…(I hope you like but I’m new to pixie reader so if you hate them I get it)

So I’m thinking that pixie and Steve meet by accident. Eddie likes to keep her all to himself and pixie is fine with that since she loves him so much, why would she ever need anyone else? But then one day Steve’s left at Eddies place while he’s at the store and pixie comes back from picking flowers in the forest a little early. At first she’s startled when she see’s a random man sitting on Eddies bed and her first instinct is to hide but he’s just so pretty she can’t help herself from sneaking in to take a peek.

She’s just wondering if his hair is as soft as it looks when he gets bored and starts to poke around Eddie’s room, finding her crouched behind an old mug. Steve tries not to look too surprised (she’s not the strangest thing he’s ever seen) and instead holds out his hand for her to approach. She tentatively climbs into his palm and she notes that his hands are much bigger than Eddie’s and she feels even smaller by comparison.

“Hi there” he says softly and he’s so gentle and genuine that pixie can’t help but immediately fall in love. By the time Eddie makes it back from the store she is sat on Steve’s shoulder weaving little flowers into the hair at the nape of his neck and laughing at his corny jokes.

Eddie is surprised because pixie is normally so shy around strangers but he figures if she’d warm up to anyone it would be Steve. All the girls seem to love Steve, even his pixie. And if he had to share her love with anyone it would be him.

Pixie tries to hide the fact that she has a little crush on Steve because she feels so bad about it. After all she really really loves Eddie. But Eddie knows about it and since she still loves him he just finds it’s adorable.

“Steve’s coming over in ten minutes” he’ll drop on her casually, teasing her for her reaction. Her little wings flutter at the mention of his name and she goes to put on her favourite dress and sits by the door waiting for him.

He always fetches her a little present and Eddie jokes that he only comes for pixie and not him these days. He mostly fetches her sweets and she keeps the shiny foil wrappers but one day he fetches her a big sunflower plant and she spends most days sitting in the pot on the windowsill leaning against the stem.

She likes to sit on Eddie’s shoulder but with Steve she likes to sit in the palm of his big hand and he absentmindedly curls his pinkie around her waist and she just melts.

(This is getting long so Il send smut ideas in another ask 👀)

HER RUNNING QUICK TO PUT ON HER FAVORITE DRESS STOP IT. steve adores her he feels so protective n tells himself its bc he can't trust eddie to look after you 100% of the time but really he just likes coddling you.

[visceravalentines]

yesterday I learned about Coregasms and then you post a fic about Bo working out 🤔

just gonna drop these couple excerpts here 🤔

"What exactly is a ‘coregasm’?

A coregasm is an orgasm that happens while you’re doing a core exercise or workout. When you engage your muscles to stabilize your core, you may also end up contracting the pelvic floor muscles that can be essential to achieving orgasm."

"There is one thing that scientists know for sure: Coregasms occur independently of sexual thoughts and fantasies. They’re considered asexual in nature."

"For men, a coregasm may feel similar to a prostate orgasm. Prostate orgasms are said to last longer and be more intense. That’s because they can produce a continuous sensation instead of a pulsating one. This sensation may also expand throughout your body.

Ejaculation is also possible — even if your penis isn’t erect."

"Although high-intensity workouts are thought to inspire a quicker coregasm, you can also make a low-impact routine work for you. If you want to spend time on an easier exercise, you can improve your chances by doing more repetitions.

Use mindfulness to bring your awareness to your body and notice any sensations that arise. Even if you don’t have a coregasm during your workout, it’s possible that by promoting blood circulation you’ll be more likely to respond to sexual arousal after you finish.

You may experience exercise-induced arousal if you don’t have a coregasm."

I'm not big into gym bros I swear I'm not but this really sent me on a journey. Not one but TWO filthy little blurbs below the cut:

You flinched like a kicked puppy when the mudroom door flew open with such force it rebounded off the wall. You almost bolted when you saw the look on his face, but the fight and the flight had been ripped out of you long ago and replaced with fondness, so you pressed yourself against the sink and waited for him to do what he would.

He pinned you to the counter with his hips, wrapped his big hands around the back of your skull, and kissed you with a fury. You melted into him, eyes open, always willing, always wary. Christ--he was already hard. His hands smelled like iron and his shirt was damp.

"Take your clothes off," he muttered, but he didn't give you the chance, hoisting you up onto the counter and forking your legs around his waist.

You gasped as he sucked on the hollow of your throat. His hands were all over you. There was something validating about his blind need, something that felt like purpose. "You feel good, baby?" you asked, almost but not quite teasing.

"Shut up."

You obliged.

And then AND THEN bc life is short and brutal and thinking about this man's general nasty makes it all okay

56 seconds. He could hold a plank for 56 seconds.

He was going to make it to a minute this morning, or he was going to be annoyed all day.

He sank to his knees on the frayed carpet square, wincing at the twinge in his bad leg. From there he went down on his stomach, trying to center himself, trying to clear his head. Exercise helped quiet the hum of his thoughts but today had been a struggle.

The carpet smelled like mildew. He planted his forearms, tried to focus. There was a bite mark on his wrist from the night before and he snickered at the memory.

Damn, he was struggling today.

He pushed into a plank position, started counting. The first 20 seconds were always easy. Around the halfway mark shit got hard.

33...34....

His breath started to come in spurts. His arms quivered, just a little, and he flexed them in protest. He felt his spine begin to bend and forced it straight, eyes boring into the floor. Bo Sinclair was a man made of will.

47...48....

His tongue played at his teeth. He angled his hips, demanding his trembling abs hold--hold--

A sudden rush of saccharine sensation flooded his body with a vengeance. Before he had a second to process what was happening he was collapsing to his knees, convulsing, gasping, rendered completely ineffectual by the merciless euphoria gripping him deep in his core.

Some semi-functional corner of his brain kept counting, 56, 57, 58....

He came back to his senses around 71. Panting hard, he rolled onto his back and stared up at the unfinished ceiling, stunned. His muscles were tingling, all of them. His chest heaved with an exquisite lightness; he was weightless, levitating off the filthy floor.

It'd been a long damn time since he'd cum that hard.

When at last he hauled himself up to a sitting position he felt the dampness of his boxers against his thigh. His mouth dropped open in unfeigned bewilderment. He hadn't creamed his pants since high school, when Stacey Fenway palmed his dick over his jeans while he sucked on her tits behind the drugstore.

He supposed he ought to be grateful for what he was given, but fuck. He couldn't even be mad. He wasn't sure what to be mad at.

Gingerly he climbed to his feet, stumbled, grimaced, and made his way inside the house, hoping to god he didn't run into you on the way to the shower.

[casualavocados]

alright, here comes the long ass super personal and sentimental post absolutely nobody asked for (you’re welcome)

i watched episode 1 of bad buddy the day it aired (1 year ago today!) out of sheer luck. i dont even remember how i discovered it, but my initial thought was: “im bored. it’s 11pm and i dont want to go to sleep. this trailer looked fun. oh it came out today? sure what the fuck.” and i watched it in bed, on my phone. completely fucking unaware of what was about to happen to me and my life - and this honestly amuses me so much when i think about it because let me tell you...

i am NOT one to watch romance for romance’s sake. i really couldnt care less for it tbh. i’m not what i’d call a shipper at all (though i used to be, and if you remember my blog back then i owe you financial compensation bc tbh that whole spectacle exhausted me ANYWAY-). 

romance is just something ive always preferred as a side dish to plot, bc i only tend to like it when it’s super well done, and ive never found any of it very realistic. this was actually pretty unfortunate for past me bc fun fact, i am a little bit of a hopeless romantic, and romcoms are my guilty pleasure. the problem is i also dont like any of them enough to care about them after ive satisfied my initial “i want to watch something cheesy and cute” urge. i’d seen a few other bl’s over the years but only bc i was bored or wanted to watch something gay, and none of them had ever stuck in my mind after i finished them. i actively avoided those fandom spaces so i definitely wasn’t keeping up with what was new. 

(now listen, i have very specific thoughts on bl itself, but im not gonna get into that here (and actually miscellar said yesterday that the bl difference between 2020 and 2022 is unrecognizable and that basically sums it up so i dont have to lmao <3)).

- and ep1 of bad buddy is pretty typical bl! i adore this about it tbh because i was completely unprepared for everything the show was about to pull. my initial reaction was that it was something fun to look forward to every week.

so then-

I dont!! i dont even know how to explain it! ive tried too many times!

but it really is That Bitch, and truly feels like something i’d been waiting my whole life to see. a romantic comedy that was incredibly realistic in the sense of being overwhelmingly human, and also overwhelmingly queer. it’s so effortlessly fucking funny, while simultaneously a very (very very very) layered and emotional story. i will sing its praises to the end of time. it is quite literally the most well crafted show i’ve ever seen, and every time i rewatch it, or go back and reread old meta, im reminded that im not insane believing that. it just literally is that good. it’s such a simple story done so. extremely. well. it’s so ordinary, and that makes it extraordinary, and that was the intention from the start.

but i also have to say, one of the best things about having this show, is getting to be apart of the amazing community i found here loving it alongside me. bc i avoid fandoms. i stick to the places and the people/mutuals i know. i drift through edit tags more than i follow individual blogs. i block people like lightning. i have always had anons and replies off and i enjoy my privacy!!!

and i have talked to more people and made more friends and have had more fun this past year than i ever have before on this site. 

it took me until after bb finished airing to start following people back, but by then i knew which blogs posted what and what i’d want to see more of on my dash - and there are still many many people im not following, or who arent following me, that i talk to! i love each of you so very much, and i want to do a couple special shoutouts, if thats okay. ♥️

SO, in no particular orderrrrrr:

@mrdumpling nuria you were the very first bl-centric blog to follow me, and as such gave me a little bit of a heart attack that day, because i knew you were a popular blog and i Was Not Ready For Attention lol. but im so glad you did! ik we don’t talk often, but i love lurking on your blog and following what you’re interested in, and most especially, sharing this show with you. to say your edits are beautiful is an understatement! i always love to see what you make!! 🧡

@actually-yikes SORA I MISS YOUUUUUU!!! 🌹 i love talking to you, i love bonding over warrior pran with you, i love the edits you make. i think you’re very funny and delightful. seriously. ...im kind of at a loss for words here bc you’re one of the blogs i went to the most while bb was airing, and the first person i followed after it ended. i really just think you’re wonderful, and idk how else to say it! ily!!!💕💕

@miscellar you have some of the best takes ive ever read, and you somehow seem to read my mind and write (in much better words than i ever could!) exactly what im feeling on so many different topics. i love reading your analysis, your criticism, and just in general whatever you have to say. you impress me very much tbh and im always a bit amazed whenever you talk to me. i love sharing meta with you! 💚

@pranparakul KATIIIEEE when you’re not on my dash i miss you. even if you’ve got posts in your queue ill be like 🥺 where’s katie? is she having a good day today? literally it doesnt matter what you post abt, bc your enthusiasm for whatever it is always makes me so happy. keep doing you <3♥️🌸💗💕💜🌸❣💗💜♥️💕

@snimeat GEI. okay we dont talk OFTEN but when we do we talk a LOT. your excitement is sooooooooooooo contagious and it always matches mine and i feel SO SEEN. i think your edits have such a mystical vibe to them...they always make me feel very wistful (in a very good way). luv u 💛

@pranpats Kit!!! your gifs are GORGEOUS. and you are one of the sweetest people on this site. you always say such lovely things in the tags, and i love occasionally coming to talk to you about gifmaking things. you are such a warm presence on my dash! 💜

and of COURSE @grapejuicegay - kk i think we speedran our friendship in the last 6 weeks. idk how we never really talked before, now that i know we were BOTH lurking on each other’s blogs this whole year. i don’t even know what to say that i haven’t already said in our dms. i fucking love talking to you. there are some people you just click with and im so glad you’re one of them. 💙💌💗💖💜💙💕💛♥️🌹💌💖💙💕

there are so many more of you i want to mention here!! and if you read this far please know im probably also thinking of you, and i want you all to know that i have loved every minute watching and sharing this show with you.

im constantly blown away by everyone’s kindness and how welcoming all of you are. this is truly my favorite place to be online. thank you for all the tags on my gifs and meta. thank you for being so warm.

im so happy this little show means as much to all of you as it does to me. happy one year everybody. 🎆🥂💚❤

[julien5-malfunction]

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The slowly decomposing friend chilling in the corner has been fed a piece of meat, since I can't find any dead flies around and I imagine he's hungry since none of the little thirst traps have been closed since I brought him home....

I asked about feeding him meat from this witch person who also told me to pick off the dead traps as soon as they appear, so I did that as well.

I hope the plant feels better and doesn't get food posioning from the meat.

[Random grandmom encounter yesterday][CW mentioning: suicide, self harm, ed, transfobia. abuse.] 🔻🔻🔻

I slept for 18 hours, prior to that, I stayed up for 28 hours in total. that makes 46 hours so yeah, pretty much how the last 2 days have gone; In a caffeine fueled delirium and weird dreams.

Yesterday I ran into grandmom in the wild (in the seacond hand store) and she offered to pay for the things I has gonna buy.

(A fish shaped glass dish and 2 shotglasses, I said they're for paint. These totalled 1,50€)

Then stood with her on the street and the converstation went sonething like this:

Me : (acting pretty erratic, talking loudly, swearing, talking about wanting to killmyself and trying to get to care and rehab, aka THE USUAL)

Grandmom: (Telling me to go to mom, that my hair, face and chlother look bad, wtf happen to me I used to be a pretty, nice little girl, tells me to pretend everything is fine and go to school and get a job)

I told her multiple times that I'm not going back to mom, (and my other responses)

"bc my mental health can't take it, I'm clearly not OK and I'm done pretending that I'am, it never lead to anything good, can't you see?"

"I can't go to school like this, they threw me out so I'm trying to get to the fucking rehabilitation, I don't know why it's taking so long on the social workers end. It's not that I'm not fucking trying at all"

"What is wrong with these clothes? What do you mean 'they aren't nice?"

"Because I don't look like the other kids, yeah there, look, anorexic little whores, that one is smoking an electric cigarette, yeah ...And I'm not exactly skinny anymore. I don't care I don't want to look like that, they're boring. "

" I do have long hair (lifts up rat tail*) see?... I don't want to get it cut I'll look dumb."

" I'm not scratching my face! It just is like that, I don't care! I'm just not pretty."

Told her that I'm fed up with the conversation a doesen times. Then left.

Did I fucking insult her once?

I feel like I'm being an asshole but I'm also really tired of tolerating such treatment.

I talked about this in this kind of 'youth support' -thing, I went to as my next stop.

That I don't wanna go back to 'being THEIR little girl, a fucking barbie doll. Never talk back, everything was decided for me, I was dressed to school for fucks sake, up to when I was like 16 until I was placed in the first unit. Or not dressed dressed, but I didn't get to pick my clothes or they had to be out of the ones mom or grandmom bought to me, bc I didn't get to pick them at the clothes store and hated going shopping anyways.

Never being able to fucking talk about 'not being OK' cutting in silence and crying in the shower floor bc I once got yelled at for crying 'without telling a reason' (I, myself, did not know why I was crying?)

So yeah, they want that back. They want the little doll back and I always get to hear about it. Fuck them, I'm so over it. Cutting off mom did take me time to get used to, shit was difficult at first for me too. Now I don't even think about it unless someone/thing brings it up. I recovered from anorexia after that for fuck's sake. I begun to feel feelings for the first time bc I could finally fucking talk about feeling like shit or being excited and not being yelled at or made fun of? Like I actually have some kind of personality now??? Like. I have no words. I'm just pissed off and annoyed that this has to still be shoved at my face every fucking time, like??? I'm an adult now? I look shit if I look shit and I have my fucking issues that effect my life and that's my fucking life for now for fucks sake.

Like, I have a certain about of 'backstory' I trauma dump on people and IF THEY CAN STILL STAND ME AFTER THAT they pass the vibe check. Then I can be comfortable and talk unrelated things or whatever, depends on the social situation.

Grand mom, does not pass the vibe check.

Sure I'm thankful that she paid the 1,50€ for me but. I can't be bought to act like a doll anymore. Not with money anyways.

I'll try to learn so I won't be bought with kindness either. Being too kind got me taken advantage of. I have trust issues.

Trying to learn to stfu as well but it's hard.

[all-timepanic]

I watched shazam fury of the gods yesterday and I have thoughts. It has bothered me all day so I need to leave this somewhere. So I guess here is my sort of review. But it is kinda rambly. Or something. Idk I just need to get it out. It also got a lot longer than I planned it to, sorry in advance.

Of course it wouldn't be as good as the first one. Sequels, especially from superhero movies, rarely are. (but maybe I'm just too much of an origin story fan for this as well) This sounds kinda negative, I know, but believe me, I liked this film. A lot, actually. But I'll probably leave out quite a few of the things I actually liked. The main focus is the "bad" stuff. Maybe someone agrees with some of these things. Maybe I'm just overthinking a fun, hero movie. Who knows.

It felt kind of... generic? I liked the first one for its humor. The characters were great, the villain seemed fun and they had fun with some superhero tropes. (+ i loved a lot of the way it was made, from the different shots, to the sets etc.,).

This one fell a little flat for me. Of course, it might be funnier once I get to watch it in english (I can only watch it in my native language here, sadly) but a lot of the jokes just felt like they are forcefully trying to reach the first one in levels of fun. (And don't get me wrong, I was laughing quite a bit as well, there were some HILARIOUS bits in there, but they didn't stick with me as much as some of the firsts ones, y'know?)

The plot kind of felt a bit more boring as well. Yeah, the entire "figuring out the new superpowers" isn't something you can repeat in a second movie, obviously. Instead it went with the kinda family/trust/fear of rejection angle which is nice. It is obviously something that effects Billy. I was excited to see this storyline followed through. But it kind of felt like the movie was just going through the motions? The movie obviously needed to go from point A to B to C but Billy's progression just felt very quick and forced. The speech from the wizard before the showdown didn't feel earned enough for me.

Like, plot angle they were going for was great. Of course everything Billy went through would change him and his behaviour. There is quite a lot of trauma there. And I know with the tone this movie has that is not something that will be unpacked completely. I just wish it was handled slightly differently? (I would have to think more about what bothered me about this, but it isn't handled the way I wish it would be considering it was the very first thing we heard about Billy in this film)

I also disliked how little we actually saw Billy as a teenager? I enjoy Zachary Levi's acting as much as the next person but let Asher Angel get at least some screentime? I don't know if it was because of scheduling or whatever but there were a lot of scenes where the characters didn't need to be in superhero form but they just sort of hung out in adult form.

And it is just a small moment but I still wanted to call it out, because stuff like this annoys me. When Pedro came out everyone answered that they already knew. I hate that. Yes, it was supposed to be a funny moment so of course it wasn't going to be a big, emotional thing and it doesn't need to be. But it always irks me when people "knew" beforehand. bc it always feels like they are saying "people always know before" or "don't feel proud of yourself for opening up, it's old news" (am I explaining this okay? It just diminishes it and if everyone already knows, why add this moment? Especially in this scene where no one would realistically bring the topic up?). Maybe it's not a big deal but imo it was not a good moment.

The biggest thing I hate though is the big, emotional death of a main character with a long scene of the character accepting their fate, grieving friends and family and a funeral (!) just for them to be revived without consequence? Not saying that this is the movie that needs to pull off such a dark twist but... why? It was a very nice emotional part of the movie but it ended up feeling cheap? Especially bc it felt like an excuse to push in a cameo last minute. (It was a nice callback to the fist ww scene, a sort of gotcha we actually have the actress here, but at what cost).

Like I said, I never expected Billy to die, he is THE title character after all and DC would never have the balls to do that. Especially in the 2. film. + they did push Freddy into a more active role, which I love, but especially Adam Brody wasn't built up in a way to take over the franchise, so I knew this would't happen. I was still disappointed. It always cheats the audience out of their emotions. We just wasted 10 minutes of emotional stakes just to be cheated out of the satisfying conclusion?

anyway, I also wanna mention a few things I liked before I leave:

Like I said, the humor was still nice. It felt familiar in a way. And the immaturity was what I expected and hoped for. It makes sense in this film + for the characters. I love the design of the lair. Of course they would bring a bunch of stupid stuff in there. It fit their personalities. (And making the wall in the back a climbing wall was fun, idk why but it was)

I loved Freddy. I liked his character in the first movie as well but I liked him even more here. He got a lot more stuff to do on his own, more screentime and more own struggles to deal with (there are a few things that aren't great but they aren't that big a problem for me)

The monster design was great. I am a sucker for greek mythology and for twists on well known creatures so this one kind of hit a soft spot for me. I liked the way the monsters looked, from the minotaurs to the harpies, and the unicorns were great. I like that they were the fearsome predator type animal in the bunch. and the dragon. I loved it so much. Yes, being made of wood IS sort of a design flaw but you cannot tell me that it didn't look epic. And the way the fear was incorporated into its abilities? Amazing (wish we could have seen more uses of it)

On a similar note the fight scenes were really fun. they played with a few nice ideas and incorporated the superpowers well. ( I especially thought Ana's power were nice to watch, although they weren't often used in direct conflict)

....so I guess that's it? Like I said in the beginning, I really enjoyed this movie but there were quite a few things that felt off, in a way? Maybe I'll feel differently after a rewatch but it just doesn't feel as comfortable as the first one, if that makes sense. It doesn't feel as tightly knit or as satisfying. It is still a fun movie to watch but idk. If anyone wants to discuss this feel free to reblog it and add on or whatever.

[minimoefoe]

day one of crocheting a granny square every day until i get good or get bored

so I've been attempting to learn to crochet on and off for basically the same amount of time I've been knitting (two years) and pretty much what would happen is I'd try it for a couple of days, get frustrated bc I just was SO bad at it (I've now realised that was largely bc I was trying to do it right handed and not left handed) and then give up for four months before trying again and repeating that cycle

now I'm officially ready to stop avoiding practising and actually get to making stuff bc theres so many cute things i want to make but first I feel like practising something basic is the best way to start bc hopefully I won't get too frustrated and burn myself out. I also saw someone on tiktok doing this a couple months ago and was like hey that looks like fun

currently my plans are just to make a square a day and at a certain point I'll probably try doing different kinds of squares, maybe I'll alternate on set days, maybe I'll just stick to the basic one until I'm great at it and then move on to a different one. I have no idea. it basically just depends on how long it takes me to feel confident with this square and also how long it is before I get bored of making it. I'm hoping to do this for 28 days but like.. who tf knows what's happen

everyday imma put some thoughts on how each square went. I'm sure some days I'll have nothing to say and other days I'll have lots.

as for this first square, I fr think starting to learn how to make the first parts of it yesterday and then finally being good enough to actually do the entire thing start to finish in one go today is the first time with crocheting where I actually enjoyed doing it and didn't just get pissed off and quit which I think is a good sign for my skills but also my ability to know when to quit before I get too irritated (bc there was a few moments yesterday where I was like GOD I really want to do this but I've failed a couple times and am getting annoyed so I should probs just pause for a few hours).

I think my main issues atm are doing it kinda tight. like. I am GRIPPING that hook sometimes. and also knowing where to close of each row(? round? section?). bc the person in the video was like ah yes you see this bit here, this is where you connect it and I'm like.. it all just looks like yarn to me and so i'm kinda making a guess about where I'm connecting it which makes it look a bit weird line you can absolutely tell where the connection is on there.

tbh as issues go they don't feel too bad

oh and also I feel like its kinda weird that for my first ever square I did two colours and not just one??? idk. the video I watched did two so I was like okay I guess I'm doing two and honestly I feel like it ended up being better bc originally I was watching a different video and gonna do it with one colour and I felt like I couldn't see what was going on as clearly but I think having a different colour helped me out

[3dsmall]

i need a series of good short term solutions because looking for a long term solution is too stressful & i am easily bored. i am just trying to wait it out! i need to get a job! and i don't really care what I do. but lowkey fuck cooking? ? i am struggling as fuck emotionally and i only want to have fun forever. yesterday i taught myself how to play some stuff on the keyboard. sometimes i will act very mean towards myself and i sometimes feel completely convinced that everyone hates me, even though like four really sweet friends talked to me yesterday just bc they felt like it.

i am seriously going insane because of the motherfucking leaky faucet in the bathroom. tried to collect its drips in bucket to water outside with but it rained a LOT! did not snow.

scared a man yesterday by being confused about how to walk/where i was going when i was peaking on mushrooms. that shit did not cure my depression! i don't understand how elderly members of my insane family can eat those every day. i don't think that it was overall necessarily helpful, but i don't think it was really harmful either.

i have the feeling that something really bad is about to happen but i feel like it's DEFINITELY going to happen bc i said it. i'm just clawing at the walls because i can tell that i'm on the downswing and there's nothing i can do to stop the evil thoughts except short term smoking weed, playing a little ditty, reading. i hate being a delusional freak and i wish i wouldn't have these maladaptive incel thoughts poking thru the veil. ew. im sex-obsessed, terrified of my fellow countrymen, and i alternately think none of them are good enough for me or that i am absolutely fundamentally undesirable.

at the end of the day, when i need money bad enough, i wont have the time to acknowledge all this. but right now its just a burbling spewing self expanding pile of garbage i can only keep contained in the closet for protracted periods of time. no illusion that it will ever be gone </3

[khaleesiofalicante]

Helloooooo!!

As promised, an update on my stupid love-life :)

So, I went out with him yesterday after classes, right?

I invited him to get ice cream but he told me he would invite me first for something to eat (we have this "fight" about how he never lets me pay. And I mean never!! And I promised him I would pay for us someday, so we kinda "argue" about it everytime we go out lmao. He couldn't even let me pay for dessert if he didn't pay first for something else😂)

Anyway, we went out to a different place that we usually go, we ate, talk, walked for some time, ate again and talk. This may seem boring but by god we have the best and weirdest conversations all the time!!!

And like, last week we were discussing about how you should be careful about telling your best friend if you have romantic feelings for then. And he was in the "You should tell them bc what if it leads to something great?!" position, and I was more in the "You shouldn't tell them bc what if it ends up really bad?!" position. We are always arguing about something (affectionate of course). We argue about cereal, flowers, music... literally you can put a subject I'm front of us, say "discuss" and we pull out the best fucking arguments against each other. Kinda love that 😎

Well, now he was the one in the "You shouldn't tell them bc friendship may be more important" argument!! And now I was in the "You should tell them bc it can lead to many good things and it can make your relationship stronger even!!" argument!!

We fucking convinced each other last week with all our arguments!! But now we were on the opposite position again!!! God, we are idiots kdhdkdjdk

And we were discussing and pulling each other's arguments and istg I think we knew we were talking about us but we both refuse to acknowledge it!!!

At the end I won (obviously lmao) and he once again admitted you should tell your friend of you've got feelings for them, even if you think the other won't feel the same, it might surprise you...

Idk what's happening??!?! Is my life a fanfic with 'idiots-to-lovers'???? 'friends-to-lovers'????? Burn slow as fuck????

Besides that, we talked A LOT more! We never run out of conversation, talking about families, sisters, alcoholic drinks, normal drinks, the russian government, how people should take a shower, places were it's illegal to be gay, etc (he knows I'm bi. And he kinda was the courage I needed to come out to my dad) And yes. We talked about all of that.

Anyway, it went great tbh. We had lots of fun. Even if its as something romantic or not, we have great time together. And we realized we are close to the anniversary of one years of knowing each other!!! (Definitely feels like more bc we know a lot about each other) so we were talking about 'celebrating' or going out or something 💙

This was long. Uff. I was going to write this yesterday but I was so fricking tired lmao.

Take care!!! And hope you are better and well rested!! This is a threat btw🔪

Ily💙💙

The way I am utterly obsessed with this 👀

I need constant updates (respectfully asking) or I will sue. Also, yall get your shit together pls. As much as I love reading slow burns, they are exhausting irl!

PS - Regardless of where this goes and what this is, I'm so glad you found this person because you absolutely deserve to have such love, laughter, and support around you. But I'm even gladder he found you because everyone deserves a Noah in their life 💙

Also, this is me these days:

[piduai]

im glad i dont really go into the gk tag bc from what you're saying...... WHO trash talks sugimoto and asirpa. they are LITERALLY the best characters ever i don't accept criticism like they had a meaningful and coherent and interesting story...... what kind of person can't appreciate them...... also. i love them so much brb crying they're just so!!!!!!!!! anyways. do you want cat pics.

that wasn't about the gk tag tho it was about twitter 😔🔫 i mean the tag here is bad too but 1. gk is just not popular on tumbler dot edu so the amount of stupid garbage is limited and 2. i use the block button liberally and my blacklist is long. but i was bored yesterday and decided to pluck the bird's feathers for a bit and my blood pressure went up in 5 minutes no cap. which is why i'm asking how you people manage because i know that if i had to read that stuff all the time i'd turn SO nasty like i'd become so passive-aggressive and bitter and talk shit all the time. i guess this explains why twitter users are like this tho LMFAO but also it's so sad. because even if you curate your tl like crazy you still have very limited control over what flows into it. hm. anyway trashing sugimoto, asirpa and yuusaku are the biggest gk red flags to me lol like i KNOW this person does not have anything of value to say MOVING ON. it's just that calling sugimoto and asirpa underdeveloped compared to ogata and tsurumi annoyed me SO much because no they're not underdeveloped they're just not edgy and villainous. maybe take a break from your emo phase and appreciate brighter things in life for once. idiot. and yes any day of the week any hour of the day i want cat pics

[sojulia1114]

Bro yesterday i got a covid booster and it gave me a fever that didnt break til 7 am today so i didnt sleep til 7 am today and i wake up and go to work and i walk in and my coworker (who’s on my close friends because their partner is a good friend and was showing them everything anyway) is like “ARE YOU ABOUT TO GET ANOTHER JOB?” Bc I posted on my close friends story abt a full time creative job possibly wanting me. Why is the OFFICE THE PLACE YOU DECIDE BRING THIS UP? I refuse to act ashamed about it so I talk abt the possibility w them loud as hell while privately fuming. Anyways it’s a rainy day today and my coworker who runs a classroom w me is out so I have to keep the kids inside all day and I show up and they’re already screaming and fighting so I make them stand in the hall til they’re quiet. Then i assign seating and get them all to play this game where each table makes up a restaurant and a menu and all that and myself and one other student come through as customers. I also tell the kids that if they’re good they’ll get to go hang out with their friends an hour or two into the class.

They’re fucking awful. My boss is there helping me but I have to scream every other sentence because when I try to talk these kids don’t even look at me, one kid tries to sell heroin out of his restaurant and starts crying after because he’s so bored and he doesn’t get why everything’s taking so long (I tell him it’s him and the classroom’s fault, things shouldn’t have taken this long but nobody there has any respect for me or each other so we have to do things the hard way), one kid steals a pen or something from another and screams when asked what happened, kids switch tables constantly, the dumbest little boy I’ve known in my entire life steals the same yoga ball from the same child so many times that I end up screaming at him, my coworkers keep sending me their kids without checking in so random groups of kids keep popping up at my door, and one kid STABS ANOTHER KID IN THE FACE WITH A PENCIL. Literally spent half of my day screaming. One of the kids who’s usually disruptive and was awful during the beginning of the day (he’s usually such a handful that I sigh when I see him walk into my space) ended up being sweet and understanding towards the end. Shit was THAT bad. Eventually they get so rowdy and rulebreaky that I give up and just have them read or do homework or go on computers.

After work I go grocery shopping, the same coworker who spilled my business and also sent me kids without asking drives me there so I can’t be mad at him but I am taking him and his partner off of my close friends story bc they can’t keep shit to themselves, and it’s a whole foods so the stupid shit store doesn’t have plastic bags. I have to take two buses to get home. Whatever, that’s fine, but between buses my bag disintegrates, i drop this onion jam i was really excited to try in a FLOOD, my second bus purposefully skips me and I chase it for half a block asking them to stop before shrieking “fuck you” and screaming so loud that the guy who was singing “no church in the wild” at the top of his lungs across the street ran away. And then I accidentally drop my english muffins and my mint tea in the flood too and they get swept under a car so I grab the onion jam from where it lies in the road and throw it down so the glass’ll go everywhere. And then I start wailing but I can’t tell if I’m crying because it’s raining that hard. Oh my god also in the middle of all that my period started but it was really light so I just didn’t deal with it til I got home.

[star2sworld]

Hey. Long time no see sorry lol.

Okay, let’s get right into it. School started yesterday.. I had a really bad first day of school. Found out the guy I had liked a lot in middle school (he bullied me & is the reason I have extreme body dysmorphia) is in my 8th period class. I found out in 3rd period and I was having really bad anxiety and was stressed out for the rest of the day. I ended up crying in a few classes because I couldn’t hold it back anymore. When I got to 8th he kept glancing at me but it wasn’t even bad. We didn’t have to Introduce us to the class so I’m thankful. I came home and cried for 2 hours thinking if I’m even worth loving. After a few hours I did my English work and we had to find a quote that described our true self and we had to explain why we think it’s powerful and as I was searching I came across lizard wiz and she reminded me who I am. So grateful I did bc after that I realized he bullied me a verryyy long time ago and it’s about time I moved on. Yes, it had a really big impact and it affected me heavily but he’s irrelevant. Haven’t spoke to him in years I can’t let him control my life anymore. I can’t be scared to see him bc we do go to the same school and we have the same lunch ha shocker. Yesterday at lunch I asked this girl if I can sit by her bc she was alone and then her friends came in a few mins and they literally ignored my entire existence so that was great lol. I felt so awkward I literally just journaled. I felt too anxious to even get food so I didn’t eat.

Day 2 ( today )

- today classes felt much much better. I love my 1st and 2nd. 3rd period is a bit boring but it’s not too bad. Fourth I have art and I luv art !! It’s a relaxing class. Then I have lunch… I decided to sit somewhere else today. I sat at a long table. One half was filled with guys but there was a bit of space left near the windows so I went and sat there. Then I turned around and put my leg in one of the chair ish things and a few mins later some group of guys started calling me from their table. “ hey lady “ “ ayo “ “ she doesn’t hear u she has headphones in “ … next minute I hear “ HE WANT UR NUMBER! “ I turned around back to my seat so quick lol. Idk who even wanted my number but they were Nepali and sophomores pretty sure. Don’t think they’re my type either lol. I went to go get lunch ALL BY MYSELF! I think that’s a lot of improvement compared to yesterday :) I ran into COMBINATION ( guy who bullied me & his friend I thought was so fine last year ) let’s call them double P’s combination Alr. I literally kept running into them at lunch it was acc awkatd every time they saw me they just looked down. Can’t tell if they find me ugly or attractive don’t know but I like lunch I like seeing them p #2 ( his friend ) lol then I had history and we reviewed imperialism , capitalism, & socialism. It was interesting lol. Us owns nothing in china while china owns hundred in the us. Then I went to English , i actually love my teacher. She’s so motherly I feel safe with her. She’s so nice and real 😭. I literally like all my teachers their funny and acc entertaining. THEN 8th period happened omg. We got assigned seats n I sit very far from P #1 (bully) thank god. I sit far back opposite side of him :))) when the teacher was showing his classroom n the poster behind me p looked right at me n I felt sooo awkward lol but it’s alright.

That’s about it. I had no homework tonight so yeah. It’s 10:30 I’m tired. I’m heading to bed just thought I’d write since I haven’t in a week ish. Ama is coming tomorrow so I’m happy and I might go to Erie on Friday :) I’m going to wake up at 4:50 am tmr so I can shower in the morning. Felt to lazy to shower tonight lol. Anyways, I’m happy this year I feel focused. My goal is all A’s & loving myself. My main goals. I also got catfished by a girl lol but ill talk about it tmr bc there’s a lot of things to unwrap. Anyways goodnight.

See you guys tomorrow ;))) hopefully tmr is a good day. Stay positive babes