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bembwashere · 1 year

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'All he saw was static.'

The clock stopped ticking forever ago. How long have I been up? I don't know. I can't get a grip, but I can't let go There wasn't anything to hold on to though.

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Hey all! Got a new piece for you guys, and guess what? It's our favourite Moon Man! With angst obviously. I've been really into making pieces based off songs lately but technically this is a redraw of an older image from early 2021 that I had never posted.

Anyways... He shouldn't of struggled.

#ahit #a hat in time #ahit fanart #a hat in time fanart #ahit moonjumper #a hat in time moonjumper #ahit mj #a hat in time mj #art #digital art #eyestrain #tw eyestrain #being brave and putting art tag in wish me luck hgfsdfs #anyway I'm super proud about this one #glad I could actually post this idea this time around #anyways hope you enjoy the art!

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pardonmydelays · 29 days

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the funniest thing that always happens to me is that every time we have a customer who doesn't speak polish and they ask me if i speak english i'm like "no, i don't think i do" only to realize a few minutes later that i do, in fact, speak english

#maybe it's because i'm just always super anxious about my skills #or maybe it's the fact that it barely happens so i don't have many opportunities to talk to people in english #so when somebody asks me about it i'm always like “um i do speak english but just a little”#and yet here i am running a fucking blog where i write a lot of shitposts every single day #all of them in english #it's so funny to me cause obviously no one knows this #and i had a customer today and he bought diamond earrings for his girlfriend and our entire conversation was in english #and he even complimented me at the end which was very nice #and my manager was like “oh you speak english? i only understood him when he said bye bye” LMAO #YES LOOKS LIKE I DO SPEAK ENGLISH AFTER ALL #jdsfjewhif i'm sorry i never really talk about this but today i feel like i want to #like every single time i have a conversation in english i'm so fucking proud of myself for being brave enough to speak another language #in front of a stranger #i know i make a lot of mistakes but still #i'm always so fucking proud of myself. for no reason. i just am #anyway the guy was really nice and i guess it's safe to say he made my day #which doesn't happen very often i usually hate my customers #so yeah #i say whatever and whatever that i want*

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fluffalpenguin · 2 years

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Happy Shun Duel Links Day!!! (party popper emoji)

#yugioh arc v #yugioh arc-v #arc-v #shun #yuto #comic #duel links #sorry for the long format but OOH it looks so clean when its all in one line!!!#this almost didn't make it out of my wip jail cells because i spent 30 mins on one of the panels #using references and everything but it just looked super duper odd and it was a waste of time overall #and don't even get me started on the toning (clenches fist) nothing was looking right at one point #but enough about the process i want to talk about the comic itself #part of the motivation for drawing this was seeing all the fluffy shunyoot celebration pics during his roaming event #they ARE cute but also i really really wanted so badly to see shun's visceral reaction that didn't reduce him to mere comedic fodder #(something i'm also guilty of)#so anyway like we always say in ygos we make our own food #wow im rambling anyways the last line of dialogue i had most trouble with but also the most proud of #no shade to the writers of the show (ok maybe like a LITTLE shade) but with this comic i really wanted to reflect the feelings of both #fans of the show as well as fans that left after the ending because that was something i saw floating on jp twitter during the roaming even #and it really made me Think #also can we talk about how in the event yuya was just like hey shun i have a surprise for you!!! haha :]#he was THERE when shun said never appear in front of me ever again did he think shun would just be omg yuto :)#this is why youre my favourite (yuya)#anyways last but not least #the final yuto panel is a healthy mix of guilt + existential dread and doubt about his own existence i hope that was obvious enough

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thedreadvampy · 10 months

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The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy.#anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is.#but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen.#I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still.#then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage?#and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting.#like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

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nerunesoda · 2 years

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guys look i made a gif!! :D

#genshin impact #genshin impact scaramouche #scaramouche genshin impact #nerudoodles #so scaranation how are we feeling about his recent drip marketing?#i'm really grateful for the fact that none of it got leaked thank goodness #also i'm going to mention this now instead of later- i am going to post art once in a blue moon #this is due to both my mental and physical health #right now im recovering from both a leg infection and a jammed thumb #i swear i'm not that clumsy i'm just dumb lmao #if you're wondering how i jammed my thumb i tried to open my fridge #and yes my brother joked about how i could let our fridge take me down like bruh #*proceeds to throw squishmallows at him*#anyways #have this scaramouche gif i made!!#i'm super proud of myself for making this #i really liked how it turned out!#maybe i'll make more who knows? :3c #yes i changed my watermark again but this one is staying for a while #i'm really indecisive about my watermark shush

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flustersnaggle · 1 year

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“WHAT, GONNA CRY?”ㅤ

malina loveday (she/her) — gloomy // lazy // mean

#baby's first (proper) post hehe!!! let me know if i did something wrong btw #anyway. about malina herself?#Well You See.#she's a gamer she's unemployed she hasn't showered in a week her diet consists only of quickmeals and most importantly i love her your hono #i made her only a day or two ago but i'm SUPER proud of how she came out especially since her design came to me so easily #one day i'll make the rest of her outfits. one day #the sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 simblr #simblr #sim: malina loveday #snag's sim tag #edit: i've only realized just now that tumblr cut off the last R in 'your honor' in my tag about what she's like. thanks tumblr

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shih-coulda-had-it · 1 year

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there's a place for us still

#bnha #nanahiko #shimura nana #gran torino #torino sorahiko #shih's art #YES it's retrowave aes; i was really struggling for a backdrop #pose is taken from the third mha musical #which i saw in a gifset (to be reblogged)#and immediately screamed about because what. WHAT #crumbs of the legendary sworn friendship?#anyways super side note i'm really proud of his chest in this one

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tj-crochets · 1 year

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Weird story from work today! Apparently contractors called my boss and complained about a very specific untrue thing

Today at work I got a call from my boss. “Hey TJ,” she said “you’re not in trouble, but I’ve been getting some feedback from some of the contractors you work with, and I want to run it by you. They said you never answer your phone and are only available by email or text.” I said “That’s weird. I’ve been on the phone with contractors pretty much constantly today. I do tell the contractors that if I don’t answer a call, it’s probably because I am on another call, and if they text or email me their question I might be able to answer while I am on the other call” “I thought it was something like that. There’s always someone who will call twenty times a day, and you answer the first nineteen, then he’ll call your boss when you don’t answer the twentieth call of the day.” She said, and we both kind of chuckled. “Also, I heard from one of the contractors that you told them never to call you” “What?” “They said you told them you couldn’t answer calls because it would disturb your new baby. You don’t have a new baby, right?” “Not that I know of?????” “Yeah, I thought you would have announced it” Easily one of the most bizarre phone calls of my professional life, but my boss was nice about it!

#the person behind the yarn #tj talks about work #idk what else to tag this as??? weird work story?#contractors assuming weird things about my personal life???#my boss was SUPER nice about it though. after she'd gone over the feedback with me #she said I was doing a great job and asked for any feedback I had about the new contractors our company has been working with #had another long weird work story happen #but cutting it way short: someone accused me of screaming at them when they had in fact been screaming at me #and my boss said 'have you MET tj? I don't think she's ever yelled at someone in her life. I don't think she could!'#and initially I was like hey I could yell at people if I want to! and then I thought about it and I think she might be right?????#idk if I've ever actually yelled at someone?? I have occasional used the slightly raised parental voice #mostly in a DON'T EAT THAT kind of context with toddlers #but that's not yelling it's just firm. if you yell you panic and if you panic with toddlers they panic #or they laugh at you. could go either way #anyway got sidetracked point is: told my dad #and he said 'I'm proud of all my grandchildren. Even the fictional ones'

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evablueblanket · 8 months

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Daily Writing

so I'm doing a thing where I write daily and around the last week of December I compiled 31 one 1-5 word prompts and NOW ITS ALMOST DONE

For one, this is a testament to my self-proclaimed 'I can't commit to shit' and now I CAN HAHA IN YOUR FACE PAST ME

But the bad part is now I'm almost out lmao I don't really wanna take prompts from like, Febuwhump cause I just wanna do whatever the hell I want without a ton of constraits (atm cause idk if I'd be able to keep this up if I limited myself) (see: last summer where I tried to write daily and make it at least a word longer than the previous day) (It crashed and burned cause I was like "lmao no wdym you can't commit to shit LOSER)

anyways if people has a 1-5 word prompt they feel like sharing go ahead :D It can be put into dialogue, a concept, a setting, whatever you feel like

okie ty <3

#writing ideas #writing prompt #creative writing #guh #tbh I'm kinda proud of myself #this entire thing started from last semester #cause I took a creative writing class and we did daily journals #I had the option to take it this semester but chose not to #mostly cause I felt like projects were a smidge too rushed #also I'm not the most coherent writer #probably one of my bigger insecurities #so if I were to share any writing I'd probably get it proofed #a lot #but anyways I've been doing the writing thingies for a fair amount of time #ofc not proper writing #more imagining #but I super love creative writing as an art #and I'm all about the fine arts #idc if it's technically like english or something #WHATEVER #the arts are how we express our souls #or something like that #cough anyways I should be done rambling in the tags #I feel I adequently tagged this so people outside of who follow me could see this?#idk #oh well it's not a big deal lol

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thebirdandhersong · 2 years

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What's it like to not be the eldest and the eldest daughter 😭😭😭😭

#i feel BAD not wanting to go home sometimes #not that i dont want to see my family but i hear EVERYONE'S troubles fears worries problems anxieties etc etc #including my parents'#i used to be super proud as a teen that my mother considered me one of her best friends #but sometimes i think about the prospect of being the designated confidante and want to Cry #im not SUPPOSED to be my parents' best friend or primary/secondary confidante or emotional support pillar girl #but it feels like my DUTY sometimes and it often makes going home so exhausting #anyway rant over i am just very tired and the family is sad that i'm not visiting this weekend #and i feel....not great about being fine with the idea of not visiting

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sunfoxfic · 2 years

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Anyway. Akumatization as traumatic. Losing your autonomy and sense of self. Hawk Moth taking advantage of you at your absolute worst. Knowing there's nothing you can do short of not feeling negative emotions, but that stress just causes you to feel more negative emotions--people bottling up everything until it explodes in an absolutely perfect storm for Hawk Moth himself. Seeing your friends and family turned into villains and there's nothing you can do about it--only two people can do anything about it, and they're barely surviving themselves. Not wanting to be the trigger of an akumatization. The guilt. The fear. The anger. The collective trauma. Everyone knows someone who's been akumatized, and more and more people are getting akumatized themselves. It doesn't matter how much it's no one's fault--it's everyone's fault. Everyone feels like they can do better, be better, and it's making the problem worse.

#i'm not calling for the show to change btw #i just think fanfic can be a little bit more creative about it #the effects of akumatization last more than an episode #imagine your enemy's greatest weapons being your very own emotions #the *pressure* that would put on people #gonna go insane thinking about it #anyway if you like this post read my nearly 2 year old fic Butterfly Nest #still super proud of that one #rambles

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flowerakatsuka · 3 months

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i'm glad that getting back into osmt and drawing in the show's style made me realize i could get a little silly with the colors i use for my lineart, i'm having a lot of fun playing with that in my recent stuff.

#like i always avoided using straight black in my art bc i think it looks better when it's tinted w/ another color #but going beyond that and using like a red or purple for my lineart is so fun #i also feel like it makes the rest of the colors in my recent pieces pop more which i'm happy about #( that could also be bc i got a new tablet that doesn't have inaccurate colors like my old one but still )#anyways i just finished the attack i was working on and i'm super proud of it aaaaa #i'll post it tomorrow since it's late but yeeeeee i'm excited #mj rambles

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inniave · 4 months

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posting music is scary but i'm going to keep at it because otherwise i don't think i'll ever release anything at all and at some point i *do* want to actually put together a project For Realsies so i gotta get over my fear but damn this fears got hands 😭

#it's so intimidating but i have to teach myself to not care!#the shame i feel is not actually *my* shame it's just what i've been conditioned into #because it's EVRRYTHING #not just my music #but about every part of muself #and posting my music is one way i think i can start to take myself for muself #and put the light on the shame so maybe it shrinks a little #turn the shame ive been conditioned to feel knto radical love for myself & all of our parts #cause i don't care what people think i will feel this shame even if everyone LOVES me & what i do #it's not about that #it's about idek what or why or how but ik it's there and i know this is a scary but safe way to work on that #also i really only started on singing/writing in february #and piano / guitar i started a few months before that #so i also have this like... my skills aren't where i'd like to end up eventually #which i am SUPER PROUD of how far i've come in less than a year!!!!!!!!!! i am wicked excited!#but i do wanna keep learning and working and reaching before i try to write something for Release release yk #anyway #i'm really looking forward to 50/90 cause at least for fawm it was such a safe place to share & explore l #and it's pretty much all smaller artists who are really supportive of each other & i am so so grateful for fawm #so i'm really hoping 50/90 goes as well!!!!!#i don't think any of my music would be anywhere but a hard drive without fawm #will always be grateful for that experience <3

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jackredfieldwasmyjacob · 1 year

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wait. i just realized. i might have been asked on a date or something similar a few months ago. and i refused. oh no.

#i don't know if i've told you about this girl i went to school with (well kinda. she's 2 year youngers but we were aware of our existance)#(she was in the school band for starters. and she's in a band still!)#anyways. i don't know if i told you about how she was one of the candidates for the local psoe party for the municipal elections #and how she actually is now a concejala (councellor? what are town hall members called in english?)#well i was interacting with her a lot during the campaign and we talked and stuff #cause i was really proud of her and also. psoe is as left as my town is capable of going so i voted for them and was interested in their #proposals and stuff #anyways she asked me to come to a meeting or to have some drinks a couple of times #i said no to all of them. like a fool #and she sometimes likes my stories (i also like hers but cause i genuinelly like her stuff!!)#i thought she had a partner but. yesterday she showed up on bumbl #e #i panicked a lot and i swiped left (so a 'no')#and now i'm realising what might had happened #i wouldn't be against dating her she's super pretty but i just. never imagined i was like in her league lol #tbh this could all be me conflating things and she never had any romantic intention #we'll never know i guess <3

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tracybirds · 1 year

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not to project too hard onto a fictional character but at what point did it just become so standard for John to get high grades in academics that his family stopped acknowledging it because that was the norm