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doctorweebmd · 10 months

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i was procrastinating thinking about why its so hard to find a quality long sskk fanfic because in my previous experiences i feel like every fandom i've been in has had DOZENS if not HUNDREDS of Pulitzer-level fanfics so i decided to look at the amount of fics each of the fandoms i've written for has on ao3 to see if that explains the disparity

J/J, >15,000 S/D, >33,000 G/R, 108. Total. 2 of which are mine. K/MC, 169. 1 of which is mine. BK/DK, >43000 holy shit G/P, >9000 SSKK, >7000 (remove SKK, then only >4700 remain)

in conclusion i have been incredibly spoiled lol

#persona doesnt have as *many* as the other mega-fandom ones #but the world building and character work is honestly superior and long fics are common #bkdk is just. perfect. chefs kiss forever. their problem is their fandom is now TOO big so wading through the trash to find the gold is har #the other day i LITERALLY filtered by length. like. that is deranged search strategy. i've never done that before.#and there are VERY FEW fics >100k #i just wonder why #but i'm just. desperate. for a slowburn.#the issue with WRITING a slowburn is that. i have to write it.#which if you think about it is the ULTIMATE slowburn #anyway. super good use of my time lmao

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rox-of-iu · 1 year

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no thought only MQF in brain* (*even more than usual yeah.....)

ok lads listen up. i love allllll Mu Qingfang designs ok? all the interpretations are cool and valid and dear ok BUT. whenever I personally try to draw MQF without a 'stache he just looks to me like a first-year med student ok hjdfhkfd

but anyway. when i was scrolling around and being completely normal about MQF i saw a lot of ppl say stuff like 'this is my 'mqf is actually pretty' agenda' and its alwaysss about peeled mqf SO I HAVE A POINT TO PROVE OK. mqf with a moustache can be also a prettyboy ok?? i can prove it 😭😭

so here are my qingfangs where i turned up the babygirl vibes to absolute max as i could hsdfjkhdskfh 💜

#mu qingfang #svsss #listen.......actually nevermind hfdjkhfk #im having. thoughts #hsjkdhkf #maybe ill also make a text post some time later because i cannot shut up im having lack of fics issues hjdfhfk #so anyway 🥰 hjkfh silly litol weary doctor amirite-#also some may have noticed that i have finally used the correct peak seniority for MQF aha well #(through gritted teeth) i have finally come to terms with the fact he is 8th its fine its whatever i like 8 anyway #it fits anyway of course the doctor peak is underappreciated smh smh smh smh #also btw if youve ever been influenced by my mqf design i have to let you know each and every time that happens i gain 5 billion years hjfd #<333333333 #it makes me soooooooo giddy that ppl like him enough that i change their perception of him lmao jdfhkd #nothing gives me more power points than when the moustache propaganda claims another victim FR HAGHJKFD #so yeah 🥰🥰#wait also gotta mention that im not like bashing any other designs i want to make that super clear #i suck at tones i dont want this to get misinterpreted #all mqf good mqf 💕💕

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lab-gr0wn-lambs · 1 year

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I'm on a bit of a sona kick today

#Not sure if the colour palette fits in with mlp character design rules #I mean I colour picked a lot of the colours from the actual show in the second drawing #but idk if this is a colour combo they'd use yk #definitely wouldn't fit in as a background character either way that's for sure lmao #maybe a New Interesting Character Of The Week type guy idk #ANYWAY LOOK AT MY SHOW STYLE DRAWING. I THINK IT'S PRETTY GOOD. LOOKS LIKE I USED A BASE I THINK #IT'S NOT PERFECT MLP FACES ARE SUPER SPECIFIC AND PRECISE BUT IT'S PR CLOSE!#thankyou for your time #cate's scribbles #mlp #mlp fim #mlp fanart #ponysona #my little pony #my little pony fanart #style challenge #scribbles

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b4kuch1n · 6 months

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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nobodybetterlookatme · 1 month

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I've been working more events lately and I keep getting paired with one specific medic and some of my other coworkers told me that it's bc he's an asshole and everyone else hates working with him and apparently all his attempts at being a jerk to me have flown right over my head and I've therefore had no complaints so that's why my supervisor keeps partnering us up 😂😭

#not snz #the way i was devastated too i was like 'wym he hates me i thought we were vibing'#one of the other medics says that he 'begrudgingly tolerates' me and honestly I'll take that #i don't work much tho like my sup calls me in maybe once or twice a month #which is great for me and i can say no #but when i do show up apparently the other emts are super happy #i just think it's funny that I've really just been like :3 whilst this man is trying his damnedest to bully me apparently #straight up vibing in the golf cart and this guy is seething lmao #i think I'm just used to how we talk to each other at the fire station so I'm just unfazed #but imagine how bewildered this dude must be #spends the better part of the shift trying to be an asshole for no reason to his coworker #just for said coworker to not even remotely understand that he's trying to be mean #also i bring food every shift bc if nothing else i was taught to feed the medics I'm work with #also i like feeding my coworkers #maybe that's why he tolerates me lmao #anyway I'm having a good time at all my various works lmao #especially my fire station bc most of our crews are out on fires #so I've been going in more to staff the place bc basically nobody is there rn #and I'm one of the most senior people who's not out on a fire #so if they send me out that means I'm in charge of a crew and idk how i feel about that #so hopefully it doesn't come to that but it's fun vibing at the station with the guys #anyway I'll delete this later this is just my work adventures lmao

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monty-glasses-roxy · 8 months

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Oh hey actually I can't do some of the stuff till after my dad leaves for his night shift (ya know to make sure I don't hold him up and stuff) so I have bit of time so I have two thoughts to share right now!

I'm seeing an increase of 'Mangle in the Pizzaplex' art and stuff in the tags and it's really funny that my brain sometimes jumps at it like "QUICK!!! You NEED to make your Mangle stuff NOW otherwise everyone's gonna think you're copying or be so bored of seeing her no one will like it!" Like bro. Who cares? Who gives a shit? No one is ever going to make a Mangle like mine and I'm never gonna make a Mangle like anyone else's that's how it works. Literally who give a shit lmao calm down it's all fun to see

On another note, I've also been seeing a lot of dogs chewing through raw carrots so I've decided that Meteors Roxy also does that. Just sits there cronching her way through either a carrot or an apple or something, no thoughts head empty to unwind a bit. She deserves it

#meteors au #pop rox talks #meteors roxy #keeps her busy for a while lmao #also on the mangle thing #yeah I have a pizzaplex mangle and I love seeing other people's pizzaplex mangle's it's great #my brain just reminds me of my own Mangle whenever I see it and sometimes it tries to get me to make Mangle stuff by convincing me there's #- a time limit on it lmao #there isn't it's fiiiine #I'll try designing her soon cause she's very cool and it's not a style of thing I'm overly familiar with so it's a fun challenge!#I DO have her story all set up and ready to go though #I use her in Sewercontrol and she's in lesbians with Roxy's predecessor lmao #though I have to revise that cause I'm not. sure it's gonna come across in the healthiest way for them as it stands #but I love them as a pair so I just have to move the start of their feelings a bit for it to work again #which I hadn't even decided on in the first place so it's all good!#it's not relevant to Mangle's story anyway but her story IS massively reliant on the old Roxy's and a Foxy's #and it spills over into a Chica's who I've not finalised a story for yet #but anyway yeah I've been coming up with new stuff that has nothing to do with Mangle at all #so as you can see this was super relevant to everything lmao sfdsfds #I can and will talk about my Pizzaplex Mangle though if anyone wants me to because I love her #she's cool as shit #AND I love her nicknames for both Roxy's.#and they 100% stick so it's what everyone in Sewercontrol calls them now lmao #modern roxy gets used to it eventually lmao

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leijonzzz · 5 months

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I LOVE SUIKODEN SOOOO FUCKING MUCH

#im in gregminster at the end of the game rn and i love love loooovee being able to hear the upbeat town music just barely #beneath the melancholic wind sounds #suikoden ost you are everything to me no ost will ever top you #also i got all 108 stars babey B)#unfortunately got leon after doing the final army battle so i didnt get gremio revived which is APPARENTLY A THING THAT CAN HAPPEN???????#but i mean pahn died when he dueled my dad or whatever anyways so idk if id have been able to have gremio revived even if i had gotten leon #also the idea of him being revived kind of undersells the story tbh #maybe it works with how its executed idk i didnt get to see it happen lmao #also. i know i am RIGHTTT on top of the finale like i am so close to beating this game again but #i had to stop because of all the freaking guards jumping me every 2 seconds good lord #fight four guards take a step fight four more guards take another step fight five guards etcetc #ALSO #I ENDED UP GOING THRU THE NECLORD CASTLE LIKE. FOUR OR FIVE TIMES FOR REASONS #AND WHYYYYY COULDNT I USE AN ESCAPE TALISMAN THERE????#i beat the neclord months ago t-t #i dont mind the random encounters and stuff as a concept but when ur at the end game just tryna finish up some odds and ends.#they are so. frustrating #i think the frequency of them is the problem #esp since suikoden isnt a grindy game like it is so easy to level up characters super fast #which i love love loveeeee i love that ur actaully kind of able to play around with using a variety of ur. 100+ characters #but then its like. why so many random fights theyre just wasting my time #hoping suikoden 2 is a lil better in that regard but we shall see #reeeaally really hyped for suikoden 2!!#spoilers for a 30 yo old game lmao

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rosicheeks · 6 months

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#I’m getting hit with a massive wave of nostalgia now #I remember staying up ALL NIGHT working on changing my theme #I used to play in the html and add things #I looooved adding falling snow during the winter #I remember when having a music player at the top or somewhere on your blog was super popular #but ended up being incredibly annoying #cause half of the people put it on autoplay so when you entered someone’s blog you would get blown away by music #I remember having a whole different page for an about me #I wonder if I still have that up on mine #broooo I haven’t looked at my blog page on a laptop or anything in fucking AGES #I’m embarrassed to think what it might look like but whatever #most of us are using mobile anyway #or at least in my mind we are hahaha #so when I first started a blog I think I was in middle school??? like 12 or 13 hahahaha good times #my first url was SO CRINGE and I’m not going to say it cause I’m 😬😬😬😬😬 when I think about it #and then I slowly got more of a following and started doing smoke videos #I miss that community too :(#making smoke videos and tagging a bunch of stoner mutuals to ‘pass the bong/joint’#and then they would make a video and tag me #awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhh #I haven’t logged into that tumblr in AGES omg #but then I decided to post content and I didn’t want to post it on my original blog in case it got flagged or anything #so I made this blog #and here we are 🥰#but man I have SO many memories from my last blog #i made a friend in Belgium and we sent presents back and forth #I think only once but maybe twice #I still have the bracelet she sent me #can’t believe I’ve been on tumblr for most of my life lmao #but I’ve met SO many amazing people that I would have never have met

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autistic-shaiapouf · 9 months

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Okay okay so. Thinking.

I've mapped out how I want to pay off my credit cards, which means I'll only be getting new stuff pretty sporadically, which means I need to appreciate the zero cost things in my life, like:

- the 2.5 foot tall stack of unread books I have

- the violin I might finally actually pick up again

- the 500+ drawing prompts I've been hoarding

- the list of anime I still need to watch

- the 3000+ songs in my watch later playlist

- the stickers I've been neglecting to cut

- yarn??? I have a lot of yarn

- all the pink fabric leftover from moth cosplay

- the candles and incense I also already have

In short, time to actually use the stuff that I have 😭

#though. i do want one more candle. they're putting minty smells in the winter ones and it smells cold #i need a cold smelling candle that is warm and on fire i just need that very strange contrast #but yeah!! will spend a little testing out acrylic charms but for the most part #we're gonna hang out at home for a while and express gratitude or whatever lmao #okay but i think it will actually be nice to start getting through all those books skjfkdkd #and to watch the bigger name anime to actually see them lmao; saw a lot at the con i recognized but hadn't actually watched #and also my music!! all my music bc i am clinically insane about music; miku playlist advancement...#this isn't even touching on the games i have now ksjfkf if either of you are reading this 👀 i still wanna get yall something #and I'm planning the exact day i wanna do it 😤#but yeah I'm thinking it over and am like. oh boy time for self improvement skjdkfkf #also finances will get easier bc im not ubering all over and I'm not seeing docs for my stomach now that the ulcer has been resolved #i made back half of what i spent getting the car in only 4 months and that feels good to see #it's still gonna be some hard work but we're gonna make it; I'm also highballing one of the cards #the hotel put a damages hold on my card and my math factors that in; they said that money would go back to me in 5 or so #business days so that'll be a little less to be concerned with; I'll still try to pay what numbers i found though #do it faster and do it better and idk what the fuck I'll do with the cards bc. 30% apr...........#idk i could get groceries with them and then pay them off? take that credit score you'll just eat that shit up won't you..#surprisingly my credit score hasn't taken any super ugly hits from this and i aim to keep it that way lmao #anyways. that's a lot of words to say that i want to actually use my stuff lmao #shai speaks

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ko-eko-ev-go-ms · 7 months

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It continues to trip me up how much human brains are just weird organic computers

#thoughts #oni talks #oni vents #additionally wild that the easiest ways for me to explain brain stuff are generally in computer or video game terms despite the fact I’m #notoriously awful with computers (and to a lesser extent video games) although I won’t if my natural inclination would be different if I #didn’t have trauma related to computers/if maybe it’s the classic adhd interest based learning difference? unknown tbh #I still really wanna go to school to study people but academics is fucked as hell so making that work will be a personal hell for me #but also I have so many theories and data I can’t do anything super tangible with coz I’m not in an academic setting so even if i wanted to #talk about stuff and work on it no one would take me seriously w/o that academic background no matter how much effort I’d put in learning it #on my own for my entire life at this point it won’t matter if it’s not on some level acknowledged by an academic system I despise tbh #it’s one of those things that makes me miss my dad coz we used to commiserate together about these sorts of things tho he made it work far #better than I have been able to. i wish i could ask him science questions again.#anyway human brains are so fascinating but also I really wish I was better at explaining myself analysis of people I feel like I’m good #enough at this point to be like partway understood coz I’ve done so much practice on my own coz I tend to rehearse explanations ahead of tim #but its still often misunderstood or misconstrued & it’s understandable a lot of the time coz like most other people aren’t spending a ton #of their free time thinking about and researching how people work/analyzing those around them+themselves vs me whose been doing since like #I dont remember the exact time but I do remember being really young & making the conscious decision to study & analyze my family for example #so that I could be helpful & translate their words to each other better + ppl often don’t see things about themselves that others do #also forever thinking about the human brain/experience in relation to the sims & video game commands lmao #currently trying to explain save states in the human brain to ppl but no one knows wtf I’m talking about #& researching academic terms that are close to what I want doesn’t necessarily work if there’s no academic term for what I’m talking about #hence wanting to do the research myself coz sometimes it feels like there’s all this stuff that’s obvious to me but no one else?? from what #I’ve seen in recent studies they are only starting to scratch the surface of stuff I’ve already known sometimes? other stuff is older & it’s #VERY gratifying when it’s stuff I’ve known but not been listened to about & it actually gets the proper recognition #though getting ppl to actually listen/take what I say seriously is its own journey & I have to be careful myself bc I’m human so my own #understanding/data is constantly updating + I have storage issues so finding the data I have in my brain is its own struggle sometimes #every version of me is interested in people & I think that’s neat even if other people don’t understand that concept #sometimes I feel like an alien/robot whose sole task is just to study & support humanity & it’s very weird tbh

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wr0ngwarp · 1 year

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over the past 3 days i have been playing Super Monkey Ball: Banana Mania as beat and doing all the SMB1 challenge modes. beat im so sorry for rapturing you to monkey heaven. video games are scary

edit of first image i made after ACCIDENTALLY RESTARTING MASTER MODE several painful hours in under the cut (eyestrain warning):

As you can see i did not take it well

#jet set radio #jsr beat #super monkey ball #super monkey ball: banana mania #beat jsr #im like. totally incapable of getting banana mania beat's proportions right; ''chibi'' stuff is hard for me LOL #also like hope you guys like the ugly fucked up crusty looking brush ive been using lately #cuz it is FUN to use esp for quick art that isnt necessarily needed to look Good #so you are going to be seeing a lot of it.#anyway i told myself i probably wouldn't play the smb2 stages cuz i have played most of them In smb2 story mode #(i never got to see most of the later smb1 stages bc of not being good enough at the game)#but today i did casual/beginner and normal/advanced so. well. chances are im gonna do the other smb2 stages too #though honestly? i don't like smb2's stages as much as smb1's #cuz a lot of them are like... really big and rely heavily on timing gimmicks with moving parts and sometimes buttons #just not my thing as much yknow?#also while i feel awesome about how well i did on my second smb1 master mode attempt im sad i didnt finish the first one tbh #on my second run i did stamina master in TWO TRIES WHAT THE FUCK #but... i kinda really was curious how many times i died to that stage on my first run ..........#also i dont remember the exact number bc i didnt save a screenshot but in case youre curious #i died nearly 1000 fucking times on expert mode LMAO #They Don't Lie. That Exam-C Really Is Difficult.#...also. yeah. i did play banana mania specifically just because beat's in it and im in a jsr hypfix. dont judge me

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mossyflowers · 1 year

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Ultrakill has me in a deathgrip rn so I'll ramble abt it a bit here. Not sure if i'm gonna end up posting art or not tho because. Mechs hard to draw :(

But yeah GOD it's such a good game?? Rlly fun though it can get tricky if you don't have good reflexes, and some of the bosses. Oh man some of the bosses. Looking directly at Gabriel rn goddamn

#i might ramble more depending on how I feel. we'll see #BUT YEAH AUGH #also v2 is so silly?? i love it sm #favorite boss #Gabriel is ALSO super fun but i've. only managed to beat him once so far.#fun fact! it took me almost an hour and 102 tries to beat him #shout out to my friends who were in call at the time to see me lose my shit #uuuh aside from that minos was okay? good parry practice and I understand why the blackhole was there #it did get a lil irritating after a bit tho #I also rlly enjoy the enemy gauntlets in the game- they get stressful but GOD when you demolish a room. it's so good #anyways this game is going to rewire my brain irreversibly #did I mention how GOOD the movement mechanics are?#game good #moss games #i think that was my gaming tag? been a while since i've used it lmao

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000png · 1 year

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will zero finally go back to school... stay tuned and find out

#not to keep using this blog as a diary but ANYWAYS #so got confirmation i'm basically in the middle exit phase so my last day will probably be in mid-december #which is actually really good timing all things considered #so i can either plan to get a new job at the beginning of the new year OR think about going back to school #starting during spring is kind of awkward so unless I find a really good situation i'd probably go for fall of 2024 #tuition is obviously something i have to think hard about since i'm also balancing a mortgage... but the benefit of me doing nothing but #work my ass off for the last 4 years is that i do have the money saved. like unless i go to a super prestigious school i can most likely #afford it on my own. ofc the question is am i willing to spend it all for a degree that might not even be of any benefit to me. who knows #i also don't even know what i'd go back for. it wouldn't be pure CS but probably something adjacent or bio-related #another reason I want to go back to school is honestly for social reasons. networking and finding new friends #i'm not the most outgoing person but in an academic environment i was infinitely better at socializing than I am now lmao #and sharing classes with folks will definitely help. i'd definitely pick up TAing again as well if possible #i also talked with my manager a bit about this and he was also like yeah at your age and situation now is actually a really good time #anyways. we shall see #0.txt

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inkykeiji · 1 year

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*cute lil grabby hands* samu samu samu gimme gimme gimme!!!