#anywayyyy cute yay

[hyperfixation-fix]

Aight so.

Just reblogged a post that mentioned Nico canonically having depression (totally agree), but I wanted to talk about my other headcanons around Nico's mental health AND MORE IMPORTANTLY his recovery journey.

(AN IMPORTANT NOTE: I'm very wary of talking about headcanons involving mental illness, bc it can easily cross the line into romanticising mental illness. I grew up in that kind of online space, and it's toxic af and makes recovery almost impossible. So I want to emphasise, especially for younger fans who read this - Nico gets better, canonically and in my headcanons. So did I. So will you. It takes work, and often it's not a painless or pretty process, but it's so much better than letting yourself rot away in the dark. Romanticise being well, being happy, and getting better.)

In my head, Nico is autistic. But I think he's been so traumatised and so dissociated for so long that he doesn't even really realise how much things affect him, how much easier things could be if he gave himself permission to be the way he is.

FOR EXAMPLE. I think he is specifically very sensory-sensitive, but he's so disconnected from his body and brain that he doesn't really realise it. He just always feels Bad™️ and has never been safe enough to figure out why. So then, once he gets comfortable at CHB and really starts to finally feel safe and present, he starts to slowly untangle things bit by bit. Will is a big part of this - he's very intuitive and notices stress queues in Nico before Nico even realises he's stressed.

It starts off with Will noticing Nico avoiding crowds, which isn't necessarily weird for a kid who spent the last several years with ghosts, but then he realises it's not actually the people that bother him. It's the noise. Like, Nico avoids the Apollo Cabin as much as possible, even when it's completely empty except for Will, bc it's constantly got music playing a little too loud. Nico doesn't even really know why he doesn't like it and doesn't really bother thinking much about it, but Will is like "huh that's interesting". And, as he gets closer with Nico, that pattern becomes more and more apparent - in noisy places, Nico becomes tense and guarded, but in quiet places he's more relaxed. Then Will notices Nico's sensitivity to textures. Some clothes are consistently "grumpy Nico clothes" and some are "happy Nico clothes".

Will decides to run little experiments, making subtle changes around Nico and taking note of Nico's reaction. For example, suggesting Nico change clothes before a date because "I like the black jeans better" ie "the black jeans are a softer denim and stiff denim makes you grumpy". Or swapping out Nico's sheets bc "whoops my bad, I was practicing wound cleaning and spilled supplies all over them! But don't worry, I've replaced them with a new set so it's all good," ie "your sheets were cheapass 100% cotton and rough af and that's why you haven't had a good night's sleep like, ever, so here's a high-quality satin (or whatever, idk fabrics) set that probably won't bother you as much." And lo and behold, Nico sleeps like a baby every night after that. Or orchestrating a whole plan to get Nico into the Apollo Cabin when it's quiet (music gets turned low, siblings are threatened with weeks of dish duty if they don't keep it down), and seeing if he's less on edge. AND HE IS.

And eventually Nico picks up on Will's increasingly elaborate accommodation experiments (Will is simply having way too much fun at this point - he feels super sneaky, finds it hilarious that Nico still isn't noticing, and also just loves seeing Nico less stressed out) and is like "Solace I know you're up to something, out with it or else." And at that point Will is like "ok bet" and pulls out a fucking spreadsheet (Annabeth taught him how to use excel (yeh I know demigods don't vibe with tech but this is my headcannon so deal with it) with great joy and little-to-no interest in why he actually wanted to learn) with a bunch of Nico's triggers and sensitivities and the success rates of different accommodations. Nico is like "I'm actually going to kill you, you've been fucking with my brain for months????" but is barely containing how curious he is and how sweet he actually finds it that Will has thought so much about how to make Nico happy. But Will knows, especially when Nico, even while grumbling, takes the spreadsheet with him.

The next day Will presents Nico with a present he was saving for the final big-reveal: some loop earplugs or something similar. Discrete and practical 😌 Will just leaves them next to Nico's bed with a cute lil sticky note that says "Before you orchestrate my untimely demise as promised, give these a go. Consider it the last request of a dead man walking ;) love you Neeks x".

And that's that. The earplugs make a massive difference, much to Nico's surprise and Will's smug satisfaction, and from then on Nico starts to reconnect with himself and gets better and better at recognising things that make him more comfortable, and using them. Will considers his experiment over (a resounding success, of course), but is unwaveringly supportive and helpful as Nico figures stuff out.

Lol that became very long sorry, but it made me happy to write it out hehehe

[gardens-of-may]

ENTRY THREE - chap. 50 to end

spoilers ahead

i don’t remember what happened 

yay

i know what happened tho

i’m not going to tell you 😋

suck it ha!

wakey wakey 

katharine hmm

A SCAVENGER HUNT?

WHAT

THEY KNOW EACH OTHER???

YES PEOPLE WHI ARE RACIST GO FUCK YOURSELF

AND MAKE JT HURT

WHAT

WXCUSE ME

WHAT THE HELL

saturday mornings

not a scavenger hunt then?

SYOP WITH GEB POV SWICTHSZ

i js realized both of the boys are dealing with their fathers

skye might be a pretty name but the human is actually vile

hmm

MY GID SAVANNAH

if gray hurts himself I WILL SUE

HAHAHA HIS HELLO THING IS THE CUTEST EVWR

IM GONNA CRY

CRY INTO MY BOWL OF INSATNT RAMBEN

ehehehe thomas thomas?

EW EW EW EW EW EWWWWW EUGH EW EW EW

EAHEHEJ SEE JDWB CSS EJR

WHAT THE FUCJ IS THAT BITVH SOING HERE

IM GOING TO FUCKING MILL HER

IT ACTUALLY THAT BITCH ISNT A PERSON

bitch…

YOU WILL BE FUCKING DEAD

AUGHHHH

THIS IS LIKE THE SECOND TIME GRAY HAS HAD A GUN PULLED ON HIM BECAUSE OF YOU

KYS

i bet IT sounds like a wet dog

but an ugly dog not a cute dog 

what the hell

LET ME JS EAT MY BROWNIES IN PEACE FOR GODS SAKE

no we no we NO. WE. 

AUGHHHH

bitch ☺️

KILL YOURSELT

she talks like she’s so wise and blah blah and respected but no

everyone HATES HER GUTS

DONT CALL HIM TAHT YOU ADRESS HIM AS FUCKING MR. HAWTHORNE OR SMTH STFU

you’re alone?

KILL YOURSELF THEN YOULL BE IN HELL WITH ALL THE OTHER DEMKNS

one

I DONT CARE NO ONE CARES

why I HATT YWOU

FUCK YOU

KILL YOURSELF

throw her in the pool 

DROWN HER

it’s a promise I WILL ENTER THIS FUCKING BOOK AND PUT YOU SIX FEET UNDER

WHAT HAPPENED

oh hi nash ☺️

AND XANDER AHENDKKW

anyway WHY IS GIGI UNCONSCIOUS???

oh

oh gigi 

awww ticklish gray 

i love her SO MUCH

FOUR CUPS OF COFFEE

MY GOD GIGI

omg it’s like me after the sols times one hundred 

I HATE POV SWITCHING 

I DONT CAREEEEE ABOUT JAMESON

well

anywayyyy

😕😕😕

please don’t get distracted, we know your girlfriend is hot but don’t

we’ll celebrate 

we know

le oop 

A HINT???

NOT A POV SWITCH

fhehsha HIS SISTERS 🥰🥰

NOT A FLASHBACK

eugh 

THROWING UP 🤮 

it’s her

em*ly 🤢🤢

ughhhhh

IM GONNA SCREAM WHERE IS MY AVERY

😳😳😳

NO???

EXCUSE ME

i don’t really think you do love them 

ARGH

WHACKING RN

oh. poor gray. 

LYRA 😍😍

she’s alive bro

OH MY GOD 

i’m back bitches

EWWWW

I CANNIT WITH BLOODY DIRT FINGERS

ARGHHH

bribing

my favorite 

GIGI 😭

no it’s alright girl i’d do the same 

oh. 

I LOVE ACACIA OMG

SHES WIDNERFUL

POOKIE

I FORGIT ABKR THE BUTCH

awww 🥰 

cookies 🍪 

😐😐😐

I CANNOT WITH THESE POV SWITCHES

UGH MORW BLOUD

AVERY WHAT THE FUCK

so no one won the game

JAHAHAH

oh ☹️

he’s really lonely 

IS IT THAT BITCH

EUGHHB EVEN WORDE ITS UGLY GUY

is he dead?

WHAT THE FUCK

HUH

EUGH

UGLY GUY WHAT

GIGI WHAT

btw maisie peters IS gigi

eve is a bitch who should be six feet under 

huh 

awww 🥰 

no now i’m crying 

ohhhhh shittyttttt

oh. 

AAYLDUXC

my heart HAS BEEN RIPPED OUT 

tears on my pillow 

THATS TERRIBLE MINDSET 

THAT FUCKING RXCUSE OF A GRANDFATHER MESSED THEM SO BAD

is zella alice?

she’s right. rich white boys het farrr in life 

oh

BRUH

LYRA 😍😍😍

BITCH WHAT DO YOU MEAN 

YOU PULLED A GUN ON HIM AND YOU EXPECT TO BE BESTIES

WHATTTTT

bitch jamie can’t even come

he needs to laugh

stop 💀

omg that would be fucking terrifying 

gigi and gray’s relationship means so much to me 

well i already knew that so hahaha

BITCHBBBHBBV

I HAVE NEVER HAGED SOMEONE MORE THAN THIS FUCKING BITCHASS IF A GIRL

why would you end a book like that?

now i am going to go chug some coffee and we are jumping straight into the grandest game 

the end. 

[gg-sky--gg-sky]

Spooky Season Date// Tom Felton

Y/n’s POV- I stood next to the cider booth cuddling into my sweater as I waited for Tom to get back with our ciders. I spotted him on his way over to me holding two disposable cups with apples printed on them. “Here you go love,” he smiled at me as he handed me my warm cider. I smiled at him taking it in my hands and sipping the warm liquid. “Thank you,” I smiled once my throat was warm again. “Let’s go to the pumpkins before all the stations are full!” he said excitedly, grabbing my hand and pulling me towards the pumpkin carving stations… “Stop looking, it's a surprise!!!” he tried blocking my view of his pumpkin as I tried to take a peek. “I just need some inspiration,” I laughed. “Look on Pinterest or something” he shot back laughing. “Ughhh I have no thoughts” I whined, shaking my pumpkin… “Ok ready?” he asked. “Almost… Just one more detail…” I said trying to add a little something to my pumpkin. “Ok let’s go” y/n. “Ready… 3 2 1 go!” t. We both turned around showing each other our pumpkins and Tom bursted out laughing at my pumpkin. “How dare you laugh at my pumpkin?” I gasped, fake offended and started laughing as well. “I’m not laughing,” he said, laughing at my pumpkin that had a little smiling face in the middle and some random designs all around it. “My pumpkin is cute, your pumpkin just looks like-” y/n, “Like it was carved by a professional? Yeah I know” he smirked holding up his traditional spooky face pumpkin with pride. “Whatever, it looks good I guess,” I rolled my eyes playfully… “C’mon just one more bottle!” I cheered for Tom as he tried to knock down the last bottle on the shelf. “Yay!!!!!” I cheered as he knocked down the last bottle. I raised my hands in excitement and went up to him. He embraced me and spun me around in excitement. “Which prize would you like sir?” the kid handling the booth said in a monotone voice. “I’ll take that one,” Tom said, pointing to a pumpkin stuffie they had displayed. “Have a great afternoon,” the kid said, handing him the plush and taking his phone out. “Damn. It really sucks that much to work here,” Tom laughed as we walked away. “Kid is probably just tired that he has to deal with people like us all day,” I chuckled. Tom handed me the plushie as he intertwined his fingers with mine holding my hand. “What?” I asked, holding up the plush. “I won it for you,” he smiled. “Awe how cute” I smiled holding it close to my chest… “Well I guess we go our separate ways then” Tom said looking kinda sad. “Well we don’t have to…” I looked at him suggestively. “What did you have in mind?” He asked, raising his eyebrows at me… “You have to get in there. Really work it” Tom said guiding my hands. “I’m tired” I groaned as I kneaded the dough. “Alright that’s fine, we don’t want to overwork the dough” t. “When I said I wanted to make cookies I was thinking we could just go get dough. I didn’t want to make them from scratch” I laughed as I began cleaning up the flour left on the counter. I was wiping the flour onto a dust pan when I tripped over something on the floor, falling forward a bit before I caught myself. “Oh my gosh. I’m so sorry” I laughed looking up at a flour covered Tom. He turned around, his mouth in an O shape, shocked that he just felt his whole body get covered with flour. “This requires revenge” he nodded his head, giving me evil eyes. “No, I swear it was an accident,” I said, backing up and extending my arms out to keep him away. He grabbed some flour from the counter and threw it at my head. I gasped in surprise as he laughed at my shocked expression. “Awe naw dawg” I glared at him grabbing some more flour from the counter. He realized and ran away from me circling the island I had in my kitchen… “Well that was something” Tom laughed wiping some flour from his forehead. “It sure was. I really hope these cookies come out good” I laughed along with him washing my hands in the sink… “Do we just eat these in silence now?” Tom asked looking down at the cookies we just decorated. “Well we could watch a movie” I suggested. “Yeah, yeah. Just don’t say-’ T. “Harry Potter?!” I said excitedly. “Ughhh I knew it” Tom rolled his eyes. “Oh c'mon it’s spooky season and I usually watch Harry Potter around this time anywayyyy” I tried convincing him. “Fine, fine. But then we have to watch something else so I can forget the cringiness” he sighed…“Well I guess it’s time I should I’ll be heading off then” Tom smiled looking down at me. “I guess it is. I had a great time with you though” I smiled up at him. He bit his lip slightly before dipping his head down to meet my lips in a quick kiss. “We should do this again sometime” he smiled, his cheeks getting red. “We definitely should” I smiled, watching him walk away.

-SKY

[saorintranslations]

Amazing♪Onoda Saori (2020-4-4)

🍋 She who’s already slept a bit、I’m Saori♪

  Yesterday’s blog comments、I read them all！

  Thank you very much 😊

  Everyone、you all like chiffon cake too right！

  It was delicious！！！！

  Aーnーdーーーーーー

  Instagram、everyone thank you for checking ours ✨😀

  Really、wasn't it a pointless video？？

  If some day、I feel like making another pointless video I’ll post it！

     Lookie Lookieー！！！！

  The other day、I received this from my Mama。

 [Text: Saorin, Congratulations on your high school graduation]

Yay！！！！！！！

  It’s cute and a surprise present✨

  That’s rightー Saori’s not a high schooler anymoreー、、、

  But my last JK、I enjoyed it until the very end！

  Everyone、what do you think？？？

  Y’know、I don’t really feel like a full-fledged member of society yet。

  There will also be loーts of people who are starting a new school or a new job✨

  Please do your best！！！！！！

  I’m supporting you( •̀ᴗ•́ )/

  Y’know、I’d be happy if you come and read Saori’s blog as a breather？笑笑lollol

  Well、I just want you to come and read it anywayyyy！！！！！！😂😂

  Ah、April is already well underway！

  Let’s do our bestーーーー 😀

       🍭 💧 A notice〜♡

❤️ Tsubaki Factory Live Tour 2020 Spring Tsubaki

 I wanna siーng。

  Bye bye♡

#saori#lovescookies#iwonderificaneatit#笑笑lollol

Original - https://ameblo.jp/tsubaki-factory/entry-12587111752.html

[notyobabygirl]

thank u so much angel!! im the girl with the new friend who thought he was lonely (which ik he is) i met him the exact day him and his ex girl broke up. anywayyyy ur right I’m overthinking it!! im going to the movies this Friday with him and i plan on having fun w/o overthinking anything. We’re friends cause we wanna be friends. Thanks for your positive energy and great advice 💗

yay i’m so happy for you!!!! that’s cute you guys are going to the movies. a fun fact about me is that i love the movies lol. have the best time let me know how the movies goes please!!!! love you beautiful xx

[yarrowmagdalena]

Image by @frances_cannon Celebrating myself for completing my celebrant training and running a cute online workshop on embodied tarot and tea magic this weekend. ⠀ ⠀ Have you also taken too many courses out of imposter syndrome? Especially at the beginning of my entrepreneurial journey (ugh that sounds weird) I was full of imposter syndrome and easy prey for overpriced business or self-development courses. I am not saying at all that online courses, especially with live content, shouldn't never be a substantial investment, I am just saying that I personally did spend money I didn't have out of insecurity and then get overwhelmed with all the content that was/is available to me. Big bummer. Would love that cash and time back and am thinking and dreaming lots about ways in which we can make skillsharing both accessible for students and sustainable for sharer/teachers. ⠀ ⠀ Anywayyyy, the celebrant training at the school of celebrancy within #OBOD was one of the courses that felt really worthwhile and had a fair price with good support. I will weave what I have learned into my tarot readings and custom rituals and focus on embodiment, queer love and radical self-love celebrations. Yay for doing all the weird shit I never thought was possible!⠀ ⠀ #queerlove #radicalselflove #celebrant #embodiment #tarotreader #ritualmagic https://ift.tt/2yG5H0I

[brokegrrrl]

Moving into a new place and patiently waiting to unpack & purchase all the things that make home feel like home is HARD lmao. Amy and I were in desparate need of some selfcare items & toiletries that were cruelty free and sustainable Here's our lil haul plus bonus gifts from my cute friend Jen!!?? She pleasantly suprised me with goodies from colourpop AGAIN 😢 ANYWAYYYY, tap for the brands I could find. All items are marked 'not tested on animals', 'cruelty free', and or 'vegan'. Yay! #haul #crueltyfree #crueltyfreemakeupartist #sustainable #recycled #selfcare #makeup #skincare #haircare #brokegrrrl #colourpop