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50 days of routine (october 30, 2024 - december 19, 2024)
an attempt to physically and mentally survive the remainder of this semester. motivation has been dwindling and motivation drops even further when i feel like i've failed because i can't stick to a routine nor figure out how to be sustainably productive! đđ so here we are with...a challenge? đ
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there'll be a checkpoint for updated goals 32 days in (dec 1) đbecause after that, i start reviewing for finals full timeâŚ
updates ~daily with my forest đ˛ for the day or week so far and the everyday stuff i want to keep track of or celebrate! đž because even on the days i feel like there's nothing to celebrate, i bet there is if i just...stop comparing myself to others and lower my expectations (progress > perfection) enough that i can truly appreciate life as it happens and just...live. đđĽđš
here's what an ideal week would look like...roughly. i expect things to shift around a little if not a lot, especially as life unfolds and i get into the nitty-gritty of the schedule, but what's non-negotiable is daily movement, as consistent a sleep schedule as possible (bed by 9, up by 7)...and by nov. 3 (end of this week) or nov. 10 (end of next week), i'm hoping to also add the stuff in dark green, the purple, wind-down time after dinner, and hobbiting time as higher priorities too... my main goal for these 50 days is to figure out a sustainable routine that leaves me feeling fulfilled and satisfied with the direction my life is taking. đđťđś

by cbt i mean since therapy isn't really accessible for me rn i'm going to read about it and/or fill out a workbook đ
#studyblr#codeblr#chaotic academia#mental health#therapy#it's that time of the semester where it feels appropriate to say#fuckity fuck fuck#more often#i'm sorryyyy i'm just tired and frustratedddd#and... đŽâđ¨ really tired#but i can either be sad about it#or channel it into slightly unhinged energy that is hopefully a bit lighter? idk if you can feel it through the screen but...my brain can..#digital diary#50 days of routine#100dop#100 days of productivity#100 days of studying#100 days of self discipline#self care#becoming that girl#light academia#cozy academia#cottagecore academia#studyspo#study motivation#study aesthetic#astudentslifebuoy#mittonstudies#studyingwithmila
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lesbians can't do, say, sing, or create anything expressing lesbianism without people being like "what about me?"
#and i'm so tired of it#and i'm so tired of having to act like it's not a thing#people are so nasty about lesbians so casually and it goes viral every time#but if we say anything we're being mean or too sensitive#đŽâđ¨#i say i'm mad and i am but really it's just sad and lonely#anyways#lesbian tag#chappell roan
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just got a pretty rancid ask in our inbox and we aren't even gonna dignify it with a proper response but some of yall need to understand that fiction and reality arent the same and we really dont care about what people ship and dont ship or all that jazz like genuinely we aint got time for all that shit
sure we try and make sure our followers arent exposed to that sort of stuff and will attempt to delete anything associated with it out of respect for them if we accidentally reblog from someone who blogs about weird stuff, because people feel differently than we do about it but just because we arent telling people we dont agree with telling them to kill themselves doesn't make us bad people.
so unless its something actually harmful don't tell us how to run our blog and attack us because we dont agree with what u say. just chill its not that big a deal.
#we're going to bed#some of yall on thin ice#we really donna wanna take anons away#but these asks are getting exhausting đŽâđ¨#wood wide web#bad vibe hours#probably delete later#dont even know if any of this makes sense but we're tired bruh
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the food noise

#hahahaaaa pleaseee i am trying to be so good#I ate already I did everything i should just leave me aloneeee!!!!!!!!!!!!#im really just so tired of this#there isn't a task that can fully distract me rn đŽâđ¨
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I READ CHAPTER 3 OATHBREAKER AND THE PURPOSE OF YOU???? ILL BE ANYTHING IF IT WOULD MAKE YOU STAY????
#Oh Jayce Oathbreaker we are really in it now#I got killed dead like so many times but I kept coming back to life to finish oathbreaker#INSANE#so. much#happened and so much RUINED MEEEEE#jayce made me want to explode a william times habsjajdj#also I am thinking thoughts!!!!!#Cassandraâs goal is eluding me and itâs driving me mad#the Iâm right sceneđŽâđ¨âşď¸ between Jayce and Caitlyn made me giggle#also that Singe Jayce contrast was catered to me specifically LIKE YEAHHHHH#i get it#i love how much of Jayceâs relationship speaks to Singeâs with viktors and heals it#so true.#i think about that a lot#i have thoughts but Iâm too tired :///#i really enjoyed Cait this chapter too#the oathbreaker
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Literally nothing makes me more irritated than some guy I hardly know being fucking passive aggressive with me over trivial stuff. What the hell is up with these Minnesotans being knee jerk passive aggressive the second you aren't the most enthusiastic excited person alive..... đđđŽâđ¨
#i was genuinely interested in just being friends with s couple of them but they just keep saying stuff that irritates me#bc its passive aggressive#its not cute#ive had an exhausting week and going to the first family function ive been to in like 7 years kinda wiped me out#i told these dudes as much as a heads up bc im just. not as high energy i need recuperating time.#yeah i wasnt thinking of canceling on you but now ghat you said that you#'hope this isnt your way of preparing to cancel on me this weekend đ
'#bro#and the other guy... i forgot to message for a couple days because it was a holiday weekend...... i was busy.......#and he busted out the 'oh I thought you just werent interested anymore so i didnt want to bother you at all'#i have only talked to you guys respectively for like a month. we only went on a couple dates. wtf makes u think its cute to talk like this?#genuinely really irritated about it#i hope im not passive aggressive this is the most annoying shit in the world#also i guess maybe this doesnt read to others as passive aggressive but in the context of the rest of the messages and how theyve talked#its a new addition đ#personal stuff#everybody and their mother is like oh im a super straightforward person!!#no they just dont filter their insecure thoughts. tbh. and they dont believe that *i am* straightforward#even though ive only ever been completely up front with where i stand#đđđđŽâđ¨ im so tired#already went into the week tired#at least the one dude im still going on dates with is being nice about it. i think (i hope....) if i told him i needed a weekend off#hed probably be chill about it. as he SHOULD...... after only a month or so jfc.#i think genuinely i am done on these apps. ill see through the next few dates w the one guy#and talking abt friendship stuff with the others#but frankly i want my time back. im tired. going on dates has been fun#made me feel good ngl. i had a good time. having casual sex has been nice too.#but yeah idk i dont think this is how I'll find somebody im bonkers over#i dont think im the person right now to casually and patiently work through somebody elses mountain of baggage when i dont know them
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Hello! My side blog is @malice-havik-stain !
I havenât played PokĂŠmon in a long time! I mainly played red and yellow back in the day. And just got into Violet not too long ago.
But I recognize Shadowheart from your f/os! đ
For the graphics game, đŚ for any PokĂŠmon f/o, and đˇď¸ for Shadowheart.
Have fun! đ¤đ
Thank you for the ask!!! I hope you have been enjoying Violet, I really liked the story, and a bunch of the characters are a ton of fun. (I also love the original games a whole lot. One of my f/os is from them!)
So for the PokĂŠmon f/o, I went with (manga) Blue to match the color. I even made an edit of my s/i in Adventures, so manga Quentin gets to be there, too! Yippee!!! (While my regular s/i has glasses, my insert actually lacks them for a long time, to reflect the fact that irl, I didnât get them until I was an adult. So he wouldnât have had them in the first arc.)
And for Shadowheart, I couldnât find a screenie of my guy with her with black hair, so itâs kinda more desaturated and black and white instead of just black (with the center pic having full color bc itâs fun), but I still think it looks nice. (I have SO much stuff related to her on my phone, and was genuinely surprised that I donât have a screenie of my guy with her earlier on somewhere on it!)
#I spent so long on the adventures edit of my s/i đŽâđ¨đŽâđ¨đŽâđ¨#only to at the end of it go âoh shit⌠does this fit with any of my screenies of blue?â#but it did so yay!!!#blue#shart#my edits#idk what else to tag Iâm really tired rn đđđ#also. fun fact!#blue is my favorite color :D!#also I probably couldâve found a screenie at my pc but itâs downstairs and I havenât been feeling well haha
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lmao i'm so mad that if I ever give birth to twins I will separate them (?
#nah but can you imagine#dcmk spoilers#detective conan spoilers#m27 spoilers#movie27 spoilers#like bro the clichĂŠ really???? đŤ#I'm tired of mangakas being like this with their stories :/ they aren't cooking#i know it was predictable but that doesn't make it any less shitty#also anoooother failed confession... again#predictable but đŽâđ¨
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Should I go to the ceramics thing tonight or just go next week?
#a talking bunkat#I'm really tired and idk if I should now... but there is a chance I could meet some people finally too.......#đŽâđ¨
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Send đ¤ and my character will answer about yours || Accepting !
@advnterccs sent:đ¤ { For the Ricks ofc fshdjkf }
Attractiveness
repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words
"I-I could go on a rant a-about how hot and gorgeous my boyfriend is, b-but I'll fuckin' sum it up by saying this. I-If you look at him an-and you don't see that he is t-the most handsome, sexiest, attractive, m-mouth-watering piece of ass you've ever seen in your life, t-then you need new eyes. N-Not glasses, t-they won't fuckin' do. G-Get a new pair of eyes. An-And a new brain with better tastes, w-while you're at it."
Personality
grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible
"W-We...Our personalities are really fuckin' similar an-and I can't say that I-I am the easiest person to deal with. I-I'm the fuckin' opposite. An-And Rick...as much as I'd love to say tha-that he's perfect, he's not. H-He has a lot of shitty traits, almost as many as the good ones...b-but when they don't get between us? E-Even those are enticing on him. S-So...we make it work. An-And knowing each other inside out...i-it makes shit easier, o-on the long term."
Level of friendship
never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend
"R-Rick is my best friend. W-We understand each other in ways n-no one else ever will. W-We are closer than we could ever be w-with anyone. R-Romantically, b-but platonically too. I-I just...I-I trust him. With everything. M-Morty than anyone. E-Even more than myself. I-I trust him with shit I-I wouldn't trust me with. B-Because I know for certain tha-that he'll go to hell and back not to fail me."
First impression of them
i hate them so much / i donât like them / i donât trust them / they annoy me / theyâre weird / Iâm indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyâre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iâm not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyâre cool / theyâre genuine / I think weâre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iâm in love / oh fuck theyâre hot / I love them
"S-Saying that our forced encounter was messy i-is a fuckin' understatement. W-We were instantly distrustful of each other on principle b-because we were dealing with another Rick. T-Then we found out that we were the same Rick an-and we disliked each other even more. S-Self-loathing and all that shit. Y-Yet...we bonded a little, w-while figuring out how to leave the limbo. An-And the whole gun thing? S-Shit, that was hot. H-He was hot."
Current impression of them
i hate them so much / i donât like them / i donât trust them / they annoy me / theyâre weird / Iâm indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyâre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iâm not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyâre cool / theyâre genuine / I think weâre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iâm in love / oh fuck theyâre hot / I love them
"I-I've said it a thousand times, s-so I won't go on a rant about this either, b-but...Rick is everything. M-My universe starts and ends w-with him. W-When we are together, a-all matters is us. I-I could have just him in my life f-from not to the end of forever an-and it would be enough. I-I've doubted everything in my life, b-but now I can't even think about doubting him an-and all that he is to me."
#[ ic :: c137 Rick ]#[ headcanons :: c137 Rick ]#[ Step through the mirror and let me tell you my dreams for our destiny :: Rick & Rick ]#[ v. Rick Double Morty and Trouble ; timeline split :: c137 Rick ]#advnterccs#[[ welcome to another episode of 'Rick rants about his boyfriend and gets obnoxiously sappy' đŽâđ¨ ]]#[[ I swear he repeats the same shit every time but he doesn't get tired of it at all xD ]]#[[ he's just SO in love omg x3 ]]#[[ and he really loves recalling that gun thing from their first meetint đ ]]#;; queue
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The desire to run away and disappear into the woods like some mystical fae is strong
#im just so tired and really need a break#this week has been ass so far#and i am so fucking sleepy#and i gotta go home and try to make dinner later đŽâđ¨
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want to yap about something but i'm mentally tired to think about words in english so maybe later
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babes im so insanely tired. so so tired
#new year new me but fucking hell itâs gonna be tiring#i dont have a new yearâs resolution really. but i have a list of things that scare me that i have to do within the year#and one of the things is to talk more but FUCK ME IT IS HARD#spent close to an hour hyping myself up to talk to a coworker about a situation im in#and im somewhat close to this girl why the fuck was i stressing for an HOUR.#anyway. radical self acceptance. im gonna talk more. bc my social anxiety#and normal anxiety will never win over me#đŠđŽâđ¨#nebulae.speaks
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why are companies doing more summer internships for students when i just graduated, and why were they only recruiting new graduates when i was looking for a summer internship last summer??? they really dont want me to work huh
#just yapping#im really tired of seeing link*din notifs abt bunch of internships which only want students#đŽâđ¨
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marry me, mr. jeong

summary: while everyone around you is getting married, you're left behindâno ring, no lover, just silence waiting at home. but one night, your boss, mr. jeong, makes an unexpected proposal:Â "marry me."Â and suddenly, your quiet world begins to burn.
pairing: boss!jaehyun x fem!reader
genre: romance, slow burn, fluff, emotional smut, domestic married life, eventual pregnancy, emotional growth, healing.
warnings: explicit sexual content (18+), strong language, emotional vulnerability, pregnancy mention (later), minor angst, lots of kissing, crying, soft husband jaehyun, tooth-rotting fluff, crying-in-the-club type of love.
wc: 19,7K
notes: iâm obsessed with jaehyun as a boss, boyfriend, hubby, and daddy lmao. manâs got range đŽâđ¨đđ¤ i swear i try to keep it short but my brain goes rogue every time đ like girl be fr, whenâs the day i finally drop a short fic??? bye lmao đ

youâre twenty-nine, and the number feels heavier than you thought it would. not because itâs oldânot reallyâbut because thirty is close. and thirty means expectations. by now, you were supposed to have it all figured out. at least, thatâs what they say. your friends certainly make it seem that way with their photo-perfect marriages, toddlers learning to walk, houses in peaceful neighborhoods. meanwhile, you still live in a quiet apartment with plants you often forget to water and a fridge that holds more takeout containers than groceries.
you work at an architecture firmâclean lines, big ideas, and even bigger egos. the kind of place where late nights are common and recognition is rare. youâve built a name for yourself, though. you lead your team well, your ideas consistently get approved, and your work ethic has never been in question. the other women whisper that youâre just trying to impress the boss, that your dedication is nothing but a strategic flirtation. they don't know that your passion isnât about pleasing anyone but yourself. well, mostly. maybe part of you does want to be seen. to be acknowledged by him.
jeong jaehyun.
your department lead. two years younger than you, but somehow always carrying himself like heâs lived three lives already. he doesnât talk much. doesnât engage in the small talk that fills the office kitchen or the empty flattery some of your coworkers throw his way. heâs serious, focused, almost too calm. the kind of man whoâs unreadable, and yet somehow always watching. youâre not close, not really, but thereâs a quiet understanding between you. he trusts you. you can feel it in the way he gives you space to lead, the way he nods subtly in meetings when you speak, the way his eyes linger sometimesânot in a way that feels invasive, but like heâs... thinking.
youâve never seen him flirt with anyone. never seen him talk about his personal life. no ring, no photos on his desk, not even vague mentions of a girlfriend or family. and while no one dares to say anything to his face, everyone wonders. he's a man, thoughâno one criticizes him for being single. no one asks him what he's waiting for.
you, on the other hand, can barely go a week without someone making a comment. still not married? youâre so pretty, what a shame. your mother means well, but every call ends with a variation of youâre not getting any younger, sweetheart.you smile through it. you tell them you're happy. you tell yourself that, too. but deep down, there's a quiet ache. because youâve always wanted a family. always dreamed of being a mother, of coming home to someone who knows youânot just your schedule or your favorite takeout order, but the way you think, the way you feel things deeply and try to hide it. but love hasnât knocked in years. not since your last relationship ended at twenty-two, before the world hardened your heart. since then, youâve been too busy, too careful, too tired.
tonight, you're staying late again. the office is nearly empty, save for a few flickering lights and the buzz of a vending machine down the hall. you're finessing the last pieces of a major project, making sure every detail is just right. you're in the zone when you hear soft footsteps approaching, and then his voiceâlow, familiar, closer than expected.
âyouâre still here, byun?â
you glance up to find jaehyun standing by your desk, hands in his pockets, that usual unreadable expression on his face. thereâs no judgment in his voice, just quiet curiosity.
you offer a tired smile, leaning back in your chair. âoh, mr. jeong, i just wanted to polish a few things before the presentation. i figured if i leave anything messy, the senior managers will rip it apart. and then youâll take the heat for it.â
he raises an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth twitching into something that almost looks like a smile. âyou care that much about how i look to the execs?â
you shrug, turning back to your screen. âyouâre my boss. if you look bad, i look bad.â
he lets out a soft exhale, a sound that's dangerously close to a chuckle. then he leans against your desk, his body relaxed but his eyes still sharp as ever. âyouâre too committed.â
âyou say that like itâs a bad thing.â
he shakes his head. ânot bad. just... rare.â
a brief silence settles between you, not awkward, but weighted. it feels like heâs about to say something else, and when he does, itâs not what you expect.
âdoesnât your family mind that you stay this late?â his gaze holds yours. âyour husband? kids?â
you blink, the question catching you off guard. your smile falters just slightly, and you look down at your hands before answering.
âno husband. no kids. no one waiting at home.â you try to sound casual, even throw in a little laugh. âi guess iâm just married to the job.â
he doesnât laugh. doesnât look away. âi didnât know.â
you nod, suddenly very aware of the silence around you. âmost people assume. but... yeah. i live alone.â
another pause. then, gently, you ask, âwhat about you, mr. jeong? i mean, youâre always here late too. no one waiting on you?â
he looks away for the first time, his jaw tightening slightly before he answers. âno one yet.â
and there it is againâthat silence between you. but this time, itâs different. it hums with something unspoken. curiosity. surprise. maybe even recognition.
you return your gaze to the screen, not really seeing it. heâs still standing there, close enough to feel but not close enough to touch. something in the air shifts, and for the first time in a long time, your chest feels... not heavy, but full.
the next morning, you arrived a few minutes earlyâjust like always. being punctual wasnât about impressing anyone; it was about control, about provingâat least to yourselfâthat you had your life together. it made you feel reliable. consistent. in a workplace full of half-assed excuses and people who couldnât meet a deadline to save their lives, your discipline was something you wore like armor. something no one could take from you.
your outfit was soft, delicate evenârose-pink skirt brushing just above your knees, a crisp white button-up tucked in neatly, the blazer matching your skirt in a subtle pastel tone. your heels clicked softly against the tile floor as you made your way to your desk, and as you passed the reflection on one of the glass panels, you couldnât help but think:Â i look good today.
you did. your hair was in place, makeup light but elegant, lips tinted a faint nude-pink. polished. pretty. professional. but beneath all that... you also looked a little alone. not that anyone would say it to your faceâbut you could see it sometimes, in the glances people gave you. admiration, maybe. pity, sometimes. curiosity always.
you sat down, smoothing your skirt and adjusting your chair, reaching for the little yellow post-it youâd stuck to the side of your monitor the day before. your handwriting was neat, methodical. a short list of pending tasks, each one already being mentally checked off as you booted up your computer. you didnât waste timeâyour fingers flew across the keyboard, and within minutes the familiar sounds of productivity filled your small corner of the office: the rhythmic clack of keys, the soft hum and spit of the printer warming up to spit out proposals and reports.
you didnât hear him come in.
you were too deep in the flow, too focused on aligning the final report with the visual standards the company demanded. your eyes scanned the document line by line, searching for typos, ensuring everything was clean, sharp, presentable. the sound of footsteps behind you didnât register until you felt itâthat subtle, electric awareness that comes when someone is watching.
âgood morning, byun. please leave the project report on my desk once itâs ready.â
he didnât look at you. just passed by, smooth and quick, his voice calm and firm, a cup of steaming coffee in one hand, the familiar scent of roast beans and expensive cologne trailing behind him like a silent presence. his stride didnât falter, his gaze fixed ahead, like heâd already moved on to the next ten things in his mind. you barely had time to nod, mouth parted to respond, but he was already disappearing behind his office door.
you blinked.
right. the report.
you gathered the last printed pages, slid them into the presentation folder, double-checked the order, smoothed the cover with your palm before rising from your seat. your heels clicked softly against the floor as you made your way down the short corridor, your fingers lightly tapping the edge of the folder, nerves tightening with each step even if there was nothing to be nervous about. it was just work. just jaehyun. just another report.
you knocked once and entered when he answered. he was seated behind his desk, sleeves already rolled up to his elbows, the dark veins of his forearms visible as he typed something on his laptop. he glanced up, briefly, then reached for the report when you held it out.
âthank you,â he said, flipping it open with precision, already scanning the contents. âat two p.m. we have the meeting with upper management. youâll be joining me at the table. along with choi and hwang.â
you nodded. âunderstood.â
âgood. go over the numbers one more time before then. theyâre likely to ask.â
âyes, mr. jeong.â
and that was it. no warm smile. no thank you. just professional, cold efficiency. you turned and left, closing the door gently behind you before returning to your desk, the weight of the upcoming meeting settling on your shoulders like a familiar cloak. youâd been through this before. plenty of times. but it never got easier. not when the room was full of men in suits who barely hid their condescension, who chewed through ideas like tasteless gum until someoneâusually jaehyunâsaid something smart enough to catch their interest.
you spent the next few hours fine-tuning the financial section, making sure your data was clean, graphs properly labeled, estimates realistic but still ambitious. it was a delicate gameâmaking things sound innovative without actually suggesting anything too risky. they didnât want bold. they wanted impressive illusions of boldness packaged in safe wrapping.
the meeting room was as bland as ever. too much glass, too much beige. you sat at the long table beside jaehyun, your laptop open, presentation ready. the managers arrived first, already complaining about another teamâs failed prototype. the director entered last, stone-faced as always, his tie perfect, his opinion impossible to read.
as expected, the meeting dragged. they picked apart the proposal, paragraph by paragraph, expressionless until one of them grimaced like the very concept of originality offended them. you watched them, these men who nodded at each other but rarely smiled, who offered feedback that wasnât feedback, just empty phrases like âit needs more punchâ or âis this trend even scalable?â
then jaehyun spoke.
his voice was calm, slow, measured. and yet he made every single line sound convincing. powerful. like there was no other way forward but the one he was laying out. the room shifted around him. the tension eased. eyes narrowedânot in skepticism now, but interest. he wasnât just presenting; he was selling a vision, and you felt yourself straightening with pride even if the credit wasnât yours.
until he said your name.
ây/n,â he said, still facing the director. âif you could present the budget projections.â
you froze for a half second. not out of fearâjust... surprise. you hadnât expected him to call on you so soon.
you stood, smoothed your skirt unconsciously, and took a breath before switching slides. your voice was steady, even if your palms were clammy.
âthese are the projections for the next two quarters,â you began, pointing at the chart. âweâve estimated a moderate increase in cost during the development phase, with a break-even point projected for the beginning of q3. depending on the approved budget, weâre looking at a return on investment of approximatelyââ
you kept going, explaining the graphs, walking them through the numbers with careful clarity. no embellishments, no guesswork. facts. you swallowed once, clearing your throat before the final slide, then ended with a nod.
when you sat back down, jaehyun glanced at you. just a moment. a flicker of something almost soft in his expression.
like youâd done well. like you couldnât possibly disappoint him.
the rest of the meeting blurred. the managers began tossing in extra suggestionsâsmall changes, tweaks they hoped would impress the director. the man nodded, offered vague praise, and you remained at your seat, listening to it all with a practiced, patient expression.
when the meeting finally ended, you stood beside jaehyun again. he didnât say muchâhe never didâbut as he packed his laptop, he looked at you.
âgood work today,â he said. âyouâre an essential part of the team. if you keep this up, iâll make sure your nameâs considered for the upcoming promotions.â
you stared at him, momentarily stunned. the words hit harder than you expected. youâd worked for five years, given everything to this company, and thisâthis was the first time someone above you had said something that felt... real.
âthank you,â you said softly, trying not to let your smile get too big. âreally.â
he nodded. âyou earned it.â
later, when the director extended the dinner invitation, you didnât hesitate. it wasnât optional. the team needed to show up, needed to mingle, to pretend everything was a celebration and not an endless cycle of office politics masked with clinking glasses.
the bar was upscale but casual enough to loosen peopleâs ties. smoke from grilled meats hung faintly in the air, the tang of sweet sauces and roasted garlic filling the space. you sat between your supervisor and jaehyun, trying not to feel too stiff in your work clothes. everyone was drinking, toasting, laughing louder than they had all day.
the supervisor leaned forward, voice slightly slurred. âyou know,â he said to the director, âthe whole prototype? the mockup? the execution timeline? all her. y/n practically carried the whole thing.â
the director turned to you, surprised. âreally? how long have you been here?â
âfive years,â you replied, sipping from your glass.
he raised a brow. âhow is it possible i havenât noticed you until now?â
jaehyun, still beside you, said nothingâbut you felt the subtle tension in his posture.
âyouâve got a good employee,â the director told him. âitâs your job to shape her. teach her. sounds like sheâs already on the right path. with the right guidance... sheâll move up in no time.â
he raised his glass. âto y/n.â
âto y/n,â echoed around the table.
you lifted your glass, cheeks warmânot just from the alcohol but from the unfamiliar sensation of being seen. you smiled, surrounded by coworkers and approval and good food, and for a moment, just one moment, everything felt like it was finally going somewhere.
you were finally going somewhere.

the dinner had blurred into noise.
conversations overlapping, laughter rising and falling like tides. glasses clinked, meat sizzled on the grill, the warm lighting softening everyone's expressions into something hazy and unguarded. you sat at the long table, just a bit to the side, the smoky scent of barbecued meat in your hair and the echo of compliments still lingering in your chest. across from you, your supervisor had long since slipped into a drunken retelling of his glory days. to your left, jaehyun sat quietly, jacket off, shirt sleeves rolled to his elbows. his arms were strong, veins defined even in the low light, and on his left wrist, a sleek, expensive watch glinted every time he reached for his glass. he hadnât touched his soju in a while, though. he just held the rim between his fingers and occasionally let his gaze wander across the room.
when your eyes met, it was casual, almost accidental. but you didnât look away.
âyouâre not drinking,â you said, quietly enough that only he could hear.
he offered the ghost of a smirk, the kind that barely pulled at one corner of his mouth. âsomeone has to remember what was actually said tonight.â
you laughed, a soft breathy sound, grateful for his clarity amidst the chaos.
a silence settled between you, but it wasnât uncomfortable. rather, it felt like a small space carved out just for the two of youâunbothered, untouched, a bubble where you didnât have to keep smiling or pretending. you let out a quiet sigh, swirling your untouched drink in your hand.
âdo you ever feel like you're running out of time?â you asked, voice low, not even sure why you were asking him of all people.
jaehyun looked at you, brows drawn slightly, intrigued but still calm. âtime for what?â
you hesitated, fingers tightening around your glass. the alcohol was warm in your chest, but not enough to numb this confession.
âfor everything,â you admitted. âi mean, professionally⌠things are going great. i canât complain. iâve worked hard, and itâs starting to pay off. butâŚâ you looked down, lips pressing together. âsometimes i feel like iâm trapped inside a giant hourglass, watching the sand fall, grain by grain. iâll be thirty in a few months. and i know that shouldn't mean anything, but in a world where people expect you to have everything figured out by nowâmarriage, kids, some picture-perfect lifeâi feel like iâm falling behind. like my dreams are moving farther and farther away.â
you took a breath, not daring to look at him.
âitâs just⌠sad,â you continued. âwhen you achieve something big and thereâs no one waiting at home to celebrate it with you. no partner, no family. no one to say, âiâm proud of you.ââ
jaehyun was quiet for a moment. then his voice came, soft and even.
âi can celebrate with you.â
you looked up, surprised, blinking at him. âthank you, but⌠thatâs not what i meant. itâs not the same.â
he held your gaze. then, calmly, like he was offering a solution to a logistics problem, he said it.
âthen marry me.â
your brain stalled.
you didnât understand at first. maybe you misheard him. maybe he was joking, or drunkâexcept his voice hadnât changed. his tone hadnât wavered. your stomach dropped.
ââŚwhat?â you whispered.
âyou want a family. you want someone to come home to. marry me.â
the words hung between you like smoke. absurd. unreal. your mouth opened, but nothing came out at first. you glanced aroundâeveryone else was too busy laughing or slurring their next toast to notice what had just happened.
you leaned in slightly, voice tense and hushed. âmr.âjeongâwhat are you talking about? we donât even know each other like that.â
âwe know enough,â he said without blinking.
âweâve never even had a real conversation outside of work until now.â
âso letâs have more,â he replied, as steady as always.
you felt like your heart was beating too loudly. âare you⌠are you seriously suggesting we get married?â
âiâm not suggesting it. iâm telling you iâd do it. if you said yes.â
you stared at him, at the cool detachment on his face, the quiet certainty in his voice, and felt your world tip on its axis.
he shrugged. âhow long until you turn thirty?â
ââŚmy birthdayâs in november,â you muttered, the words escaping before you could even process them. âitâs april now. thatâs seven months.â
jaehyun nodded slowly. âthen you have seven months to decide.â
he finished his beer in one slow, final gulp. then he stood up, reaching into his wallet and placing a few bills under his empty glass. you were still frozen when he stepped beside you.
âiâll take you home,â he said.
you tried to protest, voice stumbling over half-formed refusals. âyou donât have toâi can call a cab, reallyââ
he looked down at you, expression unreadable.
âthat wasnât a request. itâs your boss giving you a ride.â
and with that, he turned, waiting for you to follow. your legs felt heavy as you stood, your mind racing, still reeling from what had just happened. marry him? seven months? he was serious. he was actually serious.
you had no answers. only questions. and one man who had just offered you everything youâd spent your life pretending you didnât need.
you didnât sleep.
not really. you tossed and turned, arms flung across the bed one minute and buried under the covers the next. jaehyunâs words echoed in your skull like an intrusive melody, looping over and over again.
then marry me.
you have seven months to decide.
like some sort of countdown had been triggered.
you must have stared at your ceiling for hours, trying to make sense of what he meantâwhat it meant for youâand whether heâd been serious. but the worst part wasnât the proposal. the worst part was how calm heâd been, how effortlessly heâd said it, and how easily heâd walked away afterward like it hadnât upended your entire sense of self.
your alarm went off at seven, and you hit snooze five times. by the time you dragged yourself out of bed, you felt like your bones had aged a decade overnight. you put on your makeup with the heaviness of someone trying to erase exhaustion from the inside outâconcealer, color corrector, foundation. you went over your under-eyes twice, then a third time. you looked like yourself, but blurry. off.
you arrived to work twenty minutes later than usual, which was already enough to earn a few raised brows. no one said anything, but they noticed. you noticed them noticing.
you sat at your desk and stared at your drawers, forgetting which one you kept the monthly reports in. your fingers shook slightly as you shuffled through folders, trying to find the stupid paperwork you'd seen a million times. a stack of them slipped from your grasp and scattered onto the floor like a metaphor. you groaned and crouched down to collect them, muttering under your breath. your brain still felt like it was swimming through molasses.
thenâ
âgood morning.â
his voice. that casual, bored tone he always used in the office. neutral, even, no trace of anything buried beneath it. no sign that heâd ever said something as life-altering as what heâd said last night.
you startled so hard you hit your head on the underside of your desk.
âgoodâouch!â you winced, clutching your scalp with one hand and your pride with the other. âgood morning, mr. jeong.â
he kept walking. didnât glance down at you. didnât smirk. didnât check if you were okay. he passed your desk like any other morning, like he hadnât proposed to you over beer and smoke and shared loneliness.
a few coworkers peeked over their partitions, concerned. you gave a shaky thumbs-up and a whispered, âiâm fine,â even though you felt anything but fine.
you werenât like this. not at work. not ever. your name was synonymous with precision. discipline. control. and here you were, dropping papers and bumping into furniture like your brain had short-circuited.
you finally gathered the reports and brought them to his office.
he was seated at his desk, focused on his screen, the sleeves of his dress shirt still rolled to his elbows. your eyes caught briefly on the line of his forearm, the watch still there, still ticking.
âthese are the reports from last month,â you said, setting the folder down.
âthanks,â he replied without looking at you.
you lingered.
âmr. jeong.â
he finally looked up.
his eyes were calm. cool. like nothing was wrong. like he hadnât detonated a bomb and walked away from the wreckage.
you hesitated, your throat dry. âabout what you said last nightââ
his expression didnât change.
âweâre at work,â he said simply. âiâm being professional.â
you blinked, almost offended. âso thatâs it? you say something that insane and then justâgo back to normal?â
âweâll talk after work,â he said, returning to his screen. âif you want to.â
you stood there, gripping the folder even though it was already out of your hands, heart thudding with something sour and hot and unnamable. frustration? humiliation? confusion? all of it?
he was treating you like you were the one out of line. like you were being inappropriate for even bringing it up.
you turned around without saying anything else and walked out of his office, pulse hammering in your ears. the rest of the day dragged like wet cement. you couldnât concentrate. you couldnât remember what you were supposed to be doing half the time. you reread emails four times before hitting send. and every time someone walked past your desk, you wondered if it was him, if heâd say anything, if heâd look at you, if he even remembered what he said or if the memory of it belonged to you alone now.
youâd never felt so out of control.
you didnât know what was worseâhis silence or the fact that you wanted him to break it.
you tried to focus. god, you really did. you stared at spreadsheets until the numbers blurred into static. you answered emails with words you didnât remember typing. every time the phone rang, your heart jumped, irrationally convinced it might be himâeven though you were in the same building, separated by maybe thirty feet of glass, air, and unspoken tension. it felt like the longest day of your life. your temples throbbed with a slow, building ache, like your thoughts were pressing too hard against the inside of your skull.
you popped two painkillers around lunchtime, washed them down with lukewarm water from your reusable bottle, but they didnât help. not really. because the pain wasnât just physicalâit was mental. emotional. a kind of pressure that wrapped around your ribs and squeezed.
your mind wouldnât shut up.
you kept looping the same questions, over and over again, like your brain was stuck on a carousel with no exit.
why would he say that? why now? why you?
he already told you he'd wait. seven months. seven impossibly long, slow-burning months.
so why talk? why meet? it wasnât for him. it didnât serve him. heâd been clear. he had time, he had patience. this conversationâit was for you. you were the one desperate to make sense of it. to understand his motives. to justify the insanity of it all.
but how were you supposed to justify something that made no sense?
heâs twenty-seven. handsome. polished. wealthy. he could have anyoneâliterally anyone. girls younger than you, brighter than you, women who werenât crawling toward their thirties with a fading list of half-achieved dreams and a fridge full of takeout leftovers. why you?
a mid-level employee in a department no one paid much attention to. someone who had to fight tooth and nail just to be noticed in board meetings. someone who had accomplishments but no one to toast with. someone who fell asleep most nights with their phone face-down and on silent because no one was texting anyway.
why you?
you didnât have an answer.
you finished your tasksâbarelyâand the moment the clock hit the end of your shift, you shut your computer down with shaky fingers and grabbed your bag. your steps felt heavy, reluctant, as you made your way through the hall toward the entrance. part of you wanted to bolt, to pretend nothing had ever been said, to go home and crawl into bed and put on a show you wouldnât really watch. to sleep off the confusion like a bad hangover.
but the doors opened before you could entertain the thought. those clean, automatic glass doors slid apart with a hiss, and there he was.
leaning casually against one of the white pillars just outside, his suit jacket draped neatly over his forearm, his other hand gripping his sleek black briefcase like it weighed nothing. he looked like something out of a commercialâwell-dressed, composed, the perfect image of success. but when his eyes met yours, something flickered beneath the surface. maybe restraint. maybe tension. maybe nothing.
he walked toward you calmly, the sound of his footsteps muffled by the smooth tile.
âget in the car,â he said, voice even. âweâre going to talk. like you wanted.â
not a question. not a request.
he turned without waiting for your answer and made his way to a parked luxury sedanâshiny, deep black, windows tinted so dark you could barely see the interior. he opened the passenger door for you, as if the conversation that waited inside was just another part of his routine.
you hesitated, only for a second.
but then you followed.
because no matter how messy your thoughts were, no matter how terrified or confused or unworthy you felt, one truth cut through the noise:
you wanted to know.
you slid into the passenger seat, trying to calm the way your heart was sprinting inside your chest. the door closed beside you with a quiet thunk, sealing you into a space you werenât sure you were ready for.
he walked around the front of the car and got in behind the wheel, smooth and unhurried.
you stared straight ahead.
readyâor notâto finally ask the questions that wouldnât leave you alone.
the silence in the car wasnât uncomfortable. not exactly. but it was denseâlike fog inside your chest, heavy and silent and there to stay.
you stared out the window as the city drifted past, familiar buildings made foreign by the storm in your head. beside you, jaehyun drove with one hand on the wheel, the other resting on the gearshift. there was music playingâlow, jazzy, oldâbut he didnât speak. not until you passed a traffic light and he tilted his head, casually.
âdid you get enough sleep last night?â he asked, like he was commenting on the weather.
you didnât look at him. ânot really.â
âfigured,â he said, turning smoothly into another avenue. âyou looked like hell.â
you gave a humorless chuckle, resting your elbow against the door and propping your chin in your hand. âthanks for the compliment, sir.â
âanytime,â he said dryly.
and that was it. that was all the small talk he offered. nothing personal. nothing intimate. just an acknowledgment that he saw you. that heâd noticed.
the drive was short, and before you could make sense of anything, you were already parking in front of a modest little korean restaurant tucked between a laundromat and a bookstore. it smelled like steam, garlic, and simmered bone broth. a place where people went for real food and no-frills comfort.
âthis place has the best gomguk in the city,â jaehyun said, grabbing his briefcase from the back. âbeen coming here since i was a teenager.â
you hesitated at the door. âyou like bone soup?â
âlove it.â
you wrinkled your nose. âi canât stand that stuff. never could. not even as a kid.â
he paused mid-step and gave you a look, slightly amused. âwell,â he said, âthereâs our first disagreement as a couple.â
you blinked at him, caught off guard. âwhat?â
ânow i know you donât like gomguk. guess iâll have to avoid cooking it for you.â
you said nothing.
because he wasnât joking. not really. not entirely. and that was the part that made your mouth dry.
how could he say things like that so easily? so naturally? as if you hadnât spent the entire day unraveling at the seams while he strutted through the office like nothing had happened?
he sat across from you at the table, unbothered, scanning the menu like it wasnât even necessary. he already knew what he wanted. meanwhile, you still didnât know why you were there.
you picked something else. kimchi jjigae, maybeâsafe, familiar, strong enough to mask the taste of your confusion.
once the server took your orders and disappeared behind the curtain, you leaned forward, folding your hands together to stop them from trembling.
âwhy me?â
his eyes lifted slowly from the empty table to your face. âthereâs no reason,â he said. âi just want to give you what you want.â
âdo you say that to all women?â
he smirked. âif i did, iâd probably be married to half the city by now.â
you shook your head. âdonât do that.â
âdo what?â
âdonât treat this like a mission,â you snapped, trying not to raise your voice. âi donât need your pity. i shared something vulnerable with you, yeah. but that doesnât mean you have to swoop in and rescue me from a miserable life of solitude by offering a ring. this isnât some fairytale. i donât need a man to save me.â
âi never said you did.â
you exhaled slowly. âi want to love and be loved. to build something. something real. not this... whatever this is. a contract. a deal. a deadline to escape loneliness.â
his expression didnât shift. not a single flicker. but his voice softened.
âthen letâs say this. if in seven months, you still havenât found someoneâsomeone who makes you feel like you can build something... try it with me.â
you stared at him. hard. trying to read every intention in the lines of his face.
âjust like that?â
âjust like that.â
you couldnât look away.
and then he said it. the words that settled into the cracks of your resolve like warm rain after a drought.
âwe can love. i can love you. you can love me, if you want to. if you want to date, we can date. you donât have to feel pressured. i just think... youâre worth the risk. and i donât think you should torture yourself every day that passes just because you havenât âsettled down.â opportunities donât always come twice. sometimes you have to grab them while theyâre here. or regret it forever.â
your lips parted, but nothing came out.
you looked at him thenânot as the cold, polished man who walked the halls like a ghost in tailored suits. not as your boss. not as someone who confused and overwhelmed you.
you saw him as a man.
a man who knew what he wanted. who wasnât afraid to take action. who looked you in the eye and offered you something you werenât even sure you deserved.
his jawline. his eyes. the little wrinkle between his brows when he got serious. the calm way he listened. the confidence. the clarity.
you saw him differently.
you werenât ready to give him an answer. not yet.
but something inside you had shifted.
you just didnât know what to call it.
he didnât rush you.
he didnât push.
he just sat there across from you in that tiny booth, his sleeves rolled up and his tie slightly loosened, waiting with the kind of quiet confidence that only made your heart beat louder. he stirred his soup gently, letting it cool, occasionally taking a sip without ever looking away from you for too long.
and then he said itâcasually, as if proposing something as simple as lunch next week.
âletâs do this. iâll pick you up after work from now on. weâll go out. have dinner. spend time together. see what happens. let it unfold naturally.â
just like that.
your breath caught. âi⌠i have doubts,â you admitted, almost in a whisper. âi donât know what to say. i donât know what to feel. this is all so sudden, so... fast.â
he nodded, unbothered. âthatâs okay.â
you blinked. âthatâs okay?â
âyes. itâs not a race. but you heard what i saidâopportunities donât always knock twice. you donât have to say yes right now. just think about it.â
but you were thinking. too much.
his voice played on repeat in your mind: we can love. i can love you. you can love me. and god, wasnât that the exact thing youâd been terrified of never having?
your fingers trembled under the table. your palms clammy, your mouth dry. you rubbed your hands together slowly, grounding yourself in that simple motion, trying to breathe.
he didnât flinch. didnât ask again. just kept sipping his soup, patient as stone, like heâd already accepted whatever answer youâd give him.
you stared at your food, at the steam rising, the way the aroma filled the space between you and him like something sacred. you still couldnât stand bone soup. but somehow, being across from him made it smell less... offensive. less like something to run from.
and you remembered.
all those nights crying in silence.
all those mornings brushing your teeth with tears stuck in your throat because you didnât know if ever would come.
ever finding someone.
ever being enough.
ever being loved without begging for it.
maybe he wasnât what you imagined.
maybe he was better.
you looked up at him.
âokay,â you said, softly. then stronger. âokay. iâll try. iâll let you pick me up. weâll go on these dates. maybe⌠maybe i can love you. maybe i can let myself be loved by you.â
he paused mid-sip, eyes lifting.
your voice cracked slightly when you added, âmaybe i can stay with you.â
for a beat, the world went still.
he didnât smile wide. didnât gloat or tease.
he just gave a slow, almost imperceptible nod. his eyes warm, deep, but controlledâlike someone whoâd been expecting this moment and didnât want to scare it off.
âgood,â he said. âthatâs all i needed.â
you swallowed hard.
and for the first time since that strange proposal, something in your chest loosened.
you werenât sure if this was love.
but it was a beginning.

the next morning. everything is different.
you walk into the building like you own the damn placeâheels sharp, suit immaculate, makeup clean and fierce, ponytail slicked high like a crown. the memory of yesterdayâyour stumble, your throbbing head, your wandering thoughtsânow felt like a distant, irrelevant dream. that wasnât you. this was.
a woman who knew what she wanted.
a woman who said yes.
you smiled to yourself in the elevator. not just any smileâthat kind. the kind that curled at the corners, the kind that held secrets, the kind that felt like sin dressed in silk. the kind that belonged to someone with a man waiting outside a restaurant, ordering bone broth, and talking about love like it was something simple. doable. inevitable.
you were early. again. not by accident this time, but by choice.
you slid into your desk, organized, efficient, present. the hum of the office hadnât started yet, and you took advantage of the calm, catching up on reports and scheduling the week like the good girl you were trained to be. but this time, it was different. you werenât surviving the day. you were anticipating it.
and thenâat exactly the hourâhe walked in.
jung jaehyun.
same black suit. same silver watch. same air of cool detachment.
but today, when he passed by your desk and muttered his usual, âgood morning,â you didnât just nod like before.
you stood upâtoo fast.
too happy.
âgood morning, mr. jeong!â you sang, voice lilting and almost musical, like youâd just won the lottery.
it was instinctual. not calculated. just... you.
the entire floor stopped.
heads turned.
some eyebrows shot up. a few eyes narrowed.
jaehyun himself halted in his tracks, looking back at you slowly, his brows drawn together in the tiniest frown. he cleared his throat.
âeveryone, back to work,â he said, voice firm. and then, after one last lookâeyes narrowed at you in something between confusion and amusementâhe turned and walked away.
you bit your lip so hard it almost hurt, barely suppressing the giggle building in your throat.
the memory of last night echoed in your mind, maybe i can love you, maybe i can stay with youâand now here you were, trying not to beam like a teenager with a crush. you watched his back disappear into his office, and your lips curled up, despite yourself.
you could still feel his eyes on you. even if he wasnât looking.
after work, you waited by the entrance as the glass doors slid open.
he was already thereâlike he promised. leaning casually against his car, black coat folded over one arm, briefcase in hand, gaze scanning the horizon like the perfect ceo out of a drama. but as soon as his eyes met yours, they softenedâbarely, subtlyâbut you noticed.
âget in,â he said, opening the passenger door for you.
you slipped in without protest, heart beating faster than it had any right to.
once the car pulled away from the curb, the silence settledâbut it didnât last long.
âyou canât do that,â he said, not harshly, just... firm.
âdo what?â you asked, knowing damn well.
âgreet me like that. like that.â he glanced at you sideways. âat work.â
you shrugged. âwhat? weâre dating now. arenât we?â
âweâre seeing where this goes,â he corrected. âbut we still have to be professional. people talk. your position can be affected. and mineââ
you cut in, not harshly but with a certain fire. âiâm not going to apologize for being happy.â
âiâm not asking you to apologize.â
âthen donât ask me to pretend. iâll dial it down, sure. but iâm not going to act like you donât mean something to me when weâre under the same roof eight hours a day.â
he stayed quiet for a beat, tapping the wheel with one hand, lips twitching like he was trying not to smile.
âis this how you are with all your boyfriends?â
you grinned. âiâm worse.â
he laughed. actually laughed. that deep, velvet sound you hadnât heard much outside of formalities.
âwell, iâll brace myself,â he said. âi might enjoy it.â
you turned to the window, hiding your smile. this was really happening.
the drive back was quiet at firstâa comfortable silence that didnât demand immediate conversation. the kind of quiet that says:Â you donât need to perform, just exist here with me.
the radio was on. a soft playlist of english ballads played in the backgroundâsongs about longing, beginnings, maybe even second chances. you doubted jaehyun picked them himself. it was probably just the algorithm. still, the timing felt so precise⌠so intentional, that you wondered if the universe was helping him out tonight.
you played with your fingers over your thighs, crossing and uncrossing your legs slowly, watching the night pass outside the window. city lights in the distance. trees swaying softly in the wind. you tried to guess where he was taking you next, but the truth was⌠you didnât really care.
not knowing was part of the charm.
âwhere are we going?â you finally asked, unable to resist the curiosity.
he smiled without turning to look at you, eyes steady on the road ahead.
âitâs a secret,â he said. âyouâll have to wait and see.â
you squinted at him with mock suspicion, amusedâand yet, inside, your heart started to thump a little faster with every mile.
there was something strangely beautiful about not being in control this time. about letting yourself be taken somewhere, not out of submission, but out of trust. you werenât used to that. you werenât used to letting anyone drive. but tonight, you wanted to believe you could lean back and just... be.
and then⌠the car turned down a dark, barely lit road, and you saw it.
a wide, open lot. a giant projector screen glowing at the far end. dozens of cars parked in neat rows, some with trunks open, fairy lights, blankets, snacks. couples curled together under the stars.
it was a drive-in movie. like something out of an old romance film.
you gasped, both hands flying to your mouth as you turned to him.
âoh my god. no way. are you serious?! i love the moviesâbut i've never done this. iâve always wanted to, but⌠i donât know. it just never happened.â
jaehyun glanced at you sideways. and this time, he smiled. really smiled. not the polite, composed smile he wore in the hallways or meetingsâbut something warm. something real.
âthen it was a good idea,â he said simply.
he parked in the middle row. good view of the screen, but far enough for privacy. you were already meltingâand then he popped the trunk.
a thick blanket. two small pillows. a tote bag with snacksâpopcorn, a big soda bottle, even the exact chocolate bars youâd once said you liked during a random, probably drunk, late-night conversation. you didnât even remember mentioning it.
he did.
âdid you plan all of this?â you asked, curled slightly sideways in the passenger seat while he arranged everything with care between you.
âi just wanted you to be comfortable,â he said. âi wanted it to be... special.â
no posturing. no hidden motive. just sincerity. you felt it in the way he unfolded the blanket and draped it gently over your lap. in how he checked the windowâcracked just enough to let in the breeze, not enough to let in the cold. In how he handed you the soda first, before even opening his own drink.
the movie started. some lighthearted rom-com with ridiculous dialogue and cheesy plot points, but it didnât matter. it was perfect. low-stakes. no pressure. you curled your legs under you, blanket snug, the flickering light from the screen dancing across your skin.
every once in a while, youâd glance at jaehyun. and more than once, you caught him watching you instead of the film.
âare you bored?â you whispered.
ânot even close.â
âyou havenât laughed once.â
he turned to you, that sarcastic little smirk tugging at one corner of his mouth, eyes narrowed just slightly.
âyouâre already making enough noise for the both of us.â
you gave him a playful slap on the arm, pretending to be offended.
âthat was a compliment,â he added, amused.
you rolled your eyesâbut smiled. god, you smiled so much that night.
as the credits rolled, something shifted in the silence. the mood thickenedânot heavy, just⌠deeper. weighted with something. a moment hanging on the edge of change. your head leaned against the window as the screen dimmed, your eyes distant but your heart so very full.
he still didnât touch you.
he didnât grab your hand. didnât lean in.
but his presence wrapped around you all the sameâsolid, patient, waiting. not pushing, just there. learning how to be near you without demanding anything in return.
âthank you,â you said softly, voice almost too quiet to hear. âfor this. for everything.â
âyou donât have to thank me.â
âyes, i do. itâs not every day someone goes out of their way like this.â
he paused before answering. his tone was steady, but low.
âi want this to work,â he said. âand if that means planning teenage-level dates with blankets and popcorn, then⌠yeah. iâll do that.â
you laughed, eyes dropping to your lap.
âyouâre doing well so far.â
âyeah?â
âyeah.â
and then you looked at each other. just looked. no words needed.
but inside⌠you felt it.
your shoulders, usually tense, were light. your heart, bruised and cautious for so long, was opening again. quietly, but surely. as if whispering, iâm still here. i still want to believe.
you werenât sure where this would go. if it would last. if it would end in tears or something worse.
but right now, in his car, under the stars, with the last notes of the film still echoing through your skinâŚ
you wanted to find out.
you wanted to try.
the next morning at the office felt differentâless chaotic, more grounded. you greeted the receptionist with a small smile, your heels clicking softly against the marble floor as you made your way in, clutching your coffee cup like a security blanket. you weren't glowing, exactly, but something about you was⌠softer. less guarded. like a petal finally relaxing in the warmth of spring after a too-long winter.
jaehyun noticed immediately.
you caught him watching you from the glass-walled conference room as you entered the bullpen. he didn't stare, not in a way that would make it obvious to othersâbut his eyes followed you, just long enough to clock the change. your navy blue pencil skirt hugged your hips, the slit in the back offering just the right amount of grace as you walked. the cream blouse you wore was modest but elegant, the top button left undone, showing the delicate line of your collarbone. your hair was half-up, your makeup minimal, professionalâbut the gloss on your lips and the quiet shimmer on your eyelids betrayed a whisper of mischief. not overt. just enough for someone paying attention.
you met his gaze briefly through the glass and raised your brows in a silent hello before looking away, sipping your coffee with forced nonchalance.
by the time you crossed paths an hour laterâboth of you heading into a smaller briefing roomâhe gave you that look again. the one that asked, really? amused, but faintly disbelieving.
"good morning, mr. jeong," you greeted him politely, eyes straight ahead as if you hadn't spent the last night wrapped in his blanket, watching a movie with your legs tangled under it.
"miss y/l/n," he replied, his lips curving into a knowing smile as he held the door open for you. âvery formal today.â
you didnât rise to the bait. just gave him a brief, professional smile and walked past, heels clicking, not looking back. you were committed to the bit.
the meeting was brief, technicalâa review of deliverables, some feedback loops, nothing out of the ordinary. you contributed where you needed to, kept your tone measured, avoided lingering glances. even when he made a rare joke and the room chuckled, you only allowed yourself a small, polite laugh, hands folded neatly on the table.
he didnât push. but when you passed each other near the coffee station later, his voice dropped low, just enough for you to hear.
âyouâre really leaning into the whole executive assistant with boundaries thing, huh?â
you smirked as you refilled your mug, still not looking at him. âjust trying to keep things professional, mr. jeong.â
âof course.â he nodded once, pretending to adjust his tie. âwouldnât want to cross any lines.â
you bit your lip to suppress your grin. the game was on.
at 3:47 PM, your phone lit up with a text from his office number: meeting with the department heads in fifteen. boardroom. donât be late. signed J.J.
you rolled your eyes but your stomach did a little flip.
the 4 PM meeting draggedâthere was a lot of back and forth over campaign numbers and rollout schedules, but you held your own, taking notes, speaking clearly when your insight was needed. you could feel jaehyun watching you when others werenâtâhis gaze warm, groundingâbut he didnât speak to you directly unless it was related to the discussion. you appreciated that. It let you stay in control, let you breathe.
after everyone had trickled out and the room was quiet, you stayed behind a moment, closing your laptop and straightening the chairs without a word. he didnât move from his seat at the head of the table, just watched you as you moved, his fingers idly spinning a pen.
âdinner?â he asked eventually, breaking the silence.
you didnât look up right away. âare you asking as mr. jeong or...?â
he tilted his head, eyes playful. âjust jaehyun.â
you looked up, meeting his eyes. something flickered between youârecognition. of the past few days, the softness in your chest, the way your shoulders had finally stopped bracing for disappointment.
âokay,â you said quietly. âdinner.â
he didnât take you to a fancy restaurant or anywhere showy. just a quiet little rooftop place downtown, dim lights and mellow music, open air and the sound of the city below. you sat across from him at a small table, knees brushing under the surface. you shared dishes, laughed softly, talked about nothing and everything. he asked about your childhood; you asked about his first heartbreak. there was no rush to get anywhere. just being thereâtogetherâwas enough.
at some point, after dessert and a second glass of wine, the conversation quieted. the city stretched around you, glittering and alive. jaehyun leaned back in his chair, watching you.
at some point, after dessert and a second glass of wine, the conversation quieted. the city stretched around you, glittering and alive. jaehyun leaned back in his chair, watching you with that open expression he reserved for moments like thisâunguarded, gently curious.
âyou said you grew up outside the city,â he said, casually swirling the remnants of his drink. âwhat about your parents?â
you set your fork down and rested your elbows lightly on the table, exhaling. âthey still live in the same town. a couple hours from here.â
he nodded. âsiblings?â
âone,â you replied. âolder brother. married. two little boys.â
jaehyun smiled at that. âyouâre the cool aunt.â
you laughed softly, the sound bittersweet. âi try. i send them stickers and weird snacks from the city. but i think iâm mostly the mysterious aunt who lives alone in seoul and doesnât have a husband, which is a major point of concern for my parents.â
jaehyun raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. âconcern?â
âoh, huge.â you leaned back, crossing your arms with a mock-serious nod. âthey think iâm one heartbreak away from crawling back into my childhood bedroom with a suitcase and giving up entirely. i get the same call every weekendââhave you met someone yet?â and âwhen are you coming home, sweetheart?â like my single status is a national emergency.â
you smiled, tried to make it sound light. funny. but the knot in your chest tugged a little tighter with each word. because underneath the teasing tone, it hurt. the weight of expectation, of having let them down without really meaning to. youâd always thought, by now, youâd have that picture-perfect family. a husband. maybe a child. but life had taken its own sharp turns, and somewhere along the way, you'd lost the map.
before your thoughts could spiral too far inward, you turned your eyes toward him and asked, âwhat about you? any siblings?â
he shook his head. âonly child.â
âwow. that explains the drama,â you teased.
he grinned, playing along. âwhat drama?â
you shrugged, playful. âthe perfectly tousled hair. the quiet confidence. the whole mysterious boss with a tragic past vibe.â
jaehyun laughed, the sound low and warm. ânothing tragic, thankfully. my parents own a condo complex back in busan. they keep to themselves. ever since i moved out, theyâve stayed out of my decisions. no guilt trips. no blind dates.â
he smirked a little, taking another sip. âwhich is great for me.â
you smiled at that, but there was something about the way he said itâcasual, yes, but laced with a kind of loneliness you recognized. the kind that came with being left alone a little too much. with being successful but still carrying a shadow no one quite asked about.
you watched him for a second longer than necessary. then nodded slowly. âthat does sound kind of great.â
he looked at you then, really looked, and the silence between you shiftedâdeeper now. heavy with things not said.
the city hummed around you. glasses clinked from other tables. somewhere, a violinist was playing faintly near the street below. but you only heard the soft cadence of his breath, the way it matched your own.
and then he stood and offered you his hand.
you didnât hesitate this time. you let him lead you to the edge of the rooftop, where the view was clearer, the air colder. your arms brushed as you looked out together, shoulder to shoulder, warm skin against cool wind.
he turned to you first, eyes darker now, thoughtful. âyou donât need to rush anything. marriage, or whatever they want from you. youâre⌠okay. just as you are.â
you looked at him slowly, your heart caught somewhere between gratitude and ache. âthanks,â you whispered. âsometimes i forget.â
he stepped closerâbarelyâbut it was enough to make your breath hitch.
you met his gaze, and something shifted between you again. tighter. stronger. the kind of tension that doesnât demand to be broken, onlyâŚÂ felt.
he leaned in slowly, giving you every chance to pull away. you didnât.
your lips met his softly, a single, tentative kiss that carried the full weight of everything left unspoken. sweet, searching, the kind of kiss that says i see you. that says stay.
and when you pulled back, your eyes didnât dart away.
they lingered.
because something had begun. and neither of you was pretending anymore.
there was no big speech. no sudden declarations.
just the quiet gravity of this moment. the closeness. the way his eyes searched yours with a gentleness that made your breath catch.

april melted into may in soft, golden incrementsâlike a candle burning slow at both ends. the weather grew gentler, the evenings warmer, and with each passing day, your relationship with jaehyun unraveled in small, tender pieces that neither of you rushed to name.
you had more dinners together. nothing extravagantâhe wasnât the kind to impress with grand gesturesâbut always thoughtful. ramen tucked away in a quiet corner shop with mismatched stools. a spontaneous detour after a work meeting that led to an art galleryâs closing hour. coffee at a tiny cafe with mismatched mugs and jazz playing softly from a dusty speaker. with every outing, something softened between you. the way you spoke to each other, the way you lingered a second longer when saying goodbye, the way your eyes found his in a crowded room and stayed there.
still, at work, everything remained perfectly composed. restrained. you never touched, never called him anything but mr. jeong. no one suspected a thingâand that secrecy gave it all the thrill of something sacred. childish almost. like passing notes under a desk. a shared joke disguised in a spreadsheet. your fingers grazing when you exchanged documents. a glance too long in the breakroom when he poured your coffee before you even asked. you could feel it in the air, that charged silence of two people pretending to be just colleagues, and failing quietly, deliciously.
the project itself was moving wellâsmooth timelines, promising data. it gave you an excuse to spend more time in his office, laptop open across from his, sometimes both of you too focused to speak for long stretches. sometimes one of you talking while the other typed, nodding with half-listening affection. sometimes, on the slow days, the lines between work and personal conversation blurred gently, like ink on damp paper.
today was one of those days.
you sat across from him, legs crossed under the conference table, scrolling through performance reports while he adjusted a chart on his screen. outside the windows, the afternoon sun filtered through the blinds, casting pale lines across the carpet and the sleeves of his shirt. he leaned back, stretching slightly, then caught your gaze with a small smile.
âsoâŚâ he said, voice lower than usual, âwhat are you doing this weekend?â
you glanced up, biting your lip to hide a smile. âwhy? do you need me to run more numbers?â
âmaybe,â he said, teasing. âbut i was thinking something less tragic. maybe the museum? or that poetry cafe you mentioned.â
you shrugged, trying to sound casual. âdepends. are you asking as mr. jeong or as⌠jaehyun?â
he smirked, eyes playful. âi guess that depends on your answer.â
you were about to respond when the door opened without a knock. both of you sat up straighter instinctively, like students caught passing notes. the supervisor from the analytics division stepped in, scanning the room with barely concealed curiosity.
âmr. jeong,â he said, tone clipped, âthe director wants to see you.â
jaehyun stood immediately, buttoning his jacket with an easy nod. âiâll be there in a moment.â
the supervisor looked at you then. his eyes lingeredânot long, but long enough. something unreadable passed over his face. âyouâve been spending a lot of time here,â he said, like it wasnât a question.
you gave him your most neutral smile. âjust supporting the project. weâre on a tight schedule.â
âmm.â he said nothing more, just nodded once and stepped out.
jaehyun glanced at you before leaving, and there was a flicker of something in his eyesâamusement, maybe. or quiet warning. you went back to your laptop, fingers pretending to type while your heart tried to calm its sudden gallop.
the evening found you both in his car again. the sun had already begun its descent, turning the sky a soft shade of apricot. you slid into the passenger seat, closed the door behind you, and without thinking too much, leaned over to kiss his cheek.
his skin was warm under your lips.
he blinked, clearly caught off guard, and for a second, he forgot to hide it. the tips of his ears flushed red. he cleared his throat and reached for the ignition, like nothing happened, but his smile lingered, crooked and faint.
âyou keep doing that,â he murmured, not looking at you.
âdoing what?â you asked innocently.
he shook his head, eyes on the road. âmaking it hard to pretend weâre not dating.â
you grinned and didnât answer.
he drove you to the han river, where the breeze was cool and kind, and the crowds were light enough to feel private. you sat cross-legged on the grass, sharing tteokbokki and fried dumplings from paper trays, watching cyclists blur past under the lamplights. a small speaker nearby played an old ballad, sweet and melancholic, and you leaned into his shoulder without needing permission.
âi like this,â you said softly.
âwhat part?â he asked.
âthis part. where everythingâs⌠quiet.â
he didnât speak immediately. just reached over and brushed a strand of hair behind your ear.
âme too.â
you looked at him, really lookedâand it hit you in that moment how far youâd come. from formal greetings and polite distance to soft laughter and shared silence. from stolen glances to kisses on the cheek that left him blushing.
and somehow, without realizing it, youâd stopped keeping count of how many times you thought about him during the day. because now he was part of your days.
and you didnât want to imagine them without him anymore.

june arrived with a subtle shift in rhythmâprojects moved faster, deadlines drew closer, and the sun stayed longer in the sky. the office felt heavier in the afternoons, warm with late spring air and the quiet hum of new beginnings.
one of those beginnings came in the form of kim jungwoo.
he was transferred from the incheon branchâa bright-eyed analyst with quick wit and a laugh that filled corners. you were told he'd be supporting the data team, and since your department handled most of the projections, he was placed right in front of your desk, where your eyes met every time you looked up. your first impression of him was that he was disarmingly charmingâtoo friendly, too easygoing for the stiff, quiet culture of the officeâbut undeniably efficient. he asked questions that made sense, learned fast, and had a way of easing tension with a joke delivered just under his breath.
you kept things professional, as always. showed him how you sorted the quarterly metrics, how to navigate the companyâs outdated database system without crashing it, how to color-code your sheets for easier reading. he listened, smiled, nodded. and eventually, he joked. made you laugh when youâd been staring at the same budget chart for hours. brought you coffee with your name scribbled on the lid in dramatic calligraphy. sometimes too much, sometimes exactly what you needed.
you liked him. platonically. comfortably. it was easy to like jungwoo.
but jaehyun noticed. of course he did.
at first, it was subtle. heâd call you into his office more frequently, asking for reports he usually didnât request until later in the week. you didnât think much of itâuntil you realized he was keeping you in there for hours. even when the topic had already run dry, even when both of you were silently pretending to still be discussing something relevant. youâd glance at your watch, mumble about needing to check on jungwooâs progress, and jaehyun would give you this lookâtight-lipped, unreadable, almost irritated.
the third time it happened, you couldnât keep quiet anymore.
âare you seriously going to keep me hostage in your office every time jungwoo asks me a question?â you asked, laptop balanced on your knees, arms crossed.
jaehyun didnât answer right away. he leaned back in his chair, one hand draped lazily over the armrest, watching you. but there was tension under his cool expression, the kind that coiled in his jaw.
âyouâre my girlfriendâ he said, voice low, measured. âeven if we have to act like colleagues in this building, youâre not just anyone to me.â
your breath caught. not because of what he saidâbecause of the way he said it. with that sharp, quiet certainty, like it wasnât up for debate.
âyouâre jealous,â you muttered, trying to smile, to turn it into something lighter.
âof course iâm jealous,â he said, leaning forward. âheâs new, heâs charming, and heâs looking at you like he already knows what you taste like.â
your face flushed.
you looked away, but only for a second.
because when you met his eyes again, he stood.
in two strides he was in front of you, taking the laptop gently from your knees and setting it on the coffee table without a word. then he cupped your face with both hands and kissed youâdeep, slow, and hungry. there was nothing tentative about it. it wasnât sweet or shy. it was possession, poured soft and molten through the shape of his mouth on yours. you sighed into it, hands gripping the front of his shirt, pulse thudding in your throat.
he pulled away just enough to speak, voice rough. âdonât tease me about this.â
you nodded, breathless. âokay.â
and then he kissed you again.
the kiss tasted like all the things you werenât allowed to say out loud. frustration. longing. the ache of pretending, day after day, that you were only what the world let you be. his thumb stroked your jaw as his mouth opened against yours, deeper now, slower. you felt your knees weaken and your thoughts scatter, all logic melting into the heat of the moment.
that night, like every night since the start of your secret, you met him outside the office. his car waited at the edge of the lot, tinted windows and the soft thump of quiet music playing through the speakers. you slid into the passenger seat, your heart already dancing.
this time, he didnât say hello.
he reached over and kissed youâharder than before, lips parting yours in a way that made your body sing. the car wasnât moving. neither of you were thinking. you kissed like it was all you knew how to do. mouths hungry, breath shallow, his hand tracing the edge of your thigh just enough to make you gasp. every time you pulled away for air, he followed. every time he groaned into your kiss, you shivered.
he never rushed.
never crossed that line you hadnât yet spoken about.
but you felt how close it hovered. just under the skin.
and as your lips brushed his one last time before pulling back, your forehead resting against his, you whispered, âi like it when you get jealous.â
his smile was crooked. dangerous.
âyou better not like it too much,â he said, his thumb stroking the corner of your mouth, âbecause next time⌠i might not let you leave so easily.â

thursday crept in quietly, with no big plans or messages of anticipation. the city, usually loud and hungry for excitement, felt unusually tame that weekâlike it had spent itself on too many events, too many evenings out, too many people chasing novelty in crowded cafĂŠs and rooftop bars. maybe it was just you, though. maybe everything had started to feel dull because your world had shifted to revolve around somethingâsomeoneâentirely new. and nothing outside of that circle could compare anymore.
you barely spent time in your apartment lately. always out. always in his car, in places that werenât quite home but felt more real because he was there. so on that afternoon, with your head tilted against the cold surface of your desk and your brain spinning from spreadsheets, you blurted it out between quiet keyboard taps.
âdonât make any plans tomorrow night.â
jaehyun glanced at you from across his office, pen in hand, eyebrows drawn. âshould i be worried?â
you smiled without looking up. âyouâre staying over. the weekend. at my place.â
the pause was heavy. not uncomfortable, but... loaded. you didnât dare lift your head until he spoke.
âwaitâwhat?â
and there it was. you looked at him finally, biting your bottom lip to keep from smiling too wide. he looked stunned. genuinely caught off guard.
âyou heard me. pack a bag. pajamas. toothbrush. snacks. i donât know. whatever you need to survive two days with me.â
his face went red. a deep, rich pink that spread across his cheeks to the tips of his ears. you laughed. he was thinking things.
âya, what were you imagining?â you teased, narrowing your eyes at him with a smirk.
ânothing!â he defended too fast. âi just... i didnât expect weâd be spending the weekend... alone like that. itâs not a bad thing. i like it. i like the idea. i justâi mean, weâve been doing great. this relationship. it feels good. real. and... if it keeps going like this, who knowsâmaybe one day weâll get married.â
you froze.
he didnât say it as a joke. it was quiet. casual. but he meant it.
married.
you hadnât thought about that in weeks. youâd been so swept up in the rush of the newânew glances, new kisses, new secret dates and stolen evenings. but that word made your heart skip, stumble, leap. it opened a future you hadnât dared imagine.
married to jeong jaehyun. walking down an aisle. your coworkers gasping. your parents trying to stay calm. him lifting your veil. kissing you like it was the beginning of forever. sunday mornings with kids and cartoons and coffee. vacations. shared bookshelves. him waiting at the door when you got home.
you shook the image out of your head.
âyou canât just say things like that,â you whispered, barely breathing.
âwhy not?â he asked softly, his eyes sincere. âitâs where weâre going, right?â
friday night came like a slow exhale.
he arrived with a small black duffle bag slung over his shoulder and a sheepish grin. you wore mismatched pajamasâstriped pants and a faded hoodie from a school club you barely remembered joining. the sight of you like that made him laugh, and the sound was so unguarded it made your chest ache with affection.
you stayed in. ordered too much food. picked a cheesy rom-com that made you cry halfway through. he kept making sarcastic comments at first, trying to pretend he didnât care, until somewhere in the middle he got quiet. his hand found yours under the blanket, warm and steady. when the credits rolled, your head was on his shoulder and your eyes were puffy.
âi hate that you made me cry,â you sniffled, wiping your face.
âi didnât make you cry. blame julia roberts,â he said, kissing the top of your head.
the rest of the night blurred. an improvised dinner of instant noodles and wine, soft music from your phone speaker, him dancing stupidly in the kitchen with a wooden spoon, trying to make you laugh. and you did. hard. the kind of laugh that made you forget to be careful.
when it got late, and the lights dimmed, the kisses came back. slow. long. searching. his hands on your waist, your fingers in his hair, breathing each other in like you were afraid to stop. the heat built, like always, but neither of you pushed further. it wasnât time. not yet. but god, it was close.
saturday was lazy and warm and beautiful.
you woke up tangled in the blankets, his arm draped over your stomach, his breath soft against your neck. the kind of morning you never thought youâd get to haveâwhere nothing was urgent, and everything felt right.
you took turns in the shower, argued over who finished the milk, and spent an hour sitting on the floor flipping through old photo albums youâd forgotten you had. you didnât plan to show himâbut he insisted. and once he started looking, he didnât stop.
âwait... this is you in high school?â he asked, pointing at a photo.
âyeah,â you said, embarrassed. âwhy?â
âyou were so cute.â
you rolled your eyes. âi wasnât popular or anything. i had one boyfriend. lasted a week.â
he stared. âa week?â
âhe said i was too uptight and boring.â
jaehyunâs mouth dropped open. âthat guy was an idiot.â
you laughed. âno, he was probably right. iâve always been... structured. controlled. even back then. guess thatâs why iâm like this nowâsuch a workaholic.â
he didnât laugh. instead, he kept looking at your photoâfinger brushing over the glossy paper like it meant something.
âif i had met you back then,â he said quietly, âi wouldâve fallen in love with you. no doubt.â
your breath caught.
he didnât look away. âi wouldnât have let you go. not for a second.â
âyou donât mean that,â you whispered, unsure what else to say.
âi do,â he said, firm. âyouâre not boring. youâre brilliant. youâre thoughtful. you see things no one else sees. you work harder than anyone i know. and... you make me want to be better.â
tears pricked your eyes again. not from sadness. justâtoo much emotion. too much truth.
âyouâre going to make me cry again,â you whispered.
âthen cry,â he said, pulling you close. âbut only if you let me hold you through it.â
the rest of the weekend passed like a dream.
grocery runs in sweatpants. a half-burnt attempt at making pancakes. arguments over which playlist was better for cleaning the kitchen. you wore ridiculous socks with cartoons on them. he made fun of you until you found his even worse ones.
you kissed between chores. kissed while brushing your teeth. kissed while folding laundry.
it wasnât glamorous.
but it felt like home.
and when sunday night came, and he packed his bag again, you didnât want him to go. not because of the sex, or the thrill, or the high of newness. but because somewhere between instant noodles and high school photos, you realized something terrifying and beautifulâ
you were falling in love.
for real.
for the first time.

towards the end of the month, your phone rings. youâre in your apartment, folding laundry with the window cracked open to let in the soft breeze of early summer. the sunlight filters through sheer curtains, painting everything in golden hues. you glance at the caller id and feel a knot tighten in your stomach. mom.
you answer.
âitâs your fatherâs birthday this weekend,â she says, skipping greetings as always, her voice a mix of cheerful anticipation and subtle reprimand. âyou should come visit. heâs been asking if weâll see you.â
you agree, almost without thinking, but then comes the dreaded question.
âand? have you found a boyfriend yet or do i need to talk to mrs. lee again?â
you rub your temple. âmomââ
âher son is still single, you know. owns a good piece of land. sells vegetables to that big food corporation. youâd be set for life.â
you exhale deeply, eyes closing in frustration.
âiâm⌠iâm seeing someone.â
a pause. then her voice lights up like fireworks. âyou are? oh, this is wonderful! finally, youâre not wasting away alone up there in that office job.â
âmom, weâve just started seeing each other,â you say, hesitating. âitâs too soon toââ
âno,â she cuts in firmly. âyou donât have time to be unsure. the train is about to leave the station, sweetheart. you either get on or itâs gone. bring him. we want to meet him.â
before you can argue, the call ends with a clipped goodbye, and youâre left staring at your phone, pulse racing and chest tight.
the rest of the week, you feel like a ghost of yourself. distracted at work, distant on your dates with jaehyun, your mind spinning in loops. he notices immediatelyâof course he doesâand it only takes one missed joke and a quiet dinner for him to call you out on it.
youâre sitting across from him, poking at your food. the restaurant is softly lit, cozy, but thereâs a distance in your eyes.
ây/n,â he says, setting his chopsticks down. âwhatâs going on?â
ânothing,â you mutter, but he leans in.
âdonât give me that. weâre together now, remember? you can talk to me. or⌠if youâre second guessing this⌠if iâm moving too fast, just tell me. i can handle it.â
your heart aches at his words. you reach across the table, grabbing his hand.
âitâs not that. iâm not doubting us,â you say quietly. âitâs just⌠my mom called. she wants me to visit this weekend for my dadâs birthday. and she⌠kind of expects me to bring you.â
he blinks. then, without hesitation, he says, âokay. then iâll come.â
you blink right back. âwait, seriously?â
âyes. if it means that much to themâand to youâI want to go. i want to meet your family, y/n. it feels right.â
your chest swells with something warm and terrifying. you nod, silently.
friday comes and your suitcase is zipped and ready by the door. youâre wearing a floral summer dress, light and breezy, with your favorite pair of nude heels that make your legs look longer than they are. your hair is pinned loosely, lip tint soft and rosy. thereâs a nervous flutter in your chest when you step outside.
jaehyun is already waiting beside his car, leaning casually against it like he belongs in a photoshoot. heâs in cream linen pants and a sage green button-down with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows, collar open at the throat. his sunglasses reflect the afternoon sun, and he looks, frankly, too good to be standing in your quiet little street. you gulp.
âneed help with those?â he says with a grin, reaching for your bags before you can answer.
the ride is filled with music, laughter, and long, thoughtful silences. the kind that don't feel awkward, but full. pregnant with meaning. he holds your hand on the highway, thumb stroking the back of it lazily, his warmth anchoring you through your nerves.
when you pull up to your parents' houseâa modest home with stone finishings and a neat little front gardenâyour heart thunders. everything feels smaller, more fragile, like stepping back in time. your mom rushes out first, apron still tied around her waist, eyes wide and wet with excitement.
and when she sees jaehyun? she nearly cries. âyouâre real,â she says, pressing her hands together like sheâs witnessing a miracle. your dad comes out next, chuckling as he wipes his hands on a dish towel.
âso this is the young man,â he says with a knowing nod, clapping jaehyun on the back. âyour mother hasnât shut up about you since she found out.â
inside, the dining table is set with your dadâs favorite dishes. everything smells like memory. you sit in the living room afterward, your parents across from you, jaehyun beside you on the couch, close enough to feel his knee brushing yours.
he speaks up first, voice calm and clear.
âi just want to say that iâm very serious about your daughter,â he says. âi have genuine intentions. weâre still getting to know each other, but⌠if things keep going the way they are, iâd like to build a future with her.â
your mother gasps, reaching for a tissue. your father nods slowly, visibly moved.
âthis⌠this is the best birthday gift i could ask for,â he says.
you shrink into the couch, cheeks burning, while jaehyunâs hand finds yours again and squeezes gently.
then comes the chaos.
your older brother, baekhyun, bursts through the door with his wife and two kids in tow. he takes one look at you and smirks.
âwhoâs the guy and what have you done with my perpetually single little sister?â
you groan. âshut up, baek.â
the two of you bicker like teenagers, tossing playful insults back and forth while your nephews cling to your legs, shouting your name with delight. you hand them the toys you brought and their eyes light up like itâs christmas.
jaehyun watches it all, amused, until one of the boys climbs into his lap and hands him a toy too.
he freezes.
and in that moment, something shifts in him. the sound of childrenâs laughter, the image of you with a soft smile, cradling one of your nephews in your arms. the warmth of this home, the love in every corner. he imagines itâhaving this with you. kids with your eyes. a house thatâs yours. your framed wedding photo on the wall. vacations. birthdays. late-night talks in bed. wrinkles and silver hair, but still loving you with the same fire.
he blushes.
and you notice.
âwhat?â you whisper as you lean close.
he shakes his head, smiling to himself. ânothing. just⌠i really, really like this. all of it.â
the night unfolds gently. dinner turns into stories, stories into laughter, and soon the sun has long set and the house is lit with warm yellow lights. you and jaehyun sit outside for a moment, watching the stars.
he wraps an arm around you, and you rest your head on his shoulder.
âyou feel like home,â you whisper, not even realizing the words have slipped out.
he turns to look at you, eyes soft. âso do you.â
and in the quiet, with the cicadas singing and the echo of your familyâs voices drifting from inside, you know.
this might just be the beginning of everything.

the month of july passed by with little to no complications. your parents were pleased with jaehyun, and you could tell that their approval meant the world to him. jungwoo, on the other hand, was playful and teasing, but with a newfound sense of respect, especially as jaehyun started to show more signs of being protective, making sure that jungwoo didnât cross any boundaries. you were still professional with everyone at work, but the chemistry between you and jaehyun was undeniable. nights together were spent laughing, and weekends were filled with stolen moments of joy, where you both shared something more than just professional courtesy.
jaehyun had made a habit of calling you during the day, just to check on you, and you found yourself doing the same. the conversations were simple, but they felt important. visits to his office became more frequent, sometimes just for work, but other times, it was an excuse to sneak in a kiss or two. the passion between you two continued to build, a slow, steady fire that became increasingly hard to ignore.
one night, a wednesday, you both ignored the weather forecast and decided to take your date out in the city. the air was warm, and the lights of the city sparkled as you walked the streets together. the mood was light, but as midnight approached, the weather took a sharp turn. dark clouds rolled in, and soon, rain began to pour, turning into a violent storm. the wind howled, and the streets quickly flooded. jaehyunâs car struggled against the force of the water, and you couldnât help but grip the seat, anxious.
jaehyun tried to keep calm, glancing at you with a reassuring smile. âitâs okay, nothingâs going to happen,â he said, though you could tell he was also feeling the weight of the storm.
the rain pounded against the windows, and the car barely moved as the currents began to grow stronger. after what felt like an eternity, you both agreed that waiting in the car wasnât safe anymore. as you both discussed where to go, a motel appeared in front of you. it seemed like an odd choice, but the parking lot was dry, and there were few other options at that hour. both of you hesitated, unsure of what to do. it was a strange situationâneither of you wanted to suggest anything that could be misinterpreted.
jaehyun was the one to break the silence. âletâs just use the parking lot, at least weâll have shelter from the rain,â he said. âand if it lasts all night, weâll have a warm place to stay.â
you nodded, a little nervous. âyeah, i mean, weâre not going to do anything else, right? just sleep, then in the morning, weâll head back to our places and go to work, right?â
jaehyun smiled at you, trying to ease your nerves. âof course, just a safe place to wait out the storm. no pressure.â
you both parked and got out of the car, a little stiff from the tension, but the moment you entered the motel, things started to feel different. jaehyun took the lead, making sure you were comfortable and settled in, giving you space to breathe. He didnât rush you, always checking to see how you felt.
both of you were tired from the day, and the weather didnât help the situation, so after some brief, awkward glances, you both decided to take separate showers to unwind. you both changed into something more comfortable, but since it was summer and it was warm, you decided to just sleep in your underwear. when you looked at jaehyun in his, the moment felt almost surreal. his gaze lingered for a moment before he quickly turned away, as if both of you were still trying to adjust to how close you had become.
âyou know,â he said softly, his voice breaking the silence, âyou donât have to feel awkward. weâre taking things at our own pace.â
you smiled, feeling your heartbeat quicken at the sound of his voice. âwhat if i want to go faster?â you said, your words surprising even yourself.
jaehyun looks at you, eyes widening slightly before they darken with something deeperâsomething heâs clearly been holding back. âare you sure?â he asks, voice low, almost trembling with restraint.
you nod, stepping closer, your fingers brushing against his bare chest. âiâm sure.â
his hands find your waist gently at first, testing the waters, but when you lean into him, he pulls you in like heâs been waiting forever to hold you like this. his lips find yours in a kiss that starts soft, exploratory, but quickly deepens, hungry and needing. he walks you backwards slowly until the back of your knees hit the bed, and you fall onto it with a soft gasp, taking him with you.
his hands roam your body, reverent and slow, like heâs memorizing every inch of you. he whispers your name against your skin, trailing kisses down your neck, over your collarbone, and lower still. your breath hitches when his mouth lingers between your thighs, his eyes meeting yours, waiting for any sign to stopâbut you nod again, your fingers threading into his hair, guiding him closer.
what he gives you isnât rushed. itâs worship. like heâs been dreaming of this moment for too long to waste it. you lose yourself in the rhythm of his mouth, the way he listens to your body, adjusting, teasing, giving. he doesnât stop until your thighs are shaking and your voice is broken with moans you couldnât hold back.
when he finally crawls back up your body, his lips kiss yours again, slower this time, tasting you. he whispers, âstill okay?â and you nod, pulling him closer.
when he slides into you, itâs not hurried or careless. itâs deep, slow, and overwhelming in the best way. you cling to him, breathless, as your bodies move together like they were made to. he holds your gaze, foreheads pressed together, sweat-damp skin sticking in the summer heat, but neither of you care.
you whisper his name like a prayer, and he answers with yours, over and over, like heâs trying to brand it into the moment.
you fall apart in his arms, not once, but twice, and he follows soon after, burying his face in your neck as he trembles against you.Â
his lips are still on yours when he pushes deeper inside you, and this time, thereâs no hesitation. your body arches under him, the stretch of him delicious and overwhelming all at once. he fills you slowly, inch by inch, like he wants to feel every reaction he pulls from you.
âfuck, you feel so good,â he breathes out, forehead resting against yours. âbeen thinking about this for so long.â
you moan softly, nails dragging down his back as he starts to move, slow at first, rolling his hips into you with precision that makes your legs tremble. he kisses down your throat, biting softly at your skin as he picks up the pace, each thrust hitting deeper, harder. the headboard taps gently against the wall, a quiet rhythm that matches the sound of your breathy moans and his soft, low groans.
your fingers clutch the sheets, the pleasure building with every thrust. jaehyunâs hands grip your thighs, spreading you wider for him, and the new angle has you gasping his name, your voice breaking. he doesnât stopâhe canât stopâlost in the feel of you, the sounds you make, the way your body clings to his like itâs the only place it belongs.
he pulls out just enough to see the way you take him, watching your slick coat his length before sliding back in with a filthy, wet sound that makes your toes curl. âlook at you,â he murmurs, his thumb brushing your lower lip, eyes locked on yours. âso fucking beautiful like this.â
when he shifts, propping one of your legs over his shoulder, the angle has you crying out, your whole body shuddering. âyouâre so deep,â you whimper, and he groans, hips snapping faster, harder, chasing both your highs like a man starved.
your climax hits hardâwhite-hot and blindingâas your walls clamp down around him, dragging him over the edge with you. he cums with a strangled moan, burying himself to the hilt, his hips stuttering as he spills into you. he stays there, chest pressed to yours, breathing heavy, hearts pounding in sync.
after a few moments, he pulls out slowly, carefully, kissing your shoulder as he lies beside you and pulls you into his arms.
your bodyâs still trembling when he runs a hand down your spine, voice low and thick with affection. âthink weâre still just sleeping?â
you laugh softly against his chest, lazy fingers tracing circles on his skin. ânot a chance.â
he kisses the top of your head. âthen letâs not sleep yet.â
and before you can even respond, heâs already kissing down your body againâbecause one round clearly wasnât enough.
you barely have time to catch your breath before jaehyunâs mouth is back on your skin, trailing open-mouthed kisses down your chest, between your breasts, over your stomach. his hands roam your thighs with greedy fingers, and even though youâre still sensitive, your body responds instantlyâneedy, aching, already ready for him again.
âyouâre still so wet,â he murmurs, spreading you open with his fingers, dragging two of them slowly through your folds. âfuck, baby⌠youâre dripping.â
your hips jerk when he circles your clit, light and teasing, and you whine, fingers gripping the sheets. âj-jaehyunâŚâ
he smirks, dark eyes meeting yours as he sinks his fingers into youâslow, deep, curling just right. âyou can take it, canât you?â he says, voice thick with lust. âyou want it again.â
you nod helplessly, mouth parted as your back arches off the bed. he fucks you with his fingers until youâre trembling again, begging for him, grinding down onto his hand like you canât get enoughâand you canât.
when he pulls his fingers out and lines himself up again, thereâs no patience this time. he pushes in all at once, rougher, deeper, making your breath catch in your throat. the stretch, the pressure, the heatâitâs almost too much, but you crave every second of it.
he fucks you like he owns you now, one hand on your hip, the other pressing down on your stomach so he can feel himself inside you. âyou feel that?â he groans. âyouâre taking all of me.â
your moans turn shameless, high-pitched and raw, the wet slap of skin on skin echoing in the room with every thrust. the bed creaks, the headboard pounds against the wall, and you donât care who hears. he flips you onto your stomach without warning, pulling your hips up, and slides back into you from behind.
you cry out at the new angle, your hands clawing at the sheets as he drives into you, deeper than before. âgodâjaehyun, iâm gonnaââ
âcum for me,â he growls, grabbing your hair and pulling your head back to kiss the side of your neck. âcum all over my cock, baby.â
your orgasm hits like a shockwave, blinding and hot and overwhelming. your whole body shakes, legs giving out beneath you as he keeps fucking you through it. he follows moments later, groaning your name as he fills you again, hips jerking against your ass, the sound of it all so filthy and perfect.
this time, when you collapse together on the bed, everything is soaked in sweat and heat and the scent of sex. your body is limp, your mind dazed, and he just pulls you close, wrapping you in his arms like heâs never letting go.
âokay,â you whisper, laughing breathlessly. ânow we might need to sleep.â
he chuckles against your hair, voice rough. âmaybe. after round three.â
that night at the motel changed everything.
it wasnât just the sexâthough, god, it was incredible. it was the way his hands learned your body like a second language, the way he whispered your name like a secret, the way you both let yourselves fall without fear. that night was messy, breathless, and soaked in want. but more than anything, it was a turning pointâa quiet, unspoken agreement that this was no longer just something casual. not for either of you.
after that, the line between love and lust blurred beautifully. sex became part of your rhythm, part of how you communicated. stolen glances in the office turned into stolen kisses in the elevator. late nights became sleepovers, and every morning-after was filled with lazy touches and knowing smiles. you memorized each otherâs moans like favorite songs, found new ways to say i want you, even when the words themselves werenât spoken.
but there was one night that stood out. the one you still think about more than any other.
it was the night you stayed over at his apartmentâjust the two of you, no distractions, no storms outside, only the slow burn between your bodies. dinner turned into kisses. kisses turned into the first round on his kitchen counter, then the second in the shower, steam fogging up the mirror as your bodies tangled and slipped together like water and flame.
by the third round, it was past midnight. you were already sore, breathless, but insatiable. he pulled you back into bed, whispering things in your ear that made your skin burn. he was rougher that timeâhungrierâgripping your hips as he fucked you deep and slow, drawing out every moan until your voice was hoarse and your mind was gone.
you were on top, riding him with lazy, desperate rhythm, your head thrown back, your nails digging into his chest. he looked up at you like you were something divine, his hands guiding your pace, eyes locked on the place where your bodies met.
and just when your orgasm started to hitâwhen everything went hot and tight and unbearably goodâthe words slipped out of you.
âi love you.â
your voice cracked around it, high and trembling, your body still grinding against his, your climax crashing over you like a wave. for a split second, everything stopped. you felt him freeze beneath you, heard the sharp intake of breath, saw the shock in his eyes.
you hadnât meant to say it like that. not in the middle of fucking. not when you were bare in every sense of the word.
it was reckless. vulnerable. raw.
but not wrong.
his hands gripped your waist tighter, and then he was sitting up, arms wrapping around you, thrusting up into you so hard and deep that you sobbed out his name.
âi love you too,â he groaned against your neck. âfuck, i love you so muchâtoo much.â
and then he cameâhard and fast, holding you like he never wanted to let go.
afterward, you just lay there on top of him, chest to chest, skin to skin, hearts pounding in unison. there was no awkwardness. no regret. only this strange, beautiful calm that settled over the room like dawn.
it was in that moment you realized just how deep your feelings for him ran.
what had started as a simple planâjust something to avoid growing old aloneâhad become the best part of your life. somewhere along the way, between the office visits and shared glances, motel rooms and quiet mornings, you had fallen hopelessly, madly in love with jaehyun.
and the craziest part?
you couldnât imagine ever thinking of anythingâor anyoneâelse but him.

august wrapped around you like a golden ribbon, thick with heat and filled with the kind of breathless anticipation that only comes after months of hard work. the project was doneâfinallyâafter weeks of stress, endless reports, last-minute corrections and late nights. but it was done. and not just done, but successful. glowing feedback, client satisfaction, numbers that sang. it was more than you had dared to hope for.
and thenâthe email.
subject line:Â promotion confirmation.
you stared at it for a full minute before opening it. and when you read the words âcongratulations, supervisor,â your breath hitched. you covered your mouth. you gasped. and then you ran.
jaehyun wasnât even at his desk anymore, he was just walking into the hallway when you caught him. âjaehyun!â you called, your voice trembling with a kind of joy that had nowhere to go.
he turned, concerned for half a secondâuntil he saw your face. and then you said it.
âi got it.â
âyou got what?â he blinked, confused.
âthe promotion.â
his eyes widened. he froze for a second. and thenâhis arms were around you before you could even finish breathing. he lifted you, spinning you once, twice, both of you laughing as you clutched his shoulders and buried your face in his neck.
âoh my god, babyâyou did it! i knew it, i knew you would!â
you were dizzy, and not just from the spinning. he kissed your cheek, your temple, your lips. everything was warm and golden and right.
he took you out that night.
you didnât go anywhere fancyâjaehyun insisted that celebrations should be personal, not performative. so he drove you to that one little pizzeria you loved, the one that made the potato crust just the way you liked it. he ordered your usual without asking, and when the wine came, he raised his glass first.
âto you,â he said, his eyes soft and gleaming under the low light. âmy brilliant, unstoppable, incredible woman.â
your heart swelled so fast it almost ached. the clink of your glasses felt like the sound of a new chapter opening.
âiâve never had this before,â you confessed, fingers curling around the stem of your glass. âcelebrating something this big. with someone i love. it feelsâŚâ you laughed, shy and overwhelmed. âit feels like everythingâs different now.â
jaehyun reached for your hand, his thumb stroking the back of it slowly.
âit is different,â he said. âbecause now, every good thing that happens to youâwe get to celebrate it. together.â
you stared at him, your chest tight with emotion, with the kind of love that had no bottom, no edge. just more.
you leaned across the table, kissing him slow, deep, grateful. pizza between you, wine in your veins, your laughter echoing off the walls of that tiny booth.
you didnât need fireworks.
this was better.
this was yours.

mid-september arrived with a softness that clung to the airâwarm enough to feel like summer still lingered, but mellowed by the early hints of fall. the leaves hadnât turned yet, but something in the wind carried change. maybe thatâs what had been stirring inside you all weekâa restless certainty that had taken root in your chest and bloomed with every kiss, every sleepy morning wrapped around each other, every whispered i love you that escaped your lips without hesitation. it had been five months, five months of chaos and clarity, of fire and softness, and you knew nowâyou didnât want to wait anymore.
you wanted jaehyun. not in a month. not after careful plans. now.
so you climbed the steps to his office, heart thudding like a war drum, nerves tangled with determination. you paused outside the door, breathed once, twice, and knocked.
âcome in,â his voice called, muffled behind the heavy door.
you stepped in and found him at his desk, back slightly hunched, focused on the glow of his screen. he looked up, and the moment he saw you, he smiledâthat slow, dazzling smile that always made your knees feel like melted waxâand stood immediately, walking toward you without hesitation. he cupped your face, leaned in, and kissed you like heâd been waiting to do it all day.
âjaehyun,â you said, voice almost trembling, more from the gravity of what you were about to say than nerves. he pulled back slightly, tilting his head.
âyeah?â
you met his eyes and, without giving yourself the chance to second-guess it, you let it fall from your lips.
âi want to marry you.â
his lips parted slightly, surprise flickering across his features. he blinked, as if trying to be sure he heard you right.
âi know, baby,â he said, a soft chuckle lacing his words. âthat was the whole deal, right? but rememberâwe said after november. weâd have more time to plan, get everything readyââ
âno,â you interrupted, stepping forward, clutching his hands tightly. âi donât want to wait till november. i mean it. i want to marry you now. today, tomorrow, next weekâi donât care when or how. i just want to be yours. forever.â
he stared at you, quiet. processing. his brows drew together, and then lifted again like the meaning had just landed fully. his hands gripped yours tighter.
âbutâwhat about the wedding? your parents, mineââ
âweâll figure it out,â you whispered. âbut this... this love we have, i donât want to keep treating it like something that needs to be scheduled. itâs real. itâs now.â
he took a breath, deep and full. and then, his expression softened into something vulnerable and glowingâhis eyes shone with something deeper than just affection. he leaned his forehead against yours and whispered, âyou want to be my wife.â
you nodded, lips brushing his as you breathed, âmore than anything.â
his thumbs brushed over your cheeks, as if committing this moment to memory. âthen weâll do it. not because itâs rushed, but because we know. weâve known. and if you want to be my wife now... then iâll make it happen. weâll get married. i promise.â
and he kissed you again, this time slower, as if sealing an oath between your mouths.
the proposal happened three days later.
he told you it was just a normal dateâdinner, then a walk somewhere scenic. no pressure. he even played it off by wearing something casual: a white linen shirt, sleeves rolled, soft beige slacks, and the cleanest pair of loafers youâd ever seen. he looked devastatingly handsome without trying.
he picked you up and drove toward the edge of the city, toward the river trail where the summer festivals were usually held. the area was quiet now, early autumn having driven the crowds away. but fairy lights still dangled from the trees, twinkling faintly as the sun dipped beneath the horizon, casting a warm, honeyed hue over everything.
he walked with you along the wooden path, your fingers tangled. his hand was slightly clammy. you noticed, and your heart fluttered, thinkingâheâs nervous. the realization made you giddy.
and then, just as you reached the little bridge that overlooked the water, he stopped.
âwait here,â he said softly, squeezing your hand. âdonât move.â
he jogged a few steps ahead, ducked behind a low fence near a cluster of trees, and returned with a bouquet of peoniesâyour favorite. you hadnât told him that. he remembered.
your eyes began to water.
he handed them to you, smiling shyly, and then pulled something out of his pocket.
a velvet box.
he opened it without a speech, without fanfare. his voice was soft, his eyes locked on yours like the world outside didnât exist.
âyou already said yes,â he whispered. âbut i want to do this right.â
he got down on one knee, the gravel crunching beneath him, and held the ring up.
ây/n, will you marry meânot next month, not in theory, not in some future weâre still trying to picture... but now. for real. because iâm yours. and youâre mine.â
you didnât cry. you sobbed. like an idiot. like a girl who had waited her whole life for someone like him. you nodded so fast your vision blurred and fell into his arms, and he kissed you like he was promising you the rest of forever.
in that moment, september never felt sweeter.
telling the company was a whole thing.
it started with a scheduled meetingâa weekly operations check-in with the usual suspects: team leads, upper management, the supervisor, and a couple of sharp-eyed executives who never missed a detail. it was jaehyunâs idea to make it official at work, to do it clean and direct and proudly. no rumors. no hiding. just the truth, glowing and solid like the ring that now lived permanently on your finger.
you both walked into the meeting room together, which wasnât unusual, but something in the way your hands brushed as you took your seat already had jungwoo giving you the side-eye.
the presentation started, charts and projections lighting up the screen behind jaehyun as he stood with calm confidence. it was business as usualâuntil the last slide.
"before we wrap up," he said, glancing back at the room, his eyes finding yours briefly before turning to the group again, "i have one personal announcement to make."
you swallowed. jungwoo leaned forward like a damn hawk. mr. choi narrowed his eyes suspiciously, as if he'd been waiting for this moment since spring.
jaehyun smiledâsoft, boyish, unbothered. âas some of you may know⌠or have guessed," he said, and gave jungwoo a teasing look that made him gasp, "i knew it," he muttered dramaticallyâ"y/n and i have been seeing each other for a while.â
the room exploded. a gasp from the secretary and the supervisor actually choked on his coffee. someone in the back whispered âwhat the fuckâ under their breath.
jaehyun held up a hand, a little smug, a little amused.
âand, as of last weekend⌠weâre engaged.â
your cheeks were burning. your heart thundered. you expected chaos, maybe disapproval, but what followed wasâ
cheering. clapping. wide eyes and stunned smiles. even mr. choi looked like he was trying very hard not to grin.
âyouâre marrying jaehyun? our jaehyun?â he blinked at her, then looked at jaehyun like heâd just discovered a double life. âokay, i knew something was going on. iâm not blind. but marriage? dude, thatâs insane. like, insane in the good way, butâholy shit.â
you stood up, feeling brave. âwe just didnât want to hide it anymore,â you said. âweâre really happy. and we hope youâll be happy for us too.â
the room burst into applause again. someone shouted, âwedding invites or we riot!â
the parents came next.
you visited your family first. your mom opened the door and immediately noticed the ring. she gasped, dropped the dish towel she was holding, and squealed in that way only mothers can. within seconds, your dad was there too, grinning, eyes glossy, holding jaehyunâs shoulder like he was already part of the family.
"are you kidding me," your mom kept saying. "you're engaged? oh my god, you're engaged!"
you nodded, trying not to cry as she hugged you so tight it hurt.
âheâs everything i ever wanted for you,â your dad told you quietly, before giving jaehyun a very serious handshake. âyou take care of her.â
âalways,â jaehyun promised, voice thick with sincerity.
then it was his parents' turn.
you were more nervous, but you shouldnât have been. the moment jaehyunâs mom saw you, she pulled you into a hug, muttering in korean how beautiful you were, how sheâd been praying her son would be smart enough to not let you go. his dad was more reserved, but the sparkle in his eye said everything. when jaehyun said, âweâre getting married,â his mother clapped her hands and screamed like sheâd just won the lottery.
âweâre so happy,â she said, eyes shining. âyou are already family.â
they brought out food, wine, photos from jaehyunâs childhood. his mom made you take home a tupperware of kimchi and a crocheted doily she claimed she made for whoever he married one day. she said she just had a feeling it was going to be you, and jaehyun turned red.

it turned out that weddingsâreal weddingsâtook a lot more time to plan than y/n had expected. even with jaehyunâs calming presence and the help of a surprisingly competent wedding planner, the months passed like petals falling from a tree: softly, quickly, too beautifully to hold onto.
they settled on march 28. it gave them just enough time to breathe, to build, to dream together.
from the moment they told everyoneâfirst their friends, then their families, and finally, in a hilariously formal email, the entire companyâthe whirlwind began. the announcement caused a stir so loud in the office that y/n had to leave her desk just to get some peace.
the directivos were equally shocked, though mostly amused. her supervisor just nodded sagely, like heâd been betting on this since the beginning.
âyou two were always âtoo in syncâ,â he said, raising his coffee mug in mock toast. âi give it six months before one of you becomes the other's boss at home too.â
and then came the parents.
jaehyunâs mother cried when she met y/n, tears slipping down her cheeks as she hugged her tight and whispered in korean, âyouâre even more beautiful than he said. and i knew he was in love the first time he said your name.â
her own parents, after recovering from the initial shock, became obsessively involved in the planning, sending flower samples, playlist suggestions, and opinions on wedding favors at all hours of the day. but none of it was overwhelming. not with jaehyun there, always pulling her back into calm. always making sure this was their wedding, not anyone elseâs.
they chose a venue outside the cityâa small vineyard with soft hills, blooming wisteria, and golden light that melted everything it touched. march 28 arrived with the scent of earth and lilac, a warm wind, and the sky so blue it almost hurt to look at.
y/n stood before a mirror in a white gown that made her feel like everything good in the world had been sewn together just for her. she could hear the quiet rustle of guests arriving, the soft music playing in the distance, the laughter of children running between the rows of flowers.
and then, jaehyun.
when she saw him waiting at the altar, dressed in a suit that fit like second skin, with his hair slightly tousled and a look in his eyes that could undo galaxiesâshe forgot how to breathe.
he mouthed âyouâre perfectâ as she walked down the aisle.
she mouthed âyouâre mine.â
the ceremony was intimate, emotional, wrapped in vows that made everyone cryâeven jungwoo, who tried to play it off by pretending he had allergies.
âi promise to protect your dreams as fiercely as my own,â jaehyun said, voice trembling slightly, âand to always make sure your pizza has the right amount of potato crust, even when weâre eighty.â
âi promise to choose you, even on the days we forget how lucky we are,â y/n replied, tears in her eyes. âand to never let the fire between us die, even when weâre old and gray.â
they kissed.
and the world felt new again.
their first dance was under strings of fairy lights, barefoot on the grass. the song was soft, a slow jazz tune that jaehyun had played for her once in the car when sheâd been crying. now, with her head against his chest, they swayed like the wind had been made just for them.
âwe did it,â she whispered.
âwe did,â he said. âand iâd marry you again tomorrow if i could.â
the honeymoon came a few days later. they chose santorini, greece, not for the postcard beauty or luxury, but because y/n had once told him, offhandedly, that she always dreamed of watching the sun melt into the sea from a white rooftop. he remembered.
their suite was perched on a cliff, overlooking the caldera, with white walls and blue domes and windows that opened to eternity. the first night, they sat on the balcony with a bottle of wine, their feet touching, their hands always searching for each other.
they kissed under sunsets and made love under stars. they danced in narrow streets, shared kisses between sips of ouzo, fed each other olives and sweet baklava. they were ridiculous. and in love. and utterly themselves.
âthis is the life i want,â y/n whispered one night, tangled in cotton sheets, her cheek against his chest.
âthen itâs the life weâll have,â jaehyun said. âforever.â
and this time, forever didnât sound like a fairytale.
it sounded like a promise.

three years passed like chapters in a love letterâwritten slowly, lived fully.
you and jaehyun made a home out of a sleek little apartment tucked into the rhythm of the city. it was all black wood and soft gray, velvet cushions and open windows where sunlight poured in like gold. it wasnât big, but it held your whole world. your toothbrushes leaned against each other. your shoes tangled by the door. your laughter lived in the walls.
mornings were sleepy and softâcoffee mugs clinking, your legs wrapped around his under the kitchen table, newspaper pages ignored in favor of each otherâs eyes. nights were even softerâblankets twisted around you, movie soundtracks playing in the background while your fingers danced across his skin. the kind of love that didnât need grand gesturesâjust the warmth of his palm on your thigh and the way he said âcome hereâ like home itself.
but then, one evening, the quiet changed.
you were in the bathroom. pacing. heart in your throat. your phone timer ticked like thunder in the silence. the test rested on the sink, small and stillâlike it held the weight of the universe. you sat on the edge of the tub, knees pulled up, trying to breathe.
when the timer stopped, you moved like you were underwater. slow. hesitant. scared.
two pink lines.
you stared. blinked. stared again.
your lips parted, the shape of a whisper you couldnât form. your hands trembled, and for a moment, the whole world tiltedâjust you and that tiny piece of plastic and everything it now meant.
you stepped out of the bathroom, barefoot, holding the test like it might shatter.
jaehyun was on the couch, lounging with his phone, one leg bent lazily, hair tousled from running his hand through it too many times. he looked up. paused. frowned softly. âbaby⌠what is it?â
you didnât answer right away. just walked toward himâslow, like the floor might disappearâand placed the test in his hand.
âweâre gonna be parents!!â
the silence cracked. and thenâ
jaehyun surged forward, arms wrapping around you so tight you gasped. he lifted you off the ground, spinning you around the living room like a kid on christmas morning, laughter bursting from his chest, from yours, from some place deep inside where all the hope had been hiding.
you were both crying. laughing. kissing. saying âwe did it!â over and over again like a prayer you never thought youâd get to say out loud. he pressed his forehead to yours, voice shaking, âweâre having a baby.â
âweâre having our baby,â you whispered.
months passed like petals falling from a blooming tree.
you were glowing. exhausted, but glowing.
your blush-pink maternity dress clung gently to your growing belly, printed with tiny white florals that made jaehyun smile every time he saw you in it. your feet were bare, your ankles swollen, your back ached constantlyâbut he was always there, hands rubbing your spine, lips on your shoulder, whispering, âyouâre magic, you know that?â
the nursery was nearly finishedâlavender walls painted with care, gold stars twinkling on the ceiling, and a soft mobile that played lullabies like stardust. the crib waited, delicate and perfect, with a plush bunny nestled in the corner.
jaehyun was kneeling by the dresser, sweat on his brow, tongue between his teeth as he finished the final drawer. he looked up, eyes finding you immediately, and godâhe looked at you like the whole sky lived inside your smile.
âsheâs gonna love this room,â he said, standing to press a hand to your belly. his palm warm. grounding. full of quiet awe. âour little moon.â
you leaned into him, pressing a kiss to his jaw. âi hope she gets your eyes,â you whispered.
he smiled, eyes soft with wonder. âand your heart,â he murmured. âespecially your heart.â
the room went quiet againâexcept for the soft hum of the mobile spinning slowly above the crib. gold stars turned, catching the light.
and in that moment, just one suspended, breathless moment, everything was still.
you. him. her.
and the love that built it all.
finally. completely.
beautifully yours.
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I hate how people call Raphael a pillow princess like it's a bad thing when it's NOT!!!!! Pillow princess isn't inherently bad stop it!!!!
#and i know we're talking about a fictional character but reminder that pillow princess is solely a lesbian term#so he's really just a bottom that doesn't want to work for it!!!!! cmon people!!!!!!#and it is a lil funny making fun of the fact that he doesnt last very long but that also isnt inherently a bad thing !!!#again i know he's just a character but im getting tired of seeing it đđ#Not putting this in the tags idk how this fandom will react to this đŽâđ¨
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