#as someone whos afraid of commitment. that's wild

[libraincarnate]

🦋 astrology notes: 14 🦋

quick note: i'm absolutely not an astrologer. these are just a collection of some of my observations, thoughts, theories, and personal experiences. above all this is just for fun. lastly, these may or may not apply to you but they may apply to someone you know. enjoy!

ꕤ venus-mars aspects: people with this aspect may feel good/beautiful when moving their body. they could really enjoy sex, stretching, exercising, playing sports, dancing, etc. could be into getting massages, doing their skin/hair care routine, eating healthy & more cause overall, they’re taking care of their body/themselves and they’re into that. there’s a desire to connect with their body and actually listen to what it wants and/or needs. they want to feel good and look good & they probably have a nice body too.

ꕤ neptune-uranus aspects: can indicate a wild sleeper. the type to shift the blankets from one end of the bed to the other, waking up with their pillow in weird positions or they themselves are hanging off the side of the bed. could accidentally hit people while they’re asleep if they share a bed with someone. may have strange dreams, possibly spiritual/prophetic ones too.

ꕤ libra venus: they want an equal relationship with equal effort. if they have kids with someone, they expect that person to be as involved as they are when it comes to parenting. it's a partnership so no one should be doing more than the other, it should be *balanced*. they absolutely know how to make a person feel loved, adored, and appreciated. they can be quite lovey-dovey & they also want to be doted on too. they want someone who makes them feel comfortable enough to not have to look or act perfect all the time. they want their partner to see their beauty on the outside & the inside too. even if it's not fun to admit, they know they’re not truly perfect and they want someone who will accept the parts of them that aren’t beautiful, the parts they're insecure of. yes they love compliments but genuine ones from their lover that aren’t always about their appearance are meaningful and cherished.

these people are so caring. this is a sweetheart placement. with that being said they expect their partner to be nice to them 98% of the time. this doesn’t mean you can’t tease them or make jokes, but just don’t overdo it or be rude. so this doesn’t necessarily mean that they want an extremely nice or gentle bf/gf, but rather someone who’s never truly mean to them and shows them the same amount of love & consideration.

ꕤ virgo sun/rising/venus & lilith in the 2nd house: may feel ugly or uncomfortable wearing heavy makeup. they’re so used to being natural that they feel as if they look too different wearing lots of makeup or even a little. could feel as though it emphasizes their features in a way that they don’t like because it comes off too strong. they’re just used to & prefer that natural look, but they may prefer light/subtle makeup, like that “no makeup” makeup look.

ꕤ if you feel like you don’t relate to certain placements in your natal chart, check the persona chart of that planet and look for that same planet within that persona chart. you may find that you can relate to it a bit more or it can reveal something else about that part of you/your life, maybe help you connect the dots.

for example, if you feel like your venus placement in your natal chart doesn’t really apply to you, check your venus placement in your venus persona chart. or if it’s your moon then look for the placement of the moon in your moon persona chart.

ꕤ the placement of sagittarius in your chart can show you where you might be afraid to commit: 

in the 4th house - could be afraid to start a family of your own because of how much your children/family would depend on you and because of how much you’d be responsible for another person.

in the 7th house - could be afraid to commit to long term relationships that may lead to marriage because you view it as something spiritually and/or legally binding (to an extent), and the idea of that sounds restrictive or "too permanent" & daunting, even if you're in love, so you may self-sabotage. your lack of commitment here might also be because you don't feel comfortable trusting others/being vulnerable. plus, sag is an honest sign that cares about integrity so if they make a vow they won't want to dishonor it. but then there's the possibilty/fear of being trapped in a miserable or lifeless marriage, or being unable to leave without conflict or upsetting consequences.

in the 6th house - could run from your daily responsibilities/routine if it lacks variety. can be afraid to commit to jobs that may have the potential to become mundane & monotonous, jobs that don't have many opportunities or room for growth and advancement.

ꕤ saturn in the 9th house: may not enjoy going to church, if you we’re born into a religious family this could have been an issue for you, perhaps you have a religious father that is strict and religion may have been a persistent theme that brought about conflict.

ꕤ aries moon: when they’re pissed off you’ll know because they’ll express it verbally and/or physically (this doesn’t necessarily mean they’ll put their hands on you). out of all the different emotions, they probably feel anger the strongest. they’re not the type to hide their emotions like capricorn moons and that’s probably because they usually can’t no matter how much they want to or try to.  

they are direct & unafraid of confrontation, but if they tell you that you hurt them then they care about you because that’s not something they’ll easily and openly admit. they’re loyal so they take it to heart when someone they love/trust wrongs them. if that person doesn’t have a good reason then they’re most likely cut off because aries now sees them as disloyal & untrustworthy.

aries likes to be in control, but with the moon here they can struggle to have control over their emotions because they feel things so forecully, not being in control only makes them more irritated, and they can be quite irritable. 

ꕤ sun in the 7th house (synastry): it can create such a strong bond that it feels like they are your soulmate. it could be hard to separate from each other because it feels like you guys are meant to be. they’re someone you want to share your life with. life is better with them. things can feel gloomy when there are problems between you two or when they’re not around & so this can also be a clingy placement. but that’s probably because they make you feel warm, safe, and overall they’re just one of your favorite people. 

ꕤ leo mercury / leo in the 3rd house: they’re quite descriptive & they incorporate lots of figurative language in their everyday speech whether it be personification, exaggeration, or similes/metaphors. with that being said they can be funny and make good story tellers. they draw people in with the way they speak and keep them interested. could be good at voice acting and imitating the voice of another such as singers or actors. these individuals have some bright ideas & they could probably write great books too.

ꕤ lilith in the 6th house: i’ve mentioned that taurus in the 6th house can have messy traits but lilith in the 6th house takes the cake imo. like they can be straight up dirty, sorry not sorry. the types to not clean up after themselves. they’re not afraid to get their hands dirty and i mean that literally. like no gloves needed ever lol & then they’ll “clean” their hands by running it under water for 2 seconds. also the types to not follow the rules or the steps of doing something. they do things their way or in a way that’s uncommon/different but they can also remain calm and focused in chaotic & unorganized environments.

ꕤ sun in the 4th: these people would make really good house wives or stay at home moms. they’re just good at being domestic and naturally good at running a household. they’re the glue to the family. i know the 4th house isn’t related to marriage/romantic relationships but to me, women with this placement exude the traits of the perfect/noble wife described in Proverbs 31:10-31. 

or if a guy has a capricorn sun here for example, he may be an absolute family man. someone reliable and a true provider who is dedicated, involved, and loyal to his family.

overall these people can be very family-oriented.

ꕤ chiron in the 5th house: you have a bold/bright personality that makes you stand out. when you’re expressing yourself or simply being yourself, you might get negative reactions and unkind comments from others which causes you to shrink back and hide that awesome personality of yours. you feel insecure about being yourself & so you may also have self-esteem issues. but that confidence is definitely within you, it's innate.

those reactions/comments probably come from people who are unhappy, not comfortable with themselves, or they're jealous & they wish could get the attention that you receive without trying. but that’s not your fault so keep being you baby!

these natives could also be the type to come off as quiet/shy but they aren’t. they’re actually fun, creative, talented, and a joy to be around, but they struggle to see that for themselves. 

ꕤ gemini or pisces rising / in the 1st house - especially if you also have a gemini/pisces moon or your chart ruler (mercury/neptune) is in the 5th house of fun, games/toys, & creativity:

* this is so long i'm so sorry *

i feel like these natives had lots of dolls, toys, and/or stuffed animals growing up. they probably always had at least one throughout their life and they still do even if they’re now older, mature, or no longer play with them because gem and pisces both have this playful, fun, & childlike energy.

the rising & 1st house is heavily focused on how you project/express yourself and who you are, both your inner & outer self. so regardless of age or maturity, these traits typically remain present in gem/pisces because it’s just a big part of their identity. & the moon is how we experience, process, and express our emotions. so for some, it becomes less of a toy and more of a sentimental item, something they’re emotionally attached to.

with gemini & pisces, it’s like they are here but they’re not lol they’re physically present but mentally elsewhere in some other world of their own. they’re the types to entertain themselves in their minds.

gem is ruled by mercury so they’re always in their head talking to themselves, thinking of anything & everything whether it be funny, brilliant, bizarre, or ingenious. they get lost in their thoughts. but we do the same with toys, we talk to them as if they were real or could respond, we create these conversations and social interactions, we give them a voice, “making” them say the most silly, funny, and crazy things. 

pisces is ruled by neptune and so they’re creative and always in their head day dreaming of different scenarios, people/characters, and possibilities. they get lost in their imagination. and with toys, we become both actors & directors, assigning different roles/characters to different dolls and stuffed animals, but also to ourselves. we set the scene, dress them up, do their makeup, and “make” them act out whatever we imagine. 

& when you think about dolls/toys/stuffed animals and the way that they’re typically played with, you think of personification or a sense of bringing to life/animation, imagination, children, entertainment, pretending, creativity, etc. plus, the whole concept is kind of bizarre if you think about it lol

this made me look up barbie’s chart because she’s one of the most popular dolls/toys and it’s so funny how she’s a gemini rising & pisces sun/moon.

if you read this until the end, i hope you enjoyed it & thank you so much for reading. ♥︎♥︎♥︎, those hearts are for you.

[astroa3h]

Juno through the houses ✨💖

Juno in the 1st House: If Juno is in your 1st House, your soulmate is likely someone who mirrors you. They're not just a partner; they're like your other half. They get your quirks, they match your energy, and they understand your need for independence and personal space. It's like finding someone who completes your sentences.

Juno in the 2nd House: Here, your soulmate is your rock. They're dependable, maybe even a bit traditional. They value stability and comfort, and they make you feel secure. They're the type who would rather have a quiet night in with you than a wild night out. It's all about building a solid, comfortable life together.

Juno in the 3rd House: Communication is key for you. Your soulmate is someone you can talk to for hours without getting bored. They're intellectually stimulating, curious, and maybe a bit of a chatterbox. They're the kind of person who loves to learn and share ideas with you. It's like having your best conversation partner for life.

Juno in the 4th House: Home is where the heart is for you. Your soulmate feels like home. They're nurturing, caring, and maybe a bit of a homebody. They value family and traditions. With them, you feel an emotional depth and security. It's like finding someone who wants to build a cozy nest with you.

Juno in the 5th House: Get ready for some fun! Your soulmate is likely creative, playful, and a bit of a romantic. They love to have a good time, and they bring out your playful side. They're the type who surprises you with a spontaneous road trip or a creative date night. Life with them is never boring.

Juno in the 6th House: Practicality rules here. Your soulmate is someone who's reliable and maybe a bit of a perfectionist. They're organized and love to take care of the details. They show their love through acts of service - think making you breakfast or helping you organize your closet. It's about finding joy in the day-to-day life together.

Juno in the 7th House: Balance and harmony are essential for you. Your soulmate is someone who seeks equality and partnership. They're fair, diplomatic, and maybe a bit of a peacemaker. They value relationships and are committed to making it work. It's about finding someone who's truly your equal partner.

Juno in the 8th House: Get ready for intensity. Your soulmate is passionate, maybe a bit mysterious. They're all about deep connections and aren't afraid to explore the darker sides of life with you. It's a transformative relationship, where you both grow and change together.

Juno in the 9th House: Adventure awaits! Your soulmate loves to explore, whether it's through travel, philosophy, or spirituality. They're open-minded and seek growth and expansion. They're the type who would love to go on a backpacking trip across Europe with you or explore different cultures and ideas.

Juno in the 10th House: Ambition is key here. Your soulmate is career oriented, driven, and maybe a bit of a public figure (especially if you have Juno at a fame degree). They're respected and maybe have a bit of a status. They inspire you to reach for your goals and support your ambitions.

Juno in the 11th House: Think of a relationship that feels like a friendship. Your soulmate is likely social, idealistic, and values freedom and equality. They're the type who loves to be part of a community and may be involved in social causes. It's about finding someone who shares your dreams for a better world.

Juno in the 12th House: This is a deep, spiritual connection. Your soulmate is intuitive, empathetic, and may have a strong inner life. They understand your need for solitude and introspection. It's like having a connection that transcends words. I also find this placement shows a soulmate with dark eyes and hair.

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[asmoslverboy]

A moment of curiosity: Dottore. (male!reader) (also, not very serious of a fic.)

"So, you're basically saying that you killed a previous lover?" You ask him, furrowing your eyebrows. You weren't as scared as you were amazed. Intrigued, perhaps? I mean, not only did he manage to make a woman fall in love with him whlist his reputation was below the rocks— he also took her out on a date and killed her. And on top of that, he made it look like wild animals committed all those unspeakable crimes to her.

Dottore simply looks at you, his head cocked to the side, his lip curled as if he was two steps away from inviting you in his bed. "It is wonderful, is it not? I must admit, it was not one of my easiest feats back in the day, nor one of the most... rational ones, however, the reactions I recieved— nay, the situation received— were quite the satisfactory ones."

"So what you're telling me is that you were an impulsive, little attention seeker?"

"That's not quite what i–" Dottore stopped mid sentence, suddenly the correspondence of your words hitting him like a bunch of bricks that were caught up in a hurricane.

"This is not– there is no need to dwell on my past acts, my darling boy. They are not relevant to the current me in any shape, way, or form." He cleared his throat. "And she wasn't my lover, moreso just someone who happened to experience college crushes through my image."

With that, you sat on his lap, as you often did. "Would you have killed me, too, if I was in her place?" You were unserious in that matter, obviously, though Dottore seemed to take your question in the unintended sense.

"Entirely depends on how you'd have been in her place. If you were to simply act like her, with the only difference being your appearance; then I'm afraid the outcome would have been no different. However, if you were one who crushed on me in my days at the Akademiya, and you approached said crush as you did in our actual past, I'm certain that we'd have ended up in a similar position as we are now"

Does this man ever take breaths as speaks?

"Besides, my little prince, how would it be possible that you took her place, in order for that to—..."

Perhaps you should have never asked. Unfortunately for you, and for any passing by his office, he would not stop yapping about the scientific possibilities of the scenario you suggested.

[hedgehog-moss]

Rooster update: he is a gentleman so far. He follows my hen everywhere at a polite and respectful distance, scanning the area for enemies. I’ve not seen him make any advances whatsoever, he doesn’t seem interested in becoming a father; either he’s too young, or still a bit stressed and disconcerted by his change of environment, or he doesn’t like Dru this way, who knows. Pourvu que ça dure...!

Maybe Dru attacked him the first time he tried something—he doesn’t seem afraid of her any more, but the first morning after he arrived, he barrelled past Dru when I opened the coop and ran away flailing his wings, with high-pitched incoherent clucking, as if he were being chased by a pack of wild dogs. Pandolf, my hen and I stood there perplexed and watched him disappear into the forest. Part of me wanted to yell “I didn’t even want you!! you’re free to go!” and go home to have breakfast, but I couldn’t let him commit suicide by fox on his first day, so I took Pan home (thinking maybe the rooster had been scared of him), took my hen under my arm and spent half an hour on a rooster hunt in the woods. Dru clucks in annoyance if you touch her comb, so I would occasionally tickle it and she’d kÔtkÔtkwÊk and sometimes we’d hear a timid kwêk? in response which helped me narrow down the rooster’s position.

We ended up finding him perched on a branch, quite high up. I poked him with a long stick and he grudgingly moved back inch by inch until he was low enough for me to go up on tiptoes and pluck him like a large fruit. Then I carried him home singing the ballad of Sir Robin. When danger reared its ugly head / he bravely turned his tail and fled—Dru actually seems glad for his company, but she doesn’t know that this anxious bird is supposed to guard her from predators.

Here’s our boldly brave sir Robin strutting gallantly (photo taken with zoom because if I come any closer he flees)

Well, Dru’s new coopmate is very good at being a rooster in one capacity and that is crowing. He starts bright and early and continues throughout the day at random times, a beautifully-enunciated cocorico (he’s french)—I quite like it! The walls of my house are thick enough that it doesn’t wake me up in the morning, and during the day it’s a pleasant addition to the soundscape.

I had lunch with the librarian today and told her all about the rooster, and how I probably won’t be able to keep him since I’ll never meet the recommended minimum amount of hens per rooster. With 2 hens I already have a dozen eggs a week and that’s more than enough for me (+ cats and dog who also enjoy eggs.) The librarian was Team Rooster and said I should get more hens and bring her the eggs. “I’ll find clients.” She was already picturing herself as the nexus of a flourishing library-based egg trade, but most people around here keep chickens so I don’t think the demand will be there.

I showed someone else a picture of my rooster at the grocery shop and she exclaimed “He’s very decorative!” which I think would have made my rooster fluff up with pride. It’s the most validating thing you can say to a male bird. After I summarised the situation, my interlocutor came to the conclusion that I should give him to the librarian so he can become the new library pet. I said “He’ll make a mess” and she said “We can put sawdust on the ground like in old-school cafés...” But then she added that her grandchildren are a bit scared of roosters since they know they can be mean, and they might become afraid of going to the library. We agreed that my rooster shouldn’t be an obstacle to childhood literacy.

[sciderman]

I really don't like how we're just glossing over the fact that Gwen cheated on Peter let alone MJ hiding this from him.

who's glossing? i'm writing a whole fic about it.

2. they were on a BREAK

3. you're forgetting that peter and gwen are dramatic irony the couple™ and at exactly the precise same time gwen had her tongue down mary jane's throat peter had his tongue down harry's. the exact same night.

the joke is that peter has been burying all this guilt for years thinking that he'd failed gwen and was terrible and dishonest and she was an angel who was too good for him until he finds out. gwen was always just as much of a messy bitch as he was. but he was too busy spiralling in his own messes to realise that gwen was just as messy as he was.

4. mj didn't tell him, sure. but that's because she assumed gwen told him. i don't think mj's the sort of girl to say "hey by the way i fucked your girlfriend shitlips" even if that would be hilarious. she didn't think it was a secret though and definitely thought gwen told peter.

and yeah. i'd hesitate to call it cheating - they were definitely on a break. they might not have laid down a law, and definitely both feel ridiculously guilty about it, but they. were. on a break.

i think it was just a necessary thing, for both of them.

i think for me, i'm not about the moral black-and-white of relationships - it always got me down when people point at the piña colada song saying it's terrible. it's about cheating. that's objectively bad and evil so says it in the bible thou shall not commit adultery yadda yadda yadda. no, no, shut up. that's not what the song is about. the song is about rediscovering there's stuff you've overlooked about your partner. that you can think you love someone, but not actually know them. and you can learn more about them, and realise they're not what you thought, and you can fall in love with them all over again. for me, that's like, the most romantic thing ever, actually. and those who look at it through the "this song is about cheating" lens completely sleep on how genuinely, sincerely cute and romantic it is. that it's a song not about cheating, but discovering stuff you didn't know about your partner, and falling in love with them all over again. finding out that actually, you're both the kind of person who's crazy and lustful for life enough to run away with a romantic stranger on a wild escape, but you were both too afraid to admit that to each other. i love that song. it's so much more sincere and human than any stupid love song. nay sayers get away from me.

i think peter and gwen are a lot like that piña colada song. neither of them are a villain. both of them make mistakes and both of them were messy and both of them had stuff to figure out before they could make it work together.

i... sighs... i'd like people to kind of stop expecting these guys to be right all the time. they're disasters. i wouldn't be interested to write them in any other way. and i promise you wouldn't be interested to read it, either. i'm here for the messy bitches who have stuff to figure out. shout out to the messy bitches who have stuff to figure out.

[crystaldivination]

𝐒𝐀𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔’𝐑𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐄

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮?

⤷ 𝖵𝖺𝗅𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗇𝖾’𝗌 𝗌𝗉𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗅 ⤶

Hello beautiful souls ♡︎ This is the second part of the Valentine's edition. Check out the first part here. I hope to provide you with some lovely and/or helpful messages from your specific person with this intuitive pick a card reading. In this reading we will be looking at what are their feelings for you.

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How to choose a pile? Take a few deep breaths ＆ think of a number from 1 to 3. Trust your intuition to pick your number.

The piles ┊

see below in order ↴

Disclaimer ┊this is a general reading which may or may not resonate with you. Take what resonates and leave out anything that doesn’t. Feel free to choose another pile if you'd like.

PILE ONE

Dear pile 1, your person is in hermit mode. They are likely to have distanced themselves from most things. It could be because their emotions are going wild. They are out of balance right now. You might find them to be more sensitive than normal so it’s best to give them space instead of trying to provoke them. The way they feel doesn’t directly have anything to do with you but it stems from a feeling involving you. They might’ve felt inferior to you, more specifically to someone who’s quite close with you. They felt like they couldn’t keep up with the people in your circle. You guys might’ve met up with your friends or anyone you’re close with and to them it might have been a new experience. They weren’t really used to it and felt a little awkward and uncomfortable. But because they didn’t let it show, you weren’t aware of what was going on with them so you might’ve go on just naturally which might’ve hurt their feelings. The problem here lies in the miscommunication. They might’ve kept it to themselves about how they really felt then and aren’t willing to communicate openly with you about the situation they’re bothered by and you failed to ask them probably about how they sincerely feel. This causes you two to be detached from one another, could even led to coldness between you two while continuing to ignore the problem itself.

They wish to dissolve this sour environment that exists right now by coming up to you but they seem to be hesitant towards that idea. It’s not easy to step up when you’ve been hurt although they know it’s not your fault. It’s solely their own insecurity yet they would want you to make the first step to come to them and encourage them. To comfort you, they are only this way because they love you so much that they're afraid you are too good for them and that you could leave them anytime you want to. They’re really scared to even think of that thought because you’ve grown too deep into their heart which leave them to be so devastated over this. They’re sorry to have caused you stress and made you sad. They want to make up with you this instance and they crave to feel you in their arms. Take your time and run into their arms once you feel the need to do so. They are waiting for you.

Quotes & keywords: "I’m sorry", "don’t you see how devastated I am?", "I’m pathetic right?", "I’m just pretending to be ok", "I swear I don’t mean it", "I mean it", "I love you", blue (vibe), friends, meet up, gloomy, powerless

PILE TWO

Dear pile 2, your person might be a very open-minded and free-spirited person who isn’t used to commitment or dedicating themselves to someone, not after they met you, pile 2. You very much change their whole perspective on love and everything one considers as affection and tenderness. Maybe they’re used to feel ignorance or even intolerance so they didn’t know what those words mentioned above mean and felt like. But with you, they got to experience that. They’ve felt love, the feelings of being in love and being loved by you. You changed their world. They were someone who didn’t take anything seriously because to them not everything has a real meaning. Most of their life they spend being emotionless towards people they’ve encountered with because again they don’t see any purpose to get too close with anyone. They might’ve grown up in a cold and "toxic" environment, leaving them missing that warmth that human and other beings should carry in themselves so that’s one of the things why they are so pitiful. Despite that they were never disrespectful or condescending towards others. They managed to not turned into someone they’re not. They didn’t choose to be cruel, abhorred and heartless. They were the way they are simply because they didn’t master the law of love yet since they didn’t possess it. You saw their good heart from the beginning on that is hidden deep in them and you were not afraid to get near it and take it out. You did it not out of pity but solely out of compassion and empathy for one another being. They realized that your intentions were pure and trusted their own intuition to open themselves up to you. They were comforted by your gentleness and softness. Looking back now they’re really happy they did show themselves to you. Haven’t they done it they wouldn’t have a wonderful connection with someone like you. I heard a chuckle? (They’re the sweetest). They see you as their mentor for life, someone who they could follow everywhere blindly. They feel like you could lead and guide them to their purpose because you’re part of it and they wish to be with you for as long as possible. For the first time they really dream of having a family and a place where they can called their own home. They’d want you to be the mother of their future kids.

Quotes & keywords: mentor, "you’ve changed me in a beautiful way", love, life, YOU, purpose & meaning, bloodline, descendant, family, scenario turning into reality

PILE 3

Dear pile 3, this might seem like a new love story for you. A happy and healthy one especially. Your person might be a very gentle person and they surely admire you a lot. They see you as a wholesome individual who is too precious to even exist in this harsh world. They want to nurture you from the bottom of their heart and always be there for you when you need them. They’re glad to have you in their life. They’re so thankful that you add a more positive and joyful side to their daily life. Before you entered their life they might’ve gone through a lot of difficult situations. They were totally in survival mode, defensive and hostile most of their times in order to survive, literally. They believed that the world was against them and that they only existed to suffer. But then you came and mend that pain and heal that wound of them. They’re grateful they have met you at that time when they were struggling the most and lost all their hope. They truly see you as their savior so they want to cherish and protect you now since you’ve done so much for them already. You make them happy everyday. Everyday with you in their life is a blessing. They might have evolved a lot as a person because of you. They want to do so much for you. You can see this desire and ambition of them through their efforts. They might show up randomly at your workplace to just pick you up after your shift ends or they might surprise you from time to time with gifts. They are always present and available for you. They want to change for the better for you and are working on it to become the person you’re proud to be with. They want you to know that there is still so much to them behind all the things that they’re showing to you. You can expect heartfelt gestures and expressions from them. They’ll be your dream come true like you’re for them as well.

Quotes & keywords: blessing, "you’re my dream come true", "is it my destiny to meet you?", beautiful, lover, a picture paint to live in all of the time, "watch me repeating myself", heart eyes, soft, heartbeats, exciting

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I hope you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading ・❥・

Written with love by Crystal

[judeswhore]

tell me that i’m all you want; steve harrington

summary: everyone in hawkins knows about steve harrington’s somewhat infamous past and with your relationship being new and a little devil on your shoulder you start to worry if you’re simply just his next play thing

pairing: steve harrington x fem!reader

requested: yes

warnings: none

notes: you can find my masterlist here.

“i was thinking we could do dinner tomorrow? and check out the new roller rink that just opened up, you can stay the night if you want, my parents still won’t be back.” steve’s voice was soft, a quiet whisper pushed into the almost silence of his living room. the tv was turned low, the images flashing bright lights over the ceiling, lighting up the room and illuminating both of your faces. his chin settled against the top of your head, finger tips tracing lazy patterns over the bare skin of your thigh. his touch was innocent, almost comforting, but the coil of worry that had taken up residency in your tummy made you think it was anything but.

you were tucked into his side, arm draped over his waist, the cotton of his yellow sweater warm and soft beneath your cheek and it would all be well and good, the perfect evening, if it wasn’t for your cloud of anxiety over your boyfriend’s intentions. his proposal of another night spent at his place sent a wave of uncertainty over you, your body growing a little tense, almost unnoticeably so because you weren’t sure what he wanted. you swallowed thickly, tried not to let your thoughts run wild but it was almost impossible.

your relationship with steve was still new, only a few weeks down the line and while everyone around you had made it known he was a different person, had assured and better assured you that he’d changed, you couldn’t help but question him. you knew all too well of his high school endeavours, had witnessed his reign as king steve, watched the string of girls that followed his every move, girls who always came away broken hearted but with a story to tell. steve had used them, had slept with them and then discarded them, had took pleasure in knowing he could have whoever he wanted, whenever he wanted and didn’t have to worry about commitment or long lasting relationships.

sometimes, when you let yourself fall down that rabbit hole, you wondered if maybe that’s what this was. wondered if steve was with you just to prove a point that despite his somewhat ungraceful fall down the social ladder since leaving school, he could still get girls, could still have them fawning over his every word. you worried that maybe his sweetness was an act, was a pretence to butter you up until you slipped into his bed and gave him what he really wanted. it was an awful thought because he’d never given you any reason to think he was only in it for sex but you couldn’t stop his reputation from tainting the image you had of him now and each summer sweet word felt like an invitation for more.

with the worry he only wanted you for sex came the even bigger worry that because you hadn’t slept with him yet he was bound to get bored, would grow tired of waiting and find someone else. steve wasn’t used to waiting in school, girls threw themselves at him even at every given opportunity and despite only having been together those few weeks you sometimes wondered if he was growing impatient, if he was tired of your simple make outs and wanted more. it wasn’t that you didn’t want to, you wanted nothing more than to have that special moment with him but deep down you were afraid if that happened that would be it, you’d simply become another notch on steve harrington’s bedpost and you weren’t exactly ready to find out if that was true or not.

“baby.” steve’s voice and the soft tap of his thumb against your cheek tugged you from your thoughts, brought you back into the room and you felt a little too hot when you realised he’d been waiting for a reply. he brushed his fingers lightly across your jaw, traced the very corner of your mouth and despite your minds worries, your body and heart reacted to him, skin prickling and chest squeezing.

“sorry, i-uh.” you coughed a little to clear your throat, pushed away from his chest with a careful hand to his stomach and steve’s hands fell to his lap, a crease appearing between his brow at the space you’d put between you. you watched the way he reacted, adam’s apple bobbing a little too harshly, lashes fluttering over glazed over eyes and a slow blush crept up his face, gripping his cheeks until they were dusted a light pink.

“you don’t have to if you don’t want to, it’s cool, y’know if you have other plans or you just like, don’t wanna or whatever. it’s cool, i just-i just thought i’d ask.” his fingers tapped a little restlessly against his thighs, a somewhat embarrassed edge creeping into the corners of his words, eyes darting from yours to focus on the tv instead. he swallowed again, dragged the palm of his hand over his leg and his cheeks turned a shade darker.

something twisted inside of you, a different kind of ache taking hold of your chest at the sudden look of vulnerability that had passed over his features. the air between you was suddenly awkward, tense and a little heavy and you felt your own embarrassment creeping up as you geared yourself up to finally talk to steve about your worries and insecurities. they were messing with your relationship and the quicker you got them out in the open the better it would be, no matter what the outcome was.

“steve,” you shifted on the sofa, turned so you were facing him, legs tucked up beneath you and thought over your words for a few seconds. “dinner and the rink sounds amazing it’s just… this is the fifth night in a row you’ve asked me to stay over and i don’t know, i don’t know if you’re waiting for something.” there was a pause, a silence filled only by the soft hum of the tv and before steve had fully processed your words you spoke up again, voice a little less sure than before. “i don’t think i wanna be just another girl to you.”

for a few seconds steve only stared at you, blush still high on his cheeks, fingers still fluttering in his lap and then he shook his head, an almost pained expression passing his face. “shit, that’s not- this isn’t- you’re not just another girl.” he stumbled over his words, rubbed a little aggressively at a spot on his cheek and you thought he was trying to push the blush away from his skin.

“it’s just i remember what you were like in high school, i remember the rumours and i know everyone says you’ve changed but i don’t wanna be just sex to you. i like you and sometimes i worry that you keep inviting me over when your parents aren’t here because y’know you’re expecting something.” you felt hot all over, embarrassed about your confession and suddenly a little nauseous that it might be true but steve was looking at you with a strange expression, a light softness to his eyes you’d never seen before.

“my parents are never here,” was the first thing he said, a sad declaration that had long since lost any real meaning to him. “i’d still invite you over even if they were but y’know, they spend weeks at a time out of town.” the embarrassed tone was back, the flush now settled over the tips of his ears. “i didn’t think about how you’d take it, me constantly wanting you to stay the night, i get how it looks but that’s not it. it’s-its not about sex, i don’t want to have sex with you-” his eyes widened at the way your brows raised and he rushed over his next words. “i mean i do eventually, like, i’ve thought about it, but it’s not all i think about, y’know i’m not like a creep or anything. it’s just a passing thing it’s not-”

“steve, i get it.” you laughed softly despite the situation, ignoring the blooming heat in your chest at how endearing his rambling was. steve winced and nodded, dragged a hand through his hair.

“what i mean is, i’m not asking you to stay because i’m waiting or expecting you to have sex with me, i want you to stay because i like having you here. i really like you and i like being able to just be with you, to not have to worry about everything else.” he stopped, swiped his tongue over his bottom lip and then held his hand out, palm up. you slipped your fingers over his, let him pull you into his side again, his warmth settling over you. “i was a douchebag in high school but i’m not that guy anymore, i understand that my reputation is pretty shit but i know how i feel about you. i know that i want you and only you and i don’t care if you never wanna have sex with me because i like the way you make me feel. it’s ridiculous, things have been shit these past few years but you make things quiet, you make me quiet. when i’m with you i’m not worrying about the kids or my parents or the fact i have a shitty job i’m just thinking about you and all the ways that you make me feel right.”

you blinked, heart in your throat, a blissful happiness floating through your blood because his words had settled something inside of you, had eased all your worries that steve was only in it for his own selfish gain. he was looking at you like you hung the moon, like you’d gifted him the stars and the universe right into the palm of his hand. his hair was falling on to his forehead and with deft fingers your pushed it back, carded your fingers through the soft strands and pushed impossibly closer to him.

“steve.” his name fell against his own lips because you were kissing him, slow and languid, heated brushes of your mouth over his. his hands pressed warm against your back, burning through your shirt branding himself into your skin with a single touch.

“i should have made it clearer, that this wasn’t about sex that there were no ulterior motives to me wanting you here other than you making me feel less lonely. i like you a stupid amount.” you laughed softly into his mouth, let him nuzzle his nose over yours with his own gentle smile.

“i should have told you how i felt but i was afraid if i told you you’d tell me i was right.” his smile suddenly turned cheeky, eyes sparking a little mischievously. he kissed your cheek, peppered soft pecks to the corner of your mouth.

“when are you ever right?”

“you really wanna ruin this?”

“..no.” he kissed you hard and full on the mouth, cupped your jaw and rubbed your chin with his thumb. “you’re not just another girl, this isn’t just some silly high school romance. it’s real with you.” he paused and the smile he sent you was somewhat shy. “when you’re here, when i get to wake up to you and go to sleep with you, when we cook and you sing terribly into a wooden spoon it makes everything feel okay. sometimes i like to imagine this is how it’ll always be because i don’t plan on letting you go.”

and he didn’t. steve liked you a scary amount, liked you more than he was willing to admit in that moment but he was certain he didn’t ever want to lose you. he wanted you and the comfort you brought him for as long as possible because it was only with you that he felt he could breathe again.

[junkdrawerfan]

Kristen’s refusal to put meaningful effort into her campaign while still putting in effort is so wild.

Like as someone who struggles with fear of failure which created, especially as a High schooler, an avoidance of anything I saw as “too hard” in case I failed. I wonder if Kristen — who grew up needing to be perfect as Helio’s chosen one and to survive the strict cult’s demands — is not doing something similar.

Because it is self sabotage. Acting wild and chaotic while recognizing she shouldn’t but almost unable to stop. Campaigning at the middle school. Blowing off Cassandra again and again.

I think Kristen is afraid of committing herself to a cause whole heartedly. Because the last time she did — with Helio — and lost that cause, it cause such inner turmoil it was traumatizing. That’s what Tracker meant by “refusing to deal with it.”

So with Cassandra and her campaign and even her friends (making her friends uncomfortable with her nudity, not prioritizing a relationship with her brother until Buddy comes along, etc), Kristen cannot allow herself to care with her full potential.

And if nearly losing her Goddess is not enough of a wake up call, I’m scared to know what will be enough to force Kristen to deal with her issues.

[starlightshadowsworld]

Percy Jackson except Jason and Thalia were the first children born after the Big 3 vow.

Long before the events of the story.

Thalia still ends up and tree, but no one really knew what happened to Jason.

Until Sea of Monsters where instead of Tantalus showing up, Jason does.

Because if there's one thing Zeus/Jupiter's gonna do, it's punish his sons.

And just... Imagine everyone expecting some grised old being who's committed the worse crimes on earth.

But it's a kid.

It's a kid a few years older them wearing a tattered purple top.

He'd look like any other camper but there's chains on his wrists and ankles that drag behind him.

Scars covering his body and a tattoo no ones able to fully see.

His eyes mirror the sky before them and hold so much sadness that a person could drown in them.

Chiron is suprised to see him, a mix of greif and relief in his eyes as he greets him.

"It's good to see you, child."

"And you too, sir."

"None of that now, you are among friends."

Jason visibly relaxes at that, his smile goes from polite and practiced to genuine.

"Right... It's good to see you, old man."

His humour is so dry that's it's hard to tell when he's joking or not. And yet he's gotten some laughs.

It feels like a reward in itself when someone makes him laugh. His whole face lights up and for a second the sadness in him fades.

Jason's less off a new camp director as he is a glorified babysitter. And yet he takes it all in stride.

He's not a pushover and steps in to mediate, but for the most part let's everyone carry on as they wish.

If he's not around, Jason can be found sitting by his sisters tree. He talks in a hushed whisper, catching her up.

If anyone notices him crying, no one says a word.

Jason proves himself as a formidable fighter, having stopped a camper struggling with a sword technique and demonstrating it to them patiently.

Clarisse immediately challenges Jason.

He's clearly holding back but Jason does give her a fair fight. His fighting style is a lot more polished.

And yet, there's something wild about it.

He does smile at one point, when Maimer strikes him.

"I'm afraid, that little trick won't work on me."

It was a short fight but the Ares cabin definitely gained some respect for him.

Clarisse asks why he didn't use the electricity against her, and he says he can't.

Shaking his chains like that explained everything.

It's easy to forget Jason's parentage. Especially after seeing him gush over architecture with Annabeth.

Hell all he needs is grey eyes and he'd fit right in to the Athena cabin.

And yet, at the same time there's no one else who fits as Jason's parent than Zeus (well Jupiter but they don't know that.)

Jason's a natural leader, he's a great diplomat and can defuse even the most chaotic situations.

There's power in his words, authority and yet he doesn't abuse it. There's a weight that's always on his shoulders.

He's a mystery.

He doesn't sleep in the Zeus Cabin, he has a blanket and curls up on the ground. Apparently he's used too it.

Tho there's been times he has been persuaded to sleep in the Hermes cabin, it's rare he accepts.

Not that he sleeps much. People have heard the screams from his nightmares.

More often than not Jason's awake, talking to the Naids and Nymphs as he patrols camp grounds late at night.

Surprisingly none try and attack him, in fact they all treat him with respect.

Grover says that Jason's blessed by the wild by an ancient being, not that he knows who.

Jason doesn't talk a lot about himself, he will talk at length about his sister though. And old friends with a sad smile.

The past is a hard subject for him, he says bits and pieces but not much.

The camps magical food doesn't work for him. Jason goes out of camp borders and goes hunting.

He eats alone, outside and Hestia makes a fire for him. He always sacrifices some food to her.

But also to Hera, which was surprising.

"But your a son of Zeus... Does she accept offerings from you?"

"I'd hope so, I am her champion."

It takes a while for anyone to realise but Jason's chains are heavy.

In fact there are days where Jason simply can't move. Because lugging them around tires him out.

And sometimes the camps borders simply don't let him leave.

On those days some campers have hunted for him.

Jason's always suprised and thankful. He'll share and tell them not to out themselves in danger for him.

But they do so anyway.

Camp Half blood decided a long while back Jason was one of them.

He's like everyone's stressed out, tired, nerdy older brother.

Jason has no knowledge of pop culture and apparently that's a crime.

But since no tech is allowed at camp, which means a lot of reinactments of memes

He's still confused but very entertained.

They've seen him fight monsters and it's so different to how he's fought in spars.

Jason fights to survive, he doesn't have a weapon other than his own chains.

He growls, he rips monsters apart with his bare hands and teeth.

Only stopping when they've all been defeated.

It was awesome.

Tho he did almost get hit by lighting from above and had to rush back into camp.

"Can I ask, what are you being punished for?"

"Let's just say, me and my dad had a disagreement."

Zeus: He's a monster, he's nothing but trouble and a mistake.

Camp Half blood: If monster, why friend shaped?

[bredforloyalty]

alright now that i've watched it again, about fear no mort: how fascinating that most of morty's fear hole journey revolved around rick, so much so that an extended part of it was just a scenario in which rick's dead wife climbs to the top of his list of favorite people/reasons to live for and not only does he abandon morty but endangers the both of them. wild! morty third wheeling grumpily is wild (although i don't at all care about diane so that part of the episode was kind of soiled on first watch by me going "oh ://".. to be entirely honest. and i'm so mortypilled that if i could tweak the episode i would've put less grandpa in it lol and played it a bit more straight with focusing on morty but then again that's me and that would be a very different episode)

so, morty's afraid of rick not choosing him but also not choosing life, he's afraid of not being able to save rick and be someone he can depend on. it's an awful lot to take on, being the companion of someone who historically has not given much of a shit about himself and ended up hurting everyone around him with his callousness. it's a certain kind of selfishness, when you hate yourself and the world enough to turn inward and forget you have a responsibility to the people around you, and you forget there is a way out and forget the world does not abandon you, ever, only you can abandon yourself. and rick's only recently made some changes, it's a lot to look out for and care for someone (regardless if you intend to care or it was never a choice. and it wasn't) when they've been exceptionally cruel to you, when they don't think of you as capable of that or themselves as in need of that. morty's afraid of the very fact that he's committed, that he's got a mixture of affection and resentment and fear and a bunch of other things swirling inside him and it's all related to one man. he's terrified of what will happen if rick ever starts needing him and he's just not enough. fuck i loved that and thought it was delicious. eating the episode like an animal and licking all ten of my fingers after...

morty's also afraid of becoming his dad, who spent the majority of the previous seasons as a kind of doormat, who let his wife and father-in-law walk all over him, who didn't appreciate beth, who abandoned the family. maybeee even.. who didn't stick up for morty when a certain old man was taking advantage of him and breaking him down systematically. he fears humiliation and ostracism (typical teenage things, i was like that too and yet. not everyone is like that so it matters to me that i was very much like that too).. he's got so much shame, and although the settings are the school and the wider public for some of the fears, rick's role isn't exactly incidental in how morty functions outside of their relationship and who he's become. who has made him feel small and weak and stupid and who isolated him and prevented him from having the normal experiences all those other normal kids have? like sure it's not all rick but considering that by the end the fear is all about him, i feel like i can emphasize this. and sure rick's also the one who toughened him up (nothing scares him anymore, the school had to alert homeland security once, etc) but that's part of his fear too: rick's got his handprints all over him, he's everything, while rick's everything is not morty ((according to morty of course. little does he know.......))

anyway, the tragedy is that his worst fear does become reality, is his reality: rick didn't jump in after him. it's tragic because he perceives rick as someone who would never go as far for him as he would for rick, who could replace him, and by the end he accepts that. the fear is gone because being together is inevitable, there's nothing else to do but accept how they are and how vulnerable he is to rick. don't fear what you're destined to suffer!!! he's a loyal little dog! rick will never change and he's okay with that now. that's devotion, it's veiled by sci-fi bullshit and goofy jokes (and that terrible naked rap number that had me cringing uncontrollably hxsgvy) but it's devotion! except, to add to the tragedy while not really making it,, heavier, it's straight up untrue that rick could or would replace him. not jumping in the fear hole wasn't real evidence of how he feels, to morty it was just a representation of what he thinks is the worst of their relationship (the worst for him). we've been watching rick try and try and seeing the evidence of how he's changed all season, i think that makes it sadder that he's still not reassured the kid, that he still can't be honest or open enough to untangle the knot at the center of morty. that he tied

and yet, if i wasn't already reassured that rick's also committed, if not to morty personally then to the family and to making a continuous effort to improve, i would be reasured by how he didn't jump in at the end and instead took a picture of his grandson out of his wallet and pinned it to the 'went in the hole' board (lol). he had a picture in his wallet, god. he finally listened, he listened to morty who said it's not worth it, not even if diane is there, he chose not to immerse himself in his fears, his past and his wounds, and i would even say he chose not to go where morty couldn't follow. he chose his current reality and admitted morty is braver than him by pinning the picture, he wasn't condescending about morty running and jumping by himself. and most importantly, most cuckoo bananas of all, most 'kata is not going to be feeling well for a while' about the episode, when morty hugged him, he, for the first time!!, timidly started hugging back. and then morty immediately let go and pushed him away because he can't imagine a rick that hugs back, that loves him like he loves rick, he's so scared of the part of himself that wants to believe in that level of respect and care and reciprocation, the part that craves that. what the fuuuuck

rick's only recently started loosening his claws and thinking of how he could do right by his grandson and by others in general, it hasn't caught up with him yet that while morty does see him and does assess him accurately, he's not a mind reader and he's got insecurities and rick's at the center of them and well, you could say, you could say he should take responsibility for what he's done ('take responsibility' NOT in a canceling rick sanchez on twitter unless he repents for his grooming crimes way but in a waggling my eyebrows way forever and ever). ngl i wasn't super satisfied by the rest of the season as it was coming out but i'm excited to see where they take this, how these characters will develop further. and i was very happy to see an episode just about morty's side of the equation, i've been fed <3

[spacequokka]

Monsta X Kinks & Turn-Ons

@iibonniee​ Hide ya brain cells. I’m back with another kinky shit post that’ll likely end up with Monbebes throwing me in a closet.

Hyunwoo || Venus: Gemini, Mars: Taurus || Turn On: Control

Mr. Traditional. Likes fun and variety with witty conversation. He’s a sensual guy, but it takes a lot to get him going. Try harder, baby. He can be romantically impulsive. Likes to please and tease at his own place. Just give him the reins, you know you want to.

Minhyuk || Venus: Libra, Mars: Scorpio || Turn On: Foreplay

Mr. Idealistic. He’s willing to make your relationship by conceding and adjust his life to accommodate you. Loves to share everything with you, but don’t take advantage of it! Treats you exactly how he wants to be treated. Has a taste for mature partners. He’s a hopeless romantic who loves a challenge and finds it difficult to share his partners. Not saying he’s against it. Just might struggle to watch you. He’s attracted to “taboos” and wild fantasies, so share yours with him. Pretty sure he’s down to try it. He’s got stamina for days and enjoys submissive partners.

Kihyun || Venus: Scorpio, Mars: Sagittarius || Kink: Shibari Bondage

Our resident kink master. He’s intense as fuck. That prince charming grin is a trap. “Isn’t afraid of getting his mind dirty.” Excuse me, wtf. Penny for his thoughts. Never gives up. “Strong sexual powers.” So he’s what, the Harry Potter of sex? I have several questions. He’s blunt and eager, amorous and sensual. We knew that tho. He tends to focus on his partner with laser precision and you know what requires that much attention to detail? Shibari. It’s its own art form and I can see him being a HUGE fan of it. He can get possessive to the point of jealousy if you don’t prove your loyalty to him. All the dom vibes. Fight me. Though he’s not incapable of giving you control once he feels secure enough in your relationship. Good luck.

Hyungwon || Venus: Capricorn, Mars: Capricorn || Turn On: Someone willing to ride

The Pillow Prince. He’s a realist and will be “upfront” with you. He’ll try to win you over by showing you he has self-control (it’s a trap) and likely bait you into doing most of the work. He’s a romantic looking for a soulmate, and when he thinks he’s found The One, you’ll see him exerting more of his precious energy. Shy but willing to commit. Wants to show you off in a quiet way. And the sex? Keep it nasty if you can.

Jooheon || Venus: Scorpio, Mars: Leo || Kink: Praise (Receiving)

No one is shocked by this. Has a strong need for a partnership. 🥺 Someone cuff him. Like Kiki, he gets possessive and makes it his mission to ruin you. Get you addicted to him through pleasure and commitment, body and soul. Sign me tf up. Wants to explore every inch of you, inside and out, but will guard his secrets until he feels he can trust you with them. Another guy prone to jealousy but it's because he’s so devoted to you and he’ll fight dirty to win your heart. Borderline nympho as he’s easily turned on (no fr, tell him he did a good job) and will give it to you anywhere (like, say the backseat of his car). Honey acts with his heart and goes all in.

Changkyun || Venus: Pisces, Mars: Aquarius || Turn On: The Art of Seduction

Our Lone Wolf favors instant gratification except when it comes to choosing a partner, even if it's just for one night. He’s straightforward (ofc), dreamy and soft-hearted. Can be sweetly playful when he starts to fall for you. He does have a Captain Save-a-Hoe complex so you gotta make sure he’s attracted to you and not your situation. Expect lots of tender moments and romance. Extra points if you’re older. Likes surprising you with his open-mindedness. Don’t just give in; make him work for it. He’ll delight you with his wit and determination and turn you out in bed.

Hoseok || Venus: Aries, Mars: Cancer || Kink: Breeding, Switch

Mr. Thirst Trap. This shameless flirt has a childish charm, and he uses it like a weapon. You will not survive. He loves to tease and is looking for an energetic partner to keep up with his stamina. Requires plenty of stimulation and likes to lead and please you. Just trust him. Reacts spontaneously and intensely to the Object of Obsessive Horniness and will make it known. Though he doesn’t want kids, he still gets a kick out of the thrill and possessiveness of stuffing you with cum. 

[yopigeonflyerjo]

Dating Klaus Mikaelson headcanons

At first, Klaus can come off as cold but wild and hot-headed, but once he opens up to you, he is incredibly passionate.

It's tough to get closer to this incredibly stubborn hybrid, but once you catch his eye, Klaus likes to appear in your life. He often brings you drawing that he did, if you're an art lover who likes to visit art exhibitions he will just materialize there and make you an actual art lecture.

Klaus is a romantic at heart and loves to surprise his beloved one with gifts. Especially one he made himself, like drawings, and sculptures, even composed by himself songs. He loves to make new memories with you. He often sketches them.

He is highly protective of his loved ones, and when he is with you, he will make sure that you feel safe and secure. Sometimes he can... do too much, but after a conversation, you can convince him that some kind of " curfew hour" is a little bit too much. He is acutely very aware of the power imbalance between you two, and he works hard to make sure that you always feel safe.

He uses his drawing and painting to express his love for you, that is his love language.

He has a love for luxury and enjoys taking you on extravagant dates, whether it's to a fancy restaurant or a weekend getaway.

Klaus has a playful side and loves to make you laugh with his quick wit and sarcastic humour.

He is also playful... even a tease when it comes to the bedroom. He is an teasy bastard. His favourite thing ever is overstimulation and absolute domination. Either his or his love. He is a switch.

He can be possessive at times, but he tries his best to respect your boundaries.

If you build a connection with him, it will be truly strong, even unbreakable.

He is not good at talking about emotions and showing his more human side, but he tries. Klaus can sometimes let his guard down with you.

The thing he adores are mornings with you, Klaus wakes up early and spends some time simply watching you sleeping peacefully. He loves the way you look relaxed and free from any worries. You spend the morning lounging in bed, talking, laughing, and cuddling. Klaus relishes these quiet moments with his beloved one, knowing that one of Elena's pack call can ruin such intimate moments.

He loves to hear your opinions, on art, life, movie or whatever shit Damon did recently. Klaus really values your view.

Klaus is not afraid to show his affection in public, whether it's holding your hand, stealing a kiss or having a hand on your waist he wants the world to know that you belong to him. As I said he is possessive.

One of the worst things that can happen are jealousy scenes. Klaus is normally very confident in himself and his relationships, but his jealousy can be triggered by various things. It could be another person showing interest in his beloved one, or even the possibility of his beloved one spending time with someone else. He is much more willing to immediately rip off the head whoever made him feel jealous, than say a word and simply talk. He can be intense in these situations, and his emotions can be overwhelming. Klaus's jealousy is ultimately rooted in his deep love and commitment to his beloved one.

It may be shocking but Klaus is willing to make sacrifices for his love whether it's relinquishing his hybrid powers to become mortal or leaving his immortal life behind to be with you.

[manwrre]

give me ANY cult-y or hyper-religious harringrove fic and watch me lose my mind fr. esp if one of them isn’t human and is doing the corrupting or persuading the other into committing blasphemy?? like, imagine…

steve has lived in the village his entire life. it’s what’s been expected of him— what’s been expected of them all. in that same way that it was expected of his parents and his parents’ parents and their parents’ parents and the grapevine of those who came alongside and, before them.

they are never to leave.

never to ask questions.

never to disobey the village head. just pray and pray and pray.

to be good to one’s neighbor and to pray and pray and pray.

to exhibit both a sound mind and a clean heart and remember, you must praypraypraypraypray.

to work hard and abstain and refuse the temptation of anything and everything beyond the village boundaries.

because beyond the sweeping trees and green canopies, there was nothing good.

there was hell and starvation. there was sin and carnality and they were blessed to have been absolved for generations. they were blessed to be able to live on the land of god; to be the chosen few.

except, steve hasn’t felt blessed for quite a while now. in fact, he hasn’t felt anything but afraid.

afraid because the village is all that he has ever known. he’s bathed in every surrounding creek and has explored every clearing. he’s harvested in the spring and lends a hand, cooking all communal meals during the winter. he attends church and kisses his parents goodnight and smiles at the people he’s grown up with. he teaches the small group of kids who live within their community and he’s afraid

because something has been hunting them.

and steve may just be a measly teacher at the age of nineteen but he notices when the first boy goes missing.

a quiet child, by the name of daniel. twelve years old and always so friendly.

and at first, everyone assumes that he’s drowned or has been attacked by a wild animal. that is, until he’s found at the edge of the woods; perfectly whole but so very cold. gone to meet their maker.

so steve prays for their protection and safety—the entire village does and they believe it to be done

but a week later, henry is gone.

then emory,

little silas,

and now, will.

all into the woods, they’ve disappeared without a trace. only to be found days later, seemingly unharmed if not for the stillness of their chests.

and he has heard the stories, of course. he’s listened to the nursery rhymes and old wive’s tales about what evil has spilled into the trees surrounding their homes but now, he believes.

there’s something in the woods and it is taking people. there’s something in the woods and it will kill them all.

so when he decides that enough is enough and goes out looking for will, imagine his surprise when he stumbles upon someone else.

a boy.

pale-haired and blue eyed; his gaze too bright and his stance, much too relaxed for someone in the woods at night. steve’s certain he has never seen him before—he’s sure he would remember someone so golden and so pretty. and yet, the boy looks at him like they’re familiar. like, he knows him.

“i was beginning to think you’d never come.” the blond grins.

and steve swallows, suddenly; staring as the stranger’s lips stretch around a mouthful of too sharp, too raptorial teeth and thinks,

oh.

there’s something in the woods and he’s met it.

[girlboypersonthingy]

hiii I saw the fluff alphabet for Keith and I was wondering if you could write one for pidge as well? ^_^

ABSOLUTELY I LOVE PIDGE SO MUCH. 💚💚💚sorry for the long wait, but here it finally is! ENJOY~ 😉

Pidge- Fluff Alphabet 💌

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Pidge is affectionate when she wants to be. Sometimes she’s a bit shy about it and prefers to show you affection in private. Pidge is simple and sweet, she enjoys soft quick kisses and linking pinkies and winking at each other from across the table during breakfast when the rest of the team isn’t paying attention (except for that one time Lance noticed YOU wink at Pidge and she blushed super red and Lance wouldn’t leave her alone about it for the next week).

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Honestly, I think Pidge would be a good best friend besides being a bit blunt and totally honest. Some might find the green Paladin a little intimidating and condescending but she doesn’t mean to be, she’s just really freaking smart and she’s not afraid to speak her truth. She’s so smart that it makes most people feel really stupid even talking to her. But with you…she goes slow and tries her best to be patient and teach you along the way. Idk there’s just something about you ✨

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Yesssss she really likes cuddles when she’s upset or frustrated or crying. She likes cuddles after a bad dream or after a really risky mission. BUT as soon as she drifts off fully into sleep, gorl starts doing martial arts in bed. Fully expect to be kicked, slapped, punched and fully laid on by Pidge. She’s a bit wild but she’s easy to wake. When she is cuddling, she likes to be the little spoon or be face to face with your foreheads resting about each other’s.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

I’d imagine Pidge has no intention of settling down with anyone until she truly feels deep in her heart that she’s met ‘the one’. She’ll try dating but she won’t commit until she knows you well enough and has time to decide how she feels and time to imagine her future with that person. Also, girl is the opposite of wifey material- can’t cook, messy asf, grumpy in the mornings but it’s all worth it. She has her moments~

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

I think Pidge would be very straight forward about it but also try her best to be kind and gentle. She wouldn’t want to do it over the phone, she’d have the guts to sit you down and tell you to your face how she feels.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Sorta the same answer as ‘Domestic’ ⬆️, she wouldn’t be careless and rush into anything with someone she isn’t sure about. She could see herself getting married one day but doesn’t really consider it a top priority, ya feel me?

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

I mean…she’s a tiny Aries who knows she’s smarter than everyone in the room at all times…she’s kind of a lot sometimes. She can be emotionally chaotic sometimes, she often grabs attention from others without even meaning to and it can feel a bit overwhelming at first but the more you get to know her, the more you come to adore her intelligence and it warms your heart when she shares her knowledge with others and her bravery every time she speaks up for herself in a crowd and her stubbornness really starts to grow on you. She’s physically about the same lmaoooooo like…with most people she’s very out there, extroverted and loud and she doesn’t mind getting her hands dirty or getting in to trouble in order to get a job done. She works hard AND plays hard, she’s a goofball. But with her s/o, she’s much softer and calmer and speaks quieter and moves just a bit slower and with more caution. She just really loves you 💚

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

NEVER hugs you in front of others unless like one of you almost died on a mission or you’ll be apart for a long time. Most hugs are done late at night while you’re falling asleep and Pidge is working way past bedtime, also mid day when the rest of the team is dispersed throughout the castle and doing their own thing, knowing that she has a low risk of being caught at this time she’ll come find you and give you a long, snuggly hug without saying a word and then run off back to her work.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

It’ll take a long while tbh…Pidge is pretty shy and inexperienced with relationships and lovey dovey feelings. She’ll probably wait until you say it first. Once you say it her tho, it comes out of her in a sigh of relief. It gets easier for her after the first time but she’s still getting used to it.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

I don’t think Pidge is really the jealous type. Even if someone was actively flirting with you, she wouldn’t be so much jealous as she would be concerned…like she could care less if someone is just genuinely flirting with you but what if they have some devilish motive and they’re working for the galra and they’re gonna kidnap you and hold you hostage and- she needs to come intervene before she starts fully panicking. She’ll just come join you in a silent and nonchalant way like coming up and holding your hand. She’s not trying to butt in and be nosy, she just wants to make sure you’re safe and also make you feel safe, protected and supported. She’s not jealous, she just cares very deeply for you.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Her kisses are awkward, sweet, sometimes silly and interrupted by soft giggles. She likes to kiss your lips but she LOVES kissing your cheeks and nose, she thinks you’re just soooo cute and she likes the look on your face after she kisses you there. She likes forehead kisses most bc they make her feel warm and relaxed and content. Forehead kisses really make her want to cry (in a good way)

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Mmmm she tries her best to be energetic with kids but she’s honestly so awkward. Regardless, kids ADORE HERRRRRR. Pidge has so much cool shit to say, she mesmerizes kids so easily with her science and space rambles.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Pidge stays up working and coding until like 3 am every night and then sleeps in until at least 10am if you let her, so most mornings are spent trying to drag Pidge out of bed as she groans in protest. It’s okay tho, her bed head is so cute and she won’t even open her eyes yet but you can’t stop smiling bc she’s cute even when she’s sleepy and grumpy. Once she’s got her eyes open and is sitting up, she’ll always mumble a raspy “morning” to you.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Unless you’re a night owl as well, you’ll probably be asleep before Pidge. She’ll always welcome your company while she’s working and will let you slump against her or lay your head in her lap and sleep. Most of the time, she gently wakes you and you sleepily walk to your room together but sometimes, she falls asleep right beside her work and cuddled up to you and someone ends up finding y’all in the morning like 🥹💖🥰

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

I think she would open up rather quickly. I think Pidge has a pretty good sense of who she can trust and if she trusts you enough to be your s/o, she trusts you a lot. She would confide in you often along with Shiro I’m sure.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

It depends…certain things tick Pidge off a bit but she can shrug it off. Other certain things make her want to explode. Lance makes a short joke, annoying but whatever. She accidentally codes something wrong and has to start all over, watch out, she’s seconds away from throwing something across the room as hard as she can.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Pidge forgets NOTHING!!! This girl has a spectacular memory, she remembers everything you tell her and is very considerate with that info. She’s the type to remember your fears and try her best to shield you from that, she’ll remember hits favorite color and get you everything that color, she’ll remember your birthday no matter what. And she loves learning new things about you too.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Probably your first physical embrace. You weren’t officially dating yet but you could both feel the pining going on between you. She had been roughed up and tossed around by some galra on a mission one time and when she got back to the castle, you were the first one to greet her with a gentle hug and a worried expression on your face. She’ll never forget how soft your hands felt as they caressed her dirty face. That was the first time you’d ever shown her any kind of true intimacy and she got a glimpse of your feelings for her.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

She is extremely protective but she tries to give you space. She worries about you constantly but it’s not that she doesn’t trust you or doesn’t believe in you, she just knows first hand how brutal this war can be and she doesn’t want to lose you. Of course, she always insists you two stick together on any and all missions you attend bc she knows you have her back and she always has yours.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

She tries her best! She’s not great at surprises tho, she always tells you what the gift is or what the date is bc she has to make sure you want that first, she can’t just do it and risk you having a bad time. She does listen to you and takes every little detail into consideration. She often does simple things like complimenting you and offering you small bits of physical affection. For special occasions like an anniversary, she likes to ask you what you would want/ want to do and then she’ll try to make it exceed your expectations.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Bites her nails and just flicks her nails all over the place 🙄 also mess asf in general

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

She’s really not concerned at all about her appearance. Sure for a special occasion she’ll dress up and try to look nice but on the day to day, Pidge just wants to be comfy and feel like she’s dressing for her, not for anyone else.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Yeeesssssss 🥹 Pidge would become so used to your everyday presence in her life, so if you ever left or disappeared or got taken, she’d feel like there was a void constantly haunting her. She’d miss your smell, your laugh, your voice, your touch, your company so much she’d lose sleep over it for sure.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

TALKS IN HER SLEEP AND SAYS SOME WEIRD, OFF THE WALL SHIT ITS HILARIOUS.

Examples:

“Hey, who’s that duck? He’s new here.”

“When are you going to the carnival? I want to go.”

“Turtles and birds are both dinosaurs, that’s wiiiilllddddd.”

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Pidge wouldn’t like someone who’s really conceited and selfish. She likes people who aren’t afraid to look silly or foolish or messy. She likes people who worry about things other than appearances and possessions.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Cannot stay still for the life of her. She tosses and turns so bad, good luck getting a good nights rest with how much she moves. She’ll low key beat you up throughout the night, she’s a crazy sleeper.

[landhoehoehoe]

love sounds - Charles Leclerc 

Soooo I told you I was writing a Dennis fic but last night the inspiration struck for a Charles story, I'm so sorry lmao but the Dennis fic is in the works I promise!

This was supposed to be full on smut but it turned out kind of fluffy? (Don’t worry there’s still smut)

Also I'm still new to this so idk what warnings I'm supposed to put... please don't have unprotected sex in real life!

Charles Leclerc x reader; In which he realizes she‘s the one for him ;)

He let his gaze wander along your curves, taking in the way your blue dress perfectly hugged your body, exposing enough skin for his imagination to go wild. 

How could you stand there, talking so innocently all while looking so devilishly tempting? 

Charles didn’t want to admit it but in that very moment he hated not being the man at your side right now. Instead, some random mechanic’s arm was snaked around your waist.

“Still drooling over y/n?”, someone commented besides Charles, finally making him rip his hungry eyes off of you. 

“Shut up, Arthur. You don’t know anything about love.” 

Arthur laughed as Charles took a sip of his whiskey. 

“Oh so it’s love now? I thought you and y/n were just a casual thing?”

Charles gave his brother the death stare which made Arthur lift his hands defensively. 

“Your words, not mine, brother.”

Charles scoffed. He knew his brother was right. 

You and Charles had never been “in love” per se. No question there was a certain tension between you two, but Charles had always been too afraid of fully committing to you. 

And now he payed the price for it: Getting to watch you attend the prize-giving gala in Paris with another man. 

“You know, if you still want her, you should honestly just go talk to her.”, Arthur chimed in again, making Charles roll his eyes. 

Arthur always thought everything in the world could be resolved by simply having an honest conversation. But Arthur had never fallen for you. 

He didn’t know how complicated yours and Charles’ situation was. 

So instead of answering his brother, Charles downed his drink, eyes searching for you once again.

“I’m getting another drink.”, he let his brother know and quickly disappeared into the crowd before Arthur could say anything else. 

As Charles pushed his way through all the FIA officials and drivers making small talk, his mind suddenly went foggy. 

A smell of sweet lilies surrounded him, trapping him in his thoughts. 

There was only one person on earth he knew who used this perfume. 

He jerked around, trying to make you out in the people surrounding him. 

However, you were nowhere to be seen. 

Charles even stood on his tiptoes to get a better view of the crowd, but he couldn’t spot your bright blue dress in-between all the black suits. 

Was this the alcohol playing tricks on him already? 

Charles shook his head to get his thoughts in order again. What was his mission again? 

Ah yes: getting another drink. 

If Charles had to endure watching you flirt with your date all evening, he could at least numb the piercing pain in his chest. 

So he made his way to the bar, ordering another whiskey. 

While he waited, he leaned against the bar, scanning the room once again for a certain blue dress. God, he was pathetic. Not enough courage to tell you how much he wanted you to be his but not enough strength to finally let you go either. 

“Charles?”

Charles’ head flew around. 

His eyes were met with shiny blue fabric stopping right beneath your ass. 

He breathed in the enticing scent of lilies, let his gaze roam your body before he stopped at your shy smile. It was breathtaking. 

You were breathtaking. 

“Here you go, sir.”, the bartender placed down a fresh glass of whiskey before Charles, who was still too stunned to speak. 

“Um.. hi.”, he finally managed to snap back to reality. 

“Having a good time?”, he asked after another awkward pause, suddenly noticing that you were alone. 

Where had your escort gone? Charles took his eyes off of you again to look for your date amongst the attending people. 

“Yeah, everyone’s really nice. What about you?”

Charles looked back at you and he couldn’t believe you were talking to him so casually, since the last time you “talked”, you were shouting at him to get out of your apartment. 

And maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but he just couldn’t help but make a salty comment. Because arguing with you came more naturally than having a civil conversation. 

“Where did you leave your manwhore?”, he saw your eyes grow wide, then narrowing at him as he took another sip of whiskey. 

“Don’t give me that, Leclerc. You know damn well it’s your own fault we’re not here together.”

Charles shrugged, now definitely feeling the alcohol.

“It always takes two to fight, ma chérie.”

You scoffed. 

“And it only takes one to ruin a relationship.”, you bit back, making Charles alert immediately. Relationship? None of you had ever classified whatever thing you had had as a relationship. 

“Relationship?”, Charles could only ask dumbfounded. 

“I was serious about you, Charles.”, you replied in a much softer, quieter voice, letting your head sink. 

You were too ashamed to look him in the eyes, now that you’d pretty much confessed your deep and buried feelings. 

“You were?”, he checked to make sure he hadn’t just hallucinated. Now he needed another sip of whiskey.

But before he could drink, your hand came up to take the glass away from him. He watched as you downed the drink, wanting nothing more than to finally kiss you again. 

You contorted your face as the liquid stung in your throat, making Charles laugh. 

“For what it’s worth: I was serious about you, too.”, he confessed, blaming his sudden honesty on the alcohol. 

After all this was his third drink of the night. 

Now it was your turn to be surprised. 

“But…you never wanted anything serious?”, you replied, then turned to order a gin and tonic. Charles ordered another whiskey before looking at you again. 

“Chérie, any man who’d ever say no to you is a fucking idiot. I know that now.”

You gulped, not expecting any of his words. 

It had been weeks since you’d last seen Charles and you’d thought you’d gotten over the way his gaze made you shiver. 

But right now his eyes were burning into your skin, showing you exactly what he wanted. 

Before you could reply, your drinks arrived. 

Charles handed you your gin before downing his own drink. You weren’t planning on finishing your drink right then and there but Charles got up, brushing past you while letting his hands squeeze your waist for a quick second. 

You gasped, looking after him as he turned around once again, winking at you. 

You knew what he meant, having done this a thousand times before. You searched the room for your date. 

Were you really going to do this again? Start everything over? 

Give Charles another chance to break your heart? 

Fuck it. 

You downed your drink before discreetly following him to the restrooms. 

Charles smirked to himself as he saw a flash of blue following him, but he walked past the restrooms, making you frown. 

No, he didn’t want this to be like every other time you had hooked up. This time was going to be special. 

A night you’d never forget. 

So he turned around to grab your hand and pull you with him towards the hotel reception. 

“Excuse me, I would like to book your room with the nicest view, please.”, he smiled at the nice lady behind the desk while your eyes went wide. 

“Charles!”, you whisper-shouted, slapping his arm, but Charles had already gotten handed the keycard. He turned around, smiling at you with a hint of mischief in his eyes. 

Instead of saying anything though, he just grabbed your hand again, leading you to the elevators. 

“What are you doing?!”, you giggled, suddenly excited about not knowing what was about to happen.

“I’m doing what I was supposed to do a long time ago.”, he answered honestly, letting his gaze fall to your lips. 

Your eyes wandered in-between his lips and eyes, the urge to kiss him too big to resist. 

As your bodies automatically moved closer to each other you could already feel his whiskey- coated breath on your skin, his hands sheepishly finding their way to your waist.  

However just as you were about to kiss, Charles sighed, pulling away from you but still holding you close to him with his arms around your waist. 

“Not yet, chérie.”, he whispered, making you groan. 

You were slowly but surely growing impatient. 

When the elevator finally arrived, you took its privacy as a chance to kiss Charles, but he just held you close to him the entire ride up, never giving in to your tempting lips. 

Instead, he studied your face closely, remembering every single feature. 

Normally you’d hate when people stared at you because you got insecure very easily, but with Charles you felt more comfortable than ever. 

Maybe because you were too busy with your own staring that you didn’t notice him doing the same. 

“We’re here.”, he motioned towards the door with the number 314, already swiping the keycard. His other arm was still wrapped around your waist tightly, guiding you inside the room. 

You held your breath as Charles lead you to the huge glass windows at the other end of the room. It really was the most beautiful view of Paris you had ever seen. 

The city beneath you was a sea of lights, shining brightly in the night sky. 

You were so in awe over the view that you almost forgot Charles was in the room with you until he chuckled next to you. You looked at him. 

He was already looking at you. 

You didn’t understand how he could possibly look at you when this breathtaking view was right in front of him. 

“Charles…the lights..”, you whispered, “It’s beautiful.”

Charles smiled, squeezing your waist. 

“Chérie, you shine even brighter than all these city lights..”

You blushed, thankful about the darkness hiding it from Charles. 

“Don’t say that, Charles..”, you replied, a trace of sadness in your voice. 

Because all these things he said could easily turn out to be sweet nothings. 

“But it’s true. And I mean it, I truly do, y/n.”, he carefully tucked a strand of hair behind your ear while looking at you with so much love and affection in his eyes that you thought your heart might melt. 

He leaned his forehead against yours, holding you tightly. 

“I don’t want you to break my heart again. I’m scared, Charles.”, your voice cracked, closing your eyes to avoid tears from falling. 

It was true: You were terrified of the idea of losing Charles so you’d always thought you’d be better off with never having him in the first place. 

“I’m scared, too, y/n. But I am willing to try. To take that leap of faith with you, to give you my heart so that you may shatter it to pieces if you wanted to.”, he sounded soft, but determined. Because he was. 

He’d known it for the longest of times but only today had he realized that you would always be the one his heart wanted. 

So he’d rather die trying to make things work with you than getting drunk every other night because he couldn’t have you. 

“Charles…I…”

“You don’t have to say anything right now. I just wanted to let you know how I felt, let you know that I am completely serious about you.” 

Then Charles removed his forehead from yours, only to finally kiss you. 

And it was the most magical kiss you had ever shared. You were so full of love as your hands wandered into his hair, leaning even further into him as his hands rested on the small of your back. The sparkling city lights behind you only made everything even more perfect.

Your kiss didn’t stay innocent for long though. 

Too long had you been deprived of his touch, his scent, his hands roaming your body. 

Without stopping your kiss, Charles lead you to the huge double bed in the room. 

Carefully, he laid you down on the mattress as you let him guide your movements. He sighed into the kiss, laying on top of you while resting his weight on his forearms beside your head. 

“I’ve missed this.”, he whispered breathlessly. You could only hum in response. 

Eventually he broke up the kiss, but only to kiss his way down to your jaw, sucking on your neck. Your body welcomed him, arching your back to get even closer to him. 

His kisses trailed further down until he reached your clothed cleavage. 

Quickly he sat up, riding your dress up to your waist to then pull it over your head as you sat up as well. 

After sharing another hungry kiss he gently but firmly pushed you back down into the mattress. He took a second to take you in: lying beneath him in nothing but your underwear, the beautiful black lace set he still loved so much. 

“Charles..”, you warned, not wanting to spend the night begging for him to touch you. 

However, that was not Charles’ plan tonight. Tonight was all about you. 

About bringing you the most amount of pleasure. To quite literally show you how much you meant to him. 

So he connected his lips with your skin again, kissing down your stomach to your hips. 

As he slowly worked his way down your thigh, he felt your hips jerking up suddenly, desperate for his touch. 

“Shhhhhh, chérie..”, his voice was soft as he watched you screw your eyes shut in anticipation when he hooked his thumbs in your slip to pull it down your legs. 

He wanted to take a picture of you looking this angelic only for him. 

When he finally licked the first stripe through your folds, your hands gripped onto the bed sheets tightly. 

“Charles, please..”, you moaned, arching your back. 

Charles wasted no time in pleasuring you, flicking his tongue inside you quickly. The small screams that left your mouth sounded like heaven to him, spurring him on even further. 

“That’s it, mon amour.”, he panted, watching your face contort in pleasure as he inserted a finger. 

You gripped the sheets even tighter, not caring about being quiet. 

A number of curse words fell from your mouth as he added a second finger, moving them even faster than before now. 

“Ch-arles.”, you moaned again, mind going foggy. 

Your mouth hang open wide as you were no longer able to form a sentence, all of your senses were completely focused on Charles. 

His hand that wasn’t inside of you came up to cup your breast, squeezing it lightly, pulling another moan from your lips. 

He smiled against your core, proud of himself for having you a moaning mess under him within seconds. 

As he sped up even further you could feel your high approaching rather rapidly. It had been too long since he last touched you, no wonder you were desperately chasing your high. 

Your hips bucked up into him once more as his tongue flicked at your clit. 

Charles could feel by the way you were clenching around his fingers that you were close. You just needed a few more words to push you over the edge. 

“Let go, chérie. I’ve got you.”

You moaned, gripping on to his hand on your breast, brain not functioning properly anymore. 

“Make a mess all over my fingers, come on darling… I know you’ve got it in you…. So good for me.”, he groaned, having to pause in-between his sentences. 

And it finally sent you over the edge, your high washing over you, making you scream in pleasure. Charles watched in awe as your face contorted and you were in your own post-orgasmic bubble. He loved seeing you like this: so natural, so incredibly attractive. 

You caught your breath, pulling him back up to you by his hair. 

Giving him a hazy smile, you kissed him again: a silent thank you for the pleasure. Your lips connected, his tongue swirling inside your mouth. 

You weren’t sure why, but this time everything felt different. 

So much more personal and intimate than the times before. 

Like Charles actually meant his drunken words from before. Like this was a fresh start for the both of you. 

The start of something serious. 

As the kiss got more heated again, you rolled on top of him, Charles letting you take over control. You sat up, straddling him while letting your fingers wander under his shirt. 

You knew where to touch him to make his mind go crazy so you innocently brushed past his sensitive spot on his right side, feeling his abs tense up.

 He took a sharp breath as you unbuttoned his shirt, watching you intently. 

Once you had freed him of his shirt, you began kissing down his body until you reached his belt. His hand came down to push a loose strand of hair out of your face, making you smile as you looked up at him, biting down on your lip.

 It was a sight Charles didn’t ever want to forget. 

When you went to push down his pants he held up his hips to help you, but as soon as you leaned back over him, he grabbed your hips, rolling you back over. Your arms naturally found their way around his neck. 

“Tonight is all about you, baby.”, he whispered in your ear, giving you goosebumps. 

After kissing you once more he aligned himself with your entrance before pushing into you slowly. You both moaned at feeling each other again, feeling so incredibly good. “Oh my god.”, you exclaimed, having to get used to his size again. 

Before he started moving he looked back up at you again, searching for permission which you happily granted him with a nod. 

Slowly he pushed further into you until he was filling you up completely, your hips touching. 

Your breath hitched at the sensation of the stretch. 

Unlike all the other times you had slept together, Charles didn’t pick up the pace this time.

 Instead he continued his slow but oh so deep thrusts into you, keeping eye contact with you the whole time. 

“You’re so beautiful, chérie. So tight.”, he whispered before hitting your G-spot again. You whined, pulling slightly at his roots to which he groaned into your ear. 

“Gonna make me go insane, darling.”

Was this what making love felt like? Actual love? Not just a casual hookup? 

Because this was definitely more than that. 

This was a feeling of safety, comfort and absolute trust. Trust in the man above you who was currently making you see stars. 

His steady thrusts continued, hitting all the right spots inside of you. 

“Charles.. I’m.. I’m gonna..”, you stuttered, feeling that familiar knot tighten in your stomach again. 

Even though you didn’t finish your sentence Charles still understood, picking up the pace to go a little bit faster. 

“So good for me.”, he kept looking directly at you, watching as you tried to keep your eyes open as well. 

However the feeling of him inside you made it hard not to screw your eyes shut. 

“Please, Charles..”, you moaned, not sure what you were begging for. 

Charles understood regardless. 

He filled you up completely, resting his hips against yours for a second, then pushing even further into you. 

Your mouth hang agape from the sensation, your whole body craving the release. 

After a few more deep deep thrusts, it didn’t take much longer until you came undone all over his dick, his name falling from your mouth yet again. 

You clenching around him was all Charles needed to send him over the edge as well, as he came only moments after you, releasing inside you. 

Then he let himself collapse onto you, still resting most of his bodyweight on his arms. 

His head sunk to your chest, using you as a pillow. Your hands automatically ran through his hair, the both of you staying silent while coming down from your highs. 

“That was…”, you began, but Charles interrupted you: “Amazing.”

He lifted his head off your chest to look you in the eyes, studying your face again. 

“Why do you keep staring so much tonight?”, you laughed, making him smile. 

“I just can’t help myself, chérie. You’re the most beautiful thing I have ever seen..”, he answered honestly, leaving you speechless. 

When you didn’t reply Charles only leaned forward, connecting your lips to a kiss that was the complete opposite of the rough, sloppy kisses you had exchanged just moments before. 

This one was filled with all kinds of emotions: adoration, fear, desire and confusion…but most importantly, it was filled with love. 

So much love that you thought your heart might burst. 

Which is why you decided to finally take that leap of faith with him, too. 

Just like he’d done before. You would give him your heart. 

Trust that he wouldn’t break it this time. 

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Part of the reason why nonviolent protest is preferred over violence is PR: aggression gives the government a moral excuse to commit violence, whereas being nonviolent lets you claim moral high ground. It doesn’t help that a lot of the left-wingers who prefer violence to non-violence tend to be sex pests, because physical and sexual violence are intertwined.

I don't know what a "sex pest" is and i'm very reluctant to google it, but the whole way that statement is worded is weird. Are you implying that someone who condones violent political protest is more likely to be some kind of pervert or something?

Anyway, my one and only statement on the subject is that generally, violence has bad consequences and it gets innocent people hurt and killed and it can provoke extreme retaliation, but anyone saying that it doesn't "work" is full of shit. Violence Does Stuff—not only the stuff you want, but it Works.

But set aside whether or not it "works." Violence is something that always is and should be a possibility. What they say about dogs is that you should never, never, never punish a dog for growling, because a dog that growls is telling you that you're approaching the danger zone and giving you a chance to back off. Wolves in the wild seldom ever fight each other, because they have a system of escalating warnings they give other wolves before they resort to actual violence.

I, in my interpersonal relationships, have a threshold where I would bite another person. That threshold is "if I am being physically assaulted." I have a threshold where I would yell at someone. I have a threshold where I would be a cold-hearted bitch and be mean and stand my ground with someone. Recently I got into a very bad relationship and realized that I needed to work on being a dog that growls. I was so determined to be nice and to not be a bitch that I let someone basically ruin my whole life at the time.

Any relationship where a balance of power is being negotiated has this, or it should have this. The relationship between people and their government is the same.

Here's how peaceful protest works:

A wolf might not ever have to bite you, because it's a wolf.

This doesn't mean that a growl is a polite request. Wild animals don't appeal to the moral high grounds of other animals. A growl is giving you a chance to keep things peaceful. A growl is peaceful, but it is a reminder and a warning that you are fucking with a wolf.

In large numbers, there is power. When people assemble in large numbers and protest, however peacefully, this is a reminder to the Powers That Be that You Are Fucking With A Wolf.

But listen. Practically everything in nature does threat displays. A house cat fighting a fucking grizzly bear will puff up and hiss and growl, and a house cat CAN tear out that grizzly bear's eyeballs even if its chances of winning a fight are zero. It doesn't matter if you're a wolf or not, if you're cornered, all bets are off as to what you might do.

History teaches us that violence, with great regularity, happens. It happens. And I don't think it's ever "good," and we can try to reduce it, but if you make any creature feel desperate enough, scared enough, trapped enough, that creature will hurt you.

(The exceptions are dead.)

And I don't want civil unrest and violence. I know innocent people are going to get hurt and killed because that always happens. But in the USA we're reaching the point where our government has been ignoring the growls for a long time. They're suppressing voters and rolling back our rights. They're pushing and pushing and pushing how much they can get away with taking away from us. And people are suffering. And they're dying. And we're afraid.

Every great empire of the past was running around putting down rebellion after rebellion every minute of its existence like playing whack-a-mole. Sure, the Romans held together a surprisingly long time, but their preferred method of dealing with political dissent was nailing people to wooden crosses along roadsides and leaving them to die in agony over days.

And all of those empires held together at all because they usually allowed religious and cultural diversity and let local leaders mostly do their own thing. You can't oppress people so hard that they won't turn on you. You can't. People turn on their oppressors when they've had enough. If someone is starving, they will do anything to get food. If someone's child is being threatened, they will do anything to protect their child. If someone is truly desperate, they're beyond fearing your power.

So I don't believe in having arguments about whether violence is "right" or "wrong" because at no point in history has this mattered. If the Powers That Be ignore peaceful protest, people don't go "Aw, shucks" and go home. They start burning buildings, destroying property and rioting.

That's an open threat display. That's a dog snapping at air or a snake striking for show before the real venom comes out. You should be HAPPY they do that, because they could have just bitten you for real. Threat displays like this are a way of avoiding worse violence. Remember this. Understand it.

Someone destroying property over real, living, breathing humans being killed is giving their oppressors a chance to listen that is 100% undeserved. Remember this. Understand it.

The world is threatened by an existential fear for the future, and the government doesn't have very long before that becomes more powerful than the fear of what a government can do to hurt you. I believe more and more that this is inevitable. Not "right" or "wrong," unavoidable, the next step in a natural progression. I don't want it to go this way but the ball is not in my court right now.

If you get an animal cornered and terrified, poke it and hurt it and ignore its growls, you will get bit and it will be your fault. And that's all.