#anyway…I love taylor swift hahahaha

[lindonwald]

and I can go anywhere I want / anywhere I want, just not home

and you can aim for my heart, go for blood / but you would still miss me in your bones

[fuyuu-chan]

Hi bestie! You told me to drop in so here I am. I'm gonna leave a request while I'm at it hehe Hope you don't mind.

Can I request a Neuvillette fic inspired by Taylor Swift's "Anti-Hero"? I particularly like the lyrics "Hi, it's me. I'm the problem, it's me. At teatime, everybody agrees." It gives me the vibes of a reader who is shunned by society, y'know? Perfect for some angst if I do say so myself 🫣🫢

Anyways, do whatever fits your vibe. I just love the way you write our dear Iudex 🥰 No pressure though! If it's too much, then just consider this as me dropping in to say hello to you and your lovely readers. Have a good day!!!

Love,

Mayaree

It's me. Hi. I'm the problem it's me :)

Fuyuu-chan: Hiiiii beshy hahahaha thanks for dropping in lol 😆🫶 also for being the first to request 😚

Pairing: Neuvillette x Reader

Summary: Everyone doesn't like you and thinks that you're not worthy for Neuvillette, and so they make fun of you, some even ignored you. By the way people in Fontaine treat you it makes you feel insecure and question your relationship with him.

Warning: Mention of break up, a bit of yandere ish at the end?? It might not look like it for some of y'all but just in caseee hehehehe (Not Proofread)

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The moment everyone in Fontaine knew about your relationship with Neuvillette would probably the worst thing that happened in your life, because of what people think about you, for not being worthy as the Ludex beloved partner.

And the worst part is that Neuvillette didn't know about any of this, they only talk about it when you're the only one around, when you're not with him. You consider to tell it to him but of course you don't want to bother him, especially since he's busy with his duties as the Chief of Justice.

Now, you got invited to one tea party held by one lady that has been "kind" to you, so of course you accepted it... 'I shouldn't had my hopes up, of course she is gonna be like the others' you thought. Who would've thought that she would be like that? She appeared to be kind to you the first time you met but when with everyone, with her friends and some other ladies, she had just embarrassed you.

She told everyone that (name) is just a common girl, basic, and compared to Neuvillette she's not on his level. She even told everyone that "She's just a problem to our dear Ludex, only a burden for him" she chuckles and everyone at that tea party laughed agreeing to what she said.

Feeling embarrassed, angered, saddened, you just excused yourself saying you'll go to the restroom but after you left you never came back but one thing's for sure, everyone hated you, talked behind your back while laughing. You can't handle it anymore, everyone is insulting you and the fact that you may be ruining Neuvillette's reputation, you feel furious but at the same time what can you do? I mean they're all right aren't they? You're just a problem.

Because of everyone saying things about you, spreading rumours around Fontaine, it's hard for you to go outside because once you do people would look at you and whisper to each other.

Some even threatened you, saying you should stay away from Neuvillette or you'll regret it. You thought it's probably just his admirers that's going way too far, but to be honest it's already affecting your mental health.

Well you did distance yourself from him, like when he ask you out like go to dinner, or have some date you would decline saying you have something to do or you're currently busy. But let's be honest you really wanted to spend time with him. He was at first: "It's alright, next time we could go." But as time pass he was getting worried and confused as to why you were not seeing him anymore.

Always rejecting him. 'What happened?' He thought. You two aren't like this in the past, you two would even date every time there's a free time like after work or weekends. But why are you distancing yourself from him?

This thoughts always bother Neuvillette and the way you act. And now he found himself walking towards your house to talk to you and ask you.

Once he arrives, he knocked on your door. It took you minute to open the door which definitely isn't like you at all since you always open the door immediately when it comes to him (he have like a pattern when he knocks at your door so you know it's him).

You were about to ask him but he just got in your house and closed the door. Now you two are just standing looking at each other, the air seems tense.

"...so uhhh...why did you come here?" You said finally breaking the silence.

"Am I not allowed to come here anymore?" He asked.

"That's not what I meant, what I mean is what's the reason for your sudden visit here?" You clarified.

"It's about you...us...why are you distancing yourself from me? What happened?" He asked.

"What do you mean?... I'm just busy that's why I can't really spend time with you..." You trail off hesitating.

"Don't lie (name)..." He said as he looked at you worried.

"Did I do something wrong that makes you distance yourself from me? If I did I'm sorry... but please tell me so I can fix it." Neuvillette asked as he looked at you in the eyes.

"You?.." you asked as you scoffed a bit. "No it's... it's me Neuvillette, I'm the problem..." You continued as you try not to tear up in front of him.

You can see how Neuvillette's furrow his eyebrows as he heard you speak.

"What? You're not the problem (name), what are you talking about?" He asked as he stepped closer to you.

"So you still don't know?" You asked.

"What do you mean?" He looked at you confused on what you mean.

"People in Fontaine don't like me, they hate me the moment they knew about us, they said I'm not worthy...for you... I'm just a problem...and a burden for you" you said as your voice is starting to break, you didn't even notice that you were now crying remembering everyone's word, insults, threats.

Neuvillette was speechless the moment those words left your mouth. How could he not know about any of this? Did all of the people hurt you like this everyday? He thought that everything was alright but it turns out it's not, how could he let this things happen to you?

Neuvillette wanted to comfort you but when he was about to approach you, you step back and said "I think we should... separate ways, I don't want you to get ruined or people thinking bad things about you because of me" you said as you try to look at him.

He stood there, frozen in his place. He was processing your words inside his head. "W-what?..." He finally get to asked after a few minutes.

"We should break up" you said.

"...But why?"

"Because of me...I was causing you problems, I might ruin your reputation in the future and I don't want that" you answered as you finally looked at him teary eyed.

Neuvillette then approached you as he pulls you closer to him, he held you in his arms. "(Name) please...I don't want to break up with you...Besides you're never a problem, people is just jealous of you and that's why they did that. Besides you will never ruin my reputation because when you came into my life, you taught me how to understand people, how to be considerate and many more. My reputation became much better with you."

You lean on him while you tear up, even if you don't want to but his warmth that enveloped you, you missed it.

"B-but.." you stutter.

"Sshh..." He hummed as he pat your back in order to comfort you just like what you did when he was crying. "I'm sorry I didn't know any of this, I'm sorry you have to go through all of that alone, I'm sorry that I turned a blind eye...and I'm sorry that I'm not there when you needed me the most." He apologized.

After you calmed down you replied to him. "...It's not your fault...so don't apologize" you sniffled as you finally looked at him for him to only wipe your tears away. "No love...it's my fault too for not knowing any of this, for not seeing how much you suffer everyday."

You kept silent as you just let him comfort you. Eventually you found yourself apologizing "I'm...sorry Neuvi...for saying we should break...up".

Neuvillette only shake his head "Its alright... I know you dont mean it, you might had said it but at that moment I can see in your eyes that you do not mean those words" he said as he smiled gently at you. "But...I hope to not hear those words again...I must say my heart ache when those words left your mouth." He continued as he looked a bit sad.

"I'm..sorry, its just that...that was the one I thought would be better for us..for you" you said as you looked down only for Neuvillette to grab your chin gently to make you look at him.

"Its alright...you dont mean that anyways right?" He asked and you nod and that was enough for him to smile again. "It's those people that made you think that...I cannot believe they had the audacity to say those vile things to my beloved, to my partner, who I love dearly from the bottom of my heart. I serve them for so many decades, I protected them yet they return all those things I did with this?" he said as he tucked your loose hair behind your ear. "They didn't even repsect the person I chose to be with me forever" he looked so mad that he let these things happen but you hugged him to calm him down a bit.

"What are you gonna do?" You asked while you lean onto his chest, he reciprocated your hug as he wrapped his arms around you waist.

"Don't worry love...I will handle it all...you just rest here and relax while I fix these, alright?" Neuvillette said as he rubbed your back. "It would also be nice if we could leave Fontaine for a few days to have your mind forget this for a while, don't you think?" He asked as he looked at you.

You hummed and nod. "I guess that would help...but how about your work?" You asked as you now looked at him to meet his gaze on you.

"I'll take a few days off, I'm pretty sure the others could handle the court for a while. Especially since there's no big cases as of now." He explained and that's enough for you to relax a bit.

You finally smiled and that made Neuvillette happy, seeing you smile again made his heart finally calm down and his mind to finally rest. For now he let himself relax on your warm embrace and for later...he would deal with those people that dare hurt his beloved (name).

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Please do not copy, translate, repost to any other social media, Thank you.

[leoramage]

Tagged by @charlosgoggles, I was pretty busy and kind of late when I saw the post! I immediately sat down once I had my free time to do this. Thank you for the tag my co-F1 astrology bestie in this app!

name: Leora Mage is actually an anagram of my real name! i am currently using it as a penname and stage name!

sign: my big three is leo-gemini-pisces!

time: its apparently 6:47 p.m. when i started writing this down. 9 p.m. when i finished (i had duties to attend to.)

favourite band/artist: i am the music bestie that listens to anything. you can't pin me down and tell me to list my favorite artists/band! ಠಿ⁠_⁠ಠ anyways here's the following:

solo artists: taylor swift, lana del rey, rihanna, doja cat, britney spears, ariana grande, olivia rodrigo, beyoncé, jennifer lopez, madonna, lady gaga, ava max, camila cabello, qveen herby

bands/groups: in this moment, ghost, the great discord, the neighborhood, the chainsmokers, little mix, blackpink, 2ne1, exo, bigbang, coldplay

bonus: i listen to classical music too (tchaikovsky, mozart, beethoven, etc.)

last movie: burlesque (as in christina aguilera) and house of gucci! i watched it for like a whole bus trip.

last show: house of the dragon! i love rewatching because of sir harwin strong & aemond targaryen!

also drive to survive as well, i was finding the episode fernando was in because i told my mom a local artist here in my country has physical similarities to fernando hahahaha

when I created this blog: i created this blog last year's ummer - solely for my practice, learn knowledge from other practitioners about my craft. i happen to love astrology too so it kind of stuck with me and my theme! i am continuously learning and mastering my craft but at the same time explore more.

other blogs: i have another tumblr blog but i forgotten what was the username but i do believe that i made that blog for roleplaying and posting my photo manipulation for a fandom i used to be in.

do I get asks: not until belle and becca sent me a game! i passed them on to my favorite writers and some to my moot blogs. i was supposed to send one to @charlosgoggles but they do not have their ask on lmfao

followers: 20 blogs are following me. most of them are my moots for sure or bots. idk, i did not check who is following me. i do not check who is following me to be fair (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)

average hours of sleep: 5-6 hours but sometimes longer. i work harder than i sleep.

instruments: guitar, ukelele, piano keyboard, violin. i only have a guitar and keyboard with me and i haven't touched them for ages. i learned how to play the other instruments because of my acquaintances who are passionate about music or simply band members.

what I am wearing: black maxi dress that i made myself!

dream job: i do believe i can be who i wanted to be if i put effort in it. so basically i do not have a dream job.

dream trip: world tour (my work requires a lot of that and isolation from the world. so it's quite a tough journey considering the rough waves of the ocean but anything for the bag of moneh)

favorite song atm: uh i do not have a favorite song at the moment. but i listen to subliminals a lot because they just calm my mind (my brain is so active that i need to decelerate it from thinking about the most obnoxious things) but let me check my most played in spotify... okay it says:

dance the night - dua lipa

tagging: @folkloresthings , @lorarri , @love-belle / @love-bellee , @goldsainz and @opheliaas-stuff because you guys are the sweet ones i had been interacting with for the past few days. i love them sm ฅ[⁠ᓀ⁠˵⁠▾⁠˵⁠ᓂ⁠]ฅ

(p.s. feel free to do in your own comfort 𔘓 much love guys 🤍🩷💕)

[xxacademy]

hi academy ((this is elle’s main, hehe silly lil taylor swift girl… we r literally like the 2 best friends in this video fr https://www.instagram.com/reel/CwiCNF6skhg/?igshid=NzZhOTFlYzFmZQ== ))

um i hate scary movies.. i enjoy spooky video games for the most part bc i feel like i can protect myself and the plots are just so much more well developed.

but there is a movie that i ADORE and consider scary and i would love ur thoughts on “Coraline” if you have the time <3

mwah mwah have a great weekend

ELLE MY LOVE HELLO!!! YOU’RE SO SWEET IM CRYING THAT REEL IS LITERALLY US <33 you’re so beautiful and angelic and i love your vibe, i love that people can be friends and still have their own unique style hehe <3

AND LOL i completely understand you, i just for some reason enjoy the feeling of being scared? hahahaha. i love horror movies and video games— all though i find games scarier because i have to move myself through the story.

i have memories of sitting on the dead space pause screen, scared shitless, wondering how i’m going to continue loll. atleast i can just let the movie keep playing…

and omg coraline is a top tier animated movie for me. i love the attention to detail that film has, and i mean the art direction is just perfection. it’s unsettling… i remember seeing it when i was like 10 with my grandma in the movie theater and i wasn’t expecting it to be borderline horror. i left the theater in awe. i re-watched it a couple of years ago and i still got the same bone-chilling feeling.

it’s so beautifully done,, i love love coraline, GREAT PICK!!!!! maybe we re-watch again now that spooky season is upon us 🎃

thank uuu this weekend was so so nice and relaxing,, im dreading this week as it’s my last week at my shitty job but the end is in sight— on the bright side, i got a new tattoo yesterday :-))

sorry if this was extra rambley, i got a lot on my mind right now lol!! anyways ily elle, i hope you’re doing the best <33 xoxo

[theaufanartist]

Hi everyone! I’m back haha!

Happy Sannie Day to my fellow Atinies following me here! And a thank you to everyone in general for sticking by, because I honestly didn’t know how long it would have been for me to get back into writing, so, thank you! I promise I’ll try to draw and write more like this, so please wait for me like you did🥺I forgot how much I loved writing, how much of a safe space it has always been to me in the past, and writing this small story, I realised how important it always has been of a part in my life-it has always been a safe space to me, and I hope y’all can find that in here, on this very account. Also, well, I’m almost close to the end of my winter break, which really makes me happy hahahaha, because I’m seriously bored, and also my roomie is back home in Vietnam, so I got the house to myself haha, but i miss her so much :( But well, that was it I guess haha. Also, I’m listening to a lot of Taylor Swift nowadays, ever since she released her “From the Vault”playlist<3

Anyways, my DMs are always open, if you wanna talk about anything and everything. I’ll try my very best to come up for the solution of any problems you have, or be a lending ear for you; but never think you’re alone and going through something, alone. I’m always here🫶🏽

Dress warm if it’s cold, stay hydrated both seasons haha! There’s finally hope for some good weather here in Wollongong haha!

Enjoy<33

[thenachassist]

On midnights

It's always a joy whenever auntie Taylor Swift releases an album. It's fun to find which track will fit your life at the moment or which one will you dedicate to your new person before he becomes a memory you remember all too well. 🥴😂

So I have finished listening to all songs when I learned that she also released the 3 a.m. edition today. Damn, Auntie. You have so much time at hand. You know, I follow you primarily because of your wordplay. What an incredible lyricist you are. Saranghae, God bless you, and thank you for your life. 🥺

Anyway, here are my thoughts for the tracks included in this lovely masterpiece called midnights:

•Lavender Haze - Persona is high in love, pretty much intoxicated by the euphoria that love brings. Like, I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. Feels like written for Joe Alwyn. Sana all.

• Maroon - Looks like the young woman from Red has fallen in love and sigh, has lost again. She's in her late 20s now, sipping wine, thinking of the recent break-up. Losing someone when in you're late 20s wasn't so red anymore, the shade had been darker like her make-up or her life in general; thus, maroon. Char.

•Anti-Hero - Self-loathing song. One you will listen to at midnight when the world is quiet and the voices inside your head are loud.

•Snow at the Beach - This track is me. Weird, but fuckin' beautiful. Hahahaha. I particularly like, /It's fine to fake it till you make it, till you do, till it's true/ Very inspirational sa aking candidacy for First Lady ng Pasig.

•Midnight Rain - For those you have never replied to Bumble, those whom you ghosted.

•You're On Your Own, Kid - Lyrics sounded like the ones from Speak Now.

• Question - I like how the questions were laid down. Parang I Bet You Think About Me ang arrangement. I especially liked, /Can I ask a question... Did you ever get back with your ex?/ Syempre wala yan sa lyrics kasi tanong ko talaga yan. Hahaha

•Vigilante Shit - THIS IS MY MOOD ANYTIME OF THE DAY. HAHAHAHA. /I don't dress for women. I don't dress for men. Lately, I've been dressin' for revenge./

•Bejeweled- Persona gets her shit together finally. Naalala niya na isa siyang gold at hindi recyclable. Hallelujah!!!

•Labyrinth - Liking how she's aware that she's falling into the trap of love again but so what? Happy now, Iyak later.

•Karma- Diss track for Scooter definitely. Hahaha. /Spiderboy, king of thieves. Weave your little webs of opacity. My pennies made your crown./

•Sweet Nothing - Yung alam mong sasaktan ka lang nya because everything is sweet nothing pero go lang. Hahaha. The music itself is like the title, sounding very sweet but when you look into the lyrics... Oh boy.

•Mastermind - Walang iba. Ito ang kanta na iniaalay para kay Ginoong Victor Ma. Regis Nubla Vico Sotto.🥴

•Hits Different- Imagine yourself 3 months after the break-up-- you're fine, you're well. Then you randomly wake up at 12 midnight and then you remember your ex. You think of the person but you were never ever getting back together, and somehow, that's okay.. That's how the song felt like.

When I finished taking notes for midnights, aba bigla nilapag ang 3 a.m. edition and so here are my two cents and bente pesos:

•The Great War - Imagine two kakampinks falling in love with each other after attending rallies last March to May. On the 7th of May, as they stood with the crowd in Ayala Avenue not knowing what would happen in the next few days, this song eventually plays. Oh my heart. /All throughout the great war, always remember, uh-uh we burn for better, I vowed I would always be yours cause we survived the great war/ 🥺

•Bigger Than the Whole Sky - Salamat sa saglit. Hahaha. Song for your fling na nawala din eventually. No hard feelings.

•Paris - Purely love song na walang red flag, I think? Or pwede rin naman may red flag, yung persona... /I wanna brainwash you into loving me forever/ Hahaha. Forda ferson na mabubudol natin into loving us forever. uWu.

•High Infidelity - This one gave me Death By A Thousand Cuts and The Very First Night Vibe kasi medyo upbeat pero dark yung lyrics. Hahaha. /There's many different ways that you can kill the one you love the slowest way is never loving them enough/ Edi meow. Also, may ice-celebrate na naman tayo every April 29th.

•Glitch - She sounds like the persona from Paper Rings na kalmado na. Hahaha. Yung pang 3 am na ang aura kasi tulog na lahat. /We were supposed to be friends/ This one is for Joe Alwyn too, I think? Sana all umabot ng two-thousand one-hundred and ninety days.

•Would've, Could've, Should've - Motivation 'to para sa lesson on auxiliary verbs and their contractions hahaha. Pero if you look closer, more than the regret, the song speaks of the awakening ni persona. Losing her innocence in the process of loving this person. This could be the matured version of the girl from All Too Well looking back at the experience. /Stained glass windows I regret you all the time/ /But you made me feel important you tried to erase us/

•Dear Reader - I think this one is purposely placed at the bottom of the list. It's the last one you should listen to, at 3:57 am when the dawn is breaking, and you are advised to /Find another, you should find another/

Overall, the songs are calm, euphoric, and mad at the same time, the typical moods you get at midnight when the world is slumbering peacefully and you're alone in your room. Faves for now are: Maroon, Snow at the Beach, Vigilante Shit, Mastermind, Paris, and Dear Reader.

Rating: Perfect over Perfect!!! Hahahahaha

P. S. SANA MAY WORLD TOUR AT KASAMA MANILA. Huehue 🤣😂

[firewoodfigs]

some quick life updates before i yeet myself off to bed and trick my body into a regular sleep cycle: 

bali was great!!! i miss it terribly already. the people were lovely and the beaches were lovely and it was just nice to finally get away from this claustrophobic island of a country after nearly three!!! miserable!!! years!!! it was low-key exhausting because we fit so much into four days - we literally woke up at six in the morning on the third day to take a ferry to nusa penida (me, plagued by motion sickness: dear Lord take this cup away from me) and then did stuff like hike a ton in the tropical blistering heat and snorkel in ridiculously choppy waters. fun fact: I actually can’t swim so LMAO but well *shrugs* here I am... I say this calmly but in reality I was choking on seawater and yelling at my bf HAHAHAHA 

coming back home was super stressful because 4/9 of us who went on the trip got covid lol. I was fretting so hard on the flight home bcs my bf was shivering and breaking out in cold sweat from a fever that just came out of nowhere and the plane did not have BLANKETS because it was a transit flight. what. anyways when we landed and checked our phones one of our friends was like, “fuck, I’m positive”, and we were like, fuuuuuck. I was so sure we got it because all 9 of us shared a burger the night before, so we self-isolated for a few days just to be safe, but it turned out to just be stomach flu on my bf’s end. (I somehow got out miraculously unscathed...) 

also because I got bombarded with work the past two weeks bcs it was my beloved coworker’s turn to go on holiday after me... it was rough, man. I think I worked till or past midnight most days (although I generally try to take Wednesday and Friday nights off for Mental HealthTM) but honestly I'm just happy to not be fired because it was just me and my boss holding the fort together and i’m pretty sure I sent him trash at some point but he was genuinely so nice about it. like, he sent me an email with super detailed feedback and was like, don’t worry, it’s not stuff I expected you to know because it’s super technical, but just keep trying and you’ll get better and I was like yo... thanks... /cryingindaclub

I turned 25 recently and it is just. quarter life crisis ahoy. HELP. I need Taylor swift to write a song about being 25 and knowing nothing at all. actually I just need Dr Swift to drop a new album because I've listened to folklore and evermore so many times that it’s starting to feel a little repetitive and. idk. mad (woman) 

royai week completely slipped my mind with everything that’s been going on and my submissions will probably be really tardy (if they even get finished at all HAHAH) but the prompts this year have been really nudging me back towards writing again. they’re INCREDIBLE!!! I can’t wait to see how everyone interprets it - I'm sure it’ll be fantastic. i have to confess I've been kinda out of fma/royai lately bcs I've been working on other original stuff (also because my latest obsession is Star Wars LOL but this fandom was truly one of the best things that happened to me in 2020 and it’s just really nice to see everyone coming together again for the best week of the year. genuinely feels like Christmas in the summer but instead of mistletoe we have fic. what’s not to love?

anyways yeah tldr idk if I'll end up participating but I'm really looking forward to see what everyone has in store!!! x

ALRIGHT im off to bed take care and stay hydrated and safe mates I’m sending yall all my love to conquer the upcoming week <3 

[daylightaftertherain]

ok so as always we continue to consume the same media. i literally finished iksw like a few weeks ago and it took over my life much like all of casey’s other books have and i think i have a feeling from your posts butttt I have some questions anyways

1. who was you’re favorite character?

2. which character did you relate to the most

3. what was your favorite scene?

4. give me a song that you relate to your favorite character

~💜✨

hello hi my flood of iksw brainrot has reached you yay

smith 100% i love him and his frog obsession sm

uhhh it’s split between smith and chloe i think? my personality is 80% chloe’s but smith’s gender journey was so relatable

omg I don’t know yet bc there’s little moments through the book that i love equally! the biggest one is ash’s explanation of being non binary bc i felt seen, but also like smith befriending a bullfrog, rory and chloe being dumbasses and sitting in an air vent for two hours, and chloe pushing shara into a lake

hahahaha you already know it’s going to be taylor swift so inthaf :) it’s such a soft song but i think smith would like it

[written4seung]

the way i loved you by taylor swift reminds me of hee HAHAHAHWJWJJAJA LIKE IN A WAY THAT SIYA YUNG FIRST AND GREATEST LOVE MO NA YOU HAD TO LET GO BC OF ISSUES AND STUFF PERO EVEN IF NAISIP MO NA THAT YOU MOVED ON AND HAVE SOMEONE NEW HE'S STILL THERE SA PUSO AT ISIP MO BC HE MADE YOU FEEL THAT LOVING LOVE WAS SO EASY IN THIS WORLD AND YOU CAN'T FIND A REASON TO HATE HIM DESPITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED. thank you for listening to my ted talk.

-🐧

may hugot ka ba anon? HAHAHAHA pero somehow knows ko yang ganyang feels, anyways~ the greatest love and pain trope no? i feel like it really suits hee din nga. sabi ko nga, bagay si hee sa angst. eto ung story na yung sa lahat ng pag-aaway niyo na nangyari to the point na napagod na kayo sa isa't isa at sobrang naging toxic nyo na and nung relationship, kahit naging sobrang sakit, hindi mo pa rin maiwasan maisip how great it was nung sobrang inlove pa rin kayo sa isa't isa despite nung lahat ng di magagandang nangyari to the point na nababalewala mo na yung mga pinagawayan nyo kahit hindi naman dapat. tapos kahit may bago ka na and si hee din, and both healthy, hindi niyo maiwasan na maisip na if may chance and kahit hindi maganda, ipagpapalit nyo yung mga healthy relationship nyo para lang sa isa't isa.

[jinnxd]

okay a few things:

i stopped listening to taylor swift's new album because the latest chapter is way more important for me to read. yes I love it that much.

i have absolutely 0 idea who the masked figure in kiya's bedroom was, but when you do reveal it, I'm gonna be like "oooooh it makes so much sense of course", which goes to show that I should be reading mystery novels a lot more than I do lmao

a week from today, it's gonna be a year since you started this fic and now you're 300k words in and I just gotta say I am SO IMPRESSED AND I HOPE IT NEVER ENDS AND YOU GET A BOOK DEAL AND PEOPLE RAVE ABOUT YOUR BOOK ON TIKTOK (because that's the book trend rn from what I understand

also I don't know if you've seen glee (it's on my mind with the album release), but I'm picturing the third hokage to be like sue sylvester shipping klaine, secret shrine and all lmaoooo

love you darling!!! <3

AGHHH omg I literally can’t believe that she released the album today!!! I swear it was a coincidence hahahaha but I’m literally so honored that arrogance was prioritized?! LIKE WHAAAT omg 🤭🤭🤭

Also no worries, I also am oblivious to literally everything and am always surprised at the end of moves/books when the villain is revealed lmao

AND I KNOW OH MY GOSHHHH ITS SO CRAZY!!! You have a good eye lol! I was definitely not expecting the story to be going on for this long a year ago😭 I also thought maybe I’d get tired or something, but I’m still having so much fun writing!! Which is good because there’s still a long way to go 😁 also that’s so nice of you to say ohmygoshhhh 😩💗💗

I have never seen glee before but I googled it and ended up watching a seven minute long compilation of sue Sylvester shipping klaine and I was DYINGGGG imagining her as the third Hokage LMFAOOOO thank you for that image bc that’s so him🙏🙏 (he speaks for all of us)

ANYWAYS, THANK YOU FOR THIS LOVELY COMMENT!!!! LOVE YOUUUUUU 💗💗💗

[enchantedtomeetyouts]

Ew who is Taylor Swift anyway?

This dream has been 18 years in the making. Yes! Those who knew me back then alam nila kung gano ko ka fan girl ni Taylor Swift. Fangirling before is far different from now. Ibang-iba teh! Back then, there was no Wifi pa para mag YouTube or Spotify to easily access tunes. Instead, we relied on the daily top 10 charts and lyric books. Di naman din ako pinanganak with a golden spoon just to have a walkman or mobile phone na pwedeng lagyan ng music. Mostly nang hihiram lang ako sa mga classmate ko, para i-memorize yung song nyang ‘Our Song’. I vividly recall spending hours in the computer shop, memorizing entire albums in just two hours – that was all I could afford since it cost ₱15/hour! Makaipon lang ako ng 15pesos nun takbo na 'ko agad sa computer shop! hahaha

Since alam ng ekonomiya ang kahinaan ng mga katulad kong mahirap na Swiftie. Itong si Selecta! I had to save every day just to buy a Cornetto sa 7-11 bayan, hoping to win concert tickets or even merchandise para sa RED TOUR nya. Halos mamaga na nga lalamunan ko nun. Di ko pinaparinig kay mama pag ubo ko. Araw-araw ice cream. There was even one time when I didn’t have enough fare to get home after buying an ice cream! So, we waited, hoping that someone we knew would pass by, and we’d ask them for a piso 😝 “Pst pauwi kana? Pahinge naman piso.” And guest what? Di ako nanalo kahit isa HAHAHAHA. I don’t remember them na, pero sa mga nahingan namin ng piso, THANK YOU! 🤣

With those experiences, sinabi ko talaga na mag-aaral ako ng mabuti so that I could immediately find a job after graduation. Di ba main character atake ko. Tapos di pa man ako graduate, nung yung buong mundo tinawag syang snake!

You don't know how scared, stressed, and sad I was during that time. I was worried that she might stop making music and di na mag tour pa. I was sad that kung kailan unting push ko na lang ggraduate na 'ko at mag kakawork and I still wouldn't get to see her. At that time, it was considered shameful to idolize her. People will judge you if you’re a Swiftie. Kaya ending ‘every day is like a battle’ peg ko nun. Ang dami kong kalaban na fandom. Charing. Kahit sa schoolii nakikipag 1vs2, minsan 3 pa sila, just to defend Taylor. You forgive you forget but you never let it go. Charing ulit. Hahahaha

People might say, 'Why are you defending her like that? She doesn't even know you'. Yes! She doesn't know me. She doesn't even know that I exist but I’m a Swiftie. She is aware of the existence of Swifties.

Taylor Swift has been my constant companion through all my struggles, from my first crush to my first heartbreak. So why would I not defend the person who helped and accompanied me (through her songs) through my silent battles when I was young? People haven't always been there for me, but her music always has.

Taylor Swift was judged for having exes who hurt her and for creating heartbreak songs. And ganon nga ata talaga ang mundo, they’ll judge and laugh at you by voicing out your pain without truly understanding the pain that caused you.

Being a Swiftie was the best decision I made back then. And if given the chance to go back and do it all over again, I-click ko ulit yung "Tim McGraw" to listen to it AGAIN.

Things happened because I needed to go through them. Para gawing exciting at masaya yung journey ko. Kaya pala namiss ko yung Speak Now tour, Fearless World tour, Red Tour, 1989 Tour and Reputation tour kasi God prepared something big for me. Going to Eras tour with my Mom is isa sa na accomplished ko sa buhay and it feels like my Mama finally met my bestfriend too! 🥹

Maraming tao di makakaintindi sa mga tulad nating ‘Fangirl’. But who cares? As long as wala tayong tinatapakan na tao at mabuti tayong mamamayan, keber na sa mga little judgements.

And sa mga fans na di pa nakikita Idol nila. Kapit lang, your time will come too. Trust the process and believe that God is preparing something big din sayo. Trust me, HE NEVER FAILS.

Love,

Helly Swift 🫶🏻✨

[clayray3290]

Clayray Closeout 2023

2023 was a terrible year tbh. But still, plenty to look back on, warts and all.

Music - Artists

The Downtown Fiction

BTS

Kelly Clarkson

McFly

Britney Spears

Agust D

Taylor Swift

Beyoncé

Stray Kids

Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness

Lol okay so The Downtown Fiction ended up at #1 because I became friends with the lead singer/frontman this year. I hope he does not find this hahahaha. Being back in LA and also back to having friends and a social life meant that I actually went to concerts this year. I went to the Agust D concert with friends, so that explains BTS/Agust D. Also went to Kelly Clarkson's show singing through her new album before it was out, because it was better than being home alone with the impending layoffs. The BTS friends are also very much into Stray Kids, so that's how they landed on my list. And then I went to the screening/singalong of Crossroads, which explains the Britney (not that I don't listen to Britney anyway), and then went to the Renaissance film with my cousin, which explains the Beyoncé (although again, I listen to Bey anyway).

Music - Albums

Kelly Clarkson - chemistry

Agust D - D-DAY

Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness - Tilt at the Wind No More

Beyoncé - RENAISSANCE

The Downtown Fiction - Losers & Kings

McFly - Power to Play

The Downtown Fiction - Let's Be Animals

Ayreon - The Final Experiment (Special Edition)

The Aces - I've Loved You For So Long

NOTD - NOTED...EP

Not many surprises here. There are some albums from longterm favorites here, like Andrew McMahon and McFly. Also generally enjoy The Aces. Ayreon being up there is pretty funny - I think some guy I briefly dated told me about them haha, and I think I just let the album play a few times and so it got up there.

Movies

Past Lives

A Thousand and One

Problemista

Joy Ride

Barbie

Honorable Mentions: Rye Lane, Are You There God? It's Me Margaret, 12.12: The Day, Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves, Shortcomings

[writtenbyevie]

evie, hello!! i hope you’re having a good day. 6, 7, & 20 for the new years asks? o:

kennedy my beloved 💛✨!! thank you for the asks, I hope you're doing swell as well 💫

6. what is one new things you discovered this year (could be a place/hobby/song etc)

Songwriting! I've always wanted to write music and finally decided to. This is also my first time writing autobiographically. I put elements of myself in everything I create, but it's always filtered through the lens of a character or hidden amongst other ideologies I don't actually share.

So it's both refreshing and terrifying to be this plainly vulnerable :)

7. top three albums you played this year

I shouldn't be surprised this but I am. My top 3 are:

Midnights (3AM Edition) by Taylor Swift

Punisher by Phoebe Bridgers

folklore (deluxe version) by Taylor Swift

Let it be known that 4 is evermore and 5 is Lover HAHAHAHA

20. if you could tell yourself something at the beginning of this year based on what you know right now, what would it be?

I know it says one but I wanted to give a few because I've learned a lot this year and I'm nothing if not the anti-thesis to brief.

Processing a situation is not the same as processing your feelings surrounding that situation. You cannot intellectualize your way through pain, nor can you logic your way out of love. So be angry and be in love. You already are anyway.

Take people at their word. Especially the kind ones. If they're lying, that's neither your fault, nor your responsibility. Sometimes people just love you. It's safe to believe them.

Your parents are wonderful people AND they have hurt you. These truths coexist. Acknowledging that doesn't make you ungrateful or selfish.

anywho, kennedy thank you very kindly for the asks!! sending you all the fuzzy and fizzy feelings found in love and champagne ✨💛✨!!

[shinydixon]

guys! (lol i love this little anon club you let people have here, seriously, you're awesome and very kind) but back to my guys! i saw that tweet about joseph meeting taylor when it was almost posted and i honestly thought she was implying the day he met her when he was at a haim's concert. a fan asked him about it during the german con (not this last one, the previous one) and it made the news in a 'joseph quinn has met taylor swift!!!' way. i honestly think she wasn't implying they met yesterday. i think the 'other day' can be a reference to their first meeting given that it wasn't that long ago.

Hahahaha thank you🤍

Anyway if that could be! I didn't understand 💀

[silent-swiftie-ph]

Scribbled ideas

Nov 9, 2022

So doing this random journal again. It’s been awhile since I’ve written or talked to myself. Anyways, lately has been a rollercoaster ride for me. Dad’s bypass operation, my stressful birthday, missing my biggest stan’s “Taylor Swift” album launch, etc.

I dont know if I am for any fandom whatsoever, but as long as I can remember, Ive been a swiftie all throughout my life. I remember first hearing her songs back in 2006/2007, I was just a college student then dreaming of making a dent in this world. You know, I came from one of the top universities here in the Philippines so I was a bit full rather fool of myself.

She went here for her fearless album, but i was dead broke that time. Also, I didn’t have any support “fandom” friends with me. All of my friends are either, so-so with her or just freaking against her. 😂 well, i am still in that shit till now.

Kanye west incident, was angry as hell. I remeber rubbing the topic to my friends even though they didnt like it. I was connecting it to women power and artists equality. Like fellow artist should you know support each other. I know the feeling since I used to write my own songs and play it on my guitar when I was 13 years old. It just so happened that, that dream is something that the society here deemed impossible to achieve.

Red album was released and she also had a schedule here. I was a budding analyst and I was actually in the ticketnet website or whatever looking at the ticket prices fucking 2000 pesos for gen admission. I thought to myself that, damn. I would also need to pass this one. (Though looking back, i should have just used my mom’s credit card and worked my ass off to have it paid).

Fell of the radar for the next years or so… sadly when taylor started having model friends. I’m nowhere near their stature, im fat, im nerdy, im boyish, and im a geek. How on earth could I connect with them? Though, id still be looking back and forth from afar, this is also the time I had a gf, but unfortunately she doesnt like taylor as well. I’m bisexual by the way.

When 1989 came out, i was secretly wishing for a concert here in Manila. I really wanted to bring my then gf there and introduce taylor to her. But it didn’t happen. 😔

It was also the time that taylor was with KK, and a bunch of hotties like calvin, tom, alwyn. And I was like. “Whoaw, mom your so active all around the place. I will never ever be able to reach you.” Well I was secretly rooting/shipping kaylor because I was also in that phase during that time frame 🥲🫠

Fast forward to reputation, damn that album blew me away. It was my break up album. Well, not necessary that it’s a break-up album but I was listening to it endlessly to numb myself. I was eyeing to watch it in US coz I was supposed to go there in that certain tour dates for my business trip. Lo and behold, my business trip was rescheduled and what I did was just to visit an empty stadium and try to breathe in the essense of whatever is left in there. Hahahaha

Lovers is a mixed album for me. I mean I love it but confuses me all the time. I am no decypher queen type of fan. I think im just a creative and intellectual one. Its a declaration of love but im feeling a sense of lgbtq+ vibes to it. Tbh, i really thought Taylor was going to out herself. Hahahaha. Well, i dint care about that but lol, it was just my thought.

Miss Americana!!! This one blew me out. Personally, i have been an activist in all of my social media accounts. As I said earlier, i graduated from one of the top university here in our country and it is also a national university, so technically i have been programmed to think radically against any form of facism, unequality, racism, genderlect and everything. This film blew me away. It rekindled my connection with Taylor. I was so proud of her. I always thought her as someone who is a rockstar but not an activist. Well there are some hardcore feminist lines in her song but as a fellow feminist and activist, this really like “Mom, please hug me. I wanna be with you again” moment.

I was so sure that i will see Taylor but pandemic happened. I was a holy fucking mess. I was able to get into folklore, but damn i was a ghost for like evermore, fearless, red, and sadly midnight (which i am catching up), honestly, midnight released me from my voidness. It pulled me again here in this world. Everyone’s telling that this a dark album, but i actually dont care. I can relate to this. It’s like telling me that hey, there is this patriarchal shit going on, anxieties, over thinking, tunnel vision shits that fell through, but you will still be here. Live the hell that you want, even with a blood stained dress, love the hell that you want even you dont want to marry, forgive yourself for being the anti-hero, forgive that kid. Forgive that kid, let this all loose and celebrate, live, you’re on your own, kid. Your gonna be fine.

Always.

PS please be here in Manila. I believe I’ve saved enough to get VVIP ticket. HAHAHAHA But srsly, i wanna thank you so much Ms Swift

@taylorswift

[iankarlo]

Homeeeee | 79th

Lazy me Friday.

My God!! There are so many tasks in my head but I really really feel lazy. All I wanted to do is to go home and play with my niece and my dog. 

I was all day staring at my PC and very bored. I wanted to go to office late or skip our sports activity. 

I got busy suddenly and I didn't manage to my tasks. 

Anyway, the day seems to be too short yet it feels long. 

After work, we went out for sports activity. We played futsal and it was very tiring I must say. Our championship game is such a good day. Its very a tight fight and we are all aiming to win. Although, I feel like I wanted to end it as soon as possible.

At the end of the game we still lost. Hahahaha. After our game too, my friends and I went to Harbor to change clothes and buy some drinks. We also ate in Ben's Kitchen. I really like their back ribs and the the creamy brocolli soup. We enjoyed our early dinner and after that, I met my brother in Uniqlo. 

We roam around the mall and we ate in Unli Shabu shabu. We enjoyed the meal and I really enjoyed it. 

We rented a taxi on the way home cause I am really tired. We got home around 10pm already. 

PS: I had a cutie talk with Ae. I wish I was with him tonight too. I missed a chance to be with him. Omggggg. 

Also, Taylor Swift already released all tracks of Midnight album. I can't wait to hear this new album. 

Love always, 

iankarlo