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scalpelsister · 1 year

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anyways i need to be humanely euthanized <3

#IM UNWELL UNWELL #i do not remember ever feeling this AMPED about fictional media or a character before like #im sure i have bc i dont remember shit ever but like #goddddd #i cant even put into words how insanely amped i am i literally cant even sit down to eat like #today all of my meals have been eaten pacing my kitchen talking inanely to my dog fkjskfjhkfjs #like i am absolutely manic in a way i usually dont get #and its LONG LASTING like usually thats a very short lived affair for me but like #this is day THREE of it #usually im only like this for like. hours tops #larian what did u lace this game with fr fr fkjdhkgsjhfkj #anyways time to continue to be insane <3 #suicide tw #just in casies haha #my post

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bitchthefuck1 · 3 months

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That one chef saying that the worst thing about a bad boss is how they unlock that behavior in you and seeing Carmy mirror the attitude of the chef that terrorized him and gave him panic attacks and then ending the season with Syd having a panic attack because of the stress of working with Carmy...diabolical.

#idk if it's a little too on the nose or not (i literally just finished the season so i haven't had time to sit with it) but that whole #element is so interesting (and so devastating). and the ways that mirrors all of Nat's worries about continuing the dysfunction of her #family now that she has a kid...#i also think its a good portrayal of how not addressing your trauma and leaving things to fester can end up hurting other people way more #than it hurts you. like even if Carmy is okay with choosing to not have a life or to be close with anyone (which. debatable) he's #not the only one whose life gets fucked by that. the mess just radiates out until it hits everyone around him and he ends up creating #the same circumstances that caused his dysfunction in the first place.#even if evil joel mchale chef is right (a+ casting btw very punchable face) and carmy needs to ruin his life to be a good chef #--which is a big if--he's actively making the people around him less able to do their jobs. which then makes the people around them #less able. and so on. so in the end it's still net negative. and like. chef terry proves that he's actually completely wrong #the environment in her kitchen is the exact opposite and everyone is operating at an insane level anyway no abuse necessary #this season was definitely the weakest of the 3 but i rly wanna see where they go next. and they better drop the next bit soon bc that was #in no way complete #the bear #the bear season 3 #carmy berzatto #sydney adamu #the bear spoilers

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lollytea · 11 months

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Huntlow situationship gives me such intense brain termites you don't get it

#no i dont think its because Hunter needs time to heal first #i think if it was up to Hunter they would plunge into a committed romantic relationship immediately after the events of the finale #he would propose to her in like. 3 months probably #i know that sounds intense but i think this is what ''i literally died and came back to life'' mania does to a guy #he is so carpe diem minded hes become a little insane. he wants everything #no more waiting around. no more hesitating. he cant afford to do that anymore #would it have been the wise decision to enter a romantic relationship immediately #who's to say. but Hunter would have done it without thinking about it #its Willow that makes the decision to slow down and wait a while before they make any committments theyre not ready for #i dont think she's entirely learned her lesson about letting herself be emotionally reliant every once in a while #shes made progress but the events of ftf were such heat of the moment responses #once things are semi-stable she still needs to adapt to acknowledging that her feelings for Hunter are like. serious. and scarily intense #so like. yea Willow is slamming her pedals on the breaks for both their sakes. shes thinking about how this would effect Hunter too #but also. she scawwed.#when Willow tells him she wants to talk and she's like ''i think we should just be friends'' oh the face he makes is DEVASTATED #he didnt expect it was going in this direction at all. but like. once Willow explains how this is the most reasonable decision for now #he DOES agree. he understands what shes saying and he agrees that it's the best decision to take a breather before they jump into a romance #anyway even when theyre not officially dating the flirting continues insistently. they are very obsessed with each other and cant stop #Willow keeps trying to insist to herself that its just messing around. nothing serious. they find each other hot. its fine to kiss a little #but Hunter makes it very hard when he looks at her with big brown labrador eyes. looks at her like shes the entire world #i think if it was up to Willow they would have been trapped in that uncertain limbo forever. shes too scared to take the plunge #even if she wants to. she badly wants to #but Hunter just wont let that happen. every so often he says ''im ready whenever you are''#he makes his intentions very known. he is not the shy boy from Camila's house anymore #Willow cant just playfully flirt with him without worrying that hes gonna reciprocate. he talks now. he expresses himself #shes a little afraid of that. but she adores it too. he makes her feel safe but also he wont let her stay in this comfort zone #hes giving her the push she needs to pursue this relationship. gives her to push to feel like she can go after what she wants #because god knows HE knows what he wants #they make me so insane

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hella1975 · 3 months

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i cannot stand the aot fandom this is not a new take at all they are universally intolerable but oh my dayssss u are FORBIDDEN from making ANY take about the show it's actually insane to watch. 'aot is perfect' no show is perfect. 'tell me you didnt get the show 😂🫵' people have different opinions/interpretations about things. 'eren is a good guy they could never make me hate him' i think there's actually 4 seasons and two movies explicitely using him as a tool to show that no one is 'good' or 'evil' they are only trying to survive. hello. the fandom r all so far up aot's ass that they actually discredit its writing in the process and it would be laughable if it wasn't so frustrating

#bc aot IS insanely well written but no one talks about it???#like all they do is SAY how well written it is but no one is brave enough to give examples or meta bc SOMEONE will jump on it #declaring they've misinterpreted the Single Correct Way of watching the show and are dumb and a hater for saying such a thing #i remember posting about my initial aot watch on here and i did NOT like eren i thought he was whiney and annoying (he is <3)#and i thought aot was overhyped but ive since finished it at long last and omg. it is so fucking good #one of those shows that you need to watch ALL of it to truly get what's going on #and the conclusion of eren's character i am genuinely so obsessed with ill probs make a separate post just about him #bc i have really 180'd on eren and i can see now he IS well written. but not for any reason i can see anyone else talking about???#people are just banging on about he was right and justified and a saviour and tragic etc etc and while those things are important #and should be considered that also like. was not the point imo #the irony and tragedy of eren jaeger was that after all the 'i am special simply bc i was born into this world'#concluded with the revelation that actually he was not special. the rumbling happened because a normal boy got a hold of a great power #and he mishandled it. he was immature. he acted his age. he was just some teenage boy and he responded in kind #there was selfishness and silly whims and a quick temper. he was never this godlike figure he gets painted as #and i ADORE THAT TAKE. THAT IS SUCH AN ICE COLD CONCLUSION. EREN WAS NEVER SPECIAL - THAT'S THE POINT #and like countless times through history one selfish person with their hands on an insane amount of power and a conviction #that they are doing the right thing goes on to lead to a continuation of the cycle of war #like the end credits with the tree is genuinely HAUNTING. it never ended. eren KNEW the rumbling would be unnsuccessful #and would leave enough of their enemies alive that they'd eventually retaliate HE KNEW THAT and did it anyway #why? bc he just /wanted/ it. desperately and immaturely. and so the war turned over for another generation and another and #LIKE THAT IS SUCH A POIGNANT HAUNTING TAKE. I FR STARED AT THE BLACK SCREEN ONCE I FINISHED IT FOR 5 MINS IN HORRIFIED SILENCE #yes it's not his sole motivation but ultimately the crux of his character boils down to the fact he's just some kid #to the point even when he's explaining it to armin at the very end they SHOW HIM AS A KID. THAT IS THE REAL EREN #THAT ANGRY SCRAPPY CHILD WHO THOUGHT HE COULD BEAT THE WORLD INTO SUBMISSION #NOT A HERO NOT A GOD NOT A DEVIL - JUST A KID GIVEN A POWER HE NEVER SHOULD HAVE GOT HIS HANDS ON #but if u say all that some chucklefuck tells u to kys and that u just Didnt Get The Masterpiece Of Attack On Titan #but do u know what? maybe people disagree w me! maybe this is just my interpretation! guess who's NOT gonna have a hissy fit about it?#fandom is about DISCUSSION and i have never seen a fandom as fucking allergic to it than the aot fandom #like omdddddddddd have a day off man isayama isnt gonna suck you off #aot

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leezuhh · 5 months

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sunshine court no context

#i'm sorry... i couldnt stop thinking of this meme while reading the beginning #lemme find the line that really set it in for me... ok it was 'have fun whoring your way to the top of another line-up you useless bitch'#the raven hate mail game was insane #anyways yea i just spent like 3 hours straight reading tsc and yes i just finished it #the sunshine court #the sunshine court spoilers #all for the game #nora sakavic #also neil continuing the time-honored tradition of murdering rapists at the end of the book was iconic. king #i need to reread the og trilogy sighhhh the second book is a lil hard for me to get thru though #but i liked this one a ton. all the characters felt very real #i liked the choice to make the trojans not all sunshine and rainbows but have to make an effort to keep up that appearance #and also oml these bitches are worried about jean ruining their reputation when they have LUCAS on the lineup ? yall have bigger problems..#thats a joke i just think lucas is a bitch #i was also surprised by jean ending up pan vs jeremy just gay because the fandom characterization has always been the opposite #but yknow what i like it a lot #tempted to put a whole book review right in these tags but i won't #aftg //#tsc spoilers #tsc

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cosmobrain00 · 4 months

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wanna talk about your ocs some moreee? (plsplsplsplsplsplspls)

DO I. vibrating at incredibly high frequencies rn what better place to start than once again w the yarrow siblings bc WOW. THEY DRIVE ME NUTS!! like. for example ive been thinking of bella again more recently n feel incredibly sick ovr it all, ik I briefly mentioned sm stuff abt her before BUT? shes actually this eldest sister of all time guys n let me explain:

where to even begin. she was the first of her parent's eventual "failures", while being graced w gen love n kindness at first from them they quickly grew "tired" of her n she could never understand why. one day they were indulging her whims, pinching her cheeks n letting her come everywhere w them, n the next she was tugging at her mother's skirt hem n her fathers hand asking to be picked up n they only tiredly looked at her this time n told her to "stop being fussy" n that was that. when she heard they were having another kid it felt like she was being "replaced" n her chest hurt so bad and her eyes welled up n she ended up running to her room n slamming the door n crying into her pillow bc she just wanted her parents back n knew that now she'd really never get to have them again. when her baby brother was finally born tho, her mother made her hold him n at first bella only frowned sullenly down at him bc really- this is what they were replacing her with? but something inexplicable softened inside of her against her will when he softly smacked his little fist against her chest n ended up snuggling closer to her, n she ended up walking around the house simply carrying him for a while until he fell asleep so her mom could rest. when they eventually realized there was something wrong w myer- that being his near inability to see pretty much anything- suddenly he wasnt their cute kid anymore he was something that was "too much work" bc of this, n so what do they do? they pawn him off on bella of course, n u can guess how well that goes over. not only have they replaced her but now they've turned her into myers sole caretaker pretty much bc theyre gone so much of the time (AT AGE 8 MIND YOU.) once, bella shut the door in myers face n told him to go away, only to open it hours later n see him sitting right outside fiddling w the carpet in the dark. she felt so guilty tht she started crying n hugged him close n said she was sorry over n over. like she really felt like he “took” her parents love at first, but now? it feels like he's simply in the same boat as her n she has no choice but to step up for him bc if not her then who else. tht doesnt mean she still didnt struggle w him, far from it in fact, but while she has these mixed emotions, she also knows that despite myer not being able to see her much, whenever he hears her voice its enough to bring him running from the opposite end of the house to her n that means something to her. AND I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN TO KEITH N LORELEI YET THE FUCK OF IT ALLLLL. when bella once AGAIN hears tht her mom is having another kid, TWINS this time she nearly loses it because she simply doesnt understand why both her n myer arent good enough n why theyve been discarded. when keith n lorelei arrive ofc its only a matter of time bf theyre all but pushed onto bella to take care of, n shes so so tired at this point but she simply steels herself n accepts bc she wont allow them to be abandoned. keith is a sullen little brat who's too angry so much of the time but she understands bc shes like that too deep down still. lorelei nearly never sleeps n her n keith cause so much trouble tgt but shes also the one to hug bellas leg n tell her she loves her no matter if they just fought or not. n bella may feel bitter but she'll still read them the books she found at the dump at night n listen to them all n let them pull on her apron n whine when shes trying to make things n like. they annoy her so much she wishes her parents never had them she doesnt know how to live without them now she'd do anything to protect her broken little family she wouldnt know what to do if she lost any of them, n all of these feelings just explode when the draft comes n her parents abandon them all n now its officially her turn to be the head of their fam. do not even get me started on bella being the one to go to the war in place of myer either bc I will not stop SOMEBODY SEDATE MEEEEE

#LIKE IM ACTUALLY GONNA GO INSANE DO U GUYS EVEN KNOWWWW #juno ur a saint for listening to all this. ik I alrdy told u n the discord abt the yarrow fam to an extent but as u can see.#there have been sm MAJOR major developments. still apologies if this seemed rehashed but shes now THE chara of all time to me can u c it #LIKE SHE'D REALLY DO ANYTHING FOR THEM SHE REALLY WOULD. THERES SO MUCH FUCKED UP SHIT SHE GOES THRU #JUST FOR THEM. SHE OFFERS HERSELF UP AS THE SACRIFICE FOR THEM #SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO BE ANYTHING BUT THEIR PROTECTOR NOW. SCREAMM #anyways. anyone want me to continu- [GUNSHOT]#yarrow siblings #cosmobrain asks #juno<3

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averlym · 1 year

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a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success

so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"

#these are all very good reminders. especially during exam season (i am suffering. but at least i'm working on art coursework so it's #suffering i love.) guys i have maybe a bit too many thoughts on ambrose. sculpture. and ceramics. and studio. in my art student 3d era rn #tmr it's black and white 2d so it's vincent vibes instead... anyways. in my breaks i ended up brainstorming more doodles again so..#anywaysndhfnfjfhf sorry to detract! but like these two quotes are holding my sanity intact i think.#at this point even without listening to the live soundtrack it sounds in my head so. lasting impressions i guess. every time i get anxious #' you'll never get better if you fucking die'' sounds in my head and i go ''ah yes there's a whole life outside''#continuing this ramble you ever think how vincent went from you'll never get better if you fucking die to '' first i chose my friend #ambrose for my debut :DD'' realll quick. or also how this principle worked for when he was talking to ambrose about it and then. for himself #he didn't want to get better. he wanted quincy to get better and so '' you'll never get better if you die'' held through to the end #it just wasn't a mentality that saved him... god that screws me up. so many thoughts.#anyways anon!!!! thank you for sending this :3 made my day <33 very vibes #going to put the soundtrack on and power through studio again.. :3 adamandi asks are welcomed ngl teehee #ask me stuff???#on another note sometimes it's so surreal that actors are real people... i guess the magic of theatre is that it makes the characters come #to life.. like i believe actors are real. and deserve to be treated like people. for the record. but also when consuming media and it's the #suspension of disbelief? these are Real Characters i can't believe that someone who isn't them is making these sounds and doing these things #it's so insane. incredible. idk i just have very high admiration for the cast and idk how i got here even... akshdjdhdf #<blinks> they did such a good job akdhdnfhfbgfhff ok bye #first time i swear in the actual post on this blog and not in the tags... of course

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rotisseries · 1 year

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I JUST FINISHED REREADING LEGENDBORN AND STARTED BLOODMARKED LAST NIGHT AND COME ON HERE AND YOU'RE ALSO READING IT 😨😨 WE SYNCED

CLOWN TO CLOWN COMMUNICATION. OUR UNBREAKABLE BOND

#come talk to me when you finish bloodmarked I reread legendborn last night and got to the gala bit #that I'd completely forgotten about where bree says something about how her nick and sel are all bonded to each other #and like. combined that with bloodmarked as a whole but especially chapters 51 and 58 #I am absolutely fucking certain I'll die on the polyamory hill like THEY ARE ALL FUCKING BONDED ALL 3 OF THEM IT'S CONSTANTLY REITIRATED #NO WAY SHE PICKS JUST ONE IT WOULDN'T BE RIGHT #WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT THE POLY CODING. WHAT THE HELL.#every time I'm in the bathroom I start looking into the nearest mirror and start talking to myself crazily #about how actually fucking insane it is like I'm losing my mind tracy deonn what are you on can I take a hit #so yeah keep me posted on your reading progress lol #speaking of rereading legendborn though I'd forgotten just how mean nick and sel are to each other in the first book #and it was like. actually crazy to see that continue pretty much right up until the end bc they don't really get a chance for reconciliatio #and then to compare that with having also just recently finished bloodmarked #which is literally like. a complete fucking 180 #idk if nick's month being kidnapped by his dad just gave him a lot of time to reflect or something #but he never has a genuinely bad thing to say about sel. like right from the start and his first appearances in bloodmarked #similarly for sel lmao #contrasted with the. everything in legendborn. like it's actually fucking crazy #what spending a month away from your magically bonded bro does to a mf #anyway. in regards to us always reading the same shit have you been keeping up with chloe gong's books?#bc I read foul lady fortune and last violent call earlier this week as well #ask #lyoshaland #hi lyosha!

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inkykeiji · 2 years

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Seriously Clari if you open those letter comms I’d get multiple if you let me. I love your work and would be more than happy to support you!

seriously my heart is bursting with love!!!!! you are genuinely such a sweet and beautiful soul and i am SO lucky to have you here with me, reading my work, giving your feedback, and offering support!!! i don’t have words to tell you how much that means to me <3

HEHEHE you’d be able to commission as many as you’d like! at the start i’ll be opening slots as i work out all of the kinks, but somewhere down the road it would be cool to have them open all the time, or to have them open for a week every month and however many i get, i get. the cool thing is, once you commission one letter i start a file for you, containing all of the info from the form you filled out + the letter your chosen character sent. if you ever decide to commission a second (or third or fourth etc) letter from the same character, there’s a good chance he will remember what you spoke about before, and reference it.

more info under the cut because now i’m getting excited and rambling hehehe <3

so, for example, one of the potential prompts you can choose from if you don’t have your own is like, a big life event. you’ve graduated college/uni, you got a new job, it’s your birthday, you just got a new kitty and you’re super excited about it, etc etc etc whatever the case may be and you want to tell him about it & get his response. if you then commission a second letter from the same character, he’s most likely going to reference the content of your previous letter (ie. how’s that new job going? i hope your boss isn’t being a fucking asshole ; or i hope [pet name] is doing well and has stopped trying to climb your drapes ; etc. these are super basic examples but you get the picture).

another one of the prompts is a comfort/support letter; maybe there’s something going on in your life that you’re really struggling with right now, and some words from your comfort character will brighten up your day or make you feel better, or you want his advice because you know it’ll make you laugh—again, whatever the case may be. if you commission an additional letter after choosing this prompt, you can bet your ass he’s going to follow up on what you said before. he’s going to check in on you and send you love (platonic or romantic, you decide in the questionnaire), etc.

at the moment, including the ‘other’ (aka your own prompt) option, i have nine potential scenarios you can choose from. each scenario has its own set of questions; some will obviously be mandatory to answer but others will be optional—you tell me only as much as you feel comfortable telling me (or him lmao) and he’ll respond to the information you’ve given him.

in the future, i think it would be really really really cool to offer a correspondence package—basically three to five letters from him over the span of several months that you get to actually respond to. basically, you’d choose that package and fill out the initial form, and the first letter you’d receive would have a return address on it (my PO box lol). you respond to the first letter with your own, send it, and then you go from there. but that’s waaaay in the future, if it happens!

anyway, sorry i know i’m rambling, i’m just really excited about this idea and i’ve been working on this for over a year now so i’m bursting to talk about it and hear back from everyone! i’m so, so happy to hear that you’re interested!! the plan is to open the first batch of slots around the end of february! i will keep you updated!!! <33 thank you again for your interest & feedback! (´∀｀)♡

#i wish i could get the open in time for valentine’s day so i could offer a limited edition valentines themed letter but alas #it isn’t feasible for me :(#next year tho!!!!#also halloween and christmas themed letters!!!!#so so so much i could do with this i’m insanely excited about it #i also plan to continue this after i publish novels & offer them from my OCs as well #BUT ANYWAY i’ll hush now hehe #thank you!!! i hope you’re having a wonderful day so far my friend <3 #stay safe as always and drink ur water!! i’ll drink some right now too #much love your way!!#staple chan #clari gets mail

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thelonelynindroid · 1 year

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Brad Jo Dana Evil Gang.........I love it

#i want to see them fuck shit up #I WANT TO SEE DESTRUCTION AND TORMENT ❗#s4 when i am going to love every second #anyways yes. after an absolute ROLLERCOASTER of a month I have finished mythic quest</3 #best show eva every1 is insane and i love that for them<3333 #ian and poppy r everything to me. they really just fight and make up and repeat they need to go see the toxic codependent coworkers #equivalent of a couples therapist #they are both both the host and parasite please and thank you. it's symbiotic #brad back in his homie era we love to see it. i love when he's evil #someone said i hope they don't ever reform him i wamt him dripping in sin or something like that idk who but YOU'RE SO RIGHTTRUEAND REAL #absolutely here for the dana corruption arc. i love rachel/dana as a pairing but oh how fun this is gonna be #brad and jo continue to be my faves 2 the end. they are both softies in several layers of insane person armour and i can NOT ask for #more than that in a character #they were written for me<333 #mq #mythic quest #evil gang 😈#oh and yes btw I am absolutely going 2 rewatch right away 😭#I just know it'll be so different second time round bc i know and love all the characters now #also watching s1 from a post breaking brad perspective will be..... something #i just wanna see everlight again okay. i have not been the same since that day and i don't think i ever will be

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everymlmhybrid · 1 year

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Approaching engaging in my hyperfixation while stoned for the first time like it's an experiment where I'm both the scientist and the rat.

#.txt #''they need to stop adapting books into movies'' they need to CONTINUE to do so bc i can't read while high <3 #anyways. time to see if this helps me focus or makes me go even more insane. or what.#specifically THIS hyperfixation. other stuff I'm used to. I've probably watched more hannibal lightly toasted than sober at this point bc my #second rewatch was always after work as the edible slowly kicked in

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clematys · 1 year

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i love experiencing kingdom hearts i feel like im about to pass out

#snark.exe #<3 #containment breach btw #ive been going insane about it the past month ive been watching frankenbugs vods of it and just got to the start of dream drop distance #i watched the secret end 2 of recoded like 20 times and then finally continue to dream drop distance and am greeted with more braig #and i feel like im on a roller coaster #anyways come closer im so so normal and will not bite you #sorry i just have to stop directly tormenting my besties with my insanity all of the world gets this

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gaystardykeco · 1 year

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need to sleep but the Dread is consuming me

#i just feel like smth bad is going to happen tonight. but also i feel like this p often on random nights where nothing bad happens so.#it could be bc i had caffeine this morning and its still fucking with my. brain #or more likely its bc im back on the overnight call list for work starting tonight and continuing the rest of the time i have this job #being able to not be on it while i was on vacation was so nice like i could actually sleep #still couldnt sleep through the night but at least when i did wake up it didnt take me an hour to fall back to sleep #generally when i feel this much dread on a night i can get work calls its bc theres going to be a call sometime between 3 and 6am that nigh #hopefully there wont be but ik this dread and anxietys gonna fuck up my sleep regardless so whatever #i dont really want to move to nyc but if i get this job offer i think i just need to bc this job is fucking me up so bad #if it wasnt for this fucking on call thing itd be tolerable but i just can't handle the on call thing #the fear that ill get a call and not know how to solve the problem and have to call my boss or coworker to help is killing me #ik its stupid but i have really bad anxiety around waking ppl up and asking ppl for help and calling ppl so #perfect combination to make me Suffer ig #and i did try talking to my boss about it and told him it was the reason i was unhappy on the team #and he essentially said i just need to be better at my job so we get less calls and that being on call is essential and unavoidable #if i dont get the nyc job i might need to just quit anyway which i know is pathetic but i just cant handle this on top of the other things #like i cant have no friends and a useless therapist and meds that dont work and no sense of self and a million other things #and then on top of that a job that makes it so i cant even sleep which is the one thing ive always been okay at and not had problems with #i know its so silly and i know i need to be grateful this job pays me well and shut up #i just am so miserable and i need to be able to sleep like i need that one thing please #sorry for being ridiculous and insane i know its stupid to be this upset over this #sorry dkdkjd sorry about all this i genuinely cant believe anyone still follows me when i post this bullshit #hopefully its fairly easy to ignore and everyones just not expanding the tags so im just screaming into the void #cant tell if i really want no one to see this or if im putting it all here all the time so i can pretend someone is reading it and cares #idk im just so tired and so sad and so scared all the fucking time and i think i just dont want to always be alone in it idk #and i know my problems arent real or serious or bad but unfortunately im pathetic and spoiled and theyre destroying me anyway

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astrxealis · 1 year

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btw this is insane but wow. i did shadowbringers at fucking 14 years old. no wonder it messed me up (in a good way) so badly.

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#THAT'S HONESTLY INCREDIBLY INSANE TO ME ..... WOW..........#and then in the same year i improved from sprout who doesn't know shit. to i cleared e12s through my own skill.#i still sucked then though as expected but HEY i did savage as three different roles and cleared the whole tier as a shit mch!#and then i've come so far then... awh man #my development in xiv. in game and out of game in relation to ffxiv. really means a lot to me #bcs in a way it's also a symbol of my growth overall esp as a kid who had to experience my early teenage years in the pandemic...#+ with anxiety and depression issues and not having any sort of... thing to hold on hope for. no support friends.#but ffxiv (in a healthy way dw!) helped me gain so much more. and agagdhdbsksj it just means a lot to me sorry #ANYWAY i'm a mentor now and i love helping people out and i'm still shy but i've made really dear friends and experiences #i've cleared an ultimate... i cleared asphodelos... the only reason why i havent done more is bcs of my shit time management #sorry. i'm just really proud of myself actually!#ffxiv gave me a huge reason to continue going on bcs i wanted to experience more of the game that i hold close to my heart #and since around 3 years. i'm here still. that's amazing honestly. amazing

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the-melancholic-human · 30 days

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The infamous, long awaited, not once, but twice deleted… simon riley x single mom reader fic is finally here:

Simon riley can’t cook for the life of him. Every time he’s back home from deployment, he’ll just survive on instant noodles and canned beer for maybe a week and then he goes back to base and gladly munches on the prepackaged food they throw at him.

Truth is, it has always been like this, and he’s never seen anything wrong with it.

Until price told him that the next op will be in 3 months and this grown ass man shivered just thinking about eating shitty frozen food for 90 days straight.

He begged price, said he’d stay and clean up the base for free, anything! He’d do anything to stay! And price told him to ‘piss off for 12 weeks before he went insane’

Cut to simon, standing in the frozen goods isle, letting out a groan as he rubbed the bridge of his crooked nose. And he angrily stomped towards the frozen bags on the shelves and dropped everything in sight into his cart, trying so hard not to puke at the mere thought of eating all of that junk. The thing is, he was so mad at that moment that if some poor soul approached him asking where the milk was, they’d get a box of frozen turkey legs shoved down their throat.

And you know, someone did approach him. And no, they got to live.

It was a tiny toddler, maybe around 5 or 6, wearing a purple tutu skirt, and she was holding a dino plushie to her chest, looking straight up at simon.

Picture this, a grown 6’2 man, muscular with tats and everything, looking down at a 5 year old girl with messy hair and yellow rain boots. They both looked so serious, none of them broke the eye contact, staring at each other with puzzled expressions.

Simon was about to continue shopping when he saw a woman running towards them, she dropped down to the ground, distressed and scared, tightly hugging the toddler. She whispered to the kid ‘why did you leave me, never do that to me ever again, mom was so scared’

And you know, he could’ve just walked away at that point. Of course, It was a heartwarming scene to behold, a mother finding their lost child, but god, simon couldn’t stop staring at the woman kneeling on the dirty in front of him, the way her eyes were glossy with tears, her cheeks slightly red from the tear stains and she was beautiful. Beautiful.

It had been years, if not decades, since the last that simon thought a human being was beautiful. He wasn’t used to the butterflies that were flying in his stomach, and he wasn’t sure how to react. So he sat down, next to her.

“Hey… t’s okay, don’t worry luv, you found her, alright?”

“I- she was holding my hand one second… and the next i couldn’t find her! I got so… scared, and she wasn’t anywhere, and i thought- i thought”

Simon wasn’t one for holding hands.

But he held her hand. He put his calloused pale hand over hers, and he couldn’t help but to let out a shaky sigh at the feeling. He was dizzy, like he had been drinking bottles of cheap booze, but he didn’t feel sick like the way the cheap booze made him feel, he felt warm.

And with that, the woman looked up at him,

“Thank you? For, for-“

“I didn’ find her luv, you did, but y’welcome anyway”

He laughed out, trying to act like there weren’t fireworks exploding in his head just by looking at her eyes.

But she chuckled, she chuckled at him!

“Sorry i couldn’t help but notice… is that like 20-ish pizzas you’ve got?”

And she pointed at his cart, which had a huge pile of frozen pizzas stacked on top of each other. She giggled.

He cursed under his breath,

“Yea, i- long story, i… can’t cook?”

“Can’t cook? Cook food?”

He put his hand on his neck, rubbing the aching muscle, as he let out another sigh shaking his head.

“That… can’t be good for you, blood pressure is the silent killer after all”

“I know, i know, i-“

“I could… teach you how to cook?”

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Nerdgasmic Rhapsody

pairings: loser!dom!ellie x popular!sub!reader

cw: flufff!! ellie's an absolute cutie pie. cursing (obv), oral! (r receiving), tribbing (maybe?), nipple play, after caree!!, pet names: sweetheart, baby, princess, that's all i think!

wc: 511

a/n: (intentional lowercase!!!) first ever ficcc omg🥹 i have never ever in my life written a fanfic before so pleaseee don't judge and also feel free to point out some mistakes and stuff!! I take criticisms as i'm sure it'll help me a lot throughout my writing journey :))) can't promise I'll post consistently considering I'm insanely dumped with school works but I'll definitely find time to do so. anyways i hope u guys enjoy this one!! Feel free to hit me w some ideaaasss :3

after you had made it official with the biggest dork on campus—ellie—people would randomly come up to you in the hallways and tease you, not believing how sweet she actually is. after all of your previous relationships, ellie is the only one who genuinely cared for you. despite her shy and nerdy demeanor, she's really fun to hang out with. she'd continuously yap about space, the comic books she's read—savage starlight—and drop all of its lore to you. the whole fucking lore. although you hardly cared. she was too adorable. most of the time, you would find yourself just looking at her sparkling green eyes, topped by her matte, black glasses, her hand gestures, and the soft smile plastered on her lips while she speaks. she's even more beautiful up close. how could others not see that? whilst ellie can be a total cutie pie, you cant deny how fucking insane she can be in bed.

when eating you out, she'd flick her tongue out relentlessly on your leaking hole. firmly gripping on to your thighs, she already knows your next motive. "nuh-uh, sweetheart. keep them open for me." she shoots you a knowing glare before diving back into your drenched core, keeping eye contact all the while. her gaze roamed over your appearance, hair disheveled, eyes rolled back, and completely fucked out. "s-sorry, baby–fuck." you moaned as you clutched onto her dino-printed sheets. so fucking cute. after you'd climaxed for the 3rd time, she'd climb on top of you and slip her tongue down your throat, allowing you to taste yourself as she grinded her own throbbing cunt against yours. your soaking wet pussies rubbing, and creating the most delicious rhythm together. she absolutely loved your boobs. she adored how it just bounces up and down as she rolled her hips above you. she took your nipple in between her thumb and her index finger and pinched them, making you flinch at the feeling. her glasses were all fogged up and crooked, but she couldn't care less. she was too engrossed on drawing out more of those angelic sounds that slips past your lips as she pleases you. "doing s–so good f'me, princess... fuck–so hot." when you had both finally reached your peak, she'd lean down and gently clean up all your juices from between your thighs with her tongue.

she gives absolutely the best aftercare imaginable. the routine would start with cleaning you up with a wet towel, swiping it's soft material across your face, your breasts, your legs, your inner thighs—she had always taken care of you in the most tender and loving way. she loved hearing your soft, exhausted sighs of relief, as you watch her with a smile on your face all while savoring the chocolate she so graciously offered you. after ellie finishes cleaning you up, she would settle beside you, enveloping you in her arms as she wrapped them around your waist. her lips showering your neck with gentle kisses as she whispered heartfelt words of affection. "i'm going to marry you one day."

YAAALLLL OMG I HOPE THIS DIDN'T SUCK TOO HARD😣😣😣🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 i hope u guys enjoyed this one, i really enjoyed writing thisss!!

tags: @ellstronaut

dividers: @khaer @plutism

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