#anyways. I’m sad I don’t get to see her over break but god knows I’ll be getting late night phone calls

[therealcocoshady]

Recovery - Chapter 21

Eminem x FemReader Fanfiction

Summary : Em just confessed his feelings to Y/N and is apprehensive of her reaction.

Tags : Fluff - SMUT - Bit of Angst ?

MARSHALL’S POV

Y/N was staring at him with big eyes. It wasn’t clear whether she was displeased, terrified, disgusted or God knows what else. He wasn’t the best at guessing how people were feeling anyway. He had just told her he was in love with her, right after they had sex. To be fair, he hadn’t planned on telling her, especially not at that moment… As seconds were going by, the silence was becoming painfully heavy. And to make matters worse, they were naked. One would have thought that the two of them being nude would have meant that there was some sense of equality in the situation, but given that he had just confessed his love - which was obviously unrequited - he felt even more exposed. If she hadn’t been prone to those nightmares, he would have left, but he couldn’t. Well, he could, but he wouldn’t. Just because she was silently rejecting him didn’t mean that he didn’t care about her wellbeing. 

I’m sorry, he said as he started to get dressed. I… obviously shouldn’t have said that. I’ll go on the couch. Just… Call if you have a nightmare or something, ok ? 

Why did you say that ? She asked, as she pulled the cover over her naked body. 

Because I think orgasms are much better when there’s awkwardness right after, he said sarcastically. 

She kept on staring at him. Now, she looked more sad, and a little mad too. Her mouth was slightly twitching, as if she was about to cry. 

I’m sorry, he said as he pinched the area between his eyes. 

About what ? She said hoarsely. 

About everything, I guess. But mostly for telling you I’m in love with you, he replied. 

He stared at her for a second. Her mouth was slightly open and her eyebrows were furrowed. She really looked as if she was about to cry but, as selfish as it was, he just needed to be in a different room right now, in order to process his emotions. He was feeling a knot in his stomach and was starting to realize that whoever said confessions made you feel lighter was definitely a liar : it felt like he had the biggest weight on his shoulders right now. He mumbled a “Good night” and went through the door. He was in the staircase when the door to her room flew open and she went after him. 

You don’t love me, she said sternly. 

As a matter of fact, I’m very aware that I do, he replied a bit more curtly than he originally intended. 

She was naked and her hair was all messy. Still, in the dim light of the corridor, she looked like an ethereal vision, something you could see in a painting. If he had a pen and paper, he would definitely draw her. Or maybe he would if he didn’t have to deal with a painful rejection. Being turned down was one thing, but being turned down by a naked woman who looked like a goddess was another thing. More painful, in his opinion. Y/N was frowning and had a pout on her face. 

I don’t understand, she said. 

I don’t think I could be any more clear, Y/N, he replied. I am in love with you. Obviously, this is very unilateral and I’m sure you wished I hadn’t said that, but now that the words are out, I don’t plan on taking them back. I know it’s uncomfortable for you, and I am very sorry about that because I did not plan on telling you, but now you know. 

But… Why ? She asked. 

He stared at her in disbelief. Was she actually asking why he was in love with her ? She was absolutely amazing but she needed to take a fucking hint. Didn’t she understand that he needed to be alone with his feelings ? That she was breaking his heart ? In his many years of therapy, he had made some progress when it came to dealing with his emotions, but it was evidently not enough. He was starting to feel anger pending. 

I’m not having this conversation with you right now, he said calmly as he tried to pace himself. Go to sleep, alright ? 

I can’t sleep with what you just told me ! She shrieked. 

And I can’t look at you right now ! He yelled. Can’t you give me one fucking minute, Y/N ? I can’t look at you, all naked, rejecting me. You don’t feel the same and that’s ok. I mean, it fucking sucks, but I’ve been feeling this way for a while, so I’ll deal with it eventually. But I’m not a robot, alright ? 

You should have told me earlier, she whispered. Why didn’t you tell me earlier, Marshall ? 

Because you have a fucking boyfriend, Y/N ! He roared. Because there’s a fucker always taking you on dates and showering you with gifts and affection. Because you keep going on and on and on about him and how great he is. And Hailie, and Talia, and Jamal too. Because I keep getting these stupid pictures of you in our group chat, at sunset, at shows, at fucking pottery classes or God knows what else. Because it hurts me every fucking time and I have to deal with the pain of knowing that the woman I love will never be mine. So excuse me for not setting myself for heartbreak here. If I had been able to help it, I wouldn’t have fucking told you that. You have your lobster and I’m glad he’s great, but don’t expect me to be happy to feel like the tiniest shrimp in the ocean. 

He realized he was screaming at the top of his lungs. He was panting. Y/N’s eyes were glowing with the tears welling up in them. He swallowed dryly and quickly got downstairs, making his way to the garden. It was a cold night, but he could use the fresh air. He enjoyed the darkness and the silence for a second, before Y/N barged in, still naked and barefoot on the grass. 

Go back inside, he said as he stared at her nakedness. 

Shut up ! The only reason there’s a fucker taking me to pottery class is because you are the one who started dating !!! I am the one who’s been in love with you for months and had to keep my mouth shut about it. I was going to tell you in New York, but there was always Paul or security around. And then, there was Nicole. So you don’t get to make this about yourself, Marshall ! You don’t get to say you’re in love with me only to leave the room and say I don’t love you. Because I do ! I love you more than I have ever loved anyone and it hurts like hell !!! She yelled, louder than him. 

You do ?! He asked in disbelief. 

Yes I do. You’re my best friend, you know me better than anyone else, you’re always here when I need you, you are the most attractive man I have ever met, the most talented, too… You’re smart, kind, funny, generous and, oh my God Talia was right, the most dramatic person I have ever met. How could I not fall in love with you ?! She blurted out. 

He stared at her, completely stupefied. He had absolutely no idea. He was at a loss for words, in absolute shock. 

I am yours, Marshall, she whispered. I have been yours since the day we met. 

In the matter of a second, he was all over her, wrapping his hard around her body and kissing her violently, hungrily. She responded passionately. 

Say it again, he ordered. 

I’m yours, Marshall, she repeated. 

I love you, he said softly. I love you so fucking much. 

I love you too, she whispered with tears in her eyes. 

He kissed her tenderly and carried her in his arms, bridal-style, walking back inside of the house. 

I could have walked, she giggled. 

I know. But I’m the most dramatic person you’ve ever met, so I have to live up to the standard, you know ? He replied with a smirk before gently letting her on the living room couch. Although, I think you’re a serious contender for the title. 

I’m not, she chuckled. 

Says the crazy woman who professed her love for me in the garden, at night, NAKED ?! 

They burst out in a fit of laughter. He kissed her again, and again, and again. 

Have I told you I love you, yet ? He mused as he intertwined his fingers with hers. 

Mmmh… I don’t think you have, she giggled. 

Well… I love you, he said softly. 

She giggled and nuzzled his neck. He leaned into her touch. She was his and he was hers - nothing could make him happier. He kissed her temple and took her hand before leading her back to the bedroom. She put some clothes on and they got under the covers, cuddling the shit out of each other. 

I have a confession, she said softly. 

Another one ? He mused. 

Well it’s kind of related. I mean… I sort of… already told you I love you. You just don’t remember, she said as she blushed. 

I think I would remember, he chuckled. 

To be fair, you were sleeping, she explained. We were in the hospital, you were sleeping on the bed and I told you. I think I needed to. 

You’re kidding right ? He burst out laughing. I told you I love you, in the hospital. Before you woke up. 

You didn’t ?! She asked in disbelief. 

I did, he said as he stroked her cheek. When I saw you laying there it just… it hit me like a gut punch. I knew I had feelings for you long before that, but seeing you like this, wondering if you were going to wake up… I had to tell you. Even if you weren’t listening because you weren’t awake, I needed you to hear it. 

His voice was emotional. He was speaking from the heart, and even the simple thought of her in that coma was enough to break his heart. He was upset at the idea of anything happening to her.  

I am so happy you’re ok, he added as he buried his face in the crook of her neck. So happy that you’re here. 

I love you Marshall, she said softly as she ran her fingers in his back. 

For the first time in ages, he allowed himself to be fully relaxed and vulnerable. It didn’t happen too often, especially not when he was with a woman. In his past relationships, especially after his divorce, he had gotten used to being more distant, not showing his emotional side too often. But with Y/N, it came naturally and, even though it was definitely scary, he had to admit it felt good. Eventually, they went to sleep, and he had his most peaceful night in ages. 

Y/N’s POV 

When you woke up, you were in Marshall’s arms. You had fallen asleep whispering sweet “I love you”s to each other. You had to pinch yourself to make sure it wasn’t a dream. You were definitely in a good mood for the rest of the day. It was about noon and Marshall was sleeping soundly, holding you close to his chest. You gently tried to remove his arms but they were so tight around you that it was nearly impossible. 

Don’t even think about leaving this bed, he groaned in his deep (way too sexy) morning voice. 

If you let me get up, I’ll make you pancakes, you whispered in hope it would motivate him. 

If you stay in bed, I’ll make you cum, he replied with a smirk. 

You let out a gasp. You should have gotten used to it, after all this time, but the way he could be so blunt when talking about some things - namely sex - always surprised you, and never failed to make you blush. He let out a giggle and tightened his embrace as his fingers traced circles on your hips. 

What do you say, pretty girl ? He asked. 

I’ll allow it, you said playfully. 

He hummed and slid his hands underneath your tee-shirt, gently cupping and massaging your breasts. The sensation of his cold fingers against your warm skin was delicious and definitely arousing. It was soft and sweet. Or so you thought until you felt him pinching your nipples and sucking on your neck simultaneously. You were still in the spooning position, him behind you, and you could feel how hard he was, which only increased your wetness. You thought you’d stay in this position but your lover obviously had other plans, as he had you lay on the mattress, face in the pillow. He spilled kisses on your neck, going down to your shoulders, your back, your hips… before eventually helping you get rid of your clothes. 

I want to take you, babygirl, he groaned in your ear. Are you ok with that ? 

Yes, you whispered. 

I’ll be gentle, don’t worry, he said before kissing your neck. 

He wasted no time before entering you slowly. As soon as he was inside, you felt complete. It seemed like you were able to feel every inch of him, while becoming aware of areas and spots inside of yourself you didn’t know could be stimulated. Marshall was moving slowly, taking his sweet time and every opportunity to kiss you. 

You feel fucking incredible, my love, he whispered. I love you so much. 

I love you, you said. 

He picked up the pace, causing you to gasp. He immediately stopped moving. 

Are you ok ? 

You feel so big, you whined. 

We can stop, he said reassuringly. 

No, you pleaded. Keep going. I can take it. 

Good girl, he said with a grin. 

You never knew you could enjoy being called a « Good girl » in bed, but something about the way he said it just sent chills to your spine. You wanted to be a good girl for him, to have him praise you for taking him… something in him just called to your submissive side. He started pounding and you clutched at the bedsheets while you let out deep moans. You thought you were close to orgasm when he stopped. 

Don’t stop, you whined. 

Get on top, baby, he said. 

You let out a groan and he softly chuckled as he laid down, taking a good look at you. 

You gotta work for it, he grinned.

You straddled him and lowered yourself onto his shaft, taking all of his length. He laid still, letting you do the work with a satisfied smirk. His hands were wandering around your body, caressing your skin. You let your head fall back as you felt a wave of pleasure coming your way, trying not to lose the rhythm in your hip movements. Marshall ran a hand through your hair and, as you quickened your pace, you could feel his grip tightening. You let out a little cry. 

Sorry, he said softly. Didn’t mean to pull it, baby. 

Do it again, you moaned. 

Oh yeah ? He grinned. 

He gently pulled your hair, causing you to moan again. It felt so good. It wasn’t too painful, it just made you feel like he was in control and you loved it. Your movements were starting to become sloppy and, as much as you wanted to keep going, your thighs weren’t cooperating. He let out a laugh and held your hips tightly before taking control of the situation. He started to quicken the pace and pull your hair at the same time, harder. This had you lose your mind, immediately sending you over the edge. You thought you had reached your apex but he kept going, bringing his hand to your clit to stroke it. You clenched around him and your muscles contracted like never before as you moaned his name. He whimpered and you could feel him twitch inside of you as his release came. You collapsed on top of him, after what was probably the most intense orgasm of your life. You had tears streaming down your cheeks and were shivering. He gently wrapped you in his arms before pulling the cover over your bodies. The two of you dozed off for a minute before being brought back to reality by your phone ringing. You grabbed it and saw Josh’s name on the screen. You froze and kept staring at it. Obviously, you didn’t feel like taking the call when you were naked, in another man’s arms. 

You’re not answering ? Marshall asked, his eyes still closed. 

It’s Josh, you said sheepishly. 

He huffed and opened his eyes, staring at you. The look on his face was indecipherable. He seemed calm, but you could swear his eyes were a shade darker. He was staring intently. And of course, being the coward that you were, you didn’t really want to hold his gaze. It was just starting to dawn on you that you had cheated on your boyfriend. Of course, last night, you knew the person you were kissing and having sex with wasn’t Josh, but at the moment, you didn’t care. Because you were focused on the overwhelming feeling of being with the man you loved. The man who literally haunted your dreams. So, as awful as it was, you didn’t hesitate when it came to kissing him back. You could have. You probably should have. But you didn’t. It was evident that you had to break up with Josh. You had to. In retrospect, it was clear that you’d been lying to yourself long enough. You were starting to come back to earth and it was bittersweet. You had always been so vocal about your distaste for cheating and lying and you weren’t too sure how you were supposed to look at yourself in a mirror. You sighed, feeling as if you were about to cry at the realization that you had turned into a horrible person. 

Y/N ? He asked softly. Are you alright ? 

Not really, you admitted. I mean… I cheated on the most supportive, loving boyfriend I’ve ever had, so… 

Do you regret what happened between us ? He asked carefully. 

I regret cheating, you explained. I don’t regret what happened between us but I regret the way it happened. 

Right, he said. 

There was a brief moment of silence. He gently stroked your shoulder and placed a comforting kiss on it. 

You know, I could lie and tell you I’m sorry, but I’m not, he said. 

Thanks, you said sarcastically. Very comforting. 

Let me speak, honey, he said. I know he is great to you and that, on some levels, he might be better for you than I am. I mean, he’s a corny fucker who doesn’t deserve you, but from what I gathered, he’s good to you, he takes you on great dates, he’s your age and you have a lot in common. It makes sense that you’re sad about it. Hell, I could even understand if you considered staying with him, you know ? Because, some things, I’m never going to be able to give to you. I’m not going to lie : I suck at dating, I’m not able to take you to cool places, I’m not nearly as smart… But I can tell you one thing : he will never love you as much as I do. He will never support you like I do. If you let me, I will do my best to give you everything you deserve, want and need. I swear I will do anything to make you happy. I promise you will not regret it. 

I love you, you said emotionally. 

I love you too, he replied. So… Will you give me a chance ? 

Yes, you said. Of course. I told you, Marshall… I’m yours. 

He cupped your cheek with his hand and smiled softly before pulling you in for a kiss. It was a deep, emotional one. “Mine”, he whispered as your foreheads rested against each other. You rested in his arms for a while, exchanging sweet words. 

I have to go, he sighed. My daughters are coming to my place this afternoon. 

Ok, you said softly. Is it too much if I say I’m going to miss you ? 

Definitely, he chuckled. But I’m going to miss you too, so it’s ok. I’ll see you tonight anyway, for Talia’s birthday party. 

Yeah… About that, you said awkwardly. 

Mmmmh ? He asked, squinting his eyes. 

Josh is going to be there, you know ? Talia invited him, you said. 

Is this the part where I have to specify that I am not big on sharing ? He asked with a raised eyebrow. 

I know, you said. But everyone’s expecting him to be here and you know how Talia is about her birthday… She’s the star of the show. It’d be rude of me to announce my breakup on her big day. 

Makes sense, he sighed. But you’re breaking up with him, right ? 

Yes, you said. But later. 

How late is later ? He asked. 

I don’t know, you said sheepishly. 

He nodded and started to get dressed. The smile on his face had been replaced by a slight frown. 

Are you mad ? You asked. 

Nope, he said. I get it. But I can’t say I’m happy either, you know ? Everytime I see you with him… It hurts a bit. Because I want to be the one holding your hand. I want to be the one kissing you. I want to be with you. I want to be your lobster. 

You’re not my lobster, you chuckled. You’re my whole ocean. 

Your words brought the smile back to his face. He chuckled and kissed you tenderly before leaving. 

MARSHALL’S POV

He couldn’t wipe the smile off his face after leaving Y/N’s place. For the rest of the day, he kept on smiling like an idiot. He thought he was being discreet but he thought wrong. As soon as his daughters arrived, they picked on his good mood. 

What’s making you so happy, Dad ? Alaina asked. 

I’m always happy to see you girls, he shrugged. I don’t get to see the three of you that much without your boyfriends or husbands, these days. 

I don’t believe you, Stevie chortled. You were humming a song. 

Well, Steve, that’s my job, he retorted with a smirk. 

You’re full of shit, she replied.

Language, he playfully warned. 

They had a great afternoon, talking and playing video games. He loved hanging out with his daughters and he was glad it was just the four of them. They had all found great partners and he couldn’t be happier, but sometimes, he missed the days when they all lived together. The house was starting to be a bit empty without them, especially since Stevie moved out. Since then, he had become even more of a workaholic. He had spent so much time dedicating to his role as a Dad that having his youngest move out of the house had taken its toll on him. So everytime he got to spend time with his daughters, he was the happiest person in the world. This time, though, his mind was wandering. He kept on thinking about last night. Y/N loved him. She was his. She had spent a whole night in his arms. Their first night as more than friends. This made him feel like a teenager in love. Usually, he would have mentally slapped himself for being so cheesy, but this time, he didn’t care. He would never admit to being so soft, obviously, but with her, he didn’t care. 

Dad, are you listening ? Hailie asked. 

Of course, he lied. 

What was I saying ? She teased him with a grin. 

Something about your… podcast ? He tried with a smile. 

All three girls burst out in a fit of laughter. Evidently, he had failed the test.

Sorry, he said. Lots on my mind. You were saying ? 

I was asking if everything was alright with Nicole. 

I’m not seeing her anymore, he simply replied. 

Why ? She asked. I thought it was going well. 

Well it was, and she’s great, but I don’t think it’s going to work, he said. Too many schedule conflicts. 

That’s too bad, Alaina said. 

It is what it is, he said with a smile. 

He knew his daughters would be a bit disappointed when he told them he wasn’t seeing Nicole anymore. He usually didn’t discuss his private life with them, but seeing as it was Hailie who had arranged the whole thing, his relationship with Nicole had been a bit of an exception. Ever since they had learned he was dating someone - however new it was - they had been ecstatic. In the past, he had introduced a couple of girlfriends with whom things had become serious, but it had been a while now. He wondered how things would turn out with Y/N, and whether or not he would introduce her to them as his girlfriend. Obviously, they were just getting started and he didn’t want to get ahead of himself, but he had a good feeling about their relationship. His relationship with Kim aside, he had never had such strong feelings for someone before even dating them. This one was special and he knew he had to step up his game and do his best not to fuck it up. 

The evening came and he got to the restaurant where Talia was celebrating her birthday. She was just getting back from her birthday trip with Jamal and had planned a lavish dinner at a fancy place. Everyone from the studio had been invited, as well as many other people. Normally, he would avoid such an event like the plague, but he actually liked Talia. They had become pretty good friends since he started hanging out with Y/N. Plus, he had confirmed his presence as soon as he had learned Y/N would be there - obviously, that was before learning that Josh had been invited as well… As soon as he arrived, Talia engulfed him in a hug and told him he would be seated next to Y/N, who would be between him and Josh. Ironically fitting to the situation. 

When she walked through the door, she was absolutely stunning. Josh was by her side, holding her hand. As she approached to “greet” him, he noticed she wasn’t wearing her sobriety pendant. It had been replaced by another necklace, a dainty gold heart pendant. He tried not to overthink it, but it definitely caught his attention. Josh also came to him and they shook hands. During dinner, he didn’t talk much. He could see Josh being all over Y/N, touching her every chance he would get. He’d been envious of that dude before, of course. Countless times, he had been the one who got to be with her, but he had always managed to keep his feelings in check. This time, however, it was different. Because she was his. And there was no way he would let Josh get away with it. Y/N was talking to Talia, who was in front of her, while Josh was holding her hand. He felt the need to remind her that he was there and that she was his. Just in case she’d forgotten. He made sure no one could spot him and rested his hand on her thigh. God bless tablecloths. He tried his best not to smile when she seemed slightly startled, although she didn’t stop her conversation. He gently started stroking her skin, going under the hem of her dress and he could see her blush slightly. 

Are you alright, Baby ? Josh asked her. 

Sure, she said with a smile. I’m… perfectly fine. 

Josh’s phone started to ring and he stepped outside to answer. She turned to him. 

What are you doing ? She whispered, confused. 

Bathroom. In two minutes, he whispered back before getting up. 

The many guests were busy talking and over-indulging in champagne so they would be most likely not to notice people getting in and out. He went to the bathroom and waited for her. A couple of minutes later, she stepped in, looking flustered. He could not resist the temptation to kiss her. He grabbed her lips passionately, bruisingly. 

Marshall, she whispered. Have you lost your mind ? 

I’ve just about lost my patience, Y/N, he said with a grin. If he touches you one more time, I swear… 

But he’s my boyfriend… 

And you’re mine, he reminded her. 

She looked at him, nervously biting her lip. He pulled her in and buried his face in her neck, teasing her sweet spot and causing her to moan softly. He started sucking on it harder but she stopped him. 

You’re crazy ! It’s going to leave a mark ! 

Maybe that’s what I want, he replied. 

Marshall, she said sternly. 

You better tell him to beat it or I will, he groaned. 

You wouldn’t. 

Want to bet ? He asked with a grin. 

She stared at him with an annoyed expression, but she wasn’t too convincing. He chuckled and kissed her again. 

Don’t try me, baby. Nice necklace, by the way. 

He stepped out of the bathroom and went back to the table. She joined him moments later, pretending as if nothing had happened. Josh came back shortly after and resumed the conversation. The evening went on and, in spite of a few people coming and talking to him, he still focused on Y/N, gazing at her whenever he got the chance. He was about to leave when he caught a conversation between her and Josh. 

You are so beautiful tonight, he said. Would you like to go back to my place and have a sleepover ? I missed you like crazy yesterday… 

I don’t know, she said softly. It’s late and I have work to do… 

I was thinking that maybe we could let Talia and Jamal have some alone time and… have some of our own, he said with a smile. 

He could have been a grown man and let it slide. But he was far too petty. He grabbed a glass of water and pretended to have a sip while he walked past Josh and “accidentally” spilled all over his shirt. 

Sorry man, he said. I didn’t see you there. 

Shi… I mean, it’s fine, Josh said. It happens. 

What can I say ? I’m clumsy, he shrugged. Anyway, I’m leaving. Goodnight. 

Y/N was staring at him in disbelief. She knew him too well and she probably could tell he was being an ass for the sport. He flashed a grin and left. It was probably for the best anyway : if he had to hear Josh mention having “alone time” with her, he would probably trip him down the stairs. He went back to his place. 

About three hours later, he was in bed reading a comic book and about to go to sleep when he heard his doorbell ring. He went to open the door and saw Y/N standing there. She had changed into some leggings and a hoodie and was wearing his pendant again. 

You really are an ass, do you know that ? She asked with a slight grin. 

Good evening to you too, he chuckled. I see you have refined your taste in jewelry again. What do you want ? 

Well I thought you might be interested in knowing that I have just become single, she said. 

You couldn’t be more wrong, he said as he pulled her to him for a deep kiss. You are very much spoken for and I’m going to prove it to you. 

[akane-kurokawa]

Chapter 145 thoughts!

Okay so! Another time jump. The rest of Gorou’s time with Ai has been cut, including his death. That makes me think Aqua is passing him off as a fictional character, though that clashes somewhat with their inability to use his name and refusal to use another name. It ultimately doesn’t really matter, but for a movie that’s supposed to murder Hikaru Kamiki, excluding a crime you could’ve linked to him is a weird choice.

Though truthfully I have no idea what Aqua is actually intending with this movie at this point, and I’m starting to lose faith that even HE knows. Too soon to tell though, I’m sure I’ll be saying this until the arc is over.

Anyway, onto the chapter itself! We open with our favorite god turned child actor reading Ruby for filth

The exchange here is interesting, their dynamic has become much more casual, much like CGs and Aqua’s. I have thoughts about Ruby being insecure about not seeming mature for her age, but there wasn’t enough focus there for me to say much more than speculation.

I actually really love this whole part. Kana chiming in with her perspective on young Aqua is so good, she had such a powerful reverence for him from so young, and her getting competitive with (what she perceives as) a modern child actor is equal parts funny and sad

This kind of confirms what a lot of people had been arguing about, the claim that Ruby NEVER saw Aqua as a brother. When they were younger, their relationship was much closer to normal, it seems. Her mourning not getting to know her brother better when they were younger is also an interesting sentiment, and Kana chiming in to try and insert herself is pretty cute.

There’s certainly a metaphor in Ruby then immediately discarding said child version of Aqua in favor of the one she feels romantically inclined towards.

Me too girl, me too.

The whole flashback with Crow Girl is very interesting. I don’t know much about Japanese mythology, but I know I’m plenty of others there are stories where people help disguised gods, and get blessings and favors in exchange. This gives Crow Girl a somewhat surprisingly fond perspective of them, which is interesting when looking at their present (and past) dynamics. It doesn’t really feel like it matches, and the implication that this was what earned them the reincarnation blessing feels inconsistent given Crow Girl’s previous dialogues.

I’m not going to jump too much to conclusions, we have some info but like I’ve been saying all arc, not really enough information to conclude anything

Anyway not too much to say about this chapter overall. Interesting insight into Crow Girl’s perspective, and it’s nice to see Aqua, Kana, and Ruby interacting more normally again. Glad we don’t have a break next week, because I’m really looking for something I can sink my teeth into a bit more.

[charmante-mp3]

Devilish - Ch. V

The more I write on this the more scared I get, knowing damn well I can't write action scenes for the life of me.

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Warnings below; - This is a demon!Ateez x angel!reader (not for long however) so there is talk of religion. As an atheist I really don't refer to 'God' or Jesus but I do not mean any harm for religion. In this writing I do, however, use real religious names, that being said, this is purely fiction! - Also for confusion purposes, I do cut back and forth from present to future. If you see '~' that is currently what is happening, so be aware! - Descriptions of injury/violence

(This entire thing might just go unedited but it's nice to warn ppl)

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Months or even years passed, no angel would speak or look in my direction. It confused me, I wasn’t aware they would be this cruel. Of course that was until I met Ye’un.

“Excuse me?” A voice spoke from behind me, I had assumed it wasn’t for me so naturally I ignored it and kept walking. Then, a girl with dark brown hair stopped in front of me.

“Hi, you look a little lost and sad. You alright?” My eyes widened. No one had spoken to me before, so why was she the first?

~

“And where have you gotten this nonsense from?” A new king had risen to power in the underworld. An older woman, alive since the start of war between demons and angels. She stood in front of the eight divines, bringing forth a prophecy.

“I assure you it is not nonsense my king, for years people spoke of an angel falling from the heavens to be the next queen. She’ll rule beside the descendant of Azazel and his council. All that has to be done is stopping this war,” Hongjoong couldn’t tell if she was genuine or just wanted all of this to be over. Then again he did want to put a stop to this pointless war anyway, but it wouldn’t benefit himself in the eyes of hell. 

“I’ll consider this pointless prophecy, that’s all I can say. You are dismissed,” The woman had made her exit and Hongjoong had turned to his council. 

“An angel ruling beside us, that’s intriguing I will say,” Seonghwa spoke his opinion first. 

“I wonder if they’re as pretty as they say!” Wooyoung spoke loudly. Hongjoong had thrown his head back, as the other members debated this information. 

“Alright,” Hongjoong had interrupted the noise, “Let’s test this stupid prophecy,” and he sent a letter to the archangel himself. 

~

“This is quite peculiar,” The hierarchy of angels spoke, addressing a personal message from the demon king. 

“Since when have demons proposed to end this nonsense, they started it,” A man spoke to the left of Michael. 

“Azazel himself has been reincarnated yet I don’t understand why they would hold different ideas,” Another had spoken. 

“There is talk of a prophecy, once the war has ended an angel would fall. Seemingly the angel would rule at their side,” Michael started, “I would assume the king is not very happy with that arrangement, but who am I to turn down the end of this war,” He finished.

“And who would be foolish enough to fall from our heavens?” One of the men had questioned. 

“I’m sure it would be our newest descendant from Asbeel,”

~

The pain started to make me dizzy, I could feel the blade slowly detaching my wing from my back. 

“Ah maybe I should give you a break, wouldn’t want you to pass out before I’m finished would we,” His words sent a chill down my back. This unknown demon had made it clear, he wanted me to feel everything.

“You’re kind shouldn’t be allowed to have such beautiful feathers,” He said before going right back to slice open my wings. 

“Ah maybe I should introduce myself, I would like you to know who took these lovely feathers. My name is Dagon, of course that soon won’t matter,” Dagon chuckled after those words. The man was taking his time, not rushing to make this painless. Tears ran down my face, as I just wanted this to be over. 

“Dagon!” A voice had boomed from behind us, it was familiar but fear consumed me, convinced only more pain would come my way. At least that’s what I had assumed. I had felt the man be thrown off of me, jumping up and assessed the harm done to my wing. Instead of the lovely white, it was now dripping with red as blood fell down the feathers. I jumped as a hand made its way on my shoulder, I looked over to see one of Hongjoong’s council members. For a second I was blown away by the beauty of the demon. He had slightly longer hair than the others, but he did carry half horns like many of the others. They bled from a beautiful green to black. Once he had looked over to me, his eyes made me uneasy. They shouldn’t have, his eyes were soft, almost sad as he looked over me. 

“We should get you fixed right?” He spoke, holding his other hand out to me.

“Who are you?” my voice had wavered from the pain surging through my body. 

“My name's Yeosang, come on let's get you to a safer place,” I shouldn’t have trusted him, but my hand found its way in his and I let him carry me back to the castle I just escaped from.

~

“Dagon!” Hongjoong’s voice echoed in the air. While he wasn’t ecstatic about the prophecy coming true, the scream had filled his veins with such anger and worry. Mingi was quick to throw him off the girl. Yeosang rushing over to help her as she scrambled up. I could see how her wing had been hanging on by a thread. As soon as Yeosang had carried her off my attention flew to the man who caused such a stir. 

“Why do you insist on such disruption Dagon?” San spoke. I could feel the rage radiate from his words. 

“I’ll be damned if I let an angel rule hell itself,” Dagon said words he had already said time and time before.

“Well Dagon it seems as if that’ll work out, hell is exactly a place for the damned,” Wooyoung said. He had tried to speak in a joking tone but he held just as much rage as the others. Dagon started to struggle in Mingi’s hold, succeeding very little. 

“Take him back with us, I’m sure he’d enjoy the same pain he had inflicted on the poor angel,” Seonghwa suggested, and I definitely was not opposed to this idea. I could see anger and fear flash through the demon's expressions. 

“I do think it’s time to introduce you to the oubliette,”

[waitmyturtles]

Oh my EFF, where DO I START. Moonlight Chicken, episode 7 thoughts and impressions. But first, a question for the family:

Did any of you notice the filming style slightly change during the condo/living room scene with Jim and Wen (after Jim put on the chicken shirt), and the second scene with Jam and Li Ming, when they’re eating the ginger stir-fry? In both scenes, I noticed that the camera pans were a bit more fast/jerky between characters, and that Jim and Jam (#jimjam) were filmed from the chest up. I wish I knew more about cinematography, but it seemed to me that the other shots throughout the show were wider and taller. I don’t know if this means anything to anyone, but if it does, I would love to hear thoughts on it. I feel like the shooting style gave those scenes some kind of different old-school flavor. 

1) JUST GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH WHY IS THIS SHOW SO GOOD. Sorry for the yelling, but now I know, I KNOW, full-bodied, there is no way one post is enough for each of these episodes, so just expect a whole freaking unspooling over the weekend. ANYWAY. I’ll try to organize the quick thoughts first, then the deep thoughts.

2) Just get First and Khao together again already! They can’t help their chemistry to be ridiculously great. AND HOW GOOD IS FIRST. HOW GOOD IS HE. Just knowing when to fume just slightly, when to pull back for the sake of a scene. AND HOW GOOD IS KHAOTUNG. God. His crying! It took me OUT. Tears over here, streaming tears.

3) Speaking of hearts aching, I cried not only during the funeral scene because of Khao, but because I love this now-repeating motif that Aof uses of bringing a song that’s sung in the show as music for the background of the show, à la Bad Buddy. To think of every step of art to weave into a drama to keep you fully connected -- it’s really beautiful to me.

4) Mark/Leng with his UCLA jacket, what up, Cali, cute cute. (By the way, I’m missing View/Praew. She was incredible in 10 Years Ticket, and I think she could have lent her brilliance to MC. I’m going to add The Shipper to my list for First/Ohm/View.)

5) The continued motif of showing the cast participating in time-honored spiritual rituals. As sad as it sounds, I love funeral scenes and the way a temple brings together a community. Even Wen working at the temple -- it’s very real (at least at the Indian/Asian funerals I saw as a kid) to basically have a lot of the funeral feel like a community get-together.

6) Heart joining Li Ming to hand out drinks at the temple just messed me up. It messed me up good. When the young adults automatically help out at events without being told by their parents. It means a lot in Asian societies. 

7) Deeper thoughts. @wen-kexing-apologist hit on this in their BEAUTIFUL POST about the show being centered on parent-child relationships. There’s a lot here in this episode, I may not get to it all. 

Here’s how I’d break it down (and this post by @justafriend-ql covers so much so well):

a) Jam comes back after years of not seeing Li Ming b) Li Ming is OBLIGATED, by UNSPOKEN CULTURAL RULES, to continue to respect her as a parent c) Li Ming, clearly, wants fucking none of it d) Li Ming/Fourth EMANATES distaste for what he’s dealing with  e) Li Ming STILL has to control himself around his mom who moved him aside to live her life f) He has to ALSO DEAL with his uncle, who (yes, hypocritically) (but also hypothetically) asks him why he’s gay g) So Li Ming has to also deal with his uncle’s internalized homophobia and old-fashioned views on gays in society, which may very well arise in part from his upbringing in rural Isaan h) Jim has to also deal with his sister’s guilt over not having been a mom, and her trying to sort of half-heartedly show up (until the last scene with them, which I think was meant as a symbol that there might be healing happening among the three), and i) Jim beginning to see Li Ming for the adult that he is becoming.

@justafriend-ql covered in their two posts about Li Ming the sheer SIMMERING, the shimmering ANGER that Fourth portrayed, and I felt @wen-kexing-apologist​’s  pain in my bones when I watched those scenes.

So much of what I am loving about Aof’s work as I enjoy my ride through his oeuvre is this family dissection -- the microscopic examination of the painful aftereffects of holistic filial piety (COUGH Bad Buddy) -- and I can never say enough how important his family art work is to Asian audiences. When I see these scenes of young adults holding themselves back with every iota of their energy to not JUMP KICK their parents when they’re acting stupid -- man, I feel that so hard. 

Jam coming back and asking for Li Ming is just lame, and we all know it, and Li Ming knows it. And yet, he is BOUND by CULTURAL PRACTICE -- cultural rules that even JIM REFERENCES -- to need to hold back and respect his mother, because that’s what Thai cultural boundaries demand. So I agree with @justafriend-ql that what Fourth radiated was beyond brilliant. As a viewer, I really want to see Li Ming’s gates open and to see him rage, because my inner child wants to rage right along with him.

But that night scene with Jim and Li Ming, man. 

I think this bit of this scene is what ended up helping Jim to relax, and to see Li Ming as an adult. 

I am loving how Jim is written. The constant, CONSTANT pull between old values and new. This scene so beautifully depicted Jim in that balancing struggle. 

Li Ming is just pulling Jim along to the light of the future, as children/young adults do. Li Ming NEEDS his uncle to see HIMSELF (Jim) in Li Ming. And I think that’s what’s happening, in part, in this scene. Jim sees that Li Ming CAN understand how complicated the world is around him. Jim SEES that Li Ming is a CRITICAL THINKER.

Jim has been a solo parent for so long. He’s worried about his kid. They’re poor. His kid’s gay. Jim’s worried about his kid being poor and gay. Jim expresses it, at first, in an old-fashioned, shouting, angry way. Jim accidentally outs Li Ming to Jam.

And then. The two guys -- the guys -- sit with each other, rest and wash in the process of mourning an important member in the community. Jim tries to hear Li Ming at Li Ming’s level. And Jim finds that he can hear. 

And maybe, even, Jim is beginning to learn that he can transcend those old-fashioned values -- those UNSPOKEN CULTURAL RULES that still bind much of Li Ming’s behavior towards his mother -- to be a model for Li Ming, AND TO HIMSELF, to live a hopefully more fulfilling life. (I think that might be what’s happening, in part, with the cancellation of the diner’s lease at the end of the episode -- but the preview for the finale has me wondering if I’m right.)

8) I don’t know how much I have left, but I took these screenshots to also talk about Jim’s internalized homophobia. I think I’ve covered it already in my Li Ming analysis, but come AWN, just look at this SASS BUCKET OVER HERE:

I took these to confirm that Jim was “just being a dad” (ugh) in the moment of him yelling at Li Ming, but I think Jim redeemed himself with that night chat with Li Ming. So I’m just gonna leave these screenshots here BECAUSE COULD WEN/MIX BE ANY MORE SASSY?

I’m already missing these guys. I need Our Skyy 2 REALLY SOON. 

I’m gonna need a lot of sleep tonight to manage tomorrow.

[meowjings-arsb]

Behold a pikmin OC

Their name is Mint and they live on PNF-404

I don’t know what the collective species that Hocotations, Koppai, etc fall under like humans do, but they’re inhuman* basically

I don’t know what to call them tbh. A shapeshifter maybe

I might be about to infodump a timeline a little 👌 under the cut

Mint landed on PNF-404 years ago. Their species is designed to be great hunters, since they’re shapeshifters and whatnot. Maybe I’ll try to delve into the species or not I have no idea at the moment

In my opinion, Pikmin 4 takes place after Pikmin 3. Olimar just crashed and got stuck again for like the 4th time idk

Anyways. Koppai trio comes in and Mint is curious about them and starts mimicking them and filling them around. Koppai trio is equally curious because how tf is someone living there. Mint can’t communicate with them so yeah. She gets to know the crew + Louie and Olimar. Very much likes Louie because he’s weird and eats creatures too.

Mint travels back with them to Koppai since they think she’s a castaway, but they can’t find her on any databases which is just… puzzling. Even more, blood tests say that she’s not part of any known species. She becomes an oddity because of these things including her PNF-404 orgins, but the Koppai trio protect her and keep her safe.

She’s stays with them for the time being, they teach her english* (whatever they speak), and she slowly gets integrated into society. Alph even teaches her a thing or two about engineering. I don’t know how many years it would take for these things so idk how long yet. Probably speaks a broken english*.

Once she can communicate with others efficiently they still don’t know where she’s from because she doesn’t know either. She just woke up on PNF-404 and lived there until the Koppai trio’s mission. She’s learned to be more secretive about whatever her mystery species is because like… a shapeshifter is not a common sight to see or know about and Mint doesn’t like a lot of attention.

I want to give her a dog or something similar. I’m working on it

Idk. She gets recruited on a treasure trip to PNF-404 because it’s very known that she’s lived there and probably knows her way around things. Thing is, the people who hired her are shady as heck. She ends up not liking them and tends to avoid them and run off while exploring the planet

In the end something happens, could be the group is getting attacked or whatnot, but she gets left behind. She’s kinda sad but not helpless. After some time she gets her communicator working and messages the S.S. Drake to check in and ultimately chooses to stay on PNF-404 because she’s felt homesick

The communicator actually breaks a year or so in so she’s actually stuck, but she brushes it off because.. eh

Pikmin 4 appears ✨

Meets Olimar and Louie again and is happy. Helps them out. Olimar goes missing uh oh-

A lot of ships seem to be crashing lately and Mint doesn’t really know why, not looking into it much. This red leaf b-word also showed up and now everyone’s day is ruined

Enter Rescue Corps 👌

Mint kinda just stumbles into Collin, Shepherd, and Oatchi and decides to help out. They accept her help because who else is gonna go out in the danger planet? At first, Mint doesn’t stay during the night to which the crew worries because how could someone possibly be living out there? It’s dangerous?

Uhhhhh

✨Shenanigans 💅✨

I hope to god I can draw more about her before the Overwatch fixation takes over. Also play more of Pikmin 4 because I kind of stopped at some point after getting Yonny

[handelplayssims]

Now we’re just vibing until the library “opens” at 9:00. I glanced at the google at that is about the time they open up! Sent Ian to birdwatch and Derek to write a little.

Annnd this is why I sent Ian to the birds. High singing ability means we can sing with them! Beautiful! Anyway, it’s time to pop over to the library in Britechester. It’s where Derek wants to go and Ian needs to meet someone in another location for his aspiration. Also I suddenly remembered I could have Ian introduce people to Derek. Because he would if there were traits in common. (It’d be the only way he’d make friends) Anyway, Ian’s going home while Derek’s going to work on his novel. ...or the computer could break down. That too. Anyway now I’m just going to stare at the person hogging the one computer remaining.

Staaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaare. I’ll give it until 4PM until I go home ..IT BROKE DOWN AS WELL. BASTARD GAME! To home with us!

Paying bills and...3 thousand. YEESH. These men need pensions or something! The grip of mortgage payments looms over us all. -sees fox rushing towards the coop- NO! Go away! I’ve got a chick to hatch! Hopefully. Right. Ian needs to make 12 friends. Ho boy. Let’s get to work. Ohp! Wait! I was going to finish writing the book before Derek went to bed. Let’s go do that. Ian made a friend with Aubrey Shelley, a near randomized Sim I made up in an alt file and moved into Henford. Annnd his want isn’t clearing. We know what we have to do for that then. Anyway, the Creature Keeper, who is now a random sim named Barret Case (again, the starting Sim died) is out and about so befriending time! Right, after some chatter, and talking up Derek to a fellow animal lover, we head back home. Ian’s sleepy, after all! Meanwhile we finish off writing that book and send it off for Derek. Some passive income, yaaay!

Neighborhood Watch!

Brindleton Bay: The Raghavan household moved out.

Right, it’s been long enough another patch has happened. So now I have a new test file Sim to add to the world. Patricia Moss, an evil botanist. Well gardener for now but botanist is the goal. And she’s going into...Sulani. Not her first choice but we’re running low on starter lots.

Back to Moody and McMillan! Ian’s up and it’ s Love Day. Day of loooove.

Oh, Discovery Quests are a new thing. Basically tutorial for how the Sims works. I’m experienced enough to not care but I might as well do them on this file just to get the basic rewards. Anyway, Ian wants to practice a comedy routine since he’s a goofball, so let’s compose one first ...oh I evidently didn’t need to compose a routine to practice one. Welp. Ah well. Anyway, Derek’s finally awake, so let’s walk on over to the National Park for a date! ...yes I am having the two walk over there in-game as well. Gotta enjoy the scenery somehow.

Oh hey! I can have both Sims go and be playful for this date since Ian is already playful ...annnnd he’s hysterical now. God. If he dies during this date! Well we got gold for the date at least. Just some nice romantic chatting. I’m going to the restroom with Derek, (in a bush even) don’t die! No death towards eating food. Hmm, let’s have a snowball fight. That might-

And there we go.

Please Grim! It’s Love Day! Have a heart? No? Nope. Alas. I guess we’re just trudging home with a new fear of death in our hearts and much sadness. Eight days of mourning to be had. (Man mourning is overbuffed in Meaningful Stories) So we’re just going to be sad and listen to the tunes Derek likes. Or even perhaps...write! Channel that grief! Needs quest specifically calls for a nap so might as well. Let’s get back to writing then. But then!

Neighborhood Watch!

Carson Allen in the Allen household is now a Captian in the Detective career.

Book is finished and now we send it off! And get our proper sleep.

[carpetbug]

tell me ab your bug and cat playlist!!!! (this is my main I’m zodoods dhsjvdsjj)

HI ZO 💕!! THANK U FOR INDULGING MY SILLY LITTLE SONG LISTS! i’ll give you a song or two from a couple <3

Chat Noir

Break (Alex G) - oh my god it just screams his sacrificial tendencies paired with his love for ladybug. obsessed with this song for him. I also see these sort of reflections? of other sides of him in this song? “I could disappear, if this is what makes you feel so real” cat walker out the fucking wazoo hello! “In my head I see bright lights… I think I’m feeling it now just like you did” “And I’ll break for you baby cause you make it feel so good” CHAT BLANC HELLOOOOOO!! anyways i’m super normal about this song and totally don’t have any plans to animate anything to this 👁️

Ladybug

happy news for sadness (Car Seat Headrest) - i see this song fitting both LB and mari! the obvious line being “You can never tell the truth but you can tell something that sounds like it” relating to how deeply she values honesty and truth, but ends up having to lie and hide things from almost all the people in her life. “Everytime I think about love, I think about me thinking about you … Everytime I think about love, I think about you thinking about me” sorry this is just so fucking ladynoir? thinking about you as in thinking about adrien, this boy i’ve devoted myself to loving, but when i think about love I also think about you, chat noir, thinking about me, ladybug, the girl you’re so openly in love with. how can those both be love when they’re so different? how can they both be the truth? are they even?

Marinette

Gambling Addiction (Leanna Firestone) - i’m so insane bonkers crazy for this song ITS SO GOOD GO LISTEN TO ALL OF LEANNAS MUSIC anyways. how marinette falls quite literally head over heels when she’s in love! but she ultimately feels like she’s always playing a losing game! I also love the whole concept of marinette being both luck as ladybug and unlucky as herself with always saying the wrong thing, falling over, etc. “I wanna be pulling lucky numbers and praying to lucky stars, finding four leaf clovers and counting all my cards but i’m walking under ladders, seeing black cats, spilling table salt, and stepping on every crack” “so i’m crossing all my fingers, i’m pressing all my luck cause I know misfortune just won’t be enough to keep me from betting it all on love again”

Adrien

TV (Alex G) - adrien’s relationship with his parents! especially with emelie just sort of being gone? and he never gets to have that closure? ESPECIALLY WITH HER BEING AN ACTRESS?? AND GABRIEL NOT LETTING ADRIEN WATCH HER ROLES?? “I get feelings from the TV, they can’t hurt me, they don’t know me” “He gets lonely, he forgets me and he bought us a TV cause you don’t come around anymore” IDK GUYS I CANT PUT IT INTO FUNCTIONAL WORDS BUT DO U SEE THE VISION??

Chat Blanc

The Wolf (Fever Ray) - i love this song for chat blanc so much! (here is a drawing i did with lyrics from it!) I just am so obsessed with the vibe and tone, how deep and echoey it is, but with the intermittent hollers! it gives a very specific feeling, I love it. “And it’s poison in his blood. Big fire, big burn, into the ashes and no return” just like a perfect reference to everyone being turned into literal ash! it works so well with the chaotic, destructive nature of blanc.

Shadybug

DICTATOR (REI AMI) - i think the general vibe of the song is so fitting for her! especially the really direct transition to a much softer and emotional tune/lyrics! RAAAA it’s just so telling of how she makes shadybug into this terrifying powerful figure that can and will hurt anyone in her way when she’s just marinette, this lonely teenager with one too many problems and a shitty/dangerous coping mechanism! “I am not your queen, i’m your dictator. bend the fucking knee, yeah bitch, that was an order! what you say to me, huh? bitch speak louder! you know i reign supreme” it’s just screams shadybug to me. also hehehehe reign supreme get it

Adrinette

Romeo & Juliet (Peter McPoland) - okay imma be so fr this one makes me feel a little too silly in the heart so i unfortunately do not have the words to explain but please imagine and chew on these lyrics “I’d say “oh I love you” to my Juliet, if you only knew, i’d kill for you, i am for you, i am just who you need me to be” “i hope you mean it when you say that I am yours and you are mine”

I Love You Too (Peter McPoland) - i’m a sucker for this man’s music he makes some bangers but yeah this song it just screams adrinette to me. especially post season five, seeing them get to explore starting a relationship together and navigate their own love!! also just really shows how devoted adrien is to loving marinette, how he holds her to no expectations, values her comfort and happiness above all else during their interactions LIKE GOD HE LOVES HER SO MUCH HES WILLING TO SIT AND WAIT AND LOVE HER IN SILENCE UNTIL SHES READY FOR IT TO BE AS LOUD AS IT FEELS!! IDK!! “i love you too, too much to say” “i love your hands held close to mine, the way that our fingers all intertwine”

Ladynoir

Best Song Ever (One Direction) - guys. do i even have to explain. it is so chat flirting with ladybug. it is so entirely season one ladynoir. “maybe it’s the way she walked straight into my heart and stole it” “I said “can i take you home with me?” she said “never in your wildest dreams””

Shameless (Camila Cabello) - some fun ladynoir reveal brain food! lb getting fed up with identities clogging her emotions and deciding to throw it aside and let chat make the decision himself “it’s been a secret for the longest time” “now that you have me, do you want me still?”

Marichat

HandClap (Fitz and The Tantrums) - ok it’s honestly just the part “Every night when the stars come out, am I the only living soul around? Need to believe you could hold me down cause I’m in need of something good right now” BUT HEAR ME OUT!! Marinette and Chat seeking each other out when they need comfort, someone to vent to. Finding each other, making this connection and this safe space with so much warmth and care between them that it grows from just mutual support to adoration. I need something good right now, I need you.

Vampire Empire (Big Thief) - tbh i’m not like 100% sure what about this song is so entirely marichat to me but. it is. More angsty, it makes me think of marinette and chat trying to foster a romance between them but it just tasting… stale? like a dead plant drowning from being overwatered. “the milk has just expired, all the leaves are dead. I’m not quiet, you’ve been quiet, just receiving what you said.” They do want each other, and there’s such intense love between them, but it just always feels like they’re going about it the wrong way. “Where you can’t seem to hold me, can’t seem to let me go, so I can’t find surrender, and I can’t keep control”

Ladrien

Sports (Beach Bunny) - Ladybug getting to explore Adrien’s hobbies with him as they get close! spending her time with him, learning any new skill he’s willing to teach just to make him happy “if you feel lonely, I could be lonely with you! Tell me baby, why do you seem so blue?” but eventually kind of getting tired of playing these games around their feelings and just wanting to be with him outside of these activities “I’m tired of waiting, I was never good at sports. Save the games for the girls on the tennis courts”

We’ll Never Have Sex (Leith Ross) - THE SOFTNESS!! THE GENTLENESS!! THE CARE AND COMPASSION AND LOVE AND SIMPLICTY! “If I said you could never touch me, you’d come over and say I looked lovely” ITS JUST SO THEM!! Adrien respecting these boundaries, listening to his lady, caring for and loving her regardless of what form it comes in. “Oh you kissed me, just to kiss me, not to make me cry. It’s was simple, you are sweetness, let’s just sit a while”

[lys-9-10]

Ch. 10 & 11 of "Connection" posted

Read on AO3 “I’m heeeeeeere!!” Hinata hollers, bursting into Tobio’s bedroom and spinning circles.

Tobio has to work quickly to tamp down the enormous smile that breaks across his face. 

“Hey, dumbass,” he says. He likes to think his voice came out pretty even. “What you got under your arm?” 

Hinata runs up and hops onto Tobio’s bed. “It’s for you!” He slaps a large, flat, colourful rectangle thing down in front of him. “From the club!”

“From the club?” Tobio squints suspiciously. “What is it?” 

“It’s a ‘We Miss You’ card, obviously! See, it says so right—oh woops that’s the back.” Hinata flips the rectangle over … and sure enough, there it is. In large, rainbow letters. The words “WE MISS YOU!” all in caps. 

Tobio finds himself blushing furiously. “That’s so … erm…” 

Hinata lets him stammer for a bit, then takes pity on him and laughs. “All good. I’ll tell them you couldn’t contain your overflowing gratitude.” He smacks Tobio on the shoulder blades. “Let’s read it!” 

“Read it?” 

Hinata cracks open the giant card and—oh gods. He’s reading the messages out loud. 

“Dear Kageyama. I kinda thought you were a little shit at the beginning of the year, but now I sorta like you. A lot. So, really super glad you’re not dead. Come back to school already. Lunchtimes are lame without your grumpy face. Tanaka. 

“Dear Kageyama. Gods, you gave us a scare. You and Hinata just disappeared for a week ... And when I finally managed to corner Hinata in the halls, all I could get from him was a weeping declaration that you might die. Jeez. Anyway, needless to say, I’m relieved to hear you're alright. And I'm glad Hinata-kun is looking out for you. I knew the teaching arrangement would be mutually beneficial ... Though I have to say, I didn’t quite expect how much. You’re a good kid, Kageyama. I know I was hard on you at times, but you’ve really come a long way. And I couldn’t be happier to see it. Come back soon, the crew misses you. Love, Daichi.

“Dear Kageyama. PLEASE DON’T DIE!!! I know Hinata said you were better now but OH GODS PLEASE DON’T DIE I will be SO, SO sad if you die!!! I’m giving Hinata a list of things to check for when he goes to visit you. You know, indicators of deadly infections and stuff. Some of the inspections might tickle, but it’s imperative that you hold extremely still. Alright? Also, make sure you don’t walk in front of any cars once you’re up on your feet again. Or exchange saliva with pigs or horses. Or hold your breath under water for too long. Oh! And…” 

Hinata trails off and looks up at Tobio, sheepishly. “It kinda goes on like that for a while. Should we just tell her we read it?” 

Tobio doesn’t answer. He’s too busy rubbing at the eyelash that got in his eyes. Damn thing is making them all watery. 

Read full fic on AO3 :)

[caribbean-ace]

It feels like it’s been ages since i’ve spoken about Station 19 but finally we had 6x01. I’ll go over my thoughts so spoilers ahead:

I think most of the attention was drawn to Maya and Carina. There’s so much to unpack with these two, from them trying again for a baby (thank God the writers listened and our favorite wives took another road, you know the more realistic one in this case). With Maya she’s clearly angry and frustrated and obviously that’s something that affects everything in her life including her marriage, she has been able to manage it but since it backfired so badly i get where this anger is coming from. From this episode i got that Carina is angry too, but her emotions are obviously different from Maya, both of them coming from abusive household it shows how they have decided to deal with all of this. I’m so glad Carina is back to her old self because babying Jack is the least i want to see from them.

Which brings me to: Jack! I was sad for him (in some parts bc he went through so many hard stuff) but it seems he doesn’t want to get better and he does not want to own responsibility for his actions. Andy stood by him and he goes and lies to her. He needs to work on his emotions and own them. I hate how the show goes: oh poor Jack but he’s never assuming responsibility for what he does, i’m hoping this is a wake up call for him, women in his life are not supposed to be his savior.

Oh Sullivan, what am i going to do with you, they are still pitching the whole Sullivan is a hero and he can do no wrong. It bothers me to no end that he pretends he wouldn’t have done the same, like if you’re ruthless, please by all means own it, don’t try to make excuses about it! Was Maya wrong? Well yes, but that does not make him a hero, if anything he’s being a hypocrite. I don’t know how this is going to play out since i thought Maya and Andy were going to battle head to head for being Captain but Beckett is here still so idk, it seems that Bishop vs Sullivan is on and of course i’m supporting my smol olympian firefighter all the way.

For the rest? I liked Vic and Theo hyping up Travis, he’s such a good firefighter, let’s see how everything plays out with Dixon. Do i think he’ll win? Idk but i want Travis as a firefighter :( Also i like Ben but i kinda hate when he’s like oh i’m playing by the rules but it’s only okay when i break them, since i’m doing it for the greater good. Yes, maybe he was right, maybe not, they were both doctors and able to control the situation but come on, i don’t like when he decides when it’s right to break the rules.

Anyways those are my thoughts, i did live tweet about the show, you can find me here babbling about stuff✌🏽 see ya next thursday! Station 19 is back🔥

[kim-poce]

A Mean to be Good 9 - Missing

Tell me if the tag worked, please?

Hero = Indigo

Villain - Garra

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CW: low self-esteem, emeto, panic attack, fear of punishment.

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Garra had left the house again, Indigo’s instincts screamed that he was up to no good; which, coming from a villain, is to be expected.

They found a way through the guilty coming from doing nothing to stop the criminal, telling themselves that they were never a proper hero anyway. So why try?

The immediate problem was Clara. It’s not his fault, I brought this upon myself. They thought again as the girl jumped over the couch they were sitting on.

“Alone again?” She asked with a mischievous smile on her face, drawing her claws already. “Don’t you have an annoying hero job to do?”

“I’m on a break,” they explained. When did their ‘get beaten up one day only’ plan become ‘surprise vacation in Garra’s place’? “You know this.”

“I know that your little team is looking for you, they have a search group and everything. Hmmm is it… how did they say?... ‘Indigo, a respected hero and loved friend, disappeared two weeks ago, we are offering a reward to anyone who has clues…’ clues on something, well, they want you back, you act all sad and lonely so I thought you were kicked out or something.” she said casually.

Indigo jumped from their seat, forcing themself quiet right away when Clara almost attacked them —she doesn’t attack if he gets quiet and doesn’t resist— “W-what? You-” deep breath “You are lying, right?” Yeah, she is lying, she lies a lot I shouldn’t believe.

“Holdup,” Clara said, reaching for her phone and handing it out after a bit.

Indigo felt their heart racing, looking at the images on the screen. Why are they looking for me? Well, they don’t.. don’t hate me, but I didn’t… I didn’t think they would truly- They swallowed hard, sweat covering their face. They will be so disappointed when they find out I’m here, find out I was just too… scared? Ashamed? to call… they don’t hate me yet but they will. I’m bad, I’m such an idiot, a traitor, a-

Clara got closer, making Indigo step back and lose their balance, falling on the carpet.

“N-not now please,” they begged, looking up at the girl standing in front of them.

They should have kept quiet, they should’ve been still and she will leave them alone, but their body had other plans; tears streamed down from their eyes, their stomach turned, the guilty, fear, anxiety, and gods-know-what-else were mixing themselves inside them.

They ran.

Indigo had barely reached the toilet when they let out all the contents of their stomach. Just then noticing their mistake; they ran.

Clara was just behind them now, and the words seemed to be broken; begging her to wait would be useless.

They flinched when her hands touched their back —not the claws yet, they were hoping she could just get done with it and leave— they steeled themself when she crouched down by their side.

“I really didn’t see this coming,” she said.

Indigo was unable to hold back another flinch, they were unable to properly breathe.

Clara frowned, “You think I’ll hurt you?”

“l-later,” Indigo managed, “p-please, I won’t tell Garra, I-”

“I won’t hurt you right now,” she said, almost offended. As if she didn’t play with their nerves the whole time in the past two weeks, “I’m not a monster. I wouldn’t hurt you while you are… panicking? I guess that’s what you are… doing?”

Indigo's head was a kaleidoscope of images of the ‘Missing person’ pamphlet, their teammates' declarations, their faces, the faces they will have once they find out the truth, and somewhere in there Clara, her “plays” and claws, and the way she wakes him up all the time and how she never allows their nerves a second of rest.

“L-leave me alone,” they said.

“You seem to need some help so-”

“From you?” They snapped, head buzzing, blood running way too fast, “You are making it worse! Oh! I see, you want to see this, right?” they gestured to the toilet and back to themselves, “You want to see just far you can take me? How hard you can humiliate me? Is that what you want? You must be pretty happy then!”

“I didn’t do this!” Clara argued, “I just show you the news, I didn’t mean to-”

“Oh, didn’t you? Truly? Weren’t you trying to mess me up? To make me like this? You have pushed me to the edge this whole time, and now you want to act as if you care?”

“I didn’t mean to do… whatever this is!” Carla snapped back, “I was just having… fun…” her voice become low as if she had just realized the meaning of her words.

“I know! I’m sure you were having the time of your life when I was fucking panicking three days ago.”

Clara frowned, “I thought you were pretending I-”

“Leave me alone!” He shouted, the shower and the tap turning on, water raising around Clara. She stepped back, eyes wide.

It was the first time Indigo saw fear in her eyes, but they didn’t have time to think about it because Garra arrived, opening the door to the sight of the hero threatening his sister.

“G-garra,” their voice was low, the water fell down drenching everything, “I-I swear I wasn’t-” they glanced at the scared teenager in front of them and at the water around her, “I wasn’t- I wouldn’t hurt-” They swallowed hard, lowering their head. “I’m sorry.”

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[drawlfoy]

I can't tell you just how heartbroken Wonders of Ohio left me. I've only ever felt that way with one other fic, and even then WoO topped it. Unlike WoO, the other fic had a very clean cut ending to it (they both died at the end rip) so I wasn't left to my own thoughts about what could've happened after. Which might be why WoO has been absolutely haunting me for the past two days, it hasn't left my mind at all. I think about certain moments, the ending, oh god ESPECIALLY THE ENDING, AT LEAST once an hour. I get that familiar feeling of my throat drying up and my eyes begin to water when I think about it. Another reason being the way you write. I was able to immerse myself into the story and imagine what I was reading in my head, one specific case of this I remember was when Draco made Reader and himself late to school. When he was fidgeting in the passengers seat, his hair unkempt, I could almost see him. I imagined draco with his messy platinum hair, wearing a muggle polo shirt because its just so posh rich kid of him, nervous as he leaned over the middle compartment into the backseat as he performed that glamour spell. I've never been very creative and imaginative but with your writing it was easy for me. It reminded me of how I was able to do the same when reading the Harry Potter books, being able to almost live in that universe in my head was so refreshing. Anyways this is really long, SORRY, but when I saw that you also had a Tumblr (as I originally read your stories on AO3) I just had to look. I scrolled through your page for a while and I gasped when I eventually saw that you posted what you started on writing for a continued ending? (I don't know how to phrase it I'm sorry 😭) I read it and while WoO is still breaking my heart over and over again, I think I'll be able to think about it for longer than 5 minutes at a time without bursting into tears now. So thank you. 🩷

AHHH i’m so upset bc i typed out a whole response and the fucking tumblr app (count ur days staff) deleted it urghhh

anyway some points i’d like to hit (apologies for the length but i just wanted to give this the response it deserved):

1) first of all THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHABKYOU this was genuinely the highlight of my whole year. people like you are the reason i write and i’m being so genuine when i say that this message is like the kind of stuff i dream about getting as a writer. so in conc i’m kissing you on the mouth you didn’t need to but you wrote all of this out and for that i’m forever grateful

2) some thoughts on the ending: first of all IM SORRY lmaoo. i’ll let u in on a little secret: i actually originally planned on a completely different ending where y/n ended up using the box right off the bat and went back to england and spent the last half of the fic learning magic and interacting with the golden trio crew/the malfoys. i told this to a few writer friends and they made me realize that it wouldn’t be as useful in actually answering the silly question that i based the whole fic on (what would draco do if he was plopped in the middle of muggle america?). i decided then that i really was more interested in learning how draco’s character would develop as he came to love someone who was fundamentally differently from him (and didn’t first go through a change that departed from her basic character traits). from then on i realized that a happy ending wouldn’t involve either of them giving up their world at the end of the summer, since they needed to grow up a little bit (and at that point i was old enough to find the idea of giving up your entire life for a relationship at 18 completely terrifying). hence the sad ending…but i think in the long run it means that they end up having a much healthier dynamic later on!

3) if you want to know about what happened after the deleted scene you found: i left the ending so open because i always thought i’d come back to write another series where i explored what happened after, but i don’t think i’ll end up doing that so i’ll tell you what i was planning. i always imagined y/n eventually going to england after graduating and getting established in her career and learning magic (because like literally who wouldn’t if presented with that option). draco is just kind of like a stay at home husband who’s just psyched to be there.

4) thank you so so much for your note about how immersive WoO was!! i’m ngl i’ve always struggled with incorporating imagery into my work. i spent my formative years avoiding anything i considered to be purple prose and that really reflected in my writing. i’m not a super visual person so if i could mention the 3 details i think are important in each scene and could just get on with the meat of the plot, i would, so i’m so thrilled to hear that it was able to give you that experience as a reader despite the fact that i’ve always been worried that i can’t 🥹 thank you again for telling me all of this bc it genuinely warmed my heart i know that this is a little disjointed but oml this like made my day

ill stop talking now because i’m gonna get even more incoherent okok but thank you!!!!! <3

[hyunjinspark]

jade i hope you’re doing well, i’ve missed you and slwy so much !!!! thank you once again for sharing your writing with us 🩷🩷

It felt like a break-up except you and him weren’t even fucking dating.

His hand peeked out from under his button-up sleeve. You reached forward, not thinking before slipping your fingers between his.

The gesture surprised him, and he glanced up at you with big eyes. He squeezed your hand, finding comfort in it.

literally not even 20 seconds in and you’re already making me tear up. and yn?? her first thought is to comfort him and ask about jisung istg this girl is an angel

Your fingers settled on his jaw, to calm him, “I mean, I know that you can’t stay here forever. You were only here for the summer anyway”

It felt anticlimactic. This was why he was so nervous, why Felix was so mad, why they were fighting?

oh fuck this hurts my heart is breaking she still thinks they have the rest of the summer 😭

Hyunjin wasn’t going to be holed up in this small town forever. Everybody knew it would always be temporary, so what was the drama for?

just fell to my knees, dear god yn is breaking my heart….. she knew from the start that whatever thing she had with hyunjin would be temporary,,,, but the fact that she questions what the big deal was is so sad ?? like even though she’d be upset when he’d have to leave, i think she was already mentally prepared for that moment because she knew that they only had the summer but now even that is being taken from her. yn is so selfless, but i wish she’d act more selfishly and realise that her feelings are completely valid and it’s okay to let him know he hurt her

Of course he’d figured everything out. A man as precise as Hyunjin, of course he’d already solved for all the problems you couldn’t even foresee. But what about you?

You felt a surge of hopelessness, because he didn’t understand how important this was to you. How important he was.

A laugh escaped you, at the lost innocence of that sentence, “What? My list is not… important, Hyunjin” He frowned, “It was to me…”

yn has said time and time again how important hyunjin is to her but she can’t fathom that she is just as important to him. this is fine :)

You drove past Aera’s, and Hyunjin’s gaze lingered on it, long after you’d already passed it.

am i still holding onto hope that hyunjin remembers her from all those years ago? yes. is it causing me an indescribable amount of pain? also yes.

You reached over without thinking, hand settling over his, and immediately, he was calm.

the fact that her mere presence calms him i am UNWELL .

You flipped to another page, but Hyunjin’s hand reached out to stop you. You looked at him questioningly. “Uh…you can go through that later. We don’t have much time”

wait did he draw her?? i really want yn to see herself through hyunjin’s eyes, i think that will finally get her to realise how much of an impact she’s had on his life

You didn’t know he noticed so many things about you, and so your heart warmed at just that implication. Hearing him recount what you’d been going through, you also felt a little emotional.

i am going to jump out my window how is every single paragraph hitting me with a new level of despair

You have such a kind heart, Hyunjin. You put your soul into everything you do, even if that’s just talking to someone at the grocery store or something. I think if someone met you, even for just a day in their life, you’d impact them forever

wow this is so beautiful 🥹💗

You always had to wait for moments. Moments like the one in the Photobooth. Or under the fireflies. The special moments you lived for.

In the movies, they were so dramatic, but real life wasn’t like that. In the books, they were so romantic, but there was no time for love in his life.

you don’t even understand how much slwy means to me, i know that i’ll still be thinking about it for years to come. hyunyn are everything to me

His wait held so many promises. So much hope. Wait, I’m in love with you too. Wait, I’m fucking stupid for leaving you all alone in this town. Wait, please don’t leave me without kissing me goodbye. He retreated to the kitchen counter, “Wait — your sketchbook. Don’t forget to take that” 

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME 😭😭

You’d come back to see him again, and in the same breath he was coming after you. The world was really so cruel.

How could two people be so perfect for each other but be destined to be apart?

idk let’s ask user hyunjinspark 🤨

He was savouring every kiss - no half-kisses, no pecks - mouth crushed to yours like he wanted to devour you and you’d let him.

i want you to know that you write the some of the most toe-curling, lip-biting smut on this app because this entire section was so 😩🥴🫠🥵🔥🔥

but also, i loved how innocent (lol) this scene was. you mentioned it too, but it did feel like they were two teenagers experiencing it all for the first time. i think it’s a really nice contrast, given everything they’ve been through and the depth of their feelings for each other, that this is their last moment — in another life, this slightly awkward but intimate moment would’ve been the first of many and would lead to a growing relationship; it’s a really nice contrast to show how it could’ve been 🥲

He kissed you a rushed goodbye, but for the first time that night, your heart didn’t hurt anymore

AGH THEIR GOODBYE IS SO BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AND HIT ME IN ALL THE RIGHT PLACES I CANT EVEN BE FULLY UPSET

It was a picture of him at a stairwell, surrounded by three boys you’d come to recognise as Chan, Changbin and Jisung. They were smiling wide, teeth on display and Changbin was making a kissing face toward’s Hyunjin’s cheek, lips pouted and ready

my 3retcha 🥺💖💖 also changbin once again being the most relatable person to exist

He revealed a cropped baby blue t-shirt, with rhinestones across the hem. The shirt rose enough to show his bellybutton piercing and clenched abs. You held your breath, staring at the pictures. A thin choker adorned his neck too, and he was slightly smirking in the picture.

WHY WOULD YOU PUT THIS IMAGE IN MY HEAD ⁉️⁉️ the day hyunjin decides to wear a crop top (if he wants to) is the day i swan dive into the earth’s core

Hyunjin in Daejon was…a sweetheart, but Hyunjin in Seoul…was a fucking menace

and when yn goes to seoul and meets this menace version then what? what about the shred of sanity i have left?

“That doesn’t sound like you” She finally said. “Yeah, well maybe you don’t know who I am anymore. You haven’t talked to me in months”

THANK GOD yn didn’t forgive her !!! yn is better than me though, ik she doesn’t want to fight but after the shit hana put her through, i’d say hana’s getting off too easy

“When I get stuck in the middle of the writing process, I think of you, and it really helps”

You’re his muse, and it’s fitting because he’s always been yours.

SHUT UP THEYRE EACH OTHER’S MUSES 😭😭😭 and when yn can finally paint about love bc of hyunjin? and when hyunjin is no longer afraid to love bc of yn and writes a love song for her? 😭

“The day you stop worrying about what other people think, is the day you’ll live a much better life, Y/N”

minho and yeonjun >>>>>> anyone else

hyunjin and yn texts and little updates to each other is so cute 🥺 got me giggling and kicking my feet

i really liked felix’s redemption arc, and i liked that, compared to how cataclysmic their conversations have been recently, this was almost anticlimactic. it does really show felix’s growth and realising his feelings/accepting yn’s own feelings. and i’m glad they’re friends again

side note but ty for not giving hana a redemption arc (yet?) bc whilst it’s clear felix has reflected on his behaviours, hana was still so inconsiderate to yn and just flat out ignored the way she’s been a shitty friend. honestly good for yn for the way she handled things

Congratulations. Kim Jieong would be honoured to have you join him as an apprentice for his Fall Program in Painting at the Atelier of the Arts in Seoul, South Korea.

MY YN 😭 SHE DESERVES IT SO MUCH SHES MOVING TO SEOUL AND GOING TO SEE MENACE HYUNJIN AND EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT 🔮🙏🏽✨💫

You wait for his answer, but your message doesn’t deliver.

nvm i spoke too soon 😐

“We're sorry, you have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer in service.”

i know that he probably has his reasons, and with everything going on with the other members too, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. ik he’d never do anything to intentionally hurt her, so i think it’s for her own safety or something

Over the past few months, Minho has discussed all of his theories with you, about what could have happened. He’s so sure, that Hyunjin’s company is involved. You want to believe him, because there’s no way Hyunjin would do this.

lee minho has my entire fucking heart i would move mountains and the sky for this man

You swallow, “Thank you. I know you never really wanted me to move away. But I’m really glad you understand how much this means to me” “I rather you be away from me than be miserable in this little town”

felix stop making me cry 🥹🥹 i’m so happy that they’re friends again

AHHH YANG JEONGIN !!!! i hope he and yn become good friends i adore their dynamic already. also choi yeonjun once again raising my standards and being better than everyone else by just existing

The most beautiful boy in the world… stands on the other side of the shelf. You’d recognise that stance anywhere. 

NO FUCKING WAY NOT THEM RANDOMLY MEETING THE FIRST WEEK SHES THERE ❓❓❓THEYRE REALLY GIVING A WHOLE NEW MEANING TO SOULMATES

You believe in destiny, and he has to be yours.

screaming and crying at yn’s growth so far, from rejecting love and thinking herself unworthy of it to believing hyunjin is her destiny oh i am UNWELL you are cruel for making me read this gut wrenching sentence with my own eyes

You were about to say something, but the words never made it past your lips, because he immediately looked away from you. It was as if he had never known you. Like you were a stranger.

The city of Seoul had never felt so quiet, as right now.

i genuinely have no words,,,, i was grinning at their reunion but was not prepared for him to ignore her. the way you got my hopes up too after yn called him her destiny 🥲 should’ve known you’d end the chapter with more angst 😔

okay but i kid you not the second i finished reading this i got a notification for hyunjin’s live. istg he has a sixth sense for knowing when you’re about to drop a new chapter bc HOW did this man drop love untold and dlmlu around the same time as the previous two updates and now he’s going live ??? maybe the live will fill the void in my heart after reading this chapter,,,,

once again, to call your writing beautiful would be an understatement. your prose and dialogue are so poetic and i love how you constantly keep us on our toes by mixing up the fluff and angst so we never know what to expect. it’s clear you put so much time and effort into slwy, thank you for sharing your work with us 🩷🩷 thank you for yet another incredible chapter and i’m sorry about the word vomit lol. i’m excited for what comes next for hyunjin and yn 💗

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i look forward to all of your reviews so much istg i experience every emotion reading them. youre so funny and i thank you for always pointing out your favorite parts of the chapter ! it helps me get better and realise what you like/dislike about the story.

and youre so right :(( she did think they still had the rest of the summer…i love breaking her heart. 😄 and about the smut…i love your thinking ! it definitely is like the exploration of a new relationship and a new love except it comes as a drastic goodbye instead and its interesting (but heartbreaking) to imagine what could have been 👀

i love reading all of your little comments on everything ! thank you 😭 im glad you love yeonjun and jeongin and minho because theyre sticking around…

and yes hyunjin definitely has a sixth sense for the updates its insane haha. i also love that youre keeping track of those releases and my updates simultaneously. ☺️

thank you 🩷 youre so so kind for this message and its not word vomit pls dont apologise, i reread this a thousand times already !

[aeoki]

Toyland - Chapter 5

Location: Shopping District Characters: Hinata, Touri, Yuuta & Yuzuru

TL Note:

Ama no Iwato is a cave from Japanese mythology. It’s said the Goddess of the Sun, Amaterasu, had hidden herself inside and took all the world’s light with her. To entice Amaterasu out of the cave, a few gods threw parties and made a fuss. Curious to see what was going on, she finally stepped outside and the world was once again bathed in light.

For those who don’t know, Touri’s surname has the kanji for “princess / 姫 (hime)”, hence the variety of nicknames he has associated with it.

“Momo” is the Japanese word for “peach”.

Yuzuru: Young Master. I’m aware you find it fascinating, but please don’t look at everything around you with such awe. It’ll be too late when you bump into a passerby and hurt yourself.

Touri: Oh geez, how many times do I have to tell you not to treat me like a little kid!? I’m not a baby that can’t do anything without your help, Yuzuru.

Yuzuru: …I apologise. I hope you will overlook my impertinent behaviour.

Touri: Hey, don’t make such a sad face.

What happened to the Yuzuru who would nag me about every little thing like a mother-in-law?

If you’re not feeling well, then you don’t have to accompany me here. I’m just taking a look in advance before the toy store is open.

We’re not meeting with them on official business so me and the twins will be fine on our own ♪

Yuzuru: That is very much correct, however, I apologise for obstructing your growth.

I’ve only just learnt that supporting you at your side by filling in the areas you lack is not the only form of love… But the personality I have developed over the many years will be difficult to change overnight.

Touri: ……? I don’t really get it but you’re you, Yuzuru.

I don’t think you have to force yourself to change your personality and I’d be thrown off if you suddenly had a change in character.

Anyway, you’re fine the way you are! Well, sometimes I do wish you were nicer.

Yuzuru: You tend to be quite carried away when someone spoils you, Young Master. Therefore, it’s best to treat you in a kind but strict manner.

Hinata: Heey, how long are you guys gonna talk for~? We can’t go in by ourselves. You guys need to go in first and tell them why we’re here.

Touri: Woah, don’t pull my arm, commoner! My legs are shorter than yours so you should be walking at my pace! …Hey, are you listening to me~!?

Yuzuru: Fufu. Just as I’ve had a change of heart after deepening the relationships with my classmates on the school trip…

It seems the Young Master is also changing.

…It does make me somewhat sad, but I too must grow up into an adult.

[ Location: Toy Store ]

Hinata: Oh, there’s a toy made of wood! I wonder if it’s a horse~ Clip clop, clip clop! ♪

Touri: Don’t touch the products~! I’m scared you might break something. If you do, you’ve gotta pay for it, okay?

Hinata: Sure thing~

…It’s that expensive!? What’s with this price!? It’s just a wooden horse. This is a rip-off, Hime-kun~

Touri: Don’t say that! It costs that much because it uses domestic wood. If anything, this is a fair price ♪

Hinata: Say what~? There are people out there who pay this much for a toy~?

Ah, you can buy the toys over here with just one coin. Now that’ll be easy on my wallet~♪

Touri: Not everyone is as rich as me.

I guess Yuzuru helped pass the message along, but Papa asked me for some ideas so this booth is the result of one of them. 

Squeezing out every penny from the commoners isn’t something nobles do, after all.

Someday, I’ll be the head of the Himemiya family and I’ll have to lead everyone. I’ve gotta be a good leader who takes every single one of the commoners into consideration.

Hinata: Ohh~ I see you’re actually thinking about the future, huh. Good job ♪

Touri: Hey, stop patting my head! I know I’m cute but if you keep doing that I’ll start biting back! Grrr!

Hinata: Ahaha, he’s like a playful cat. That’s so cute~ We have a cat at home so I think we’ll get along pretty well. *Tickle tickle* ♪

Touri: Whaa!? Don’t tickle my chin~ Wahahaha!

*Pant~ Wheeze~...* A-Are you trying to kill me!?

Ugh, my tummy hurts so much from laughing~ Anzu, Hinata’s being a bully so hide me!

Hinata: T-That’s not fair~ You can’t hide behind Anzu. Yuuta-kun, how shall we get Hime-kun out of the Ama no Iwato cave[1]?

Yuuta: What? You’re making me come up with something again…? I’m sure he’ll come out if you ask him to.

Hime-kun, he won’t tease you anymore, so come on out, okay?

Touri: …………

Yuuta: Oh no~ He’s stuck behind Anzu-san and is hiding his face. This is quite tricky.

Should we have some fun without Hime-kun like they did in the story? Or…

Heheh, I’ve come up with a better idea ♪

Yuuta: “Why don’t you come play with me, Princess[2]? ♪”

Touri: Who’re you calling “Princess”? …Huh?

Yuuta: “I’m happy you finally showed your lovely face ♪ I’m a teddy bear who doesn’t have a name yet. Could you give me one?”

Touri: …You’re definitely not as lovely as me. I’m not gonna fall for your tricks.

Yuuta: “Do you hate me, Princess…?”

Touri: Uuu… I know it’s Yuuta saying all this, but I can’t ignore you if you sound so sad like that~!

Uuu~... If you really, really want one, then I guess I don’t mind giving you a name!

Hinata: Yuuta-kun has successfully got him to come out. Ahaha, you’re so easy, Hime-kun~♪

Touri: Don’t call me that! Now that I think about it, you look a lot like “Momo[3]”.

Hinata: Momo? Uh, is that a cousin of yours or something?

Yuzuru: No, not a relative… You can see a soft toy sticking out of the Young Master’s pocket, yes?

He gave it the name of “Momo” and cherishes it very much.

Hmm. It seems the Young Master didn’t cause any issues while I was away on the school trip.

So perhaps I shall make the Young Master his very own “teddy bear” as a reward.

You’re also interested as well, you say, Anzu-san? Fortunately, it seems the Young Master is busy talking with the Aoi brothers, so let’s discuss the details before they notice.

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My mama called me yesterday morning, telling me she had a mole on her face checked out and it is melanoma. They sent out a biopsy to find out what stage it’s at, and we’ll be talking soon, as she shoudl hopefully know within the next couple days tops. We had a really nice, long talk, but every time I think about what she said to me and that my literal creator may be dying (which ya we are always all dying technically but theres something different when you find its caused by cancer), I break into choking tears. Today I took the day off work, road my bike all the way out to the sandy river, wrote a lot about her and other little things, but bringing it back to her, while tears dripped on my pages, and birds flew over the water I was laying infront of, with joy.  I biked over to a target nearby after that, to try on a couple bathing suits, because i figured why not, and I was feeling extremely body dysmorphic, not liking how I look at the moment---then it all bringing me back to being a child in the dressing room with my mom, as she looked at herself in the mirror, crying at how she looked, though i always thought she looked so perfect; my creator, my god.  I’ll probably have to call out of work again tomorrow, which i’m not looking forward to, as I don’t have that much money these days since I quit dancing, and so much of my money went into fixing my car, literally only for my car to get a mold problem when we had terrible rainfall and make it undriveable (i found out i’m allergic to mold).  I also so a doctor the other day at Planned parenthood, after waiting for literally an hour after when my appointment was scheduled, and was referred to an ultrasound tech to check out my uterus, because sounds like I may have an ovarian cyst. I’ve known somethings going on in my body for a long time, and recently I’ve been having my period every 2 weeks. Being on OHP has been frustrating, as it’s already difficult to make doctor appointments for me, as last time I went to get an ultrasound, like in December or something, I never got a call back from the doctors who said they would call me back after my imaging was complete to follow up/make next steps. But this time its with planned parenthood, and they have a more thorough,  caring process when it comes to that stuff, so I’m hopeful that this time we’ll figure the fuck out what's going on inside my body. I’ve been wishing I could be held these last couple days. I don’t get to see my partner until Monday, and my parents literally live on the other side of the country, and I just want to curl up and be in safe, loving, arms. It’s difficult to picture life without my mom in it. She’s so sweet, so caring, and I will have to write an entire separate post sometimes about how big her heart is. I held so much resentment for things she wasn’t able to do out of fear in my past, but shes shown me for a while now (since my parents moved away) how shes been trying to be there, and send me post cards about things that reminded her of me, silly little gifts like a mug covered in bees (because I love bees), and just always calls and texts me that shes thinking of me and loves me these days. Shes been actively showing her love and she literally created me, and is just such a compassionate person...I dunno. I feel like I’m going through my 6-year breakup all over again lol, because of how headachy this is making me. For all I know, it could only be stage one and easily removed, but it also could be anywhere beyond, and time is just feeling extra extra valuable now. Lowell hasn’t said much and said he wont be available until monday and im trying not to think too much into that but I feel sad that I can’t be in his arms and that he isn’t willing to be more immediately available. We’ll see how all that works out and what he has to say/how he’ll be there on Monday.. Anyway, ya. scrambled but, after returning home from my bikeride, I decided to walk to the climbing gym, since I’ve not been making the time to go over the last couple months, frequently...But something in me told me I need to start being better at going again, for my mom. Because I love it, and she knows I love it too, and its def a form of self care for me. I’m glad I went, because I ran into a long time climbing pal, Sergey, and told him the news I just found out, and he started tearing up because it reminded him of how his mom passed and we hugged for a moment and it was very comforting and he wanted to give me some strength and yeah, i’m just glad I got to see a trusted community member who was able to give a supportive gesture. Anyway, I walked home after that with a big headache, got home almost an hour later (not a short walk lol), and made myself some ramen and had an apple w peanut butter for desert. My stomach has been in knots the last two days. I have always had bad IBS stuff, but I think its also related to both my maybe-cyst, and def my moms news.  Like I’ve said before, when it rains, it pours.  Feel free to send any kind words my way. Thanks for reading, if you took all that time to. Writing saves me. Goodnight, maybe.

[bananaapplewaffle]

Archon Quest Interlude Chapter: Act III: Inversion of Genesis

I’ve seen the warning signs that Paimon is in fact worse in this…

Good Luck to me, Charlie.

Place your guesses now in the replies.

Okay uh

We’ve got someone from Inazuma who sounds british

I really like his voice 

OH NO 

ITTO WANDERER ARE THE SAME FR

I really, really, really, need these two to meet.

Niwa? That’s an important something but good god I can only remember because of Dango

WAIT

IS THAT NOT HIM?

IT IS HIM 

BUT NOT THE ONE I THOUGHT

(Not me starting right when dinner was done, chile let this cutscene finish then I’m taking a break)

WELL THAT’S A BIT OF A NAIL ON THE HEAD

I ain’t reading all dat

I AIN’T READING ALL DAT

HELLO???

MANS IS JUST WALKING THE STREETS

Sometimes you gotta stretch your legs

Anyway, I’m back.

Had some tacos and finished some TWST stuff

Paimon he’s literally right there

Please excuse, Paimon. 

She’s not house trained. 

He’s gonna what?

Honestly? 

Head empty, no thoughts

Not him side-stepping over saying that he wants to die

I mean…she literally made a deal with Dottore so

Not surprising 

Damn, tossed away like Woody

Head on hands

I should not be this surprised

Or is it excitement 

I can’t tell

HUH??

Started talking to a friend and my ass was not listening

Anyway, yeah we’re looking for Aether

Literally what the hell is happening

Bitch

WHOOP ZONED OUT AGAIN

Sorry, we are theorizing 

…This looks a bit like Mona’s thing

This is also reminiscent to what we seen with Makoto and the tree

Kinda sad that the tree isn’t huge and I wish there was like techno like effects

But I guess I’ll see!

WAIT

SO THIS IS YGGDRASIL???

AND IF WE STRAY OFF THE PATH WE DIE

GIRL IS THIS GOD OF WAR????

GIRL WHAT IS HAPPENING 

Girl let me see an actual way point

Girl I was listening and zoned out

But tbh all of my Tatarasuna knowledge is fuzzy, so no wonder

Not surprised that he knows we’ve telepathically gabbing

Okay wait

Nahida said that my brother was in Irminsul

And now its taking you some real digging to find anything

HUH

ANONYMOUS DATA???

Some shit is about to go down y’all

And now I’m thinking 

His Character Teaser was a little more on the real than we thought

Will we get faces to these voices

NEVERMIND 

WE’RE GETTING TRAUMA

PAIMON SHUT UP

AYO HE GOT A MODEL!

But who are we?

He sounds familiar…but that could be from another piece of media.

Hmmmm ion who he is exactly, but he is from Fontaine

…

Oh, I see what’s about to happen here.

I see he has it on him.

I feel like Niwa knows.

Some kind of miasma?

Oh my god his ponytail is the same?

Hold up

Oh, it's her….

DON’T TURN YOUR BACK DUMMY

NOOOOOOO

GOD DAMNIT

AND THERE IT IS

BACK MEAT EXPOSED

HOW THE HELL ARE YOU GOING TO EXPOSE SOMEONE, TELL THEM YOUR PLAN, AND THEN TURN YOUR BACK, WHEN YOU CLEARLY SAW THE KNIFE STRAPPED ON THEM

WAIT

WHERE ARE YOU FROM THEN

OH SHIT

DATA

WHAT

ITS THE FUCKING DOCTOR

WHAT

OH THIS IS FUCKED UP

THIS IS REAL FUCKED UP

So…..

How you holding up?

Oh baby he going sicko mode

Also ENG that second Dettore was supposed to be a loud ass yell, you know the one. 

All the fury, rage, sadness all that

…Yeah…no one has ever deceived you, Paimon 

But will she deceive us

OH MY GOD

Oh..so now we just ge to listen to him be angry 

Okay but what about Aether????

We’re about to talk about the sky being fake, aren’t we?

OH BABY WE’RE TALKING ABOUT KHAENRI’AH

Y’ALL KNOW I LOVE ME SOME KHAENRI’AH LORE

…What?

Are you saying that the gacha has an importance story-wise

WHAT?

HE LIVED IN KHAENRI’AH AND KNEW THE JESTER

Girl we not finna fight

Oh?

Private convo huh

Oh its even more private now that its telepathic convo

OH MY FUCKING GOD

I THINK IM RIGHT ABOUT THE TEASER

GOD DAMNIT

OH MY FUCKEN GOD

Funny that he says he doesn’t like insects 

And there’s a ladybug on my tv rn

:/

I FUCKEN CALLED IT

HE FUCKING DID IT

THAT’S WHY IN THE TRAILER THEY DIDN’T RECOGNIZE HIM

BECAUSE HE ERASED HIMSELF FROM IRMINSUL 

…Hmmmm

YEP

I KNEW IT

THE MACHINE IS UP

Once again, I was not reading all that

So…Nahida…Does “The Balladeer” mean anything to you

WAIT 

DOES THIS MEAN WE TOLD HER ABOUT 

THE GREATER LORD

Okay no, we’re keeping this to ourselves

For now

Checking the Irminsul Database please hold

Knowledge Cube!

Because technically that’ not directly about The Balladeer

WHAT

SO YOU CAN HIDE INFORMATION

OH LAWD WHAT IS EVERYONE COOKING

STORY TIME

Okay its all coming together

NOOOOOO

KITTY SCARA NOOOOOOO

Hmmm…WAIT

THE WORLD RETURNING TO DARKNESS

ONCE AGAIN

I AM ON MY KNEES 

Y’ALL NEED TO PLAY KINGDOM HEARTS

Hmmmm the shape of the red glow in his eyes…interesting

AND THEY DON’T 

THEY DIDN’T REMEMBER HIM IN THE FUCKING TEASER

Okay Sora

Wait…not Sora

Ion but some KH character would say some shit like that

OH MY FUCKING GOD

EI’S VOICELINE ABOUT KUNIKUZUSHI IS FUCKING GONE

Now I gotta look at everything

Is he gonna be in the Bazaar? 

OH MY THIS BITCH

NOT A STEALTH MISSION

Oh! It’s not!

Does that mean that he knows that we’re following him?

Yep, also—

The fucking golden feather

Oh she’s got her little terminal up

Oh girl

Kingdom hearts

I feel like

This is where forbidden knowledge comes in

The party is Lumine, Wanderer, Raiden Shogun and Barbara

Damn…they were infected.

Damn this is tragic as fuck.

OOP BABY THE ROOM IS RED

AYO

JESTER SCARA TALK

Oh we’re back in this room

Oh look!

Dead people!

Damn yeah Signora did seem like the bitch to say some outta pocket shit like that

But she never attended…

Next up is—

Ah…

Yeah this is crazy

WAIT WHAT

SO HE WAS HEAVILY EXPERMINETED ON AND TORTURED 

THEN THEY TOSSED HIM INTO THE ABYSS

WHAT

Are we gonna see what happened after he fell

WAIT

BITCH

WAS DANGO ONCE AGAIN RIGHT

THEY ACTUALLY HAD SOME SORT OF CONVERSATION

OH MY GOD

DANGO NEVER MISSES 

I know what this means

Yeah we’re gonna have to put you asleep for about a year but don’t worry and don’t forget

Thank Naminé.

God I’m just

How is he going to get this vision

And did Venti have a part in it

Or rather what parts

Oh my god 

The whole truth

A CUTSCENE

IM SITTING UP

OH SHIT

NOT AGAIN

QUEEN SHIT

PAIMON SHUT THE FUCK UP

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

WHAT THE FUCK????

AYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

HE WIPED A TEAR AWAY YOU CAN’T TELL ME SHIT

WAIT

Huh…his signature weapon doesn’t appear when he’s attacking

He’s back btw

Yeah, so the world has still forgotten him

Thinking about the rest of my tacos

Pretty stoked 

AAA

He keeps going in and out

Lumine, standing there knowing good and well someone else has to do it for you

WAIT

HIS NAME WON’T ACTUALLY BE WANDERER IN GAME AFTER I NAME HIM

GIRL 

I'M SCARED

NOW I REALLY GOTTA GET SERIOUS

After some consideration

I’ve decided to name him Vega.

A fallen star who attempted to cast himself out of the false sky.

But returned alongside the light to reclaim what was always his own.

Aka

Aether is the sky

Lumine is the light

Paimon has been alluded to being the moon

So, he’s the stars.  

God that took like 30 minutes.

“Are you sure?”

Ion man let me spend another 30 minutes doing that

AND THUS

Vega was born.

OH MY GOD WAIT

IM SO SMART

HE REALLY WAS A FALLING STAR BECAUSE I WISHED FOR HIM AND HE CAME TO ME

LUMINE

THE LIGHT

OUT FROM THE SKY

AAAAAAAAAA

I picked the best name, NOBODY CAN SAY SHIT TO ME

Oh the Fatui? Yeah we gon link up for that one.

Ion about all that

I did not just give you a name, just for you to die

You will live.

That is your punishment.

Girl look at the fanfic writer in me just saying shit

I’m not gonna lie, I’m like so excited that I see his name there

Look at what I did y’all!

I did that!

My dog is trying to sleep and I’m about to go get this tacos.

So sorry my beloved

…So before—

WHO THE FUCK

WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS IS RHINEDOTTIR

OR THE CRYO ARCHON

OR ANOTHER DESCENDER

(Hello it's me from the after-writing this! Yeah, pretty sure it's Mona's Teacher actually)

…Y’all we are still not done with Sumeru’s story what the fuck is going on

Yeah, you can’t really trust your eyes since things can be changed. 

But…

Anyway…that’s that on that.

He’s also still erased from everyone’s voicelines.

[sellieellie]

hi

i feel like i need to talk so i’m back.

i’m honestly not even sure why i’m using fake names because it’s not like any of my friends would ever find this. and tbh if they did, i’m not really hiding anything. so idk. no one even reads these anyway lol.

will and connor have been getting closer now that the go to college together. i sometimes wish i was there with them. i think life would be a lot more fun. idk. it would make me feel a lot less homesick and i think i’d be able to stay at school for longer. but i know people would judge me because i would be going from a big university to a little one. idk. i know where i’m at now is probably better for my academics.

will is doing a lot better. he never answered my text but he still snapchats me and texts me in group texts now. he was hanging out with connor the other night and texted that he thinks we really have a chance for something to happen. he said that connor was saying the things that guys usually say when they really like a girl. idk. next time that happens i’m gonna ask if connor is sober. because i think about this very often. it just doesn’t feel like connor likes me because he never really texts me and we only talk when he’s in town. it makes me sad. i just wish he’d make more of an effort with me.

i’m also afraid because he keeps telling will that he doesn’t feel like he’s good enough for me and i’m kind of inclined to agree. i just don’t think he’s ready to be a boyfriend again. he sucks at communicating and i don’t even know what he wants to do with his life. we only talk when he’s drunk. i just don’t know. but i also feel like he’s saying that as an attempt to let me down easy and subtly say he’s not interested.

there’s also this small part of me that still is interested in spencer. and i thought he had a girlfriend but he didn’t post her for valentine’s day so i don’t really know. and i don’t know if it’s love. but i’ve liked him for so long and i keep thinking about the fact that if he asked, i would go back to him immediately. but i know he wouldn’t. he’s over me. he’s been over me. and he would never do that to connor. but a small part of me is still in love with him. if it’s even love. i don’t know if i know what that feels like.

i cleaned my depression room which was nice. i needed to do that. classes are going alright i guess. things are just. regular. i don’t know. i miss my friends a lot.

i’ve kinda noticed that everyone prefers bella to me except for spencer. i think that’s why it felt so good with him, because he saw the way that she treated me. but everyone treats her like some sort of god. and don’t get me wrong i love the girl, but i just wish people cared about what i have to say. it makes me sad because connor says he likes me, but he obviously enjoys bella’s company more. it makes me wonder if he’s going after me because he wants to be closer with her. even if it’s subconsciously. it could be true. i don’t know.

i could be majorly overthinking it. but i feel like a pleasant surprise is better than an unpleasant one, you know what i mean?

anyways. i think that’s it for now. can’t wait for spring break, there’s just a month left. and i think i’ll get to see everyone when they all come home. i’m excited.